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#I have a neurology appointment tomorrow and it's the only thing I can think about#bc either they allow me to start Botox or ajovy or whatever or I get kicked back to another anticonvulsant#I'm not opposed to trying topomax or something in the future just bc another anticonvulsant gave me headaches#but I don't want it to be the next step#I've waited long enough for actual care#so basically tomorrow I learn whether I get actual medical care and hope for the future. or I have to get a new neuro#and have to try another med that might make me Worse#I have been such a good patient I have tolerated things that are truly intolerable#I want my healthcare. I want my life back lmao
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Fearne has seen a version of herself that has gone down a very bad path in EXU. […] She doesn’t know where in the timeline that Fearne was, and if every sort of step that I’m taking, “Is this gonna lead me down to that path - to the bad Fearne?"
#critical role#ygifs#fearne#cr3#thinkin my dark girl fearne thoughts and all the pacts she just ''selfcares'' herself into lately :)#skips around the room giggling thinking about the high warqueen elmenore and her fearne plans#I say thats my abandoned emotionally fuckedup ruidusborn downbad chaos girly and I want her evil but I want her safe😵💫#I do love fearne's interaction with evil fearne literally was just fearne being like lol but how cool are u hmmmm#and yet fearne is actively concerned about That fearne while actively taking steps more likely to lead her there hmmm#also like I don't Need there to be payoff for ollie's plague nightmare of fearne but like dot dot dot#anyway fearne moments are the hottest moments next#my galpaloway
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the poor little meow meow-ifictation of saionji in this fandom has got to stop i can't take it any more
#he is an interesting character yes and i like him but some of you act like he is eternally and exclusively a victim which is not true#yes he is a victim of akio and of the narrative (like every other character. he is not perticularly special in this regard)#no he is not a victim of the patriarchy (he in fact benefits from it directly at the cost of the girls around him)#no he is not a victim of wakaba (??not sure where this even came from) no he is not a victim of anthy (watch the first episode again maybe)#some of you are at all times 2 steps away from becoming the next misandry in the utena fandom person#“erm the way he is punished by the narrative for failing to live up to the masculine ideal of the prince-#-is basically just as bad as the systemic abuse he participates in putting girls through“#good lord i do not want to hear your takes on any real world feminist issues#m#bad takes#(should probably remember to use that tag. even though this isn't really about anything super specific)#and it's not about any of my mutuals to be clear. you all know how to actually be critical of how much he sucks#AND write good nuanced analysis. shockingly you can do both. actually i don't think one is possible without the other
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HAPPY VERY LATE PRIDE MONTH!! 🥳🏳️🌈
Drawing this was my odyssey. Anyways, I think they're best friends.
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#artists on tumblr#fight club#fight club 1999#soapshipping#tyler durden#the narrator fight club#pride month#cnebhfeuwfnbw pushed my limits with this cause I really wanted to draw something substantial#it's this month's serious drawing heuehdueheh#next step is to stop being a pussy and learn backgrounds#and proper lighting#and *dies*#I would've finished it like two days ago but I kept playing roblox with my sis#we beat everyone's ass in dress to impress it's amazing#hope I don't develop a fucking roblox games addiction cause that would kill me both mentally and spiritually#huhu anyways#very proud of this drawing#I played around with many brushes and that's how I got to the graffiti bg#the spraypaint brush is my new fav brush#expect spraypaint drawings huhu#collapsing now#bye pookies stay awesome#muah#martyryo
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I've never done a poll before, so good luck
Who do y'all think Time'll handcuff to him be with for his group in the dungeon? I've seen a lot of people say he will try to control who goes with who since he's scared for their lives rn (valid)
The options are the individual boys, just go with who you think is most likely to be in his group I guess?
Anyways like I said I've never done a poll so it might be messed up or make no sense, should be fun :D
Let me know if this doesn't work. And yes I know it's not well organised.. it's ok. right?
I think that unlike when they split in the Divine Dark Reflections arc, they might try to stay in bigger groups, and I think Time would probably want to have as many close to him as possible (his group have three or four), but I uhh didn't know how to incorporate that.
It's silly, but right now I can't stop imagining a scene where they reach the central room and everyone sprints off into the groups they want before time can argue.
Anyone who goes with legend will survive physically and anyone who goes with four will survive mentally.
