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Seeing AI covers when looking at indie published ebooks makes me sad, not angry, but sad.
I want to tell authors that it's not so hard to make covers, that they can do this thing and make something eye-catching and interesting. They don't have to break the bank on a professional or resort to AI.
Then I remember I am an artist too and even though I don't consider myself very good at it, or anything near 'cover artist', there's skills there that make it easier for me.
So it is annoying trying to help in that regard.
Instead I say hop onto a site like Canva and see what you can come up with on your own. Study covers in the genre you're writing, to learn what 'design' screams your genre, and play around. Go take some photos to mess with, look into pre-made covers if you can find any not using AI (I could not tell in my searches), but don't despair because you can't art and can't afford an artist.
Anyone can be an artist, it really just takes practice.
What's important to know for covers, specifically, is readers need something that gives an idea of what's inside, it doesn't have to be perfect.
And remember, you can always re-release the book a few years down the line with a shiny new cover and some extra goodies...you know, when you've hopefully sold enough to afford it.
#now wait until i'm screaming and tearing my hair out trying to get the before deluca cover done#stupid brain refusing to learn how to paint#but i'll do it#or something close#because i kind of have no choice#also i think it's fun#because i am a masochist#writing rambles
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Oh no.
Oh no.
So i need to click on that, but I'm going to say something first. If transformers is willing to let this be canon, they have some mighty fine double standards when it comes to us saying interfacing could be canon.
#i am boldly going where no one has ever gone before and where no one has ever wanted to go before#because i am a masochist#I've gotta click those links
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i think the way murderbot avoids eye contact is very cute
#murderbot#the murderbot diaries#dr. mensah#idk why i decided to draw them in a convenience store. because i am a masochist i guess
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A pensive season 5 Dean
#I used a thicker pencil for the hair because i am not a masochist lol#supernatural#spn#art#dean winchester#my art#traditional art#sketch#portrait#supernatural fanart#dean winchester fanart
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ever crocheted something and said "wow i loved that but i sure wish every single stitch required me to stab myself in the finger!" ? think crochet is good but it just needs a bit more pain?
look no further than knitting, aka crochet for masochists! i can't understand why anyone would ever— *camera pans down to me knitting* you weren't supposed to see that
#knitblr#am i missing something lol or is it supposed to hurt#i love knitting though. not because i'm a masochist i don't think#knitting
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hello, it's me, your local clown clowning it up again
but imagine if we actually get to see a bucktommy wedding. if we get to see them decide to become parents. if we get to watch the growth of this queer relationship in the same way we saw maddie and chimney fall in love, and the way that we didn't with Hen and Karen
imagine how beautiful that would be
#bucktommy#at this point i think i'm a masochist because why else would i do this to myself?#but i just want to watch this queer relationship bloom on screen#fanfiction does an excellent job but there's something true and real about seeing it acted in front of us#and i am holding onto the tiniest sliver of hope that it might happen
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i do think. as much of a deal i make about marc being a lil weird about his pain. that the motogp press establishment is infinitely more obsessed with taking his pain and lionizing it. narrativizing it. making it a monument to racers (and often marc specifically) being sort of. superhuman beings who can white knuckle through any injury because their noble devotion to the sport can overcome it all. which is of course a very flawed line of thinking to propagate amongst the fans and employees of a sport that involves people flinging themselves off of motorcycles at 300kmh. but nonetheless it helps create this sporting narrative (frequently FULLY endorsed by a lot of the fans, the press/media, the motogp DOCTORS, and the riders themselves) that takes very stupid decisions concerning the health and safety and well-being of these people and transform those decisions into something to be rewarded as the ultimate ideal of what it means to be a motorcycle racer. no pain no gain, even when you literally don’t even gain anything !! and it’s not unique to motogp whatsoever but it IS still weird and i don’t think it should be glossed over
#i mean there is his documentary. and lots of other riders do it too#but the marc is a masochist thing rings false to me because that’s never how he himself characterizes his pain#like it just hurts to him. he’ll take it if he has to but he doesn’t want to!#especially after how bad 2021 was…#motogp#callie speaks#idk just thinkin. formulating. reviewing my conclusions#like riders the riders have some agency in this and so do the doctors motogp employs. but if the idea persists that this is good.#people will keep doing it !!#okay to sleep. one am thoughts bear with me
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I haven't watched past episode 3 of Affair: The Series because I want to binge it after the time jump happens until the final episode in one go, but I just saw a recent gifset and I'm holding on for dear life
#i am STRUGGLING rn but there arent many left#some may ask why im doing this to myself and i simply reply because i am a masochist clearly#affair the series#Thai gl#gl series
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Had to get one in before maintenance gets custody of my blorbo for 24 hours
#|| Screenshots#FFXIV#FF14#windy weather my beloafed#idk why I keep bothering with the stupid rectangle#because I have to edit every single frame to hide the edges as things move#fucking torture am masochist
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omfg im finally done with every single pointless side quest in all the areas in inquisition. did all of the damn shards too and astrariums. i think there's like 3 more dragon fights i gotta do but idk if i care enough. sitting at 295 power rn (i didn't know you could buy power until literally like around 285 power so i didn't bother). all that's left is dlcs and the main story and i left off at What Pride Had Wrought. yayyy!!!!!
