#but I won't take any chances

[ax3-e0ns]

Headcannon: Remus also likes Disney but for sorta similar reasons as Virgil, except on an entirely different level. 

Roman, Virgil, and Remus could all sit down and watch Beauty and the Beast but while Roman watches with the focus on the romance and Virgil on the Stolkhome syndrome takes, Remus would sit and watch it under the lens that the movie is one whole dissection of the aids epidemic. And because Roman and Virgil wouldn’t have the background understanding, Remus would need to explain how the major director for that movie was not only a gay man but also a gay man who was severely sick with aids and HIV related complications during the aids epidemic and how that information actively molds the very narrative and message of the movie in his eyes.

[not-poignant]

August 2024 Writing Round-Up

Here’s the monthly round-up of everything written and posted in August 2024!

Here’s the chapters that were released:

Underline the Black 93

Underline the Black 94

Underline the Black 95

Underline the Blue 18

Underline the Blue 19

Constellations 09

Constellations 12 (Gary+Efnisien Tier+)

Underline the Blue 20 (Gwyn+Augus Tier+)

Underline the Blue 21 (Gwyn+Augus Tier+)

Chapter Commentary - Underline the Blue - 18 (Mosk+Eran Tier)

Chapter Commentary - Underline the Blue - 19 (Mosk+Eran Tier)

FANFICTION

A Stain that Won't Dissolve 41

A Stain that Won't Dissolve 42

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All Patreon early access chapters are mirrored at Ream, which is anti-censorship, author-friendly, and supports diverse fictional writing.

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Behind the scenes I wrote 30,204 words in August across Underline the Black, Constellations, and Underline the Blue. In reality, I only wrote one chapter of the last two, and seven chapters of Underline the Black. The most I've written in any month this year. This is why there was no Palmarosa update! I'm so sorry!

The burnout is real, folks. This month (September) I'm also starting back into my tumour/cancer surveillance (I have 3 head/neck tumours, 2 have been treated with radiotherapy but never shrunk, and 1 hasn't been treated at all, so they all need regular monitoring for the rest of my life). This stuff tires me out, the scanxiety is real.

I feel like one day I'll look back on 2024 as a really hard year, and I know I'm not the only one. If you're reading this now, and you're going through a hard year, I'm sending you love and solidarity, because there just seems to be a lot of shit going on for mostly everyone. Please hang in there, we all deserve better years.

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As always, you can support the stories you love by subscribing over at Patreon and Ream! You can also follow for free, and just get email notifications of news and other things that I release to everyone. :D

[evulosie]

     𝑯𝑬𝑳𝑳𝑶⠀𝑻𝑯𝑬𝑹𝑬⠀𝑪𝑼𝑷𝑪𝑨𝑲𝑬𝑺 !!⠀⠀it's 𝗞𝗥𝗔𝗘𝗛𝗘⠀—⠀28 year old long-time-roleplayer who can never quite stay away from Tumblr, here today to offer you all with a LUTE / EVE roleplay blog from Amazon's Prime series, HAZBIN HOTEL ...     𝜑𝜀𝛼𝘩,⠀𝜑𝜎𝜇⠀𝑟𝜀𝛼𝜕⠀𝜏𝘩𝛼𝜏⠀𝑟𝜄𝑔𝘩𝜏 !!     this blog explores one of fandom's many theories in which Lute is Eve in disguise,⠀⠀—⠀⠀totally cool if that's not everyone's cup of tea, but for those who are interested...⠀⠀please take this humble half-assed dash promo as me getting my foot in the door.     if you would be so kind, please give this post a 🩷 / ↻ for me to check out your blog !!    would love to get some interactions going !     while you're at it,     i implore you to look at my pinned post,     if you would be so kind !

[ * ]⠀⠀PLEASE   BE   SURE   TO   READ   THE   BLOG'S   PORTRAYAL   NOTES;   I   BORROW   FROM   THE   JEHOVAH’S   WITNESSES   INTERPRETATION   OF   BIBLICAL   LORE,   BUT   I   AM   OPEN   TO   DELVING   INTO   OTHER   BRANCHES   OF   CHRISTIANITY   &   CATHOLICISM.

[blackswallowtailbutterfly]

Still haven't messaged my mom back. And I don't think I'm going to.

