#book i wouldnt read again

[topracticemyenglish]

Books I woudn't read again

This post is inspired by a video that Pam Gonçalves made on her youtube channel.

Don't Tell Mummy by Toni Maguire

This book tells the story of Toni Maguire, a woman who was sexually assulted by her father since she was 6. She even got pregnant when she was 16, and yes, it lasted 10 years. Her father used to tell her that she couldn't tell her mom, because otherwise, her mom wouldn't believe in her and would hate her forever. Unfortunately this was true and when she found out about her pregnancy, her mom chose to stay by her father's side.

This book is very hard to read because of it's subject, sexual abuse is something very hard for me to read and especially in children.

Holocausto Brasileiro by Daniela Arbex (Brazilian Holocaust)

This one was another one that I honestly read fast, but it was very hard to read. This book's kind of a complaint about a "mental hospital" that used to have in Barbacena. The place was awful and very sad. Every minority used to go there, gays, women, black people, people with some mental illness and so. Once they got there, they were treated like garbage in the worst possible way.

I used to feel so sad for these people and the need to get into the book and help them, but unfortunately I couldn't. The place eventually was shut down, but it was too late, lots of women already had been raped and lots of people already had been killed in there.

There's a documentary about it and it's so sad. The people that used to work in there used to laugh about it, about what they did and it's revolting.

Let's Go Play at the Adams by Mendal W. Johnson

I heard about this book in a video and everyone used to say that it was the most disturbing book they ever read and I wanted to read, but I don't know why.

This one was one that I deeply regret buying it. It's so awful. I do think the author has some mental illness, because who in their right mind would write about this????? The story is horrible, the writing is horrible and it's only purpose was to shock people. And it's really disturbing, I got really fucked up reading it.

1984 by George Orwell

I read this book because everyone says that it's amazing. It's great indeed. The begining is great, but by the end of the book, it starts to get very disturbing. The main guy is arrested and tortured by the police and everything is just horrible to read. It's very explicit, just like Let's Go Play at the Adams and very uncomfortable to read. However, the whole concept is very good and clever, so I do understand the hype around it.

But to me, the main problem was that I had just finished reading Let's Go Play at the Adams, so it was too soon to read about torture again and it was really hard for me.

Audition by Ryū Murakami

Audition I honestly haven't finished reading. This book has a famous movie. It's about a man who makes this fake audition to find a girlfriend. So when this gorgeous woman comes in, he fells in love immediately, but she hides a secret that he's not ready for it. She's a psychopath and by the end of the book she starts to torture him.

I didn't finish, not because she was torturing him, I didn't care about him, the problem was that she cut the dog's leg and that I don't accept. So I gave up.

Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov

This was another one that I haven't finished. This one is very famous, I don't know why. It's about a grown ass man who falls in love with a 12-yeard-old girl. He rapes her and they have a "relationship".

This one is another one that I judge the author as well. Why he had the idea to write this?? Was he a pedophile too??? I think so, because just a pedophile could have this idea.

Obviously it's a horrible book as well and I couldn't pass the middle of it.

[holland-vosijk-antari]

wonder how many people in red london would have white or grey london heritage? surely people made some Connections back when there was open travel between londons? besides, all it takes is one particularly slutty antari a hundred or so years ago laying pipe in more than one london to make quite a bunch of descendents.

[queenerdloser]

i just finished dark heir

[featherymainffins]

Can anyone who knows Uglies explain what the hell changed that just 10 years ago it was considered great and groundbreaking and now I see nothing but people saying that it's dumb and uninspired and has no point or meaning?

[jenna-louise-jamie]

thinking about yassen gregorovich instead of sleeping (because i love him) and how he is a catalyst. yassen stabbs ash -> ash kills john rider -> ian rider raises alex -> yassen kills ian rider -> mi6 blackmails alex into becoming a teenage spy.

i have so many thoughts that i can't properly articulate. obviously this is a simplified chain of events, but yassen and his choices set off a chain reaction of the world's most unfortunate dominos. especially when you read russian roulette. to be clear im not necessarily trying to blame him for everything because that feels very mean. he was also just a 14 year old kid when everything in his life went wrong, just like alex. only difference being yassen literally had no one.

i think i should write an essay about this because i haven't even gotten into my thoughts about what yassen and alex's dynamic would look like past eagle strike. i would imagine it'd be similar to ellie and joel from the last of us part 2.

where obviously yassen loves alex and alex on some level cares for yassen back but struggles to reconcile that with the fact that yassen is responsible for his uncle's death. a very unforgivable act. it would be so messy and complicated and angsty, because on one hand here is an adult who truly cares about him and has a connection with him through his father. yassen could tell alex about john, and trust that yassen truly wants whats best for him. but he killed ian, and he cannot take that back.

while alex reels from those feelings, yassen is also trying to reconcile his love of alex with the knowledge that he on some level is responsible for the suffering alex endured at the hands of mi6. and possibly even the fact that alex's godfather is the one who killed john and helen.

