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Finally got around to painting this concept I’ve had floating around for a few months. This is Enya’s mom, Briony. (Above the water is her human form, below the water is her true form) Honestly really happy with how it turned out, especially since I haven’t properly water colored in about a million years, but yeah. Here she is.
Also, here’s where you can find her playlist and moodboard (just really like her playlist and everything I’ve scrounged up for it)
#I really want to make a video of all my kelpie lore over speedpaints#would anybody be interested in that?#might make a poll#idk#scripted my next MerMay page#gotta script the other three and then I can draw them#sorry it’s taken so long#been really brain fogged#and for some reason comic formatting is like mental gymnastics for me and I just haven’t been mentally present enough to figure it all out#kelpie art#kelpie character design#kelpie#fantasy artist#swamp creature#irish folklore#character design#Briony art#artists on tumblr#small artist#my art#young artist#traditional art#regular style
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Just your regular serious dragon studies
Here’s the gif version
#GUYS IVE HAD ART BLOCK FOR DAYS NOW AND MY STUPID BRAIN ONLY LET ME HAVE THIS#I’ve just been on the tail end of wanting to draw but not really getting to#thanks mental block#but through the fog this was able to shine through#tmnt spitfire#my art#rottmnt#rottmnt disaster twins#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt leo#tmnt dragons#carameldansen
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in one window my friends are playing games in another window is the loudest music in the world in another tab is an izzzyzzz video i've already watched TIME 2 DRAW!!!!!!!!!
#art#trinket#finally got covid after 4 years and its turned my neurons into jelly beans or something lol the brain fog is so bad#but i've been drawing so much#i drew a really dramatic d&d piece right before this and wanted to draw something silly and low effort
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Doing another poll!! This time is about something similar to the last one I did but with a more fun purpose (at least imo :^)
Which one of the trio is your favorite and why?
The reasons can be optional. You don't need to add them if you wanna.
My main goal on this is just to interact more with others and to know why some like these silly whimsical fellas, is it their personality, is it because of comfort, is it because you relate to them, is it because you have a silly crush on one of them (not judging you :]) or just for no reason! It's always fun to see people loving a character :>
#dont hug me im scared#dhmis#for me its GOT to be yellow#hes cute and silly and funny#ever since I knew about the existence of dhmis hes always been my favorite#he has a cute voice and attitude#main reason is because i REALLY RELATE TO HIM#like hes so me#the constant confusion? being perceived as dumb but also smart? brain fog? hating unpredictability?#feeling out of touch? expressing oneself is difficult? feeling unappreciated? HE GETS ME#I wanna hug him and tell him everything is alright#I WANNA TALK TO HIM FOR REAL#I want an episode where everything goes his way and nothing bad happens to him#my silly man who i see as himbo for absolutely no reason but i do because i love him#i love him in all shapes and forms#all headcanons (excluding the gross ones obviously)#cis guy? cis gal? transmasc? transfem? nb? skinny? chubby? buff? straight? gay? bi? aroace?#I SEE NO DIFFERENCE. MY FAV IS MY FAV#hes perfect (to me)#ok ok i'll stop#i wanna see what YOUVE got to say about your favorite of the clump
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Not to start shit, if you know me you know I'm a "ship and let ship" kinda gal and saying this I truly have no problem with James/Orla as a ship it harms no one and plenty of people like it, I like people having fun... that said...
I have never understood the common argument that James/Erin as a ship makes no sense and James/Orla should have been the ship instead. Often one of the arguments is that James/Erin wasn't set up while James/Orla was and I'm sorry... what? James/Erin have at least one ship heavy episode each season as well as plenty of background moments and several significant moments in Erin's Diary.
Even if you ignore all the background moments of the two holding hands, being inside each others personal space, the times where they're clearly matching and whatnot. There is at LEAST the implication that Erin would ignore her supposed crush for James, that she cares what he thinks, that Erin is James's type, that they're aligned in creative values and match each others energies, that Erin thinks he's handsome, that James thinks she's beautiful, that she can't imagine her life without him, etc.
