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I have to REALLY ration out my aubreyad audiobook listening sessions bc without fail I get like 5 minutes in and start pacing and feeling insane
#dil :(((#and I have SO many thoughts about diana and stephen#and JACK#I want to point out and ramble about specifics but I would just end up reciting word for word every conversation and thought that happened#my heart breaks for stephen though. more and more.#this proposal was just. argh.#fuck#him being like iâm painfully aware that im ugly! i know i donât have the kind of money you want!!#I know people donât like my person! my birth! my religion!#but I AM offering you happiness!#(which isnât enough. and he knew that)#(even though he genuinely doesnât want to cage her in any way. every though sheâs so unhappy with the choices sheâs made.)#(even though they both find so much life within each other.)#(and so much SUFFERING being apart)#arrrghHhHgHgHh#and itâs so painful to see stephen (who normally doesnât give a SHIT what other people think or say about him and his appearance)#be so vulnerable and self conscious when confronted by her#I love diana donât get me wrong#itâs just so interesting to me how they appear so strong when separated#but are open gaping wounds when theyâre together#but again. theyâre so happy in each others company#and so miserable apart#what a MESS#diana telling stephen he should have married sophieâŠ#when he specifically encouraged sophie and jackâs engagement so that he could be closer with dianaâŠ.#paaaaaaaaainnnnnn#sufferinggggggg
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.A Royal Scandal.
#dragon age#dragon age origins#zevran arainai#cousland#anora mac tir#andrastopher cousland#dao#zevwarden#andrastopher x zevran#zevran x andrastopher#hof#.cannae believe ive never given thought to making andrastopher king before lmao.#.would zevran even be happy as kings consort bc itâs not like Andrastopher and Anora would be having a safari or anything like that.#.i think heâd like Andrastopher offering to give up the crown if zevran didnât want to be consort- bc he would do that lbh.#.i know I said I was taking a break but apparently not idk.#.am all over the place rn lads.#.i feel like those nice few messages stopped me imploding a bit there thank you.#.i think Iâm gonna just like only come online when Iâm posting instead of lurking like a goof.
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you are . . NOT !!
katsuki watches the maury show with you
youâre watching the maury show on your computer when katsuki marches into your room without a word and flops down next to you on your bed.
â hello to you, too.â you snort. his words are muffled by your sheets but youâre about 90% sure he told you to shut up, you ignore it.
he lays face down on your bed for a while not saying anything and you know heâs had a long day and wants to be close to you without actually talking. you donât mind, youâll give him his space until he reaches out himself.
and he does after a little bit, turning his head around to face you as he looks from you to your computer screen, eyes focusing on the woman screaming that the man she cheated on her husband with was 100% not the father of her baby, mixed with the cheers of the audience.
he looks at you and raises a brow â whatâs happenin ?â
â lady cheated on her husband with his brother.â you respond.
â his brother ?â he repeats. his eyebrows furrow and you know heâs hooked. if thereâs one thing katsuki loves but will never admit he does, itâs trash tv.
you nod, grinning somewhat evilly âhis brother. now theyâre trying to find out which oneâs the father.â
he hums, scooting himself closer to you so he can see the screen too. he flips himself around so his neck isnât craned at that awkward angle anymore and settles himself down right next to you. hook, line and sinker.
he wraps his arm around your shoulder and shoves his head in your neck, breathing you in. you both donât say anything. âdo you want me to play it from the beginning for you ?â he shakes his head in your neck. you reach your hand up to scratch at his scalp and you smile when he sighs. he holds you a little tighter, pressing feather light kisses into your neck.
katsukiâs never been good at expressing himself with any other emotion that isnât anger. it makes him feel stupid and weak and soft. heâs had a long fucking day and he doesnât wanna talk about it, simply wanting to indulge in you but he canât tell you that, canât find the words to, so he tries to find other ways to tell you and he hopes you understand and you do.
katsukiâs thankful for you because sometimes he wants to talk, wants to open up about whatâs bothering him but sometimes he doesnât. he doesnât and you donât pry when you know he doesnât and heâs so thankful for you. he presses kisses on your skin and soft bites at your flesh to convey just how thankful he is, how grateful he is for having you. he hopes every warm press of his lips against your skin can convey how much he loves you loving him. and it does, because you turn your head and kiss the side of his head so sweetly and he knows youâre it for him.
heâll tell you all of this one day, he promises. heâll tell you all the thoughts swimming around in his head one day, but he hopes thisâll do for now. and unknowingly to him, it absolutely does.
he pulls his head out of your neck and kisses you hard on the cheek one, two, three times and you giggle. you feel him smile into your cheek when he kisses you a fourth time.
