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if i see charles leclerc at the met gala none of you are gonna hear from me ever again
#because i'll have passed away#dead#deaded#they'll write “rip charles leclerc's greatness was too much for her” on my grave#not even joking lol#ferrari#scuderiaferrari#charles leclerc#f1#formula one#formula 1
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if you talk to the average conservative voter, they'll always talk about their conservative representative with unabashed enthusiasm. "this guy is supporting my rights!!!!!" even when the representative is very much not supporting their voting constituents' rights in some cases (ie. poor white ppl not realizing they're getting poorer because of their representative)
and I bet that's why conservative candidates are so good at winning. any person listening to their voters only gets a great impression of the candidate.
and if you talk to the average liberal/leftist voter, they all hem and haw. "oh yeah, I voted for them but they're Okay, they're Disappointing. they haven't done this. they haven't done that." and I bet if you fucking pressed them to state some Good Beneficial Legislation they've passed, either the voter 1. can't name any, or 2. has to attach caveats. ("yeah biden passed student loan forgiveness BUT not ALL loans were forgiven")
why aren't we ever excited about incremental progress. why aren't we cheering to the sky about every win. maybe more people would vote if there was genuine excitement, the same type of excitement that conservative voters seem to have about anything labeled "conservative".
I'm just so fucking tired of hearing ppl be like "I'm just disillusioned with my leftist representative" EVERY TIME but are DEAD SILENT on the small victories, the progress. conservatives know how to do this, and that's why they build momentum into the next election. why does this seem impossible for the other side.
#new rule: if you're gonna say smth bad about your leftist representative#you have to first name one good legislation they passed before doing so#I'll go first. trudeau sucks. but trudeau & the ndp abolished interest on canadian student loans#he's expanding the canadian pension plan!! so workers have more money at retirement!!#him and the ndp are pushing a dental care insurance coverage!!!!!!#he's trying to get through a 10 dollar day care plan for families!!!!!#SORRY BUT ALL OF THESE THINGS ARE GOOD and they're ONLY HAPPENING because the ndp can push him left#the conservative candidate will never let that happen AND wants to take away abortion rights#so lets all fucking grow up and open a news website and start celebrating the small victories that may lead to huge ones#mika rambles on
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Chance encounters in Costa del Sol.
#ffxiv#sketch#zenos yae galvus#meteor survivor#titus yae galvus#arrecina wir galvus#oc#tsukiko date#camilla lunae#imagine trying to get drinks at the bar only to look over and see your presumed dead great uncle/great nephew standing right next to you#meteor- five seconds away from a heart attack looking over at titus#that moment when youre the spitting image of your father and the warrior of light was *not* aware of that fact#the galvus' are not allowed to have normal vacations#or... well retirement in Titus' case#I am simply here to draw the unaccounted for garlean royals lmao#eventually i'll draw zenos' half sibling(s?) and varis' retainers annia and julia out of their armor#but for now you guys just get to see my silly bullshit of sixty something y/o titus deciding that with nerva gone he's just gonna retire#mans is done with it#im probably gonna end up writing him as the legatus of the 8th- and probably a machinist that eventually becomes a gunbreaker#after lucius passes this man is over all of it#no nonsense machine commanding leader ect ect.#probably dual wielding the gunblade with an actual gun tbh lol#old man doesnt look like wrinkly solus because he spent his life taking care of himself to deal with just... the galvus family in general#dont let the strands deceive you all his grey hair is hidden under the rest of it all lmao#the galvus family brain rot continues and its not going to let me go v-v#(also dont mind meteor teasing tsu for hiding in his shade she does this a lot)
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So this might seem like a weird question, and this IS going anonymously because of it BUT
How many characters in New Age would be able to describe the taste of human flesh.
I feel like with the provided backstory, Killer could be a candidate for it, and I wouldn't be surprised if Nim had some sort of whim at some point even though I'm pretty sure you said they were vegetarian but I could have hallucinated that or smth
You can very much ignore this if you feel uncomfortable with it, btw. I just find this interesting
Hi anon, this ask is unhinged abd I love it SO dearly, please feel free to send more if you get the urge 💖 this is actually something exciting I hadn't even thought about! So... let's see who all I can list off for this idea...
