#ATM looks likely to be Haley if anyone

[maeamian]

Switched my voter registration to vote in the Republican primary instead of the Democratic one considering there's at least a chance that'll be competitive by the time it gets here and all the non-presidential offices have top-two primaries rather than party based ones.

[mill3nniumforc3]

2023: A Year in Review: Part 2

After breakfast, Russell and I decided to explore Ocean City since we didn't think we'd ever be back. I asked Bridgid if she wanted to come with us, but she said no. We drove towards the end of the strip and parked in a public lot to explore (we ended up going to an ATM in Dunkin to get cash for the lot). We explored the boardwalk, and bought a few souvenirs. The weather was so nice, and it was cool seeing the beaches so crowded. Once we were done exploring, we rode back up to the condo to relax and eat lunch. We ate peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and chips outside while looking at the ocean. After lunch, my parents and Bridgid left to get ready for the wedding, leaving me and Russell by ourselves. We got ourselves ready, and relaxed before heading down. My mom gave us the name of the place where we could park. Once we were parked, we went to the beach to find the wedding set-up. We sat down in the seats, where my mom, Bridgid, Fiona, and Zach joined us. Fiona became the stand-in maid of honor since Haley (Moira's high school bestie who was supposed to be the maid of honor) somehow wasn't able to make it despite KNOWING when the wedding was and having accommodations offered (including my mom offering to drive her and have her stay with them). The wedding itself was nice, despite Duncan interrupting the wedding by hopping and ribbiting like a frog, and then throwing around the flowers in the sand.

After the wedding, there was a small reception held at Seacrets Distillery. The bartender was a very heavy pourer, and I got drunk after a drink and a half. I started with the signature drink that everyone was drinking, and then had a coconut rum and pineapple juice cocktail. I went to the bathroom during the reception and nearly fell off the toilet when I went to grab the toilet paper. I asked if anyone else thought the toilet was wiggly, but everyone said no. Moira initially told me there wouldn't be food for me to eat because she "forgot" that I was a vegetarian (it's been 12 years!), but she managed to get one of the pizzas changed last minute to something I could eat. At 9pm, the reception ended. Everyone was going to head to the bar for an afterparty, but we opted out of it since we had to drive back to Georgia the next morning.

June 18th, we woke up to the smoke detector going off. My parents decided to cook breakfast since me and Russell had to get going. We had pancakes, eggs, and bacon (I didn't eat the bacon obviously). After eating, it was time to go. I said goodbye to my parents and Bridgid, but I knew I'd see them again very soon. We made one more stop to McDonald's so I could get a bagel, and we were on our way. We wanted to avoid going through Baltimore and D.C. again, so we drove on US-13 out of Maryland and into Virginia until we got to Norfolk, where we switched to US-58 until we got to I-85. We followed that all the way back home, stopping at Sheetz again for dinner. By the time we got back to the house, we were exhausted... and we found out our A/C went kaput while we were gone, so the house was hot. Ick!

We thankfully didn't have to wait long for the A/C to be replaced. It was replaced on June 20th.

On June 25th, Kathy had a freak accident. She was unloading the fulfillment center truck when she didn't realize the door wasn't latched. She commented on how windy it was outside, and then she got smacked on the back of the head by the door. I was attending another car when it happened, so I quickly finished up with the customer and ran to check on Kathy. Another customer in the lot who saw what happened worked in the medical field and helped out. I asked Kathy if she wanted water, and she said yes. I gave her a bottle of water and got the other customer's order ready. The next day, she confirmed that she had a concussion from the incident.

July

The Oscar Mayer Wienermobile was visiting UGS. I got my picture taken with it!

On July 3rd, I had another incident at work. (TW: medical, blood) I was walking in our area when I accidentally cut my leg on a protruding shelf. I thought it was just a scratch, but I was bleeding pretty heavily. I asked Imelda for help, and she called for Bert on the radio. We thankfully got the bleeding under control, and all I requested was a tetanus shot, which I got two days later. I decided to get a COVID booster too while I was at it, since we were going out of the country soon.

I was off on the Fourth of July, but we didn't do anything special. We grilled at home, but that's it.

I had a pregnancy scare. My period was very late, and if we didn't have a big trip coming up, I probably wouldn't have been as upset about it, but I was. I vented to Kathy and Anna about my concerns. Anna offered to buy me a pregnancy test, but I didn't want our coworkers to ask me questions. I ended up buying tests on my own from Walmart. I took one of them when I got home to see, and it was clearly a negative. Two hours later, my period started. Go figure!

