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nicksolemnlyswears · 2 years ago

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HAN LUE HEADCANONS

TOKYO DRIFT

pairing: han lue x waitress! reader

word count: 6.3k words

warnings: some smut

notes: after simping for this man for years i’ve finally caved and wrote some headcannons for him.

PT. 2 PT.3

-meeting him...the first time you ever saw han was at work, an american themed diner where you were a waitress. at the time you didn't think much of him, he was just another customer who came in and out. that was until he became a regular.

-once a week became three times a week. next thing you know he was there every night ordering a cup of coffee along with a plain old burger and fries. no pickles.

-han became a familiar face, something to look forward to on your late night shifts. you knew to expect him to come around at 2 or 3 am, never earlier.

-han always scoped the small diner to see which part you were working at and sat there. his excuse was that you already learned his order. "it makes everything so much easier, don’t you agree?" he'd say with a smirk on his handsome face.

-you accepted it. it’s a harmless gesture and you'd rather serve him than the drunk american tourists that swung by the diner. that’s the thing with han, he chose you to serve him but he never acted weird towards you, no inappropriate comments or handsy actions. he made you feel comfortable in his presence, calm even.

-whenever you see him walking by the front of the diner you'd prepare him a fresh pot of coffee. as soon as he sat down on his chosen booth you'd place the steaming cup right in front of him.

-you've made it your mission to tell han how bad consuming one pot of coffee in such a short amount of time is. especially at 3 am but he always shrugs it off, taking a sip of his coffee and locking his eyes with yours, challenging your statement. you’d roll your eyes and mutter a ‘whatever,’ rushing to serve another customer.

-best believe han would watch you walk away to admire your ass, your tacky diner uniform framing it perfectly.

-han tended to order one of two things. either a bacon burger with fries. no pickles. or pancakes drenched in syrup with lots of bacon on the side. with time you get so comfortable with him that when you serve him his food you steal a fry or strip of bacon. its your service fee for being his chosen waitress.

-han is the only one that leaves a tip when he leaves the diner. in tokyo nobody tips, but he insists for the sake of the whole american diner experience. in reality, you're his favorite and he likes you so he doesn't mind dropping a few extra bucks.

-you use that tip money strictly for your manicure. every week a new color covers your nails without fault. han being so observant notices this and looks forward to every thursday to see what color you've chosen. he doesn't make his observation known but he can't help but compliment them when you get your nails done in the same exact orange as his car. pure coincidence because you've never seen his car.

-it takes months of seeing his face for him to make a move of any sort because at first he had no intention of pursuing anything. he went to the diner cause it reminds of home, california. seeing your pretty face was an extra.

-when han gets wrapped up in takashis business and skips a few days he finds himself missing you, wondering what you were up to. if it was a busy night at the diner, were there any rowdy tourists you had to straighten out, and most importantly, what color did you change your nails to?

-one slow night its just the two of you. the cooks are on the back, the other waitress is taking her break. its 4:30 am most drunks are home and the early birds are on their way to the diner

-for once han is sitting on the bar, you across from him, drying mugs and cups. it's now or never. taking one last drink from his coffee han says “you know i have a theory about you.”

“and what’s that?” you ask him, looking up at him through your lashes. your hands busy drying a mug that's already dry.

“you’re a vampire,” he says simply. no smile or sarcastic remark.

laugh bubbles out of you, “han, what the hell?”

only when you laugh does he allow himself to smile. “it’s the only explanation as to why i only see you at nighttime. you’re gone before sunrise too,” he says nonchalantly.

“where is this coming from?” you ask raising an eyebrow, a grin still plastered across your face. the damp towel thrown across your shoulder. you lean forward casually on the counter, coming face to face with the mysterious han.

“just that i’d like to see you during the day time to prove my theory.”

you stare at him, eyes slightly narrowed and he meets straight on. there's no fear in his eyes but there is a hint of expectancy. despite looking at you his hand twirls the remnants of cold coffee in his cup, emanating coolness and nonchalance.

“is this your way of finally asking me out?”

"is it working?" han asks, eyes briefly looking away, before landing on yours again.

"it is," you smile, grabbing a napkin and a pen from your apron to scribble down your number. "text me."

-the date takes place a few days later. han offers to pick you up from your apartment. when you walk out your building han falls harder for you. he always believed you were beautiful even when you barely tried when working at the diner but seeing you out of your uniform all dolled up for him with makeup and hair done. you were more than beautiful, you were stunning.

-you approach him as he leans on his car, trying to act cool. it doesn't make a difference, you already think he's the coolest ever. this is the first time you see his car and it's expensive. you don't know shit about cars but you do have expensive taste and the orange car was ringing alarms in your head.

-one thing is for sure...you have lots to learn about han lue. if all goes well he will not hesitate to tell you all about himself.

-“there you have it i'm not a vampire,” you say as you near him. he chuckles and opens up the door for you. "although i can't promise i don't bite."

“good to know,” he responds in his usual calm tone. your comment does nothing to deter him instead it eggs him on.

-han goes all out for the date. he impresses you with his driving skills, he pays for EVERYTHING, and acts like an outright gentleman. there isn't a red flag on sight. you're not one to put out on the first date but he's treated you so well you heavily consider it.

-something you had never experienced in the past is finding driving sexy. han dominates the car as if its an extension of himself. throughout the entirety of the car ride he's speeding 100 miles and you barely feel it. he swerves between cars to get past them without a beat of hesitation.

-you can look at the streets of tokyo another time. right now your focus is on him. how he grips the steering wheel with one hand, the other on the gear stick. he glances your way and smiles. he knows exactly what he's doing.

-by the end of the date you are more than turned on. the tension between the two of you is intoxicating. you tell yourself you just want to get rid of your dry spell but it’s all a lie. han turns you on in every way possible.

-at the end of the night you shyly invite him into your apartment, hoping he'll say yes and he does. you entertain yourselves with fake pleasantries, asking him if he wants anything, handing him a beer, making small talk.

-the space on your small couch turns smaller and smaller as you both inch towards each other. with one shy glance towards his lips, he takes it as an invitation and smashes his lips against yours. it’s game over. clothes are thrown around, beer is left to warm on the coffee table, and clumsily you make it to your bedroom

-although the moment starts rushed, he slows it down. enjoying your body and everything you had to offer. it's so good you're glad you broke your 'no sex on the first date' rule. because han takes you to highs you haven't experienced in a long, long time

-it’s laying in bed that night that han pops the question, "do you want to be my girlfriend?" he could've waited a few more dates down the road but you two had already skipped a few steps and you've known each other for so long as well. he couldn't wait any longer.

-dating han is unlike anything you expected. first of all you didn't expect him to have so much damn money. it's his treat everytime you go out no matter how much you argue, he already has his card out and manages to pay without you even noticing.

-if you manage to sneak around him and pay, he finds a way to make up for it by buying you stuff you don't need. teddy bears, flowers, jewelry, shoes, clothes, lingerie. okay that last one you really like because it's worth his reaction. he might've picked it thinking it would look good on you but the real thing is so much better.

-now that you're dating, han has even more reason to go see you at the diner. he has his late dinner and gets to chat with you in between serving customers. although your uniform is the definition of an american stereotype he adores it, especially when you pair it with a pair of beat up, high-top red converse that are reserved strictly for work.

-he takes you to the back of the diner to fuck you on your break, it's a given. since he loves your uniform and you are on borrowed time han only lifts the skirt up your hips to have his way with you in it. you brace yourself with your hands on the hard wall, panties pulled to the side, hans hard cock pushing into you from behind. his hands dig onto your hip as he pulls you back to meet his thrusts. the rest of your shift you spend it with sticky panties, a reminder of your activity with han.

-everyone and i repeat everyone knows what you're up. how can they not? you leave looking somewhat put together and comeback with a wrinkled uniform and messed up hair.

-han is such a good boyfriend that he picks up you after your shifts at the diner. either way most of the things he does in his life are at nighttime, waiting for you to finish work at 5 am is nothing. if he so happens to have business he leaves and comes back to pick you up without question. that way he can fall asleep with you in his arms.

-eventually you start wondering where han gets his money, he's never told you he has a job. when you ask him he responds that it's from a job he had in brazil. you don't question it because you refuse to get too in your head about it and ruin something great.

-inevitably you learn about the drifting underground in tokyo and hans participation in it. you're also not interested in that so whenever han invites you to the races, you politely decline. again, cars are not your forte. you'll get bored and wish to go early and you don't want to ruin anything for him.

-it all changes when han brings along an american kid named sean. when the kid finds out you’re his girlfriend the first thing that pops out of his mouth is, “no wonder you never go home with the chicks falling on your lap in the races.”

-your demeanor changes so quick, your smile gone, eyebrow arched, tongue in cheek, glaring intently at han while he avoids your deadly stare. it never crossed your mind that there would be groupies lusting over your man. you're many things and jealous is one of them.

-han begs silently for sean to shut the hell up. bringing him here was a mistake, next time the boy's homesick he’s on his own. until now you've never had a problem with han, if anything there have been stupid fights about him always paying for everything.

-the rest of the time they’re in the diner you act very passive aggressively, smiling at sean but glaring at han. almost slamming his plate on the table, barely any fries on there, while seans has double the amount. for once han has to flag you down to get more coffee to which you pour him a cold cup.

-after dropping off sean at his house he returns to pick you up, finding you walking to the train station when you know he’s gonna pick you up like always does.

“Need a ride?” he asks, sliding the cars window down.

you continue walking, arms hugged to your chest to shield off the cold. the crease on your forehead an indication you are still angry at him. “no.”

“come on, baby. why are you mad?” han parks the car and follows you, grabbing your arm to force you to stop walking.

“because,” you scoff, refusing to meet his eyes.

han holds your shoulder and with two fingers lifts your chin up to look into your eyes, “because?”

“you didn’t tell me that there are girls throwing themselves at you!” you exclaim with a pout, ripping your chin away from his grasp.

“you heard sean. i don’t pay attention to them. i didn’t think it mattered!"

“it does to me!” you yell, punching his chest lightly. “i hate to think that while i’m at home or working you’re out there wooing these girls making them think you’re single and shit.”

“the only girl i’m wooing is you,” han reassures you, grabbing your wrist and pulling you into a hug.

“but they don’t know that,” you say but it comes out muffled as you hug him back and burry your face on his chest. he always smells so nice.

“then come with me to the next race,” he says, rocking you both from side to side.

“fine,” you pout, tilting your head up asking for a kiss. han gladly gives you what you want, slotting his lips between yours and going as far as slipping his tongue in when you part your sweet lips for him. yeah you're standing in the middle of the sidewalk but who cares.

“can i take you home now?”

“please, my feet hurt.”

-as promised han takes you to the next race, to say everyone was in shock to see han arriving with a new pretty girl is an understatement. the girls you call groupies all glared at you from the moment you stepped out, because no matter how hard they tried, you had hans full attention.

-han has always been the mysterious guy in the underground who appeared out of nowhere and became partner with takashi. no one truly knew where he came from. he was seen with tons of girls at the races and was known to have slept with a few of them but none got as far as to be exclusive with him. the girl who achieved this has the underground intrigued.

-you’re intimidated by the whole situation, the girls glaring, the loud roaring of engines, the fast cars whizzing by you. the only comfort is hans arm wrapped around your waist.

-that uncomfortable feeling vanished when a random girl approached han. she fully ignored his arm wrapped around your shoulder and approached him hands all over his chest and free arm. your inner bitch came out. you said things you cannot repeat and sent her the nastiest look. she had no other choice but to run away with her tail between her legs. han enjoyed every moment of it, kissing you in front of everybody to see. your his girl and most importantly he's your boy.

-you didn't return after that day. you had asserted your dominance once and that was enough. to remind people he was still taken you would just leave hickeys all over his neck. that would do it.

-han still leaves you tips, it’s his way to give you your nail money without you refusing profusely. he’d pull you by your apron kiss you, and stick the money down your apron's pocket with two fingers. he wants to keep you pampered and happy. you're repping him now.

-further down your relationship han learns you’re a college dropout. your family forced you into a degree you hated and was not good at and when you tried to switch they cut you off. now you’re a waitress with no money for school. han assures you that you can be so much more than a waitress even without a degree. it’s a matter of my finding your thing. he would know.

-your passion is cooking. your family is wealthy and when you were young they'd take you to the greatest restaurants in japan and asia. your tastebuds have been trained your whole life.

-when han learns of this he asks you to cook for him and offered to be your sous chef. if this was your passion he wanted you to share it with him.

"what do you think?" you ask him, offering him a taste of the sauce you were making.

"it almost tastes as god as you," he replies, kissing your cheek when you blush. he'd been assigned to peel potatoes. that's as far as his ability went either way. he was more than happy to see you waltz around your kitchen chopping vegetables and sprinkling herbs into the pans.

"han, i'm serious," you whine, taking a taste of your creation yourself.

"so am i," he laughs softly, "it tastes really good."

-you want to impress han with your cooking skills. for some reason you feel the need to prove that you're good at something. you prepare your small table with a white tablecloth and skinny candles. you even decorate the dishes with extra herbs and sauces.

-han has been with you the whole time, refilling both of your wine glasses but when you place the plate in front of him, he's at a loss for words. you turned the chaos in the kitchen into this beautiful dish.

-you're cooking is incredible. his palate is not as developed as yours but he can see you owning a restaurant and earning a michelin star for your cooking. there's no hiding how much he enjoyed the mix of flavors you put together. you're a smiley mess for the rest of the night. seeing han enjoy your creation brings you lots of joy.

-from that day on han and you make it a habit to cook dinner once a week at the least. he takes it as an opportunity to learn as well. the more you cook together the more responsibility you let him have. one day you deem him ready to use the fancy knife chef you spent months saving for.

-something else he learned about you is that you are a freak for skin care. you do it in the morning, at night, and if you need some sort of boost during the day you’ll do it again. many times you’ve fallen asleep in his arms only to wake up in the middle of the night to do your routine. han does not understand it but let’s you be.

-because of this he spends a lot of time watching you apply toners and lotions to your face. face masks are a must in your house and to not make han feel excluded you apply one on him too, including the fuzzy headband so his hair doesn’t get in the way. you sit on his lap afterwards and massage it onto his face. he secretly adores it. especially when you peck his lips to signal your done. now at his place he keeps a stash of face masks. japanese, korean, chinese, american, all sorts of face masks.

-hans habit of snacking on chips and crackers doesn’t go past you. when you ask him he replies truthfully he was a heavy smoker and this is his way of coping and getting the edge off.

-you're relieved by his words. you used to suffer from asthma growing up and your mom did nothing to help as she herself was a 2 pack a day kind of woman.

-now your house is stocked with snacks. you have a stash just for han and whenever he’s in your apartment or you guys are going out he takes his pick and stuff them in your small purse. it's led you to have accumulated points in your rewards card from the convenience store. a win win.

-han is the first to say i love you. he had offered to do your skincare routine for you wanting to challenge himself. he believed he had it down to a tee. fully trusting him you closed your eyes and let him do his thing. he pulled through and only made one mistake throughout the whole thing. nothing catastrophic. when he’s done he kisses your pouty lips layered with some sort of berry lip masque and whispers it “i love you.”

you open your eyes and look at him with a smile. it was only a matter of time till either of you confessed. both of your feelings bubbling under the surface. "i love you too.”

-if there is one thing that shook han to the core was learning that you didn’t know how to drive…at all. you're lucky he loves you or it would've been the end of the relationship.

“here. you can drive today,” han says, throwing you his keys as you leave the diner.

you catch them and throw them back, “no, that’s okay. you can drive.” there's more than one reason as to why you don't give a shit about cars and that's that you never learned to drive.

“please baby. i barely slept last night,” han pleads, kissing your cheek and placing the silly tokyo keychain in your palm.

“i don’t want to ruin your car,” you lie through your teeth, shooting him a sickly sweet smile.

“nothing will happen to it,” han insists.

defeated you sigh and reveal one of your most embarrassing secrets you've kept from han, “you don’t understand…i don't know how to drive.”

han goes slack, staring at you in disbelief but nothing about you said you were lying. it would explain why you've never asked to drive or why you always take the train or bus.

he can't live knowing his girlfriend can't drive. his life depends on his ability to drive and out of all the girls in tokyo he picked one that never found it important to learn.

nodding he takes the keys away from you and opens the passenger door for you to get in. “as soon as i get some sleep i’m teaching you to drive.”

-first thing the next day han has you behind the wheel in an empty parking lot. you’re sweating buckets, nervous. You’re not even in hans expensive car, he brought out a beat up car for you to practice on.

-"driving is as easy as riding a bike," those are hans words as he starts his driving lesson. he doesn't need to know you don't know how to ride a bike either.

"the pedal on the right is gas the one on the left is the brake. you need to press the gas lightly…baby you need to change the shift to drive first,” han says when you press on the gas and the engine revs.

“i can’t do this han. we're going to crash and we'll get hurt or worse...die," you ramble on, trying to unbuckle the seatbelt.

han rolls his eyes and grabs your hands to place them back on the steering wheel, “yes, you can. it’s important for emergencies.”

with a shaky hand you change the gear to drive and step on the gas lurching the car forward. instantly regretting it you slam on the brakes, jostling the both of you violently.

han breathes out loudly, his hands pressed against the dash to steady himself, “slowly, gently.”

out of all the crazy, stupid shit he’s done in the past this is the most scared he's felt about losing his life. you're not a quick learner by any means. just after a short hour he decides it's been enough. you barely managed to get the car running without going 40 miles instantly. don't get him started on how you brake. you don't seem to understand the meaning of gentle.

-han is as much of a taker as he is a giver. he can be the most doting boyfriend ever and suddenly have you on your knees using your mouth as he sees fit, leaving you a mess of saliva and cum.

-you seriously don't mind. that man gives you so much not only material things but love and orgasms. you're more than happy to get bruised knees if it means he's enjoying himself.

-nobody would expect it from him but he's very adventurous in bed, han is always up to trying new things he's read on the internet or hear people talking about. most times it's a success and you incorporate it into your sex lives.

-one thing he had to convince you to do was to give him blowjobs while he drove at ridiculous speeds. you agreed to try it once and it went so well it's become a not uncommon occurrence. most times it’s when you're driving aimlessly with nowhere to go.

-he'd start at a normal speed, let's say 60 miles an hour. you'd lean over the center console and unzip his pants. han would already be sporting a semi knowing what's coming. you'd pump his cock on your hand, letting your spit dribble down as lubrication.

-once he's fully hard you'd lick him base to tip. he'd be going up 90 by then. he can only afford quick glances down to where you're squeezing his cock. when you take him into your mouth he steps harder on the pedal, 100 on the dash.

-the deeper you go the faster the car goes. han leans his head back on the seat to try and control himself. a hand leaving the steering wheel to press against your head.

-the speed of the car and the pleasure of your mouth bring han to highs he's never explored before. when he slows to an acceptable speed you lift yourself to settle back on your seat, buckling your seatbelt. the taste of cum on your tongue.

-han's the type of boyfriend who isn’t so much into hand holding in public. he’s more of a hand around the waist or arm around shoulders guy.

-when you’re fucking though? oh, he’d lace his hands through yours. he's thrusting into you? both or one of his hands is intertwined with yours. he's eating you out? one hand extended to grab one of your boobs and the other in yours. maybe that's why he can't do it in public...it reminds him of more intimate moments.

-when you go awol your friends know there must be a new man on your life and they beg to meet him. they're all pleasantly surprised at the looks of him, especially when the two of you arrive in an expensive sports car and he offers to pay for everyones lunch.

-they are happy for you. it's been a long time since you've dated anyone, your last break up leaving you terribly heart broken. they can all see han loves you and that you love him. it's clear in their eyes this is not about money or lust.

-sean lets it slip that han has a girlfriend and twinkie begs to see who she is. sean agrees to take him to the diner where they sit at one of the booths being served by the other waitress. he points you out as you take someone else's order. twinkie and sean naively believe you haven't spotted them.

-twinkie doesn't fully believe sean just yet. he's having a hard time processing that han has a secret girlfriend, then again when was the last time he saw han hook up with a girl? a long time.

-like most nights you work, han makes an appearance. you have his cup of coffee on the counter and greet him with a peck on the lips as you stretch over it to meet him in the middle.

"your friends are over there," you whisper, softly signaling with your head in their direction.

han looks over at them. sean and twinkie pretend they are engaging in a very interesting conversation and they weren’t staring at han and you. "i'm sorry. have they caused you any trouble?"

"nah, they think i haven't noticed them gawking," you laugh, still leaning over the counter. "should we give them a show?"

"later," han says, tucking a rogue stand of hair behind your ear.

you lean into his touch, a graceful smile blooming from your lips, "as soon as mina gets here we can go." you softly tell him, eager to get out of the diner and go home where you can cuddle with han. there's barely a night you spend apart.

-han easily strikes a conversation with you to pass the time. he tells you about his friends all over the world and the places he's been. in your eyes han is the most interesting man in the world so you hang onto every word he says.

-when the other waitress relieves you of your shift you grab your jacket and meet han by the door. twinkie and sean are still in their little booth, sneaking glances at the two of you. han finally acknowledges them by nodding in their direction and grabbing you by the back of your neck, kissing you deeply. you lean into it, wrapping your arms around his sides. he pulls apart with his teeth biting your lower lip, hands trailing down to your ass to give it a squeeze. making sure your skirt is on place with a little tug, he opens the door for you. as you walk out he sends the boys a little shrug and a smirk, following you outside.

-sean and twinkie sit in their booth, mouth agape at the spectacle han put on. in their head you're way out of his league. you're too hot. their waitress glares at them as she slams the check on their table. they've been there too long.

-the next day at han's garage twinkie tells everyone. “yo han why didn’t you tell us about your girl?”

han doesn't look up from his magazine as he responds, “i didn’t realize i answered to you."

earl and reiko look up from the car they are working on to stare at han. they didn't realize han had a girlfriend, he's always been a...free spirit. not one to settle for just one girl. then again they've only known about his life in tokyo not brasil, or the dominican republic, or california.