-> Killer. Like u said Anon, I think he IS the most likely candidate! I don't think that it's a meal he'd have eaten often, nor would he openly joke about it, but I think that somewhere like the Temple where he was raised, or on the streets after he left Chara (the Black Market wasn't picky-) would be where it happened.
-> Nim. Oh. Yeah. She would've, I'm sure. (Also tbf I have no idea if I said that or not, my memory is SO bad, I'd probably have to check w/ Ancha lol- but for this let's imagine she's not.) I don't think anyone would be able to convince her if she knew what it was up-front (she thinks humans are lesser, but kinda in the way ppl don't usually think of brown bears as a food source?) But she's definitely had it before. 'Exotic cuts' that she never bothered to fact check lmao. Fancy and expensive, so she bought them!
-> Dust. Now, this one is a little weird, but I have good reason! Dust has a reputation to uphold when he's a crime lord, and has to get along with leaders of other crime branches to keep his power AND keep the lines running. One of the other kingdoms (which I'm establishing is basically full of shape-shifters which eat human flesh) was a prime source of income for Dust because they had a LOT of animal meat they weren't harvesting. In meetings, well, sometimes the meal involved the dishes of that kingdom, so human flesh! (He will NOT admit it didn't taste bad.)
-> Fresh. And no, not for the reason he'd normally know lmao. I think that Fresh's connection with the beasts (which I now realize are kinda stand-ins for his furby collection-) leads some of then to bring him gifts! And he lives usually out in the wilderness so a hunt is a hunt, y'know? Monsters are off-limits but like. If the beast brings him *just* the meat? He takes his chances abd hopes it's not People. (Some of it is, and he knows it, he could definitely identify it if given to him 🙏)
-> Reaper. He's not proud of it anymore, but back in the day when he was the general? Bringer of Death? Yeah, he ate a guy once. Used it as a fear tactic against their enemies, which in his defense DID work. But he wouldn't do it again. He would recognize the taste tho!
Soooo..... 5 of the New Age characters would be able to describe the taste of human flesh! (At least for the main cast lol-)
I do have honorary mentions though.
-> Ink: Has bitten people enough to *probably* have an idea of the taste.
-> Geno: Tried to do it "for science" when he was in the academy working on decay magic. (He reversed the decay enough that the flesh was fresh, he was curious!) He was told that if he did they'd suspend him, so he missed his opportunity :(
-> Cross: Can't tell you about the taste of flesh, but human blood used to get into his mouth all the time when he worked in his old kingdom, so he could tell you about that instead!
#new age au#thank you so much for this ask this was genuinely so fun to think about!!!!#tags for more thoughts:#Horror may have been starving but his family are an extremely peaceful community and weren't anywhere close to wanting to resort to violence#characters like Dream + Blue are off the table (Dream probably suggested it once but Blue shut it down lol-) thanks to morals#Nightmare's squeamish and VERY particular about his food and Ccino turns away all suspiscious meat immediately#(and in childhood the twins ate different from their mother)#Error is a lot like Night abd is picky about his food#but he ALSO needs to eat a lot less often than normal monsters so the reason never arose#Ccino... had it rough. but if Human Meat was Nim's delicacy and Ccino barely ate as it was? he was NOT subjected to that horror lmao#i think that covers everyone I didn't mention in the post?#but snth I gotta highlight is that Geno is unhinged and Fresh picked that up from him. Geno is willing to do just about anything to prove#his proficiency in magic or learn smth new#and Fresh has been expected by his beasts to eat random berries and dead birds and junk for years and. he does. so if he has#plausible denianility with the flesh then whatever. not on him. lmao-#Killer isn't proud at all of his eating it because frankly he didn't want to do it. and Dust is the kinda guy to mention it in passing#and then not bring it up again lmao-#then ofc Reaper was a wild teen/young adult. because he aged slower his roaring twenties lasted half a century and eating people was the#more tame side of things. did it very eloquently tho lmao. very mindful. very chill. love him <3#okay I'll stop rambling now! this one was fun!!!!
