#blegh. brains suck

[sukugo]

Where are you king hope you're alright

anon!!!!!!!!!! yeah i really wasn't feeling super great :c (normal ocurrence i just get like that every once in a while) and i tend to step away from tumblr bc of it. thank u for checking in i really appreciate it🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 💖💖💖💖💖

[curiosity-killed]

I think one of the stupidest emotions is when ur brain is fully, utterly convinced that you are inadequate at every single thing you do despite there not really being anything wrong

[freakysaken-headcanons]

Assorted headcanons blegh

- 1x can control kind of how sensitive each part of his body is, but there's always a "minimum sensitivity" they gotta be. Most of the time he only really uses this to cum faster during quickies or to make edging more fun but he's also used it a few times for actual practical things like heightening the sensitivity of his senses to tell apart 007n7 clones or where Taph traps are!

- Taph has problems and all of them would be solved if he could suck builderman's dick. He wants that man so bad its making builderman lowk uncomfortable. Save them for the love of god

- Deusekarr is the ONLY sex-repulsed ace in the forsaken. Yeah Jason is ace but he's sex neutral to favorable, and Azure is ace but hes also sex neutral. Deusekarr is also the last-resort babysitter for C00LK1DD and BLUUDUD because of this as it's basically guaranteed that he'll never be getting freaky and therefore can look after the kids while everyone else enjoys sex.

- Taph once managed to get a look at Builderman's ass while Builderman was trying to fix the sink and he was bent over. Taph has it ingrained into his brain like the most important memory of his goddamn life and frequently imagines it while jacking off.

- chance is mostly masc presenting but can enjoy a good pegging in a dress every once in a while, he had a collection of different sexy dresses and outfits to wear on fem days to the casino and he was really proud of them because not only was he hot in them but they were genuinely just really good outfits and comfy at that. Also he made sure EVERY dress and skirt had pockets and finding all those pockets was a BITCH

-- ourple

Taph being a little bit of a creep is the best

[citrusscale-remastered]

Magisterium Actors AU

[The Silver Key]

Call: Guys I feel so high budget just look at this

*He twirls the camera through the room. Half the set is draped in lime green like a Marvel set*

~~~~~ Rufus: And cut!

Call: Alright, where’s the key to these handcuffs I gotta go piss

Call: Guys?

Tamara, whispering to the camera: The prop doesn’t have a key, we’re just going to snap off the chain and CGI the melting for the next scene

Tamara: Nobody tell him

Jasper: We’re not that high budget

~~~~~ Joseph: Get in my white van, kids

Joseph: I’ve got chili

Jasper: I love chili, but with your character I might actually become the chili

~~~~~ *Jasper, Tamara, and Call pulling stuff out of Constantine’s closet*

Call: Why did the costumers decide Con was so built

*camera pans over to Call, absolutely swamped in a huge jean jacket*

Call: HE WAS LIKE TWENTY WHEN HE DIED

~~~~~ Alex: Alright, ready for the stoat scene?

Call: Yep

*The practical effect of several stoats exploding fake blood and guts everywhere later*

Call: I WAS NOT READY

Alex, frowning sadly: I think the blood got into my guyliner, now my eyes kinda hurt

Aaron: That’s the most edgelord thing I’ve ever heard

~~~~~

(The pie scene) Jasper: Now they don’t have to fight over who gets the first slice

Rufus: Cut!

*Jasper immediately spits out the pie gracelessly*

Jasper: I just ate modeling clay and silicone

Jasper: The sacrifices one makes to be a method actor

Alex, staring into the camera bewildered: He just keeps on eating shit he shouldn’t! First the shrimp, then the chandelier, now this?

Alex: We can’t stop him!

~~~~~ Aaron, sitting up sharply from the table: The reports of my death are greatly exaggerated

Call, pushing him back down: They’re about to get un-exaggerated!

Aaron: Spoilers!

~~~~~ Jasper: And if Tamara sucked-

*cut*

Jasper: And if you suck, she probably respects Celia-

*cut*

Jasper: And if Tamara sucked face with you, she probably wanted me to throw you at Celia-

Jasper: FUCK

*cut*

~~~~~

Alex, vlogging: And here, we’ve got my lovely zombie brother

Aaron, still in death makeup: Rawr

Aaron: I’d go for your brains, but you don’t have any

Alex: Hey-

~~~~~

*practicing the fight scene for Joseph’s death*

Aaron: Okay, so push, block, spin, and then I getcha!

Joseph: I suppose in your youth terms, I will have been ‘got’

Aaron, looking at the camera: Youth terms??

