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Something is fundamentally wrong with me for real
#gotta say guys its not even funny its just frustrating#i feel like im going insane#was i always like This or did i get like this and not realize?#i cant figure out if im just too much in my head about it or if im just really Wrong#and i cant tell people brcause i sound like im making shit up#the one time i told my best friend they didnt get what i was trying to say#because its so fundamentally wrong#why cant i just be#vent#rant#sorry#whining
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talking to my brother about quicksilver and i was like 'ik him and wanda are twins but he exudes little brother energy so much' and my bro Without Hesitation just went 'well thats what happens when you're the least favorite in the family' and he says this to me, the youngest in our family like 🧍♂️
#snap chats#i screamed honestly ajeLRKERAJ LIKE OH !! VIOLENCE youve decided violence tonight brother#AND HE'S NOT EVEN WRONG. my mom dont like me i know she dont she act like she do but fundamentally she thinks im gross#youngest of four thats me .... the beef between my mom and i is definitely more one sided but thats because i refuse to forgive but anyway#'snap is this just an excuse to vent about your mom' NO i just think its very funny ok let me laugh .....#pietro ive formed a kinship with you i fear. i too have the same exact face as the mfer i got beef with jvaeRLKVJAER#PLEASE i will make a comic about that at some point. i can finally project onto someone about this cause its the worst shit in the world#people tryna be nice or cute like 'aw you look exactly like X :)' like oh so you want me to die????? you hate me ???? you want me dead.#and you just gotta smile while thinkin Wow Wanna Say It Again I Dont Think I Was Psychically Damaged Enough The First Time#anyways i just thought that was the funniest thing cause my bro really didnt even think before sayin that... is that how he really feels ..#or did he just. forget i am the youngest ...w/e im ending it here before i start gettin petty ....#point is he Again accidentally said something incredibly funny and i was taken aback jvAWLKFJWRLKJA
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I've been moving and navigating further departmental nonsense etc (my pseudo-dissertation got approved for defending, though! l o l). But it was interesting to see the Worst P&P Takes poll I reblogged accumulating more results and the general tenor of responses in the notes.
I mean, the results are definitely to be expected if you're familiar with the side of Austen fandom doing a lot of the reblogging etc. But still, interesting!
Many Tumblr polls specify that they're asking about personal preferences that may be irrational—favorite/least favorite, coolest/most annoying, or something like that. This one, though, asked for the worst interpretation of P&P, not the most annoying one—and the current leader is "Darcy is never really proud, he's just shy and probably has anxiety" against some very steep competition on the Bad Takes front.
I was thinking about why that seemed a kind of tediously predictable choice even though I agree that the take is wrong, and realized that while I do disagree with the shy Darcy interpretation and I particularly disagree with the specific formulation where he is never proud at all, it ultimately feels to me like a failure of nuance rather than just completely wrongheaded like some of the others. And this is probably my fundamental difference with a lot of Darcy takes I see!
In my opinion, a character who is introverted and who feels awkward in various social situations and who doesn't like common social activities and who has to work himself up to talking to his crush and who is repeatedly suggested to behave very differently in contexts where he's more comfortable being interpreted as shy and anxious is not that big of a leap.
Yes, it's important that he is actually fundamentally confident and haughty, that he makes his personal feelings of discomfort other people's problem, and that he thinks he's such a unique and special butterfly that he doesn't need to even put in an effort outside his personal social circle. But it's a misreading that is easy to follow (and long predates the 2005 P&P, as I've mentioned before!).
The additional misreading that a shy and anxious Darcy is also never proud at all is a much more drastic leap, and in my experience, condemnations of shy Darcy interpretations rarely differentiate between "Darcy is shy as well as arrogant" and "Darcy is shy rather than arrogant" as interpretations (although their basic arguments are quite different). But even that as the worst possible misreading of P&P when Darcy is not even the main character is ?????????