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It's been a year since I redrew that one Snorkmimi render...
So yeah I did it again ofc I would, why oh why wouldn't I? Tee hee silly meee
Attaching the 2023 redraw and og cause- uh- I donno, because yes, why not!!!
#This also means updated banner HECK YEAH 🔥🔥🔥#These redraws of mine are so different style-wise it's funny lmao#shoutout to Snorkmaiden one of my fav characters ever she's so perfect in every way my little baby#oh and update : since last year I still have NOT tasted “Snorkmaiden's dreamy chocolate” moomin coffee maybe one day I will or I'll do the#smart thing of making choco coffee myself without buying the maybe overpriced thing that just happens to have Snorkmay on it (I don't even#like sweet coffee 😭) buuut... you know... I could always just get it once and keep the package as a treasure! Cause I'm a hoarder. It might#or might not be a problem but I don't have time to think about that and work on it I have 100 possible uses for this old straw what if I#reeeaaallly need an old straw one day and I DON'T have it because I threw it away? Yeah! END OF THE WORLD!!!#Tbh hate to admit it but Snufkin's hazelnut coffee sounds the most inviting from all of the moomin flavoured choices to me I LOVE hazelnuts#I don't even know what licorice tastes like and I am NOT eating anything that is advertised with Stinky on the cover (jk Stinky's great)#I'm already sick of everything salted caramel flavoured it's just sugar n' salt with a different ribbon and blueberry... I'll pass. And like#I said before - I'm not a fan of sweet coffee. Sorry Snorkmaiden :[#okay enough of it no one reads allat time for real tags#snorkmaiden#snorkfröken#niiskuneiti#moomin#moomins#moomin books#Snork mimimimimimi Snork mimimimimimi
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I hate how I can't take my bike on the bus. Basically my house is too far and unsafe to cycle to any train station so I have to get the bus. But the trains don't go exact where I want so it would be handy to be able to cycle from there to my destination (also cycling is free) and in fact the route between the station and my goal is excellent for cycling (and free). But I can't cycle on it because I can't transport my bike there. Because I have to get the bus
#perna posts#tell me why i have a disabled bus pass that makes it free but i cant get a train pass (the train pass only gets like 20% off anyway)#the govt loves cycling schemes and public transport schemes#but i cant get out of my goddamn house on a bike because I'll immediately be flattened by traffic#they did build bike lanes but tell me what use is it when the bike lanes do not extend past the town centre#the town is small enough you can just walk from one side to the other in a reasonable time frame#so bikes are a little redundant but would be useful for travelling outside the town to the station only 5mi away but it is so unsafe
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TRULY the best way to learn a character more is to hear the rambles of someone who gets them... (alternatively, read a fic where you can pretty much tell how much that person love that character wholly by how much the details the author put)
#💭...#it's really because I'm bad at analyzing anything outside what I'm hyperfixating on...#admittedly I get really nervous when people ask what I think of a dynamic when it involves another person I don't think much... passes away#I got a fear for mischaracterizing characters bc I feel bad when a fan of that character sees it they feel hurt.. LOL#though I'm well aware I'll never be spot on and what ideas I have will always change if it was wrong or there was something better#I'll never call myself as someone who really gets [character] because there is always so much more to learn- to explore about them y'know..
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Lol it's trending at #10 on US YouTube. So, we all like pain and suffering I see.
#k.will#seo inguk#ahn jaehyun#music video#extra sad music video#I went to bed late because I stayed up to watch it and woke up thinking the ending has to be a bad dream#it is NOT a dream#no matter how you interpret the story it is still so sad#fine don't be together but does he have to suddenly pass away#maybe I'll feel better in 2036
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It's funny how "you just need to be uncomfortable to grow and growing is a good thing that you should try to do in your life" is considered a "boomer-like" statement and how many people will genuinely respond with "sure but it's also valid if you don't want to do hard and uncomfortable things!"
