#bright moments

[everythingseasoning]

Y’all I had a panic attack today in class. I suddenly started hyperventilating and crying uncontrollably in the storage adjacent to the main room.

This absolutely kind classmate (new friend i hope!) was there when I suddenly broke down and she literally stayed calm, and took me to a quiet place on the stairs, held my hands as my body heaved, helped guide me with breathing in and out, and then when the hyperventilation was lessened slightly she took me to the bathroom to splash cold water on my face. My body was still in panic mode and I was crying, and she warmly, gently asked me what would help. I asked if she could tell me about her day and she talked to me about that as I kept breathing hard, (and I felt WEIRD asking for that), and then we shut off the water. She kept talking to me as if we had all the time in the world and I kept wondering if I was inconveniencing her and I believed that she was only dealing with me because she felt obligated to, and I kept trying to leave the conversation we were having because I thought she wanted to leave, and I was holding her back. She told me not to apologize and said, “You are *not* a burden.” Which… ykno… there’s going to be a journey for me to believe that and know that I deserve love. She also had panic attacks before and she said she knows how much they suck, and that “your body thinks you aren’t safe, but I promise you that’s not true.” She was right. She also can get panicked in crowded places (this wasn’t what caused my panic, but it’s why she isn’t going Black Friday shopping). I somehow ended up briefly talking about Jujutsu Kaisen, among other things, as I calmed down.

I’m realizing just how true it is that I was unloved for most of my life, because I can name 2 people who have shown me the kindness that she showed me, and one of those people is my therapist!! The other I am not friends with anymore. Anyway.. I’m still processing her genuine kindness. Why would she do that. Why would she care about me. She helped me so much..

Also - she likes cats!! And swimming! And nature! I want to get to know her better! She’s a good human :)

And when we exited the bathroom I ran into a girl who literally approached me and complimented my clothing the other week (I looked depressed as fuck eating my lunch weeks ago, and she just came up to me and was so sweet!!! Never met her before, but she noticed me and we had a brief convo on our art classes). Life has its bright moments.

[unjustlyunread]

from "The Letter of Lord Chandos", Hofmannsthal, trans. Hottinger, and the Sterns

("[am] loath to scare away the celestial shudders that still linger about the shrubbery in this neighbourhood!"

(same, bro, same))

[jazzdailyblog]

Rahsaan Roland Kirk: The Jazz Maverick with Multiple Personalities

Introduction: There have been innumerable musicians who have made an unmistakable stamp on the broad canvas of jazz. Rahsaan Roland Kirk was one such outstanding artist who stood out for his infinite invention, enthralling performances, and one-of-a-kind approach to music. Kirk distinguished himself from his peers with his command of numerous instruments and his creative use of circular…

[susanleeson]

“Bright Moments” multi- block print.

[mccromy]

I picture Ming Fan as the perfect teacher's pet, not in an ass kisser way, but in a was-born-for-this kind of way. If the authority figure is a cruel sneering villain, he is a cruel little minion hunched over rubbing his hands on the corner. If the authority figure is an old man with mommydaddy vibes, he's the neighborhood's unattainable MILF's son who clearly wants the cool Martial Arts champion to be his new dad and not you, I'm going to tell mom you hit me you little shit.

Unfortunately in the last scenario his aspiring stepdad is his little shit of pseudo (martial) brother, who wrote a poem titled something that Ming Fan interpreted as "Shixiong's mom has got it going on" which thankfully flew right above Shizun's head. Ming Fan just KNOWS that if Luo Binghe asked Shizun if they could marry pretty please Shizun would sigh and accept but only because Binghe has been such a diligent and filial disciple and he deserves a reward. And Ming Fan is not unaware of how incestuous he makes it sound, but you don't live here you don't know what he's going through.

He tried to keep Luo Binghe's grubby paws away from his shimei, but he focused so much on guarding the cabbage patch he didn't see Luo Binghe sneak past and towards the farmer's house!

Thank Heavens the farmer is so far removed from mortal issues he doesn't notice the beast he collared wants to be his house wife.

So Ming Fan, instead of a little henchman, becomes an anxiety riddled teenager, seeing gold diggers hiding in every corner. Ning Ying Ying tuts and tells him he's being ridiculous, to which Luo Binghe shakes his head and says:

"No, no. I see them too."

[olileigh-art]

This image has been stuck in my head since I first watched episode 76 back in early January but I was busy with uni so it had to wait

Tip Jar

[riviclouds]

*pets him with a slightly damp toothbrush*

[rdps01]

horror time

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 187

Clockwork would openly admit that he couldn’t see Danny’s timelines. Not since the moment he stepped into that portal and became something more. A child of Infinity, of the very Realms itself. 

But he’ll also admit that it always meant that the child surprised him all the time. This just happened to be a startling surprise, and an admittedly amusing one, even if Danny was openly complaining about the situation. 

“It’s not fair! You have to be able to fix this, right? Right?!” the ghostling, quite literally now, practically yanked at his cloak. “Clockwork, I was going to graduate, I can’t be two! Please, you’re the master of Time, you can fix this right!?” 

No, no he could not, seeing as young Daniel was in fact, immune to timeline machinations, doubly so for his own. To the ghostling’s open distress, which he did his best to soothe. What he could do instead, was stop time in his home dimension, and instead let him age back up again. 

Which the young halfa wasn’t happy about, but it was the best thing they had, so Clockwork supposed he had a ghostling now. A tiny adorable ghostling who kept pouting each time his much younger body had any sort of effect on his behavior. 

He’d never exactly had a ghostling before, nevermind one who was part human, but he would admit he honestly was enjoying it. Most time was spent alone, something he hadn’t realized until Danny ended up crashing into his unlife. 

Honestly he would openly admit that he absolutely adored his little ghostling. Who was now around four, at least physically, and had gotten into the adorable habit of curling up in the pendulum in his chest. Which was honestly the safest spot in Long Now, he’d admit. 

The singular issue however, with this habit, was that when someone attempted to summon him, they got his ghostling as well. And well, normally he could very much control himself for these summonings that happened every few hundred or so years, but well. There was a reason why even the Observants had stopped popping in the moment they realized he had a ghostling. 

Nesting ghosts do not mess around should they feel one is messing with their very vulnerable child, and really it’s not his fault the mortal cultists woke up and startled Danny. Perhaps deleting them from the timeline was a bit too far, if the other mortals rapid paling was to go by, but oh well. 

[nemkero]

kanpai funk omori edition!

[suntails]

knighted

[lazybakerart]

I'd miss our kiss if it ever left my lips

buck and tommy! them!! aldhfdsff!!!

[crabsnpersimmons]

(slowly cleaning out all the art i drafted but never posted)

sometimes the only way to recharge after a long day

is drawing your current blue trauma boi* in the outfit of your previous blue trauma boi**

*Moon, from my hairdresser AU "New 'Do, Same You" AU

**Red Clad Dewey from Another Eden

[teal-tealwren]

coming up for air

[aroaceleovaldez]

we should make Nico more fucked up, actually. enough woobifying him. that boy should be covered in blood and viscera