#better ig bc i go to fb only like once a day

[queenwille]

Are there any Palestinian journalists that you follow?

hello there dear,

where do you mean? here? instagram? anywhere else? any recs? honestly no, but would love to get recs on instagram actually, thanks! 🫶🏽

[non-sense-thoughts]

Sooo Thursday she had a dinner in Fresno to celebrate her coworkers birthday. During it she texted asking if I wanted to see her. I told her I did.

I saw her and we talked. She told me she hung out with someone… but she didn’t kiss them. And the reason she couldn’t is because of me. she actually was supposed to go see someone else after her dinner, but she canceled on them to see me.

We talked about everything but when I left she told me she didn’t want to see me again.

She called me on her drive home and we were still talking. I still have her heart and that’s the reason she hasn’t truly done anything with people.

It seemed like we were doing better…

I get to lunch, grab my stuff and go to my car. I turn the ignition on and call her. When she answered she told me something along the lines of “nows not a good time to talk. You shouldn’t talk to me” I asked and she told me I’ve been lying to her and that she’s really hurt. I spent my lunch break trying to know what I did, and eventually she told me. Apparently, she created a brand new Her profile, through Facebook. THE ONLY THING I COULD POSSIBLY THINK OF, IS IF IT SAID I WAS ONLINE BC OF FACEBOOK SINCE IG IS PAIRED WITH FB AND I KEEP MY FB LOGGED INTO MY PHONE. Im like that doesn’t even make any sense. Why would a brand new account suggest me of all people, and tell you I was online. I literally got out of work, put my stuff in my car, and called you. She told me later that this is what happened. She goes on, it shows me and says I’m online so she blocked me. A minute later, i call her.

Tbh I have no idea why that even happened. I haven’t had the her app in a while. The day after I started talking to her, I didn’t use the app anymore. It was on my phone but I had no intention of ever using it again. I went on once to see when we had first started talking to each other. One time she told me like “hey you do you but I’m deactivating my account on Her”. She asked me about still having it one time and I told her I don’t use it. You’re right, why do I even have it? It’s just wasting space on my phone. I deleted it in front of her, apparently. That’s what she reminded me of.

Honest to God, I haven’t touched that app since. I don’t have it on my phone, I have the texts of the two times it sent me a verification code to even go on. When I made the account and then yesterday. I know that I haven’t been on the app. I screen recorded showing her me searching it on my phone and not having it. I told her like I can call you and share my screen and literally show you… Then I screen recorded me going to the App Store, redownloading it, signing in, showed her my last message and you can see there’s unopened ones above it. I sign out and delete the app again in the video. I sent it to her. I called her when I got off. She’s hurt. She doesn’t trust me. I tried to explain to her. Like it’s frustrating to know because she told me I was going to come back but there’s zero chance. Like you ended it officially. And that’s the thing because I know 100% that I’m not lying to her, I never have. I may not always be the best at understanding or communicating but who I am as a person is someone who’s genuine and honest and integrity matters a lot for me. I would never cheat or lie because that’s not who I am and I told her literally God as my witness hand on a Bible like I didn’t do anything and I haven’t been lying to you. But she is very certain that she knows what she saw and that was me with an online bubble when she first went on the app. I’m like that makes no sense. I’m literally at work, I don’t have the app. How could I possibly be online? I told her you know me better than that. You know that all I’ve done is fight for you and love you. I would never. She told me she’s going to block me and delete me from everything. I kept her on the phone, but eventually I was like I know in my heart and to God that I didn’t do that and it really sucks that you’re hurt by something that isn’t true and you are going to believe the lie. I love you and I’m here (something.. I forget). That I hope one day she truly knows the truth. Something. She was going to hang up so I said what I said and I hung up and we haven’t really spoken much since.

I started driving to you, and about an hour in she sent me a song and idk exactly what she meant by it if she meant anything but I just started crying. She messaged me around 11pm but I hadn’t seen it and she said she’s so hurt. That’s the thing like she gets mad and she’ll push me out but I see her heart too. she’s not over us either and it really sucks to know where we are and how we feel but to let something that’s not real affect everything. I said what I could i showed her everything and it’s up to her with what she does with that. I don’t want to hurt her. I didn’t do anything, but she believes that I did and it’s a shame.

I messaged her this morning like 1:30 like I can’t sleep and she said she couldn’t either. We were texting and I told her Like I wish I could I could hold my baby but she’s not mine anymore. She responded this morning saying she’s still here.

