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idk but saying jennifer lynn barnes sucks at writing romance because your ship wasn't canon is beyond hilarious to me like okay???? HAHHAHAHA. everyone has their own preferences of course but the vehement hatred for jlb and the belittlement of her writing on booktok and bookstagram (sometimes on here) has been ASTOUNDING.
a note about the "poorly done romance/love triangle" in tig: jlb never said it was going to be "even". no one ever said that. personally pioneering the idea that one character was "not given a chance" does not make it a poorly written love triangle or a poorly written romance. in love triangles, there is usually ALWAYS one option who is simply NOT a real option. look me in the eye and tell me characters jeremiah fisher, aspen in the selection series, gale hawthorne, adam kent, jacob black, and i'm sorry but grayson hawthorne amongst a myriad of others were actual contenders for the main character. if you believed they are/wanted them to be, that's great! but all of these characters are in well known love triangles and at the end of the day, books with love triangles WILL sell because they generate conversation and hype around the book. it is a marketing tactic and you are NEVER promised equal opportunity from both love interests. you losing the love triangle or that you believe there is wasted potential doesn't mean bad writing has occurred. also, for the love of god, while you are supposed to relate to a character, you are not the main character!! belly, america, katniss, juliette, avery, what have you, all chose based on who they are as characters. and also, female characters don't have to "experience" both love interests to make a decision. if they want to, that's totally fine, but specifically about avery bc this is what this blog is all about, she absolutely knows what she's "missing out" on with grayson and she doesn't care. shipping averygrayson just blatantly feels like ignoring avery's wants and needs.
anyway, if you want to call jlb's writing poorly done bc you didn't get your way, that's totally fine. you are entitled to your own opinion. it's just funny that you say that bc had grayson and avery been randomly thrown together in the epilogue of tfg or something, i have a feeling you wouldn't be of this opinion.
tldr; love triangles are a marketing tactic and you are neither entitled to a win nor is is poorly done/executed if you lose. love triangles, more often than not, have a clear winner from the beginning (coughcough "see? you're already his") but the debate and drama of another character sells the book.
#the inheritance games#oh god the love triangle discourse is so tiring does it not get OLD????#averyjameson#avery grambs#avery kylie grambs#jennifer lynn barnes#been a while since i went on a rant#tig#if you disagree idrc bc im not trying to convince you that you can't think something is poorly written#averygrayson#anyway! miss you guys#can't wait for the brothers hawthorne!!!!#i think she's a genius romance writer bc im rr tig and she sprinkles in these moments from the very beginning and wow#she has such a big brain#god booktok is annoying and the comments on jlb's insta posts are so??????#like imagine the amount of “how dare you not make ag endgame” comments she's gotten (by the same people every post but still) is so weird#“how are you” “what were you thinking” “it was a love triangle and grayson was the right option i'm not reading you books anymore” LOL#or “how are you not let gray be endgame/have avery/be happy” hm avery isn't a prize and gray doesn't let himself be happy hope that helps!#i thought the sad/chronically unhappy thing was y'all's brand for him but suddenly when he doesn't flip a switch and be :D y'all hate it??#him forgiving himself at the end and letting himself feel was HUGE like ?? ive digressed but tell me you dont understand him w/o telling me
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TAWERET
I WANT TO TALK ABOUT TAWERET!
I’ve been putting this off for a while and I need to discuss Taweret! Let’s go!
So who is Taweret. (Disclaimer: I am not an expert on Egyptology or mythology in relation, I’ve only done a little research).
Taweret is a goddess that gained increasing power and placement throughout Ancient history.
She is described as having the head of a Hippopotamus, arms/paws of a lion, and tail and legs of a crocodile.
That is one strong and fierce combination. They looked around Egypt and went, “What is the scariest things we have out here?”
So what is her place? Fertility and Rejuvenation (Goddess of pure water from the nile). Okay, They loved that shit back then. Makes sense.
