#bouncing around my brain

[batfambrainrotbeloved]

See I want to focus on my main Tim Au

But the PARASITES want crime fam batsiblings w/ Tim starting it all

I want to focus on the main plot storyline, little angsty fun

BUT THE PARASITES WANT BAD DAD BRUCE AND TIM UNITING HIS SIBLINGS TOGETHER AS A MORE MORALLY GREY "ANTI HERO" CRIME SYNDICATE

[croniandisk]

this is the new touch. the feeling of fingers pushing painlessly through skin - the muscle, the fat, the weight of it, the intention: it's best friends forever. it's a first kiss. it's a love story.

[rejoiceinsilverlight]

i have a nine hour layover and still have two and a half hours to kill, here's the sillies :3

[turtleblogatlast]

“…humming a tune.”

I am very unwell about alternate Leo.

(Song: 'Dream Sweet in Sea Major' by Miracle Musical)

[popinade]

carmine & kieran doodle bcuz I’ve been a bit kitakami-brained lately…

the perpetrator was found

[lunarrainstorms]

❤️ to put him in a blender

🔁 to put him in a blender

💬 to put him in a blender

Ignore to put him in a blender

I went ahead and decided to color the doodles from my sticky note post.

[clouvu]

I hate them (affectionate)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Behold, a Bunny!

(for @alliechickfic on twitter)

[festeringthoughts]

BLOW IT UP NOW

[pnfc]

someone asked me abt candessa yuri. is this yuri?? for candaces sake i hope it is

addendum

[room-of-lies]

You are now, as you once were: Beautiful

[strawberri-draws]

shuichi posting

[aropride]

fascinated and distressed by chase's disordered relationship with sexuality + his emotions abt his own trauma & abuse

thru the beginning of the show he doesn't even realize he's hot despite being objectively attractive. when he finds out he's hot he then realizes people pretend to be interested in him as a person in order to have sex with him and gets super upset about it

he starts having a bunch of meaningless sex as a coping mechanism when cameron leaves him. and also a lot of other times. whenever something bad happens, basically, he starts going out with a bunch of women, just to feel something, presumably

^to the extent where hes known within the hospital as a slut. and has had sex with an insane amount of nurses. as well as presumably women who are not at his place of work.

he says doing this made him hate himself so he stopped. it's the b-plot for an episode and then he's back having meaningless sex again by the end of the episode

even his coworkers know this about him. and have called it out, masters even says she thinks he doesn't respect women bc, in her words, he's with a different one every few days or maybe he finds comfort in meaningless relationships

goes back to having meaningless sex within weeks of getting stabbed. which is really bad for wound healing reasons too. genuinely it seems like such compulsive behavior for him considering he keeps doing it even when its objectively not only a bad idea but actively dangerous

house even directly says he's "a serial slut" because he's "terrified of intimacy." incredibly accurate assessment

his relationship with his sexuality reads so heavily as someone who thinks they're not good for anything else

see also: dissociation & avoidance

we know he has a lot of trauma especially in childhood- he never really gets into it let alone into how he Feels about it but what we know is already bad & that's just the stuff he's okay with sharing with his coworkers or patients

in general he's very avoidant of his own trauma- when he gets stabbed he says he "can't change what happened, can only make better choices from here" as if it was his own fault, and refuses thru the whole episode to acknowledge that being traumatized by this would be a really normal reaction that he is definitely having. instead he just blames himself

also, he dissociates from traumatic things that happen to him - says "there was a stabbing" rather than "i was stabbed" for instance

when he's talking abt his childhood trauma he does it in a very similar way - he talks about it very bluntly and doesn't ever get into how he actually feels about it.

see also: dr. fawn response

general passive willingness to go along with anything- when cameron says they should have sex in s3 he's surprised and then he just kinda goes along with it. not bc he didn't want to bc he obviously did, but he's just generally very much someone who does whatever other people want him to do. i feel like he and cameron both tend to seek validation thru sex in an unhealthy way that i'm still gnawing on like a dog with a bone i have to go rewatch s3 to really articulate it though

he has a sort of desperation for praise and approval especially from anyone he views as an authority figure. he does whatever authority figures tell him out of this idea that it'll bring him approval and therefore safety

like no matter what house does or says to him he doesn't argue or retaliate or anything. even when house punches him he collapses on the ground in pain and then just keeps talking about the patient like nothing happened.

the scene in 3.10 after house punches him where he's in the ddx room and house walks in and throws the file at him and chase is startled and tries to pretend he's not. and he looks up with this huge fuck ass bruise on his jaw swallows heavily and pretends not to be upset. and house asks if he got that looked at as if he wasn't the one to give it to him and chase just swallows and says he's fine. dr fawn response :(

[hasnomoxxie]

A bit old, but Antonblast poster I made a bit ago >:)

And a couple alts too!

[fluffydeoxys]

(gianni voice) erm what the sigma

[feukt-42]

Ledaposting again, i want to study her under a microscope