#book banning is still a thing ig

[glennquackmire]

Oh my gyatt the poll I did got 100% yes this is bananas

Here's more stuff about the diner au yayay

-the diner (juniors)(which was not my name idea it was @/coca-coeli 's and I still think it's so cute) and the socs restaurant (Holdens)(place holder name) were set up around the same time but because the holdens came from wealth they were able to advertise and stuff way more and therefore are more popular

-they were super snobby about it to the curtis parents which is where the rivalry between juniors and holdens comes from

-johnny is fully moved into thr curtis home and has been for abt a year yayyy I have a whole thing on why he moved out if u wanna hear abt it all cause ill forget to mention it 😭

-ponyboy likes 2 sit in the booths and read during his shifts.darry keeps catching him and makes him clean tge diner bathroom as punishment

-dallas has started 18 fires in the diner both on purpose and by accident

-darry hasn't fired him yet because he knows keeping dallas busy washing dishes and starting fires ig at the diner stops him from getting into trouble outside (as much)

Oh yeah I made it into a fake show so here's the episode premises for the fake 1st season

-the diner au is set a year after the death of the curtis parents (everyone's a year older than in the book ie darrys 21 sodas 17 pony's 15 TGERES A REASON FOR THIS I SWEAR

-twobit has a tiktok account set up to advertise the diner but all he does is post vids of himself or him playing roblox

-twobit is also BANNED from choosing the music for the diner

-Darry and paul stupidly got married at 18 😭even tho EVERYONR told them not to and now that they've broken up they can't get a divorce because they'd have to give up half their assets including their food joints and neither are willing to do that ( idk how accurate this is if there's any divorced outsiders fans out there let me know if i was close 🙏🙏)

-they both still carry their rings around w them but deny it

-steve takes his job VERY seriously welcome back carmy!@

-he goes bananas in the kitchen but nobody complains cause he makes the most HEAVENLY chocolate cake he does not play

I've repeated a bunch of these from discord,,ermm sorry

I can't think of anymore pls send asks if ur wondering abt anything pls pls pls I love talking abt diner au

Tgis is super long so I'll stop neow yay

[nezuscribe]

(i was the nonnie who asked about how america works) i don't really wanna keep going back and forth with this cause i dont wanna be annoying or anything, but i did a little bit of research and... that's not really what i've seen??

for all the economy stuff, Biden still had four (or is it five? idk how long your presidents stay in office) years to fix the economy he got from trump if it really was bad, and what ive seen from gas prices and grocery prices in america, he clearly hasn't done that

kamala also had four years to fix the issues she was talking about, so there's that

also, from what i know (pls correct me if im wrong) all of those sexual assault cases and other charges placed against him were proven wrong. i dont think hes actually been indicted or placed in jail for anything (which ig you could sum up to the unfair legal system over there, but wasn't there that hole issue with the Clinton guy?? maybe im getting things confused, idk)

from my research didn't he also provide a lot more jobs for people of color? ive never heard him say anything explicitly racist during his rally's (i havent watched all of them) or with his legislation. ik that whole thing with the border wall was going on, and i do think that was 100% rash way to deal with the border crisis, but the Biden guy also didn't do anything to help that situation

for reproductive rights, i remember tuning into the kamala v. trump debate and he explicitly said that he was pro-abortion in the cases of rape, incest, and life of the mother (if you think that abortion should be okay in any circumstance, the ig its just a different morality, where i live thats very not okay)

for the banning books thing, ive seen plenty of clips where in elementary school library's theyve been putting out books with porn and smut in them, which i think is not okay for little children to be leanring. from what i understand, that's probably what he was trying to do with banning books (again, pls correct me if im wrong)

and i've also never really seen him display any sort of homophobic tendencies.

pls keep in mind that this is all very basic level research, as i dont really have time to go that in depth, but im majoring in politcial science at my uni, so i think this is an interesting and important topic to discuss (sorry for making this so long)

so you seem pretty pro trump at this point but I’ll still humor you if you want to be so forgiving of him.

Who told you those sexual assault cases weren’t true? Those victims still stand by their stories.

And I said I’m not saying that Biden is great. But he was still working with Trumps fuck up. Also idk how much you know about a vice president, but they can’t really do much when they’re not president. I’m not saying Harris did everything she coudlve done, but being a vp has a lot less power than you think.

And for reproductive rights, yeah right. Those fuckers don’t give a DAMN about any cases. Even if they say they do. They want it gone, point blank period.

And one of his first days of office he took away trans people from the military. He spews homophobia.

Do more research. This is embarrassing

[gaybd1]

Okay last post I’m gonna make about this so lemme try to cover all of my points

1. first of all I promise your dumb little video app will be back in less than 24 hours because trump is trying to gain gen z’s favor so stop freaking out so goddamn much

2. the hypocrisy of protecting Americans from their data getting stolen by foreign governments while the US government steals just as much… valid, I get it.

3. if yall SAW the permissions the tiktok app gave the developer, it was WILD and literally let them see EVERYTHING on your phone. Contacts, photos, all that. And they are required to turn that over to the Chinese government by law

4. The app had like 9 or 10 months to sell and they got LOTS of offers. The fact that they didn’t just seems to confirm suspicions of a spy operation, sorry

5. Also people who made a living on the app… also had 9 or 10 months of warning to set something else up, and the smart ones did. Stop acting like they suddenly lost their livelihoods.

6. Americans love freedom so much, it’s actually really tactless to call this censorship and that people migrating from the app are ‘refugees’ when there are real refugees and censorship in the world. This was a valid national security concern and there are entire countries full of people who don’t use Chinese apps for that very reason. Everything you could see there, you can still see on ig reels so chill the fuck out. Nobody is being censored. The real censorship in America is the book and drag bans, maybe look into that

7. Rednote sounds cool, it’s great to interact with normal Chinese folks! But yall are so fucking dumb. First of all the data thing, but also the Chinese government is NOT going to let their people keep interacting freely with westerners. I guarantee they will implement separate servers by the end of the week. WHAT THIS APP WILL CONTINUE TO DO IS SPIT CCP LIES AND PROPAGANDA AT YOU and some of yall are gonna keep eating it up. That’s terrifying

8. I’ve lived in China. I’ve lived in America. I live in Taiwan. Chinese and American people are great. Both governments are evil. Tiananmen Square DID happen, Uyghurs and Tibetans ARE facing cultural genocide, and half of China’s population lives in severe poverty. There are gross amounts of censorship all over the country and there are places westerners are not even allowed to travel because they don’t want you to see how bad it is. The people on rednote are rich urban educated folks. Just. Don’t believe the lies

9. Just in general yall are overreacting way too much and idk what y’all’s problem with ig reels is

[gayassbish]

Genshin Guys as Your New Bestie. Highschool AU

Genre: Platonic of course and very much so crack

Reader: Gender Neutral | References to “girly pop” in Childe and Kaeya’s Part

Characters: Diluc, Zhongli, Childe and Kaeya, Alhaitham, Bennet, Xinqiu and Chongyun, Xiao

Diluc-

The kid who raises his hand and asks a bunch of questions, but still manages to not come of nerdy, but intelligent. He doesn’t talk to anyone in class and some other kids in class thinks he’s arrogant cause of it. Like “he’s too smart for us vibes.” You, on the other hand, know better than to trust the rumors and actually get to know his ass. That is lie, I can’t imagine anyone walking up to his emo self unless you’re the most extroverted person on the planet. He also definitely plays chess online in his chromebook 24/7.

Butttt you do end up sitting next to him as your seating arrangements change every semester or so. You say hi like a normal person and he sorta just grunts?? Terrible first impression, but you realize he’s very kind. Always picking up your fallen pencils, sharing homework answers with out you asking, and you end up getting a long pretty well once you find your stuff in common.

P.S. He’d 100% drive you around everywhere

Zhongli-

A popular dude cause he’s handsome ig and the fucking valedictorian. Plus he manages to know everything without coming off like a know it all, so he is generally well received by everyone and helps basically everyone out. Has a 10000 IQ and a calculator for a brain too. Probably wears granny glasses.