Oh, and Protector of Women and Children.
It was common to find pictures of her around the homes of new born babies and young children. She was painted on their cups and plates, had little statues placed near their cribs.
She was fierce and terrifying. She was meant to protect the children from illness and ill intent. She was motherly and protective. She kept harm from them and the family. It was believed that if you raised a hand to your child or wife, you would face Taweret.
So what DOES happen in the afterlife? Where does Taweret fall into play?
When you died, you came before a series of judges who would ask you questions. (Book of the Dead was an instruction manual filled with how you were supposed to answer these questions, as well as spells to help keep you true).
Once you answered the questions your heart was weighed against the feather of Ma’at. If your scales did not balance, you were fed to Ammit. If your scales are balanced, you would be welcomed to the afterlife by Osiris.
In the afterlife, you were given a plot of land to do with as you wished and expected to maintain it. It was filled with abundance and everything you could need to be happy and good of heart (including worship of the gods). It was supposed to reflect the world that they had left behind (hence taking all your things with you in death that brought you joy in life).
So what place did Taweret have in the afterlife?
Taweret held the role of funerary deity. She was in charge of rebirth and passing into the afterlife. She became the center of homes in the New Kingdom, becoming related to life-giving regeneration, rebirth, and purifying.
At times, she was seen as the opposite of Ammit, who was the devourer of the impure soul and path to darkness. Taweret was nourishment and aid to those in need.
SO WHY WAS SHE ON THE BOAT?!
So in the Moon Knight show, the ways of the old world have fallen into the past and current gods/goddesses just kinda watch and don’t do anything. MANY of the old gods/goddesses are imprisoned for not following the rules one way or another. Others are banished (Khonshu).
It’s easy to believe that with important gods being banished/imprisoned, their duties had to be filled by others. It’s easy to think that the one that was supposed to be on the boat got themselves imprisoned and the next closest thing was tossed into the job with a little guide book.
She has a guide book with a speech and rules. She doesn’t really seem to be familiar with her role or how to carry it out. Or perhaps, she isn’t familiar with D.I.D situations. A soul arrives and she expects one and is met with two. Do the rules still apply? Does she still do the same thing? Will she blow them up when she tries to remove their hearts or are they going to be fine?
Marc does not understand Egyptian Mythology. At all. This boy be skating by with “Egypt for dummies” folded up in his back pocket with the first page highlighted and then he figured he’d get around to reading the rest later.
As Avatar to Khonshu, he’s tossed into an afterlife not meant for him and an afterlife he does not understand.
What is more, Marc is so estranged from his own culture and religion that he is in spiritual distress. He knows what is supposed to happen. What he was told and taught to happen.
And here he is faced with a situation he doesn’t understand in the slightest. This further highlights how lost Marc is. He is so hurt and broken up inside that he believes that he isn’t even worthy of his own Jewishness.
He killed people. He did terrible things. He was beaten and blamed for the death of his brother. He was taught to hate his life and himself. He tried to take his own life most likely more than once. He wasn’t even worthy of death as Khonshu kept bringing him back.
This brings us to Steven. Emotional protector and Spiritual protector. Steven not only understands what death means in relation to his Judaism, but he knows Egyptology. He KNOWS the gods and goddesses. He knows the book of the dead forward and backwards. He’s probably read it in three different languages.
So when Taweret shows up, how does Steven explain who she is to Marc?
“This is Taweret, goddess of women and children!”
That’s an interesting breakdown for all that Taweret does. Especially with all that Steven knows she does. And she is kind and gentle with them. She gives them chances, tries to welcome them, even fights for them. She even reaches out to Layla on their behalf.
One has to wonder if she learned their story and, though she did not understand it, she felt for them. A child that needed help and protection and did not receive it.
Is it possible that out of all the gods, one that was most fitting for them was sent to be their guide on the boat?
Is it possible that Steven, the protector, was the one that somehow chose the one to greet and ultimately judge them?