DISCLAIMER: OBVIOUSLY THERE'S NUANCE
#'i mean i guess i see what youre saying but it's just so hard!' ok then stay where u are ig#like. you can#it doesnt make you less than. doesnt make u a bad person.#but you MUST understand if you refuse the choice to grow then others WILL outgrow you#they'll leave. they'll move on.#same with opportunities. they'll pass you by.#and if ur ok w that then that's fine it's ur life#but again. understand that other people will probably grow away from you. and they wont be wrong for it.#you wont be wrong for not growing either.#i think ppl get defensive because they have shame around not being where they feel theg 'should' be in life and i do get that#but at a certain point u rlly do have to get up and dig urself out of that hole..no matter how u got there#it's hard and it sucks and everyone has different circumstances but no one else is gonna save u or get u out#u gotta do it urself#u can start whenever#but the longer u say 'i'll do it when im ready' well..#sometimes u never feel ready...u just have to push thru and do it#:'/#i have sympathy but. idk i have thoughts too lol
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Also, while we're on the topic of my parents being human turds:
Last year, I worked at a school (hey, preschool teacher here!) and when that year was over (you have no idea how difficult it was, lol) I didn't want all those group projects that I had made with the kids to be thrown out, so I took them with me inside a huge plastic bag.
Now, there is no way of really showing this to you, but my room is a mess. And it is this way because I have too many stuff (such as clothes, books, funko pops) while the room is not that big. And to be honest, I don't want to throw anything away. So, as you can guess, that plastic bag didn't help.
So, my boyfriend suggested, that he could take that bag and keep it at his home, since they have extra room, and I said 'sure'. He didn't do it tho.
And here's where my stupid parents come into the story!
They already don't like him (lol, it's not because of anything that he has done, I believe that they would like him only if he was filthy rich and beat me up like they used to) so they use his suggestion and his failure to deliver, as a way to both diminish him and me, because I continue this relationship.
Mind you, these are the same people who have promised me a lot of stuff and always failed to deliver.
I still remember being 3 or 4, watching commercials about Disneyland in Paris on TV and them promising me that they would take me there when I'd finish elementary school. Guess what, I am 29, 17 years out of elementary school and still, I've never been there!
And I remember, being like 18 or 19, and them telling me that they'd search for a small appartment for me to rent, in order for me to start being more independent, and even said that they'd help me with the bills. Did that happen? Of course not! Back then, I also had a therapist who, when I told her what my parents said about renting me an appartment, replied with a "They won't do it, it's all a lie" And she was right!
They even repeated that promise when I was 26, I flat out told them that I don't believe them, and I was right!
It's not like I expect them to do big things for me. They cannot even have basic human decency. It's the lack of self awareness and the gashlighting that gets me everytime tho!
#sorry for my long rants and my horrible english by the way#by the way said bf is also quite flawed#so him not doing something he said he'd do didn't surprise me#we've been together for almost 7 years#and we've spent the last 2 arguing#like ever since my grandmother got into the hospital and passed away he has said some things that have made me grow distant#for example i was mourning her loss and 5 days later he was whining for 2 hours straight#because i didn't want to go to a christmas party with him#another example is that he got jealous#when a stand up comedian that i've been following for some years#invited me to one of his shows#btw of course i went#then he'll say he's sorry and that he loves me#i'll try to better manage my behaviour and feelings#and we'll keep on staying together#mind you this very summer due to us fighting for half of july#i spent some evenings with panic attacks and had difficulty at breathing#and when i went away to the countryside in august he couldn't understand why i wanted to distance myself#and the one time when i had a panic attack there was when he wouldn't end a call#anyway we're okay for now#scorpion-flower#bad parenting#text#long post#we were the kings and the queues
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i <3 feeling like i'm literally always making the wrong choice
