#behavior in a completely different environment.... which is really hard

[simcardiac-arrested]

cream ... clawing at your legs ... coughs all over you ... i need. to know more about sep + wayback in severance .i need to know. Please. please. clawing you. pleaes

there is more thought to be had about them but so far what i have is: wayback's sense of justice and desire for fairness is an inherent trait of his, so when he ends up severed and in the walls of lumon -- he, of course, becomes rebellious. helly style. he's still kind, but he's not nice, because being nice and finding the good in everything and being passionate and etc etc -- all those behaviors are something wayback nurtured in himself. without that nurture, without the repression and the hiding negativity behind smiles, he really is just allowed to be angry. he is pissed at everyone and everything: he does not like the work, he does not like anyone he's working with, he wants to get out and hopefully get everyone else out without too much hassle, and he hates all the pretenses and airs everyone puts up. especially sep. he just wants them to drop the bullshit.

so what's about sep? i feel like they're not that different from their actual non-severance self. at first they would've put up a fight, been just as rebellious because sep is nothing if not someone who cares deeply, and oh, they'd see what everyone (including themself) has to go through and they'd care. but it wouldn't take long to get that beaten right out of them. because another core aspect to sep is that they long for a reason. a meaning. a justification of why exactly the bad things happen, why it needs to hurt, why it needs to be like this. and lumon would give them that reason, that explanation, that purpose. life is about doing things you don't like. you're not really a person. you're suffering for a greater good. and so this is how we'd actually get innie sep -- someone who spreads lumon propaganda and believes fully in them, irving style, and wants everyone else to believe because sep still cares. and sep still thinks he knows better. but there's always going to be that one crack, that one fault in his reasoning he barely managed to convince himself of, that might still make his ideals come apart at the seams if given the proper motivation

[princessleiana]

Intercepted houses ࣪ ִֶָ☾.

hi guys hope your day is fabulous and everyone is okay ৎ୭

I wanted to discuss intercepted houses and specifically 11th & 5th houses intercepted and the double houses breakdown and also the specific sign you're missing in your chart. This post will be discussing the exclusion of pieces and virgo in your birth chart and it not governing a house and the impacts and observations I've determined fits along this specific interception.

princess leiana astrology xoxo ⋆. 𐙚 ̊

Having 4th house & 5th house in leo

leo fourth house: These natives have a lot of potential for their breakthrough in life. You may had/have an explosive family; it was either big, you had lots of relatives or their was a constant explosiveness of energy in your household. There could of been lots of yelling and arguments in your household. You may have had creative relatives or relatives in any art industries or even your parents. But, there may have had been such energy in your household but not much to you. Your parents may have pushed you to have confidence, stand up for yourself but it may have not resonated with you in the way they went about it. You could be a favorite or often payed attention to in your family but also invalidated which causes a seesaw effect.

5th house leo interception: So, because these natives have a fourth house in leo and each house is a stage in our life, this will tie in together. Therefore, because of the constant explosiveness and fiery nature of your family and home life you may have experienced neglect. You may have not gained the confidence from your parents from any pursuits on anything that was fun for you or even anything you wanted to pursue. Your parents may have found it not important often neglecting the natives true expression. This natives negative experience with this will likely effect their own creativeness, fun and connections with others. You may find it hard to make friends or out yourself in fun environments because of your fear of peoples perception on your fun and goofy behavior or you feel like people wont accept you. These natives also might experience quick burnout within creative pursuits and feel like this area in their life is rejecting itself. These natives have the capability to pour their creativeness into themselves; you just have to unblock this harsh reality in your life and uncover the truths and accept this part in your life. You feel like you may not get to experience fun things like others can.

Having aquarius in the 10th house & 11th house

aquarius in the 10th house: You don't really want to pursue a job that deems as regular. You want something that will feel like it fits you. You don't like pursuing careers (lifetime careers) that will not fulfill you. You may pursue STEM, biology-related, chemistry, artictechture, doctor (depending on cancer and virgo placements) industry-related, creating the new innovation, online business, therapist, anything that involves movies, being internet famous (because of this interception in the 5th you may feel more inclined to pursue creative pursuits, music, writing & expression) Being a project manger, managing business, enterpreneur, producer, activist, game creator, movie director and especially any science related pursuits.

aquarius in the 11th house intercepted: Friends and people can be quiteee confusing with this interception. The thing is people will be fascinated with this native but have many different perceptions. Being popular but not quite fitting in is a theme. Having social anxiety is such a theme with this placement. You could attract friends that are apart of the lgbtq+. You have been popular or a lot of people know you but may have experienced people always being unsure of you and may not even know why. People could be intimidated by your social play in social settings. Friendships can be very confusing and elusive. There may be a constant feeling of obtaining friends but feeling like they don't completely accept you. Feeling not accepted by your community is a huge theme. You feel like a lot of people may not want to pick you. You may find it hard to create superficial relationships, so in result you may just find no purpose in it altogether.

Virgo & Pieces not being your chart

Not having Virgo and Pisces in your house wheel could feel like you lacked stability in your upbringing like so much. You have moved a lot and your parents let you do things yourself constantly and felt like you had to live up to their idea of the independence they handed to you. You had to care for yourself. You could have emotionally unavailable people in your life. When you didn't have the structure you expected it caused you to have to step up and it allowed a unconventional routine for you. You may find it hard to follow a routine and feel like you had to teach yourself the importance of a routine. You may also not like virgo/pieces personalites or placements as you yourself may not be proud of the traits you may have lacked in your life so building yourself up and having someone else naturally display these traits can make natives find it intimating or appealing. You may like structure in partners or creative partners. Your parents could of had a theme of putting love over you or putting substances over you or their dreams. You may have a hard time complying to work schedule sometimes or even school. You feel as though time and routine depends on you and not the day.

written originally by me, don’t not steal writing.

let me know your opinions, did this resonate? :)

[bitchslapblastoids]

interesting but predictable how some of the inherent uncanny valley strangeness of bringing something that exists in the chronically online space into the real world can manifest. I’ve noticed this at all the other tours of theirs as well - some people can have a hard time separating internet behaviors from irl behaviors, and the sudden merging of these compartmentalized ways of being (online vs offline) can be hard to navigate.

I think it can also make people uncomfortable to see their comedic silly billie faves being serious, and there’s a dissonance to seeing them, these characters who live on our screens, along with the audience around you who are typically just avatars and usernames shitposting in lowercase, all suddenly in the same physical room. And suddenly that often completely disparate, scattered, semi-anonymous community needs to adapt to social mores and group norms in a new social context. It’s taking a community with its own set of rules that were designed for and in response to a digital landscape and plonking it into a completely alien environment. And yeah, we’re all humans who exist in public outside of our internet lives, but it’s different when that happens but you’re still in the context of the phandom.

Which I think is what leads to things like shouting out rly profane, out of pocket things during the quieter moments of their shows. because if you comment something like that online, you won’t rly be interrupting anything. you might be ignored, you might get some laughs, maybe you’ll get a notice bc haha unhinged right. Or like treating an evacuation drill as a lol pass the tea yas mommy daniel moment instead of an oh we’re actually here in real life moment.

I went back to my tatinof review bc I remembered writing this - “someone behind me kept screaming at them to "GET NAKED" (particularly during silences in the 7 second challenge) to which everyone in my area responded with claps and laughter.” During my second TIT show, there were people around me who wolf whistled and shouted “kinky” and “ayo ok freaky” during totally inappropriate moments. I remember during Dan’s quieter bits of WAD people could not seem to just stay silent. (I have suffered complete amnesia when it comes to ii so I can’t speak to any part of that experience lol.) after the preshow and during intermission at tit, I heard separate people at separate times making a range of critical comments about Dan and Phil’s bodies in ways that were downright shocking and not how I hope they’d typically feel comfortable speaking about other humans.

I think on the whole, phannies are so lovely and kind to one another. I feel deep gratitude for this community. And I know this isn’t just a phandom thing; I think how we treat one another in public spaces has generally really eroded, and concert etiquette has become abysmally poor. But phandom, as always, is a little unique, because of the sense of mutual understanding and the co-created dynamic between us and d&p. It dissolves the boundaries, so when Dan tells you to shut up, your online brain tells you that’s just a chance to be funny with your fave. When you have a chance to be heard, your online brain provides a memey shitpost joke and your irl self shouts it out even though that ain’t the move in a theatre performance unless invited to do so.

No real conclusion here, just some observations about the rly unique dynamic this all creates!

[drdemonprince]

Hey, I just wanted to thank you for your honesty and willingness to explain how queer spaces can be a lot less transphobic than discourse within the trans community can make it seem. A lot of the past few years for me have been spent closeted out of fear that reactions around me would be uniformly hostile. Things are obviously going to be different for me as a transfem, but I have a much easier time being optimistic now!