If Ammit was a representation of their mother, then is it not fitting that Taweret, the one of purity and rebirth and protection, would be the one to meet them?
Now as others have pointed out, this is not where they are supposed to be. There is no representation of ‘heaven’ meant for them and the notion of Steven being left behind healing Marc is a pretty bad one.
With Jeremy Slater writing, it was a rough go of what happened. However, I choose to see where Diab, who is NOT Christian (as far as I am aware please correct me if I am mistaken) took us visually. He isn’t Jewish either, but he is Egyptian and telling an Egyptian story.
At this point, they are dead and they are trapped in an afterlife that isn’t theirs and doesn’t make sense to them culturally. Marc my sweet idiot man takes ‘Field of reeds’ literally.
Much like Vallhalla’s field of wheat, it is a large quiet peaceful afterlife filled with joy, celebration, and life. Even on the ancestral plane with Black Panther, it is a beautiful place but there is MORE there. So much more.
Marc just finds himself in an empty field. Just a big ‘ol field full of nothing. Because he does not understand where he is!
“Okay, I’m supposed to go somewhere peaceful in a field.” And it’s beautiful, and it is peaceful, but it’s very literal.
And Taweret is just like, alright. I saw your life and it was full of rage and violence and hate and pain. This must be what you want I guess? Isn’t it nice? It’s pretty quiet and alone here. You must have wanted to be alone because of the whole D.I.D thing I guess?
She doesn’t really understand what’s going on either. This isn’t really it, but this is the first time she’s really come across this situation.
Taweret: Your heart is full. Your journey is over.
Marc: It's so... quiet.
Taweret: The peace you've always wanted but never had. You're manifesting it. No danger. No loneliness or hurt.
Marc: What about Steven?
Taweret: He's gone, Marc. The Duat has him. Please enjoy your peace.
Marc: We need to go back for him.
Taweret: It doesn't work like that. Leave here, and you can't return. Anyway, you don't need him anymore, Marc.
Marc: So I get to go on to eternal peace, and he just... stays lost in the sand forever? No, I'm not good with that.
It isn’t full. We can see it. He’s clutching it and it looks empty. And Marc knows this is not it. There is no Hell in his belief. He just sees Steven as being trapped somewhere he isn’t supposed to be. It’s Marc’s nature to help people. And Steven helped him. Steven protected him.
So yeah, it’s been covered before. He leaves. There are whole metas out there (Love you @fdelopera ) about this part and I recommend you go look up the Jewish perspective because it’s beautiful.
But I want to focus again on Taweret.
Marc goes back, the heart glows pure and true and full with Steven there to help fill it, and Osiris opens the gate back.
But she isn’t done.
One of the rituals of funerary rites is to replace the heart with a golden scarab with a spell written across it that helps to guide the soul while they are being judged. It helps keep them true and pure. Keeps them a good person.
Taweret sends a Scarab to save them and fight along them. A protector of women and children to shield them.
So why was Taweret on the boat? Do you think Steven had anything to do with it? Do you think Marc subconsciously knew what he needed as a child? Someone to save them? Do you think she just so happened to have gotten the job as a toss up and then saw two small boys in need of help?
She could have just judged them right then and there and tossed them off. She didn’t have to give them time.
Do you think she knew the whole time that Marc needed to make that choice to go back? That he would always have made that choice? That it was Steven that needed to know that Marc would come back for him? That Steven needed to find his own purpose as the protector?