[aromistic]

holy SHIT

[theafrochick]

Other Enders Game anon is wrong, all religions and cultural differences are shunned at battle school, there’s literally a novella about it called “The War of the Gifts”. And while there is an element that Enders shouldn’t be holding onto his launchie friends, Alai also isn’t supposed to be continuing to be Muslim/anything other than a good faceless IF soldier

It’s annoying that people are trying to insist you just “don’t get it” bc u don’t like the book. Like I like the book but I think most of ur criticisms have been fair.

👀 /gen

[bugcadaver]

i just wanna read but my options in this house r either 1) my room, which is nice n private but only has my bed to sit on, or more preferable The Floor, or 2) the front room, which has a comfy chair n lamp set up, but family come in n out of which is extremely distracting

if i wanna b able to read more than a sentence at a time it's gotta be my room But i'll probably b too uncomfy to focus anyway.. bleeehh

also this house is So unfriendly to device use, which ig is good. every room has massive windows so bright sun all day, n all the blinds/curtains got torn down but not replaced. plus all the window settings r rotted or filled w asbestos so its not worth putting new ones up atm

i moved in in august n the idea was have the house liveable by xmas but lol @ that happening. obvs i can't fix anything myself or organise getting some1 to do it.. the fam's gotta take out loans to repair the house 2 sell it but everyone's got 100 other things to deal with first.. i'm just here helping keep the place sort of tidy in the meantime. god i'm already sick of it tho, the 2 months not paying rent have been nice but id like my own space asap

(...gotta find a new roommate, gotta find an affordable apartment somewhere i can get to work)...aiya.. i just want like a 1bedroom house out of the city, man

[lesbianraskolnikov]

I dont agree that crime and punishment could never be perfectly adapted but as I always say. German expressionism or animation. There is no other choice im sorry.

[samarecharm]

Akira being like, obsessed w loyalty, but having it as a positive(ish) trait is so fun to me. He doesnt outright say it or ever ask for it, but theres like an unspoken bond between the thieves and himself. He asks for it (demands, really) because he gives it in return. Its the classic ‘ride or die’ mentality; he demands trust and loyalty bc he 100% trusts his team. He would not have baited himself into what would be considered his literal death if he was not COMPLETELY and UTTERLY faithful to his team and the cause. He trusted them to fulfill their end of the bargain no matter how difficult that wouldve been for them. And because of their mutual faith in each other, leader to team and team to leader, they all managed to make it out and live another school year.

He has very little regard for his life but hes not necessarily reckless. Hes calculated. And while hes a bit out of sorts in the beginning with all of these new ideas and concepts, he quickly finds his footing later in the year. And bc he is assembling a team of people who are loyal to Him, he can afford to be loyal right back to them. He can afford to be risky if the risk is mitigated by having his team follow up on his actions. This team has to run like a well oiled machine; any hiccups will get the rest of the team caught or worse; hurt or killed.

Ryuji inadvertently sets this trend, bc he is Ride or Die at heart and he somewhat influences Akira on this matter. And its why he is so reluctant to truly incorporate Goro onto the team (at first). Goro IMMEDIATELY clocks Akiras leadership as something heavier than simply ‘i lead this group to keep everyone on the same page’, but he wrongly assumes Akira has some sort of Thing about power. Theres no real power trip; he is not okay with limiting his teams voices on any matter. His ideas are not the end all, be all of any plan; hes Not Shido. I can imagine how tough Saes Palace was for everyone, but they needed to have unwavering faith in each other to pull off such a mindblowing plan.

I dunno where else im going w this, i just like thinking of Goro feeling some kinda way about Akira (and the thieves) unanimously declaring him as the leader of the thieves fully knowing what shady things theyve done up until this point. Someone who claims to change peoples hearts is deciding who gets to keep their free will or not, and to have a team basically say ‘yes hes our leader and we would die for him’ does NOT look good to anyone! Especially to someone who is quite literally killing people on behalf of someone Very Bad! Who then Dies for it!

[yuridovewing]

damn that sibling post really resonated with yall, didnt it

[loverboybrightsideghost]

my love of annotating VS my love of the library...FIGHT!!!

[jiishwa]

does anyone have any really good book recommendations? preferably books where romance is not at the center of the plot?