So… you’re at your part time job and notice him coming in. You immediately hide cause you don’t know him like that (yet) and don’t want to be remembered as “oh they’re the person who works there.” One of your coworkers helps him out instead while you secretly spy and realize he’s not as smart as he looks?? He is very much so only book smart and has no street cred what so ever. He looks so lost as to why he can’t take whatever y’all sell now and pay latter. He honestly gives your coworker a hard time. (rip coworker </3) You eventually help out and he recognizes you!! You learn he has an excellent memory and actually knows your name. And viola now your the person who he can go to for financial means. Have fun!

P.S You drive him everywhere…

Childe & Kaeya-

They’re those loud kids in the back who don’t shut up. I want to say they’re pant saggers but I know I would get canceled. (They so are though.) Anywho, you end up being forced to sit next to them and they like start flirting of sum shit idk?

But you’re girly pop and you don’t take that crap. After you put them in their place and educate them on how they shouldn’t talk to anyone that way like some cat calling NPC, they start to really respect you?? Well to be fair you don’t know if they’re scared of you or are just putting on an act.

Y’all get closer as you stop a lot of fights that happen between them and do your best to quiet them down in class.

And they kinda just drag you to places. Once you lost a bet and were forced to go shopping with them. (If you didn’t show up, they threatened to upload a photo of you sleeping in class onto their social media.) At the mall… Childe started to pick fights with the security guard (he claims it’s the other way around but we both know it was him) and Kaeya DOES NOTHING?? He just records the whole thing while giggling like an idiot. Y’all get banned from the mall. They do nothing but apologize on the way to your house (they picked and dropped you off.) It didn’t work cause you didn’t talk to them for a month after that.

P.S. Kaeya actually has really good fashion taste and was the one the blackmail you because he wanted to Project MakeOver you??

Alhaitham-

He’s an obnoxious, self-centered asshole to everyone and you do your best to avoid him until you’re stuck together for a group project.

Even though you know to the rumors about him, you still introduce yourself like a person with manners would… BUT he cuts you off. Immediately orders that he will do the project by himself entirely. And while you would usually take that deal (cause who wouldn’t, let’s be honest) you CANNOT stand the disrespect from this MAN. You guys start arguing until the teacher has to break it up between y’all and fucking Alhaitham is just like “I’ve never been so embarrassed infront of a teacher,” as if he didn’t start the fight. smh

Anyways, it’s really rough between you guys and it’s now presentation day. After you guys present, Alhaitham turns out rather pleased with your part, and though he would NEVER admit it to you (or even himself) you actually did better on your part than he would’ve if he went solo. At the end of class, he apologizes for being so cold at first. He explains how he hasn’t had the best group partners and almost always does all the work. He asks if you’d be okay working together again.

P.S. If you said yes, y’all would turn into an unstoppable duo. And if you said no THEN GOOD. He needs a lesson.

Bennett-

You definitely decided to just look after him once you saw him drop his phone, bag, papers, and himself down the stairs multiple times. You’re basically his bodyguard atp. You literately carry around extra bandaids cause of him omg. You guys have a bunch of classes together so it’s easy for y’all to get a long. You help protect him from bullies (Bennett just attracts the worst kinds of people) and he starts to think you’re his lucky charm.

Basically starts to worship you?? Invites you to hang out in his friend group of misfits featuring Razor, Barbra, and Fischl. They play DnD during lunch too and drag you into it. Honestly it turns into a cult with you as their leader. At the end of the school year, the five of you pull a bunch of pranks on the kids who were messing with Bennet.

P.S. The cult had a name: Lord Y/N’s Pimps. Barbra came up with it because she thought calling someone a pimp was a form on endearment… the name ended up just sticking.

Xingqiu & Chongyun-

They’re those fucking kids who won’t shut up about Harry Potter or Star Wars or sum shit. Luckily for them, you can be just as geeky. You fit in pretty well with them.

Y’all met after you went off on them for spoiling the new Star Wars movie and eventually bonded over your love for those space ninjas. You get invited to watch movies and join the arcade with them 24/7. You join in on Xinqiu’s bullying of Chongyun and in turn actually out smart Xinqiu. So it balances out. They love you cause they probably get tired of each other after a lot of their own fights, but you’re always there to ground them <3

P.S BY FARRR the best people to go trick or treating with on halloween.

Xiao-

The kid who never got out of ‘emo skater boy phase’. A lot of people think he’s cool, but he doesn’t have many (tbh any) friends for two reasons. One, he’s hard to approach, and two, he’s socially awkward as fawkk.

You guys have been going to the same school for years, but never actually talked to each other until you saw him playing The Legend of Zelda on the switch. You ask to watch and he kinda just scoots over without saying anything. Weird, but you bring up how nostalgic it is to see people from back in the day to when everyone still wet their pants to how they’ve changed now. Xiao just kinda mumbles in response. He actually doesn’t want the conversation to end and sorta just awkwardly asks how you’re weekend was on a tuesday…

Once you learn he’s not as scary as he looks and is secretly a big giant marshmallow on the inside, you guys get a long pretty well. Then when he gets more comfortable with your presence, he’s so much more less awkward (a sign that he trusts you) and his real personality will start to blossom. You guys go to the park a lot and feed the ducks (WITH real duck food, may I add, and not the nasty expired bread). You guys play on the swings and exchange playlists/sound recommendations.

P.S. You wonder if he actually knows how to ride a skateboard because he’s one of those skater boys who actually just brings a skateboard with them everywhere while they never use it?? Like we get it. You have legs for a reason but then why bring the skateboard if you’re just gonna walk.

And you get closer to them all once they trauma dump on you </3

A/N: My first post wowowow | 11/01/2023

[kwyw]

Hey “Karlie Kloss is married” Anon:

You are aware that in 2023, the LGBTQIA community is still fighting for basic human rights, no?

You are aware that in 2023, people are banning FICTIONAL books because of the mere mention of LGBTQIA characters, right? What about the banning of drag shows? “Don’t Say Gay” in Florida?

Read the room, a book or maybe watch/read the news. The LGBTQIA community exists and will continue to exist regardless of the treatment they receive from those who claim to “not judge people for who they love because love is love” when it’s convenient for them and who misquote & misinterpret Martin Luther King, Jr.’s words on the one day out of the year they try to show they don’t discriminate against people in any way, shape or form.

However, it’s people with mindsets like yours who will always force the LGBTQIA+ community to continue the fight for equality, even in 2023!

Lavender marriages exist. People aren’t making this up or pulling it from the depths of their asses. If it were so easy to “just come out”, people would more frequently because that would mean people truly don’t care.

People lose jobs for being gay. They’re turned away from restaurants. Refused wedding cakes. Overlooked for promotions when they’re more than qualified or deserving. Denied the opportunity to buy a house or adopt a child. Called mentally ill or pedophiles. Physically attacked. Harassed. Murdered. All because of who they lay beside at night.

Just because Taylor is a billionaire doesn’t mean people wouldn’t treat her differently if she ever (allegedly) came out and the same for Karlie (allegedly). She would lose fans. Her albums may not sell as much. Venues may not want her to perform there to avoid protesters. People may stop buying a company’s products if she endorses them. Look at Bud Light/Dylan Mulvaney.

Because for some reason, some people in society think money loses it’s value if someone’s sexual orientation isn’t the same as theirs, but guess what:

Money is still green and it’s still paper, whether it comes from a gay person hands or not. That same green paper is what people want others to spend to support *them* and *their* business. You want it as a reward for your hard work at your job. You accept it as a gift. If you found $50 outside of a gay bar, you’re gonna pick it up because it’s $50 on the ground, right?

People will accept cash, card, credit, Apple Pay, etc., but won’t accept other people based on their race, sexuality, etc.

Crazy world we live in.

It’s not even easy for people to become billionaires, much less come out of the closet because in either scenario, they could lose everything.

Why do you think Scott Swift and that other guy were so against her speaking about politics? Ask yourself why you’re so triggered at the possibility that Taylor and Karlie could be or are (allegedly) gay?

Why do you think Josh (allegedly) takes Karlie on the majority of his business trips? His own family refused to acknowledge her for years. Josh himself referred to his friend Mikey (also married with two kids) as their roommate. Have you seen his past birthday tributes to Mikey compared to Karlie’s?

At the end of the day, people in some industries have to present themselves a certain way to be successful. It’s like code switching. You have to change or suppress things about yourself to appease other people.

Also, Karlie *has* actively dropped Easter eggs (hello, cardigan/folklore!). You probably just don’t like the messenger. For example:

Her using Labyrinth’s music in her IG stories just for Labyrinth to be a song on midnights?

