It's easier for a man to give a woman cpr and a woman to give a man cpr..
When a man gives a woman c p, r, they need to do fewer Breath per minute because a woman's lungs are smaller. And when a woman gives a man c p, r, she needs to actually give him more breaths per minute, because the amount of oxygen she takes in to breathe into him is less...
If you don't believe me, you would understand with infants. We have to do only fill our cheeks with air, and it matters from the mother to the child and from the father to the child, whether that's child is a male or female...
So here you will see lung capacity by sex and age and this matters how much oxygen you've need to give them... Paramedics need understand this, but they have to also know heart rate. So you have to give women less per breath, if you're a man, but you have to give them more compressions per minute, then for a man...
Lung capacity varies by sex and age, and is affected by a number of factors, including:
Sex
Men generally have a higher total lung capacity (TLC) than women of the same age and height, except for the 50–59 year age group. This difference is established in the first few years of life, and is likely due to a lower rate of alveolar multiplication in girls.
Age
Lung function variables are generally non-linear with age, plateauing in younger adults and declining after 31–35 years.
Height
Height is the strongest predictor of TLC, followed by lean body mass, weight, and age.
Body changes
As people age, their lungs can experience a number of natural changes that can lead to a decline in lung capacity, including:
Weaker breathing muscles, such as the diaphragm
Loss of elasticity in lung tissue, which can make airways smaller
Smaller rib cage bones, which leave less room for the lungs to expand
Other factors that can affect lung function include BMI and ethnicity.
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Sex differences in thoracic dimensions and configuration - PubMed
Abstract. The volume of adult female lungs is typically 10-12% smaller than
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So as you see, you need to give women more compressions per minute, then men... But you have to give them smaller Breath, if you're a male giving a female c p, r, but you have to do more compressions per minute. It's the opposite with a woman giving a man.A woman has to give them more Breath per minute, but less compressions per minute...
They need to get a c p.r chart... So it has to be broken down by sex and age... Now, the thing that varies weight. Cause people that are heavier have more blood, and so they need more oxygen to get they're blood.Oxygen levels up... So they have to adjust by weight....
On average, a healthy adult woman's resting heart rate is slightly higher than a man's, with women typically having a heart rate between 78-82 beats per minute compared to men at 70-72 beats per minute; however, both genders generally see their heart rate decrease as they age, meaning younger individuals tend to have a higher resting heart rate than older people.
Key points about heart rate by sex and age:
Gender difference: Women usually have a slightly higher resting heart rate than men.
Age factor: Heart rate naturally decreases with age, meaning younger people tend to have a higher resting heart rate.
Normal range: A typical resting heart rate for most adults falls between 60 and 100 beats per minute.
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So as you see here, a male that is, over two hundred pounds is more than likely having six liters of blood, they have much more blood,... So this is another reason, it's tricky to revive somebody because you have to take these variables, height, weight, sex and age the determine blood amount... So this determines also how much oxygen you need to get into the system to get the oxygen levels up to normal, to revive them. And this is why you also have to have an oxygen sensor on them when you're giving cpr... So all first aid kits should carry oxygen sensors.... Because it's a critical component of giving cpr.... Because you can see if you're getting their oxygen levels up or not... So you can adjust the amount of breaths you're giving them and compressions To help, maintain a little oxygen levels, or get them up.You might have to give more breaths and more compressions to raise the oxygen levels to a point where you can revibe them, not enough oxygen, won't revive them.... And this is why people who drowned, you have to do the heinrich, to clear out the lungs of any water before you administer cpr.... This is why drowning victims Are less likely to recover, so you have to do the compression when they're down, pushing up onto their lungs, forcing the water out... Can you might have to do several compressions first before you do cpr.. So it's very important to clear the lungs of water first....
The amount of blood in the human body varies based on age, weight, and sex. An adult male weighing about 200 pounds can have almost 6 liters, or a little over 12 pints, of blood while an adult female weighing about 165 pounds might have 4.3 liters, or about 9 pints, of blood.Jan 12, 2024
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So here you are, if somebody swallows vomit in that are any other debris you need to do the heinrich.First, you can do it with them standing up, or you can do it while they're lying down.... But you have to clear the lungs of any debris that blocks oxygen from entering the bloodstream... And this is why so many people who drowned never get revived because giving them oxygen is not going to revive them as Glo died from water on the lungs as well as Conrad died from water on the lungs... Now they could have given them liquid oxygen Intravenously, to go around the lung...
The Heimlich maneuver expels aspirated water, vomitus, debris, and other foreign matter. In treating near-drowning victims, place the victim in the supine position with head turned to the side and perform the Heimlich maneuver to evacuate water from the lungs, unless you know water is not in the respiratory tract.
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So if you have sleep apnea, you have to wear an oxygen monitor... We need the monitor your oxygen levels while you're sleeping... And if they fall below a certain level, it should someone, so you wake up and get more oxygen....
So people with sleep apnea are more likely to have a heart attack in general, but they are much more likely to have a heart attack when they're a sleep!!!!!!!
Yes, people with sleep apnea are more likely to have a heart attack:
Reduced blood oxygen levels
When someone with sleep apnea stops breathing, their body's oxygen levels drop. This is due to blocked airways, which can lead to a higher risk of cardiovascular issues.
Stress hormone response
When oxygen levels drop, the body produces epinephrine (adrenaline), a stress hormone. Over time, high adrenaline levels can lead to high blood pressure, damaged blood vessel linings, and clogged arteries.
