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romanaxe · 23 hours ago
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RadioApple Valentines 2025 Day 5: Under the Stars
Are there stars in Hell?
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hannnsh · 22 hours ago
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cupid joel for vday 💌
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happy valentines day for the happy people .. i am not one of those happy couples .. i got rejected just this week ….. anyways !! idk why im so determined to make something for valentines, i did this all in one go, i slept at 4.30 am, why? maybe bc i like torturing myself- just kidding hahahaa….
i was gonna add all the “love interests” for joel as chibis but i got too tired and lazy 💔💔 another reason why i had a blast drawing this till 4 am is ots full of pink which is my fav colour
i honestly have nothing else to say, i’ve been on vacation for the past week and i am hashtag TIRED 😭 hopefully i get back home and i get to paint again!! i havent forgotten abt the requests, i will do it soon 💔💔
btw i saw someone say my joel is such a twink, idk if thats a good thing or nah, but all i wanna say is, boi u havent seen all of it. maybe i need to put a trigger warning on my posts for “twinkifying” characters so people can yknow .. watch out 🩷😊 anyways jokes aside, its just the way i draw joel, i draw most male caharcters ‘twinks’ its prolly what i get when i would draw exclusively girls for 15 years of my life 🤷🏻‍♀️ also, i tend to make the caharcters i like built like me, yes i am somewhat a stick irl, it is canon, and so if ya dont like my designs, u can just ignore and move on 🩷 no hate to the person who said the twink joel thing idk if they were neg or not its just a clarification i guess no harm no foul
as always have a great day and catch me on my next crazy ramble on my next crazy drawing
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celeste-clearwater-06 · 19 hours ago
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The Kitchen Window (pt. 4)
Bayverse! Raphael x Fem! Reader
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desc- (everything finally clicks into place when you're invited over to Vern's place. some new friends mean new experiences)
warnings - swearing
word count - 4.7k (I told y'allll)
READ PREVIOUS PARTS HERE - one - two - three
You’ve been brooding the past couple of days. Life has been sucker punching you in the gut, one insane, unthinkable blow at a time.
Work hours are getting ridiculously longer, April O’Neil hasn’t texted you back since the night you spilled all of your secrets. And you haven’t seen or heard Raphael around. Not that important, but it still contributes to the pile of miserable shit you’re handling. Thankfully, Vannie seems to be filling that lonely space in your flat. She’s a sweet relief to see at the end of each night when you get back from work, purring and content. You hadn’t realized how nice it was to come home to someone that’s so pleased to see you. She’s helping you cope, even if just a little. A cat tree now sits in the far corner of your living room so she’s not climbing all over the counters and scratching at your sofa. Though simple, it adds a new, homey addition to the space.
This night off is uneventful. Vannie sits in your lap, fast sleep, while you mindlessly scroll on your phone and sip on a glass of fruit juice that’s been sitting in your fridge for just a little too long. Hometown highschool friends with their engagement rings and college graduation posts. Not something that you particularly yearned for, but it still hurt a little. It was probably time to pick up a damn hobby. Vern texts you. What a surprise.
[Hey kiddo]
He hasn’t called you that in a long time. It makes your throat tighten up.
[what up big man]
It takes him a second to type out another text.
[I know we haven’t seen each other much. Figured you might wanna come see my apartment? it’s nice]
An invite to your older brother’s fancy new place is the last thing you’d expected in the form of a late night message.
[tonight?]
[tommorow]
[hell yeah]
Finally, a small start to getting better. Vannie stretches in your lap and you stroke her fur.
The subway ride uptown is weird. You forget that there’s literal trains running underground, after walking to and from work for so long. It would be more exciting, if not for being sandwiched between two total strangers and the silence of people kind of just looking around. The screech of wheels on the tracks breaks it every once in a while. You’re also not a fan of the shoving and pushing of total strangers through the way-too-small sliding doors when you reach your destination, almost tripping at least twice. Rude.
At the very least, Vern’s apartment complex was just two blocks away from the subway exit. You knew the upper parts of the city were nicer, but it doesn’t really hit until you’re walking on the wide sidewalks and passing restaurants and window shops that put your cafe to shame. Even the early afternoon atmosphere just seems less heavy. There’s more light. You catch just a few more passing smiles than you usually would, up the steps into the main building, where you have to press a button and announce you’re a visitor to your older brother.
The elevator takes you to the 11th floor of the nicest complex you’ve ever been in (not that you’d been in many anyhow).
The whole way here, you've been excited to see Vern, practically bouncing with every step all the way up to his door. But now your fist freezes right above the place where you’re about to knock. Something was so off about this. You rap your knuckles on the wood anyway.
Someone opens the door, after a few shuffling footsteps, and it’s not Vern. Your heart drops.
“April?” A voice crack slips its way through your dry throat.
Oh my god. She’s told him everything.
She told your older brother all of your insane ramblings, and now she’s greeting you with a friendly smile like it’s nothing. So this is what the invitation was all about. The both of them were probably waiting inside with a psychologist or a one way ticket to a padded room. You’re frozen like a deer in headlights.
“Oh hey!” April is warm with her greeting, but it does nothing to shake the spirit of your utter confusion. To add to it all, Vern’s head peeks over hers with a weak wave of his hand and a sheepish expression.
“Hey kiddo.”
You squint suspiciously, eyes darting between them. The reporter still holds that confident, close-mouthed smile, while your older brother is struggling to keep it together.
“I didn’t know you were gonna be here!” it’s more of a question than a statement, “Are we having a little get together or something?”
Vern tries to speak, but April cuts him off.
“Yeah we figured it’d be good to talk here!”
You can’t protest when she grabs your arm and all but drags you through the doorway and slams it shut, leaving you in the entryway of a lavish, modern, way-too-white apartment. It’s hard to process anything going on. The scenery, Vern’s guilt ridden eyes and the millions of thoughts firing in your brain are all increasingly overwhelming. You're starting to get a headache.
