#but I’m talking to her one day (because when you get the chance to chat with the dept head you should!)
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You know, I haven’t fully wrapped my head around how I’m going to incorporate it, but I had a great idea for this grant proposal that’s making me very excited
Because I think. finally. I will be able to justify testing arabic-speaking children. I will get to find out what kinds of errors THEY make learning my arabiclike made-up language.
And plus I’m realizing that I like portland more than eugene, and oops, the two Islamic schools and the one Arabic-medium school are all in the portland area oh no I will have to spend so much time in portland if I get this grant oh well
…plus I just really want to be able to stay in one place for three more years, and let scone live in Oregon like he’s really wanted to for YEARS.
I love arabic and I love my pastry and I love how kids do language. I am very excited about this part of the project and I just. The likelihood of it happening is vanishingly low. But it’s more likely to get this grant than getting a TT job. So.
#a ~10% hit rate for grants sucks yes; but compared to the ~0.5% hit rate I’ve had for prof jobs…#also new PI maybe you can support me for a year like you suggested you might be able to in a lab manager-cum-postdoc kind of role#that would be great. I would do that too.#I will happily continue leaning on my network to keep me in academia#as full of toxic bullshit as it is. sigh.#it hurts to feel like I’m so full of promise and so good at what I do and for some reason everything is just arbitrary#maybe I get to do this study; maybe I get to HAVE A JOB#like even working with this PI; everyone before has been all ‘mmm idk that doesn’t sound like a good use of resources’#and so I was like oh okay this is never gonna happen that’s fine#but I’m talking to her one day (because when you get the chance to chat with the dept head you should!)#and she’s like ‘but wait why would it be not a good use of resources? I think this is potentially an interesting idea#so write me up a proposal and we’ll see if we can flesh it out some more!’#so even the answer of ‘sure!’ to ‘maybe I can do this study… maybe’ I’d foreign and strange#same thing for this hockey concussion etc stuff#like I say ‘this is my INCREDIBLE pie in the sky idea; maybe someday#…but seems unlikely’#and my current PI goes no yeah wait here are some things I’ve thought about in that direction#…and I happen to live next to retired NHL players… but it would be very weird of me to ask them so can’t do that right now; but future!!#and so I’m just walking around UO going ‘wait I really can just. do things? people are interested in my ideas?’#(please remember that at a formative time in my research upbringing my advisor called me boring and also that he might not pass me#and like. you get rejected from research jobs and TT jobs and grants and everything#so it’s no WONDER I’m like ‘ah yes my ideas are stupid and boring and why would anyone else be interested in them!’ like any academic is)#anyway it’s amazing how little we as academics ask for#and still get told lol no that’s very extravagant of you#because it’s supposed to be a ~vocation~ and a ~calling~ so we should live like monks#but you know what monks are actually respected members of society and have food and shelter and care provided to them#so yeah if you want me to be a monk of linguistics then you need to fucking treat me like one
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could you do some fluff about spencer and reader sitting together on the jet? maybe like a time where it’s late and they’re on the way home from a case, and they’re the only ones awake and just chatting and being all cute?
mile-high | spencer reid x reader
wc: 680, rating: everyone
tags: mutual pining, mutual crushes, idiots in love, best friends, (un)requited love (they just don't know it yet)
a/n: hello anon! apologies for taking a while to respond to your lovely request. i was thinking for a while about what would work with this request and got inspired when i was writing this extremely tired lmao. i hope this is fluffy and cute enough for u!! can be read as gender neutral reader too since i didn't specify any gendered pronouns hehe. do not be misled by the title for there is in fact no mile-high club type tropes in this lmaoo
Your eyelids are heavy by the time the jet takes off back to Quantico. The team had been working overtime with a particularly enthusiastic spree killer, with so little cooldown time between kills that you all had no choice but to keep working the case until you had cracked it, culminating in an early morning raid of the UnSub’s ranch house-slash-lair. Spencer had a particularly satisfying moment of cuffing the UnSub, after being perplexed by his erratic movement as he was crafting the geographic profile.
You had watched Spencer down mug after mug of coffee for the past couple of days, and now, amidst the rest of the team dozing off, a still-awake Spencer still flips through his book rather quickly.
“Not tired?” You ask softly, trying not to wake the team.
“No, there’s still caffeine in my system.” Spencer purses his lips as he looks at you.
“I’m surprised you haven’t developed a tolerance toward caffeine yet,” you grin, shaking your head.
“It takes about a month for your body to get used to caffeine and its effects, which makes your body basically perform the same as when you aren’t caffeinated. But abstaining from caffeine over a couple of days usually resets your body’s response to it.”
You tilt your head. “Dr. Spencer Reid abstaining from coffee? I couldn’t imagine that happening.”
“I just opt for decaf,” he smiles at you, grin growing when you giggle.
Your eyelids feel so heavy, but all you want to do is talk to Spencer. You don’t often get time alone with him, which is maybe a blessing considering your crush on him. Maybe Hotch can tell how much you like him and doesn’t end up pairing you two off too often because he doesn’t want his best agents distracted – that’s what Emily always tells you, but you always brush her off.
“You look tired,” Spencer states, matter-of-factly.
“I am, but I can’t really fall asleep. I don’t wanna fall asleep.”
“Why not?” Spencer asks.
“Wanna talk to you,” you answer, a little too honest, and you don’t notice the surprised look on Spencer’s face, like it’s surprising that you want to talk to him. “I also usually need something to cuddle when I sleep.”
“But you’re tired,” Spencer repeats, even though you’re painfully aware of the fact. “You should rest.”
“I like talking to you,” you huff, perhaps a little petulant, but you’re secretly preening at all the attention Spencer is giving you right now.
Spencer nudges you with his shoulder. You whine, and look at him. Spencer says gently, “You can hold onto my arm. And lay your head on me if you want to.”
You slip your arm around Spencer’s, and it feels so right to be holding him close like this. It’s a little awkward, since Spencer’s not totally used to physical touch, but you’re taking any chance you can get to be close to him. “You’re comfortable.”
“I’m glad you think so,” Spencer chuckles. “Especially if it means you’ll get some rest.”
“No,” you retort. “Just because you’re letting me cuddle you does not mean I’m going to fall asleep.”
Spencer snorts. “Sure.”
“I’m not going to fall asleep, Spence,” you say, snuggling closer to him.
Spencer just hums.
“I’m a drooler, just so you know,” you say, like you’re trying to scare him off. Frankly, you’re just trying to tease him.
“That’s okay.”
“I’m–” you cut yourself off with a stifled yawn, and you glare at Spencer when he casts you a knowing smirk. “I’m not!”
“Okay, you aren’t falling asleep,” Spencer echoes. “But do you want me to read you my book?”
You close your eyes, smiling as you nod. You don’t see the sweet way Spencer smiles down at you, and before he’s even done with the first two pages of whatever he was reading, you’re out like a light.
You don’t feel the way Spencer pushes your hair out of your face, and the way his thumb gently brushes your cheek.
Maybe one day, he’ll have the confidence to do that when you’re awake.
#criminal minds#spencer reid#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid fluff#spencer reid fanfic#spencer reid fanfiction#criminal minds fanfiction#spencerreidenjoyer writes
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Alastor who’s pretty little wife no one knows about shows up to the hotel with his lunch for something that her and Rosie took so long to prepare. She’s a bit taller than Alastor and completely mothers him it seems- idk just thought it was cute
Charlie beamed as she opened the door, but her eyes widened “ Woah! O-Oh hello! Welcome to the Hazbin Hotel! Are you looking to be redeemed from your sins?”
You tilted your head in confusion.
”No. I’m here to drop off Alastor’s lunch”
Now the Princess gave you a confused look.
You were here for Alastor?
”May I come in dear?” She widened the door to let you in and ushered you into the hotel lobby.
Your husband had said he had a new venture he was invested in. What a lovely hotel.
The Princess showed you around a bit and talked about the purpose of the hotel.
”And this is our enthusiastic bartender” she gestured to the bar
Husker’s eyes widened when he saw you before he tilted his hat at you “Madam”
You smiled “Husker! I didn’t know you were here. Alastor ain’t workin you to the bone is he?”
Charlie looked between you “you two know each other?”
You let out laugh, waving your hand dismissively “oooh we go way back” you took a seat on a sofa.
You chatted with Husker and waved as Niffty greeted you before she ran after a bug.
”Woah who’s the glass of water?” A flirty voice said,making you turn and see a tall spider stroll into the room.
Everyone was curious about the tall demoness.
You checked the clock “Not to be rude but is Alastor here?”
That made several faces gawk.
Why were you looking for the Overlord?
”I heard senseless chatter do we have a guest?” A radio-filtered voice floated into the room.
Alastor eyes flitted over the room and they landed on you, his usual smile stretched wide across his face
”Dearest! What do I owe the pleasure? You should have gave me a rang” You grinned as you stood and approached the demon.
Everyone watched in disbelief as the tall woman towered over the Overlord and snatched him in a hug, squeezing him in her arms.
”Alastor!” You squealed, nuzzling the demon who just had a loving look on his face.
You set him down and finally a scowl graced your face, you pointed your finger at your husband, disapprovingly.
”You left so fast I didn’t get a chance you give you these”
You pulled a container from your bag.
Alastor hummed as he opened it, ears flicking happily at the meat sandwiches. You beamed proudly “Me and Rosie spent all day on those and you didn’t even get a chance to taste them. I made sure to drizzle extra blood on yours dear”
”I will never understand how I was lucky to have you dear” he said, dipping his finger in the sauce and tasting it.
”A token of appreciation would be nice” you chirped, leaning down towards the demon, turning your cheek.
Alastor pressed a kiss to your cheek.
Yeah everyone was flabbergasted.
Charlie cleared her throat, looking between the two of you “h-how do you two know each other?” She asked nervously.
You blinked in confusion, before you smiled “I’m his wife of course”
WHAT??!!!
You ignored their stares and turned back to your husband, looking him over.
Your clawed hands grasped his face, turning it, examining him. Your brows frowned “You’re looking thin baby. And pale. Dont overwork yourself and for the love of the all that’s damned please take a rest when you need it. No broadcasting all night. I know you, you’ll be cranky and tormenting souls because you’re tired. Oh! I have tea for your throat too” you happily pulled out tea packs and tucking them in his pockets.
Alastor just let you fret, loving the attention.
Once you finished being a worrywart, you gave him one last hug.
”well i ought to get going. I promised Rosie I wouldnt be long. I just wanted to drop your lunch off.”
You pressed a kiss to his forehead, waved to everyone, and let Alastor walk you out.
Alastor sighed lovingly as you disappeared in a mist of shadow, once you were gone he went back inside the hotel, where everyone was still gawking
His eyes narrowed “what is it?”
Angel was the first, along with Charlie to literally combust with questions
”You have a wife!?”
”Why don’t you every bring her here?”
”Can’t believe you actually fuck”
”she seems so lovely”
”how the hell or really why the hell she marry you?”
”You should invite her over more!”
”How do you two fuck?”
Alastor’s eye twitch and he turned around to walk out as he carried the lunch you brought with him, ignoring the two.
Angel turned to Husker and smirked “They have kinky sex don’t they?”
Husk flicked him off with a eye roll
”Ill take that as a yes”
#hazbin hotel#alastor#hazbin alastor#hazbin hotel fanfiction#alastor x reader#jyoongim#alastor the radio demon#alastor x y/n#alastor hazbin hotel#Hazbin hotel fluff#alastor fluff#alastor x wife reader
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Reverse trope
where instead of the Bats forgetting that they’re adopted (something actual adoptees do on occasion and is hilarious) they forget that some of them *cough Damian cough* aren’t
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Jason in the heat of a probably ridiculous argument: Yeah well YOU’RE adopted!
Tim just as invested in said argument: So are YOU! We all are!
Damian who had previously been quietly watching this unfold while he drank his tea: Actually I’m not
Tim and Jason who didn’t realize he was there but are already DoneTM: …… Damian continuing to sip his tea entirely unbothered: :)
Damian: Because I’m not an orphan-
Jason: ok, yoU KNOW WHAT-
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or like in their group texts (that we know they have thanks to Nightwing (2016) #79)
*Steph changed the group chat name to “Bruce Wayne’s Personal Orpanage”*
Jason: Really?
Steph: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Steph: It’s the truth Damian: Both my parents are very much alive
Steph: Shhh you don’t count
Cass: Mine too Duke: Technically so are mine
Barbara: I still have a dad so there’s that
Steph: YOU GUYS ARE RUINING THE JOKE
Tim: Stephanie aren’t BOTH of your parents alive???
Steph: KNOW WHAT? FINE
*Steph changed the group chat name to “The Technicality Police”*
Tim: well that’s more accurate at least
Steph: :)
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Damian in his 10th argument with Tim of the day: That’s- this is-
Tim in full Antagonizing Big Brother mode: I’m listening
Damian -a Gen Z and best friend to Jon Kent- extremely frustrated: This is such Motherless behavior!
Tim taken aback: [voice cracking] W-what-?
Damian who didn’t mean to say that but doubling down anyway because his bloodline doesn’t believe in admitting mistakes: THIS! This is such Motherless behavior!
The rest of the family who is also motherless: :O
Cass whose been spending way too much time with Meme Queen Stephanie Brown and not involved in the argument but finding it entertaining regardless: [nodding along seriously] Facts
Tim: [visibly betrayed] CASS WHAT-
A video copy of the interaction gets sent out anonymously to the entire family. Barbara is the prime suspect but there is no proof as of yet (and they will never find any)
Steph, Cass, and Duke continue to respond “Motherless behavior” everytime one of the bats does something they deem questionable/insane. It is said often
It only stops when one night in the middle of patrol. Batman is in full Dark Knight mode (possibly in the middle of threatening someone) and descends from the ceiling into the middle of a warehouse drug deal, dark cape billowing out behind him-
and Steph just automatically whispers “Motherless behavior” forgetting her com was still very much on
She immediately realizes what she said and frantically apologizes but it’s too late.
Bruce just- Blue Screens. Completely stunned into silence
Dick -who was unfortunate enough to be the one teamed up with Batman tonight- is fighting for his life to choke back his laughter
Jason doesn’t even try to stop his and has collapsed to his knees from lack of air from how hard he’s laughing. Cass try’s half heartedly patting his back to help to no avail
The criminals are terrified into surrender from The Red Hood just laughing hysterically at seemingly nothing while Batman just Stands There
Damian ends up being the only one still functioning enough to continue arresting everyone, though he is privately amused and strangely proud
Tim and Barbara have saved both the com recordings and cowl footage to at least three different servers and sent it to absolutely everyone before Batman even recovers
Duke finds out second hand the next morning and is furious he missed the chance to see it in person. He declares he is moving to the nightshift so it doesn’t happen again. (He is all talk and goes to bed by 9 pm)
Bruce bans the phrase for life and promises swift and server punishment to anyone who dares to use it again
#Like it’d be so funny#Imagine them on mothers day#Damian at unnecessary volumes: I AM LEAVING TO GO TO VISIT MY MOTHER NOW#Damian: WHERE SHE LIVES.#His brothers on their way to the cemetery or smth: ._.#Damian still going regardless: BECAUSE SHE IS ALIVE#I just know Damian “Certified Mama’s Boy” Wayne would be such a menace about it#And Duke Babs Steph and Cass would so help fan the flames#batfam#dc comics#fanfiction#headcanon#chat fic#Can you tell I read them often#And yes adoptees forget they’re adopted#I have a friend who has on multiple occasions started to tell me about something that “ran in the family”/something in her family history#Before she’ll remember she’s not actually blood related#someone has probably already done this#But I still thinks it’s very funny#No I don’t think Jon would say motherless behavior to someone#But I do think he’d know the phrase and teach Damian#I just imagine he educates him on all the Gen Z lingo don’t ask why#crack post#100% a joke dont take it seriously
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CRUSH CULTURE.
ft. college au!leon x reader
synopsis. you fuck up at being leon’s wingman, ruining his chances of getting a valentine’s day fuck. he’s frustrated and takes his anger out on you.
tags. 2.8k words. smut. mean!leon, lowk angsty, reader is kinda pathetic, angry fuck, dry humping, cunnilingus, dom!leon, rough sex, unprotected p in v, degradation, name calling (bitch, whore etc.), happy ending (?).
note. i’m sorry for being so inactive and rarely being online. school sucks so bad. i hope you guys can accept this as a formal apology. (let’s ignore that this is 2 days late.)
masterlist. reblogs & comments are highly welcomed :3
You aren’t the biggest fan of Valentine’s Day. You're sick of seeing everyone fall in love, watching lovers exchange cheesy gifts and bashful smiles. You’re sick of people pretending they love each other more than they actually do. No, you’re sick of being left out.
You were a hopeless romantic, chasing love only for it to fall flat. You were obsessed with finding your other half, the person who would cherish you as much as you treasured them. You didn’t know if you loved love or just the idea of it, but it wouldn’t matter.
You’re only hopeless as you help the man you liked hook up with someone at a shitty college party.
It’s pathetic, truly, chatting up some sorority girls and putting a good name out for Leon while he stood beside you. You didn’t get why he couldn’t do it himself. He was handsome, albeit a bit awkward, but so were you. It’s why you two got along anyway. Leon was watching as you tried to get the drunk girl’s attention on him. Throughout the night, your wingman skills had only failed. They either did not pay attention to you or paid too much attention to you.
You were sick of it. You would have preferred staying in your dorm room and rewatching one of your favourite rom-coms. But you were only a fool, trying to help your friend out. It hurt more being there with him as he lamely tried to pick up girls in front of you. You didn’t know what was more pathetic, his terrible jokes or the state you were, absolutely heartbroken that he wouldn’t give you the time of day he’d give to random girls.
Maybe it’s faith’s cruel way of commentating on your desire for love by making you play cupid for the only person you seem to care about more than yourself.
You and Leon had something special, or you had hoped so. You met in your first year of college. You were both fucking awkward that you had to initiate the first conversation. Majoring in similar subjects, you both had gotten along well. You would even say you were best friends, but you knew deep down you always wanted more.
Ever since you first met, you found him enthralling. It only got worse as you got closer. Learning more about him seemed to solidify your pining for him. You were the only person he talked to, and vice versa. You confided in each other, maybe more than what close friends should, so it was only inevitable that he would share with you that he wanted to lose his virginity.
