#but I’m happy with it

[thenightshadowqueen]

Okay I said I had more to say about Victor and Eli and I’m rereading Vicious again so here we go. (This is going to be a long one.)

Okay. I’m going to try and get my thoughts to be coherent but I’m struggling because oh my fucking god I just want to scream about them. That being said, I’m going to try to make sense, but this is mostly just going to be a rambling rant of all my thoughts of them.

The thing is. The thing is. Victor is obsessive by nature. He picks one thing, and he lives for it. For the majority of Vicious, what he lives for is revenge. He never thought about the after. In Vengeful, his obsession is finding a cure. But back at Lockland, his obsession was Eli. He saw this monstrous thing, hidden under this near-perfect façade, and he was fascinated. Eli “stole” Angie (his previous obsession, from the way he talks about her in the few mentions she gets), and Victor couldn’t even find it in himself to be angry, because he was too interested in Eli.

From what we know of Victor, he almost never finds someone he can tolerate, let alone someone he likes. And that must be desperately lonely, living like that, but he wouldn’t have realised that. Not until Eli. So no wonder he can’t let him go, even after everything. And Victor doesn’t keep grudges. He kills people out of necessity, yes, and practicality, but not out of vengeance. He doesn’t hold on to things. Except for Eli. Because when you have that much love for someone, and you base so much of your life around them, and then they betray you (how Victor sees it), you can’t just let that go. You can’t just move on. Victor didn’t just feel betrayed; he lost his best friend (and the man he was in love with). And that’s not something you can forget.

Now, look at it from Eli’s perspective. He’s spent his whole life trying to mimic human emotions, trying to be like everyone else, trying to bury this thing inside him that doesn’t fit in. And then he meets Victor, and he sees himself. And, slowly, he starts to realise that he can open up. He can be himself. I don’t think most of this was conscious for Eli—he’d spent so long masking that I don’t think he even knew he was doing it anymore—but I think it’s a big part of why he was in love with drawn to Victor. Imagine spending your whole life repressing yourself, and then finally finding someone who not only accepts your sharp edges but craves them. That would be so fucking addicting.

And then Victor kills Angie, and it’s like confirmation of everything Eli was afraid of: that this dark thing in you really is evil. After all, its mirror, your best friend, just murdered your girlfriend. (Again, I don’t think this was conscious for Eli, but I do think it played a role in the path he went down.)

But no one has ever understood either of them like the other did, and no one ever will. And because of that, they’re both so deeply, wholeheartedly obsessed with each other. They spend so much of their time planning to murder each other, trying to impress each other, playing these dark games with each other. Victor could have just sent a message to meet up with Eli, but instead, he set up an elaborate riddle game via the police EO database. Entirely unnecessary, but crucial to them and their deepseated obsession with each other. And Eli played along. And in Vengeful, Eli could have told Stell that they were hunting Victor. But he didn’t. He couldn’t, because he needed to be the one to kill Victor. Victor was his, in whatever way you want to interpret that phrase.

And I guess that’s what it boils down to. Victor is Eli’s, and Eli is Victor’s. His to love, and his to hate, and his to kill. And that is the great tragedy of Evervale.

[serendipitousseapen]

Inscryptober: Week 1, Transformation.

“Now tell me, what have you done to my pupil?”

[vimcnight]

You were such a wee thing...

[cosmic-hoboandthehighlander]

No one’s ever had me…

not like you.

Twojamie - “So High School”

[webhead3345]

I’m very into fairies right now, so I wanted to draw something from @skyward-floored’s HC concerning Warriors in this fic:

[warpeddaydream]

Hi! Sorry it’s been forever, I’ve been working on my art skills! I’ve also gotten back into Psychonauts (I grew up playing it,) so this is fanart for that!

(Don’t worry, I’m not leaving the RotTMNT fandom, I just figured I’d have some fun with another fandom I like.)

[eywaseclipse]

“A son, for a son”

Edited my me. Not too bad huh!?

[a-nice-egg-offering]

The two of us are just young Gods

[floofsselfshipblog]

Thinking about Frost and how he was likely closed off at first around Heed and PEACE. How he really only acted like a soldier and less of a person. Then I thought “Wait- how would Heed react to seeing him laugh for the first time?”

Safe to say- she likes it when he laughs

[lickithrice]

Guys, I’ve finally written a poem for the year.

[fienyx]

I made another one~

Literally dont know how to photograph this too look nice😭

[jackalspine]

@schnuffel-danny hehehe

regarding this post: from schnuffle

[froody]

cis people will say “I found out I’m having a baby girl at my anatomy scan and I’m experiencing gender disappointment” but be mad when you say “who knows? maybe you’ll end up with a son anyway”

[mangozic]

my dead goth son and his friendly neighborhood personified concept of insanity

[artsymeeshee]

Don’t know why I wanted to draw this dumb, silly idea but here we are lol

[aesthetic-uni]

It’s that time of the year again