Her own sister, Kimby, saying “la la la la” on twitter, just for Karlie to pop up at the LA show.

Taylor said in MA that she and her partner decided together they wanted their relationship to be private.

Wouldn’t you say that fits Taylor/Karlie? Because when you don’t see two people associating as much publicly as they used to, you automatically assume something happened or that they aren’t friends…right? Because that’s what everyone assumed until Karlie showed up at the rep tour and the eras tour.

[foxes-that-run]

2020 Haylor Timeline

Timeline Tag, or years 2011, 2012, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, 2019, 2020, 2021, 2022, 2023 and 2024.

21 January - Andrea treated for brain tumor and chemo

29 January - Harry shoots the watermelon sugar MV in Malibu. The director later says “The production process was fast! We shot in a location in Malibu. It was a private beach at this amazing house. Harry actually owns a watermelon farm in a secret location that we can’t disclose. So the day before the shoot we went with our whole crew, make-up artists, set decorators, focus pullers you name it! We all rolled up our sleeves, got stuck in and did the biggest harvest anyone in the USA has ever seen!”

31 January - Miss Americana documentary released.

2 February - Harry at Glenne Christiaansen's (Jeff's GF) birthday in Los Angeles. Huge whale cake that gets on his face.

3 February - Harry arrives London

14 February - Harry played Two Ghosts on Radio 2, the only time since 2018, anniversary of Style MV release. He also covered Joni Mitchell Big Yellow Taxi.  Taylor also in London for NME awards, Joe goes with her. She says hello to every one there including Matty Healy. Harry is robbed at knifepoint.

18 February - Harry at Brit awards, went to same after party as Kendall

23 February - Harry's Tiny Desk Concert recorded in LA, the Lover CD Is in the background. Taylor was there in October.

24 February - Taylor and Joe in London for his birthday, arrived under umbrellas carrying a dictionary, Ed laughing.

26 February - Harry on today show in colour block cardigan. Xander watches with Jeff rumour he then visited Xander Ritz in phlli.

28 February - Harry's Sirius XM Secret Session for Fine Line. Harry tells a story about wawa with Xander. Seen with Xander in ny

29 February Roman Farrow said he’s a swiftie and has framed a letter she wrote him after Catch & Kill https://x.com/RonanFarrow/status/1233562581094293504

1 March - Harry SNL after party

2 March - Harry's last pre-pandemic show is at the Bowery Ballroom. Replaces the Beachwood cafe with Bowery ballroom in falling.

5 March - When Howard Stern asked Harry about marriage his response was "People’s relationships are different now, everyone’s open 👀 and people have different things."

6 March - Taylor released the man BTS where she said “this is a family show”

13 March - US Travel ban (except UK), California Shelter in place orders. 17 March UK Travel ban. 16 March Taylor posts asking fans to cancel plans and stay home, shares photo so Meredith

17 March UK travel ban

18 March - Harry driving in La with Xander

25 March - Announced HSLOT rescheduled to 2021

27 March - Harry releases “at home with Harry styles” pandemic playlist with Zane Lowe. ‘This will be our year’ is #13, 27 songs. Includes blue nile, later mentioned on TTPD

March - June Taylor and Harry stuck in LA for 3 months. Harry told Zane Lowe he was in LA, stayed home for 6 weeks then booked and went to Shangri-la studio to record. LNT, Daylight, keep driving and Sushi. (24 Mins)

2 April - Harry seen riding a motorcycle beside Kendall Jenner and Fai Khadra.

5 April Harry seen in la and again

11 April - Harry drives his mercedes convertible in Beverly Hills same as Taylor had in Begin Again

17 April - 2020 Lover Fest tour postponed to 2021, later cancelled. Told Zane Folklore started then. Joe IG photo of Benjamin

18 April - Taylor soon you'll get better

29 April - Joe instagram photos

19 May Taylor releases City of Lover

21 May - Harry rode electric bike LA

25 May - date Too Much Sauce leak recorded. Still in LA

31 May - Taylor records video in Long Pond about home studio. Joe school thing

22 June - rumours Harry messaging Daisy Lowe.

29 June - Harry seen in London

9 July - Harry Styles Sleep story

18 July - Harry back in uk, drove to Italy and back with Tomo Campbell, he talks about this in the Zane interview. Driving moustache photo in HH CD

Over the summer Styles took a road trip with his artist friend Tomo Campbell through France and Italy, setting off at four in the morning and spending the night in Geneva, where they jumped in the lake “to wake ourselves up.” At the end of the trip Styles drove home alone, accompanied by an upbeat playlist that included “Aretha Franklin, Parliament, and a lot of Stevie Wonder. It was really fun for me,” he says. “I don’t travel like that a lot. I’m usually in such a rush, but there was a stillness to it. I love the feeling of nobody knowing where I am, that kind of escape…and freedom.” Harry for Vogue

20 July folklore announced 17 hours before its release. William Bowery is credited for Exile and Betty. Released on 1D's 10 year anniversary. In the Zane interview, Taylor says they continued working on Evermore.

31 July - Harry with a fan in Italy in an outfit in his later post about making Harry’s House. Also driving a tractor in Italy.

13 August - Harry followed Yan Yan on IG and liked some posts

17 August Harry in Studio in Bath. Recorded Daylight, Sushi, Keep Driving and Late night talking in this period.

3 September - Taylor posts about iHeartAwards from home

? September - Long Pond was recorded with Joe as WB and Tis the Damn Season written, Doretha already written.

6 September - Olivia Wilde and Jason Sudekis at beach in Malibu with Nanny and kids. In the 2022 Nanny tell all the Nanny said they were happy then but Olivia told Harry it had been over for a while when it had not been.

11 September, Olivia Wilde met and cast Harry in Don't worry Darling, filming began October.

16 September - Taylor performed Betty in person at ACM awards in Nashville.

18 September Harry in London

22 September - Harry driving car and boat in Italy filming golden

27 September Harry in LA

6 October - Harry dinner with mystery girl

25 October - OW carrying Bode bag later thought about Harry

26 October - DWD starts filming

28 October - Harry signs a record and a fan posts a letter than his car broke down and he fed their fish. Deux moi said it was a cover because his friend with benefits was house sitting. The friend with benefits is thought to be Nicole branch.

5 November - DWD halts production due to COVID on set. In tell all the Nanny said Olivia moved out down the street 'that is how she left us' because of COVID on set which was true. Jason Sudukis also later says to GQ they broke up in November

11 November - Harry films Valiant Roar scene in DWD, which includes Dita Von Teese who later repeats the Scene in the Bejeweled Music Video. Also described in Rolling Stone article with OW and possibly referred to in loml as valiant roar. Date odly specified in DWD BTS, also dinner party scene, OW wears Harry's pink beanie in the BTS during dinner party scene.

12 November Deux Moi posts that a “one direction heartthrob” and “a list singer” used the same private chef

13 November - Harry on cover of Vogue, after this the Peace ring only appeared occasionally

25 November long pond sessions on Disney + Joe announced as William Bowery

26 November Harry returns to la to film DWD, California maybe written here

3 December - DWD filming palm springs. Fan says they served Harry and OW at Apple Pan

11 December evermore released, taylor’s zane lowe interview, at 49:34 she pauses a lot and struggles to talk about Joe being William Bowery.

19 December Harry jingle ball seems flat

30 December - 7 photos of Joe and Taylor thought to be taken 31 December 2016 hack/leak. Only 7 photos?? She is wearing a pink wig while he shaves. OW wearing necklace she later says was a gift from Harry.

Continue to 2021

[justamoth96]

Goodbye, Tiktok

I spent a good amount of time today following my favorite creators on IG and saving my favorite videos. I'm sure I missed some, but it wasn't like I went back and rewatched my liked videos all the time. I didn't save any videos that I made myself, except for one I posted in early December about my dog who we had to put down. (He was 15 1/2 years old).

I'm actually crying over losing TikTok, but all day I didn't think I'd be sad enough to cry. I've been angry in the days leading up to now, and I cry when I'm angry, but that's not what this is. I'm not angry right now. I rarely posted videos, despite wanting to be a content creator, because I knew the app was going to be banned and I didn't want to get attached in that way. But I'm crying. Because I'm sad. Why am I so sad?

Because I'm lonely.