#Moon Knight#Moon Knight Meta#Steven Grant#Marc Spector#Taweret#It has been a hot minute since I went off#I have been wanting to rant about this since October you guys#You have no idea#AM I MAKING SENSE HERE?!#Am I the only one that stays up at night wondering these things?!#Man yells at clouds about his favorite blorbos while crying
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a government worker was a little mean and now im sad i hatehate hate being sensitive
#basically i was so anxious i messed up my address in the form and they looked at it and went#'*laughs* there's so many mistakes'#and the person next to them said 'well better than knowing nothing. that would be stupid' *laughs again while looking at my form*#i am going to kill myself#tw suicide mention#tw suicide#IM NOT ACTUALLY KILLING MYSELF BUT DO U GET ME I AM NOT IN THE RIGHT HEADSPACE FOR INSULTS RN MY GUY#i was getting my voter's certificate#like i was so polite to u even tho u were already so cranky like...why would u do that :(((((#i just had to let this out dw im fine i think. im just kinda sad bc i already have so many existing doubts and have been bullied since#childhood so idk man i just dont feel good lmao#tw rant#id rather have ny head slammed against a wall again likeback then in childhood than go thru verbal insults id rather accept pain lik that#i have high pain tolerance but emotional stuff?? i am soft and gullible 💀
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I was meant to go see a musical but mum booked the wrong thing and it was like a uni student play? (It was Jekyll and Hyde) Honestly it was pretty shit but it wasn't bad
But like I was so exited and recently I've been trying really hard to seem happier in front of my mum bc last year she never believed me when I said I was happy and a few months ago we were arguing a lot over a bunch of stuff and just generally I feel bad bc I seem kinda apathetic ab shit I'm exited for. So she knew I was exited. And she knew it was shit bc like she was there and now bc she's worried I'm upset (I am but mostly not ab the play) she's going overboard to get me acting more upbeat and I'm so tired I cba
So in the car back I literally just wanted to do my resting face bc like I'm really tired and I was upset and she just kept looking at me so I had to keep smiling and my entire face is so achy. And eventually put on some songs we sing along to sometimes (and like if I don't sing along she's going to make a big deal out of me being sad) and i really did not want to do that
But now I feel really guilty bc I am upset ab the play (like I was really excited and it turned out like 90% screaming, forced jokes and overall just really dry) and ik she's upset too and my negative thoughts are going fucking crazy rn (literally crying in the bathroom rn) and I just wish I didn't act so excited. Like I was really happy we were seeing it and she knew I was and I feel so shit bc if I just kept that in she wouldn't be upset
And since when I go back out she's probably gonna see I was crying and think it was bc of the shitty play but it's not and I feel so bad. Normally I don't tell people I'm exited for stuff but I was trying to start doing that and ig I'm never gonna fucking do that again bc I'm having a full on mental breakdown rn
#cba to proofread this and i wrote it while crying so its probably fully unreadable#normally id just keep in in the drafts but i think if i dont tell someone im gonna go insane#vent post#sorry for the rant#and like i want to just watch it on youtube but i dont have headphones and mum said we're going to watch the real thing at some point#generally ive been feeling like shit since i went back to school in september and i think its all just flowing out
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Hey folks! I'm in the very fortunate position of being able to see some doctors for some longstanding issues and would love to be able to have a little extra income while I'm being absolutely decimated financially 🥲
I'm pretty flexible with what I'll do art-wise and am most responsive to specific dictation so I can provide exactly what you want! I'm also willing to be a little flexible on prices for backgrounds, just discuss what you'd like and let you know where you stand 👍
DMs are always open for questions and inquiries!