Our biggest adventure of the year (our trip to St. Lucia) started on July 15th. We got up while it was still dark outside to catch our flight. We parked at The Parking Spot, took the shuttle to the airport, and made our way through TSA (which was surprisingly very easy!). We stopped at Concourse D to get money out of the ATM, then went to Concourse E to get breakfast before our flight (I got a chocolate croissant and campfire mocha from Caribou Coffee). It was supposed to leave at 9:30am, but ended up being pushed back to 10:45am. After eating breakfast, we walked to the gate when I saw someone pushing a u-boat with Twizzlers. I wanted to follow them, but Russell told me we had to go to the gate. We sat in the corner by the window to watch the planes while we played on our Switches. Russell went to the bathroom at one point, and stopped at the gift shop to get us drinks and gum... and he also bought me Twizzlers. When it was getting close to boarding time, I went to the bathroom since I didn't want to go on the plane (it was a 4.5 hour flight to St. Lucia from Atlanta). We got on the plane and took our seats, only for us to be delayed because one of the overhead compartments in first class wouldn't stay closed. At 11:15am, we finally took off. I put on my headphones and watched some movies, which made the flight go by rather quickly. I drank all of my water bottle plus water offered on the plane, so I inevitably had to go to the bathroom on the plane. I was nervous because I was afraid we'd go through turbulence and I'd get locked in the bathroom (Russell told me that wouldn't have happened). After I was done, I walked back to my seat. We landed at UVF around 4pm, and as soon as we made it through customs, we were greeted by Sandals workers. We went to the Sandals Lounge area, where I went to the bathroom again (all that water I drank didn't help) and had my first of many drinks on vacation. We got into a van that took us to the resort. It was estimated to be an hour long drive, but it ended up being closer to two hours because of a car accident (lots of shitty drivers everywhere, I guess). When we finally got to our resort, we were greeted by workers in song. Since we arrived so late, we couldn't have our tour. The workers brought our luggage up for us while we got checked in. When we got in our room, we freshened up before heading for dinner, but not before taking in the view. We could see the pool and the ocean. We went to The Cricketer's Pub, where I had Fish and Chips (which came with mushy peas. I hate peas, so I gave them to Russell) and bread pudding, which was topped with rum raisin ice cream. I ate around the raisins because I don't like raisins.

We woke up around 8:30am on July 16th, excited for our first full-day of vacation. We got breakfast at the Pavilion, which was set up buffet-style. I had smoked salmon (which was served cold for some reason?), banana bread, a banana (the first of many I'd eat. St. Lucia has the best bananas!), and mandarin oranges. After breakfast, we went to get our tour with the Club Sandals Members Services. Two other couples were going on the tour with us, and we were led by Sameera. She showed us the jewelry store, the spa, amphitheater, restaurants, and other amenities were. After the tour, Russell and I changed into bathing suits to check out the pool and swim-up bar. After a while, Russell went to get us pizzas from Bella Napoli (I just wanted cheese). I was a little skeptical, but the pizza was actually fantastic. I happily ate the whole thing, and Russell also got us a chocolate banana pizza for dessert. After being in the pool for a while longer, we went back to our room to shower and dress for dinner. We went to Neptunes, where I had Calamari Fritti, Linguine alle Vongole, and Baklava. After dinner, we went to an event being hosted called The (Not-So) Newlywed Game. Russell said we should volunteer for it, but I felt kinda awkward about it since we aren't married. It was funny to watch though.

July 17th: we got up decently early again, and decided to make it a complete pool day. We got up for breakfast, where we went to the Pavilion again for a breakfast buffet. I had noticed there was an omelet bar, so I chose to take advantage of it. After we finished our breakfast, we got changed into bathing suits and went to the pool. The staff hosted fun activities in the pool, from trivia to pool volleyball. There was of course plenty of drinks to be had, and I found my favorite to be DB (which was a Dirty Banana haha). A friend we made in the pool told us to try out the Bob Marley, which wasn't bad, except I don't like strawberry daiquiri. After a while, we decided to get ready for dinner. We went to Pitons, where I had St. Lucian Accra, Pan Seared Snapper, and Soufrière Chocolate Cake. After dinner, we went to the pool to watch a group that danced with fire (and ate it!). They also did limbo under fire poles, and after their set, they invited guests to limbo under an unlit pole.

July 18th: we slept in a bit that day, and we chose to make today a beach day. We ordered in breakfast, but it wasn't as good as it was in the buffet. After we finished eating, we dressed in bathing suits and went to the beach. We found that every cabana was taken since we slept in, so we left our stuff by the pool and went into the ocean. I got a little nervous when we went a little ways away from the shore, but we got to lay down on rafts that were on the buoys. It was actually very relaxing. After a while, we decided to head back to the pool so we could reapply sunscreen and see if anything cool was going on. We kept an eye on the time since we had dinner reservations and wanted to have time to shower and get dressed. We made it to our reservation at La Toc, where I had Tartare de Thon, Roulade Végétalienne, and Opéra Pavé. After dinner, we decided to just chill in the room.