I realized, in the precious minutes after TikTok went down, that I'm lonely. I watched a video on TikTok sometime ago that said TikTok feels like a conversation, and they were right. I didn't need to post videos or comments to feel included, I already was. I wasn't alone.

The last year or so made me realize how on my own I am.

I would put my phone down, but TikTok away, and engage in the real world only to come away with the understanding that no one really knows me.

No one in my life cares about Palestine. I'd put my phone away and feel like tearing my hair own because I felt like I was the only person who cared.

I got to experience other people's niche interests. Sometimes our interests were the same and sometimes they were different, but the feeling was still shared between us.

I followed a woman who didn't start dating until she was in her 30's and that made me feel seen. I followed a woman who looked like me but was braver than me for posting her weight loss journey, and seeing her succeed made me think I could succeed, too.

I laughed a lot, too. I watched the most random and interesting videos that made me laugh so hard I cried.

I learned a lot, too. I learned more about how the government worked than I ever did in any government or civics class. I learned about food and nutrition, I learned about exercise, I learned about the stars. I even learned about other countries, about Palestine, about books, about people.

TikTok was a conversation, and I never had to worry that I was on the outside. I wasn't being stealthily nudged out or ignored, I never had to worry that I was going to say the wrong thing at the wrong time. I didn't have to follow the normal social rules of having a conversation while still feeling like I was involved in one.

I'm going to miss the people. I'm going to miss the feeling of belonging I got while scrolling through TikTok. And maybe in a week it'll be back and this post will me cringe, but it's how I feel. And expressing my feelings isn't cringe.

Goodbye, TikTok. But only for now.

[treasurecitymoonchild]

Chapter 4 - The Death of Me

story: The Lieutenant's Shadow - Simon 'Ghost' Riley x Reader

cw: fem!reader, guns, explosions, angst, a bit of fluff? ig, teasing, mentions of sexual activities but no smut (not yet ;))

word count: 3,532

chapter summary: Your mind wanders to places it shouldn't as your first mission takes an unexpected turn.

read this chapter on ao3

It's been a week since the unusual first meeting with your Lieutenant.

You didn't expect your first time talking to Ghost to be like that. You didn't expect him to be like that. He acted like a complete asshole towards you that night, not giving a shit about his soon-to-be partner standing in front of him. It wasn't particularly a first meeting for in the books.

And yet, you hadn't been able to stop thinking about him.

Something awakened in you that day, something unfamiliar. It was a feeling you had tried to stop from nestling in your mind and heart for years. A feeling you had forced yourself to ban from your personal list of feelings. Because of self-protection and professionalism, but mostly because you weren't ready for anything related to love. Not after what happened last time.

It, therefore, came as a complete surprise to you that the little devil on your shoulder decided to say fuck it to that long-cherished way of thinking and make you more than just a little interested in a man whose face you haven't even seen.

The only thing of him you'd seen were his eyes. They had you in awe from the moment they met yours. Their brown colour reminded you of the dried-out swarthy soil in your childhood backyard that you used to draw figures in with your hands when you were younger. The remnants of soil used to be stuck underneath your fingernails, just like he was currently stuck inside your mind.

Since your first meeting a week ago, you hadn't spoken to Ghost the way you had that night. In fact, you hadn't spoken directly to him at all. You joined in on conversations where he was present, and you listened to his orders, but you didn't dare talk to him or answer one of his questions.

You tried not looking at him too much either, even though that failed massively. You'd already caught yourself staring at him multiple times. Your eyes shot towards him to catch a glimpse of his presence every time he passed by and they were unable to retrieve from their subject of interest.

Sometimes, you could feel eyes on you as well. Your back would get warm at the feeling, as if two laser beams were pointed at you. When you turned to look at what or who it was, you were never successful to catch someone staring at you or see a head quickly turning the other way. Except for one time.

You were outside having a smoke on your fourth day, right before dinner. You had walked up to one of the SUVs on the terrain, admiring it. You had placed your cigarette in your mouth, both hands tracing the spare tire on the back of the car, checking it for any rips or signs it might need to be replaced.

Suddenly, you got the feeling that you weren't alone out there. Your senses had become relatively well-developed over the years, so you knew exactly when another presence was around you.

You turned around with caution, your right hand hovering over the knife in the cover clinging to your belt. You tensed when your eyes landed on Ghost, who was leaning against the wall of the safehouse.

He was standing in the exact same spot as when the two of you first met. Instead of it being dark, it was still light out, making it clearly visible that he was staring at you. 

Hard.

He didn't care to look away, his eyes taking in every part of your presence in front of him. His evasive behaviour of the past four days was non-existent. It didn't take you long until you returned the same energy, blatantly staring back at him while crossing your arms. Your cigarette was almost burned to the filter, the ashes threatening to lose their battle with gravity.

After a couple of long seconds, the smoke started irritating your eyes, causing you to blink erratically. You rubbed them with the back of your hands to make the burning feeling go away, which made you temporarily lose your vision of the man in front of you. When you opened your eyes again, he was gone.

That specific moment had caused you to think. You could've sworn you started alone out there, and that he had either spawned out of nowhere or followed you outside. The latter seemed more logical. But if he did, then why did he follow you? Did he want to talk to you? He didn't look like he was about to speak up, he just stood there.

Staring at you.

You started thinking about the way he was looking at you. His eyes were filled with so many emotions, yet you couldn't place them at all when they met yours. Was it anger, curiosity, or perhaps... lust?

You hated yourself for even thinking of the last option. Yes, you were attracted to him, but you couldn't think of your lieutenant like that. The army isn't a place for love and lust, so you tried shaking off that feeling, no matter how badly you didn't want to. You secretly really wanted to get to know the mysterious man underneath the skull mask.

You couldn't help but wonder if he felt something similar, but cursed at yourself for even thinking another thing that was so stupid. He probably didn't give a damn about you. Like a good lieutenant, he was focused on the mission. He wouldn't let his mind wander off to some girl who just joined his Task Force.

You tried your absolute best to ignore your feelings, as far as that was possible. But whenever your eyes landed on him, your heart started beating faster. It was like a schoolgirl having her first crush on the handsome boy in her class. Except, this boy was a man, who was also years older than you. You also didn't know if he was handsome, but with his beautiful brown eyes and tall muscular body, you couldn't imagine the rest of him being ugly.

You were currently out on your first mission as a member of the Task Force. It was a scoping mission, intended to explore the surroundings of Al Mazrah and take out any enemies that were surrounding the perimeter of Hassan's possible hideout.

You were joined by Soap and Ghost. The three of you were currently sweeping through all of the apartments of an abandoned flat. Soap was walking up front, keeping his silenced assault rifle steadily aimed while slowly tip-toeing through the hallway. You were really glad about Soap being there. You would've dreaded being alone with your lieutenant right now. Although, the idea also kind of excited you.

What also excited you, was the fact that Ghost was walking behind you. Any normal person wouldn't have thought anything about that, but not you. You internally hoped, no, begged that he was looking at your ass. You couldn't help but force your ass back a little bit further whenever you squatted down.

Soap puts his fist up, signalling for you and Ghost to stop walking. He uses the barrel of his gun to slightly push a door open that led to one of the apartments. You stop dead in your tracks, with Ghost doing the same, but only a second later. That gave him the perfect opportunity to scoot a bit closer to you. Did he just do that on purpose?

The action made your breath hitch in your throat, but you tried silencing the sound that came with it just as fast. You try to focus on Soap, who was hiding behind the door scanning the room to see if it was safe, but the presence of your lieutenant so close behind you makes you internally scream.

"Clear," Soap says. He opens the door all the way, walking in while lowering his rifle to his side. You do the same, the warmth of Ghost's presence behind you disappearing.

Ghost makes sure to close the door behind him, in case there were any other enemies inside the building. You look around the room, your eyes landing on what looks like a children's play corner. The toys were spread across the floor, some already covered in a thin layer of dust.

You make your way over to the corner. An unfinished drawing lay on the floor, crayons scattered around it. You squat down to examine it. The child had been drawing a beach scene, the blue crayon they had used to fill in the sea had hastily been dropped on top of the artwork. You trace your finger across the pigmented wax, the blue colour staining your finger.

"What happened to you?" you ask just above a whisper to no one in particular.

The sound of your lieutenant's voice surprises you.

"Probably taken by AQ. If they were healthy, AQ would use the boys as child soldiers and the girls as slaves. If not,"

He kept quiet.