also i read it's best to do the dlcs after the main story??? i was gonna do jaws > descent > main story > trespasser initially but im not sure . i'd love folks' input if they have any! 👀
#successfully feel dead inside. why did i do any of that? because i hate myself. because i am a masochist. that's why.#aev plays dragon age#i need to stop hating inquisition so im gonna take a break for a few days to reset my brain. that grind was insufferable. LOL
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Hi! First of all i love your art it brings me so much joy <3 thank you so much for it
I wanted to ask a silly question: I've never read any superhero comic in my life. I'm planning on starting to read dick grayson/nightwing comics soon. The problem is that I know a lot of what happens in his 1996 – 2009 series bc I started interacting with the fandom for around a month before deciding to start reading his comics. I wasn't worried before bc well there must be hundreds other comics where he shows up and there's also cartoons and movies and tv shows. But now I'm wondering if I kind of ruined my own experience with this series by knowing too much before getting into it myself 😭 I was so excited but now I'm feeling sad about it
I started with a similar scenario where a lot of the things were mentioned by people I followed and a lot was technically spoiled for me. I got into Batman media before I got into Robin and Nightwing related stuff. It didn’t ruin anything for me personally knowing how stuff goes because I still appreciated the context around things.
However, as a guy who drew nightwing an abnormal amount of times within one year, I have to say spoilers is not what you should be worried about.
Because the most worrying thing is reading nightwing solo runs 100+ issues in is that most of the stories are bad.
Yes, I’ll say it… I think most of it is bad. There’s cute moments but so many story endings are not satisfactory and the pacing is weird. This is not to discourage you or make you feel sad before going into comics but… as someone who was in a similar situation, stick to reading lists in the beginning. Because after 5-7 mid runs, you start to think, man what am I doing…
How I feel after reading 100+ solo issues and most of them weren’t good:
#maleinbox#I will never forget finding one part of a run interesting after reading so many weird runs and then it turns into some kind of mid romance#story with an unknown woman… I dare not say anything else because I am not a hater..#anyways I don’t want to scare you with anything but sometimes reading comics is kind of masochistic.#that’s kind of how it is for most of us… I think. or at least people I know
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artfight season is around the corner so I've put together one of those funny little summary plate things I've seen floating around- if you're playing you can catch me at https://artfight.net/~Humming-fly! (and see the actual character refs i did not bother grabbing actual thumbnails for for this thing lol 👍)
As for alignments I actually like both teams this year so I'm planning to do a traitor run! So starting out in seafoam, and will swap over to stardust for the latter half, should be fun!
#that shitty comic the other day reminded me how i have not posted art recently so i'm guiltily catching up on that now lol#got lost in the open world video game mire you know how it is 😔#also picked featured characters totally arbitrarily as i do all things a;sldkfj#just wanted to show my weirdo characters more i like their designs#i really do have a trend with giving my creature characters very non-emotive faces wonder what's up with that#(it's because i love to challenge myself and am a masochist at heart clearly)#artfight#my art#doodles#artfight 2024
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So, I haven't gotten too far into Nightbringer to write any specific smut for it. (Literally only just started lesson 6). But I do have some ideas!!
A lot of my ideas revolve around being the demon's "first" in something. Like, you know your demons inside and out at this point. You know all their kinks, fantasies, and where to touch them to make them squirm. So you can introduce them to all sorts of things that make them scream in the future but they have no experience with now.
For example, showing Lucifer how much of a masochist he is. I don't think Lucifer is a complete virgin in Nightbringer as I think he fooled around as an angel at least a few times. I mean, he's still a few thousand years old, he was bound to get curious and try getting frisky with a few angels. But him trying out BDSM? I seriously doubt it.
