#beliefs. like at some point please block me first right? just block me first.

[t4tstarvingdog]

i’m gonna be honest it makes me. well.

[cozycottagetarot]

How Can You Manifest Your Wishes?

 Notes:

This is not one of my favourite readings, but I hope you find something useful in it!These types of readings are always slightly difficult to keep organise but I tried my best. I'd love to know if you prefer paragraphs or bullet points as well! Shout out to the anon who recommended this reading!

‼️ This reading is in no way shape or form meant to act as or substitute professional advice of any kind. Please use your discretion, think carefully before you act and only take what resonates be it a little, some or none at all. ‼️

This PAC Includes:

This Might Resonate If Your Wish Is...

The Energy You're In

The Energy You Need To Be In

Extended Reading Includes

How Can You Open Yourself Up

What's Working vs What's Not Working

Additional Messages

Dividers From X

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PILE 1

This Might Resonate If Your Wish Is...

Wishes for a full-life makeover. If it’s a wish (or goal) you feel blocked or burnout pursuing. A wish you keep coming back to or feels like a ‘higher calling’. A wish of the heart. A wish around love (of any kind).

The Energy You're In

It feels like you’re in this bright, playful energy and you’re just absolutely ready to go! You see all the possible laid out before you and you’re getting excited about it. You could be coming out of a rough period and you’re trying to rebuild your sense of positivity. You’re trying to move on to the next version of you. You’re expecting the best (or you should be) and are in this very attractive and magnetic energy right now. You have a card here the Flamingo which is all about fun and the vibes of this section make me think of Espresso by Sabrina Carpenter. The vibe of the music video feels very playful and fun and the line “my give a f*cks are on vacation” reminds me of the energy you're in at the moment. It all feels very warm like I can almost feel the sun on my skin.

HOWEVER, you may be focusing on these possibilities through the eyes of others… living vicariously through others. What I mean by this is viewing people through social media, books, even in person and believing you can do what they do (which is fine) but through their experience or as them rather than you… I hope that makes sense. You may hold onto the super intense aspects of love or pleasure. This can be especially important regarding relationships! I will make a post on this a little later (it’s drafted), but the energy you’re in requires you to take a look at what ‘work’ you’re asking others to do for you. You need to focus on how you’re channeling the vibrant passionate energy you’re embodying at the moment.

The Energy You Need To Be In

As beautiful as your current energy is, you need to slow your roll a little bit here. Yes, hold onto the belief that things are going great for you— but you also need to ground yourself and savour the small moments too. Enjoy ALL the good things… right down to the perfectly crafted beverage. Take chances but double-check your trajectory first. Don’t just rush in, you’re in need of a balance right now. You’re in a phase of transition but divine timing is also at play. However, I feel like if you try to force things then you might end up bringing a 'tower moment' on yourself (if you’re about to panic, relax!) where you’re forced to take a look at what is truly important to you.

Thank you for making it this far! If you're interested in extended reading which includes how you can open yourself up, what's working vs what's not and more then you can check it out here!

PILE 2

This Might Resonate If Your Wish Is...

 Of personal strength. Wishing your wish will come true. Balance. Employment (especially self employment). A wish to remove a known block or a wish for a solution of any kind. Relating to being in between phases. Something that will bring you a sense of safety or stability. Gaining your wings. Wishes involving social connections.

*Relationships are such a strong theme here, but it seems as though it maybe experience from childhood that come up a lot in this reading

The Energy You're In

I think you’re in an energy of waiting and surveying your surroundings... Like when someone’s wounded and retreats to regroup and tend to themselves. Main themes relate to boundaries, relationships and self care. You’re trying to find allies but I think it’s a little bit hard right now. Very analytical mind, trying to determine what stays and what goes. Things are definitely shifting and you’re just kind of keeping to yourself. Communication is such a big thing for you here. I feel like you’re really just on the sidelines taking things slow. You want to ally with others but you need to tend to yourself first or at least that’s your focus right now. You’re mainly in an energy of taking stock it seems… on alert in changing circumstances. You might be ruminating on how you communicate with others? There’s a suggest to look at how you experienced communication growing up? You might be stuck in your head… seeing “people” as not safe.

Idk guys, like are you good? Usually Pile 3 is the one that messes with me but the energies here feel sooo off. Kind of wondering if you're fatigued, hung up over someone even? Not necessarily romantically but someone who was/is supposed to have your back and you’re just hitting a wall or something at the moment. The energy literally disappearaed once I moved onto the energy you need to be in so take that as a positive sign!

If it ain’t me — Dua Lipa kept coming to me and disco balls stood out from the cards.

The Energy You Need To Be In

I feel like you need to be in an energy where, yes you’re surveying/assessing your surroundings, but you have to get up and do so instead of sitting around. You need to take action and expand your horizons. Be bold and go for it... I think you’ve got what you need. The consistent message is that doing nothing is not an option. Take a chance on what will fulfill your desires. Accepting endings is important and being able to move on. Allow yourself to transition to a fresh start.

Consider your image and how you show up as/interact with authority. Leadership. Especially emotional leadership. Parenting oneself and/or setting the example for how you want others to treat you. Create a safe home ‘base’ (internal or external) but don’t get stuck in it. Maybe ask yourself what creates home? Makes you feel safe/secure? You also could need to take a look at sibling relationships or any with a sibling like dynamic and factor in how you those affect how you show up is important to look at too. I think this could relate to blocks. But you need to place your roots first and then explore.

Trust yourself and make a move. Focus on your strengths and believe that you have gathered enough data to move forward. Structure and strategy are going to be your friends. Honor those ‘above’ you but hold onto your power. Set boundaries and hold other accountable (and yourself too).

Thank you for making it this far! If you're interested in extended reading which includes how you can open yourself up, what's working vs what's not and more then you can check it out here!

PILE 3

This Might Resonate If Your Wish Is...

Travel, adventure, family, community, friendships/found family, creative projects, diving intervention, exploring new interest, work-life balance.

The Energy You're In

Closing out cycles and actively transforming. Seeking out messages from the divine. You're open to receiving messages and guidance. Very calm and zen feeling. Maybe feeling like you're going through or have recently gone through a rebirth. You're ready to make moves. Strong willed. "What do you want to do?" is a question that should be potentially on your mind if it's not. Taking inspired action. Bring play into your life/how can you do so? This can even apply to relationships. Healing. Compare and contrasting how past events influence you and if how you're showing up matches your intentions. Heavy on the "level up" energy but this is a kind you're actively seeking. Exploring relationships, mentorships, ideas. Leaning on love ones. Generally being in good vibes.

Feels like a combination of pile 1 and 2 so if you were drawn to one of those as well I recommend checking them out.

This also feels like a very spiritual pile? I'm not sure how describe it but I kept saying 'the Universe' alot while I was doing this reading so of course just adjust it to whatever suits you and your belief best! 

The Energy You Need To Be In

It's slightly hard to organise the messages here. There's a need to ground yourself. Don't stop working on healing, but also maintain your stability. Expansion & communication. Abundance is coming in. Remember you're worthy of abundance and your manifestation skills are heightened. Big things are coming for you. Expanding your perspective as well. Where do you need to speak up? You can and should try to lean on others. Open your heart... you don't have to have an armored heart. Cultivate your wishes, the things you want to grow. Nurture your wishes and your heart. Make sure you're clear on what you want to manifest. Keep your motivation up by focusing on short term steps. Look to mentors for guidance.

Thank you for making it this far! If you're interested in extended reading which includes how you can open yourself up, what's working vs what's not and more then you can check it out here!

PILE 4

This Might Resonate If Your Wish Is...

Nostalgia. Happiness. Needing motivation. Heavily charged emotional wishes. Something relating to others… not necessarily currently though. Like a wish that was formed because of someone years ago. If you have a vision board. Looking for a break. Or for a break to end. A wish where you’ve heard divine timing is at play. Direction. A waiting period to be over. Trying to break something you know isn’t good for you.

Pay attention to words, phrases or songs that come up often.

The Energy You're In

You’re very guarded. You’re wanting to break away from whatever is just weighing on you and you’re working hard at it but at the same time I feel like you just won’t let go??? Despite you working to break the chains or get a move on, it feels like they’re never ending but they are ending!! Don’t be fooled by appearances.

