#being a teenager sucks ass

[lionblaze03-2]

sometimes I think about writing and singing music not because I’m an incredible singer but because no one has my fucking voice, especially in popular music, and its disheartening to be born a girl, told you’ll only get girl roles or try to voice match other girls, or ‘sing with the girls’ and then only be able to match male voices because you’re a fuckin tenor and not anything higher. I can’t think of any girl Broadway roles I can hit all the notes on. Most songs I love I have to pitch down for myself or use falsetto for singing along to. It bothers me a lot less now because I’m an adult who’s more secure in myself but as a teen in kids musical theatre it FUCKED with me, BAD style. And I know for a fact that even now when I hear people with a voice like mine singing I get excited and immediately invested in their work because they’re like ME, finally, for once. A brother in this world of being afab and having the voice of a recently pubescent boy forever. Maybe I should be that brother too.

[tanabeth]

my brain is so fucking stupid. I was bullied in fourth grade, my friends were like “actually erm we don’t want to be friends with you :/“ on the second to last day of eighth grade (even though we were all zoned for different high schools and would never see eachother anyway). And because of that my brain is, as my therapist and mother (two different people,) theorized, “hyper vigilant for any perceived social ostrichaztion”. The thing is it’s fucking stupid about it. Sure it has the generic “uwu your friends probably hate you secretly” thing.

But it also. Like: I’ll see a post that is somewhat negative towards a thing I like or a trait I even remotely identify with (including stuff as vague as ‘nervous’ or ‘writer’) and I’ll be like “yeah that makes sense” or “I don’t agree but I also don’t care”. But then my brain will repeat the negative phrase on loop for like a week. And will trigger physical reactions (crying, shortness of breath, etc) in response to it. I’ve actually had public panic attacks over things I give 0 shits about because my brain is a fucking helicopter parent.

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

my various mental issues make liking people so hard because i already put people on a pedestal to begin with if i genuinely like them so i am automatically laying myself at their feet like a dog but then i wrestle with the ego death of seeing that they're just a human being who is capable of being wrong and stupid and annoying me and it kind of makes me sick to my stomach not because i expect people to be perfect but because i know if i had like 5 minutes to sit down and talk to this person i would feel more secure in knowing where they stand on any given thing. but you aren't granted that when you just like some random guy who will never know you because you can't take the feeling of someone who could actually know you. or whatever.

[astranauticus]

the whole joke about seeing discourse pass like the shadow of a whale under a ship becomes a lot less funny when the shadow is like. the creator of something your really like responding to a criticism that is frankly completely baffling for people to raise against said thing. anyway if i find out who are the people calling the summer hikaru died queerbaiting im beating them to death with hammers

[hellsballz]

is it still cool and hip with the youth to have ninjago ocs? erm idk but heres my guy, hes a total loser and works at ninjago walgreens or sumthing

[ne0nlightzz]

I feel like being obsessed with tmnt growing up is just a precursor to being into crappy video games about war and fictional men who 70% of the fandom finds hot and like 30% doesn't even play the games and just watched the game play and read as much as they could because they either don't play video game, don't want to/can't pay for the games or don't own a console or are secretly ashamed of the fixation.

[rocknrollinbitchforu]

guess who had a date with the girl they were posting about and then now probably doesn't 👍🏻

[forgetful-river]

Aradia is kinda a weird character to make content for because she has two distinct personality shifts throughout Homestuck and one that we know happened in the past. I really like how much there is to dig into there, but it is a bit hard to wrap your head around how much that'd affect you as a person, ya know?

[j-esbian]

sometimes i really do want to study the flavor of intense misogyny from older folks, especially when it comes from older women, that assumes all women and girls are sluts and deviants because (checks notes) fashion trends, which the individual consumer has no control over, means that most people’s only options, especially in summer, are to wear somewhat revealing clothing. because it’s hot.

[sonicenvy]

worst thing about legal weed in my state is that it smells like weed every-fucking-where here now. Like, tbh I don't really care what other people do, and if weed is your thing, go you! Have fun, get high! I just would rather not have to smell super skunky-ass fucking smelling weed when I'm on the train, at the park, or on the bus. Presumably there is somewhere the fuck else that you can go to smoke that is not on public transportation or in parks where there are CHILDREN, why do you not do that instead?????

Cigarette smokers have also similarly lost their damn minds since 2020. The cigs actually make me angrier bcs second hand cig smoke is practically as bad as smoking yourself when you're breathing in that shit. have these fools no consideration for:

literal fucking children who should not be exposed to that shit

everyone who is trying to quit that might be triggered by it

everyone who doesn't want to breath in smoke

literally anyone who isn't themselves

?????

god forbid y'all have to wait an extra twenty fucking minutes to light up somewhere else.

ok. rant over.

[ninoochat]

oh finally an age appropriate relationship for debbie-

[michi-chelle]

“but i fear that they already got all the best parts of me” goes so hard

[littencloud9]

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[lostinmyownlilgayworld]

it feels so weird thinking about the fact that i will no longer be a teenager in about two months ish ive wasted most of my teenage years pretending to be someone i’m not cus i wanted to fit in really badly and i just recently started dressing& presenting the way i want to and i just feel like i’m falling behind

[catboydan]

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[celticwoman]

one of my sisters is sad because she hasnt made any friends in their new school + misses her friends from the old school :-/