Heart rhythm problems
Sleep apnea can trigger episodes of atrial fibrillation (AF), an irregular heart rhythm problem.
Increased risk of sudden cardiac death
People with severe obstructive sleep apnea are at a higher risk of sudden cardiac death.
Higher risk of cardiovascular disease
Up to 70% of people admitted to the hospital for coronary artery disease have obstructive sleep apnea.
Early identification and treatment of sleep apnea are key.
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No, it's just not having a Cpap machine.It's also monitoring your blood oxygen, making sure you stay in a safe range... So they have to go with a bluetooth oxygen monitor and they can also work with a heart rate monitor as well... Because remember, the heart needs oxygen, the tissue of the heart needs oxygen to survive, and when you don't have enough oxygen in the blood, the heart tissue becomes weaker, and this causes a heart attack..... My boss, larry ward head sleep apnea and he died of a massive heart attack in his sleep....
See, the heart tissue needs a certain level of oxygen, rich blood.Stay healthy if it doesn't.It will have a heart attack... Oh oxygen levels can predict heart attacks.. Because if the heart is the pride of oxygen, meaning not enough for a long enough period it will cause a heart attack....
The heart muscle, or myocardium, requires a constant supply of oxygen-rich blood delivered through the coronary arteries to function properly and stay healthy; without adequate oxygen, the heart tissue can become damaged due to inadequate energy production needed for contraction and relaxation, leading to conditions like ischemia or heart attack if blood flow is significantly reduced.
Key points about the heart's oxygen needs:
Coronary arteries:
These specialized arteries branch off from the aorta to directly supply the heart muscle with oxygenated blood.
Aerobic metabolism:
The heart primarily relies on aerobic metabolism, meaning it needs a consistent supply of oxygen to produce energy for its contractions.
Oxygen demand factors:
Factors like heart rate, contractility, and ventricular wall tension influence how much oxygen the heart needs.
Ischemia:
When blood flow to the heart is restricted, causing a lack of oxygen, it leads to a condition called ischemia, which can damage heart tissue.
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How Blood Flows Through the Heart & Body - Cleveland Clinic
Your veins carry blood that's now low in oxygen and full of waste back toward your heart. Blood from all your veins ultimately ends up in your superior vena cav...
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Now, as you see here, black men are the worst, and this means they will have higher rates of heart attacks!!!! Then throw on top of it.They have high tendencies for coronary artery disease!!!!
Despite this, Black men had the most severe OSA with a mean apnea hypopnea index of 52.4 ± 39.4 events/hour, compared with 39.0 ± 28.9 in White men, 33.4 ± 32.3 in Black women, and 26.2 ± 23.8 in White women (P < 0.001 for test of homogeneity).Dec 2, 2020
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Black men are more likely to have severe obstructive sleep apnea (OSA) than other racial and gender groups:
Severity
Black men have the most severe OSA, with a mean apnea hypopnea index (AHI) of 52.4 events/hour, compared to 39.0 events/hour for White men.
Prevalence
African American adults have a higher prevalence of OSA than non-Hispanic White adults.
Undiagnosed cases
A high percentage of African Americans with moderate or severe OSA go undiagnosed.
Obesity and cardiovascular disease
Black people with OSA are more likely to have obesity and cardiovascular disease.
Other factors that may contribute to sleep apnea include:
Neighborhood environment
Neighborhoods with higher percentages of people of color may have more pollution, noise, and allergens.
Acculturation
The process of adjusting to the dominant culture can be stressful for ethnic groups, especially immigrant communities.
Facial bone structure
Differences in facial bone structure may increase the risk of OSA for Asians.
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So now you get black men and women having the highest probability of having a heart attack!!!!
Coronary artery disease and heart attack
Black women are more likely than white women to have a heart attack. Black adults are more likely than white adults to die from a heart attack. Asian adults are less likely than other groups to have coronary artery disease. But there are some differences by ethnicity.
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Heart Disease Risk: How Race and Ethnicity Play a Role
But as you see here, they say, black men have the highest rate of heart attacks!!!!
According to current medical research, Black men are generally considered to have the highest rate of heart attacks, with Black people across genders experiencing a significantly higher risk of heart disease compared to other racial groups; however, it's important to note that heart disease risk factors can vary greatly based on individual lifestyle and genetics, not solely on race or sex.
Key points to remember:
Race:
Black individuals have a higher rate of heart attacks compared to other races, particularly when considering mortality from heart disease.
Sex:
While men generally have a higher risk of heart attacks than women, the disparity in risk is particularly pronounced within the Black population.
CDC
Heart Disease Facts - CDC
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My dad died of a massive heart attack.My boss died of a massive of heart attack!!! They were both white men who were heavy drinkers!!!
So drinking alcohol can negatively impact blood alcohol levels.And so black men having the highest probability of heart attack should be very careful drinking alcohol.So all these blacks that are alcoholics, they're stupid!!!! But as you see this caused my boss and my father heart attacks that were massive and they died instantly literally hearts exploding lack of oxygen!!! So literally the alcohol consumption weakened the heart over a period of time, and it weakened it so much that the heart literally gave out!!!
Alcohol can negatively affect blood oxygen levels in a number of ways, including:
Sleep apnea
Alcohol use can increase the apnea-hypopnea index (AHI), which measures how often a sleeper's breathing is restricted or paused. Alcohol can also increase the incidence of arterial oxygen desaturation and disordered breathing during sleep.