[viledevilcunt]

though that does actually remind me of something i wanted to talk about. i see people go on about how "mental illness/trauma/abuse doesn't make you an asshole or abusive and saying that it does only further stigmatizes those disorders!! that's your choice to make!!!" and usually follow it up with "look at me, i have xyz and I'M not an asshole!!!!"

except...it does. it absolutely can. when you're not taught any different, when you're never given any tools to learn how to regulate, when you're in my situation - and i sincerely hope that no one is, despite how extremely unlikely that may be - people do not react like they do on TV or in fanfiction. no amount of stomping your foot and screaming and reblogging posts with tangents about how edgy someone is for experiencing anger, hate, frustration or any other "negative" emotion is going to change that. you want to shame or embarrass them into silence, into behaving like a proper victim should, or for them to set their jaw and be a survivor who sets a good example for others; that doesn't always happen.

again, this isn't fanfiction. i know your ao3 history and lack of ability to relate to or understand anything you don't agree with might tell you differently, but in real life there is no book or website that you can sit down with for 10 minutes and get all the answers on how to suffer nicely and look pretty while doing so. sometimes years and years of therapy doesn't fix everything (ask my 10+ doctors.)

you don't have to have empathy for these people, but maybe ask yourself why people who have been through bad things may react poorly or lash out without brushing them off as "oh clearly they're a stupid faking bitch whose never had anything bad happen ever" and why someone reacting differently than you makes you so angry

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Are you aware that I'm-a-gay-fish and Zu ship dr//m/are ?/genq

okay so it took me a while to answer this but i finally found the words to so here goes; yeah i do know, and i totally understand if you don't ship it, neither do i, but there's nothing i can do about it?

they're allowed, so long as they don't harm people, to do whatever they want on their own platforms. and before you ask me if i support *ncest, would you actually ask someone if they support toxic relationships and murder whenever they ship two unhealthy killers with mental problems? because that's funnily enough what most people do around here! you can say it's not the same, and that they're romanticizing it, but i can personally detach myself from fiction enough to realize that while this concept depicted in their art shouldn't be recreated in real life, that doesn't mean they actually engage or support people that do that irl- they asked zu the same question so many times, and frog doesn't either and i've known gayfish for three years! you're well within your right to stop associating with them or distance yourself from their content but i myself won't.

i know fiction affects reality to a degree, don't twist my words please, but if you're too young to consume that kind of content with a nuanced perspective or is triggered/affected by it then as long as they tag their content properly then you can unfollow, block and move on. i have a habit of following and reblogging people's works before looking at their bios and before i know it find myself having to choose between two sides i don't belong to and i frankly don't want to! anti this or proship that- in this online era you have to adapt by keeping your cool and curating your own online experience and viewing people in black and whites is stressful, painful and dangerous for everyone involved. i don't even reblog the content you probably have a problem with, and i'm honestly still scared of the response i'll get-

i will not blame or hate whoever unfollows or blocks me for this, it's to be expected, but please don't think about it like some bad vs good guys dilemma? sometimes thought provoking morally grey ambiguous stories with messed up characters spark more positive discussion and healing than people looking into it because they suffer from the same delusions and want a justification-

like realistically, in my blog, most ppl here are basically shipping two literal skeletons with magic in their bones who are sometimes almost the exact copy of one another, and who theoretically have a very similar dna, and sometimes they make shipkids, which, if you know anything about *ncest, is one of the main reasons why you shouldn't bang your siblings - mostly from a moral standpoint because that's so gross i can't even think of it, but also because any offspring would suffer greatly from physical and mental diseases hidden in their genetic code- like. you could argue it's not the same but it's sancest for a reason. and even when they're widely different sanses, you wouldn't think fell x sans is wrong (at least in this specific community) but really we've all just gotten numb to how weird that sounds. trust me, there's a reason we don't talk about our ships to outsiders HHH

TL,DR: so while i greatly encourage you to block people and content you don't want to see/associate with, including me! i hope i made it clear why i, personally, don't care about dreammare and whoever ships it.

[set-wingedwarrior]

I want thank all the people who haven't lost hope and are willing to share it and fight.

Your posts, comments and tags make me feel better.

[sysig]

Roleswap(?) (Patreon)

[themuseoftheviolets]

had a very big day at work today i learned how to reset an ice cream machine and finally made a complaint about one of my coordinators to a manager. feeling very accomplished

[menshusband]

What does a man have to do not to live in constant dread

[fisheito]

Imagine you have to set up yakumo's enclosure for the next couple months. How do you set it up and what do you put in there?

oh NO.! THE PROPPHECY HAS BEenm FUFILLED

i am standing in my room, leggies rooted to the floor. i am in shock .frozen and i have no idea how to proceed. there is a perpetual pathetically sobbing serpent under my blankie.

[thecityofdoors]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOLIDER!!!!!

[gwydionae]

Never have I been more grateful that time travel exists in the X-Men universe.

[forcebookish]

feel like i'm being gaslighted by the ofs fandom like where are all these wild think pieces coming from we can't possibly be watching the same ONE EPISODE of the same drama

anyway,

[maeamian]

Switched my voter registration to vote in the Republican primary instead of the Democratic one considering there's at least a chance that'll be competitive by the time it gets here and all the non-presidential offices have top-two primaries rather than party based ones.

[terraos]

Having to decide if I should be delusional or accept reality (which I cannot do without crying)