I mean, for one alternative (not even the one I voted for!), the idea that Elizabeth is an author avatar Mary Sue seems a far worse misreading of P&P than basically anything to do with Darcy at all. The center piece of the entire novel is Elizabeth's epiphany of self-knowledge about her own shortcomings that do not particularly resemble Austen's at all, but were ethically a concern for her, and she's a complex, interesting character in general whom Austen correctly regarded as a major achievement. Inverting that into Elizabeth as an improbably perfect, reality-warping self-insert is deeply wrong and frankly pretty misogynistic as well.
(ngl though, it's a little funny to see such a blatantly terrible reading of Elizabeth rank so far behind the shy Darcy votes. I've gotten "does anyone actually think/say that?" so many times on my posts about Austen fandom's prioritization of Darcy's character development over Elizabeth's and yet...)
And even just going with the Darcy-centric misreadings, the idea of Darcy as a "bad boy" seems easily the most absolutely wrong take on him. His pride is at least complicated and the finer points can be fairly debated and it's a quality that actually changes somewhat throughout the novel, and you can have discussion over what happened when, whose testimonies should be weighted more, etc. But there is no point at which "bad boy" isn't utterly wrong for him. However, there's definitely a tendency in some wings of the fandom to find the idea of Darcy being misread too favorably more objectionable than him being read too unfavorably, regardless of the particulars, so it's not a surprise.
I suppose you could argue about what "worst" means in the context of variously bad interpretations. Like, is an interpretation that is about a fairly trivial aspect of the book but extremely wrong about it "worse" than an interpretation that is pretty bad but at least comprehensibly so about something very important?
#i remember years ago mentioning that i disagree with the darcy 'shy-ites' but am more opposed to the 'anti-shy-ites'#but was not exactly clear on why apart from their tendency to frame the anti-darcy position as more rigorous and less informed by adaptatio#(this was the case even before the 2005 came out but vastly more so afterwards and deeply annoying as a lesbian fan of the book)#(lesbian is pertinent because many dismissive anti-shy-ite takes assume that more positive interpretations of him#are based on attraction to a particular actor playing on him rather than the text. also it's more acceptable when it's colin firth somehow)#in any case for me it's like ... yeah i think the shy!darcy crowd is wrong but only because it's more complicated than that#not because it's completely baseless#and 'shy rather than proud' is truly wrong but there's enough emphasis on him being different than elizabeth thought all along that i get i#elizabeth as a mary sue or bad boy darcy or actually it's about toxic masculinity etc are just fundamentally wrong in a very basic way#that no amount of nuance or discussion of vocabulary can really address#anghraine babbles#austen blogging#austen fanwank#lady anne blogging#long post#poll nonsense#anghraine rants
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i have been ghosted by another man 🫶🏼 maybe love isn’t meant for me but that doesn’t make it any less painful or harder to question my worth as a person!
