#bucktommy fandom events

[bucktommypositivityweek]

welcome to bucktommy positivity bingo! it's time to pick your bingo card!

below the cut are a variety of bingo cards - some sfw, some nsfw, some a mix! read the cards and pick which one you want to do (you could even pick multiple if you're ambitious!). save the card you want to do, and either repost it on your blog or save it somewhere to keep track of however you like! over the next few days, cross off every trope you manage to review/comment on a fanwork for, or create a new fanwork for, and try and get bingo! as a reminder, the sfw/nsfw/mixed categories only refer to the prompts given - it's fine to use explicit fanworks for the sfw card, or vice versa!

you are welcome to pick a card up at any time - the event will run for monday-thursday but there is no limit on when you can start, finish, or what you need to do each day!

the full event info can be found on our post here.

just let us know if you have any questions! otherwise, we'll see you tomorrow (monday 14th) for the first day of the event!!

sfw cards

mixed cards

nsfw cards

[thestrangestthlng]

🎖️Great Loves🎖️

Maddie's monologue from Buck, Actually | 9-1-1 | S2 E8

[buckevantommy]

Welcome to Tevantober! A promptober event to inspire you to create for our beloved Bucktommy during this month of October! 

Participation is simple: create something featuring Buck/Tommy and tag your fanworks with #tevantober2024 and the prompt(s) here on tumblr or add to the collection on ao3. There are 3 prompts for each week (trope, seasonal, kinky) which are up to your own interpretation, and you can do as few or as many as you like. 

Please note: this event is officially running only on tumblr and ao3, but you can share the list and graphic on other platforms (please credit @buckevantommy if you do). 

October 1st - 6th  →  First Time  |  Cozy  |  Body Worship 

October 7th - 13th  →  Clothes Sharing  |  Weather  |  Dom/Sub 

October 14th - 20th  →  Hurt/Comfort  |  Change  |  Praise Kink  

October 21st - 27th  →  Family Dynamic  |  Harvest  |  Daddy Kink 

October 28th - 31st  →  PDA  |  Halloween  |  Sex Toys 

A shareable graphic of the prompts list can also be found here.

[fivealarmfest]

🔥 WELCOME TO THE FIVE ALARM FEST! 🔥 Is it getting hot in here, or is it just us? Five Alarm Fest is a 9-1-1 and 9-1-1: Lone Star NSFW Fic & Art Week open to all 18+ participants. We'll be burning it down from July 15th to July 21st with a different prompt for each day. Please check out the RULES before participating. Prompts for the week are as follows:

DAY ONE: Coda or Missing Scene DAY TWO: After a Dry Spell DAY THREE: Intercrural (No Penetration) DAY FOUR: New Experiences/New Kinks DAY FIVE: At the Firehouse DAY SIX: Rare Pair or Solo Play DAY SEVEN: Creator’s Choice

Please tag all posts with #fivealarmfest2024 and post each piece to the AO3 Collection. Any questions? Feel free to send us an ask. Please reblog to signal boost and we'll see you in July!

[bucktommyweek]

Getting to Know You: A BuckTommyWeek Event

Hey everyone! We're back with another event (and a new lewk), but it's a little bit different this time.

3 days, 1 week apart, 1 prompt per week, all about Buck and Tommy getting to know each other.

Here are your prompts for #btgtky

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Wednesday, September 25, 2024 - Favourite things. We know Tommy loves monster trucks, flying, Love Actually and craft brews. We know Buck loves research, his friends and family, not basketball and adventure. But how do they share these things with each other?

Wednesday, October 2, 2024 - A good morning. What does a good morning look like for Buck and Tommy as they learn about themselves as a couple and each other as individuals?

Wednesday, October 9, 2024 - A bad night. It's time to bring the angst, folx. What makes a night bad? What makes a bad night better? How do these two comfort each other, or don't they?