I am so glad! Listen, the people who post online all the time about how miserably hard it is to find a place for oneself as a trans person create a kind of reverse survivorship bias. They are the people who have already convinced themselves it's best to forever remain closeted or that forging any kind of accepting community for oneself is impossible. Often, they are also people who once harbored unrealistic fantasies about just strolling up one day into a pre-existing community that was perfect for them, not realizing that we must form our relationships painstakingly one by one (it tends to be the white eggs/unhappy lonely trans people who are most prone to thinking of community in that way). there's plenty of trans guys who are doomers like this too and they really tend to actively encourage one another to remain locked away. it's like incel kind of behavior when it's taken to its most extreme form. sometimes, it can be outwardly really nasty homophobic shit too (especially among "afabs" who complain about "cis gays" never accepting them and being super privileged). in its milder form, it's just extreme trauma brain.

The people you do not hear from so much are the people who are busy out in the world going on dates, acting in plays, getting their asses spanked in dungeons, playing tabletop roleplaying games, and going to farmer's markets with their three also transgender wives. Those are the people who know (that is to say, have learned!) how to interact with their fellow queer people, have spent some time out in the community, and in all likelihood have many rich friendships with cis lesbians, cis gay men, enbies, asexuals, bisexuals, straight ish poly people, and everybody else under our big umbrella.

I don't want to be overly pollyannaish because of course trans people have a tough time, and especially trans women have unfortunately to be on the lookout for really vile transmisogyny. But I think when people are wounded and traumatized by these things, they sometimes make the entire world sound incredibly unwelcoming, which creates a self-limiting feedback loop of isolation and mistrust. That is what trauma does! But it is not the truth. and we only learn otherwise when we give other people the chance to prove our worst fears wrong.

Like, just for an example, this Sunday I was at a silent book club at Dorothy, a gay bar on the west side that skews lesbian but is for everyone. I'd never been there before but it was an absolutely charming experience! Dozens upon dozens of lesbians draped over couches and curled up in chairs with their books, quaffing cocktails, alongside a few random dots of gay and/or trans men. Trans women were just a natural completely unremarkable feature of this environment. I couldn't even tell you how many t girls were there. It would be like counting plus sized girls or butches at this lesbian function. If it's a good lesbian function, there's gonna be a diverse crowd and it won't be weird or a big deal to anyone, they'll just be like any other women there. a lot of the big lesbian events here in Chicago (like Strapped) are organized by trans women, so of course there's a robust trans femme presence there.

And all of these groups at this function were getting laid. the couches were overflowing with women, so many that girls were grabbing pillows to sit on and huddle together with their books on the floor. Girls canoodled and cuddled on couches. I saw a cis alt girl covered in facial piercings flirting with a very prim and proper trans girl who was dressed like a victorian governness. they didnt know one another, but after the silent book club hour was done, they left for a while together, then came back with some food. across from me and my friends, i watched them gathering up on the couch, the space between their bodies slowly closing up into nothing over the course of the evening. they flirted and touched and then left the bar together to (and im no expert on body language but i could pick up on this one) fuck eachothers tits right off.

and of course plenty of other lesbians and wlw paired off or tripled off and had their fun too. again, just like steamworks, fat people, thin people, black and brown people, white people, disabled people, neurodivergent people, trans people, older people, younger people, everybody was there. like any good queer space, it was just a reflection of humanity. there is always more that can be done to make these spaces more broadly accessible to full community. but part of that is by putting ourselves there.

again i dont mean to make it sound like finding and making one's space is easy! especially not for trans women! but I also don't want people to get seduced by the hopeless jadedness that some foment online. there are spaces that some trans women I know will never go to -- even an explicitly trans affirming bookstore like Women and Children First gives many trans women I know bad vibes they cant quite explain but all feel (the store is owned and run by old white cis lesbians, it's not surprising to me that it's a little fucked no matter their good intentions) -- and ive heard people say transmisogynistic stuff at events, particularly from "ill date anybody but cis men" type t boys (my brothers, i hate you). shit can be tough. very tough. but also, the world isn't all uniformly as hostile as it's made out to be. there are people who are desperate to meet you. I hope you will come out to find them.

[darkenamour]

Platonic Daddy! Yandere! Wilson Fisk x Little! Willing! Reader x Reluctant! Platonic Mommy! Vanessa Fisk

This was messily written. I wrote as it came to me. I will edit this.

Warnings: Kidnapping, Gun Violence, Violence, Human Trafficking, Yandere Behavior, Forced Relationships, Forced Breastfeeding.

KingPin (DareDevil series/comics) inspired.

Summary: You started working in a shady restaurant and met a scary regular. Somehow you ended up kidnapped and with a new set of "parents"

You were just a waiter at a restaurant, nobody really. All you did was wait tables all day at some restaurant that never had a full house since you've worked there. One man was a regular, he would come in four times a week for dinner. He wasn't the only regular, but he was the most memorable regular. With his enormous height, heavyset body, complete bald head, stark white suit, and bright blue eyes, he was utterly noticeable.

The only other waiter, the first time he came, was intimidated by his physique so you had to be the one to take his order. The man looked so tired, as if he just woken up, and it compelled you to give him a cup of coffee on the house. He ordered two different plates and a fountain drink, of which he had three refills. You waited on him like any other person, cracked a few jokes, and wished him a good day. Before he left, his plates and cup empty, he personally gave you a tip and thanked you for the coffee. The tip was a fifty dollar bill.

It wasn't completely unknown to you that more unsavory people would come into the restaurant. Ranging from small-time thugs to ring leaders of criminal organizations. It was a blessing and a curse for the restaurant and its employees. Everyone actually paid for their meals, some would leave big tips like the man, and it kept the business going. There would be times someone would get too much and create a ruckus, once there was a shoot out once, which you thankfully didn't witness. Because of the danger you were able to easily get a job, a job you desperately needed.

Ever since you graduated, you haven't been able to land a job due to inexperience. As the years went by you were desperate to find a way to no longer be a burden on your family. So you decided to walk around the more dangerous parts of the city and found a help wanted sign in the window. Your coworkers were great, the chefs were friendly enough, and your boss, the owner, gave you a decent wage. It was truly a blessing even if the environment was dangerous.

It had been six months of working, two months of knowing your memorable regular ("Call me Wilson."), when you witnessed your first shooting. A customer was complaining about their food, a street thug, and gave your coworker a hard time. Your regular, the large man, was just about to tell you his order when a shot rang out. The thug had just shot your coworker, your friend, and your fight or flight response came in. You were in fight mode.

Grabbing the first empty chair in arms reach, you slammed the chair on the back of the fleeing thug's head. They went down hard, dropping their gun, and cursing you. Their two friends got out their own guns and pointed at you, before they could shoot, a large shadow towered over you.

"Now, that's no way to treat a lovely lady." Wilson, your regular, said in a gravelly voice. The others paled and lowered their guns.

"Lovely lady my ass, she busted my skull open." The thug on the ground shouted, still turning around holding his head. "I'm gonna fucking kill the bitch." As he turned around and saw Wilson, he also paled. "Mr. Fisk, sir, I didn't see you there." He stammered.

Your friend groaned, holding their side, you dropped the chair and went to their side. It looked like they were shot in the leg, you took off your apron and put pressure on the wound.

"Look, I didn't know you came to this joint." The thug continued to stammer. Ambulance and police sirens could be heard outside. "Listen, I'll never come back to this place, I promise."

"That's a promise you can keep behind bars." You heard the guy scramble, a loud wet crunch, and a scream. You looked up to see Wilson stepping the thug's hand, that was reaching for his gun. His friends ran out in a panic, the police came in to take the thug and question everyone. Your friend was taken to the hospital.

When your family heard what happened, they begged you to quit, find another job. You compromised with them, sending your resume to different job openings, only quitting when somewhere else hires you. Wilson still stayed a regular, still giving you large tips, and your coworker came back a month later. Everything went back to normal, but you never received a call back from the places you applied.

When it was your anniversary of working at the restaurant, your coworkers set up a small party after closing. It was dark when everyone started to go home. As you approached your car someone behind you covered your face with a cloth and your world went dark.

Voices shouted around you as you woke up.

"I'm just saying this is a bad idea."

"Please, that Chinese bitch asked for girls, she didn't say from where."

"But, the Kingpin's rules."

"I don't give a shit about his rules. He broke my fucking hand and almost sent me to prison. All over some fat bitch in a shitty joint."

You noticed you were tied up and your mouth was taped shut. You were in the back of a van with two other girls in the same position. One girl started to panic and screamed behind her closed mouth.

"Shut them the fuck up." You look up and notice the thug that shot your coworker and his friends.

The one sitting in the back took out a needle syringe and injected the screaming girl with it. After a while the girl went limp.

"Shot them all up, we're almost there and I don't want any of them struggling." After a sharp pinch the world was no more.

The next time you woke up, you were naked and in a room with other girls. They were either naked like you, or wore plain lingerie that barely covered anything. After a while someone threw a bag filled with plain lingerie, and you noticed you, and other bigger girls, were the only one left without clothes. Later water bottles were thrown in, only enough for half of the girls. Some girls were selfish and hogged a whole bottle, others shared. What felt like a whole day, a few buffer men came in and took a few girls by force. The next day more men came in to take more girls. It kept repeating, after the fifth time you and the other bigger girls got lingerie. More girls were brought in.