“L-Look, April, about the other night-“
“You don’t have to explain anything.” She pulls you again, this time in the middle of taking your shoes off and past the coat rack. You catch your brother's eye and he looks nearly as lost as you feel. April continues.
“It’s about time we talked about this anyway.”
That makes you nervous. You’re being led into a nice kitchen, Vern at your heels and watching helplessly.
“We don‘t have to!” You exclaim and yank your wrist from her determined hold, “I was just-just tired! I haven’t been getting a lot of sleep, I know I sounded like a total maniac-“
She is completely uninterested in hearing your case, instead rolling her eyes and taking hold of your arm once again.
“We can just forget this whole thing! The loneliness has been getting to me, it’s really…not…”
When you step past the wall of the kitchen you trail off, dumbfounded to silence. All and any rational thought has fled.
Raphael, your savior, the giant fucking turtle, is standing, cross-armed, and a little nervous looking, next to three others that look eerily similar in their stature and green scales, though they all wear vastly different expressions that give away their thoughts. They’re all decked in various scraps of gear and oversized clothing, and like the one in red, have different colored bandanas over their eyes.
You look and feel like a total moron. Just standing there, mouth agape, only wearing one shoe and eyes flicking between the quartet of reptiles and your brother, who’s pinching his temple between two fingers in distress. The shortest of the four offers an over exaggerated smile and wave, before being kicked in the back of the leg, by another in a blue mask. He looks immensely annoyed. You have no idea what to say and when you open your mouth to speak, a flustered gasp squeezes its way from the back of your throat.
“I told you guys this was a shit idea,” Vern says. The tallest turtle shifts his weight from one large foot to another. It’s so quiet, so awkward, and yet you’re so discombobulated, your head starts to spin and you lean against the wall for support. You knew there was more than one night assailant. But four? And all nearly the same size and appearance? This was beyond absurd.
“Okay,” your voice is quiet, but it immediately captures the attention of everyone that’s standing in the room, “Can someone, genuinely, please tell me what the fuck is happening right now.”
“I didn’t know how to tell you right away.” April speaks up from behind you. You turn to see her apologetic eyes. Your silence prompts her to continue an explanation.
“These are my friends.” She sounds like trying to tame some wild animal, and her arm sweeps out to gesture towards the four, “I just wanted to see, you know… if it was really just ‘some guy’ that stopped whoever was grabbing you.”
Guess she was right. You rotate once again at Vern who is trying to avoid eye contact.
“You knew?!”
Everyone jumps at the sudden escalation in your shocked question.
“I didn’t know how to tell you!”
You scoff.
“What, am I supposed to just tell you I’m acquainted with four, crime fighting, ninja turtles?! I’d sound batshit crazy!”
It was only fair that he thought that way. Suddenly, your distant, uninvolved brother was in your exact shoes, and your shoulders slump downwards in exasperation.
“So would I, Vern! I knew- I knew-, I wasn’t insane, but this whole situation has been eating at me for fucking weeks!”
If not for the absolute shock running through you, you would have laughed at the way April and the vigilantes just stand there and watch your argument like it’s reality TV, turning their heads each time one of you speaks up.
“Look, I’m sorry, okay? You should be glad we're telling you now!”
You throw your hands in the air and roll your eyes, once again rendered speechless.
A different voice pulls you from the confrontation. It’s the one in blue, now standing a little nearer to you. He’s massive, just like the others, even more now up close. You’re still not used to them talking in perfect, clear English. Or, really, at all.
“Sorry we had to meet this way.” His voice is deep, mature, and assertive. Surely the head honcho of the group. He’s smiling like it’s a peace offering, lopsided and gentle.
“I-I don’t-“ You search for the right response, but he does the talking for you and offers a calloused, three fingered hand.
“Leonardo.”
A long pause. Then an overtaxed sigh. You accept his introduction and awkwardly take it. You’re literally shaking a talking turtle's hand.
“I guess you already know my name.”
“We sure do, angel!” Leonardo is being shoved suddenly, quickly replaced with the energetic, shortest of the party. His bandanna is orange, and he’s puffing out his chest with confidence that out’s Vern’s ego to sorry shame. It immediately puts a curious smile on your face.
“I’m Michealangelo, but all the ladies call me Mikey.”
He grabs your hand delicately and places a cool kiss to the back of it while he bows toward the floor. You can’t do anything but awkwardly chuckle and watch as the others groan and cover their faces in embarrassment. This guy was pretty funny.
“Save some for the rest of us, Mike.”
You look to the tallest, who’s pushing the thick-lensed, tortoise print glasses up his nose. He opts to wave his hand from where he’s standing, seeming to sense the already overwhelming lack of personal space you have.
“Donatello.” It’s the voice you overheard on the radio last week, that accidentally gave away Raphael’s name.
Oh. OH. It finally clicks in your brain. Leonardo, Michelangelo, Donatello. Raphael.
“Renaissance artists, huh?”
April meets your face with a kind of look that reads, ‘now you get it’.
“Oh yeah, baby,” Mikey kisses his flexed bicep, “Works of art.”
You laugh.
“I named my cat after Van Gogh.”
Raphael, still standing back from the group, lifts his head and meets your eyes at the mention of her. He looks away again, but a little smirk breaks as he rolls a toothpick off his tongue and in between his teeth.
The sort of shared interest seems to break a little bit of the tension, and the other three smile.
”Damn, Raph,” Mikey grins over at the ray of sunshine, “Not even gonna come say hi to your girlfriend?”
Your face flushes lightly. It’s clearly just a little jab to get under his skin, but you’re caught slightly off guard. Thankfully nobody seems to notice.
The smile’s gone, replaced with a huff of his nostril and a flick to Mikey’s head when Raphael walks over to finally introduce himself.
“Hey.”