So once you and him finally fall into bed together, you show him all the ways he didn't know he loved to be touched. Having such an inexperienced Lucifer is a bit of a novelty and a bit of an annoyance. Present day Lucifer knew what he wanted and he wasn't ashamed of asking for it. The Lucifer you're currently bedding? Doesn't know what he wants.
It's actually really cute how shy Lucifer is. How he tries so hard to stifle his moans when you heard much louder, much needier ones from your present Lucifer.
And you don't want to push him. It's entirely possible that past Lucifer has no interest in BDSM. That his particular taste for masochism and being owned evolved after many centuries.
But you still want to try, to possibly open his eyes to a new world of domination and submission.
So one evening, one careful evening you've been planning for. One evening in which you make sure that his brothers haven't wreaked havoc, one evening where Diavolo doesn't up to distract Lucifer cause him stress. One perfect, relaxing evening, you spring the question onto him.
"Lucifer, have you heard about BDSM?" You ask in your most light, most casual tone to not raise any alarm bells and spook the demon.
Lucifer pauses his undressing, his hands suspended in the air as his tie hangs loosely around his neck. He turns to you in slow motion, looking so bewildered and confused that it makes you want to laugh. Surely your demon couldn't be that pure right? You know he's only been a demon for a little more than a year now, but, come on.
"I'm sorry, have I heard about what?"
"BDSM! Like, Bondage, Domination, Submissive, Masochism. Have you heard of people doing that sort of thing in bed?"
Lucifer's face turns a bright scarlet and he turns away from you. Like, actually physically turning his full back to you, turning away from you. You can see his ears still burning though, and elect not to tease him about it in worry that if you do, Lucifer might become so embarrassed he'll stop being the Avatar of Pride.
"It's fine if you haven't. If you would rather I never bring it up again say the word and I wouldn't." You tell him, concern starting to creep in.
"No. No, it's fine. I just. Why did you choose to bring that topic up?" He asks stiffly, hands clenching and unclenching at his sides. A classical Lucifer "I'm nervous about this topic because it inflicts Feelings in me" move.
"I was just wondering. I have been in dom/sub relationships in the, um, past, and was wondering if that was something you'll be into," you say gently, so extremely gently. "It's fine if that's not something you're into." You add.
"You have?" He asks in surprise, and because you know him so well, with a hint of excitement. "What... what role did you fall into?"
Relief crashes into you like a tidal wave. He's into it. He's really into it from what you can tell. He hasn't had any experience with subbing, you know because your Lucifer didn't when you meet him, but he was so desperate to finally try he practically threw himself at your feet.
Not this Lucifer though. This Lucifer most likely knows of the idea, maybe he picked up some porn featuring a dom/sub relationship and knows on some level that he's interested in subbing, but hasn't had the time to stew in that knowledge like your Lucifer did.
"Dominate." You say with confidence, a grin painting your face. "I like control in the bedroom."
And judging by the shiver that shoots up Lucifer's spine at your words, so does he.
Grinning, you stand and begin stalking towards your prey.
"I like taking control of my partner. Make them beg for relief. And if they misbehave, I like to punish them."
"Do. Do you?" Lucifer asks breathlessly.
You're standing behind him and you know he knows you're there. His demon sense picking up on it, and by the way he almost leans backward as if to meet your touch, you know he wants you.
"I do." You state confidently, mere inches away from Lucifer.
"But," your hand grasps Lucifer's shoulder and he flinches. "If my partner didn't want that...." You give him a light pull and he complies, turning to face you.
And oh, what a sight that is.
You missed your subby little Luci. You missed his cute moans, his tears as you edged him, and his screams when you overstimulated him. And you missed his flushed face when you lowered him into subspace.
And this? This perfectly mimics that face.
"Oh, baby." You breathe out, fighting the urge to pepper his face in kisses and pull him into your chest.
"And what if I do? Would you do those things to me?" Lucifer asks, and you're so, so proud of him for asking.
"Darling, I would do all that and more." You say as you kiss him.
Like your Lucifer did in the past, like he will do in the future, he lets you take control.