#commissions#art commissions open#oh boy it's definitely been a while since ive done this and I'm not entirely proud of how it went last time#so i wanna try again and really put in the effort this time bc ive been really proud of my art lately#let's see where this goes 👀#hoatm rants#hoatm draws
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#whenever I scroll through like Twitter or Bluesky or tumblr I see a lot of people making stuff with their oc#or like yume stuff with their fave characters and it makes me go like ''oh I'd love to do that too''#but then I remember that Gilgamesh would never like look towards me because I visually don't appeal to his tastes#nor my like character wouldn't pick up his interest because I'm a boring loser and a coward and sometimes it really puts me down#and yeah I know it's stupid but I just can't help myself😅#and I know that some of you might come to me and say words of support and I would appreciate them#but I'm writing this not to pity party myself but to just lift this weight out of my chest#and I have a friend of mine and we know each other since the childhood like we went to the same kindergarten#and I remember her always being determined and ahe always stood up for herself and was never afraid to voice her opinions#and I always admired her for that because because I always stayed quiet during the arguments or try to avoid them completely#or whenever someone was bullying me I always just burst into tears and just ran away#and I sometimes hate myself for being weak but I just can't do anything about it#and recently this friend she went into military and even though I worry about her and support her#I just can't help myself and not feel envious (in a good way) because of her bravery and determination to make that choice#and just throw her into this challenge despite all of her worries doubts and consequences that she might face#like I can't even call a dentist to make an appointment without being anxious#while she's ready to throw herself into the pits of hell despite fear and everything#like my friend is like that perfect image of a person that Gilgamesh would look upon with admiration and some respect#and I wish I could be like that too#I wish I could be the person which Gil would praise rather than look upon like on a piece of trash...#anyway sorry for ranting and thank you for reading if you did#these thoughts have been eating me for quite awhile and I wanted to voice them at least somewhere#personal
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they look half dead ☹️
#weezer#rivers cuomo#brian bell#patrick wilson#matt sharp#i rlly like rivers’ hair in this one! it’s epicness#i liked his hair in the 90s with his bowl cut.#bowl cuts are cool#and he looked great w it !#anyways yesterday was my boyfriend’s birthday party; and i got him some chaos emeralds from sonic that he’s been wanting like ; forever!#it was fun for the most part; but nobody told me we would be swimming plus i was the only girl there sooo i was just sitting around while#everybody swam and stuff. and my friend hayden i guess felt bad so he stayed out of the pool despite having swimwear and just played mobile#games with me; which was fun and i really appreciated but this guy ; who will remain nameless was being rlly mean to me at the party#like he was saying stuff abt how my boyfriend didn’t really like me THAT much (we have been together for nearly a year…)#and other things like that; which made me rlly sad and i kept asking my mom to pick me up but she wasn’t answering so i couldn’t do anything#besides trying not to cry and stuff. but it’s okay#and after everybody went inside besides me and my boyfriend ; we were cleaning up the table since the guys left all their trash and i had#like a whole pile of trash; like tons of plates and a whole stack of trash still; the guy from earlier who was mean just like#put his trash on top of the trash i was already carrying inside#since the guys were all crowded around the trash cans (he was closest; but he couldn’t throw it away; rather he wanted to deliberately just#put it on the pile i was carrying ) and it wouldn’t be a big deal if he wasn’t mean earlier; i wouldn’t have cared so much#but he was being real mean and just did that. and i’m a passive person ; but i rolled my eyes a ton at it and idk it felt like the#other guys were laughing; which made me feel even more awful about the fact but yeah so i rolled my eyes tons and he told my bf that he was#sorry about it; but didn’t say it to me and stuff and idk it just made me feel bad#when i was younger i got bullied a lot and people would throw their trash on my lunch tray n it just reminded me of that and made me sad;#but it’s okay now! other than that i had a good time and it was fun! my boyfriend said he loved my gift to him so ya! :D it was fun other#than the stuff with the guy! but yeah. not rlly weezer related tags today; just really wanted to get that off my chest#my boyfriends mom asked if i felt left out; which i definetly did and really wanted to go home but ik i couldn’t so i was just sitting at a#table alone for abt 20 mins while everybody was changingninitially#but it’s okay! ty for listening to my rant i love u all