After what felt like two weeks, you were nibbling on some stale bread when they took all the bigger girls. You were terrified, wondering what will happen to you. You and girls were lined up in front of a group of people, a girl squeezed your hand and you squeezed back. When you looked around, you were surprised to see Wilson in the group. He also seemed surprised when his eyes landed on you.

"As you can see Mr. Fisk, we in fact respect your wishes." An Asian man in front of an elderly woman said. She was sitting in a chair and said something in her native tongue. "I always make sure to leave your territory alone, never picking from your fields."

"Is that so?" Wilson said. He stepped forward and took out his hand. "Come here, y/n." He called out. You clutched onto the other girl. "It's all right, sweetheart, I'm here to take you home."

The old woman shouted. "I'm sorry, but I think you're mistaking the merchandise for someone else." The man then tried soothing the old woman in their native tongue.

You felt your eyes water at being called merchandise, you were a human, not a thing. Wilson called out your name again. You let go of the girl. He said he would take you home and you wanted to go home.

When you reached him, you threw your arms around his middle and cried into his chest. He patted your head and rubbed your back. "It's alright, it's alright. Now tell me, who brought you here?"

"The guy that shot my friend and his friends." You said between sobs.

"My poor little sunshine, you must have been so scared." He kissed the top of your hair. "Don't worry, everything will be alright now." He used his strength to leave you in his arms. You buried your face in his shoulder, clutching the front of his suit. "You broke our deal."

The woman shouted. "We had no idea she was one of yours. Whoever brought her to us is at fault." The man translated.

"Whoever brought her here was under your orders. " He started to walk away. "I expect compensation for the kidnapping of my daughter." There was a sharp inhale. Daughter, why did he call you his daughter?

He brought you to his limo and settled you in his lap, covering you with his jacket. "It's alright, princess. Once we get home you'll have a nice bath, a warm meal, and I'll tuck you in bed. Doesn't that sound nice?"

Your body felt numb, but nodded. Finally getting clean, real food, and a bed sounded like a dream. You pressed close to him to get warm.

When he carried you out of the limo, you didn't recognize your surroundings. He took you to what looked like a luxury apartment complex. Taking the elevator, he pressed the top floor button. It looked like his private condo took up the whole floor.

He finally sat you down in a chair in the bathroom. He filled the overly large tub with warm water and bubbles. When the tub was full you expected him to leave, but instead he started to take off the lingerie you wore. You shrieked and scooted away from him.

"It's alright, sweetie. I know you're scared, but you should let daddy take care of you." He said.

"I can wash myself." You stammered back.

"I know you're my big girl, but daddy hasn't seen you in days." He grabbed your arm, preventing you from moving away. Taking off the last bit of article that covered you, he picked you up and placed you in the tub. Grabbing a washcloth he started to scrub your body. You jumped at that.

"Please, I can wash myself." You cried.

"No, no," he shook his head, "I said I was going to take care of you. Daddy will make everything better and you'll get to see your friends tomorrow. Doesn't that sound fun?"

It scared you, having a large man handle you. You had no idea why he kept calling himself "daddy", or why he was insistent on treating you like a child. He was just a regular at the restaurant you work at. You decided to comply. If a man could easily carry someone like you around, who knows what else he could do.

When he finished giving you a bath he picked you up from the tub, wrapped in a large towel, and carried you to a bedroom. He placed you on a bed and dressed you in childish looking underwear and soft pajamas with your favorite childhood characters. Not only was it embarrassing, but it had you questioning why the man had such clothing in your exact size. He picked you back up and sat you at a dining table.

"You sit there while daddy gets you your favorite soup." When he left for the kitchen, you debated on whether or not to try to leave. You decided against it, you had no clue where you were and he did say you were going to see your friends tomorrow. Maybe he wasn't that bad of a man, maybe this was his strange way comforting you.

As promised, he came back with a bowl of your favorite soup and a juice box. Before you could grab the spoon yourself, he lifted the spoon to your face. "Open wide." He looked at you expectantly.

"I can feed myself." You stuttered, feeling your cheeks blush. You looked at the ground embarrassed at the situation even more.

He placed a hand on your chin, forcing you to look at him. Looking up, you felt smaller than you ever had, especially with his large stature. "Just let daddy spoil you, ok?" Once again, you wordlessly nodded, afraid of what might happen if you said no.

He fed you like a baby, wiping your face after each spoonful, and occasionally held up the juice box for you to drink from. When the bowl was completely empty, he picked you up again. "It's time for bed."

He took you to the same bedroom as before. You finally looked around and saw what looked like a child's bedroom. Your favorite color painted the walls, shelves filled with children's books, a desk covered in coloring books and crayons, a toy box, childish furniture, and a bed with sheets covered in your favorite childhood characters. It made you bewildered why the man had such a room in the first place.

As he tucked you in bed, he gave your forehead a kiss. "Sleep tight my little princess. Daddy has to take care of business, but if you need anything the nanny will be just outside, ok?"

"Ok." You said automatically.Nanny? So he's keeping a guard on you? There goes your ability to escape and go back home to your family.

Finally laying on a soft bed after days of barely sleeping on the floor, you eventually feel asleep. By morning Wilson was waking you up. He took you to the bathroom to do your business, without leaving, and gave you a brightly colored toothbrush. Today's saving grace was that he allowed you to walk, but held onto your hand. He still changed your clothes, putting on something that you would normally wear. You ate breakfast without help and he took you to work via a chauffeur.

Before you could jump out of the car, Wilson asked for a kiss. So close to freedom, you gave him a kiss on the cheek. He finally let you go after he gave his own kiss and wished you a good day.

When you walked into the restaurant, you were ambushed by your coworkers once they saw you. Apparently Wilson told them he would bring you back, but they didn't believe it. The owner asked if you actually wanted to work today. You told them that you wanted to go home, since you hadn't seen your family yet. They took you home.

Your family was overwhelmed when they saw you, you all cried. They called the police to inform them you returned and they came to question you. You gave them the descriptions of the three men that took you and two people that were behind it. You didn't mention Wilson picking you up, only saying you managed to escape and run into someone who helped you.

After winding down, you had a celebratory lunch with your family for your safe return. No one went to work that day and held onto you tight. When it was a little past your working shift, a knock came from the door. When a knock came from the door, you were surprised to see Wilson at the door when a family member opened it. When he asked for you, your family was suspicious of him. You blurted out that he was the one that helped you, that made the family welcome him in open arms. They insisted he stay for dinner, to show their appreciation.

The women, and few of the men, were in the kitchen preparing traditional dishes for an army. Wilson sat with you on the couch, your family treated him like he was a part of the family. When he placed an arm over your shoulder, some of your family members gave a teasing glance. They were the ones insistenting you should have been married already. If only they knew he didn't see you as a lover, but as a daughter.

You couldn't help but cuddle into his side, enjoying the feeling of being small. You haven't felt small in years, you usually were the biggest person in the room. When dinner was ready, you began insisting that your favorite food was the best. You plated most of the food for Wilson, almost forgetting his strange nature from yesterday. When the day winded down, only your closest family members stayed over. Wilson left as well, you gave him a hug goodbye.

It took two days for you to return to work, you were grateful that you even still had a job. Wilson came in that day for lunch. When no one was looking, you gave him a kiss on the cheek. He seemed surprised by that. When he finished, he gave you your usual tip and a note that asked you to come home with him during the weekend.

You felt nervous and questioned your sanity for actually going to his place. He babies you the whole weekend, treating you like a toddler. You enjoyed cuddling with him on the couch while watching children's movies and shows, when he fed you, when he changed you, when he carried you around, and when he would call you nicknames. Your "nanny" was someone called Hildy, a no nonsense woman that treated you like a child without asking questions. It made you feel carefree, like you had nothing to worry about for about two and a half days.

It was a routine for about a year, your family thought you were dating, your coworkers never questioned Wilson's behavior towards you. You never once imagined that you would be in the situation you found yourself in. One morning, when Wilson left for "business," you groggily got out of bed to ask Hildy for a glass of water. A woman was in the living room with her, demanding where Wilson was. When she looked at you, with your bed hair, she assumed you were sleeping with him. You made a face at that. "Gross, he's my daddy." You told her. Later you were properly introduced to Vanessa.

Vanessa did not accept the type of relationship you had with her boyfriend. Well, not at first. After your third week, she saw everything that Wilson did with you. She was still hesitant, but you guess Wilson told her something because she started to join him for lunch at your workplace. You treated them like normal customers and she seemed nervous the whole time. The next weekend, Wilson had her feed you and read you a bedtime story. The next week he had her change your clothes and cuddle you while watching tv. Then it escalated to her bathing you. She tried to touch you in a sexual manner while bathing you, you screeched and cried like a child. Wilson was angry at her and kicked her out. You didn't see her for two weeks.