You had looked at him perplexed. Leon was pretty attractive, and maybe you were biased, but how had no one fucked him? You’ve seen the way girls look at him, blushing when he even glances at them for a second.
That is when Leon told you he planned on trying to hook up with some girl at the party, and he wanted your help because he knew he would fuck up somehow. You had humoured him. Nothing more romantic than taking a random girl home on Valentine’s Day and fucking her brains out.
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“It’s not that serious, Leon,” you groaned for the umpteenth time. You were both walking back to his apartment after unsuccessfully trying to hook him up with some sorority girl. He was grumbling behind you, pissed and sexually frustrated.
“It was your fault.” You roll your eyes at his statement. When you reach the door of his flat, you observe as he clumsily takes his keys out, trying to open the door. He finally manages to open the door, and you enter, taking your shoes off before settling on his couch.
You watch him beyond amused at his predicament as he paces back and forth in front of you.
“Why did you have to mention that? They were so into me before you fucked it up,” he huffs, stilling his movement to glare at you.
“C’mon, Leon. I’m sure they couldn’t give a fuck that you’re a nerd,” you said, repeating the same word you had let slip when you were praising your beloved best friend. You peered back up at him, acting casual as if his icy gaze didn’t have your heart beating wildly against your chest. You rarely saw him angry, and when he was, he never directed it to you.
“You ruined my chances at finally getting laid. I don’t know how to talk to these girls. You’re the only person I have.” He’s frustrated with you for fucking up whatever chance he finally had at popping his cherry. Even though logically it’s not your fault nor your duty to get his dick wet, he didn’t want to take responsibility right now.
“I think you’re overreacting,” you sighed, standing up and moving towards him. You try to put a comforting hand on Leon’s shoulder, and he shrugs your touch off him. You don’t take it to heart. He’s a few inches taller than you, head slightly tilted as he looks down at you.
“Yeah? Well, now I have no one to fuck tonight.”
“I can change that,” you quip, and you instantly freeze at your own statement. You part your lips lightly in shock as you observe Leon’s reaction. It was a freudian slip, and it seemed to be happening more often than you’d like.
He continues looking down at you with furrowed brows as he tries to comprehend what you said. He thinks this might affect your friendship if you even mean what you said. He was horny, being teased all night by pretty girls in skimpy dresses, only to be denied, fucking furious too.
“Really?” He responds, somehow stepping closer to you. His eyes flicker down to your lips, and you try to back up, only to be pushed against the wall by him. His stare is still cold, piercing through you. He’s still pissed at you.
“Are you still mad?” You mumbled, your back flat against the wall of his living room. You knew the answer. You just wanted him to say it. Maybe you found his mean side more attractive than you’d like to admit. It was so rare to see him like this — a usually composed man so broken.
“Yes, I’m still fucking angry. Do you want me or not?” He seethes. You squeeze your thighs together at the tone he uses. You were so pathetic, getting wet at him berating you, but any attention was good attention.
He notices your reaction, grinning to himself. “You backing down?”
You shake your head no in response.
“Beg for it then. Beg for me to fuck you. That’s what you want, right?” He says, mocking you. It’s as if he knows how deep your desire burns for him, how badly you’d do anything for him if it meant he noticed you. His hands grasp your face, his fingers squishing your cheeks together as he forces your head back against the wall so you look up at him.
“Please, Leon. Fuck me. ‘M all yours.” You plead through pursed lips. Your eyes are glossy, and he’s laughing at your desperate nature. He would have never expected his best friend to be a whiny mess within his grasp.
He lets go of your face before leaning down, capturing your lips into his for a needy kiss. Your eyes flutter shut, and a surprised gasp escapes you. Teeth clashing, you’re whimpering desperately against his lips as you entangle your fingers into his soft golden locks. His hands trail down to your hips, gripping them as he moves his body against yours.
You let out a soft moan, and he pulled apart from the passionate kiss. Both your lips are swollen and covered with your shared saliva. He continues to grope your body eagerly as he pushes you further into the wall. “Shut up. I don’t want to hear you.”
Biting your lip, you try not to let any moans slip free while he toys with your sensitive body through your clothes. He hooks one of your legs over his hip while he explores your body. He grinds his hardening cock against your crotch, and the action does little to quell the ache inside you.
Your back arches off the wall, your head tipping back as you try to buck your hips to his. Digging your nails into his shirt, he hisses slightly, but your movements don’t get past him.
“So fucking desperate,” he moans loudly.
He continues to rock his clothed erection against your cunt. The rough fabric of your pants provides enough friction through your damp underwear to your clit. Your hand clamps around your mouth shut, suppressing your whines as you near your climax.
Leon’s eyes close while he groans lowly at the pleasure coursing through him as he ruts against you. He wants so badly to feel your dripping cunt against his throbbing length. Just as you’re about to finish, he pulls away, panting, and the feeling in your core dissipates.
“I want to fuck you properly.” You’re unsure if he knew what he had just done, but with the smug look he’s giving you, you’re positive it’s on purpose.
You push yourself off the wall of his living room, and with trembling legs, you follow him to his bedroom. You were familiar with the area and used to the messy appearance while you two were either doing work or binging shows. But it’s different now, he’s going to fuck you dumb in it.
You both begin to rid yourself of your clothes once you’re inside. You’re fully nude, lying flat on Leon’s mattress, and your skin feels tacky with sweat as it clings to his soft sheets. Leon is only in his boxers, precum staining the fabric, as his strong palms spread your bent legs apart to admire your bare pussy.
You realise that this is most likely his first time seeing one other than in porn videos he jerks himself off to. He marvels at how wet you are, your folds glistening with your slick. Leaning down, he buries his face between your thighs, lapping at you.
His tongue teases your entrance before slowly moving to your clit. He alternates between sucking on your sensitive nub and lapping at it slowly. He looks like he’s concentrated as he focuses on pleasing your cunt, his brows furrowed and his nails digging into the flesh of your thighs.
You can’t help the moans and sighs that slip past your lips while he eats you out. The pleasure is nearly dizzying as you grip the sheets. Your hips are bucking against his tongue, and Leon groans as you use his face. He’s not so subtly grinding against the sheets, his cock painfully hard as he fails to relieve the sensation.
Tentatively, he slurps at you, drinking in your essence. The wet, sloppy noises your cunt makes are embarrassing, but he’s obsessed with it and your taste. It’s addictive. He sucks at your clit roughly, adoring the reaction you give him. Your tummy clenches as he pays attention to your throbbing bud. Your sounds are getting more frequent as your orgasm quickly approaches you.
When you finally come undone, your thighs are quivering around his head as he revels in your release. He parts from your cunt, his lips coated in your cum like lip gloss as he licks them clean. Trying to collect yourself, your chest heaves as you pant heavily.
Leon slips his boxers down, revealing his hard-on. His cock was flushed red and dripping with precum as he stroked it. It was average in length but quite thick and prettier than you had imagined. But you shouldn’t act surprised.
You let out a whimper when he slid the tip of his cock through your folds stained with your cum and his saliva. Your pussy was overstimulated, spasming as he teased your entrance with his head.
“Shut the fuck up, bitch,” he groans, gripping your hip to steady himself. The heat of your cunt was welcoming as it tried to suck him inside you. His tip touches your overly sensitive clit. He was quickly losing his composure, desperate to fuck you open.
You both moan simultaneously when he fully enters his length inside of you. Your walls were sucking his cock deeping into you, filling you up to the brim with nothing but him.
You had not imagined your first time with Leon like this. You daydreamed of him taking you out on a cute date before undressing you and then fucking you slowly on a bed littered with rose petals. You did not anticipate that he’d split you open on his cock as a last resort taking his sexual frustration out on you. You can’t complain with how good he’s fucking you, even if it’s out of spite.
He begins thrusting his cock in and out of tight pussy, groaning. You feel each ridge and vein of his cock as he fucks the shape into you. You sometimes forget how well-built he is, usually concealed by his clothes, sweat dripping down his muscular frame.
“Your cock feels so fuckin’ good, Leon,” you gasped out loud, your nails digging into his biceps as he stretched you out of his fat cock.
“This was your plan, huh? You wanted me to fuck you, whore.” He says as he punctuates each word with a thrust.
Your eyes roll to the back of your head as the tip of his cock presses against you deliciously. You did want him all to yourself, but you wouldn’t go as far as to sabotage him. You’re unable to answer him, too drunk on his cock bullying into that one spot inside of you.
“Answer me, bitch.” He huffs, gripping your jaw and positioning your face to his. He looks into your eyes only to note how they can barely stay open. His hips stutter at your fucked out expression. He was so fucking close, his abs flexing, only holding out so you can cum first.
“Y- Yeah, Leon. Want to you all for myself,” you stammer incoherently, tears collecting at your waterline as he pounds into your oversensitive cunt. Your walls grip around his cock sporadically as you near your climax.
“You like me too, then?” he mocks through clenched teeth. Your pussy hugs him tightly, and he thinks he might never want to leave your warm embrace.
“I’m so close,” you cry out, your body squirming in his hold. Your peak was rapidly approaching as he continued his assault on your pussy.
“Answer the question then you can come,” he whines, his fingers digging into the flesh of your hips, leaving marks as he nears his peak.
“Mhm! Yes, I’ve always fucking liked you, Leon.” You cried out, eager to expose all your secrets to him if it meant you came. As you climax, your pussy milks Leon’s cock as it gushes around him.
“Oh fuck. I’m gonna cum,” Leon moans, his voice breathy as his orgasm crashes after yours. He doesn’t know if it’s the weight of your confession or the whimpers that escape your throat that send butterflies in him as he spills into you. He kisses you one last time, moaning into you as he rides his high.
Pulling out, he collapses right next to you. You’re both panting, covered in cum and sweat. A wave of exhaustion overcomes you, and you hope he doesn’t bring up what you said amidst fucking. You’re content pretending it didn’t happen if it meant you wouldn’t get to face your fears.
“Thank you for uh,” Leon trails off, and it's like a switch flipped. He’s bashful at mentioning that he had just lost his virginity as if he wasn’t calling you a whore a few minutes ago. Turning to his side, you come nearly face-to-face with him once again.
“Mhm, you’re welcome, I think.” You’re still unsure how you feel about the situation. Finally, you had fucked him, but what significance did it hold to him? Your eyes flutter shut, sleep finally overcoming your wrecked body. You expected the same would happen to Leon, but you were wrong. Leon was in deep thought.
Leon calls your name, cutting your sleep short. You snap your eyes open, sitting up, you await his question with your arms crossed. He looked uneasy, but you’re too drained to question why.
“Did you mean what you said? That you liked me.” His voice is quiet as he gazes at your form.
“Uh, yeah,” you mumbled in response. What was even the point of lying anymore? His cum was dripping between your thighs. What is the worst he can do? You think you can already guess his response. Guilt was eating at you. He wouldn’t be in this position if you did what he wanted. You added, “Sorry for fucking up your night.”
It’s quiet, and you’re nervously trying to gauge his reaction until he breaks the silence.
“I think I found someone better,” he responds. You laugh at the mere absurdity of the entire situation.
“It took fucking me to find that out?”
“Shut the fuck up.”
#leon kennedy x reader#leon kennedy#leon kennedy smut#gender neutral reader#resident evil 4#resident evil#re4 smut#idk how to do conclusions#✩‧₊˚ fics
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jealousy
gojo satoru x fem!reader
summary: satoru doesn't like the way the barista is looking at you
a/n: figured i'd give you all a little fluff (save me from this void)
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year five.
“megumi, go get your mom.”
satoru and megumi are sitting in a crowded cafe, saving your spot, waiting for you to come back.
while the sun coming in through the window satoru is sitting across from is partially blinding him, he can still see you.
you, trying to order, being ogled by the barista who's been granted the pleasure of speaking to you. your smile is normal--to satoru's obvious disdain--and you don't even seem to mind the man's obvious flirting.
(not that it really means much. when satoru leans in like that, you just push him away. when he swoons at the way you've done your hair on any specific day, you just roll your eyes.
so maybe you're not the best judge of flirting. or attraction. or how to reject a tiny schoolboy, like the one you're talking to.)
satoru's only been watching this interaction for thirty seconds, but he's had enough.
“why?” megumi turns, looking back at you. “she’s getting us hot chocolate.”
satoru sighs, no care in the world. can't the kid ever listen to him? “go hold her hand then.”
“why?”
“because.”
“but why?”
satoru gives megumi a (pathetic) glare. “listen to me, young man," he tries to say it like you would--if megumi ever denied any of your requests--but it doesn't work. satoru has to try not to laugh directly after the words are out of his mouth.
so what if he doesn't want you talking to that kid? he's just looking out for you.
megumi's brows raise. he looks... almost amused. “what’s wrong with you? you go hold her hand.”
satoru hangs his head. you told him to sit here and keep the table for all of you, told him to watch megumi and not do anything stupid--which, to be fair, is difficult for him. so he can't go get you (save you).
and plus, he doesn't want you to know that he cares. if you like that kid--with his stupid dark hair and eyes and soft smile and obvious heart eyes--then he doesn't want to know.
and if he goes up to you, he'll know.
“i can’t," he tells megumi, instead of saying any of that. the boy would just cackle in his face.
“are you scared?” megumi asks, very seriously, as if satoru is afraid of anything.
(besides you falling for someone else, of course. but that doesn't count).
he looks over to the kid again, who you're chatting idly with as you search through your purse. he wonders if you're telling the barista that you spend every night in his bed, making out with him until your lips are puffy.
if he keeps smiling at you like that satoru is going to get up and tell him himself.
satoru scoffs, looking away finally, back to megumi who looks thoroughly entertained by his father's pain. he crosses his arms. “no.”
megumi shrugs, looking back again. seriously, satoru should've kicked him out when he had the chance. he probably would've been fine with the zenin clan. probably.
“well, i’m not doing it," the boy says, with obvious satisfaction.
if only tsumiki was here. satoru never should've let megumi ditch school, or let him come with you both to get coffee. tsumiki would help him. she probably would've asked you to get yakitori instead and satoru could listen to you try to make small talk with a waitress instead of that guy.
“megumi fushiguro,” satoru begins, voice rough. “do you want your mother to live in a rat-infested apartment with a random, cesspit man, and several tiny babies running around all of the time? tiny wimpy babies? normal, human babies. you’ll have to stay over there and share a bed with multiple infants who will spit up on you.”
megumi blinks. “what are you even talking about?”
“go stand next to her," satoru hisses, because he swears he can hear your laugh from across the cafe, and honestly he's never wanted to destroy an establishment more.
and that's saying something.
at least the man would be without a job and satoru would never have to see him push his hair back and tilt his head at you again.
megumi looks back again like it's going to explain anything satoru does, and he smirks. “that guy doesn’t look too bad.”
satoru's jaw clenches. “i will mismatch all of your socks.”
megumi scowls at him. "all of my socks are the same, after last time."
satoru huffs and leans back against his chair, pouting. "what did i do to deserve this?"
“do you think mom likes him?” megumi asks, voice so innocent it makes satoru want to shave his hair off.
“go.”
megumi blinks at him, tilting his head. yeah, he's really putting on an act now. “but she said to wait here," he reminds satoru like it matters.
“tell her you missed her, or something," satoru goes to wave a hand, but his hand only clenches when he physically sees you laugh at the man. you're not even ordering now, you're just standing there (waiting for their drinks) talking to the guy.
“you tell her you missed her," megumi retorts, enjoying satoru's one and only weakness.
"no."
"she's laughing," megumi points out, resting his chin on a hand. "and it's rude to interrupt grown-ups when they talk."
“megumi,” satoru begs, hating the weird, annoying feeling in his chest. he wants to dig his own heart out and yell at it. “please.”
megumi is basically smirking at him now, waiting for a beat longer for satoru to really break--and seriously kill every person within a ten-mile radius--but eventually, right before it happens, the boy sighs. his eyes are evil, evil things.
"fine," he tells satoru, rolling his eyes. he stands up from his hair and pats satoru on the shoulder like it will make up for anything. the boy has the worst smile satoru's ever seen in his life.
and then he makes his way through the line of people--seriously, this guy is a terrible barista--and taps you on your waist, going to stand right up against the counter. megumi says something to you--you will all of your charm, and your irresistible smiles--and you hold a hand out to him, which he grabs immediately.
your smile, satoru notices with immense relief, shifts on instinct. it goes from something formal and polite to something genuine. you look down at your son and the barista you've been talking to for the last minute is completely irrelevant.
and satoru takes great satisfaction in the way the kid's eyes widen, and the instinctual step back he takes--like he knows that satoru is going to hurt him if he continues to lean over the counter towards you.
satoru relaxes, watching you ask megumi something, but only slightly.
and after a second you turn your head, raising a brow at him.
the little brat.
satoru just smiles--offering you more than some shotty barista ever could--and leans back in his chair.
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“why are you being so weird today?”
satoru’s chin is on your head, and even though you can’t see his smile, it falters, just a little bit. "don't know what you're talking about."
"you're sticky."
"i just showered."
"okay," you say, turning and rolling your eyes at satoru's pout. instantly his hands go to your waist, keeping you right there with him. "first of all, no you didn't. and i didn't mean literally. you're... clingy. more clingy than usual."
"i can't want to be around you?"
you give him a blank stare. "not when you're being weird about it."
"how am i being weird?"
"how aren't you?"
satoru grins, leaning his head down to push his nose into your cheek. you smell like something sweet--something he'd devour in an instant--but he's not sure what. he doesn't even care. he doesn't answer that question, only hums into your skin.
"see what i mean?"
"it's not my fault that you're comfy."
"oh, im so sorry," you say, fake pity in your voice. "let me just turn myself into stone real quick."
satoru rolls his eyes, pulling back just so he can see the amused look on your face--yeah, he knows that you don't actually care. but the more he hangs onto you, the more affection he shows, the warier you get.
and that's perfectly fine with him, actually. as long as you don't push him away.
"please do," he says, so genuinely. "it would make this a lot easier."