#obey me#obey me nb#obey me nightbringer#obey me lucifer#obey me nb Lucifer#my post#obey me dom!reader#ok so i know i said i was busy#and i AM#i should have NOT written this. this just got away from me#as yall can probably tell because this did NOT contain you showing Luci that hes a masochist lol#aw. oh well. i have a pretty clean idea of what i want that to look like#ill write that later#i SWEAR i will finish that one day... one day...#i noticed that i got quite a bit of notes from my Nb posts. and uh.#yeah sorry folks who are not in the know. im a smut writter.#a dom!reader smit writer in fact. sorry.#best to leave now if you're not into that
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me when i frank your iero 😨
#my art#frank iero#mcr#mcr frank#falling headfirst into mcr hyperfixation in 2023 like the insane lesbian I am#I refused to draw him before because it would make the fixation real#and I finally caved in#he’s fun to draw tho so 😗#can’t stop thinking about his masochist quote#have been listening to so much ls dunes lately too….#my chemical romance
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one day I wish I could actually like understand songwriting especially for theatre so that I can I dunno actually put to use the random tunes I have in my head that just spontaneously appear while I'm doing the most mundane of shit. anyways patron has the concept of an opening number now
#im gonma call it Silakbo#the gist of this is um LOOK TO REALLY EXPLAIN WHAT PATRON IS UMM#understand that patron was originally two separate musical ideas whose events occur At The Same Time To Teach Other#so like yea same universe#Patron (pronounce it in the Filipino way) is about modern student activism in the philippines and the nitty gritty of it#Patron (english pronunciation) is about a young filipino playwirght struggles to find their voice in an american landscape (new york)#especially in the context of the events of Filipino Patron#both discuss what it means to be a young filipino revolutionary in this day and age#so um i first thought of this when i was 17-18 - and now im 20 and like the masochist i am i have decided to have them become one project#dual protagonist - one a new and rather sheltered stude of UP Diliman and one decorated young progressive writer in New York#the former is a journey of looking beyond privilege and what it really means to be among the masses#the latter is a story of how privilege blinds - and how susceptible we are to american neoliberalism#that it dulls once sharp pens + the irony of succumbing to such amidst environment and communities that scream for resistance#and whatever one protag does affects the other protag - whatever happens in america affects philippine events and vice versa yay#anyways openign number Silakbo is the arrival of these two protagonists to their respective settings - both with their own musical styles#(UPD protag progresses from broadway belts to pinoy hiphop - NY protag progresses from pinoy hiphop to broadway belts) (this is A Clue)#and most of UPD protag songs will be sung in Filipino while NY Protag will um progressively grow into being fully English#and silakbo can be used synonymously with storm so its basically a storm is coming who's gonna bring it#a change is approaching who's gonna chase it#tbh this out of all of my works is gonna be inspired heavily from lmm's work because tbh this is gonna be a beast to even conceptualise#so um yea thats a mini patron ramble woo hope its um understandable at worst 😭#personal shit#also yes the NY storyline is based on um once progressive Filipinos becoming subservients to conservative and harmful politics#either out of ignorance or power or simple nonchalance#i can name a lot of namess gjdjd
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hello! first i just wanna say ur stories r really neat n have have inspired me a lot! soo I remember when reading perseverance u mentioned a couple of times in the notes bout some of the songs u listened to while writing the chapters so would it be alr if u dropped all the songs u think goes w the story? (u don have to ofc I jus think it's interesting how u might perceive them as songs) much love to u n ur creative mind 💞
Awwww, thank you!! <3 <3 I'm glad I could inspire you! That's what I want to do with my stories! :D
Okay, so. U m. This is uh. A very interesting question. First off, I am. Very surprised people actually pay attention to those, I didn't know if people did or not- XD
Second. Um. Are you s u r e you want me to drop all the songs that I think goes with the story-
There might... be way more than you think.
And that's not including the 3 unlisted ones that I can't remember what they were/don't have the heart to remove from the list. Also, it's a playlist that... includes any song that inspired me ever. For any fic that I made. Not just Perseverance.
I don't think you actually want me to drop all of these on you, man-
#It's a youtube playlist that I made a long freaking time ago#It's not organized. Like at all#It devolved into me just adding any song that even remotely inspired me#Kind of#Some songs I still did not add to it even if they inspired me a ton#There's one random almost 30 minute long one 'cus it inspired me a lot/helps me write#A lot of undertale songs inspired me too that aren't on here because I made my own separate playlist for specifically undertale songs#I am not okay#...Y e s I added to the playlist literally 3 days ago#It is a continuously updated playlist; hence the atrocious video count#I am refraining from posting the link to it even if it's unlisted#mainly because I don't need my crap music tastes publicly judged#If a ton of people beg for it though; I may actually make it public on my youtube account#Have the entire world judge me for my awful music taste; let's see if I get masochistic enough-
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