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Hello hihi!! Lately I've gotten into Pizza Tower and every time I search up Pizza Tower fanart for some inspo, your art always seems to pop up! Just wanted to say your PT art is a big inspo for me and I love your art It's very cool and nice to look at!!:D Soory for rambling sdksjkkjs
that is so so sweet and aauuhg… tysm that really does mean a lot to me 🥹
#era.txt#dingo-asks#i have a really really REALLY hard time responding to things…. it’s a thing im sorry#but i get so many nice things and its soooo overwhelming ?????/POS.?? like i dont deserve you#ppl are so nice to me and nice about my stuff and im trying to learn to be better abt accepting it <\3#i get a lot of ppl sending messages and whatnot that are so nice and sweet….. im so very sorry if i dont respond#but please know that ive most likely seen it and i appreciated it 🥹 responding is just very difficult for me#ok sorry for the ramble in the tags MSJDJDJ but ya. tysm
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I will be forever grateful i can be on this new med. it's one a lot of folks also need and can struggle to have access to! It's important i be on it, especially if i start doing any vid collabs
(some of which, really, all of which, i unfortunately actually need to cancel that were in the preplanning stages, bc the election results have me wanting to wait and see how the general atmosphere of the country is before i agree to meet up with anyone. I feel bad for cancelling, but also i just can't know for sure how safe things are/might be going forward and I'd rather avoid the potential of. ya know. various not great things that could happen at a meet up, tho i would certainly hope they wouldn't. i don't feel like actually addressing them rn, u guys know what i mean)
That said, if the truvada initial side effects could fuck off asap would be so lovely. three weeks at worst, then they should be gone/much better or so i am told. really hope that's true bc losing my mornings to being dizzy and nauseous is Not Working for me lmao. im on week two, and now understand why my new doc said to call if i needed any 'cheerleading' and support to get thru the side effects, bc apparently she's done that for several ppl to make sure they actually make it thru the three weeks and keep on it (lovely of her!!)
#text post#not going to get into the other painful smack of this morning#suffice to say that medicaid does not in fact fully cover vocal therapy/training for trans ppl#even if ur docs feel incredibly certain it is#if i was making a decent bit over minimum wage at consistent hours and already had my current debts paid off mostly#then I'd happily consider paying the chunk Medicaid won't cover but as of now#it would literally be basically two paychecks if not three to cover the estimate for this first visit#and that's only if the poll would have us polling every week like we did before the election#otherwise we're guesstimating it would be upwards of 4 paychecks to cover it#I'm actually gonna get into in here bc nobody reads all my tag essays (fair valid and correct)#im really sad abt this. my voice gets me clocked a lot and while i can mostly handle like. visually being clocked#my voice giving me away genuinely makes me feel a pain in my chest. i can't get my customer service voice to go lower yet#and even if it's my usual voice I've made minimal progress on my own self done vocal study stuff#so like. no one knows how high it was compared to how it is now tho so no one actually hears it as anything near deep#which it isn't but like. there's been a slightly barely there drop of it per at least a couple ppl in my life#i was probably going to be able to learn how to sing again and find my new range. I'd fix my customer service voice#even if it would only ever be a teeny bit lower than how it is now. it would be lovely#im not gonna get too down tho bc someday hopefully I'll be able to make it happen/afford it#and for now...im doing the bad thing of not cancelling the appt yet#i will bc they're booking out for months and it isn't right of me to take a spot i know i can't keep#but. let me pretend i can for another day or two. maybe until monday. then I'll call or msg them on mychart#and let them know i just don't have the funds rn tho i do deeply appreciate that Medicaid at least pays part of it#im just not at a point where i can cover the rest but that I'll reschedule/have a new referral sent whenever that changes#...and hopefully things in this country will be of such a state that such care is still available to ppl like me.#but that's all we're saying on that bc im already having a pathetic little cry over this#(im fine the med side effects have me crying over everything lol i see a sad commercial and Instant Tears like someone died lmaooo)
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Wait shit people might actually care about me