James/Orla have some touchy moments... that's kinda all they have as far as romantic coding and I don't see how those two hugging in the Season 2 finale is somehow more significant than what setup James/Erin have throughout all the seasons.
Honestly, while I can see Orla liking James - you could build a case for it and convince me even though I see Orla as ace/aro in my own personal headcanons... no one has ever been able to give me a convincing argument for James liking Orla back. It kinda feels like you have to ignore that he never has a reason to fancy Orla back and just project onto him that.
Which, again, go off if that's your bag I think their friendship is fun and I could see making a ship out of it, but the common argument is that the SHOW makes a better case for James/Orla and like, no? No it really doesn't? It's just not main girl/main boy and some people really don't like that trope or Erin as a main and I think that if you say the show didn't set up James/Erin well and you argue the show would have been better with James/Orla based on what's in the show, you just might not like Erin very much?
I've also never been able to make sense of the argument that James/Erin is somehow the trope that 'guys and girls can't just be friends' like, is that not also James/Orla? Y'know, besides that Orla isn't a girl. They do use she/her during the show time period though and some people who argue this think Orla is a girl, they just think they're not THE girl. So somehow it's better even though it's the same thing.
Basically what I'm saying is that shipping is fun and we all oughta do it. Every ship besides the obvious ones is potentially fun and I'm down for it, but there is one ship the show was setting up and we all know what that ship was and I think it would be better if we all were honest about it.
PS: "James was gay the whole time!" Truthers, if you made it through this post somehow I'd like to offer a compromise: James Maguire is the most bisexual coded male character in media history we can all win here.
#derry girls#james maguire#jerin#erin quinn#Orla McCool#james x erin#erin x james#not tagging Orla and James as a ship because I'm not starting shit it's literally just addressing a common fandom thing I see a lot#when I track discussions of the show#funny enough I do actually have a stream-of-consciousness ficlet in my best friend's dms#where very early on Orla gives James a 'Valentine You're a Horse' card and he overthinks what it means for a week:#Orla: I like horses.#James: Wait so does that mean you like me?? Cause you said I'm a horse -#Orla: *grabs his face* James. I really like horses.#James: I... okay.#Orla: So we understand each other. *walks away*#And then they never discuss it again for like ten years until his wedding to Erin where Orla says they are glad at least Erin won him#since their attempt at wooing didn't work#James: YOU DID LIKE ME BACK THEN OH MY GOD!#Orla: I TOLD YOU I LIKED HORSES HOW MUCH MORE CLEAR COULD I HAVE BEEN. WE WOULD HAVE NEVER WORKED. YOU DON'T GET ME.#This is how I see any romance between them going hypothetically: Orla making an overture James just doesn't get and nothing happens lmao#this was stream of consciousness so if this post is rambling and incoherent be nice to me I'm on my period#I am fog brained today
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just disregard everything I say except for whenever I'm being super cool and sososo correct which is all the time so don't ever fucking disregard anything I say
#no but really I've been fighting with leg pain all night and I have sleeping meds in my system#so the brain fog is REAL rn#.bdo
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the most annoying thing about me/cfs is that it's more like 10 different illnesses in a trenchcoat. i'll wake up with a new symptom and be like "oh okay, guess that's what we're doing today"
#pretty much anything can be a symptom of me/cfs so you're constantly left wondering if the new bullshit you're going through#is a sign of some other illness or if its just your old pal me/cfs getting creative again#ive been having a really bad whole body itch these past few days and i have no idea where it's coming from or when it's going to go away#but i would like not to feel like theres an electric current running beneath my skin thanks#i think the constant fatigue brain fog and muscle pain is more than enough#maybe it's just a crash or something though idk#(briefly) left the house for the first time in over a month on friday and it was really nice but my body Did Not Like It#so now its punishing me for my hubris#ugh#chronic illness#actually chronically ill#me/cfs#myalgic encephalomyelitis#chronic fatigue syndrome#can someone please come up with a better name for this illness#chronic illness fuckery
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HI BESTIES THIS IS AT LIKE 8K AND NOT EVEN CLOSE AND MY HEAD HURTS AND SO this is definitely a project to be released tomorrow morning/afternoon 👍
He splits your lips with his fingers. Pries them apart like a butterfly to pin up.