I think you’re very future focused and all about recreating yourself (I heard in entirety). You’re trying to expand your pov and I feel also kind of just nurture yourself internally. Very introspective trying to figure out who you are and what you want to do or who you want to be.

The Energy You Need To Be In

I didn’t really get anything specifically about money regarding wishes but I think it at least revolves around some kind of stability heavily. You need to be walking away from what isn’t serving you. Realise that you can create just about anything right now... anything goes.

You need to be doing what’s best for you regardless of if you hate it. Your day to day life is super important. I don’t know if rainbows are important to you but also I’m feeling like you need to fill your life with colour too. You need to become clear on resources and what they mean to you such as money, you body, other material possessions etc. get your financial life together. Do some deep cleaning. Like normally these readings are a matter of mindset and mental work but this pile feels very physical. Beautify your life and make it aesthetically pleasing without breaking the bank. How can you use art as well to make a masterpiece out of your feelings? How can you make your day to day life more enjoyable?

Thank you for making it this far! If you're interested in extended reading which includes how you can open yourself up, what's working vs what's not and more then you can check it out here!

[flowerandblood]

The Prince and The Fox (6)

[ modern! • Aemond x friend! • female ]

[ warnings: threats, angst, mention a toxic relationship ]

[ description: After the events of her childhood, despite her best efforts, her neighbor and the younger brother of her friend Helaena, Aemond, does not want to know her. This state lasts until a house party organized by his older brother, Aegon, during which an incident occurs that will change their relationship forever. Slow burn, angst, toxic ex-Alys, rough Aemond. This is several anon requests combined into one fic. ]

WARNING: The main plot between the characters takes place in high school. Yes, in high school. The belief that teenagers wait with an intimacy when they are in love in high school is ridiculous to me. Aemond and the character here are the same age. Don't ask me how old they are, in my country you are of the age of consent in your first year of high school and an adult in the last year of high school, so if it is more convenient for you, think about it that way and decide for yourself. In this story, I am not following the trail that they are magically friends right away, but how they become friends and what that even means. I'm writing this fic to give the perspective of young, lost people, not adult women who want to see exactly themselves in everything they read. If that's all you expect, this isn't the fic for you.

I don't want whining about this in my comments or asks. I will delete these and block you. You have been warned.

Aemond + Evans Series Moodboard

This is my first story that has its own playlist, but yes! Get in the mood!

Story Music Playlist

* English is not my first language. Please, do not repost. Enjoy! *

Next chapters: Masterlist

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Never before in her life had she missed a class for any reason other than illness, bad form or some important trip. As it turned out, so had he. They went into a shop to buy something to drink and sat on a bench in a nearby park, watching people walking around.

She felt that he wanted to tell her something, felt that all this was not without reason.

He grunted after a long moment, opening his can of Coke with a loud pssst, he didn't look at her.

"She doesn't want to give me a break. She keeps texting me and calling me even though I don't answer. She's totally fucking out of her mind." He grinned, taking a deep sip of his drink, she heard the hiss of bubbles inside the can. He wasn't looking at her, just ahead.

She wondered what he wanted to hear.

Friendly advice?

"Why did you two break up?" She asked straight out, deciding there was no point in wrapping her mind around it.

He was silent for a long moment.

"Because she was praising me to the skies one time and humiliating me the next. She made fucking shit out of my brain. If it wasn't for Helaena I'd probably still be in it." He muttered, leaning forward, resting his elbows on his knees, watching the passers-by.

She blinked, pressing her lips together, feeling a squeeze in her heart at the thought that he was trying to open up to her, trying to let her understand.

To be honest with her.

"Do you want to see?" He asked suddenly, pulling his phone from the pocket of his black sweatshirt, taking another loud sip from his can in the meantime. She looked at him surprised, unable to believe that he really wanted to show her their private messages.

"I've got some interesting screenshots from a few months back." He muttered, leaning back and moving towards her so that their shoulders touched, showing her his display, scrolling slowly through the next messages with his finger so that she had time to read them.

"She had a habit of deleting messages like that afterwards, so I started saving them to remind myself when I missed her what she really thought of me." He chuckled, locking his phone again, tucking it into his pocket.

She felt her heart pounding hard, felt some kind of discomfort and pain.

"How long did it last?" She asked uncertainly, glancing at him out of the corner of her eye. He pressed his lips together, taking another deep sip from his can.

She remembered she had her juice and opened the wrapper to take out her straw, then stuck it in the carton and began to drink with a loud slurping sound.

He shrugged his shoulders as if he couldn't believe it himself.

"Two years. I've broken up with her a couple of times, but in all seriousness it was only a month ago. A fresh case." He muttered lowly, sipping the rest of the Coke he had in the can and crumpled it up, tossing it into the dumpster standing next to his bench.

A month ago.

When Aegon organised a house party.

She lowered her gaze, tightening her lips, hesitating to ask him the question that was pressing on her lips.

She decided she had to know.

"Why did you want me to stay in the room with you then?" She asked in a trembling voice and felt him cast her a quick, surprised glance. He grunted loudly, clearly embarrassed by this memory and scratched his cheek, licking his lips.

"I don't know. I…it just felt good with you, you know. So…tenderly." She muttered, tracing his fingers across his forehead, his head tilted, he was unable to look at her.

Tenderly.

"Do you regret it?" She asked in a tired voice, and he gave her a quick glance.

"What? I… fuck. No. It was one of the more pleasant things that's happened to me in recent times. So… innocent. The kind that when I think back on it, it makes my heart warmer." He confessed with shame, and she lowered her gaze, looking down at her blue orange juice carton, fiddling with it in her hands.

"I don't regret it either."

They said nothing more.

They went back to school for the last few hours and pretended nothing had happened. Driving home from school they listened to music together again on her earphones, sitting with their eyes closed. She saw his display light up from time to time, that his ex-girlfriend kept sending him new messages, desperate. He didn't even read them.

She asked him why he didn't just block her number, but he said he had done that before and then she simply buys a new card. According to her, he was just upset with her and was teasing her, pretending to be interested in someone else to make her jealous because she couldn't imagine that it was possible to stop loving her.

She thought with regret that she had found herself an easy target, a high school student, quiet and closed off, with complexes, who would never share with anyone else what harm she was doing to him and how she was slowly destroying his self-esteem, manipulating him and making him dependent on her.

They said their goodbyes and parted ways to their homes, however, she felt that something had snapped between them and even though she continued to feel uncomfortable and sad, she thought that this time he really took it seriously, that he really wanted to try.

Whatever that meant.

She recognised that they both needed a lot of space and that what they had now suited her.

She didn't hide her surprise when he called her in the evening when she was already lying in bed, preparing for a maths test. She answered with her heart beating hard, wondering what it could have been about, whether he wanted to wish her goodnight.

"She was recording us." He said as soon as she picked up, not even giving her a chance to say hello, despair in his voice, she felt like he was almost crying. She swallowed loudly, feeling a tightness in her throat.

"What do you mean?" She asked, lifting herself up on the bed to sit down, concerned.

"How do we…how do we…I…you know. God." He mumbled in a breaking voice and drew in the air loudly, breathing unevenly. "She's threatening to send this to the school principal if I don't come back to her. To our friends. She sent me one video to show me she's not bluffing. What the fuck am I supposed to do now?"

She pressed her lips together feeling the cold sweat on the back of her neck, her heart pounding like crazy, the seriousness and awfulness of this situation hitting her so hard that she didn't know what to say, what to do.

Of course he couldn't tell his parents or siblings about it.

"I… God, do you want to meet? M-maybe, maybe we can work something out." She mumbled with difficulty, not knowing what else to suggest, how to help him.

"Yes… yes, if you can, please, I can't stand being at home now."

She quickly dressed a warm sweatshirt over her pyjamas and told her parents that she would go out to talk to Helaena for a while.

She left her house and ran across the street with her trainers on her feet, he was standing far from his house, she saw to her shock that he was smoking a cigarette, his one leg moving in a nervous tic.

He was terrified.

She approached him and he threw her a quick, heartbroken look. He chuckled under his breath, rubbing the tip of his nose with the back of his hand.