#sorryyy for the personal posts lmao just not having a great time lately . ill go back to posting abt fandom stuff soon dw#hopefully the self loathing phase is over now cuz i really didnt enjoy that!#mf got me thinking thay everyone secretly hates me n itd be better if i was dead ahahaha#but like. my friends talk to me daily. my mutuals love me. i didnt go to school for like 3 days and my classmate who im kindaaa friends wit#texted me saying. and i quote “Hi [name]. I know its late but i hope your doing well. Hope to cya tmr.” (the full stops symbolize each text#cuz she sent three seperate texts)#and i was just. so flabbergasted at that#i didnt rlly think anyone would really notice if i was gone#i didnt think anyone cared me enough for that#i thought theyd just be indifferent to it#also i sound pathetic rn but i reread that girl's text over n over again when she sent rhat. was literally on the brink of tears#and i just. wow.#people might actually care for me. they might actuallynotice when im gone. they might actually miss me#ive been so inside my head n thinking allat bad stuff about myself that i. didnt think that people might see me differently than the way#i saw myself#really and truly i love you guys so much#even if we've never talked to each pther before or interact very little. i appreciate all of you. you guys rock#anyways aha i should stop rambling now loll. as for now i think im doing a bit better#life still sucks but hey at least i have my friends. at least i dont hate myself anymore now#at least now i dont believe that everyone was being friends with me out of pity#thank you all for everything :')#man i need a hug rn lmao#tw vent#tw sui implied#tw sui ideation#tw self loathing#tw self destructive behavior#<- dw about the tags i dont feel/do those anymore#if you wanna talk to me abt this or just talk in general hit me up!! i love talking to ppl i dont like being alone xd#love youu <33
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Sorry for like
Not existing alot recently-
Depression is getting worse, physical health is also getting worse
But its okay because my sheer amount of coolness will get me through this
#not neg#im sorry i dont interact w ppl often- id still really appreciate if you all keep interacting with me tho#cuz even if i dont respond i still read everything :3#u can always tag me in stuff or send me asks whether they be about me . jsab or just some random other thing u wanna tell me !!#ive just been feelin a little lonely so any interaction is appreciated <3
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i make my SR posts non rebloggable lately cuz this is for Me. i dont care abt numbers or rbs this is content solely for me. if you look i appreciate you SO much but this is indulgent content for my personal ttrpg campaign and i dont want anyone to feel like they have to partake in it
#dragon's ramblings#retyping my tags cuz i was being a grouchy old man for a second turns out i was just hungry#genuinely im at a point with my content i dont care abt likes and rbs. but its nice to know ppl acknowledge my stuff!#validation is sexy. but i dont want ppl to feel like they cant look at my stuff without rbing cuz idk#i know a lot of ppl are like ''likes do nothing if you like but dont rb my content it makes me mad''#and genuinely i dont care if you dont rb my content. i appreciate it! a lot!! esp when ppl leave nice tags and feedback#but again i dont care abt rbs and like i said my SR posts are for me this is indulgent as fuck#cuz its not even self shipping (kinda.) which is what everyone is really kinda here for#you have no idea how much One ask last night made my mood brighten up cuz i was like. omg ppl like my posts :]#and tbh that means more to me than anything
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gmorn frens i rly went crazy sicko mode last night huh
#thinkmin!#we'll do this until my writing juice runs dry#also like i feel shy n maybe self centered saying this but#it rly does make me happy that ppl enjoy my smut n leave such lovely tags#like i know y'all might just being Saying Stuff to be nice but it IS really nice and it makes me feel nice#bc i know that sometimes it is difficult to find words for comments and so i am! just very grateful that ppl choose to find words for me#idk!!! im just feeling surprised n sappy n very loved n very appreciated#so!!!!! thank u all <3 if u have ever enjoyed reading something from me thank u and i am glad u enjoyed <3
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do you mind if i ramble in the tags about my weird relationship with making art in fandom for a second