July 19th: since we were so disappointed in the room service breakfast, we went to the Pavilion for breakfast. After we finished, we chose to stay in the room for a bit and figure out what we wanted to do. After we ate lunch, we chose to just go to the pool for a little while. We put on sunscreen before going on down, and got some drinks. I saw they were doing a tie-dye event, and they were selling them for $20 each (which honestly isn't a bad price!). We got our t-shirts made, and they said we could pick them up in the gift shop later. I diligently put my sunscreen back on after 80 minutes, but as I came to find, it just wasn't enough. We went to get dressed for dinner, and my back was completely red. It hurt so bad, but I sucked it up. We got dinner at Armando's, which required us to take the shuttle since it was up a hill. I had Parmigiana di Melanzane, Rigatoni Bolognese Vegani, and Tiramisu. After dinner, Russell rubbed my back with some aloe we brought.

Part 3 up now. Fucking character limit...

[pastelbatfandoms]

The Alpha WIP

A/N: This is currently a Work in Progress,Since I still need to write Part 1! But I’ve found it’s easier for me to write what is in My head atm instead of trying to force a cohesive plot.I know the general plot of The Alpha,i just need to put it into words.And if what’s in My head is long enough and makes sense,I will post it here. 

In case anyone needs some back story though I will say that My OC Marianna is a Telekinetic Werewolf,her Alpha being Peter. They fell in love when she was human and she is around 18 when the story starts. Her personality is a cross between Haley Marshall and Lydia Martin (Her BFF). Marianna is a part of The Hale Pack. More Info about her is HERE. 

Part 3 is a mixture of Season 4B and Season 6A of Teen Wolf. Of which Marianna has saved Peter and Lydia from Eichen House but she,as well as The Group have no memories of them. 

Part 3:Say You’ll Remember 

The Sky was dark and the clouds heavy with rain when Marianna finally returned to Stiles House. She saw him anxiously waiting on the steps for her. Stiles looked up quickly when he heard Marianna's boots on the gravel,she had changed in the car. He rushed over to her,enveloping Marianna in a hug.

"Oh thank God,I wasn't sure you'd make it out of there." Stiles exclaimed rubbing Marianna's head.

Marianna grinned and replied,her head on his chest. "Stiles I'm a Werewolf remember."

"Oh Right." Stiles let go then,putting a hand to her cheek and asked. "Did you find Peter and Lydia?"

Marianna frowned,nodding. "Yes but I still don't remember Peter." She looked up at Stiles. "Do you remember Lydia?"

Stiles shook his head no. "I feel like we should though." He said biting his lip.

"Scott said we should." Marianna replied. "Anyway I got them out but I don't know where they went."

"We'll find them. I'm just glad you're okay." Stiles says softly as he leans down to give Marianna a gentle kiss.

They don’t notice a Man staring at them from a distance. Hidden by the dark.  

It was then that Marianna heard more then saw,A shadow pass by,followed by a low growl,then a cry from Stiles as he is ripped away from her and flung to the ground. Marianna starts to go to Stiles who is laying with a hand to his face. Then she stops and looks over at the man,or Werewolf rather,who had done it. Marianna noticed his dark slicked back hair and all black attire but she also noticed the claws on his hands and the fangs jutting out as he snarled at Stiles,his eyes glowing and his body rigid,ready to take another swipe or bite at the boy. 

Marianna recognized that look and not just because she had seen Scott,Derek or her Pack wolf out. This was different this wasn't out of protectiveness,because I mean c'mon it was Stiles,but Jealousy and possessiveness...over her. Because this Wolf was... "My Alpha." Marianna whispered in shocked realization as her memories started to return,one after the other. Marianna knew something had been missing,she just hadn't known what. ((How could I forget you...)) She thought tearfully. Marianna see's him advance towards Stiles,who has a wide eyed fearful look on his face,as Peter raised a clawed hand up.

"Peter Stop!" Marianna screams out. Peter stops then as he seems to snap out of his wolf haze long enough to slowly bring his eyes towards Marianna,his eyes dim,though his claws are still out,fangs still extended,But Marianna knew he was in control of himself,Peter just wanted to show Hierarchy. Like Stiles didn't already know... Peter walks over to Marianna,a look of relief and longing passing over his features. "Marianna...do you remember me?"

