#but I just can’t stand them anymore

[melusinea]

First love

I hate how much I loved you and how partially I still do.

I hate that you never felt the same way.

I hate that you used my love for you to string me along for months and to treat me like less than what I deserved.

I hate that you made me feel desired for the first time and then you ripped everything away from me.

You made me feel loved and understood for a brief period of time, and then you turned out just like everyone else who hurt me.

You refused to listen, to empathise with me, you refused to see me.

It was always all about you.

When it came the time that it should’ve been about me, suddenly it was too much, suddenly you wanted someone else.

I would never have been enough for you, yet you tried to convince me it was all in my head when I was feeling insecure.

I hate you for what you did to me and for how you treated me. But most of all I hate how you made me love you. How you insisted that I should trust you, that I should love you, only to prove to me a few months later that I shouldn’t have.

You never treated me the way that I deserve to be treated. And you blamed me for it.

I still thought after all this time that if you came by and apologised to me in the correct way and changed your behaviour maybe I would’ve taken you back. Or maybe you could’ve just gained the pleasure to know me once again.

Now I’m not so sure if I’m willing to be so kind to you.

You weren’t to me.

Goodbye.

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: death mention / strangulation mention / stabbing mention / blood mention / self-sacrifice / codependency mention in tags / ]

I think a lot about how common it is for Raph to be the one to have direct focus put on him when Leo gets into all his near death experiences.

Like, when Leo is thrown off a building, it’s Raph who’s right there jumping after him, not even thinking about the consequences to himself when he does. When Leo almost gets skewered by the Krang, Raph’s right there to take the blow and send Leo to safety without a second thought. When Leo’s being strangled to near death, it’s a Krangified Raph doing the job, doing exactly what Raph would never, ever want to do. When Leo is telling Casey Jr to close the portal, it’s Raph who tries desperately to convince Leo otherwise.

Likewise, Leo is consistently very single minded when Raph gets forcibly separated from them. Both when in the sewers and by the Krang, Leo is dead set on finding Raph first and foremost.

I also think it’s interesting that during each of Leo’s near death experiences, the lightheartedness of his words during them goes directly hand in hand with both how close Raph is to him physically and how much danger Raph is also in in that moment. From a literal “I told you so” as Leo’s falling away from Raph to a soft joke about how “hero moves” are Raph’s style - both of these are on the more morbidly carefree side and both of these notably take Leo farther away from Raph and, in turn, have Raph not in immediate danger.

On the other side of things is the apology from Leo, heedless of the danger he himself is in as he seriously and genuinely speaks to a Krangified Raph face to face. Then there’s Leo’s freezing and desperation as Raph takes a hit meant for him and sends just Leo to safety, leaving Raph himself behind. Both of these involve much closer proximity and Raph being directly harmed - these together make Leo much more vulnerable in his words and actions, something not even the threat of death can make him.

These two care about each other so much, and they’re way too much alike for their own good.

[cazluvsu]

save me

[artemis-b-writes]

I AM GIRLS. I SAY I WONT WATCH IT BUT I KNOW I WILL AND YALL WILL ABSOLUTELY CATCH ME BAWLING LIKE A BABY. And I don’t wanna hear anything about it. I will always defend my girl May, she will spend the rest of her life making peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and chocolate chunk cookies for her baby boy because that’s what he liked to eat after school! Crying over May Castellan always actually…

[starlooove]

“Fandom isn’t fun anymore fandom isn’t fun anymore” tbh it just feels like white racist “normies” jumped in as opposed to white racist nerds and for me personally u can feeeel it kinda but it doesn’t change much

[liverralonee]

genuinely cant stop thinking about stuilly. please someone save me.

[rosaacicularis]

au where scar is the royal guard assigned to keep prince grian safe as he travels to a neighbouring kingdom for a peace treaty but they get ambushed and have to survive in nature until they can get to civilization <3

[tariah23]

I’m not rooting for Candace Owens just because she spoke out about israel and Zionists, man.

[bandzboy]

it’s absolutely insane to me how my twitter timeline i see a tweet talking about the super bowl and then right after a tweet about people were carpet bombed im rafah like… i’m so angry that i genuinely have no words this is the world we live in i guess

[saintlesbian]

as for the rest of the ep…

Chalynn truthers we won. we fucking won 🍾🍾🍾

Lois trying to talk Ned into making peace w/ Michael and Drew sounds REAL funny knowing that drew and Michael r still planning on pushing him out of ELQ again. fuck those two forever actually, y’all can make peace in hell

speaking of drewfus, I wish I could be glad he’s leaving but it’s not for very long and crew is gonna be annoying abt it I’m sure. this version of drew is such a shell of himself that anytime hes brought up I just feel disgusted 😖

I’m getting tired of Sonny bringing up Carly when talking to nina it just feels WEIRD… I really don’t wanna see a Carson reunion but it’s starting to feel like the pikeman/cyrus bs might end up being the catalyst for one… sonaritas should we be worried. 😟

also Tolly agreeing to use krissy as the surrogate… wasn’t there literally a whole argument against doing this months back that resulted in tolly icing krissy out for several weeks…? once again I must assert this whole surrogate storyline is a load of barnacles

[anxiously-kk]

alright y’all just reread my post from last. ugh cause matt just said this again and i’m tired

[whoblewboobear]

The way I had every intention to be productive this weekend and did none of it bc I know I’m in for some shit the minute I walk into that stupid office

[anotherobsessedfangirl]

Abled people have no idea how traumatizing it is to constantly have to explain yourself, your condition your medical history over and over again and being reliant on the doctors opinion of you and your struggles. Never knowing if they will believe you or respect you or completely dismiss you. It feels like you have to explain yourself for everything you ever did in relation to your condition and your lifestyle and everyone has a different opinion about it. I am so tired of having to fight for treatments… I am tired of begging and explaining myself and trying to convince people that I am worth treating… I don’t want this anymore I feel like it’s a weight slowly crushing me…

[steviescrystals]

MY LIFE IS NOT REAL WHAT IS GOING ON

[olasketches]

(one and a half year later) I finally changed my phone’s wallpaper

[lesbiansanemi]

*through gritted teeth* ppl can ship whatever they want and it’s fine it doesn’t affect you ppl can ship whatever they want and it’s fine it doesn’t affect you ppl can ship whatever they want and it’s fine it doesn’t affect you people can—