You realize, this is the first time you’re standing in front of him without a window in the way. He’s still impossibly large. But you’re just so close. It feels almost foreign, witnessing the broad shoulders and tough plastron that pairs with those intense, forest colored eyes.
“Nice to meet you. Again.” Is all you can say, through a warm smile.
He snuffs, a sort of amused laugh, that makes you smile widely.
“Yeah. Sorry this got turned into such a big ordeal.”
“I don’t mind. I’m glad I got to put a name to the face.”
You two kind of just stare at each other in silence. Mikey doesn’t let it draw on for long.
“You need to let me see this cat!”
“Oh, of course!” You don’t realize how warm your face is until you’re grabbing your phone from your pocket.
April and Vern are standing near each other again, now a little more relaxed seeing you warm up and pull up a photo of Vannie from your camera roll while the four look over your shoulder. Mikey coos at a video of her playing with the strings of your hoodie.
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So maybe it wasn’t ideal, the execution of their plan. Maybe you felt a little betrayed by your brother and his friend.
But.
You’ve made four new friends. And, as odd as they come (and intimidating as they look), they seem to like the way you welcome into your life.
The weeks flying by after you meet the four brothers have gone so much better than before. You’re getting sleep, still working your job up at the cafe, you’ve got Vannie. And that late-night sound of the manhole sliding against asphalt in the back alleyway begins once again. Now when you awake early in the morning to its noise, you just smile and snuggle further into your covers, with the reassurance that there are no scary monsters or felons that stalk in the night. Just four city-protecting vigilantes doing what they do best.
On the weekends, you stay up late to their frequent visits to your kitchen window. They usually swing by for a quick chat or check in on you. Most of the time it’s Mikey or Raphael. Or both. Sometimes the younger will tag along just to pay Vannie a visit while you and Raphael make playful small talk. Donnie will come through your area every once in a while, and though he doesn’t talk as much as his other brothers, it’s a refreshment to just listen to him talk about the state of the city and whatever new nerdy experiment he’s got going on. Leo rarely visits, unless you happen to catch them all leaving the sewer exit and he sticks around to hear you tell a crazy story about a rude customer or stupid order you’ve had to deal with during the week.
It’s so refreshing to have friends to talk to, even if it’s not every day.
Along with these pop ins, Raph’s been leaving things in your window on some of the nights you’re sleeping or coming home extra late from long shifts. Sometimes it’s a cool rock he found (who knows where), other times, an old abandoned action figure, or more recycled toys for Vannie. Your collection had accumulated on the dresser in your bedroom. It’s sweet.
Sometimes, you return the favor and leave him a cold drink you made at work by the open window before you flop into bed, exhausted. Summer’s rolling around the corner and even the nights get hot, especially considering moving around the city with all of his (badass) parkour. On occasion, you’ll make some for his siblings too, but the weird looks from your coworkers, leaving the shift with a cup holder full of unpaid drinks, limits this to every once in a while.
You don’t know it, but Raph feels so spoiled by your gifts to him.
Life is going so great, and you can feel the stone wall of his gruff exterior start to break when he chuckles at one of your jokes. Your heart warms when you think about him at work. As much as you enjoy seeing all of the brothers, it’s the red-banded one you’re drawn closest to. He makes you feel kind of giddy. It’s hard to put a label on it, but you’d love to call him your best friend, if not, one of your only.
It’s sticky and humid outside, on a late Saturday night in June. You’ve been watching a movie in your bedroom, with Vannie nestled beside you, sleeping, a bowl of microwave popcorn in your lap. The tv’s loud enough to almost drown out a little noise that comes from the kitchen. You barely hear it, but it catches your attention and you quickly snatch the remote to pause the movie.
Tap, tap, tap.
You smile. The shifting of the bed wakes up your cat, and she watches as you throw off the duvet and walk from the bedroom into the hall, bowl of popcorn in hand. When you pass the hall door, Raphael is grinning at you through the window and you fast-walk over to unlock the latch and slide it open. Humid air immediately flows in with his smug smile. Now you remember why the window was closed.
“Hey stranger.”
He snorts, and leans to rest his forearms on the sill.
“Whaddup, short stack?”
You shrug, and then offer out the bowl for him to take from. Raph grabs a handful and stuffs it in his mouth.
“What brings you to this part of town at…” you look at the stove clock, “3 in the morning.”
Raph talks while he’s chewing. A usually crude performance that you find kind of endearing.
“Slow night,” He swallows, and there’s a crumb on the corner of his lip, “Not a lot goin on for us out here.”
You nod, trying not to laugh at the leftovers that he clearly doesn’t notice. He quirks a brow.
“What?”
You reach out to try and swipe at it with your thumb but Raph flinches backwards.
“Come here!” Your laugh is soft, “You got something.”
He brings his face a little close and you wipe it away. It’s the first time you’ve touched his face, you realize. It’s cool, but there’s softer skin on his snout compared to the rest of his leathery scales. You try not to linger on it too much. He sees it on your thumb and playfully rolls his eyes. You can’t tell for sure, but there seems to be a little warmth creeping on his face. There’s tension.
“Yeah, I was savin’ that for later.”
Raph swats your hand away and you laugh.
“That hungry, huh?”
He nods.
“Actually yeah. We got leftover pizza at the lair, but I’m not supposed to be goin back for a while.”
“Want me to make you something real quick?”
He seems a little surprised at your offer (not like he’s gonna turn it down). You hear his stomach grumble.
“Can’t say no to that. How long you think it’ll take ya?”
“Probably a little bit. Do you wanna come inside?”
The invitation leaves your lips before you can think. None of the brothers had actually come inside your apartment before. It takes everything in you not to cringe and brace for the impact of his rejection while Raph looks at you with a perplexed glint in his eyes.
“Sure,” his answer sounds nonchalant, but his grin tells you a whole different story, “Dunno how you expect me to squeeze through this teeny little window though.”