"I do now. You're My Alpha,My Mate." She tells him with a smile as he takes her into his arms,searching her eyes. "I heard you Howl,you came to save us. But then you left so I went to find you and I found you with Stiles..." Peter snarls,looking down at the boy and gripping Marianna's arms. "Why were you..?" Marianna shakes her head. "I'll tell you later,but first-" She is interrupted by a scream. "Stiles?!" Marianna looks to find a Strawberry Blond haired girl running over to kneel by Stiles. Marianna smiles in relief at her,Lydia. "Are you okay?" Lydia asks Stiles tearfully. That same recognition and love as Marianna had towards Peter,lights up Stiles face as he remembers her. "I am now." Stiles reply's as Lydia kisses him. Marianna turns back to her Wolf putting her arms around his neck. "See you have nothing to worry about. Stiles is with Lydia again. You can show dominance in other ways,I'm sure." She finishes with a cheeky grin.

Peter's eyes light up at her suggestion as he pulls Marianna closer,his canines returning to normal as he gives her a deep kiss. 

But as they walk to the car,Peter puts a hand around Marianna's waist and growls in her ear. "Don't think  we're done talking about you and The Boy just yet." Marianna rolls her eyes with a smirk. "Lets just go home Alpha." ~~~~~ Once they reach The Loft,Marianna gets out of the car,Peter close behind,They hadn't said a word the whole ride,Marianna could still feel Peter simmering at the thought of Stiles and her together. Marianna walks into the loft,her back to Peter,as he slowly shuts the heavy doors behind them. "I know you're still upset. I can feel it." Marianna says without looking at him. 

Peter lets out a sound of frustration. "I don't like thinking of you with that kid." (( Or anyone else for that matter.)) Peter thought to himself.  "Why would you be with that Human and not me?!" Peter raged trying to contain his anger he balled his clawed hands into fists. 

Marianna whirls on him. Both of there eyes glowing like Yellow and Red Embers. "Because I didn't remember you! They took you and Lydia away and our memories where erased. Stiles was there for me,we were childhood friends and we found comfort in each other." Peter's eyes dimmed to there normal electric Blue and claws shrank,he seemed to calm down as he listened to her side. Marianna walked over to Peter and slowly took his hands. "I still felt like something was missing,we both did. Like finding the blue flower you gave me,pressed between the pages of a book and wondering why it made me sad or waking up crying for no reason or feeling like I should be waiting for someone after school. I subconsciously knew something was different,I just didn't know what." Marianna tells him all this,Peter's eyes never leaving hers. 

"Mari...I didn't know,I just thought you forgot about us,about me. That you had moved on." Peter admitted frowning,his eyes go wide with realization and sadness. 

"Wait...Without me you didn't have an Alpha,you're not an Omega,so...who became your Alpha?" Peter asked,though she could tell it had been hard to say. 

"Scott." Marianna answered.

Peter's eyebrows raised in surprise. "Scott?"

Marianna gives him a look,still holding hands. "Hey he's My brother,A True Alpha,besides Derek's gone and I couldn't remember you. Scott remembered I had an Alpha had disappeared,he just didn't know who.,he knew I needed one so he offered." Peter smirked. "Well it looks like I didn't underestimate Scott after all." Sudden;y Peter pulls Marianna towards him,letting out a low growl that rumbles from deep within his chest. "But now I'm back Sweetheart and you don't need Scott or Stiles for any of that. Not anymore." Marianna places a hand on his chest,her eyes lowering as she grins. " I don't know...It's been so long without you. I think I might have forgotten." 

Peter gives her a wolfish grin as they lock eyes,both glowing shades of Orange. "Then let me remind you what a real Alpha feels like My Little She Wolf." With that Peter kisses her passionately,as Marianna wraps her legs around Peter's lean waist he sits her onto the table with one hand,the other tangled in her hair.

[elfenphoenix]

Get to know me tag

I was tagged by @danime25~~~!!!

rules: tag 10 followers you’d like to get to know better!

name: Mel

birth year: 1996

sign: leo

height: 5′1″ (155 cm). I am smol  :’(

put your playlist on shuffle and name the first 4 songs:

“This Will be the Day (Acoustic)”-- Jeff Williams & Casey Lee Williams (RWBY OST)

“Devil-- Super Junior”

“The Triumph”-- Jeff Williams & Casey Lee Williams

“Don’t Think Twice” -- Utada Hikaru

grab the nearest book, turn to page 23, what’s the 17th line?

“you look at what they have accomplished, and you have to” (appreciate their achievements)-- my D&D player’s handbook lol

ever had a song or poem written about you?

Not that I know of

when was the last time you played air guitar?

ummmm probably last time I was drunk. So like last year?

celebrity crushes?

Haley Atwell. Jason Momoa... there are definitely more but those are the ones that come to mind rn

what is a sound you love/hate?

I HATE the sound of people cracking their knuckles. It makes me nauseous. 

do you believe in ghosts?

More or less. I think it’s safer to believe in them and be wrong than the other way around.

do you believe in aliens?

Ye. Statistically I find it unbelievable that we’re the only life in this big, big, incomprehensibly big universe.

do you drive? and if you do, have you ever crashed?

