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trixy812 · 3 months ago

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⋆｡‧˚ʚ You have all my support ɞ˚‧｡⋆ pt 3.5

{Nanami Kento x reader}

ִֶָ࣪☾. Content: kento nanami x reader (boyfriend x girlfriend), fluff, funny, nanami jealous, gojo being chaotic

ִֶָ࣪☾. Synopsis: Reader meets Gojo!

ִֶָ࣪☾. AN: I wrote this like an Omake! I really enjoyed writing this. I hope you write comments! :D if not, i am really really happy with likes & reblogs <3 xoxo

pt. 1 - pt. 2 - pt. 3 - pt. 4

Reader meets Gojo

First time

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Two days before graduation, Nanami received a last-minute notice: he had to deliver some documents and mission reports to Jujutsu High. He didn’t want to go, but he couldn’t refuse. Knowing it was going to be tedious, he agreed to your suggestion to accompany him.

You observed everything with curiosity. While you didn’t have much interest in this world, it was fascinating to be there. Plus, you knew there was a chance you might encounter the most famous figure of this world: Satoru Gojo.

"Maybe we’ll run into Gojo Satoru, huh?" you said casually, though your heart raced just thinking about it.

Nanami, walking beside you with his typical straight posture and serious demeanor, scoffed.

"You’re not missing much."

That killed your excitement, but only for a moment. You decided to let it go; after all, you knew Nanami couldn’t stand the famous Strongest Sorcerer. Just as you were turning a corner, as if someone had heard your thoughts, there he was: Satoru Gojo.

"Nanamin! I see you’ve got good company."

Gojo appeared out of nowhere, with his carefree smile, dark sunglasses, and that energy that seemed to fill the entire hallway. He walked toward you as if he were on a runway.

Nanami immediately tensed, his jaw clenching audibly.

"Gojo," he said in his usual monotone, but you…

You froze. Your eyes lit up, and before you could stop yourself, you took a step forward, clasping your hands together as if standing before a global celebrity (which, in a way, you were your parents had taught you so).

"You’re Satoru Gojo?! Oh my God, I can’t believe it!" you exclaimed, bringing your hands to your mouth.

Gojo smiled, clearly delighted by your reaction.

"That’s me. In the flesh. Autographs later? Photos? I’m quite busy, but I can make an exception for such an enthusiastic fan."

Nanami closed his eyes for a moment, clearly holding back a sarcastic comment.

"It’s an honor to meet you," you continued, almost tripping over your words in your excitement. "It’s incredible to meet a sorcerer of your caliber."

Nanami turned his head toward you, clearly surprised. He didn’t know if you were joking or actually serious.

"My reputation precedes me? Of course it does," Gojo replied, tilting his head slightly toward you. "What do you think, Nanami? She seems to have good taste."

"Don’t start," muttered Nanami, clenching his fists.

But you were too caught up in the excitement to notice Nanami’s tension.

"I never thought I’d have the chance to talk to someone like you. You’re amazing! Your abilities are legendary," you said quickly, your eyes sparkling with admiration.

Gojo placed a hand on his chest, feigning modesty. "Ah, please, you’re making me blush. Although… it’s the least I’d expect from someone with such a keen eye."

Nanami shot you a look of utter bewilderment.

"Oh, is this the girl you told me about?" Gojo asked mischievously, turning to Nanami.

"Wait… you knew about me?!" you exclaimed, clearly thrilled.

"Of course. Nanamin here doesn’t stop talking about you," Gojo lied shamelessly, ignoring Nanami’s glare. The only thing Nanami had told Gojo was—The girl who used reversed cursed energy in the hospital, the one I was we were once sent to investigate. I bought flowers with your loan. I gave her the flowers. We're dating now. —leaving him completely disappointed by the lack of details and the simplicity of the anecdote.

"And now that I see you, I understand why. Although," Gojo added, leaning slightly closer to you with a playful smile, "I wonder how you ended up with someone so serious. Wouldn’t you prefer someone more… exciting? Like me, for instance."

Nanami stepped forward, his shoulders tense. "Gojo…"

But you, still mesmerized by the celebrity in front of you, barely processed his words.

"Huh? Well… maybe…" you replied absentmindedly, making Nanami practically scoff.

Gojo, seizing the moment, stepped even closer to you. "See? She’s a smart girl. Come on, leave boring Nanamin and come with me."

Nanami didn’t wait another second. He pulled his weapon out of his bag and placed it between you and Gojo, creating a clear space.

"Keep your distance," he said in a low, threatening tone, though not entirely serious.

"Ooh, how territorial!" Gojo teased, raising his hands in mock surrender. "Relax, Nanami. I was just testing your patience."

You finally snapped out of it, covering your face as you laughed nervously. "Sorry! I got carried away. It’s just… It’s Satoru Gojo!"

Still irritated, Nanami put an arm around your waist and pulled you closer to him. "Yes, it’s Satoru Gojo. Can we go now?"

Before you could escape, Gojo raised a hand as if he’d forgotten something.

"Oh, by the way, T/N. Such a shame about the fine your parents got. What an unfair way to treat a healer family."

You blinked, confused. "Fine? What fine?"

Gojo raised his eyebrows behind his sunglasses. "You know, for you using reverse cursed energy without registration. 10% of what your parents earn from each mission… such barbarity! Truly unfair, if you ask me."

You opened your mouth, but no sound came out. You turned slowly to Nanami.

"Did you know about this?" you asked quietly.

"I thought you already knew."

"What?! I didn’t know anything!" you exclaimed, holding your head in your hands.

Gojo chuckled, clearly enjoying the chaos he’d just caused. "Well, I think I’ve gotten someone into trouble. Lovely meeting you, T/N. Nanami, take care of her. She’s a real treasure, though I think she might want to reconsider her options."

And with that, Gojo disappeared, leaving you with a mountain of questions and Nanami visibly irritated.

As you walked back to the transport, you couldn’t stop thinking about the fine.

"This doesn't make any sense. Why didn’t they tell me?" you muttered, thinking about your parents.

Nanami, still processing the incident, sighed. "You should talk to them. Maybe they had their reasons for not telling you."

Then you turned to him with a mischievous smile. "Although… it was interesting to see how you acted with Gojo. Were you jealous?"

Nanami frowned, looking away. "Don’t be ridiculous."

"Oh, sure, because pulling out your weapon was completely casual," you teased, laughing.

Though he didn’t respond, the faint blush on his cheeks was enough for you to know the truth. You laughed to yourself. You couldn’t help but feel like the entire experience had been unforgettable, especially seeing how Nanami had shown, without words, just how much you meant to him.

pt. 1 - pt. 2 - pt. 3 -pt. 4

Reader meets Gojo

First time

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alexisnoir · 3 months ago

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Good Omens S3 theories

I got a bit bored, so I quickly wrote down some theories on what might happen in that 90-minute "masterpiece." Personally, I still think they should make a 190-minute film or at least a 130-minute one. I’m praying that the scripts for the six episodes, which the actors got to read, after that finale aired, will eventually be released online so that we fans can read in detail how it was actually meant to unfold. In fact, they could even publish them as a book—I’d pay just to know what we missed out on.

Aziraphale is riding up to Heaven in an elevator with Metatron. As the doors open, they step out, only to be stopped by the most unexpected sight—HER, standing among the other angels, but most notably, flanked by two incredibly surprising guests—Beelzebub and Jim (Gabriel). After leaving the bookshop, they traveled to Alpha Centauri, where she awaited them. Just because she was silent and seemingly absent doesn’t mean she hasn’t been keeping a watchful eye on what her children have been up to. The biggest source of tension is Metatron’s plan to proceed with the Second Coming, something that isn’t part of the Ineffable Plan. I imagine her taking Metatron by the ear and leading him to a corner like a naughty child for a “time out.” This would give Aziraphale the opportunity to speak with her and truly understand what went wrong in his conversation with Crowley.

Meanwhile, Crowley is driving forward aimlessly, without direction. Eventually, Bentley, his car, comes to a stop in South Downs and refuses to go any further. Resigned, Crowley decides to settle there and open a plant shop. This story, which the creators could tell within a 90-minute frame, would allow for a focus on characters like Maggie, Nina, Crowley, Aziraphale, Anathema and Newton, Beelzebub and Gabriel, and Muriel. It would also offer an opportunity to reveal previously unseen scenes from the past.

That’s one theory I have.

The other is that Aziraphale simply tells Metatron to “go to hell” and returns to Earth, descending in the elevator, while Heaven is closed off by God forever. This would also prevent the Second Coming.

Another theory I have is that the Second Coming was just a cover and that Metatron doesn’t actually have any plan. He only wanted to separate Crowley and Aziraphale because he knew how powerful they are together. Add love to the mix, and you have a force comparable to HER own power.

On a different note, imagine Crowley and Aziraphale in South Downs, taking care of Beelzebub and Gabriel's child—or perhaps Anathema and Newton's. Two uncles. Crowley would definitely teach them gardening and how to keep plants standing strong so they don’t wilt, plus he’d give them astronomy lessons, while Aziraphale would read them bedtime stories. Additionally, I’d love for HER to restore Crowley’s vision. He has serpent’s eyes, and snakes can’t see stars well, or at least not in perfect detail. She could leave the way his eyes look, but I imagine he’d want to see his own creation in all its glory once again.

How much of what I wrote do you think will come true? It's a bit like reading tea leaves, and I happen to have the same first name as Agnes Nutter ;)

#good omens #good omens s3 #good omens season 3 #good omens theories #good omens the finale #go3 #crowley #aziraphale #beelzebub #good omens beelzebub #good omens gabriel #ineffable bureaucracy #metatron #innefable husbands #innefable divorce

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femmecelworld · 5 months ago

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weekender

concept pics and behind the scenes stuff

these pics, and this one of course

hiiiiiiiii! if you’re here from my fic, welcome to all the little rabbit trails of my headcanon for weekender, including a lot of stuff I hinted at in the fic -> SPOILERS AHEAD

let’s start with Roman’s new watch:

the date! Succession has played pretty fast and loose with what year it is/how much time passes. here’s how I picked this date: the show aired autumn 2018, which is a midterm election year, and that’s confirmed by Shiv and her Senate candidate. but we know it is NOT a general election year because Senator Eavis has only just started his presidential campaign. reasonable to assume he’s two years from a general election. So the conclusion then is the Mencken v. Jimenez election takes place in 2020. this theory is undercut by Logan Roy obit in s4, where it claims Logan was 84 when he died. And s1 opens with his 80th birthday. but whatev!! so I did the math on what day in April they had the pick the president episode in s3, and what lined up with Michelle Ann’s quote about Election Day, and it would have been April 24, 2020.

Why I choose to believe Mencken bought him that watch: If you pay close attention to Roman, you can see that Roman is pretty faithful to his grey Rolex. We see him wearing it exclusively through seasons 1-3. The other Roys circle through a variety of watches, most notably Ken and Logan. But Roman seems to just have the one.

Then in season 4, he’s wearing a new watch, the blue and silver IWC. It’s an interesting departure. And one could, if one is a freak, choose to interpret that as a hint to a gift from someone new in his life. Like someone that was introduced at the end of season 3.

The Rolex Roman wore through the first 3 seasons is a Rolex Datejust, which is supposed to retail between $10-20k. But the IWC? Costs about $4k. It is the least expensive watch worn by anyone in Succession. And if you’re a rich snob, which the Roys are, almost distinctively cheap? Why would Roman, who is incredibly image conscious, choose to wear such a cheap (by his insane family’s standards!) watch? HMM. CURIOUS. JS!

the Mencken family

the Menckens’ lake house is near Asheville, NC. which, yes, is a very liberal town, but also a popular tourist spot. Mencken’s home district is in Charlotte, NC in a neighborhood called Providence Plantation (on a street named Silver Fox Road) (because it was just too funny a coincidence to pass up) (weirdly those districts 1. just got redistricted, they added a 14th district last year, and 2. it is currently repped by a Dem irl). HIS district is the 8th, essentially part in a Charlotte suburb and the rest is like a +12 R majority.

Sarabeth (his wife) comes from old money, which is how they can afford 3-4 properties.

Part of the reason I love writing Roman & Mencken is the dichotomy and struggle that’s built into their situation. So, while I wrote something that is very sweet (for them), it’s also dark as hell.

1)Mencken took his mistress on a vacation to a house he shares with his wife (that she probably bought because she’s the one with money) Jail!! Straight to jail!! And at the end of anointed, we see Mencken is an absent (deadbeat) father… he could have spent a weekend with his damn kids for a change! instead of once again putting his own interests ahead of the people who love him.

