#brain full of dopamine

[tai-janai]

<my hands are too happy to properly draw so im just sitting here rereading those parts of chapter 9>

i need that scene tattooed on my chest

[southern--downpour]

the show must go on....?

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

whats your opinion on frank and julie's friendship.. the sillies

I FUCKIGN LOVE THEM they're so good... entirely platonic m/f relationships have always made me so happy, because they rarely exist without eventually becoming a weird romantic thing

so to have Frank and Julie be best buddies!!! that's so important!! i love it! also they're just so cute... they have the same sense of humor... Julie makes Frank laugh... they tease each other... they play games... they love each other so much!!! whenever i see art of them or they're being pals in a fic, my shriveled heart grows half a size <3

[hmslusitania]

Do you ever see yourself writing Buddie fics again? I just finished reading through all your works and you are just absolutely phenomenal at writing them together! 🙏🏾❤️

Firstly, thank you! That’s very kind of you to say!

Secondly, while I can’t really say “never” about any writing project, the chances really are not good barring some kind of miracle (as evidenced by my slight return when Buck was made canonically bi). I’ve only got limited creative bandwidth at any given moment and it hasn’t been directed towards 9-1-1 for a long time now.

But genuinely, thank you for saying hi and thank you for letting me know you’ve enjoyed my writing!

[blackjackkent]

Slowly discovering the freeing power of the words "I know this is bad but I'll fix it in editing."

[drstanfordpines]

more stanford thoughts

forgets to eat CONSTANTLY. his appetite is all fucked up from not having a stable source of food (plus a secret second reason that i may expand upon later)

this man has definitely done Alien Drugs. Alternate Dimension Drugs. Whatever. Whether intentionally or unintentionally he has definitely had at least a small handful of Weird Drug Experiences.

triangles used to be his favorite shape before the whole bill thing happened. he liked triangles bc they’re “the strongest shape”. now, he understandably is not as much of a fan. (if you ask him what his favorite shape is, he’ll say he doesn’t have one. he still likes the concept of triangles. he just doesn’t like to think about it because well. the whole being tortured by a triangle thing. he also feels embarrassed about it bc what kind of fuckin loser is afraid of a shape? like. he’s not AFRAID of triangles. that would just be ridiculous. but like….. having an image of a malevolent triangular entity seared into your brain as your sole focus in your efforts to defeat it while isolating yourself AND being in survival mode nearly 24/7 for THIRTY YEARS is probably uh. not the healthiest thing in the world. yaknow?

he likes soup but never eats it because it “takes too much time”. he prefers a meal like a sandwich, so he can eat half of it and then leave the rest on a random workbench to be forgotten about.

this bitch audhd for realsies

he did in fact install that metal plate into his own skull and it was in fact a traumatizing experience 👍 whatsherface mcgee prophet lady was also there but she didn’t or couldn’t help him for uhhh reasons i haven’t thought of/decided on yet :)

i want to give him something like a bag of holding like in d&d. i think he deserves it. plus he’s gotta have a place to put all his trinkets!!!

not specifically about ford but i hc that instead of “dungeons dungeons and more dungeons” being abbreviated to d&d&md, it’s abbreviated to 2DMD. i think it rolls of the tongue better. sounds cooler. the works.

[drivenbydopamine]

Work with your brain, not against it

I find that when I'm at home and I can work with my brain (as opposed to against it like is required of me at work), I can still get things done and I'm considerably less exhausted and more satisfied at the end of the day. Truth is... following the dopamine and letting yourself get distracted enough times will eventually bring you full circle to being distracted BY the thing you were initially distracted FROM. Plus you got 38 other tasks started in the meantime. And let's be honest here, starting is often the hardest part. So.. WIN WIN! So don't get frustrated when you can't focus. (If you're working... Save the frustration for when you're on company time LOL) Roll with it.. And you'll eventually roll right back around!

[k-phoenix]

hello! i would love to hear the rant about PET scans :3

Holy shit so okay I'm in the train for the next 20 minutes, and I _know_ that's not enough time to get into all of it, but I could rant about this for hours, so. Maybe we cap this at 20 minutes. [20 minutes later] Okay so I wrote a huge wall of very boring text that barely started getting into it, so let me provide way less detail, actually:

It is massively expensive. A PET scanner costs a lot. And it's not a one time purchase, and then you can do scans, no, you wish. You also need some very expensive equipment to create radioactive tracers (which are what is used to do a PET scan) on site, because that stuff needs to be created fresh (under an hour) before every scan. To create the tracers is ALSO incredibly expensive. A single PET scan costs multiple thousands.

This also means that PET research makes use of as few participants as possible. A study with 15 participants is considered big. You simply cannot infer from 15 participants to the whole population. This also means that, statistically, it is highly likely that you don't find an effect even though it exists - meaning if your PET study looks for the effect of A on B, it is highly likely that it will find that A has no effect on B even though it does - simply because you didn't have enough participants (if this explanation doesn't make sense, let me know, and I can explain in detail)

This, together means, that an absolutely absurd amount of money is used for research that, by design, will not find results, because to find results, they would need more participants and even more money.

Because scientific publishing is a shitshow at the moment, research that doesn't find results very rarely gets published, especially not if you can't even be sure whether the result is right. So absurd amounts of money put into research that doesn't even get published.

And I haven't even talked about the results they did find and issues with them. Don't ask me to explain those. Don't tempt me to put hours into writing a multiple page essay that nobody will read.

So, in conclusion: PET is an absolutely amazing feat of engineering that is magnificent in detecting cancer and with it we could learn so. Much. More about the brain and how it works. But to do that, a lot of the basic organisation of how we do science would first need to change. Many labs would have to collaborate and be okay with making the collected data openly available, so appropriate sample sizes (=numbers of participants in a study) can even be achieved (Here's a paper on that). That probably won't happen, though.

Now, obligatory note: one of the professors who taught me about PET is a man who wrote an extremely controversial paper about exactly this stuff, despite also using PET in his research. If you like niche drama in science, look into this paper and all the articles that are responding to it.

[detentiontrack]

Uh oh

[torchickentacos]

I have this thing where I send or post part of a fic or reach out to someone or whatever and then I pretend my phone doesn’t exist for an hour

[celepeace]

Sometimes I'm surprised that monster hunter isn't more popular among the creature design and spec evo corners of tumblr, at least the portions that also play video games, and then I remember that it's just about as hard as soulsborne games (I'd argue some specific entries are even harder) but doesn't have any of the atmospheric or story elements to attract people. It gets by on sheer gameplay alone and isn't a pvp game either. There is no way to make the game easier besides picking one of the less mechanically complex weapons and git gud. If it wasn't for the neat dinosaurs I couldn't think of a game less alluring to the average tumblr user

[goldenpinof]

@ anon who wrote about dd, i'm so sorry it's taking me so long! i see your ask, i haven't read it yet. i don't wanna do it at work, and when i'm not there i happen to gif the video. i will make time for it tomorrow, i swear

[ace-trainer-risu]

have resorted to bribing myself to work. which....is arguably what a salary is but frankly that's not cutting it anymore.

[wandering4ever]

I’m alive, just tired

[aercnaut-archived]

looks @ the dash with my Autistic Eyes

[snoopyfan1283]

wondering how much different my life would be if my ADHD was medicateddddddd