âfuckâre they screaminâ about ?â he says and you turn to look back at the screen. the woman is yelling at her husbandâs brother vehemently denying the possibility of him being her babyâs father. you feel a little bad for laughing. â she says heâs not the dadâ you answer.
he clicks his tongue â why the fuck is she on the show then.â he says, turning his attention back to your computer but his grip on you stays secure. you press yourself a little closer to him.
youâre still smiling lightly when you look back at your screen, simply shrugging. â she said something about her having more sex with her husband than with him.â you answer and he snorts.
â ten bucks neither one of themâs the father.â
#based off me falling back into the maury rabbit hole LMFAOO#i lowkey love this dumbass show#not as much as a luv my boyfriend tho#have i told yall how much i love him btw did i forget to mention that orr#I kinda like this#lil blurb#wtf typa word even is blurb lmfao#I love fluff#sorry to all the sad bitches#but leave me alone w that lemme be happy#bakugou imagine#bakugou katsuki x reader#bakugo fluff#katsuki bakugou x reader#katsuki x reader#bakugou x reader#katsuki bakugo x reader#convinced katsuki goes like âten bucks that___â but then gets mad when you offer him money when hes right LMFAOOO#(am i projecting ? youâll never know)#(yes i am)
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The wind carries your words away on a voyage you cannot see the end of
#dimension 20#d20#d20 fanart#fantasy high#fantasy high sophomore year#fabian seacaster#that scene where he climbs up to the crowâs keep..#before his worst day ever#the vibes of it were so good i had to draw something#very happy with how this turned out!!#fantasy high fandom this is my offer to you i am as usual late to the party
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"See you tomorrow"
MDZS Disco Elysium AU part 4 [prev parts]
#better drawn mdzs#MDZS Disco Elysium AU#mdzs au#Lan wangji#wei wuxian#yiling laozu#Happy Belated Halloween!#digital art#Thank you all for your patience as I drove myself into a madness only known by those lost at seas alone.#I put a lot of time into this one! It's not perfect but I am very happy with it + I am so happy to put down the tablet pen.#Digital art has some nice features but I'm sticking with traditional! I need a month to recover from the 2+ weeks of torture.#Okay lets talk about the AU and the comic now#Disco elysium has some of the best existential-horror-dream sequences I have ever seen.#The dialogue here is heavily inspired by The Final Dream - A scene I'd love to talk about more were it not so heavy with spoilers.#My AU is a lot more complex than a simple character swap but I really felt like LWJ + YLLZ fit this scene.#The final dream is about being unable to move on from a lost love. From something You made holy. From something You ruined.#It is about realizing that no matter how smart you are or what you offer or how you try to change -#You will never be able to turn back time. You will never ever be able to fix what is broken. That you also have been broken for a long time#You are a fuck-up who worships the nail covered ground of someone who did not want to be holy. And even though it hurts-#You cannot let this nightmare go. The pain keeps the love close. It is worse to forget. You promised to remember.#WWX died thinking LWJ disliked him. LWJ lost someone he thought was revolted by his love.
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[ cw: trauma / mind control / separation anxiety / autophobia / ]
Something that kills me is that thereâs no way in hell that Raphâs debilitating separation anxiety isnât infinitely worse after the movie. The trauma of being Krangified like that, all alone, would probably regress him so hard.
Not to mention his worries of getting âweirdâ would likely get mixed up with his experience while Krangified - aka, he loses full awareness, and when heâs brought âbackâ itâs to the understanding that he attacked his own family (of course not to his own fault at all, but how much of that does he believe?)