“out of courtesy, man! what if i had hit on her?” twinkie says jokingly. not going to lie had he seen you around he probably would've tried to get with you.

“i doubt you would’ve gotten far,” han mutters, taking a swig of his beer bottle. he likes keeping his private life, private. he likes having you all to himself. that way no one can use you against him if something were to happen.

“bring her around, han!” reiko tells han. "i'd love to have another girl around."

“eh, maybe one of these days,” han dismisses them, standing up and heading out to look for sean. they've got business to tend to.

-han is both an ass guy and a boob guy. it all depends on the situation. in public he’s more of an ass guy. he loves watching you walk away, the sway of your hips capturing his attention.

-when he kisses you on public he’ll trail a hand down your body to squeeze your ass lovingly. he's the type to walk with a hand in your back pocket. letting everyone know you're his.

-in private though he’s a massive boob guy. han likes laying in your chest, finding your boobs comfortable. if you're cuddling he'll bring a hand under your shirt (which is probably his anyway) and just caress your tits. he’ll play with your nipple, brushing it with his thumb. it’s not very sexual but it can turn sexual if you wanted.

-han would definitely bring up the idea of you getting nipple piercings. he finds them so hot and he knows they’d look great on you. is the pain worth it? probably. he promised he’d be there with you to hold your hand, he even offered to pay for them. it’s still an idea you’re heavily debating.

-the day you meet hans friends comes too quickly to his liking. you had left your phone in his car by accident and you were going out with your friends. before heading to a new club downtown you stopped by his garage. everyone stopped what they were doing to see who was in the SUV. out the passengers sear came out a high heeled foot and a long leg first quickly followed by the other.

-you walked out looking like a three course meal. hair and makeup done and hair flowing down your back like silk. a short black dress hugged your body, a slit on the side that came up high but not high enough to reveal anything important.

-you slam the car door behind you, entering the garage filled with cars and strangers. you're nervous yet your beautiful looks hid it well. spotting a familiar face you strut towards him. "sean...have you seen han?"

"up-upstairs," sean manages to choke out. pointing to the second level of the garage.

"thanks," you smile at him. you walk past twinkie, winking at him for shits and giggles.

the rest see you walk up the stairs gracefully, surprised that nothing could be seen despite the dress being so short. han's sits in a desk, handling money from his and takashis business.

"hey handsome," you purr, nearing him.

han hadn't heard you come in so when he looks up and sees you looking like that he does a double take. he pushes off the desk, the rolling chair making enough space for you to sit on his lap.

"you look beautiful," he says, caressing your exposed thigh with his fingers. "what're you doing here?"

"i forgot my phone in your car and i'm going out with mindy and the girls," you tell him, grabbing his face on your hands to kiss his lips. it slow and contained as you're careful not to ruin your lipstick.

"you sure you have to go?" han whispers, his palm grabbing a handful of your ass.

"i do, the girls are not happy i've missed several girls night," you tell him. running a hand through his hair.

he looks up at you and says, "alright." han carefully stands up, placing you back on your high heeled feet. he makes his way down the stairs to where his car is parked.

you follow after him until a girl intercepts you, "hi! i'm reiko one of han's friends, it's so nice to finally meet you!"

"nice to meet you too," you say reciprocating her enthusiastic smile.

"here you go," han pops up besides you once again, handing you your phone.

"thanks," you smile at him.

"i should get going before mindy starts honking her horn," you scrunch up your nose.

"you should come around again soon," reiko says, excited that there's finally another girl in the garage that isn't one of the models twinkie and han are used to bring around.

"sure!" you agree with the girl, finding her nice and genuine.

"let me walk you out." han grabs your waist as you walk back towards your friends car. he opens up the door for you as you slip in.

before driving away you lower the window and he leans against the the car, popping his head in. "you girls be safe, call me if you're too drunk to drive."

mindy rolls her eyes at han, "don't worry lover boy. we'll have her back in her apartment before sunrise."

your friend allows you to give han one last peck before she starts closing the window and driving away, "bye!"

-that night han waits for you in your apartment. he hears you before he sees you. the door slamming open startles him and in you stumble with a tipsy mindy holding you up. "i brought her back safe and sound. she's your problem now."

"baby!" you yell, letting go of mindy and falling into his embrace. you kiss him all over his face and hug him close.

"you had a good time?" he asks, looking down at you. your eye makeup is smudged and your lipstick is long gone. you can barely keep your eyes open as you stumble over your words.

"lets go get you ready for bed."

-i repeat, han is a great boyfriend. he takes you to the bathroom and sits you on the counter. he follows your skin care routine, taking off the layer of makeup left on your face. you giggle through it all even as he helps you brush your teeth and apply you lip balm.

-he guides you back to the bedroom, taking off your dress so you sleep comfortably. he takes off your bra as well, the metal decorating your nipples glinting under the artificial light. grabbing one of his tshirts you've adopted he slides it over your head and arms.

-han tucks you into bed and he promptly follows to pull you close to his chest. you've stopped giggling by now, snuggling up to him. "i love you," you whisper, wrapping an arm around his waist.

-"i love you more, baby."

part 2. part 3.

i’ll also accept requests for han if anyone is interested!

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andreafmn · 11 months ago

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Kinktober ⛓️ Day 26

Word Count: 4.0K Paring: Dean Winchester x Fem!Reader Requested by @elizabeth916: "Supernatural" Prompt @kinktober2023: Masturbation WARNINGS: SMUT 18+ (minors DNI), slight voyeurism, vaginal fingering, masturbation, joint masturbation

Summary: After a hard life and a close brush with death via vampire, (Y/N) is taken in by Bobby Singer and taught the way of the hunters, even if that was the last thing he wanted for her. Add Dean and Sam Winchester into the mix, and she's more involved in the hunter lifestyle than before. Now, Dean is always always at odds with the girl. Even if he was the one who asked her to join them, he's always the one getting in her way. Sam says it's because he's in love with her. (Y/N) just thinks he's stubborn. One way or another, she's gonna find out they're both kind of right.

A/N: whoop, still doing this, I will try to finish before this october 🫣🫣 I've only gotten to season 5 of Supernatural so sorry this isn't more canon-centric

MASTERLIST

Constantly being on the road provided little privacy. Being the only girl in a team of hunters made it harder to have some. Being the only girl in a team of hunters that were brothers made it nearly impossible to have any.

But (Y/N) couldn’t complain. The Winchesters were the closest thing she had to a family, and they needed her help.

She had lost her parents at a young age and had made a life for herself as best as she could. She was sent from foster home to foster home until, at eighteen, she met Bobby Singer by chance during one of his hunts.

A couple of days before, she had been kidnapped by a young vampire as she walked from work and took her back to his nest, where she was fed upon from the moment she arrived. She believed she’d die there with nothing to show for her life other than a rundown apartment and a shitty waitressing job.

But just as everything had seemed bleak, Bobby had come in swinging a machete around and killed every single one of the vampires that had resided in the abandoned warehouse. Seeing the girl who was barely clinging to life, the man took her back to his motel and waited until she had regained consciousness.

He was sure she would scream, try to run away, or even hit him. Yet all she did was flutter her eyes open and thank him. She wasn’t afraid, nor was she angry. She had simply accepted what had happened to her as something else she had to deal with.

“You really ain’t scared of everything I just told you?” he had asked her that night as they ate some burgers. “I mean, I just told you that you almost died because of vampires, and you were more surprised that they put pickles in your burger.”

“I’ve dealt with worse shit in my life to find the supernatural unbelievable,” she shrugged. “With how my life goes, dying from a vampire is the least of my worries.”

Bobby had only met one other teenager as nonchalant and used to peril, and he had not been able to help him as much as he wanted to. But he knew he would always regret if he left (Y/N) to her own devices after meeting her. So, Bobby offered her a chance at a different life. Going against everything he had ever believed, he offered her a room at his place and a new job. And she said yes.

That answer had changed her entire existence.

(Y/N) took to the hunting lifestyle rapidly, finding it easier than being an eighteen-year-old girl living by herself in a sketchy part of town. She invested all her time and energy to get stronger and faster, wanting nothing more than to become better and better.

Bobby tried his best to keep her life balanced, especially after seeing what the hunting life had done to John Winchester’s sons, Dean and Sam. For years, he pushed her to have a social life and do things normal young people would. Still, he couldn’t squander her determination. So, when Dean called her up one day to help him and his brother find their father, she quickly agreed, much to Bobby’s dismay.

But once her mind was set on something, there wasn't much he could do; all he could do was hope she’d one day come back safe and sound.

And that was the day she had lost all sense of privacy. The trio jumped from motel to motel, and there was not enough money for two rooms. Thankfully, there always were two beds and sometimes a rickety couch, not that it helped the choking sexual tension between (Y/N) and the older Winchester.

From the moment they met, there was an undeniable chemistry between them. Sure, Dean flirted with anything that walked on two legs, but it was different with (Y/N). He wanted much more than just a one-night lay with her. He wanted the entire package–the apple pie life he’d dreamed of.

But he wanted something different for her—something better than what he could offer. Like Bobby, he didn’t want her involved in the hunting business. He had even begged Bobby not to let her go. But Sam was right. If they had any chance of finding their father, it would have been with her by their side. Just because he had agreed to let her tag along did not mean he didn’t worry whenever they were on a mission. If he wasn’t making sure that Sam wasn’t hurt, he was worried that (Y/N) was, and more often than not, his concern came out more like hostility rather than worry.

Much like their latest case. The three of them were sat at a diner, a giant breakfast spread on the table before them, and the only one eating was Dean. (Y/N) and Sam had their noses buried in books and laptops, trying to gather all information they could about a particular nest of vampires that had made their home in a small town outside of Detroit.

The case was particularly personal for (Y/N). The vamps that had been running amok the town had been the same ones that had almost taken her life many years before. Just like Bobby had told her, they left an item of the person they abducted with a star drawn in their blood at the place they were taken from. The creatures looked for easy targets and always hunted in the darkest corners of the night.

Now, (Y/N) had a plan to get to their nest, but it seemed she was the only one who thought it was a good one. “I’m just saying that it’s worth a try,” she whispered as she sipped her coffee. “I can make myself a target, and they’ll think it’s fucking divine intervention that they got the one that got away. Then you guys can follow and kill them all. I don’t see what’s so bad about that.”

“Are you fucking serious, (Y/N)?” Dean seethed. “They could kill you on the spot. It’s too risky.”

“It’s the only plan we’ve got right now that could actually end this,” she countered. “Even Sam thinks that it’s good.”

“All I said was that it could technically work,” the younger Winchester defended. “But I also agree with Dean that it’s too dangerous.”

“I don’t care if I get hurt as long as we get them.”

“It’s not about you getting hurt, (Y/N),” Dean spat, slamming what was left of his sandwich onto the plate. “It’s about you fucking dying.”

“Well, it’s a risk I’m willing to take,” she countered with the same anger. “It’s my life we’re talking about here, Dean. Not yours.”

“You’re fucking unbelievable!” he exclaimed through gritted teeth as he got up, grabbing his jacket in the process. “I’ll be in the room. I need to cool off.”

Sam and (Y/N) watched as the older Winchester left the diner, a cloud of steam almost visible in his step. It wasn’t the first time he had stormed out that way; it was his standard practice when things weren’t going according to his plan. But that moment, in particular, felt different. The energy was different.

“Okay, he needs to get over himself,” the girl muttered as she slouched in her seat, her arms crossed across her chest. “You guys cannot be the only ones allowed to sacrifice yourselves for the greater good. I know I can get hurt. I signed up for this job just like you guys did.”

“I don’t know who’s more oblivious,” Sam snickered as he popped a slice of bacon in his mouth. “You seriously don’t understand why he acts like that with you?”

“Because he’s a total douche with a god-complex?”

“No, idiot,” he laughed. “Because he likes you and cares about what happens to you.”

“Oh, come on, Sammy. We’ve been through this before,” (Y/N) said. “The only things Dean Winchester cares about are his car and you. I don’t even fall in the top five.”

“Jesus, you’re both just so stubborn,” he sighed, rubbing his temples. “Go talk to him, and then tell me if he doesn’t care.”

“He’s just gonna fight with me.”

“Go, (Y/N),” Sam exclaimed. “And actually talk to him.”

“Fine!” the young woman finally relented. “But you’re getting stuck with the research then.”

“Like that’s ever changed,” he scoffed jokingly. “Now, go.”

(Y/N) took the short walk back to the motel as slowly as she could, kicking a rock in her step as she fiddled with the key. It wasn’t the first time Sam had hinted at Dean’s supposed feelings for her. It had become his one source of teasing material since they had met for the first time. But she had always taken it as a joke, nothing more—just a quip a little brother used to bother his older brother. There was no way there was any truth to it. And if going to the room proved that, then that was what (Y/N) had to do.

As she neared the motel, she caught a glimpse of Baby, and a slight chuckle bubbled in her throat. That car was Dean’s one true love, and she knew that. He treated his vehicle better than any of the women he paraded in and out of their motel rooms or even the ones who never made it out of the bars. Hell, he treated it better than her or Sam at times.

That was the reason she had never admitted her feelings in the almost eight years she had known him. (Y/N) knew they wouldn’t be reciprocated. Dean had never given a single indication that he’d ever share her sentiment. Well, other than Sam’s words. But who could believe him then?

All she needed was one sign. A simple whisper from the universe that he did share in those feelings. That the reason he fought with her so much was because there were so many emotions bottled up inside him that he couldn’t help how they came out. Just one sign.

“(Y/N),” she heard an exhale as she neared the motel door. It was raspy and guttural, and she knew it had not come from the wind. “Fuck, (Y/N).”

She could have been dreaming. In the supernatural world, anything was possible. But the metal doorknob felt too cold in her hand, and the key turned too loudly for it to be her imagination. Behind that door, a scene was unfolding that surpassed her wildest fantasies, and she was the main character without knowing it.

(Y/N) opened the door slowly, pulling it upward to avoid the whining of the hinges, and she came face-to-face with something she could have only dreamed of. In fact, she was sure she had dreamt it before.

Dean was splayed in the middle of her bed, his hard cock in one hand and a pair of her underwear in the other. He ran his hand up and down his length, easing his pumping with the leaking precum that stained him. After every few strokes, he’d bring the piece of fabric to his face, taking a long drag before muttering (Y/N)’s name once more.

His eyes were pressed shut, and his movements were erratic. Dean was close, that much she could tell. She could see it in the way he breathed, in the way his hips stuttered, and the way his skin had grown red and flushed. Dean was reaching his climax with her name spilling from his tongue.

“So fucking stubborn,” he croaked out as his seed spilled all over his stomach. “(Y/N), fu~uck.”

“Good to know my underwear didn’t just disappear three months ago,” she grinned as she finally made herself known. “Didn’t take you for a panty sniffer, Deanie.”

“What the fuck are you doing here?” Dean exclaimed as he tried his best to cover himself. He pulled the sheets from under himself, pulling too hard and falling to the floor with a loud thud. “How long have you been there?”

“Long enough to know who you were thinking about,” (Y/N) taunted as she approached him. His legs were still on the bed, and his jeans pooled around his ankles while the sheet covered the rest of his body. At any given time, she would have made fun of him; tease him until he begged her to stop. But the heat that pooled between her legs had blurred her mind, and all that she wanted was to replace the hand that was working him. “Something you wanna tell me, Dean?”

“God, you’re insufferable,” Dean huffed as he tried to get up. “It’s not what you think.”

“And what do I think, Deanie? What did I just walk into?”

“I just needed to relieve some stress.”

“Oh, and do you always relieve your stress thinking of me?” (Y/N) mewled as she knelt down, her breath hot on his skin as she whispered in his ear. He stiffened up at her closeness, trying his best not to touch her. “See what I think, Deanie, is that what Sam’s been telling me is the truth. That you like me and that you care about me. And since daddy never taught you how to express yourself correctly, you just let everything out when you’re angry.”

Those words ignited a fire in Dean. He no longer cared about his lack of clothing or the situation (Y/N) had caught him in. All he wanted was to regain control. “You think you’re funny, huh?” he growled as he flipped her onto the ground and towered over her. “You think that just because you caught me like this, you know everything now?”

“I know enough,” she smirked up at him as she fought against his grip. “Matter of fact, I can feel it against my leg right now.”

“And you think it’s for you? You think you’re the only (Y/N) out there?”

“I’m the only one you know,” she teased. “And I’m the one whose panties you were sniffing.”

“It’s just a matter of convenience, (Y/N),” he shrugged. “You’re here. That’s that.”

“Are you sure, Dean? Because I’ve never seen you hoard the underwear of any of your past playdates. So, why mine? And why were you jacking off with my name rolling off your tongue?” (Y/N) propped her torso up by her elbows, pressing the tip of her nose to his, testing the waters before diving in. “And what if I told you I felt the same way, Deanie? What if I said that I’ve thought of you with my own hand down my pants? That I’ve edged myself for hours thinking of what you could do to me. And it’s not a matter of convenience for me, Dean. It’s the real deal.”

Dean couldn’t believe what the woman under him was saying. He’d gone so long thinking his feelings were one-sided that Sam only told him the things he wanted to hear. To him, (Y/N) was too smart and too beautiful ever to want to be with him. He wasn’t what she deserved, but now he knew he was what she wanted.

“Tell me you’re messing with me,” he grumbled. “Tell me this is just one big joke.”

“Why do you want me to lie to you, Dean? Is it so hard to believe that someone can feel something for you? That I love you?”

“You don’t mean that,” he continued. “How would you know what you feel is real? It’s not like you have a lot of options on the road.”

“Because I’ve felt like this from the moment I met you, Dean,” she confessed. Her heart had begun hammering inside her chest, begging for a moment of rest. But that was the last thing she wanted. It was the last thing she needed. “Why don’t you want to believe that I could feel this way about you?”

“Because you deserve better, (Y/N),” he muttered softly, almost like he didn’t want her to hear it. “I’m not better.”

(Y/N) knew words were not enough to calm the doubts that drowned his mind, but she knew how she could show it. With a smile on her face, she pulled one of Dean’s hands with her own as she unzipped her pants with her other. She moved their interlocked hands to the wetness that had pooled in her core, pressing his calloused fingers on the aching bundle of nerves that had been begging for attention. “I know what I deserve,” she hissed. “And I know what I want, Dean. I want you.”

“You don’t know what you’re saying,” he argued. But his fingers were telling another story. As if by instinct, his digits had started circling her clit, rubbing circles and shapes over the bud. “I’m damaged goods, (Y/N). I’m no good.”

“And I’m not better,” she added. “We all have a past, Dean. It can’t stop us from living in the present.”

“Is that what you’re doing, then?” Dean chuckled. “Living in the present?”

“We both are, Deanie,” (Y/N) grinned mischievously, knowing she had won him over. “As soon as you give in, baby.”

“You win, then,” he smiled. “For now.”

Dean pressed his lips to (Y/N)’s, savoring their softness and their warmth. It was everything he had imagined and more. They moved perfectly in sync, fitting into each other’s empty spaces like they had been crafted for each other. And maybe they were. Maybe they were part of some divine plan and had no idea. But at that moment, it didn’t matter. It was the fact that they were together that made everything just right.

“So, is this all because of me?” Dean taunted as he teased her folds. “This how you always are?”

“Yeah,” she sighed in pleasure. “I can’t help it when I’m with you.”

“Wish I had known earlier,” he grinned deviously. “I would have been taking care of you, (Y/N).”

“I think we’ve been taking care of ourselves quite well,” (Y/N) teased. “I mean, from what I saw today, you got your system down.”

“Oh, is that so? That mean you got your system too?”

“Well, I have not heard any complaints yet,” she chuckled. “I kind of know my body quite well.”

“Show me then.”

“What?”

“Did I stutter?” Dean smiled. “Get up on the bed and show me how you touch yourself thinking of me, baby.”

Dean slipped an arm under her legs and another on her back and carried her to the bed, where he laid her body softly on the mattress. He kissed his way down her body as he rid her of her clothes, revealing the valley of her skin and marking his path with his mouth.

“Show me,” he said as he kissed down her legs. “Show me what you do.”

“You gotta get off me first,” she chuckled. “Or are you gonna do the work for me?”

“As tempting as that sounds, baby, we gotta even the fields here. And we don’t have much time.”

With a slight chuckle, (Y/N) situated herself comfortably on the bed, propping her back up with a few pillows. Just enough so she could see Dean’s form. He had dragged a chair and rested it just at the foot of the bed, his eyes firmly trained on the woman’s body.

Soon enough, (Y/N)’s hands set off to work instinctively. They roamed her body sensuously, squeezing and kneading her most sensitive spots. As they worked their way through her skin, one rested upon her breast as the other made its way between her legs. She spread her limbs wide, giving Dean the show of a lifetime as her digits spread her folds and gathered her wetness before landing on her aching clit.

She knew it was her hands that were touching her, but her mind quickly tricked her into thinking it was Dean’s calloused fingers running across her body. In her head, it was him that was toying with her clit, it was him that was pinching her hardened nipples, it was him that was bringing her closer and closer to her awaited orgasm.

But it was clear that it wasn’t. Where he sat, Dean had taken his hard cock back into his hand, pumping at the same rate (Y/N) was touching herself. He slid his hand up and down his length, using his thumb to circle the head as precum coated him. In his head, it was her hand wrapped around him, squeezing softly as he tried to ride out his climax as long as he could.

“Fuck yourself, baby,” Dean groaned out. “I’m getting close here.”

“I always knew you were always too fast to the finish line,” she teased, concealing a moan that burst through. “Might just call you two-minute Dean.”

“You really know how to shatter the fantasy, (Y/N),” he sighed. “Just do it, baby.”

“Alright, but stop talking, Dean. You’re wrecking my fantasy here.”

After Dean finally quieted, stifling a moan that was bubbling, (Y/N) continued with her work. The hand that had been touching her chest slithered down her body, sinking into her core as her other hand continued her attack on her clit.

Moans and pants left her as she pistoned into her cunt, her digits curling at the end to bring her that much closer to her climax. She could see how hard it was for the man before her to keep up with her speed. His skin had started to redden and beads of sweat had formed across his body. His chest heaved quickly, and his movements stuttered as he held onto whatever resolution he had left.

