#because i am NOT doing this man justice
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With the new trailer of ATSV being released, I fell back in one of my 2018 hyperfixation which is ITSV.
I was curious to discover more about that vampire Ninja Spiderman character that had been introduced in the trailer so I went to do what everybody does (not Google it, who does that) and went on Tumblr. There I found @milimeters-morales and @spider-man-2o99 account, where I found good material about the character personality as well as many other Spiderman's character.
This prompted me to go further through the Miguel O'hara tag. Let me tell you that it was not a good idea. First thing is see is "Miguel trying to shock babies into you" and I'm like ewww. Does this guy even have time to do that? I continue to scroll with optimism but to no avail as I'm greeted with 20+ other posts being horny about a 2D guy with awfull characterization and fetishism and monsterfuckery and Oscar Isaac.
So I think that I'm going to stay on your blog and 2099's , then read the comic until June 2 because people here do not know how to behave . And I feel like going through Levi Ackerman tag all over again or Gojo.
LMAOOOOOO
#sorry Captain if this tags you !!!#also if u think i’m good material on his character anon do yourself a favor and just go read the comic like rn#because i am NOT doing this man justice
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i’m having illario dellamorte thoughts. what if instead of knowingly betraying lucanis he did it like, unknowingly. idk how this would work but i’m intrigued by what it gives us. illario ‘i accidentally caused my cousin’s death & can never tell anyone’ dellamorte. genuinely grieving. blaming himself. does he take advantage of the year before lucanis comes back?? does caterina still ignore him the whole time?? how different is the canon plotline once rook shows up with lucanis post-rescue…..
anyways i would love your thoughts!!
95% of what i do with illario operates on the idea that he is frighteningly competent so you can see why the way the crows plotline plays out in the game might frustrate me. it’s also this reason why i don’t actually think too much about “illario got lucanis killed, but didn’t mean to do it”, because i like the idea that everything illario does in his life is planned to the second and that he’s too well trained to mess up this badly, if that makes sense. with that being said. 5% of my brain power does sometimes go towards “and what if he just sucked actually” and it was a theory i enjoyed before the game even released. so i have in fact been thinking about this anyway LOL . maybe he tries to honeypot zara, accidentally actually reveals lucanis’ next assassination job, and zara gets rid of him as a ‘gift’. illario is horrified and that gets even worse when lucanis’ body shows up, and he assumes this must be because he spurned zara by leaving her and not having the guts to seize power.
i think we could make his inferiority complex worse. illario’s worst fear confirmed: he is as worthless as his grandmother believes he is, botching something so badly that he accidentally sentences his cousin to death when what he wanted was lucanis just… out of the way for a bit (maybe while he kills caterina. LOL. i still think his resentment of caterina trumps his jealousy for lucanis though those two things are very intertwined its hard for him to differentiate them). so incapable that he got the only person who actually supports him killed, and now he’s dreading the idea of becoming first talon. he doesn’t want first talon without lucanis backing him, and now the only person left is caterina which is suffocating and makes him even unhappier. at least he hadn’t lived through her alone, and now through consequences of his own decisions, illario has no choice but to.
i think that would affect his plans for talon because of how horribly he’d fucked up, and tries to mask it because if he suddenly actually doesn’t want to be talon that would be a red flag for everyone. lucanis coming back would delight him (talon is within his sights again if lucanis comes back!) and freak him out. i think the plotline would actually be pretty similar because of this freak out, so he still shows up to zara’s fight to cover his tracks. lucanis can never know, caterina can never know, because what little faith they have in him will be lost. like he committed fratricide and didn’t even MEAN to😭 ...corpse whispering still happens, and zara is like “ohhh that coward. he can never finish what he started, can he?” + “elaborate.” + “i gave him what he most wanted in the world and instead of being grateful, he ran away.” so lucanis finds out about what happened but feels a mix of “illario, you idiot” + pity because turns out he didn’t even mean for it to happen, and keeps his secret for now, otherwise he’d probably have to kill him.
i also think not meaning to kill lucanis would sour his feelings towards the venatori, who are a reminder of how badly he failed, so the alliance wouldn’t happen. this does mean if the story goes on as it does in canon, he has to take desperate measures another way and kidnap caterina for some other reason but i can’t think of why….. maybe a thing where illario is like “ok. lucanis is distracted by the elven gods. this time i just have to kill nonna for real and then nothing is in my way” and recruits disgraced houses or houses that don’t like caterina to do so? not sure tbh but i don’t believe caterina made it so far without making enemies lol. this would happen post bloodbath + corpse whispering— lucanis leaves his cousin unchecked because while he knows illario didn’t mean for him to die, he has no idea how far he would go to have caterina dead. teia could find out about this and send word to foil the kidnapping and assassination attempt
so ‘murder of crows’ is still about saving caterina, the illario-lucanis fight still happens, but it’s a little more hesitant and lots of “why won’t you just let me kill her? i’m doing this for the both of us”. he’s had to live with being the un-favorite, but never would have thought lucanis would actually pick caterina if it came down to it. with all of his missteps here, i think the final decision (and i think it should be like this in canon anyway) would be to imprison illario or kill him. imprisoning him is just a lot of “i can’t kill illario as much as he couldn’t kill me”, vs killing him as is expected from him as talon, and what he knew he would have to do after finding out about illario's failures. unlike canon, where illario is actually meaning to kill him and can be seen as a 'good crow' despite the sloppiness, here he's like. just bad at everything. the allied traitor houses that went against caterina would also have to be imprisoned or killed. no happy ending at all here, and lucanis still becomes first talon. now that i’ve written it out this is actually probably the worst ending LOL
the above sticks a lot to what is canon to the game (plot points, choices, etc) and i didn’t go very far away from it so it's like canon 3 inches to the left. tho my thoughts on this are not fleshed out* because i think illario works better as an antagonist character that sets things in motion !! not necessarily the villain in a cain-abel story, but a character who opposes lucanis while still not wanting to hurt him. that kind of discipline where he finds a way to get what he wants (first talon) without compromising what he also cares for (family) is so much more fun for me than a man who apparently just loses it and decides to enact a bad plan to get rid of his cousin. if he waited 20+ years to become talon i think he’d be more careful when it came down to it. if i had my way illario would be playing insane 5d chess to rival solas (insert black sails “i once thought that to lead, to be liked was just as good as feared. and that may very well be true. but to be both liked and feared all at once, is an entirely different state of being.”)
#*my thoughts are ‘not fleshed out’ but i still wrote all this. LOL#i nearly answered this ask with the companion-illario au from my mind because i think vg needed a companion that lies to you LOL#but thats less 'illario didnt mean to do it' and more 'oh illario did it and just feels so guilty he goes on a one man crusade#against the venatori because he needs an outlet and both of them are known as magekillers'#he would have lied for most of the game about how lucanis got kidnapped/'killed' and resolves it by saving lucanis + confessing his guilt#this au had elements of 'it was an accident' but i kept flip flopping between if i wanted that or not lol#because . idk. i like when he purposefully does all this and then regrets it. my walking contradiction (slash i want him)#illario guilt inferiority and jealousy you all mean so much to me#but yeah. last point relates to the envyllario rewrite also from my mind#the idea of like. that caution vanishing because of the envy demon is quite fun for me#so spite makes lucanis a victim to his own anger and sense of justice#while envy refuses to let illario maintain his veneer of charm and forces him to act rashly despite his planning#ok. i have to stop talking. thank u anon for this because i am always looking for an excuse to chat shit#prompt me at any point to speak about illario and i honest to god will just be sat here thinking#actually it was pretty bad a few days ago when i was thinking about ways it could go for him in my aus and drawing a blank#and had the very clear thought 'i NEED to put my thinking cap on' which was . a bit humiliating#illario dellamorte#long post#answered#anonymous
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I've been watching Hazbin Hotel in prime. Just watched episode 5 and I gotta ask
Why, oh, WHY DON'T I SEE MORE PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT "MORE THAN ANYTHING" WHEN TALKING ABOUT THE HAZBIN HOTEL MUSIC???
Like I get it, the song before it "Hell's Greatest Dad" Is a bop reminiscent of other music from the era its parodying. I loved it.
BUT why are you only putting clips of that song when this MASTERPIECE comes a few minutes after