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Accepted Submissions: Anything as long as it follows the rules. We're talking headcanons, fics, essays, graphics, edits, whatever you want. Just tag @bucktommyweek to be reblogged and use #btgtky

Important Information Before Participating

Rules

Rating System

FAQ

Racism and Prejudice

Ao3 Collection

Optional Post Format

Resources for Writing

If you have any questions either hit up our askbox or my own personal askbox or message @alilypea

Haters need not engage.

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Thank you for @brasscacti for the favourite things inspo! 💛

[sugarpenchant]

The Suffering of Evan Buckley('s sex drive)

for day 2 of @fivealarmfest prompt 'after a dry spell'

rated E, 10,513 words

Tommy has been gone fighting fires for a month as vital air support, which would be fine—except for the fact that Buck has finally gotten a taste of sex with Tommy only for it to be cruelly whisked away. Buck finally gets his chance to join the firefighting efforts on the front lines and hopefully, someday before the world ends, ideally, he’ll get to see Tommy again.

There is a chance that Buck is being a little overdramatic about the whole thing, but a month is a really long time to go without the wonder of your brand new boyfriend.

A month. A month. The absolute fucking folly of youth that made Buck think he’d be fine without his boyfriend for a week had well and truly come back to kick him right in the ass. His lonely ass that had seen his unsatisfying fingers and a toy for a month because Californian wildfires were unpredictable and awful and stole people’s boyfriends for three weeks longer than they were supposed to be gone. The most unfair part of it all was the fact that prior to Tommy getting called up, Buck could count the number of times they’d had sex on one hand. Days kept passing by—crawling by, for the most part—and Buck was doing his goddamn best to remind himself that Tommy was coming back, this wasn’t Abby Number Two, he wasn’t being abandoned… Buck treasured every text that came through and tried not to overwhelm Tommy with too many of his own. He couldn’t be too much while Tommy was busy, working, probably exhausted beyond belief out in the hills that just didn’t stop burning. It was infinitely easier to be bitchy about the lack of sex rather than acknowledge the ever-present fear that he was being left behind.

keep reading on ao3

[spicycinnabun]

your little rebel 1/2

@tommykinardweek for brat/brat tamer ♡ rated e ♡ read on ao3 ♡ tags: sex toys, sexting at work, d/s, daddy kink, brat!buck, sugaring (more tags tba for pt. 2)

Tommy had finished performing routine maintenance on his bird and was sitting down for a quick lunch break in the hangar. He was just about to bite into his sandwich—pastrami on rye, nothing fancy—when his phone chimed. He dug it out of the pocket of his jumpsuit.

Tommy’s lips quirked when he saw the notification was from Evan. He had the day off. He’d said he was going to go grocery shopping, hit the gym, and then run a few errands. They were planning on seeing each other that night. 

Evan had a key to Tommy’s place. Though they hadn’t moved in together and still spent time at Evan’s loft, Evan seemed to prefer it at Tommy’s. 

Tommy didn’t mind. More than not minded, actually. It made his chest ache to come home to the lights on, warm homey smells, lively chitter-chatter, and someone who’d missed him and was happy to see him. He was trying not to get too used to it.  

Evan was going to cook dinner: chicken parmesan, a recipe of Bobby’s he’d made his own creative tweaks to. 

“I’m calling it chicken plantmesan. You’ll be amazed at how good it tastes,” he’d told Tommy. “You won’t even be able to tell the difference.”

Tommy had mentioned wanting to cut dairy from his diet for a while to see if it’d help with some bloating, and Evan had said he would do it with him. It was sweet, especially since Tommy knew Evan liked dairy products even more than he did. Evan was the guy who told the waiter to keep going when he came by the table with the cheese grater. 

“Bet it won’t taste as good as you,” Tommy had flirted, pitching his voice low on purpose just to see the blush light up Evan’s cheeks. 

Smiling a bit wider at the memory, Tommy put his sandwich down and opened the text. 

Finished my errands early.

Beneath that was an image. Usually, Evan sent him random pictures. Stupid memes, a photo of a stray cat he’d seen during his jog, his breakfast smoothie, Eddie, the rest of the 118 and their daily hijinks. This wasn’t any of those things. 