The fear of being alone would take on another layer and become a fear of himself.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt raph#rise raph#trauma /#mind control /#separation anxiety /#autophobia /#codependency mention in tags /#after the invasion he checks up on the others multiple times and guiltily hopes one of them asks to stay with him for the night#heâs the big brother so it feels - wrong. to ask them to stay with him.#but his plushies donât have heartbeats. and neither did the krang#and guiltily - guiltily - Raph is relieved when someones doing bad enough to stay with him each night#he doesnât know it but the others see he needs it so they offer#man idk I just want Raph to be safe and happy#me having Raph feels at 3 am#I raise you: codependent Raph and Leo post invasion#they both dealt with losing the other#going from fighting and high tensions pre invasion to being scared to leave each othersâ side post invasion#god wait this concept is so sad wait#but it works#may address this in a later post/fic ngl
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Working in the field I work in, I hang with a lot of IT guys. So much so that it's given me...almost a reverse nostalgia? uno nostalgia? I don't know what to call it, but it's the emotional equivalent of "aw, tech guy, you love spending a half hour enthusiastically painting your grand vision for me! That's adorable! So oughts! It's like you haven't run face-first into an unspoken and immovable social/political dynamic yet!"
#all these men are older than me to be clear.#and I am sincere in my affection! I think my guys are wonderful#but also...I am friend-shaped and the delicate shy creature known as ''the IS analyst'' trusts me implicitly.#I know what an API is but I will generously let them explain it to me.#(like holding your hand flat when you offer feed to a wild horse.)#anyway we did happy hour. so I'm finally home. good time though!#tbd//
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â never underestimate a cornered mandalorian.
#so. funny story#i was doing a âtiny lineless style experimentâ and then proceeded to . yknow#become severely invested#ANYWAY. once again i offer you my dearest oc!!#and as always i am very happy to answer questions of you have them đ#i could talk about him for a thousand trillion years#oc: kaja#my art#star wars oc#sw oc#star wars#togruta#me queuing this to go up while iâm at work so i donât have to be anxious about it is so funny. ILY ALL
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Sworn Partners at their weekly Dreamland protection strategy meeting
#-coughs up sugar packets- I am on some kind of sweet fluffy ship streak these days oh my lord#I never EVER thought id get to the point where id pubicly post fluff let alone this often but here we are. HERE WE ARE.#HAPPY BIRTHDAY META KNIGHT#sorry I didn't have anything more substantial prepared but alas I am a desk sitter with woefully little free time#so i made sure he got kissed instead#someday I will be able to make actual art pieces about these characters#but for now i humbly offer these drabbles instead#i said to myself the other day âbe the metadede you want to see in the worldâ so I just make them smooch a bunch#hope that's cool with yall#meta knight#king dedede#metadede#kirby series
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katsuki jumps, startlingly, when you rub a hand up his back.
he's leaned too far down, bent over the counter at an angle that will give him an ache he'll complain about later, and his head whips up as you come to stand beside him. an e-mail on his phone is what previously had his full attention, but now he looks at you, eyes softening as you lean into his shoulder.
he's never been a very touchy guy. even after a year into your relationship, it's most often you reaching for his hand as you walk down the street; you pressing a kiss into his cheek while watching a movie on the couch; you running a hand through his hair as his breath steadies out beside you in bed.
it's not something you really complain about. you know how he is, knew before anything developed between the two of you, and you can't say it's a deal-breaker. there's little you know about his previous relationships or if he even had any, but you have the painful-gut feeling that affection just isn't something he's used to.
you press a smile into the sleeve of his shirt and his spine relaxes under your hand, finds that awful curve again. he watches you like he's waiting for something, tracing the tender details of your face.
"love you," you say, because do and you want to voice it aloud, put it into his mind even though you know he knows. as expected, his lips flatten into a wavering little line, shy suddenly, and your teeth wet the fabric of his shirt when you smile.
all you get is a little grunt in response and he dips his chin down in a wordless nod, accepting your lovey-dovey assault. it makes him feel a little helpless, you know, but you bring up an arm to wrap around him as he turns back to his phone, ears pink.
katsuki straightens with a dull pop!, stretching his arms up and allowing you to shuffle closer, so that your head is resting on his chest. you press your ear to it and wait, eyes closed, until the heavy promise of his heartbeat echoes like a drum in your ear. it's loud, and after a moment, your own falls into sync, right where it belongs.