"make what a lot easier?" you ask, voice a bit softer. maybe it's because he's looking at you now, actually looking.
and satoru knows, really knows, that there's not a single other person in the world who you look at like this. there's not another man that you'd let sniff you, no other man that would dare to irritate you the way that he loves to.
satoru's worked several years to get you to be this comfortable, this easy around him. and even if there was someone else--he wouldn't give you up without a fight.
you're his in a way that transcends labels or reality.
still, he doesn't answer that question (because you already know). he only smiles a bit more, leans in, and basks in the way your lips mold to his immediately.
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Two Clicks Away
streamer!ellie x streamer!reader
cw: fluff??? idk tbh but mainly js ellie being a loser
When ellie first started out on twitch she didnt have much followers nor viewers. she would sit at her shitty setup playing mainly resident evil 4 and fortnite. she would mainly just be talking to herself cursing out little kids when they killed her. ellie quickly grew over time getting over 500k followers and she had girls practically going FERAL over her “dominate me- WOAH THERE”
during her 500k special stream, she was going through the videos all her viewers sent her some were… questionable. she was sent a video of you. it was a clip from one of your streams basically just you yapping, a viewer in the chat asked you about your opinion on ellie “ thoughts on ellie williams? yeah she’s great! i really enjoy her minecraft and animal crossing streams, it’s so funny watching her rage over tom nook” you were laughing and the clip was basically you fangirling over her you face read and stumbling over your words.
ellies face was RED. she was blushing so much and she trying to hold back her nervous giggles, the truth is that she has had a massive crush on you ever since you started growing enjoying all your streams watching them all too nervous tp talk in the chat. what she didn't know is that you watched al her streams too.
the clip of Ellie getting all flustered on stream was going around on instagram, twitter, tumblr, reddit, anywhere she had a fans on really. it soon caught your attention and you saw how nervous she got at the clip so you decided to dm her on insta
bugwbitess: hey :)
what ellie didn't know is that you have such a huge crush on her keeping a folder of edits of ellie on you tik tok. ellie was doing a stream of shitty roblox horror games and she was scared out of her mind but wouldn’t let her viewers know. she saw the notification ‘bugbitess sent you a message.’ she was taking a break when you sent her the message “hack… fuck.. cough… oh shit.. wheeze..”
after the brief moment of panicking she soon mustered up the courage to reply and tried to seem like she didnt just almost choke because a cute girl was in her dms.
dinodestroyer: heyyy
‘fuck was that too many y’s?’ she mumbled to herself almost shaking holding her phone. “sorry about that chat i’m back” she says with an awkward chuckle and going back to the game.
the second you saw her message your face heated up red. you had no idea how much she was panicking and she had no idea how much you were too. “why the fuck are there so many y’s?” you say a loud with a slight giggle. you thought it was cute like she was nervous or something.
bugbitess: by any chance would you be interested in a colab? ik it’s a long shot but it’ll be fun :)
you thought it was probably very straight forward and soon but fuck it you like her and you’re pretty sure she likes you.
🦖
ellie didn’t reply for a while, first off because she wanted to finish her stream, secondly because she wanted to seem like she wasn’t waiting desperately by the phone (looking back at that she realizes that was probably a dick move). when she did reply it was 2 am so she was surprised to see you awake.
dinodestroyer: yeah ofc i would love that! when were you thinking of?
bugbitess: minecraft sound good?
dinodestroyer: sounds great i’ll call you on disc tomorrow 8 pm :)
bugbitess: see you then!
the truth is that ellie really hated minecraft. like seriously rage quits it too much for a healthy amount.. but since it was a cute girl asking her she of course had to say yes.
the next day when you guys started up the stream the chat was so confused “okay so bugbites is here and we’re playing minecraft today which i’m extremely good at” ellie says proudly and you just laugh “sure you are” you say starting up the game.
“dude what the fuck is thi- AGHH!” ellie screeched her voice cracking, you were saving her from a zombie spawner trying your best not to fold over laughing.
after a few hours of playing together ellie finally rage quit because she suffocated in gravel, “you shouldn’t be able to drown in gravel that’s just stupid!” she complained. “calm down it’s video game logic” you giggle .you guys end the stream but stay on call a little longer just to talk. “ellie?” you ask while she was drawing doing her own thing “yeah?”
“would you like to go out with me?”
an: erm so this is my first time writing an actual one shot so please be nice. I LOVE HER SM OMG OMG KMG
#tlou2#ellie williams#the last of us#ellie tlou#tlou ellie#ellie williams fluff#ellie williams x reader#streamer!ellie
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Sneaky Link
Summary: A request from an anon- Secret relation between R and Melissa, Ava flirting with reader until Melissa breaks and threatens to take a Edith houghton to her
WC: ~3.9k
Not edited in the slightest and written in a depressive era lol enjoy
It’s funny the way the world works out for you. It always has been, and it probably always will be. So when Melissa Schemmenti, the known regular at one of the bars you’re also a regular at, comes sauntering up to you after a long day of searching for jobs and interviewing with what seems to be no such luck- well, you think maybe the universe really was looking out for you.
And that was months ago. Now, you and that hot, tough on the outside but soft on the inside, teacher have been together since that night. It’s… it’s something special. You thank whatever high power there is out there for bringing her to you on that one night when you really needed someone.
The thing that the universe hasn’t done in your favor? Given you a job. Until…
“Babe!” Melissa calls you as you’re leaving one of the schools you’ve been subbing at.
You smile at her voice. You always do. “Hey. What’s up?”
“We’re still on for dinner tonight?”
“Of course we are,” you chuckle softly. “I would never give up the opportunity to see my beautiful woman. That isn’t why you called though, is it?”
“No,” she admits. “I was just talking with my principal, and she said that they are for sure hiring a new second grade teacher over the summer. Do you want me to throw your name into the ring and put a good word in for you?”
“How about you let me go so I can drive to your place, and we can talk about it over dinner?” you suggest. “And you drive safe too?”
“You know I never drive safe unless I have you in my car- precious cargo,” she teases you softly. “But okay. I’ll see you in a bit, mi amore.”
That night, the two of you chat about the position opening up at her school. As it turns out, the position is for another second grade teacher, and if you were to get the job, your room would be right next to hers.
“I don’t know,” you sigh softly as you lay your head down in her lap. “I just… I want to get the job on my own terms, not be a shoo in because I have the world’s hottest teacher in my corner.”
“That would be you, mi amore,” she says quietly as she weaves her fingers through your hair. “But that’s fine. I do think you should apply though. You would be a great addition to the team, and you would get to be on my team and balance out Janine with all of her energy.”
“You know I have just as much energy sometimes,” you chuckle as you reach for the television remote.
“Yeah,” your girlfriend laughs. “But I find it endearing with you.”
“Because we’re dating.”
“Because I’m in love with you.”
You end up applying for the job, and when you go in, it’s quite easy to see how the redhead has maintained working here for so long. It’s a rundown school where she can make a difference- she refuses to burn out for the sake of the children. And you’ll refuse to burn out for the sake of the children right with her if you end up getting hired here.
The secretary leads you back to the conference room where there sits a panel. It’s clear who the principal is, but then soon either side of her are two women. One who you know from Melissa’s stories is Barbara Howard, and the other is… It’s Melissa herself. It takes everything in you to not chastise her for being a part of your interview, or for at least not giving you a warning- especially after you had spoken with her on the phone earlier that morning about how nervous you were for the interview. You’ll have to save that for after your interview.
“Well, hello there,” Ava’s eyes rake you up and down. “Principal Coleman, and this is Barbara Howard and Melissa Schemmenti- two of Abbott’s finest teachers. Although, you may just join Red in the running for hottest teacher here.”
If this were not a professional setting, you would quip that you could never stand a chance up against your girlfriend, but you’re interviewing, and you know nobody at work knows of her relation to you. So you press your lips together in a fine line and reach out to shake each of their hands. While you meet both Ava’s and Barbara’s eyes, it is much harder for you to look at those green eyes you usually love to see.
The interview is- well, it’s somewhat of a joke. Barbara and Melissa ask you the more sensible questions about classroom management, behavior plans, and lessons, while the principal asks you what your favorite reality tv show is and how you would survive on a deserted island if you needed to. Nevertheless, they all seem impressed with your responses, both to the professional and unprofessional questions that were thrown your way.
You’re told to stay out in the hall for a few minutes while they deliberate, and you’re dying to know what’s being said about you in the conference room you’re hovering outside of. It takes all of five minutes before you’re being called back into the room by Melissa herself, who is nothing if not professional.
“I have one more question for you,” the principal states seriously. You nod and smile nervously. “When are you able to start?”
“A-are you offering me the position?” you ask, eyebrows raised in surprised. You thought for sure they would be asking to see a demo lesson or something of the sort.
“Hell yeah we are,” Ava grins. “Abbott could use a hottie like you.”
Because you’re so busy shaking the principal’s hand and accepting the position, you miss the glare that your girlfriend sends her boss. You’re stuck there for a bit signing papers before you’re shown to your classroom by Barbara and Melissa- Ava claiming she’s trying to catch up on her newest reality television show. They end up giving you a tour of the school before handing you the curriculum binder and seeing you out.
“We’ll see you for development week, dear,” the kindergarten teacher smiles at you. “We’re very excited for you to join our team.”
Melissa just nods, hellbent on keeping up her tough South Philly girl act. You smile at them as you head out of the building. As soon as you’re in your car, you text your girlfriend.
What the hell? Why didn’t you tell me you were going to be in my interview this morning?
We’ll talk when I come over, okay? Her response is almost immediate. It’s quickly followed by a, Congratulations, mi amore.
As soon as she pulls up to your townhouse, you’re standing outside on your front stoop with your arms folding over your chest as you stare her down. She comes running up your steps and pulls you into a hug, kissing your temple, then your cheek, then your nose, and then finally your lips. For as annoyed as you are with her, you do end up kissing her back.
“Lissa,” you say sternly.
“I’m so proud of you for getting the position,” she tells you as she rests her forehead against yours.
“Thank you,” you smile softly. But then your face drops again. “Why didn’t you tell me that you were going to be in my interview?”
She leads you back into your house and kicks off her shoes before sighing. “I didn’t know that I was going to be in your interview. It was supposed to be Janine, but she got sick and called out last minute. Someone from the second grade team had to be there, and by the time Ava had called me, I knew you were already in a tizzy, and I didn’t want to stress you out any more than you already were.”
You bring her into the kitchen where you already have some of the ingredients out for dinner, along with a bottle of champagne. “I just… I wasn’t expecting to see you there. It threw me off, and all of my words and thoughts got all jumbled up in my head while I tried to keep my eyes off of my insanely hot girlfriend.”
“Trust me when I tell you that you were fine,” the redhead promises you as she makes her way over to pop the bottle. “The idiot before you… I’m pretty sure he literally wandered in from off the street.”
“Did they only offer me the position because we’re-” you got to ask, but she cuts you off.
“They don’t know we’re together,” Melissa tells you. “You did not get offered the position because we’re dating. You got the position because you are a wonderful teacher, and Barbara pushed for you.”
“You had nothing to do with it?” you raise a brow.
“I stayed pretty quiet while they were talking,” your girlfriend says. “I even made sure I threw in a comment about how I wouldn’t learn your name until I was certain you were going to stay. They have no idea.”
You smile at her. “Then, a celebratory dinner we’ll be having… and then…”
Green eyes meet yours with a glint of mischief in them. “What?”
“And then, I want to be your dessert.”
Melissa’s eyes go wide, and she nods eagerly. “If that’s what you want, you know I’m always more than happy to make that happen… Might even have to go in for seconds after today’s accomplishment.”
The rest of summer passes in a warm haze. It’s filled with love, lazy days, and excitement as you plan for the upcoming school year with your girlfriend. But the days of lazing out at a pool or staying inside and binge watching your shows to beat the heat are quickly coming to an end. Melissa and you still haven’t talked about how you’re going to interact with each other at the school- especially now that the two of you have moved in together.
“Hun?” you call from the bedroom as you put on makeup for dinner tonight. It’s your last hurrah before the two of you really have to start focusing on the school year.
“What?” Melissa’s voice floats into the room as she waits for you downstairs.
When you don’t respond in hopes that she just comes into the room, she sighs and gets to her feet. She appears in the doorway a few seconds later, a soft look in her eyes as she watches you ready yourself.
“What’s up, mi amore?” she asks as she makes her way over to you. Her arms wrap around your shoulders, and she presses a gentle kiss to your hair before resting her chin on your shoulder.
“You know what I just realized?”
“What?”
“We never discussed how we were going to act at school.”
“Shit.”
Dinner is spent discussing that the two of you will have to work together due to the fact that you’re both on the second grade team, but your relationship at school will stay professional. You know that you can stay professional, but it’s going to be interesting to see the hard ass persona that Melissa likes to put on in front of her coworkers as opposed to the sweet and kindhearted woman that you know at home. It’s going to be jarring for sure- at least to start until it isn’t so suspicious that she likes the newbie. Once that’s squared away, the two of you enjoy a dinner that doesn’t revolve around lesson planning or any talks of school.
Development week is upon you, and you almost wish that you would’ve decided to just go into this job being out with Melissa, but you understand where she’s coming from with not telling HR that the two of you are together- at least not yet. And you genuinely do not want some sort of rumor to start that the only reason you got the position is because you’re dating one of the “scarier” teachers in the school. So, while you wish you were driving in with your girlfriend while she recites affirmations to you, you instead have to settle for driving in by yourself. You pull in next to her car, but she’s already inside- you know this much.
It’s weird when you head into the staff lounge. You’re so used to her making you coffee in the mornings, but today you have to fend for yourself. And while everyone else is cordial with you, your girlfriend is standoffish and cold, calling you by the wrong name on purpose and telling her coworkers she’ll bother to learn your name once you’ve proven that you aren’t just going to up and leave the first time things get hard for you (you catch the sympathetic glance she throws your way as she’s heading out with her friends for the meeting).
Most of development week ends up being your principal just flirting with you and your girlfriend being as hostile as she is with other new hires. At night, once the two of you settle in together, she promises you that she loves you more than anything and she apologizes for her behavior and attitude towards you at school.
“I didn’t realize this was what I would be walking into at school,” you chuckle as she massages your back gently. “But I have to admit, seeing you like that… damn it’s hot.”
“You always think I’m hot,” she rolls her eyes as she begins to work on a new tense spot right by your shoulder.
“Well, I’m not wrong for that,” you half chuckle, half groan. “But I always get to see sweet soft Lissa, and at school you’re a total badass.”
“I’m a total badass in front of literally everyone except for you,” she tells you as she kisses the slope of your neck. “I don’t know why, but you melt me like butter.”
“Well, ain’t I lucky then?”
“I’d say I’m the lucky one,” she throws right back at you.
Your days at your new job continue on like that, and so do your nights. During the day, Melissa is nothing but a bitch to you and offering you apologetic glances when she can. And at home, your girlfriend is the sweetest woman, even more sweet than usual because she feels so guilty that she can’t treat you like the amazing woman that you are in your place of work.
But that changes when the kids start their school year. Because your classrooms are right next to each other, she has a front row seat to see just how talented you are when it comes to working with your kids. She observes how much effort you put into their daily routines, how you explicitly state your expectations and hold them to it, and how you manage behaviors within your classroom, all while still getting them settled in for the school year.
It’s at lunch on the first day that she softens up on you just the slightest bit. You’re sitting at one of the tables by yourself when she and Barbara comes strolling in.
“Ah, Y/N, dear,” the kindergarten teacher smiles at you. “How is your first day with the kids going?”
You break out into a grin. “Honestly? I’m loving it. These kids, while they all have their challenges, like any kids, are absolutely precious. I already have a handful of drawings sitting on my desk to be hung up on the bulletin board behind my desk.”
“That’s great to hear,” Barb tells you as she pulls her lunch out of the fridge.
“Wow, newbie,” Melissa’s eyes sparkle just enough that you can tell. “Better than I expected.”
“And how did you expect my first day to go?” you challenge her to act. She had told you this morning in bed that she knew you were going to be just what Abbott needs, but could she play it off that she thought you were going to crash and burn now?
The redhead shrugs. “Most newbies run out of here with their middle fingers up and crying.”
“Well, that won’t be me. Thank you very much Miss Schemmenti,” you shrug as you take a bite of your salad (the one that she had prepared for you last night).
“Good,” is all she huffs out as she sits down to eat her own lunch. “Abbott needs some stability.”
That night at home, it’s an early night. The first days, and even the first weeks, of school are utterly exhausting.
“I meant what I said when most people leave with their middle fingers up and crying,” Melissa sighs as she lays her head on your chest. “But you, my dear? I never had a doubt in my mind that you would be the perfect addition to the Abbott team. And I saw how great you were with your kids today. They’re lucky to have you.”
“Just as your little eagles are lucky to have you,” you chuckle softly as you begin to run your fingers through her hair.
Slowly, Melissa’s tougher than nails demeanor shifts. She begins to treat you like she treats Janine, although it is different. But that’s because the two of you are hiding a relationship, unlike with Janine. It’s nice. And at home, she’s still as loving as ever and even still apologizing for not treating you the way she should at school.
“When are we going to tell them that we’re together?” you ask casually as you’re looking over the weekly plans.
She hums. “Whenever you’re ready.”
“I just don’t want anyone to think that I only got the job because we’re dating and you were in my interview. I know you said that Barb was the one who pushed for me, but…”
“If you want to wait a bit, we can.”
You’ve settled into teaching at Abbott quite nicely. Your coworkers love you, Melissa has only continued to soften up at you at school, even calling you by your real name now. You have to say, you love this job. It’s the best job that you’ve had in quite some time, and that includes when you worked in more affluent areas. These kids just… get it. The staff is like an odd, dysfunctional family. And you get to see your girlfriend at work everyday. It’s almost perfect.
The reason it isn’t perfect? Your boss, Ava Coleman, flirts with you constantly. She finds reason to be in your room more often than not, and whenever you’re all having lunch, there’s some excuse for her to end up in the staff room with you.
Melissa, of course, is well aware that your principal is constantly trying to hit on you. You let most of her comments roll off of you, but some just have you shaking your head at the things she insinuates.
“Ava,” you finally sigh one day after seeing the absolute death glare that Melissa is sending her way. Oh, if looks could kill. “Quit flirting with me.”
“And why would I do that, boo?”
“Because you’re in a relationship,” you roll your eyes as her own eyes scan over you.
The woman shrugs. “And? It’s open.”
“And I have a girlfriend who I know for a fact would not, and does not like the fact that you are constantly trying to get with me,” you reveal.