“Fuck, Dean,” she moaned. “I’m so close, baby.”

“Me too, sweetheart,” he stammered. “Keep going. Cum for me, baby.”

(Y/N)’s picked up speed as she felt the tight coil in the pit of her stomach threatening to snap. She had done that dance many times before, searching, pushing, beckoning her orgasm to the brink. But it was the first time the Dean that was before her was real, close enough she could touch him. Close enough he could touch her.

It was that very thought that had her yelling out his name as her finish washed over her body, drenching her hands in her essence. Close behind, Dean burst across his stomach with her name dripping from his tongue, his eyes firmly trained on hers.

Dean took her into another rough kiss as they came down from their respective orgasms, her lips so irresistible he didn’t care how out of breath he was. “God, you’re perfect,” he panted. “So fucking perfect, baby.”

“Was that everything you had dreamed of?” (Y/N) teased with a grin. “Was that what was running through your head when I caught you?”

“Something like that,” he chuckled as he caressed her cheek. “It was more of a contact sport, if you get what I’m saying.”

“Well, we still got some time to kill before nightfall,” she offered. “And I’ve got enough for a round two.”

“Don’t threaten me with a good time, baby.”

As Dean kissed his way down (Y/N)’s neck, a knock on the door startled them apart, sending them scrambling for their clothes.

“Guys?” Sam called from the other side of the door. “Is everything okay with you two? We really need to get ready for tonight.”

“Fucking Sammy,” Dean grumbled quietly, his eyes rolling as he slipped his t-shirt on. “We were just getting done talking.”

“No fighting?”

“We were very civil, Sam,” (Y/N) called out, trying her best to swallow the laughter that was bubbling in her throat. The pair had gotten dressed in record time, fixing the bed and brushing their hair. She was slipping on her boots when she whispered to Dean, “We are definitely getting a raincheck on that round two, Dean.”

“Oh, you betcha, baby,” he grinned. “Don’t think I’ve ever been so grateful to be caught in the act.”

“Just be grateful it was me and not Sam,” she smiled before kissing him once more. “Now, let’s go kill us some vampires.”

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cakesunflower · 7 months ago

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lovelorn (and nobody knows) [rafe cameron au fic] chapter 7

Summary: Isla Carrera had planned for the summer before college to be focused on three things: helping out at her family’s restaurant (the helpful daughter), preparing for college (the good student), and having fun with the Pogues (the loyal friend). But one fateful night, where her car breaks down and her rescuer is none other than Rafe Cameron, seems to send her summer down a path she didn’t see coming–one teeming with a secret, illicit romance with the last person she expected. And if her friends and sister found out, Isla isn’t sure they’ll be so understanding, no matter what her feelings are.

It was only supposed to be dinner, and Isla had every intention of sticking to that when she agreed to a date with Rafe. But even after a heavy meal, Isla discovered that Rafe has as big of a sweet tooth as she does, which is how they ended up in the kitchen making an ice cream sundae—to share—before bringing it to eat outside. Except instead of returning to their table, they sit on the edge of the pool, bare feet dangling into the inviting water as the boat-shaped dish sits between them.

And Isla, God, she’s having fun.

The conversation with Rafe never falls flat or tapers off into awkward silence. The two of them talk constantly, flowing from one topic to the next seamlessly as they eat the sundae. Isla kicks her feet back and forth lightly in the pool, the view of her yellow painted toenails distorted under the lapping water as she scoops up some more ice cream, drenched in chocolate syrup, and asks, “So you like the campus?”

Rafe nods, the gentle breeze dancing through his hair. They are talking about college, since Rafe is a year ahead of her, and already done with his first year at the same university Isla is starting at in the fall. “Yeah, it’s nice,” he nods, looking down as he scoops some ice cream as well. “There are some great spots to hang out, and some hole-in-the-wall type of places to grab food between classes.”

“Hole-in-the-wall?” Isla repeats with a raised eyebrow and teasing smile. “Didn’t really picture you as someone who’d like those kinds of places.”

As soon as the words are out, Isla feels a stab of guilt for obviously judging him blatantly, but Rafe doesn’t look the least bit insulted by her comment. Instead, he lets out a laugh around the spoon in his mouth, the light in his eyes dancing. “Hey, no one was more surprised than me,” he admits. “But I very quickly learned that those places have the best food.”

Isla laughs, nodding. “Fair enough. What’s your favorite one?”

“Sutton’s Drug Store,” Rafe answers immediately. Her eyebrows flick up, grinning at the lack of hesitation on his part. “They’ve got the best burgers I’ve ever had. It’s also pretty popular with the college students but, yeah, if you like burgers and sandwiches, I highly suggest going there.”

“Maybe you can show me.” She shocks them both by saying this, her smile turning a little shy when Rafe’s slightly surprised eyes meet hers. “Since you’re so familiar with the place.”

“You sure you wanna be seen with me?”

He doesn’t sound accusatory or upset about it, just simply curious, but it makes her chest tighten all the same. Truthfully, the thought of her friends seeing her with Rafe is a little daunting, mostly because Isla knows how they can be. Especially because it’s Rafe, of all people. The history between them is too deep and not all that pleasant for her friends to readily accept. . . Whatever it is that’s happening between her and Rafe.

Licking her lips and tasting the ice cream, Isla drops her gaze to the dish between them, scooping up some melting ice cream onto her spoon as she tells him quietly, “Maybe we take it one step at a time?”

“Hey.” Isla lifts her gaze and bites the inside of her cheek at the softened look in his eyes as he gazes at her, the light of the pool dancing in his blue eyes, somehow making them lighter. “You run the show here, Isla. Whatever you’re most comfortable with, I’m game. I just—” He hesitates and Isla is endeared by the flash of uncertainty as he gazes down at her, reminding her that she’s not the only one that’s probably nervous about this. About them and this whole situation they have found themselves in. “I just wanna see you again.”

Her heart thumps wildly, warmth unfurling in her chest. “You do?”

“Yeah,” he nods, the corner of his mouth curving upwards. “I’d say this was a successful first date, wouldn’t you?”

She did have fun tonight—more than she thought she would. Rafe went through the effort of making their dinner, and he and Isla chatted and laughed together in ways she hadn’t seen coming. As the night went on, Isla felt more and more comfortable in his presence, for once putting the whole Pogues versus Kooks ideals out of her mind and just letting herself enjoy the moment.

Rafe is funny and knows how to carry a conversation, and it’s never one-sided; with every question she asks of him, he returns them to her, looking genuinely interested in wanting to get to know her more. The fact of the matter is, Isla had a lot of fun tonight, and she wouldn’t mind doing this again with him.

“I would,” she answers with a nod and slow growing grin, one that he mirrors and knocks the air out of her lungs. The way he looks at her dries her throat, a hundred thoughts running behind those blue eyes, all of which Isla wants to know desperately. With a breathless chuckle, she raises the spoon and quips, “You’re quite the charmer, Rafe Cameron,” before popping the spoon in her mouth for her last bit of ice cream, legs gently kicking in the water.

She lets it sit in her mouth for a moment, grinning around it as Rafe lets out a laugh. “As long as it gets me a second date,” he muses, which makes her cheeks flush.

Isla giggles; it’s light and a little breathless, but it’s a giggle nonetheless, and when was the last time a guy made her laugh like that? Ducking her head and feeling a little overwhelmed, she puts her spoon down and clears her throat. “It’s getting late, I should head home.”

“Yeah, okay,” Rafe says coolly, and Isla avoids his gaze because then he’d be able to make out the pink in her cheeks as she pulls her feet out of the water and stands up. When she goes to pick up the ice cream dish, Rafe says, “Leave it, I’ll take care of it.”

She hums in acknowledgement and slips her sandals back on, grabbing her purse. She can sense Rafe following after her as they walk back into the house and cross over to the front door. Isla bites her lip when Rafe reaches around her and opens the door, and Isla finally turns to face him, her eyes meeting his pretty blue. “This was fun,” she tells him honestly with a smile. “I. . . We should do it again,” she adds with a new warmth pooling in her cheeks.

Rafe smiles, an excited flash of his eyes accompanying the relief that seems to relax his shoulders. His gaze dips, then, to her mouth, and just when Isla begins to think something is going to happen, he says, “You’ve got a little—”

He gestures to the corner of his own mouth, and the warmth in Isla’s face intensifies with an embarrassed heat when she realizes she’s got something on her face. “Oh, God,” she groans, using the back of her hand to wipe at the corner of her mouth. When she glances at her hand, she doesn’t see anything, but asks Rafe anyway, “Did I get it?”

Amusement dances in his eyes, which somehow manages to lessen her embarrassment. “No,” he says, a smile playing on his lips as his hand lifts. Rafe blinks, pausing, and Isla’s gaze flickers from his hand back to him as he clears his throat and asks, “Uh, can I?”

Isla freezes for a moment, pulse quickening. Despite her surprise, she finds herself nodding, Rafe’s gaze locked with hers and not straying for a second, even as his hand reaches out. The air hitches in her throat when she feels his fingers gently grasp the underside of her left jaw, the briefest of touches eliciting sparks of electricity to shoot throughout the rest of her body and threatening to knock her off her feet. The band of his signet ring is cool against her skin. She notes, in that moment, his blue eyes darkening a bit when his thumb gently rubs the skin next to her lips, not quite at the corner of them but close enough.

It’s oddly, stunningly, intimate. Isla doesn’t even dare to breathe as she peers up at him, his height easily overtaking hers and it shouldn’t be as attractive as it is. His touch is warm, electrifying, and she isn’t quite sure if she’s imagining the space between them lessening while the tension stirs and grows thicker with every passing second.

So slowly, Rafe lowers his hand, her skin already missing the contact, but the lack of space between them remains the same. Isla knows she should go, turn and walk to her car and that will be the end of the date. Yet she still lingers, still hopes a little, maybe. She wonders if he will close the distance, if she will be brave enough to do it herself, and realizes that she really wants Rafe to kiss her. A thrill of anticipation runs through Isla, goosebumps pickling her skin with a thunderous pulse thrumming through her.

She picks up the split second where his gaze dips to her mouth, hope and excitement rising—only for it all to shatter when the shrill ring of a phone cuts through the air.

Isla immediately steps back, heart leaping into her throat and cheeks warming as Rafe’s jaw tightens in annoyance. Disappointment sits heavily on Isla’s chest as Rafe digs his phone out of the pockets of his pants and runs a frustrated hand through his hair. “I’m sorry, it’s my dad.”

“No, it’s okay,” Isla rushes, her words slurring together in a hurry as she takes a backwards step out of the house. Rafe’s gaze meets her and Isla tries hard not to notice the longing in his eyes—for her, for the moment they lost. She knows it’s reflected in her own eyes, too, as she flashes him a quick smile. “I should head out, anyway. I’ll, um, see you later.” She steps into the night, the phone still ringing in Rafe’s hand as he watches her, and her smile softens. Despite the disappointment of the lack of kiss, Isla tells him, “Thank you for tonight. It was. . .” She trails off, cheeks pinkening, and she sees Rafe ease a bit at her sudden shyness. “It was wonderful.”

The heat in her face grows, wanting to cringe at her breathless choice of words, but Rafe grins, triumph and a boyish kind of giddiness brightening his features. “Thank you for coming. I—” He glances at his phone before asking her, “Let me know when you get home?”

Isla bites her lower lip, smiling with a nod. “I will. Goodnight, Rafe.”

He leans against the doorway. He still hasn’t answered the call. “Goodnight, Isla.”

When she walks to her car, she can feel Rafe’s gaze on her back, and she’s surprised by the fact that she has to resist the urge to turn back around and kiss him. He stays in the doorway, phone to his ear now, and watches her get into her car, and she grins to herself when she realizes that he doesn’t shut the front door until she’s all the way backed out of his driveway.

On her drive home, Isla blasts the air conditioner to cool her heated skin down, music playing through the speakers and the bass of the song amplifying the thumping of her heart. She drives home in a daze, mostly, as she replays the entire night in her mind once again. The smiles they shared, the conversations that seemed never ending. She’s surprised to find out that she and Rafe have a lot in common; their love for reading—even if it’s different genres—music taste, a healthy fear of snakes, both preferring Nutella over peanut butter. . .

It goes on and on, the things they both like and dislike, and with each revelation, Isla felt like she was discovering a whole new Rafe Cameron that she didn’t know existed before. And she likes him. A lot.

Isla huffs out a quiet laugh, entering her room and shutting the door behind her. She collapses on her bed, staring at the ceiling for three seconds before grabbing a pillow and presses it to her face, before letting out the loudest muffled squeal she can.

*****

“Hey, did you leave the restaurant yet?” Kie asks when Isla answers her phone call.

“Walking out right now,” she says, walking down the path towards the parking lot, hiking up her tote bag that’s stuffed with her work clothes. She had changed into her bathing suit, crop top and shorts in the bathroom before clocking out of her shift. “Why?”

“Can you pick JJ up from work?” Kie asks. “He caught a ride this morning from one of his neighbors, I think. Something about his bike not starting.”

“Are you already at John B’s?” Isla asks as she unlocks her car.

Kie blows out a breath. “Yeah, I didn’t know he’d need a ride or I would’ve waited before leaving.”

Isla grins as she starts the car. “Aw, you’re such a nice girlfriend.”

“Shut up,” her sister hisses, making Isla burst into laughter. She loves teasing Kie, especially when it comes to her feelings for JJ. It’s Isla’s duty as her sister, really, to tease and tease until Kiara and JJ do themselves a favor and get together. “I’ll see you later.”

The drive to the country club is only ten minutes, and as Isla is pulling into the parking lot, she passes by two parked motorcycles—one of which is very familiar. Her pulse quickens when she recognizes Rafe’s bike, tongue pressing to her cheek as she parks her car a few spaces down. She sits in the car for a few seconds, gripping the steering wheel tightly as she debates her next decision, staring out of the windshield and right at the white building ahead.

“Fuck it,” Isla mutters to herself with a skipping heart beat, killing the engine and jumping out of her car.

The afternoon sun is warm but not too harsh, perfect for a boat and swimming day, which is why Isla is here to pick up JJ. She and the Pogues are taking out the HMS Pogue around the water, and Isla is itching to jump into the cool water. But right now, she crosses the parking lot and heads inside the club, shivering slightly under the cool blast of the air conditioner once she steps through the door.

There’s a muted hum of chatter as she walks down the wide hall, heading towards the outdoor patio area of the restaurant and bar that she knows JJ is working. As Isla walks, her gaze casually wanders, trying—hoping—to catch a glimpse of the guy she hasn’t been able to stop thinking about since their date two days ago.

It hasn’t been radio silent since then between them, either. They had been messaging on Instagram, just random conversations that never felt forced, until Isla finally sent him her phone number, and then they went from private messaging to texts. Funnily enough, it felt like a step forward in the right direction, bringing a new sense of excitement in this new development.

When she steps out onto the patio, shooting a friendly smile to Ariana, the hostess, Isla’s gaze travels around in search of JJ—but it too easily snags on another blonde boy sitting at a table towards the railing that overlooks the water. Isla takes in a quiet breath at the sight of Rafe, sitting at a square table with Topper and Kelce sitting opposite of him, but her attention is solely on him.

Sunglasses cover those blue eyes, the breeze making the longer strands of his hair framing his temples dance gently. He’s in a simple black and gray striped shirt and black pants, leaning back in his chair like he doesn’t have a care in the world as he talks with his friends. Before, Isla had the same mindset as her friends, where when she’d see Rafe, she only saw an air of arrogance around him in the way he carried himself. As though he thinks he is above everyone else, which is easy to believe given that he’s a part of the richest family in the Outer Banks—possibly in all of North Carolina.

But maybe Isla was wrong to think that. Maybe it’s his confidence and charm that is often misconstrued as arrogance. The conversations Isla has had with him so far don’t particularly give her the vibe that he’s the arrogant asshole her friends believe him to be.

Isla wants to dive headfirst into the idea that she had just misunderstood him, but despite their fun date and her desire to kiss him, touch him, she still hesitates. What if it’s a facade? What if he’s just pretending?

Then again, what does he get out of that? What does he get out of pretending to like her and want to be with her? Some kind of prank to humiliate her? Could he be that cruel and callous?

She’s not sure. Her stomach knots up, the feeling far too unpleasant. And it’s that moment when Rafe’s head turns just so, and despite him wearing sunglasses, her body tingles with sudden awareness, and she knows that he’s looking right at her. Isla swears the corner of his mouth lifts in a smile, her skin warming in immediate response as she bites back a foolish smile, though her lips still tug upwards of their own accord. It’s like the two of them are sharing a secret from either side of the patio, one that is just theirs to keep.

Just then, movement catches her eyes, and her gaze slides from Rafe to JJ cleaning up a table a few away from Rafe’s, and when her friend’s head lifts, the smile is immediately wiped off of Isla’s face. All thoughts slip from Isla’s mind, stomach dropping when she notes the black eye that JJ is sporting. “JJ,” she breathes out, hurrying around the tables to approach him. He senses her, eyes meeting hers, and she sees the way his lips purse when he takes in the worried look widening her eyes. “JJ, what happened?” Isla asks once she gets to him.

Her first concern is if her friend is okay and, selfishly, her second concern is hoping that Rafe isn’t the one who hurt JJ. Her friends and Rafe have gotten into quite a few physical fights over the years, and Isla knows it’s self-centered to hope that Rafe wasn’t the one who gave JJ that black eye. She also knows that she isn’t really giving Rafe the benefit of the doubt by even connecting him to JJ’s injury, especially after their date. But her worry has her jumping to the worst case scenario as JJ sighs, gripping the rectangular bucket he’s loading the dirty dishes into.

“I’m fine, Isla,” he assures her, a hint of resignation leaking into his voice. “It’s not a big deal.”

“Not a big deal?” she repeats, eyes wide as she tries to keep her voice low. The patio isn’t too busy, but there are still some guests around, and for JJ’s sake, Isla doesn’t want to create a scene at his place of work. But his left eye has a purpling ring around it, the skin under the eye slightly swollen as pinkish-red discoloration taints his temple by the eye. More quietly yet no less intensely, she demands, “What the hell happened?”

Isla braces herself for his answer, tongue pressing to the back of her teeth as she watches him intently. She sees JJ struggle to answer, the muscle in his jaw jumping repetitively as the conflict wars in his bright blue eyes. The one that’s bruised is slightly bloodshot and the sight of it has Isla’s chest tightening painfully, her concern drying her throat out. JJ is her best friend—she’s probably closer with him than the rest—and seeing him in this state is like a punch to the gut.

And maybe he sees that there’s no easing her worry by just dismissing the topic, so he lets out another breath, gaze cutting away from hers as he tells her, “My dad happened.”

Isla’s eyebrows furrow together, eyes still wide as bewilderment has her shaking her head. “Wait, your dad? I thought he was in jail?” Hadn’t Kie said he’d be locked up for six months?

A sardonic smile tugs at JJ’s mouth, just barely hinting at a dimple. “There was a riot, he used it to his advantage and escaped.” Isla’s eyes widen even more, if possible, as disbelief and fear for JJ stiffens her muscles.

“And the first place he went to was your house?” Isla asks. “Weren’t the cops looking for him?”

“They were too busy getting shit under control,” JJ says, picking up a glass from the table and putting it in the bin he’s holding, the glasses clinking together. “But he left after. . . After,” he shrugs. “Don’t know where he went, but didn’t leave without a parting gift.”

Isla shakes her head, her eyes looking over him. “Jesus, JJ,” she whispers. She hates that he has to deal with this, that he has to have a dad as shitty as Luke Maybank. All that guy does is waste money he doesn’t have, get drunk, and beat on JJ. There's a damn good reason JJ is never home, and has a semi-permanent room at John B’s place.

Her hand reaches out, fingers gently grasping his chin and turning his head. He lets her, as this is nothing new between them, and she lets out a heavy breath. “Does it hurt? Did you ice it?”

“Yeah, I did,” he mutters, a hand grasping her wrist and putting her hand down. “Stop fussing. I’m fine.”

She shoots him a flat look. “Do the others know?” When he stays stubbornly silent, Isla shakes her head again. “You know they’re gonna wanna know.”

“I don’t need them worryin’ about this shit,” JJ says with a roll of his eyes. With a one shouldered shrug, he says, “I’ll just say one of those shitheads did it. They’ll believe it and leave it alone.”

He nods towards his left and Isla doesn’t even have to look over to know who he gestured to. But she does, anyway, and her gaze lands on Rafe. He still has his sunglasses on, but Isla feels that same prickle of awareness that tells her he is watching her—and has been, probably for the entire length of her conversation with JJ. Rafe’s lips are in a thin line and Isla has been around Rafe long enough throughout the years to know that he doesn’t look happy behind those sunglasses.

But she can’t focus on that right now, not when JJ’s words ring in her head. There’s an urge to come to Rafe’s defense, not wanting JJ to stir the pot when things have been relatively peaceful between her friends and Rafe. Isla’s stomach tightens, getting the dreaded sense of being a traitor—the only problem is, she’s not sure who she’s betraying with the conflicting feelings that are bubbling up inside of her. She knows Rafe couldn’t have heard her and JJ’s conversation, yet guilt still threatens to bloom.

“Come on, JJ,” she says, half laughing and half huffing in exasperation. “You don’t think news about Luke is gonna spread and they won’t find out? They’ll connect the dots and you know it.” She arches an eyebrow when JJ presses his lips together. “Just tell them.”

He’s silent for a few seconds and Isla tries to prepare another argument in case he doesn’t want to listen to her. But then JJ surprises her by exhaling heavily and saying defeatedly, “No secrets among Pogues, right?”

Isla feels beyond hypocritical as she forces a smile at JJ’s words. “Yeah, exactly,” she agrees with a nod, nervously hiking the strap of her bag higher up on her shoulder. Swallowing through the discomfort tightening her throat, she says, “Come on. The others are waiting at the Chateau.”

JJ nods. “Let me drop this off at the kitchen and change.” He walks around her but doesn’t leave before asking, “Why’d you walk in? You could’ve texted me.”