#as someone who is studying art as a career one thing i have realized and also been explicitly told by various teachers#is the fact that having a 'consistent' art style is so overvalued sometimes that it ends up limiting you as an artist#literally i'd say 99 percent of the stuff we do in uni doesn't require consistency. it's actually valued when there isn't one#after all it is about learning and honing skills isn't it#so it has kind of put my personal conflicts in a different perspective#because before i started this degree i used to struggle so much with creation in non-academic spaces (which is pretty ironic. i know)#because the ppl and art i admired was mostly composed of art in fandom spaces#and the most appreciated artists in these spaces tend to be the ones who have a nice defined unique style#which isn't bad. i actually do still wish i could reach something like that#but it made me not want to create as much as i desired because i felt 'inconsistent' and i took that as a negative quality in my art#and it was so frustrating because nothing i tried seemed to 'stick'#which was also due to the fact that none of the varyingly different styles of drawings i posted seemed to reach many people#and yes i have heard time and again the whole schpiel of 'creating for yourself is better and quantity of likes/notes shouldn't mean as muc#to you as long as you're satisfied with your art blah blah blah'– c'mon. we all want our creations to be admired i'm tired of pretending#like i don't. i put it out there for a reason and it is for people to at least acknowledge it. it's the point of fandom. it's community#it's interaction. or at least it should be. that's another conversation though#so anyways since i started uni some time ago this frustration has been receding but it's very much still present#even more so when i get excited about doing/drawing something and then halfway through i get that pull in my chest of like. i'm actually#starting to hate it bc i can't reach what i want to#and so there's this disconnect that happens because i have many ideas and desires to create but i feel (even if it might not be true)#that i don't have the skillset to meet those ideas#which literally happens to almost if not everyone i know i'm not alone in this. it still sucks though#so i end up with about a dozen unfinished works monthly bc i start it/i reach halfway and hate it/i look at art and get inspired bc artists#in fandom are SO talented/i go back to it/i still can't reach the skill level i desperately want/i abandon it indefinitely#it's a horrible cycle that i really haven't been able to escape lately#it's also worse when you're at a time in your life when you don't actually have the opportunity or the time to try to achieve consistency#because you really just physically don't have the time to practice. which is the number one advice every good artist will give you#i am running out of tags but the point is. i hope we stop subconsciously putting consistent art styles in a higher pedestal bc it can be#very stressful for artists who struggle to find that in their creation#art related
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i have definitely made a post like this before but i’m so fucking fed up with ppl that i’m making it again. why does no one seem to know what a trigger warning is!! why are people so offended by the idea of giving other people information to regulate themselves?? “life doesn’t come with trigger warnings!” IT LITERALLY DOES?? WHAT DO YOU THINK MOVIE RATINGS ARE?? we use trigger warnings all the fucking time.
also: no one seems to know what being triggered means?? being triggered is shorthand for stimuli or situations triggering a mental health crisis. whether that crisis is a PTSD episode, a psychotic episode, a panic attack, a meltdown, etc. being triggered is not “this makes me comfortable” or being “easily offended”, it’s a serious case of emotional distress and dysregulation.
and the wild thing is, most people who complain about trigger warnings are the same kind of ppl who are trying to get books they find even slightly offensive banned from places like schools! they’re the same people who will shoot at their bud lite cans bc they saw a single trans person collaborating with the company. the people who seem so aggravated by people with literal trauma and mental health issues asking for a little heads up are the same ppl who would spontaneously combust if someone said the words “reparations” within a mile radius of them.
#trigger warnings#that’s why i tag posts that mention a fake fact with tw unreality#bc as someone with psychosis i understand how bad episodes can be and how much can bring them on#also like… for ppl who say ‘oh well life doesn’t have trigger warnings’ that doesn’t mean it shouldn’t??#‘life doesn’t work that way!’ you understand we can change the conditions of society right?? we have the power to do that#also ppl with trauma know life doesn’t come with trigger warnings. we spend our days getting triggered by a number of things#so when we encounter so many things that you can’t create trigger warnings for#we would really fucking appreciate it if ppl could at least try to put warnings on the stuff where you can put it!#same with ppl with psychosis#ik bugs don’t come with trigger warnings. i wish they did! but they don’t#and i have to interact with bugs on the daily basis as a side effect of living on earth#so it would be REALLY FUCKING NICE if someone showing a video of bugs could let me know what the video is about!#bc i would like to not have more hallucinations over something that if you just put the words ‘tw:bugs’ in front of#i wouldn’t be having hallucinations for them in the fucking first place!