I don’t know. Last night is the first time I was truly like it’s on her. Because literally there’s nothing I can do. I can pray she knows the truth, pray for things. but it’s not in my control and if I’ve genuinely lost her it’s nothing I can do. Like I even told her I can sleep at night knowing that I didn’t lie to you. I kept repeating myself but it’s like if you’re going to walk away for good, I think you should at least walk away because of the truth. It’s dumb that something like that would jeapordize everything. I understand where she’s coming from. She has had people lie to her, chest on her. But not everyone is the same. I’ve had people do it to me too and I would never. I hate that. I get that she would think I’m online. I get how it could hurt someone but the sucky thing is that it’s not the truth. I would say like you know me better then that. She would say I thought I did. Anything I said it was like “I thought so” thought I loved her. Thought she could trust me. Etc.

[impossible-rat-babies]

i got tagged by @heartbrreak for this meme and im sure others have tagged me in this as well but you know :/

rules: answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better (i refuse to tag 20 ppl tho)

im gonna tag: @wayhavn, @trvelyans, @theodoresart, @lvllns, @rosykims, @rosebarsoap, @ava-du-mortain, @specialistagent-morgan, @vvakarians, @bitchesofostwick, @cullenvhenan, @dickeybbqpit and whomever else!

name/nickname: owen! my mum called me “bug” when i was younger and my friend calls me “owe-y” on occasion

gender: none pizza w left beef

star sign: gemini! (moon in aries and rising in virgo)

height: 5′2″ on a good day

time: 6:46pm!

birthday: june 10th

favorite bands: bastille, radical face & mother mother

favorite solo artist: oh mitski, dodie, & watsky

song stuck in my head: admit defeat -- bastille

last movie: lord of the rings: two towers! it’s extended edition or bust

last show: the crown! i watched it with my partner ages ago

when did you create this blog: record says like. 2013 yikes

what do I post: CLOWNERY jk it’s mostly oc art and writing with a splash of fan content and appreciating friends. cultivating the experience yo

last thing googled: true grit procreate. i was recommending a brush to someone on fb

do I get asks: yea and i appreciate em

why I chose my url: bc it’s just. fun? i like the way it sounds mostly. my description is a quote from fifth element though. i had reasons for my urls in the past but they’re gone by now lol

following: lol 378? i need to unfollow unactives tho

followers: 1,051 Yikes y’all need 2 leave

average hours of sleep: like. 8-9 ig

lucky number: i dunno. when i was younger i was edgy and said 13. but i like multiples of 5. it soothes the ocd

instruments: i used to know how to play the clarinet and tried to learn the guitar

what am I wearing: some uhhh army green joggers and a sweater my mom crocheted and gave me bc it was too big for her

dream job: a professional artist? idk i had the dream once to graduate and open my own printmaking shop. i still wanna work at one though, even if i don’t open my own

dream trip: i wanna go back to paris and visit the louvre, but honestly it smells like piss so *shrug* i do wanna go new zealand and i know it’s terrible, but i would like. sob/foam out the mouth if i got to do some lotr tour stuff

last book I read: i don’t read much that isn’t IF anymore and the last one i read was like. the mindblind update? idk it could’ve been the retri alpha or the shoh alpha

favorite food: coucous! or mashed potatoes. sensory processing disorder makes enjoying “complicated” foods hard. like i had a burger for dinner and only ate half of it bc it’s a “complicated” food

nationality: the clown country--america

favorite song: oh uhhhhh i don’t have one favorite, but like. quarter past midnight by bastille and baptisms by radical face rank up there (funny how they’re both like. otp songs rip. quarter past midnight for pollux and ortega and baptisms for jericho and ulysses)

top three fictional universes: oh fuck hmmm lord of the rings, legend of zelda, and dragon age (derogatory) 

[arceus-ex-machina]