2) speaking of which…. I know everyone was v. stressed in anointed about what was going to happen to Roman after Mencken made a deal with that old creep, then we saw that Roman’s anxiety clouded his perspective. They finally talk about it in weekender and that’s kind of the end of it (although, Mencken doesn’t actually deny that he would do something like that...)

3) I considered adding a chapter of Mencken POV to this but I cut it because it would give away too much of what’s going to happen in a later story. but uh, don’t forget about ch. 2 👀

4) I said this one of the comments on ao3, but I think it’s so funny that hardcore conservatives love songs that are about them being the baddies. amazing example is Bruce Springsteen’s “Born in the U.S.A.” which so many conservatives have tried to play at their rallies and Bruce told them to f o. It’s like when the Vatican asked Hozier to come there to play “Take Me To Church” 🤡. So that playlist Roman made has a bunch of those songs on it (and the last couple were like, Roman being suuuuuper unsubtle lol)

And that’s all, folks! See ya next time ♥️

#romencken #romencken fic #succession fic #my fic #weekender

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undignifiedaquarium · 2 years ago

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loving you out loud

for @locklyle-week day 1: firsts

a/n: First “I love you.” Here’s a little something I wrote because as much as I crave reading desparate confessions drawn out in the middle of dangerous situations, they also deserve something softer. Set in the future. I am v new to this fandom and writing these characters so please, be kind.

They’ve never been much for words. Or at least he hasn’t, not in the way that matters, Lockwood thinks as he peers over the top of his magazine at Lucy curled up on the other end of the couch. She’s got her nose buried in a book, completely oblivious to him. Her eyebrows are adorably scrunched together and her eyes feverishly tear across the pages in front of her.

It’s been years since she walked into his life and it still always feels like there are so many things he hasn’t told her, or doesn’t say enough. They are much more practiced at revealing things through unspoken communication. So much can be said through a glance across the kitchen table in the morning, smiles exchanged over tea, or touches and gifts and rescues that they have done a million times over by now. Sometimes it feels like they don’t ever need to articulate what’s left unsaid because they both know the score. But still, Lockwood thinks to himself, she deserves more than that.

It’s not like Lucy has ever been one to mince words. She’s called him out on his own bullshit time and time again, challenging him and reminding him that there are people who care about whether or not he makes it home alive. Her honesty was one of the first things that impressed him in that fated interview. She says what she thinks, and doesn’t back down. Truth be told it has saved them all in so many ways since then, even if it may drive him and George mad from time to time.

Looking at her now, Lockwood is once again captivated by her. In her pajamas, curled up with a quilt nestled around her and a steaming cup of tea in her hand she looks so comfortable, so relaxed. She looks radiant. It makes his heart pang with adoration. He wants to capture this moment and keep reliving it for the rest of time.

Because for every moment like this that they get, there are three more where his heart is hammering in his chest with worry or panic that something bad is going to happen to the beautiful, brave, incredible girl cozied up across from him. Too many of their firsts have happened in or been born from those moments when their lives are on the line and he aches a bit to give them both some softer memories.

Lucy chuckles lightly to herself at the other end of the couch, clearly having read something of note in that book of hers. She then takes a massive bite of the biscuit in her hand and finally looks up, meeting his eyes.

“What?” Lucy asks, “I got crumbs on my jumper or something?”

Lockwood laughs, “No, nothing like that. I just…I love you, that’s all.”

“Oh is that all?” She sits up and puts her book down next to her, a grin splitting across her face but also a hint of exasperation in her voice.

He feels himself blushing slightly, and looks down at his hands before glancing back up at her.

“Yes, well I know that sometimes I’m not the best at…articulating what I’m feeling. But I wanted to get it on the record and all that.”

“Lockwood I — “ she starts, scooting close and reaching out to take his hands in hers.

But he’s already on a roll. “I just realized I had never actually said it out loud and, well, we’ve put off a lot of other things until we’re in the thick of it and I wanted to make sure I told you now and not when we’re, you know, fighting for our lives. Point being, I don’t want that to be one more thing I’ve left unsaid.”

He’s really started rambling now, because her eyes have gone wide with something bordering on disbelief. Lucy is giving him a look that tells him she had absolutely no idea he’s been head over heels for her for…shit he doesn’t even know how long. Long enough that loving her feels as natural as breathing.

“Oh come off it Luce, you know I’ve been in love with you for a damn long time now.”

Her response comes out as a half laugh, half shout, and she smacks him with a throw pillow, “I did not, you idiot!”

Lockwood suddenly turns deadly serious, desperately needing her to understand how much he means this. How he is truly deeply, irrevocably in love. “Lucy, you make me feel seen and cared for in a way that for a long time, I didn’t think would ever be possible again. Even when everything is hard and frankly terrifying, I am still so glad you stormed into my life. I love you.”

At this, Lucy moves one hand to his face, rubbing her thumb softly along his cheekbone and looking at him with such longing and tenderness that he feels like he might just fall in love with her all over again. Lockwood slowly closes the distance between the two of them and kisses her like he’s drowning and she’s a breath of fresh air.

“I love you too, you know.” She breaks away and looks up at him with a soft and teasing smile, “to put it on the record and all that.”

#locklyle #locklyle week 2023 #anthony lockwood #lucy carlyle #can you tell that these two are consuming my every waking thought these days #honestly didn’t even think i was gonna write anything for this week and then #i was *inspired*#and also re-reading some fics i wrote for another fandom a long time ago #all to say…here we are TA DA #mwrites #lockwood and co #lockwood & co #locklyle fic

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bbcphile · 1 year ago

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Twenty Questions for Fic Writers!

Tagged by @prosopopeya!!!! (thanks for the tag! Also, hi!!)

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

15, which is actually more than I had thought I’d written.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

200,778

3. What fandoms do you write for?

I have three fics in the works for Mysterious Lotus Casebook, so that’s where I’m spending my time now, but almost all of my AO3 fic is for the Horatio Hornblower miniseries. (I also wrote a very very metafictional Galavant fic for Yuletide.)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Harboured and Encompassed (novel length modern AU with actor!Archie, librarian!Horatio; Archie/Horatio and Horatio/Archie/Will pre-slash)

Nunc Atque Semper (canon-era DKU (dead Kennedy Universe), past Archie/Horatio, Maria/Horatio; Maria finds out just who Archie Kennedy was to Horatio.)

Much Ado about Shakespeare: Love’s Labour’s Won (canon-era Archie/Horatio; Napoleonic era theater kid Archie speaks entirely in Shakespeare quotations and ends up in a relationship instead of being thrown overboard)

Holding Fast (Modern AU, sequel to H&E, Archie/Horatio/Will; Will has a nightmare. Archie and Horatio help.)

The Vital Importance of Doing Research (Modern AU, sequel to H&E, Archie/Horatio/Will; Archie’s trailer is out, so the trio turn to AO3. AKA. a parodic love letter to fanfic and the fandom)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I tried, I really did, but then I fell horribly behind when my health tanked, and I didn’t catch up, and now I’m just embarrassed about how many years it’s been. But I’m going to try to get back to it, so, if any of you are still following me here, thank you for your comments!! This incredibly anxious writer is extremely grateful to you! And I’ll try to figure out how to articulate that sufficiently soon! <3

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Without a doubt, “Nunc Atque Semper.” I once swore I’d never write a DKU, and I almost never read them because they emotionally destroy me, but 1. I got a really excellent prompt for it, and 2. I was (and still am) so very mad at Horatio for his behavior toward Maria in the final two films, and this fic was my way of exploring his grief, how much he had changed because of it, and also holding him accountable because Maria deserved so much better. It’s one of the fics I’m proudest of, and one of the hardest to write, emotionally, and while by the end, they understand each other better and he will try to treat her better, they’re both still going to be miserable. (Turning Over the Sands of Time and Taking Hands Against a Sea of Troubles are probably the next angstiest ones, since they both acknowledge that things are Very Much Not Ok, but at least everyone is alive at the time.)

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Hmmm . . . I’m not sure how to choose, because a bunch of them have lots of different flavors of happiness. Harboured and Encompassed ends on a loving/comforting/optimistic note (even though there’s still a lot of trauma recovery ahead of Archie), The Best is Yet to Come is sweet/fluffy/romantic, Holding Fast is comforting/snuggly/a little goofy right at the end, The Vital Importance of Doing Research is funny/bubbly/crackfic taken seriously. So, I guess it depends on what your favorite mood is to go with your happiness?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not that anyone’s posted in the comments, at least. Before I started posting Harboured and Encompassed, I saw some people hating on modern Hornblower AUs and the people who write them, but none of them proceeded to insult me in the comments of my fics, so if it continued elsewhere, I am blissfully unaware of it.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

For fics I’ve published on AO3, the closest I’ve come is in The Vital Importance of Doing Research, when the trio read fic for Archie’s film, and I am still laughing about getting to use the tag “boat porn.” In Harboured and Encompassed, Archie and Horatio make out a number of times but don’t actually have sex (because the fic is about different sorts of intimacy and was in part a response to the magical healing cock trope). I’ve planned sex scenes in the MLC fics I’m currently writing, so, we’ll see.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

Not really, but in the incredibly crackfic-y The HMS Afterlife: Loyalty Edition, Zuko from ATLA makes a cameo. :)

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes!! Lt_vanStein started translating Harboured and Encompassed into Russian! I’m still so happy about this!!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Lol. So, @fionatlux and I cowrote The HMS Afterlife: Loyalty Edition, which is essentially shitposting in play formatting with the characters as ghosts commenting on the events of the movie as a way of actually making ourselves watch the first film without Archie. It is absurd and ridiculous, and full of snark and Shakespeare quotations and angst and crackfic-y enough that Zuko from ATLA even makes an appearance.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Well, Archie/Horatio have been going strong since 1998 for me, so it’s probably hard to beat that. But I also love Wei Wuxian/Lan Wangji, and recently my entire brain has been devoured by Di Feisheng/Li Lianhua (although I am also very much here for Di Feisheng/Li Lianhua/Fang Duobing).

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

I had a very long sequel planned for Harboured and Encompassed in which the OT3 officially gets together (set between parts 3 and 4 of the series), and had written about 50k of it, but then personal drama related to the fic happened (long story), my health unrelatedly tanked, my life fully exploded, and I was too sick to even think about writing for most of the last 4+ years. Thanks to a successful neurosurgery earlier this year, I’m finally starting to regain some energy for creative pursuits, instead of using it all on staying alive despite the efforts of a broken medical system! But on a good day, I’m still only operating at about 30% of my previous capacity, so right now, I’m writing new stuff for Mysterious Lotus Casebook because that’s what the brain gremlins want (*gasp * what, me, invested in a show about someone whose health tanked and they had to build a new life? And that also has PTSD representation? Hell yes.), and hopefully, eventually, I will be able to finish that sequel, assuming there’s anyone still around by then who wants to read it. But I’m listing it here to take the pressure off myself so I don’t feel like I have to write it, because I’m tired of feeling guilty about it all the time.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue, interior monologue, altering the writing style to fit the character, character development, representations of trauma/trauma recovery/mental health issues, humor, h/c, writing characters finally learning to communicate

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Describing settings, writing in scene when it could be summary instead, writing action scenes, and having confidence

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

There’s some French in The Vital Importance of Doing Research, but I think that’s it. One issue I’m running into with MLC, though, is that there are times where I absolutely know what I’d want the characters to say in Mandarin, but the English equivalent just doesn’t land in the same way. Ah well.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Sherlock.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

I don’t know how to choose. I think Nunc Atque Semper is maybe the one I’m proudest of because of how hard it was (emotionally) to write. Harboured and Encompassed has my all-time favorite scenes/chapters in it, and I am really proud of the character development overall. I’m also still very very proud of just how many Shakespeare lines I was able to fit into Much Ado about Shakespeare: Love’s Labour’s Won, which probably had more research that went into it than any other fic I’ve written. I think the most underappreciated fic I’ve written is Taking Hands Against a Sea of Troubles–I was really proud of the research that went into it, the imitation of 1800s writing and speech, the significance of the play they see, and the non-verbal communication and comfort at the end–and I’m really surprised that Holding Fast has more kudos.

If you write fic, consider yourself invited to respond (but no worries if doing this sort of thing stresses you out). I’m specifically tagging some of my newer mutuals, because I really want to get to know you better! (And if I forgot to include you, it's not personal!)