"I know what you're thinking. I got what I deserved." He muttered in a trembling, low voice, and she shook her head in disbelief.

"What are you babbling about? Don't you have something on her? I don't know, can't you send her the screenshots you have, the ones where she humiliates you and say you'll send them to her friends too? Don't you have any naked pictures of her that you can scare her with?" She asked, speaking quickly, thinking intensely about what solutions he had. He shook his head.

"I deleted everything a month ago, I didn't want to go back to it, and she herself deleted everything from our chats that might be saved somewhere on the internet. Like she fucking planned it." He grinned under his breath in despair and took a drag on his cigarette looking sideways, his eyebrows arched in anguish, despair and regret, a single tear running down his cheek.

"A cyclops and a pervert. Fuck, that's what I needed. Why did I get involved in this." He uttered in a breaking voice, running his free hand over his face, all red.

She walked over to him and stroked his shoulder, looking at him with distress mixed with understanding.

"Come here." She said softly, and he sank into her arms as if without strength, snuggling his face into her neck, embracing her loosely, and cried aloud, her hands stroking his hair and back with tenderness.

"It's not your fault. You trusted her and she took advantage of you. What she's doing now is monstrous and she has no right to do it. You are not to blame." She said and kissed the side of his head softly, his free hand clamped down on her blouse, she felt that her neck was all wet from his tears.

"I'm so fucking scared. I'm frightened that my parents will see this." He whimpered like a small child with a shuddering breath, and she hugged him tighter, trying to embrace his large figure, to give him the shelter in her arms he so desperately needed.

Her heart was breaking.

"I know, I'm with you. We'll figure something out in a moment." She whispered, stroking his head and back reassuringly and felt his lips place a gentle kiss on the skin of her neck. She felt a warmth in her lower abdomen and a pleasant tickle between her thighs.

They stood like that for a moment until he calmed down, and then they sat on the pavement, their knees and shoulders touching. She slapped her hand on his thigh, getting a sudden idea.

"I know! Write her that if she sends this out, you will report with the same video to the rector of her university that she forced you to have sex before you were of the age of consent. You can go to jail for that!"

He looked at her shocked, tightening his lips, thinking strenuously, hesitant, terrified and uncertain.

"But…it's not true."

"How does it matter? She threatens you, so you threaten her! Clearly there is a big age difference between you, what she was doing was just plain grooming. Knowing that you were in high school when she videotaped it and on top of that you were younger than you are now, the police would certainly have taken an interest. Maybe you would have lost your dignity, but she has a lot more to lose. This will make her loathe sending anything anywhere!" She said with conviction, saw him lick his dry lips with his tongue, that he was increasingly convinced of her idea.

"Okay. Then what should I write her?"

She sat next to him looking at the screen of his phone telling him aloud what she thought he should write to sound as confident as possible, when they finished he swallowed loudly and clicked 'send'. They saw that she had read the message immediately and saw surprised as a wave of messages started to come in from her.

They looked at it in silence breathing loudly. She heard him swallow with difficulty, tense.

"Do you think she'll send it?" He asked in a trembling voice.

"No. She is shitting herself with fear."

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Aemond Taglist:

(bold means I couldn't tag you)

@its-actually-minicika @notnormalthings-blog @nikstrange @zenka69 @bellaisasleep @k-y-r-a-1 @g-cf2020 @melsunshine @opheliaas-stuff @chainsawsangel @iiamthehybrid @tinykryptonitewerewolf @namoreno @malfoytargaryen @qyburnsghost @aemondsdelight @persephonerinyes @fan-goddess @sweethoneyblossom1 @watercolorskyy @randomdragonfires @apollonshootafar @padfooteyes

[violetasteracademic]

I am going to say something for my Elriels that I hope can be absorbed with grace and compassion. I realize not everyone may agree, and I do not speak for all survivors. But I am speaking from the perspective of someone who has received over 19 years of intensive therapy (yes, I started at 14. Feel free to calculate my age) as well as EMDR to treat complex PTSD. I hope you can hear this and take it to heart, and understand that *both sides* are contributing to some of us considering whether or not we should permanently leave this fandom to protect ourselves. If your interest is protecting survivors, I hope you will hear this with nothing but love and care in my heart and wanting this to be a better place for everyone and feel open to what I would like to say.

If you are taking this opportunity to re-blog and make a public spectacle of how badly the other side is behaving- you are not protecting survivors. Limiting exposure is a critical tool for those with PTSD. Stepping away from areas where we cannot prevent exposure to traumatic or triggering environments does not make us weak. It makes us strong. It makes us capable of making hard decisions and reflecting inward, and walking away from things that cause harm even when our inner child wants to feel drawn towards it and resolve it. These are not easy decisions. Right now, I want to stay away because of how everyone is acting, not just those on certain sides. The exposure to triggers is frankly beyond anything I could have ever imagined happening joining this fandom.

The spectacle is harmful for those that you are trying to protect. I beg you to consider this in the coming days as you decide what type of contributions you want to make to the Elriel community. At this point, I have so many people blocked, but it doesn't matter. I am still being exposed to how traumatizing this fandom is because the Elriel community will not stop. I promise you, starving harassers of the attention they so desperately want is the only thing that will have any meaningful impact to improve the environment. You are never going to understand each other or see things the same way. Please consider if re-blogging harmful takes just to prove a point is an act of protection, or an act of judgement and escalation.

If you are taking this opportunity to engage in a war of morality, and decide that the *other side* has behaved badly enough that they finally *deserve* to be harassed or insulted, you are not protecting survivors. I know it sucks. I know it's unfair. I know the high road is comprised of more steps. But the reality is, there are people with completely different moral codes opposing each other here. You will never be able to show another person why their deeply held beliefs are wrong. Some felt that protecting DV victims was a violation of their personal rights. We all understand how wrong that is. But instead of trying to turn this into a battle of whose behavior is worse, and who deserves what treatment, the best way to protect survivors is to say: I'm so sorry this is happening. I know how triggering this must be. Let me focus on making this a safe space for you. Invoking verbal abuse or escalating an aggressive conflict in our name does not help us. It only makes this space more unsafe. The simple act of, "I said this to you and I treated you badly because you acted badly first" is in of itself triggering behavior. If you look for reasons to treat someone you don't like or respect poorly, you will surely find them.

Please know that my only goal here is safety for all. It can be difficult to make everyone feel comfortable. I have long since realized that fandom life may not be for me, and have repeatedly left group chats, tiktok, and Instagram because I personally hate watching women rip each other to shreds every day when these books were a place of respite for me. So maybe I'm in the wrong. Maybe I don't *get* fandom culture, and if that's the case, I can gracefully step away or set new boundaries with myself about what I contribute and how involved I am regularly. No one is required to change their behavior because of me, or because of anyone. We are only in charge of ourselves. But this felt worth saying.

I truly hope that the goal of fostering a community that feels good to be a part of, even if it comes at the sacrifice of "fighting back," because no one is actually winning at anything here, is something that feels worthy of acknowledgment. I hope everyone can consider before typing, re-blogging, screenshotting, fighting, ect., pausing, reflecting and asking- does my behavior hurt or harm survivors? Am I making this space safer or more harmful for them? Is this a space I'd want to look at and make art for every day if I was trying to avoid landmines of watching how people treat each other? *If* protecting survivors and making things safer is your goal of course. That will not be the priority for everyone. But then please be honest with yourself about what you are trying to accomplish.

I always considered the Elriel space safe and joyful and a place largely not centered around bashing and negativity (though of course there are always exceptions, and I think venting is perfectly natural so long as it's not done with malicious intent to hurt others) but this situation made me realize that both sides are standing with loaded guns, just waiting for the opportunity for the other side to do something bad enough to trigger a war.

We are the collateral damage.

I hope that maybe this can move the Elriel community back in the direction of focusing on kindness, positivity, and excitement. If that is not the case, I hear you. Perhaps I'm the one that doesn't fit, and that's okay. But it felt worth trying.

[sysmedsaresexist]

Guys, I love you all, I appreciate all of you, but please don't send asks about me to the blogs expressing concerns about me. If they have me blocked, that's okay. Leave it be.

I don't really know what happened, but over the last week there's been an influx of asks flying around, debating my stances and whether I should be blocked.