Tommy stared, a little dizzy, as all the blood in his upper body immediately rushed south. 

It was his bedroom. The shot was taken from a distance, probably from his dresser. Evan was naked on the bed on all fours, long legs spread wide on the mattress. He was down on his elbows, ass up on full display. He was glancing over his shoulder at the camera, heavy-lidded eyes drowsy with pleasure, lips red like he’d been biting them and parted like he was panting. Evidence of how turned on he was hung heavy and visible between his thighs.

But what really caught Tommy’s gaze was what was sitting snugly inside Evan. The flared base of a toy. It was red. The shape of a heart.

Tommy quickly zoomed out (when had he zoomed in?), saved the image to his photos and then deleted it from their conversation, just in case some busybody snuck up behind him without warning. He'd almost forgotten where he was.

He typed out a message with fingers that shook only slightly, heart pounding, mouth dry.

Evan. You know I’m at work.

Evan had never been so bold as to send him something like that while he was on shift. They’d sent dirty texts before; that was nothing new, but this was. 

Couldn’t wait to show you what I bought. 

Sorry, Daddy ❤️

Tommy’s arm slipped, and like an idiot, he knocked over his steaming hot coffee. “Shit!” 

He grabbed the napkins from his lunch pail and quickly mopped up the mess before it reached his keyboard or monitor. He recovered swiftly when one of the other pilots walking by gave him the stink eye.

“You okay, Kinard?”

Tommy nodded, stone-faced. “Fantastic.”

He squeezed the damp napkins in his fist and took a bite of his sandwich to occupy his mouth and seem normal. He obviously wasn’t thinking about the food anymore.

The pilot shrugged, accepting it.

Tommy’s phone buzzed again. He waited until the pilot was gone before picking it back up. “Christ, he’s going to be the death of me,” he muttered. 

You like it though? It has a remote. Thought you might enjoy controlling it.

And now it was time to get out of plain sight before he completely embarrassed himself. Tommy dropped his garbage in the trashcan and walked briskly to the washroom, locking the door behind himself. He leaned against it and tried to maintain his cool before he replied. But he was starting to sweat.

I was wondering what that charge on my card was, he answered.

He was lying. He hadn’t actually checked his statement, but upon looking now, there was one purchase of $59.74 from Cupid’s Closet. 

It had taken some cajoling for Evan to let Tommy buy things for him—little treats, clothes he wanted, toys—especially since he’d been a bit pushy about Evan paying for things at the start of their relationship—but eventually, Evan had given in. He’d even started buying for himself without needing to ask. Evan acted like he didn't deserve any of it, of course, that he didn't need any of it, but Tommy could tell the attention was doing it for him.

Tommy never thought it’d be his thing, but he loved sugaring Evan. It felt nice. Cliché, sure—the whole ‘go ahead, baby, go wild with Daddy’s credit card’ thing—but who cared? Turned out it gave them both joy. Tommy liked spoiling him. Marie Kondo would be proud of Tommy for not throwing that shit away.

Haha, yeah

Tommy could hear the faltering, uncertain gears turning in Evan’s head, so he quickly sent another message. 

I love it. Pretty. Keep it in. But you know the rules, honey. Hands off. Wait for me.

The bubbles started and then stopped. Started and then stopped again. 

I’ll try to…

Evan.

Fine. But you better make it worth my while. 

Tommy smirked. What a brat. 

Keep talking like that, and I’ll leave you all on your lonesome tonight.

This time, Tommy received a selfie of Evan’s exaggerated pout. His cheeks were flushed strawberry pink, his blond curls looking soft and tousled against one of Tommy’s dark green pillows. 

Mean.

Oh, Evan had no idea how mean Tommy was capable of being. 

You have to behave if you want my attention.

Evan’s reply was lightning-fast. Smug.

That’s not how I remember it.

Tommy chuckled as he thought of what had gotten them to this point. Touché.

And I already said I will! Evan continued. …But it feels kind of amazing. 