His comment makes you turn your head towards him. Because of his sudden decision to actually talk to you, but mostly because of what he just said. It made you feel an incredible amount of heartbreak, guilt and sadness at the same time.

Ghost is standing a few feet away from you, just far enough to be able to look over your shoulder at the drawing. Your eyes meet for a brief moment, and you could've sworn that you saw his eyes soften. Without thinking too much about it, you turn your head back towards the artwork. You want to take it, and cherish it, but you don't. You stand up again, leaving the drawing in its original spot.

Praying to God that the child may ever come home to finish it.

"Guys! Come check this out," Soap yells from the other room, a little too loud for Ghost's liking.

"Quiet, Soap! There might still be others around," he sternly tells the sergeant, giving him an annoyed look.

Soap peeks his head through the door, shooting his lieutenant an apologetic look.

"Sorry, Lt. But you gotta see this," he says while beaming at you and Ghost.

You furrow your eyebrows, glancing over towards Ghost. He returns the action, side-eyeing you while being unsure of what to do. You shrug, making your way towards the room that Soap was in. Ghost follows you without saying another word.

As you step inside, you are met with Soap rummaging through a cabinet. Intrigued, you walk closer to him, only for him to turn his head towards you and Ghost with a big smile.

"It's a CD collection!" Soap says while proudly holding up two CDs of an Arabic singer.

Ghost sighs. The corners of your mouth curl up in a small smile.

"As if you can even understand anything he's singing about," you say while chuckling. Soap shoots you an unamused look.

"That's not the point, Viper. Do you have any idea how long it's been since we've listened to some good ol' tunes?"

You shake your head.

"Weeks, months! And besides, music is not just about what someone's singing about," Soap says slightly but sarcastically agitated, turning his head back towards the collection in the cabinet.

A pile of about thirty CDs, mostly Arabic, are stacked inside. Soap flips through them, trying to find anything he recognizes.

"It's what you call good old tunes," Ghost mutters under his breath, glancing towards the CDs in front of Soap.

His comment makes you chuckle, and you can feel Ghost turning his head towards you. You keep looking at the situation in front of you, anxious to meet Ghost's eyes and see the look on his face. After a couple of seconds, you notice his gaze shifting elsewhere in the corner of your eye, which makes you relax a bit.

"Aha!" Soap exclaims. He holds up a CD of Lady Gaga's The Fame.

Soap stares at you and Ghost, patiently awaiting a reaction from the both of you.

You put a hand up to your mouth to muffle any laughs that are threatening to come out. Ghost just stares at his sergeant without any emotion on his face.

Soap slowly lowers the CD and rolls his eyes.

"I don't care what you guys say, this album's a masterpiece. I'm taking it," he says while taking his backpack off his shoulders. The sergeant zips open his backpack and throws the CD in it without any care.

"Careful there, I know there's a song on there called I Like It Rough but you don't have to act on that now," you manage to say in a semi-serious tone, before breaking out in laughter.

Soap lifts his head and stares at you, trying to keep his composure. The corners of his mouth slowly curl up into a smile, and soon he's laughing along with you.

"That was a good one, lass," Soap says in between laughs while patting you on the back.

You hear Ghost sigh loudly behind you. It makes you turn towards him, a big smile still on your face. It falters when you see the annoyed look he's giving you and Soap.

"Enough joking around, we have a mission to do. Let's go," he says through gritted teeth.

"Ah come on, Lt. A bit of jokin' around never harmed anyone," Soap says while placing his backpack on his shoulders. Ghost doesn't respond to that as he's already walked to the other room. You look at Soap. He shrugs.

"Guess he doesn't like Lady Gaga," Soap says. You tightly press your lips together, suppressing a loud snort from being heard by your lieutenant. Soap notices your expression and chuckles before walking over to Ghost. You walk out not long after, your face going back to its usual seriousness.

"I'm upfront. Soap, you'll check out the room opposite this one. Viper, you watch my six."

Your heart skips a beat when he says your codename. It rolls off his tongue with such ease and grace. You start to wonder how your real name will sound when he says it.

Yells it.

Moans it.

You shake yourself out of your thoughts. They almost make you forget that you're in a warzone and that the two men have already started moving.

You put your rifle in a ready-to-fire position close to your face, aiming down the red dot sight attached to it. You quicken your step to catch up with Ghost while Soap disappears into the room on the opposite side of the hallway.

It's silent between the two of you. Besides both of your footsteps, nothing can be heard. He's extremely focused when it comes to his task, moving around with stealth like a lion hunting its prey.

The silence heightens all of your senses. You hear his controlled, almost hypnotising breaths when he stands still. You smell the hints of cedarwood and oak in his aftershave and the gunpowder on his clothes. You see how he seems to almost be protecting you with his huge body. You feel him when he stops just a second too late for you to notice, making you almost bump into him repeatedly.

Oh, the things you'd do to taste him.

You keep a close eye on your left and right sides and occasionally glance behind you to make sure that you two are in for no surprises. Ghost puts his fist up, making you stop dead in your tracks. You're close to him, extremely close. Your armoured vest is almost touching his back. The two vests slightly touch one another whenever he breathes in.

Ghost slowly steps forward, inching closer towards the door of another apartment. The door is closed, and he gently opens the door just enough to stick the barrel of his gun through it. He slowly opens the door, using his gun to do so. You watch him intently as you wait for what's being revealed to you in a couple of seconds.

While you check your surroundings once more, your eyes shoot downward when a glimmer catches your attention. A thin piece of wire is attached to the door and the right side of the doorframe. Every inch that Ghost opens the door, the wire gets tighter and tighter. A switch flips inside of you when you see Ghost leaning forward to walk in.

"Tripwire!" you yell.

Without any hesitation, you grab Ghost's arm and yank him back as hard as you can. You struggle a bit, seeing the man is almost twice your size, but you succeed. He stumbles backwards and loses his balance in the process. He falls half on top of you, causing you to be squeezed between his buff body, the floor and the wall.

Wow, didn't know I was that strong.

A chuckle that sounds more like a suffocated huff leaves your lips. Ghost stands up as quickly as possible. He grabs his gun from the floor and sighs.

"You could've told me that in a different way than completely ripping me out of my concentration," Ghost grunts while extending his hand to you to help you off the floor, clearly annoyed.

Now you let out a real huff as you look at him in disbelief.

"Excuse me? I just saved your life, a normal response to that is 'thank you'," you tell him sternly while grabbing his hand.

He pulls you up with a little too much strength, causing you to end up only inches away from his covered face. You try to move away from him, but he holds you in place by your wrist. You squint your eyes as you look up at him.

"What?" you ask him in a surprised but slightly teasing way.

He doesn't answer, his gaze not leaving your face once. You can feel his hot breath on your skin through his mask.

"Saved my life? Sergeant, you'll be the death of me someday."

He completely took away your ability to speak with that one sentence. You furrow your eyebrows as you look him in his eyes. Those beautiful brown eyes. They have shifted from anger to surprise to lust in a matter of seconds, but it doesn't take long for them to return to their neutral state when he hears the sound of Soap's voice.

"All clear, my dudes! Got one AQ member who was asleep in one of the rooms. Safe to say that the sleeping beauty won't wake up anytime soon," Soap says a little too cheerfully while approaching the two of you. Ghost shoots you one last look before quickly letting go of you. You stand there unsure of what to do or say, completely bewildered by what just happened.

You'll be the death of me someday? The fuck did he mean by that?

You have little time to think about that as Ghost has already moved inside the room in front of him. He's carefully removing the trip wire from the door. You are frozen, staring at his focused face. The face that was just inches away from your own.

"You alright there, lass?"

Soap's comment shakes you out of your thoughts. You look over at him and give him a small smile.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just didn't expect to almost get boobytrapped," you say while pointing towards the tripwire, knowing damn well that that's not the reason. 

"Ah, it's part o' the job. AQ has quite the reputation for boobytrapping a place," he says. "Most of the time they're so bad that they'll blow up without someone triggering them."

Great.

You hear a low grunt coming from below you, causing you and Soap to simultaneously look down. Ghost holds what looks like a makeshift C4 bomb in his hands. It's crafted really badly, the black tape that has been used to keep it together falling off at all sides.

"I hope you defused that," Soap says while taking a step back as a precaution.