The next time you saw her, she apologized and promised to never do that again, you were weary of her. You clung to Wilson whenever she was around, hiding behind him, hiding behind daddy. He kept you safe. But he wanted Vanessa to be your mommy. When it seemed like you weren't getting used to her, something happened.

When you entered the condo after being picked up from work, you noticed Vanessa waiting on the couch. She was wearing a loose button up, and gestured you to her lap. Daddy didn't let you hide behind him, he picked you up and sat you on her lap. You started to cry, wondering what was happening. "She's just being fussy, aren't you princess?" Daddy cooed. "Our poor baby must be hungry. Don't you think so, honey?"

"Yes." Vanessa stammered.

"Well, aren't you going to feed her?" Vanessa started to clumsy unbutton her shirt. You wanted to panic, to pull away from her, but daddy kept you in place. Vanessa exposed one of her breasts.

"Here, eat." She tried to push her breast into your force. Daddy stopped her and scowled.

"Don't force it, let her latch naturally." He patted your head and adjusted you so your head was next to her breast. "Come on sweetheart, aren't you hungry?" He encouraged. "Has daddy ever let you astray?" No, daddy has never let anything, or anyone, hurt you.

Shyly, you latched onto her nipple, she gasped and daddy praised you. As you sucked, you tasted something sweet and warm. You sucked harder and more of the sweet nectar came rushing into your mouth. Vanessa was lactating! "That's a good girl, eating without a fuss." Daddy praised. "And mommy is being so good at feeding our precious baby."

You could hear Vanessa cry, but you didn't let it bother you. You were hungry and she was feeding you yummy milk. When her breast was empty, you whined for more. Daddy took out her other breast since Vanessa was still crying. You drank until you sucked her dry. Happily humming with a full stomach, you nuzzled into your new mommy. She gave you nice warm milk and daddy said she was mommy. Your weekends now included drinking milk from mommy, who cried from happiness at being able to feed her baby.

[skepticalarrie]

I think the down fall of The Boys will not be any type of scandal it will be because of their own fandoms.

They have built their success based on the loyalty and social media. People being die hards.

However, their fandoms are become increasingly toxic throughout the years to a point where you are seeing fans are becoming more "casual". The boys are distancing themselves from their own fanbases. Interactions are becoming more "professional" than them jumping on for a chat and joking around. Harry has pretty much pulled away completely. Everyone has a part in this not just certain sides of the fanbase. Negativity, Over criticizing every detail if they choose to post, people sexualizing them, the fandom wars. It is out of control in general across every aspect of these fandoms.

People becoming more "causal" fans and leaving their social media behind which will cause less streaming, less social media engagement, less free promo, less over all excitement for new albums. This overall hurts the boys success in the future. Labels will notice these things.

The Boys have built something amazing 15 years ago, that allowed them all to have solo careers they might not be the same as they were 15 years ago but they have relied on those loyal fans that helped them get where they are today. They have continued to think of the fans when they do projects but things have become so toxic they have all pulled away from their fanbases loosing something special fans once had with them.

It seems like people have a goal now just to come on X and fight with others, bully them, judge them, criticize what they post, out here having hate campaigns just because you don't agree with what someone says.

People's parasocial relationships are out of control. We don't know what they are thinking, what they go through, we don't know how they go about their everyday life, we truly don't know anything about their relationships. We truly don't know them. No matter how much content or music we have consumed over the years we don't know what they are like day to day in their personal lives.

Fans have created this toxic environment. Fans are beginning to pull away too. There is only so much negativity an artist or a fan can take before it affects them. Over time if this continues it will be the downfall of the boys and the fans. We are our own enemies. The fandom was never perfect but it is the worse I have ever seen it. How can people not see this?

I definitely agree that toxic fandom behavior can impact an artist’s success, but I don’t think it’s something unique to One Direction’s fandom at all. It feels more like part of a bigger trend in how people interact online... where anonymity and lack of accountability fuel so much negativity.

Honestly, this kind of environment forces artists to adapt, and that’s probably what we’re seeing happen. I don’t think having die-hard fans is always a good thing, or that losing die-hard fans is necessarily a bad thing either. There’s nothing wrong with having more casual fans. Look at Harry, he has a lot more casual fans now, and it’s actually worked out really well for him. I know we don't like that LOL but it's the truth.

At the end of the day, it’s about how an artist chooses to adapt to these dynamics and the extremes of their own fandoms. Their success will be an answer to how well they navigate that. And with 1D, it’s especially tricky because this fandom has so many extremes and different lanes, I mean, it's always been BAD. But yeah, I agree it's been worse and people are completely out of control.

[blankcest]

CARYN ABUSIVE REFERENCE?????? Plz I will hear u out so hard I have my thoughts and opinions but I will keep them inside the ride until it has come to a complete stop PLEASE LMK PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

SO, I will be real I don't have a complete idea of how I would personally characterize Caryn but like, I know I've read some really good fics/see some good comics that explored how she would be in terms of her parenting style. PT 1

Thinking on it, I think I would look at it as sort of her being a more Neglectful parent rather Filbrick's overbearing parenting style. Flibrick is shown to be very controlling of his boys, wanting very specific things from and out of them. He's strict, and emotionally distant. Taking on the Head of Household role. Caryn on the other hand is shown to be a Pathological Liar, and sort of where Stanley gets a lot of his con making habits. I also really like the handcannon that she's also a kleptomaniac. This can make parenting really difficult. Part of Good child rearing is the ability to be honest with your kid. Either emotionally or literally. Obviously you have to keep some things away from your child, but completely hiding one's feelings is the opposite side of the spectrum. You have to have a healthy middle, as well as be able to explain it in a way a kid can understand depending on their age. As well as you have to learn how to maturely handle your feelings, both so you can take care of your kid BUT ALSO so you can be a good role model for healthy behavior and emotional management. So with Caryn, she has the inability to be honest. Meaning she more then likely constantly lied to the boys about lots of things, which over time became more and more Obvious to the Stans. With compulsive liars, it's often times small stuff. It becomes a defense mechanism to try and get things they need emotionally. This can be slightly exaggerating traumas in order to get more sympathy, this can be saying something small happened when it didn't in order to get a reaction, it can be saying something about yourself that isn't the whole truth in order to be better understood, etc. It's small things that build and build that become larger. Either way, the perception of reality that Caryn creates is untrustworthy. Which, having a a parent you can't trust creates a unstable home environment. So even if the lies Caryn told where to comfort the boys, or to make the boys behave, or something similar. Even if Caryn wasn't directly abusive. The warped perception of reality, esp for young kids who can't really tell the difference between fiction and reality yet, is unstable. I would also say that it leads to Caryn being emotionally distant as well, but differently then Filbrick. Flibrick is emotionally distant because of Masculine Gender roles of the times. Basically, it was frowned upon a man to be emotionally open in general, but esp with their children and even wives. Caryn is emotionally distant because she is unable to be honest about what's in her mind or how she's feeling, since she can't even be trusted to recite reality as it exists. So she might love her boys, but how can you trust that love when she can't even tell you whats in the fridge on a daily basis? You could say that Caryn only lied for her job, but the fact Stan calls her a Pathological liar, implies to me that she lied Constantly. Not just in specific situations like Stanley does.

[letters-from-woodsboro]

messy freestyle review of the substance (2024)

i! love! this! movie! i love it so much! spoilers under the cut. if you haven't seen it and somehow missed any of the buzz, go watch it before you check out ANY reviews because this would make for a hell of a blind watch. ideally get some pals together for it as a group bonding activity even

first things first demi moore and margaret qualley bodied these roles (pun absolutely intended). they were the perfect choices to portray these characters. i've seen the term "career best" in reference to both their performances and i wholeheartedly agree

i love the over-the-top angle this movie takes. there's no escape from it, it's relentless, and it's supposed to be

seriously if you wanted this movie to be more subtle then you probs just wanted to be watching a different movie. and that's fine! this one isn't gonna hit for everybody! BUT it has a very clear vision and it takes you on that journey whether you like it or not

and yeah it's gross but again, that's the point which i think is so fuckin great. more gross movies. more movies that make you wince and shift in your seat. culturally we are at the PERFECT time to bring creature features back into the zeitgeist. anti-aging as body horror is such an incredible take

i've seen people say it's misogynistic in its portrayal of womanhood, with how elisabeth's backstory is never explored or anything, but that really does loop back into the "that would be a different movie entirely" thing i mentioned before. it wouldn't have added anything for me if we got to explore her backstory, because we are already getting such an intimate look into her psyche. im actually fine with her not having a feel-good arc about how she learns to love herself and dismantle the problems in her past that made her feel lesser-than

it's also just smart to avoid the specifics. part of the Point is that these thoughts and behaviors can take hold of anyone, regardless of age or beauty or status. elisabeth's lore isn't half as important as that, she could be anyone, but she is in the upper echelon of society to further drive home the thought that Anyone Can Feel That Way. i love this element of the film!