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texas watcherinas how we feelin
#ghost files live#ghost files#LITERALLY THE MOST STUPID THING TO BE UPSET ABOUT#i knew i should have pushed to go last year#the problem with being a college student living at home is that i am subject to my parent's whims#i wanted to go so bad my irls know ive been excited since last year's#but for my family money is tight and while ive been saving for tickets i have no idea how much travel + lodging would be#also thats if my parents will even let me go#and i wanted to take my little sister#and its during the school year so it'll be rough#man#i hope they add more locations but i seriously doubt it#i had a feeling they might cut locations bc of all the backlash#or theres a chance they just didn't get venues#i know there's a lot more cities who aren't on the list this year that were last year#everyone who does get to go! definitely hope y'all have fun!!! and i look forward to hearing all about how it went#living vicariously thro my mutuals fr de#vee talks#literally just me ranting ignore me
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all i've learned from this submersible situation is that u could never pay me enough to step foot into the ocean
#also that it was a materials selection nightmare#why are u putting carbon fiber in high pressure environments#it's still a fairly new material compared to other materials used in deep sea operations#and sure it was paired with titanium#but there's a reason why navy submarines and such are made of materials that can deform and huge amounts of compression over multiple uses#i.e. steel and aluminum#also carbon fiber has good tensile strength (pulling it apart) as opposed to compressive strength (pushing on it)#on top of the fact that it's much more brittle than say metals#metals can deform and won't immediately crack under intense pressure#while carbon fiber likely would (there hasn't been enough testing of the behavior of cf under rly high pressures)#the amount of corner cut on that submersible was astounding#i especially feel bad for the 19 yr old on there since he only went to make his father happy :(#ok nerd rant over#wait i didn't mention THE WIRELESS GAME CONTROLLER#U DON'T WANT THAT#EVERYTHING SHOULD BE HARD WIRED TOGETHER#also the viewpoint wasn't even graded to go that deep#viewport*#someone on twt called it a deep sea hubris coffin#and#yeah it kinda was#ashlee's bs
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Do you have a brace for your wrist? Is it arthritis or carpal tunnel?
Either way, you should rest it instead of writing. It's only gonna get worse if you keep fuckin with it.
Sincerely, old ass anon who got early onset osteoarthritis AND carpal tunnel.
I have a wrist brace yes! N im not technically sure what it is ive been to a number of doctors n underwent shit like electrical testing of the nerves in my arm/wrist and that neurologist i went to told me it was 'just some glitch' n nothing was wrong. I think i have arthritis maybe but idk and doctors suck hskxvdd
N ya ik its like. I should chill. But its fucking annoying practically everythin i do irritates it bleugh. N im sorry bout both ur carpal tunnel And osteoarthritis like damn thats a two for one huh
#eurgh. eirgeh#aa#doctors been no help i been goin to em since i was like 14 w my hand issues and chronic back pain n they jus Shrug for both#its been a while since i went on a rampage tryna force em to figure out whats wrong w me tho so maybe i should go again#i mean i do have a growth that they tried n failed to remove on my wrist thats a good in#but i hate doctors. its exhausting gettin told i shouldn't be in pain or should jus take advil over n over#ok rant over. my body is a temple and bbgirl it is Crumbling#anon
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we have a dentist appointment tomorrow and on the plus side we're not really anxious about the appointment itself because the dentist was so nice last time and actually took our medical trauma into account.