Ghost glares at him, giving him an 'are you serious' look. Soap huffs.

"O'course you did," Soap examines the bomb from a safe distance. "My four-year-old nephew could craft a better bomb than most of AQ."

"It might be in bad shape, but these fuckers are the reason we lose our legs," Ghost says while standing back up. He walks over towards the middle of the room, carefully placing the C4 on the carpet. Ghost walks back to the hallway where Soap and you are waiting for his next move. He closes the door almost entirely, but he leaves a little opening for him to stick his gun through, just like he did before.

"Might want to cover your ears for this one," he says, glancing back towards you and Soap. You do as told, covering both of your ears with your hands. Soap doesn't, making you frown at him.

"I'm already half deaf," he casually says, making you frown even more while slowly nodding your head. You turn to face Ghost, who is now staring down his sight. Your eyes land on his covered finger hovering over the trigger. He takes one deep breath in and before you know it, a loud explosion can be heard. The walls shake, and your head automatically yanks itself to the side. It takes you a couple of seconds to regain your composure, your head feeling dizzy from the detonation.

"Good find, Lt." Soap says to Ghost as he turns around to face the two sergeants.

"I didn't find it, Johnny," he tells Soap, causing the man to frown. Ghost motions his head towards you without once landing his eyes on you.

"She did."

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a/n: I'm back :D It took a while for me to upload. I wish I had a good reason but I simply did not have the time to write the past few weeks. I am trying to write bits and pieces between working on my graduation project and my job, so the time between chapters is a little longer than expected. Thanks everyone for sticking around <3 taglist: @beezerbug @sweetybuzz25 @liueski @pasta-m1lk @desert-fern @carlyi @msecho19

[everythingwritingg]

Writing Smut

@everything.writing on IG

Smut is one of the writing community’s favorite things to write about. If you don’t know what smut is, it is erotica or sexual scenes basically. I will try my best to give tips without getting my account shadow banned or this post taken down by Instagram. Apologies if things are a bit vague.

Make sure smut is appropriate. If you’re writing a middle grade novel (or even YA in most cases), smut is not appropriate. Any sexual scenes should fade to black (and for middle grade, probably omitted altogether). But if you’re writing an adult novel, especially romance, then smut could have a place.

Include the appropriate amount of smut. If you’re writing an erotica, then including many smutty scenes could be reasonable. However, for most books (especially non-romance ones), smut should be limited to a couple of scenes. Including too much smut for readers that aren’t reading erotica can turn them off.

Be descriptive. If you’re writing full blown smut, then you might as well be descriptive. You don’t have to describe every single movement, but the reader should be at least able to visualize what’s going on. I’m going to keep this vague because I’ve had this account for almost 4 years and I don’t want it taken down, but interpret this point however you want.

Make sure it’s realistic. When writing these types of scenes, make sure that they are physically possible. If you have never had a sexual encounter, you might not be sure what people do in the bedroom. The biggest thing to do is not write humans bending in a way that is unnatural and physically impossible.

Include characters’ thoughts and emotions. Even though a lot of people think writing smutty scenes is only about the physical movements, the emotions behind this scene are important as well. Make sure you show how your characters feel about this experience and how they feel about each other.

Ask for feedback. Well, this might be a hard one for a lot of people. I’m pretty sure most people would be mortified if anyone walked up behind them and caught them writing a smut scene. But having a beta reader for smut scenes can really help you find common mistakes, such as being repetitive or if the smut is overkill for your book.

Make sure you don’t glamorize any bad sexual dynamics. Don’t portray sexual coercion or assault as okay. Likewise, be careful if you’re going to write a smutty scene about an adult taking advantage of a much younger person and make sure you emphasize that it’s wrong.

This post was a little short and vague, but I don’t want Instagram to crack down on my account. Still, I hope it helped a lot of people. I don’t see a lot of advice on this topic specifically so it was a fun thing to research.

[royalsnis]

some things

Rusty was not banned on webtoons, it was another comic website. Her webtoons is still up. She just posted one chapter bc she knows she'll get reported otherwise

Her character's dad was killed off for character development for her n her mom. Not uncommon for writers to kill off charas to boost another one's development. However, she is still a white woman with many white peers. So take that as you will.

Someone mentioned making her kid chara have a sexuality or making it sexual... the kid chara is stated to be a lesbian, and she just has a baby/puppy crush on the mc, whos less than interested. Nothing weird has happened–that I know of.

Otherwise, shes been harassing trans ladies ('make like the made up 41%') and the occasional transmasc- along with genuinely believing that trans ppl are more likely to be accepted by their family than gay people so like.

Tw: being gross with a minor, tr*nsphobia, misandry

1. Rusty herself has admitted to her content being banned on many platforms for tr*nsphobia if she really isn't banned it honestly doesn't matter if she knows she can't post on there than that's the point. She knows she will be banned.

2. If you haven't seen the part two or read my entire IG post then I can see how you got here but Rusty has a QnA where she herself states otherwise-

She believes it's propaganda to "humanize men" because she hates men with a burning passion and believe them to be monsters (Aka why she and many other radfems hate Trans women, because they can't see past what's between their legs) and she also specifically dislikes hetero relationships as well which is why she said the men in the book would be "shitty, absent, or DEAD" because she believes that's realistic. (Hella gross as I personally have a loving trans accepting father) knowing this there's no way anyone can say the father was just killed off for "story purposes"

3. I didn't really speak on that little spat Rusty had with some followers of mine but I personally do think it's weird for her to have both a "lesbian" cat and a lesbian child as she's been very adamant about sexuality being about well- g*nitals. That's why are main phrase is "girls don't do d***k" so her in turn having a child represent what she herself overtly sexualizes, of course ppl are gonna freak a bit. Also she's had a really overtly sexual convo with a 16 yr old she harassed on Insta awhile back which also made ppl turn their nose.

[entiretorridaffair]

okay this will probably be completely wrong BUT this is what i have made up in my head. i wanna say you’re an older sister NOT THE OLDEST. but you definitely have baby sibs (i can’t wait to laugh at how wrong i am). anyway, i see u having younger siblings that annoy you (as all siblings do) but that you really adore. younger sister maybe? really i just can’t imagine you being an only child. you have a small group of close friends, the type to plan to go to the same college and dorm together type. and style wise, you know the famous rory gilmore sweater? that’s what i picture. comfy but still cute. oversized sweaters, converse, all that jazz. what else… you’re a huge hopeless romantic for sure. lots of reading (duh). you never leave the house without your headphones. you either take time carefully crafting your playlists or you follow hyperspecific ones (or both). i associate navy blue with you a lot. with that said, melodrama is your album. don’t know how to explain it. also random but i just imagine you having the best eyebrows. either naturally or you just always make sure they’re neat. oh my god, i also see you wearing all the cute graphic tees. saw this one on steph’s IG story the other day and it just screams you (and you definitely have an emotional support mug, i won’t elaborate).

omg!! obsessed with this i love u diana. i am in fact an only child but i have yearned for younger siblings my whole life and i have a best friend that is basically my younger sister so you’re not far off!! i do have a small group of friends we’re attached at the hips basically (wish you were part of my friend group fr!!!!)

you read me like a book with the rory gilmore fashion, hopeless romantic, reading, headphones being a necessity (they are always in my tote bag), both of those playlist things are true and im wearing a navy blue sweatshirt rn and i just bought navy blue converse!! melodrama is my Beloved!!

i don’t know if i can judge the niceness of my eyebrows but i Hope they are good (they’re very full and i try my best to keep them looking good!) i adore graphic tees but my schools dress code bans them so i can only wear them on weekends </3 omg yesss i’m so obsessed with steph’s shirt i saw that too and i want it so bad! (my emotional support mug has red roses all over it and i got it in berlin!!)

honestly you got so much right you’re so perceptive!!!!

[chilidogloverr]

“I just came from r/196” ask game

Saw another post. I think I should invite y'all to one of our longstanding traditions. Answer the questions then tag 10 (or more) people. I'll go first.

Name? Jarrod

Pronouns and gender? they/he, guy???

Sexuality? Pansecual

Country? USA MERICA FUCK YEAH🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅

Top 5 fandoms? hazbin/helluva, fnaf, team four trees two, i forgor the rest

What is your Most forbidden snack? fabuloso also chapstick

Would you pet a bug? scared scared scared of bugs. dont like them. scary scary.