the scene near the end where sue goes absolutely batshit is maybe my favorite thing to come out of cinema in the past decade. only kind of a joke

btw while we're talking specific scenes. dennis quaid shrimp scene is the grossest one in the movie im being so fr

and the finale! the boob and the blood and the puddle. it was definitely A Lot. i think that's what the movie needed to really drive it home, something completely off the fuckin walls. as much as i was into sue killing elisabeth as a climactic moment in the story, i thought the hard steer into blood-drenched insanity was fuckin awesome. so goofy and so FUN while simultaneously being disgusting and heartbreaking

also not really related to any of the other ones but i loooove the environment in this movie. everything is so weird and uncanny, the little details are great! it sets you up right away with the "this is not what you're used to" feeling, the alternate modern-day thing is just a good time all around

my final score: 5 out of 5 activator shots in the single-use bottle. this was one of my only five star reviews on letterboxd this year. i cannot stress enough how much this movie actually fuckin rips. if you love body horror and you haven't seen it yet GET ON IT !!! i might write up another post abt the substance (drug not the movie) itself sometime because it has such fascinating implications. that's all for now tho :)

[sarohy]

<Wall of text: Character analysis>

(Disclaimer: Messy and random analysis for myself. This is purely from my own perspective and brainstorming so it mighttt not be correct or perfect, if you disagree please don't start a fight!!!! I will take your opinion into account if yours is better!) Only do a small part of the analysis since it is hard for my brain to write like a whole ass essay or something,,, Okay so, I always wondered about Olimar and Louie parallel. They're obviously the opposite of each other, but do have certain similarity. For example: - Ability to adapted to the environment + For Olimar, he is never favored by luck (even directly said from his official description) so it is hard for someone like him to survive on a completely uncharted planet. But probably because of his unfortune strike, he developed crucial skills early on to combat against the odds: Highly observant, hardworking and have the habit to write records on his way (which actually saves his life on Pikmin 3(?I think, if he didn't write anything the Koppai couldn't really find him to progress, but in general it's a great way for people to know you and have any clue about your whereabout). So even though PNF-404 is a highly dangerous planet for Olimar, he could still adapted to the nature and still manage to go back home (not really let the man sees his family actually) + For Louie, he actually pretty lucky himself. I don't really know how this guy survived falling off the cockpit when the ship was probably hundred metres away from the ground (Supported by the snow? Low gravity for Hocotians maybe cause they're very small). Better example would be how did the guy survived when got left behind (no way to know how much time is needed when travel from Hoco planet to PNF-404, but space travel is never fast). Although we never know much about his past except for he currently living with his Nana and his Nana forcing him to eat bugs, Louie is also a hunter and maybe carnivore by nature, probably originate from his childhood. This is easy to know cause bro have recipes of every possible enemy in game, making him the perfect match for PNF-404. As much as the game repesented him as boy failure whenever he's out doing expendition (source from Pikmin 3 Olimar's video logs), if the guy could tame Pikmin 4 final boss then we will have to be certain about his ability (also there are scatter hints about Louie being capable of fending for himself better than when he is with pikmins unlike Olimar, and his dandoori skill is imaculate). If it weren't for the oxygen then Louie might just stay there forever (he could've just stay without oxygen tbh that might not be his top concern). => Their adaption ability differs from other so much but it works well for each. They are unstoppable if actually team up. - Final boss have a soft spot for this two, somehow + 3/4 Pikmin main franchise having Olimar/Louie corelated to the final boss. From the boss obsessive behavior for them both, to Louie fucking tame the Hound (haha wouldn't it funny if Pikmin 5 final boss will be against Olimar taming Cthulu or something.... don't jinx it don't jinx it don't-). + Reason unknown, but I have a theory (crack) that it is like a "rewards" for those who surpass everything - to be on the top of all. Much like Louie being the kind of bugs in Pikmin 2, Olimar could be call something like that (what, like the king of treasures????) during Pikmin 3. Despite being the "king", they can't afford freedom, very ironic. + Well, not only just the final boss, mini boss also fond of Louie in Mission Mode. I think it could be the same for Olimar if it eventually much more powerfull than him... but it is strange that those enemy never attack or try to hurt them right away (Charlie for example, getting eaten by a Phosbat and not getting kiddnaped instead, could've died if the Koppai is late...uh...)

[angelfrogs]

My feelings on Yoshida are...mixed. On the one hand I understand that he is young and in a very toxic environment that encourages pretty amoral behavior, but on the other hand he is a pretty smart guy and should know when his orders are cruel and he should defy them. What he does next will really shape my opinion on him: will he stick by Public Safety or will he aid Denji?

That’s completely understandable. Personally my favorable opinion of him really because of his amoral and atypical behaviors. I think he’s one of the most fascinating characters in part two. There’s so much we don’t know about him, like why/how he joined public safety in the first place (originally in part one he’s introduced as a private hunter temporarily hired by public safety to protect Denji, which leads us to even more questions about his past like how long has he been devil hunting but I digress) I think because of this he’s a very strong parallel to Denji (to me he and sugo are the main non asa parallels) he’s clearly to some extent been raised in life threatening situations/raised killing devils and he also seems to have one devil connection that he relies on and even occasionally acts familiar with. I think the difference is Denji was always treated as expendable and Yoshida has been treated as talented. It’s technically speculative but I think that really ends up explaining a lot about their behaviors. Yoshida is very smart, and he is young and vulnerable, I think him following through with public safety’s cruelty is in fact because of all of those things. I think that where Denji is controlled by ignorance Yoshida may be controlled by information. It’s not hard to convince a kid that the reason he lives while others don’t is because he’s smart enough to make the cruel decisions. But given how upset and frustrated he seemed each time he failed to put Denji on the path with the least public safety intervention, amongst other things, I think it’s safe to say he doesn’t want to be cruel. But it remains unclear if the want to stop being cruel outweighs the “smart” safe decision of staying where he is. Especially now that he’s already lost once to Asa/Yoru. Especially because it’s extremely possible he knows the fate that he could receive if he’s caught disobeying/defecting. No matter what he does I think I’ll always like him as a character, though I really do want him to defect, but honestly what I’m most interested in is answers about his past and current situation. If I had to give guesses on what his fate will be I think he will either die defecting or apologizing for not defecting but that’s just my two cents lol! This manga is always keeping me guessing!

[sapphire-weapon]

yeah not denying that, but one of the basest aspects of being on the aspec spectrum is the lack of attraction not lack of expression

aromantics still get married despite the cultural belief marriage is romantic same applies to many other western culturally believed romantic things because to them they lack romantic attraction aromantic within aspec community means lack of romantic attraction. terf definition is lack of any intimacy its a negative statement meant to push exclus bs

believing someone cant be aspec because they enjoy physical contact is terf rhetoric, its exclusionist rhetoric that 'real' aspecs should be completely cold stone touch averted people which is just a negative stereotype which is mostly spread by terfs it all goes full circle into 'not something i understand thus it cant be real or valid' rather than the fact that people understand and feel stuff differently, terfs say for lesbians to be attracted to transwomen they cant be real lesbians, because they arent, vice versa same is used for aspec people sorry if this isnt articulated correctly its also late where I live

comparing this to terf rhetoric is so absurd to me because terf rhetoric is based on the idea that gender doesn't exist/is intrinsically tied to a person's genitals. no one is saying that romance doesn't exist -- or that aromantic people don't exist. it's a false dichotomy.

a more accurate comparison would be me telling you that your line of logic would dictate that you think that CBT doesn't work, because that's actually what it's sounding like to me. the argument that i keep getting put back on me is that behavior and cognition have absolutely no relationship to one another -- or that a person's environment doesn't influence them.

this is why i said:

i was also speaking in generalities. are there tiny little micro cultures throughout the west where this is a thing? where those expressions of intimacy are completely removed from any romantic intent? sure. but in general, 99 times out of 100, if you find yourself yearning for someone’s physical intimacy, you’re experiencing a romantic longing for them in a western context. this is how you were raised culturally, and it takes A BIG EFFORT over MANY YEARS to unlearn that and decouple those two concepts.

what i'm talking about is how culture influences people's thoughts, desires, and behavior.

what you're talking about is... i don't know, assuming that i think aromanticism is a complete lie 100% of the time all the time. but i say right there in that quote that it is a thing. people have these experiences, and they're real.

however, i acknowledge that i then went on to say:

very often, i see people use “aromantic” as a stand-in for “i don’t want a relationship” – but that’s not what it is. but to experience that longing, to experience that yearning – that is a romantic feeling. even if you don’t want to be committed to that person. even if you have no desire to devote yourself to them at all. it’s still romantic in nature, because culturally, those things are romantic. and i have a really hard time believing that random 20 year olds on the internet have managed to completely decouple themselves from their cultural upbringing and totally decontextualize these actions to such an extent that they exist in their own micro culture. more often than not, these are young people who are intimidated by intimacy and sexuality and don’t really feel comfortable with who they are yet, so they slap the word “aromantic” on themselves because they don’t want to be bothered with romantic pursuits – but that doesn’t mean that they’re wholly disinterested in romance. there’s been a pushback in recent years against anything surrounding the words “romance” and “romantic” and that is really what my initial statement was about. “romance” has become almost a dirty word in some fandom spaces, because of people’s own personal discomfort with vulnerability and flaws in themselves and others. if it’s not romantic, then it’s less vulnerable, and so people strive to be as invulnerable as possible.