Mental snapshots to encase on a shelf, mounted beside your underwear and a pushpin map with your face smattered in uneven, sawtooth cut-outs. All raw, and sloppy, and wet. Gushing down to the cleft of your ass— he can see everything, and his eyes rove like he’s mapping every bit of you to memory, your underwear balled and tucked into the pocket of his coat. Drinking in every delicate detail, your pebbled clit twitching under his thumb scuffing, and it’s so—
Humiliating.
Embarrassing— shame clots in that interstice between your battering heart and your ribs, that soft spot it’s been dribbling into since he perched you on his lap like a little girl begging for a present, brimful. You screw your eyes, cup the heels of your palms over them. You can’t look— can’t—
He purrs again. A heady hum nearly as slick with want as you are between your thighs. Only, his is oil to your honey. Motor fluid to your syrup— a slippery smear of grease to sap. Rotten. Thick and coal-dark, like tar. Something gritty that catches like sand between his teeth when you try to close your knees. It’s a faulty maneuver, with your feet pried apart on his elbows, and you can only latch your knees, and—
It’s the wrong thing to do.
#This week has been weirdly really really hard to write during#Like don’t get me wrong I have had docs open every single day but the brain fog is truly unmatched this week#Could be this vile ass liver cleanse I’m on because I’m absolutely fucking STARVING#I feel like that BARK VARK BARK emoji but in a bad way because I’m staring at pictures of donuts#Could be something in the air#Who knows
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I think i forgot how to draw
#vent post#i guess#cw vent below#i haven’t created anything real or that i genuinely like in months#I’m so tired#soursvoice#my hands keep shaking when i try and nothing really comes out of it#sorry i haven’t been posting or anything but at this rate that’s not going to be changing for awhile#we love losing our only skill!!!#can’t even fucking read becuase of brain fog#I’ve been listening to TMA but it makes me angry i can’t draw fanart#i dunno what’s wrong with me at this point christ#anways sorry this isn’t really how i wanted to return but it’s not a big surprise#no the homura post doesn’t count because i drew that like a year ago at this point. whenever i drew the madoka one
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how did u choose your username?
oh, this is a fun one!! i think i considered being swordtold at first, for that very ancient myth vibe of the sword being this narrative tool for adventure and structure and physical time, the parable being passed down through the centuries until it meddles into modern day rhetoric and ideology – a kind of fantastical tool, a spark of magic, of possibility.
i like the arc of the story of a place being physical / having it be held by time and hand alike, wearing with the years and having it become something different to each holder, each reader, each experience fantastical and individual.
having that kind of physicality to it; swordheld is the action of taking up and holding the sword yourself, choosing your own narrative, leading your own story. self-identity has always been something i struggle with (a novel concept i know, i know), so it felt right for this blog, since most of my older blogs before this one have been just me silently reblogging and never really posting anything myself, and i wanted this to be the change to that.
i've always had trouble wranging my social anxiety, esp. on the internet, and previously thought that keeping my words to myself helped keep the timeline cleaner, in a way, no messy thoughts for others to sort through, especially ones i believed no one would want to read anyway? but it never felt right, keeping myself apart from it all, esp. not in the way i so avidly enjoyed reading others' posts and additions, keeping their words close to my heart.
i wanted it to reflect that this was a space i was holding for myself? and i'm a little slow on the uptake sometimes, but this - this i think i got right. i love being here, on this blog, and the joy that it brings me. everyone else enjoying it too has been a wild ride that i never expected, and still surprises me, one that brings a little extra thrill to my heart whenever i think about it.
