#bungo stray dogs thoughts

[i-eat-mold]

i just drank half a bottle of wine and i can’t stop thinking about how chuuya would’ve felt about dazai, seeing him after 4 years. like yeah this bastard betrayed you and your relationship of several years and also your whole organization with no word and no goodbye. yeah that must’ve sucked. you must hate the guy. you must be feeling angry and hurt and full of grief. but also, you’ve seen him again after four years and there is light in his eyes. last time you saw him his eyes were completely empty and he wouldn’t stop trying to kill himself. he was so obviously miserable and stuck in a cicle of constant abuse. and you’re angry at him for leaving you behind, but you’ve just seen him and you can see both his eyes, there’s a glow in them, hes gained some color in both his skin and his clothes. he has found a family that isn’t based on abuse or fear. yeah, you’re angry, you feel left, you feel hurt, but you also know that this is the best thing that could’ve happened to him, so can you blame him? it must feel strange to have such a conflict within yourself, between hating him and feeling betrayed by him but also being understanding and happy for him

[dazai-on-my-mind]

Shaking the bars of my enclosure every time I think about how Asagiri purposely wrote all the relationships in BSD to be so impactful and complex that not only adds to the characters individual arcs but also has a major impact on the story.

Like how did you write something so unapologetically queer, state that yes the bonds each character has go beyond simple titles and then have it all actually matter to the plot????

YOU WANT ME TO NORMAL AFTER THIS ASAGIRI

[daffodilsinspring]

BSD SPOILERS!!!!

OMG!!!!!

WTF is happening??? Pulling a Black Clover with all these divine beings showing up😭😭

Kunikida!!!! :(((((((((

Theory Time!!!

I wonder if there'll be a time reset and things will revert to an hour or day before and atsushi will have to have make sure what's happening doesn't happen

[crowatyourwindow]

Do you think it would have been cool if Atsushi's white tiger aged with him as he grew up

[originalartblog]

Have you ever seen Scott Sterling Best Volleyball Blocks Ever? I think the ADA should make use of Dazai even when he's incapacitated.

[minimafioso]

Dazai stealing ability Auras...

[lotus-pear]

mourning black and the death of ideals

[anticidic]

Thinking about the seemingly inconsequential parallels between Dazai and Chuuya from when they were younger to now. Chuuya always used to fight with his hands in his pockets while Dazai had a coat over his shoulders. And now Dazai fights with his hands in his pockets while Chuuya has a coat over his shoulders.

Chuuya fought with his hands in his pockets so he wouldn't lose control of his ability and humanity by proxy, and I wonder if Dazai does the same now as a symbol because he doesn't want to lose control of what he's worked toward. How Chuuya used to revile his hands, now Dazai reviles his own because of the reminder of blood spilled and people killed and to not take two steps back to that dark place.

But it could also be something simpler—their habits just rubbed off on each other that much. And the fact that they copy each other and either don't realize they're subconsciously doing it or maybe they have brought it up, makes me feral.

[pleucas]

colored some band skks from the gram 👍👍👍

[kiksniko]

longing

[i-eat-mold]

This is getting a lot more attention than I expected so I have two things to say:

1-currently workinv on a comic about this!! Can’t promise much but let’s see how it goes lmao

2- i can go on abour this and I will (also there’s a post prior to this og one that dives deeper into some of the aspects this discusses)

But let me talk to you about the episodes. To begin with, they don’t really ever specify what is wrong with dazai, though they both have an understanding of what’s going on. They won’t say dazai “is depressed” straight up, more like he’s having Those Days. One of the reasons they call it the Days is because dazai doesn’t like being treated like a stupid child, which is what he feels happens whenever someone tries to take some care of him- like a nurse would. “I’m not a child (he is a child, god he’s just a child) I don’t need your fucking pity. Get out. I bite.” Kind of mindset. Chuuya understands this and as much as he’s annoyed by how stupid dazai is he avoids doing anything that would make him have that reaction. It’s tough because chuuya has to walk on that thin line between making sure he won’t kill himself, not acting like he cares too much, and also not making dazai shut him off. On top of that, chuuya has a lot of shit to deal with himself. I mean the poor guy is living tragedy after tragedy. I’m more than sure these things have deeply affected this, but I believe they have done so in a different matter than dazai. I’m not saying chuuya wouldn’t have periods of feeling down, I simply believe he would deal with the hurt and trauma in a different way (which is also a whole other topic open to explore!!!). Adjacent to that line there are dazais thoughts about all of this. He doesn’t want people to pity him, much less Chuuya of all people. “This dude got backstabbed by his childhood gang, lived in the streets after blowing up the expedient he was part of, his supposed brother killed his friends in the mafia and almost leveled the entire city, and he just found out he might not be human at all. Not to mention the fact that there is a literal singularity god inside the kid. You’re telling me Chuuya, the worst shithead I know, can deal with all of that by himself, and on top of it act like I’m a hurt puppy? What the fuck? Hell no. I’m not letting THIS GUY out of anyone else pity me” (dazai was, in fact, desperately trying to push chuuya away from him so his “misery” wouldn’t spread to him- he would not stand to see chuuya swallowed by the same void he was in. But he could also never admit that outloud).

On the other hand, these two have a pretty good understanding of each others thoughts without speaking a single word. So none of them would mention it outloud, but chuuya could tell when dazai was getting worse, and dazai knew that. They didn’t say a word, but those days chuuya drily told him to hop behind him on the bike and dazai would sleep at chuuyas. Chuuya would call mori in the morning, saying dazais stupid ass got in some trouble and they’d have to take care of it, so they wouldn’t be in hqs that day. Or for the next few days. Mori knows it’s all a bunch of bullshit, and chuuya is aware of that, but he lets it slide because he also has noticed the two boys growing less and less loud and lively for the past few days. They’re just kids, they need a break. So he covers for them every once in a while. Only a diamond can polish another diamond in the end, and only a diamond can save another diamond.

Teen skk this teen skk that. How about dazais deep depressive episodes where he didn’t brush his teeth or his hair or shower and after a few days of not seeing him around work chuuya would go to his container, grab him and wash him like a dog. Wet black cat. Dazai is just annoyed. Chuuya lets him sleep at his place during the bad parts of the episode ���so he doesn’t skip work leaving all the paperwork for him” but really it’s because he doesn’t like thinking about dazai alone in that cold container. Even the most annoying person on earth should have more than a mattress and four metal walls, I guess. So chuuya has him stay over during those days. Is it such a hassle really to make a little more food when cooking dinner? Both of them have always had trouble sleeping so might as well spend the night together watching shitty sitcoms or talking shit about coworkers or setting up pranks for mori instead of looking at the ceiling all night. In this essay I will.

[my-hyperfixations]

My brain every five seconds since I read 114

[j11nko]

the silliest

[esmiara]

Oh Dazai, how can you be so criminally pretty when all you've done is tuck a strand of hair behind your ear.

[originalartblog]

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did you hear about my amazing propaganda yet

[tamanegi-san]

Read the panels right to left from here because yes

I saw the recent omake and remembered this saying where vampires couldn't see themselves in mirrors, so I applied that to these two cuz why not 😎✨