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Are you really agoraphobic & if so, how did you know you had a problem? I am debating whether I have a problem or not rn. I get genuinely upset when thinking abt going outside in the daytime.
yeah ive been dealing with it for years and unfortunately it gets worse over time especially if you dont get help for it. like a few years ago i used to at least be able to go to the grocery store once in a while and shop for myself. now i cant even sit in my backyard without feeling overwhelmed and panicky. it leads to a very limited, poor quality of life and can make it difficult to be independent which just adds to the shame. its really really important to get into therapy asap and to figure out what the underlying issue is. e.g. im diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder and body dysmorphic disorder which are unfortunately comorbid/commonly associated with each other and agoraphobia can be a prevalent symptom of both. for me, body dysmorphic disorder causes it the most. i explain it a bit more in this old post. im sorry you are dealing with this. its a very shitty, lonely way to live. i hope youre able to reach out to someone.
#btw therapy CAN help#its just a matter of staying in it and following through#bc agoraphobia can make it much harder to get yourself to your therapy appointments. id rec someone driving you if possible#someone who is also able to hold you accountable and keep you proactive in treatment#avpd#bdd
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maybe i'm a bitch but if i hear you go out of your way to judge someone's weight, i immediately lose trust in you & will probably forever find you a little unbearable . yes also the little floating bar over my head will start reading [hostile]. this is natural and u caused it.
#IF you do the therapy to stop being an asshole and make a POINT of being like#''i used to be a jerk about this but now i'm not''#..... we can reevaluate ....#btw i hope this doesn't need explanation and everyone can be normal on this post#and not be like#what if i am a DOCTOR and i was aSKED#like we all know what i'm referring to here#you're like in target and lizzo is playing in the background and they're like#DID YOU NOTICE THAT LIZZO IS FAT?#or ur on instagram and like some dude's comment is like#NICE ART BUT WHY ARENT YOU THIN#like .... okay we get it. we get it . go to sleep . go to therapy. bye.#ALSO BTW i am in recovery for an ED and im saying this AS someone with Brain Problems#pls do not clown on this and be like ''actually i'm allowed to be rude and judgemental''#no u aren't. none of us are. having an ED is not a pass for being a fucking dick#it can make you ACT like a dick. that isn't something you should be proud of or seek to continue#hence.... therapy!!!!!!!!#i know it's kind of controversial to say it but frankly i don't believe in infantilizing mental illness#by being like ''oh they can't help themselves''#bc that kind of thinking is .... unbelievably toxic lmafo#you might not be able to control your split-second thoughts/judgements#i have ocd i understand#but like. . . .. you know#we both know#this post is not about ''u blurted something u regret''#this post is about. THAT GUY
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i neeeeeeed a therapist so fucking bad lmfao
#k talks#someone who will have both perspective & empathy to talk thru this issue w#bc it is ALL tangled up in my head & i simply cannot unsnarl it by myself#the lich is too close to the problem to be helpful & the other people i’d talk to about it are solidly in the ‘well fuck that’ camp#& i don’t think that’s the correct answer either tbh#altho i don’t blame them for taking that position bc i’d prob be telling them the same thing if the roles were reversed#the one friend who DID have a v useful perspective about it last time we talked is superrrrr busy & i can’t drag him out of his life just#to talk to me abt this one thing#so i am counting the days until my insurance kicks in & i can afford therapy again 😭🙏🏼#(20 days. btw)
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Local girl realizes she has PTSD, more at 8
Time refers to himself as a doctor in the comic (hahahah time heals all wounds hahaha) so I thought it would be fitting that Hero visit him when she starts realizing that frequent panic attacks (I.e. getting swarmed by Fears and Griefs every time she steps outside) aren’t exactly convenient
Audio is from "Steven Universe: Future"
#tpoh#the property of hate#tpoh au#Anti-Hero AU#tpoh hero#tpoh time#ehhh RGB’s there too kinda#therapy didn’t work out too well for him so I just know he’d be happy to know that his kid is getting some actual HELP#btw he totally went with her and is waiting outside the key frame for her#dude panic attacks would be terrifying in this world with actual monsters that manifest with the emotions?? that can KILL YOU??#no wonder she’s traumatized good heavens