i had other urls that i liked, but i didn't want this blog to be tied directly to any of my fandom/story interests, since i wanted it to really just be a sort of archive of artistic inspiration and resource, like a little library or museum. i use them now as lil sideblogs of more niche interests now, which is rather lovely.
it hasn't always felt like it fit perfectly, the way that i'd like, but for some reason i can't think of really wanting to change it anytime soon. it feels mythic yet modern in a way that feels like puzzle pieces finally slotting into their place, something my own and inspirational to me, like a lantern i'm holding to make my way by. my own kind of light, if that makes sense – a star i know by name.
#q&a.#birdsong.#all of this is truly just a way to say: it's your blog! it's your party! do what you like if it makes you happy!! (and doesn't hurt anyone!#live your dreams!!!!!! do your own thing truly it is worth it. which feels silly and cheesy inspirational talk vibes but u kno. it's right#thank u for ur question tho !!! it's been so long that i don't really remember exactly what the beginning of it all was?#it wasn't always my url for this blog esp. in the beginning but i've forgotten what that was ghjk so sorry dear anon !#like little flashes of a story in my memory i have to make out / like steam or fog on a window pane. blurry and unclear?#but now it feels more intentional / almost like watercolor! something that mixes itself into a new thing; bright and bursting w/ it all.#i hope this answers ur question nicely all the same tho <3#i always on habit write out lantern as lanturn so this is an unintentional shout out to one of my fav pokemon love u lanturn !!#some of these things i truly do just write out bc i know it'll make me laugh later if i ever come back to it. lil joys for ur future self !#and that IS a reference to the dickinson poem ' i am out with lanterns looking for myself ' it is in my brain always ! ! thank u ! !
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Just finished listening to the Harry Potter audiobooks last night (I have read them previously) and can't help but feel like the movies left out the best and most impactful bits of the books?
Like, obviously the whole thing of giving Hermione Ron's lines and smart moments (and some of Harry's too I think) and basically making her Harry's best friend instead of Ron, along with removing the annoying and negative aspects of her character (which are what make her interesting and a fully rounded character.)
But, they got rid of Winky the house elf completely, and she's an integral part of the Goblet of fire storyline? Hermione with S.P.E.W? Even worse, Kreature's story and turnaround, which is a favourite part of mine, and really shows the difference kindness and compassion can make, which is the core of the whole Harry vs Voldemort thing- love and kindness vs power and ruthless selfishness. And I love Kreature leading the house elves against Voldemort in the finale!
Worst of all, is leaving out all the stuff about Dumbledore and Grindlewald and the full reality of what happened to Dumbledore's sister. His grief surrounding it, the mistakes he made. They really didn't address it properly, the emotional impact of it isn't there.
Oh, and the last fight and Voldemort's death? The whole point was despite everything he died like a normal man, and it was his own spell that killed him, not Harry! Harry only fired the disarming spell at him, the whole thing with Harry is that he doesn't kill. Harry literally warned him what would happen, and gave him a chance to repent!
I just feel like the movies really didn't capture the central themes as well, y'know?