[volfoss]

like heres the thing- at surface level, you can really be impressed with rices inclusivity. like in a world where things were not horrible, to have a prominent black vampire in merrick, have an intersex genderfluid character in blackwood farm, billions of bisexuals etc, it all seems really nice. and then you look more into it and find that the way she writes anyone who doesnt fit a very specific mold is written horribly. merrick is treated as a sex object and a temptress as early as.. age 14 or so. she is never given the pov during the entire book that is TITLED AFTER HER because its all from a white guy who's been objectifying her forever. petronia (the character in blackwood) is misgendered often and treated as inhuman often in a very jarring way. her way of "inclusivity" with sexuality often includes very large age gaps between adults and minors treated completely normally and never really unpacking the damage that does to the victims, as well as incestuous relationships that if anything are fetishized to the point where i am positive she had a kink for it. her idea of representation is so incredibly surface level and doesn't really seem to examine many viewpoints outside of her own, nor take any care to handle any topic with any sensitivity. do i need to bring up the gay disabled vampire who is the only disabled vampire ever and is greatly treated with mass amounts of ableism from the woman who supposedly cares about him (if we are to believe rice's narrative that every slave owner just lovesss their slaves and wants the best for them and its GOOD for them to be enslaved). we are supposed to believe an author with this bad of a track record actually cares?

[rxttenfish]

i keep going through and reading more and more of and unintentionally "getting into" delta green lately, less because of a genuine interest in the game (or the modern iteration of it, anyways), and moreso because it's such a horrible trainwreck that it really does capture for me all of the problems encased by modern cosmic horror media.

like, i hate when people start any conversation of cosmic horror or eldritch horror with stating "lovecraft was a huge racist!" which i guess gives the wrong impression of me. its not that he wasnt, of course not. but rather people so often just parrot the same sentiment over and over without really analyzing what that really means or understanding what was racist about him and the writings of the lovecraft mythos.

because, like. lovecraft wasnt the only one at the table, you understand? the lovecraft mythos is the way that it is because it was effectively a group of weird horror writers playing with each others ocs and being encouraged to do so by the people who created those ocs. thats why the king in yellow is here. thats why the hounds of tindalos are here. lovecraft had contemporaries, he was not just doing this alone, which is where you start getting into the problem.

lovecraft was only just one guy. he was one guy who never found success in his life and never had very much influence in that life either. he was writing with his contemporaries and being influenced by them, and you'll see this if you actually go back and look at his influences. the shadow over innsmouth was influenced by a short story called "fishhead", which by far was more racist and hateful than the shadow over innsmouth.

it's not a closed damn system. the racism exists without lovecraft. he certainly contributed to it, but even in doing so, i feel like a lot of people forget that he also gradually got better towards his later life. not to say that he was perfect, god no, not by any measure, but i think thats also an unrealistic expectation for people to immediately be perfect and wonderful and "unproblematic" in coming out of hate too.

and delta green feels like the perfect encapsulation of this. i feel like a lot of people dont see this, because if they come into delta green they are expecting to come into it as players and not as the person running the game, and so much of this information is only really accessible on the handler's side of things. but it tries very hard to be progressive in its ideals and to set itself apart from lovecraft and the older writings of the cosmic horror genre, only to immediately include some things that feel so racist and vitriolic that i dont feel like i can outright share them.

like, these sourcebooks SAY they dont hate minorities, but then they have minorities that are literally human-eating monsters and have a group focused on bringing to light all the hate crimes that they face, framed as a farce to make people okay with them being human-eating monsters. there's a plot point in one of the scenarios where the only option is to kill a bunch of abused immigrant children, because they have already been tainted by the eldritch forces at play, and if allowed to grow up they will kill people and set up more scenarios to abuse other children. i tried to make it through the early history included in the handler's guide but couldnt due to how much racist pseudoscience and pseudohistory was just treated as fact within these games.

there's no case where encountering something from beyond the stars should not be immediately killed! they are all fundamentally evil and beyond redemption! the fish people that everyone said were horrifically racist are real in this game and there is no possible way they are not ontologically evil every time and their "deep one ancestry" will win out every time! ignore the fact that in the original shadow over innsmouth, our narrator who got the town of innsmouth raided and was targeted by said fish people, was also a fish person!! why do the stories of lovecraft with their accepted knowledge that they are racist, have greater agency and complexity within their "evil forces" than the entirety of a modern ttrpg!

its like the authors have their own intentions, but then just dont bother checking to make sure they actually come through in the worldbuilding or the actual content contained within these scenarios. theyre saying lovecraft was a racist, but they arent actually bothering to make sure they arent also racist.

[nomaishuttle]

i loveeee ignoring my problems and saying thats for a later me and ik everybody does this but its funny when its me bc afternoon connor is fr a different person than bedtime connor or work connor so when im like laundry... thats a problem for afternoon connor ^_^ it truly is not my problem and its quite awesome.