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#sigh. another vent post....#almost getting tired of making these but. I'm just.... I just don't really have much else I can do without botherin people#uh pretty big trigger warning for this one BTW#don't read on if you're low on spoons and whatnot. genuinely it's fine and I will be fine I always am#but like. yknow. when shit sucks it fucking sucks#anyway. uh. I just can't stand the idea that I might be bothering someone#so at least this way my stupid cries for help have a possibility of getting me some without making any specific#person feel obligated. yknow? maybe you see the post maybe you don't#Maybe you don't read all the way maybe you do. either way you can choose if you have the spoons to reach out#without feeling guilty either way. I hope.#.......i kind of want to fucking kill myself again#.....it used to be a much rarer thought. and I used to be much less struck by intense loneliness and longing like this#but I just feel so fucking needy. so desperate for attention and love and it hurts so much if I don't get it#and like. it's realistically nobody's fault but my own yknow... i need to ask for it more. i know that. i just suck at it#and then I can't ask. so I don't get attention. and in turn I feel neglected. secondary. like I'm not anyone's primary focus#and it just fucking hurts so much and it's just my own damn fault and I don't know how to fix it.#......i do. I need therapy I need meds or something. that's the answer here really#picked out a psychiatrist. need to call and make an appointment. but adhd and executive function and anxiety (that last one I need meds for)#mean it's very hard to both remember and then actually perform the task of calling the fucjing Dr#......believe me I'm trying.....like fuck I'm trying so hard.... and I started bawling having seen sparkles and ms robot girl reblog that#post from me about letting prev know you're proud of them. bawled when quinn called me cutie last night. bawled when#ginny said they wished they were here.... fuck me I do too I want to be the focus of someone's attention so so so so badly#fuck#...............it's redundant to say at this point a second time but. goddess above its a little scary how much I wanna kill myself#........sigh#....anyway. please do not feel obligated to respond to this in any way. do what you got the spoons for.#thank you for even reading all of this shit if you've gotten this far. i love you deeply and with all my heart. I'll be fine I promise#won't act on it no matter how strong the feeling is. just.....hurts in the meantime. but I'll be ok. I promise#................fuck. im going back to bed
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Uh oh. Essay in readmore time
What's so frustrating is that for almost all of my life I didn't know I had adhd, and only found it out 5ish years ago
During ALL of my studies i was intensely freaked out and even when i got a grip on some of my mental health shit at uni, importantly I was still unaware of the adhd. And only had some professional tell me about their suspicion about it AFTER I could have received any support in my schooling.
And I have been working damn hard over the last half a decade to learn about myself and the way I work, and be kind to myself and open minded, and learnt from many many different people with adhd how they function - especially through advice on here bc much of Google is shit, and learnt what does and doesn't work for my personally.
I slowly unravelled and found myself. To a point where I'm actually functional and content in myself.
So now i find myself in the most intense, stressful period of my life since then. Grieving and finally understanding what people meant when they spoke about grieving a very close loved one. How nothing feels real even.
And I've found myself so extremely wired from having to do a very vast array of tasks all crammed into a short space of time with a close deadline - exactly the same conditions as during my studies.......... where nothing ever helped.
Yet. In the last thirty minutes I've unwound because I instinctively KNEW what to do. I found myself following all the things i taught myself about my adhd, and now I'm like 70% more chill???? Huh?????? Noticed suddenly that I've been using my ADHD self knowledge for the past few weeks and coped remarkably well because of it.
It's shocking because imagine what i could have done if I had ANY help with my adhd EVER in my life from the adults who were supposed to notice in my entire childhood. Like HUHHHHHH, I am shocked. Imagine how I'm here as an adult using 5 years of learning adhd related advice and stuff I learnt through self awareness .... and feeling better.