Everyone looks at you in surprise at that admission. Everyone except for Melissa, who angrily stabs at the salad she’s got out for lunch (the salad that you lovingly packed her this morning).
“You have a girlfriend?” Jacob is quick to cut into the conversation. You just nod. “How did I not know?”
“I don’t know, Jacob,” you breathe out. “I don’t really go around announcing it to people.”
“But there are usually signs!” your coworker protests.
At that, you shrug.
“Who’s to say that your girlfriend wouldn’t be into it?” Ava directs the conversation back her way.
You glance to Melissa, who won’t even look up from her meal. “Just trust me when I tell you, my girlfriend does not appreciate the fact that you flirt with me.”
“Well, what’s her name?” Janine asks from her corner of the room. “I wanna meet her!”
You laugh at that. “Lissa,” you tell them. And nobody figures out that that’s the nickname you have for the redhead in the room. Everybody at Abbott, or at least everybody who has been deemed worthy of calling her by a nickname, calls her “Mel”.
“Alyssa?” Mr. Johnson makes his own presence known. “She hot?”
Your ears turn pink. “I wouldn’t be dating her if I didn’t think she was. But enough about me,” you try to diffuse the situation. “Can we-”
Ava turns to you after a few seconds of scrolling through her phone. “You don’t know no ‘Alyssa’.”
“What do you mean?” you raise a brow in her direction.
The principal shoves her phone in your face. “I just looked through Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, even your Venmo for anyone under that name. There ain’t nobody there. You making a girlfriend up so I stop flirtin’ with you, ain’t you?”
“I am very much not,” you reply. “I do have a girlfriend.”
Ava hums. “I don’t believe you, but if that’s the story we’s goin’ with, sure thing, baby boo. Just give me a call when you decide that you want a piece of this fine-”
“Enough!” Melissa finally shouts. “Enough!”
“Woah,” the principal’s eyes go wide as she stares at the redhead. All other heads in the room whip around to look at the second grade teacher sitting next to you. “What’s got your panties in a twist? I’m just flirting with-”
“Flirting with my girlfriend!” your girlfriend explodes. “Quit flirting with my girl, unless you want me to take Edith Houghton to your damned head!”
As if to prove a point, Melissa grabs your hand and shows it off. “She’s mine,” the woman practically growls. “And I swear to God, if you make one more comment towards my girlfriend about how hot she is or about how you want her- I will make you regret it!”
Ava’s eyes go wide, and her hands fly up so quickly in surrender that her phone drops to the floor. “Shit. Okay.”
Everybody else can only watch in slight horror as the redhead continues to point her fork in your boss’s direction.
“Listen, I just thought that-”
“You thought wrong,” Melissa grits out. “Not another word out of you about her.”
“Okay, okay,” Ava backs down. “Damn, Schemmenti. Good on you though. She-”
You have to practically hold your girlfriend back as she goes to lunge at the principal.
Ava quickly runs out of the room and back into her office, coffee forgotten and probably fearing for her life at this point.
Melissa huffs and rights her shirt before holding your hand again and taking a deep breath. You ground her quickly with a few squeezes to the hand in your own. She pulls her chair closer to yours and drops your hand before wrapping an arm around you and silently daring anybody to make any comments about the outburst that had just taken place.
You see the way that they’re all staring at you and your girlfriend though, so you just settle for a weak, “Surprise?”
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𝐈𝐓𝐒 𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑' ─── christopher o. sturniolo
# 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 . . . christopher o. sturniolo x ex!gf reader
# 𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘 . . . chris cant let you go even when he knows he has too.
# 𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐆𝐎𝐑𝐘 . . . angst
# 𝐀𝐍 . . . theres a big ass plot twist
# 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆 . . . Lover, you should’ve come over by Jeff Buckley
It had been a year. A year since Chris’ world came crashing down. A year since he lost everything. He lost you. It hit him hard, he would’ve never seen the breakup coming. He didn’t know why it happened. Why he had to lose his beautiful girl. Chris wasn’t sure if he could even call you that anymore. You weren’t together, and you hadn’t been for a year. But, he was never going to stop calling you his girl. You were each other's everything. And he missed having you as his everything.
Chris couldn’t get over, he hadn’t gotten over it. He never will. Chris knew he had to let you go but, he wouldn’t. Currently, Chris was sitting in your favorite restaurant, the one he first took you to when he asked to be your boyfriend. He felt like it was the only place where he could feel happy knowing that he had the chance to have been with you. But now, it felt like nothing. Nothing without seeing your enticing eyes, or delicate smile. It was stupid really. Stupid of him to still miss you even after a year.
Chris is pulled out of his thoughts when he hears a ringing noise. It’s Matt calling him. “Hey, We’re about to film a video. Are you down?” Matt spoke over the phone. “Yeah, I’ll start getting ready.” “Alright. We’ll be there in 20.”
Chris then hung up the phone and left for his room. By the time he was done, Matt had just pulled into the driveway, honked letting Chris know he was home. Chris rushed out the door putting his shoes on. He rushed into the car, closing the door behind him, finally putting on his shoes, he was out of breath. “Hey, you okay? You look upset.” Nick asked him. “Yeah, I’m okay. Just thinking.” Chris replied.
In all reality it wasn’t just thinking. He was thinking about his girl. The girl he had met when he was fresh into middle school, the one who he had fallen in love with. He felt so alone now that his girl was gone, he had no one to go talk to about his day, how filming went, or how much fun he had going out with his brothers.
“Are you sure you're just thinking? Or are you thinking about y/n?” Matt hinted. Chris just looked at him and sighed. “Chris, it’s time to let her go. It’s been a year. She’s probably moved on already.” Nick stated. “I know okay? But, I can’t let go of someone I loved for so long.” Chris commented, tears starting to swell in this eyes. “Hey, don’t cry. It’s gonna be okay. It takes time to get over someone you’ve loved for so long.” Matt chimed in.
“Look, we’re gonna get some food, record a video and then we can go home okay? And maybe you can ask her mom about how well she’s doing. I know you’ve been wanting to text her.” All three of them stopped by McDonald’s and picked up some food before they found a spot to record. They answered a few questions, laughed together, and just chatted.
After they finished recording they went back home. Chris thought about you the whole time there. He couldn’t stop talking or thinking about you. He felt so bad because he hadn’t reached out to you in months. The last time he talked to you was to wish you a happy birthday. So, when he got home that was the first thing he did. But, when he did, he didn’t expect the messages to turn green. He knows you hadn’t blocked him, or at least he didn’t think so. If you did, he didn’t want to think about it.
“Chris, what’re you doing?” Nick asked, standing behind him. “I'm trying to text y/n but my messages are turning green.” He replied. “Are you sure she hasn't blocked you?” Matt inserted. “No, i don't think so. i dont think she has a reason to.”
“well, you should ask her mom, see if she’s okay.”
“yeah, i’ll text her right now.”
Chris then texted your mom, asking her if you were okay. She didn't reply at first, so he waited and waited and waited. To keep his mind off things, he did a couple chores. took a shower, got dressed, and ate some food. That's when he feels a vibration. it was y/n’s mom. He opened the message and his heart dropped.
it felt like the world had gotten slower. Everything went quiet, it was like it was just him, alone, left in the world. Chris couldn't hear the twins calling for him. Chris didn't expect to receive the message that he did. Finally, Chris calms down and hears Nick yelling for him.
“Chris, are you okay? I heard something fall.” Nick questioned. Chris didn’t say anything, he just looked at him. “Chris?” Matt blurted out.
“She's dead.”
“Who’s dead?” Chris didn't reply. “Chris, who the fuck is dead.” Matt stated. “Y/n. She’s dead.” Chris replied, typing on his phone. Tears start swelling in his eyes. “No. She's not dead. We just talked to her last month.” Nick cried. “How did she die?” “She was murdered.” Chris responded.
“I cant believe we didn’t check up on her. We were so busy.”
“Her poor soul. She was such a beautiful person. I hope her mom is okay.”
“Yeah. I hope that she's okay. I can't imagine how hard it is for her.”
Chris stood up, walked out the door, and just stood there. He looked up to the moon and said “I'm so sorry I couldn't check up on you more. I'm so sorry.” He sat down and just cried. His girl was gone. His girl was sent from heaven. Now she was in heaven, resting not having to suffer anymore. He was never going to forget you. And ‘till this day, he tells everyone about you, and about how much of an amazing person you were. He wants people to know that you weren’t just a girl to him. you were his best friend. You were always going to be his best friend. He’ll always remember you as…
his girl sent from heaven.
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Am I allowed to cry? pt. 1 | Spencer Reid x Reader
In which you're in love with Spence, but never told him.
angst! (but don't worry, part two will be fluff)
warnings: Some light swearing and that's it i think (??)
content: Mutual pining (although spencer's side isn't really shown in this part)
a/n: I've been writing this one for 2 weeks and even deleted it once, but finally got to it and finished this!! Hope you guys like it <3
You had joined the BAU only 2 years after Spencer, and you two quickly became friends and only grew closer with time. Now, 5 years after meeting, you two we’re best friends, joined at the hip. Spencer was the greatest friend you could have, understanding and loving. Maybe that’s why your stupid brain decided to complicate things, at some point you started to see Spencer in a different light.
One day, when you were having the worst cramps ever during a case, Spencer went out of the precinct the team was at, when he came back he had bought you chocolates and heating pads to help with the pain. You felt like you could cry, and after he gave you one of his beautiful smiles, you realized.
Oh fuck… I'm in love with Spencer Reid.
That day, you also swore you would never tell him, there’s no way he felt the same, and you would not ruin the perfect friendship you both had.
What you seemed to forget about was that, at some point, Spencer was going to get a date, a girlfriend or whatever, and you didn’t even stop to think how you would feel when that day arrived.
Well... You don’t need to imagine it anymore, because it finally happened. The day before, Spencer had told you how he finally gathered the courage to ask a girl that he’d been on a few dates to be his girlfriend. Your heart sank when he delivered the news to you, though you did your best to seem enthusiastic for him.
“Really, spence, that’s great. I'm super happy for you!” You told him, before quickly excusing yourself to the bathroom.
You felt so dumb, you knew Spencer was not in love with you, you thought you had accepted that, so why the fuck are you feeling like the floor has been taken off your feet every time you think about him loving someone that isn’t you? God, you might be going crazy.
You knew you wouldn't be able to keep your "omg I'm so happy for you!" facade for long. Your genius solution was to avoid him, only for some time, while you dealt with your feelings.
You decided to talk with the only person that knew about your feelings besides you, Penelope.
You open the door to her office, “Pen, help me. I’m so stupid, my brain is broken or something”
Penelope turns around on her chair, pulling another one for you to sit
“Oh no honey, whatever it is you're not stupid, now, what’s happening?”
“Spence has a date… God, I’m 27 years old, why the fuck do I care about this”
“Ohh you’re in love, baby. Of course, you’re going to feel bad, that’s normal. Trust me, I’ve been there.”
“Maybe… It doesn't matter anyway. I'm going to avoid him for this week, process all this shit and then everything will be back to normal” You force a smile, that was meant to pass a positivity you didn't even really feel, but it just made Penelope feel bad for you.
“Maybe don’t do that. You know Spencer is going to notice, it’s best if you talk to him.” She says, repeating an advice she has lost count how many times she’s given you. Penelope has always been sure Spencer was into you, and always encouraged you to confess. Needless to say, you never heard her advice.
“No, I can't. I would ruin our friendship, he would hate me. And, it would be so unfair of me, I mean… I only confess now that he has a chance with someone?” You take a deep breath, and get up from the chair “Thanks for the chat pen, love you” You say, placing a kiss on her cheek and leaving her office.
You really did appreciate her advice, but there’s no way you would confess to Spencer, not only would it seem petty, but you were deadly afraid to ruin your friendship… not that avoiding him was doing any good, but fuck that you’re not in the mood to be rational right now.
You head to your desk, avoiding eye contact with Spencer and just focusing on your work when Hotch calls the team. You guys have a new case.
“Great” You mumble under your breath, even if being in the office would be hard to avoid Reid, having to be out on a case with him will make it impossible. That doesn't mean you're not going to try. "Im an adult and a professional, this shit should not get in the way of my work." You think to yourself as if it's a mantra to keep you focused.
You enter the room, taking a seat between Emily and Rossi, as Hotch and Penelope brief the team you can see in your peripheral vision how Spencer's gaze shift to you, making avoiding it somehow more difficult. You're used to giving him small smiles, being beside him and always being in contact with each other somehow, he even would be fine with letting you hug him beside his germophobia, so you're sure he already noticed how distant you were being.
"Alright, wheels up in 30, We'll get more details on the jet"
—
On the jet, hotch distributes the tasks, as always, he paired you up with Reid to do the geoprofiling.
After a couple of hours, you and the team arrive at the precinct. As the rest of the team goes out to the field, you and Reid stay back doing the reading, and geoprofiling. You only speak to him when it's something regarding the case. Luckily, after a day, you guys finally makes the arrest, and soon you are back on the jet.
As soon as you arrive back to the BAU office, you just pass by Garcia's office to give her a quick goodbye and head to the elevator, ready to go home, and finally process your feelings - or better yet, force yourself to get over Spencer.
If this was under normal circumstances, you and Reid would be standing together in front of the elevator discussing which food you two would order as you watched some weird indie movie. The memory of those times brings a sharp pain to your chest, how could you be so naive? Yes, you told yourself he was not interested, but deep down between all those moments you two shared you hoped one day he would see you as something more than just a friend.
"Hey, is everything alright? You seemed off today" Lost in your thoughts, you didn't notice when Spencer stood beside you, his voice pulling you off your thoughts.
"I'm great spence, just have a headache"
"Are you sure? You know, lying to a profiler has a very small percentage of working"
"I'm sure, don't worry… So, is it today?" You ask, as you two step in the elevator and press the button to the garage level
"Yeah, I'm really nervous."
"That's normal, but it'll be fine, don't worry" The elevator gets to the floor your car is at, you hold the door open and turn to him "hey, be yourself ok? She'll be lucky to have you." You say, before shooting him a small smile and getting out the elevator.
As you walk towards your car, a few tears start streaming down your face, you've known you love him for a long time, and you now realize that you might never know what could have been between you two. Maybe Garcia was right, but now it's too late to say anything.
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hiiii! can I get a request for lip with a shy!reader where they like know each other from school but it’s like later seasons lip like working at the shop or the construction job and she starts to develop a crush on him but he doesn’t think he’s good enough for her so he distances himself and dates other girls and she has to watch from the sidelines until a guy asks her out so she goes for it and lip gets jealous and realizes his feelings. i’m in an angsty pining jealousy mood but with a happy ending still if that makes sense! but honestly feel free to run with it if it’s something you’re interested in writing bc I love your writing! 💗💗
Hi anon! I love this prompt, thank you very much for sending it my way! <3
This is a very first time I'm writing something with our dear boy Lip Gallagher, and I hope I'm not messing it all up.
Lip Gallagher/Fem!Reader Mature 1561 words
You admired Lip Gallagher. He was smart, intelligent, witty, and—alive. Despite the , he made it to college. You didn’t know the details but heard people talking about those nasty Gallaghers. You saw him take his little brother, Liam, to classes, to your study group. The little boy living temporarily in a dormitory made you sick with worry, but it was obvious that Lip took great care of him. You mostly felt for Lip—that he, as young as he was, had to take on his parents' responsibilities. And still, he did so great at school and had two jobs on top of it. He went home for weekends to help around the house. But that life sucked him back in, never giving him a solid chance, as much as Lip fought for it. He left the school, left the crime scene behind, and left an empty space in your chest. You never told him how you felt. Never wanted to, anyway.
Occasionally, you still meet each other at parties he gets invited to—or invites himself to—and you chat easily, sharing a drink or two. You’re happy to see him, to hear about his crazy jobs. Sometimes he brings a girl along and you smile politely at her, shake her hand. The whole school knew about Amanda and Mrs. Robinson. Besides wanting to protect yourself, you don’t believe Lip could ever want more than friendship from you, which makes interacting with him easier. ‘Cause you’re not trying for anything with him. He’s just a good bad boy. Who cares if you’ve had a crush on him since day one?
So what you expect from Lip when you introduce him to your date, Jacob, at one of these lame parties is that he shakes his hand and says hi politely. Which doesn’t happen; he just grumbles something and leaves for the kitchen. You roll your eyes and tell Jacob not to mind. Inside, you’re a bit embarrassed and disappointed. Why? You’re not sure. Maybe because Jacob’s a bit boring and you still keep seeing him. Letting him kiss you and put his fingers in your pussy and never do anything back. Because he doesn’t attract you. “But he’s nice,” your friends say. You say, for Christ’s sake! He is nice but oh so boring. You don’t feel anything, but you don’t want to be alone anymore. And most importantly, you don’t want to think about Lip when you masturbate, when Jacob fingers you, when boys half-heartedly fucked you in the past.
But as much as you want to forget Lip, you see him again. It’s a bar this time. Filled to the brim with a Friday crowd.
“Hey,” someone says behind you, laying a hand on your shoulder, and you know it’s him before you turn around. You smile at him, sucking on a colorful paper straw.
“You still drink that? Rum and Coke?”
“Yeah,” you laugh shortly, looking at the dark brown drink in your hands. “Spiced rum!” you clarify.
Lip leans closer to you, the sudden proximity doing things to you, as always, and you have to bite your bottom lip.
“Is your boyfriend here?” he asks casually, but you noticed him scanning the crowd just a few seconds ago.
“Yeah… Jacob’s here—but he’s not my boyfriend. We’ve been just—seeing each other for a bit.” You don’t want to talk about Jacob with Lip and it’s clear in the way you talk. You’re more focused on your elbows touching on the bartop.
Lip just laughs shortly, doesn’t say anything. It irks you. You frown. “What?”
“Nothing,” Lip shrugs, drumming his fingers on the wooden desk stained with beer and sweet, sticky liquor. He’s lost some of the baby fat in his face. You notice the sharpness of his cheekbones. He tilts his face downward as he blinks at you.
“You never had a boyfriend at school.” He probably wants to say "When I was at school" but that doesn’t interest you that much now.
“So what?” You grow even more irritated by his questions. Why does he care? You never discussed boyfriends, or his girlfriends, for that matter.