@thesilversun @nutcasewithaknife @shamera @extraordinarilyextreme @slangerogkatter @enbysaurus-rex @willowcatkinblossom @kingsandbastardz @the-wintry-mizzenmast

#about me #fic #writing #horatio hornblower #mysterious lotus casebook

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greenerteacups · 2 years ago

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i have two questions for you! the first is: could you tell us more about your decision making process with narcissa, and how you brainstorm and eventually write for her character? for context, she’s one of my favourite female characters, but very few books portray her as authentically and gut-wrenchingly painfully real as you do. my second question is i’d love for you to tell us about how you do your research when you write harry potter fics. you mentioned google sheets upon google sheets of research and i’d love to learn more. i think you’re incredible, and lionheart is one of the best, if not the most excellent, draco and hermione fics i have ever read. the way you ended volume i so poetically lives in my head rent free. i want it on my tombstone. ily so much!

Hello! Delighted to answer both. Talking about writing is my special treat to myself for actually doing it.

1. Narcissa: She's so complex! She's just a spiny mille-feuille of a creature, she's so complex. I wrote the prologue before I'd even outlined Book 1, so I had this idea of Narcissa, as a widow, attempting to somehow manage the legacy of these two enormous wizarding houses without allowing them to suffocate her son, whom she loves intensely and truly — her son, whom she loves enough to lie to the face of an immortal dictator just to know that he's alive. What's she like? And so I started picking through her backstory, like: what makes her tick? What does she believe, why did she marry Lucius, why is she the only Black of her generation that survives? And then, once I had the questions lined up, the answers started coming: she grows up sandwiched between Bellatrix and Andromeda, neither of whom are model pureblood daughters, so as a sort of reaction, she ends up becoming this Model Pureblood Gentlewoman, which is epitomized by her marriage into perhaps the only house as old or important as the Blacks. But she's still an heiress in her own right, which means she doesn't need Lucius either for his money or his connections — so theirs was probably a love marriage, or at least an arrangement she had some say in. And she's the last Black standing after two era-defining wars, despite the fact that she's in very close proximity to power in both of those conflicts, so she obviously has some serious survival skills and an intuitive grasp of how to manage people.

But she's also deeply damaged. She's lost her whole family. Bellatrix joined a cult and went off the deep end, Sirius and Andromeda ran away, and Regulus died. Narcissa is the only one who did exactly what she was supposed to do, and her reward was being abandoned by everyone she ever loved. She has baggage. Her life basically ended at the close of the First Wizarding War, and the only thing she has left to live for is Draco, who she knows that she's losing to influences outside of her control, but she doesn't have the power — or isn't willing to use the power she has — to stop him, because that's how she lost Sirius and Andromeda. Pushing too hard. She doesn't want to be Walburga Black. Her problem is that she remains a Black to her core, and for her, that will always mean certain rules and certain ideas. The possibility that Draco might be moving in the right direction — i.e., that her worldview might be outdated and profoundly misinformed — is incompatible with the fact that for years she has been sacrificing her own happiness on the altar of this Thing, this Idea, of the Most Ancient and Most Noble House of Black. If 'pureblood' doesn't mean something, then Narcissa has ruined her life for nothing. She has lost her entire family for nothing. Reform? For what?

2. Research: God bless the fanwikis, because they are my best friend. If I need a date or a timeline check, the fanwiki is my first resource. I have a spreadsheet of important dates ranging from 1971-1991, just because the backstory with the Blacks and Snape and Lucius is somewhat involved (many irons in the fire!) and when I was writing Book 3, I realized that I needed to hash out what happened when and where all these people were at different points in each other's lives. (Like, did Sirius and Snape see each other during the war, or is Book 3 the first time they've crossed paths since the 1977? Surely not, right? But then... when?? And where the fuck has LUPIN been since 1981? That question took about an hour to hammer out.) I make these things sound like chores, but they're not: they're more like fun little writing side-quests that I get to do before coming back to the main story. A lot of it won't even end up in the actual fic, but knowing it helps me keep the text consistent, and it also informs how I write the characters.

I also keep a big list of "miscellaneous Information" at the bottom of my outline document. Yearly quidditch rosters go here; so does stuff like political factions, family trees, and (most recently) a full diagram of who works where in the Ministry of Magic, because I realized I'd invented a passel of bureaucrats and couldn't remember who was allowed to order whom around. I have short character profiles for people like Odin Davis and Prescott Parkinson, especially ones like Pansy's mom who barely appear, because I need to know who they are if I'm going to write Pansy consistently; I also have a reference sheet for hair/eye/skin color for everyone in the cast, because I don't want to get caught up and have to invent a reason that Theo's eyes are blue in one book and brown in the next. (E.g.: they're brown, have always been brown, will always be brown. #browneyedTheo truther.) Finally, I use sites like the HP Lexicon, the conceit of which is basically "odd lists of things you didn't realize you wanted." That link takes you to a list of Harry's Christmas presents for all seven years, which is bonkers helpful if you're trying to write a Christmas scene and you can't remember who gave who what and when.

I also make a point of keeping a copy of the books on-hand while I'm writing, because I want to make sure I'm not neglecting subplots (and, if I am, then I at least want to be neglecting them on purpose). Lionheart is canon divergent, but I want to minimize the divergences to things that I can attribute to a change I've made deliberately, not just because I forgot someone was there.

Finally, if I can't find an answer to something, I might consult Reddit or fan sites to see if someone's dug it out of the books. Names of odd second-cousins, really remote family trees, who's married to whom and why, stuff like that, I'll rely on word-of-mouth. Then, if I can't find something (or find it after a reasonable search) I'll just make something up. I console myself with the knowledge that most people will tolerate you getting Harry Potter's great-grandfather's goldfish's middle name wrong so long as it's in the service of a good story, which is what I hope I can offer.

#much love to you! <3 #greenteacup asks #lionheart #narcissa black

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happy-mokka · 9 months ago

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Good Grief

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Mark (Dan Levy) is happily married to Oliver (Luke Evans). They have a beautiful relationship, a nice (probably unaffordable) house in central London and are both successful in their jobs.

On the way to a business trip to Paris on Christmas eve, Oliver dies in a car crash involving the taxi taking him to the airport.

Smitten by grief, Mark gets the support of his two best friends, Sophie (Ruth Negga) and Thomas (Himesh Patel), both staying by his side him during the next months.

Right before the 1 year anniversary of Oliver's death, Mark finds out that Oliver actually had an appartment plus lover in Paris and actually had planned to talk to him about it once back from the Christmas business trip.

Shocked by this revelation, that his marriage hadn't been that perfect after all, he persuades Sophie and Thomas to accompany him to Paris to check out the appartment and find out more about that unknown part of his partner's life.

The trip opens up old wounds, not only for Mark but for his friends as well and leads to long overdue catharsis in their friendship...

The title and the first 10 minutes of the movie put the focus on the loss of a beloved person and the immediate consequences of trying to handle the inevitable grief...

But soon it shifts and the central theme becomes that of friendship.

Romantic relationships are the key goal of most people, but when push comes to shove, its your friends that become just as important and help you managing the unmanageable.

Dan Levy, who also wrote and directed the movie, did a beautiful job in casting Mark's friends and writing great character that all add up to the story.

Ruth Negga as Sophie is amazing. She fiercly stands by her friend Mark and tries to get him out of his sorrow and into dating apps again. She is funny and drives her friends with so much energy through their lives. On the other hand she fears commitment to her long-time boyfriend and ends the relationship on the night he was asking her to marry him, out of fear of the actual safety he would provide to her... So with this in her "backpack", she is firmly determined to just have a big party and lots of fun on the Paris trip.

Sober And Selfish. Oh My God, That’s The Title Of My Memoir. (Sophie)

Thomas, played by the adorable Himesh Patel, is the voice of reason in their relationship. He is also gay and was Mark's boyfriend years ago for a short time. They managed to stay friends and so he doesn't twitch, when the time comes to help Mark and stand by his side.

Sometimes You Have To Do Things You Don’t Want To Do To Get To Where You Want To Go. (Thomas)

Dan Levy plays Mark and he does that with the whole spectrum of his abilities, between gut-wrenching pain and grief on one end and incredible warm and funny charm on the other.

Sometimes You Lose Sight Of What’s Going On Around You Because You Just Want To Breathe The Same Way You Did Before. (Mark)

I’ve Been Lying A Long Time To A Lot Of People And It Feels Really Heavy. Like I’m Swimming With My Clothes On, And I Can’t Take Them Off. (Mark)

Despite the sad start, the movie really ends up as a beautiful heartfelt story and left me absolutely positive behind on the couch. Some crying was involved, true, but in a good way.

Loss, death, grief but on the other hand friendship and tons of tons of love. That is its message.

The last but not least quote comes rather towards the end of the movie, and unexpected at that from Mark's brittle lawyer. But it beautifully sums up the movies message and also my feeling on it:

As it turns out… to avoid sadness… is also to avoid love. That hindsight is a discomfort that you will forever mistake for indigestion.

After all, where there is love, there is always

#good grief #dan levy #ruth negga #himesh patel #netflix #lgbtq #queer #To Avoid Sadness Is Also To Avoid Love #loss #grief #grieving #friendship #heartfelt #hope #love #Youtube #Spotify

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melonbear51 · 1 year ago

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can you tell us about your own vtm characters? :3

Ooh, this is an exciting opportunity! So I only recently started playing as a PC. My past experiences with VTM had been as a storyteller for V20 (my friend thought we should start with that instead of V5 with…mixed results 😅) and of course playing the video game and choose-you-own-adventure games. I actually thought I’d never get to play as a PC and kinda resigned myself to just having ideas, but thanks to a friend I now can tell you about my first character!

So my first character happens to be one of the concepts I wrote in my very first VTM post. His name is Ben Thatchwood, and he’s a Lasombra antiquarian book dealer in Chicago specializing in occult volumes. He’s earned a bit of a reputation as “the book guy” in Camarilla circles, as if you want it, he probably has it. As such he’s on relatively good terms with the Tremere, though price negotiations can be tough and he often questions the competency of some of the clan’s younger members. He also fucking HATES the Tzimisce based on the fact that the only interactions he’s had with them are Sabbat-aligned assholes leaving effed-up ghoul creatures running amok near his coterie’s territory. Speaking of coterie, his consisted of a Ventrue and a Hecata. I say “consisted of” because the Ventrue PC murdered the Hecata last session while Ben was recovering from a nasty werewolf attack, but that’s another story 😅.

So Ben is…troubled. Not Malkavian-level troubled, but he’s got some issues. Despite being a pretty calm dude, his beast likes to come out quite a bit, leading to some awkward moments. Luckily nothing TOO bad, though a Tremere ghoul’s nose was broken and a hiker MIGHT have suffered from an “animal attack” if you know what I mean. He’s also got quite a bit of trauma. As the younger, less-favored sibling out of a set of fraternal twins, Ben always felt he had to be useful and prove himself. He always wished he would be the one the family picked, at least once. Well, years down the line, after starting a successful business and finally beginning to get over his self-worth issues, a family member did pick him. Just not in the way he wanted.

See, part of the reason Ben’s family treated him coldly was (unconsciously) Ben reminded them of another family member. A long-dead one who popped in every now and then to see if anyone in his bloodline was “worth the investment.”

Introducing…Benedict Thatchwood, Ben’s sire and 4x great grandfather (approximately)! Benedict, much like Ben, was an occult book nerd who developed a reputation in interested circles. He was happily married and had just had his first child with his wife Clara. Then WWI hit, Benedict went to war, and was presumed killed in action. In reality, he was embraced by a Lasombra and spent a good amount of time doing Sabbat stuff before jumping ship and joining the Cam. As he saw generations of his family come and go, he cared less and less about them. That is, until he saw Ben (who resembles his grandad quite a bit in more ways than one) and took an interest. Following the tradition of the Lasombra, he then proceeded to fucking ruin his future childe’s life by:

1. Making it seem like Ben was selling faked versions of 1st-edition books, tanking his credibility.

2. Letting word get back to Ben’s “old fashioned” family about his bisexuality, which did nothing to help the relationship.

3. Drowning Ben’s friend and romantic interest Layla while the two were drinking by the beach, leaving him with survivor’s guilt and making his friends turn against him as they believed his negligence led to her death.