#linked universe#linkeduniverse#just. scatter thoughts it's fine#I never thought I would think this but Wild might end up as the most mentally stable in a group if he's with time or twi#I struggled to find and say a reason for hyrule but. he's important ok. a very powerful magic cave boy#looking forward to legend stepping up since time is out of it and wars will walk in the wrong direction half the time#<a prev tag I wanted to include#this poll should be done in time for us to be proven wrong in the next update! :D#this is terribly put together and that's ok... right? yeah...#tell me if it doesn't work!! I don't know what I'm doing! :DD#I haven't posted in a bit because damn yall#I was waking up to so many hundreds notifications a day#I waited till it's died down a bit but I'm counting on this post to get five notes max#except I have no idea how polls work. lol#sorry my words are terrible I can't even tell rn. is 'most probably' proper grammar? if not that is not fair
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Tomura please come back I beg you, they want to turn you into a comic character now these are scary hours without you here
#a fucking memoir#I love Spinner and he has all the right to want to tell Tomura's story to the world#BUT WHY HIM WTF#You'll see how next step is about Deku and Spinner working together to tell Tomura's story#Like bro if they actually cared they would have reveal it on tv#I don't hate the heroes but it's a near thing this chapter 😭😭#bnha 427#bnha#mha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#league of villains#lov#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#shigaraki tomura#bnha leaks#bnha manga spoilers
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I know everyone and their mother has given their opinion on the watcher situation, but as someone who is critical of this decision, I want to make it clear: no one is saying that they don't deserve to be paid a living wage. what people ARE saying is that there had to be a better way to do this.
if they truly needed money they could have:
promoted their patreon more
do a hybrid model where less "advertiser friendly" shows could be behind a paywall
release recordings of their live shows for money
advertised perks for joining youtube premium
be open and honest about needing money and asking for donations via gofundme or kickstarter or however they chose
there are people willing to spend money on them. The amount of patrons, the number of people who buy merch, and those who pay to go to live shows, should prove that. those who say otherwise are misunderstanding the situation, or maybe even purposefully misrepresenting it
#watcher#ryan bergara#shane madej#steven lim#i really don't understand why they thought this would be the next step#if they wanted to do this#they should have waited a few years#i want to see their spreadsheets bc they could also cut costs somehow#like 100k for a ghost files episode is crazy
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I finally found the source for the interview between Satomi Tadashi and Kazuma Kaneko (main writer and artist) where they literally call Tatsuya and Jun gay - (”homo” - english loan word). It’s from the Innocent Sin World artbook (pub. in 2000). Here is the translation, and here is a link to the artbook. It’s on page 32. It’s not like this is anything new, but I feel like it’s important to have the original text onhand when sharing stuff like this! Translation under the cut for ease of access/archival purposes:
— What do you think Jun thinks of Lisa and Tatsuya’s relationship? SATOMI: I think he wants Lisa to be a bit more gentle with Tatsuya. KANEKO: She’s really got a jealous nature, doesn’t she? “Shaddup, woman.” Didn’t everyone expect Jun to say that? And then he’d say “Tatsuya, hold my hand a little bit tighter please.” SATOMI: Well, everyone is free to think what they like about that. *laugh* Personally, I don’t think he’s necessarily gay. KANEKO: Jun isn’t gay…but he likes Tatsuya, right? SATOMI: He likes him. If Tatsuya asked, “Do you like me?” Jun would say, “I like you!” KANEKO: Tatsuya would ask “Do you like me”? SATOMI: I think he’d ask like that. KANEKO: I think he’d say something like “What do you think of me?” And then Jun would say, “I like you!” SATOMI: If Jun said something like that, he would turn his back and seem happy. KANEKO: Who would? SATOMI: Tatsuya would. KANEKO: Tatsuya would turn his back and say, “You do?” happily? Well then, he’s gay, isn’t he! SATOMI: *laugh* …that’s why I said that everyone can think as they like about that issue. KANEKO: Well, I don’t know much about that field, anyway. I’ll have to do a little more homework. Hey, does Jun have thick hair? SATOMI: It’s not thick. KANEKO: And Tatsuya’s hair isn’t thick either? SATOMI: Right. So even if it gets tangled together, they’ll be okay. (NOTE: This refers to old, old literary references in which two people slept together in the same bed, so close together that their hair got tangled together.) KANEKO: What, so they really are gay. I see, so they’re gay, huh…Well, then Jun’s probably thought of assassinating Lisa? By setting some sort of trap for her…
[credit to chthonian.net for the translation]