~~~~~ Call: *collapses dramatically onto the airbag*

Call: Blegh

Call: *raises a thumbs up*

~~~~~ Part One Part Two Part Three

[bettertwin1]

Goodmorning, slept and I feel slightly better about the situation now. Still upset don't get me wrong but it doesn't feel like the end of the world or anything anymore <- as most scary situations out of my control feel

I don't think i NEED to explain why it was upsetting <- you guys don't need to know my lore /j but if i do, vaugely, it just sucks to have a childhood memory sexualized, BLEGH LOL ANYWAY,

If you are on our twt and are still responding to the prosh☆ppers who are trying to say i'm weird <- (ironic btw) pls stop 😓 it's not worth it they have rocks for brains

[sucharide]

.

blegh i had a meltdown today and in my self flagellation i made some self deprecating comment about being incapable of partnership and my mother who i love very much but who is sometimes unkind reinforced my self deprecation and agreed with my comment. She knows I am so unbearably lonely and am so sad that Ive never had a partner and likely will never have one, so it just really felt like... gee thanks mum.

But i know that living with me must be hard on her and she has never been an emotionally thoughtful person but it still felt like she was kicking me while I was down. if it was anything else i would consider it fair game, but my brain was on fire and the comment I had made was sort of self harm, so having it echoed sucked.

anyway. i just wish i lived with gentle people, but i dont.

[gooobraghhh]

my actual blog has been inactive for at least a year now and im sad about it :< me and my best friend (platonic partner) are pretty sex positive and they know my blog/have been an active part in it since its inception, and while they've been encouraging me out of my weird sex-shy shell (I think i've talked about all the guilt I have around it before), I think part of the reason I just haven't come back to my blog is that they'll know??? which is weird cause like. they don't care. i don't care that they know. but idk my brain is so hung up on being ~percieved~ due to mh stuff and it sucks!!! I wanna properly interact with others!!! I wanna make kink friends and mutuals!!!! but my stupid silly brain is scared of being active anywhere, even when it comes to sfw accounts. blegh.

I think maybe part of it is being a little scared of how dumb and annoying i get when i'm horny. i say and do things without really thinking - and that's really scary, i don't even like drinking alcohol for that same fear. (and also how vulnerable it feels being a horny sub on a blog).

maybe i'll make a new blog as a fresh start, and tell my partner when i feel ready. idk. idrk what i meant to get out of sharing this with you, you don't have to share it if you have nothing meaningful to say on it. thanks for listening to my rambling regardless, as always, i hope it's not too annoying :>

🧸

they/them

Well it looks like most of your barriers are like mental hang ups which there’s only so much you can do about. I think creating a private account to help with your stresses is probably a good a idea, then just see how comfortable you are with posting/ interacting. You’ve come off distinctly respectful and nice in my asks despite being very submissive so I don’t think you have to worry too much. Also it’s still an anonymous blog at most so you’re not really committing to all that much. Hope that helps a bit

[aldritch-ao3]

old person, do you play games ?? what games do you play

[ insert pitiful hamster ]

andd!! fave colour(s), reading genre, do you prefer manga manhwa or manhuas ??

this feels like an interrogation ... im sorry 🙁🙁🙁

questions for me … what a treat ! don’t be sorry it’s like a nice little delight :o) especially after a longass car ride. blegh.

for the record, my online alias is AM ! cogito ergo sum, i think therefore i write self indulgent fanfic. calling me aldritch is fine too. whatever feels right

i DO play games ! i’m an avid shiny hunter in pokémon games, but my go-to favourites are don’t starve together and skyrim. for the good of my reputation i won’t say how many collective hours i have in skyrim. my favourite games are either cozy farming-type games (stardew, fields of mistria, cattails, etc) and games that are a little scary to play or experience (shipwrecked 64, bloodborne, home safety hotline, etc).

bonus mention to pokemon mystery dungeon 2 explorers of time/darkness/sky, and super danganronpa 2 goodbye despair. not games i replay often but long-time favourites of mine. and anyone who knew me before playback will know i’m a big fan of the sonic franchise. even if i’m ,.. really bad at the games and prefer the comics

as for colours, i like yellow a lot! mustard yellow … though i wear a lot of maroon and green. and my whole pc setup (and part of my hair) are pink. you just have to trust me on liking yellow. i promise i do

reading genres … even more all over the place, i’m not gonna lie, esp bc i dont have as much time to read. i really enjoy a bit of dogshit xenofiction via warriors, but when it comes to actually enjoyable books that i own, id say highlights are the indifferent stars above by daniel james brown, and plastiboo’s vermis series! (i feel like my main username and alias should tell you what my favourite short story is lmao) i also can’t reasonably call a webcomic a novel no matter how long it is, but if i could justify it i’d add homestuck to the favourite novel list.

i’ve definitely read the most manga versus manhwa and manhua, but i don’t read many of any of them in general to be honest! aside from jjk, i'd say kaiju no. 8 and my hero academia are easy favourites (and bnha's horikoshi is one of my favourite artists of all time), and anyone who’s added me on discord will be used to seeing giyuu from demon slayer as my icon every now and again … but i tend to have a love-hate relationship with most manga i read. while i love when a book series sucks, very few manga suck in ways that captivate me the same. tokyo ghoul? maybe?