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a night will never not be complete without me rambling abt ffxiv huh
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#i'm so happy i found smth like ffxiv for me n apollo. later in 2023 will be the third year of playing. which is a bit hard to believe#i'm so soft for the drk quests i did enjoy it in english or wtvr but reading those fanmade jpn translations rlly warms my heart even more#n then. uwahh listening to shb osts n other vg stuff rn n masquerade at this specific point just#eulmore ost means a lot to me i rlly love that kind of vibe n then. i have a lot of fond memories in that place.#w sm friends back on twintania n 5.5 days hehe.#i am srs rambling again but i just rlly like talking to myself ok pls don't mind me uhhhh#ffxiv helped keep me grounded yes it rlly helped me through hard times. w the world in it n then. the stories that helped me so much#n the music :<< n the charas mean so much to me n then. i just appreciate the game so much. it means a lot to me#thinking abt it n i've really never been good at friendships. i rlly do want to do better bcs i value them so much but hdfjalkfsjda T_T#i rmb fucking up smth late 2020 n then first half or so of 2021 i only interacted w my family n school ppl i think n. ppl in ffxiv#srs reflecting rn n for the longest time i think i genuinely rlly struggled w social anxiety. still do to an extent but it was sm worse#twintania n my fc then changed my life fr they helped me n i don't think i ever rlly directly thanked them but yh.#n then. those social interactions helped me later that year reconnecting w my longtime irl friends that i barely talked to for those past#years bcs of the pandemic n then earlier 2022 w making new friends that weren't online friends for the first time in so long#n then being more connected w my reality again w all that yes n then making more online friends. not a lot i'm still v shy but <3#idk i know i rlly say a lot of the same things often n i write a Lot in tags n ramble sm n i genuinelly will be embarrassed if ppl actually#read this but pls i just like talking to myself i don't do it for attention T_T but I SHOULD REALLY FIX THESE STUFF UP#i think i've just been rambling for the past hour . idk i just really love n appreciate a lot of stuff in life n there's no end to what i#cld just write about like this to myself. n i write even more in my notes oh dear#i seriously look forward to so much this year i'm going to put my regrets behind me n just look towards doing the future#the best i can do is just be kind to myself n do what i can n do what i love uwahh#ok genuinely i still do feel rather stressed n anxious n i'm pretty sure i just wrote that earlier but uh my mind is a mess at this hour#i should not be on tumblr past midnight or when i'm sleepy . i've really made a habit of writing so much in tags#school starts like tmrrw now n thankfully my sleep got mostly fixed. i have so much more i want to do but i'll make sure to#take care of my health at least. for the past 2 weeks now i think i usually sleep around midnight (earlier typically) n never later than 3#I'M HAPPY W THAT sleeping better rlly improved a lot but it's so hard to start making that change when. Yeah but here i am now <3#that said though i'm gna stop. rambling now i wna be a bit more productive before i sleep but gn in advance ><
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Could I plz request a grumpy/sunshine dynamic (reader being the grumpy) for Tamaki, Hikaru and Kaoru?? Tysm!
Hell yeah
If you like my work, you can support me here or here [Anything is appreciated]
Tamaki Suoh
Your personality does not deter him
In fact, he'll try even harder to be friends with you
He wants you to like him and he'll do anything for you to like him
There is a part of him that doesn't even realize you don't like him, but there will be moments where he'll be like 'What if they don't like me?'
You do eventually tolerate him because-
1. He won't stop trying to be friends with you
2. He has more influence, power, and money and you really can't afford to have him as an enemy
And lastly 3. He's not all that bad to be around
He always does everything in his power to see you smile and/or happy
It makes him giddy and proud that he made you feel that way
He invites you to the Host Club and gets so sad when you don't show up
Although, when you do show up, he ends up neglecting his other guests, so Kyoya limits your time w/ Tamaki [Kyoya would like to eradicate your time, but Tamaki won't have it]
Tamaki loves giving you gifts, because no matter how much you try and hide it, you always give him a smile, even if it's small
He'll come over to your house, UNANNOUNCED, and it always irates you to no end. He just hates being away from you and wants to be near you
He kind of likes that you're mean, because he doesn't have any competition
Hikaru Hitachiin
Hikaru? Sunshine? Maybe in another universe
You're both grumpy and it takes time for you to become friends
You actually start off as enemies
You two have more in common than you'd like to admit
Kaoru is tired of hearing about you and finally invites you over so you can both talk, because he's sick of you
^So many death stares
When you two do become friends, thanks to Kaoru, everyone should be scared
You're like the little red devil on someone's shoulder and he's the worse version
You two are not a duo to be messed with
You gang up on people, by tag teaming them [Usually Tamaki is the victim of your tagteams]
[Tag team= Ganging up on someone in an arguement.]