#every passing day i dig a little deeper the bottomless debt i owe my parents#monetarily and morally#and god i wish i could kill myself but noooooo i tried again and i can't fucking do it i can't#so i just. i don't know i want to be incapacitated i want to be in the psych ward forever.#i don't want to fail and never make enough money to pay for their retirement home#i don't want to have to visit them every god-knows-how-often#i don't want to be fifty years old and still having to exist in relation to my parents#and god they've done nothing BAD i shouldn't want to cut all contact with them#but it's so. i don't know. i don't know how people even do it.#like you always have to come back home you always have to act right you always have to think abt them and text them and call them#and nothing you do is ever right and you want things that can't coexist with their happiness and peace of mind#and you're an asshole in every way you're an asshole deep down and you're an asshole outwardly too#but you can't stop wanting stupid things and acting weird and demanding#and it's a curse upon them to have you near but it's literally so fucking ungrateful of you to stray away a little#and you still do it because you can't stop wanting to follow things instead of keeping to your resolutions#and trying to do the best for them#and nothing is ever the best for them it's always just bad choices cause you shouldn't even exist you're just wrong you're born wrong#you don't want things that are good for them too and you're not capable of good things#dad wants to go on vacation at his family's like twice a year. mom want to stay home and take care of business and relax this year too#even now that grandma is gone and doesn't require her to be near. cuz emptying the flat & all of that.#and it's just. cool cool i make the wrong choice whichever way.#if i stay with mom i'll make dad's family sad and inconvenience my mom and leave dad alone#if i go with dad i'll leave mom alone (also alone to work on the flat) and i'll be an annoying asshole to dad and his family#because i'm too stupid and egoistical to pretend to be fine with things that mildly inconvenience me for five seconds#and either way i won't do any fucking work because i'm a sad piece of shit and i'm going to fail the fuck out of school next year#broadcasting my misery#vent
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when drawing i spend a lot of time. like a LOT of time blurring my eyes because I used to be a huge perfectionist and doing that helped me picture what it might look like to someone who is not me (especially to someone just passing by or not super familiar with art in general) AND it does help a lot with that but I've also noticed sometimes I focus so hard on what my art looks like blurry and from afar that I forget. what it looks like normally. it's made me really pay attention to tonal distinction at least LOL
#like sometimes if a drawing doesnt pass the grayscale value test i'll be like hmmm...#(not even the real grayscale test like taking a pic and setting it to b&w. my weird fucked up ver instead where you put the drawing several#feet away and blur ur eyes. i guess people with glasses can do that by taking em off)#if the tones arent distinct when blurry and far away WHATS the point#which is a silly thing to worry about. sometimes a monotonal drawing is what you want to give a specific mood#literally tho sometimes i'll be like thinking huh this drawing was alright and then like a teacher will gush about my linework#and i'll be like what linework. unblurs my eyes. oh right it aint half bad#i do like doing linework tho. so im glad my linework seems to be liked! i should look at it more often#sorry im starting my final year of my fine arts degree. i have to do a hashtag undergraduate thesis#(TWO ACTUALLY im a double major because im insane) so ur gonna see me get all like#introspective about my art process again LOL hopefully i wont get as deflated as i did earlier this year this time!!
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I'm not a "new musical theatre style music" person. Never have been.
Even when I was doing voice lessons, I'd steer towards the golden age or jazzy musical theatre songs. My voice teacher would have to drag me kicking and screaming towards adding anything new musical theatre to my repertoire. For a while, the most modern song in my book was I Know The Truth from Aida, and I wouldn't count that as new musical theatre style since I mean more the Pasek&Paul or Joe Iconis type.
And now I have an audition coming up for a small production of a show in that style and I'm supposed to sing a song in a similar style. And I'm looking at all my sheet music like... let me do some Cole Porter... or Gershwin... at least Sondheim please...
