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ffs i got distracted sitting in the shower crying again . and i have the audacity to wonder why i have had neck pain for months.

(god i hope this year will be nothing but a blip in my life but i just dont see how anything could get better when I am so terrified.)

(I feel like such a fucking awful friend because i am just so depressed over my circumstances and i try not to talk about it but it just... its hard to completely avoid my life in conversation. I feel like i just... i'm no good and I wish I just wasn't here anymore.)

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i'd die for him

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a little gift for @elgargremlin 💜

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also everyone logged out of Peak after the first campfire so i locked tf in and got the lone wolf badge🙏

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no matter how hard i try i will always be that little girl wondering why everyone is better friends with eachother than her and begging to be loved

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The modern character of Frankenstein is so divorced from the source material that it's hard to even know how to classify it. Like any new Frankenstein character that comes out isn't even a retelling or an interpretation anymore, that character has been completely fabricated, like tons of little bits of old forgotten media have been stitched together to make the version of him we know today, it's like, it's almost like he's been like... well I can't think of a word but you get what I mean

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Copia, nude save for his socks, reclining comfortably on the couch while you're in the shower. One arm propped up on the back of it, ruffling his mussed up hair, the other draped over his lap, adjusting his soft dick, still trapped within the phantom grip of the feel of you. The marks of his suspenders run from his shoulders down to his chest. They're a little less red now, soothed by your hands and lips, traces of you remaining on his irritated skin. Your scent, somehow, still caught in his nose. He closes his eyes, feels a breath of air, inducing goosebumps where he is swollen with the bites of your love. Traces of your nails on his thighs, on his belly, his chest, a trail between curls of greying hair, a soft burn echoing where you gripped him. Cooling sweat, his hands a little stiff, he feels it all now, like a comforting ache, and hopes it lingers. He hears the spray of the water in the distance, smiles when it stops. How lucky, he thinks, that you're never further away than the extent of your sounds.

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So there's gossip about some version of kinktober over on twitter adding a bunch of nonsensical rules this year, and I am fascinated. Studying this like a bug.

Like, what the hell.

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alright Peak is so fun omg, truly a peak (heh) co-op experience!!!

boutta play a computer game with my big brother for the first time in like. 15 years. 😭🩷

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boutta play a computer game with my big brother for the first time in like. 15 years. 😭🩷

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So I keep seeing posts this week saying things along the lines of

'fic writers should write more of X'

'pay attention fic writers you should be including Y'

'why are no fic writers writing about Z'

And I am going to give people the benefit of the doubt and assume they don't realise how entitled and demanding that sounds.

As a fic writer who struggles a lot with motivation I find this so discouraging and while it may be my own self doubt it just makes me want to write even less. Writing fanfic is a hobby that we do in our spare time and we write what inspires us and what we feel others might connect to.

The best way to have writers write the things you are looking for is actually interact with fic writers, especially those who ask for prompts and ideas. Treat us like people and fellow fans not machines that pump out content to your exact specifications with no prior interaction and you might find we are more than willing to use our writing skills to create your self indulgent ideas.

Or failing that write it yourself! There are no prior qualifications needed to start writing fanfic you can just do it. And if you have a really interesting idea that no one seems to have explored yet then why not be the first and have your work inspire others.

On four separate occasions this past week I have seen different people posting about this none of which I see regularly reblogging or interacting with any of the fic writers I follow and the response to these of people agreeing and adding on other failings fic writers as a singular entity are failing at just really hit me when I was starting to feel some spark again.

Anyway tldr think about what you post when you are complaining about fic writers because you sound like an entitled dick and may end up causing people to write even less of anything let alone the x, y and z you wanted in the first place. Also talk to your favourite fic writers.

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Sometimes you need Ayda Aguefort.

Sometimes is ALWAYS

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man i do wish i could write poetry bc i think some things are poetry thoughts

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Any game can be a time loop game if you’re bad enough at it