You turn your head away, grimacing, but Lip, on the other side, seems entertained. Intrigued.
“Nothing,” he says, smirking stupidly, and doesn’t stop looking at you. “You’re pretty when you pout.”
Your whole face flushes in an instant. Lip never talked like this to you. Never flirted. Of course, at the beginning, you had been disappointed, but you quickly decided that mutual respect for friendship is much better. Safer.
Unsure of what you’re going to say, you tilt your face back to him, but when you look at Lip, he’s not smirking anymore. He reaches for you, hand catching your burning face, his thumb sweeping over your cheek.
It takes you a moment to bat his hand away. “What’re you doing?” you ask, horrified. And shocked. Flustered with your shyness.
Lip shakes his head. “I don’t know,” he mumbles while you’re looking around, all wild, to check for Jacob.
This time it’s Lip who frowns. “You said he was not your boyfriend.”
“Are you, like, jealous or something?” you say only to say SOMETHING, head shaking in disbelief. The silence that follows almost shocks you. You never thought about what you would do if Lip felt the same about you. Never dared to think about that scenario.
Scared to find out what you’ll find out, you peer at him. His face is serious, jaw tense.
“Oh my god, you—you’re jealous,” you whisper, hand going to your mouth to cover it. Your expression must be hilarious—eyes wide, mouth open in disbelief. Lip starts fidgeting with the paper coaster on the bar, eyes flicking all over the room.
Angry tears begin to cloud your vision. “You have no right to be jealous now,” you seethe. “Have you only noticed me now? When I’m seeing someone?” The hurt is unmistakable in your voice. You ball your hands into fists, blinking against the tears welling in your eyes. When Lip doesn’t say anything, you turn on your heel. If you don’t get some fresh air now, you’re going to suffocate.
Once outside, you find a quieter spot away from the smoking people, propping against a wooden table. When you look up you wish you could see stars in the night sky. But the light pollution’s making it impossible. Sighing, you wrap your arms around yourself to protect yourself from the chill. You’re glad that Jacob knows people here too, otherwise you would probably feel bad for leaving him.
Before you get a chance to really sort your feelings, you see Lip approaching you in your peripheral vision.
You sigh, defeated, making a point of not looking at him as he stops a mere foot from you. You’re terrible at confrontations.
“You mad?” Lip asks, and you can feel him studying your face. There’s a cigarette burning between his fingers.
You shake your head. No.
Next, Lip shrugs off his hoodie, cigarette held between his pouting lips, and drapes the garment, warmed by his own body heat, over your shoulders. “Here.”
Suddenly, you’re enveloped in Lip Gallagher. In the smell of tobacco, laundry detergent, and boy. You close your eyes tight against the feeling that’s surfacing from within you. It’s spreading like wildfire, and when Lip steps in front of you, reaching to move the zipper up, up, up, the heat reaches your face, pinks up your cheeks.
Lip leans into you, putting both your bodies into contact, thighs to chests. He slides one of his hands into the pocket of his hoodie, right where your hand’s hiding too, and twines your fingers together. Then he rubs his cheek against your own, as you meet in the middle, and your heart stops. You didn’t know Lip would be like this. That brash, cocky Lip Gallagher with a womanizer reputation treating you with such tenderness.
But you don’t want to end up as a notch on his bedpost.
“I don’t think I’m your type,” you say simply, looking at the ground, hoping that’s enough for him to let it go. To let you go. Even though deep down, it’s the last thing you wish for. You don’t want Lip to let you go. You want him to do the exact opposite.
Lip scoffs, closer to your ear than you expected, making you jump. “And what’s my type?”
“I mean—” you swallow hard, finding the courage to say the next words, as nonchalantly as possible, “I’m from a functional family. I don’t use drugs, I don’t deal drugs. I’m pretty sure I don’t have any personality disorders,” you list.
“Wow, so you’ve done research on me, huh?” Lip asks drily but he doesn’t move, stays close to you.
You decide to come out with the truth. “You know, I had a crush on you at school, and I think I was not as subtle as I thought I was. I mean, most of my friends knew about it.”
Licking his lips, he says,“I always thought you were cute. I was just—”
You're not letting him off that easy. “Busy fucking through the entire school?”
“I didn’t think it was a good idea to make a move.”
“Why do you think it’s a good idea now?”
“Because I can’t stay away from you anymore.”
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Is It All For Nothing? | n romanoff
Summary: You just want a friend. Is that so bad? How is it fair that everyone else gets one but you. What did you do that was so wrong?
Warnings: idk. just depressing stuff ig
Pairings: none. a small bit of Nat x reader but all platonic
wc: 1.3k
notes: I wrote this in 45 mins in one sitting. It’s written in a different pov than usual and idk if it even makes sense. I just typed and didn’t stop until I was done 🤷♀️ the idea just came to me and yeah :)
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Frankly, being on the sidelines sucked. Everyone knew it yet no matter how many times someone engaged in small talk to be polite or proclaimed they were there to talk to everyone, somehow you were always left out.
It didn’t matter where you were, loneliness followed like a dormant disease. High school sucked, you were a nobody, but thankfully those years were in the past. But your fifteen year old self didn’t realise that your isolation would carry right on over into your adult life.
And sure, it wasn’t all bad. The nights spent chatting with new friends you’d made that day left you on an all time high, but that just made the fall that much harder. And when the low inevitably came, you could only laugh at yourself at your naivety, because why would things suddenly change? You weren’t someone people stuck around for.
Unfortunately, Shield agents were no different. Those in your cohort were nice enough to say hi in the hallway or invite you into group conversations. A couple even chatted with you over lunch. But you knew they only did it because they felt bad. You saw the difference in their demeanor; you were a spy for god’s sake. They were so much happier with their friends, and that didn’t include you, no matter how hard you tried to convince yourself it did.
There was one agent who’s attention toyed with you that little bit more. Natasha Romanoff was a couple of ranks higher, both in social and training status. But she was always kind, no matter what. You conversed whilst waiting for your training session, mainly her listening as you talked. She was sweet, despite her intimidating facade and before long she had you completely wrapped around your little finger.
For a month, you both chatted any chance you got. If you saw her in the cafeteria, you’d make a beeline for her table, smiling at the other agents as you sat down. She responded to you, her eyes holding yours as you spoke, seeming actually interested in what you had to say. She would joke with you, calling you out with a laugh which sent a flush to your cheeks. You didn’t care what she said, she was talking to you. That’s all that mattered. Maybe this was where your life changed for the better. Evenings that followed those days would be blissful and you would fall asleep with a smile on your face, feeling on top of the world all because of the redheaded Russian.
However, as the weeks went on, days would go by with no contact. At first you just thought she was going on more missions; that was her job after all. But then you’d see that flash of red hair in a meeting room or one of the agents talking about something Natasha had said earlier and it hit you sharply in the throat.
Was she just like everyone else? Playing the pity card, building you up only to leave you hanging once she got bored? Natasha didn’t seem like that kind of person, but had essentially placed her on a pedestal, so of course she could do no wrong. That was your downfall.
Emerging from a debrief with Maria Hill, you tucked a stack of files under your arm and stepped out into the hallway. And there she was, a soft smile on her lips. You reciprocated it and made eye contact, opening your mouth to speak. You hadn't spoken in a few days and you hated to admit it, but you missed her.
But Natasha clearly didn’t feel the same. Her eyes caught yours and then darted to the floor, her feet picking up the pace as she walked past. “I’m sorry Y/n, I’m busy today. We’ll talk later.”
Except she wasn’t busy. Because there she was, standing at the end of the hall laughing with another agent in your cohort. It shouldn’t have been, but it was like a punch to the stomach and you quickly turned around, retreating back into the room you’d left to avoid her seeing you watching her.
You knew that agent. They were friends, everyone saw it. And she was nice enough to you too, but jealousy coursed through your veins and turned you into a green eyed monster.
What did she have that you didn’t? Besides the ability to win Natasha over, obviously. Every single interaction you’d had with the redhead suddenly started replaying in your mind, frantically scanning to see what went wrong. Did you overstep? Were you too pushy? Too clingy? You just wanted a friend, was that so hard to understand? Was it so bad to want?
You thought about texting her, but decided against it. You didn’t want to know the answer. What if your worst fears were confirmed? That she only spoke to you out of pity, and quite frankly didn’t want anything to do with you.
It hurt. It really did. Countless times you wished that she was the one that would change your bad history of making friends. Because when you were around Natasha, nothing else mattered. The days of no contact slipped out of your mind. You’d forgive her for anything in a heartbeat… maybe that was the problem.
You thought the world of her. And she saw that. ‘Never meet your heroes’ that’s what they say, isn’t it? And maybe she wasn’t quite at hero status for you, but you looked up to her. Praising her work when she returned from a successful mission, commenting on the ingenious moves she made to lead her team to victory. She was everything you wanted to be as an agent, with one seriously important factor.
Everyone loved her.
Everyone loved her, and nobody knew you. She was the prize rose and you were behind, stuck in her shadow. They didn’t see you as anyone but the agent who sucked up to Natasha. They didn’t see how hard you worked, how many hours you trained, how much effort you put in. And they never would. Because it was too much. You were a try hard.
A try hard in a room full of effortless people.
Effortless just like that other agent was. She’d been rumoured to move up into Natasha’s ranks and onto her mission team, leaving you struggling in the lower levels. It felt almost childish, yearning after the attention of one single person. But no matter how hard you tried, or how casual you tried to be, Natasha would never see you as anything other than a fan girl.
You knew she was capable of giving you what you desired, you saw it with that other agent. The way they laughed together, developed inside jokes and anecdotal phrases that they brought up in group discussions. You saw the way Natasha’s eyes lit up at the mention of her name, how she gushed over her but also teased her at the same time. Their effortless banter had you choking back tears as you sat one table over, watching with blurry eyes.
You wanted that so badly it hurt.
But if you stopped trying, stopped reaching out, stopped lusting after the perfect friendship you so badly craved with her, would she notice? Or would you fade into the background, silently, without a word. Maybe she would be happy, now that you’re no longer bugging her.
Maybe it’s for the best.
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a/n: did i start this fic in february? yes. is it now july? yes. is canes bash andrei timeless? also yes. 😂 genuinely this fic gave me so much difficulty and i could not get it finished in a timely manner for the life of me. but it’s here now and also serves as a chance to look at the pictures of andrei from the bash including my favorite with those giant ass fingers 🥵 ANYWAY, enjoyyyyy 😘
tw: semi-public sex, fingering (f receiving), dirty talk, unprotected sex, nipple play, bossy and slightly mean andrei, mild choking,
word count: 5.7k
summary: during the canes bash, andrei steals you away for some private time
“Next year, I’m suggesting a boy toy auction,” you say, a little tipsy, gesturing towards the stage with your drink, “you know, like in One Tree Hill?”
Nykki, Gracia, and Amy look at you briefly and then burst into giggles. “Oh, could you imagine?” Amy says around laughter. “They’d hate that.”
The live auction continues, the crowd cheering as the price keeps going up. You sip at your wine, “poor winners would end up with a day on the golf course.”
“Who do you think would go for the most money?” Nykki asks. The three women share a look before chiming simultaneously, “Andrei!”
You snort a laugh and then jolt when you feel a large, warm hand on the nape of your neck. Andrei crowds at your back, his body heat enveloping you. “You called?” He jokes, thumb rubbing softly against your skin, making you shiver. “What were you talking about?”
The other three women, traitors all of them, smirk but don’t reply, leaving you to respond to your boyfriend. You don’t know what possesses you to answer honestly, maybe the alcohol, maybe the warmth of Andrei’s big body behind you. Whatever it is, you blurt, “how much money you’d go for in a boy toy auction.”
Andrei’s fingers still against your skin and the girls widen their eyes at you, Nykki lifting her hand to her mouth to muffle a laugh. You wince and sip at your wine, cheeks flushing with heat. Andrei’s thumb taps against the side of your neck and he hums lowly, the sound practically vibrating against your back when he steps in closer to you. “Boy toy?” He repeats, fingers tightening gently around the back of your neck.
You let out a little squeak, arousal flooding between your legs. It’s suddenly very hot in the arena. “Mhmm,” you manage to hum, completely distracted by Andrei’s hand on your neck. God only knows what your face is doing because Nykki shoots you a wicked grin, looking almost sympathetic for your plight.
Andrei clicks his tongue and leans in, his face appearing in your peripheral vision. You can see his mouth curl up in a little smile before he says to your friends, “I’m going to steal her, if that’s okay?”
All three laugh and wave you off, talking over each other as they tell you to have fun, don’t do anything they wouldn’t do, don’t get caught. You roll your eyes at them as Andrei leads you off, using his hand on your neck to guide you towards the other end of the covered ice. The fabric of your dress swishes around your shins, your heels clicking along the floor as Andrei’s pace picks up slightly.
“Too fast,” you murmur, just loud enough for him to hear you over the music and general chatter.
“Not fast enough,” Andrei says back, amusement in his tone. “Barely saw you tonight, solnyshka, missed you.”
His fingers are hot on your neck, his chest bumping against your back as he crowds you towards the photo booth set up for the fans. You’re interrupted as you go, fans stopping Andrei every few feet for a picture or to chat. His hand slides from your neck, between your shoulder blades, stops to rest in the curve of your lower back where the calloused edges of his fingers catch on the silky fabric of your dress. He chats with fans, friendly, but reserved, keeping you within arm’s reach. You step in occasionally, offering to take pictures for the fans, smiling and chatting too, even as arousal is pooling low in your stomach, heat dampening the crotch of your thong. When you’re at his side, Andrei’s fingers dance lightly over your lower back, making you shiver and your nipples pebble under the silk of your dress.
You just hope it’s dark enough that no one notices.
Eventually, Andrei’s hand is more insistent on your back, making excuses to step away and get you back on your previous path. His hand slides down to cup your ass, squeezing and massaging your flesh. You clench around nothing, inner thighs damp and slippery.
“Andrei,” you mutter his name in what you were hoping was a warning tone - you don’t want pictures of your PDA on social media and the Canes Bash is as public as it gets, with fans taking pictures of everything - but ends up coming out breathy and whiny.
“Shush,” he leans forward and presses a kiss to the hinge of your jaw, gripping more of your ass in one large hand. A strangled little groan slips past your lips and all you can focus on is Andrei’s little laugh in your ear and the way his hand is bunching the fabric of your dress up. You know the fabric is going to be wrinkled, but you can’t seem to find it in you to care when the old school photo booth comes into sight and you realize what Andrei’s plan is. There’s a little bit of a line for both the old school photo booth and the open plan photo wall, so Andrei settles you in the line, wrapping his arms around your front and resting his chin on top of your head.
He strikes up conversations with the fans around him, personable and funny, while holding you against his chest. Your ass presses against his groin, the bulge of his cock hot through your dress.
It’s more PDA than Andrei is usually comfortable with, especially at a work event, and you wonder just exactly has gotten into him. He sways a little as he’s chatting with another couple, hips thrusting forward with his movement. Your brain is going a little fuzzy, static hissing between your ears with each graze of his cock against your ass. You’re faintly aware that phones are pointed in your direction, a hazard of being with Andrei, and you duck your chin a little so your face isn’t necessarily front and center in any photos that are taken.
Andrei shuffles behind you, pushing you closer to the photo booth for your turn. “Look beautiful tonight, solnyshka,” he murmurs in your ear, kissing the side of your head. “Can’t stop looking at you when you’re not next to me.”
His words warm your entire body from the inside out, a soft giggle slipping past your lips. The casual flirting never gets old, no matter how long you’ve been together. You bring your hands up and hold onto his forearms, fingertips tracing lightly over the cuffs of his button down and suit jacket. “Looking pretty handsome yourself, Mr. Svechnikov,” you murmur quietly, pressing a little kiss to his exposed wrist bone.
Andrei’s body warmth heats your own skin and the scent of his cologne fills your senses, a blurry haze of lust and alcohol making time move strangely. Before you realize it, Andrei has you manhandled into the photo booth, the curtain pulled shut behind your bodies, and the button pressed on screen to start the countdown.
The screen flashes, taking a picture at the exact second Andrei’s hands on your hips force you down into his lap, the thick ridge of his erection nestling between your legs. Your eyes widen at the contact, a little gasp punching out of your lungs when you settle and feel how hard he is. “Oh!” you murmur, subconsciously grinding your ass back against him, stomach fluttering and arousal soaking your thong.
Andrei’s laugh at your back is low and gravely. “Smile,” he says, one arm banded around your waist, keeping you pressed firmly over his erection, his other hand sliding up your side and over your breast to rest at the base of your throat. His fingers curl gently, applying light pressure just as the second flash nearly blinds you.
“Andrei,” you rasp, arousal swirling in your stomach, cunt throbbing. Someone could accidentally slide the curtain open at any second. Someone is going to see the photo strip before you can snatch it.
Two thick fingers tap on your lower lip and you open your mouth automatically, conditioned to know what Andrei wants. His index and middle fingers slide past your lips, his thumb tucked under your chin. Your tongue curls around his digits, saliva already pooling in your mouth. Andrei hums a satisfied little noise against your bare shoulder, his fingers thrusting shallowly in your mouth. A shiver runs down your spine, nipples pebbling painfully.
A third flash, your eyes wide and lips wrapped securely around Andrei’s fingers. You catch a glimpse on the preview screen, Andrei’s face is only visible from the bridge of his nose and up. But you can feel the satisfied smirked curve of his lips against your skin. The arm around your waist tightens and you don’t know if you bounce on his lap of your own accord or if Andrei is the one shifting your body over his clothed cock.
A wet spot has to be forming on your dress’s fabric where it’s tucked under your ass.
Your body heats up, hottest where Andrei’s cock is nestled between your legs in the curve of your ass. And then all at once, the fourth flash and a cool draft of air on your right breast, your nipple an unbearably tight point as it’s exposed to the cool air of the arena. Andrei’s fingers are hot against the side curve of your breast, holding the fabric of your dress so you’re exposed to the camera. Your eyes are wide, lips clamped tightly around his fingers, a hiccuped gasp trapped in your throat.