unfortunately though we do have to have anaesthetic which makes us feel like shit for at least the rest of the day, and no matter how considerate the dentist is, having a medical professional touch us at all does still trigger certain trauma and then I end up having a bunch of panic attacks at some point within the next few days and it's a really shit time. I really don't wanna have to deal with that and the concept of it is making me nauseous
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#<- kinda#medical trauma#(this turned into a long rant about medical trauma and consent so here's your warning for that if you read the tags)#I didn't like medical professionals touching me anyway but ever since the stuff last April when we went to the hospital#it's been a way bigger issue and I end up being an absolute wreck for a while because of it#I cannot begin to express how much I do not want a medical professional touching me at all but especially not in my mouth#and any other situation where someone shoves their fingers in your mouth when you don't want them to would be considered really violating#but because it's for medical reasons and we have to put up with it if we actually want treatment nobody around us seems to see it like that#same goes for various other medical procedures where it's like if a stranger touched me like that when I really didn't want them to#in any other situation that would be assault but because it's a medical setting I'm expected to just be okay with it???#idk I probably haven't explained any of this right but I just don't like that people treat medical stuff as a special scenario#that's exempt from causing the same distress as any other scenario where someone touches you when you don't want them to#even though our brain is processing them the same way and we can't magically make that not happen#I know technically with medical procedures you (usually?) consent#but it's like... the choice is either consent to it or have your health keep getting worse#and once again in any other situation if your choices were to either consent or experience physical harm#that wouldn't really be considered consent and would be really distressing#I'm literally only consenting out of fear of what happens if I don't which... technically isn't consent but what choice do I have#idk this stuff is probably an issue specifically because of our trauma#but even still I would like to be taken seriously when I say I feel violated after medical procedures
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ok why is she texting paragraphs in the groupchat that "we need to start cleaning the kitchen more" like girl be real. you know i deep clean it myself every 2-3weeks but it's a big kitchen and multiple people use it i can only do so much
#swear on my dogs life she has cleaned the kitchen ONCE since we moved in 2 years ago#and my other roommate has cleaned it MAXIMUM OF TWICE as well#im also the only one who cleans my bathroom#funny story about that too#the other 2 girls used to share the bigger bathroom and it was always filthy like everything has a thick coat of grime and dirt UFG like i#had to use their toilet once and once my butt hit the seat i was disgusted i could FEEL the dirt on top of the toilet seat#so anyways while i was away for a little one of them moved into my tiny ass bathroom to share with me because it's always clean bc im a#neat freak but now i have share the bathroom with her and clean up after her and pick up her hair in the shower/on the floor and maybe im#just like MAJOR clean freak but....grosses me out#so anyways the audacity to say that we never clean when i do clean often and you're aware of that which is why you wanted to share a br#with me instead. smh#RANT SORRY#that time i came back from being away and saw that she moved into my bathroom i went to take a shower and tehre was mold ALL OVER THE SHOWE#R and so i texted her like did you know the bathroom is all moldy?? like it's disgusting have you been standing on it in the shower n stuff#and she was like 'oh really! no i thought it was just the design of the tile' -_-#ok.......#for this reason. im glad to graduate and move back home bc at least my brother is low maintenance in our bathroom
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When got hooked on wobbly dogs...
Tbf we stopped playing at 7 hours 59 minutes which is still crazy. 8 hours of hyperfocusing on some wobbly doggos...
#aria rants#aly has been wanting to have this game ever since we saw some gameplay vids of it and it went on sale today!#if theres anything that we got during that 8 hour gaming is that pillow. our dearest. is eternal#we are going to keep feeding pillow sacrifices to ensure she lives for as long as possible#am also alrdy planning on giving her a better body. so even if her first body dies she lives on in the second one#also like by we. it was 3 of us playing the game. me. aly. and vita. and somehow its just me and aly that lost it#i lost it in the ''i need pillow to live forever.'' and aly lost it in the ''what mutations can we get from this''#while vita is watching us and sometimes giving names to the new dogs we hatched
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has anyone else who's taken qelbree started having. what seems like manic episodes during/afterwards.
#adhd#like. its been YEARS since ive taken it. i was like 15-16 at the time. and at the tail end before i quit taking qelbree#it made me genuinely actually manic.#and ever since quitting ive noticed that. while before i tended to be more mood stable. afterwards ive had more. like.#i guess hypomanic episodes? i think??? maybe??????#idk if its that or just adhd but it feels different than the adhd.#and it always makes me feel like shit but i cant Stop i cant Stop Moving#and nkw im like questioning my life choices becaude of 1 offhanded comment my mom made#and i think i made everyone in the house upset or at the very least overwhelmed#but i cant Stop. theres no fucking brakes.#and it was never like this before. it was never fucking like this before i went on that godawful medication#sorry for the rant i am jjst. mad. and frustrated. mostly @ myself#and i cant find SHIT online about this and my psychiatrist at the time denied it completeky so im. like..okay am i just going crazy then.
