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how much for you to write a verlaine x reader one shot
Hello dear anon! Thank you so much for your question; I think it’s very, very sweet that you find me a good enough writer that you’d be interested in paying me to write something for you! 🥺💖 That is a huge compliment to me; really, it is.
Unfortunately, if you check my F.A.Q.s, I already have this answered there. For your convenience’s sake, I’ll repost it here, however:
Questions Regarding the Content on My Blog(s)
Q: Do you take commissions/requests?
A: Not currently, sorry! Maybe some other time! My artwork typically takes a long time for me — and a ton of energy — to create, and I’ve found in the past that taking commissions and requests is extremely taxing on my mental health, and hard to keep up with, so it is not likely to be something I will do often, if ever at all. If I do open commissions, I’ll certainly make a post about it.
I know this only explicitly mention my artwork, but it covers my story writing, as well; I used to take commissions for some things, and I learned the hard way that it was very not good for me. As I said, when it comes to commissions and requests of artwork or fic, please operate under the assumption that if there are no current posts stating commissions or requests are open, then I am taking them at this time. Even when I ever do, those instances will likely be very limited and probably fairly specific in what type of content they allow; for example, right now, I do have art requests open, but only for a very specific thing, and anything outside of that will be rejected.
I’m sorry to disappoint you, as I find it lovely that you are so interested in my work, but I have to take care of my mental health first and foremost and that means being firm in my boundaries during situations like this, even when it is tempting to do something for someone else’s enjoyment.
HOWEVER! While I do not take commissions or requests for fanfics at this point in time, I have always been very open to taking asks about headcanons for certain characters — and that includes relationship headcanons!
So, to make it so you don’t necessarily walk away with nothing, I will make a post about Verlaine relationship headcanons (his sexuality, what he’s like in a relationship, what type of person he’s likely to fall for, etc.) in just a little bit.
(I’m pretty sick right now, so I don’t know how fast I’ll get it out, but I’ll certainly try.)
#linklethehistorian#my thoughts#thoughts#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd paul verlaine#paul verlaine#anon#ask#my writing#my original content#my fanfic#my artwork#ily anon#sorry if that’s disappointing to find out#I really am touched you like my writing that much#but I have to take care of myself
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anya deserved so much better
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing art#mouthwashing anya#ibon draws#cw eye strain#eye strain#just in case#massive trigger warning for people interested in the game 😭i myself had to just listen to a video summarizing it#because i don't do well with heavy games like that especially as a survivor and someone with cptsd myself#the way in which she was systematically failed and gaslit by the others even after the fact felt eerily similar to what i experience#'in the back of my mind it's always there' how it feels to have cptsd in the aftermath is so realistically depicted by anya- i can confirm#take care of yourselves ok <3 i wish us all healing and safety
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A h-heartfelt reunion..?
Bonus
#Sir Crocodile#Monkey D Dragon#Emporio Ivankov#Dragodile#Crocodad#My art#One Piece#We're not gonna talk about the work I should be doing rn I have Severe Procrastinitis and I'm doing my best okay#Alternative version where it was both Crocodile and Garp beating Dragon's ass before Iva-chan joined in but that was too much effort lmao#I'm a believer in Dragon being a Wind Logia so don't worry guys he is 100% taking this beating intentionally#He knows what he did and he's dealing with the concequences of his actions. With grace.#You know I realize Iva-chan should be two whole meters taller than Crocodile but we're just gonna ignore that#Look Iva-chan taking Crocodile's side and being like ''Crocoboy is right you fucked up bad Dragon'' brings me joy#And for real I've been wanting to draw this for months. But never did because I had other shit to do. Which I still do#But. You know. Sometimes you need to draw a shitpost. It's ✨ self-care ✨#And appearently One Piece shitpost comics have become the thing I draw for myself on occassion
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Not be to be one of those people, but life improved significantly once I started to exercise consistently, and I became more intentional with what I ate. My health became a priority, and everything started to align again.
Love it or hate it, it makes such a huge difference. Make your well being your highest priority and life will start to flourish in unexpected ways 🤍
#bae’s random thoughts#the garden of bae#black femininity#I aspire to be hot forever so I have no choice but to take care of myself#black women in luxury#black girls in luxury#black women in leisure
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you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.
but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.
well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?
his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.
still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.
so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.
and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.
what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.
it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?
it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.
maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.