i don’t read a lot of comics in general i’m kind of like a video essay guy. shounen is my guilty pleasure but i also have very little patience for tasteless fanservice or most romance tropes or the overuse of shock value in horror series or the way the modern isekai genre Is. so it’s. yknow. in theory i like manga. in practice im a massive hater.

if you want to access the wavelength of my brain, just get really into hazel's normal creepypasta retrospective , the ember knight , and the ninth hour all back to back

[anadorablekiwi]

*flops*

Blegh. Brain weird. Words suck

*head pat and a hug* mood 🫂🫂

Have sleepy puppies

[bobokitty]

Brain woke me up too early blegh so get this...whatever this is. A vent?

I don't like doing commissions. I don't like the dynamic they set up between me and the other person. It's a pretty miserable experience for me and makes me hate what I draw. The other person has an idea in their head that I'll never be able to match cuz I can't picture it properly.

That said, I do like drawing for others. Gifts and doodles are totally fine. Things where the other person isn't expecting much or anything at all from me. I'm the only one setting expectations and rules. Much lower stakes for my brain.

[side note: Studio work falls into another category where I'm working with others and there's a pretty clear style and goal that I need to hit. It's also working off someone else's art to start with. My brain is fine with this]

I set up ko-fi to see if I could find a medium between the two (though there has yet to be any takers so zero data exists on the successfulness of it for my brain). Having it timed means you get what you get and no revisions. If there are mistakes then there are mistakes and that's now part of the art. That's the idea at least. Also, the pricing kind of highlights how little people tend to charge for commissions.

$15/h is what you make working fast food where I live. It is not enough to afford rent by yourself anywhere here. I know this from experience. $20/h isn't even enough for solo living here but it's a little easier to get by. Five hours into a piece, and you're already hitting $100 (this is all USD btw, yes I live in the US and can only talk about the cost of living here. Don't come at me about how that amount is different in another country. That should be understood; every country has it's own cost of living). So what then if a piece takes at least two days? Two work days = 16 hours. That's $320. Some artists can calculate this stuff and price accordingly, but there are a LOT of smaller artists who will never be able to charge that much. Is it right to say that they are only worth paying $2/h? (US companies sure think so. They love to outsource work to pay people that little) But if you're a small artist, you can't charge more. You can't ask for fair pay because you're lucky for the few eyes you get. It's shitty. It sucks! I wish I was super wealthy so I could just like, pay all these people idk man I've lost my train of thought.

Imma go back to sleep now. No idea how to end this lol. Congrats if you got this far? 🎉🎉🎉

[repo-net]

OMORI Rank-up Tier List #1: Main Cast

Alright, I've recently finished OMORI and I've given myself a bit of time to sit on it, think about the characters and how everything panned out. And hey, it's a pretty writing-centric game, I'm running a pretty writing-centric blog, so why not start with a short two-part series of appreciation posts for the game in the form of a tier list?

I definitely have a lot less to say about the side characters, so I won't be bothering giving them their own post, I'll be clumping them with the next one which is going to be a review of the locations/boss fights throughout the game that I was able to experience.

I'll note right now for anyone that this is the opinions of someone who finished OMORI about a few days after he posted this and only finished the true ending route (because as much as I love it, I am not willing to put myself through the game again just to go through and see the content in other routes when I can just look it up on YouTube), so this may change sometime in the future. I know for a fact that I was battling like hell with myself when I was ranking these six... anyways.

Obviously, spoilers are inbound, so if you haven't played OMORI and want to check it out for yourself, come back to this post later once you've completed it. If you're ready to look at whatever take this brain of mine has, then here it is under the cut!

Oh, and a few more messages before we get to the meat of it all - I'm going to be clumping and judging the characters with a combination of their aspects from both the dream world and the real world. While I obviously think that the real-world versions of the characters are the 'complete' arcs of themselves and the dream world versions are just watered down versions of them created by Sunny/Omori in their liking, I think it's worth bringing them up anyways since they serve as the background for each character before the horrible tragedy that hit them.

I also think that every single character in the main cast is written fantastically and are all at least A-tier characters in my heart, except for a select few in the top 2 that I think are more than worthy of being put into the S-tier if I were actually putting them into tiers instead of just ranking them.

Alright - let's do this for real this time!

#6 - Mari

You know how much it sucks having to pick a least favorite among a selection of things that you all really like? It's like me having to choose which of my kids I want to put up for adoption, blegh. Unfortunately, someone had to take this and begrudgingly, I'll have to slide everyone's favorite older sister here. I really hope this one isn't controversial...