Altitude
A study found that people who drank alcohol before sleeping in an altitude chamber had a lower blood oxygen saturation than those who drank alcohol at sea level.
Hypoxia
A study found that alcohol can decrease oxygen saturation during hypoxia by 4%.
Moderate consumption
A study found that moderate alcohol consumption can lower arterial blood oxygen saturation during the early half of sleep.
The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention says that healthy people typically have an oxygen saturation between 95% and 100%, and that an oxygen saturation below 90% is cause for concern.
American Heart Association Journals
Effects of Alcohol on Sympathetic Activity, Hemodynamics, and Chemoreflex Sensitivity | Hypertension
Jun 1, 1997
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So obesity affects blood oxygen novels, and this makes you more likely to have a heart attack or a stroke!!! Oh, blood oxygen can also cause a stroke!!!
Yes, obesity can affect blood oxygen levels, and some people with obesity may have a breathing disorder called obesity hypoventilation syndrome (OHS):
Obesity hypoventilation syndrome
This breathing disorder occurs when someone with obesity has too much carbon dioxide and too little oxygen in their blood. It's caused by hypoventilation, which is when someone breathes abnormally slowly. OHS can lead to serious health problems if left untreated.
Reduced lung volumes
Obesity can reduce lung volumes, which can lead to lower oxygen levels.
Increased abdominal pressure
Obesity can increase abdominal pressure, which puts more pressure on the diaphragm and reduces alveolar ventilation.
Limited cardiac and ventilatory reserves
The heart and lungs don't increase in size as much as the body weight increases, which can limit the body's ability to supply oxygen to muscles during exercise.
Treatment for obesity-related low oxygen levels includes oxygen and weight loss.
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Obesity hypoventilation syndrome (OHS) - MedlinePlus
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Excess weight against the chest wall also makes it harder for the muscles to draw in a deep breath and to breathe quickly enough. This worsens the brain's breathing control. As a result, the blood contains too much carbon dioxide and not enough oxygen.Aug 13, 2023
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Low oxygen levels allow plaque to build up an arteries, but not only the arteries, it allows it to build up in the brain as well!!! This is why people that live in areas with higher air pollution have more alzheimer's.Dementia, cognitive impairments had more cardiovascular disease more long issues!!! And so those black guys spinning the cars around in chicago, kicking all the pollution from the burned rubber into the atmosphere, our little killing themselves because they're in a number one candidate for these issues!!! That's why laugh at minorities with pollution.Any minority with pollution are at much higher risk than white people!!!!
Yes, having low oxygen levels in the blood can contribute to the buildup of plaque in the arteries, as a condition called "hypoxia" within the artery wall can trigger inflammatory processes that lead to plaque formation; this is a key component of the "hypoxia theory" of atherosclerosis, which explains how reduced oxygen supply to the artery lining can promote plaque development.
Explanation:
Artery wall damage:
When oxygen levels in the blood are low, the inner lining of the artery can become damaged, creating a site where plaque can accumulate.
Inflammation response:
This damage triggers an inflammatory response, causing white blood cells to migrate to the area and release chemicals that promote the buildup of cholesterol and other substances, forming plaque.
Blood flow disruption:
Plaque buildup can further narrow the artery, reducing blood flow and exacerbating the oxygen deficiency, creating a vicious cycle.
Key points to remember:
Atherosclerosis:
This is the medical term for the buildup of plaque in the arteries, and low oxygen levels are considered a contributing factor.
Carotid artery disease:
This is a common example where low oxygen levels can contribute to plaque buildup, as the carotid arteries supply blood to the brain.
Risk factors:
Conditions like sleep apnea, which can lead to intermittent low oxygen levels during sleep, are associated with increased risk of plaque buildup.
Mayo Clinic
Coronary artery disease - Symptoms and causes
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White people are at higher risk, but they're also add an elevated risk.So it's all comparative everybody's at greater risk, but some people are more pushed towards the edge with pollution, then others!!!!
So I worry about mark on fox, thirty two chicago because of his weight!!!
So your brain does not store oxygen does not store oxygen and your brain is a small part of the overall body weight, but eats up 20% plus of the blood oxygen and it needs a steady flow of blood oxygen. It is a pig. The brain is a pig. When it comes to oxygen, it needs steady flows of oxygen and lots of it. The brain needs lots of fresh clean oxygen!!! Your brain is an oxygen pig.It eats a lot a lot a lot a lot of oxygen... And pollution deprives it and children developing will suffer because there'll be underdeveloped, and this is my india has a range from seventy two I q to a hundred and twenty... And pollution is massively affecting them.China is doing everything that clean up their pollution... The japanese have the highest I q, and they're very, very pollution.Sensitive, they keep a very clean environment.Japanese people are ultra clean!!! Japan is one of the cleanest countries, if not the cleanest country in the world! And their average, I q is basically a hundred and seven and growing...
Your brain's a real oxygen hog. It's a small part of your body weight, but it uses 20% of your oxygen. It can't store the oxygen, so it needs a steady flow of blood to work well. Brain cells start to die if they go without oxygen for just 3-4 minutes -- and that's exactly what happens during a stroke.Feb 29, 2024
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Stroke: What Happens in Your Body When Oxygen Gets Cut Off
Yes, low blood oxygen levels can cause a stroke. A stroke occurs when blood flow to the brain is stopped, which means the brain isn't getting enough oxygen. Brain cells can start to die if they don't receive oxygen for as little as 3–4 minutes.