Hikaru realize he actually really likes you, because you're actually kind of funny
He denies his feelings tho
He actually tries pushing you away in fear of these feelings. He doesn't want you to hurt him, so he ends up hurting you
This really pisses you off and you try confronting him
But he just avoids you
Kaoru tries asking him about it, but Hikaru either avoids the question or shrugs him off
Kaoru will soon pick up on Hikaru's feelings though, because that's his twin
He [Kaoru] confronts his brother and Hikaru tries to deny it, but he's cornered and he finally yells at Kaoru saying-
"Fine! I like them! Are you happy?"
Yes, Kaoru is happy and he pushes Hikaru to confess to you
It takes a while, but Hikaru eventually does do it, while Kaoru spies hoping for the best for his brother
Kaoru Hitachiin
He thought you were pretty and wanted to talk to you
Your grumpyness doesn't bother him, because his twin brother is grumpy too, so he's used to it
He'll listen to you rant and complain and try and give you advice
He keeps you away from his brother in fear of either you liking Hikaru, not being able to tell the difference between them, or you two ganging up on him when realizing you two are both mean ppl
Kaoru seeks you out and gives you little gifts to make you happy
^ Lots of clothes and fashion [Stuff that remind him of you]
Whenever you are sitting together, you both are usually a few feet apart, but slowly he scoots closer and closer to you
He's so in love that anyone can see it
Hikaru doesn't like you when he does finally meet you, because you're taking his brother from him
Kaoru acts as the buffer between you both
If you have a bad day, he's always there for you and is willing to try and boost your mood
#ohshc#ohshc x reader#tamaki x reader#tamaki suoh#tamaki suoh x reader#hikaru x reader#hitachiin twins#hikaru hitachiin x reader#hikaru hitachiin#kaoru hitachiin x reader#kaoru x reader#kaoru hitachiin#ouran high school host club x reader#ouran high school host club
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forgetting what i posted every time and then i suddenly get a bunch of tumblr notifs on my phone ( @asleepinawell )
every time i get a notif on the laha & iggy sex scene post i am begging the fates to not let me be known for that 😭 dont turn me into the aetherochemical research facility sex scene person 😭
#for anyone who doesnt know me tonally#i find this all hilarious#my expectations for people enjoying whatever i throw into the void are below ground#so its delightful to know other people are laughing at my jokes#wish i had taken a screenshot tho of the 30 count of notes the app had told me this morning#it was mistakenly giving me notifications for things i had already seen but it was still startling to see#the whole 'dont get notifs except from ppl who you follow' is really nice but also it seems to have some troubles sometimes lmao#anyways i am just a little guy etc etc i am not used to getting many notes at all#so i appreciate all and any notes on my art posts#wild to know other ppl like my art or jokes that much#my stuff tag
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i see mountains of art and comics dedicated to the other singles and the artists' farmer, but hardly ever any to maru.
like on one hand, i do get jealous seeing maru with other characters (like penny -_-. no.) and farmers, but on the other hand i wish people were as crazy about her as the others. its like every single has a dedicated group of crazy fans and then its just me and five other people in the maru corner. there IS a maru love blog just for maru, and i appreciate them.
and then i feel sort of. obligated to represent, yknow? im one of the few black players, i love one of the few characters of color... its so blindingly white in here like everyone move out the way i have arrived, lmao.
i dont JUST love maru cuz shes black, shes genuinely my type of girl really (ppl say shes boring but she really is my dream partner irl!!), but im gonna be honest i wouldnt have ever picked up this game if maru wasnt in it. all the other singles are white in the base game and thats so damn dull to me, white creator or not.
my point is i feel the need to make a million doodles and comics of my girlfriend, but i dont have the energy or the time. i want maru to be LOVED, and show everybody shes wonderful and worth LOVING, just like these other artists. i wish i could just pump it out as much as everyone else does and flood the tags and be known as that one obsessed maru fan (which i pretty much am lul.)
i know im just making it harder for myself. but its always like this in most fandoms im in anyway >.> low representation, feel the need to represent by making stuff but i dont have the energy, i get bummed out. i know it should come from a place of love instead of projection, but. yeah.