“Um,” Isla says, eyes widening because he’s behind her now as she scrambles her brain for an excuse. “My mom thought she forgot her Apple watch in her locker,” she lies, turning to shoot JJ a smile. “I went to check but no dice.”

He clicks his tongue. “Bummer. Alright, I’ll be back in ten,” he says before heading inside.

Isla watches him go, chewing on her bottom lip as he disappears inside. Once he’s gone, her shoulders slump, fingers running through her hair as she shuts her eyes and blows out a breath. She hadn’t realized how tense her body got throughout her conversation with JJ—particularly when he had brought up Rafe. It’s not lost on Isla how quickly she jumped in to defend Rafe without JJ knowing about it, even if Isla had wrongfully assumed and dreaded that Rafe had been the one to give JJ a black eye.

“Everything okay?”

Isla jumps at the sound of Rafe’s voice, as if she conjured him from her thoughts, spinning to face him. “Whoa,” he says, chuckling slightly as he takes a step back. He raises his eyebrows, though Isla sees the concern in his eyes. “You okay?”

Isla glances behind him, seeing Topper and Kelce watching them from their table. Isla’s not sure if she likes that, but she looks back at Rafe, and something inside of her softens at the worry in his eyes. “Yeah, yeah, all good,” she reassures with a nod. “Just, uh, worried about JJ.”

“Yeah,” Rafe says, his gaze flickering over her head in the direction JJ had gone. “That looked like a nasty black eye.”

Isla nods, lips rolling into her mouth as she hums. “Mhm.” Her gaze drops, looking down at her sneaker clad feet, a little too pointedly avoiding Rafe’s gaze.

She grips the strap of her bag tightly, feeling the weight of Rafe’s eyes on her, silent until he starts, “Wait. . .” Isla reluctantly lifts her gaze and sees Rafe frowning, a calculating look churning in his blue eyes that has her pulse quickening. He once again glances over her head before looking back at her and asks, “Did you think I did that to him?”

Isla’s eyes widen, stunned that he seems to have figured out her shameful thoughts so easily. She wants to laugh it off and dismiss it, but the air knocks out of her lungs when she sees a confused frown on his face turn into one of hurt, pulling back from her, and that subtle act has her stomach knotting up in total discomfort.

Her expression is answer enough to Rafe’s question, and she watches as his lips curve up and a sardonic laugh escapes him, hand coming up to cover his mouth, gaze darting away. The hurt is obvious in the sound of his empty laugh, and it in turns makes Isla hurt, knowing that she’s the reason for it. “Come on, Isla,” Rafe mutters, huffing out a breath.

“I’m sorry, I—” she hastily speaks, voice a whisper. “Can you blame me? It’s not like this hasn’t happened in the past—”

“Yeah, in the past,” he cuts her off, his own voice low but sharp. She presses her lips together at the way he looks at her, eyebrows pulled together but not quite a glare. Just disappointment and hurt that he’s struggling to hide, and Isla’s throat bobs, already regretting her words. “After this weekend, do you really think I’d turn around and do that to him? I haven’t gotten into it with your friends in a while, Isla. Are you serious?”

Isla takes in a sharp breath, pulse quickening as she tries to de-escalate this situation as it gets away from her. She wants to tell him that she talked JJ out of blaming Rafe anyway for the black eye, but the words don’t come out—not in the face of the look he’s giving her. When she can’t come up with anything to say that could possibly make this better, Rafe shakes his head.

“Alright,” is all he says, gaze cutting away from her as he turns and walks back to his table, hand rubbing the back of his neck as he goes.

She watches him go, a lump in her throat borne of guilt, ignoring the curious and confused looks from Topper and Kelce. Isla hesitates, wanting to smooth things over with Rafe right away because, honestly, her skin prickles with the idea of making him upset. A month ago, Isla wouldn’t have cared, not really. But right now, it worsens the knots in her stomach, overwhelmed with the urge to talk to him and smooth things over, except JJ suddenly calls her name, and she tears her gaze away from Rafe, who returns to his seat, and looks over at JJ waiting for her. Isla takes a step towards him, but her gaze slides back to Rafe, who is pointedly ignoring her. She lets out a heavy sigh, knowing this is her own doing, yet still lamenting how she went from thinking about their date to this.

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jeonstellate · 15 days ago

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timestamp: laurels

it’s 2:14 pm when you spot tony in the crowd.

๑彡 platonic!tony stark x gender neutral!reader

๑彡 adopted child!au — mentions of kidnapping — fluff

๑彡 paragraph format — 0.7K words

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๑彡 i don’t think i’ve ever projected this hard on any of my works before, but— my sincere apologies bc i made yn a college of engineering student, like i am *insert exhaling emoji here*

๑彡 if you think tony’s a little too ooc here . . . that’s bc he’s based on endgame!tony — specifically his dynamic with morgan :D

You, [full name], are the child of Tony Stark— the Tony Stark. Not biologically in any way, but treated like one nevertheless.

A blessing it might be to remember whenever you’re around your adoptive father and everyone close to him, it’s also a curse the media loves to remind you every chance they get. They are extremely selective about when they consider you a Stark — and it all depends on the narrative they want to push. Effectively, you’re only a Stark in their eyes whenever you do something they deem unbecoming of the name.

Your father Tony does his best to shield you from all the negative attention that comes with being his child. His efforts go beyond suing reporters and paparazzi to oblivion — and assigning shadow bodyguards to keep you safe. He gives you the freedom to live normally as well, which includes bestowing you another name that flies under the radar. [First name] Carbonell.

[First name] Carbonell who just decided to participate in their university’s hack-a-thon on a whim. Who didn’t even tell their dad where they disappeared to on a weekend. And who just got called onto the makeshift stage.

"Congratulations," your old Assembly Language Programming professor greets you as you shake his hand and accept the 3D-printed trophy he’s offering you.

So much for only attending for the free merch.

(You came for the workshops, too, of course. But it was never in your plan to code something, especially with a clock set so tight, let alone submit something for judging. It just kind of . . . happened.)

You give a small, polite smile. "Thank you."

Once more, the crowd roars with applause. However, this time, it’s accompanied by a familiar celebratory whistle. Dad.

You locate him just before the shutter clicks. Your winning photo immortalizes your genuine reaction to spotting your dad in the crowd.

You run to him immediately after descending from the makeshift stage. He catches you in an embrace. "Congratulations, [nickname]." You melt into the hug as he plants a kiss on top of your head. "I’m proud of you."

Truth be told, you never imagined that you two would reach this point. You were convinced that you were meant to die in fourth grade, when HYDRA kidnapped you as petty revenge to your SHIELD agent biological parents. It was only by pure luck that the Avengers found you when they did — especially when they weren’t even looking for you in the first place. Although it wasn’t Iron Man who found you first, you clung to Tony since then because he reminded you of your biological father the most.

Tony, for his part, as he later admitted to you during your junior year of high school, had been hesitant to take you in himself. He cared for you a lot, to the point that he had been convinced you deserved a better guardian than he could ever be. Yet, at the same time, the thought of never seeing you again was too much to bear.

The two of you had to figure things out along the way. And you’d like to think you have done well in doing your respective best.

"Thanks, Dad." You tighten your hold on him, unwilling to let go just yet. "Means a lot."

Later, when your dad had enough photos of you with your trophy in his phone, he takes you to a hamburger joint. He had denied your request to have donuts for lunch, but he did promise to get a couple dozen for dessert.

"How did you know I was on campus?" You ask as you unwrap more of your burger.

Your dad, who hasn’t peeled off his photostatic veil and stripped off his disguise, nonchalantly relies, "JARVIS tattled on you."

You stop mid-bite because of that. "Dad! You said you removed that protocol!"

"I did." His burger suddenly appears the most interesting thing to look at. "I just asked JARVIS where you were because I wanted to have lunch."

Your eyes soften. University has been . . . a lot. You haven’t been able to join your dad for meals, much less hang around his workshop like you always did when you were younger.

You thought nothing it, really. Partly because you’ve been too busy to think about it, but mostly because you assumed he wouldn’t care. After all, you still live with him — and you two see each other in the hallways every-so-often at midnight.

It never occurred to you that your dad will miss you, even when he still has everything keeping him occupied. "I miss you, too, you know."

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worldheadcanons · 5 days ago

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☆ receiving a kind note!

requested by anon! fem, sister to al & mattie!reader. starring . . . america, russia, & canada. fandom masterlist found here. 📌 . . . author notes: al + mattie’s parts are familial, ivan’s is open to interpretation! i don’t usually write familial stuff but this was really fun to think of. sorry if i butchered canadian hiking culture, also.

alfred f. jones!

— he’s not surprised to see a note from his little sister taped loosely onto his chair. it’s something you’d done forever, ever since you first learned how to write. you were fascinated with leaving little notes and messages for others to read. it was a cute habit and still is now that you’re older. setting down his briefcase, he picks up the note and gives it a read.

— “hey, al! i hope your meeting goes well today. i was thinking for lunch we could go to that burger place we both liked, but i wouldn’t mind eating whatever you’re in the mood for. just text me what you’d like. i know that meetings aren’t the most fun but try to pitch your best ideas. i love you, see you at lunch! P.S. you’ve got to stop leaving your socks all over the house, i’m tired of picking them up! — your super sidekick sister!”

— after reading, he just chuckles to himself. yeah, that’s his little sidekick, for sure. thoughtful, energetic.. he takes out his phone right away to text you the details for lunch. “i’m feeling hotdogs today, actually. care for a chili dog instead? side note, my socks are NOT all over the house. just all over my room.”

— your reply is almost immediate. unlike alfred, you don’t have a busy schedule. there were no huge meetings to attend considering you were a micronation. “chili dogs sound good :) i’ll come by at lunch to pick you up!”. after a few moments, you sent another text, “also, your socks are EVERYWHERE. i’m your sister, not your maid!”

— he rolls his eyes, hearting the first message before replying to the second one. “alright, alright. don’t go all arthur on me.” with that, he shoves his phone into his pocket. other countries were starting to trickle in so he had to wipe the smile off of his face. still, the whole meeting seemed to be less torturous after having a nice conversation with his sister.

ivan braginsky!

— oh? what’s this? a message from alfred’s little sister.. ivan’s surprised by the appearance of a cute note on his chair. he knows it’s from you because he’s seen how you leave notes for others. never did he imagine you’d leave one for him, though… he thought for sure that alfred would’ve forbid you from such a thing. then again, you’re his sister, not his prisoner.

— “to mr. braginsky. i’ve heard a lot about you from my brother, but i’ve yet to meet you in person. let’s change that! if you’re interested, i’d like to meet up with you after this meeting and go out for lunch. i’m fine with anything. don’t worry about al! he’s triple booked with meetings today, so he won’t see us. i eagerly await the chance to acquaint ourselves!”

— his brows furrow as he reads. this could definitely be fake. alfred could be luring him into a sort of trap, waiting for him to take the bait. the penmanship is definitely similar to the loud american’s, as is the type of speech.

— even so… would he ever go through all that trouble, just to get the jump on an enemy? they could easily fight out in the open; no one would mind. ivan takes the sticky note, folds it in half and slips it into his pocket. the meeting starts but his mind is still on the message. it’s rare for anyone to be interested in him all on their own. perhaps he should go for it. ah, the more he thinks, the more it vexes him. if it’s causing such a headache, maybe he should ignore the note…

— he leaves the meeting quickly, grabbing his things and heading out the door. with each step, he becomes more convinced. ignore the note and go straight home. ignore the note and go straight home. ignore the note and — oh? on the way out the building, though, he spots a young woman busy on her phone — you. without thinking, he walks over, asking if you’re alfred’s sister. when you say yes, you smile at him. a big, radiant smile, one that’s actually for him… he’s glad he didn’t ignore the note after all.

matthew williams!

— the notes that you leave really brighten his day, even if he doesn’t often say it. you’re one of the few people who notices him and asks him things; you ask about his day, you care about the things that excite him — sure, you might be annoying at times, but so is alfred. he doesn’t love either of you any less for it. that’s just having siblings.

— all that to say, his eyes light up as soon as he sees the familiar sight of a sticky note stuck to the meeting table, right where he sits. he’s one of the first countries to make it into the room, though it’s not like he has to be careful in reading the note. there are some benefits to not being noticeable.

— “mattie! don’t forget, we have that trail we’re walking in between your morning and afternoon meetings! i took the liberty of finding a good trail. we’ll be hiking up the hamilton falls trail, since you’re always talking about taking me hiking in your home country anyways. it says online that it’s only thirty minutes round trip, so you’ll probably be fine! — your sister!”

— oh! hiking in between meetings… you did bring up the idea a few days ago when you noticed that the next few world meetings would be stationed in canada (this was after you begged him to let you come with). he didn’t say no then but he hadn’t said yes either. but.. could it really hurt? this time of year was a good time to see the waterfall, anyways, if you’re careful about the mud.

— you know what? hell yeah. it’s not like anyone will care if he comes in clean in a suit or messy from hiking. he takes out his phone and sends you a short text. “can’t wait to go hiking with you :)”. who cares what anyone else thought? he’s gonna have a fun time with his sister.

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darkficsyouneveraskedfor · 1 year ago

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Same as it ever was 7

Warnings: this fic will include dark content such as neglect, bullying, manipulation, cheating, and possible untagged elements. My warnings are not exhaustive, enter at your own risk.

This is a dark!fic and explicit. 18+ only. Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Warnings have been given. DO NOT PROCEED if these matters upset you.

Summary: Between your home life and work, you just can’t catch a break. Especially after you draw the ire of your boss.

Characters: Lloyd Hansen ft. Pete Brenner

Note: we just vibing.

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Silence simmers in the meeting room. Lloyd watches you, basking in your defeat. You don’t have to proclaim it, no need for a white flag, it’s all very obvious.

You need this job. Even if Burger King called you that very moment, flipping burgers isn’t going to pay for Pete’s negligence or your children’s lunches. As always, you’re the one who has to do what needs to be done.

You raise your chin and swallow, trying to sit up straight. He watches you, a smirk slanting his mouth as he flutters his fingers over his bristly mustache. He chuckles as he slowly struts closer.

“You look tired, cupcake, so we’ll keep it simple,” he nears, soles scuff with each step as he puts his hands on his belt. “I’ve put up with your mouth more than I should so why don’t you put it to good use?”

He unbuckles his belt and you sniff. Your throat constricts as you stare at the bottom of his shirt as he opens his fly and the tails break out. Your nostrils flare as you tamp down the last of your defiance. Is that pride? You haven’t had use for that in years.

Fed up, done, exhausted, helpless. Whatever it is, you just want it over with. You roll the chair closer and grab the front of his pants. He lets out a grunt as you pull him closer. He catches himself on your shoulder as you tug his pants down to his thighs.

“Wow, sunshine, you that desperate for a gourmet cut–”

He can’t finish his disgusting remark as you stretch the elastic of his briefs and roll them down, angling them past his already hard dick. He perks up as you bare his excitement and you roll your eyes. The arrow shaved into his pelvis pointing to his dick is juvenile.

“Alright, take it easy–”

“I know how to suck a dick,” you hiss and grab him, stroking him to his tip and back down, slow, easing yourself into what you’re about to do.

Your stomach curdles as you wheel even closer and straighten your spine. This man revolts you. Every man does. Your own husband most of all. Well, consider this revenge. It might be torture for you but vengeance nonetheless.

“Shit,” Lloyd rasps as he pulls his hand away from your shoulder, “don’t be so rough–”

You continue to play with him, less than meanly. You squeeze at his tip so he twitches and groans. You didn’t lie. You know what you’re doing but it does feel like a while since you have. You close your eyes and lean in as you pump your hand back down.

Your breath glosses over him and he shudders. You press your lips to his tip then swipe your tongue around. He lets out a longer drone and spasms. You continue to tease him, delaying the inevitable. You can taste the saltiness of his pre-cum. Just like any man, he’s easy.

You take his full tip into your mouth. His voice crackles in his throat and sets his feet. He cradles the side of your head and groans as you make a careful advance down his length. A few inches and back up. A little at a time, wetting him with your saliva.

“Oh, wow, toots, you really…” his voice drifts off as you take him halfway, teetering on the edge of your chair.

The sloppy noise of your task boils in your chest. You shouldn’t do this. Even if Pete betrayed you, it’s wrong. You’re a mother, you’re a wife, you’re better than this. No, you’re old, worn out, and unloved. You don’t want to do this, but you need to.

Keep telling you that and you might not gag.

You get further and further, each time he rumbles in breathless delight. His hand slides around the back of your head, urging you on as he tilts his pelvis forward. He thrusts slightly as you struggle to take him down your throat. Your eyes well and your throat squeezes. You repress a cough and keep going.

You pull back, your hand still on him. You know he’s close. You feel him fighting, shaking, ready to spill over like a kettle on high. You slip your hand down to fondle his sac and he lets out a longer moan, fingertips curling against your scalp. Almost there, weak.

“Wait, wait, wait…” he begs.

You pop your mouth off of him and put your other hand around him. You squeeze his balls as you work him quickly, bracing yourself for the eruption. A peel of thunder rolls through him as he cums, spurting violently so it hits your shirt, your neck, and trails down his slack pants. You circle your thumb around his tip as he quakes and you coax him through the final waves.

He huffs and braces your shoulders with both hands as he drops his head. He sucks in air and it scratches in his throat. He shifts his feet and trails his touch down to squeeze your tits through your shirt.

“You didn’t even let me have a go at the funbags,” he accuses, his voice silty and low.

You look up at him as you let go and roll back. You look down at yourself and gulp down shame. Worse than his semen on your blouse is the slickness between your legs. You swivel the chair and stand without a word, grabbing kleenex from the middle of the table to wipe your hand and your shirt, then your neck.

You ball the tissue up and swipe some more. You turn to Lloyd and clean him up quietly, wiping him then his pants, and zipping and buckling them up. You tap his stomach and grab the wadded up kleenex to dump in the bin. You face him as you squirt some sanitizer into your hand and rub them together.

“I’m going back to work, sir,” you declare.

He stares at you, cheeks flushed as he smooths his hair back. He clears his throat and puffs out, chest rising and falling. His jaw squares, “you will go back to work, like a good girl, won’t you?”

You try not to glare at his weak attempt to reclaim his power. He holds all the cards but he doesn’t realise you’ll always have the trump. He’s a man, he’s simple. The simplest thing in your life.

🗄

You’re oddly more alert for the rest of the day. Maybe, just more determined as your work is your singular escape. It’s easier for you to lose yourself in budgets and expense reports rather than think of everything else.

You don’t take your lunch. Your appetite is all but non-existent. The office fades into a blur around you as there is only you and your computer. You only break away from your trance to refill your coffee.

You stretch as you stand, balancing as tiptoes as you try to loosen the muscles of your calves. You roll your shoulders and pass by several empty desks as your coworkers opt to have their lunches.

You enter the lunchroom and find several people sitting around the table, jabbering about sports or Netflix over open containers. They don’t acknowledge you but neither do you. You put your thermos under the spout of the machine and pluck out a medium roast capsule.

As you insert the k-cup and close the lid, a sudden silence settles over the space. A scramble and the click-clacking of lids on tupperware. You don’t bother to look back as you choose your brew strength and cup size. You keep a hand on the machine as you lean into it.

You glance over as the employees at the table stand with their sealed containers and give meek looks towards the door. They file towards it solemnly, ‘sir’, ‘Mr. Hansen’, ‘good afternoon’... they flee back to the safety of their desk at the appearance of the mustachioed manager. You shrug and turn your attention back to your thermos.

He laughs as he struts into the room and goes to the fridge. He opens it, standing only a foot from you as he peruses the contents. He hums as he bends and searches. He tuts as he swings the fridge shut and turns to lean against it. He crosses his arms as he watches you.

“No lunch today?” He wonders.

“Coffee,” you answer and take your thermos from the tray, twisting the lid onto it.

“Ah, yeah, you did start your day out with a big breakfast,” he winks, twitching slightly as the thought arouses him.

“Sir,” you face him and inhale deeply, nostrils flaring.

He tilts his head and looks you up and down, “we need to get a few things straight, babycakes.”

“Do we? I thought everything was pretty clear… Mr. Hansen.”

He snickers into a growl and runs his fingertips down his throat, “I don’t think it was.” He arches a brow, “you don’t dismiss me, I dismiss you. That’s your one. No more.”

You look at him dully and pop up the tab on the lid of your thermos, “got it, sir. Won’t happen again.”

He doesn’t seem happy with your acquiescence. He squints and recrosses his arms. His cheek dimples as he sucks his teeth.

“Right,” he pushes himself straight, stretching his neck side to side, “number.”

He reaches into his jacket and pulls out his phone. You frown.

“You have my extension, sir–”

“Fuck that noise, give me your number.”

You recite your phone number as he keys it in. He winks and taps the screen one last time before slipping it back into his pocket. He steps closer, looming before you.

“This doesn’t make you special. You still work for me, you do what I say, what I want…” his timbre edges hotly, “and if you don’t, you can go home to your sad husband and your bratty kids and tell them how mommy got canned for being a stubborn bitch.”

“Sir,” you tense, “I haven’t–”

“I’m laying out the terms of our contract,” he interrupts, “so listen.”

You snap your mouth shut, the scent of coffee rising from your thermos, tempting you to sip. You don’t dare as you keep your eyes on the man before you. Victory glints in his eyes. This is ego, fine, you’ll feed it.

“I don’t ever care if you're busy. When I say jump, you jump right onto my dick. When I say swallow, you drink it the fuck down,” he wags his finger at you.

“I…” you look away, “I’ll try, but sir, I have kids–”

“That little princess isn’t old enough to rule the castle?” He snorts.

“Don’t,” you warn him, “sir, with respect, that's my daughter.”

“And you want to take care of her. I know, you're a martyr, so let's talk sainthood.”

You press your lips together. It's not quite a threat, more a reminder of what you could lose. You flick your brow up.

“Fine, I'll pay for the babysitter. How much can that be, anyway?”

You nod, “alright.” You'll take what little he'll give. Prostituting yourself for childcare, wow.

“Don't look so fucking pathetic, babe, you just got promoted,” he sneers, “you get your very own throne.”