Tommy sighed, wishing he was home already. 

I bet it does.

♡

A little while later, Tommy received a new text. He made another escape to the washroom with the excuse that he’d drunk too much coffee, feeling like a teenager and not almost forty as he hid from his crew.

This time, it was only a photo of Evan’s naked torso. A close-up of his abs and pecs in all their glory, painted with streaks of translucent white that dripped down muscled valleys. He’d come all over himself. 

All the accompanying text said was Oops.

Tommy exhaled a noisy breath. “Do not get hard at work, jackass.” 

Honestly, he never thought he’d have to scold himself regarding that. 

Tommy put his phone on the edge of the sink, turning on the taps to give his face a quick splash of water. He wiped off with a paper towel, willing his body to cooperate and calm before he texted back.

Guess you don’t need me now, huh, hotshot? I was going to have fun playing with you, but maybe I’ll catch the game on TV instead.

Evan's bubbles started bubbling. They seemed to be moving wilder than usual, somehow. 

It's not like I can’t get it up again. I’m not an old man like someone I know.

Tommy’s brows rose sharply. He almost barked a laugh, but that was just what he needed: people outside thinking he’d lost his fucking marbles. 

There was silence for a few more moments and then a series of dings, each coming quicker than the last. 

Wait

I didn’t really mean it about the old thing

I want to be with you tonight

And your refractory period is remarkable for a man your age!

Tommy snorted. 

Wow, thanks.

I was thinking about you the entire time and how sexy you are and what I want you to do to me when you get here. I just couldn’t control myself.

Next time, I promise I won’t come until you're here and you say so.

Tommy? 

Tommy grinned to himself. He needed to make Evan sweat for a bit. It was all part of the game.

Tommy knew it. He’d played it before with other men, but…

None of them had excited him like this. Not at this level. Not like Evan did. Evan was a little (well, big, muscular, and adorable) firecracker. He was impulsive, curious as hell, and wanted to dive headfirst into all sorts of new situations. He was exploring his kinks and surprising them both with what he was learning he liked. 

Tommy was learning a few things, too. Funny because he thought he’d figured out all there was to know about himself years ago. He guessed even old dogs could learn new tricks.

Evan let Tommy drive and followed every safety precaution—for the most part. Sometimes, he tried to push too hard, too fast. Sometimes, he tried hiding his discomfort to gain Tommy’s approval and wouldn’t yellow or red light. That people pleasing, low self-worth, and fear of rejection clear as day in his every action.

They’d learned that bratting was a tangible way to break out of that mindset, at least a little. Something Evan had never let himself do. Stop trying to be good all the time. A cathartic release to say no, go against the rules, be bad, and take what he wanted. In a healthier way than maiming his best friend, of course.

But Tommy didn’t push too far in his punishments. There was only so much Evan could handle. Tommy was careful with his limits.

And… well, he felt too much goddamn affection for the kid to be as cold as he had been with previous partners. That side of him just wasn’t meant for Evan.

You’re still in trouble. 

Tommy let that sit for a minute before sending a final message.

I’ll be home soon, sweetheart. You can make it up to me.

He chuckled at the litany of heart emojis he received approximately five seconds later. Oh, cute.

[911fandomevents]

Two on-going events celebrating BuckTommy! Check out @bucktommypositivityweek and @bucktommywhumpweek, as both events are currently going on now (you can whump them, and then make it positive!)

Upcoming Fandom Events!

Current 🔔

August 16th - 22nd, 2024

@bucktommypositivityweek: Created to help encourage positivity in the fandom! Check out their prompts, now posted on their blog.

August 19-25th, 2024

@bucktommywhumpweek - A BuckTommy week of whump with the only requirement of loving BuckTommy 💕

On-Going 🚒

@911podficfest: This is an event to celebrate and promote podfics and audio works in both the 9-1-1 and 9-1-1: Lone Star fandoms. Check out their page for more details and schedule details.

Future 🧯🔥

September 16-22, 2024

@eddiediaz-week - A week celebrating all fandom creations for Eddie Diaz! Prompts are posted on their blog.

