#because i was too young when she dies

[ashtonisrottting]

i don't believe in heaven, but if I did, I'd hope to get there to meet my nana once again. I'd thank her for combing my hair and I'd wait for her to ask why I chose dye it red. We'd be sharing a cup of coffee (her coffee) and I'd say, simply, “you”. Then I'd wait for her to say it's silly, and I'd then reply, “i know / but everything else I had of you has been brutally taken off my hands by time, and I can't stand the idea that I have to live without having you with me”. and then I'd cry. and she'd say, with the same tone she always used when I pulled something like this: don't be so naive, darling. before you were even born, you already were within me.

[arolesbianism]

Despite how much I suffered making my last isat au Aris sprite redraw, I decided to do it again and once again went through hell doing it. There’s like a billion mistakes in this (such as her having the wrong arm rip) but at the end of the day I’m still happy with how it turned out :]

[childrenofthesun77]

Back when mahiru thought his uncle might be dead he had a flashback to the accident that resulted in his mother's death, but one thing I noticed is that we don't actually see akira in this memory? It feels like either mahiru (or someone like lily or jeje) is supressing his memory here.

And if someone possibly killed akira on purpose, who was it and why?

[slightlytoastedbagel]

see I have theories in regards to What The Fuck Is Wrong With Whit Young but they aren't the ones involving him being the mastermind or traitor. they're to do with whatever is going on with his mother

[the-busy-ghost]

Me normally: Let people love what they love

Me, after a Test Match Special commentator expresses their belief that the new All Creatures Great and Small is somehow "better" than the 1978 version: This is pure insanity and TMS can no longer be trusted on anything, how can they even be trusted to know about cricket, do they have no TASTE

[shinesurge]

You mentioned something about your body not letting you comic by the end of arc 5, are you talking about repetitive strain injuries or just discovering health issues that aren't made worse by doing a comic?

Repetitive stress injuries; almost the entire reason I've struggled to keep a consistent update schedule the last few years is because I can't usually get in a full day's work more than two days in a row without needing several more to recover. The spirit is willing but the flesh is aging, and even doing this full time, at that rate this comic isn't getting anywhere near done lmao. If the next two arcs take another ten years there's just no way. Part of why I'm working on getting the novels underway is as a failsafe for getting the story finished in some capacity haha

IS worth considering though, the last five years have been. Especially difficult mentally and physically, and I do feel like things are finally starting to level out to where they were when I was able to work consistently! My current situation is infinitely more healthy and safe, and I'm doing everything I can to stay well enough to work more. I'm not banking on it but who knows, maybe getting away from Tennessee and everything in it combined with working out again will get me back up to speed. Nothing is set in stone here! I'm just sort of doing what I did with the December deadline and trying to plan ahead since making this comic at all is sort of a totally insane undertaking for a single human lmfao

[oncominggstorm]

My aunt decided a good way to wish me a happy birthday would be to text me a picture of me & my dead dad from my 22nd birthday.

Like yay thanks, I totally wanted to be sad and missing my dad on my birthday. I definitely wasn't trying to do the "out of sight out of mind don't think about sad things" thing to get through it without crying or anything 👍 Definitely wasn't already struggling missing not getting a happy birthday text from him 👍👍

[tenwhiteandalusians]

pertaining to the idea of tenax’s band of strays i do think it’s touching that the kids are the ones who saved him and waited outside the door to make sure he’s okay. for all tenax claims to be harsh and cruel it’s a fine indicator of his character that the kids won’t rest without him and are there every time he’s in danger.

[themetallicnemesis]

Last conversation....

[leafpool-loves-ashfur]

my favorite thing about my Generations ocs is when i start mapping things out and suddenly Poppystar has gone from Bitch-ass Leader who is Mean to the Protagonist for No Reason into Oh My God Give This Woman a Break, Moonpool Christ.

literally all in the span of 3 moons she: has an apprentice, is made deputy, becomes pregnant, goes on a quest to save her dumbass leader while pregnant, leader decides to RETIRE and she becomes leader, GIVES BIRTH, decides "fuck this" and makes her apprentice into a warrior despite him not having finished his apprenticeship

like YEAH no WONDER she's a Bitch(tm), she literally had to train an apprentice WHILE pregnant WHILE being a new leader WHILE the dumbass Main Protagonist pisses StarClan the FUCK off and suddenly its HER problem and she DOESN'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS

AND she had a bad mom

[rosemaryreality]

Obsessed with the idea of Megumi coming out of the whole Shinjuku thing without scars...and being miserable because of it.

I just have this image in my head of him looking at himself in the mirror and feeling like...dysphoric about it, outwardly he still looks like the kid of a few months ago, the one that still had hope for his sister, the one without her blood on his hands, the one that had never felt what having his body stolen from him felt like.

And yet, Megumi will never be that person again, he will never see himself, or the world around him the same way again. That boy in the mirror is not him, he looks nothing like Megumi feels, that youthful face doesn't represent the misery Megumi has endured, the way he feels as if he has lived a hundred years already, the innocence in his features despite the blood on his hands made him want to puke, and the lack of any sort of scars felt like a mockery, despite everything he had been through, the face in the mirror could be mistaken by someone that had never been harmed before, someone ignorant of the cruelty of the world, the face in the mirror failed to reflect everything Megumi has endured. That is, except for the eyes.

There was no light in them, not a trace of hope or will to exist. And while the rest of his face felt insultingly flawless, his soulless eyes never allowed him to fall for the illusion, to forget what Megumi really was, an empty husk of a person. Nothing like someone that deserved to be saved.

And it was as he looked at the way too young, yet still haunted face in the mirror, at the same face of the naive kid that, despite considering himself a realist, was still foolish enough to hope that the world would give him a break, that he started to feel something, he felt...anger. Anger, resentment, and hate for the boy in the mirror, feelings so strong, that he started to shake because of them.

In the end, Megumi couldn't handle looking at that face any longer, and without thinking about what he was really doing, he smashed his hand against the glass, shattering it.

Finally, is as he looks in what's left of the mirror, with Megumi's reflection looking broken due to the cracks, that he finally feels satisfied with how it looks. As the shattered face in it finally represents him.

(In the end, Megumi does get those scars. And he sees them not in the mirror, but everytime he looks at his own hand)

[yallemagne]

Brain: "How do you think Jonathan Harker's parents died?"

Me: "I will fucking kill you."

Brain: "..."

Me: "His father died in a carriage accident. Trampled by the horses."

Brain: "And his mother?"

Me: "... no off-topic questions."

[tenok]

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[sesamenom]

trying to figure out Lomion's relationships for the reverse gondolin au - so far I have Rog as his mentor instead of Eol and Celegorm as his "uncle". he's not particularly close with Idril, but Turgon helps him with the politics/statecraft stuff. anyways I can't figure out a marriage candidate for him for heir-identification purposes so

[thatscarletflycatcher]

This is the third novel centered on a Squire that I pick that has a main plot line about inheritance (I did dnf The Squire's Daughter before I could tell if that was going to be the case as well), and I'm thinking that if it wasn't that Wives and Daughters came over a decade before these, I would think Gaskell was lampshading the inheritance trope in it.

[heartbreakfeelsogood]