Yeah. I’ve never crashed, exactly, but I have gone off the road a little bit and accidentally scraped or bumped other cars. But never any significant damage to either party. When I say “bumped” I mean I hadn’t even hit the gas yet.

last book you read?

Kindred by Octavia E. Butler. I read it for class but it was really amazing, both in the story it told and the way it was executed. 

do you like the smell of gasoline?

Not really? I don’t hate it unless I’m already nauseous, but I wouldn’t say I like it, either.

the last movie you saw?

...Macross FB7: Ore no Uta wo Kike! 

I caught up with Miraculous Ladybug and Steven Universe, then watched Carmen Sandiego, so I’m going back to the Macross franchise lol

do you have any obsessions right now?

Sadly... not really. I mean, I’m always obsessed with class, and anxiety and my skin as a form of actual OCD, but otherwise I’m still pretty much between hyperfixations atm

do you tend to hold grudges?

Kinda, yeah, but I’m trying to unlearn that. At the very least I actually can be very forgiving when given a genuine apology.

are you in a relationship right now?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

...no.

As usual, I’m tagging anyone who wants do it, and I mean that genuinely! I’m just too tired from stressing out last night to think too deeply about much rn lol. I want to know more about AAAAAALL of you!

[pocketdisaster]

8/28/21 well shit lol

So here I am again - with no where to vent, without anyone to talk to. I still find myself asking what am i doing.

Current situation: 1) I have a girl who i am seeing, who is great by many standards, we connect and want many of the same things. She can definitely be someone I spend time with - i cant say my life because honestly, i really cant see that. I really cant see that with anyone anymore. 2) And now i have a friend who i’ve had feelings for many years and wanted to date but she didnt want to, who now wants to fool around. and we have. no actual sex though because she doesnt want to “get attached.”

There is this thing i tell myself over and over again, something to try and accept the world for what it is and to not be upset or disappointed with what happens. And what that is, “expect nothing in life” 

I feel i heard once thats why people are so butt hurt and sad and upset- peoples expectations fall much shorter of what actual is.

Once i heard that, i guess i just subconsciously or intentionally, have tried to never expect or hold people to their word. I think after certain point in my life, i gave up on everyone. 

I think this is why i really feel alone. Truly alone. 

Why. Why put stock into people that will just disappoint. I dont think ive had any person outside my direct family disappoint or just let me down =/ 

It really is a weird ass feeling trying to pretend all the time. A functional adult.

Anyways, long story short, #2 is someone i want to be with but i know she doesn’t want to be with me - so why do I want to try and pursue it? b/c shes hot? its sad to acknowledge how shallow and empty i am. 

Do i even deserve to be happy? I come across this question all the time. maybe i do? but i think i dont. I think i deserve a world full of pain and suffering, i dont think i should be happy. its one of those feelings that itch at the back of your head and the end of every happy thought.

“Man this is great...why is this happening tome?”

“I’m actually happy with her...she deserve to be happy with someone worthy of her”

#1, Haley, asked me a question the other evening - how do i see myself. I told her “I am a lonely man trying to have as much fun and happiness before I die”

And ive been trying to think of the why i feel so lonely. and i think the above is the root of it. I pre-emptively write people off, keeping people at a distance, just far enough away.

But somehow #2 because she’s been in my life so fucking long has bypassed that wall. but even i know that isnt true. I want to say thats true, because itll make me feel better and that im a person. But really, idk.

I want to cry but what for? a girl i love that just wants to fool around because “its better than a stranger” In a vacuum, i could totally love her but in real life, i dont think it would ever be possible. And i feel the constant struggle//tug of war of what i know and what i want to be. 

I dont really feel better after writing this all out. usually i do but, i really, i know im just pretending to be alright with where my life is atm and honestly, i am not. 

Times like this are when i want to run away the most, from my problems and just never have to deal with them again but again life isnt that easy. AT least mine isnt, i really do just seem to constantly pushing this rock up a hill to no end.

The missing piece i’ve been looking for is just the piece that says i deserve to be happy. maybe itll be better and easier once i can find and accept that piece.

Though, i dont think i actually believe that, which is the saddest part of all

[starliightxo]

SECRETS (females)

Olivia Barham (NEW)

Olivia was due to start St Judes as soon as she was old enough. She auditioned hoping to model, just like her sister. However, during the audition process (tw) she was touches inappropriately by one of the professors. He was significantly older than her. Olivia is strong, but this threw her completely. She was told if she wanted to be a model she had to learn to take that and more, and learn to keep her mouth shut. She didn't. She told her then boyfriend Louis and between them, they got this professor fired. But olivia didn't return, she was lowkey too traumatised and to this day refuses to acknowledge the incident.