“Andrei!” You hiss, finally coming to your senses, his fingers falling to your chest, leaving a wet trail of your saliva as they move to circle your nipple. He pinches the nub and you hiss again, fresh heat pulsing between your legs. His lips find your bare shoulder and his teeth nip your skin before he presses a kiss to the same spot. “Someone…” you breathe, finding it hard to manage a full sentence with Andrei’s fingers working over your nipple. “The photos…”
His chuckle vibrates through your chest and you shiver, pressing your ass into his groin.
“I can feel how wet you are,” Andrei’s voice is teasing. “You want someone to see, don’t you?”
You whine his name, embarrassingly wet for him and he knows it. His teeth scrape over your heated skin and with one last tweak of your nipple, Andrei stands, forcing you back onto shaky legs. His chest is solid against your back, cock still pressed tantalizingly to the curve of your ass, a brand against the silky fabric of your dress.
Andrei kisses the side of your neck, fingers groping at your chest while he pulls your dress back into place. You’re covered again, but just barely, the fabric slightly out of place and your pointed nipples blatantly obvious through the fabric. There are little wet spots from your saliva on the fabric and you exhale heavily when Andrei’s tongue darts out to lick over your pulse point, heartbeat kicking into overdrive.
You need him, desperately.
He laughs and murmurs softly, “how fast do you think I can make you come?”
The small space of the photo booth feels even smaller and you whimper, “very,” much to Andrei’s amusement.
“Let’s test that,” he says, one huge hand landing on your ass cheek and guiding you out of the booth with a firm press. You can’t even begin to imagine what you look like, too hot and probably lightly debauched. Thank god your lipstick wore off hours ago or it would be smeared all over your chin. Andrei smiles and nods at the people waiting and he snatches the strip of photos smoothly from the little well.
He looks down at the strip, a smug little smile pulling at his mouth. You try to look too, to see if the grainy film can capture just how debauched you feel, but Andrei clicks his tongue and tucks the photos into the inside pocket of his suit jacket.
“Ah,” he grins at you, “these are just for me. When I miss you on the road.”
You nearly stamp your foot, the pleasure coiled in your stomach waning to a dull throb, and Andrei catches sight of the pout that’s forming on your face before you can fully deploy it. He catches your chin in between his thumb and index finger, middle finger curled under your jaw, and dips his head low so he can whisper in your ear. “Be good, solnyshka. Maybe I let you take your own photos later, yes?”
Your stomach flips and fresh heat makes your head dizzy. Andrei smirks at you, knowing what effect his words have on you, especially when you turn into him, leaning your entire front against his side. Your hands trail over his back and stomach, just above his belt, and you look up at him from under your eyelashes. His stomach muscles contract under your touch and you grin. “I was promised an orgasm,” you murmur against his shoulder, enjoying the warmth of his body when he snakes his arm over your shoulder and holds you close.
“And you’ll get one,” Andrei laughs, pinching your wrist in his free hand when you slide it up his chest, fingers reaching for his jacket pocket and the photo strip hidden within. You whine and Andrei squeezes your wrist just a little bit tighter. “So impatient,” he kisses the side of your head and leads you off, around the crowds and down the tunnel to the locker rooms
“Andrei,” you frown to yourself as he leads you down the dark hallway, the noise of the Bash getting quieter. People definitely saw you leave and head this way. You’re not even sure if you’re allowed to be back here, in off hours. But Andrei’s hand is warm on your ass, heat seeping through the fabric of your dress, and he gives you a little squeeze.
When you look back at him, you see the faint smile on his face, the way his eyes are trained on you.
“I won’t let anyone see you,” he promises on a low laugh, knowing what you’re worried about despite the thrill that runs up your spine at the thought of being caught. “You’re all mine, remember. No one else gets to see how wet your little pussy gets for my cock.”
A little gasp is startled from your mouth at Andrei’s words and the low, rough tone of his voice. You barely notice that you’re inside the locker room now, surrounded by the stalls, until Andrei’s hand slides up your back and comes to rest in between your shoulder blades pushing gently, guiding you further into the room.
“‘M not letting you fuck me in here,” you mumble, thighs slipping against each other as you walk. “When’s the last time it was cleaned?”
Andrei laughs, clearly surprised by your comment, his mouth falling open so you can see the spot where his tooth is missing when you crane your neck to look back at him. He presses a soft kiss to the corner of your mouth, murmuring, “not here, we’ll go to training room.” His fingers dip under the fabric of your dress, raising goosebumps when the calloused tips of them trail over the notches of your spine. “I want to bend you over the table.”
“Oh,” a little puff of air slips past your lips, your mouth curling up in a smile. “I very much want to be bent over a table.”
You giggle when Andrei’s hand clamps down on the back of your neck, a surprised little shriek slipping out when he wraps a strong, thick arm around your waist and holds you to his side, legs dangling a few inches off the ground and swinging with his long strides into the training room. Your hands clamp around his forearm, clit throbbing and arousal dripping down your thighs. You just hope your dress isn’t wet, otherwise that’ll be an embarrassing return to the party.
Before you can blink, Andrei’s body is hot at your back, one broad hand pushing between your shoulder blades to bend you at the waist over one of the padded massage tables. Your body obeys easily, forearms crossed under your chest, propping you up slightly, your back arching. Andrei’s hand glides a hot path down your spine and then there’s cool air on your overheated skin, the fabric of your dress gathered in Andrei’s hands and bunched up at your waist.
He curses lowly in Russian, the rumble of his accent making your cunt clench and your hips cant backwards, searching for him. “Gorgeous,” Andrei mumbles, draping his chest over your back, kissing the bare expanse of your shoulder blade at the same time his hand cracks down on your exposed asscheek. You jolt forward, your skin heated, a surprised yelp forcing its way from your throat at Andrei’s spank.
“Andrei!” You whine his name and jolt forward again, dripping wet, when his hand cracks down on your ass again. His hand soothes over the heated spot, his lips marking a trail down your spine until he reaches the top of your zipper, mid-way down your back.
He laughs a little and his fingers dance over your cheek, dipping between the cleft of your ass and brushing up against the tight ring of your asshole. You grunt a little, clenching around nothing, a spike of heat sharp in your stomach. “Not tonight,” he soothes, fingers dancing down until they find your soaked cunt. “Soon though, again?”
You nod like a bobble head, lifting your ass even higher to get Andrei’s fingers against your swollen clit. He laughs at your needy whine, dipping his fingers lazily through your folds, letting his fingertips brush against your clit, but giving you no real relief. “So needy, solnyshka,” he mumbles, distracted. His attention is on your glistening cunt, dripping for him. “How many fingers do you think you can take now? One, two?”
“More,” you sigh, looking over your shoulder. “Three and your cock, Drei, please.”
He grins at you, flashing the spot where his tooth is missing, his eyes twinkling. “You want everything, yes?” A quick, sharp twist of his fingers against your clit has you screaming his name and lifting higher on your toes, liquid heat pooling in your stomach.
“Yes, please, fast. Baby, I want it fast,” you babble, words falling from your lips as Andrei’s fingers strum at your clit, stoking the pleasure boiling in your stomach. “Wanna go back to the party.”
Andrei’s fingers pump into you, middle and ring up to the first knuckle, and you gasp his name, moaning. “My bossy girl,” he leans down and kisses your shoulder, pumping and twisting his fingers. “In no position to be making orders.”
You lift up on your toes, pressing harder into the table with each push of his fingers into your cunt. “Andrei,” you chant his name in time with the press of his fingers, arousal gushing around his hand, dripping down your inner thighs. The rough pads of his fingers press and hold against your g-spot, making you see stars and sending you over the edge of pleasure, orgasm hitting hard and fast. The pressure of his fingers in your cunt and his other fingers twisting your nipples keeps you coming longer than usual, your cunt clenching his fingers in a vice grip while you squirt all over his hand and your legs.
He’s murmuring behind you, praise and filth that you can’t hear over the rush of blood pounding in your head and the high pitched whines and moans spilling from your lips. Your legs tremble, toes pressed against the soles of your heels, the thin circumference of the stilettos clacking gently against the floor as you shake. “Oh god,” you exhale harshly, back arched and hips pushing against Andrei’s. “More, please, baby.”
Andrei’s hands are hot on your ass, kneading at your cheeks. His right hand is wet, leaving damp trails over your skin and you shiver when he leans down to blow on your skin, the wet spots immediately cold. “Three fingers and my cock, yes?” He asks, laughing.
“Yesss,” you hiss, breaking off in a wail as soon as Andrei stuffs three thick fingers in your cunt, stretching and massaging the walls until you’re biting your fist so you don’t shriek too loud.
“Such a good girl,” Andrei praises you, curling his fingers and brushing his knuckles against your g-spot. “My perfect girl and her tight, wet cunt. Thinks she’s the boss, telling me what to do because she wants to go back to the party.”
His hand has a tight grip on your ass while he makes you come a second time, your own hand slipped down to circle your clit for extra sensation. The tug of pleasure low in your stomach builds until you’re seeing stars behind your eyelids, gasping breaths sawing from your lungs. “Too much,” you mumble, Andrei’s fingers thick and insistent in your cunt, working you to a third orgasm. Everything feels raw and sensitive, overloaded to border on pain.
His fingers slow down, gently stroking now, and you sigh. Your cheek presses against the cushioned tabletop and you look at Andrei over your shoulder, poking your lower lip out in a pout. His face is flushed, hair falling over his forehead, and he looks nearly as wrecked as you feel. You blink at him and he chuckles, folding at the waist to drape his chest over your back and press a sweet kiss to your pouted lips. You sigh against his mouth and when he sucks gently at your lower lip, a lick of heat travels up your spine accompanied by a lurch of arousal in your stomach. He tastes like alcohol and the faint salt of soy sauce, his sushi addiction made tangible.
A low hum works its way up your throat while Andrei’s hands work their magic. One broad palm slides up the curve of your ass and rests on your lower back, the other leaves the tight grip of your cunt and you can hear the faint clink of his his belt buckle being undone. You grin against Andrei’s lips and press your ass back against his groin, feeling the hard line of his cock and the cool bite of his open zipper.
He bites down on your lower lip and pulls back, briefly, before pressing another soft kiss to your lips. “Don’t move,” he warns you in a low voice, “or I’ll have to punish you.”
With a wiggle of your ass against his groin, you giggle breathlessly and retort, “what if I want to be punished?”
Your heartbeat still isn’t back to normal after the back to back orgasms and the way Andrei’s breath ghosts over your cheek doesn’t help regulate it. You can feel his hand move against your ass, the leaking tip of his cock hot against your inner thigh. “Solnyshka,” his voice is a low rumble, “behave and I’ll give you everything you want.”
You whine and nod, pressing back against Andrei’s cock. He’s bare, hot and throbbing against your inner thigh and when he slides the length against your soaked folds, the tip catching against your clit, you wail his name. He shushes you and prods the broad head of his cock against your entrance, your body accommodating the stretch of him as he slowly pushes inside. Your arms land flat on the tabletop and your fingers scratch at the cushion, hips pushing back on Andrei’s cock.
“Slow,” he sounds strained, voice wobbling a little. “Slow or nothing, solnyshka.”
“Okay, okay,” you cry, gasping when Andrei pushes another inch into you, the veins on his cock rubbing against the walls of your cunt. “Oh my god,” you clench around him, wet and sensitive. Andrei pushes in another few inches and the overwhelming fullness of him punches a breath from your lungs, legs trembling with the effort of not buckling. His hands are tight on your hips, surely leaving bruises that you’ll be able to trace with your fingers for days.
You’re drifting one hand to your chest, planning on playing with your nipples for extra sensation when Andrei gives one more harsh thrust and bottoms out, filling you to the hilt. His name falls from your lips in a strangled moan and you nearly scream when he rotates his hips, pushing his cock deeper and scraping your bare ass with the zipper of his fly. The elastic of your thong bites into the crease of your thigh where it’s been pushed aside this whole time.
Andrei’s voice rumbles behind you, Russian mumbled in time with his thrusts. You squeeze around him and he groans, slapping the side of your ass gently before reaching around your hip to pinch your clit. You yelp and instinctively buck your hips, pulling off his cock a few inches. Andrei’s hips chase yours and you’re stuffed full of him again, incoherent babbling filling the air.
“Too much,” you whimper, his fingers toying with your clit and his cock battering your g-spot. Forget going back to the party, you’re going to be a dehydrated husk on the floor if Andrei keeps this up, arousal dripping down your thighs in obscene rivers.
Andrei pulls back, leaving just the head of his cock nestled in your cunt, stretching you out. “My girl, she talked a big game,” Andrei laughs, pumping his hips in shallow little thrusts. Your cunt clenches around just the tip, the strange feeling of being stretched and empty at the same time making you whimper and claw behind you for his hand. He moves one big hand off your hip and laces his fingers with yours, squeezing gently.
“More, oh god, Drei,” you whine, trying to fuck yourself back on his cock, but Andrei won’t move and only gives you the head of his cock and an inch or so more.
“I thought it was too much?” Andrei’s tone is faintly mocking, a laugh bubbling beneath the surface. You growl a little and kick your foot out, clipping his shin, which only makes him laugh harder. He keeps you in limbo, stretched open on the head of his cock and giving you no more. “You want another orgasm?”
“Yesss,” you hiss, reaching your free hand down to find your clit. The sensitive bundle is sore and reactive, little zaps of pleasure running through your body as soon as you roll it between your index finger and thumb. You’re nearly there, primed and ready after the two previous orgasms.
Andrei releases your hand and you can feel him shift behind you, gripping his cock in his hand and stroking himself, hand bumping against your soaked folds as he goes. “Better get it before I come,” Andrei says, stroking his cock faster.
Your brain is fuzzy, blood pounding in your ears. “Huh?”
Without pausing his hand, the tip of his cock twitching in your cunt, Andrei repeats himself, “if you want a third, make yourself come before I do, solnyshka.”
“Andrei…” you mutter, eyebrows drawing together in confusion. Your fingers stumble over your clit and the rhythmic stroking of Andrei’s hand on his cock is distracting you.
“Fast, we want to get back to the party,” he teases, groaning as he works himself over.
Bastard.
Your fingers get back to work, moving on autopilot, and it only takes a few seconds to realize that the half-full feeling your cunt being stretched open on the head of Andrei’s cock is doing more to hurt than help you. You need more of him, more that he won’t give you, and you press your forehead against the tabletop, groaning as you play with your clit.
It’s right there, your orgasm, building fast in your stomach and you’re nearly at the edge when Andrei grunts and you feel his cock head twitch, spurting come, hot and thick into your cunt. “Fuck,” you moan in unison with him, clenching and wriggling as he fills you up, coming for several long heartbeats. You give your clit a few more swipes, pinching and rolling until the coil of pleasure snaps and you’re following Andrei over the edge, coming with a shriek of his name.
“Cheater,” Andrei gasps, voice hoarse. He pulls his cock from between your legs, his come immediately dripping out of you.
“Too fucked out to argue,” you mumble back, shifting your weight and rubbing your thighs together slightly. You feel too empty now, the phantom impression of his cock still making your cunt twitch. He presses a kiss to your shoulder and tugs the fabric of your thong back into place, making you wince and wiggle.
“Keep that safe for me,” he murmurs, tucking himself back into his pants. His zipper is loud in the quiet training room, his belt clinking again in an echo of a few minutes ago. Your thong is immediately soaked and the wet fabric sticks to you in a way that’s bordering on unpleasant the longer it touches you.
Propping yourself up on an elbow, you twist and look back at Andrei. His face is red and you can see that his pupils are still dilated. “I have to go back out there like this?” You ask, finally shifting your weight so you’re standing upright. Your knees wobble and more fluid drips down your thighs - thanks to gravity.
He leans in and kisses you quickly, tracing the tip of his tongue over your lower lip before pulling back with a wicked, dimpled grin. You know you’re in trouble even before he says, “you wanted to get back to the party, right? Go ahead.”
“Andrei…” you feel your lips poke out in a pout, nose wrinkling at the thought of trying to walk around the arena and rejoin the party like this.
He repeats your name in the same tone, cupping your chin in his palm. “If you’re good, I’ll clean you up at home,” he promises, reaching down to pull your dress back over your hips and ass, squatting while he straightens the fabric out. You shiver and he feels it, resting his cheek against your thigh. He looks up at you with those big brown eyes and gives you a smile that’s softer than his words.
You run your hand through his hair, curling your fingers around the back of his head and shiver again, thighs slick and cunt clenching faintly around nothing. You really should know better than to let Andrei get his hands on you in a private space, you have no one to blame for your current situation but yourself.
“Can we leave early?” You murmur, when he stands up and steps to the side to pump some hand sanitizer into his palm. Your legs are less shaky than you thought they’d be when you start following him out of the training room, but you’re still walking a little bowlegged.
“Oh,” he stops short and turns to grab your upper arms before you can bounce off his back, “now you want to leave early?”
You hum, flattening your lips into a line, and deadpan, “yeah, because now I’ve got come dripping down my thighs.”
Andrei laughs and kisses your forehead sweetly. “Can’t leave before it ends,” he loops his arm over your shoulder and you fall into step next to him. “Responsibilities to team, solnyshka.”
“You’re such a menace,” you grumble, leaning against his side as you go, with a brief stop for Andrei to actually wash his hands with soap and water. You’re not about to let him subject the fans to what went down in your personal life, no matter how uncomfortable you are right now. You twitch and shift your hips, wincing when a fresh spill of liquid hits your thong. If your dress isn’t covered in damp spots, it’ll be a miracle.
His hand finds your lower back like a magnet and you emerge back into the party area, the dim lighting doing the most to hide your slightly disheveled state.
You make it barely ten feet before Andrei is distracted by a small group of fans. You take a group picture for them and then wander off in search of a drink. After finding one and knocking back half of it, you drift off to the sides of the transformed rink and Nykki appears at your side. She has a wicked grin on her face and you’re already shaking your head before she opens her mouth.
“I can’t believe you snuck off for a quickie,” she cracks up and holds her phone in the air, “and it wasn’t even that quick!”
“In our defense,” you can’t help but laugh a little, “it was three quickies and that adds up to however long we were gone.”
“Forty-five minutes, babe,” Nykki informs you, whistling under her breath. “I’m beyond impressed and inspired to go and find Martin.”
“I recommend waiting,” you sip at your drink and wriggle again. “Or finding a condom.”
Nykki’s delighted laughter is swallowed a bit by the noise in the arena and you laugh along with her, acutely aware that people around you are starting to look over. Including your boyfriend.