Brain hypoxia is a medical emergency that occurs when the brain doesn't receive enough oxygen, even though blood is still flowing. Other causes of brain hypoxia include drowning, suffocation, and cardiac arrest.
Symptoms of low blood oxygen levels include:
Shortness of breath
Headaches
Restlessness
Dizziness
Rapid breathing
Chest pain
Confusion
High blood pressure
A healthcare provider can order tests to assess how lack of blood flow is affecting the brain, such as an angiogram, CT scan, MRI, electroencephalogram (EEG), or evoked potentials test.
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Diagnosis and Tests ... A healthcare provider may order tests to find out how lack of blood flow affects your
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So as you see above, low blood oxygen can cause a stroke...
I disagree with this because areas That have the highest rate of air pollution also have the highest rate of dementia and alzheimer's in other cognitive issues because it prevents oxygen from going into the brain in the brain is a hog for oxygen.... And as plaque builds up in the brain it limits the amount of oxygen that gets to the brain tissue but low oxygen contributes to the buildup of plaque and then the plaque further contributes to depriving areas of the brain from blood oxygen... So it's a compounding effect!!!
No, low blood oxygen does not cause plaque to build up in the brain, but plaque buildup in the brain can reduce blood flow and oxygen to the brain:
Plaque buildup
Also known as atherosclerosis, plaque buildup is caused by a buildup of cholesterol, calcium, and other cellular components in the arteries. This buildup can narrow the arteries and make it difficult for oxygen and nutrients to reach the brain.
Low blood oxygen
Low blood oxygen, or hypoxemia, can damage the brain and heart if it persists over time. Acute cases of hypoxemia can be fatal.
Brain conditions
Plaque buildup in the brain can lead to a number of conditions, including:
Transient ischemic attack (TIA): Also known as a "mini-stroke", a TIA is a temporary loss of brain function.
Stroke: A stroke can be caused by a blockage in the arteries or by a piece of plaque breaking off and traveling to the brain.
Vascular dementia: Plaque buildup can cause cognitive decline beyond the normal aging process. Symptoms include slowness of thought, difficulty with planning, and problems with memory and language.
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Vascular dementia - Symptoms & causes - Mayo Clinic
Vascular dementia - Symptoms & causes - Mayo Clinic.
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So this is what black people don't understand and this is why they have all this violence in africa a lot of it is pollution driven areas with higher pollution levels.People are more violent!!! Cognitive impairment caused by pollution can drive violence!!!! Because it affects the higher sense of reasoning to control the sense of rage, and when you dampen the higher reasoning centers, you have less controlled over rage and black people live in cities in areas and cities with incredibly high pollution levels and they have suppressed cognitive abilities.And this is where magic johnson failed the black community.He made schools in chicago.Filthier, black schools have to be very, very clean and should have air purifiers!!!! 👍 Yes, they should have air purifiers in schools to help with learning!!!
Yes, studies have found that areas with higher levels of air pollution are associated with worse cognitive function and a higher risk of dementia:
Study
Findings
WHICAP
Participants in areas with higher air pollution levels had lower cognitive scores and faster cognitive decline over time
U.S. women
Women exposed to higher levels of fine particulate matter (PM2.5) were at higher risk of cognitive decline and dementia
Older adults
Older adults living in areas with higher PM concentrations had worse cognitive function
Brain scans
People living in areas with worse air quality were more likely to have a build-up of amyloid in their brains
Brain tissue
Donors who lived in areas with higher levels of traffic-related air pollution showed more plaques related to Alzheimer's disease
China
Long-term exposure to air pollution impaired cognitive performance in verbal and math tests
Air pollution can affect the brain directly and indirectly. For example, inhaled particles can travel through a nerve from the nasal cavity into the brain, and chemical markers of brain inflammation can increase.
American Psychological Association
Smog in our brains - American Psychological Association
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So as you see above higher rates of cognitive issues like dementia and alzheimer's, and that because air pollution blocks air consumption and you have lower blood oxygen levels, and they creates plaque in the brain and then if further compounds to all kinds of negative brain incidents, and this creates lots of mental health issues.And this is why black people have the highest level of mental health problem!!!
Conclusion. WHICAP participants living in areas with higher levels of ambient air pollutants have lower cognitive scores at enrollment and more rapid rates of cognitive decline over time. In NOMAS, a smaller cohort with fewer repeat measurements, we found no statistically significant associations.
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And this is why keep on telling them to clean up chinatown, and they don't understand areas with higher levels of pollution have higher levels of crime, mostly higher levels of violent crime!!!! 🤔 So people are triggered like black people are more triggered than ancient people, and so they do more violence and more crime in dirty areas. In chinatown, being dirtier negatively impacts black people when they come in there, and they do more criminal activity because of the pollution!!!! But also, it's causing all kinds of cognitive issues with the people in chinatown, as I was with a chinese doctor who lived in chinatown and both the male and female who she was taken care of which were family members, both had cognitive issues because of high levels of pollution!!!!
The results suggest that exposure to elevated levels of air pollution is associated with increased crime rates. In our fixed effects specification, we find that an additional 10 Air Quality Index (AQI) points increase the crime rate by 1.2%, and experiencing an AQI of above 35 leads to 3.7% more crimes.