#spilled ink#warm up#oh im .... sick to my stomach.#i talked to him. like ....... we talked. that man interacted with my poetry and writing.#that article.... gutwrenching. i am so sorry to everyone he's ever even been in the room with.#i feel.... like... unbearably. sick.#he acted like he was cool and friends with me!! we were cool internet writers together!!!!!#i feel sick for even having been polite to him.#i ...... am experiencing something so fucking complicated.#i wonder how many of u are feeling that too. like ''oh i sent him an ask and he was funny and sweet''#THATS HOW THEY GET U. ..... and YES I KNOW!!!#i am so fucking well-read about parasocial relationships. it would just be nice to like. trust that someone ISNT#hiding a huge fucking background of BEING A COMPLETE MONSTER. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.#by the way i am not part of a fandom. this is “what the fuck i accidentally supported a rapist” not#“but my showww”. like i care far more about like. the human cost.#but also like... people are people. idk i saw a take on here about how nobody should mourn the books#and idk. people almost always reply to any scenario with their personal experience first -#''i knew him'' or ''wow i was just at that store'' or ''i grew up there'' or whatever. because that is how we establish connection &#emotional weight. that's just... a person thing. and there is a difference between 'oh this guy is a monster'' & the feeling of:#he's been a monster and i SUPPORTED THAT. i CELEBRATED him. i !!! a fucking victim myself!!!!!!!!! SUPPORTED . HIM.#i am sick. i feel so much pain for her and everyone he's ever hurt. saying ''the books are ruined'' is i think ... like how people say#they're shocked and disgusted by him. (obviously there's nuance here. im sure there's some creep doin it wrong. but u know. in general)#idk..... im an author. i understand my work is in your life in whatever small way. i understand that connection. it's real.
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Me: I appreciate that you keep bringing me tupperware leftovers but you really really shouldn't, you're going to lose a lot of containers
My brother, handing me the 10 thousandth container of leftovers: Oh yeah I forgot to ask when are you bringing those back
Me: You don't want them back.
My brother: What did you do
Me: Better question: what did I NOT do
Him: ...
Me:
Him: Oh my god
Me: Yeah
Him: You haven't been WASHING THEM?
Me: Bruh I'll be honest I haven't even been eating most of them
Him: Oh my god
Him: I have been bringing you lunch since-
Me: Halloween
Him: OH MY GOD
Me: Yeah
Him: It's been- we JUST bought those containers
Me: I'VE BEEN TELLING YOU TO STOP
Him: WHAT THE HELL
Me: I HAVE TOLD YOU SO MANY TIMES TO STOP
Him: IF I DONT FEED YOU, YOU DONT EAT
Me: I AM AN ADULT I PACK FOOD
Him: WHAT FOOD
Me: I DONT KNOW, FUCKING. SPAGHETTI
Him: IN WHAT? IN WHAT? YOU DONT WASH YOUR FUCKING TUPPERWARE
Me: I DON'T *BUY* TUPPERWARE CAUSE I KNOW I WONT WASH IT
Him: WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU CARRY THE SPAGHETTI IN
Me: Bags
Him: What
Me: Ziplock fucking bags
Him: YOU'RE EATING SPAGETTI OUT OF BAGS
Me: IT'S LESS WASTEFUL
Him: HOW is it less wasteful? HOW?? You're throwing out a plastic bag every single day!
Me: It's better than throwing out tupperware!
Him: TUPPERWARE IS REUSABLE
Me: NOT IF YOU DONT WASH IT
Him: WHY THE FUCK NOT
Me: I DONT DO DISHES
Him: THE FUCK YOU MEAN YOU DONT DO DISHES.
Me: I hate doing dishes. You KNOW I hate doing dishes. I have ALWAYS HATED DOING DISHES you KNOW this
Him: WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN EATING OFF OF
Me: PLASTIC BAGS
Him:
Him: You're a fucking trash monster
Me: You wore the same pair of Shrek pants every day for two years
Him: When will you let that go
Me: I will never let it go
Me:
Me: ...thank you for the lasagna
#This little bastard is kind and thoughtful to the point that it is almost dumb#STOP TAKING CARE OF ME I HAVE A SYSTEM#It's not that I NEVER do dishes#I just hate it so much its maybe an every 17 days thing#I just refuse to dirty them when possible#Like literally I will straight up skip a meal before I touch the sink#I am aware it's stupid#Just as I am aware of the reasons#But because I KNOW MYSELF I will not buy tupperware#At least glass will wait for me#....this is always why I eat so many sandwiches tbh#The bagged spaghetti post#Teaboot
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i know the pain is nauseating. i know you are disappointed. i know you feel betrayed. i know it feels hopeless and bleak. i know you're tired.
please don't disappear.
please be kind.
please continue to take care of yourself.
please keep living day by day.
please live. out of spite. out of hope for a better tomorrow.
if you are POC, queer, femme, trans, disabled, you are loved. you are wanted. i may not know you, but i love you with my whole person. there is still good in this world, this isn't the end.