September 26-29, 2024

@911auweekend - A fun, AU-filled weekend for both 911 and 911 Lone Star! Go check out the fun prompts now posted.

Reminder to please tag the blog if you have any events you'd like advertised here as well!

[bucktommypositivityweek]

☀️ welcome, friends, to a new kind of bucktommy positivity event! before the new episode next week, we'd like to invite everyone in the fandom to participate in positivity bingo! ☀️

WHAT IS IT?

in bucktommy positivity bingo, we are going to be inviting everyone in the fandom to claim a bingo sheet, and check off squares of fanwork tropes by reading & commenting on other people's fics, writing or drawing their own works, making headcanon posts, or more! at the end of the event, a few special graphics will be shared as honorary badges for everyone who's completed either a bingo row, or an entire sheet for the ambitious!

EVENT DATES

bingo cards posted - sunday 13th

event - monday 14th-thursday 17th - the event will begin on monday and officially finish 1 hour before the new episode airs!

WAYS TO CHECK OFF A SQUARE

you have a few different options on activities that count for checking off a square in our bingo!

find a fanwork that features that trope, and leave a detailed reply/tag/comment for the creator about what you like about it! if it's on tumblr, make sure you reblog it!

create a new fanwork for the square! this could be a drabble, fic, meta post/headcanon, doodle; no limits on size, but we don't want anyone to think they need to spend a lot of time creating a fanwork for this unless they want to. it's all for fun!

you don't have to stick to one method when it comes to getting your bingo! you're welcome to review three fics, reblog one art piece with a comment, write one drabble, comment on five gifsets - whatever ratio you'd like to do it in! all you have to do to complete a row is engage with each of the tropes in it in some way, shape or form!

HOW IT WORKS

the number one rule is have fun and make as much positive noise as you can! anything goes in this event as long as it is supporting a positive, good-faith bucktommy work.

there will be three kinds of bingo sheets - SFW, NSFW and Mixed. it is totally fine to use explicit fanworks for the SFW sheet, or vice-versa, but they're just there to give people choices for their preference!

there will be multiple options for the bingo sheets and you can choose which one you want to do, so if there are squares that squick you out, you can avoid them.

as said above, you can engage with the prompts however you want, and it's fine to mix and match what you do (reviewing, writing, headcanon posts, etc)!

each day from monday-thursday, we will share a post that people can reply to, or reblog & tag, to track your bingos. you can also repost your bingo card on your own blog and check them off as you go (remember to tag us!) or however you prefer to track!

if a fanwork or comment you make fits more than one of the prompts on your card, you're welcome to use it to cross off multiple prompts at once! if you'd like an additional challenge you can stick to doing each square individually, but there is no rule against checking off multiple!

at the end of the event, we'll round up the winners, and share some pretty graphics as a reward for all your hard work ☀️

this is a bit of a different idea for a positivity event and we really hope people will enjoy it! it's a great way to participate in an event even if you don't have much time or inclination to create original works - reading, commenting and supporting other people will be a huge focus of this event, and we can't wait to see what everyone chooses to do!

please let us know if you have any questions, reblog this to signal boost, and stay tuned for the bingo cards tomorrow! ☀️

[buckevantommy]

Prompts for #tevantober2024! Check out the full event post here. Feel free to share this graphic on any social media platform. 

[bucktommyweek]

It is 13 days until the first full #BuckTommyWeek!

I hope everyone is getting excited. Prompts and rules are in the pinned post on the blog so find those there.

For the second day the prompt will be: Emergency. See above for inspiration.

💛 your mod, @alilypea

P.S that is Rocker from SWAT and in case you need it, it’s from the last six minutes of the pilot.