While I appreciate it, I need to stress that I don't support it.

In the kindest, most genuine way,

I am #pro syscourse conversation

I am #CDDs first

I am #resources, #research and #debunk

I am #system safe

People are free to block and unfollow, it's okay.

This turned into a little opinion piece. I'm putting it below the cut because this was the main point of the post, and while I feel like what I've said is important, I don't want to drown out this request.

If you like what I've said, this is okay to reblog, but otherwise, I'm fine with people having me blocked.

Some of the things being said about me are hilarious. Apparently, I've been tricking doctors since before I was born. Just ignore them. I don't need defending.

Go drink water and sit for a minute, take care of yourselves.

I post in both anti endo and pro endo tags because I don't care who interacts with me. This might come as a surprise to some of you, but the majority of topics aren't bound or related to syscourse and stances.

When I post a new article about DID, I encourage pro/endos, CDD systems, and anti endos to reblog it. Why wouldn't I?

Origin discourse should NEVER come before resources, research, and general kindness

That statement shouldn't even be a question.

Your stance and personal beliefs don't change the article that I am presenting. If you think the article is good, reblog it.

Maybe that particular article isn't for you, but maybe the next one will be.

If someone doesn't want to stick around to see the next article, let them go, but I won't apologize for using both tags.

If I post about an internal communication technique, I would never restrict that to one side or the other. Systems aren't even the only people who benefit from training their internal communication-- that's just a genuine therapy technique used by singlets and systems and everything in between.

You might as well be telling me that people with OCD aren't allowed to use the technique I'm describing. Like, who cares, is it going to help them? Great, on to the next post.

Oh no, someone reblogged my post about a particular CPTSD feel and tagged it with plurality. Someone also tagged it with BPD, and PTSD, people tagged it with "me every time I'm stressed" and #OLD and #MUDs, people reblogged it laughing and joking in the tags and another poured their heart and trauma out into the world.

GRRRR, how dare they.

My post was for anti endos only 😤

Listen

Hot Take

But if you're at the point that you're gatekeeping resources, maybe just... give it a second thought. Revisit it a little.

Because that might be kind of messed up.

And you might be keeping someone from something that could turn their life around in a positive way. You could be keeping an endo from an article that might explain CDDs or trauma in just the right way for it all to suddenly make sense.

And in the same breath, you could be keeping someone else from an article that might explain plurality in just the right way.

But... that's kind of the point, isn't it? It's not resources going out that bothers you, but resources getting in.

You don't want your friends reading that article and making the choice themselves what to believe and think, and while you don't want to admit it, you're punishing people who seek out more information and research.

Maybe they're not the kind of people I want on my blog.

And that's okay...

[gerrydelano]

DANNY GOING 💥 ANON HERE. HEWWO. I AM SO GLAD THIS ISN'T CANON

this is perhaps??? the 8th time im rewriting this??????????? but i keep coming back to it. you're one of my favourite authors period so i HAD to just fuckging. absorb all of this so i could process it correctly.

okay okay so

1. widower tim breaks my fucking heart. like really there is no way to properly convey this to you over the screen. like. his whole thing is love, right? it's why he's the witness in literally every iteration of the gtcu. so for him to have to actually Witness gerry's death and be the most broken i have seen him across three aus where the world ends in every one of them breaks me. beyond belief. you and ren made him my favourite (next to danny) and then some. waugh

1b. 'a spire in the fog' A LIGHTHOUSE WITHOUT A LIGHT, YOU COULD SAY?

1c. i don't remember the ronologue it was exactly but it said that marriage wasn't a serious consideration but wife is a nickname that gerry loves?

2. pink is jon's honesty colour. he is wearing a pink kurta. i am going to sob.

2b. the description of the sunny day that gerry died on makes me wail.

3. MELANIE'S EVERYTHING. I LOVE HER SO MUCH. I LOVE LOVE LOVE THE IDEA OF HER MAKING A MEMORIAL VIDEO FOR GERRY FEATURING ALL THE STATEMENT GIVERS WHO WE HELPED. TIMOTHY HODGE. CAROLINE. CALLUM.

4. divishah and the cocoa. god. actually rewinding a little to say that i made it to 'no more estrogen' before crying. sasha did lose a sister!!!! HER BROTHER DIED AND SO DID HER SISTER. FUCK

4b. okay back to the cocoa. that was really kind of her to come all the way down to the archives just to bring them all a treat i love her so much.

4c. SASHA LIKE. REVERSE WITNESSING TIM? IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN IT BUT GOD. GOD GOD GOD /pos

4c(i) sasha and tim's sections ending the same then danny's ending as the inverse of that. they are the siblings 4ever.

5. DANNY. DANNY!

5b. okay i am really fucking pleased because i think i figured out a through line here. I will put it in a second ask because i need to back (9th time now!) to make sure i am correct so i will leave my miscellaneous observations here

danny only names himself in his dialogue once he recalls coming back when gerry can't

he calls himself the bull and Martin the tamer like how the contortionist did

tim standing in the doorway and blocking him out reminds me of hlm when danny comes to tims house the first time and tim refers the black out curtains he had to get bc of jon's stalking? that's like. the loosest connection ever lmao but it's a parallel and it hurts. (warm and solid vs cold and intangible...)

seconding this by the description of tim's eyes being the same way as the 'nothing. and nothing hurt' that keeps popping up in rtd.

also thanking you for letting danny cry? that sounds weird but it's nice to see a moc that just. is allowed to let it out. i am rotating him (all of them really) in my head

BOOM ANOOOON i'm so glad to see you! you really did just Infiltrate My Brain with that ask and i got completely overtaken and it feels like it's been more than 5 days ngl. thank you So much for the inspiration, i did have a lot of fun with this exercise, it was a challenge to kill my favorite LOL.

cracks knuckles here we go

1. widower tim breaks MY heart! "his whole thing is love, right?" you GET IT! his whole thing IS love! i can't see him as anything other than the witness at this point, even if pbr!witness is extremely different and Much Wetter than the original rtd!witness. him witnessing gerry's death in here is actually just fucking awful because he'd subsist on it in a very specific way; the arrangement renders it a suicide just as much as a murder. writing him this broken was so painful but so satisfying djhfkjdf tim is a worthy favorite to have! he's always been my favorite of the original archives crew, if it wasn't Blatantly Obvious by how much we center him LMAO.

1b. a lighthouse without a light.... you're krilling me, boom anon. shrimply krilling me.

1c. i believe it was the one about gerry being a transfem gay man!

2. pink! is the jon honesty color! yes!!!! he's been quite forthright this whole time i think, they're all really just. wondering what the point would be in anything else.

2b. i neeeeded that anachronism there so badly, just. it's a bright summer day! it's never actually raining or dreary when things like this happen (unless you recall that it was raining in venice when tim was drowned. that time it rained.) but generally, the world goes on. i think... i also just wanted that sunny day to be a little reminder of the kind of person gerry was at his core. symbolism etc etc.

3. i was SOOOO STUMPED ON MELANIE for a WHILE before i remembered she was a youtuber and then i exploded on the spot. her video is titled "the long overdue absolution of gerard keay" and she works for six months to make it perfect and it gets a lot of bad attention and skeptics but mostly condolences and maybe even a few people who had their own experiences but didn't recognize who he was until they saw a picture of him smiling. she'd include selfies they'd taken together as proof of her knowing him. i'm crying a little.

4. sasha losing a sister is a phrase i had a hard time with because there are so many ways to read it, like. that was her best friend's wife, and so kind of her sister that way, but also just. a sister. no more estrogen. no more joy.

4b. divshah is a sweet and thoughtful little bee girl and i am so sorry to her forever because people definitely make fun of her but GERRY NEVER DID! GERRY NEVER DID!

4c. sasha reverse witnessing tim GUHHHH yep! yep! her whole corruption thing is about grief, too, it crosses lines! they all have to do with loss in one way or another!