#i just wanna cry#i don’t want to wait until i least expect it#i just want to be loved#its so hard when you’re literally the only single friend#because its just constantly when will it be my turn and what’s fundamentally wrong with you#robyn rambles
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i have to speak my truth. i think timkon clone baby aus fucking suck
#rimi talks#here's the thing. you take a traumatized teenager and give them a baby. you're going to further traumatize the teen AND the baby#you take a traumatized teenager and say ''hey your bff nonconsensually cloned you while you were dead and now there's a child''........#LIKE THATS NOT GREAT. THATS NOT GREAT!#and like. if it's in-character tim is horribly depressed and grieving. kon has just successfully committed suicide via heroics and come BAC#NEITHER of them is going to be a good parent because of how they are STILL TEENAGERS THEMSELVES#and im just so fundamentally NOT interested in seeing my favs be shitty parents who unintentionally traumatize a child#.....hey wait. is that the appeal? to batman fans i mean. since. yknow. that's what batman does--#anyways ive never seen a single one of these posts that suggests the op has even heard of kon's clone rights feelings#clone baby guardian arc in sb94 you will always be fucking famous#but hey i mean why bother being in-character or anything when you can do fluff thats ooc to the point of unrecognizability i guess#this is tangentially also how i feel about people who say steph couldve kept the baby + raised it with tim. bro they were 15#but its soo much more egregious with kon because he has NO ability to consent to this. he is dead.#he forgives tim afterwards because tim already knows it was fucked up to do and he was wrong#THATS SIGNIFICANT. BECAUSE THERE *IS* SOMETHING FOR KON TO FORGIVE#frankly if kon returned from the dead and tim was like hey i cloned you and made a child. it'd destroy their relationship#he'd be sympathetic and he would be kind to the child but his ability to trust tim would be shattered by that#and again im just NOT interested in that story!!!!#and neither is anyone else who does this trope i think because no one doing this trope actually gives a shit about kon's character afaict :#OH WELL. whatever . i block and i move on and also i bitch about it in the tags on a personal post. you know how it is#now im gonna go play some more hades. ive gotta beat extreme measures 4 with every weapon
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hey guys who wants another round of tmi
#ive been#this entire day has been a lot and i have no idea how to feel about it#i've never cried this much in an entire day and i can't stop myself from tearing up but it's not because of something sad or traumatic i'm#not used to being loved. or appreciated. or meant to feel like i belong anywhere. i've struggled with being excluded and ostracized and it#has been an uphill battle for a long time and deep down despite my many attempts to heal and get better i've always felt like something was#fundamentally wrong with me. it has been wrong with me from the start and whatever evidence to the contrary ive gotten was rationalised awa#by fluke or maybe people like me because of what i can provide and what i can do for them and not because of who i am and who i am will#always be tolerated or ignored at best and i genuinely was not expecting anyone but a few close friends to care about this and just. andjus#i think something in me is healing and it's still hard to accept but i can conceptualize it and any negative thought in my brain is being#countered by “hey why would you think that when people care about you” and i know it is obvious right. its something i should know but it#has always been so hard to believe that anyone would and the fact that it's hitting right now? i cant fucking stop crying#its almost fucking embarrassing im like this. im a grown ass adult. why the fuck am i still crying like this. i fucking hate trauma man#keeps making me feel like im that kid who was never loved in the ways that mattered. sorry im just#thankful. grateful. i feel like some parts of that gaping wound is stitching itself together and i cant stop crying and for once im not#crying because i'm being hurt. i'm just grateful to be here. genuinely fucking grateful that i'm alive#funny isnt it. how much love can save you if you let it#tmi#rant#embarrassed myself enough i think#sorry about that we'll go to our regularly scheduled ghoap program soon enough#i'll be okay
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idk i feel like some of you went into veilguard expecting it to be bad and to not like it, so therefore everything the game does is already painted by your preconceived negativity. so things that are neutral or just ok are automatically bad for you, and things that are good are dismissed or overshadowed because it doesn't line up with your negative framing. and it's entirely unfair. the game isn't perfect but it really isn't as bad as some of yall are making it out to be.