#persona 2#persona#p2#tatsujun#jun kurosu#tatsuya suou#shin megami tensei#smt#p2is#persona 2 innocent sin#this interview is right next to a bunch of fan-submitted BL art; lol#i find it interesting how casually they are saying this#i really love how satomi tadashi is like...maybe theyre not gay...but then automatically confirms that they are lmao#let me know if the artbook dl link ever goes down (send me an ask or whatever) i will be sure to reupload it#don't want to step on any toes while it's still up though - full credits to original scanner#i'll admit that i honestly couldn't believe that this translation was from a real interview for a bit because it seemed too good to be true#so i felt like the original text is notable enough to post on its own#yaoi#..for tagging purposes lol#joseiposting
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Tfw your favourite faux-leftist liberal shill turns against you. 🥲
#WE HAVE VOX#hahahahahhahahahha#you don't understand look at the Vox stories promoted on their twitter feed the last six weeks and now look at this#this fucking bootlicking shill turned against Biden#although now I'm thinking the Dems are setting him up to be fall guy#as though this is his circus instead of a bipartisan collusion with the military industrial complex#still it's a sure sign of the tide turning fast#ideally I want Vox bombed along with CNN but. Baby steps#Can't wait to see which dick-riding rag turns next#media manipulation#free Palestine#genocide Joe#fuck Joe biden#us politics
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at some point i will figure out how to write the post-canon, post-empire edelgard autonomy fic of my dreams. it just feels like a very big task and maybe like with playing the dane, i’m simply not old and traumatized enough to manage it yet.
but my vision is thus: it’s set years (realistically, decades) after the end of crimson flower, when everything has gone as right as it can possibly go. fódlan is thriving. the social reforms have taken effect. the nobility system is nearly eliminated, if not entirely so, with titles made merely symbolic. social mobility, welfare, and prosperity are high. there’s an explosion in arts and culture and technology. brigid and duscur have gained independence; relations with sreng and almyra are much improved; heck, maybe they've even figured it out with dagda. in my most idealistic version, leicester and faerghus would eventually be ceded back to become autonomous regions, essentially disbanding the adrestian empire. rule is no longer hereditary, but merit-based. there's a roadmap for the future, and everything is on track—and more than that, people at all points on the power spectrum have already seen it bear fruit. with or without edelgard, it will be pursued. there's buy-in. they believe.
of course, it's not perfect—nothing can be—but edelgard's vision has been fulfilled. the people are empowered. humanity is free. fódlan has healed.
and somehow, she's had enough time to resolve her goals outside of politics, too. those who slither in the dark have been eradicated. edelgard and lysithea's second crests have been successfully removed, allowing them to live if not full lives, then substantially longer ones than they would have with their twin crests intact. who knows—maybe she finally gets around to having that wedding.
point for point, every item listed in edelgard's manifesto has been checked off. the ghosts of her past have been laid to rest. she can finally take off her crown. she can finally pursue the quiet, humble life she's wanted for so long. she can finally breathe.
... but can she?
edelgard is nothing if not driven. her intelligence, vision, and sheer willpower allowed her to plan and execute a revolution against two countries and the most powerful institution on the continent, all while she was still a teenager. as royalty, her life was never truly hers even before she became heir to the adrestian throne, with all the additional baggage of survivor's guilt and the desire for vengeance and her need to ensure nothing that happened to her can ever happen to anyone else, ever again.
so what happens when that drive has no outlet? what happens when someone who has been constantly in motion, constantly working and planning and preparing every spare second of every day since she was fourteen years old, suddenly has to stand still? what happens when someone whose hands have been bound for so long—first literally in the dungeons of enbarr, then by the weight and responsibilities of her crown—is set free?
being edelgard, she would step away from the throne, no matter how hard it was for her to give up control. she's always been focused on the endgame, and she knows that if she doesn't let go, she'll be setting the wrong tone for fódlan's future. she's too devoted to that endgame to cling to power much longer than she needs to, though i could see her making some excuses and trying to iron out just a few more things to buy herself some more time to mentally prepare before she's done for good.
but who would she be then? who is the woman without the crown? what becomes of a machine once it is no longer needed, when it has made itself obsolete? what about when that machine is a person with legs and arms and an innate unwillingness to gather dust on a shelf?
what happens when you get everything you want? what happens when all your wanting has been for others to thrive, and now you have to want only for yourself? how do you discover who you are when you've spent decades being everything for everyone else? how do you find meaning again? how do you find purpose?
after a lifetime of devotion and passion and movement, how do you learn to sit with yourself, and be quiet, and be still?
gosh, i would love to meet her. i would love to pick her brain. but boy, i do not envy the work that girl has to do.