so let me explain.

people who are so staunchly against the concept of "romance" in fandom spaces who are very young and likely have a poor self-image and little life experience -- which are the very specific people i'm talking about; i'm not talking about aromantics in general, i'm talking about this very specific subset of people -- need to be careful that they're not co-opting a very real term for a very real thing that exists and using it as a band-aid over their own damage.

that's why i continuously use the words "yearning" and "longing."

and if they do that soulsearching and come to the honest conclusion "no this is really me, i'm really decontextualized from my cultural upbringing" -- then that's great, and i support them. but i'm willing to bet that, for a lot of these younger people, they find themselves yearning for romance while not wanting it to happen to them in a practical sense because some other xyz reason -- and then lashing out against romance in response.

like let me tell you a story. i have been celibate for about 15 years due to a very traumatic experience i had at 18. i could very easily make the argument that i'm aroace based on my lack of desire for sex or a relationship. one of my go-to lines when people ask why i don't have a boyfriend is: "if i wanted to be that responsible for another living creature's emotional state, i'd get a dog." in fact, a coworker of mine was convinced that i was aroace based on what i told her about myself, and she tried to convince me of it. and eventually, i just had to get firm with her and say: "it is just. TRAUMA." and walk away from the conversation.

but how many people -- especially young people -- don't have that insight about themselves -- or don't want to accept that part of themselves? it's easier and more appealing to accept the thought that you could be aroace because, if you are, then there's nothing "wrong" with you. the damage isn't there.

aromanticism is real.

asexuality is real.

these are real things that people experience in life.

but so are trauma and emotional damage and negative self-image. and they're ugly, awful, terrible things that no one wants to be burdened with. some people don't recover from them. and i don't blame a single person for grasping for a perceived "out" that's offered to them. if i was younger, rawer, closer to my own damage -- maybe i would've let my coworker convince me i was aroace, too.

and so i posed the question of where this backlash against romance was coming from, since people in fandom want to see expressions of romance in media so badly (but without the romance part)? because, culturally, in the west, what they're asking for are expressions of romance. and that comes from somewhere.

this is not a black-and-white issue. there's layers to this. it's nuanced. the conversation keeps getting boiled down to "is or isn't" and "inclusion or exclusion" but i feel like that's just not helpful. to blindly accept what people say on its face doesn't help anybody. this is why people are fucking fighting all the goddamn time.

i wanted to know where the backlash against romance was coming from, so i looked at it from a macrocosmic perspective. i took into account culture and psychology and stigma against mental illness, because i don't think it's productive to just broad-brush say "IT'S ALL JUST AROMANTICS!!1"

we need to be able to talk about these things, man. it's important.

[androcola]

I feel like Mike and Peter both struggle with eye contact but the people they are talking to who don't understand that it's just the way they are (brothers in autism) come to their own conclusions about them as people, but they're so different... Like, with Peter, people tend to think he's just not paying attention to them because even if he is fully engaged in the conversation he's staring off into an entirely different direction. Sometimes he tries to look at their eyebrows, hair, etc. but he always settles for just a thousand yard staring beside their head. So sometimes people think he's rude or dislikes them but he's just like that!! With Mike, I feel like it's different because he was more conditioned to mask so he tries his best to hold eye contact but ends up just looking insane because He. Can't. This leads to people thinking he's just insanely anxious/neurotic (which he is, but I'm trying to highlight the contrast in how people view him and Peter doing the same thing based on their other traits...) Did this even make sense. I profusely struggle with it and get called rude or labeled as a daydreamer so obviously I have to project on these guys

this is honestly so real and I think it all comes down to the fact that Peter was diagnosed when he was young vs mike who wasn't diagnosed until his 40s. so peter knew all along what was up with him and I think went thru his own things until he completely accepted himself as autistic in his teens. and I think his family wasnt Awful to him, but kimda did the little professor thing to him which caused him to burn out 😭 but he just always accepted himself and so he allowed himself to not always mask at some points so he doesn't make eye contact which of course causes people to be kinda mean to him or assume that he's being mean to them but hes not!!!! he's listening!!

I think the reason peter wants to become a teacher for special needs students, and does become one in the 80s is because he was in special education as a kid and always felt it could've been way better, teachers were definitely mean to him and other students and the whole environment seemed to enforce masking which Wasn't fun and he didn't want it to be that way anymore!

but with mike since of course he didn't know he was autistic and no one in his life knew, he would be terribly punished for his symptoms and behavior. although, I think his whole family probably knew there was something wrong with him because he didn't actually say his first word until he was 8 years old. but instead of being sympathetic about that, I think they used it to belittle him (that boy is Special /derogatory) and because his support needs were higher, he definitely wasn't easy to handle and therefore was punished and reprimanded Constantly until he internalized a lot of it in his teens and so would try so very hard to mask and it really was Not easy for him.

he was definitely very anxious and super neurotic and his eye contact would be so excessive that it would come off as strange and intimidating so STILL he would have people tell him off and it frustrated him so badly. when he masked, people told him off, when he didn't mask, people told him off. it was a terrible paradox. He didn't become comfortable with entirely unmasking until around the mid 70s, (being very comfortable at home and also brain damage from his car wreck changing some things in his head) cuz at that point he kinda figured he would Always be strange to people.

when he becomes a city councilman in the 80s it gets pretty funny. No one knows what's up with him!! some people are mean to him, some people are intimidated by him, and some people must think he's Funny. he's just labeled as eccentric and strange. the strange man who always carries around a toy car with him and has the weirdest advice about the strangest most hyper specific situations

[okthatsgreat]

which of your ocs do you think you'd get along with irl? which do you think you absolutely would not be able to get along with, or who wouldn't like you?

GHBFSGBDFJH hiiiii whoever this is. i love u...................................................................................<3

im gonna do this list in order from MOST LIKELY to get along with to LEAST LIKELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! theyll be ranked on if i were to meet them in a relaxed environment which means NO killing game and NO dnd plot making their lives hell YAY!

sae: removed from a killing game scenario its reaaaaalllyyy hard to get her to not like you and also shes chill as fuck. she isnt my age but she'd give awesome advice and also i would definitely be texting her just to get back the most random bullshit from her brick phone. no notes here i have GOT to sit on a dock at night and talk shit with him

ryobe: so despite being the antagonist of his season outside of killing game stuff he is genuinely a very very fun person to be around!!!! also VERY easy to make laugh i think i could get along with this guy. now he is the greatest person to like idk Be Emotional to? not really but id have a great time taking him to go bowling. killing game scenario he'd be a lottttt lower

erin: you'll notice im splitting erin and pippy here because the answer is going to be very different LMFAO but erin and i would get alonggg :] she's real goofy and i need to introduce her to dnd i think she'd thrive there. also she's australian so if these people were real she'd have the best shot of being nearby. BONUS!

yoshito: he's just a nice guy :) but he's genuine about it like youre gonna notice a few of these ocs are nice but they tend to be rather surface level..... yoshito is for real a compassionate guy LMFAO. probably wouldnt share the EXACTTT same sense of humor as him and he's definitely one to pry a little into your personal business if he catches anything off about your behavior. which yknow sometimes is uncool but ultimately he's a good person so i cant imagine not liking him

naomi: heavy emphasis on this being a RELAXED scenario but i think we would be chill :) she's very awkward at first but i would think all her jokes are funny on account of being very easy to make laugh . we'd go play video games together. the dream. i do think our combined lack of ability to text people back will eventually kill us though GHFDHG

ruth: again not exactly my age and clearly busy being a mom but she's the type of woman who would have just absolutely fascinating stories to tell you at a family gathering before she slips away into oblivion again LMAO. but shes still pretty reserved and while i dont think i have any traits thats gonna make her hate my ass she also isnt gonna be super open with me so i cant see a super close relationship or anything LMAO. in my dream blunt rotation however. gotta get her on that dock with saeunn

mika: we're both average so she won't have a complex about anything, i can't imagine we'd be reaaallyyyyy close friends just because she doesnt have a very good sense of humour and she can be a bit blunt lmao. but we'd manage to get along if we were put in a group project or something

olli: MY FIRST DND OC TO MAKE IT HERE LMFAO i lovveeee making dnd/bg3 characters that would be terrible to hang out with in real life. olli is cool though id think they were funny. ill be very honest in saying that we arent gonna be lifelong pals or anything on account of how completely different our personalities are but they would be fascinating to spend a few days with. cant imagine theyd find anything about me they deem deplorable if anything they see my weak ass and vow to "shield me from thy wicked enemies" or something

billie: we'd be fine??? don't think we'd actively be making plans together on account of her being fifteen years old and really awkward

rie: we'd also get along but it's very surface level. she doesn't have much of a sense of humor unfortunately and we share very little interests!!! she's very lovely and all but there isn't much to connect over