#(NO SPOILERS I HAVE NOT FINISHED THE GAME I AM IN ACT 2)#not to mention so many of the criticisms seem to contradict each other#yall complain there are no mean companions and in the next breath complain that taash was rude and you don't like them#also just because you don't personally relate to taash's gender exploration doesn't mean it's bad rep. that is a you problem.#yall complain there is no companion conflict but when there is you suddenly move the goalposts and say its not good enough#yall complain about retconned lore despite the fact this has all been planned since origins.#unreliable narrators writing history from their pov being proven wrong isn't a retcon yall. it's been building since the beginning#people complaining about lucanis' romance seem to have a fundamental misunderstanding of who he is as a person. and are mad about it.#dragon age#dragon age veilguard
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Honestly love when video games use it/its for the player character
#video games#gaming#was playing the old world blues new vegas add-on and being called an it in the game goes hard ngl!!!#or in the end poem where we are an it? also goes extremely hard#it's the refusal for non-humans to partake in human gender for me that adds something interesting#because to the think tank they don't fucking care about the courier's gender they only care about the function of its body#they fundamentally don't respect human autonomy. they fucking kidnapped you and STOLE YOUR BODY PARTS AND SEWED YOU UP#so it make character sense for them to diminutively call you an it#and to the other humans who at least care about adherence to human societal constructs i revert to a him again#it's like how in skyrim serana was an it to isran and THEN she became a she to him#he fundamentally did NOT see personhood in vampires until serana proved him wrong#was isran a dick? yes. he's a fucking lunatic about vampires (derogatory). but that's his character#and it makes narrative sense for him to have called her an it
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truly nothing on this earth is more foul than supernatural familial abuse discourse but specifically the discourse people have about if sam or dean "had it worse" like ok cool you have already missed the point of this show very hard.
#the things ive seen in those trenches.....#its like actually their circumstances were based on their positionality in the family and the expectations each had#but on another level the discourse never truly explores what sams life was like as a child. hes either a spoiled brat or a martyr#in ways that make him one dimensional in ways fanon child dean just. isnt.#sam isnt just isolated. hes also controlled and surveilled. any wrong move (unbeknownst to him) proves to john hes irredeemable#like the center of john telling dean he might have to kill sam. is always dean like i feel crazy with how little consideration there is#toward the mental headspace of a guy whose whole childhood is suddenly warped by the realization his father suspected he was evil#and might need to be put down like a dog. and then. sam accepts this!!!! he truly believes is he Crosses A Line dictated by deans judgement#then oops oh well! because fundamentally sam has been conditioned to believe in his own inability to make decisions about himself#so the 'dean protects sam! dean keeps sam innocent and gave him a childhood' becomes much more insidious when u realize#that is one side of the coin wherein sam is under the complete authority of another person#and obv dean is not evil for that. its learned behavior!!#but instead of teasing out this reality when we learn what john told dean... it becomes aww poor dean :(( instead of a horrific glimpse int#the hierarchy of information and control fundamental to their relationship. guys its a cult.#my posts#spn
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with toriel and asgore it's like. they're both flawed and their flaws parallel one another, but they're not EQUALLY flawed... like..... come on......
#let's be serious here. just say you don't like toriel and move on. but don't pretend her hypocrisies were in any way comparable#in size in subsequent damage or in blame to asgore's own#the game goes out of its way to show asgore's actions as wrong. both towards his people and towards toriel. noble yes. sympathetic. tragic.#heartwrenching. narratively impeccable and capable of genuine chance. but fundamentally the wrong choice made by a good man#toriel may not have made the best possible choice at every turn but her final intentions were the morally correct ones#she just did what she KNEW was right. even when it meant leaving her entire life and people behind to live in isolation.#asgore backed toriel into that corner just as much as he did himself#he was a good man who was in a world of hurt and that decision hung over him for the rest of his life but it WAS. HIS. DECISION.#you cannot take that from him. you cannot take the teeth out of his character like that#and you cannot take toriel's role as the person who challanges and refutes his decision from her#her entire character was created as a subversion of rpg motherhood. and how it had so little of motherhood in it.#letting children venture out into the wilderness to face god knows what god knows where#WHICH IS!!! IN ITSELF!!!! A NARRATIVE PARADOX. because it's something that the genre requires for the story to exist#you can't play the whole game on tutorial. the contradictory nature of her stance between morality & ut's genre is built into her character#that's what makes her so freaking interesting to begin with!!!!!! like.#OUGH#undertale#toriel#asgore#entry log
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I have a love/hate relationship with reading. Because I do love to read, I always have. But also, it makes me feel very stupid, I feel like I'm barely literate. Like I can read the words and understand the story being told. But then I see people making connections and extrapolations, predicting things based on foreshadowing, etc. And it makes sense to me once it's explained, I can see where they got that, but I never in a million years would have come up with that myself.