He shamelessly gropes the front of his pants. You keep your lip from curling and clutch your thermos tighter. Somehow, you hoped your boardroom antics would sate him. You should've guessed it's not that easy.

“Is there something you need right now?” You force the words out crisply.

He chuckles and sighs, “no, you enjoy your coffee. You're going to need that boost.”

You stare at him. What does he mean? If not now, he surely has something else planned. You have enough work without trying to untangle his riddles.

“Can I go back to my desk now, Mr. Hansen?”

“Aw, look at you, asking for permission,” he coos, “go.”

You step around him, moving cautiously. You sense him turn to watch your departure, his knuckles snapping against your ass. You flinch and stop just by the door.

“Ooo, squishy,” he remarks.

You cringe and fall back into step. You're entirely certain he's used to a different type. Maybe that squishness might just change his mind.

🗄

The rest of your day passes without disturbance. The calm has you on edge. Trepidation in every glance over your desk and every trip to the bathroom. When you pack up, you don't expect to leave on time. But you don't see Hansen and you hope whatever's distracted him keeps him that way.

The kids are chaotic as you get them onto the car. It takes a lot to get Malik still enough to strap into his seat. You get on the road and follow the slog of traffic through the school zone.

Closer to home, you feel your phone buzzing but don't answer. Malik and Simone are arguing about something, you can't focus between them and the cars around you. The pressure builds and builds as your phone starts again.

You're not mad at them. You're mad at Pete. Mad that he never does this, that he can't even bother to be with you so he can help. The hard stuff if never his responsibility.

You finally get home and mediate between your children. As you enter the house, you're met with the unexpected aroma of cooking. Simone gives you a look as Malik doesn't notice.

You help your son with his shoes as Simone hangs her coat and puts her bag on the chest beside the rack. You take Malik’s jacket and put it on a hook, forgetting about your own as he sprints into the front room. You hover in the doorway as Simone takes out her book and flops onto the couch.

“You're home,” Pete emerges from the kitchen, “I got dinner on.”

He's proud but you're not impressed. You don't say a word as Malik races over to his dad and reaches up. Pete scoops him up and shakes him in a bear hug until he's giggling wildly. This is what he does, he's the good guy and you're just the maid.

Your pocket vibrates again. You huff and pull your phone out, not checking to call display as you put it face down on the end table. Sure, he's cooking but you'll be the one cleaning up and doing bathtime and bed time. Same as it ever was.

You go back to the entry way and strip off your jacket, plunking your work bag veside Simone's. You return and cross the room, brushing by Pete to enter the kitchen. Oh god. It's already a fucking mess.

He puts Malik down and tells him to find his tablet. Your husband follows and you face his eager grin. You scowl.

“You used my ceramic pan?” You hiss.

His face falls. “I… I'm trying…”

“You're a joke,” you scoff and go to the stove, the chicken is burning. “Well, I guess we can scrape off the black parts.”

He comes over to stand beside you, “do you gotta rain on everything?” He keeps his voice down.

“Take a look in the mirror,” you retort and turn on your heel, “let me know when you need me to come make something edible.”

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coleskingdom · 1 year ago

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Hall Pass

Jay White x Female Reader

NSFW Minors DNI 18+

@midwestmade29

You need these” Jay handing me his sunglasses even though we were just sitting down for lunch in catering. “What? Why?” my attention drawn elsewhere. “If you’re going to stare at golden boys ass like that, at least do it from behind the glasses.” there was no humor in his tone. Just then Mariah walked in Jay reached back for the glasses putting them on as his head slightly followed her across the room.

I roll my eyes dramatically at him “I’ve lost my appetite.” pushing back from the table. “Sit, Sweetheart. If I didn’t eat every time you stared at golden boy , I would’ve starved to death by now.” he growled only low of enough for me to hear. I glared at him, as I took a bite. “A lesser man would’ve left you for your disrespectful eye fucking of golden boy. I however am not a lesser man. In fact from what I hear a romp with him isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.” his wink and smirk had me wanting to stab him with my fork.

“ Why are you so ruffled? I saw that flash in your eyes. I’m a fair man, if you want a night of being pounded in to and being called Bruv, I’ll say yes, but you’ll have to say yes to me taking Mariah back to the hotel, but I know what I’m getting into. Those stardom girls are something different all together.”he made the chefs kiss motion. “I’m done here.” pushing back from the table and walking out of the room I heard his laugh as I left , Mariah taking a seat next to him as I glanced back.

“Ugh, I fucking hate him” slamming the door behind me entering into the Bullet Club Gold locker room. “ Who do you hate?” the unmistakable voice of Skye asked sitting up from the couch in the room. “What the fuck?”completely caught off guard staring at her. “ Hey now, Jay said I could lay down in here. He’s a real sweetheart. Seriously though, are you okay?” as she made room on the couch. “ No, yes, maybe. Jays the nod infuriating man I’ve ever met.” Sitting down “ But what did you do?” Nudging my shoulder playfully. “ Apparently I was staring at Wills ass.” she laughed “Its not funny. He then started staring at Mariah. Who the hell can compete with that and she just sat down with him as I left.” I put my head in my hands. “ It’s funny I got in the same situation twice with Kyle. Once for Will and once for Jay.” I looked at my jaw dropped .”Come on, look at him, he’s all abs and attitude. You know what you have. Don’t act shocked that I looked at him.” Smirking at me. “So why Will? Aside from his God like body. I get to say that because I’m sharing an apartment with him and Kyle. What is that keeps pulling your attention away?.” I hesitated “I’m your best friend just tell me.” Her hand taking mine. “ You’re right about abs and attitude with Jay. I don’t know he’s like that golden retriever puppy he’s just so fucking happy and nice. I’ll be fine and I’m gonna stop looking at Will. Jay thinks it’s all about that and I quote be pounded and called bruv. When it’s more like I want to have a burger and a laugh.” I sighed “ I trust Jay implicitly and I get why he did what he did, but he offered me a hall pass for Will if he could have one with her.” looking at my bestie “ Holy shit what did you say? Is Jay really okay with that ?Everyone knows he’s batshit crazy over you.” I got up and began to pace “ I didn’t say anything what the hell could I say, I was pissed and hurt that he’d actually say that. Maybe he’s tired of me, maybe it’s closer to being over than it is for forever. Fuck if I know. I’ve got to get out of here before he comes in here.” moving toward my bag. “Want my opinion I think you are handling too much of his shit? But I’m gonna say this because I love all three of you. Don’t take the hall pass and don’t give him one either. Will’s not for you, but if you want that burger and a laugh come out with me and Kyle, Will, and Mark I can make that happen.” She stood and hugged me. “I’m gonna head out I think you and Jay have some shit to talk about.” she left just as I was debating about following her.

“Sweetheart where are you headed?” Jay’s mocking tone filling the room as he and Skye passed each other. “ None of your fucking business.” walking towards him. “ Tsk tsk you know our rule we don’t leave each other mad. Besides the best part of fighting is the fucking afterwards.” he stalked me till my back was up against the wall. “ So are we done fighting?” his hand tracing my face the other one finding my hip.

“ Mariah not available?” I seethe but my body craves his touch. “You’d look so pretty wearing my hand as a necklace “ his fingers tracing the side of my neck his thumb pressing lightly causing me to gasp. “Sweetheart, there’s no one, that I want or need more than you.” his kiss sure and deep, his hand keeping my focus only on him. “ Keep looking at me like you want to fuck me but you also want to kill me." His hands thread in my hair, as he continues to kiss me. His hips move and he growls a bit of delight in the back of his throat. His hand pulls my hair harder, and it's like I'm completely swallowed by him.

I fall into that kiss, tumbling deep into this moment, forgetting about everything.

His fingers keep dip below my waistband stroking my pussy over my panties, the other hand gripping my ass. His hard body pins me against the wall and I wrap my arms around his neck, going insane with bliss. "You're fucking soaked," Jay’s voice amused. “You're touching me of course I am.” His mouth buries mine, hungry now, and his fingers slip underneath and tease up and down my slit. I'm moaning into his tongue and I don't care anymore as his fingers slide inside of me, fucking me nice and deep. Oh my god, he presses against that spot inside me . My knees go limp and he's supporting my weight as his fingers stroke in and out, hitting the spot over and over. My eyes roll back, l'm moaning, mindless, insane with pleasure, and he's not stopping.

He bites my lower lip and whispers, "Come for me, sweetheart, come on, you need it, don't you?"

"Yes," | gasp, shaking as I shatter on his hand. I come in a sudden rush, my fingers digging into his back, my cheeks tingling. "Good girl”he whispers my head resting on his shoulder.

“Jay, I’m…” his finger on my lips silenced me. “ I took it to far I’m sorry.” kissing my forehead. “Just the idea of you..” I put my finger on his lips this time.

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nffandomxo · 1 month ago

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What’s a soulmate?- Part 2

Overview- Ella and Negan start to get to know each other more. Things get pretty heated with Shane.

Warnings- swearing, angst, smut.

Notes- hi! Sorry I’ve taken so long to update this! I like to have atleast another part nearly finished/finished before I post and the next part is veryyyy long and I may possibly split it into two. Part 1&2 were both 14 pages long… part 3 is currently at 22 and I’m still not done so I may find a way to split it, if I do, I’ll post the first half this week🥰 thank you to those who follow this story and if you have any advice, don’t be afraid to comment 🫶

After Negan and Ella left the bar, they headed down to the Diner that she was talking about. The walk was nice, they talked about random things on their way up. It was only a 5 minute walk down the street. The diner was just on the corner and wasn’t partially big. When they walked in they made their way to one of the back booths and sat across each other. The diner was quiet, there was probably around 10 people max in there which mate sense considering the time. Usually this place would be packed during the day, full of high school and college kids. The late weekend nights were also usually packed.

Ella pulled her coat off and placed it next to her before she grabbed the menus and placed one in front of herself and one in-front of Negan.

“What do you recommend?” Negan asked as he skimmed the menu. Truth be told, Ella didn’t need the menu, she only ever got the two same items from here, not because the food wasn’t good, but because the food she had was definitely the best.

“I always go for the Club Sandwich with fries or the dirty burger.” Ella lent over the table slightly and pointed to the menu where her two favourite dishes were. “Oh and you’ve got to try the milkshakes here, they’re amazing, especially the peanut butter one, delicious” she did chefs kiss which made Negan let out a deep chuckle.

“Well how about we order both of them, with a side of fries of course, a peanut butter milkshake and aaaa…. Strawberry milkshake to share?” He suggested with a shrug and closed the menu that was in front of him. It would have been something she would have suggested if she’d known him more, she always tried to get a few dishes and share them with Shane but truth be told, he was greedy in love and in general.

“That sounds perfect.” Ella agreed with a nod before copying Negan and placed the menus back onto the stand.

One of the waitresses came over and smiled when she noticed that it was Ella. “Hey sweet pea, how you doing?” The older lady spoke. She was your stereo typical diner worker, she had blonde wavy hair that was tied in a messy bun, bright blue eyeshadow on with a light pink lipstick on and of course her uniform with a name tag that said ‘pam’. “And who’s this handsome chap here.”

Ellas cheeks flushed brightly as Pam complimented Negan. “I’m good Pam, how are you? …And this is Negan, he just moved to town from Virginia.” Ella had known pam since she was little, she used to be really close friends with her father, they were neighbours growing up and became best friends. Ella always wondered what their relationship was actually like but both Pam and her father swore that it was completely platonic. Pam was also married with 3 children and 7 grandchildren. whenever they used to visit the states they would always meet up with Pam, she was like that crazy loving Aunty and her kids were like her cousins. She used to hate leaving Pam, especially knowing that her two older sisters could see her whenever they wanted due to living in the states, but now that she’s older she realised that no matter what Pam was there for everyone.

“Nice to meet you Pam” Negans big smile was out once again as he lifted his hand to greet the older women.

“A gentleman too.” Pam smirked as she shook Negans hand and he let out a laugh. “What’s a guy like you doing with my elly elephant here.” That was the nickname that Pam gave to Ella when she was around 3 years old. She was a very adventurous, outgoing child and would always stomp around like an ‘elephant’.

Ella was definitely starting to get embarrassed, she shook her head and rolled her eyes slightly. “Okay Pam that’s enough,” she laughed nervously and put her head into her hands when she caught Negan looking over to her with a grin on his face.

“I’m only playing baby, what can I get for you two.” Pam laughed softly and flipped the pages on her little note book. “Are you getting the usually Elly?”

“We’re gonna take the club sandwich, the dirty burger, a side of fries, a peanut butter milkshake and a strawberry milkshake please. To share.” Negan ordered for them as he could definitely tell that Ella was embarrassed. It was sweet in a way, but it still didn’t help the fact that the first new guy she’d actually found intrested, was now around her crazy aunty Pam and hearing all about her nickname.

Pam wrote down the order and repeated it back to him. He confirmed with a nod and she made her way back to the counter.

“Elly elephant hey?” Negan smirked and chuckled softly.

“Don’t, that was so embarrassing.” Ella glanced up at Negan with a slight scoff. She was still blushing and embarrassed by Pams comments. “She’s like that really embarrassing Aunty, I love her to bits but my oh my, she’s not afraid to tell you what she thinks.”

“So I probably shouldn’t get on her bad side then?” Negan glanced over to see that Pam was still looking at them from where she was stood behind the long counter. “She’s definitely keeping an eye on us.”

Ella huffed and turned around to Pam and gave her a raised brow look. Pam immediately laughed and got on to making their milkshakes.

“She’s known me since I was a baby, she was my dads childhood best friend, they grew up together, always thought there was more to their friendship but they both swore that it was completely platonic. She met her husband when she was 13 and theyve been together ever since, and my dad, well he met his first wife when he was 15, thought she was the love of his life, married at 18, but then he met my mum and it was love at first sight or whatever… whenever we came to visit family, we’d always make time for Pam.” Ella let Negan in on her family history. He actually seemed really interested in what she had to say. Shane was never like that, he wasn’t big on the whole, sharing memories with each other.

“So they weren’t each others first or anything like that?” Negan smirked and they both let out a laugh. Ella rolled her eyes slightly and shook her head. “What? Come on, every guy who has a girl best friend as a kid definitely has done something with them. We’re guys, and I bet Pam was fucking hot when she was younger.” Truth be told, Ella actually agreed with him, that was the case for her anyways. Back in England, her boy best friend had taken her virginity, the night before they left for America. They thought it would be something‘special’, to remind them of each other.

“That’s gross Negan, I’m not gonna talk about my father’s love life, it’s complicated as it is” Ella laughed as she got comfortable in the booth.

“Okay, okay… fair point. But, I gotta ask though, what’s with the Elly elephant” Negan laughed as he sat back against the booth.

Ella felt so embarrassed, the first day she met him and he’s already heard so many awkward things, first with the way Shane was, second that she was a single mother at 20 and third that she had an embarrassing nickname. “It’s stupid.. when I was like 4 or 5, I used to absolutely love the outdoors and everything to do with animals, especially elephants so one day my dad put on dumbo and I went through a phase where I genuinely believed that I was dumbo, I used to stomp everywhere I went, and I mean everywhere, the park, the supermarket, I even went as far as to walking in a really expensive restaurant and caused that much of a scene that we had to leave… so yeah, elly elephant has always stuck.”

Negan couldn’t help but burst out laughing, and honestly she couldn’t blame him. It was funny, but it was also really embarrassing, especially telling the guy that she liked. She covered her face with her hands and laughed slightly with him.

“That’s honestly fucking amazing, I would have loved to see that.” Negan reached forward and moved her hands from her face. “Don’t hide that beautiful face, there’s no need to be embarrassed.”

Ella couldn’t help but feel butterflies in her stomach. She hadn’t felt like that in a long time. “How about we stop talking about me and talk about you, you already know a lot about me already… how come you decided to go to that bar tonight instead of one of the bigger bars?”

There was plenty of bigger well known bars along the road, she would have never expected a man as sexy as Negan to go to a smaller bar.

“If I’m being honest, I was supposed to be on a date tonight, but obviously I got stood up.” Negan sighed and looked up to Ella. Her face dropped, she genuinely thought he was just a normal guy, she felt like a second choice in that moment, getting the other girls sloppy seconds. But on the other side, she was really shocked that anyone would stand up a man like Negan.

The corners of Negans lips started tugging up as he let out a big laugh “I’m fucking with you doll, you should have seen the look on your face.”

Ella shook her head and bit down on her bottom lip. “You’re an ass,” she snickered a bit and lent back against the booth.

“No but on a serious note a friend recommend it to me, he said he’d been a few times when he needed to just chill and clear his mind, so that’s what I did.” He shrugged slightly and rubbed his hands together as Pam came over with their milkshakes.

Pam placed the peanut butter one in-front of Negan and the strawberry one in-front of Ella. Ella looked up to her and pulled a face. Pam knew that the peanut butter one was her favourite. “Let the man try the best one first Elly elephant.”

Negan snickered as he took a sip of the milkshake in front of him. “Fuck that’s really fucking good.”

Pam laughed a little and nodded “If you ever come in for one, make sure it’s me that makes it.” She winked before heading off.

Ella rolled her eyes as she took a sip of the strawberry shake. “She is right though, they’re not the same when anyone else attempts to make them.”

“Well that’s really fucking nice.” Negan smirked before he took another sip and pushed the glass over to Ella.

Ella did the same and passed him the strawberry one so he could get a taste of that one too.

He took a big swallow and shook his head “I can’t tell which one I like more.” He laughed softly and continued to try it.

“Nothing can beat this one.” Ella said as she drank some of the peanut butter one.

“I don’t know you know, this strawberry is hitting the spot y’know.” Negan winked with a smirk.

Soon after Pam came over with the food they ordered and two side plates. They split the food up and enjoyed their meal while talking about their lives. When they were done Negan leaned back and out his hand over his stomach.

“That was one of the best meals I’ve had in a long time.” Negan chuckled slightly and stretched out.

“I told you it was good late night place for a quick bite. Whenever Hazel’s having a bad night, we always drive down here and I grab a milkshake to go, the ride usually sends her back to sleep and it gives me a chance to get a sweet treat.” Ella smiled as she talked about Hazel, she genuinely was the best thing to happen.

“Tell me more about her.” Negan suggested as he sat up straight to show that he was actually interested.

“Well there’s not much to say I guess, she’s just turned 6 months old so she’s starting to pick up a lot of things, she’s starting to sit up quite well on her own, we’ve started giving her food, she absolutely loves carrots and mash. And she does this really cute thing where her eyes go wide and she makes an O shape with her mouth after every bite… I think she does it more now as she knows we all love it.” Ella couldn’t help but smile as she talked about her daughter.

Negan smiled when Ella was telling him about Hazel. He could see what a great mother she was just by the way she talked to him. “She sounds like an awesome baby. She’s lucky to have you as her mom.”

“I try my best, it was probably stupid of me to get pregnant at such a young age but honestly, I wouldn’t change it for the world… at least this way my dad got to meet his granddaughter and spend the time he’s got left with her.” Ella let out a saddened sigh and looked down a little. “He’s been sick for a while, we don’t know how long he’s got left but he can’t leave that hospital.”

“I’m really sorry to hear that Ell, I know what it’s like to lose someone you love.” Negan swallowed down and reached over to place his hand on top of Ellas and gave her a slight squeeze.

She appreciated his gesture and held his hand a little to show she accepted it. “I’m sorry too. I guess everything happens for a reason.. I have to be a firm believer of that otherwise I think I’d just crash.” Ella shrugged slightly and looked at the time on her watch. “I really hate to cut this short, because I really have enjoyed myself. But I have a little girl at home that’s gonna need her mama.”

Negan nodded and smiled slightly “yeah, yeah of course… but I would like to see you again? Maybe I could take you out somewhere different next time?” He suggested and pulled out his phone. “Put your number in and I’ll call you.”

Ella smiled as she took the phone from him and put her number into it before passing it back. “Yeah I’d like that.”

“Well let me pay for this and then I’ll walk you back the bar so you can grab your car.” Negan smiled and slid out of the booth.

“No please let me pay,” Ella almost begged him but he insisted that it was his treat. As he payed she gathered her things and checked her phone to see that she had multiple texts of Shane. She rolled her eyes and moved away from the booth to walk to Negan who was waiting near the door for her.

“Bye you pair, give that beautiful baby girl a kiss of me elly elephant.” Pam shouted from across the counter and both Negan and Ella let out a little laugh.

“I will, bye Aunty Pam.” Ella responded and gave her a little wave before heading out the door that Negan had opened for her. “I think today is probably one of the best days I’ve had in a longgg time. First I get to sing at the bar, then I get asked to be in the band and I met you. But at the same time I feel so guilty for enjoying the day when I know my dads sat alone.” Ella sighed as they walked back down toward the bar.

Negan stopped and looked at her. He cupped her face and shook his head slightly. “You have nothing to feel guilty about Ella. You didn’t make your dad sick, unfortunately you can’t change what happens in life, you can only try and reach for what you can and it fucking sucks, but you deserve to be happy and you deserved to be on that stage tonight.”

Ella smiled slightly as she looked up into Negans bright hazel eyes. She actually completely understood what he was saying. This moment was almost perfect. Negan slowly got closer to Ella’s face. She could feel the warmth of his breath on her skin, she leant closer to his lips but he pressed a small kiss against the side of her cheek before pulling away. She nervously gulped and smiled a little. He started walking again and she followed him. It all of a sudden felt awkward. She thought he was going to kiss her lips and she felt stupid for even thinking that he would do that, after all they’d only just met.

As they approached the bar, she noticed that Shane’s cop car was parked right outside the bar and he was leaning against it. Her body went tense as he had finally recognised her and started to make his way over to her.

Negan looked at Shane then back to ella and could tell she was nervous, “hey are you okay? I could give you a ride home if you want me too?”

While she appreciated his concern and offer, this is something she had to do on her own. “No it’s fine.. thank you… I’ll deal with this and I’ll call you later?” She looked up to him with sympathetic eyes, she didn’t want to end the night bad with him so she knew it was best to say bye now. She put her hand on his arm and gave him a light squeeze “thank you again and good night Negan.”