You ponder for a second.
“You think you can sneak up to my front door?”
Raph shrugs.
“I can try. If I die, tell everyone it was your fault.”
You laugh.
“‘Vigilante turtle is found dead trying to get some of the worlds best chicken and rice.’ I can read the headlines now.”
He just shakes his head with a smirk, and then jumps off the fire escape.
“See you in a few.”
You shut the window, and in 45 seconds, there’s a knock at the door, and you rush over to open it and quickly let him in. Raph has to duck just a little to avoid hitting his head on the doorframe.
“Welcome to my crib.” It’s cringe, the way you lightly punch his shoulder.
“God, you sound like Mikey.”
“That was the goal.”
The turtle rolls his eyes, and then looks around the living room with a little smile.
“Gotta get you some decorations in here.”
You sigh.
“I know. I’m not here all the time. Plus I think Vannie would just knock shit over.”
Meow
“Speaking of.”
She’s already making her way over to him from your room, and rubs herself against his muscular calf.
“Hey kitty.”
Raph bends to give her head a little scritch, not following you over to the kitchenette where you’re pulling thawed chicken from the refrigerator.
“I think she missed you.”
He doesn’t respond, just looks up at your turned body, as you fill a small pot with water from the kitchen tap.
“You said chicken and rice, huh?”
You nod, looking back at him. He’s walking over to you, sandaled feet scuffing on the carpet.
“Small-apartment-owner staple. Plus it’s easy.”
He’s standing behind you now, arms crossed, and curiously watching as you turn on two of the stove burners.
“Probably not for me. I burn just about everythin I touch.”
You think quietly to yourself, the irony of such a hothead setting a bowl of cereal up in flames.
“This is super simple. I’ll teach you if you want.”
“Oh so you’re a barista and a culinary teacher
“This is one of the only things I can cook. You wanna cut up some of that for me?”
Raph sees you gesture to the unopened package of chicken, while you’re pouring a cup of white rice into the pot of slowly boiling water. Cutting, he could do.
The two of you work silently in the small space, ducking over and under each other to grab utensils and spices. You instruct him here and there, but still leave room for the comfortable quiet that’s settled in the air.
After about 15 minutes, you pour a bowl for each of you (his is filled just a little bit more than yours) and invite him to sit on the couch to eat together. The first bite he takes has his eyes rolling in the back of his head with a guttural groan. You flush from behind your fork.
“Good?”
“Fuckin good.”
Your giddy smile says it all. It’s flattering the way he eats without saying a word. You’re so at ease, sitting criss-cross on the couch next to this beast of a guy, both enjoying the comforts of a meal your mom had taught you how to make long before you had left for New-York. This felt so domestic. When he's done, Raph wipes his mouth and sets the bowl down on your coffee table, fork clattering against the ceramic, and leans back on the couch with a stretch. You’re only halfway through your dinner.
“That’s some Gordon Ramsey shit.”
You scoff.
“Hardly. But thank you.”
“Nah, thank you. I’m gettin tired of all that takeout Mike brings home.”
His eyes are closed, hands resting on his plastron, and feet kicked up onto the coffee table. Beautiful, you think, and you’re surprising yourself again with the thought. You take advantage of his relaxed eyes, eyes trailing up the long, muscular extent of his body. A weird, warm sensation trills its way up your body, when his broad chest moves with a heavy breath, stopping it’s way at your lungs to give them gentle squeeze. It slows your chewing. When Raph’s eyes open, you quickly focus your attention back down to the food that you’ve suddenly become full from. He says something that you have to ask him to repeat.
“Show me around?”
“O-oh. Yeah sure.” You stand fast, and clumsy, bowl taking its place next to his. You awkwardly adjust your shirt and wait for him to stand from the couch. He follows you down the short hallway.
“Here’s the bathroom,” you point to your right, and wait for him to kind of peek his head around for a moment, “And here’s my room.”
The movie on the tv is still paused, but it lights the room with a warm glow, along with the dim led lights strung up in the corners of the small space. A simple twin-sized bed in the middle, in between a matching bedside table and dresser. Raph steps into the room past you. It looks so cramped with his massive body in here. You can’t stop his eye catching the little collection of trinkets, lined up in a neat row, on top of the black dresser. His grin is small.
“Was wonderin if you kept all this shit,” He chuckles, picking up one of the little superhero action figures and admiring it. His whole hand engulfs the toy, which is covered in scuffs and scratch marks from years of play.
“Can’t see a reason why I wouldn’t.”
Raphael’s response is a relaxed smile when he looks over his shoulder at you. Your heart skips. He turns again and gently sets the figure in its place.
“This your family?”
He’s referring to the framed picture of you, Vern and your parents behind the line of his little gifts.
“Yeah. My mom and her husband.”
Raph lifts it and you walk over to look at it with him. It’s from a few years prior.
“Not your dad?”
You shake you head.
“Vern’s dad. But we’re close.”
The four of you are in mid laugh, in the selfie that you take with an outstretched arm. You remember taking it on a vacation in the mountains.
“Vern’s always got that stupid look on his face.”
You snicker, shaking your head.
“Yeah. Idiot.”
Once again, Raph places it in its exact spot. It makes your knees shake a little when he’s looking down at you, just centimeters away from your body. To ignore and prevent anymore weird and confusing tension to build, you flop backwards on your bed with a sigh.
“Whatcha bitchin about now?”
You smile up at the ceiling.
“Just don’t wanna go back to work.”
He sits on the edge of the bed.
“Yeah. Sounds boring.”
You nod, even though he’s not looking at you. You can feel the warmth of his leg bouncing next to yours.
“Whatcha thinking about, Red?”
“Nothin’ important.”
You tilt your head down just a little to see his massive shell facing you. He’s hunched over. You kick him lightly, and he knocks your leg away gently.
“Come onnn, talk to meeee.”