#sterge.rtf#fire emblem#fe3h#edelgard von hresvelg#realistically edelgard is not getting all of this done in her lifetime. but that wouldn't keep her from stepping away anyway#'cause a funny thing happened to edelgard during the crimson flower route: she learned to have faith again.#so even if she couldn't check every box and fix every societal ill she'd still be able to pass the crown to the next ruler.#maybe not without fear. but with confidence. with optimism. with the belief that she's leaving the world better than she found it.#she'd have faith in her people. faith in the future. faith in the groundwork she's laid. faith in the systems she's put in place.#faith that her vision will be carried out with or without her.#and that faith would allow her to eventually let go.#i so love edelgard pulling a george washington and saying nah i'm good on power. peace#though unfortunately i could also see her pulling a teddy roosevelt#and saying nah i'm good on power. peace. wait what are you doing. you're ruining it. you're bungling everything. i can't believe this#and making several (failed and increasingly insane) attempts to get back into politics#who is the taft to edelgard's ted tho. i don't want to do ferdinand the disservice of saying it's him even though i think it's very funny.#it's literally the opposite of his character as taft notoriously sniffed roosevelt's farts for a long time#until he finally pulled his head out of the guy's ass and realized there are other smells. such as the sewer. and garbage.#smells which he pursued quite happily much to ol ted's chagrin#meanwhile ferdinand does not think anything of edelgard's ass except that his is definitely better-looking than hers#(he's wrong on so many levels but you try telling the guy that)#in fact ferdinand has always taken great joy in pointing out all the things that smell better than edelgard does#which gives him an instant up on mr Take-Advice-From-Theodore#all this to say i think ferdinand von aegir would have been a much better president than william howard taft. that's just my opinion.#i'm getting off the rails in these tags idk what's wrong with me#sorry for equating your blorbos to long-dead american politicians everyone. i know this is a cardinal sin#also please don't take this to mean i think positively of washington or roosevelt or taft or whatever.#i hate all dead old white guys who ever held a modicum of power#i just had a hyperfixation on american presidents when i was in grade school and unfortunately now my brain works like this
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i just made a pak backpack btw :D
#im so proud of it#and myself#this is bringing me joy#can drop a tutorial btw#if wanted#but it was very fun#i enjoyed it#next step: learn irken#iz#invader zim#zim#iz zim#zim iz#irken#pak#irken pak#im a pro diy er now#also no i am not headless#i have a head#i had my head down#during that picture#and it looks like i don't#i promise i do
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OUT OF COSTUME/CASUAL BABYMETAL PHOTO THAT THEY POSTED ON THEIR INSTA STORY SHABAHANAKW
#WHO ELSE STARTED SCREAMING#once again....we are so fucking back#i don't think we've ever been this back since 2015.....#i used to pray to jesus every night for something like this to happen....#but then momoko appeared so now i pray to her#MOMOKO IS JESUS#LIKE DEADASS WITHOUT HER THIS WOULD'VE NEVER HAPPENED#MOA WITH HER HAIR DOWN SU WITH NO MAKEUP MOMOKO WITH HER NATSU MATSURI T-SHIRT AND HER CUTE LIL BASEBALL CAP WHAT IF I DIED#PLS I WANT MORE OF THIS#next step is vlogs and behind the scenes footage....#MOMOKO.....LIKE THAT’S DAUGHTER😩😩💔💔#SHE BROUGHT THE RAPTURE LIKE MOMOKO I LOVE YOUUU#babymetal#sumetal#moametal#momometal#momokometal
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I hate it when you're trying to do everything to help lessen your burnout because you think your burnout is what is keeping you from doing that thing that you love (writing)... Only to find out it's something even stupider (don't know how to work through the problem you just presented in the story without just saying "shut up and pretend this wouldn't be a huge safety violation").
#the inquisitor speaks#talking about writing#like I'm a bit burnt out yes#but like... it's a wall because I don't know how to do what I want#because what i want would not be the logical next step#but it's the next fanfic step#if that makes sense#i need someone I can talk to about it#but there's also 40 calls in queue!#i'm frustrated#and I can't just come up with a good way through it#believe me I have tried
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I think about how so many resources for dealing with a hoarder house situation online come from a perspective of hatred and frustration for the person(s) perpetuating the hoarder situation in the household, and I think to myself. Would perhaps people have better results by treating the hoarder with a modicum of respect and applying harm reduction strategies to the situation? Like with addiction?