Holland Smith

Originally her secret was that Haley is her daughter but that slowly got revealed. Now her secret is more that after her (tw) rape, she fell pregnant and told no one but decided (tw) to get an abortion without knowing 100% if it was Gregory's or Adrian's. Adrian knows half of this atm though but she still wouldn't want anyone else to know.

Mallory Shaw

From a young age, Mallory, her mother and a couple of her older sister's were (tw) physically abused by their alcoholic father. But nobody got it as bad as Mallory thanks to her loud opinions and her inability to know when to stop talking. She spent years sofa surfing and avoiding home but even now she lives with danica, she can't avoid it forever. She still visits her mum and sisters if they go back there for holidays and birthdays etc. So it's very much still an on going thing. She's the only one out of her sisters who is still in town so her mum has kind of become her responsibility too. Even though her mum is also becoming an alcoholic and although isn't physically abusive, she's a lot more emotionally abusive.

Felicity Calloway

Felicity is a sex addict, undiagnosed out of pure fear, but deep down she 100% knows that's what's wrong with her. She craves it and no matter how happy she is with someone, she always strays and cheats. If she's in the mood and can't get hold of her boyfriend or fwb, she will literally take it from anyone at all. She has no standards when it comes to sex, despite her high standards for love and relationships.

Everleigh Adams

Everleigh was left at a fire station when she was on me a few days old by her birth mother. She never met her birth mother and doesn't plan to but she knows she was abandoned (tw) because she was the product of rape. It's not secret she was abandoned but the reason why is something everleigh will never say. She shares the face of a rapist, knowing full well she looks like him and nothing like her mother, she's ashamed.

She also suffers (tw) with major epilepsy, many standard things can trigger a seizure. Mainly tiredness and stress in her case. But considering how out of control she feels when it happens and how it scares people, she quickly stopped telling those around her. Especially after she was given up by various foster families and sent back into care when they decided they couldn't cope after she'd blacked out.

Gisele Collins

After her parents were killed in a car accident that happened after someone ran their car off the road and disappeared into the night, Gisele took it upon herself to track down this person and seek revenge. (Tw) She killed him in a hit and run and was never even considered a suspect.

(Tw) she also has a severe alcohol and drug dependency. Many ate surely suspicious but none enough to do anything about it. She's gotten away with it for so long, always fobbing it off as a bit of fun and nothing serious. But she's had a few close calls with (tw) her life due to being too heavily intoxicated. She's very good and fast and brushing it all under the carpet though.

Riley James

(Idk if it was ever officially discovered but I'm re-secret-ing it lmao) (tw) During her previous time at St Judes, riley was diagnosed with depression and bipolar disorder, exactly like her mother she'd grown up looking after. She didn't see it coming and was embarrassed in a way. People already labelled her as "crazy" the last thing she wanted was to give them solid proof of that. So she hid it from everyone.

Alexandria Cortes

Lexi shares a secret with Flo, without flo knowing. Lexi was approached by a fan (Esme) and shown flo's sex tape. Now she's being blackmailed for various things in order to keep her cousin's secret a secret and she's prepared to tear herself apart to do so.

Kendall Carmichael

Originally kendall's secret is the fact she's the only person in the world who knows that her older brother Austin (tw) has taken his own life. It was her fault he was banished from the family after she outted his sexuality. Her old fashioned parents shunned him and he disappeared. It was only Kendall who received a letter from Austin explaining he was going to take his own life. She hasn't told a soul, knowing full well it's down to her. The family and world think he's simply disappeared to start again.

Currently while trying for a baby with mason, they've both (tw) been struggling to conceive. After a doctor's visit it was confirmed that Kendall was essentially the issue. She was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome. It wasn't impossible to conceive for her but it's was very unlikely she wouldn't and she's suffering big time because of it.

[novachela]

some questions ☆

rules: answer these questions & tag 20 blogs you’d like to know better!

nicknames: Babygirl, sunshine, that weird witch girl lol in high school it was Black Rose

zodiac: Taurus 🌞 Pisces 🌙 Sagittarius ⬆️

height: 5'6

time: 4:45p

fave artist: right now I like Billie eilish, poppy, Haley kiyoko, chvrches, red handed denial, khalid, ariana grande, the weeknd, and Florence and the machine, to name a few

song stuck in my head: I'm just listening to Halloween music atm, but earlier it was "my boy" by Billie eilish

last movie I saw: oh gosh, I don't really remember. I think it was a wrinkle in time (the new one). I watch tv way more than movies.

last thing I googled: vimeo

other blogs: I used to have a Persephone dedication blog (@pomegranates-and-combat-boots) but I lost the password :/ now I have a side blog for my witch shop (@heart-to-hearth) but I don't have it set up yet.

do I get asks: eh, not really lol I get one or two every now and then though, and they always make me happy ^-^

why did I choose this user name: that's who I want to be. A Warrior of Light.