"'s'wrong?"
"hm?" you glance up at him, the frown on his pink face, before breathing in the clean scent of his laundry soap. your laundry soap. and then you shake your head. "nothin'. just missed you."
"been home all day."
"i know," you sigh, letting your eyes fall shut again. the sound of his phone locking clicks and you can feel the slight down-slide of his sweatpants when he pockets it. "sometimes i miss you even though you're right here."
you expect â something; another grunt or laugh through his nose, a raspy little noise that voices his confusion. things like this can be hard for him; you know how he is, knew before anything ever developed between the two of you â but you don't think it makes him any less deserving.
katsuki steps back from you a little, and you feel the hesitant rise of his arm before you feel it. his hand comes up to your face â pink and scarred in your peripheral vision â and he tilts your head up, waits until you open your eyes.
when you do, it looks as if a million things are running through his head. his poker-face is good, it has to be, but you can see little bits of his vulnerability shining through. you wonder how long it's been since he showed it to anybody. he almost looks sad.
katsuki squeezes your cheeks until your lips pucker, and his frown deepens when you laugh. "y're so...damn weird."
that's along the lines of what you were anticipating: one of his teasing little insults, warm with a fire he's still learning how to kindle. you don't get the chance to say anything before he's kissing you, eyes shut tight, lashes brushing against your own.
you expect something soft, because affection is a fickle thing, from him â but his hand never falls from your face and his tongue is sliding with yours suddenly, a heated gesture that throws your heart out of whack. you let him kiss you as deeply as he can, until your back arches painfully backward over the counter as he leans into you.
when he pulls away, his lips are a little swollen and his cheeks are burning, as he presses one into yours. "iâjus'â" katsuki tries and then abandons it, a hand curling into the material of your shirt. "i get it." he murmurs, there, into the heated skin of your face, heart beating in time with yours.
things like this are hard with him â but he makes them so, so worth it.
#i like to think he's a lil too rough#wants to hold your face in his hands and ends up squishing you#kisses you with the potential to bruise#bc he's so unpracticed !!#cute !! what a nerd !!#and i think he can be a lil reserved with affection :( and so he knows :( what it means to miss you even though you're right there :(#all the things he wishes he could say and can't :(#hi.#i am actually feeling a bit helpless in the big writing world LOL#i'm happy with what i'm writing ! and will keep writing it !#but in the back of my mind#i just keep thinking that i want to write something really really good for bakugou#something that matters :(#idk ! i'm just feeling a bit dramatic and off today !!#so have this soft gooey piece as an offering#âż willow writes#âż thoughts: bakugou#âż theme: domestic bakugou
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kaveh: you canât make cyno do everything for you alhaitham
alhaitham: i donât
kaveh: heâs literally carrying you right now
alhaitham: okay fine. cyno, put me down then
cyno: do i have to??đ„ș
#haino#cytham#cyhaino#haino incorrect quotes#alhaitham#cyno#kaveh#what im saying is that cyno is the one asking to do it#i think about cyno carrying alhaitham around#All The Time#i simply think they are âalways wants him in his armsâ and âalways happy to be carriedâ bfs#the carrying is more more cyno wanting asking AND benefiting despite alhaitham getting to do literally nothing#do you understand my vision#like i GET the cyno is good for alhaitham because alhaitham gets to be pampered#but PLEASE consider alhaitham is good for cyno because someone finally lets him take care of them as much as he wants#like man would not be embarrassed is perfectly content to take care of himself but ALSO perfectly content to take the things heâs offered#am i making sense do you UNDERSTAND#because they make me crazy#theyre BOTH what the other needs#ughhhh#genshin impact
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Just. Thinking about Percy who wants to die and would willingly kill himself if he ever got to that point versus Jason who wants to kill himself but can't because suicide is dishonourable so instead he'll just go through dozens battle after battle and hope he gets an injury that will cure all his problems versus Hazel and Nico who don't want to die because there is so much to live for but would be content to sacrifice their lives if they had no other choice because they do not fear death
Like I'm just. Rotating that in my head on repeat right now and feeling THINGS about it. I mean Percy is always on the lookout, waiting and fearing for the overflow that'll make him turn Riptide on himself, because it's not an "if, it's a "when", he knows it in his gut it's just a matter of time, and Jason is always prickling with an unending internal distress he doesn't understand because what even are emotions and campers cheer him on as he seeks out worser and worser monsters, no one ever knowing he's holding back screams when the battle ends and he's still alive, no life-threatening incurable injuries to land him in the underworld forever and then there's Hazel and Nico, who both have suffered so much, dealt with so much heartache and pain, as though the Fates themselves had been told that children of Hades, children of Pluto, are not supposed to live and be happy, but nonetheless they carry on, air in their lungs, heart pumping, knowing that the world has so much to offer and there is always something to do, even if that's extending your help, your life, to others.