[loufuckers]

bucktommy-centric positivity projects master list

With the new season upon us there's new waves of negativity and discourse going around so instead of engaging on those here's a list of ongoing and upcoming bucktommy centric positivity projects:

@kinley-cafe: spread positivity by ordering a drink and sweet treat for yourself or a friend, or fill out the volunteer form to help buck and tommy run the cafe smoothly. [ongoing]

@dailykinley: daily dose of bucktommy graphic content, please give them a like and don't forget to reblog! [ongoing]

@allthingsbucktommy: keep up with everything new and old of our favourite firefighter-pilot duo! [ongoing]

@bucktommyfanart: keep track of all the amazing art created by the fandom. [ongoing]

@bucktommyfanfic: never miss a new bucktommy fic ever again! remember to leave kudos and comments for the writers. [ongoing]

@bucktommywinterfest: share joy and positivity by creating fanart and fanfiction all through winter! [upcoming: october 27 to march 29]

@bucktommypositivityweek: did you enjoy the first round? well, gear up for one more week of spreading positivity with seven new fun prompts! [ongoing: september 15 to september 21]

@911charactershipweeks: take part in this bucktommy ship week with even more fun prompts! [upcoming: september 22 to 28]

@bucktommyweek: celebrate the three-part season premiere with this three-part event. [upcoming: september 25 to october 9]

@bucktommykinkweek: if spicy content is more your speed and were already planning for kinktober look no further and take part of the first bucktommy kink week. [upcoming: october 13 to october 19]

honorary mentions:

@tommykinardweek: celebrate our favourite firefighter pilot with this very special tommy-centric event! [upcoming: november 18 to november 24]

@buddietommy-week: this event has ended but revisit all the amazing content created for it on their page and leave kudos and comments for the authors! [ended]

if i missed anything or you're planning a new fun event please let me know to add you to the list! and remember to spread love instead of getting caught up in the negativity 💕

[talktonytome]

It’s truly crazy how much bucktommy content we created and consumed in just a few months- all the art, fics, gifs, fandom events, headcanons, and other posts- and that was with a short season and limited screen time. Imagine what we’ll do with a longer season??

[911-prideweek]

Reminder that this is open to all ships and characters of 911 and/or 911 Lone Star!

We can't wait to see what you all create! 🌈

We are super excited to release our prompts for the upcoming 9-1-1 Pride Week 2024!

Our prompts have been inspired by a mix of a 'classic' queer prompt or song plus a memorable quote from a character.

Feel free to use either or both prompts for your creation(s) and keep in mind that you do not need to use that exact lyric or quote in your work, it can be inspiration or a vibe as well!

Our overarching theme for the week is: "The bravest thing you can be is yourself".

Prompts will be listed in plain text below along with rules under the cut. Please send any questions or requests for clarification in our asks box!

Rules:

No hate or ship bashing - we’re all different and we all love different things.

Tag correctly! Trigger warnings, ships, ratings, (pure) smut, etc - it’s all fine as long as you tag it.

Create what you like, nothing is too small or too big, and every medium is allowed.

This event can be combined with other events as long as the other event allows it.

We will be creating a collection on A03 (details to follow closer to event timing).

Please tag the blog @911-prideweek or #911prideweek2024 so that we can find your creation to reblog!

Prompts:

Day 1: Song lyric - "I wanna dance with somebody" || "I'll remember enough for the both of us."

Day 2: Coming out to a sibling and/or ride and die || "You know, it's like that thing when you meet somebody, and you just click."

Day 3: Gender euphoria || "Every night that I get to spend with you is a night worth celebrating."

Day 4: Song lyric - "Hallelujah it's raining _" || "You are the dream I would not allow myself to have."

Day 5: Unexpected support || "It's amazing what can happen when a family never stops fighting for each other."

Day 6: Pride colours || "I see you, and I couldn't be more proud."

Day 7: Song lyric - "I kissed a _ and I liked it" || "There are lots of ways to be lost at sea."

[aesthetictarlos]

BuckTommy is the very first fandom I've felt welcomed in. I've been in lots of fandom (and I still am), but no one has ever been as good and kind and welcoming like this one. The way we interact and support each other, the way no one feels better than the others, the way we exchange opinions and headcanons without being rude, and I could go on and on.