4c(i). YES YOU NOTICED THE INVERSE YESSSS my work here is complete

5. DANNY INDEED! FUCK!

5b. 9 times jhbfkjnfkjn wildman! i'm crying again!

observations:

YES I AM SO GLAD YOU NOTICED THAT TOO i didn't want him to name himself much in his pov section but i needed to use it there and GUH. you are the most observant and you made my night jdfhbdk

always comes back to the bullfighter and the bleeding man dunnit

that's a fun connection to make tbh!!!! i was saying to ren today "you know what'd Suck the most? if tim didn't even let him in the house and they just talked in the doorway" and they were like "then you have to do it. if it sucks the most that's what you have to do." and YEP! it sucks the most to me!!!! for precisely that reason!

tim's eyes also hurt me like hi mr. spooky man maybe work on that a little bit please g-d you're gonna scare a small child like that. very good connection to rtd though you are NAILING IT and i am over the MOON.

danny crying is extremely important to me for that reason too yes g-d. like. all the other men cried in this, too (especially tim YIKES, MAN) but something about letting danny just weep openly and in such a human way felt like. g-d he's needed this for such a long time. so much longer than anybody is able to count. he needed to let that out and be held through it and he needed to accept that comfort and it's not the first time, really! i try not to be too restrained with letting characters cry because there are a thousand reasons that somebody might like, feel good about seeing it just play out naturally and without shame.

thank you so much for your observations and your enthusiasm and just, everything, jfhbkjnfkjn gosh WOW thank you!

[redley-of-many-noodles]

Content Warning: Transphobia, Radical Feminism, etc.

Please do not interact with any of the tags mentioned here, or their sibling tags that fall within the same community. Just add them to your filter. It’ll be better for your mental health.

So, I just fell down an unfortunate rabbit hole.

Found a blog using Sylveon (the Pokémon) to represent anti-LGBTQ ideals. (Because the “For You” page thought I needed variety, I guess.) The logic was so fucked that I didn’t even understand it was meant as hate at first. I looked at their blog to try and understand, and quickly did. Started blocking them and the people who had interacted with them. A lot of pro-Israel stuff in their orbit too, unsurprisingly.

Then I noticed some of the tags. “Terfblr.” “Proud radfem.”

A TERF is a Trans-Exclusionary Radical Feminist, for anyone who doesn’t know what the acronym means.

It confused me that people used these tags. Why would someone want to make exclusion a part of their identity? Why would anyone call themselves a radical feminist? Definitions 2-4 on Dictionary.com explicitly describe the word as being used in regards to extreme beliefs:

Not “extreme” like LGBTQIA+ people wanting to have basic human rights and self-determination, but “extreme” like Trump’s views on the place of blacks and immigrants in society. “Extreme” like toxic masculine views on where women belong. “Extreme” like the feminists who indiscriminately hate men. “Extreme” like Nazi Germany’s views on the place of the ‘lesser races’ in society.

Those are the kind of “extreme” views that the word ‘radical’ describes. Not the “extreme” of Palestinians wanting Israel to stop committing genocide against them. Not the “extreme” of black Americans that took measures to defend themselves from police brutality like the Black Panther Party. Not the “extreme” of the USSR’s satellite states wanting their autonomy.

It makes me think they’re of the mindset that they’re being called “extremists” as an attack on feminism and not that they’re being called extremists because the beliefs they propagate are actively harmful and inherently hateful in nature.

There were tons of posts like this I found. Where transgender people were being demonized as men seeking to prey on women — largely ignoring that transmascs even existed (probably seen as “traitors” or some other bs logic). Demonizing them as people trying to use self identification as a means to invade safe spaces. And they always referred to us exclusively as “transsexual” from what I saw. Because ‘my gender is not your costume,’ and everybody seemed to be firmly rooted in a gender-binary mindset. That our identity was irrevocably determined by the circumstances of our birth. I even saw one post saying how disgusted they were by drag, because it was “a man’s mockery of a woman’s image.”

They called us monsters. For existing. For trying to be happy. For occasionally finding happiness.

They made it out as though transgenders could only be happy at the expense of the safety of women and children.

I don’t have a “point” to make with this. I just… wanted to express this.

This hate.

Because I have discovered what it feels like to truly hate someone, having seen what these disgusting humans consider “progressive.”

I hate it.

I hate you.

I hate that I understand this feeling now.

TERFs, for teaching me hate, I will never forgive you.

I will never forgive how I have been warped by you.

How you have twisted me.

I HATE YOU.

And I’m getting off this hellsite for the day, for my own good.

Goodbye.

[bills-bible-basics]

Why Am I in Facebook Jail? A lot of people seem to be confused regarding why they are sometimes -- and in some cases, often -- thrown into Facebook's infamous jail. I would like to share with you some of my personal observations, for your consideration. You can either accept it or reject it, as you please. Being thrown into Facebook jail does not necessarily just have to do with what you post. In other words, it is not solely -- or even always -- based on the nature of the content of your post. Yes, if you post something nasty such as porn, or something that Facebook views as strong hate speech, or try to sell guns or drugs, for example, I am sure that Facebook will throw you in jail. They may even just ban you from Facebook entirely and permanently. Can you really blame them? But extreme cases aside, my observation is that whether or not you are slapped on the wrist by Facebook has more to do with the frequency of your posts, and to how many other people you post, share, message or tag your content to within a specified period of time. That is why sometimes when you are chastised, a Facebook bot will send you a message telling you to slow down. Please notice that I said TO OTHER PEOPLE in the previous paragraph. You can post things on your own timeline to your heart's content, as much as you want, as fast as you want, and in whatever quantity you want. Facebook doesn't really care about that as much -- unless you are breaking their content rules obviously -- because you are on your own turf. It is when you start reaching out to others that Facebook keeps a sharper eye on your activity, and watches out for what appears to be spamming behavior. As I have mentioned before, when it comes to us Facebook Christians, I don't really think that being blocked, restricted, thrown in jail, or whatever, is solely because of our Christian beliefs. Yes, it is sometimes due to sharing our faith, but not always. In fact, I am convinced that quite often, our being chastised by Facebook is due to other reasons. Personally, I think it has more to do with the fact that, on the whole, we Christians on Facebook tend to be a rather zealous, enthusiastic lot of people. We have the truth of God's Word, and so we really want to share it with as many people as possible. Therein lies the problem, and the reason why some of us find ourselves facing jail time a lot more often than others. So because of our zeal for the Lord, what do we do? Quite simply, we go overboard sometimes. We post, tag, message and share to other Facebook users, more frequently, and to more people, than Facebook's quota algorithms allow. That is why so many of us get castigated, in my belief. In short, we do it to ourselves, and then we turn around and accuse Facebook of persecuting us because of our faith, when, in my view, that may not really be what is happening in some cases. For example, when I first joined Facebook in early 2011, and before I learned the ropes, I was blocked, restricted or thrown in jail a few times, because I didn't yet fully understand the aforementioned quota system, limitations and anti-spam safeguards that Facebook has in place. And to be honest, there were probably times when I honestly didn't care, and was willing to take the risks, because I wanted to get out the Word. How about you? Come on now. Be honest with yourself. Once I figured it all out, I wasn't chastised by Facebook for years, because I made sure that I played within their rules of conduct. That is, until the time when I began tagging my friends again, after receiving their specific permission to do so. This is a very important point, so please listen up. You really don't want to start tagging people left and right, whether they are your friends or not, unless you know for certain that they want to be tagged. Why take unnecessary risks? Let me put it to you this way. If you keep tagging a pile of people from whom you did not receive permission first, sooner or later, some of them are going to become annoyed, and you are going to find yourself in a big heap of trouble. Now here's the thing. If they do become annoyed by your constant tags, they may not play nice. In other words, instead of asking you nicely to stop tagging them, they may just go behind your back and start marking all of your tags as spam. Do you know what will happen if Facebook receives enough complaints regarding your uninvited tags? That's right! To jail you go, buddy! You see. You did it to yourself. Of course, the problem here is that we users don't know what Facebook's daily quotas are for different activities, because they absolutely refuse to tell us. Not only that, but Facebook is always changing the value of these daily quotas, in order to keep us off guard. I understand the logic of their approach. It is a way to force us to be conscious of what we are doing, and to be careful regarding our posting, sharing, messaging and tagging levels. Now, one thing you don't want to do is to keep making the same mistake over and over again. If Facebook suddenly restricts your activities, or throws you in jail, don't just get angry at them. Stop and try to figure out why you find yourself in that situation. What were you doing beforehand? You see, the way it works is this: Each time that you make the same mistake, Facebook's automated system sees that, and your punishment time -- that is, your jail time -- will simply be extended longer and longer each time that you make that same mistake, to the point where you may find yourself spending more time in jail, than out of jail. Kind of dumb on your part isn't it? Let me emphasize again that it is not just about the quantity of your posts, shares, messages, tags or whatever. It is also about the frequency or speed with which you do it. In other words, let's assume that on one particular day, Facebook has set a tagging quota of 200 per user. Of course, you will have no way of knowing that this is the quota for that day. But let's say that you have only tagged 60 people that day, when all of a sudden, you are booted to jail. Wow! What happened? Surely you hadn't tagged too many people already! In other words, maybe you didn't break the quantity quota that day, but maybe you did break the frequency -- or speed -- quota. In other words, you were tagging people too fast, and Facebook's system interpreted that as spam activity. Do you understand? To reiterate, sometimes we are indeed harassed unfairly by liberal-minded Facebook employees who are annoyed by or who disagree with our Christian faith. After all, there are rotten apples in every barrel. But sometimes we also bring these problems upon ourselves by breaking Facebook's posting, sharing and tagging rules. In conclusion, when you are stopped, jailed, blocked or locked out of your account, quite often it is a result of Facebook trying to control spam and other forms of abuse on its global network, and may have little to do with your personal faith. With an estimated two billion users, many millions of whom are simultaneously online every single day, it is not an easy task. As a result, sometimes their bots and algorithms do make mistakes, or what are referred to as "false positives". Their bots can be overly aggressive, and they incorrectly identify some actions taken by users. Facebook has admitted as much. But at least Skynet hasn't arrived yet, and we aren't just being wiped out! :) So that is my take on this issue. What do YOU think? https://www.billkochman.com/Blog/index.php/why-am-i-in-facebook-jail/?feed_id=247554&Why%20Am%20I%20in%20Facebook%20Jail%3F