Share a weird fact/story about yourself with the class. i love fixing things, no matter what it is. my silly little brain just latches onto it like a puzzle, which it kinda is. i can already fix most electronic devices, or alteast know how to (FUCK apple and their stupid fucking anti repair policy. thats actual fucking bullshit. i dont want to have to pay for a 200 dollar course and license to fix your shitty god damn phones. mac books and ipads are aight. but FUCK apple as a company. all this does is protect their silly little fucking income from their stupid ass fucking phones breaking all the fucking time. all it does is make it so that people who do fix phones for a living fucking cant, and no devices to fix means no food on the fucking table for them or their families. they're toying with peoples livelihoods for a bit of fucking profit.) if i dont know how to fix it (cars, microwaves, tvs, literally anything that could break) i want to learn

What does the color blue taste like? mmm yumby

What is the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? the ocean. it goes on forever. it doesnt stop. i didnt realize that until i saw it in person. it stopped me dead in my tracks.

What is the stupidest thing you've ever done? ive got this protein bar. in 2020 (my second year of marching band, freshman year) i was eating a box of them on the way to marching band camp. i lost one. this was in july. i found it on the ground still sealed in january of the following year. i still have it. im going to eat it my senior year at the end of the year band dinner. i have not done it yet. im going into my senior year. im going to do it. it will kill me. i will not regret it.

Stupidest thing you've seen/heard someone else do/say? a pastor for a church i used to attend (unfortunately hes my uncle) blamed crime and evil on transgender people

Hyperfixation song? long list. Starman David Bowie, banana man tally hall, mr white keys cherry poppin daddies, play that funky music wild cherry, cant take my eyes off you frankie valli, sh-boom the ink spots, the devil went down to georgia the charlie daniels band

Is there any meaning behind your profile picture and/or username? I've been asked several times where "Chapstick Man!" comes from. It comes from TF2. I named a rocket launcher "chapstick gun" with the description "ngl chapstick taste kinda good" and then i thought the joke was funny and it stuck. my name is now Chapstick Man on like everything. i have not been sued yet. Im too cool to be sued.

Dream career as a child? also electronics repair technician (i am answering these out of order)

Dream career as an adult? still kinda a child ig. but i want to be an electronics repair technician, running my own little computer/electronics repair shop. i already know how to do it, i just need a building and to be 18 (i turn 18 in december) and people to come and give me their stuff to fix. i love fixing things.

Thoughts on cilantro? its aight ig

Have you ever been banned from a location and if so, why? I havent. but i plan to be. i am going to be silly and they cannot prevent it.

What is your cursed food combination? I did my burgers in ketchup if i want ketchup, i did my biscuits in gravy for biscuits and gravy

Trans rights? are epic!!!!!!

@everyone im lazy

[i-revolve-around-you]

I think it's about time I wrote a proper introduction post

Hey y'all, welcome to my blog! I'm a tumblr veteran but decided to start over on a new account recently. Why? Your guess is as good as mine.

🎵 the basics 🎵

nick ~ 28 ~ he/him ~ bi ~ white author ~ musician ~ gamer ~ nerd multi-fandom/shitposting this blog will be (mostly) SFW, but i still would rather not have minors following me. i just prefer interacting with adults, sorry. it's not personal. my likes, however, will be N/SFW, so be warned

my messages and ask box are always open! feel free to hit me up!

more info (including other links, and a list of fandoms/things i like) under the cut

tags: my ramblings | my face

🤩 a bit more about me 🤩

heya! the name's nick. i've been on tumblr since like...2011 or so? i was really big into it in my college years (2012-2017) but after The Great Tumblr Porn Ban of 2017 I've sorta been drifting in an out. When The Great Twitter Debacle of 2022 happened, I decided to migrate back on a new account so I could start fresh.

this account was immediately suspended because of my side-blog. which was a bit too unsafe for work for tumblr's guidelines ig 🙄 not mentioning that they had just recently updated their policy and everything i was posting was PERFECTLY FINE under them but w/e

so i started another one lmao and that's the one that you're looking at right now! my other account has since been restored but at that point I was already situated over here so like. whatever i guess. lol

i'm currently 28, and bisexual. semi-recently out of the closed as bi, actually. for years i identified as gay, but over time i started realizing "actually...i do kinda like girls?" i still identified as "gay" cuz it was easier than saying "so like i'm bi-sexual but mostly homo-romantic but also maybe potentially demi-sexual but only when it comes to real people?" then around 2020 it just kinda clicked with me, and the label of "bisexual" just felt right

anywho you didn't come here for my full life story. here's just a little bit more about me:

i'm a total nerd. i love video games, playing Yugioh, DND (just starting to get into that one), etc. i'm a writer. i've written several fanfics (some of which i'm really proud of, some of which i'm...less), and have a goal of one day publishing a novel (my main genre is YA contemporary with queer themes and characters). i'm a musician. i actually got my bachelor's degree in music (BA in Music). my main instrument is drums/percussion, but i'm learning a bit of guitar and can play a little bit of piano. i'm also a composer/songwriter, though haven't been writing as much these days. if i write anything cool i'll be sure to post it here!

🎭 the artist formerly known as 🎭

previous account: @excuuuseme-princess other previous urls: musicdork, sincerely-whelmed, futuremehatesme, @nickplayswhat, @spearfeld, among others, probably

🔍 other places to find me 🔎

tumblr sideblog (N/SFW, seriously be warned): @fadingfast1 twitter: @libromancerfire n/sfw twitter (again...be warned): @whatifitspriv tiktok: @libromancer_fireburst ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/users/darkjaden825698

⚔ fandoms/things i like ⚔

Books 📚

Simon vs the Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli

Orphan X series by Gregg Hurwitz

Darius the Great is Not Okay / Darius the Great Deserves Better by Adib Khorram

TV shows 📺

Arrowverse (especially Legend of Tomorrow [r.i.p. 😢])

Doctor Who

Travelers

Manifest

Movies 📽

Spider-Man: Into the Spiderverse

Love, Simon

Cartoons/Anime 🍞

Yu-Gi-Oh! (DM, GX, 5Ds, ZeXal, Arc-V, currently watching VRAINS and Sevens, have yet to start Go-Rush)

Code Lyoko*

Video Games 🎮

Resident Evil (played all mainline games, some spinoffs, faves are RE2make, Village, and Revelations 2, Ethan Winters is my husband)

Horizon (Zero Dawn, Forbidden West)

Persona (mostly 3 and 5, still need to finish 4, but Kanji is bae)

Fire Emblem (have played all except FE1, 2, 3, and about halfway through 5 but keep losing interest, Engage was FANTASTIC, but Ike is my favorite character)

Zero Escape (999, VLR, ZTD, Sigma Klim is my husband)

Life is Strange (particularly LiS2, but I love them all)

The Legend of Zelda

Golden Sun*

Music Artists 🎼

Paramore

Neck Deep

The Wonder Years*

Other

Yu-Gi-Oh! TCG

*fandoms/media I was once very involved in, but not as much anymore, still enjoy though fandoms/media i consider to be some of my faves/am very active in will (try and remember to) update as new things become relevant to me lmfaoo

[jessicawestonauthor]

On Childhood, Creativity and Writing

I have always wanted to be a writer, ever since I was a kid.

I started reading adult books in 3rd grade when I read "Woman Without a Past" by Phyllis A. Whitney - I got it from my mother's bookshelf, and I actually still have the same book today. In 5th grade I read my first Stephen King book (Cujo), and I remember my 4th and 5th grade teacher Mr. Reardon (who I am actually Facebook friends with today), really made writing a fun part of my education. I think that is when my interest in writing REALLY began.

I always felt very creative and full of ideas. My brothers and I grew up without a lot of other kids in our neighborhood, so we had to keep ourselves occupied with our imaginations. I can't tell you how many "forts" and "houses" we created with old plywood and boards, or even just in some overgrown thicket in our yard. The area between the Lilac bushes and the front porch, I always imagined was a mobile home trailer.

But the full blown worlds and storylines we came up with together were so intricate, I can still remember many of them today, nearly 30 years later. . I think growing up the way we did really gave us a wonderful opportunity to exercise our imaginations and really push the limits of what our creativity.