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Yes, areas with higher levels of pollution have higher levels of violent crime:
Air pollution and violent crime
Research suggests that air pollution can increase violent crime, including homicide, assault, and battery. For example, a study of Chicago Police Department data found that violent crime increased 2.2% in areas with temporarily increased air pollution. Another study found that a 10% increase in PM2.5 exposure was associated with a 0.14% increase in violent crime.
Mechanism of action
Air pollution may cause people to become more irritable, impulsive, and aggressive, which can lead to more violent crime.
Effect on different types of crime
Air pollution doesn't seem to increase non-violent crimes, such as burglary, robbery, larceny, arson, and grand theft auto.
Effect on different income groups
The effect of air pollution on crime may be unevenly distributed across income groups.
Effect on different temperatures
The effects of air pollution on crime may differ depending on the temperature. For example, the effects of PM2.5 may be largest at lower temperatures, while the effects of ozone may be largest at higher temperatures.
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So the government is screwing everything up from the local government to the county government to the state government to the federal government.To all these countries, this should be the number one issue in the united nations.This is why africa is so ultraviolent.This is why the palestinian area and other areas with high pollution in india and around the world are ultraviolent in comparison!!!! So polluted water, polluted, air pollutant, land driving them crazy and driving them to ultra ultra ultra ultra violence!!!! 🤔 So I keep on telling them they need to be very hygienic, they can't be pigs!!!
Cleanliness is next to godliness, and anyone that isn't clean is killing themselves and everybody around them. Anyone who isn't clean like my brother, John. He has very unclean habits. He's killing himself and he is killing me!!!! So he doesn't keep his room clean. He doesn't do things like cleaning the house and organizing. He is f****** killing me and killing himself. He is killing me and committing suicide on himself. He is committing suicide on himself and killing me!!!! He didn't buy the air purifiers. I bought the air purifiers.I alter cleaned this house.My mother and brother weren't as clean as me!!!! Jen was ultra clean.She was the person I was supposed to be with the city pollution also led to my health breakdowns!!!!! I was on the side of the city that actually had more pollution!!!!
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Roosevelt & michigan because of bear stadium, it has ungodly amount of pollution and I told you.Remote parking is very good, so getting people.Not the park around the stadium or lately, field or socks, park, or any of them and doing remote parking spreads out the pollution and minimizes the pollution.So again, remote parking spreads the wealth and lowers pollution levels in all stadium, sitting courage, people to remote park!!!!! So yes, that area led to my health decline not only distress, but the stress compounded with increased pollution levels!!!! And thank God, Jen was clean. It was like falling off a mountain moving into this house where it was filthy. And then the guy who did the bathroom f****** unbelievably. Left all kinds of f****** dirt.He f****** made this place when he redid.The bathroom unbelievable f****** pig pen!!!! He was supposed to put up coverings, preventing the spread of dust. He was supposed to use vacuum systems, removing the dust from the room. As he did construction, all of that detrimental, and then my brother in putting me in that environment, worsen my, he increase my stress, cutting off my Hey, and then yelling and screaming at me every day and then me cleaning the environment and him being pigots.In comparison!!!!! So he screwed me massively, I already had issues, and he just pounded on me and then moving here, I compounded my issues I was never supposed to be in this f****** f****** pink pen place!!!! And you took away my f****** money. He's going to kill you.I've been trying to get out of this f****** shithole!!!!!
Generally, the side of a city with the most air pollution is usually the side with higher traffic density, industrial areas, and proximity to major highways; this often means the "downwind" side depending on prevailing wind patterns, which can concentrate pollutants in certain neighborhoods.
Key points to consider:
Traffic congestion:
Areas with heavy traffic tend to have higher levels of particulate matter and nitrogen oxides due to vehicle emissions.
Industrial zones:
Areas with factories and industrial facilities often release pollutants like sulfur dioxide and particulate matter, contributing to higher pollution levels.
Topography:
The layout of the city, including hills and valleys, can affect how pollutants disperse, leading to higher concentrations in certain areas.
Wind direction:
The prevailing wind direction can carry pollutants from one side of the city to another, impacting which areas experience the most pollution.
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I moved into the south side of chicago, where jen lived highest levels of air pollution!!!!!
The South and West Sides of Chicago have the most air pollution, particularly in areas with major highways and high concentrations of industry.
Here are some details about air pollution in Chicago:
West Side
A Northwestern University study found that the western edge of Chicago, including neighborhoods like North and South Lawndale, East Garfield Park, Archer Heights, and Brighton Park, has up to 32% higher concentrations of nitrogen dioxide (NO2) air pollution than the rest of the city.
Irving Park and Avondale
These neighborhoods have consistently high PM2.5 readings, with one sensor located above the Kennedy Expressway, where over 190,000 cars and trucks travel daily.
Highways
NOx and particulate matter levels are worst along highways, regardless of the season or weather.
Ozone
Ozone levels are highest over Lake Michigan and in rural communities, and are particularly high during warmer months.
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The Air Quality and Health Report found that air pollution disproportionately burdens neighborhoods on the South and West Sides, with parts of the City bisected...
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To determine which side of a city has the most contaminated drinking water, you need to consider factors like the location of industrial sites, older plumbing systems, proximity to landfills or agricultural areas, and the direction of groundwater flow, which can vary significantly depending on the city's geography; generally, the side of the city closer to potential sources of contamination like industrial zones or older pipes is more likely to have more contaminated drinking water; however, this is not always the case and requires specific information about the city in question.