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#sdv is an incredibly white game!! i personally think its ridiculous that there are only two Black villagers and everyone else is white#11 out of 12 romanceable options are white#honestly pathetic for a game released in 2016#maru is so cool. she makes robots literally what else do u want#sdv#stardew valley#sdv confessions#sdv maru
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a lot of what i've read in your antipsych posts is also stuff my therapist straight up said about psych institutions when i was approaching a mental breaking point a few years ago. when it became clear how Bad i was doing, she was like "okay we need to find any interventions to get you to a point where you don't end up in a psych ward, bc even if they're acutely lifesaving, people invariably leave with more trauma than they went in with. they should be avoided." like this is a thing that ppl working in the space know about, even if most won't say it as clearly as she did.
i get the instinctual reaction towards the term antipsych, especially if you're someone who has had to deal with the crunchy tiktok/insta types who will tell you that all psychiatric medication is poison, but the posts in your tag are very clearly not about that. i actually rly appreciate getting to see the arguments for antipsych written out so clearly bc they articulate something i have personally felt for a while, which is that the people i care about who were institutionalized were not actually helped by that, bc the reasons they ended up there were straightforwardly related to external pressures and problems that didn't magically go away while they were in the psych ward.
anyways. i appreciate your existence. pls know that your posts have helped some people learn more. hope you and your excellent dogs have a good day/week/month/year.
that sounds like a good therapist. I also managed to find a therapist who is broadly antipsych and much of the work she does for me is like, physically placing her body and her respectability as a professional between me and institutions that might do me harm. it's really encouraging that more people are starting to approach it that way. I'm glad you found a good one!!! thank you for your message
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Hi Ceil, kind of a dumb question & no pressure to answer it but how do you make friends online? Like. How do you approach ppl or... do they approach you? I'm just kinda in awe of the community you've built here and on Twitter.
I've been in online spaces (video games and fandoms) for a very long time now but I've never felt comfortable enough to befriend anyone, maybe it's because of the places I frequent but reading through you & your mutuals interactions makes me feel like i'm in the twilight zone of the internet, everyone seems so nice.
Well I’ll be honest, I’m both very good and very bad at making friends online because while I’ve met truly my best friends here that I’ve since travelled with and visited in their hometowns, im also very quiet on here and I tend to not really talk a lot because I’m shy ❤️
But I think the best thing is just getting over that initial shyness and reaching out to people. Like sending them messages to say how much you like their work, or just sending them posts that remind you of them. I also LOVE people who leave long comments on my fics or as tags on my posts - my best friend that I visited with this summer originally just left a lot of comments on my fics when I wrote for reylo and I just loved her comments so much that I demanded she become my friend lmao. And now we text almost every day. I personally really appreciate that and I recognize people that frequently comment or interact with my stuff.
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Can you do some more comics with Francis mosses
I can, but the problem is
That I’m pretty much out of ideas and I’m progressively getting tired of tnmn fandom
Ppl who look at my tags probably noticed that 😓
More of my thoughts under read more for curious ppl
(short answer maybe I will do more, but I desperately need a break from tnmn)
! Just a general warning: this came out kinda long + sort of venty
Originally I planned to do 1 comic drop and move on, but got stuck bc ppl liked tnmn comics and kept asking for more (and still do-)
Generally I don’t mind doing more if the ideas are there, but I want to address this: I’m tired
I know blowing up is usually a good thing and I appreciate people enjoying my stuff
But it’s exhausting to see that tnmn is the only type of content which is relevant, to the point that my own projects or stuff I enjoy are just kinda.. ignored
It’s fair – again my blog is heavily fandom based
(+Tsp were and still is kinda the focus)
But with tnmn fandom it’s a bit… different
Maybe I’m biased and it’s just my negative experience with tiktok comments
Remember this art?