The household we live in teeters in a weird spot where multiple rooms (living room, porch, back room, guest room, upstairs bathroom) are slowly being overtaken with storage boxes.
It's not a filled-to-the-brim hoarding situation yet, but if I'm not actively organizing and cautiously removing items, it came become a really frustrating environment to live in. Blocked closets, hallways you have to squeeze through, stuff like that.
Bu I've been trying to find resources for helping someone out of a hoarding mindset, and so much "advice" approaches the person having the mindset with distaste.
"The problem with hoarders is that they don't think it's a problem!"
That's usually because they see the hoarding as a solution to some other problem, like resource insecurity, or compensating for memory loss via keepsakes. Maybe we should take those fears seriously and help them dismantle it all on their own terms?
#hoarding#decluttering#cleaning#look the fact that i can move stuff and judiciously get rid of stuff now makes this situation WAY better than it used to be#and part of that was yes asserting some boundaries#but another part of it was . . . not being a dick to the person who is filling the house with stuff#approaching them gently with our own concerns like#hey i'm having trouble navigating this hallway can i move some stuff#hey i noticed this thing was broken to the point of unrepairability can i junk it#you want to keep a piece from the broken thing? sure! at least that's less stuff to deal with than before#like we still have the issue of more stuff coming into the household from spending trips but baby steps; we can work on that next#part of the thing is that people don't confront the situation until it gets fully unlivable for them#so it's like. snap. from the hoarder's perspective you have gone from zero to a hundred#and from your perspective you have been drowning in stuff for so long and your thrashing instincts are kicking in#but you have to take it piece by piece; not all at once
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apologies if this is a dumb question and i won't be offended at all if you dont answer/dont know but since you've worked in libraries before i was curious if you knew how to let your library know you're interested in an audiobook they haven't purchased ? i know i used to be able to make requests on overdrive but since the switch to libby i haven't been able to figure it out. i hope youre having a lovely day whether you can help or not and appreciate you taking the time to read all this 💛
sorry for the late reply, i haven't been online much and just saw this! most public libraries will have a form on their website called something like "purchase request" or "suggest a title" that you can use to request things! people often think this is only for books, but most places will let you request audiobooks, DVDs, etc. librarians won't always add the things you request to the collection, and they often can't explain every decision in detail due to volume, so results may vary.
the one thing to be mindful of is that audiobook/ebook licensing can be really weird, and sometimes publishers do make it really difficult or impossible for libraries to license certain items! so if your library doesn't get something you ask for, that sucks and is disappointing, but please don't hesitate to keep sending in requests as you have them! that info is always super helpful for collections folks looking to add things to the library that they think you'll want and use!
#there's too many reasons why some purchases aren't feasible to get into every single one#but the weird one that i've seen more lately is that some resource publishers want to force readers/listeners#to subscribe to a proprietary monthly streaming or ebook service#so they make it impossible for anyone to buy access to certain items unless you're one person buying an individual subscription#deeply gross stuff imo#but yeah never feel shy about letting libraries know what you want and need!#even if they can't get that specific thing right now it helps them know what kinds of items and services you and others want#which is super useful information for them to have when requesting funding and things like that to provide those collections and services!#it can be stressful when they don't even email you a yes or no in response to your request#but you're doing a very helpful thing by letting your librarians know how they can help you!#also like. if your library doesn't have a collections webform next steps depend a lot on what type of library it is#so i didn't really want to get into that at length here#but if that's the case definitely never be afraid to ask at the desk or on the phone or via email if/how they take requests#50% of most public-facing library jobs is explaining processes/how to find things on the website#so you will not be doing anything weird or annoying by asking#anonymous#ask and receive
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#they hold both the house and senate#yall#😭😭😭#i knew the second i heard the news that biden stepped down#i knew then#it was immediate dread#fuck the goddamned motherfucking dnc who keeps pigeonholing us with candidates we don't fucking want to begin with#(yes i am still full of rage over bernie and how that played out)#fuck the (apparently majority) of voters who are clearly idiots#my only reassurance is that the poor white people who voted for him bc misogynistic racism is their ~culture~#will also be COMPLETELY FUCKING FUCKED THIS TIME AROUND#us politics#i cried for myself#i cried for my friends#i cried for my kids#it's going to take a very long time to unfuck what happens next--if the unfuckening happens in my lifetime at all#so#yeah
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