#harry potter#dunno how clearly I managed to convey my feelings here#writing is pretty hard for me now in general but especially when I've got brain fog#but I wanted to write out my impressions#it's been many years since I last read them#I think Luna was my favourite character as a kid but it's Harry now#Harry really is insanely brave and resilient
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a little something about putting yourself back together
#i’m sorry i know this isn’t my usual art#but i think this is the only way i can portray what’s been going on as of late#call me agent washington the way i’m putting my thoughts into boxes in order to compartamentalize my emotions#haha but no seriously. i really do have some work to do#vent#vent art#personal art#art#drawing#artists on tumblr#artist#digital art#digital#procreate#trauma#recovery#brain fog
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alright~ a few updates about everything! so this weekend I'll be seeing changkyun in chicago- so I prolly won't be posting until after I'm alive again from that 😂😅 (I am vv excited about it- I just know I'll be vv tired when I return home). Anyways, I have a few fics in the works~ one of them that is a request 🤭 I'm vv excited to work on them! But I think I'm going to change my masterlist a bit when I come back. I'm going to retire a few groups from the main masterlist and I've been debating for the past year about it... But I think I'm going to add a yearly masterlist- So it would go from most recent to the beginning of this year~
I'm also thinking about changing my pfp- I haven't been really into stray kids for uh... years- But I will be sure to make an update about that if I go thru with that too- (It may be ji changmin next 🫣🤭)
Anyways those are my few updates 🥰💖
#in general my brain is so muddled outside of talking to my three closest and my mom i'm just... fogged- but god how i want to be#writing rn- i have 4 smuts and 1 fluff in the works (who would have guessed my fluff writer self has moved from not only plain fluff to#angst & smut this year? not me- but i'm happy about it) two are poly aus and the other two are about a certain 🌙~#kate rambles on from here#altho there is another vv big potential fic~ but i'm only counting ones i have lots of progress on-#and then the masterlist thing i've been thinking about forever- hwvr again i do not know if i'll have the energy bc i might be knocked#on my ass for another month after this trip (i'll be pretty much solely driving for 4 & 1/2 hrs there and another 4 & 1/2 back the next day#but the pfp thing has been on my mind for a while too- again idk when i'll get around to it but jinkoh has given me a vv good#idea esp for winter~ with mr. ji~ so i'm sure to have changed it by december~ (unless the change is too much for me- i haven't changed it#since 2018... so i'm kind of attached to it- even tho i don't even bias him or stan the group anymore...)#anyways this is full of me rambling- i could really go on tbh- bc i'm really trying to get my mind into gear- but these are my updates#let's see if i fulfill em- i'm bound to fill the fic ones- but the other two... yeah- we'll see-#kate rambles#blog updates#should i bring babydoll q & juyo to the concert bc if it wasn't for kyun getting me into dominic fike(and being into tbz during stealer era#i wouldn't have been a tbz ult... (outside of some other factors i haven't really disclosed) bc atp i'm vv close to packing them with me#i mean tbh a tbz pc was going- but now i'm 🫣: should i bring them to see the guy from my first ult group that caused the spiral-#that made me get into my newest ult group? (i love this butterfly effect more than i could ever express tbh- even tho i express it often)#anyways if someone actually reads these- i'm bound to bring babydoll q- legally that's my buddy- but juyo?? 👀
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#it’s coming up to 3 months since i experienced personal loss and it honestly feels like ive been living in a brain fog like i know the time#has passed but if you asked me to name specific things that have happened i would struggle#it’s like everything else has kept moving but i’ve stayed still and it’s really messing w me#and everyone in my life is giving me so much grace and i don’t know how to deal with it bc i just feel worse#m numb so often and when im not distracted its so hard to ignore. or i just feel angry and self destructive like when will this end robbie#n e ways#to delete
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I need. more enrichment in my enclosure.
#brain fog is *way* less bad this past week. which is cool!#but when you're actually aware for most of the day that's suddenly a lot of time to fill#and i'm still moving at half-speed and need to crash a bunch so it's not like there's a bunch more stuff i can really do physically#however. need Activity.#been able to do some more writing which is nice but trying to do nothing but write all day is a recipe for disaster#curseblogging
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on the one hand I am nervous about dropping projects because I've started so many recently
on the other hand, it feels kind of good? I remember before I lost access to my meds years ago that I was managing to write many reader inserts along with posting Stars regularly, writing a non-insignificant number of oneshots just because I had the inspiration and energy to, and also working on my personal projects. So...maybe this is a sign that I'm actually starting to feel better.
#having my medical care again really has been a game changer#i forgot what it feels like to actually be rid of brain fog and have energy and *ideas* again
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