So, here's the thing about Mari, right? In the perspective of a writer, I think she absolutely has the most going for her in terms of the amount of content you can produce for her in comparison to the rest of the cast. I think the sheer magnitude of possibilities and scenarios that you can write using Mari is pretty much endless, whether it be fluffy alternative universes where she lives or angsty, gut-wrenching punches of how not so great her time with Sunny ended. And believe me, that's just scraping the surface of what you can do with her!

Mari's a constant presence throughout the entirety of the game, whether it be in the form of Something looking over Sunny and Omori, being the support for everyone in the friend group as you go through the dream world, or her unfortunate death being the reason everyone in the real world turned out the way they did. And as much as I want to like Mari more, she's a very charming character and I think her relationship with Hero is one of the highlights of the game, I constantly find myself appreciating it (as a writer who enjoys angst) from Hero's side more because of how he responds to it. There just... isn't much for me to look at, honestly? Her dream world self is a sweetheart, bless her - but when we talk about how fleshed out she really is, there's not much for me to say other than what's already been shown to you in the story.

The best parts of Mari are in the symbolism scattered throughout the game in Sunny's subconscious and the short scenes we get of her throughout the game. I think I can attribute this to one of the criticisms I have of Omori; I really, really think Mari's character would've benefited from having more scenes of her failings (the pressure to get the duet with Sunny right; her perfectionist attitude being the reason he snaps being the fatal flaw that causes her death) actually play out instead of being left up to interpretation and details in the flavor text of the game.

Shit stinks. I really wish we could've seen that more- ironically enough, the imperfect side of Mari. Because the way I interpreted it, Sunny's motivation for playing the violin was so he could spend more time with Mari regardless of how much stress it puts on him and how much time it takes away from getting to chill with his friends. And when even that stops being fun for Sunny because of the pressure he feels considering it was the day of the recital and he still wasn't playing it perfectly, he lashes out and breaks the violin. In comparison, Mari wanted to perfect it cause... uhh, I dunno? Would sure be nice if we got more context on why she acted like that, considering the stark contrast of what she's like in the dream world...

If you really want to be harsh about it, Mari just ended up being a plot device for Sunny's own story, unfortunately. There exists a personality in there in the form of her dream world self; but it's angelic, too much so (which we obviously know why, it's Sunny's interpretation of Mari, a person who could do no wrong). I wish there was more about how Mari really was - as a sibling, as a girlfriend, and just as a person than the stories we get from the other characters that we have to fill in the blanks ourselves.

But hey, that's what fanfics are for, yeah? You go, Mari enjoyers. I love all of y'all. (Has been in the fandom for like no more than a week)

#5 - Basil

You hate to see it. Sorry, I know a lot of the fandom adores this boyo (I know a friend of mine does and I apologize in advance to you) and I do too, but I think it speaks volumes of how much I love this cast when a character of the floral lad's level can land himself in a spot like this. Man, why'd I put the two sweetest and kindest characters in the main cast at the bottom? I'm horrible, lmfao.

Ahh, Basil. In fairness, I think he has my second favorite design in the game only behind Aubrey from the real world, and if there's a character I'd want to roleplay as - I think my mind would go to Basil too, actually. There's so much good I can say about Basil that it makes me wonder; how in the world did he end up all the way over here?

Is it because of the horrible shit he pulled (seriously, how does a 12 year old come up with that? oh wait, my blog is nagisa shingetsu themed. nevermind, it's totally reasonable.) that he ended up here? Nope, heck I think he's way more interesting of a character because of it; seeing just how badly he was willing to protect his best friend and save him, only to create a rift between the two that becomes the focal point of the entire plot. That's good fucking shit right there. Love when characters have good intentions in mind and it just ruins their life.

The striking thing about Basil is that he has a very complete personality that makes him easy to latch onto; Basil is a kind soul with a strong sense of empathy and understanding of others, he loves photography and flowers, going as far as to have descriptions of his best friends in the wake of said flowers. He's a little troubled, hates fighting, but he's trying his best in spite of that to keep a smile on his face. He's a good boy and I think if you showed a normal person who knows nothing about the game the main cast, I think most people would say Basil's either the most interesting or their favorite character just by how nicely wrapped his presentation is when you disregard all the spoilery stuff about him.

Where it stops for me though is this - for someone who plays such an important role in the story and how the main conflict in pretty much 75% of the game is centered around him, Basil sure enjoys being absent because unfortunately, said conflict is the fact that he's missing. I'm not going to use this as a diss on Basil's character because it isn't his fault that he's pretty much required to be shrouded in mystery, and I don't even know what suggestions I'd have to improve it because you can't be showing Basil off too much.