andi: this is like. the true neutral point here because she truly is just siri

pippy: this is a character that is SUPPOSED to be really annoying to anybody that isn't an actual child and i do think i'd find that high energy difficult to keep up with lmaooo, also pippy wouldnt be making a huge effort to get to know me or anything! she's lots of fun though and definitely sweet

null: this one was hard ghfjgsdfkg. null is objectively very well-spoken, but this is often through blunt, unexpressive speech. not to mention they are very unnerving like i can not lie to you i would find them really off-putting at first. but the thing is they are up this high because i think they have longevity yknow.................. if im kind to it and give it a nice wave they will eventually mimic that wave back at me. i cant even explain it but i think we could get along. or maybe i am severely overestimating my abilities to talk to a cleric of a murder god but its whatever

sadie: okay so sadie is extremely charming. unfortunately she is extremely charming it's part of her character she is good at talking to people and i am not immune to this. i think sadie would be a lovely person to talk to a few times but hanging out with her for too long is eventually going to get me involved in some ungodly drama LMFAO. without a killing game level scenario to humble her she is going to get very annoying very quickly, and she VERYYY likely sees me as somebody easily manipulated

finnea: similar to sadie she is extremely charming, only put a knob lower due to how quick she is to disappear. would make little effort to truly get to know me and wouldn't make an effort to reveal anything about herself either, would kinda just make playful flirty comments that leave me going "oh yeah she seemed nice i guess"

nowhere: there's a bit of a jump here between finnea and nowhere i reckon because now we're getting into "i would probably dislike them initially" territory........ nowhere at the beginning of her story is like. an asshole LMFAO or at least she's just really loud and kinda abrasive and really doesn't make any effort to get to know people or help them. honestly most likely scenario is we both just say a blunt hi and then go our separate ways

elese: sigghhhhh it makes me so sad to say this it really does. but elese and i would not get along HGFKGSDJHJFKD shes dead last because i can say without a doubt we would both not like each other at first glance....... she would think she's of a much higher rank than me and i would find her very pretentious and cocky............... and if i was to be a little kind and say that this is POST character development elese we still dont have a whole ton in common unfortunately!! besides maybe music but even then she is very very classically trained... love her to death but it would not be fun meeting her in real life and that is why shes awesome <3

[archivalofsins]

Here we go again. Since this is the second time I've had to hear about this in a short time span. I'm making my feelings known again.

The fact that there are people in this world that sincerely believe having trauma is,

A. A phenomenon limited to only people they personally like, agree with, or are in close proximity to and not something that everyone has to live with to varying degrees.

B. Is capable of justifying any past or present action/inaction taken against another individual that impacts their life negatively.

In this age, egregious behavior that one would never forgive if done to them is being justified under this ambiguous blanket term of trauma. When one is a safe distance away from the problem, they stop treating it as something that could impact them at all. They have the privilege to holler from safety while touting their morals to feel superior and maybe a bit better about themselves.

Personally, displays to me why society is simply getting worse and why the younger generation globally is set on track to have the highest amount of conservative leaning individuals out of the last two. I can't even say I don't get how certain things have happened or I'm surprised about how certain things are going. Especially since most of younger people's peers are very comfortable going if that person doesn't understand points a to z they just haven't had it hard enough. They're not traumatized enough. All while secretly wishing and hoping to make the world more unsafe for the people they disagree with by any means necessary so they may eventually get the point.

There's people with this mindset in every generation, of course. This isn't some new phenomenon. There's a lot of people who believe that indifference to the suffering of others and the I got mine mentality is the best one to have.

Because the wolves they overlook would never bite them. Some people don't even believe these wolves are in the same environment as them. Easily brushing it off with a no one is really like that, no one that I know would think that, and experiences like that don't happen in real life.

To the point that it doesn't even matter what the trauma is.

The only thing that matters is that it exists, and no one can prove it doesn't. Because once again, it's something everyone has regardless of if they admit it or not. The trauma and why it exists is not the point. The point is how that trauma can shield one from accountability.

How trauma can excuse the ways some project and take out their past experiences on completely uninvolved parties. Sometimes, to their blatant admission random strangers on the street just trying to walk home. As was said in some Milgram cases. It's a way for people at large to go it was done to me, which means it's okay if I do it to others.

It's no different from pop psychology throwing around a term people know very little about to defend callous and discriminatory actions.

All the Milgram characters have trauma. Every person on earth has trauma.

That doesn't justify inflicting said trauma on others. Parading like it does... Honestly, makes a lot of people sound like those parents who swear up and down their kids have it so much better than they did and they're leagues kinder to their kids than their parents were to them. That's how some people here sound when they speak about trauma within this space. The lack of self-awareness when it comes to this point and how it's presented has honestly become gross to me. Even when, on some level, I recognize this as a byproduct of the subconscious and unchallenged belief that there exists a perfect victim even in spaces where there is room for nuance.

If a person just makes the character sad enough, sorry enough, traumatized enough ambiguity can be thrown to the wayside and one can feel good as they press a button to pardon someone they know without a shadow of a doubt has had such a hard time, loss so much, tried so hard, just was doomed from start cause they couldn't met societies expectation of normal, and don't forget are oh so sorry too.

So, why even think about it at all? Just let anyone do whatever they want forever. It will never be in close enough proximity to anyone here to ever really matter or impact those important to them, I hope. Yet for some people that proximity is just their life, and it's incredibly diminishing to see people go,

These are words I've heard my entire life, and they sound just as stupid here. No one has a license to treat others like shit based on their past. They don't. Yes, a person's trauma is valid, and they have the right to look into said trauma and heal at their own pace. However, when someone weaponizes that trauma against others in their environment and projects that trauma out onto their younger peers.

That person is traumatized and just as hurt as you despite their actions towards you in this moment. Forgive them not just for their sake but yours. Holding a grudge (someone rightfully accountable for the ways they hirt you) is like swallowing poison and hoping the other person drops dead. Learn to forgive. We're all just works and progress. We all make mistakes sometimes. That's just a fact of life you have to get used to.

People can mistreat you and disregard your personhood because they're having a difficult time. They're going through a lot right now. It's important that you be the bigger person and extend grace.

I'm sorry but at that point,

"Victim and Perpetrator, let’s keep it simple."

I don't forgive any of the characters here because I've convinced myself they're not perpetrators. I do it based on my morals, influenced by my background, and with full recognition that forgiveness doesn't change people. That a chance is no more than what the individual does with it. Then I wait and see what they do with that leniency and sympathy. Because anything else would be unrealistic and setting myself up to be disappointed..

I know they're perpetrators. I've never combated that, and I'm not here to debate they aren't. Even when I've gone, "Huh? I don't think they've committed that crime." I've immediately gone. I actually believe they've committed a far worse crime. I am not here to constantly fight the premise of this series. I'm not. I'm here for the series, which, from my perspective it seems a lot of other people are not.

If others want to fight the premise of this series in favor of an interpretation, they enjoy more. That's fine. Just don't tell other people how they should view it or be surprised when others have agency outside of one's own opinion. The Mikoto tag is full of threekoto stuff predominantly. No one sees me constantly shitting on that or creating debunking posts about others' theories outside of the time Doubke released.

I can't let past negative experiences impact how I treat people who had nothing to do with those. That's not the person I want to be. I want to save that heat for those people responsible imparticular. Because I'm petty, and they were shit people. Some things can just be personal, and none of us have to project it onto anyone other than the people involved.

Even when I did talk about it, that was mainly due to a bunch of public and private harrassment from this one characters fans. Some people in this fandom need to chill and cease some of this behavior. Itxs funny that people are speaking about trauma like it matters, while some people in this fandom have consistently traumatized and harassed others within it for their opinions. Because by the same logic being presented, I could be shitting on this theory, the characterization every day, and I would be justified due to my trauma.

Yet that's a completely inhuman way to look at things I can't let how other people that I like/chose to believe are the minority when it comes to this dictate how I treat people who are just trying to have fun with the thing they enjoy.

I don't even have to project on them because their actions at times will speak louder than I ever could. I owe it to myself to grow past these things, but no one owes me closure or the ability to talk it out. Sometimes, you need space from something or someone to realize how bad it was when you were in it. Things that a person experiences may and can look worse in hindsight.

Proximity matters, it's easy to like another person or character when one can make the decision to distance themselves from their worst aspects. To make that character into their favorite shape and love that. Or even chase after this concept of the character that never truly existed and fall for the facade. Those are choices people make every day with their peers and closest loved ones. Some of those instances are labeled as mistakes and people grow to know better over time. Those relationships eventually end.

Yet if we're all stuck on the idea of who someone else could be for us we neglect what we could be for ourselves. There are downsides to extending the benefit of the doubt too far, and it usually impacts the more considerate party the most. Trauma is no excuse to ignore that others I share a space with have feelings and trauma too. It is not an excuse to treat others any way I please because I can convince myself I've had it worse. In fact having it worse should be a very good reason for one to want others to have it better.