And 4. Setting the bookstore on fire with Ben in it, resulting in Ben badly burning his hands while saving incredibly rare tomes. Still, in spite of these challenges and the toll they took on him, Ben persisted. And then started doubting his sanity because he kept seeing a guy who looked just like him out of the corner if his eye, or hiding in the shadows. got bit. Things culminated one night with Ben going to the bathroom to wash his face, only to turn on the light and find Benedict standing in front of the mirror with a distorted reflection flickering behind. The last words Ben heard were “You have Clara’s eyes,” before the darkness claimed him.

So yeah. Ben’s been through a lot, and having just been given independence from his sire rather recently, he’s been trying to navigate what it means to be a Lasombra in the modern nights, as well as rebuild and reclaim his own identity after all that’s happened. I know this was long, but I couldn’t resist gushing about my boy! I hope you enjoy him as much as I do!

TL;DR: My only PC character I’ve played and have been playing so far is Ben Thatchwood , a Lasombra antiquarian book dealer with MAJOR trauma and grandpa issues 😂

#vampire the masquerade #ttrpgs #world of darkness #vtm #character concept #vtm v5 #vampire the masquerade v20 #vampires #fang formulas #my pc #my pcs #thank you for the ask!#lasombra

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ryutarotakedown · 11 months ago

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Haori for the ask!

[ask game link] MY GIRL MY GIRL MY GIRL MY GIRL MY GIRL THANK YOU FOR ASKING ME ABOUT HER!!!!!!!!

How I feel about this character: um. see above. she is my favorite dgs girl ever and i love her so much and she deserves the entire world and also to rest once in a while. she is incredibly brave to the point of recklessness and she is incredibly responsible to the point of self loathing and she feels emotions so much all the time and i think she might actually be the least deliberately-repressed character in dgs which doesn’t say that much but still! every day i think about her in awe

— seriously, sixteen years old and you’ve helped make an entirely new poison and diagnosed its symptoms on sight and acted accordingly and also went into a beach hut to yell at a confirmed murderer. didn’t even do it because she hated her, did it because she wanted her goddamn poison back. who is doing it like haori murasame

All the people I ship romantically with this character: susato!!!!! and gina but i haven’t thought about ginahao as much as i should tbh. i think haori would take a shine to her immediately but actually fall for her the moment she sees gina scream at someone for susato’s or haori’s sake

My non-romantic OTP for this character: all? of them? yuujin and wilson are both super fascinating dynamics to explore with haori! but the one that actually takes up my entire frontal cortex is her and jezaille.

— they are both women in the same field but jezaille is lauded because she’s british whereas haori surely is not — i mean, that’s not actually said in canon but auchi disparagingly refers to her as a “tomboy” and susato mentions how incredible it is that she has a job in an all male university, i refuse to believe she didn’t have a fucking Time of it. and that in itself inspires jealousy, right, and then haori finds out she killed her mentor and she still has to work with her for Months??? i’d go insane! it’s a miracle haori didn’t actually murder her! like. here is my only chance to bond with someone who understands the exact position i am in, and then it turns out she hates me for almost the same petty reasons as the men in the laboratory. and also killed a guy. haori is so fucking alone it drives me up a wall

— also i wrote a ficlet in dante’s ronin au once where jezaille calls her susato’s attack dog

— also also, we do not have any information on whether she knew asougi or not but i like to think she did. just like as that guy who’s always around susato with the sword and the cringefail aura. maybe they had conversations while waiting for susato to come out of her tutoring sessions! maybe they knew each other!! do you think susato told her that he was dead after getting back to japan, or do you think she only found out after mamemomi accused mikotoba of covering it up at the end of 2-1?

My unpopular opinion about this character: tragically i dont think theres enough haori content for me to actually have unpopular opinions on her. but she performs so incredibly well under stress. i think shes one of the rare people for whom stress actually helps to narrow down her focus.

— also one thing i always laser in on when writing her is her unfailing emotional honesty which is deeply funny considering 2-1 happens because she decided to find out about the poison on her own rather than telling anyone; the self loathing slash impostor syndrome slash fear of failure and rejection overrules that bit of her i guess :pensive: she is fully in panic mode for so much of 2-1

— oh yeah Yeah The Self Loathing thats also something ive never seen in any haori fics yet! she has a whole bit about wanting susato to throw her to the ground in the recess halfway through the trial and it’s kind of a joke but also Not yknow. “i completely betrayed your trust” like. god. theres a perfectionist streak there i think or at least signs of a not super great self esteem!

— hey haori would you say that the two things you hate the most (about yourself) are poisoning and betrayal. haha. okay thats not actual character analysis but i couldnt resist the reference

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: i wish she came back in any form at all i wish susato mentioned her after 2-1 at all although i will say that 1) her being part of the defense in the end credits is like catnip to me and 2) it is my firm belief that susato deliberately avoids talking about her because she’s too afraid of her own feelings to even consider opening up to ryuu about her

— when will the haori murasame fancase of that trial at the end appear, by the way. i want them to get hosonaga a decently light sentence for theft and then he is immediately accused of murder right afterwards

— she also should have gotten to learn about wilson being awful. and also should have been the one to give susato jezaille’s case notes in 1-1 (i saw that hc in a susato roleswap au fic and i have completely integrated it into my belief system. as far as i am concerned she was that person. but a confirmation in 2-1 woulda been nice)

My OTP: [poking head out behind ao3 page and enough susahao fanart to drown a man] take a guess

My OT3: add gina in there baby!!! i dont have as solid ideas on the rest of the girlcule yet but gina is Necessary.

— i actually think haori would dislike both maria and nikolina upon first meeting, maria because of The Racism (she’d scream at her about believing in skull sizes) and nikolina because she does come off as pretty privileged and smug and aloof when you first meet her

— [insert five page rant about how we never see nikolina outside of her being afraid for her life and therefore have almost no idea what she was like in the troupe or among the crew but also she was probably afraid for her life while in the troupe as well so in a way we do have a pretty good idea of her behavior and also i think she uses aloofness as a shield]

— but Point Is they both remind her of jezaille too much for her to like them at first. but later! who knows?

#jules.txt #g: ace attorney #…okay im maintagging:#haori murasame #rei membami #sorry this is barely coherent it is late and i love her sososososo much #she is a force of nature. she is a scared teenager. she is a prodigy. shes down bad #i miss her more than anythiiiiiiing #mail #thesomewhatliterateaxolotl #caps

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hot-take-tournament · 1 year ago

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Thank you so much for putting this together, it was really fun to do. These are the best answers I could come up with:

1. In ‘what the hair’ I believe it’s Gothel in the dream sequence right? Thats such a cool way to open a show I think, it really draws to you. But it is incredibly confusing if you didn’t watch ‘before ever after’ first

2. I think in the first opening it’s 3, I’m not sure about the other two. If I’m being honest the first season is my favourite.

3. A music box is laid out and when rapunzel plays it it activates the atomatons hidden in the gift boxes.

4. Okay that’s one’s really hard, I know for a fact Varian has blue eyes and I’m pretty sure Monty does, but I really can’t hunk of anyone else. Rapunzels are Green, Eugene and Lance’s are both brown. I don’t know, Faith? Maybe Frederick but I think his are green.

5. The one in the right I think

6. If I remember correctly, which is highly unlikely, Rapunzel starts the song so I’m going to guess Eugene finishes it as a part of the little back and forth they have. I’m more of a ‘nothing less to loose guy myself’, so I don’t actually remember that song much.

7. I think it’s in ‘Once a handmaiden’, but I could be wrong. That episode is really good for a number or reasons, but there’s something really funny about Varian canonically inventing a gun, good for him.

8. The left one?

9. Happily ever after, I know it’s a reprise of the first song in the ‘Before ever after& short movie but I’m not sure if it’s called something slightly different

I really struggled with most of these, clearly I’m a fake fan </3 it’s fine I tried my best, at least this makes good practice for when I do eventually have to go up against the devil to avoid eternal damnation.

It was really fun though :D thank you for putting this together it was super cool. (Not to be that really annoying guy but I do highly recommend TTS it is a very fun watch)

Also slightly related fun face Zachary Levi plays Rocky in the the new chicken run movie and you can really tell. He uses the same line deliver as he does with Eugene it’s pretty funny to compare the two characters.

it's no problem at all, one of the best parts of this blog for me is being able to learn about everyone's special interests!

besides, considering how much experience i have in combing the internet to research fandoms i'm unfamiliar with (mostly so i can make bad puns), it was kinda fun for me to try and put that ridiculously niche skill to the test under time pressure

though... in retrospect i maaaay have accidentally made some of the questions completely impossible

(also, i know i answered your asks out of order, it sounds weird but the genuine reason is that because of the times you sent asks i was worried you were losing sleep over the stress of not knowing whether your asks were anonymous or not)

anyway, here are the answers:

1. you're totally right, it's Gothel who speaks first - no one else has a line until the 2-minute mark, they just kind of make noises at each other. i know they did it because it's a dream sequence, but it's still inexplicably funny if you pay attention to it, it reminds me of final fantasy

i did watch the first episode in full to get an idea of what this show was about, and i do have a lot of questions - tangled was one of the only two disney princess films i watched when i was a kid and i still don't really understand how her hair has grown back or who cassandra is (she seems nice though)

2. yeah in hindsight this one is basically impossible to get from memory, and when i wrote it i didn't even realise that there were different animations for the later seasons

the first one has 7, the second has 4 (i think?), and the third has 3, though it's really hard to tell

3. i actually got that wrong, i thought the music box turned into the robot, but you're right, it activates the parts hidden in the presents that then assemble themselves

4. people make fun of disney for their disdain for green eyes, rapunzel is the only disney princess who has them

excluding tangled, i can't even think of two human disney characters with green eyes period

well apparently they decided to overcompensate by making it so that almost no tangled characters have blue eyes, and honestly it's kind of hilarious

even characters who had blue eyes in the movie had their eye colour switched to green for the series

i was only able to pick out five because i noticed the trend and started actively looking for it - and even then, it was like finding a shiny pokemon anytime someone with blue eyes appeared on screen

so the fact that you were able to think of five off the top of your head is crazy impressive

he does - so do varian, frederic, faith and monty, so that's five

5. the mirror is the one on the left

the one on the right is actually based on the broken plate from breaking bad

6. eugene sings last, i have no idea what the context of the song is though

i actually was originally going to use 'nothing left to lose' but i changed it like five minutes before the timer ran out because i realised there were a lot of questions about cassandra, she's just in every clip

7. yeah, it's 'once a handmaiden', i think once her imaginary british friend pulls the cloak off it never comes back

i may have got this one from the wiki

8. the yellow eye is her(?) right eye

9. you're right, it is just a reprise of the first song from before ever after

(though i found out just now that disney's official songlist technically calls it 'life after happily ever after', which is dumb, so i'm going to ignore it)

so, overall i don't think anyone can accuse you of being a fake fan, you definitely got most of them

still, i'm glad you enjoyed it <3

#asks #not a poll

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norcalbruja · 1 year ago

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Just finally trying to explain my weird relationship(s) with spirits

So I could never figure out how to say this in a non-awkward way, considering my more pressing issues, but the Water-Spirit is not straight. Like at all.

I mentioned somewhere that Loki once rage-kissed him to try and get a reaction out of him, because the Water-Spirit is constantly treated as more powerful than he tells me or even believes about himself, due to the whole "colonization has isolated him and wrecked his mental well-being" problem (and since he’s technically a giant squid, that makes a LOT of sense in hindsight as to why the other gods decided not to question him TOO much about his identity).

Haik Number Four does not care about being "straight" or not, either. When he was thinking over the whole mess of "yeah, the Water-Spirit has TECHNICALLY been impersonating Haik, but he was a GREAT imposter!", he also told me, "Well, if none of the other anito are going to claim you, I suppose I will."

And I was like "I don't know if you're the actual Haik, but thank you."

The Water-Spirit got nervous and said, "Yes, okay, Ama. You remember that she wrote all the poems and the novel-draft about you? I'm not going to stop you if you want a relationship with her, but I just want you to be kind to her--"

Haik Number Four was alarmed/insulted and went, "Why do you think I'm TAKING her?! Do you think I'm a Spaniard, to treat women like cattle?!" And he just went, "well, I can't just leave you on your own. You're both mine now."

And I was like, "Thank you, Haik Number Four, but... that sounds extremely bisexual."

And Haik Number Four was like "Mahal, Tagalog spirits aren't Catholic. We don't pay attention to GENDER or that kind of shit. And HE is a trickster. He loves you, but he's as straight as Dionysus."

And I was like, "oh, yeah. Other husband?"