But we're at a crossroads here. I think we didn't see Basil enough in the story, but at the same time... what could you do in OMORI that fixes that issue while also not overexposing him at the same time? Another unlucky spot that Basil's put in is the fact that some of the scenes where he's present in the real-world are overshadowed by another character capturing me more (Aubrey). It's not that there's a lack of him, but it's... ugh. It's so hard to explain.

It's tough. Because Basil's struggles is just so incredibly heartbreaking and I really, really do feel for him and just want to give the guy a hug after all that he's been through. Being driven to the point where you and your best friends are fighting each other, even gouging out his fucking eye??? It's horrific. I don't think the first thought that came to Basil's mind during the incident was 'let's hide this evidence as fast as we can', but more of a 'oh god, i need to save my best friend'. He's got so much weighing down on him.

At the end of the day, I don't even think Basil's underutilized. It just feels like he is, and I can't shake it off enough to put him above all the other characters here. Sorry, flower boy. I get the feeling you'll grow on me more as time passes, though.

#4 - Sunny

Hey, it's the protagonist! I usually put guys like you a lot higher than this, especially considering just how much I was rooting for you... and you did! So happy for you, my man. I'll forever be grateful I stumbled upon the best possible ending for the gang on my first and only playthrough of the game. Oh right, we should be talking about him instead of me. Sorry about that.

While some people like to consider Omori and Sunny as separate entities and prefer to rank them exclusive of one another, I'm personally going to take the other route and do as I've been doing with everyone else here; collectively using both dream world and real-world versions to judge the character as a whole.

And that plays the biggest factor me when it comes to ranking Omori/Sunny. Because I don't think Omori is a separate person from who Sunny is - I think Omori is an aspect of Sunny that formed as a result of the trauma that the incident with Mari caused. Omori is Sunny's coping mechanism, less of a shield, more of a wall; but I think the best word to describe him is a bubble that keeps Sunny's most horrific memories from resurfacing.

When I first played this game, I immediately found myself pretty attached to Omori because he was just a dry, quiet little guy who hangs out with his friends and might have some sort of mental issue to him. Who could resist such allure? But damn, if it weren't for the real world segments and how it all culminates into the final battle between Sunny and Omori... I think he'd be in Mari's spot. A character too reliant on flavor text to showcase their character, not really leaving enough of an impact for me to immediately think about them when I hear about the game OMORI.

But Sunny... Sunny, my beautiful boy. This poor fucking kid. Sunny is such an incredibly human character and I always found myself feeling pity for the guy, he's been dealt with such a horrible hand in the short time he's been alive, and yet despite me never going anywhere near the Sunny that went through, and having a very different personality from him; I can attest, he's very relatable. Just remind yourself that this kid pretty much tortured and isolated him for four whole years all alone because he couldn't get over the guilt that accidentally killing Mari gave him.

Four years is the amount of time between the start of the pandemic and today. Imagine never leaving your house, having no friends to rely on or talk to, constantly living in a fantasy world where you can do no wrong to hide yourself and cope, and dealing with at a worst case scenario was daily nightmares of your most horrible memory. Sunny's immediate reactions to anything that causes him distress is to block it out, and so; Omori, being his bubble, will do whatever means it takes to protect Sunny regardless of how much better it'd actually be in the end for him to finally accept the reality of what happened four years ago.

I don't normally mess or enjoy silent protagonists much because they're inherently kind of dull and usually end up falling flat. But along with Kris from Deltarune, Sunny is wonderful. It's just a shame that everyone after him are people I ended up feeling more connected to.

#3 - Hero

I honestly can't believe this man managed to win me over so hard that he'd place in the top 3. I kept thinking to myself while I was ranking the main cast: 'I like this character more than him, right...?'. But almost every single time, I remember something this goofy charm of a man did and I just sigh and realize I didn't appreciate him enough until after my playthrough and looked back on how so many of the things I liked about this game involved him.

So, here we are. At third, is none other than the world's most handsome man himself - Hero. I'm still wondering what his real name is if Hero was apparently just a nickname. Henry? That's like the closest thing I can think of off the top of my head. But let's address the elephant in the room.

I'll get this out of the way already. I'm perfectly aware that in comparison to everyone else, Hero doesn't get as much screentime or focus, heck; in the real world, he only shows up at the end of the second day and his most memorable moment for me was Kel telling us about what became of Hero after Mari's death when you go to her at the cemetery during Three Days Left. Flavor text. The very thing I pointed out to be why everyone before Hero is ranked lower than him. So how come he's up here...?