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Older infrastructure:
Older pipes can corrode and leach contaminants like lead into the water supply.
Groundwater flow:
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Local water reports:
Check your city's official water quality reports to see specific contamination levels in different areas.
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I believe the south side of the city has the most contaminated water and I moved into an area that has very high rates of water contamination and very high rates of air pollution. Yes, new construction, but they didn't address the air pollution nor the contaminated water!!!
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Sep 21, 2022 — Tests performed for thousands of Chicago residents found lead, a neurotoxic metal, in amounts far exceeding the federal standards.
Millions of illinois people are drinking contaminated water, and this is a failure of the local county state and federal government, and you don't think putting these people away for corruption, they're killing everybody!!! Oh I believe in capital punishment for government officials!!!!
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Jun 29, 2023 — Nearly one million residents get their drinking water from municipal wells contaminated with toxic forever chemicals.
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So throw on the financial distress and then throw in all the environmental issues from water to air to ALL of that on top of me. And it was the perfect storm. Jen didn't have the financial issues relationship issues, meaning not between us.But we did after she broke up with me... So she dumped on me, everybody s*** on michael!!!!!!
My brother, john is s******* all over me.He doesn't get off his f****** lazy a**!!! 😴 You track me in a living f****** nightmare!!!!!!!! :( 😞 😓 😩 😤 😡 😠 😞 😓 😩 😤 😡 😠 😞 😓 😩 😤 😡 😠 😞 😓 😩 😤 😡 😠 😞 😓
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So like. I don’t think I’ve even said anything about myself omg. But background, my depression and “eating disorder” started 2009, so when I was around 13 years old, in middle school, 8th grade. I don’t know which one caused the other because I’d never had a problem with my body before then. Like, it was just my body. It was me. But somehow it turned into an enemy that I needed to change, I don’t know. So I don’t know if the “eating disorder” caused the depression or vice versa
But anyways. Been struggling with that for years. I stopped gaining weight at the end of middle school (so at 13 years old/in 2009) because I was restricting my food intake. I averaged the same weight up from 2009 until 2017, so 8 years, most of those years where I was not done growing and should have been gaining weight or that’s what I was told idk. From 2017-2019, I was 10 pounds higher but maintained that as well during those 2 years. Mid 2019, I stopped trying to maintain my weight and restricting my intake to the point of controlling my weight.
So I’ve had a LONG experience with controlling my weight by not eating. It wasn’t even that bad, like I could still function, I never dropped below a BMI of 17 (BMI stands for body mass index) (okay let me go over that because idk if this is common knowledge for people who don’t suffer from this shit)
BMI:
“The BMI is a chart that looks at someone’s height and weight to determine if they are at a healthy weight. The BMI is used to tell doctors approximately how much muscle, fat, and bone someone has.
BMI <17.0: thinness
BMI <18.5: underweight
BMI 18.5-24.9: normal weight
BMI ≥25.0: overweight
BMI ≥30.0: obesity.”
IMPORTANT NOTE: BMI is really for medical purposes only. It isn’t something that is law. It isn’t something that should be lived by. BMI isn’t the only way to measure how healthy you are because there are so many other factors aside from height age and weight that contribute to health. So people say don’t compare your BMI to what the labeled attached to it is. Because that’s really for medical diagnosis purposes.
“The average BMI for American men over age 20 for the year 2015-2016 is now 29.1. The average BMI for American women over age 20 for the year 2015-2016 is now 29.6.” So “normal” bmi does NOT equal average body type.
HOWEVER I WAS VERY MENTALLY ILL SO I LIVED BY MY BMI LOL. Okay, continuing.
BMI and Eating Disorders:
“The American Psychiatric Association (APA) has guidelines for how to diagnose eating disorders. In order for someone to be diagnosed with anorexia, someone has to meet multiple criteria. One of the criteria is based on someone’s BMI.
Depending on BMI, someone is determined to have mild, moderate, severe, or extreme anorexia.
Severity of Anorexia
Mild = Greater than or equal to 17
Moderate = 16-16.99
Severe = 15-15.99
Extreme = Less than 15”
So, just for informational purposes. I was underweight but at my LOWEST I had a BMI of (okay it was NOT 17 just kidding, I typed my weight wrong when calculating my old bmi. It was 16.6 at the absolute lowest oops lol). During the time that I maintained my weight, I ranged between a bmi of 16.6-18.9, but on average ranged between a bmi of 17.9-18.7.
So, for my average BMI, I guess you could see why I didn’t think I was too sick. In terms of normal BMI, I was very low. But in terms of “””eating disorders”””” I wasn’t TOO underweight. I wasn’t “sick enough”.
But from 2017-2019 my bmi ranged form 20.8-22.7. Which was considered normal. I was still controlling what I ate but not as severely (which wasn’t even that severe to begin with, like I ate and everything but I just didn’t eat a normal amount). I was more content and happy mentally so I didn’t put too much focus on controlling my weight.
THEN 2019 HIT AND I GAINED A LOT OF WEIGHT. Because I was HAPPY and NOT STRUGGLING WITH DEPRESSION 24/7 so I didn’t control my food intake aka didn’t control my weight. I was just living life and being genuinely happy.