[flaame]

Intro Post ?!

(since my last one is outdated as hell) (includes extra things about me and my DNI / BYF)

🥀 Quill

🦇 Minor (14-15), Dec.24

🥀 Transmasc Genderflorer (He/Vey/it)

🦇 Quite a few labels but the main ones are aromantic, pan(platonic), and aceflux

🥀 Digital artist specializing in feral, anthro, and more recently human(oid) art

🦇 Neurodivergent (ADHD), very likely disabled (N24, currently looking into diagnosis), anxiety disorder (via nyctophobia + pyrophobia)

DNI :

Basic DNI Criteria

If you’re against neopronouns, xenogenders, etc

Transmed / TERF / Truscum / Transphobe / etc (I’m like,, I’m literally a transmasc genderflorer person. Lol)

If you are ok with / costume / support feral NSFW

Are heavily right-wing, a Trump Supporter, a conspiracy theorist, or anything of the sort. If you are any of these then I will block you for personal comfort.

If you are an NSFW-centered account

If you support or are an ‘AI Artist’

If you are pro-life / anti-abortion. Your beliefs genuinely scare the shit out of me.

BYF / BYI :

I have some major trauma due to politics, to the point where I am unsure if I’ll even vote when I’m old enough to. For that reason, please do not bring them up around me unless I bring them up first.

As previously said, I have nyctophobia and pyrophobia, which for me the two are particularly bad. Do /not/ show me pictures of wildfires or bring them up please. Same goes for that ‘momo’ creepypasta thing.

I swear pretty freely if that wasn’t apparent already! If you don’t want me to swear around you then please let me know ^^

I have a very hard time telling when someone is teasing me, even if I am close to them / know them. Please don’t tease me and if needed then please use tonetags!

I think I’d consider myself as someone who kins, specifically I’d consider myself to kin Shiver from Splatoon 3 (+ Hollyleaf from Warrior Cats). I don’t really mind people who also kin them, but if you’d be comfortable not interacting with me because you also kin them then that’s fine! (/gen)

EXTRA NOTES / THINGS TO KNOW :

Due to my own personal irl (mental) safety, as of September 1st I’ve had to stay off Tumblr for a while. I am slowly beginning to come back as of September 18th, but for that safety reason I will not be uploading my art as much as I did for a while.

I block somewhat freely. If I see that you are queerphobic, bigoted, very right-wing, a Trump supporter, ableist, pro-life, or ANYTHING of the sort then I will block you.

I’m always open for conversation! However if you do want to talk to me then it’d be appreciated if you could do so on ToyHouse (Flaame) or Discord (Flaaminq), and if you do so through disc then please let me know where you came from ^^

INTERESTS :

SHARKS!!!!! Literally BIGGEST hyperfixation for me rn omg pleasepleaseplease talk to me about them

Dog breeds! Been fixated on them for like 7 years now lol

Splatoon (especially,,, especially Shiver……)

Panic! At The Disco

Set It Off

My ocs (feel free to ask me about ANY of them!! Always happy to share :3)

ok uh well that should be all!! Again feel free to talk to me about anything really, just preferred that you do it offsite like on Toyhouse or Discord :DD

[crackrodent]

Dear Anon, the person you are sending these death threats to is the reason I smile when I see the color pink. Pink is the color of her words when she spreads love. Pink is the color my face turns when she takes my crazy ideas with value. Pink is the color I hated for years until I met her.

Dear Anon, the writer you are sending this to is the first person who I ever felt actually comfortable asking for constructive criticism from. She was the only person I knew could be clear, fair, and kind. She's the only person I ever felt wanted to see me improve enough to actually lend a hand.

Dear Anon, this is the mutual I get most excited to see reblogged my work. I just know that she can take a story I felt I failed to do the concept justice for and turn around and tell me each of her favorite parts. She's the reason I want to keep trying out new ideas—ideas that may be too odd for some of the fandom.

Dear Anon, this is the person who saw one picture of me and immediately started calling my greatest insecurity "cute". She's the reason I hate one less thing looking in the mirror.

Dear Anon, I am a very annoying person. I have been called it frequently in my life. To the point, I am often convinced all my friends secretly hate me but this person, right here, the person you have told "if u died the world would be a better place loloololol", is one of the few people who has made it a point to show me that she actually does like being friends with me. And I don't even think she noticed.

I am not sure if you ever read the story about the little kid chucking starfish off the sand back into the water, but I am going to link it here. Red has tossed a lot of us starfish back into the water. I hope someday to be able to help as many people as she can.

Dear Anon, I love getting to be friends with Red. Beyond her writing on Tumblr, beyond the amazing work she does on the VoxTek Discord, beyond simply floating in fandom space together, her smallest words bring so much light to my life.

Dear Anon, I hope you learn someday not to be a fucking cunt. That way we can all just enjoy the fandom together. Only a coward hides behind online anonymity.

Dear Anon, before you criticize a writer's work you should at least learn how to spell. Really? ur, u, cuz, urself. This isn't old-school Twitter where there's a character limit. I doubt you are typing on a 2008 Nokia. You can spell your words correctly.

Dear anyone else receiving hate from shitty anons, you deserve better. No one deserves this kind of hate. This is shitty people needing to drag everyone down with them. People who need to go anon to "defend their beliefs" or "make a stand" already know they are being assholes for no reason. They anon so they don't get hate back.

Dear people who are friends with people who send shitty messages online anonymously, tell your friends to stop. Tell them about the harm they are doing to people for no reason other than their own inability to learn how to block content they don't want to see. Tell them that this type of shit isn't funny or helpful to any form of protest they are attempting to have.

Dear people who think "Who cares, it's just stupid comments", you're right. The comments are stupid. But its the axe's job to stop chopping not the trees' fault for getting fucking struck.

Dear Red, I love you. Please never stop being you.

PSA: Hate Message/Bullying

This will be my last message regarding the negative messages I’ve been receiving. To the person or group responsible, you’ve crossed a line. While this message is directed at you, it's also meant for others in the Hazbin Hotel community who may be experiencing similar negativity and feel isolated.

Please remember, you are not alone.

CW/TW: inflammatory language, suicide, death threat, provocative language

Annonie, when I woke up this morning to over 20+ messages, I felt confused. As I started reading through all the hate, I found myself wondering, "What did I do to trigger this?" But then I stopped and realized—it’s not me. It’s YOU.