#look i do have SOME newer musicals in my book. but like i said. kicking and screaming.#i'm probably gonna end up doing 'I Think That He Likes Me' which is not IN a musical it's just new musical theatre style#as part of a songbook for some writing duo that i can't remember the name of and it's 2:45am so i can't care enough to look it up.#and it's the only one in my sheet music folder that i'm like 'ok. this is TRULY the right style' and i know it's good in my voice#and it's a cute song and i do like it and it definitely fits the overall vibe of the show#and though i haven't sung it in like 4 years i still remember 90% of the words and have time to study it before the audition#but while trying to find that song deep deep in my folder i pass by other songs i just love so much more#and i'm like ahhhhhhhh why#and i'm not even like 'god i hope i get it' (see A Chorus Line. that's more my type) i truly don't care if i'm cast or not#and yes i can technically audition with any song i could ever want it's just suggested to do the same style#but i know the entire creative panel who i'll be auditioning for and the last 2 times i auditioned for them i sang the same song#only because it's a GOOD song that fit both shows i was auditioning for (Can't Stop Talking About Him by Frank Loesser)#(perfect audition song since it's short at like 28 bars and you can pick the tempo and do a lot of character stuff)#(but see this is what i mean. like 1/3 of my entire sheet music folder is golden age musicals. then half is 60s-90s.)#(and then the last chunk are the few new-ish musical theatre and some pop music.)#(if i took performing more seriously i'd have a wider range but this is truly just for fun and just for me. so i do what i like.)#i don't want to go in for a 3rd audition with the same creative team and doing the same song. especially since it doesn't fit this time.#so once again. dragged kicking and screaming. over to new musical theatre territory. unwillingly.#if i get cast we'll have to see if the show itself even grows on me since honestly i think there's maybe 2 songs i like in it.#it's definitely not the worst new musical theatre style show but it's also not one that drew me in.#ok wait while looking through lists of 'new musical theatre' shows to find one i actually like (i think just Legally Blonde sorry guys)#(every other new musical in the last 20 years that i like did something interesting with the music like Come From Away)#i ended up finding out that apparently 13 was adapted into a netflix movie? when did that even happen?#i mean i don't care for that show either but i thought i was at least up to date on movie adaptations.
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i kind of feel like i will literally never have any real life friends again like what do i even do i am touch starved and pathetic
#oh yeah and my social anxiety only goes away with adderall#and i'm like ohhhh im so lonely im so bored what do i even do#but then i was like yaknow i'll smoke weed and talk to myself as usual while listening to my little duran duran#let's go lesbians let's go#they should invent a drug that fixes me and costs zero dollars amirte#i think i am gonna do shrooms tomorrow though.......#like i think i have a need to just uh.... figure shit out#i need to make a change and learn how to do things but my brain just.... refuses#because that's the autism slay. i hate change even though my life is going down the drain at this rate#anyways. maybe more drugs will fix me....... hahahahahaahahahss#i only want to live and do shit after i've smoked and that shit is so expensive. im passing away
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“I love Disco Elysium,” I say through gritted teeth as I sit with my eyes 2 inches from my screen desperately hovering my cursor slightly below the cigarette icon to see if I’m lucky enough to find the hit box so I can attempt to get myself out of soft lock as Kim spins in a circle beside me
#disco elysium#i love this game so much i do#but it is so buggy#so so buggy#i honestly think i might just have to start over#i'm so deep but i don't have any white checks left i haven't failed#and i'm still 9 hours away from the next event#which i can't get to because time won't progress as long as i'm not doing stuff#which i can't do because i don't have ANY CHECKS LEFT I HAVEN"T FAILED#the event in question#is the dice i'm getting made#maybe i'll just cave and buy the board game and hope i pass whatever check it unlocks for me
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me when I am so sad about having to shave my hair down because of the roadtrip we're going on (will not be able to keep it clean properly if it's the length it is now and I don't feel like wrestling with the scissors to try to cut it into a manageable mid-length) but then I think about Guz being so niceys about it and somehow that comforts me so much dshgjkl
#it took me like a year to grow it out to this length though AUGGHHH#i've been putting it off all day fdjkl i just. do not want to do it#i haven't liked how my hair looks this much in like... four or five years#and now i have to make it all go away 😭😭#but Guz would be so niceys and make me feel better abt it.... weeping and wailing still though fdjskl#it IS always extremely satisfying to just shave it all off with the hair razor but like... at what cost HFDSSHGJKL#i spent like an hour trimming it a couple weeks ago though so sdfjkl t'was all for naught.... have to shave it anyways#actually this might be a good idea anyways because it will allow me to pass as a guy in public again (tried and true method dsjkl)#and that will be good bc we'll be going thru a couple very conservative places where i'll be a bit nervous#like i do live in a conservative place rn but i KNOW this area sdfjkl these places will be unknown and brand new to me#WAUGHHH I LIKE MY HAIR THOUGH... SOBS#dandy.cmd#vent //
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