I also mentioned at some point that I have a couple of spirit-"husbands" like Dionysus, but they don't use "wife" in the MARITAL sense, but more like "devotee."

Sometimes I forget that me and Dionysus are even "married." Like... immediately after he asked me about it, Dionysus went for weeks on end just dropping into my meditations and acting like a drunk roommate/friend, but when he's SOBER, he is surprisingly nice and can act suspiciously like a therapist.

He still barely sounds like he's involved with me, at least until a pushy male spirit won't leave me alone. Then Dionysus comes in with his metaphorical guns blazing, and he may or may not fucking suplex him, while ordering him to "GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM MY WIFE."

So ever since Hera told me that she considers me and the Water-Spirit "basically married, but one of you has a shitty memory and you're both extremely depressed/traumatized," Dionysus apparently thinks that was a long time overdue. What with all my yearning poetry about the-guy-I-thought-was-Haik, and how I wrote a whole novel draft about a Filipino woman being married to Haik across different lifetimes. He's just started going hog-wild with affectionately calling the Water-Spirit "Other Husband." Not "YOUR Other Husband," just "Other Husband."

He also finds it a blast to call me "OUR wife," as the classic communist-Bugs-Bunny meme is often used.

That makes our relationship effectively open, because to make a VERY long story short: The Water-Spirit and I are the "main/regular(???) couple," and Dionysus says he considers himself my "backup/supporting(???) husband."

There's a thin line between "a god" and "a powerful spirit," but it's definitely there. Sometimes Dionysus has gotten nature-spirits to just STOP what they're doing and leave, even reluctantly. Once he comes in and tells them "Hello, I am an Olympian and that lady over there's my other wife. I will fuck you up if you keep bothering her," they just automatically go.

Unless the person he's telling to shove off is 1) an older/more-powerful god, or 2) a nature-spirit of Shark's caliber, who is incredibly old and is “set apart from human-and-deity matters.” (Shark has called him a "godling," but I don't know if that's because his mother is mortal and he's ‘technically a demigod,’ or because he's ‘youthful’ as ‘the hot twenty-something-year-old who parties a lot.’)

The Morrigan is my patron, but while she is really good at fighting or booting threats out of my headspace, she does not always have the patience to get me out of danger because as a goddess of warfare, she tends to go "FIGHT NOW, QUESTIONS LATER." That means Dionysus ends up being the one who escorts/hauls me out of places, as he once had to do when Shark decided to just start tearing the Not-Children out of me.

Another spirit-husband who I will only name in this paragraph for clarity is a Bear-Spirit. I usually call him the Bruin becauuuuuuuse I am playing it safe and not using the proper word too often. His exact species varies, but he's always some form of "brown bear." Sometimes he looks like a grizzly, sometimes he looks like a European brown bear, and other times he looks like a fucking massive cave-bear.

He can shapeshift into a mostly European-looking man with pale skin, brown eyes, and long and shaggy brown hair, but like... he's Not Human at the end of the day. His eyes have No Understanding or sapience in them like a god or a human (and sometimes I just see endless caverns in them, like I see the ocean abyss in the Water-Spirit's eyes). Sometimes he doesn't even bother shapeshifting some clothes on besides "draping his real form's pelt around like a cloak/skirt," so trying to lock down his "ethnicity" is futile.

And like, I just want people to know that this has all slowly accumulated over ten or so years, and trying to write it all down is as much for myself as it is for whoever is reading this.

#personal gnosis #unverified personal gnosis #nature spirits

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explosionshark · 1 year ago

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Oh yeah no worries about the late reply I really appreciate you finding me recs given that's how this started and all, I'm actually planning on getting started on that Buffy pile today that you've sent my way since I just finished the big fic I was reading yesterday.

Quick note on Graduation Day part 2 since that's where I finished off last ask, like I didn't dislike it by any means but I dunno didn't feel as strong emotionally as part 1 or either of the previous finales, like the Mayor's great and all love him, I did really enjoy seeing him definitively caring about Faith, but Angelus and Faith can carry way more emotional stakes and even the Master did via Prophecy Girl's prophecy but it's good as a sendoff for the Sunnydale high era. Also whoo big dumb snake we love to see it.

It turns out I'm some kind of sleeper agent because I didn't even know I still remembered the Angel theme song but as soon as it started playing I was in, it was all flooding back to me full of nostalgia, I haven't even seen Series 1 before. Great stuff, I enjoy that they're having to work in somebody explaining all the deets of Angel's backstory every episode so far, and I didn't realise how early they get their mission statement in there, first episode you've got your visions, Powers That Be, Wolfram and Hart. Definitely has its own vibe. I didn't know I did but I've missed seeing sad brooding Angel just standing on top of rooftops. I'm looking forward for Cordelia to get the character development she deserves and I like Doyle so far, he's good fun. Lonely Heart was neat getting in an MOTW episode about what the show's about as your second episode.

S4 of Buffy also feels like a new vibe for the show like you said. I like Willow's new haircut (this is the first thing I wrote down upon starting S4) and Giles in his flop era. It feels like this is where Willow decisively grabs second most important character status, Angel's gone, Giles doesn't have a job and with Cordelia gone Xander's dropped to almost the bottom rung of the regulars. Living Conditions such a fun episode my favourite of the bunch I've watched so far, like every little grievance Buffy and Kathy had being worked into the fight at the end was great, all the over the top camera work, and the juxtoposition between Buffy not having that bad a roommate and Willow truly living her worst life with her's but keeping it together, RIP Kathy I knew she wasn't long for the world when Buffy's roommate couldn't even get in the opening credits even with two new gaps, she could've handled a Cordelia workload if she'd stuck around I'm sure. Plus it was a neat throwback for Buffy to have to worry about keeping Slaying a secret again.

Oh yeah I'm looking through my notes and I had written down in the Freshman 'Whoa is that Pedro Pascal? It is. Wild.' then immediately afterwards 'RIP' Also for Harsh Light of Day I have 'Buffy deserves her post Angel+Faith rebound as well. Good for her having a good sexual encounter.' followed immediately by 'Well at least its not as bad as when Angel lost his soul but not great'. But congrats on it not being as bad as Harm. At least Willow is allowed to have a good relationship. Also congrats on Xander's rebound in this episode about bad rebounds being the last girl he was with? Anya being in the triangle of dejected women was kinda incredible considering she's not nearly in such a bad position as them but we need that cool shot. Also multiple times about Angel so far 'What a dork, love him'

Also like sidenote I don't know American geography at all I didn't realise like how close Sunnydale and LA are so close together? I always figured Angel moved a sizeable distance away but for America it's like he's moved one town over or something they're so close together

Yeah, as fun as the Mayor can be, the real emotional heart and soul of s3 is Faith, so once she's out of commission the stakes just aren't as personal and that kinda takes the wind out of the sails a little imo. Still it's a good two-parter. At least we get the gay shared dreamspace and the forehead kiss.

S4 is kind of a weird transitional season and I think it suffers a little from not having a very compelling big bad BUT there are some all-time great episodes there and the start to a lot of very important arcs. And we get a little more Faith! Also yeah Buffy's s4 love interest (post-Parker) is not a fan favorite and I certainly have some criticisms of the boy but I DO think that Buffy Summers DESERVES to get laid as much as she wants and I think it's nice that s4 is finally where that happens for her (with fluctuating degrees of associated trauma).

Re: the Angel sleeper agent stuff - one of my favorite parts of my own Buffy rewatch was having my brain rocketed into the past by the theme song and other little moments that were just ingrained on me forever. I'm not generally a big rewatcher when it comes to TV but sometimes there is something genuinely so nice about revisiting a thing you really loved!

Also yeah the geography of the Buffyverse has been confounding fans and scholars for ages. You have to just roll with it. The implication DOES seem to be that they're only a couple hours apart, but if you factor in California having terrible public transit and Buffy having NO CAR the distance definitely feels a little more insurmountable

#buffy anon #should have started a tag for u a long time ago. alas

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Fictober Recap and Updates

Well, it's officially the end of the month...

This year I have 22 completed before the month ends, which given I've been sick most of the month I'm going to say is pretty good. I also wrote for at least 4 new fandoms, which I am also here for, made a whole companion playlist, turned things into at least two spin off mini-series, and did some art for quite a few of them!

I do plan to finish the remaining fics that don't exist yet, and will update this post with links once that's happened, but for now, here's what we've got!

Ratings:

General: ❤️

Teen: 💛

Mature: 💙

Explicit: 💚

Miniseries and Ongoing Fics will be indicated with: 💘

Link to the Series

Link to the Playlist

Day 1 ❤️

It's a Team Effort

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Lost Pet Meet Cute

Song: We Are Going to Be Friends - White Stripes

Pairing: Hermione Granger & Neville Longbottom

"Hermione has never been good at making friends. But this is a new school, a fresh start, and she's very determined for things to be different this time around. Even if it seems everyone in the magical world has incredibly questionable taste in pets."

Day 2 ❤️

Just Like Riding a Bike

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: "Left... Your Other Left"

Song: Bicycle Race - Queen

Pairing: Harry Potter & Hermione Granger & Ron Weasley

"It's not that he's intentionally a bit of a disaster. It's just that the whole constant murder attempts and saving the world thing left Harry with very little time for an actual childhood. But now, Voldemort is properly dead, nobody is expecting anything from him beyond the occasional photo-op or the like until September, and he's got all the time in the world to learn how to be the kid he never got to be. Why that seems to be a hell of a lot harder than fighting giant snakes and murderous lunatics, he couldn't say, but at least he's trying!"

Day 3 ❤️

Romanticizing Life

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Favorite Scent

Song: My Baby's Taking Me Home - Sparks

Pairing: Angelina Johnson

"Ever since she had that potions class on Amortentia, she’s been looking for that particular combination of smells everywhere. On every first date, every meet cute, every chance encounter, but despite searching for it every day for years she’d yet to find it. But what she had found was almost better."

Day 4 ❤️

The Night Market

Fandom: House of the Dragon

Prompt: Market Day

Song: Thick as Thieves - Kasabian

Pairing: Rhaenyra Targaryen x Alicent Hightower

"Everyone else is excited for tomorrow's joust, but Rhaenyra is more excited for the market tonight. Officially, that's because she still needs a gift for her soon to be arriving little sister (and it will be a sister, she's determined), but if it also happens to be the perfect excuse to convince her favorite to escape the castle with her for a moment before everything is consumed with the tourney and the new baby, well, all the better."

Day 5 ❤️

Between a Rock and a Hard Place

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Gravestone

Song: Two Coffins - Against Me

Pairing: Harry Potter x Luna Lovegood, Harry Potter & James Potter & Lily Evans Potter

"It was an odd habit, he’d be the first to admit it. But who else was he supposed to talk to about these sorts of things?"

Day 6 💛

It's Like the Internet, Only in Person and With Candy

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Mistaken Identity

Song: Sexy - Mean Girls on Broadway

Pairing: Percy Weasley x Oliver Wood

"Maybe muggles were onto something with these whimsical masquerade parties. He could be anyone here, anything too, and they’d never know better. Something about that felt almost, relaxing in a way."

Day 7 ❤️

This is Our Get Along Sweater

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Hoodie Weather

Song: Get Over It - OK Go

Pairing: Hermione Granger x Fred Weasley x George Weasely, Hermione Granger & Harry Potter & Ron Weasley

"Harry and Ron both might have points, but the better one was that they needed to get over this little spat or nobody in the whole of Grimmauld Place was going to get any sleep."

Day 8 ❤️

Banned Books

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Getting Revenge

Song: All My Life - Cruel Youth

Pairing: Hermione Granger x Fred Weasley x George Weasely

"It was bad enough that Harry and Ron were still constantly bickering. Getting her banned from the library over it was another matter entirely, one that Hermione was hardly inclined to take lying down. How fortunate it was that she'd clearly picked up a few new companions who were more than happy to help her sort the matter out to her satisfaction."

Day 9 💛

Champagne Problems

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: "Don't Do That!" "But..."

Song: You Stupid Bitch (feat. Rachel Bloom) - Crazy Ex-Girlfriend

Pairing: Sirius Black & James Potter, James Potter x Lily Evans Potter

"When you thought about it, really thought about it, it wasn’t really fair that all the big parties and accomplishments after your 17th birthday and graduation were so focused on settling down. And like sure, it was his best mate who was engaged, and Lily wasn’t a completely terrible choice if he was going to lose his partner in crime to someone, but it was the principle of the matter, and the principle of the matter was Sirius Black was feeling left behind. And very very drunk."