Andrei catches your eye and winks at you, his dimple popping out on his cheek. He wiggles his fingers at you in a little wave, the same fingers that had just been buried to the second knuckle in your cunt, and you flush.
His smile widens and you roll your eyes at him, even as you press your thighs together to stop the way they tremble.
At your side, Nykki scoffs. “You two are shameless, it’s hilarious,” she teases.
You press a hand to your heated cheeks and shake your head, “I can’t even argue with that right now.”
The party lasts a few more hours, your attention drawn by the fans and Jarvy’s attempt at bartending. Before you know it, Andrei is at your side again, holding your coat in one hand.
“Ready to go get cleaned up?” He teases quietly, holding up your coat for you to slip your arms in. Once you’re bundled in the coat, burying your face in the collar, Andrei holds you to his side and you head for the garage.
“Hmm,” you hum, arm wrapped around his waist and face pressed against his side, “it’s been a few hours, I think I want to get dirty again.”
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OUR PATHS | 11. dubs in the chat (wc: 1k) cw: mentions of cheating
JAEMIN arrived at your room within five minutes of your request, carrying a handful of your favorite snacks and the little comfort items he’d used with you the last time a storm had kept you up. as he took off his slippers, settled in, and began prepping a quick late-night meal using the dinky hotel kettle, you couldn’t help but feel your heart melt the tiniest bit. not only had he taken you up on your offer to come by, but he’d also remembered exactly what you needed on nights like this.
you both ate the instant ramen he brought over, the two of you sitting on the edge of your bed. the silence between you felt heavy, like there were words piling up but no clear path forward. yet, the ramen was almost too good for midnight, and in its own way, it helped ease the tension. it was hard to admit, even to yourself, but this was exactly what you needed. his quiet, steady presence and his little gestures of thoughtfulness, even after all this time, still made a difference.
after a few moments, you noticed jaemin watching you as you finished your last bites, a pensive look in his eyes. suddenly, he spoke, his voice almost catching, as if the words were slipping out against his own will. “i’m sorry. and i’m sorry it took me so long to say it.”
your eyes widened slightly, not expecting the conversation to start like this—or even tonight at all. you tried to brush it off, hoping to avoid the inevitable heartache that you knew this talk would bring. “is this what you’ve been meaning to say the past few days? you already apologized, no?”
jaemin shook his head softly, his gaze still fixed on you. “y/n, you know that’s different... why do you keep trying to push me away?”
you took a deep breath, focusing on the ground, summoning the strength to finally open this door back up. “you really broke my heart, do you know that?”
his voice was quiet but determined. “let me be the one to put it back together, y/n, please. i really am sorry for everything. i’m sorry i didn’t get to show you how much you meant to me when i had the chance.”
a beat of silence passed, and you took a shaky breath. “do you even want to tell me why you left? because you never did. you left without saying goodbye, and that fucking sucked. i wish you would’ve at least broken up with me in person.”
jaemin’s shoulders tensed as he processed your words, his face contorted with regret. “i know. and, god, i am incredibly sorry. i know this is all still confusing and frustrating for you, but you have to know i never stopped loving you. i still love you. i just... i needed to figure things out about myself.” he paused, as if bracing himself, then continued. “a couple of days before i sent that text, i ran into my ex on a work trip.” he laughed bitterly. “it seems like I’m always running into my exes…”
he continued on,”i don’t know if you remember, because i barely mentioned her when we were together, but we were together for a long time, and she cheated on me. our relationship was messy and toxic, and she left me with a lot of trust issues and self-doubt.”
jaemin’s voice faltered briefly, but he continued. “when i saw her, i found out she’d actually signed up for the work event on purpose, just to give me ‘closure.’ but instead of helping, it brought back everything. it was like i was reliving all of it—how we ended, how messed up that relationship was. it made me realize that i hadn’t really dealt with any of it, and that i’d brought all that baggage into what we had. i needed to work through it, but i thought that would hurt you more than just ending it.”
he looked up at you, his eyes pleading. “how could i love you properly if i hated myself so much?”
your voice was barely a whisper. “but why didn’t you just tell me all of that, jaemin? i didn’t want perfect. i wanted you.”
“i know,” he replied, the weight of his guilt clear in his expression. “i shouldn’t have just left without even attempting to have a conversation. but after what she put me through, i didn’t want to put you through the same thing. i didn’t want you to feel like you had to deal with my issues for me. and, knowing you… you would’ve done just that. you would’ve sacrificed your needs and happiness for me, and i’d been in that exact position before. it always ends badly.”
the room fell silent as his words hung in the air. finally, jaemin continued, his voice softer. “i regretted it as soon as i sent that message, though. i tried to reach out, to fix things, but you blocked me on everything. i even tried to see you in person, but… ryujin told me to stay away.”
you let out a small, humorless laugh, shaking your head. “oh god… ryujin… of course.”
he hesitated on his next words, but ultimately pushed through it. “i know it’s not enough to make up for what i did. i know it’s not going to change how much i hurt you. but i need you to know that i really am here, and i’ll do whatever it takes to earn your trust again.”
your eyes locked onto his, the vulnerability in them matching your own. “you hurt me, jaemin. and i don’t know how long it’s going to take for me to get past that.”
he nodded, his gaze dropping. “i get it. and if you want me to back off, i will. but if there’s even a small part of you that wants to give this another try, then… let me prove that i’ve changed.”
after a long moment, you finally whispered, “i’ll forgive you, jaemin.” you lowered your voice even more, “i-i still love you too.” jaemin perked up at that note. “but i need you to really show me that you mean it. prove to me that you love me the way you say you do.”
his eyes softened with a glimmer of hope. “i will. whatever it takes.”
the storm outside continued, but somehow, you felt a little more grounded.
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𝐀𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐥𝐨𝐰 || 𝐌𝐢𝐠𝐮𝐞𝐥 𝐎’𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐚 𝐱 𝐅𝐞𝐦!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫
part one: Love in the time of pastries // part two (this one)
𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲_ after Miguel stood you up on a date, there’s bad blood. He’s crawling to have your forgiveness, you’re not taking it. Until everything turns into a secret that shocks your Spider Society’s best friends. 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬_this is long, age gap (legal), idiots to lovers, secret relationship, angst, fluff, Miguel mandilón, mentions of sex and babies, NO proofread. 𝐀/𝐍_ afterglow and superlove from my playlist<3
♪ ♫ My Miguel O’Hara playlist. ✰ Index (+ fics here)
Whoever was tapping a pen against a binder, was pissing Miguel… heavily.
He was focused to keep looking at the door. You hadn’t come in yet. And you had been out for two days.
When Miguel asked Jess, she said… women stuff.
Even if Miguel denied the gang to be his friends, to his dismay… they had split up.
After the news of the failed date between you and Miguel, there were three sides.
Peter, Pavitr, and Gwen claimed Miguel had made a mistake but deserved another chance. On the other side, Jess, Lyla, and Miles were pretty sure that you were in your whole right to feel hurt and that Miguel should stay away from you.
Finally, the third side; Hobie and Margo. The two individuals were persistent in letting time amend things.
Only that time hadn’t done much in a week.
A lot of spiders are already inside the room.
Jess and Miguel are about to give new announcements and debriefings.
His eyes landed on you. He lacked a spider-sense, but he could hear his own heartbeats thumping on his ears and stomach as you arrived.
You had your suit, but a long dark blue sweatshirt covered half of your body.
Miguel wondered why you were wearing black sunglasses; maybe she was tired, or she thinks she looks bad without makeup, he thinks. Nonsense, she always looks pretty.
Margo is seated beside you, both of you chat and you smile once in a while.
You were trying your best to ignore Miguel. In a matter of a week, you had seen a side of the man you never thought you’d see.
He called your name softly, hoping to get an answer. But it wasn’t the one he desperately needed.
Just a polite reply that seized when you understood it wasn’t related to work.
So you shut his feelings out of your life, it’s for the best.
Things were slightly awkward whenever you had to be around him and your friends. Everyone noticed it. Suddenly you didn’t know how to behave, because things with your friends were okay, but with Miguel were not.
He’s just your boss, nothing else. He never was, is, and would, never be anything related to you besides being your boss.
“Is he looking?” You’d ask Margo. And through her cool mask with a bunch of eyes, she’d shake her head.
“Nah-, oh… he is now” your heart beating faster out of nowhere. The pair of black sunglasses covering your eyes would hide everything.
“Fuck…” you whisper, lowering your head.
“He’s back at talking with Jess” Margo explains. But Peter’s voice makes you forget about Miguel for two seconds.
“What? No Mayday?” you ask in panic. The baby girl was your excuse to avoid Miguel’s gaze.
“Sweet y/n, MJ and I were lucky to make her sleep so easily” She was also your only salvation to keep a sane conversation with your friends. Or else, it would always end with the different opinions everyone had about your current relationship status with Miguel.
“Damn it, Peter. You just ruined my day” you say exaggerating. The man rolls his eyes and Margo is giggling.
“C‘mon, you���ve been in a mood since the… situation with Mig-“
“DONT-… say it” You hurry to pretend to seal Peter’s lips. He shrugs.
“You should forgive him, I’m pretty sure he never meant to “
“Peter, Miguel is not innocent, but only time can heal this…” Margo explained softly. To which Peter rolls his eyes again.
“Time will only set them apart. More than they already are…”
“Yeah, but emotions are not easy and-“ you suddenly hear them, only sinking further into the chair of the room. Which is almost at full capacity now.
“Miguel likes her, y/n likes Miguel…What’s stopping them to-“
“I don’t-“Neither of you two end your sentences, because Jess is demanding silence.
You want to say you don’t like Miguel… but you do. You did since you joined the society. Only that you ignored it because of many factors. And you never thought he would ever look down at you.
But he did, and now you had him constantly begging you.
About the meeting; the go-home machine would change its location, one of the training centers would be refurbished, your bakery would need extra staff and missions would be announced through the gizmos.
Miguel looks at you one last time; you’re giggling with some spiders that get close to talking with you. Peter is there being goofy as usual, and Margo is a good individual.
He’s going towards you, but suddenly someone pulls him from the wrist.
“Don’t go…” Jess says to him.
“Why?” The woman huffs annoyed. Miguel thinks he’s losing time.
“She’s on her period. You don’t wanna mess with her in that state” he’s near the edge of blushing. Of course, he knew about periods, but sometimes he forgot that even you had it once a month.
“Cat got your tongue?” Jess asks playfully.
“What do you want me to say?”
“Maybe you will stop chasing her and let her life like a normal young adult?” Miguel sighed.
When he turned to the door, you were gone.
Of course, he had thought about that. What if he was wrong? Liking you could be dangerous because it was very likely you weren’t even meant to be with him.
And that only made his pain bigger. Just when he had accepted that Gabriella and his late wife could be happy for him.
Still, his heart used to beat ridiculously faster just at the sight of you.
…
There weren’t a lot of bakery tools in the HQ. And you didn’t know how to move around Nueva York. And of course, you wouldn’t ask Miguel to take you on a culinary shopping trip.
So you went home to take a good amount of utensils that might be useful.
The hallways are cleared, good for the pile of bowls, spoons, and spatulas in your arms.
You want to hurry, as Pavitr and Gwen were waiting for you in the Spider’s lounge cabin bakery.
At the end of the meeting, you thought it was better to get yourself busy with the bakery rather than staying home, crying about the cramps and your broken heart.
“Shoot…” you mumble once you have stumbled into someone. Some of the spoons fall all over the floor and you have to bend to get them.
Panic assaults you. The last time you left Pavitr and Gwen in charge, the bakery was full of angry spiders demanding their orders. Cash is being thrown at the teenagers and Pavitr at the verge of tears because of the pressure. You really wanted to hurry up.
“I’m sorry…” you say, only to encounter Miguel, who’s helping you to pick up the spoons.
“It’s okay…” he replies softly, giving you a warm look that you opt for ignoring.
“Listen, y/n…” you look over his broad shoulder, encountering Miles, who was eating an empanada.
“Miles!” The boy turns and you are quick enough to secure all the utensils in your arms before sprinting away from Miguel.
He saw your hands shaking as he spoke. And it only made him sigh tired as you ran away from him. Once again…
That’s when he seriously thought about something.
The canon…
“Lyla?” He asked, and seconds later, the AI appeared beside him.
“Yes?”
“Let’s go to my office. And show me things”. He demanded.
“What thing?” She asked, painting her nails.
“Really?” Miguel was tired of the AI forgetting about all the canon events models.
“Oh. Right…”
…
“Show me y/n’s canon events.” Lyla nodded, all the webs and millions of connections appeared around Miguel.
He had never seen your fate. And to be honest, he was nervous.
But he stood rigid and stoic as usual. Until your red web appeared.
All the brothers you could ever have never survived. Your mother had spontaneous abortions, and the babies would be born sick.
All the friends you ever had, always left you. Misunderstandings, envy, miscommunication.
The only love you ever had, died in your arms. He meant to save you, and you needed to protect him, ending in a traumatic catharsis.
Miguel felt like he was seeing a mirror of himself. He was also meant to be alone. Nobody to pat his shoulder and say everything was going to be fine.
He had a brother who passed away.
He never had friends, always betrayed him.
He had a love, but it wasn’t real.
He had his daughter, probably his true love, but wasn’t real either.
“I told you…” Lyla said.
“What thing?”
“She’s meant to be on her own. And begging her will only break her model. Do you want that, Miguel?” His hands landed on his hips. A clear sign of him being stressed.
“When it’s gonna be my turn to be happy then?” He asked, sounding a little more angry than he intended. Lyla sighed, sad to see Miguel like that.
“Okay, calm down. We haven’t finished seeing her canon events” she said trying to spread some hope.
As your web expanded, Miguel saw more details about you; you were thirteen when you were bitten. You had fallen in love with your Peter Parker but he stayed with MJ. Then, at fifteen, your Harry Osborn came, and… it didn’t end well.
“Oh-, wow. Miguel…” Lyla called him. When he looked at the “future”, his jaw almost dropped.
The last line of your web slowly started to grow, and move around the Arachno-Humanoid-Poly-Multiverse.
He saw you would be a famous chef in your earth and Nueva York. But his heart stopped after that…
“No…” he whispered. Destiny could be cruel, but Miguel never believed it; until your web intertwined with his.
“Then-, ups. Guess she wasn’t meant to be on her own after all” Lyla said, but Miguel never replied. He stood there for around five minutes appreciating what just happened.
Suddenly Miguel feels he has a personal purpose.
He’s not sure how two people from different universes could be together. Maybe it was fate beating canon for once.
He’s able to have someone by his side again.
Knowing that it was you; it made him happy. And for the first time in a very long time, Miguel was ready to love again. He didn’t have to think twice, to think if it was correct or not.
“Do not tell y/n” he said to Lyla. The AI nodded.
“Actually, do not tell anyone” Miguel stated, walking out of his own office.
…
It’s 10:40pm and you’re slightly sweating. Your window is open and the air barely soothes the heat.
The module of literature class of the week was so close to being done. You wanted a free weekend to rot in your house while your parents worked.
With the earphones on and loud music playing, you don’t see some pair of your shoes and boxes levitating.
Only the bright portal opening in front of your dresser was enough to make you turn.
You weren’t expecting anyone; you had scheduled a sleepover with Gwen and Margo in about three weeks.
But oh surprise; it was Miguel fucking O’Hara entering your room.
“Miguel?…” Your anxiety levels went up, and you ran to throw your earphones on the bed and close the door of your room.
“WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE?” You whisper-yell to him. His mask never showed any emotions, like him.
Miguel inspects your room shamelessly.
Too many books, perfumes, figures, and toys.
Unexpectedly, he found everything so interesting. Nueva York was all about the future, but here, with you… it felt homely.
“You’re lucky my parents are asleep” Since they claimed the master bedroom was too hot in summer, your parents sleep in the living room with a fan at maximum capacity.
“Oh really?” He mocks, chuckling under the mask.
You look so small and cute in a lavender shirt and pajama set. Wet hair that slowly is turning into curls and bare feet.
“Why are you here?” You ask once again, growing angry. Miguel had never ever been in your house, not even in your neighborhood.
Even if you were shocked, you hadn’t forgiven him.
“I’m not giving up. We need to talk…” After some days, you knew it would be hard to get rid of him. So if there was no turning back, you should listen. Just, maybe…
“God, you just forgot about the fucking date. It didn’t work out, just leave it” You spit as if it was a platitude.
“No. You know it’s more than that, y/n” Miguel was a man of word. And everyone knew that, so yeah… probably he wasn’t lying about liking you.
“Okay. Talk, but say it straight to my face. No mask…” he liked your words.
The mask disappeared, and as always, you weren’t ready to encounter his face.
The first seconds pass with you and him staring at each other.
Hopefully, you two would solve your problems just by looking. It wasn’t the case though…
“Can you hear my heartbeat?” He asks lowly. You are staring at his chest, probably his ribs. Because if you look straight, that’s what you see.
Until you raise your head again, to tremble because of his eyes.
You can hear his heartbeat, almost see the dopamine.
“Are you nervous?” You answer with another question. He smirks, face coming closer to you.
“No. I’m-…falling in love” your eyes shut closed. Your mind, is blank, even when your heart screams the reason you already know.
You’re falling in love too.
“No…Miguel-, you can’t because-“
“Chiquita, cállate. Por favor…” he moves, looking at your room once again.
The more he looked at your belongings, the more he was fascinated by you.
“Can I?…” you nod as he asked permission to seat on the edge of your bed. But soon your exaggeration invaded.
“WAIT!. Just-… Not with the suit on” he chuckled, noticing you were embarrassed to ask him to take off his suit.
He nods, giving a barely visible smile.
“I’ll turn around” you state, looking at your own image in the mirror.
By accident, you looked to the north, encountering Miguel’s back.
His suit was disintegrating; he was naked.
OH GOD-…
You could see his strong back. His light cinnamon skin and perfect muscles.
But as your eyes traveled across his back, your eyes landed on his ass; also naked.
Soon you remembered, he was naked. And all of the situation was happening just in seconds. Your only getaway was closing your eyes.
“You can turn now…” now in normal clothes, he had a hoodie and sweatpants. Making him look beyond desirable. And you hate yourself for thinking that way just after seeing his back… naked.