You go to kick him again, but Raph grabs your leg and tickles the back of it. You squeal.
“STOP,” the fight is useless, kicking and scrambling to get away, with an ornery grin on his face, “I’m gonna piss myself!”
With that he backs off, and you’re heaving through laughter.
“Mean.”
“Annoying.”
His smile is wiped away with another thought crossing.
“What time is it?” You both glance at the digital clock on the bedside table behind you.
“Shit. Almost five.”
“Yeah. I better get goin. Gettin’ late- or, I guess early.”
You follow him up to the front door, walking past Vannie who’s playing with that first cat toy he left on your window.
Raph reaches for the door handle, but stops.
“Thanks for lettin me in. And for the food.”
You smile softly.
“Anytime, Raph.”
You didn’t mean to stop so close to him, but here you are, smile slowly fading while you look up at his face. His eyes have got you in a strong hold, and he mirrors your expression, unintentionally. His nostrils flare with a breath outwards.
You want to kiss him, all of a sudden.
Kiss Raphael right on the mouth and not have a care about it.
But you don’t. He grins.
“Stay safe.”
“You too.”
The click of the closing door is your cue to slap your hands over your face in exasperation.
He’s left you with dirty dishes, an empty space, and flustered, red cheeks. You smile behind your hands hearing the scrape of Raphael heading back down into the sewers
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convoy-system · 2 days ago
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i dont want to keep posting about this, but rat made some very serious allegations against me and i feel the need to address them because this isnt just me being bullied, these are serious fucking accusations to be posting about me without any proof.
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1. i addressed the racism allegations with my bait blog when i apologized for both it and my diss-misinfo blog. the racism allegations were about me roleplaying as a hispanic alter, a quackity introject. key note: I AM HISPANIC, and all of the race-related jokes id roleplay the alter making were the same jokes the real life quackity makes about himself, a hispanic person.
2. i do believe organized abuse is real. i had some really shitty and fakeclaim-y views on organized abuse and the ramcoa community when i was running diss-misinfo, but again, i addressed that briefly in my diss-misinfo apology post. its in my pinned.
3. again with bringing up the bait blog. ive addressed this already.
4. this one is what made me make this post. i want to make it crystal fucking clear, i do not abuse animals. im not fond of animals due to allergies and sensory issues, as well as trauma, but i do not fucking abuse them. i believe rat is falsely extrapolating this accusation from me discussing how, AS A CHILD, i was forced to care for multiple large breed untrained dogs that i could not handle. this was an abusive tactic from my mother. i was not abusing the dogs, i was BEING abused by having their care placed in my hands as a child whose extremely averse to dogs. i simply wasnt able to keep up with their care, and i lived in pet waste for many years growing up.
5. i was in a severe derealization episode when i told someone that they werent real. i was in active crisis and didnt believe anyone was real. i had to ask my roommate to tell me where i was and what year it was before i could even begin to ground. i also apologized privately to the person who i said wasnt real for the incident.
6. i have no fucking idea who this is about. thats fucking horrific. i, and i hope this is obvious, DO NOT SUPPORT SEXUAL ASSAULT??? im not friends with anyone from my old anti endo group, so whoever the fuck youre on about, i most likely dont talk to them anymore.
7. the slur was tranny. im transgender. i use it for myself.
8. the rest of the post is just the same shit i dont feel the need to address too deeply. me interacting with blogs that commonly syscourse while i was running my zain-syscourse blog is not a crazy thing for me to do.
stop trying to paint me as some supervillain. i was a hurt kid who was lashing out via syscourse, but im not evil. im not on some mastermind plan now to dupe all the endos, ive just changed and i want to exist in peace. if you wanna bully me then fine, your group can tag me in "hawk tuah" posts all day long. but do NOT accuse me of serious fucking crimes like animal abuse, especially because we BOTH know theres no evidence.
- nick
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bewaredakotaflare · 2 days ago
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More Evidence for This Theory
Hello Everyone! I'm back to give more evidence for my Doey Color Theory! Specifcally this reblog will be forcusing on Matthew and Jack's color assosaitions I've given them, as in the last post I went into more details on why Kevin is Orange but didn't really give any proper reasoning as to why I chose Matthew as Yellow & Jack as Red/Maroon.
So today I'll be explaining that logic further with more evidence I've found to back this up! And I'll say this again- That while I may heavily believe in this Theory I've come up with I will not shame nor hate anyone else interperation.
Now let's get into it!!
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This particular logo for Doey was brought up to me in the comments of my first post. With the person pointing out that hands on the letters D, G, and H.
We've clearly establish that Orange represents Kevin, with the fist on the H just reinforcing it, but what about the other two? Now the agruemeant that was made to me was that the Red would represent Matthew as in the image the red hand is pointing/doing finger guns, which could be an indication of Matthew's leadership.
And I would agrue that the pointer finger is often a symbol for blame and accustation, plus younger childern often use the hand guns when playing physical game involving cop or detective roles. Additionally Jack (who I believe to be red) is the youngest out of the three and from what I can tell doesn't really have a fully devoleped moral sense of right or wrong, and really only follows to lead of Matthew and Kevin; And here's some food for thought: Who was the one the other one, besides Kevin, to accuse the Player for 'killing their friends'?
Finally the Yellow hand is in an open palm/reaching gester, and this is gester is often an indication of trust, honesty, and a sense of openess; Which I feel fits Matthew a lot given he's the most emotionally mature one out of all three of them, and he was added to Doey to even out the other two's emotional states.
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This is three images for the 'Goodbye 2024' Countdown, and when overlapped shows that the smoke from the candles are meant to tease Doey for Chapter 4.
For this image I'm taking note of the colors picked to represent the main anatagisnts/mascots prespectively.