It hurts me to know that they ripped the canon BuckTommy from us, but I refuse to think fanon BuckTommy is over. I wasn't planning on writing new fics before the Tommy Kinard Week event, but this is me promising that I'll keep writing about them.

This is me promising that I'll keep interacting with y'all, supporting your fics, your posts, your arts, whatever.

Thank you for welcoming me in such a wonderful fandom, ily whether we're moots or not.

[userautumn]

i thought you would be happy with buck getting his oh moment and realizing his feelings for eddie but i guess you really were sucked into the bucktommy fanon created huh. Shame that you won't be able to enjoy canon buddie when it happens.

This is the only message I am going to answer about this specifically since I initially brought the topic up on my blog.

So, first of all, by definition, BuckTommy isn't fanon. Fanon is a ship or character that is completely generated by fandom. Buddie, for example, is fanon. Although they share a strong platonic bond, their relationship is not textually romantic. They do not kiss. They are not textually established romantic partners. Eddie said in the last episode that he is straight. So Buddie only exists within a fandom context. Conversely, BuckTommy is established as canon. Buck has touched mouths with that man on-screen. They were established as boyfriends and, now, ex-boyfriends. So it is, quite literally, impossible for BuckTommy to be fanon, even if fans do extrapolate, embellish, or reconstruct that relationship for their own pleasure. So, that's number one.

Number Two: According to this fandom, Buck and Eddie have had their oh moments a combined total of six times now at least (3x15, 3x03, 4x13, and 5x11, to name a few) and absolutely nothing concrete has come out of these events. The shooting is the closest we ever got, and that was four seasons ago. I don't begrudge anyone for reading that moment at the end of tonight's episode within a romantic Buddie context. Go absolutely nuts and have fun with it. But to me, that moment, such as it was, was more of the same - Buck or Eddie look at each other a certain way, or have evident (non-romantic) feelings related to the other, fandom loses their minds, they speculate, convince themselves they're right, nothing happens, rinse and repeat. I'm personally tired of the spin cycle.

I said I wanted strides toward Buddie canon to be made crystal clear and that's still true. You clearly see things differently (and that's alright), but outside the Buddie fanfiction hivemind, tonight's episode was not crystal clear. There was no discussion of Buck's feelings. He didn't vent them to Maddie or Bobby or Eddie himself. He didn't say, out loud, or indicate in any explicitly romantic way that he has feelings for Eddie. Buck having feelings about Eddie leaving is not the same as having feelings for him. They are best friends. They are family, actually. If Eddie leaves, Buck is losing the anchor to his support system and his (pseudo-)son. That's a big deal. That is an extraordinary weight to carry, especially on the heels of a significant breakup, and especially while dealing with abandonment issues. There was nothing romantic about that and, reducing that moment to a romantic reading, seems... odd. To me.

I'd like to think I'd still be able to enjoy Canon Buddie if it happens tbh. I actively write fic about those two in my spare time even though I keep my conversations about them to the DMs. But if I'm not able to enjoy it, it won't be because of the ship itself, it will be because I finally tired of the abject cruelty that's cropped up in this space. There's this unspoken rule in fandom that what happens during hiatus stays in hiatus, and we all just silently agree to move on from it when the show comes back. But I'm having a hard time with that this year because I've seen and experienced some absolutely insane things from this fandom the last few months that have stuck with me. So. Maybe I won't still enjoy it, but I hope I will.

I was really angry with the (non-Buddie related) content of this episode when you messaged me, so you probably thought or hoped I would bitch and curse you out, and we'd do this whole back and forth thing that would inevitably lead to you getting blocked. But I meant what I said - I have no interest in arguing with anyone about this show. We're not going to agree, and that's okay. I'm not your inspirational Buddie Warrior, and that's also okay. I have too much to deal with than to actively engage in internet beef. What is is what is, whether you or I or both or neither of us like it, and arguing about it isn't going to change it. So we might as will just learn to live with it and each other as best as we can.

I'm going to go watch TV now.