Day 10 ❤️

The Claw

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Bet, Game, Contest

Song: Cabinet Man - Lemon Demon

Pairing: Lavender Brown x Ron Weasley, Lavender Brown x Hermione Granger

"Hermione had sworn off being Ron's keeper after the war, which was probably why he had somehow forgotten he was meant to be at a date tonight with Lavender. A really genuinely terrible date, actually. Just because she wasn't managing him anymore, that didn't mean she couldn't still honor girl code and usurp his failed attempt at winning back his ex though, right?"

Day 11 ❤️

The Westview Gardening Club

Fandom: Agatha All Along

Prompt: Ingredients & Spells

Song: Spellwork - Austra

Pairing: Agatha Harkness x Rio Vidal, Coven Vibes

"If Wanda's boy wanted to play games, then Agatha could play with the best of them. Just as soon as she figured out how to get out of this damn tunnel, ideally without her ex-girlfriend overcomplicating matters further by telling her quasi-coven all their dirty little secrets at once. And, apparently, figured out how to give Mrs. Hart or whatever her name was, a taste of magic herself seeing as green witch or not she clearly was the greenest thumb they had."

Day 12 ❤️

Picking Up the Pieces

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: "This is Spooky" "Really?"

Song: Fantasy - Lush

Pairing: Lavender Brown x Hermione Granger

"Sure, crashing and salvaging the date had been purely for altruistic motives. But, if Ron was so determined to drop the ball, why shouldn't Hermione take full advantage to get the girl after all?"

Day 13 💙💘

Dreams of Morning

Fandom: House of the Dragon

Prompt: Attic, Cellar, Hidden Room

Song: Pink Pony Club - Chappell Roan

Pairing: Helaena Targaryen x Rhaena Targaryen, others will be included

"For much of her life Rhaena has never quite felt like enough, not for her father, not for her step mother, and not for a dragon of her own. Helaena has spent most of her life knowing she was not what everyone wanted her to be. What if they were exactly what the other needed?"

Day 14 ❤️

You Have Witchcraft in Your Lips

Fandom: Agatha All Along

Prompt: Mundane AU

Song: Fast Girls - Sarge

Pairing: Agatha Harkness x Rio Vidal, Lilia Calderu x Sharon Davis

"People came to West View University for a bunch of reasons. Small class sizes, the ability to attract genuinely world class professors on the promise of leaving them alone and not forcing them to publish on shit they didn't want to, a shockingly good hockey team for being a small liberal arts school, all of them were valid. But they all stayed for the same reason. Sure, every school had a tradition or two, but none were nearly as good as the annual post-finals performances of the West View Questionably Accurate Shakespeare Society."

Day 15 💚

For Your Health

Fandom: Doctor Odyssey

Prompt: "What are you wearing?" "It's Laundry Day."

Song: Favorite - Liz Phair

Pairing: Tristan Silva x Avery Morgan

"Avery's been stressed for weeks, more than usual even. Tristan is of course more than happy to help with that, particularly after a middle of the night emergency has her curious enough to ask."

Day 16 💛

Magic for Dummies

Fandom: Fate: The Winx Saga

Prompt: "Yes, No, Maybe"

Song: Come Home - Willow (feat. Ayla Tesler-Mabe)

Pairing: Farah Dowling x Saul Silva

"Magic wasn't exactly his area of expertise, but then again it wasn't exactly the first world's area of expertise either. Lucky then, that Farah is magical enough to more than make up for it."

Day 17 *Coming Soon* 💚

No New Intentions

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Only One Bed

Song: Number 1 - Goldfrapp

Pairing: Kingsley Shacklebolt x Hermione Granger

"She was there under false pretenses, their friends had clearly misunderstood even worse, but when in a very nice hotel suite you didn't have to pay for, why not make the most of it?"

Day 18 *Coming Soon* 💛

So What Does That Make Us?

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Bewitching

Song: So Into You - B*Witched

Pairing: Hermione Granger x Fred Weasley x George Weasley

"Two weeks had never flown by so fast, but now that things were set to return to some form of normal, where exactly did that leave things between Hermione, Fred, and George?"

Day 19 ❤️

Threads of Fate

Fandom: House of the Dragon

Prompt: Yarn

Song: Chains of Love - Erasure

Pairing: Helaena Targaryen x Aemond Targaryen

"He was the only one in this family who seemed to understand his job, much less do it with any consistency. Aegon and Helaena were the two getting married today, and yet Aegon was still missing, and Helaena was sitting on the ground and making a mess of herself while muttering nonsense. But if it wasn't entirely nonsense that had her so unsettled this morning, how exactly was Aemond meant to protect his family from something that seemed so inevitable?"

Day 20 ❤️

It's Easy When You Mean It

Fandom: Rosaline

Prompt: "Written but Never Sent"

Song: All the Words We Don't Say - Hiatus Kaiyote

Pairing: Rosaline Capulet x Dario Penza

"He was annoying, weirdly fixated on his boat, always thought he was right, didn't know when to shut up, and frustratingly persistent. By all accounts, Dario Penza was her father's worst pick yet. But he did tend to make himself useful, and it was nice to talk to someone who actually talked to her instead of at her even if it was more often than not just to throw a one liner of his own back at her…"

Day 21 ❤️

The Red Queen

Fandom: House of the Dragon

Prompt: Bonfire

Song: Venus - Shocking Blue

Pairing: Rhaenys Targaryen x Corlys Velaryon

"After such a long voyage, all Corlys wants is to set foot on familiar shores, at least for a moment before setting his sights on a new adventure. As it happens, his next adventure means to find him before he can even make it to port."

Day 22💙💘

Courtly Love

Fandom: House of the Dragon

Prompt: Heirloom

Song: Knights in Shining Karma - XTC

Pairing: Alicent Hightower x Rhaenys Targaryen, Alicent Hightower x Corlys Velaryon, Rhaenys Targaryen x Corlys Velaryon

"She had always been the sentimental sort, ever since her father had brought her to the unfamiliarity of the Red Keep and told her to make friends with the princess. Anything that reminded her of home, of the peace she’d known before all was consumed by her father’s ambition and her duty was nearly sacred, none more so than her Mother’s necklace, the last thing she had to remember her by. And now, that too was gone. In her favorite books, this would be the moment a brave and handsome knight would ride in to rescue her, to battle beast and warrior alike to see it returned. But Alicent was not living in one of her stories."

Day 23 ❤️

Bad Dog

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Stormy Night

Song: I Was a Teenage Werewolf - The Cramps

Pairing: Remus Lupin & Lily Evans Potter, Remus Lupin x Sirius Black

"Everyone always talks about heightened senses like they're some sort of superpower. For Remus, they've always felt more like a recipe for guaranteed headaches, and never more than during a storm. Over the years, he's come up with his own means of managing it, but when his boyfriend gets a little too excited trying to demonstrate his new trick, that goes right out the window, and he's left improvising."

Day 24 *Coming Soon* 💚

Eat, You'll Feel Better

Fandom: Doctor Odyssey

Prompt: Comfort Food

Song: Bad Wine and Lemon Cake - The Jane Austin Arguement

Pairing: Tristan Silva x Vivian Montgomery

"It's been a very long day, full of very high maintenance passengers, doing unreasonably stupid things to themselves. All Tristan wants to do is fall asleep, ideally in a bed somewhere, but anywhere will do. Too bad tonight is supposed to be his first proper date with Vivian, and he'd decidedly made other plans for what to do in that bed that are going to have to be adjusted."

Day 25 ❤️

Monsters, Ghosts, and Ghouls

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Haunted House

Song: Punk House of Horror - Teenage Bottlerocket

Pairing: Harry Potter x Ginny Weasley

"Harry had insisted on sending the kids to muggle primary school for a reason, and though the Fall Fun Fair and other nonsense events weren't that reason, seeing his wife's responses to what muggles considered scary certainly was an unexpected perk."

Day 26 *Coming Soon* 💛

Finding Family

Fandom: MCU

Prompt: "I can't find it."

Song: Can't Hardly Wait - The Replacements

Pairing: Wanda Maximoff x Natasha Romanoff

"She hasn't been an Avenger nearly long enough to be losing things around the tower, nowhere near long enough to be asking the others for help after what she did. That doesn't change the fact that her last reminder of her brother is gone."

Day 27 ❤️

Outside Looking In

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Afternoon Stroll

Song: L.E.S. Artistes - Santigold

Pairing: Hermione Granger x Percy Weasley

"War has a funny way of clarifying all the complicated bits of life. The people, the places, the things, that mattered, and what the price one was willing to pay for it, all of it became so much simpler when it had to be condensed to one bag and whatever few meetings you could sneak around all the running, hiding and fighting. But then again, both Hermione and Percy had always been good at compartmentalization, at narrowing their focus. Maybe that was why the same war that had everyone else scattering had pulled them back together."

Day 28 *Coming Soon* 💙💘

How the Other Half Lives

Fandom: House of the Dragon

Prompt: Lucky Charm

Song: All Tomorrow's Parties - Rasputina

Pairing: Alicent Hightower x Rhaenys Targaryen, Alicent Hightower x Corlys Velaryon, Rhaenys Targaryen x Corlys Velaryon

"If asked, Rhaenys couldn't have said what made her feel so protectively towards the daughter of the man she hated so much, or what had made her act as she had the night Aemma died. What she does know, is that things have not changed much since she was the girl of fifteen walking the halls of the Red Keep, and that is not a good thing. When unfavorable events conspire to bring that girl, and her niece, to her door once again, she knows what must be done."

Day 29 *Coming Soon*❤️💘

Angry Makes Me a Modern Girl

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Time Capsule

Song: Modern Girl - Sleater Kinney

Pairing: Lavender Brown x Hermione Granger

"There's nothing else to really do, is there? Moving on always requires a proper girls night, burning the memories you don't want to keep, ideally over a glass of cheap wine. Moving on together, though, has it's own rules."

Day 30 *Coming Soon*💚

Just Some Lover

Fandom: House of the Dragon

Prompt: "Forever"

Song: Love is a Lazerquest - Arctic Monkeys

Pairing: Rhaenys Targaryen x Corlys Velaryon

"It hadn’t been that long, since they had last seen one another. Not in the grand scheme of their thirty year marriage, at least. Somehow, this time three weeks seemed longer than thirty years."

Day 31 *Coming Soon*❤️

Wishful Thinking

Fandom: Harry Potter

Prompt: Make a Wish

Song: Man on the Moon - Sugar

Pairing: Neville Longbottom x Luna Lovegood

"Blown dandelion tufts, burnt bay leaves, shooting stars, watched clocks for 11:11, it was all well and good, but it wasn’t getting her what she wanted. She needed something stronger if she was going to make her wish come true."

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peakyltd · 1 year ago

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My heart… @brummiereader 😩🥺

I'm in love with these series since chapter 1 and I couldn't wait to read the following chapters. It did take me a while (AND IM SORRY) but gosh I'm so invested in this!

Arthur is such a sweetie in this, I love it. You can tell he genuinely cares for her and the way he tries to cheer her up, no matter what is so incredibly endearing. It really feels in character. "Where's that girl I used to know ay? She would've kicked him in the balls already, or at least told him to fuck off if he asked her to stay an extra five minutes let alone a whole night" Yessss tell her Arthur, give her that confidence back. We love to see a supportive man!

I LOVE how he mimicked a waltz all by himself, you really put the best image in my head and I'm not complaining at all. Polly really made me giggle, "her eyes widening in horror at Arthur's dangerously swaying hips." I think I can understand it 😂

The tension when she entered Tommy's office could be felt trough my screen. My god, this man is unbelievable honestly. However I must say that it surprised me how he was reminiscing about the past when she got his diary, her dress touched his leg and he smelled her perfume. It felt so wholesome and you described it so beautifully that I just could picture this really well.

" These don't need filling out for another week. You had her stay all night!" THIS BURSTED MY PREVIOUS BUBBLE???!! So he's doing this on purpose? IS THERE SOMETHING BEHIND IT????? I'm really team Polly on this one, like yes girl tell him!

The backstory on why they broke up, made a few things clearer to me. I can see why he's so hurt about it (this doesn't justify anything) but also why she made that choice. Times were very unsure and just like her, I wouldn't want to live in a constant time of uncertainty. He interpreted in a way that she didn't love him and he probably still does. This is why communication is key Thomas Shelby.