#important#us politics#pingyappathon#if you need to step away to take care of yourself then please do so. stop doomscrolling.#there so many good marginalized people who cannot leave this country. we have to stay and fight#if not for ourselves then for those who can't.#by nature and job occupation i am a caregiver my heart aches for everyone and myself#personally i live out of rage and bloodlust for my enemies. i fought too hard and too long for my happiness.#i wont back down or give up for myself or others.
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I'm so tired of feeling like this.
#actually mentally ill#depressing shit#mental health#sorry for being depressing#anxi4ty#cw vent#i cant take this shit anymore#im going to kms#im losing it#ready to kms#depressing life#kill my life#why am i like this#i wanna kms#kms#i want to kms#what is wrong with me#i hate this#what the fuck#i dont get it#i hate everything#i dont care anymore#fuck everything#mentally fucked#i have no mouth and i must scream#woke up feeling more lost and out of touch with myself.. my surroundings and my partner all in the span of a night.. what the hell..#mentally exhausted#im a horrible person#mentally unstable#bed rotting
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Another year has passed, and with it the opportunity to reflect back on all that has happened. While my growth was not as dramatic as last year, I can still see lots of positive change.
I'll never have enough ways to say thank you for all the love and support you have given me this year. On to 2025!
(2023 summary here!)
#poorly drawn mdzs#art summary#Since last year's independent variable was PD-WWX; this year I used Lan Wangji.#Unfortunately his appearances were not very evenly distributed this year! Lots of LWJ's early in the year#then a dead period in the middle. He is forever my silly rabbit. I love drawing him!#If I have to put a label on this year; I'd describe it as 'experimental'. I pushed myself to do llots of new things!#I drew lots for dungeon meshi and that really boosted my growth. More body types -clothing details - expressions!#Ryoko Kui is a great artist to learn from and It made me realize that I had a lot to gain from doing more studies.#I also started working on a whole new genre of art! While it has taken a backburner spot - I'm working on a game now!#Digital art was my enemy last year but I have been getting a feel for it now.#Goals for this year is to 1) keep working on my personal projects 2) finish PD-MDZS! and 3) practice animation!#I didn't (couldn't) draw as much as I did last year...but I had to take a lesson in humility and taking care of myself.#Drawing is something I do 'for fun' but there were many times it became more stressful than it should.#I'm still learning how to find and maintain balance with everything life throws at me.#We are all works of progress and I am trying very hard to love the process and the journey! I don't really know my destination!#But I will keep taking steps forwards. I never want to be stuck and lost as I once was.#If 2024 was a rough year for you too; We're in this together. Let's keep taking steps together. No matter how small.#Love you all so very much. You've given me strength on the darkest days. Thank you thank you thank you.
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uh hi hello!! first i wanted to say i am deeply in love with your art (god those shapes, these lines, texture, anatomy, expression, EVERYTHING) and your latest drawing just moved something in me i cant quite grasp it, been thinking about it for a couple days. sooo i felt inspired and made myself a smol little machete out of uh wild clay so i could kiss him on the forehead before going to sleep, i hope you're ok with that? (also sorry he's kinda wonky, me and acrylics hate each other haha)




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#oh man are you seeing this??#little clay chete#that's absolutely precious you captured his rounded puppy shapes so well#those floppy ears especially#and the worried look on his eyes#really good likeness with facial proportions and snout shape#I really like the simplified form of his body it's so visually appealing#and I think your paintwork is just fine! you managed to include his pink gradients too#the inside of his ears looks almost like watercolor#and that nose detail!#also wild clay?? as in you harvested it from the nature yourself? that's so impressive#I've never used wild clay I've done ceramics before but only with processed and packaged clays#getting extra coolness points for that if you ask me#he's so terribly cute! thank you for showing me#please take good care of him he's just a little lad in a big world#gift art#putridcrow#own characters#Machete#also having a little crisis here atm because how come it has never crossed my mind to make something like this myself?#I think I should try that sometime
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Hello everyone! :) I hope you are all doing well! I have been at college, and it's been pretty busy work. Here are some WH doodles I made yesterday!