More than anything else, it's personal attachment. Apologies again for making this about me (pretty much every character from here is going to involve a bit of my personal life), but I have no siblings at all. This was kind of my fault, since I was so attached to my parents' love and affection that I didn't want anyone else taking that away from me. At the same time, I had three older male cousins who were the closest things to a big brother that I ever had in my childhood. They weren't exactly the nicest to me... but I always figured that was admittedly because of how weird I was as a kid anyways, so I don't hold that against them. I just wish I could've connected with them more.

Hero not only feels a lot more 'real' as a person to me in comparison to characters like Basil and Mari, not only cause I know people who handled the loss of a family member like he did and managed to hold himself enough and not go to the deep end. They're some of the most admirable people I know, and I look up to them a lot. Hero constantly wonders what he did wrong that Mari felt the need to commit suicide, but in the end; it's because he didn't do anything wrong. It's why I've always thought Hero's perspective after the good ending is the most interesting one and the one I always look forward to when I see how the writer executes it.

Not only does Hero get significantly more screentime than the characters before him in the form of the dream world, and feel much more alive than all the other dream world versions of the main cast, but he's much more flexible and allows for more wholeness in what I want to feel from a character.

What I mean by that is that Hero's personality and character opens more opportunities (and capitalizes on it!) so he can make me laugh, he can make me feel for him, he can be someone I can relate and struggle with, he can be someone I want to root for, and he's someone I can attribute to things I hold dearly to in real life.

He might not be the most complex or tragic (and considering what he went through, it goes to show just how bad shit gets in this game) character out there in a cast full of really deep ones, nor does he really stand out in the cast to some people...

But to me, he's everything I want out of a character. The only things that stopped him from being higher is that I was more compelled and struck by the next two.

#2 - Aubrey

Honestly? I thought Sunny would be a lot higher; in the spots that this one and the one after her would be, but I took the time to think about it and after some careful thought, I realized - yeah, I think these two are just more gripping to me and characters that I genuinely felt astonished by.

The dream world versions of the characters are husks. They're the idealistic versions of Sunny's friends and are characters that are only truly completed and finished because their real persona is so... amazing. And Aubrey...?

Out of any other character in the game, I think Aubrey benefits from the arc her real world has more than anyone else in this game. Because good god, this girl... I would've thought I'd feel more bad about the other characters, but I found myself constantly worrying about Aubrey because the circumstances that surrounded her was nothing short of poignant.

Could you imagine being in her position? You lose someone who's basically your older sister in a friend group that's more family than your own blood; because they're all deadbeats and your home life is unpleasant, to put it lightly. All of them start to drift off, for one reason and another, and it feels like nobody is even there to comfort you or give you a shoulder to lean on. But wait, maybe you do! Your childhood friend Basil, who's kind of nervous and seems pretty broken, but at least he's still there, right...?

And yet, from Aubrey's perspective, Basil ruined what was essentially the only physical memories they had left of their Mari. Someone she loved so dearly, desecrated like that... that broke her. For Aubrey, it felt like there was no one there that could understand her. And then, after four long years - suddenly, one of your friends finally decides to show his face, and this obnoxious, overly positive and reality-denying guy tries to act like you didn't just lose four years of your life wondering what went wrong and why she lost everything so quickly.

Wouldn't it feel insulting?

I don't normally like 'bully' characters (mainly due to my own childhood experiences with them), because they usually hit too close to home to me. I hate that I even feel like categorizing Aubrey as that considering we know the circumstances around her life. To make matters worse, she was probably the one I least cared about until her arc in the real world started and she completely blew me away.

Aubrey, whom I love the real design of and think she looks great in the real world - Aubrey's arc and character is something you learn to appreciate. It's something that you can only really 'get' when you remember the lesson OMORI tries to teach you in the first place.

And well, if you've played the game, then I need not explain any further. Let's move on to the guy in first.

#1 - Kel

A dork, kind of a dunce, but a champion. He is the catalyst for the true ending and is the reason the path to it even opens up in the first place. I'll concede this; characters that are complex like Aubrey, Sunny, and Basil are normally the characters you'd see as my favorites because I tend to value them more or just like their presence more.

But in any game; I really, really don't think I've ever seen a character archetype in the way that Kel's in who manages to not only be full of that childish endearing aura to him, yet flawed and so very, very real and human; who you can understand why other characters would lash out and get irritated at him, but also support him knowing fully well that his intentions are always for the best...