The scene where they all waited in front of the door had some other kind of tension. Idk but I was kinda rooting for him here 🤭 It felt so intimate and at first it might've looked like the chance of it all would start there until she told him off. I loved the confidence and the way she pushed him back with her shoulder, you got this girl!

"Those that needed to hear it, heard it" Arthur said trying to sound poetic. THIS IS SO ARTHUR. I loved how you wrote his speech and then this, just great! He knows.

But fuuuuuck Grace had to ruin it? This hurt actually, giving him a new one was unnecessary already, just like Uncle Charlie mentioned but the rude comments on the one Y/N gave him was so not done. The fact that everyone fell over it, said it enough. It was such a painful moment but I loved how you captured her and Tommy's emotions. Especially when Grace touched him, that's not love.

Her encounter with (which I assume) Kimber's men was scary but also some kind of eyeopening. She's still known as Tommy's girl wether Grace is still called a barmaid. 🧐

I JUST KNOW ISIAH IS GOING TO TELL TOMMY SOMETHING THAT ISN'T RIGHT 😫 I mean I get it but shit, she's probably getting accused of something she never did.

It had been a year since the command went out on the streets of Birmingham an order intended for your own protection decided long before any dealings with Kimber, a command that clearly hadn't gone unforgotten. You was not to be bothered not to be approached. No one was to lay a hand on you by order of the Peaky Blinders by order of Thomas Shelby, because you was still his girl, always. Oh I loved this part, a great ending to the chapter as well. You can tell out of everything that they still love each other dearly but none of them takes a step to tell the other or clear the air up at least. I get that she won't be the one since he's with Grace now and it breaks my heaaaart 🥺

I loved it Brummie! You did a great job once again and pulled me into their story completely. I saw you posted part 3 as well and I can't wait to find out more. You created such an interesting story and I'm so excited to see where this is going! Could you maybe tag me in the coming chapters? 💓

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Hopelessly Devoted (PART TWO)

Summary: After spending the whole night finishing the documents Tommy had asked for the previous day, you woke up confronted by his cold demeanour once against. Your heart only breaking further when you had to sit through his birthday celebration at the Garrison opposite the new barmaid he was now seeing. If that wasn't enough, you watched on as the one thing you never thought would get replaced did, when Tommy was given a birthday gift in a small box.

Warnings: Language, angst, fluff, mutual pining

"Wakey wakey, rise and shine" Arthur said as he stood in front of your desk with a huge grin on his face. " You're a bloody snorer" he chuckled as he dropped the accounts book that was sitting amongst the various documents on your desk right next to your head in attempts to wake you again.

" Fuck sake" you mumbled, your whole body jolting at the loud noise as you reached your hand out pushing the book away from you. " I don't snore" you said with a grunt as you slowly lifted your head from the papers beneath you, one of them awkwardly stuck to the side of your cheek which Arthur took no time in ripping from your face, leaving you with a lingering sting. With a cheeky smirk playing on the corner of his lips he looked back at you and the glare you was sending his way, knowing how much you desperately wanted to return the favor, but thankful that you hadn't enough energy to do so in your sleep deprived state.

" Late night?" he asked picking up your half empty glass of whisky, swirling it around before downing the rest. " Brrr fuck! That'll put hair on your balls" he said grimacing at the sharpness from the bitter liquor. "Not that you would know, since you know, you don't have..."

" Ok Arthur shut up, I get it " you interrupted as you rubbed the side of your neck feeling the soreness of the uncomfortable position you had slept in all night start to set in.

" You gonna tell me what you were doing here all night then?" he asked as he perched himself on the edge of your desk looking to you then back to all the workers now making their way through the betting shop.

" Tommy wanted me to finish these" you said as you collected the documents in front of you, your eyes quickly darting to his face knowing what his reaction would be. " Deadlines today Arthur..." you said as he slowly nodded his head, rubbing the side of his nose with his thumb. " He asked me because I'm the only one that will finish it on time" you added trying to convince him and yourself you hadn't become a complete push over. " Please, just don't. Don't say it" you said before he had a chance to reply, turning your head away as you tried to fight back the tears now welling in your eyes, knowing full well how pathetic you had become in your desperate attempts to please his brother.

" Come on love" Arthur said as he placed his hand firmly on your shoulder trying to comfort you in his own way. "Where's that girl I used to know ay? She would've kicked him in the balls already, or at least told him to fuck off if he asked her to stay an extra five minutes let alone a whole night" he chuckled trying to make you laugh as a small smile broke free from your lips.

" There you go" he said giving your shoulder a small squeeze as Tommy walked in, quickly turning the mood sour again. Bringing your head down in embarrassment at your show of emotions you frantically brushed away your tears, hiding yourself from his piercing glare.

" Those papers done?" Tommy said walking through the betting shop as Polly followed behind. No greeting, no smile, cold as ever. This was the Tommy you had now become accustomed to since his return from France, since your break up.

" Hello would be nice " Arthur replied for you. " You know, good morning, how are you? Oh I'm fine Tommy, bloody fantastic!" Arthur said as he stood up gesturing with his hands whilst his brother ignored his theatrics.

" Have them on my desk in ten minutes" Tommy replied slamming his office door, pulling the blind down.

" Birthday boys in a mood" Arthur said turning back to you as you sent him a small nod, the smile he had managed to coax from you having left the moment Tommy walked through the door. " Coming for a drink tonight?" Arthur asked as he walked back in front of your desk, forgetting or purposely leaving out the fact those drinks would be for Tommy's birthday. " Me and you Y/N we'll have a little dance, that'll cheer you up" he said mimicking a waltz all by himself as Polly turned around from the pot of boiling water she was pouring, her eyes widening in horror at Arthur's dangerously swaying hips.

" Jesus Christ, you're putting me of my tea" she chuckled as she walked over with a cup for you. "You'll end up in hospital dancing with him, he's all legs and arms " Polly said as Arthur stopped to look at the blank expression on your face, unresponsive to any attempts he desperately made to get you to laugh.

" Would you lot stop fucking around and get to work!" Tommy yelled from his office as he slammed his newspaper on the desk in front of him.

" Bloody party pooper, ay Y/N? " Arthur laughed trying to cheer you up once more as a smile finally reappeared on your lips lighting his eyes up in accomplishment. You could always count on Arthur to try and cheer you up. You and everyone else in the betting office were convinced he had made it his life mission to get at least one smile or laugh from you a day, even if it meant ridiculing himself at your expense. " Yes Sergeant Major" Arthur saluted as he opened Tommy's office door, the huff of a response from his brother loud enough to remind everyone just how much of a mood he was in or more specifically, the year long mood he had been in with you.

Sitting in front of your desk you collected all the papers in your hand placing them neatly together in a file, nervously biting your bottom lip as you glanced up to Tommy's door. Quickly looking around the room you turned away from everyone as you pulled out a small mirror and lipstick from within your handbag. Dabbing a small amount onto your fingers you brushed the cherry red gloss onto your lips, rubbing the rest into your cheeks to give your self a rosy glow. God you was pathetic you thought to yourself as you closed your compact mirror, the loud snap of it shutting inadvertently snapping you out of your pitiful attempts to look nice for him. But yet you continued in your endeavour to make yourself look more presentable as you pushed your fingers through your hair, taming your rebellious locks into something more orderly than the birds nest currently framing your face. Placing the folder under you arm you stood up heading for his office, head held high, summoning as much confidence as you could.

" I know you're up to something Thomas. Billy Kimber..." Polly was saying when you opened the door and she and Tommy turned to look at you.

" Sorry, I know you wanted these since the deadlines today" you said as you looked down at the documents in your hand stood between the door frame.

" Twenty minutes " Tommy replied taking out his watch as your shoulders dropped, his cold manner never ceasing to crush the small amounts of courage you could muster up nowadays. Rolling her eyes Polly walked over to you, pulling you in as she shut the door.

" Come on love, come in" she said with a smile as she took the file from you looking through it briefly when her eyes snapped up to Tommy. Clearing his throat Tommy fidgeted in his chair his eyes darting to his Aunt then back to the cigarette between his fingers.

" Pass me the diary Y/N" Tommy said shifting away from the formidable stare his Aunt was sending him. Was he seconds away from feeling the back of her hand like he did on a daily occurrence when he was a child? He thought to himself as her eyes pierced into him. Nodding you walked over to the shelves behind him as the fabric of your dress brushed against his leg, your perfume filled with notes of vanilla and jasmine quickly engulfing his senses, transporting him back to happier times. Leaning over you placed the large book in front of him as your hair slowly cascaded down to his face, swaying gently across his cheek, sending a shiver of goosebumps throughout his body. A sudden surge of emotions rushed towards him, catching him off guard as he briefly lost himself in the memories your presence conjured up.

" You can go" he said coldly, recomposing himself as he stubbed his cigarette out into the ash tray on his desk, his whole body stiffening at the intrusion of misplaced hurt now quickly filling his chest.

Turning around you walked to the door stopping momentarily as Polly curiously raised her brow, watching you as if she was anticipating a response. But no response came. Arthur was right, where was the girl you once was? That girl would have launched something at him, that or given him a kick in the balls. Instead you quietly closed the door behind you as you walked to your desk, deflated by his constant hostility towards you.

" You little shit!" Polly said throwing the documents she had been clutching tightly in her hand at Tommy the moment you shut the door. " These don't need filling out for another week. You had her stay all night!" she said placing both her hands on the table looming over her nephew" You can add scorned to your new founded personality Tommy" she hissed as she shook her head at him. "Not only do you remind her everyday of how wronged you feel, you won't let her move on. Keeping her here all hours, making her come in on the weekends, stopping all attempts of her ever being able to move on. You were so young, all you had to do was wait. But no, your stubbornness prevented that. And she waited for you Tommy oh did she wait, feeling guilty everyday for being mature on the matter, guilt forced upon her by you" she finished catching her breath, fed up with the way he had been acting. Standing up Tommy walked over to the window lighting a cigarette as he cleared his throat, the scolding he had just got from his Aunt unexpectedly unnerving him.

" You can go too" Tommy said dismissively as he looked out the window watching the busy streets below him while rubbing his brow with his thumb, feeling just as deflated as you.

" You're your own worse enemy" she said as she turned to face the door. "Oh and Tommy" she added as she looked over her shoulder at him. "That new barmaid you're seeing, I wouldn't count on her to piss on me if I was on fire" she said folding her arms as she left the office, leaving Tommy to wallow in his own self-pity.

Kicking the chair In front of him Tommy leaned back against the wall turning his head to look at you sitting at the desk just outside his office. Ten years ago today, did you think he'd forget. The promises he made the hopes and dreams you shared for the future. Polly's words had unsettled him, not because she was forcing him to remember but because it made him face the uncomfortable truth of how unfair he had been with you. You were too young, it was bad timing. That's what everyone said when Tommy asked you to marry him five days before leaving for France, a proposal you was sure he made on a complete whim. He had brought the ring, asked the priest, fuck he had even managed to scramble enough money together for a new suit. But you said no. Not because you didn't want to or because you didn't love him, but because his timing was bloody awful. He was days away from leaving to fight in a war that was claiming young men's lives every minute of every hour. Sure it was romantic, young couples were doing the very same thing up and down the country. But you wanted to wait, wanted to celebrate his return with something everyone could look forward to, something to hold onto as the lonely nights without him passed by. The last thing you wanted was to be left a newlywed and a widow, your nuptials stained by the possible outcome of him never returning. But Tommy being the stubborn man he was wouldn't accept your reasoning. He had quickly convinced himself you had been influenced by your family, by your friends, heck the whole of Small Heath for all he knew when you made him wait for your answer until the next day, popping the happy bubble you had both been living in for the past five years. Darting his eyes away from you Tommy clenched his jaw, leaning forward to grab his coat and diary on his desk as he stormed out his office. His bitterness was justified, you didn't love him the way he loved you, he was sure of it.

Five minutes until the end of the day and all you wanted to do was go home and sleep but being the good ol' sport you was you had agreed to go for drinks to celebrate Tommy's birthday.

As you all made your way to the door, Polly stood beside you casually speaking about her plans for the weekend you turned your head to the side to see Tommy stood right behind you, so close you could feel the heat of his breath on the back of your neck. Was this a new way he had chosen to make you feel uncomfortable? If it was it was certainly working you thought as you impatiently waited to leave. God what was taking John so long to open the door?

"It's bloody stuck again. It's this fucking weather it's freezing up the handle" John said as he rattled the doorknob trying to loosen it.