SHOCKING!!!!
PS - long ass tags that immediately ramble away from my initial post and go into something positive and that made me feel fluffy inside. You've been warned
#It's so fucking aggravating#i was a self contained child and didn't display the Expected ADHD traits or what fucking ever and so i got left to rot by the system#fantastic#sighhhhh but on the bright side - i am damn PROUD of myself tonight. I've come so far#It's very hard being neurodivergent and I'm doing amazing by own like standards#btw secret lore - first time i ever said aloud that i was proud of myself was in therapy like 6 years ago#and it was indescribably hard to get to that stuttered halting sentence 'i am proud of myself'. so hard and my therapist was so clearly#over the moon for me. i still treasure that memory and the path i have taken to being kind to myself and that's why every time i say#i am proud of myself#it holds the memory of every time I've ever said it or thought it and believed it#every time i see someone do something good i make sure to say well done because I'm proud of them too :-)#i do it apparently with such conviction and sincerety that people stop and stumble sometimes aha#i think it's beautiful to help people notice when they do well. like 'oh skipped work every day until today' - well done u made it today!!#'i cooked a meal and got it the way my mother makes it after many failed attempts' - well done you must have worked so hard#'i made a important phone call' (from friend who has told me before how much they struggle w calls) - BIG WELL DONE that must have been har#It's easy to notice and pay attention to people and congratulate them for these things that may not sound Big bc 'everyone else can do it'#as they say. or they are too busy to notice they did something that took effort on their part. It's so wonderful to make a difference#and hope they can be proud of themselves too in that moment#man this took a positive turn.... this is something I've not really said before. but it is truly so joyful to congratulate people to me
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Please someone help me. I don’t know what to do. I’m disabled and have no income but I need to get out of my living situation. My former plan was to live with my sister when she gets her own place but due to recent events I just don’t feel that’s a good idea anymore. I have no idea how to navigate this situation or what I can do to get myself to a safe environment where I can heal. I feel strongly that I’m stuck in chronic freeze mode and have constant chest tightness, heavy feeling limbs anxiety and low energy and it’s a constant struggle just to feel normal enough to move around my house and care for myself. On top of that I’m autistic and have POTS. There is such a limited number of good days for me to do things. I definitely cant work a nine to five the way things are now. I might be able to get disability but my first attempt was a bust. Please, I need some advice on how to change my situation. I feel like I’m drowning. If this blog has ever made you laugh or smile… or ever helped your mood on a hard day… it needs you in return right now.
#please#dm preferred btw#please don’t turn a blind eye to this I feel strongly that I’m on the brink of taking my life and I have no other options#I’ve tried therapy I’ve tried reaching out I’ve tried medicine I’ve tried just damned pushing through it#nothing works I need a real plan but I have no idea how to make one#it’s perfectly okay and encouraged to reblog this#need all the help I can get
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Hi
I cut my hair and I wanna show it off
Face reveal I guess? Jshsjs
#i really love it#i feel very pretty right now#its been a couple of harsh months and now i can finally feel like okay? ive never been this okay in my life and im really grateful#I'm also so grateful for all the kind words from mutuals i really appreciate it it means so much to me#and btw im kind of a ghost on tumblr now#this was literally my vent diary and now i only posts phrases and such#big ass change lol#im medicated now and in therapy one day at week im receiving help so my vents now go to a person and not the internet JAGAJA#sorry if anyone ever feel uncomfortable with that#it did help me / having a safe space here#but anyways#i feel pretty and happy? idk close to happy#im getting better#:) hehe#ari talks
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ofts wpisode 10 in the first five minutes: rehab and denial of alcohol dependency time :-)
me: two days out from yet another sobbing-heavy discussion w/j about therapy or a doctor or something for his excessive drinking and still on an emotional hair trigger
#he agreed to couple's therapy and honestly? this is the first time i've believed him on doing something#WHY IS SO MUCH MEDIA IVE BEEN CONSUMING RECENTLY BEEN ABOUT ALCOHOL ABUSE!!!#this is why i want to lay on a bed of knives listening to elliott smith btw he's great for. This#anyway i'm basically okay now esp because couple's therapy means i can make it happen#i feel Hope for the first time in a year !!#cw alcohol#idk just message me for tags on things like this. i go basic but those aren't always helpful#somwthing something dirty laundry therapy hasnt been enough ive gotta shout about it on fucking tumblr
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hi connor i hope work is nice to u today ^^ for wrapped 12, 35, 78, 99 ? 🌞
12. Something About Us
35. High Life
78. Aerodynamic
99. Veridis Quo
link to ask game!