In June 2019, I was a BMI of 21.2 (normal). By mid-october 2019, I was a bmi of 27.6 (overweight). And even though my weight was labeled as “overweight”, in 2015-2016 standards, that was a little less than an average womans BMI (I wonder what the average BMI for people is now?)
So I took my new weight and BMI very poorly. Because I had lived off of controlling my weight and maintaining it in double digits (in pounds) for 8 long years of my life. So to be considered overweight, to start spiraling after hearing that and going back to my bmi app, which used to look like this for 8 years:
to now seeing THIS with the color red, danger color, ALL OVER IT:
Fucked me UP. I was heavier but I was later told that this was my “natural weight” without controlling it 24/7 and that the bmi doesn’t matter, my weight wasn’t “BAD”.
After October 2019 for a year, I had very bad body imagine (due to knowing what my BMI was and being so aware of how different my weight was) but things in general weren’t TOO BAD mentally because I wasn’t actively throwing myself into my “eating disorder”. I was still happy with life and didn’t let it affect me too much.
Idk what happened in October 2020, but I weighed myself and had a BMI of 26.3. Which wasn’t even as high as the last time I’d checked! I don’t know why THAT made me spiral (probably because I was without a job again and so alone and hopeless) but I ended up becoming very suicidal and going back to inpatient hospitalization. During that time, I felt so much hopelessness and despair. I felt like nothing mattered. So I just. Barely ate while I was there. Just didn’t care. A month before I was hospitalized, I was still at the high BMI of 27.4. But during the month before being hospitalized and during my 5 week hospitalization (average inpatient stay is 7-10 days omg, it was the longest I’d ever been hospitalized), so during those 60 days, I had lost over 20 pounds. I lost 8 the month before and 14 pounds during the 5 weeks of being in the hospital. So. NOT GOOD. They referred me to a “residential eating disorder treatment”.
(Residential is like an inpatient hospitalization, but instead of an average stay of a week, it’s a month.)
So, when they told me this is what they’re recommending, I said to myself, “it’d probably be easier to not eat there and “get better” instead of just straight out refusing to eat and having my parents scream at me to eat”. Because before this point, no one knew I had an “eating disorder”. My family didn’t know. But, well, it’d be obvious if I just went home and barely touched any food. Like, in inpatient for those 5 weeks, I’d eat three to five small leafs of lettuce from a salad, no dressing. I did that most of the time. It was not good.
So I said whatever, I’ll go to residential for my “eating disorder”! And it was horrendous. First of all, the staff and my THERAPIST of all people, fucked me over to the point of almost being kicked out by my insurance. She said I was refusing to do certain things when I never refused, I said I’d rather NOT but I’ll do it if I have to. She just never approached those same topics again and behind my back said I had “refused to participate in treatment”. That was the first 2 weeks I was there, where I was still barely eating. I ate more than what I was eating during inpatient, but only because life was hell if I didn’t eat something there. Rights were taken away, you sat at the “beginners” table so to say. Which, honestly that’s fair. I wasn’t trying, so I deserved good things being taken away. But when I heard that my therapist (who was only with me for a week and a half because she quit and took a new job) (gee, I wonder if she even gave a shit about me! Probably not since she thought I was a completely lost cause and useless and a failure) completely fucked me over, because my new therapist told me that insurance was threatening to stop paying, I was ANGRY. like. How DARE this “professional” twist my words to the point of my insurance threatening to stop paying for treatment. How fucking DARE her.
To be fair, I obviously was NOT trying to get better because I didn’t WANT to, but she had no right to say “this patient is refusing to do a. b. and c.” it wasn’t even me refusing to eat or do therapy/groups. I participated in all therapy groups, I went to every meal and ATTEMPTED to eat, just rarely ever ate despite that. No, it wasn’t any of that. It was me “refusing to have a family session” and 3 other bullshit reasons I don’t even remember.
I did not refuse. Like, I’d never HAD an experience with eating disorder treatment before, it was COMPLETELY DIFFERENT from the other mental health treatment I’ve been through. So I thought the things she asked me to do were optional. She made it sound optional.
WELL APPARENTLY THEY ARE NOT. It is MANDATORY to have a family session (and CONTINUE to have them if the first doesn’t end in flames and destruction) with the people who you live with back at home. It makes sense now, like they’d be the ones seeing if you’re slipping into old habits. But it didn’t make sense to me at the time because family sessions had always been “if you want to, you can have one”. That’s why I said to her I’d rather not. WHICH IS NOT REFUSING. “I’d rather not” is me saying “really? That doesn’t sound necessary or helpful, but okay I guess I will if I have to!” Like, maybe that wasn’t clear from me saying “I’d rather not”, but you are a THERAPIST. You are supposed to DIG DEEP and have me explain my feelings.
Sorry god I’m still so angry.
So because of all the lies my therapist put in my MEDICAL CHART, my EATING DISORDER chart, a PROFESSIONAL made up LIES of my “refusals”, I said FUCK YOU to the whole place and just started eating. It wasn’t because I felt better or recovered, it wasn’t because I wanted to GET better, it was pure spite. “I’ll show you that I can do this” just out of spite. I was so angry.
So, I did start eating (very very hard to do, but I was quite literally forcing myself because I was so angry and wanted to prove a point). And I did end up finishing every single meal after that, with so much mental anguish.