following: 536 lovely people are following me!

average amount of sleep: usually about 10 hours lol

what I’m wearing: a green shirt and khaki capris, but in about an hour I'll be dressed like Velma!

dream job: I'd like to run a witch shop out of an intersectional temple of belief. Also I'm pretty sure I'm an astral librarian in the akashic records so working in a library wouldn't be too bad either lol

dream trip: I've actually already been on one dream trip! My (now ex) husband and I traveled around the States and it was really incredible. I have loads of stories if anyone's interested in hearing them! Other than that, I'd love to go to the UK, India, Indonesia, Egypt, all over the world really. Global travel, that's the dream trip right there.

favourite food: Chineeeeeese yum

play any instruments: I have played the clarinet, flute, and piano. I mainly sing though.

eye colour: blue

hair colour: naturally brown, I was blonde when I was little. So blond they used to call me the little sunbeam girl. It's maroon rn, but I've had it every color of the rainbow.

languages you speak: just English. I also know a bit of French and ASL. Not anywhere close to fluent though lol

most iconic song: oh god that's too hard lol

random fact: I'm a little bit of a khajiit lol I have really sticky fingers

describe yourself as aesthetic things: dancing around a messy kitchen while cooking, sticky notes everywhere, always looking wistfully off into the distance but really I'm just dissociating, komorebi, pastel sunrises

i am tagging: @sleepy-sapphire @thequeenofsunflowers @witch--lights and honestly anybody else who wants to do this, I feel super gross today so I'm done with effort xD

[useless-lesbian-canadian]

All the numbers ✨

this was almost mean in a way cause its so late but here you go, i dunno why youd wanna know all that about me but thanks for making me do them all i guess :P 