#Ok this is scary how did you get all discovery songs help meeeee there r only 14 songs on that album. this is scary you sniffed them out#like a bloodhound . NRBFHFBFN#TY BTW !!! i have a good feeling abt today i got wrapped which is aweskme bc i loves music and there r free homemade rice krispie treats in#the breakroom and yeah its a good day so far ^_^ AND i have therapy later and i have an entire free hour so i can get a little coffee and a#treat of some sort bc theres a cafe right next to it...
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I need to meet some transgender gay communists irl nowwww
#thinking abt contacting the ml group on campus when the semester starts but also. hmmm the terrors (entirely irrational anxiety that I can't#do anything about)#It's so fucked up how I can tell myself exactly why I don't need to be worried about basic things but then it just makes the anxiety worse#Also meds haven't helped and neither has therapy so. Like what am I supposed to do? Live in fear and die alone?#I'm not upset rn btw I'm just really really annoyed#Like the only thing that works for me is actually doing the thing a few times like getting used to it or whatever#But the only way I'm able to do that is if I'm with someone in familiar with but literally the only people in familiar with are my parents.#So basically. I can only do things with my mom like I'm a toddler or something#Okay now I'm a little upset bc I'm thinking about how I haven't had any irl friends in like. Five years??#And even then I never spent time with any of them outside of school once they all started making other friends and then it turned out I was#incapable of doing that!#Okay whatever I'm gonna try to get back to sleep now -_-
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btw sorry that william's romantic love language is just him getting literally as close to you as possible. touchiest man in the world but also does not know personal space once you're dating.
#—— ✧ ooc »#combo of his weird desperation + him trying to be overwhelming on purpose#sorry asks have me thinking fdksahfkdashfa#william fully obsessed & making vaguely weird comments abt wanting to be a part of you (unexplained)#therapy couldn't help this man btw#need more of his ship partners just being like 'what the fuck' when he says something so he can act like he isn't weird#actually anyone like please he'll act totally normal & then drop the most out-of-nowhere shit#laughs it off when questioned#sometimes it's intentional because he likes startling ppl#sometimes it's fully just. him. and if you don't point it out he won't even notice he said something Off#esp late game#ooc tags that become headcanons FUCK
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(not so) subtly hoards all the emotionally damaged muses and just
quietly stands near
#btw that's literally everyone on my dash hi hello#all these poor souls need therapy bUT SHIT'S EXPENSIVE#so here you can have a free ryuu; he charges nothing#i'd say he supports you unconditionally but--#that wholly depends on how much of a hooligan you are and what he's willing to put up with on any given day#point is ryuu is without a doubt my most mentally healthy muse and one of my favorite things about it#is his ability to use that to help others bc mAN there are so many muses out there#who really deserve someone to be there for them and listen to them T^T#aND I FINALLY have a muse who can do that ??? instead of being an ass disaster#well ig he's a disaster in his own way but aren't we all ??? u-u#listen we may be quiet on the dash but just know we're here#we're percEIVING you#and ryuu looks forward to the privilege of getting to know some lost souls: those willing to let him in even a bit#this is a very soft and friendly threat
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I don't mean to derail op's post but I understand that many people think that rape is an unforgivable crime and probably punished by the death penalty. That doesn't mean that the entire US justice system should work based on how some people think. This also reminds me when I found out that a coworker of mine who was my friend had been raping his sibling. When I told my therapist about it, she said 'I hope he gets the help that he needs". Not "I hope he goes to prison" or "I hope he dies" or any other vengeful thing, but hoping that he could get the help he needed to not do that again and change as a person. But if (and likely when) he goes to prison, he won't be getting the help he needs. No one who goes to prison for rape gets the help that they need. The prison system either creates a)people who will sit forever in our system taking up our tax dollars without ever actually changing or doing anything or b) people who get out of prison and do it again. While I would be horrified and disgusted if I saw this person again, something else that fucked him up happened to him, and caused him to take it out on other people. How would putting him in prison help that? What happens when he gets out of prison and sees his sibling again? While I don't have the answers I know that making him sit in prison is not going to help him actually change in any way.