#Thank you all so much for the kind words on my last post!#Do not worry I have been taking care of myself!#College has been really fun for me and I have met so many wonderful people!#Thank you all for your patience#Posts will be slow but I plan on doodling welcome home and other shows and movies#So stay tuned!!#welcome home#welcome home arg#my art#doodles#wally darling#poppy partridge#latter pillar#welcome home home#welcome home wally#welcome home poppy#welcome home latter#teachyouhowtodothesponge
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“Born On The Cob” by SalamanderMoss, read it!!!! amazing!!!!!!! 🌽 Gail choking on cornbread in Chapter 3 fanart
#cobigail#great god grove#ggg#my art#queue#SALMO IF YOU'RE READING THIS HI chapter 4. was lovely!!!! we're really placed in in her shoes#theres so many little moments that build to the feeling of “if i don't take care of this community. who will?"#she's so loving and she's so strained#just like milldread#also you describe the world with such clarity I could feel myself in that barn#not exaggerating this is already one of my favorite fics. period#BTW. SOBS. SO HAPPY YOU LIKE THE ART ;_;#EDIT: JUST ONE MORE THING. after reading chapter 3 i immediately bought corn muffins mix#problem is i never buy eggs#and by god im not doing it now#so i just have a box of corn mix. for when that special day comes#and it will be a beautiful mysterious day#bc i completely forgot if i like cornbread or not
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Look, listen. The smoker on the balcony is obsessed with beauty and the fine arts while Cindy the skull is a contemporary artist all about activism and I need them to interact so badly because they would have THEE most heated art debate of the century. Cindy would eat him alive but that's not the point their back and forth would be legendary you don't even know. Lesbian on gay man violence.
#disco elysium#smoker on the balcony#cindy the skull#also if I can allow myself a bit of indulgence. they both have some issues with the concept of home#cindy with her emphaty check and the smoker with the whole being an immigrant. I could elaborate if anyone cares#THIS close to writing fic except I'm not confident with my prose so if anyone out there wants to take this concept and run#please you have my blessing
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hello surviving centricide fandom...I bring you some wacky food
(i'm also animating a small portion of Centricide 3.5 but since I can't tell how much more time it's gonna take I'll show you some sneak peeks! :3)
((since I'm a certified yapper, I added some additional info + translations to all the images descriptions! not sure if it qualifies as ID so feel free to add upon it if necessary))
#jreg centricide#centricide posadist#centricide anmon#centricide anprim#centricide transhumanist#centricide homonationalist#do they have a group tag?#centricide wackies#and also one (1) wild#centricide commie#imma use rest of the tags to ramble for a bit k#so i was huge into centricide when it was coming out in 2020 i'm an oldie#LOVED the wackies (take a wild guess who used to be my number one even back then)#made fanart even (tho i never posted it cuz i felt it might be viewed as cringe...don't care no more hahahaha)#didn't know it had a tumblr fandom! thought it was a reddit thing only#rewatched the whole thing few days ago to keep myself sane while working on grad project#years later after having watched jjba i have to say...the vibes are so fucking similar#no wonder i enjoyed both of these shows#btw i made up so much posadist lore ask me about my posadist lore pls pls <3#i don't use reddit so if anyone could share these there i'd appreciate! just please credit and link back to my post!#if we get this post to 100 notes i might design regular extremists next...*wink*#centricide
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quick update on art moving forward:
i'm gonna be switching back and forth between doing more original work/non-mlp content and gg20s art from now on. things may go slower, but that's part of me trying to take care of myself vs. the past couple of months which has been "i need to finish and post at least 2 gg20s artworks every week or i'll die." i still need to finish that utena juri illustration, and i have a neat character design exercise i wanna do on designing 90s high fantasy anime characters.
for full transparency, here are some things i have lined up for gg20s (on my end at least, tulli's still going strong): character designs for nyc characters (coco pommel, coloratura, suri polomare), the disney opening sequence video, more rarijack (obviously), including that one-shot fanfiction, and a daring do comic.
ty guys.
#personal#delete later#the past half year has been great but i need to adjust things to take better care of myself#because i've also been extremely tired all the time#today because i'm taking a break from twitter and don't have pressure to keep making art to post i decided not to draw#and it was nice
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we need to talk about the end of this case because what
#image id in alt text#katrielle layton#alfendi layton#professor layton#spin offs#layton brothers mystery room#katrielle and the millionaire's conspiracy#layton's mystery journey#i didn't put my url on the last one and someone mentioned i should be watermarking so we're trying two things for now please ignore#ok like WHY do all the kids wanna get in the thames. dont swim in the thames through the city of london that sounds gross#fun fact i drew this on nye last year and just never finished alfendi and then never posted so 👍#layton siblings#katrielle could be good we just have to completely scrap it and start over#i have like so many random comics for these two individually and together ummmm i have no explanation for that one#sorry layton fandom i know we hate kats game but what if i see endless potential that they squandered#(if i post my other comics i'll make an faq that's like 'the anime is not canon on this blog')#no one cares take this art#edit: this has nothing to do with the anime i was just talking to myself and will refrain from doing that in the future#this is a reference to the end of case 2 of the game itself
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