For a moment, I thought about quitting. I honestly considered giving up writing here because it didn’t feel worth the constant barrage of negativity, especially when I’m already juggling so much stress in my real life. But there's something stubborn in me—a part that refuses to back down, even when faced with such blatant, childish hate. Maybe it's my age, or just my nature, but I found myself trying to understand you.

I want to tell you to stop before it goes too far.

Words have power. Have you ever been taught that?

I don’t know if you write stories yourself, but if you do, you know how words can evoke so many emotions—joy, comfort, sorrow—giving someone an escape or a friend in the pages. But words can also destroy. They can crush dreams, steal hope, and even push someone to the edge.

I lost a friend to online bullying. One of my closest people was taken away because of hate-filled words from a stranger. Do you understand the weight of that? They were a lover, a friend, a family member, and in a single moment of hatred, that person lost their future. Someone’s thoughtless words robbed them of happiness, of possibility.

You see, while I can take your hate, I worry about the others in this community who might not. I’m more concerned about the impact you might be having on someone else who’s already struggling.

It only takes one bad day to ruin someone’s life. And isn’t that just heartbreaking?

I’m not asking you to be a hero or a saint.

I’m asking you to be a human being—to show some compassion.

[fragileasaflower]

Rules and Info

1. This is an Alternate Universe ask blog

Characters can and will act differently from their canon counterparts. While I try to keep the characters somewhat grounded and consistent, I do not shy away from straying from canon. If you dislike OC-heavy stories, AUs that stray far from canon or characterisation that's not canon-compliant/"OOC" you will not enjoy this blog or story.

2. I am not my characters

I am merely playing characters that have their own biases and opinions. They might express beliefs that I do not agree with. You are dealing with unreliable narrators, and I am merely the person role-playing them. Please remember that behind this blog is a real person, use common sense and treat others how you want to be treated.

3. I am happy to do roleplays, collabs and even touch on darker topics, but...

Please, give me a heads-up and discuss these things with me. Don't thrust your characters onto me in a spontaneous roleplay. Don't, for example, send bigotry and slurs aimed at my characters out of the blue.

4. Interactions with other blogs,, OCs, M!As and shipping are fully welcomed

Keep in mind they might not be canon to the story itself, just the canon of this ask blog! I reserve the right to retcon the interaction and no longer make it canon if I feel like it doesn't suit the story.

5. I might not answer everyone's messages

Either I don't have the time, energy, or simply don't know how to fit the question into the story or how to reply to it, or somebody has asked the same question and I got to it first/it was formulated in a way that got my attention/would work better for the story. It's nothing personal. Please don't spam my inbox with the same question over and over again (one or two times is fine since Tumblr has a tendency to eat asks).

6. I might make blunders and have to retcon some things as i write them!

This is a fun little side-project of mine, I'm not writing a novel, I don't have beta-readers, and oftentimes, I will not be spending time sitting multiple minutes over an ask or two to make it as in-character as possible. I have an image of how the characters work in my head, yet correctly putting that characterisation into words and actual writing is a skill that I am still actively learning, I might return to something a few hours or days later and realise that it's out of character and have to edit or retcon it. It happens! I am only a human, and I make blunders. The story is also actively being worked on and doesn't have a script, things might change or I might remember things wrong. It's a silly AU ask blog and not a full-on book or even fanfiction.

7. No DNI, if you make me uncomfortable or are being rude, I'll just block your ass with no hesitation. Won't hesitate to turn off anon either.

I understand people can forget the difference between the mod and the character, and I've had my fair share of unhinged ask blog messages in the past. I am gently tapping points #2 and #3.

[space-station-collective]

oh hey here's a Helpful (takes a bit for me to describe Why i think it's helpful, so you can skip to like the last two paragraphs if you dont care about that /gen)

something that i struggle a lot with is being very impulsive when it comes to.. well, most things. but the thing in question here is responding to people being shitty online

see, the thing is, while the internet is a vast and wonderful place filled with good information and kind people who you will get along with, it is also a vast place with the capability to house people with not-so-great beliefs, and it is inevitable you will at some point come across at least a handful of those guys, especially if you're on a side of the internet like disability, queer, system, or really any more serious section of the internet

i often find that when i see someone openly (and often proudly) declaring their beliefs that are usually actually very harmful towards people, i have a very strong urge to pick a fight with them, be sarcastic at them, tell them they're wrong, or just... engage. at all. even in a genuine attempt to educate them

the thing is.. that's not gonna work. it never is. if someone is so deeply entrenched in their beliefs that they're gonna post about it like that online, a stranger talking shit in their direction or offering up helpful resources is going to change their mind almost zero of the time. this goes for people i agree with, as well. it's just unlikely. the most likely thing is that, more likely than not, the person who chooses to engage will get blocked or vague insults thrown at them, sometimes worse things like doxxing or slurs

i find in general, it's best not to engage at all, regardless of how strongly you disagree with the person

sometimes, though, it can be incredibly difficult to see someone declaring such harmful things and feel okay with letting yourself walk away and not speak up. i assure you, you do not need to be the hero. it's not worth risking your own well-being just to correct a troll on the internet

so what do you do to get those emotions out? i've found that something very helpful is writing down exactly what i would want to say to this person, disregard all sense of courteousy, even, and write it down somewhere. notes app, google doc, one of those shout to the void websites, hell i've told my friends what i'd say to these trolls before (prefacing the context first, of course). block the person, and write down what you would say to them. this way, you aren't risking yourself by engaging, but you can still get those emotions out into the world, even a part of the world only you can see, and you can still have that release

as a matter of fact, i want to open this post up to do exactly that. if you have something you really want to say to a shitty person on the internet, go right ahead! this is your place! in the replies or the reblogs, go ahead and say what you want to get out. i will say, do not give any indication of who the person is or what exactly their initial post was, absolutely zero information that can trace back to the poster. i also ask that if you do this, please do not make direct threats, use slurs, or other harmful language directed at the person when going through this post to do it. tag anything else that may need tagged, triggers or content wise, at your discretion. beyond that, do your thing. say what you gotta say in the tags, this is your place to do so (probably say somewhere in that reblog, though, what you're doing or at least that the post directs you to. i would rather not have people thinking i'm getting shit talked at me /lh)

i'm going to start reblogging the post myself and talking in the tags, whenever i see something that makes me want to do just that, and i hope with this i can help more people to better their own internet presence and health. stay safe all :]

-the host (he/they)

[yors-truly]

[REPOSTING because I found the right version in my drafts]

I don't know how well received this'll be but I'm suddenly very compelled to reach out.

As of recently, I've been pretty down in the dumps about this passion project of mine, wondering if the changes I've been making are necessary, how effective things come across, etc. As a solution to finding out if I'm on the right track or not, I would like to reach out for some aid!

Beyond Time and Space is looking for feedback!

IT'S A JOURNEY - A RACE - BEYOND TIME AND SPACE. When an often-flighty young girl is conflicted by her desire to express her capabilities and her fear of doing more than what she can handle, the moment arises when a team of brave individuals are needed to carry out a quest to explore and gather information on alternate universes. However, the drive of another blocks their path in reigning successful; so much so, the team is left to go on a journey that’s much longer than they wished.

Beyond Time and Space is a character-driven sci-fi fantasy portal world story, targeting an adolescent/YA audience. The story is written in screenplay format, as I have the slightly ambitious intention of this becoming an animated series in the near-or-far future.

If you're a fan of narratives consisting of fantasy worlds, finding understanding and tolerance, a majority queer and/or neurodivergent main cast, characters exploring and adapting to the unknown, and finding courage and acting with bravery despite what the characters tell themselves, then please consider!

More info and sign-up form under the cut...

GENRE: SFF (sci-fi fantasy), portal world/portal fantasy, adventure

THEMES: courage and bravery (main), hope, coming of age, friends and family, love (and letting it go), power (and the lack thereof), loyalty and commitment.

CONTENT WARNINGS: fantasy violence, metaphorical and literal displays of mental health topics (depression, anxiety, PTSD, etc.), mentions of war, character death/harm, discrimination, fictitious religions/practices and beliefs that highly resemble real life religions.