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Do you know that "friend" who makes you feel bad about the things you do by talking about someone else who also does these things and saying that the reason that other person does these things is on purpose to be selfish or piss off others but never talks to you about the times you do those things?
Especially when they are mental health related things?
Yeah?
Fuck that friend.
#vent post#it's been a couple of years and I still haven't forgotten the time my “friend” went on a rant about a girl he knows#and how she used social anxiety as an excuse to be picked up and driven by someone when asked if she wanted to hang out#like fuck you man why do you care? she has set her terms for hanging out why are you salty?#you said she doesn't have a car or driver's license because of her anxiety so maybe she isn't lying you dumb salty fuck#and then using her situation to make me feel bad that I don't have a car or drive because I'm scared of getting distracted#because my neurodivergency inconveniences you so much when you want to hang out but I need transportation alternatives like public transport#there is a simple solution for that my dude#and the solution is that you FUCK OFF and go hangout with your other friends who can drive since me being unable bothers you so much#but you should remember that when you went scorched earth on everyone and got screwed over#when you came back with your tail between your legs to apologise to all your friends that you hurt#i welcomed you with open arms and was worried for you#and when my foster dad died and I disappeared off the face of the earth you didn't give a shit#but years later I gave enough of a shit to find you again and I gave enough of a shit to ask how you had been doing all these years#and while you told me about how bad you had it you didn't once ask how bad I had it#you didn't once wondered how fucked in the head I might have gotten and why#remember all this shit next time you whine about how hard it is to make friends in your 30s while you are constantly texting new people#and I'm over here talking to the same 3 which include you#maybe it's hard for you to make friends because you're a douche dick and the only people who stayed were the ones who don't care#and ignore you while you continue to be a douche dick or the ones that care about you enough to withstand your douchedickery#which your own MOTHER couldn't stand by the way
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omg i lowkey meant like a DIFFERENT separate reader as atsumu's best friend in question (obviously this would probs be harder to work into the main story so i meant more as an offshoot etc) but also like .... s*kusa is riiiight there hehe whatever you do just thought it was a fun idea im also just biggest atsumu apologist alive <3
OMG RIGHT I DID READ THAT PART AND THEN COMPLETELY FORGOT 😭 sorry anon BUT THAT'S SUCH A GOOD IDEA THANK YOU okok there's something cooking here I'LL GET BACK TO THIS AT SOME POINT AND I'M WITH U I have this idea for like a little headcannon type thing that's literally just me defending atsumu against anyone who thinks he'd be a bad bf and I need to get around to writing that too
#I'M SO SORRY AGAIN AND I READ YOUR ASK LIKE THREE TIMES WHILE THINKING ABOUT THE SCENARIO AND I KNOW I READ ONESHOT#and then i glossed over it#THAT WAS MY B ✋#today was a DAY BRO#i just needed to tell someone how good i did today with how well i handled that store#okay im gonna rant now not relaly tho it's gonna be like two tags#i went shopping for dresses because i've been lowkey liking them lately for once in my entire life (it's already decaying again dw)#well i went to this place in the mall (red flag no. 1) and it was one of those really popular high schooler overrun kind of stores 😭#but my friend recommended it bc the dresses have pockets and i need that!!#but it was just so overwhelming and overstimulating i literally got out of there as soon as possible#i've been cranky and braindead since#BESIDES WHEN I WAS MAKING MOODBOARDS FOR EGGY'S SMAUS THAT REALLY LIGHTENED MY MOOD#i'm still braindead tho 😔#thank u tumblr and anon for allowing me (u didn't have a choice i'm sorry) for letting me journal in the tags of your ask#answers <3
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