Extremely tired of ppl tryna dunk on prison abolition by being like "well what are we gonna do with all the rapists then huh"
#bat screams#blargh I hope this is ok#and honestly its horrifying because he was a nice person to me#he was great with kids and just very friendly#and putting that image of him against the image of a serial rapist is fucking crazy but it must be done#two things can be true at the same time and in this case they have to be#and like I'd love to punch him#but that's not my decision or vengeance to take out on him#nor should it be the decision of one person to send someone away forever#and ik I said he will likley go to prison but I don't actually know#but my point still stands#he will not be getting the help that he needs to change and that is what matters#btw the info I got about rapists having something traumatic happen to them and then hurting people is not out of my ass its from my therapi#who knows a lot about child sex abuse because shes had to deal with it many times#btw the little prison dichotomy I made only applies to rapists in the hypothetical#obv there can be a secret third thing but#whatever I said what I wanted to say
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Regaining my will to live was probably the worst thing to ever happen to me
#personal#depression#vent#rant#sorry its just.#i hate wanting to live#i hate that i want to live and experience life and not die#bc the world fucking SUCKS#u cant treat my depression bc the world just genuinely fucking sucks everything just gets worse#u can try to give me all the therapy u want but that wont change the world is so fucked#i wanna live but i dont wanna live in this world#and theres nothing i can do to help change anything#i wanna live so bad but the world isnt fucking worth living in#i wanna go back to being suicidal#i wanna not give a shit if i live or die i wanna go back to actively just wanting to Die#learning to love living has made everything so much more complicated in purely negative ways#its taken away my comfort and my future i dont wanna fucking be here !!!#now im just desperately clinging onto the few good parts of life and waiting for the day i finally get to bite it#i dont wanna want to live bc that means i cant kill myself even though the world is shit#and im not capable of helping change anything#and when im dead everything will be over i cant wait for that darkness#but i cant bring it to myself now bc i still wanna experience life while i still can#I HATE ITTT#god humans werent fucking built for this 24/7 stream of horribleness and suffering from all around the world#i hate the internet get me out of hereee#i never wanna hear another news in my life i wanna just become a complete hermit and never hear about anything relevant ever again#this isnt anti recovery btw. i dont wanna scare anyone off trying to imrpove their mental health#just personal thoughts for my personal situation
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really funny seeing folks on the wow forums getting weird about the 'arachnophobia' filter
I have bad arachnophobia. I don't get squicked by spiders much in video games, more IRL ones in movies/tv shows, especially if they are real. I do not need a filter for either. I already see freaky as fuck spiders IRL and even at my job, of all places.
But this affects no one negatively. Move on?
Besides, it's also a fun toggle to turn on when you wanna see a giant spider boss turned into a crab. This playerbase needs to lighten the fuck up for like, 5 minutes or something. Always gotta complain about something. ESPECIALLY about things that don't affect them.
Jeez.
#why are people making a mountain out of a molehill about it#therapy doesnt help everyone btw and not everyone can afford it#delete later#and therapy cant cure a phobia either. you cant cure every phobia from every person willy nilly with therapy#im always going to have a fear of spiders and no amount of therapy is going to 'cure' it
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