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?- tbh i dont even know, its been too long3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? - my mom, she’s coming to the city sunday. i miss her. 4. Are you easy to get along with? -i would like to think so yes, i try to be easygoing and nice so theres that. 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? -no7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? - i mean i think id want to be, i doubt it would happen tho….8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? - honestly nobody..9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? - sorta, i mean i get that its so mainstream but I’ve never been one to talk about it unless its with someone I’m interested in and have know/had a connection to for a while. 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? - someone who i no longer in my life so it doesn’t matter. 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? -“ lol am i supposed to support you eating them or stop you tho” to my cousin12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? -  Stay- Zedd & Alessia Cara, How Not To- Dan + Shay, Lights Down Low- Max Ft Gnash, Happier- Ed Sheeran and still giving it up for Closer- Chainsmokers & Halsey 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? - if i like you yes, if i dont then dont touch.14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? - sorta, i believe in luck, and that I’m one of the unlucky ones, but not sold on miracles yet15. What good thing happened this summer? - i moved to Edmonton! YAY16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? - fuck i dont recall who that was, but i think it was a friendly weird drunk thing so probably not. 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? -yes to think otherwise is extremely stupid and arrogant to think humans are the only life out there18. Do you still talk to your first crush? - no, well i mean unless we’re in a group setting, 19. Do you like bubble baths? - i love baths in general, I’m sad i only have a shower right now :( 20. Do you like your neighbors? - i dont know them, i dont like where they park their car tho21. What are you bad habits? - uh I’m bad at texting back, sometimes i dont think before i speak/type, 22. Where would you like to travel? - the world, Greece, Ireland, Switzerland, Australia 23. Do you have trust issues? - oh fuck yeah, ill admit to that,24. Favorite part of your daily routine? - sleeping?? 26. What do you do when you wake up? - either check my phone or get something to drink27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? - a little darker, my family was making fun of me a couple weekends ago cause i look like a ghost in our family photo28. Who are you most comfortable around? - my family and cousin and our friend group29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? - ha, haha hahaha that would require them to use words to break up and not just ghost away out of my life forever. 30. Do you ever want to get married? - maybe, if i find the right person. 31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? nope not at all32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? - tbh idk, I’m more on the demisexual scale here and i dont really think of sleeping with random people including celebrities 33. Spell your name with your chin. no I’m too tired34. Do you play sports? What sports? - soccer and basketball for fun with the fam 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? -tv, i need music to live36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? - uh i dont think so37. What do you say during awkward silences? - ramble or ask weird or lame questions 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? - nice and kind with a good sense of humour, has to have some smarts and be a little more mature, but still can fool around. 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? -hollister, their jeans are great, winners, warehouse one, 40. What do you want to do after high school? I’m way past high school, still dont know41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? - yes but not on everything. 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? - i could just be observing, or I’m a little sad, or maybe I’m uninterested in the topic43. Do you smile at strangers? - i try to44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? oh fuck uh ocean i guess45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? - the need to have money to stay living 46. What are you paranoid about? -nothing really i dont think47. Have you ever been high? -nope48. Have you ever been drunk? - yup, wish i was right now49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? - not that i know of51. Ever wished you were someone else? - sorta, wished i was different than i am 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?  - everything53. Favourite makeup brand? -…….. moving on 54. Favourite store? - walmart cause its cheap and I’m poor55. Favourite blog? - oh uh idk56. Favourite colour? -blue or purple57. Favourite food? -pizza58. Last thing you ate? - mcdonalds chicken burger59. First thing you ate this morning? - left over wings, so unhealthy but I’ve had a bad week sue me 60. Ever won a competition? For what? i won the music award for highest mark in school. 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? -nope i was a good little nerd62. Been arrested? For what? -nope 63. Ever been in love? - yup, do not recommend 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? - it was with my best friend we were 15 in my basement, he was to shy so i kissed him first it was nothing special, turns out I’m gay as fuck65. Are you hungry right now? - nope66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? - ……..67. Facebook or Twitter? - twitter68. Twitter or Tumblr? -tumblr69. Are you watching tv right now? -no70. Names of your bestfriends? - like irl, Sam, Haley, Zach Cassidy, Des71. Craving something? What?- a relationship that lasts 72. What colour are your towels?- blue, and i have a hudsons bay one that is HB colours72. How many pillows do you sleep with? - 4 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? - yup gotta have melman with me74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? - uh under 20 but thats all I can say 75. Favourite animal? - puppy! 76. What colour is your underwear? -navy blue77. Chocolate or Vanilla? -choco!78. Favourite ice cream flavour? -choco or cotton candy79. What colour shirt are you wearing? -grey and it says hog wars 80. What colour pants? - no pants81. Favourite tv show? -atm survivor 82. Favourite movie? - ghostbusters but then new one obvs 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? - mean girls is that even a question?84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? - mean girls85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? - Glen Coco86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? - Dory87. First person you talked to today? - my cousin88. Last person you talked to today? - my cousin, we’re roommates so...89. Name a person you hate? -Trump90. Name a person you love? - my mom91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? - eh sorta, i like punching thins when I’m in a bad mood but i dont because that not healthy 92. In a fight with someone? -nope93. How many sweatpants do you have? - uh 4/594. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? - uh 10 maybe95. Last movie you watched? - Moana 96. Favourite actress? - oh shit uh atm melissa mcarthy 97. Favourite actor? - ryan reynolds 98. Do you tan a lot? i burn99. Have any pets? no my dad does tho i count them sometimes 101. Do you type fast? - yeah sometimes 102. Do you regret anything from your past?- a lot of shit man, way to much. 103. Can you spell well? - nope this is just a fact 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? - you know what no, they dont deserve it 105. Ever been to a bonfire party? - all the time, I’m a country kid at heart106. Ever broken someone’s heart? - i dont think so107. Have you ever been on a horse? -no horses scare me 108. What should you be doing? - sleeping109. Is something irritating you right now? - sorta 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? - hahahahah fuck off yes111. Do you have trust issues? - didn’t i answer this already???112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? - probably all my fam at my great grandmas funeral 113. What was your childhood nickname? -Cera after the triceratops from land before time 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? - yup to Italy, LA, and British Columbia 115. Do you play the Wii? - used to 116. Are you listening to music right now? -nope 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?- yes 118. Do you like Chinese food? - yes119. Favourite book? - i can’t remember its name but its gay as fuck 120. Are you afraid of the dark? -nope121. Are you mean? - i dont think so122. Is cheating ever okay? - no never 123. Can you keep white shoes clean? - for some time yes 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? -no125. Do you believe in true love? - idk it constantly changes, sometimes 126. Are you currently bored? -nah not really127. What makes you happy? - music, my family, food 128. Would you change your name? - no 129. What your zodiac sign? - leo130. Do you like subway? - yes131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? - too bad bro I’m gay 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? - this was already a question stop repeating 133. Favourite lyrics right now? - Yeah, you're worth the heartbreak and the regret But I don't know how not to Think about you When it's late at night and quiet134. Can you count to one million? - yes135. Dumbest lie you ever told?- a guy asked if i was single while i was working so i said no because fuck if I’m gonna deal with that 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? - closed137. How tall are you? - 5'5138. Curly or Straight hair?- its wavy 139. Brunette or Blonde? -im a blonde, tend to like the brunettes tho 140. Summer or Winter?- summer141. Night or Day? - night142. Favourite month? - august 143. Are you a vegetarian?- nope144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? -milk145. Tea or Coffee? - neither 146. Was today a good day? -it was ok 147. Mars or Snickers? - snickers 148. What’s your favourite quote? - its song lyrics but “beauty goes deeper than the surface” aka half of my tattoo 149. Do you believe in ghosts? - oh hell yeah