Kel is amazing. From the first interaction with him in the dream world, I was immediately hooked because of his stupid and goofy little humor that brings me to reminiscences of a simpler, more fun and youthful time in my life. I was worried that I might grow tired of him since; let's face it, dream world Kel does have shades of being just a tad one-dimensional. I was genuinely considering putting Aubrey as my favorite character.

And then I remembered the graveyard scene with Kel talking about his and Hero's story.

No scene in the game solidified my love for a character and made me want to do everything for them more than that did with Kel. Hands down, that is my favorite scene in the entire game and not a lot of moments come close.

Kel's kind of bad at reading the room, I think he's self-aware enough to know that he's stubborn and there are times where he's stepping into territory that should just be left alone.

Despite that though, it's because of his persistence that he succeeds. Kel might just seem like a positive and happy go lucky goofball (he is, tbf), but he had to deal with his own shit too. In response to Mari's death, Kel put on a smile and did what he believed Mari would've wanted him to do - he healed himself and got back up by making new friends, taking the time to worry about others, and try to get the friend group back together.

No matter how many tries it took. I seriously, seriously wonder just how much time Kel spent knocking on doors, asking his old friends if they wanted to hang out, yet always falling on deaf ears. I think the reason he's able to smile in spite of it all is that he just hasn't had the chance to mourn on his own. There are moments where the smile breaks for a bit; times like when Hero is the one that immediately gets rushed to by his parents while he's just left there when the two of them fought, or after Hero saves Basil after Aubrey pushed him into the lake, and he starts wanting nothing more to do with Aubrey, thinking that she's really changed until Hero manages to convince him otherwise.

Or worst of all, in the neutral ending... where Basil lets himself go and Kel cries, finally breaking down and unable to hold back the tears this time. He asks Sunny; 'why does this keep happening to us?' in the most heartbreaking sprite in the game. He's human and has a limit, just like everyone else. And it's so cathartic when in the good ending, Kel's efforts pays off in the form of Sunny finally overcoming his demons.

Everything I said about Hero being flexible and whole? Kel is that, but cranked to 11. I absolutely adore this boy and I want him to be happy, because he deserves the world and more.

Kel is my favorite character in all of OMORI. And with that, here's the formal image of the final rankings of all these characters.

Whoo, that must've been a doozy. Sorry that got so long, and if any of my thoughts didn't make sense or are incoherent - I'm a lot better following up on things and adding to it rather than trying to formulate my own thoughts, because trying to think of stuff that people don't already say is pretty hard, eheh.

Anyways, that's my ranking of the main 6 characters from OMORI. Not ashamed to say how much I love all of them and this game, and I'm looking forward to the next time I find the energy to continue this series and divert the discussion from its core set of characters. Hope you enjoyed reading this!

Quick credit for the fanmade pic of real Mari: Some Mari portrait edits : OMORI (reddit.com)

[virocci]

hehe hi ppl

life update once again

SOOOOO first day of school was a week and a half ago now and ive alrdy had three quizzes 😋 this sem i haaaaave gr12 ela, gr11 social studies, gr11 physics aaaaaand gr11 fashion!!!!!!! im also doing gr11 bio night classes :3

it feel sooooo weird not doing chem anymore like wtf??? i got so used to doing chem its so strange that im NOT doing it. i also havent gotten any diploma grades back and it suuuuuuucks, its like so stress inducing 😭

i rlly like my ela and social teacher :3 they chill, my physics teacher is still a liiiiil iffy, i DID NOT like him on the first day but he growin on me yk? and then i had my fashion teacher last year, she chill, i like her

also bio night classes are SO BLEGH. ive never been good at doing courses online and its also an accelerated course it js sucks. i got a 63% on the last quiz we did 😭

soeaking if quizzes i also had a physics quiz THAT I THOUGHT I DID GOOD ON. but i ENDED UP GETTING 78% LIKE WHAT (i got 4 qus wrong out of 18 qus) somtimes i js like crash out cuz wtf, house is getting 4 qus wrong a 78

besides schoooooool my brain has not been doin too hot, legit cried fir no reason last night 😋 but we vibe ig

ive also been grinding out acnh lately, idk why but during exam break i watched alotta acnh soeed builds and then got the itch to play, my island was NOT doung to hot but now im working on it and its so cutsie. im tryna make a run down abandoned town thats been reinhabited :3 its acc beeen sooooo fun playing. tbh i started decorated cuz the island im on is the ive had since i started so i feel like i should do it justice before u restarted yknoww

besides acnh, i also progressed more is persona 5 :3 im a total of 15 hours in when u renter the second castle again :D its acc so fun… ive js been obsessed with acnh hehe…

in terms of zzz and hsr… i havent acc played much lol i finished both updates so am js chilling, i log in occasionally to do some farming but thats rlly it. for zz i have like 150 pulls saved for the vtuber girls so im v excited for them!!!!!

(im now continuing this 2 days later lololol)