I don't want people to have the times I did. I think everyone has been traumatized enough and that anyone who has convinced themselves that some people haven't is either incredibly self-focused or just plain cruel. That's just my opinion, though. Personally, I think a lot of the Milgram characters are portrayed recognizing this themselves. In their moments of self-doubt, loathing, and regret at their behavior but it's fine if others don't see it that way.

And I will not debate this.

[ankhisms]

have experienced what feels like 800 emotions in rapid succession on a rollercoaster today and it hasnt even really been a bad day honestly or anything im fine you know how it is

my mood swings have just been a lot stronger than they usually are since thats one of the biggest things my meds are for theyre like supposed to be a mood swing stabelizer but anyway

something that im aware is related to my more severe paranoia and obsessive compulsive issues but is less severe and more just adjacent to those is like being scared that im somehow a hypocrite about various random things or that im somehow secretly an awful horrible person who hurts people and does bad things without me even realizing that im doing that. im also aware that this very much stems from the way my abuser treated me and also the behavior of ""friends"" i had when i was younger who just now as im older i realize honestly didnt even like me and kept me around to make fun of me and be cruel to me together as a kind of group bonding thing.

which sucks because when im doing self soothing techniques and trying to calm myself down or even just approaching these thoughts and talking myself thru things it can be hard to counter the fear of "what if my friends or people i know in general actually talk together about how im an awful person and they hate me or talk together about how ive done something wrong without telling me?" with "no thats not fair or true and not based in reality" because it very much WAS reality for me. not in the sense of me having done something "wrong" in the past with those ""friends"" but like them being cruel to me and making fun of me when i wasnt around and the things i did ""wrong"" were just my autistic traits and other symptoms of my various mental things especially during that period of my life where i was completely unmedicated and had just gotten away from my abuser and was still in the awful school environment of being harrassed every single day.

anyway its really like. i know i shouldnt worry about this, rationally i know this. but just because i know something isnt rational it doesnt make my brain stop obsessively thinking about it so its like i could see someone saying "i hate when people go to the moon and jump up and down and sing the abcs" (ridiculous example bc i cant think of anything else) and i could at first go oh yeah i get that and like their post but then my brain will go but what if ive done that without realizing it and they see me liking their post and they go "ugh rey this post is about YOU and people like you and youre such a hypocrite and dont even know it" and the spiral begins. and in the end i guess all of this just goes to show that having people pretend to be friends with you only to hate you and ridicule you and pick apart every little thing you do behind your back really fucks you up.

also thinking about the ex close friend who cut me off out of nowhere with no explanation for seemingly no reason about a year or so ago now and ive continued to have kind of taking off the rose tinted glasses moments where i loved and cherished this friend so much that i excused how shitty they treated me at different times. not at all saying they are or were a bad person or that there was any abuse going on or anything like that but im just realizing that we both come from dysfunctional abusive families and we both have our own physical and mental problems and so throughout our friendship we both mightve not made the best choices or couldve handled things better and im not exempt from that. but also i realized that he would not tell me if i had done something to upset him and it would be like a guessing game for me and would really stress me out and make me feel awful

and its like. now as im older i would want to be able to talk things out and understand what had happened and be able to apologize and work on doing better. and in general thats something i really try my best on like i think in the past i would really get stuck in obsessively overthinking in self analyzing and get into moral obsessive compulsive spirals that just ended up hurting myself more than helping me grow, and anyway i always want to be able to step back and look at myself and my actions and be willing to listen if someone tells me ive done something hurtful or that i need to re-examine my behavior and beliefs, i think im pretty good at listening to people about stuff like that and have gotten much better about not falling into those spirals i just mentioned and examining myself in smaller healthier doses

but at the same time i do really get worried that people just arent telling me that theyre upset with me or that ive done something wrong or hurt them in some way. i really just want to be a good friend to people and i dont want people to be scared of coming to me and talking with me if ive done something to hurt them or to just talk about things with me in general and i dont want people to think im so fragile and mentally fucked up that theyd be scared of upsetting me by telling me id done something hurtful and letting it fester instead. i dont want to hurt people i want to spend my life making people happy and helping people and being a good friend, thats what i want most out of my relationships in life overall. i want to make people feel content and happy and safe.

but idk i just get scared. please be honest with me be upfront with me be blunt with me even i know im traumatized but i wont shatter into a million pieces if you tell me youre upset with me ill appreciate you being honest about it and ill stop whatever it was i was doing or work on it. i know im bad with social cues bc of autism and if i misunderstand something or say something inappropriate/out of my lane due to this please just tell me yknow

i really hate that my brain is like this and that having been abused and mistreated in the past has made me struggle like this because i want to trust that people arent talking badly about me or angry with me secretly i dont want to be so paranoid i dont want people to feel like they cant be honest with me or that im made of glass and that ill shatter if they tell me theyre upset with me, i want to trust that the people in my life like me and dont secretly hate me and im really trying hard but paranoia isnt something i can just magically wave away yknow its something im probably going to be dealing with for most of my life and im always kind of scared that people are going to get tired of my paranoia

despite living in survival mode constantly i still love all the people in my life a lot and i just want everyone to be happy and safe and i always wish there was more i could do to help everyone and i want everyone to be able to thrive and to be living comfortably and have all their needs met and to get all the help they need i love everyone a lot i want everyone to be okay and yeah

have also been majorly overthinking about if i want to do something that im being vague about as i ramble about it which i know is silly and its not even like something bad or negative but i just keep overthinking about the possible what if scenarios of oh what if i do this and they react really badly and cut me off and never want to talk to me again and due to this im also unfortunately like overthinking most things recently and being even MORE scared than usual of coming off as weird or being weird and making people uncomfortable but aint that just the way yknow. ill either do it or ill be a coward

anyway besides that my days been pretty decent its a lovely early autumn day. after typing this all i realized im probably feeling super emotional and weird because i just started my period lmao but thanks if you read this i love u mwah

[bananonbinary]

okay. everyone here, stop. forget about ai, forget about art, forget about copyright and plagerism. forget the wider context of this debate and focus in on this argument.

explain to me, from the start, how "lazy and incompetent" are morally bad things that aren't rooted in ableism. use your fucking words, and spell it out, in clear terms, that you think that people who struggle to do a task are doing so out of some personal character flaw rather than admit that sometimes people have shit going on that isn't fucking about you.

I'm going to say the same thing that I said when everyone was talking shit about "weaponized incompetence."

It is not your place to judge what someone else is or is not capable of. it's just not. you have no fucking idea what invisible disabilities they might have. "no disability actually prevents-" yes it does. sit down and actually look around, everything you find easy is hard for someone.

even if they totally don't have any disabilities at all, it still doesn't actually matter if people get accommodations they don't "need." partially because attempting to gatekeep who "really" needs help can only hurt disabled people, but also because. it doesn't matter. it's not hurting anyone.

laziness, as a concept, is not fucking real. it's just not. laziness is a diagnoses that looks at outward behavior (this person isn't doing what I think they should), and refused to acknowledge the actual internal reasons behind it. it is inherently dehumanizing and enormously self-centered. people do not self-sabotage for no reason. I have never in my life met someone who isn't doing something that they want/need because they...what, want to annoy me personally? even people that i think are doing objectively wrong things, it's not because they're evil, or stupid, or lazy, it's because they have shit going on that they are handling poorly. "they simply aren't putting in any effort" is a symptom, not a fucking cause.

we are talking about art. funny pictures and words and whatever. there is no moral imperative to make it "correctly." you can dislike it, you can even argue against it ("its plagiarism," "its bad for the environment," whatever the hell you want), but don't fucking imply that people who do not meet YOUR threshold of protestant fucking work ethic are somehow morally inferior to you. if you're going to argue about something being bad, pick an argument that isn't fucking bootlicking. work ethic isnt real. hard work is not virtuous. easy things are not sowing evil in people's hearts or whatever the fuck.

"oh sky you're overreacting that's not what they meant-" the person above me literally said in clear terms that sentence structure, vocabulary, and expressing yourself "adequately" are skills only someone lazy and incompetent would struggle with. AND that it's "not fine" to not be able to cultivate those skills. just say you hate mentally disabled folks and go.

PS just. all of my complete rage at seeing the words "lazy and incompetent" aside, this just...isn't true at all. you guys are not doing yourselves any favors by IMAGINING what the beloathed ai artist is probably like and then shitting on him. talk to people that actually make ai art. ask them questions. some people are making shitty art, just like some traditional artists. but some of them actually are very skilled at what they do and spend a lot of time on it. just because it's *different* skills doesn't mean the skills aren't *there.* i certainly wouldn't even know where to begin with a project like @infiniteartmachine.

PS PS the original example of chatgpt and education is irrelevant to the discussion of ai art. like, yeah, asking a robot for the answers prevents you from learning, which is bad when you are explicitly trying to learn and build those skills in school. its not bad like, conceptually. the more equivalent argument would be that it'd be fucked up to submit ai art to a still life class. which is true, but not because AI Art Bad. its just grossly inappropriate and kinda ridiculous in that context.