I was tagged by @dabnyfantown to do a thing (on a blog I'm about to delete, so I'm doing it here). I'll tag @quinintheclouds, @snowlillies and @squishable-amethyst! THE LAST: 1. Drink: iced tea 2. Phone call: idk my mom probably 3. Text message: Quin 4. Song you listened to: Battle Against A True Hero apparently 5. Time you cried: some time within the past few days idk I have no sense of time HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: I guess technically but it barely even counted as a relationship lmao 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: well the guy from the previous question was a terrible kisser and had a cold sore but it was also my first kiss so I'm glad to have gotten it out of the way. So no regrets I guess 8. Been cheated on: not as far as I know lmao 9. Lost someone special: no 10. Been depressed: lmao ya 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: yes. 0/10 do not recommend LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Pink 13. Green 14. White IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yeah! 16. Fallen out of love: yeah 17. Laughed until you cried: I think so 18. Found out someone was talking about you? No 👀 19. Met someone who changed you? i think everyone i meet does a little bit (kept kat's answer bc same) 20. Found out who your friends are: that's dramatic. Kinda but eh 21. Kissed someone on your FB list: yup GENERAL: 22. How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: p much all of them except my online friends 23. Do you have any pets: no but I sometimes wish Nala was mine 24. Do you want to change your name: i used to desperately want to but I think I'm good with it now 25. What did you do for your last birthday: had a breakdown lol. happy thanksgiving! 26. What time did you wake up: like 4 something am which is actually the most ideal time I've woken up recently 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: having a weird dream and abt to wake up I think 28. Name something you can’t wait for: a stable loving relationship (me too kat) 29. When was the last time you saw your Mom: yesterday before I went to sleep (did I sleep twelve hours again? Oops) 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i dunno… i guess itd be nice to be better off financially (I've been trying to change ur answers kat but since we're lowkey the same person it's getting harder) 31. What are you listening to right now: air 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yea my old songwriting teacher 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: emotions ? 34. Most visited website: tumblr lol 35. Mole/s: i think they're all just freckles idk 36. Mark/s: scars, a few stretch marks 37. Childhood dream: i wanted to be a famous singer like Kelly Clarkson 38. Hair color: it's a brown mess right now 39. Long or short hair: mine is like shoulder length but I'm growing it out...I love both but long hair suits me better 40. Do you have a crush on someone?: 🤔 41. What do you like about yourself: my eyes are kinda cool I guess bc part of them are green. and ig I have relatively nice skin (it'd be better if I'd just TAKE CARE OF MYSELF) 42. Piercings: just 1 in each earlobe 43. Blood type: idk I keep asking my mom but she doesn't know 44: Nicknames: don't really have any 45. Relationship status: single af 46. Zodiac: sagittarius 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV show: voltron legendary defender atm 49. Tattoos: maybe if I ever have something significant enough 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: nope 52. Hair dyed a different color: lmao I've dyed it a bunch, right now it's brown but not my natural brown 53. Sports: hahahhahahahahhahahaha 54. Vacation: NYC was amazing, I've never been out of the country but i want to go...well everywhere tbh 55. Shoes: sandals/flip flops in the summer, mostly combat boots in the winter. I have others too but those are my defaults 56. Eating: lots of hummus and avocado lately...and limón chips 57. Drinking: water, iced tea, root beer 58. I’m about to: get all my new fidget toys off my bed so I can lay the fuck back down 59. Waiting for: a cute girl...to think I'm cute 60. Want: my hair to grow faster 61. Get married: maybe one day, or sooner for tax benefits lmao 62. Career: hell if I know WHICH IS BETTER: 63. Hugs or kisses: both!! in the mood for kisses rn tho 64. Lips or eyes: idk both r lovely 65. Shorter or taller: don't have a preference but I'm 5'3 so there are more ppl who are taller than me 66. Older or younger: um I feel like I'm behind my peers in terms of life development so an older person would feel Extra Old so younger ig but in general I don't have a preference 67. Nice arms or nice stomach: I?? Do not care 68. Sensitive or loud: this is phrased as if they're supposed to be opposites or mutually exclusive...anyway I guess sensitive 69. Hook up or relationship: relationship but tbh rn i wouldnt mind a hook up (kat's answer again whoops) 70. Troublemaker or hesitant: honestly I tend to balance out both of these qualities as needed so. either. bring it on HAVE YOU EVER: 71. Kissed a stranger: nope 72. Drank hard liquor: yep 73. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I lose my glasses at least once a week. I've never "lost" a contact because I've only ever worn dailies so once they're out of ur eye they're done 74. Turned someone down: yea 75. Sex on first date: I've never been on a traditional "date"....does sex without a date count? Otherwise nah 76. Broken someone’s heart: it feels weird to say but yeah i think so? 77. Had your heart broken: no 78. Been arrested: nope 79. Cried when someone died: I think so 80. Fallen for a friend: almost exclusively (because like...how do u fall for someone if u don't know them) DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 81. Yourself: *punches my low self esteem in the face* yea 82. Miracles: @universe we shall see *sighs* yea I do tho 83. Love at first sight: hell nah 84. Santa Claus: lol no 85. Kiss on the first date: sure if ur feeling it why not OTHER: 86. Current best friend: quin 87. Eye color: Hazel 88. Favorite movie: I'm not the biggest movie person...let's see. Fantastic beasts was pretty good

[ourlittlebitofnothinguniverse]

Hey for the ask thing, all the questions you're comfortable with answering

oh boy!!! heck yeah fun shit thanks my dude! little did u Kno…… I LOVE oversharing !!! lmao muahahahahaha i’m probably gonna answer all of them thank u for enabling it lmfao

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

yah on Rly Bad days

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

like… 3.5? i like the dark but,,, ‘m Scare,,,,,

3. The person you would never want to meet?

Orange Turnip

4. What is your favorite word?

it changes tbh,, hm but i can’t think of any rn!