Orange with Huggy could indecate how Kevin is a lot more violet in his methods to solving a problem which did get them all killed as Doey. Yellow with Mommy LongLegs I believe has to do with her 1 being a former orphan of Playcare, and 2 how she (like Matthew) had a caring nature towards the childern she watched over. Red with CatNat makes sense given that both Jack(ie) and CatNat were childern who got made into the bigger bodies not because they were the right choice for that toy, but because something horrific and life threatening happened to them, they got changed into what they are now- or well- were.
Anywho- this will be my final statement for this theory as I'd rather not get hung up and the 'what if's' of three colors representing who bewteen the three children inside Doey-
So I hope you all enjoyed my theorizing and that this post will make you look deeper into the stuff you see, and not just basing your opinion on one thing without looking into or double checking to make sure it's true.
Have a nice day or night and I will be posting drawing conent of Doey in the near future if ya'll wanna stick around!
My Doey Color Theory
(Spoilers for PoppyPlaytime Chapter 4)
To those who're questioning what this post is about- Short Summary: A personal theory of the three childern's colors on Doey's body, with Jackie being Red, Kevin Orange, and Matthew being Yellow. If you're curious why I think this, I'll encourage you to read this post and it's entirity to find out ^w^
So I have a personal theory of mine on which of the colors on Doey's body represents the 3 childern he's made up of. From what I can tell the majority of the art community have already established Jack(ie) as Yellow (There's no Yellow so I'm using blue), Kevin as Red/Maroon, and Matthew as Orange.
But I personally don't think this makes any sense. Sure, I won't lie in saying Red is often a symbolic representation of anger and it was established in the game that Kevin had and still has anger issues, with Yellow being use for Jack(ie) I'm guessing that's because he's the youngest out of all of them, and Orange was likely just given to Matthew as he was the last one without a symblic color.
But that's more of guessing working based on symbolisms with colors rather then look at how these colors are framed in the hands on Doey's body.
Now here's where my theory comes into play-
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As you can see this image shows Doey's full front design, and to the righ you can see a secondary image focused on the hands on his stomach. This is important as these hands are what usually represents the three colors for the three children.
But when I first paid attention to these hands it, 1. Confirmed about there being three children inside Doety, and 2. Made me think the red hand looked like it was reaching out to the other two hands for help, while looking like it was drowning in something based off the wavy parts.
Now think: Who, out of all the three childern in Doey, drowned or was suffocated in playdoe? Answer: Jack(ie) Ayers.
And this is where the Colors for all three differ from the main theory that most people use. With Jackie being Red, Kevin being Orange as he's the second kid, and Matthew being Yellow as he was the last and add to keep the other two more emotional stable.
Also if you STILL don't think my theory is fully currect, (which is totally fine) I have one more piece of evidence to prove my point.
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As you can see in Doey's monster form we get a full confirmation of Doey being made up of three people, with two of them looking to be trying to hold one of them back.
And look at where the angry one is place: On the top right, which is where the Orange color is on Doey's body, and we know Kevin has anger issues, so this likely means Kevin is most definitly represented by the Color Orange.
But this is just My Theory on which of the colors represent who out of the three children in Doey. If you wish to debate out this in the comments or have any thoughts of you own I'll happily listen and or discuss it with you! 😊
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laurzvahll · 7 months ago
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that godforsaken drawing on the right was so hard and took me so long I might never color it so here you go
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bonetrousledbones · 10 days ago
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saw some fanart that reminded me so very strongly of the mishap au that it had me reminiscing over it like a long lost lover. the one that got away..................
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askamnesiamoonjumper · 10 months ago
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me after editing the aau prologue for the bajillionth time
#First chapter I changed the opening bc I always thought it felt off/abrupt and wanted to have it be prince pov from the start#I wanna get in his head more ok sue me#Beyond that tho it was just some wording edits#Specifically with the internal dialogue moments I helped them flow more/feel more like thoughts#Also mj gets a bit more of their usual edge/pessimism bc the prologue they always felt a bit too “ówò sad poor smol bean” or whatever#That’s it tho chapter 4 I didn’t change bc it’s peak#Did add some teases to later things tho like snatch senses mjs soul at the end of his chap but doesn’t realize it#Or like I added the Not Now running thing in the earlier chapters bc it was more of a chapter 4 thing so I wanted 2 set it up more so boom#I think that’s all the notable edits ig like I said just description additions the only actual new thing is the opener for chap 1 👍#Also also I got to include a hc that I have that I neglected to do before but I hc a!prince used plural internal dialogue#Because lol we love dramatic irony in this house#Grace post#this reminds me tho one of these days I should look through heart strings chapter one to look for editing things#Bc I think I did that recently but I don’t remember it much tho#Mostly just when the Hat stuff starts that was the parts I never directly rewrote I just edited them so they feel out of place in my brain#Also I’d wanna edit her dialogue bc it *was* in character (after rereading her diary’s to confirm) but I wanna have her be a bit more snark#Hat is Hard bc i Need the balance of cute little kid and also smug little shit (affectionate) like she is a pain to write man cries#This is just me rambling lol ignore it I just wanted to spam aau thoughts#In other news I made shapes redesigns but I’m on the fence on posting them bc idk if I wanna spoil or not hhhhhhhhh#Nowadays I’m more chill w spoiling things than I used to be#But there are a handful of things I’ve kept shut about (ex being princes name or mjs species stuff etc)#So I’m not sure if this thing with shapes i should keep secret or just post bc I used to spoil it but idk now#Shrugs#maybe I’ll do a poll later I dunno#Ok yapping over byeeeeee
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heartbeetz · 19 days ago
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did you see that tony grayson posted a video of somebody dressed up as anton riding a mechanical bull on twitter. incredible things are happening in the world around us every day
Woah........
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nightmare8-420 · 4 months ago
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i feel like a part of my soul has been ripped from my chest and i dont know why.
