#being 15 was rough

[newkindofl0ve]

TSATS SPOILERS!!!!

nico crying in almost every chapter is so real. that boy has like 3 moods: gushing over will, rage and sobbing

[arielluva]

going through these entries and god i forgot how insane i was going at 15/16 from the conservative parents + covid combo holyyyy

i wish i could tell my 15 year old self that things will at least be a little better. or give them a metaphorical hug or something. like fuck theres so many entries in that diary app bc i had nowhere else to vent about this shit

trying to get my old diary entries off my old phone but holyyyy shit is this broken touchscreen annoying... i have to press so hard just to click one thing 😭😭😭 especially when i wrote really long entries and so i have to. scroll.. so painfully slowly..

[front-facing-pokemon]

[deardarlingthings]

i can't believe the man himself, ted lasso settled for 'fine'

or was he not ready when the lightening struck?

[clingyduoapologist]

AC1 haters are so funny because they’re always like “it’s so poorly designed! Why is it so repetitive!!” Like huh I wonder if the ruthless structured efficiency with which we’re expected to carry out our assassinations has anything to do with any Lessons Altair learns over the course of the game 🤔🤔🤔

[dazais-guardian-angel]

kinda wild to me that one of the most compelling aspects of both Chuuya and Kunikida's characters to me, that I never really see talked about, is how they're heavily set on a doomed crash course towards complete and utter destruction, and how I am so, so worried for them both.....

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

mori and dazai are such an interesting relationship and it sucks that any analysis of them is bogged down by talks of experimentation and/or pedophilia

[haarute]

something i realized in the recent years is that while my mom is a very nice person and i can understand why she is the way that she is sometimes, she had a history of always dismissing and throwing away things that were important to me, and in hindsight that certainly had an effect on both my trust in her and how much i was willing to ever share, and also just turned me into a dumpster goblin because i just gave up on ever having nice things so why bother ever caring about my personal space at all ✌️ i'll just live in the filth because we'll never have anything better after all !!

[daily-lightbulbii]

(//i don't normally do text but cw in the tags erm. i went a little off track)

[kenobihater]

you ever write up a combination of words you're really proud of at the time bc you think it's vivid but it's actually so atrocious that you remember it eight years later bc it's burned itself into your long-term memory? just me?

[whoblewboobear]

The biggest mistake of having this blog for so long is that now I just follow 4000+ blogs and I barely see posts from people I like and care about now vs blogs I straight up just follow and don’t know why.

I think Liam’s passing and the onslaught of posts from blogs I haven’t seen in years just flooding my dash has been.. it’s been a lot. Like I loved one direction when I was younger and now I somewhat keep up with solo careers. But I’m a different person now than the kid that NEEDED this band to get through the day. In the last few years I’ve been trying really hard to move away from feeling obsessive about celebrities and my dash looking like it did 9-10 years ago has been tripping me out.

I wanna do an overhaul of who I follow. I wish there was an easier way to mass unfollow without just losing mutuals or blogs a love. Idk. If we’re moots and you noticed I’ve unfollowed, just shoot me a message so I can re-follow.

[bloodwards]

guess whose unemployed era is coming to an end <3

[arsenicflame]

the way i play with Izzyverse is with every Izzy forming from a branching timeline- that they were all the same at some point, only one thing sent them off on the path to be "someones". some are obvious; Sam, Ed, Jack & Hornigold branch from the mutiny- a split second decision on who to go with, a miss timed hit leaving him in Hornigolds grasp- but the others are less so. how would he become Jackie's, or Ned's, or Anne and Mary's? what happens to make an Izzy Stede's? how do they even meet?

[why-rock-look-tasty-if-no-eat]

Gods forbid I, someone who has a(n undiagnosed) sleeping disorder and is a heavy sleeper, accidentally falls asleep for forty minutes after being awake for thirty hours and doesn't wake up when yelled, by a person who doesn't know volume, at through a closed window when my loud ass fan is running. It was because they were mad I couldn't help them carry in four bags 💀

They went up to my doorway and yelled at me for not helping when they very well could have woken me up before bringing 'everything' in. Then told me that I shouldn't be sleeping so much. Like, okay. Guess I'll go back to my old sleeping pattern of staying awake for 35 hours and sleeping for 4 hours. Like, fuck me I guess

[gettingnowherefaster]

the last man standing....

[soggypotatoes]

went to a huge Taylor Swift dance party last night with a friend, I haven't listened to her since I was like 14 honestly and almost didn't go, Ive been so stressed abt uni bc damn.. I was super ahead and then got knocked out by depression for 2 weeks and now I'm super behind.. anyway, I messaged her and said I'm not doing well bc I have essays due I haven't started on, and she was like 'are you actually gonna do them though or are you gonna sit around feeling anxious bc you might as well feel anxious while dancing with friends'

and I was like. yknow what you're spot on. I absolutely am not gonna do them tonight. so I went, and lads, it was such a good decision. we danced for over 4 hours straight no breaks it was crazyyy

it's a risk to admit here that you went crazy to tswift lmao, I have mixed feelings about her, but her songs are perfect for going batshit crazy to with ur friends in a crowded room with sick lighting so I'm gonna be unapologetic about it haha. sometimes you gotta