cleaning up transphobic comments was.. um tough
Again, I get that you can’t be in that neat bubble completely sheltered from negativity
Humans are just assholes by nature really/j
So I was expecting the backlash, but not that much
I think maybe tsp fandom spoiled me a bit (in a good way), bc I got a feeling that everyone in tsp was positive of any lgbt+ headcanons and just generally more supportive
(don’t get me wrong, there ARE problems in tsp community too, taking narrators design controversy into account as one of the examples)
Obviously every fandom always has it’s own issues, show me at least one fandom that didn’t have some sort of meaningless controversy or some sort of problematic people in it
It happens
But it leaves a bad taste in your mouth sometimes
And for me personally it only added to not so pleasant experience
The thing I also noticed, when I interacted with other fandoms
Ppl wrote positive stuff first and foremost, not really asking for anything
Here it’s just “hey more. I want more. Do more. Do this character. Do this. Do more.”
The only reason I kept doing more, because likes, reblogs, views – these comics get a ton of attention
there is a audience to please alright
But this thing comes with a pressure tho
and it shows
so let me illustrate
This bookcase
Is my shame
Because I was so rushing, I just copied and colour corrected this bookcase from my diploma comic and pasted it here in hopes for the best
💥IT LOOKS HORRIBLE OKAY💥
Usually it’s normal to take materials used in other projects
the not so normal part is
to leave it like that because your stress reducing tea doesn’t work and you don’t really have time to redraw it
my m en ta l s t a t e i s f i n e ah ah h ah ah
Ok but jokes aside: it’s really tempting, to just abandon everything and produce content like some sort of content farm
But I don’t want to, I’m forcing myself and it makes my art worse
Yes it’s subtle, new people won’t even see this
But I’m not improving
And I don’t enjoy just anxiously popping out comics because everyone keeps asking
I can give it my all to something when I’m passionate, but just “hey I’m getting attention” is not the best motivator
Attention like that does get to my head, I know that I will probably give in again and do more, bc I will compare my posts engagement
But what’s the point of recognition, when you feel.. so numb about it…
Sorry for a mountain of text and thank you for ppl who actually took their time to read it
It’s been building up for a while and I feel like people need to know the reason why I’m not so enthusiastic about making “more”
I’m not necessarily completely abandoning this fandom
I still plan to do ask/suggestions event for STP (I’m just making sure I can dedicate my time to it, that’s why it’s taking so long) and I can add tnmn to the mix
Like STP+tnmn kind of deal
But for now – I need a break
At least for a little bit
#bear answers#vent post#nothing serious just a bunch not so positive thoughts#tnmn#that’s not my neighbor#tnmn fandom#thoughts#fandom thoughts#apologies for possible mistakes/typos
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Hello everyone! PSA incoming!
It has been brought to my attention that the blog 'cancels-stuff' on here is blatantly reposting lmk art without credit. Not only is it reposted, the watermarks are still visible and even some of the captions and the tags are identical to the OP's.
There's a multitude of artists on this blog and i sadly do not remember all of them by name but some of them are: @inafallsaway, @devilicious-studios, @izuke-the-zombie, @artkotaro, @coffeebutamargo, @hunny-bxscuit, @dietyprophet, @rissas and many more (i'm so sorry if this is our first encounter)
I have contacted the reposter and called them out and did contemplate whether or not i should give them a fighting chance - that however was quickly thrown out the window after bestie @squidkid15 informed me that this person is a repeat offender, meaning this is not the first bs they've pulled; so yeah, fuck this.
I have 0 tolerance for this garbage so if gathering as many artists as possible to spam file dmca's at tumblr (or at the very least spread awareness if ppl don't alr know , and block them) is what it takes, so be it. However i am aware of tumblr's lackluster enforcement of their guidelines, but i believe it's worth a try!
The following are screenshots i've taken from the blog, with date of upload visible just as further proof:
Some of these artists haven't been tagged given that i couldn't find their names, but if you guys could let them know and overall spread the word, i would really appreciate it!
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