And I keep trying to find ways to improve that, but all the advice I can find is "read as much as you can, in a variety of styles and genres," but I already do that. I've been reading anything I could get my hands on since I taught myself how to read at 4 years old. Obviously, that's not working.
#like#i think im just broken#i want to smart#i want to be able to make those connections and enjoy these works on a deeper level#but i just cant#i dont know if it has to do with the way my autism effects me#or if its just something about me and/or my family#after all my brother is the 'genius' of the family#and hes a high school dropout working construction#the really smart people in my family all married in or were adopted in#most of my family never graduated high school#those of us who did barely scraped by#my mother is the only one to have gotten a degree#and that was an associates degree she got at 55 years old#several of the classes she only passed because i was doing the work#or because she was taking classes related to a field she'd worked in for 25 years and was friends with the teachers#because they'd worked together at some point in the past#so they gave her credit for experience and whatnot#we are not a family of intellectuals#to put it mildly#i dont know#i just feel like theres something very wrong with me#like fundamentally#i think this is also why im not a better actor#if i dont understand the subtext i cant play it#and i cant understand the subtext because im stupid
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can i say something that might get me cancelled if i said it irl. why are we (indians but more specifically the indian governement) so obsessed with border and military disputes our country is literally twice the size of the entire continent of europe and/or the cumulative size of oceania and the americas put together population wise. as far as i know most of the people from these territories aren't really begging to be a part of india either why do we need such a massive fucking military budget over this shit "they can't stay independent pakistan or china will pounce if they don't belong to us anymore" don't you think that's THEIR choice and prerogative. they aren't asking to be a part of india. "if pakistan gets kashmir they will keep taking and taking and india will be in ruins" you sound like a conspiracy theorist. kashmir has never unanimously wanted to be a part of india. don't we have enough problems to worry about people are literally starving and homeless everywhere in our country. decentralisation isn't the worst thing that could happen to a territory right now we're too big and diverse a country is an indian identity we're forcing on them really the most important thing right now
#making this non rebloggable because im a engineering student (derogatory)#and ive read a LOT on this subject but i acknowledge im not the most qualified to talk about it#and im not confident enough in my opinions for people to spread them around lol#but yeah thats my two cents. if anyone has different opinions or nuance or reasoning please lmk im open to discussion#its obviously not black or white and id really appreiciate explanations from people who arent condescending fascists#india#indian politics#but on a fundamental level as far as my understanding goes i do not. get why#like literally 15% of our budget goes to what is fundamentally destructive military shit#seems like a waste to me when people dont have basic human rights idk#i could be wrong try change my mind im open to it#but yeah this is my blog and i share my thoughts here and im never gonna learn unless i ask the questions i think sound dumb#not that i think this is that dumb. its a perfectly valid question imo why are we so obsessed with the fucking military
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[ Ranting ]
Tired of people saying Indigo Park is a cashgrab, mf it's free!