om feb. 7th i got my dads wii back from my grandparents!! am sooooo happy i got it back, literally ecstatic. i spent all day saturday modding it and getting games :3 at one point i spent 2 hours trying to fix a problem but haha guess what, i named the file wbsf instead of wbfs by accident :,) js me being stupid lol. i download some games i thought would be fun (ac city folk, ookami, resident evil 4, red steel, WII SPORTS), id like some recommendations if ppl have any :> i even got themes and made it pretty!!! i rlly hope to get a 3ds somewhat soonish? i want one so i can mod it and SPECIFICALLY play tomodachi life and pokemon sun & moon lol. also would love to play style savy on it hehe. i rlly wanna find a 3rd controller so i have enough controllers for me and the wivess and the wii motion plus extensions so that i can play wii sport resorts!!!!. continuing the nintendo console rant, im also vvv excited for the switch 2!! ever since like the leaks for it ive been superrrr excited for it and rlly can't wait. im gonna tryyyy and get it by release hehe <3

overall, i recently have gained the urge to collect games consoles :>

OMG AND ALSO

i be feeling like i am on AIR like i didnt notice before but i am so much happier JUST NOT HAVING MY MATH TEACHER.

im thinking of rearranging my collection stuff in my room but idk how to do it rn so :3 i might figure it out but i dunno :>

anyways idk what to say anymore, its cold outside, like -40 cold, so sad and im sick so its not fun :(

anyways byebye :3

(song for u bcuz u read aaaaall that :D its acc highkey a comfort song lol)

[selchwife]

blegh

i know it’s bc it’s late and i’m tired and my period is coming bc normally i don’t even have this kind of thought but i’m having one of those awful “emet would think i suck, actually — and he’s RIGHT! and should be cruel to me about it!” spells. fucking really difficult. i don’t know how i tolerated spending like all of 2022 feeling like this. like the bad self esteem shit. good lord

something has to get done about my pms i think. like it’s never been good but recently i feel like the emotional issues i’ve had from it have been really really worrying and dangerous. this isn’t that bad but it does very much feel like shit. when i feel ok i can list good traits about myself emet might like and believe them but when i feel like this it’s just like “well…um…idk i have a lot of problems and don’t do anything useful and am not very nice :/ and also im ugly :/“

and like. partially it feels silly to worry about what decidedly fictional character emet-selch would think of me. but Well i love him and think highly of him so i want to feel like he would think i was at least worthy of his time. as far as DID stuff goes brain emet does not like when i get this way or agree with my poor opinion of myself which should count for a lot but i think it’s just like a stupid familiar vector for self esteem issues that run deeper than just selfship stuff or any particular relationship

idk. i can’t sleep. i just feel bad. i know i’ll feel better with some rest, i just need to take care of myself and i know i can get through feeling bad on my own just fine, i’m nothing if not resilient. it just feels good to have an outlet to whine lmao

[angelmichelangelo]

i deleted this fic, just because i felt pretty blegh about it. which happens sometimes. i just get very too much in my head about stuff i put into the world. but i've decided to kind of just. suck it up and repost it back to ao3 because my brain, whilst a pain in my butt, never fully knows what it is doing. it's only my first time being alive so sometimes im a little crueler on myself than i need to be. anywho. hope everyone is having a good first day of the month! pretty fitting i re-uploaded this on the first day of whumptober, so enjoy, i guess!

[askthesawyers]

"tch"

*the involuntary reaction to spit his chewing tobacco out is there. Sadly, Chance doesn't have his chewing tobacco on him and he can't really take his mask off at the moment. A second later, he stomps the kid's brains in. Poor sucker probably didn't feel it anyway, it simply felt like stepping on a thin layer of ice. Your weight just breaks it so easily*

"blegh, I got it's blood all over my boots. Here, you get the honors...only cause I'm such a good friend"

*all of his joy was seemingly sucked up by Bobby. He takes the machete out of his sheath and hands it to Bobby before he tries to wipe away what brain matter he can on the sad excuse of the rags the boy. Jt probably didn't look much better when he was all burnt like this*

-🪖

*He kneeled again and begun to stab basically all over the body of the boy.. or.. what's gyad damn left of em, he had gotten very much covered in blood and was clearly enjoying the blood bath so much he ran off to another body- not even caring whether it was alive or not and just.. continuing to stab em and shit, manically giggling and laughing as he continued.*

[melonlthawne]

Ough okay vent post is vent post. For those who only follow me for Bart nonsense feel free to ignore this and scroll on and those who can’t cause they’re on mobile sorry to interrupt ur feed I just have some thoughts I need to get out of my mind

I am so unhappy and unsatisfied with my art for like the last week and it’s really putting a damper on drawing. I’m just not enjoying it even when I’m drawing stuff I was genuinely excited to draw. I feel stagnated almost. I know my art could be worse but it could also be BETTER for how long I’ve been drawing and it just sucks. And I know it’s super entitled to complain about not getting a lot of notes on my art considering there’s always more than 3 and some people get no attention on their art. Even though I try to reason with my brain I should be grateful for the attention I do get it’s still hard to fight the feeling I want more. I dunno. Maybe I should just take a break from drawing for a few days until I’m in a better mindset.

That aside I’ve been doing a lot of studying and just feeling super blegh. I appreciate any of the kind stuff people send to me or people talking to me or taking time to send in art requests. I really do appreciate it even when I’m being in a bitchy mood like rn. Hopefully tomorrow will be better