It didn’t help though. Two weeks after that (so four weeks of being at residential), I was discharged. I was supposed to go to an eating disorder PHP but it was during covid so it was all virtual. And I could NOT stay awake on a video call from 8am to 5pm and eat two meals during that time. Like, honestly, I discharged myself from PHP because I have some type of sleep problem. I’m always sleepy. No matter or much or how little I sleep it’s never enough. So to sit from 8am-5pm without getting up to move and get my blood pumping, and just sitting down and listening to others, I got so tired I started to fall asleep. I could barely keep myself awake until 11am hit and we had a “break”. I spoke to someone during that time about me leaving because I just COULDN’T STAY AWAKE.
But it was also perfect because I didn’t WANT to participate in eating disorder treatment. Like, I felt like such a FAKE while at residential. I was one of the heaviest people there, DEFINITELY the heaviest person there that had a restrictive disorder and starved herself.
It’s hard to be in a bad mental place where you hate yourself and your body so much. But it’s even worse when you weigh SO MUCH. so much more than you use to, and nearly EVERYONE in treatment with you is stick thin. I felt like such a fraud. Especially because everyone there WANTED to get better. Or at least wanted to take the steps to try and get better. I DIDNT. I felt like such an asshole taking up a room there. People who WANTED to be here had to wait WEEKS for a room to open up. Yet I was there, FAT AS FUCK AND BIGGER THAN MOSTLY EVERYONE THERE, just being ungrateful.
So yeah, that’s why when I refer to my “eating disorder”, I put it in quotes. When I’m in a good mental space I usually don’t because I do realize I had a problem, but like, when I feel like I do right now, I feel like such a fucking fraud again. Like. It’s doing a disservice to people who actually suffer from eating disorders to call what I’m feeling/doing/going through an “eating disorder”.
I had left residential at a BMI of 24.5 (0.5 away from being in the overweight category again). And to be fair, I did end up doing better than I would have if I hadn’t gone to residential at all. 6 months later I was back to my “natural weight that wasn’t controlled by restricting my food intake” (as they enlightened me on during my treatment. I still don’t know if I believe that.) My BMI ranged around 25.5 through 29.3 at my highest between June 2021 up until July 2023. I was constantly fluctuating between gaining and losing weight during that time. The most I gained/lost during those years in total was 20 pounds (but not all at once, it was spread out because I was on and off trying to regain control of my weight. I’d relapse into the patterns every few months and be fine for a few months.) During that time, my patterns weren’t severe at ALL and they were very rare. So between July 2023 and now, I haven’t actively done anything to aid or engage in my “eating disorder”. Like. A full year of NOTHING. Just being free from thoughts of calories and weight and my body. I of course wasn’t FREE of all of that, but god it hadnt been that easy since BEFORE any of this happened.
Now fast forward to a month ago, I get hospitalized for suicidal thoughts and debilitating depression from being overworked/overwhelmed and just dead tired from my emotionally abusive boyfriend who I took care of despite him being able to care for him and his mental health on his own. During that one week in inpatient, I tried to eat, but I’ve always been a picky eater, even before any type of disordered eating happened. But when I’m in that low of a place with all of that depression and hopelessness, I have to eat foods that I know I like/enjoy because if I don’t, then I won’t want to eat because “what’s the point, I just want to die” and then I would slip into the thoughts of “why eat this if I don’t even like it and barely tolerate it, it’s a waste of calories”. I always make sure I have meals now because those thoughts ALWAYS happen if I get hungry. So, I spoke to the dietician when I was there but they must have read my chart and saw “eating disorder” and thought I was faking it or being a drama queen because I requested to have chicken or pb&j at every meal just so I KNEW I’d have something I wouldn’t struggle to eat so that I could avoid by “eating disorder” acting up while I was there. She said she’d put my dietary restrictions into my chart and also sent down to the kitchen.
I never received any type of dietary changes. I never even had a dietary tag, which everyone does if they talk to the dietician and it’s deemed that there are restrictions to what that person can and can’t eat.
The kitchen would bring up styrofoam containers of that days breakfast/lunch/dinner for all the patients. The meal was the same for everyone. UNLESS you had a container that had your name on it and the dietary tag attached.
People had dietary tags with their name on it, I didn’t. It probably wouldn’t have mattered anyways because the kitchen was awful and they basically slapped a tag on top of the container and didn’t change anything inside anyways. But it was just so invalidating because. I was diagnosed with an eating disorder. They know this. This is the SAME INPATIENT that I was at when I didn’t eat and ended up going to residential because they RECOMMENDED i go. Out of any inpatient I’ve ever been to, THEY KNOW. They know how bad it’s been in the past.
But nah. So. I barely ate while I was there and rejoiced when the meal was something I could actually keep down. Because I wasn’t starting to relapsing during this time and I didn’t want to. I wanted to avoid it. I was still fine on terms of the eating disorder front. But it fucked me up not being able to eat things I felt like I could without wanting to go back to starving. I couldn’t just go out and get a meal for myself, I was under lock and key until discharge. I couldn’t do anything for myself, I was under THEIR care. So having that hungry feeling in my stomach during a very bad time of my mental health and depression, it made the eating disorder thoughts start up again. Luckily I got out before anything bad really started up. I don’t know if that’s contributing to how I’m feeling now. Maybe it’s coincidence. Because I was in inpatient 3 weeks ago, left 2 weeks ago. I’ve been fine since. Up until last night.
That’s all I typed so I’ll send this to you now.
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