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

i’d be….. a nice oak! thicc and full of secrets

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

i didn’t lmao reflection what’s that

7. What shirt are you wearing?

i’m wearing the dress i wore to work

8. What do you label yourself as?

annoying or boring lmao but also the Goblin King and that is Good

9. Bright room or dark room?

i still don’t know if this is referring to like paint shade or like the amount of light it gets or like if i sleep in a bright room or dark room so like??? *shrug emoji*

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

i was?? drawing i think

12. Who told you they loved you last?

i think it was @wrenn-frug​ 💕💖 lov u fren!

13. Your worst enemy?

dunno man probably myself but that sounds cliche so like??? the sun bc it always burns me

14. What is your current desktop picture?

a screenshot from song of the sea!!! lOVE that movie!!!! i’d post it but like?? i don’t think i have it saved anymore or if i do i don’t feel like looking but it’s that one scene where they’re walking thru the pretty field towards the trees and there’s foxes in the corner and she’s playing the shell it’s so pretty,,,,,

15. Do you like someone?

uh yah my cat

16. The last song you listened to?

Young God - Halseygood song lov it,,,,

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

oraNGE TURNIP

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

orange turnip my dude i Hate

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

uh nobody ????

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

my squishy thighs and my fantastic stretch marks (which have taken me YEARS to accept)

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

No

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

????????????? secret???? talent?????? lemme check, ,, , , *reaches into a bag* nope bitch empt y aint got No Talent lmao

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

okay so like this is really dumb and i partially answered this in this ask abt the flushing toilets @ night thing but like to elaborate and make it even more dumb not only am i afraid to flush toilets @ night bc it’s just rly creepy and loud to me (esp if i’ve been asleep) but like,, , sort of in the same vein of fear is that when i was little my older sister told me that there was a ghost in the toilet and if i don’t flush it’ll get me and like i kno it’s not tru but like,,,,,, Sometimes,,,,,, (i must clarify i’m not scared of toilets themselves but like flushing freaks me out sometimes like @ night or if i don’t flush fast enough lmao don’t look @ me i’m a mess)

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

Excuse? is this like that i can ONLY eat this sandwich or is it that this is the only sandwich i can ever eat or like i can only ever have one last sandwich bc honestly i’m Not Okay with any of those scenarios no matter how many ingredients i get for the initial creation

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

Dream daddy dating simulator lmao uh?? also probably more food for archie bc he is Expensive

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

Ireland probably. always wanted to see ireland

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

“Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out” like???? no???? if u don’t drink alcohol why would u want a lifetime supply??? unless i could like…. sell it??? whats the Most Expensive kind i’ll just get an unending supply of heavenly Expensive Alcohol to sell for incredibly inflated prices to the rich bc it’s From Heaven and give the money to the poor bc like,,, why not

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

bitches gotta keep they damn opinions to themselves if they can’t respect somebody’s life based on factors they can’t help (race, religion, orientation, gender etc) also no money like We Don’t Need It i’m so tired of Needing money

29. What is your favorite expletive?

Fuck bc u can use it in So Many situations

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

o shit probably the twenty dollar metallic watercolors i got bc shit son??? actually probably like my laptop or smth idk

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

my childhood thx

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!

this is.. not a questionalthough it is a wonderful scenario

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

none of them bc if the celestial gates of the beyond is real then all the people i’d want to bring back are probably in a Better Place or something and why would i want to drag them to Hell?

34. What was your last dream about?

Cannot remember to save my life altho i kno it was rly weird and convoluted

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?

u did not put anything Here so i will Ignore

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

Nope

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

yAH it’s fun!

38. What is the color of your socks?

not wearing any

39. What type of music do you like?

A Lot

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

Sunsets,,, evening is so nice mm m

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

chocolate ayyyy

43. Do you have any scars?

a couple but like for Dumb Reasons

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

I’ve graduated hs but i wanna be an animator when i decide which college to go to

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

my brain pls bartender can i have a Healthy One (correction to favorite word #4: fav word currently is deign)

46. Are you reliable?

i would like to think so

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

are you happy?