“Night Ella.” Negan nodded slightly and crossed the street to get to his car.

Ella walked over and clung to her bag as she looked up at Shane . “What are you doing here Shane.. I already told you I’ll see you tomorrow with Hazel. I don’t have the energy to argue with you.”

Shane took a deep breath and stood not to far from his car, “I came to see if you needed a ride home, I know you usually finish around this time so I thought I’d wait, didn’t realise you’d already finished.”

Ella scoffed a little and rolled her eyes, she was actually shocked at how calm Shane seemed to be. “Yeah well after the little stunt you pulled earlier, Daryl let me go earlier so I took the opportunity to grab something to eat, I haven’t had time to eat today.”

“I’m sorry about earlier Ell, I had a bad call just before I came up here, it involved a kid and just made me think of Hazel. I shouldn’t have taken that out on you.” Shane gulped and slid his hands into his pockets.

Ella didn’t really know what to say, she just nodded and looked down. She knew that his job was hard, especially when it involved kids. He may not have been the best boyfriend or great to other people but she knew that he loved their daughter. “You know I’d never put our daughter in danger right? I trust siddiq and Rosita with my life.” She put her hands on her chest and looked up at Shane.

“I know that el, I really do. But after seeing the things that I do, I just wish I could come home and see my girls.” Shane stepped closer to her and moved the hairs from Ella’s face and tucked them behind her ear.

“Your girl is at home, Andrea?” She knew what he was implying but she hated when he’d get like this. One minute he wanted her, the next he didn’t. She’d known Andrea for a while, she was a lawyer so she’d worked close with the police department. Ella used to think she was a nice girl but after finding messages between her and Shane, her opinion changed completely.

“You know she’s not my girlfriend… I just.. it’s complicated but I haven’t spoken to her all week. I promise… look let me give you a ride to Rosita’s, we can pick Hazel up and you can come home.. where you should be.” Shane looked down at Ella with a saddened expression. It’s the face he’d pull that always made her feel guilty.

“What the home that you thought as an appropriate place to shag your best mates wife?” Ella raised her voice slightly and laughed. When she got angry her British accent and slang definitely came through. She recalled the moment that she knew she was done with Shane’s ways. She’d came home from college earlier than usual as her class was cancelled and when she arrived she walked into the bedroom to find Shane and his best friends wife, Lori, sleeping together while Hazel was asleep in the crib across from the bed she was only 2 months old at this point.

“Keep it down” Shane grunted and stepped closer to her. “You know that was a mistake, it was a one time thing. I regret that every day.” It didn’t help that Lori and Rick lived next door to Shane either.

“But you don’t regret going and finding Andrea then fucking me in between that.” Ella scoffed and crossed her arms. She’d be lying if she said she wasn’t in love with Shane. He was the first man to ever show her any affection or hope of a life, and he gave her Hazel which would always make her love him.

“You left me Ella, just remember that. I wanted to fix our relationship.” Shane’s thick southern accent came out as he got angrier. He turned around and ran his hand over his head before looking back toward her.“I don’t know how many times I gotta apologise El. I want our family. Our baby, you. I wanna give you everything. I would get down on one knee right now, I’d scoop you up and take you to the court house and marry you if that’s what you wanted.”

Ella gulped as he said the things that she wished he would have said 4 months ago. Tears built up in the corner of her eyes. She was so annoyed yet felt so sad and sympathetic for the man in front of her. “I’ve got my car. You can follow behind me and I’ll bring Hazel out to see you for 10 minutes. But we’re not going back to that house.” She closed her eyes and took a deep breath so she wouldn’t cry. She didn’t want to comment on what he’d just said, it would only hurt her even more.

Shane didn’t say anything, he just nodded and got back into his police car and started it up.

Ella walked over to her car quickly which was parked at the side of the bar. When she got in she screamed into the wheel. So many feelings surrounded her the day went from bad to good back to bad. Shane had a hold over her that she didn’t know how to escape.

When she arrived back at the apartment, she could see that Shane was already outside waiting by his car. Ella Parked up in her usual space and made her way up to the apartment that Rosita and Siddiq lived in.

Shane followed her into the communal lobby that was at the first floor of the apartments and she motioned him to wait.

When she walked into the apartment she could see Siddiq sitting on the couch, giving Hazel a bottle.

“Hey look Angel, it’s your mama.” Siddiq smiled and tilted his arms slightly so that Hazel could see Ella. “She’s been keeping me on my toes all night, them teeth are definitely coming.”

Ella put her bag on the hook and walked over to sit next to siddiq. “I’m sorry, you should have called me, I would have came home earlier.” She held onto one of hazels hands and smiled slightly.

“And let you leave your date early? No way” Siddiq laughed quitely and looked down to hazel. “Plus I need the practice.”

“Date?” Ella raised her brow and questioned how Siddiq knew what she was doing, “let me guess, Ro called you and spilt the beans?” He nodded and she shook her head. “Typical.”

“Yeah, she also told me about Shane. Are you doing okay?” Siddiq was genuinely one of the nicest people she’s met, he was the complete opposite to Rosita which actually made their relationship work really well.

“Yeah.. but about that, he’s downstairs in the lobby, I said I’d bring Hazel to see him for 5 minutes, he had a bad call and wanted to see her, hence his lash out” Ella hated defending him, but she always found herself doing it anyways.

Siddiq gave her a concerned look and sighed. “Just be careful Ell, we don’t want to see you heartbroken again.” Hazel had finished her bottle and siddiq sat her up to burb her.

“I will, promise… I can do that, you go get to bed, you look exhausted.” Ella smiled and picked Hazel up from siddiqs lap. “Hello my beautiful girl.” Hazel instantly starting smiling and reached for Ellas face. Ella pressed soft kisses on hazels hands before grabbing the blanket and wrapping it around her baby’s body. “Let’s go see dada yeah?”

Ella carefully stood up with her daughter and made her way out toward the lobby.

When Shane heard the elevator doors open, he stood up from the couch that was there and made his way over. He smiled brightly when he saw that his daughter was giggling in her mothers arms. That look was one of the things that hurt her so bad. She always wanted a family, a man who would love both her and her daughter, but unfortunately Shane was greedy, he loved Ella, Hazel and whoever else would show him attention.

“There’s my baby girl,” Shane reached for her and lifted her from Ella’s arms carefully.

“Be carful, she’s just had a bottle, I tried to get some wind up on the way down here but still nothing. She’s been teething a lot lately.” Ella kept hold of one of Hazles hands to be close to her.

“Oh my poor girl, let’s see if we can get them burps out of you.” Shane moved back over to one of the couches and sat down so he could wind Hazel, as soon as he sat her down on his lap she threw up all over him. “Well that solves that.” He said with a slight laugh.

Ella laughed and shrugged with a smirk. “Oh I guess she was just saving that one for daddy… isn’t that right baby girl” she spoke in a baby voice and Hazel giggled.

Shane rolled his eyes and grabbed one of the tissues that were in the lobby so he could clean himself up before he cuddled Hazel into his chest. He closed his eyes and admired his time with his daughter.

Ella had no doubts that he loved their daughter, but she had several doubts that he truly loved her. She sat back against the couch and looked up at the big clock. She knew she couldn’t keep Hazel up for much longer, otherwise she wouldn’t sleep. “We’re gonna have to get back up there soon. I don’t want her to think it’s play time.”

“Sush.” Shane glanced back at her. Her face dropped when he told her to be quiet. That’s until he carefully turned his body to show that she was asleep against his chest.

A small smile tugged at Ella’s lips as she stood up and held her arms out for her little girl.

“Come on ell. If you’re not going to to come home with me then at least let me put her in bed.” Shane pleaded and stood up carefully with her.

“Shane it’s not my apartment you know that, if it was I’d have no issue but it’s siddiqs and Rosita’s home… you can walk us to the door… but that’s it.” As much as she hated it, she compromised with him to keep the peace.

Shane nodded and they made their way into the elevator. “Are you sure you don’t wanna come back? I’ll sleep on the couch and you can have the room.”

“What in the bed that you had an affair in… no thanks.” Ella crossed her arms and lent against the side of the door. She was exhausted after her busy day but that didn’t stop her from making a sly dig toward Shane.

“Really Ella? You’re gonna be like that? Whatever.” Shane laughed quietly and made his way to the apartment that they were staying at. Once they got there he sighed and carefully handed Hazel back to Ella. He leaned down to give his daughter a kiss on the head and sighed. “Night night my girl…. If you need me you know where I am”.

Ella just nodded and made her way into the apartment. When she walked in she saw Siddiq walking over with a mug.

“Hey, thought you could do with some honey tea after you’ve been using that voice of yours. Ro sent me some of the videos, you were amazing” Siddiq smiled and placed the cup on the coffee table.

“You’re an Angel in disguise, Siddiq” Ella laughed a little and smiled. “I’ll go put this one in bed.. oh and you’ll be happy to know she did eventually bring up that wind… after throwing up all over Shane.” She explained as she walked into the guest bedroom and carefully lowered Hazel into the crib.

Siddiq laughed out and sat himself down on the couch. “Well she’s made Uncle siddiq very happy with that.”

Ella carefully came out of the room and closed the door behind her. She walked over and sat at the other end of the couch and grabbed her cup of tea, “it was really funny, probably pissed him off more. He was asking me to go home with him, I just can’t stand being in that house anymore.” She sighed and felt her phone vibrate in her phone. Dread came over her as she had a feeling it would be Shane harassing her again. She pulled it out and that dreaded look turned into a happy smile when she saw the text.

‘Hey doll, I hope you got home okay. Had a really great night with you’

“What are you so smiley about” Siddiq nudged her playfully as she looked down at the text, “is that the guy from tonight?”

“Yeah… Negan, honestly I didn’t think he was going to message me, especially after seeing Shane’s kick off .. and he met Pam and you can only imagine how that went.” Ella laughed nervously and started writing a text out.

‘Home safe. I had a really good time too. Take it from your message that you’re back safe too.’

“Well I’d love to stay and gossip but it’s nearly 1am and I’ve got work tomorrow. Good night Ell.” Siddiq smiled and made his way into the bedroom that he shared with Rosita.

Ella sat on the couch for a while watching whatever was on tv and sipping on the honey tea that her friend made her. Her phone buzzed and she smiles when she opened the text from Negan. It was a shirtless photo of him in bed with his thumbs up.

‘Yup, all tucked up in bed.I hope you’re resting that beautiful voice of yours’

Ella couldn’t help but blush at the photo, he was hot, very hot. She thought it would be rude not to send one back. She held her cup up and snapped a photo of her smiling and holding the cup.

‘Honey tea, check. Resting, check… that’s until hazel wakes up’.

Ella and Negan spent most of the night texting each other. She’d made her way into her room, putting on some pyjamas which had a big yellow sun on the front and little suns on the pants. When she eventually fell asleep, she wasn’t long woken up by Hazel, it was around 3am and Hazel was screaming crying.

“Oh baby girl, shush, shush, mamas here” Ella tried to comfort Hazel but she wouldn’t stop crying. She tried giving her a bottle and she just didn’t want it. She tried giving her some teething gel, toys and tried to just comfort her. At this point it has been around 30 minutes of her just crying, so she decided to put something warm on Hazel before putting her into the car seat. She threw her coat on over her pyjamas and slid some shoes on. She didn’t want to wake Rosita or siddiq so she decided to take Hazel for a little drive and hopefully settle her. On the way to the car she tried to call Shane but she had no answer.

Hazel was still crying at this point, but she had hope that the car journey would settle her.

Ella didn’t have a plan as to where she was going, she’d usually go to the diner and grab a shake, but as she was their earlier and Pam was on the night shift, she knew it wasn’t a good idea. As much as she loved Pam, she knew she would just want to keep Hazel up and give her cuddles.

They were about 10 minutes into driving and Hazel was still crying. “Oh baby please go to sleep… mummy is really tired.” Ella sighed and tried to call Shane again. At this point it was 3.45am and she’d had roughly around an hours sleep since 5am the day before. She was exhausted from being a mother, going to college, working and then having to perform. When Shane didn’t answer, she found herself extremely frustrated, she felt like crying. Seeing her baby upset was hard enough. She decided to just go to Shane’s house and hope that he could settle her. The drive was around another 15 minutes from where they were.

When they were around 5 minutes away, Hazel finally fell asleep. But she really didn’t have the energy to turn around and go home, she needed sleep, so at least if she was at Shane’s house she had him to help her and she wouldn’t feel guilty about it as Hazel is also his child. The only issue with that is that she felt like a hypocrite for going back to his when she told him no.

Ella pulled up onto the drive behind Shane’s main car before getting out and grabbing the baby bag and carefully taking Hazels car seat out so she could carry it to the door. She was exhausted and her face showed it. When she got to his door she thought she’d knock normally but there was no answer, so she started ringing the bell, time after time. She couldn’t help but start crying after her frustration built up.

Finally, Shane answered the door, he was shirtless and had a pair of light blue pj pants hanging low on his hips, his hair was a mess and he had heavy bags under his eyes. When he finally gathered himself, he looked completely shocked, “hey, hey… what’s happened? Are you okay, is Hazel? It’s 4am Ell.” He grabbed the car seat from Ella and pulled Ella into his chest for a tight hug as she sobbed into his chest.

“I don’t know… I’m just fucking exhausted Shane, she’s been up since 3 screaming, I tried formula, I tried breast feeding, teething gel, her pacie and cuddles but nothing soothed her and then we went on a drive and she didn’t fall asleep until 5 minutes ago but I’m exhausted and I was close by, if I drive back now I’ll end up falling asleep… I feel like an awful mum, I can’t help her and I don’t know what to do. Or if she’s going to stay asleep.” Ella spoke quietly so that she didn’t wake up Hazel. She couldn’t help but just rumble on about the issues she was having.

Shane closed the door behind them and also took the bag from Ella too, pulling it over his shoulder and walked into the living room to drop it on the coffee table. “Go get in bed, I’ll keep her settled, you’ve got class tomorrow, you need your sleep… does she need a bottle of formula or have you pumped?”

Although Ella swore she wouldn’t get in that bed after Shane’s affair, she was way to exhausted to fight it. “I pumped before I went to bed, there’s enough for a bottle if she wakes up. Look I’ll go sort that, you go take her to her crib before she gets too comfortable in her car seat.”

Shane nodded and carefully took Hazel out of the car seat, luckily she stayed asleep. He carefully carried her up the stairs.

Ella grabbed the milk that was in a pouch from what she had pumped earlier and walked into Shane’s kitchen. She obviously knew where everything was from when she used to live there. She grabbed a bottle and carefully poured the breast milk into the bottle before securing it with the teat and the lid. She grabbed herself a bottle of water from the fridge and felt Shane wrap his arms around her waist from behind.

“Making yourself at home? It’s like you never left.” Shane started pressing soft kisses against Ellas shoulder and neck. Obviously it felt good but she couldn’t let him break her heart again.

Ella twisted in his arms so she was facing him. He tried to lean in for a kiss but she turned away and pushed her hands on his chest to create some space. “Shane I can’t do this… it’s taking a lot for me to come back to this house and sleep in that bed again, but this whole trying to kiss me thing isn’t going to happen when you’ve got a girlfriend.”

“I already told you Ella, she’s not my girlfriend.” Shane rolled his eyes, his hands still placed on her hips. “Can I at least sit with you in bed? We don’t have to do anything.”

She rolled her eyes and let out a long sigh, she knew that he wouldn’t give up with trying to be close to her. “as long as you promise not to push me… and you’ve got to play with my hair. That’s a requirement… and then you’re on the couch when I’m asleep?”

He laughed softly and nodded in agreement. “Fine, fine… you rest that crazy head of yours.”

Ella and Shane made their way up to his bedroom and Quietly made their way into the bed, hoping that Hazel wouldn’t wake.

It felt strange for Ella at first, she hadn’t been in his bed for over four months. They’d slept together a few times but it was either in the back of his cop car or on the couch. She refused to sleep with him in the bed after finding him with another women.

Ella laid on her side and faced the middle of the bed so that Shane could play with her hair. Shane laid the same way so that he was facing her, he rested his hand on her head and started to softly push his fingers through her hair. It was one of the things that he used to do when she first found out she was pregnant with Hazel, that’s when their love was at the peak, but then it went down hill, and then when Hazel was born, she thought it was getting better again, but a few weeks in and he started lacking.

While he was gently caressing her head, his eyes were locked on hers the whole time. Maybe it was because she was feeling so venerable because of exhaustion, she started to feel safe with him and she really started to believe that he wanted the relationship back. He moved his head closer to hers until his forehead was rested against hers. She could feel tears starting to build up in her eyes as she started thinking about the relationship that she wish she had with him. Moments like these were all she wished for when they were together. Feeling close in bed while their daughter was asleep in the crib across the room. Ella closed her eyes to stop the tears from falling out.

“You know I love you right?” Shane spoke quietly as his hand slowly moved to her face and his thumb dragged along her cheek softly. She didn’t know what to respond with words, so instead she just nodded. Sure, she knew that he loved her, she was the mother to his first child, but there was no way he was in love with her otherwise he wouldn’t have cheated on her with multiple different women.

Shane’s hand slowly started moving down her back as he pulled himself closer to her. She felt his hot breath against her skin as lips started to hover over hers before kissing her softly.

Ella melted into his touch and kissed him back. The kiss turned into a long passionate moment between the two of them. It was the thing that she’d craved from him for so long. Her arms wrapped around his neck as the kiss deepened, his tongue sliding between her lips as his body pushed against hers. They pulled away for just a second to catch their breaths, their eyes meeting causing a hungry look between the two of them. Shane pushed Ella on to hee back and hovered over her body, in between her legs, using one arm to balance himself and the other one to push his hand through her hair. His lips dragged from hers, down her jaw until he reached her neck, nipping at the sensitive spot in the place she liked. Soft moans fell from her lips as he enjoyed his tongue against her skin. A shiver ran down her spine as his hand started sliding down her chest, over her breasts until he reached the hem of her pj pants. He pulled away from her neck and pulled down her pants, flinging them to the corner of the room. He leaned forward again to crash his lips onto hers, his tongue sliding in her mouth. Ellas hands caressed over Shane’s toned body as his hand ran up her thigh before her started rubbing up and down over her panties causing her to moan against his lips. The friction against her panties caused her sensitive spot to become wet.

Ellas hands moved over Shane’s chest, down his stoned stomach and slid her hands into pants to pull out his solid cock. One thing that he was not lacking was a good body and a big cock. Her hand wrapped around the tip and down to the base, she started to jerk his hard cock off when he pulled down his pants and flung them to where hers were. He took no time to pull her panties off and started to rub circles around her clit as she continued to jerk him off. Their moans were quiet but predominant between their kisses. Ellas body pushed against Shane’s hand as he increased the movement. His fingers started dragging down her pussy before he slid two fingers inside her, causing her to gasp. A smirk pressed against Shane’s lips as he moved his fingers in and out of her.

“You’re so wet and tight for me aren’t you? Do you like when my fingers are deep inside there?” Shane whispered dirty things into her ears as he continued to finger her.

Ella just nodded as she enjoyed the moment. He was rough but she was craving his touch, his fingers felt perfect inside her, hitting that sweet spot over and over again as he built up her orgasm.

Without warning he removed his wet fingers, causing her to gasp, and used the wetness from her pussy to coat his cock. She moved her hands and allowed him to pump his hand over himself before he lined himself up with her entrance.

Before he had chance to enter her, she pushed him away slightly. “Wait, wait… do you have a condom.” Ella looked up at him to see he had a big grin.

“El we’ve never used a condom, I want to fill you up with my cum.” Shane rubbed the tip of his cock over her clit as he talked, causing her to still moan slightly.

“Shane, I’ve not been taking any birth control since we stopped sleeping with each other… the last thing we need is for me to get pregnant again.” Although all she wanted right now was for him to fuck her, she was cautious enough to know the risk thsr could come to this.

He rolled his eyes before he lent over and grabbed a condom. He ripped the wrapper open with his teeth before pulling the rubber over his cock. “You know I hate using these things, I love to see my seed spilling out of you.. would another baby be that bad?.” He smirked before slowly pushing himself into her. His head fell back as he enjoyed the feeling of her tightness around him.

“Shane.. fuck..” Ella moaned out as he started to Buck himself against her body. He pulled her body closer to his and kissed her roughly as his speed increased.

“You love it when I fuck you don’t you.. that little pussy will always belong to me” Shane’s grunts got louder as his cock pushed in and out of her tight pussy over abd over again. She wrapped her arms around his neck and scratched at his back as she came close to her orgasm.

“Shane.. I’m .. I’m gonna cum” Ella whimpered quietly as his cock hit her sweet spot over and over again causing her to orgasm over him. She bit down on her bottom lip as he continued to fuck her. His speed increased as she felt his cock throbbing inside her body. When she could tell he was coming close to his orgasm she looked up at him, loving the face that he pulled whenever he came. “That’s it… keep fucking me until you cum.. I wanna see you cum.” She knew he loved it when she talked dirty to him, especially when he was nearly at his orgasm.

“Oh fuck yes, keep it coming baby, who does that Pussy belong to.” He bucked his hips a few more times hitting her sweet spot over and over again. His hand wrapped around her breasts squeezing them slightly as he pounded her pussy. “Tell me who does your pussy fucking belong to.” He grunted, his hand gripped onto her jaw making her look up at him.

“You Shane.. my pussy is all yours” she hated to admit it but sex with him was good. She loved being dominated and talked dirty too but things felt different. The romantic sex she wanted from him turned into their typical sex session where he just wanted her to be completely submissive. With a few more thrusts into her pussy his cum shot out of his throbbing cock into the condom. He moaned loudly and Ella hit him in the chest and glared at him with big eyes.

“Shane! The baby” Ella was quiet but firm with her words, the last thing she wanted was for their sex to wake up their daughter.

He smirked and shook his head slightly, “I can’t help it that her mom just made me empty the sack.” He winked at her before pulling his body from hers, causing a whimper from her lips. Shane carefully removed the condom and tied it in a knot before throwing it into the trash can that was near the bed.