POV: past tense, Multi-POV, 3rd person.

SCHEDULE: Nothing set in stone as of now, as (1) the story is still a WIP and (2) my family is currently in the process of moving (plus I understand that life gets in the way of things all the time), but I'm thinking between May 20th to June 1st for sign-ups, and the entire month of June for reading, according to how things are looking over here, though if extensions are needed for any and every reason, I'll be willing to comply. The plan is to start this first round with just the first episode (currently around 8k words - 53 pages).

REQUIREMENTS: A list of requirements follows:

The ability to read (have it be with your eyes or with a screen reader);

Though please note: my experience has told me that there may be errors with TTS when it comes to translating scripts, so if need be I can find a way to reformat things so it'll translate better.

Availability at any point within the time frame (the month of June);

Filling out the form linked below.

As noted before, the game plan is to send off the script to the first episode once line edits are completed and May 20th comes around (news flash: they are!). While the script itself is a PDF, I can totally convert it to a Word or Google doc according to personal preferences (which you can select in the forum). You're also free to stop and opt out whenever you like, if the experience isn't suiting your fancy :) So long as you let me know, obviously.

I'll be sure to add another form with the script itself that'll ask specific questions and allow you to elaborate on any thoughts you might've had while reading. Mainly looking for pacing, narrative consistency, characterization and if their motives/desires are clear, things along that line. I'm willing to be flexible, though, so anything extra you want to bring up will also be looked at and listened to!

Also, forgot to mention, but I would love to be open to beta reading in exchange around the same time frame these go out! I will admit, I don't have a lot of experience myself - in fact I'm just starting with the first book I've volunteered for - but if you'd like someone who's a casual reader to look at your work for free, keep me in your subspace and don't hesitate to hit me up!

LINKS: All to the form itself (CLOSED UNTIL MAY 20TH), the Beyond Time and Space sideblog (with the intro post pinned), and my main blog are here!

Thanks to anyone and everyone who reads this, signs up, and/or boosts this post! Taking this step is a really big deal for me right now, and while all of the possibilities plus my project being undone makes me a little nervous, I'm hoping that maybe this'll give me the opportunity I need to grow, and you the opportunity to gather some experience!

If you have any questions ever about anything, please let me know! I know I probably missed a few important details here or there, as this is my first time hooking up one of these. Apologies!

[virgosjukebox]

I am one who believes in reincarnation, and after some ooc stuff that's happened(that's seemed to align with what my spirits have told me in regards to a certain situation) I felt it was time to learn more about me from an astrological and metaphysical(the past lives) standpoint. Honestly so far in my readings(I'm not finished with my birth chart analysis yet) everything has been nearly to a t with understanding how I work with the world and how the world works with me.

Below are some of the things that resonate heavily with me from my past life reading, in quote form:

'you were not one to follow the rules without expressing an opinion forcefully. revolutionary ideas came often.'

'you did get sad or depressed when stuck in roles that you knew didn't match your needs.'

'creating your own standards of perfection turned out better than trying to please everyone else.'

'you either got what you wanted or died trying'

'boredom with life when it grew too predictable occured'

'adapting to new circumstances is something you did rather successfully'

'you had high expectations. it doesn't mean you were always a perfectionist'

'you hated criticism. it stopped you from really showing your true talent'

'the types of partners(romantic or platonic) were as varied as possibly could be. even peers came from a wide array of backgrounds'

'you liked individuals with progressive minds'

'equality in partnerships was essential to your happiness'

'your philosophy tended to be eclectic in nature'

'your subconscious tendency was to think first and believe later'

'you were happier when feeling in control of your life'

For reference: in this life I am a Virgo(Virgo Sun, Libra Moon, Virgo Rising, Virgo Ascendant, and Virgo Venus). In past lives however, I was a Leo Rising.

Another thing not quoted here but I've also seen in my chart analysis, and perhaps it's why the recent ooc situation that happened did happen. I put all my eggs in one basket, in terms of attempting to care for myself and someone else. They never heeded my advice when it came to their own problems/substance issues(either high on edibles, or probably od'ing on caffeine from energy drinks and still managing to function) to the point where I just needed to step back from them(the blocking on my Twitter with all their accounts rp or writer account wise, as well as blocking on Discord and Snapchat). They got so mad about it because I didn't give them a reason.

My belief is that people don't need a reason especially if said reason was for mental and emotional peace. Several readings this week in regards to my sign have stated that they were an emotional vampire. And now that I look back at it and how they exploded in reaction to me not telling them why I blocked them and me blocking them in the first place, after quietly trying to lean away from them(which they said was okay to do after they blew up at me) didn't work, I made the right decision. I've never been happier about doing something either.

It talked a lot about the arts, how in past lives it was always central to my happiness. As well as traveling to quell stress and anxiety. I'm always yearning to travel, even now. Along with the arts being an integral form of stress relief and true happiness.

[enelea]

I am sad😓 I so love being a part of the Sims2 community and sharing with everyone plus seeing what everyone is doing in their games, but I am finding that those that will be the first to point out if someone is excluding others are the same people who don't care if they offend someone else and I am going to be blunt - specifically Christian's who love God and want to honour Him seems to be on the chopping block. People believe what they want and each live their lives according. I am not forcing my views on others. If someone doesn't like me posting a Bible verse inbetween then I assume they will just page by and ignore it and generally I am able to just page by posts that don't interest me. However there's a big difference in just posting something important to you and trying to shock, mock and blaspheme. I have to say some fellow Simmers are really doing this in a very shameful way and I honestly can't understand why people feel the need to do this. Can't you just respect my beliefs just like I am supposed to respect yours?!. Yes I am a Sims player, but my first loyalty is to my Saviour and I don't think you can expect me to sit back and be quite while you blast my God who I love with your disrespectful filth. Please, it isn't necessary to go out of your way to try and hurt people just because you have some personal hateful issues with God. I hope this will reach the right audience 🫣

[forjustice]

Made/am making some more changes to soften my tone and clear up a few misconceptions people might have about my standards, might want to run it through further edits but right now there are a few major things I would like to draw attention to.

The first is that I added this new rule:

🌙 If you do not or no longer wish to interact with me, I ask you to please block me everywhere as well instead of simply unfollowing or softblocking. This is because Tumblr constantly messes up following and unfollowing, and I prefer certainty.

The second is that I clarified in the "Disclaimer: On Reading" section that I do not expect constant 750+ word replies, or even constant long replies in general. It was brought to my attention that it might have come across that way, so I wanted to clarify that I am only talking about reading rather than writing. I have also made it extra clear that you are not required to read every headcanon or worldbuilding post that I do. However, my wish for my partners is that they are okay with reading long metas in general and are able to engage with them. This is because a lot of my info is stored in long metas, and it is discouraging if I send my ideas to partners and no meaningful discussion ever comes out of it.

The third thing I will add to these blog-specific rules as soon as I am able:

The Yumean people who I write about are roughly coded as Jewish. Yumeans are not a 1:1 with Judaism as I have taken some liberties to allow for more conformity to Pokémon canon. But you will see many references to Jewish culture and religion in their worldbuilding; anything Abrahamic about their worldbuilding and beliefs is being written from a Jewish, not Christian perspective. In addition to this, the Draconid, Sootopolitan and Lavaridgean Yumean peoples are coded as Indigenous. I do my best to portray these things sensitively, especially since I am still learning as someone becoming a part of the Jewish community. But if you are Jewish or Indigenous and you see anything problematic, I am 100% open to feedback!

This is a worldbuilding fact that I was originally planning to not bring up until someone noticed that the Yumeans were Jewish-coded because I was wondering if anyone would point it out. But I figured I should state it outright, because I have wanted to post some things about the Yumeans that would only be acceptable if people knew I was doing it from inside the Jewish community. In addition, I realized that the whole origin story of the Yumean people would seem like a big reference to Christianity because it touches on a lot of things shared between the Torah and Old Testament, so I just wanted to put it out there that nope, it's Jewish :P

Thank you all for reading! <3

Made some overall changes to my rules to make them sound less mean, also made some cuts to the rules for things that I doubted would end up being issues. Except for the part where I go off about AI. AI users have no rights. GALDKSFJADSLKFJSADLKFJ