#is this a bad time to mention i dont even believe in souls?#i really dk why.#no this isnt abt jiro somehow apparently having a loving family#(ok like. at least 1/4 of it is BUT STILL. NOT THE POINT)#(part of me feels awkward abt it bc just. huh? youre telling me. this guy. that i basically am the irl version of. has a loving family???)#(/j and all but just. idk part of me feels awkward now? it just. a guy who blew himself up for most of the same ideals i have)#(gets to have the one thing i yearn so very hard for. everyday of my life. but can never have.)#(ill get over this in like. 2 hours. hopefully. most of thats just shock anyways.)#just. for the past some days. besides a couple things and people. hurt and love havent really. made me feel much of anything#like being cared for by actual ppl even online. yeah. it still does but#even my fantasies don’t entertain me anymore#oh god am i becoming lopt. save me fuck#UNLESS this means i get mason as my bf. then hell fucking yeah (kidding kidding kIDDINGG i dont wanna be lopt. please.)#but srsly. usually i can envoke some sorta reaction from myself if its brutal enough#but. nothing.#id assume that im over doing it usually. but i havent in a good while#maybe this is some what where my art/writers block is coming from#whatever this hell is.#time to go on a spiral of mildly depressing and somewhat cryptic posts (cryptic if i didnt info dump in the tags that is)#why is it so hard to confront issues when you dont even know what the issue is?#i just. wanna be able to make myself feel something.#not in a “i have no one but myself” way for once. just. i dont wanna have to rely on others for my emotions#i want to feel a pang of hurt. yet it feels so empty. i dont want to harm myself. i just want to feel it.#anyways ig.#ig im gonna just sleep#which tbh im growing to hate bc like. i feel all i do is sleep. i sleep to avoid how much my own body hurts. i sleep to ignore my issues#i sleep to ignore the fact i keep forgetting to respond to people even though ik i have to at some point. i sleep to avoid the dread of not#getting anything done. i sleep just because im bored.#and im tired of sleeping.#but. it feels worse awake. my body hurts. my mind hurts. it all just hurts.
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kowwpow · 6 months ago
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I don’t think I should be allowed to move out lol
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keeps-ache · 4 months ago
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once again i am on the playlist lol
#just me hi#my strange brain concoctions back at it again lmfsh#i've been workin on it by bits and bits for the past 2-3ish days and i think i've almost got what i mean hfvbs#yea... mnmnm...#//outta the Lagoons into the Blues !! what a transition hkfshv#i mean i Have found that i actually really really like the shampoo we've been using for like 5 years hghfsv#but also i've had to switch from that one to a different one anyway cuz my hair? is grezy ghfbshv#it Is soft now though which is cool :D cuz the old soap didn't get it quite well and i was using dish soap sometimes to strip it so Lmao#which btw the dish soap worked p well. however it Did feel stripped kgfhsv#/what else what else uuum#i've developed more world stuff for pi.e which is also very epic and neat ; like the 3 Cities + radiation towns + Sanctuary cities +#Sanctuary zones + how they interact w/ each other lol :)#i have these weird lil creatures that i'm calling Rascals rn but i think they need a different name pfshv#and also cuz i made the general world bigger that means i have defined more of the plot just by. scribbling some points for towns on paper#yea :D this thing is maybe just a little bit daunting but i'll prolly get it figured out lol ; roman 3#/oh i Do really wanna draw more pi.e stuff to post hfh :>#cuz despite it all i am still v shy abt my stuff and that's kinda silly so !!#/sometimes my brain gets into these weird paper jams where i'm doing one thing but then i see and wanna do another thing (easy transition ?#but then i see another thing and then another and now i have 4 different things and i feel bad just focusing on just one because. ??? ????#when i was little i used to humanize objects Just before they were thrown away and i think that sort of carried over in a weird way bfhsvgj#balance in all things !! wait no not like that w-#//oh wait wait did i ever mention i learned to make stir fried rice w/ egg#prolly not that big of a deal but i'm STILL happy abt that lol :D#maybe especially cuz i was doing most of the cooking while my picky-cook brother was helping and he thought it was good so like YAY#though tried to make it a second time and i let my ma put the salt in the pot and she oversalted it by Far TwT#it was fine though just really salty lol :)#//mnm also getting into classic vehicles a lil bit#just a bit! cuz i don't know where to start and i just really like that one bike i doodled a bit ago#also i'm a bit spooked that my dad will find out and he is Overwhelming when he finds you might like smth he knows smth abt gfvsgh <3#//Oh i'm outta tag space pfshgv - Toodlesssss ciao :3
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danielnelsen · 6 months ago
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well i guess i can play bg3 now, assuming it finishes downloading sometime in the next 2 months
#personal#despite following many people who are very into it i still know absolutely nothing about what it's about#like i know the premise of the brain tadpoles but that's it#i definitely need to do something fun after the last few days of supervising peach#(update: after not eating or sleeping for 3 days she is now doing both! she's very hungry and very tired and im very relieved)#but also after the last 6 hrs of just non-stop downloading and installing things. windows is sooo bad for upgrading#all the dai dlc probably has another 20-30 mins left and then ive finished all the da games and also all my modding tools#i think im actually not bothered even transferring my old saves for the da games. i never go back once ive finished a playthrough#i guess the only thing is if i wanna play da2 before next playing dao and have to use a custom worldstate hm#the only other thing is that dao doesnt connect online anymore so i have no achievements or rewards for completing dlc#it wouldnt be too hard to find my user profile file on my old hard drive but i almost wanna start from scratch and see how long it takes#the thing with that tho is that it's probably the worst (or maybe best lmao) game to have my achievements reset#because it takes a minimum of 6 playthroughs to get all achievements (assuming you finish every game you start)#for da2 it's 3 (reach kirkwall with each class) and for dai it's 1#but dao has an achievement for each origin and even other than that there are achievements for filling each ability tree#(min 5 playthroughs of the base game or 3 with awakening) and all romances (4) and all endings (3 i think)#anyway. whatever i'll decide later. the only utility of achievements are the dlc ones that unlock items#huh this is a post about bg3 and i spend most of the time talking about da#anyway bg3 currently says 2 hrs remaining but that'll probably speed up once the dai dlc finishes. only have trespasser left#and whatever tf 'english voice over pack' is??