They both laid back on the bed to catch their breaths back. That was definitely not on her to do this for the night. But before she knew it, Shane’s arms were wrapped around her body and she’d fell sleep in his arms.

#negan fanfiction #negan smith #the walking dead #the walking dead fanfiction #twd fandom #fanfiction #negan x reader #negan x you #twd fanfiction #twd negan #twd shane #shane walsh #shane walsh fanfiction #shane x reader #twd smut #negan smut #smut story #smut writing #smut warning

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nightxcreature · 7 months ago

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Wasted

Warnings: None

Pairings: BobbyxDaughter!Reader, DeanxFemale!Reader, SamxPlationic!Reader

Chapter One:

“Stop eating that.” I manage to spit out after watching Dean devour his third turducken sandwich since we arrived at Biggersons.

“What?” He asks, mouth full of food and a hazy look on his face, “It’s the best damn sandwich I’ve ever had.”

I roll my eyes and turn to Sam, “Help. Please?”

He and Bobby were still researching through Gerald’s computer when they finally look up and around the building. It seems as though everyone in the vicinity can’t get enough of the science experiment between buns. Suddenly, Sam’s large hand reaches across the table and snatches Dean’s sandwich from his own.

“You’re done.”

“Hey!”

Rising to their feet my dad nudges his head in the direction of the door, “Let’s hit the road. Bring that mutant burger with ya.”

Dean grins, reaching to snatch it back from Sam’s grasp until Bobby sticks an arm in the way, “Not you, Idjit.”

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“Just give me the damn sandwich!” Dean argues from across the room, “I’m perfectly fine! Great, even.”

“Yeah, okay.” I snort, poking the sandwich with a kitchen knife, “It’s….leaking…Dude, your stomach has to be killing you.”

“Sometimes meat just does that.”

“No, it doesn’t.”

“You make my meat….”

“Don’t finish that sentence.” Bobby cuts in with a stern look, “I don’t need to hear about that.”

I laugh and turn back to Dean, who looks the calmest I’ve ever seen him, “You’re telling us that you feel fine?” Climbing up on the counter to sit next to him he places an arm around my shoulders and leans back.

“I’ve never felt better. I’m not worried about Cas. Or the Leviathans. I don’t care about anything, actually.” He says with a shrug and eyes the sandwich lustfully.

“Except for that turducken.” I grin and elbow his ribs.

“Dude, you sound high.” Sam states from across the room, grimacing at the sandwich on the table.

“No, he sounds like Ranger Rick and the rest of those lunatics at the diner.” Bobby cuts in, causing Dean to start arguing again.

As they each get louder and louder, I watch the food across from me bubble, squelching out the most disgusting sounds and suddenly spraying gray goo out onto the table. My stomach churns as I quickly slide out of Dean’s grasp.

“Aw, gross! That’s inside you!” I yell pointing at him and visibly gagging, “That’s the same stuff that was in Gerald and it’s inside you.”

Dean looks strangely ok as he stares at the sandwich and says, “If I didn’t feel so calm I would puke.”

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“Listen, Darlin’, I know you want to go with us, but we really need you to get this info to Jody and Garth. We need all hands on deck to figure out these Leviathans.” Dad says as we load up the van for their stake out, “I’m sorry.”

“Why can’t you just call them?” I mumble, “Isn’t that what all those phones are for?”

With a roll of his eyes, Bobby drops the bag he’s holding onto the van floor and turns to face me, “I’ve just got a weird feeling about this. We don’t know enough about these guys and I don’t want you facing something that none of us are ready for.”

“Yeah, yeah. I got it.” I throw the last bag in and turn on my heel toward the Impala as he grabs my arm.

“You know I can’t live without you. It almost killed me when your mom died, I can’t do that again.” He whispers quietly, “I love you too much to lose ya, Chickpea.”

I sigh and hug him, “Yeah, I know. I love ya, too.”

Sam exits the abandoned cabin with a refreshed looking Dean hot on his heels, “Ready?” The taller man asks tossing in one more bag for good measure.

“Yeah, it’s all packed. Borax is in the back, a shit ton of it.” I nod toward the the vehicle and grin, “Hose ‘em down.”

“You got it, Shorty.” He says with a wink, hopping into the back and slamming the door closed.

“Here, take care of her.” Dean reluctantly says as he hands me his keys, “If I see even one scratch—.”

“Shut up, you know I’ll treat her well. Probably better than you do.” I throw him a grin and wrap my arms around his waist, “Please be careful.”

He leans down and presses his forehead to mine, “Always am. Gotta make it home to you.” With a quick kiss to my lips he smiles and heads to the drivers side of the van.

I turn to my dad and sigh, “You be safe, too, Old Man.”

“You know I will.”

I grin and pull open Baby’s driver side door, “The cards’ll be on the table when you get home, grab a six-pack on the way back and I’ll kick your ass at poker.”

He winks as he climbs in beside Dean, “Only cause you cheat. See ya later, Chickpea.”

“See ya soon.” I turn the key over and “Hold on Loosely” by .38 Special blasts through the speakers. Singing along, I peel out behind them and watch as they head in the opposite direction.

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A/N: This is Chapter One to my first series! I’m excited to see where it goes and how it ends, I’m not exactly sure where I’m going yet so this’ll be exciting! 🫶🏼 I hope you hang on for the ride, I love angst and this is sure to be packed full of it. 🥳

I also joined the most recent Jacklesverse Bingo so be on the look out for those coming to ya next month! 🥳

See ya soon!

#supernatural #dean winchester #spn fanfic #spnfandom #sam winchester #dean winchester x you #dean winchester x reader #castiel #sam winchester x you #sam and dean

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seat-safety-switch · 2 years ago

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Ever since I got rejected to work for Wendy’s as a teenager, I’ve been kind of sour on the entire concept of capitalism. They could have just told me no. Those managers did not need to ship me back the entire psychological profile section of the application I filled out, with a crudely applied rubber stamp on every page, in crimson red ink, reading “morally flexible.”

I genuinely assumed that checking off the entire section for theft would make me seem like a better candidate: community-minded, entrepreneurial, and quick-witted. Of course, at the time, I didn’t realize what they wanted was not a philosopher king of yore. They wanted some guy who could cook burgers and watch a timer to see if those burgers were done.

I said it then, and I’ll say it now: stealing from the burger joint in order to give those burgers to people who are hungry but can’t afford those burgers is a noble act. The cops don’t see it my way, though. To them, it’s not “their job” to figure out if Bob Wendy’s, up there in his ivory CEO tower, will even notice the loss of one burger on the revenue charts. So really, it’s probably a good thing they never hired me.

Another reason is the drive-through. You see, drive-throughs are uncomfortably similar to drag racing tracks, especially now with the new modern restaurants that add two side-by-side drive-throughs. There was absolutely no checkbox or even question on the psychological assessment for “I would hand out free burgers for whoever does the best burnout.” In the light of such an obvious question being totally absent, I have to wonder if the test-makers really have the right to judge me.

So, if you see me out there on the unemployment-insurance line, make sure to wave. Unless I’m really dressed up, like wearing a shirt or something. In that case, I’m pretending to be a social worker so I can get behind the desk and change my own status in the database. If so, it’s probably best for both of us that you don’t give me your social insurance number.

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purplepeptobismol · 2 months ago

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lads i am so hyped for IWMOY 😔🫵 just wanna say, I read this fic when it still had 8 chapters I believe ?? and I opened the day I was leaving my job and I got a surprise burger on my break from one of the chefs ((I then moved country))) SO UH YEAH !! Fics that hit me hard always have a very VERY specific memory to me. Like I read it in hours flat I’d say, I have never felt so emotional over a fic like I’ve sobbed happy and sad tears-

💕💕

ANYWAYS AS FOR LIKE QUESTIONS !!!

-What inspired you to create IWMOY ?

-I’m curious but in the flashbacks - did Cooper die? When he stopped breathing and Leo panicked? I’m wondering about this and if Kenny may have ever seen Cooper die until well when he shot himself…. I’m only asking because I like to read so heavily into details and little stuff like this and I just want my own personal confirmation LMAO !!

-What was the most challenging part when creating some of the lore for the fics ??

First of all, I just wanna say that I appreciate you so much Volta 😞🙏💖. You’ve fr been the best tumblr moot I’ve ever had because you’re the only one that’s always interacting with me. I WILL LITERALLY DIE FOR YOU HOMIE, JUST ASK AND I WILL KILL FOR YOU TOO!!! 🗣️🗣️🔥💯 Okay okay answering time!

[this post will contain I Will Make of You spoilers for chapter 8 to 14 🙂‍↕️]

IWMOY is so interesting because it was those types of projects where there were a lot of mini-things that pushed me to create it, and it all just came together all at once.

From what I could remember, I think it first started with the idea of “what if Kenny has a child and that child goes back in time to meet him when he’s a teenager?” It was pretty comical in my head. Like it’s one thing for Kenny to be a parent, but him meeting said kid when he’s still a teenager? Hilarious! I always though next gen fan-kids where pretty fun if done right, and there was a big lack of content for it on ao3, along with time travel stories. Then, another idea came to me (I don’t remember if this was before the other one, or after): “what if Kenny met another immortal?” At first, I thought of Karen turning out to be immortal, or someone else getting that ability, but none of them stuck. Either way, I had this idea floating in my head;;; I for sure wanted to right a bunny centric story too, so I was just daydreaming of different story ideas for those two. It wasn’t until I suddenly got an epiphany….. “What if Kenny’s son ends up having the same powers of immortality as him?” I saw so much potential with this idea because I could only imagine the guilt he would feel as a parent!! (I sort of mention this here too) It was something worth exploring, so I decided to write the concept in my notes app.

*my usual process before starting a fic is me writing an idea in my notes app, and if I want to continue exploring the idea, I move it to my docs*

Since it was a sci-fi/time travel focused idea, I decided to rewatch a lot of different time travel movies in the meantime (Back to the Future, the Adam Project, Predestination, etc). It wasn’t until I rewatched Meet the Robinsons, and I heard "Another Believer" that I FINALLY got a song to inspire me into establishing the relationship between Kenny and his future son. I wasn’t writing scenes just yet, I was actually just daydreaming of this concept and potential scene ideas, mentally brainstorming, but I was still lacking a solid plot! Around this time, my friends and I were doing a watch party, and my movie choice was the new South Park special the “End of Obesity.” While watching it, there was this part where Butters got stuck in a tesseract.

(Okay but looking back and seeing Butters being the one stuck in the tesseract inside the black hole is actually funny given how my story is going to play out😭)

I didn’t understand this reference at first, until one of my friends told me it was suppose to be an ‘Interstellar’ reference. I was like??? What??? Then Lyn and another friend of mine were like “YOU HAVENT SEEN INTERSTELLAR?!?!” And I was like??? No??? So when we finished watching the special, we put the movie on and… IT FUCKING CLICKED. The music, the science, the family, YEARNING, THE HUMAN EMOTIONS— that, coupled with what I got from Meet the Robinsons. IT WAS LIKE MY BRAIN JUST OPENED. I kid you not, I sat in front of my computer, put the interstellar soundtrack and just started drafting and brainstorming on my Docs on July 14 of 2024:

No food or sleep, just moving my freaking hands on the keyboard. Eventually, I was writing all these scenes appearing in my head, and i was like???? I can literally start drafting the chapters out instead??? I was typing for a total of three days straight when I finished outlining and drafting the entirety of IWMOY 💀💀…. But, I was still going through it tho 🙁. For one, I realized this story was going to have an OC as a main character, and me personally, I kinda don’t like OCs in fics…. So I didn’t think people were gonna like this fic in the first place. Another, was the time travel dilemma. There are so many contradictions and plot holes with A LOT (and I mean… pretty much all) of time travel focused movies. 💀 I’m so over critical and it got on my nerves when it kept happening, so I had to create SOMETHING that would make time travel work! (Which eventually became the One-Tab Guide). I wasn’t going to post this fic at all, and maybe wait until I was done posting all the IBMT chapters I had outlined, but… I just couldn’t stop thinking about that fic. I had it all basically figured out, and I was so fascinated with the concept I had created… but, “it’s an oc centric fic,,,,, maybe people won’t like it and it would all be for nothing…”

It wasn’t until my 2 bffs gave me some encouragement that I finally gave in; I finished the first chapter of IWMOY and got it posted on August 6th of 2024 :,) I didn’t think it would become as huge as it is now. So I truly mean it when I say that I’m so incredibly happy people are enjoying a project I thought no one would like <333. I cannot thank you guys enough.

[SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 14]

So, yes. Cooper did actually die in that scene 😔. His cause of death was Sudden Arrhythmic Death Syndrome (Y’know, that thing where babies just??? die??? Just cuz??? 😭??). Coopers first actual death was back in the artificial womb in chapter 13. His second was that scene with Butters. And his third death was when he was 4 (Cooper considers that death his first because it’s the only one he could recall). The only real death Kenny witnessed before Cooper shot himself was the one in the artificial womb 💔 sadly (would’ve saved a whole lot of complications if they just communicated 😫 but no).

Actually— let me explain what happened in that scene with Butters POV (because it’s actually pretty dark): Kenny went back to the lab to attend on some work-related issues, and Butters decided to go out in the meantime to do some quick grocery shopping. So he took baby Coop in a carrier and they both went out! While he was shopping, he’s picking out things here and there when he notices something is… off. “Coop, baby?” He checks up on Cooper to see if he’s okay, but he’s oddly still and cold to the touch. “Cooper? Baby, wake up… ” He starts to pull him out of the carrier to check on his vitals, “Wake up, Cooper!!” but he’s not responding at all. “Oh Jesus, COOPER! Somebody!! Help me!!! My baby-” Since Cooper isn’t responding, Butters starts to sob and ask for help, but everyone keeps ignoring him. “SOMEBODY, PLEASE!! MY BABY NEEDS HELP MY BABY, HE’S-” But just when Butters realizes that Cooper is, in fact, dead, his tears suddenly halt. He puts Cooper back in the carrier, and returns to his shopping…. Butters probably left Cooper in the car and in that carrier; it gave Cooper the chance to respawn in his crib before Kenny arrived. I feel like deep down, that part of Butters’ who had that immense amount of parental love for his baby WANTED to fight against the curse. As he was going on about his day as his son lay dead, I imagine how he was probably screaming in pure anguish inside of his head while his body was in this weird autopilot type of dissociation :(. And since he was trying so hard to fight it, a fraction of the memory stayed. It’s why he had that "nightmare" in his sleep. *Sigh…..*

Surprisingly, this fic wasn’t as challenging compared to the other series I’m working on. But if I were to choose something that was sort of complicated, I think it would be the time travel aspect of the story and Cooper’s characterization. I have this need to always use logic in every situation; everything has to have an answer or a meaning. I try my best NOT to be like that, but…. I can’t help it 🥲. I basically review my story the way an English teacher would LMAOOO. In the question of “why did the author describe the curtains being blue?” I’m not a “there’s no real meaning, the curtains are just blue” I’m a big “YES, YES THEY’RE BLUE FOR A REASON! THANK GOD YOU NOTICED!!!” type of person 😭.

I mentioned earlier that I wanted to work around the time travel dilemma: “how do you make time travel work and fix around its plot holes?” Thankfully, I was able to pull out my trusty whiteboard and go on different scientific rambles regarding the theories and paradoxes with my friends. “How will Cooper go back in time and talk to Kenny without causing a grandfather paradox?” or “if they do save Butters and Kate, wouldn’t that cause a split?” Basically, all of the questions Craig and Kyle were asking in chapter 14, I was asking them myself🫡.

As for the other one, it was mainly Cooper’s characterization and how to make him a likable OC. He’s not an actual canon character, which means that most people won’t care about him like they would with one of the other South Park boys. I had to figure out his personality, backstory, and his motivations in a way that would hook readers. I didn’t want to make him exactly like Kenny or a carbon copy of Butters— I wanted to give him his own autonomy, but have his personality reflect the way he was raised, and his troubles with immortality in a realistic way [his attitude throughout the story was a buildup for the reveal in chapter 8 and his backstory arc]. He’s kinda like Kenny, yes, but I wanted to give him quirks that parallel differences between the two. One of them was suppose to be their immortality. Cooper views it as power and a way to escape trouble, while Kenny sees it as a painful curse he could occasionally use as a tool for the sake of scientific progression. It’s why Cooper is all willy-nilly about ending his life while Kenny (current timeline as well) is stressing his balls off 💀. I was afraid that Cooper acting like a reckless dick in the first couple of chapters was going to put people off, and.. maybe it has… but giving his reasoning in his POV arc hopefully painted some kind of explanation 😣, bro just loves his family and wants them back. It would’ve been less complicated if Cooper just explained things to Kenny early on, BUT;;; I mean, Cooper’s just a 14 year old kid that believes he can handle everything on his own because of his powers [sadly lil bro is NOT immune 🙁], he was still grieving, and he was afraid of disappointing his father for failing his dad and sister— yeah, even disappointing his younger version. Hm.

I don’t think those doubts and anxiety when it comes to my own writing will ever leave, especially with the upcoming projects I’m planning on writing. I really put my heart and soul into these things, and I want to give it my all; it’s not just a fanfiction to ME guys!!!! And I want you to FEEL the same feelings I feel whenever I consume a piece of media that makes me feel human. “This is what humans were meant to be doing! Feel alive! Not work a 9 to 5 just to survive!” 😫. But anyways, thanks for this ask Volta 🥹❤️‍🩹 hope you enjoyed this answer.

#IWMOY #uta asks #south park fanfiction #THIS WAS SO LONG LOL #Im a big yapper fr #fic analysis

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bylrlve · 9 months ago

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But the truth is, El, I don't know how to live without you. I feel like my life started that day we found you in the woods. You were wearing that yellow Benny's Burgers T-shirt. And it was so big it almost swallowed you whole. And I knew right then and there, in that moment, that I loved you. And I've loved you every day since.

“Do you remember the first day that we met? It was… it was the first day of kindergarten. I knew nobody. I had no friends. And I just felt so alone, and so scared, but… I saw you on the swings, and you were alone too,. You were just swinging by yourself. And I just walked up to you, and I asked. I asked if you wanted to be my friend. And you said yes. You said yes. It was the best thing I’ve ever done.”

Clicked with me today that the byler first meeting, as recounted by a sobbing Mike, is described more as Love At First Sight soulmatism connection stuff… but it’s not framed as such, because byler is grounded as real.

“I saw you on the swings… swinging by yourself, and you were alone, too.” - instant connection, feeling of understanding and vibe-liking.

“So I walked up to you, and I asked, I asked if you wanted to be my-” proposal imagery.

“You said yes, you said yes. It was the best thing I’ve ever done.” Continued and intensified proposal imagery. Devotion, love, etc.

All the components of LAFS are here, but it’s not framed as such, because byler is a grounded relationship based on a genuine and strong connection and dynamic. M*leven first meeting was not LAFS - as Finn Wolfhard describes it (credit to @madlovesbyler), Mike didn’t even see her as a person until halfway through episode 2! When he first met her, he saw her as a curiosity, an oddity.

#byler #mike wheeler #will byers #el hopper #gay mike wheeler #el and mike #anti mileven #otp: heart and light #my post

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ikilledtvguy · 1 year ago

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stuuupidest drawings i’ve erver done /silly

close ups

i think that perhaps the jerma burger / mephone thing is the best idea i’ve ever had/j

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resident-gay-bitch · 2 years ago

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mommy issues

part 18 / contents

eddie picked up the phone as it rang, as quickly as he could so it wouldn’t wake wayne, “hello?”

“yo, dude.” it was gareth, “i’m about to get the lovebirds, we want burgers. you coming?”

“yeah.” eddie nodded, “i’ll be out in five.”

“okay, see ya then.”

eddie hung up the phone and hurried down to his room, changing his shirt from his fuck off of a fathers to a more acceptable faded old ratty metallica one that the moths may or may not have gotten too. he pulled on a zip up hoodie, and threw one of wayne’s jackets on over the top, because even though it was summer, eddie knew gareth was going to blast his goddamned aircon way too high and he’d shiver without it. he tugged on his boots and checked his hair in the mirror.

it was so smooth now.

you worked wonders.

he heard the car horn out the front and pulled the collar of his hoodie up high around his neck to cover it. he rushed out the door with a bright smile.

eddie shut the door and turned around to see gareth and grant in the front seats raising their hands in the air in a stupid sort of dance, and jeff was leant forward between the front two seats doing the funky monkey. eddie laughed and rushed for the backseat.

he slid in, the hoodie still secure around his neck. he pulled the door shut at the loud blast of gareth’s metal tape consumed the small space. they all started to headbang along as gareth pulled out onto the road again.

the music was turned down after a minute.

“what did you do to it, man?” grant asked, holding up a dishevelled action figure he found on the ground, “he’s dead!”

“oh, don’t even, man.” gareth shook his head, “i was picking up steph last night and it was on the seat, and she like… looked at it for a bit and then just tossed it on the ground and i was like, whatever. i’ll pick it up after, she’s a bitch. but then, when we got back into the car after raiding the seven eleven i saw shed crushed it with her pristine fucking sneakers, and so i just took her home.”

“what the fuck, she crushed it?” jeff asked, shocked.

“obliterated it.”

“awh man,” eddie said, reaching forward to grab it and inspect the poor toy himself, “fuck, this was your new character!”

“i know!” gareth gasped, “she didn’t even apologise.”

“dump the whore.” jeff said.

“i agree.” eddie blew a raspberry and tossed the action figure into the front dash, “she’s done to many mean things to my garebear.” eddie gave gareth’s shoulders a squeeze from behind him.

“shut the fuck up, eddie.” gareth sneered, giving him a glance though the review mirror.

“sometimes i think you two have move chemistry than jeff and i, and we’re literally in love.” grant commented and it made eddie and gareth laugh.

eddie wrapped his arms around gareth’s seat and chest in an attempted a hug, “it’s because he’s been my secret lover all this time, haven’t you shnookums?”

gareth hummed and made kissy faces, turning his cheek slightly so eddie could smack one on him, “hmm, the best damn sex i’ve ever had, babylove.”