" Come on John give it a good push or are your hands too dainty?" Arthur shouted stood right behind Polly as she grimaced at his bellowing voice. A small traffic jam of people started to accumulate as everyone waited for John to get the door open, your bodies getting pushed closer together. With Tommy's firm statue now firmly pushed up against your back his eyes wandered down to your reddened cheeks, flushed from the contact of feeling him so close to you again. For just as much as your heart was rapidly beating so was Tommy's, the warmth of your body comforting in the only way that could.

" Bloody hell Curly" Uncle Charlie shouted as he stumbled into everyone pushing you all forward once more. Falling into you, Tommy quickly grabbed hold of your waist stopping you from stumbling over. His touch now so unfamiliar, your eyes darted down to his hand still resting on your hip as you watched his thumb instinctively brush over the curve of your body like he had done hundreds of times before. Suddenly realising, Tommy quickly moved his hand away as he cleared his throat.

" You was gonna fall" he said as you turned your head to the side in response to his sharp movements.

" Don't worry Tommy I wouldn't dare to think otherwise. We're done" you said surprised at how confidently the words had left your lips. Although not being completely honest with yourself, you had begun to realise you needed to stop, stop your constant lamenting over the past, stop your persistence in holding onto the faintest of hopes. Looking straight ahead you pushed your shoulder back, in turn pushing his body away from yours as you crossed your arms. You was getting tired of his shit. The remarks, the looks, his constant mood swings, enough was enough. Scoffing Tommy stepped back, giving you the space you clearly wanted as a small wave of self-doubt crept up on him in response. Had you moved on, met someone knew? Or had he taken things too far thinking you'd always be there waiting for him? The thought of either being true made him feel uncomfortably sick.

Now sat in the Garrison snug surrounded by Tommy's family and friends you looked up to see him sat directly in front of you, his arm draped over the back of the chair next to him, a scowl spread across his face. Trying to focus your attention elsewhere you ignored the constant glares he was sending your way, the words you had left him with clearly bothering his thoughts. He was getting impatient he wanted you to give him attention, wanted you to look his way. But every remark he made you would dismiss, unapologetically enjoying the growing confidence in you as you started playing the push and pull he had playing with you for the past year. That was until Grace walked in and sat next to him, snuggling into his side as Tommy fidgeted in his seat removing his arm from behind the chair as his whole body stiffened and he sat up straight. Feeling a sudden wave of nerves wash over you at the sight of them together your eyes quickly darted around the room when Arthur caught your line of sight sending you a wink and a smile, the self-doubt that was bubbling in your stomach quickly simmering down at the sight of his reassurance.

" Right a toast!" John said standing up as Arthur jumped up pushing him down by the shoulder.

" I'm the oldest, I do the toasting" he said lifting his glass as a sense of superiority rose within him. He may not be the boss but he was still the big brother and there were some things only big brothers did.

" Yeh whatever, just don't ramble on" John said as he rolled his eyes taking a sip of whisky.

" This time ten years ago on the eve of Tom's birthday..."

" Jesus Christ..." Polly mumbled under her breath as Arthur started his speech.

" I had just scored the biggest loot of of my life and Tommy the biggest win of his. A night never to be forgotten. To whisky, sprouts and cramped storage rooms. Happy Birthday baby brother!" Arthur finished, downing his drink then slamming it on the table as everyone looked at eachother mumbling happy birthdays whilst they raised their glasses in complete confusion at the meaning behind Arthur's toast. Looking up through hooded eyes Tommy caught your eye as you both sent eachother smile, the memories of that night flooding back to you both. Watching the moment between you Grace gripped harder onto Tommy's arm, uncomfortable with the way he was looking at you, the way she often caught him looking at you.

" What in the bloody hell was that toast?" John said as he looked up to Arthur, his whole face scrunched up, completely bewildered by his older brothers speech.

"Those that needed to hear it, heard it" Arthur said trying to sound poetic.

" Sit down Arthur" Polly said shaking her head as she poured herself a third glass of whisky.

" Anyway..." Grace said raising her brow turning to Tommy as she pulled out a small box from her bag. " Happy Birthday" she said kissing his cheek as she handed the gift to him. Putting his drink down Tommy cleared his throat as he sent her a faint smile, opening the present she had offered him. Looking down into the box Tommy's eyes quickly darted up to your face as he pinched his bottom lip. Furrowing your brow at his sudden change in expression, you quickly understood as to why he reacted the way he did when he pulled out a brand-new gold pocket watch from within the small box.

" Tom's already got a pocket watch, he's had it for ten years" Uncle Charlie was the first to say as he leant against the wall whilst the rest of the room suddenly went quiet.

" Exactly, ten years. I got him a new one, a nicer one" Grace said as you felt your heart suddenly drop into your stomach. " You not going to put it on?" She asked turning to Tommy as he nodded reaching into his waistcoat unclasping the watch you had scrimped and saved for a decade ago. Brushing his thumb over the front of it, you and everyone else watched as Tommy placed it on the table, glancing up to you and the tears now welling in your eyes.

" Thanks love" Tommy said attaching his new watch to the chain on his waistcoat, giving her a small peck to the lips as she smiled into the kiss.

" What are you doing?" She said as she watched Tommy turn the dials on his new watch back an extra five minutes, a habit ten years in the making first started by you. " It's five minutes too late" she laughed as she took it from him turning it to the correct time as Polly rested her hand on your thigh, giving it a gentle squeeze in reassurance as everyone else's eyes looked back at you knowingly. Picking up his old pocket watch Tommy was about to put it in his suit pocket when Grace quickly took it from him.

" I'll get rid of it, it's not like it's worth anything" she said whilst Tommy brushed his hand down his mouth as a heavy expression washed over his face. For ten years he had carried that watch against his body, ten years he had carried what felt like a piece of you with him. Its sentimental value was unmatched and Tommy did not want to be parted from it.

" I'll melt it down get some money from it" Arthur said reaching over the table grabbing it from her.

" You won't get much" she laughed as she looked around the room at everyone and the unamused expressions on their face, making it clear they did not share the same opinion. " It's scrap metal" she said as she shrugged her shoulders sipping on her whisky. Turning to Polly a tear fell down your cheek as you quickly collected you coat and bag into your lap.

" I need to leave" you said quietly as she nodded her head sympathetically, pressing a kiss to your cheek. Standing up you pulled your chair back when Tommy abruptly stood up at the same time taking everyone by surprise. Your eyes now locked onto eachother you momentarily stared at one another whilst he watched the cascade of tears fall down your cheeks.

" You bastard" you mouthed as Tommy swallowed harshly watching you storm out the room.

" Y/N wait up love, I'll walk you home" Arthur said climbing over the table not bothering to walk past everyone as glasses and bottles scattered all over the room. " Oops, sorry Grace" Arthur sniggered, clumsily treading on the end of her shoe as she yelped in pain.

" Arthur..." Tommy said as he watched his brother walk out the snug putting his old pocket watch in his coat, feeling like a part of his already broken heart had left.

" Y/N!" Arthur said running up to you. " Bloody hell when did you get so fast?" he joked as he spun you around.

" I can't... I can't do this any more" you said sobbing as you fell into his chest holding on tightly to the front of his coat as he wrapped his arms around you.

" Go on love let it out, have a good cry" he said sighing as he looked back to the Garrison. "You know it's my brotherly duty to give him a good punch in the balls now and then, he's long due one" he informed you as a small laugh escaped your sobbing cries.

" When you do, make sure you don't hold back" you said pulling away as he held onto your shoulders.

" You look like a snotty kid again" be said handing you a rag from his pocket which you furrowed your brow at.

" God knows where that's been" you sniffed throwing it on the ground beside you.

" Charming " he laughed as he pulled out Tommy's pocket watch. "Ere, this belongs to you" he said as he placed it in your hand.

" Melt it down Arthur, he doesn't want it. He has something new and shiny" you said bitterly, no longer reffering to watch but rather the barmaid constantly clinging onto him.

" Nah, don't believe it. He'll want it back, all of it." he said closing your fingers around it as you looked over his shoulder to see Tommy standing outside the Garrison watching you.

" Bye Arthur" you said as he turned to see his brother looking at you both, exhaling a cloud of smoke out into the bitter January air " Go, he's your brother, it's his birthday go celebrate with him" you said as you gave him a hug before you turned and headed for home.

"My watch?" Tommy asked as Arthur approached him, stopping to face his younger brother in the door way.

" You're breaking her heart you stubborn prick" Arthur said as he pushed past him ignoring his question as Tommy squinted into the distance, a frustrated sigh leaving his lips as he watched you turn the corner.

" She broke my heart first" Tommy muttered quietly under his breath as he threw his cigarette into the dirt heading back into the warmth of the Garrison.

Turning the corner onto the back alley of your bedsit you headed for home wiping your tears with the sleeve of your coat when you looked up to see two men blocking your way.

" Alright sweetheart?" One of them said as he turned to face you opening his coat to show you the gun he had sitting in his holster.

" I don't want any trouble let me pass" you said trying to move around him when he grabbed you, slamming you up against the brick wall.

" Tommy's girl right? He said, now holding tightly onto your arm as he looked to his friend for confirmation.

" No you've got the wrong girl" you said looking between them, shuffling in place as you tried to loosen yourself out of his grip.

" No, it's you alright. Said he had a girl waiting for him back in this shit hole of a town and that the barmaids Kimber's for the taking when he asked if he could dance with her at the races. Good thing he didn't bring you, 'cause I reckon Kimber would have rather had a dance with you instead" he said as he glared down at your body, brushing his tongue across his bottom lip. " Y/N right? Tommy's childhood sweetheart. No point in denying it love, everyone as far Kings Norton to Old Oscott have told us so" he said as you furrowed your brow in confusion. You hadn't been Tommy's girl since the war.

" I'm not his girl" you said stomping on his foot as you pushed past him.

" Jesus fucking christ! She's broken my toe, she bloody broke my toe! " he said as stumbled back onto the ground.

" It's definitely you, feisty little thing aren't you?" the other man said as he approached you leaving his friend to attend to himself. " We've heard whispers your boyfriend might be up to something. Tell him we're keeping our eye on him and if he doesn't play by the rules the boss will put a bullet through his head, but not before your gypsy lover watches you do the rounds with every single one of Kimber's men" he said as he opened his pocket knife in one swift movement, pointing it inches away from your throat. "Understood?" he said as you slowly nodded your head your eyes focused down at the blade now pressing against your skin and the burn of it slowly cutting into your flesh.

"Good" he said putting his knife back into his pocket as he turned to his friend leaning against the wall opposite you.

"She broke my fucking toe I'm sure of it"

" Would you quit your whining" his friend answered as he put his arm around his shoulder and they both turned the corner back onto the main street.

Leaning up against the cold brick wall you opened your coat as your chest heaved up and down your whole body trembling in fear. Turning your head you saw Isaiah one of Tommy's men at the end of the alley way watching you, his brow scrunched up in confusion at seeing Kimber's men leaving the same area where you was currently standing. Tipping the end of his cap to you, he glanced back at you a second time as he scratched the back of his head quickly walking off in the direction of the Garrison. Pulling your coat back around your body you stumbled along the cobbled path, your hand out against the brick wall beside you, keeping you up from your legs buckling beneath you as fear and adrenaline continued to course through your body. Fumbling in your bag you pulled out your keys as you watched your desperate attempts to open your front door, your shaking hands preventing you from even holding the key straight. Giving up you slid down the door collapsing onto the floor as a stream of tears fell down your cheeks, your mind replaying what had just happened. You knew of Tommy's dealing with Kimber, dealings you oversaw when Tommy got his own betting licence. That was supposed to be the end of it, but after what just happened you quickly realised Tommy had another plan, one that was not only putting his own life in danger again but yours too. Is that why he mentioned you to Kimber's men, not wanting to get his new fling in harm's way, his bitterness and hate towards you so strong he diverted their attention to you, diverted everyone's attention to you? Y/N Y/L/N Tommy Shelby's childhood sweetheart. Apparently he had the whole of Birmingham still thinking it, now a pawn in his never ending game for more power, more success. As you battled with all the questions running through your head you ended up at the same conclusion that not only did Tommy hate you he had let harm to come to you by putting you in the firing lane. Or had he? It had been a year since the command went out on the streets of Birmingham an order intended for your own protection decided long before any dealings with Kimber, a command that clearly hadn't gone unforgotten. You was not to be bothered not to be approached. No one was to lay a hand on you by order of the Peaky Blinders by order of Thomas Shelby, because you was still his girl, always.

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