48. Do you hold grudges?

YAH but only if i’ve been Pushed Too Far which is Pretty Damn Far by most ppls standards

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

none I am Not a God

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

i have had So Many???? the most recent one was two times in a row random ppl i barely knew asked me for my netflix account bc they didnt have one and like…. bro what who R U,,,,, (i had literally only talked to the first guy once for ten minutes on fb)

51. Are you a good liar?

is the sky green? don’t think so

52. How long could you go without talking?

Very Long but like Only on Bad Weeks

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

None my hair is Magnificent (idk)

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

like birthday cake? never but i lov to bake cakes so like i bake myself cakes all the time

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

i am so bad @ accents i can’t even Read in my Head in accents even though i know what the accent Should Sound Like

56. What do you like on your toast?

peanut butter and banan slices

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

working on a picture of a tiger redraw

58. What would be you dream car?

a Bike bc i Do Not Like cars

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

i only sing in the shower when nobody is home (which is infrequent bc my mom is Always here) bc i am self conscious around most ppl but like Music,,,,, also when i was little i would pretend that i was standing in the rain all sad like in movies lmao

60. Do you believe in aliens?

yah

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

i follow an astrology blog and i read homestuck i mean,,

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

i??? A maybe bc there are a lot of ways to write it pretty idk but like specifically capital A ig

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

Dragons they’re fire-breathing friends and i love them

64. What do you think about babies?

Gross

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

U Didn’t put anything Here either so like how abt i give u a random fact abt myself that seems good my favorite bird is the lammergeier bc they’re basically irl dragons and they’re so pretty??? love them??? also i hate monkeys and apes esp chimpanzes bc they are scary and too much like humans to me i don’t like them

BOY that took way longer than i thought bc i had to feed my cat halfway thru and everything and like this is a Long Post sorry guys but ayyyyy this was fun thanks ari

[deepsecretsxo-blog]

Hey love. It's rlly late & Im still awake due to overthinking abt you and you. You know what nyot? I feel shitty as fuck bcs whenever i try to make myself feel better abt you,it doesn't feel better but it became worst. I kept thinking that you won't believe me at all once you're out. But i swear I've never lied to you in the letters. all those i wrote is reality and it happens. Trust me i am fucking faithful. I stay at home like rotting durian. I only use Twitter ig tumblr & fb & i rarely open ws. UNLESS there's a family group chat or i contact yr mum to ask abt my turn to visit or Surat. That's it b. And i hate the fact that i actlly feel weaker as the days go by. I feel weaker bcs i kept this missing you too long and i rlly can't wait to see you i rlly rlly rlly want you to sleep with me everyday and i feed you food everyday!!!!!!!!!! It sucks without you yaan. I swear. I need you. I hope my patience waiting worth the whole journey Sayang. I have faith . It's 5month away for you to be out & i still being faithful waiting for you love. I'm here once you're out. I promise you sayang. We do everything together. Heart & kisses babynyot #zazayaan #redhaituperlurinduitupasti #060616

[2hyojongs]

82 truths 

rules: once you’ve been tagged answer eighty-two truths and then tag twenty-five people. 

Tagged by @overthemoonjoon ​ tytyty~ 

i’m not gonna tag anyone, but if you wanna do this feel free and just say i tagged you

name: alyssa blood type: honestly i have no clue  nickname(s): aly, lyss(a). but only my family calls me the latter  r/s: single zodiac sign: capricorn pronouns: she/her favorite tv shows: actual tv shows?? grey’s anatomy, shameless, house, law & order. animated, rick and morty, steven universe, and bob’s burgers. (i’m not even getting into my anime or drama list lmao it’s too much)  long or short hair: i have medium length hair, it’s not short anymore but it’s not long enough to  be considered “long” either  height: i always guesstimate between 5′5 and 5′6 but idk for sure 

do you have a crush on someone: no, not at the moment 

what do you like about yourself: i’m pretty chill most of the time ig? i don’t really get into any drama or trouble with people?? (too much effort to actually do that so??) idk what to say really lmao  right or left handed: ya girl a righty  list of three favourite colors: blue, yellow, pastel pink 