“weird bromance aside,” jeff said, grabbing eddie’s shoulder and pulling him back into his own seat, “they have a point. she’s a bitch.”

“she’s a hot bitch.” gareth pointed back at him, “and she really really likes having sex with me.”

“you’ve cheated on me now, garebear?” eddie gasped, “i’m heartbroken.”

gareth poked his tounge out at eddie through the review mirror, “look, can we not talk about stephanie? i’m trying to avoid that headache right now.”

“affirmative, cappin’.” eddie muttered, putting on some strange voice that didn’t make sense and saluting.

“yeah, alright.” grant nodded, “but you can’t avoid it forever.”

“got it.” gareth clicked his tongue and turned a corner, “what do you fuckers want?”

“you.” eddie hummed, “always you, lover.”

“you’re going to make me sick.” jeff deadpanned him.

eddie dove for him, poking his tongue out and trying to lick jeff’s face.

“you’re an animal!” jeff tried to shove him off.

“hey! hey!” gareth called out, “no fighting… or… getting frisky in the back of my car.”

eddie managed to stab his tongue into the high of jeff’s cheek and he pulled away with a laugh, and jeff wiped the very little slobber away in a dramatic feat and wined.

“i’ve been contaminated. i’ve got hetero-cooties!”

“oh, ease up, jeff.” grant said with a laugh, “we all know eddie’s not straight.”

eddie retaliated by shoving his boot forward into grants chest.

“why are we friends with him?” gareth asked and it made eddie cackle.

“i dunno man.” jeff shrugged, “we thought you were cool, but apparently he just fucking follows you everywhere.”

“like a shaddow.” grant added, flaring his hands out for dramatics.

“aww, you want me to follow you boys around too?” eddie hummed, batting his eyelids at a rapid pace, “you jealous?”

“i’d rather die.” jeff said plainly.

“can you lot shut up and tell me what you want?” gareth shouted, “we’re fucking here.”

“milkshake, fries.” eddie said, pulled himself forward to kiss gareth’s cheek again.

“ew.” gareth wiped the ‘slobber’ off and wiped it on grants leg.

“dude!” grant wailed.

“i’ll have a cheese burger.” jeff cut in, ever the calm one, “large coke and some fries.”

“i’ll have the same, but a chicken cheese instead.”

“got it.” gareth nodded and slid up to the window of the diner, which was trying a new drive through feature out which these boys absolutely adored on a saturday afternoon.

gareth made the order and held his hand out, and everyone slapped down their change to pay for their meals. once the food was collected (and more petty bickering was made), gareth drove into the carpark and cut the engine. the food was handed out, and there was peace, just for a moment.

“eddie, you want front seat?” grant asked, shoving fries into his mouth.

“yeah!” eddie grinned, slurping his shake.

grant opened the passenger door and rolled out before slamming it shut, and eddie grabbed his things and climbed through the centre console to plop down on the seat.

“dude!” gareth slapped his calves, “feet off the leather- do you know how much this car cost?”

“more than me, i know.” eddie drawled with a roll of his eyes, “got it, dad.”

gareth squinted his eyes and then reached into the takeaway bag and pulled something out, handing it to eddie.

eddie gasped excitedly and set his drink down between his feet. he was sitting with his back to the door and his knees curled up to his chest so he could face everyone in the car. he made grabby hands for what gareth was holding.

“you got me pie?” eddie asked.

gareth pulled it back with a mean grin, “well, i might have.”

“what?” eddie asked, knowing he’d have to do something to get it.

now that he’d seen free pie on the horizon, he really fucking wanted it.

g cleared his throat, “so… upgraded from mechanic to plumber, huh?”

eddie squinted his eyes at his best friend, and then even more at the other two who were looking at him with smug grins.

“yeah, bet you fixed her pipes real good.” grant said and then snickered.

eddie’s eyes widened with the realisation as to what they were talking about.

“shut up.”

“status report?” gareth asked.

eddie looked at him for a moment, trying to hold back a grin, and then he yanked the collar of his hoodie down to show his neck.

the boys went crazy. they all held up their hands and shook them out and did this stupid thing they all do when they pretend they’re overly excited popular girls in movies and squeal for good news. so that’s what the did, they all shook their hands and squealed for eddie.

he cupped his hands over his mouth and cleared his throat, fixing his voice to sound robotic and deep and said, “status updated from; virgin nerd, to; stepmother-fucking nerd!”

they all squealed again.

“dude! no way.” gareth slapped eddie’s knees.

“yes way!” eddie laughed, “dude, it was so hot- her shower was not broken, by the way. it was all a ploy to take me to bed-“

“dude…” jeff laughed, “we know.”

“that’s like… the most classic line in the book.” gareth agreed.

“what?” eddie’s arms dropped, “well, i didn’t know.”

gareth pulled a strange face and handed the pie over to eddie, “it astounds me how thick headed you can be sometimes.”

“well, so-rry for not assuming my stepmother was trying to lure me to bed.” eddie hummed, chomping into it, and it was apple today, one of his favourites, “i’m just not a dirty minded fuck like you lot.”

“well, that’s the biggest pile of shit i’ve ever heard.” grant snickered.

eddie swatted at him, and then grant swatted back, so eddie lunged forward to grab his head and shove it down, but grant grumbled and wrestled eddie’s arms back.

“can you-“ jeff tried to cut in by pulling their arms apart, but it was no feat, “jesus-“

“someones a little excited today, i think.” gareth laughed and poked eddie’s neck, “she really did some damage, ed.”

eddie, suddenly forgetting all about his attack on poor grant in the back seat, slumped back against the door wirh a dopey grin and sipped on his chocolate shake, “yeah…” he giggled, like a love sick girl.

“oh my god,” jeff said, leaning his head between the two front seats to look at eddie better, “you are a mess.”

“what did she do to you?” gareth asked in shock.

eddie giggled again, “she took my virginity.”

all the guys laughed at him, happy smiles. eddie knew they were making fun, of course they were, eddie was acting like he was twelve again, but he also knew they weren’t actually judging. they were happy for him, this was just really amusing.

“so…” grant shook his head at eddie, “you going to disclose all the juicy details, or are you going to leave us hanging?”

“well!” eddie said, sipping his shake one last time before sitting it down. he cleared his throat and clasped his hands together, “it was… phenomenal. literally the best sex anyone’s ever had, i’m sure.”

“yes, obviously.” gareth dead panned him, “because you, a lanky nerd virgin freak knows how to fuck.”

eddie kicked him, “like you’re any better- and i’m not lanky, thank you. i’m just… tall. i have muscles.”

“sure you do,” grant poked his shin, “twiggie.”

eddie sneered at him, “she happens to think i do, thank you. and i can pick her up with ease, so that’s all that matters.”

“oh, so there was picking up involved?” gareth asked, taking a bite of his burger without paying attention to it, and sauce dribbled down his front.

eddie grabbed a napkin and tossed it at him, “no, not… during. i just- i’ve picked her up before. she likes to be manhandled, i think.”

“hmm, who doesn’t?” gareth asked, wiping his front and making missy faces at eddie, “i want you to pick me up and toss me around, big boy.”

eddie grinned at him, “oh, lover, why didn’t you ask sooner?”

“gag.” jeff said without a hint of emotion, “i’m gagging right now. this is so gross.”

“does anyone have a knife so i can cut my ears off?” grant asked, “i don’t want to hear anything, ever again.”

eddie and gareth laughed.

“okay, well…” eddie cleared his throat again and ate some of his fries, “first- oh, after she spat in my mouth and told me i had to do as she said-“

“oh, fuck man…” gareth looked at him wearily, “she was in control?”

eddie nodded, “full on in control.”

“dude.” gareth pulled at his cheeks, “that’s so hot.”

“a woman in control is hot-“ grant said.

“hey!” jeff slapped his arm, “boyfriend in the car.”

grant grinned at him, “women in control is hot, but you’re hotter.”

“ew!” eddie said, “gag! i’m literally gagging!”

“cut off my ears!” gareth said, laughing with eddie now, “you’re so gross!”

they both had a hand shoved into their face.

“please, continue, i’m hooked.” jeff said, leaning over the seat to look at eddie eagerly.

“well- okay, so, she’s really into all that bdsm stuff, which is so hot. and she’s like- oh, she’s been to sex parties, man, and she had like, full on subs when she was my age-“

“that’s so weird to think about.” grant said.

“i know.” eddie pointed a fry at him, “so, like, she went full dom mode and called me her sub.”

“i really wouldn’t pin you as a sub.” jeff squinted at him, “like, i know you’re a pathetic virgin- well, not anymore. but like… a sub?”

eddie shrugged, “i mean, yeah.”

“but you’re so big and scary.” gareth added.

“why thank you, garebear.” eddie hummed with a proud smile, “but no, like… she said the same thing. she actually said because i could take control, it was hotter that i didn’t. and like- bro, i’m not getting in the way of her doing what she wants with me. i’m just- i’m happy enough to be included, you know?”

that made them all laugh and nod their heads, “yeah, okay, makes sense.” grant said, “still, it’s bizarre. but also…” he tipped his head to the side.

“yeah,” jeff shrugged, “we did see how she talked to you last night.”

“and she’s your stepmother.” gareth added, “it’s kind of a hot dynamic, if you ask me. like… it makes sense.”

“thank you.” eddie chirped.

“dude, i can’t believe you managed to bag your stepmother.”

“she’s keeping me too.” eddie said with a proud smile, “said so herself. i’m going back tonight.”

gareth struck his hands over his heart and dramatically flopped back into his seat, “you’re leaving me, pumpkin?”

“i’m sorry, it was good whilst it lasted, garebear, but i’ve moved onto hotter things.” eddie played along, as he always did.

“understandable.” gareth nodded, “she’s a peice of art-“

“hey!” eddie glared at him, “careful where you tread, whore. she’s mine.”

“and your dads.” grant snickered.

eddie turned his glare to grant, and it shut him up very fast, “i know, it’s very unfortunate, but! she hates sex with him, takes viagra for it… she likes sex with me. she was the one that asked me to come over again tonight!”

“look at you go.” jeff punched his arm encouragingly and eddie beamed, “told you to stop doubting yourself man, this towns just fucked up and prejudiced.”

eddie smiled down at his lap, “yeah, yeah.”

“okay, so, details?” gareth asked.

eddie nodded and took another sip of his shake, “well, so… yeah, she layed me down and blew me- which was entirely too fast. i’m not even gonna deny it. i just- mouth on dick equals wow.”

“yeah, we’ve all been there, man.” jeff slapped him on the back, “don’t worry.”

“jeff didn’t last three seconds once i put my mouth on him,” grant said with a cheeky grin, “barely put him inside-“

“shut your goddamned mouth.” jeff grabbed him.

“well, i would shut up,” grant shrugged, “if you could get your dick far enough down without blowing your load first.”

“that was one time!” jeff wailed and it made them all laugh.

“okay, well, she gave me a blowjob and then we were kissing, and she was like,” eddie cleared his throat and put on a really terrible you impression, “oh eddie, you have a really good mouth for a virgin, and i was like, thanks, and she was like, do you want to pout that mouth to better use? and like, who was i to say no to that!”

“you are her out?” gareth asked.

“twice.” eddie grinned, “twice in one go. she said i’m really good at it too, and i’m not allowed to eat anyone else out because she wants it all to herself.”

jeff scruffed up his hair.

“this sounds like you’re describing a dream.” grant said, deadpan.

“i know!” eddie exclaimed, “i woke up this morning thinking it was.”

“okay, so, you ate her out, twice…” gareth pointed at him and shoved some fries into his mouth at the same time, “what next-“

“well,” eddie grinned a little evilly, “i didn’t just eat her out.” he giggled, “she sat on my face.”

gareths jaw dropped and the other two in the back seat started a little cheer for him.

“you- she sat on your face?” gareth asked, shocked and quite frankly appalled, “you beat me to that? i can’t believe this! how was it? was it everything we thought it would be?”

“it was better.” eddie sighed, thinking back to it (discreetly moving his milkshake to cover his semi), “oh, to be crushed by those sweet, thick thighs again. to have her on my tongue. i wished she’d just sat there until i suffocated, so the last sounds i ever heard were her moans and my name on her lips, the last taste her sweet cunt, and the last sight to be her naked, just rocking on my face and pulling my hair. i could stay there forever, eternally fucking blissed out.”

“you should turn that into a song.” grant commented.

“i might.” eddie hummed.

“sounds like a dream.” gareth sighed, “i have been trying to get steph to sit on my face for ages, i have so far been unsuccessful.”

“sucks for you.” eddie said, poking his tongue out, “i bet i could ask at any time and she’d let me do it again. she likes when i beg.”

“awh man.” jeff sunk back in his seat, “begging is hot.”

“agreed.” gareth nodded.

“it’s like…” jeff looked at g and waved his hands about, “something about them needing it so bad they’re literally on their knees, or on the brink of crying for it.”

“yeah, no, right?” gareth nodded, pointing back at jeff, “like, they need you. it’s pathetic and really hot.”

grant stuck his hand towards eddie and they slapped hands in a sort of shake, “it’s okay man, you’re not alone out there.”

“sub solidarity.” eddie nodded and they laughed.

“okay, so, after that?” gareth asked.

“oh, well i fucking came- like, she was looking down at me and- yeah, i came.”

“oh, dude-“ jeff started.

“you’re not the only one.” gareth shrugged, “i came the first time i ate a girl out.”

“it’s hot.” eddie said simply, “pussys great. anyway, i came and that messed up her plan to fuck me because i went soft again, so she sat away and started touching herself- which… wow.”

“hard in an instant?” gareth asked over a bite of burger.

“hard in an instant.” eddie said, “and then- oh, i was on my knees, begging her and shit, and she pulled my hair really hard and told me i was hers. then she sat back on top of me, and… virgin no more.”

“hey…” jeff shook him by the shoulder, “look at you go!”

“i know.” eddie giggled and picked at his fries.

“how longed you last?” grant asked, “did you beat gareth’s whopping score of five seconds?”

“yours was seven, shut the fuck up.” gareth swatted grant.

“oh, not long at all.” eddie shook his head, “i don’t know exactly, but like… it was so wet, and warm, and tight, and-“

“dude you not use a condom?” gareth asked and eddie shook his head, “awh, man. what the fuck?”

eddie giggled, “she said she’s clean and on the pill and taking the plan b, so… i get to go raw, and danny doesn’t.”

“fuck.” gareth groaned, “she must like you a whole lot, man.”

eddie hummed, “well, anyway- she was looking me in the eye and telling me shit like… i was hers and that she owned me and stuff, and my little virgin heart couldn’t handle it all enough as it, and it doesn’t help that i’m literally in love with her so that was all-“

“you’re in love with her?” they all gasped.

eddie shrugged and shook his head, “yeah, have been for a while, but i’ve been avoiding the thought. but i don’t care any more, i love her so much, dude. i’m gonna make her love me back one day, i don’t care how long it takes.”

gareth slowly nodded his head and widened his eyes, “alright… eddie’s in love with his step mom.”

“noted.” grant nodded.

“doomed narrative.” jeff added, muffled around a bite.

“probably, but i don’t care.” eddie glanced at him, “i’m also okay with her breaking my heart so- anyway, back to the sex.”

“back to the sex.” grant nodded.

“so, lasted not long at all, and… then she said it was okay and that she wanted me to cum one more time, so i was like… yeah, obviously i’m not going to say no that. and i’m pretty sure i was still hard at that point anyway.”

“wait- so, you finished four times?” jeff gasped.

“oh yeah.” eddie nodded, “so like- oh, dude, i was so sensitive. and it was like- she was saying some really… uh… i mean, i like, i love her, so everything she was saying meant more- but- but she was…” eddie cleared his throat and looked down in his lap, “i dunno, she called me beautiful and stuff- told me that she wanted to look after me, and love me.”

the car fell silent.

eddie laughed nervously, refusing to look up at any of them, “as a dude who’s been ran from his whole life, that- that’s just kind of- hmm.”

there was a long silence for a moment, and then eddie saw gareth’s hand reach out to lay over his boot softly. grant hummed and said,

“it makes you fall a little more in love, huh?” he swallowed, “i know the feeling.”

eddie smiled up at him, thankful he wasn’t so alone, “yeah, well-“ he let out a little laugh, “anyway, i just… i didn’t last much longer then that and- oh, dude, she made me hold it back,” his mood switched instantly, bright and excited again, “and like i was crying and begging her to cum, and she just… oh, dudes, she slapped me and it was so hot.”

“she slapped you?” grant asked, “and you liked it?”

“yeah!” eddie exclaimed, “i asked her to do it again, and she was like, oh you like that? pathetic, and i was like, god fucking please, mo-“ he cleared his throat and continued on, “god fucking please do it again.”

“no, no.” gareth shook his head with a low little chuckle, and they were all smirking at him, “you called her something. what did you call her?”

“nothing.” eddie shook his head, “i don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“lies,” gareth hummed, “you tell lies.”

“it’s mo… something mo.” jeff added, “he called her something mo.”

the boys all started to hum, making that sound over and over again, trying to think of what it could be that he called you. eddie sunk down in his chair, hiding his face behind his hair and hands and denied denied denied, begging them all to shut up.

“hang on!” gareth gasped and fucking laughed, “do you call her- you call her mommy, don’t you?”

eddie groaned and sunk lower into his seat.

“holy shit!” jeff laughed, “you call your stepmother, mommy in bed.”

“that’s such a weird sentence.” grant muttered.

eddie groaned again, “just- shut up… she likes it, okay?”

gareth laughed again, “aww, he’s embarrassed.”

eddie kicked him.

“did mommy take your virginity, bunny?” grant teased.

“all of you, die!” eddie mumbled.

“did mommy take good care of you?” jeff asked with a sick pout.

“i hate all of you so much.” eddie grumbled, “i wish all of you the worst in your afterlives after i’ve murdered you each with my bare hands.”

they all laughed.

“man, we’re just teasing, calm down.” gareth nudged eddie’s knees, “steph calls me daddy all the time, so- it’s like, weird… but it’s not as weird as you think.”

“yeah, we’ve played around with it before.” jeff said, gesturing to grant, “i mean, it’s not for us but, it’s cool if you’re into it.”

eddie peaked out though his hair, “you’re just saying that.”

“no, for real.” gareth hummed, “it’s okay. don’t be embarrassed. sex is weird, everybody likes something mildly fucked up- were freaks, it’s expected of us.”

eddie sighed and sat back up, sipping his shake again, “i dunno, she just- i… you know that chick i almost hooked up with ages ago?”

they all hummed and nodded.

“she ran off because i accidentally called her that- mommy.” eddie shrugged, “i didn’t mean too, but she was calling me a good boy so like-“

“ah, yeah…” gareth winced, “i mean, you weren’t wrong for it.”

“but… but i didn’t- y/n just kinda, she called herself mommy a few times like, in normal conversation a while ago and- oh dudes, after grad i got hammered and she took me home and helped me to bed and undress and like, i called her mommy and tried to get her into bed- it was terrible!”

they laughed and gareth swatted his knee, “you’re an idiot.”

“i know.” eddie smiled.

“so, she slapped you?” jeff asked, all of them now had eager eyes, waiting for his story to continue.

“and choked me and-“ he shrugged, “it was so hot, and then she finally let me cum and i- have you ever heard of subspace?”

grant and gareth shook their heads, but jeff had.

“it’s like, you kinda disappear?”

“yeah.” eddie sighed, “it was like- the best feeling in the world. i was just floating, and nothing hurt or anything. i felt like, so good. and then when i came down- and i was out for hours apparently, she explained what had happened to me.”

“what is it?” gareth asked.

“it’s like- she said some subs go into it when their body gets overwhelmed and they trust their partner enough to let go. she’s had lots of subs before that went there, and she said i looked like i was about to disappear which is why she kept telling me i was safe with her.”

“oh, so it’s like… you just kind of relax?”

“i think so?” eddie hummed, “i don’t really know, but i know it felt good. and- and she looked after me. cleaned me up, and braided my hair and stayed up for hours to make sure i’d be okay when i came out of it- because you can’t speak or anything i think, when you go there. at least i couldn’t. she said you can’t give consent there either. and like- i dunno, she just held me and it was nice.”

“huh.” grant hummed, “sounds really nice.”

“yeah, it is- but like, there’s a lot more to it than you think.”

“it kinda sounds like a nice way to lose your virginity.” gareth said.

“yeah, it was.” eddie laughed softly, “it was really nice- i mean, kinky and violent but like, nice.”

“huh…” gareth nodded, “is that all?”

eddie nodded and then hummed and shook his head, “well, like- i don’t know. she- this morning was really nice. she made me breakfast and wanted to bring it to me in bed, but i woke up. and- i- she was just- it felt very… domestic.” he hummed and tried to gather his thoughts, “we took a shower before i dropped her to work, and she washed my hair and then like, cleaned my face and shit too- she just didn’t let me do it myself- even dried my hair and stuff after.”

“well-“ jeff leant forward, “the subspace can last ages after, right? maybe she thought you were still in it?”

“or maybe it’s like… a kink thing.” gareth added, “like… feeding into the mommy kink. maybe it’s age play?”

eddie considered both of those options, and they both seemed legit.

“or… and, here me out here, boys,” grant cleared his throat, “or, maybe… she like… loves you back?”

“nope.” eddie shook his head, a stern hand swinging out, “no. no way- dude, don’t even put that thought in my head! i’m gonna- you can’t just- mhm! no. nope, no, no way, okay? she doesn’t- i’m- i’m her goddamned step son. plus! she said all of her subs are just sexual, and she continuously referred to me as one! she’s not in love with me, okay? she’s just- she can’t be. she. cant. be.”

silence lulled over the car and eddie looked at them all sternly. grant circled his cup and the ice clinked around before he took a loud sip. and that was that. they all nodded and eddie was glad.

you didn’t love him.

you couldn’t love him.

that just wouldn’t happen.

would it?

“anyway…” gareth slumped back in his chair, “i think i need to dump steph-“

“finally!” jeff groaned and all the boys started making noises of agreement.

part 19

i love the corroded coffin boys all being silly little teenagers (even though they’re all 19-21) so much!!

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