#hazel levesque#nico di angelo#do you ever think about how hazel sacrificed herself and died horrifically after years of trauma but said yeah why not when offered rebirth#percy jackson#jason grace#happy talks pjo#suicide tw#im sure you guys are tired of me babbling about suicidal percy and jason and willing to live hazel and nico#but i am simply vibrating with feelings and vibes and mininal concrete thoughts so this what we getting
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Here, have a comfy Viktor whoâs absolutely delighted to see you. â€ïž
#viktor arcane#arcane#league of legends#lol viktor#arcane viktor#viktor x reader#viktor x you#WHENEVER THIS MAN SMILES I JUST MELT#HECK I LOVE HIM#been going through some real tough stuff lately#and just wanted to see a happy smiling bean#lookin' comfy and ready to listen to me rant and complain and offer love#I am determined to make more happy / slice of life Vik#otherwise I WILL DIE when S2 rolls around#gotta stock up on making him warm and comfy#also I am vibrating with joy because I can finally draw again#omg#it's been so long
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The past couple days online have been... interesting. I consider myself a leftist, think capitalism is corrupt, and think that it needs to be seriously reformed/overthrown. I admit that while I've thrown around phrases and terms like "burn it all down" and "the revolution needs to come" out of frustration without actually thinking about what a revolution entails: excellent organization, unity, and strategy to defeat the United States, the world's largest military superpower which has inflicted political and social destabilization across the majority of countries around the world. There also needs to be superb infrastructure and community to support the disabled, elderly, and poor populations who rely on government assistance and programs, healthcare, and accommodations while this so-called revolution rages on.
All I've received from the far leftist movement are lectures from condescending intellectuals who rattle off academic citations regarding ideological theory rather than practical, tangible steps to advocate for change in our local and regional communities. I have not seen one of them actually discuss conversations they've had with their friends, family, or Americans about what they want to see reflected for the future of the country. I have not seen one of them discussed how destructive, detrimental and traumatic a Trump presidency was for social prejudice and morale in the United States. I understand that for many marginalized groups they've been living in a facist state for centuries so the possibility Project 2025 doesn't galvanize them to see the two parties differently, but I don't think it is fair to white leftists falsely equivocate the election of both parties for the entire American population at all??? Or like at least specify the issues you're referring to in which you view both parties as the same????? Literally one TikTok creator who I used to follow talked about how true leftists are so much better than liberals because they aren't waiting for a presidential candidate to save the world NOW due to the accelerated apocalypse due to climate change but when asked how to change the world they suggest sharing ideas of your future utopia with other leftist groups. How the fuck is sitting around talking about living in a walkable community is great considered "saving the world now"? How are you going to dismantle and restructure American infrastructure to create these communities? How are you going to remove existing racial and social tensions to create a community where everyone lives happily side by side? Do people not consider reality at all?????
And is it not wrong for people to have a fucking sliver of optimism and hope at incremental change that's achieved within the corrupt bipartisan system of American politics, even if they know it's propaganda??? Is it wrong for people to have a singular fucking moment of relief in feeling like their values, beliefs, and lives will be better protected and THEY can advocate for change better??? Is it wrong when there's a couple months until the most pressing election in recent history for people to make the choice they feel will reduce the most amount of harm???