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deviousdiesel · 6 months ago
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#so that dotd rewrite is out and i have some thoughts on it but i wouldn't know where to put them.. maybe in here bc i don't actually feel -#- like making a whole ass text post. this is coming from me as criticism and not hate.. just some crit from one fan to another if you get m#SPOILERS AHEAD >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>#first off props to the team because this was obv a labor of love - 4 and a half years to make a feature long fan movie is hard work#and the animated stuff was a really nice touch and very commendable - you don't see them too often in big fanworks#in terms of the story well.. there are some things i like and some things that i don't (personally) again no hate#i'm aware this is a rewrite and boy howdy it IS a rewrite - though i am a bit sad that percy doesn't end up being the protagonist and it's#- thomas that has to play hero again.. like i kinda get it but what made the original dotd stand out was that percy was given the spotlight#so i spent an ungodly amount of time wondering when percy was gonna take charge or step into the main story to resolve the problem.. sigh#i liked that they tried to give norman more of a character bc a lot of characters do often get neglected in the series but it was kind of -#- hard to sell that for me? the twist in this rewrite was very creative and i do appreciate it but i guess it just ain't for me#“different” is ok and this is just one of many fan rewrites for this particular story#if there was something i enjoyed.. i guess the beginning was still kind of exciting because the set up was honestly like hype a bit#i liked that diesel and d10 actually got to interact face to face and there are clearer dynamics established for the diesels#and also. silverband's performances as d10 will always be fun he does a fantastic job voicing him (how d10 stole xmas will still be my fav)#my criticisms for this movie also derive from the pacing and the voice acting - i found it hard to try and understand tones sometimes -#- because the delivery felt so off.. like don't get me wrong not everyone in the fandom is a voice actor but if we're using static faces -#- for these fan works the delivery has to be a little more clear or else it'll sound like you're reading from a script.. sorry yall :"|#for the pacing i found it a bit hard to parse when some things were going on and how fast things were progressing#as well as the crashes.. that's also another thing bc i couldn't tell bc of the sfx and audio balancing - it could be better..#i wanna say. muffled voices do not substitute for a “far away”/off-screen voice bc i still can't hear it :“|#there were a lot of throwbacks and references to older thomas media/movies but some of them felt a little.. much?#if this is a dotd rewrite why are we getting some parallels with tatmr.. but i digress. at least they made diesel beef with duck a bit#there's a lot more i could say but i'm keeping those to myself. at the end of the day this fan movie was hard work for everyone involved#and you can tell some of the folks were having fun in there - props to them! i'm always glad to see more fan works in the community#we've come so far we're making feature length fan stories and rewrites that's crazy! i hope to see more in the future#fauxtrainpost.txt
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dreamertrilogys · 1 year ago
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i’m trying to rmbr when exactly the last concert i went to ended (since i wanna go to another one soon hopefully 🤞) but i genuinely can’t find ANY record of it at ALL. fuck why aren’t i more of a screen-ager i should’ve posted abt it on instagram the moment it ended or smth :(
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seventh-district · 8 months ago
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several days and 15 thousand words later, i am relieved to report that the suffocating urge to Write Something has been sated and no longer has me in a chokehold
#Seven.txt#writing stuff#thinking of that post that’s like ‘u Have To make art or all the ideas stay stuck in ur brain and make u sick’ bc yeah thats been the vibe#wish i wasn’t so all or nothing about it tho. but alas. i’m that way with everything in my life#i either expect 10k in a day from myself or i don’t write at all for weeks. or months :)#and my average pace is about 500 words per hour. so u can see. how that might be a problem. given how many hours are in a day.#and that’s obviously not sustainable. but idk if it’s adhd or what but it’s So hard to quickly start and stop tasks just Whenever#i struggle to be one of those ppl that can consistently write like. 500 words a day every day and then wow! soon you have a whole novel#nah. once i get myself in the Zone then i’m Goin’ and i can’t stop until i’m Done or i collapse from ignoring my body’s needs lmao#it’s something i should make an effort to do though bc i’d love to be consistently chipping away at things instead of working in bursts#anyways this is a lotta negative self-commentary for what is actually a Positive post! bc yay!! i wrote a thing!! Two things actually!!! 🎉#i got the follow-up to last year’s Matt oneshot done And i wrote the next chapter of Heaven in Hiding after uh. a year and some months#i wanted to blow the dust off the ol’ keyboard by starting with writing some less. uh. high-stakes(?) stuff#not that i didn’t put my all into writing them. i always do. just that ik they’ll have less of an audience so ill cringe less if they suck#so then i can hopefully do justice to the [N]MbD stuff that i’ll be putting out next! ehehe *rubbing my hands together* Finally#the next two [N]MbD fics r already written but the first little one needs a final edit#and then the Big one for. uh. someone (u kno who u r) needs a bit of rewriting i think. i wanna make it Better#so release schedule will be 1. Matt • 2. HiH Ch.3 • 3. [N]MbD small fic • 4. [N]MbD Big fic#then i’m gonna write a lil Boothill comfort oneshot. then i’ll edit/maybe rewrite and post that Dew (Ghost) OCD comfort oneshot#i ​also wanna keep writing the last couple chapters of HiH before i unintentionally abandon it again#and after/amidst all that maybe i’ll manage to get ES Ch.6 written and posted before the end of the year 😭#anyways ik i’ve made posts like this before. talking abt all these Plans of mine. and most of those things r Still stuck in the pipeline#so don’t put too much stock into this plan. i could have another Bad couple of months and get None of it done#but god i sure fucking hope not. i’d really like to cling to my creativity. if for no other reason than that it makes me happy
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