My brother is also a writer, and arguably a much better writer than me. Our styles are quite different and he has been actively writing much longer than me

For me, I struggled for all of these years. I loved writing, in theory, but I struggled to actually DO it. Once I started taking medication for my ADHD that all changed. For the first time in years I was inspired to start reading again in my spare time, and so I opened up the Kindle App on my phone and before bed each night I started reading books I had downloaded years ago.

It didn't take long before all of that reading refreshed my love of the written word. The stories coming to life in my head was like finding a long lost friend. Within just a couple weeks of starting to read regularly again, I found myself critiquing the stories I was reading. I was picking out things I enjoyed that the writers had done, and also things I thought could have been done better and figuring out how I would do it differently.

After a week or two of critiquing stories in my head and arguing with my half asleep self every night about how I could write a book, I SHOULD write a book, but I have ADHD and hyperfocus on new hobbies and then forget about them in six months so why bother starting when I'm just going to give up, I finally told myself to shut up.

I sat down one morning, googled writing prompts, and the first one I read immediately gave me an idea so I broke out a notebook and a fun pen and got to work plotting ideas and then character bios. Within a week I had three chapters written and my friends couldn't wait to read more.

It's been a little over a month now and I'm starting Chapter 11, I currently have just under 14,000 words, and no plans to stop any time soon. The ideas just keep flowing with no end in sight!

p.s. Please don't judge me for still having a Facebook account with all of this upheaval about the potential Tiktok ban. If the ban goes through I will most likely be deleting FB and IG both. I only have FB to keep in touch with distant family and friends

[monriatitans]

Ta-Da! List: Saturday, January 6th

I have decided to make a “Ta-Da! List” every day! There won’t be TMI.

Don’t know what a “Ta-Da! List” is? To learn more, check out @adhdjesse‘s book Extra Focus here.

✧ throughout the day: – kept emails manageable by deleting some ✧ woke up tired, but not as tired as yesterday; per the “Sickness Protocol”, was banned from touching things and sentenced to remain in the bedroom, but got tired of it, so went to the office; everything was wiped down with a disinfecting wipe ✧ took an at-home COVID test; still positive ✧ on the main computer: – gave a human artist, shal Art, a shout-out by sharing it to the WGS and O&T IGs, created a Featured Image for it, then shared it to O&T and social media; to see where the shout-out has spread, check out the January 2024 Artist Shout-Outs Album on BMAC; updated the ASO announcement on the O&T & Tumblr SITE MAPs, the Minds “Announcements” post, and the Hive bio, & updated the list of most recent ASOs in the ASO Criteria O&T & Tumblr pages and the ASO Twitch panel – watched Kupotanis, YungKhan, and ZeRoyalViking on Twitch – managed the Tags and Categories of the O&T blog and added affiliate links and/or tag warnings to old block posts – created the “TBR” Feature Image Template – created the TBR Feature Image for today’s update to the TBR Stack ✧ while in the bedroom, on a laptop, on a small standing desk: – alternated between watching Silent Hill and listening to “Fly Away” by TheFatRat, feat. Anjulie – shared the updated TBR Stack to the MonriaTitans Tumblr, and to the O&T IG and Threads – created the “2024 ASOs” Highlight in the WGS and O&T IGs – created “Theme of the Month” designs to be used in the Monthly and Yearly Wrap-Ups

Well, these are all the updates I had for today! Thank you for reading!

May every decision you make be *in the spirit of fairness* and may the rest of your day *NOT go to $#!7*!

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[flowerr44444]

http://www.leg.state.fl.us/statutes/index.cfm?App_mode=Display_Statute&URL=0800-0899/0847/0847.html

Here are your definitions :)

The book you mention "Heather has two mommies" falls under those definitons on account of this fascinating image i attached below

I highlighted the part that's i suspect confusing to the lawmakers.

Its pretty fucking weird i gotta say. Bcs i cant make heads nor tails on where the hell is that guy kissing the child. /s

Like the headtilt is borderline odd./s

I can't figure out where is the nose of that kid pointed. At which point i arrive to conclusion this is some odd lip kiss. Which is criminal like legally.

The thing is the intent doesn't matter but the final effect does. So.

(Anyway checked again about why the thing got relocated to higher grades and it wasnt actually this image part (??!) but im still confused as to wtf is it allowed, the mommies are great but wat the hail is this page fr, i get it may be supposed to be a head kiss but it just doesnt look like one at all)

The second book you mention was banned on different legal grounds disconnected from ISP branch as stated here

The two things are as far apart as they can get.

Context clue 4 u -> the law doesnt prohibit talks about "stranger danger" or bans introduction to the lgbt shit at 4th and further grades so the book should be very much accesible at that point. (Probs even a famous interschool read, afterall it was a hot topic)

And its not like the same law makes it illegal by homosexual couples to educate their children how they wish to. Most kids dont notice conciously that someone having "two mommies" or "two daddies" is a weird thing till, as they stated, above ig 10 y/o so the law doesnt affect much outside "political principals". So effectivly its just a rule about "dont talk about sex and dating" but you can "teach about reproduction as science" before 10 y/o is achieved.

I think it's a pretty good safeguard overall since most adoptees or bio kids from lgbt couples get normal info from direct source they can talk about between themselves and there is no 3rd party fearmongering about evil gays or enabling grooming attepts via lies on how homosexuals function. (Thats def a common trumpist fear, not that they know much as most population is heterosexual and as such doesnt seek out info, except regretably via explicit material which is most common to come across but lately she-ra, owl house and arcane seem to be changing things)

I would suppose gay penguins weren't into teaching reproduction so they got banned on those grounds (kinda hilarious to me but as a 9 yo i would probs get offended later on behalf of bad lgbt rep and lesbophobia since the penguins are most often in BL situationships which would lead a child to think that perhaps lesbians don't exist irl)

Tbh i can understand worries concerned with left wing educators bcs holy shit certain usa pride marches are straight up degenrate in comparsion to european ones

(i just wish they banned priests too :( )

(Anyway if bible was to be analised under gender id and obscenity laws scope then i bet we could ban it :D )

Additionaly, you can access 4chan bcs its servers are not in your states territory physicly probably, therefore do not fall under the porn ban which is regional law and not federal law

The state cannot forbid you access to "foreign press" lets say, under democracy that is

I don't take anything that doritoassrapist says seriously. He can suck dongs all day long with those speeches idc what he says. That is but one scrote, i would rather monitor gatherings of them - the current porn ban has not affected anyone outside the sex industry since becoming a real thing. The law itself cannot be misunderstood in legalise so it cant touch other laws unless the phrasing will be changed in it to allow for that. At which point the effects should be reported in the news. Nothing like that happend so no worries about it.

I would say to be concerned more about changing definitions in obscenity laws

Tumblr is not a website with adult content officialy. The rules are against it but they cannot censor literally everything bcs of artistic rights. The porn ban is in effect but there is no ban to advertise porn or real life abuse per say which is The Problem

Tbf if they forbid ads with the stuff or made a comprehensive mandatory education on school levels on recognising abuse we wouldnt be having as many problems as now with grooming on tumblr dot com

VPNs actually sell the info they gather so its a real 50/50 here

I belive what they write down with proof and when i see how it works. I'm gnostic atheist. Gender self ID is the same to me as christianity. I hate both sides equally well, no need to get prissy. (Yes I belive gender dysphoria is a thing (as in genitals and second sex characteriscs like beards owned being hm odd to someone for 10 years straight after puberty). Yes trans people exist to me but definitly not in the "non binary" box with other "two spirits", the same way i don't belive in female or male souls. Or souls as a general concept. Or being trans bcs of gender roles and patriarchy fetish (disturbing crowd which you probs already encountered here))

And so far the only people concerned about how the system works are not much from left or right since they all base it on non empirical beliefs today.

The left looks like this to me:

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/video/news/video-3293649/Video-Trans-activist-climbs-chair-flashes-bottom-twerks.html

The right looks like this to me:

https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.theguardian.com/us-news/2022/dec/07/arizona-polygamous-cult-leader-child-abuse-samuel-bateman

Its like a populism bingo lately :/

Anyhow, i belive the porn ban laws accomplish the purpose given to them based on my own conclusions. It will just take getting the ban set up globally for it to take real effects in fighting the trafficking behemoth. Which will take next 100 years...

(in my country the porn ban is actually a left wing lgbt representant idea so i have a bit different angle here ig)

:

"they weren't trying to keep kids off the site, they were trying to verify everyone's ages"

porn makes you stupid