#literally i've seen some leftists post like the people in the us could never handle the torture that the us inflicts in other countries#like seriously what the actual fuck do you not think most people are struggling here and dying of preventable diseases and being subjected#to hate crimes mental health crisis systemic racism sexism etc.#why the fuck arent you actually helping your community and helping them see how foreign and domestic policy are tied instead of screaming#like so much of this virtue signaling and not being grounded in reality drives me crazy#and im fucking tired of not being allowed to feel happiness about anything unless it's morally socially perfect how the fuck are we suppose#to move the needle if we never fucking feel happy????? like what after your disorganized revolution the way your room is disorganized i can#be happy that i live in a perfect utopia?? NO! that's not how the fucking world works get a grip#i never believed in working within the system but at least other more reasonable leftists have offered tangible solutions to sway politicia#in our favor and retain a little bit of our rights#like this one woman was saying union organizers align themselves with democrats strategically not because they agree with the party but#so that democrats will count on their vote and money and in turn advocate for union rights#like i feel like a far leftist would be like omg how dare you align with the democrats!!! but like honey!!! what the fuck are we supposed t#do??? stick our fucking nose up at the current political system unless we get everything we want to move the party further to the right and#then wake up one day and realize because we were waiting for a perfect system all our fucking rights are gone?????#bffr#i know i am going to lose all of my followers for this post#grace rants#politics#donald trump#kamala harris#joe biden#jd vance#project 2025#2024 elections#also to be clear this is what i feel right now because of the delayed discussion of far-leftism and options and campaigning for candidates#if leftists actually get together and UNIFY and fucking do something i'll consider inching forward to the revolution#but screaming the system is corrupt without giving people solutions or action steps and just giving them severe anxiety is unhelpful
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My brother, a Warframe veteran, told me about how the veteran players tend to help out the new players, proving this himself by trading me some mods I had no way of getting myself yet. I thought "fair enough, more experienced players tend to be like that, especially if they get bored" and continued on.
Later I had managed to slowly but surely gather up platinum (mostly by selling fish) and was so excited to go to the Market and buy the Feyarch skin for Oberon - I'd seen fanart of it before I learned Oberon does not by default look like it, and I had absolutely fallen in love with the skin. And I realised I was missing one platinum. One. I was so miffed, and ended up complaining to my Alliance's chat, but was resigned to wait till someone would again message me about those rare fish.
And then this one person sends a message to the Alliance chat: "yeah I could give you that." Huh? "I need [super common mod I have like 60 copies of, and I have no doubts that they had at least twice that amount]. Let's trade."
In short, I now have the Feyarch skin, and incredible amounts of gratefulness in my heart. Thank you, friend
#warframe#bun experiences warframe#i was befuddled in the moment and i think i said the words 'well i won't say no?' to their offer#thank you so much awawawa#hehe my first skin!#and it's so pretty!#but just mannn the fact that plat is something you can buy eith real actual money and them just being willing to give it to me like that#i am very touched#idk i hope this post won't come off the wrong way I'm just really happy and grateful#i am at exactly zero plat again haha but I'll work my way up! those warframe slots aren't gonna buy themselves#maybe if i level up my rank in cetus to be able to buy bait for even rarer fish...#it'll be fun to see eventually which fish are the most popular from a wider pool than my current selection#anyways enough about my fish-based economy#I'd attach a pic of the oberon here if i knew how to work the captura. eventually I'll get around to figuring it out!
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oh wow they actually give you the choice to explicitly identify as transgender freely with zero requirements and it unlocks new dialogue choices
#also offering you 3 different stages to establish how your character feels about their current body#âStill getting thereâ or âI love how I amâ or âI worked hard to here here and I'm proudâ#That is genuinely so touching and impressive#it left me awestruck#the fact they didn't shy away from the word transgender??? That they let you pick it as an identity ingame#and not a thrown off choice buried at the end of the list in character customization#I'm so happy#we've came a long way#side not i am so fucking happy the open world thing is gone and it's kinda linear missions now#so much more satisfying and fun#Every character i meet has been a hit after a hit after a hit#and the combat is actually fun and not boring this time around#reminds me of origins in a beautiful way#Yeah Veilguard wins over Inquisiton in my heart any day#âĄotherfandoms#âĄdragon age#dragon age veilgaurd spoilers#also of course i picked the transgender option#not every day you play a game that acknowledges non binary as a form of transgender#i feel happy#a warm kind of happiness
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