right now: eating: nothing  drinking: nothing i’m about to: download more music probably, and play bioshock infinite for a while  listening to: n.w.a (new wave attitude) by sous chefs ft kim hyo eun, nafla, and jay park   kids: do my dog and cats count? if so i have six lmao.  get married: idk honestly? kind of don’t want to bother with it  career: i’m in between jobs atm

most recent: drink: cherry pepsi  phone call: honestly…i don’t remember?  song you listened to: let me fly by dmx just started so that 

have you ever: dated someone twice: yep been cheated on: yep kissed someone and regretted it: yep  lost someone special: yep been depressed: listen buddy i’ve been dealing with major depression since i was 12….i’m 20 now  been drunk and thrown up: hahahaha last night bc my dumb ass was too eager to drink and didn’t ear before hand.  kissed a stranger: lmao no  had glasses or contacts: i’ve been wearing glasses for 6 years  had sex on the first date: well technically we never went on a real date but yes  broken someone’s heart: yes, and it hurts me that i have but i didn’t have a choice turned someone down: yes  cried when someone died: of course i have  fallen for a friend: yes, a few times

in the last year have you: made a new friend: yes! quite a few here and it makes me so happy, y’all are the best  fallen out of love: yes, a few times laughed until you cried: omg yeah hahah, it happens a lot when i drink met someone who changed you: yes, sometimes for the best, but sometimes for the worst. thankfully the latter days are past me and i’ve only been getting better found out who your true friends were: yeah, and it sucks lmao  found out someone was talking about you: it hasn’t happened since high school honestly. now i don’t really talk to enough people for that to happen kissed someone on your fb list: yeah hahah, a handful

which is better: lips or eyes: both are very nice feature tbh shorter or taller: idc either way honestly romantic or spontaneous: i don’t deal with spontaneity very well (i don’t like surprises and i’m pretty set into the routine i have going on lol), so i guess romantic?? even tho i don’t really like super cheesy things, i’m a simple person     sensitive or loud: someone who can be thoughtful and sensitive but can get loud with me when i’m drunk and having fun?? (i’m such a loud person when i get drunk/excited. it’s like i’m a completely different person) hookup or relationship: i don’t mind either way?? i personally think hookups can be fun and a healthy way to sort out your sexual needs and if handled properly i enjoy them, but i like/want relationships when the opportunity to build a healthy one comes up too. troublemaker or hesitant: idk?? i like someone who can pull pranks and joke around and i guess that fall under trouble maker, but i also like people who are hesitant to start petty fights and shit too??

first: best friend: my first best friend was the boy who lived next door to me when i was little before i moved away from that state. i haven’t spoken to him since, and that was like 13 years ago? i think surgery: i’ve never had one  sport i joined: i was never a sport kid (even tho now as an adult i wish i had been).  vacation: uh fuck, i honestly don’t remember? i don’t remember very much from my early childhood

do you believe in: yourself: lol no miracles: miracles is a very loose term, idk. i guess it depends on the circumstances??  love at first sight: look the only time i fell in love first looking at someone is when i first laid eyes on Namjoon heaven: no, but i do believe in a different form of a afterlife 

extras: how many people from your fb list do you know irl: uh, about 80%? idk  do you have any pets: i personally have a dog named bluebell (she’s a mini aussie and a sheltie mix and she’s the most adorable fluffy ball of cutness i’ve ever laid eyes on), and five cats, who all brats but i love them very much and spoil the hell out of them.

 but in all there are three other dogs in my house. my grandparents (who i live with) have two beagles name lily and rosie and an aussie/blue heeler named rosco, and they have a fuck ton of chickens and turkeys, a peacock, two goats, two pigs, a pony, and two mini donkeys as well :’)  do you want to change your name: i used to want to change my first name, and remove my second middle name but as i got older they grew on me  what did you do for your last birthday: i cried tears of joy beacause kris wu and the gorillaz released tracks that day, and that night i got really drunk and skyped with three of my friends.  what time did you wake up today: i woke up at like 9:30am?? which is super out of character for me lmao  what were you doing last night at midnight: i was sleeping which again is super out of character but i didn’t feel well and the cold medicine i took put me to sleep  something you can’t wait for: tomorrow night bc i wanna know wtf is happening on grey’s anatomy bc the teaser they showed last week left too many fucking questions  last time you saw your mom: about an hour ago?? she brought me strawberry plants from work (the lady who she takes care of sent them over for me how sweet)  what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i probably would’ve gone to college instead of copping out?? or idk not let myself be such a depressed piece of shit have you ever talked to a person named tom: my bus driver in middle school was named tom lmao  what’s getting on your nerves: my stupid ass brother lmao