“What you’re feeling is not foreign to me, y/n,” he said, finally seating on your bed. He looks massive, yet soft. His hands holding the edge of your mattress, and he seems to be inspecting your notes displayed on the bed.
“Loving someone can be dangerous. Especially when you know you’re meant to be alone” The fact that he accepted canon wanted him alone made you feel sorry for him. But it also caused a sting in your heart, since were meant to live the same way.
“Because as much as we try to live the life we desire, we only cause chaos”
“Stop-“ you warn him. Scared to reach the subject of your Harry.
“I’m in your canon events.” In the beginning, you don’t believe him. But quickly, he’s pressing some things on his gizmo.
A quick glance at your canon events; your unborn siblings, friends betraying you, becoming Spider woman, losing Harry, having depression and surviving it, getting injured because of the Spot, and being together with Miguel. In a romantic way…
The man regrets showing you everything so suddenly because he watches you wipe your eyes with the back of your hand.
“Since when did you know about this?” You asked coming closer to him. He can see for the first time the tons of moles covering you, your lashes, and clean eyebrows. God, she’s so pretty.
“Yesterday. Lyla showed me” You nod, sighing.
He’s taken aback when you come to stand between his tights, hands grabbing his shoulders and getting painfully close to his face.
“Miguel. Every time I’ve fallen in love, it never ends well, cause-“
“Can you tell the same about me?” The trauma of losing his family was more than enough to understand him. But you’re still very scared, of losing him this time.
“I’m not gonna be able to handle a second time being stood up”
“We’re not talking about the theater anymore. Are we?” You smile, shaking your head.
“I don’t want to lose you too, Miguel”
“But you won’t. I’ll always come back… for you” Nobody would ever believe what was happening. Miles, Jess, and Lyla would be disappointed with what you were about to do.
“What about our dates? Is it going to be a thing of you to never show up?” He sighed in relief, smiling proudly.
“It was an emergency. I had to “
“Save the universe. Yeah, I know.” You interrupt him with another smile.
Again. You are just staring at each other like idiots. You don’t even remember he’s in your house. You’re in pajamas and it's the end of the summer.
“So you’re one of my canon events” he nods, confirming the news to you.
“Are we good? Are you ready for this?” His question makes you blush.
“Maybe? Yeah… I think so” Now you are free to caress his wide shoulders. He closes his eyes because it relaxed him.
“I’m sorry for the date, chiquita” You nod.
“With the news, the date is so long in the past”
“I’ll make it up to you. Now, it’s a promise” he can’t lie again. Not when canon is blessing your possible relationship with him.
You look at his lips, and the desire for him comes again.
“I’m gonna kiss you now…” you say, leaning closer. He’s eager for whatever you’re about to give him. Cause he was pleased just by you looking at him.
“Kiss me…” he accepts.
So you do it. Slowly, you melt your lips with his in a sweet kiss. His lips are soft, and his hands grasp your hips, moving you closer to him.
Probably two minutes into kissing, you start giggling.
“What?” Miguel asks on your lips.
“We can’t tell the others. Not yet…”
“I’d like to be your secret boyfriend,” he says.
“Boyfriend?” Your arched brow makes him blush.
“Well…”
“My soon-to-be boyfriend” you correct him, brushing his hair, and noticing how soft it is.
For the first time, Miguel is not afraid of showing emotions. He isn’t afraid of love anymore.
…
It’s funny, sweet, and goofy how you have to hide your new relationship with Miguel.
“Why were helping Miguel so late now?” Jess asks suspiciously.
Now, you stayed with Miguel doing everything and nothing. Mainly talking while organizing anomalies that needed to be sent home.
“I’m a coding girl. I’m being useful” You know Jess doesn’t believe you.
“I thought you were avoiding him”
“It’s been a month since that, Jess. I’m a mature woman” she giggles.
“In that case, that doesn’t explain why he was at your house the other night”
“What?”
“Gwen. You were having a sleepover and Miguel appeared out of nowhere” You roll your eyes.
“I forgot my mask, dear”
“Girl, if you’re lying to me-“
Miguel calls from your gizmo. You smile happily.
“I need help over here” he’s fighting a Mysterio on Penni’s universe. You know a date after the fight was granted.
“Duty calls…” you say to Jess.
As soon as you turn left, your gizmo is on again, calling Miguel.
“Do you still need help?”
“Not really, bonita. But what about a quick shower and we head to dinner?” You smile again.
“Sounds interesting”
“Te amo mucho, chiquita”
“Yo más, corazón” you reply feeling all the love in your chest.
Certainly, you were living a fever dream. Miguel O’Hara was your boyfriend.
“No. Yo más…”
“No-“
“Okay, enough. You, humans, get so obsessed with loving and all of that…” Lyla says appearing in your left shoulder.
“Are the hallways clear?” You ask her.
“Yep. Clear and free”
You open a portal, and since nobody can see, you head to Miguel’s place in Nueva York.
Jess saw Lyla talking to you. And she’s not convinced. And she knows who should receive an intervention.
…
Lyla was painting her nails when she was attacked by the most annoying gang; Hobie, Gwen, Peter, Miles, Mayday, and even Jess by their side.
“We deserve an explanation,” Peter says.
“Woah. What are you talking about? The AI asks.
“Miguel and y/n. Are they together?” Gwen asks now.
Lyla sighs, the little desk beside her disappearing as she descended to the gang.
“Miguel was very clear to keep his private life… private”
“So are they together or not?” Hobie asks, crossing his arms. As usual, the icebreaker was straight to the point.
“As Miguel’s second hand I-“
Someone called; Miguel of course.
“Lyla, archive today's reports and turn off the machine in my lab, please,” he says before shutting down the communication.
“Wow, he said please” Lyla points out.
“Look, location says… Tacos varios?” Miles asks with terrible Spanish pronunciation.
“It’s here in Nueva York,” Peter says excitedly, making Mayday giggle and shooting webs to nowhere.
“Let’s go!” Gwen says confidently.
Lyla only rolls his eyes.
“Crap…” she says.
“I knew you were aware of this” Jess points at the AI.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about” Lyla replies pretending to be cleaning her heart-shaped glasses.
…
Miguel knows you’re not listening to him. You are distracted by the smell of tacos.
“Did you hear anything I said, hermosa?”
“Hmm?” You ask looking at another couple eating an order of tacos al pastor. The pineapple slices look so juicy, and the beef looked so fresh. Your mouth was watering.
“I said if you wanted an agua fresca”
“Oh yeah. Horchata, please. We can share if you want to” he nods, standing up.
The place was humble and comfortable, even with the line of people waiting outside.
Even with the group of spiders in disguise looking from another table. Yeah, they followed you and Miguel.
“This food is so good,” peter said with his mouth full.
“Peter, don’t talk with your mouth full” the man shrugs as he looks at his baby in Jess’s arms.
“They look… friendly,” Miles says.
“Friendly, huh?” Hobie hints at something else. No one notices.
Miguel comes back with two plates; your tacos a vapor and his mulitas. A big cup of agua de horchata too, which looks small in his hand even when the cup was the biggest in the restaurant.
“Do you like onions?” your boyfriend asked you.
“I do. But I’d rather not eat today, or else… no kisses for you” Miguel rolls his eyes, chuckling.
Everything was fine. You were amazing and he felt happy again.
“Fair enough…”
“Oh, hey…uhm-. My parents are going out for the weekend. Do you wanna stay with me?” You were nervous about the question. Since the relationship was new, you didn’t want to push anything.
“I could stay with you…” neither of you was suggesting sex because neither of you needed to know you were in love with each other.
“Great. We can make dinner, bake something together, and watch movies. I can show you my books while we do skincare” Again, he rolled his eyes.
But he could only think one thing; I love my silly girlfriend.
“I don’t do skincare,” he said eating his mulita.
“Don’t worry, I don’t make it annoying…” you don’t want to finish your food because you’ll likely get another order and you didn’t want to get bloated. Not during an amazing date.
“I trust you, bonita” you giggled.
The spider group was getting impatient, all you did with Miguel was talking and laughing. Jess pointed out that Miguel never shared his food, but now, he was sharing his beverage with you.
“That’s weird,” she said, but nobody was listening since Peter ordered another order of tacos de canasta. Jess only rolled her eyes and started seeing what else happened.
“Oh look, they’re going out” Hobie was so fixated on his taco that he didn’t even hear what Gwen said.
You dumped the trash and Miguel waited for you at the entrance to get out.
You took his hand and it felt so right. His fingers responded and intertwined with yours.
“What now?” He asked.
“Dunno, Is there space for something sweet on your stomach?” Miguel smirked. Of course, you would want something sweet.
“There’s a bakery at the end of the avenue” Smiling, you nodded to him.
Unbeknownst to you and your boyfriend, you’re being followed by the nosy spider gang.
“I’m going home… I bet they’re dating and… at the end, I’m happy for them” Jess said.
“Are you leaving? Really?” Peter accused her.
“I miss my baby and man. Bye…” and with that, she opened a portal and left.
The bakery Miguel mentioned was at full capacity. A little line to get inside and the order was visible.
“Get in the line. I’ll get something for you” you nod confused. Miguel leaves and it’s impossible to lose him as his broad and tall figures move across the crowd of Nueva York.
You have an eye on the piles of cannolis and cheesecakes. Miguel paid for the food, which you would spend on dessert.
You remember your debit card doesn’t exist in Nueva York, but you had some cash valid on earth- 929.
Without seeing him, you know Miguel is back with you. He kissed your head before wrapping his arms around you, and a little bouquet of poppies in front of your appeared.
“Miguel!” He chuckles, kissing your head once again.
“I wanted to give you flowers since the first time”
“These are beautiful. Thanks, mi amor” You turn to grab the bouquet and kiss him deeply. Miguel found himself surprised to see how fast he had changed.
He deepens the kiss, some people in the line might send judgmental looks at him and you. But he doesn’t care.
He’s lost on your lips, concentrated on making you feel loved and happy.
Until he listened a well-known voice.
“Thank god you two are here” Miguel and you stop kissing only to meet Lyla.
“Lyla? What are you doing here” you ask looking at the little AI. Miguel must be feeling so angry. He was always very clear to not be bothered on his free day, except in case of a real big emergency.
“Why are you here? I’ve been strictly clear about-“
“I’m sorry. I accidentally showed your location when you called and the kids heard and-“
“I KNEW IT!” You’re not understanding anything. Miguel huff annoyed and rolls his eyes at the sight of his least favorite coworkers.
“All of you! Ugh-…” your boyfriend starts, pointing at Lyla, Hobie, Peter, Mayday, Gwen, and Miles.
“Me tienen hasta la madre. What are you doing here?” Suddenly there’s only one person left after you to buy a treat. You are so confused and Miguel already is thinking of ways to apologize for another half-failed date.
“You’re dating, right?” Gwen asks covering her mouth and smiling along with Miles.
“You two have to be dating. The hands holding, sharing drinks, and that kiss. Wow, you looked so adorable holding her cheek” You’re blushing, Miguel is at the edge of being flustered.
“Peter. Shut up…” Lyla warns Peter.
“Yeah. We’re dating…We just wanted to keep it private… for a little” You can’t help to laugh when everyone starts cheering.
“But…How? After the theater thing we thought-“
“Miguel is in my canon events,” you say before entering the shop and leaving everyone in shock.
Your boyfriend only stares there, awkwardly.
“Tell Jess, I can’t believe this!” Peter yelled at Lyla, who was very nervous wondering how was Miguel.
The 6’9 foot tall man wanted to activate his suit, grab you by the waist and get you out of his earth and take you to your beautiful house.
You are paying for a little box of sweets, and he can’t wait for you to get out.
“This is amazing. I’m so happy for you” Peter pressures Miguel, smiling and caressing his shoulder.
“You two already have plans or what?…” Hobie asks for the first time.
Miguel sends him a bad look, and thankfully, you’re out. Standing beside Miguel to hug his arm.
“We’re going slow, guys. But yeah, canon indicates it’s safe for us to be together” Your touch is what is keeping him from yelling at some teenagers and an adult once again.
“Oh yeah, canon indicates that… in about 18 months, a baby could pop in from these two” Lyla spills like nothing.
“WHAT?” you basically scream in the middle of the street.
Miguel’s eyes only widened before he exchanged flustered looks with you.
A baby? In a year and a half? No way.
“Oh-, ups. I didn’t show you that part” the AI said to Miguel.
He looked Lyla like wanted to kill her. Which made the little AI disappear immediately.
A long conversation with would happen eventually.
“Well, congratulations,” Miles says giving you a hug. You accept it, but you’re still in shock.
“Mystery solved. Can we go home now?” Hobie asks sarcastically.
Miguel agrees with Hobie for the first time.
After some awkward goodbyes, you are alone with Miguel again.
“That was weird but funny. Don’t be too harsh on them on Monday, please” he sighs, following back to his place.
“They can’t simply invade our privacy and walk out like nothing, y/n”
“Well yeah, but… They are our friends and they mean well”
“Correction. They are your friends” he says opening the door of his building for you. Is a futuristic apartment complex. And Miguel owns the biggest of course.
“Deny it as much as you want, but they are our friends” Miguel shrugs.
You already have a lot of things in his place. Your parents didn’t know yet. They would likely disapprove but easily get used to it. Especially since Miguel is the best boyfriend.
And in a month, he had convinced you to love so hard again.
“Chiquita, I want this weekend to be just about us. Can we?” You nod, taking your slippers and going straight to wash your hands. He watches you put the flowers in a cup, it makes him feel like he’s achieving domesticity with you. Miguel gets some forks and plates for the pastries you bought. And soon, you are snuggling on the couch with the pastries and glasses of white wine.
“What do you think about Lyla and what she said?” You were dying to know. But too scared to actually find out.
“She’s not lying. And… if that’s our future, I’ll be happy” There’s a lot to know about each other, but you like how everything was developing.
“All those fears of being alone or losing you are over. I have you and whatever it is, it’s gonna be fine”
“Ay, Miguel. Te amo tanto, corazón” he smiles, leaning to leave his plate on the little table of the living room.
“Yo mas, mi vida” Whoever you two were in the past was gone.
These new versions were eager to be lovers.
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Stacy's Tipsy Musing's - Colin Bridgerton Hot Takes - Part 4
Ok boys and girls, we need to have a little chat about Colin Bridgerton.
Part 2 has been out now for a couple of days and there have been a lot of hot takes to come out of the season. A LOT of hot takes. I’m going to break this down into 4 parts. 4 questions that I'm seeing really bad hot takes about Colin.
Now none of this is new, I gotta say before Season 3 aired Colin was a hot button topic anyway. He seemed to be the Bridgerton brother that lots of people love to spew hate takes on anyway. But damn I gotta say its painful seeing the Polin fandom have so many bad takes falling from their lips.
So, I figured...having a little drink tonight, sitting down for Father’s Day (Happy Father’s Day, Colin) I’d give you the opinion on some of these takes that you didn’t ask for...Mine!
Last time we talked about Colin’s entrapment statement to Pen and if he truly meant it. Question 1, Question 2, Question 3, now lets get to Question 4:
How could Colin refuse to listen to Pen and just jump in to fix the situation with Cressida?
Colin “Hero Complex” Bridgerton to the rescue! This one is the easiest to answer because it has been coded throughout all 3 seasons to his character.
Season 1: Needed to save Marina from ruin. Even after finding out that she lied to him, tricked him, was pregnant with another man’s child, he STILL would have married her if she had told him she loved him. Like the boy had hero written on his chest and wanted to rip his shirt and fly into the sky to save her. He was the star of his own action story until it all came crashing to the ground the moment the damsel told him she didn’t love him. She thought him a foolish child.
Season 2: We have a couple of hero moments in season 2. He’s still stuck on there being a chance at redeeming himself at saving Marina, visiting her to see if she is happy, if there is anything he could have done differently for her. And once again he is told to stop living in a fairytale. The damsel is not in distress.
Our second hero moment comes in Jack Featherington. This time he gets to be the hero; he saves the ladies Featherington from his schemes. He proves him to be a fraud and runs him out of town. He has no idea that Portia is actually in on the scheme or that it has put the Featherington house into its own ruin at this point, but he rushes in to save the day without thinking ahead of anything else. Damsels in distress, Colin to the rescue.
Season 3: Ok, Pen needs to find a husband, Colin to the rescue. Balloon in Pen's path, Colin to the rescue. Pen is in danger, the Queen has advanced on her, and now Cressida is threatening. Colin does not even hear Pen the moment she speaks, all he hears is danger and he begins to act. His wife is in danger, and he will protect her. Hero mode activated. Again, Colin does not think ahead, he only thinks that his purpose is to protect. So he does not stop to listen to reason, he doesn’t hear Pen’s words or even sense, he just takes action.
The action at hand was apparently to go have a therapy session with Cressida Cowper, because that is what he did. A passionate plea with a woman who had no empathy. It was one of the best scenes however, because it was interesting to me that Colin was unable to tell Pen how he was feeling, but he opened up to Cressida and spilled his thoughts. Why? Because he did not care about her judgement, he did not care about her feelings toward him.
He admitted to feeling loss when Pen did not respond to his letters, he admitted to becoming a fraud, a shell, a person who closed himself off to feelings because he lost the person who opened him up to that piece of himself. He spoke of Pen’s treatment, he also tried to separate her once again from Lady Whistledown as if Pen was simply working for the woman and not actually the person holding the quill.
But Cressida was quick to pass her judgment, she clocked his jealousy immediately. He tried to appeal to her about love, family, fairness, and loneliness. Things he incorrectly assumed she would understand, but Colin, just like Eloise, is a sheltered Bridgerton’s who do not always understand how lucky they are, and he misjudged her reaction.
And our hero returned defeated by our villain. He faced the consequences of rushing in without listening to his wife. She thanked him for his counsel and his heart sank. Once again, the damsel did not need him. Once again, his purpose was gone.
It is only when she tells him she does not need him to be her hero, she simply needs him by her side that he understands his purpose. He doesn’t need to rush in to be her hero. He simply needs to love her. Sometimes the damsel saves herself. Colin truly is that wonderful romance hero I dream of.
Stick around for a bonus question....
I can’t believe Colin was going to just take 20,000 pounds from the Bridgerton funds, he doesn’t even have a job to take money from the family?
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