The only reason why there's merch was because fans wanted it, people were buying bootlegs so the only thing they could think of was to put out official merch and that money is going into the game, I have never made a game before but I assume it's not easy and it costs too, paying the voice actors and people who helped work on it
It's also a passion project
#I know I keep on saying this but it's irritating seeing people overlook it as ' cashgrab ' ' ripoff ' ' feeding the kids '#I saw a post in the indigo park tag that said they hoped it dies and burns in hell#in response to ' mascot horror ' because ' ALL amascot horrors are bad '#it does feel so wrong to assume Indigo Park is another ' mascot horror kids bait game '#it feels like they didn't even see the game and they just made that assumption because ' Mascot horror = bad '#but ignoring the passion behind indigo park and saying this in a hateful way just feels wrong#you could have said you didn't like it and that's fine#But it's like you're just being a dick#Whatever happened to ' hey I don't like this game but it's fine if everyone else likes it '??#Or at least think about why people like it and try to see it from their perspective#when something I'm not into is mentioned to me#My usual response is ' It's not really for me but if you want to talk about it that's fine '#And figure out why they like it#An angel loses its wings whenever someone is just blatantly hateful about something without seeing it for what it is#It's giving ' if you like horror movies there's something fundamentally wrong with you '#That one stupid ass tiktok video
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5e is so fun when you don't have bitches in your ear telling you it's the worst thing ever
#I've been avoiding dming for so long because of all the scaremongering i see here on tumblr#about how 5e is a fundamentally broken system and a bunch of other shit#when it's like... we're literally just playing pretend and need a system to resolve combat disputes#if you can't make 5e work maybe you're just approaching the idea wrong#idk im very negative and i know 5e isnt perfect but like for real i saw so many posts being like its SO BAD but then never giving#clear altwrnatives just “research it yourself”#i mean like lancer sounded fun but then i researched it and apparently its very bad according to what i saw online!#i doubt thats true its probably perfectly acceptable#but like seriously#anyways this is your sign to either start a tabletop campaign or join one its good for the soul
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28 days later is one of the few modern classic horror movies i haven't seen and don't plan to. it's just the kind of zombie movie that very much is not my thing. i guess i'm just one of those boring traditionalists who prefers "slow zombies" to "fast zombies". although i did really love train to busan. it's just that the kinds of movies they make with "fast zombies" tend to be inherently less interesting to me
i do think it's funny that of the two films credited with basically redefining the zombie as a concept for their era (night of the living dead and 28 days later), the creators have both been pretty adamant that the creatures in their films are not zombies.
#horror movies#my thoughts#zombies#(i mean they're not wrong it's just that the meaning of the word has fundamentally shifted in the popular consciousness)#romero was less insistent on it than boyle was though. i think#but what else Are we going to call the “rage virus” types? they haven't come up with a snappy name yet so you get those#“zombie movies that refuse to call them zombies” attempts at coming up with one#anyway i've only been thinking about this because there's a new 28 days later movie coming out soon#just filled a hold request for 28 weeks later at the library. we have that one but not its predecessor#we do have a movie called 28 days that i gather is not related to the series#so it's kind of funny to see them next to each other on the shelf. someone could have a confusing weekend if they checked both of those out
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I think there were some serious growing pains when katniss and peeta were starting to "grow close" again.
#NOT TAGGING THIS but yeah this would be maybe a few months post?#when katniss and peeta are just starting to be friends again#while peeta is still kind of adjusting to the new person he is and coming to terms with what he's done in that process#which ends up making him come across as a little bitter? but i dont think he means to be. weird situation obviously.#and i think it's particularly hard for katniss considering she's someone who gets so much comfort from physical contact#and for the person from whom she got so much comfort to have snuck up on her and tried to kill her. twice.#because theres no denying that THAT person is closer to who peeta is now than who he was before being tortured in the capitol#so it takes a long time for her to not fear his touch. i think. and i think although he knows better#peeta's still kind of burned by it. like he understands it but it still hurts kind of thing#... IDK sorry i have a lot of thoughts about how their dynamic would have to fundamentally change post-mj#and its kind of weird how that's glossed over i mean its not plot relevant i guess but if theyre....#WHATEVER anyway yeah.#id like to do smth more with this idea of them adjusting to their new relationship so this is rly just a draft :)#sorry can you tell i could talk about peeniss for hours??? can you tell????????#ive really gotta practice drawing burn scars also because at this point theyd both have pretty angry burn scars on their faces and hands#i also think im rambling a lot here bc i dont want ppl to get the wrong idea or anything bc i hold both of them so close to my heart#same kind of thing as mommy katniss i guess i udnerstand it doesnt portray them in the best light but at the same time i really do think.#realistically they just wouldnt.... be well adjusted? sorry. anwyay. diddle out.
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