I honestly don't even know where to begin with this song. The visuals are beautiful, especially when we get moments like this where you can just see the absolute LOVE this man has for her daughter is so sweet and Heartwarming I just-

The voices are fenomenal but what else can you expect from the broadway talents of Erika Henningsen and Jeremy Jordan.
There is also the whole Symbolism with passing the baton to the next generation and stuff. I- I can't even get into the specifics right now Im too emotional.
But above all else THE LYRICS






ESPECIALLY THAT LAST ONE
"I'M GRATEFUL YOU ARE MY DAUGHTER/FATHER MORE THAN ANYTHING"
DO YOU WANT ME TO CRY?? CAUSE I AM. I AM BAWLING MY EYES OUT RIGHT NOW.
It's just so fucking beautiful man. Probably the best song I will hear all year. Obviously my favorite from Hazbin.
#Call me Sir Pentious cause Im crying like a baby over here.#WHY HAVE YOU BEEN HIDING THIS GEM FROM ME. THIS ABSOLUTE DIAMOND#I didnt even mention lyrics like “I've been dying to find out who you are. looks like the apple doesnt fall far.”#“You are a part of who I am” “you are the only thing worth fighting for” that just BREAK ME#but oh well#BTW of course I was gonna watch and become obsessed with Hazbin Hotel. I am a theater kid that loves animation. It was like meant for me#could do with a little less obsenities but thats alright its a staple of the show#On another note I almost went insane when I found out lucifer was Jeremy Jordan.#Like its insane how that man always ends up in my obsessions. Newsies. Tangled the series. The Death Note Musical#(Im team L btw in death note but GOD Jeremy's singing made me reconsider for a milisecond in Where's the justice he is just THAT GOOD)#Erika I knew from the mean girls musical which I also deeply enjoy#its Insane the Talent this show brought in. my theater kid heart is ELATED#Last thing is I gotta say I LOVED Lucifer#Like I thought I was gonna hate him because everyone was talking about charlie's daddy issues#I thought he was gonna be neglectful and manipulative#BUT NO. He is a silly (little) father who just loves his daughter but doesnt know how to show it#And had DREAMS and AMBITION and fate in humanity. And he is just such a fun character to follow I had such a riot with this episode#Hazbin Hotel#charlie morningstar#lucifer morningstar#charlotte morningstar
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So I drew Alastor again but like I did it much better this time around LMAO
#hazbin alastor#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel alastor#alastor#hazbin hotel fanart#alastor fanart#hazbin hotel alastor fanart#the only thing scarier than this man in his demon form#is how I used to draw him 😭😭#I tried to do him a bit more justice this time#because it is what he deserves#anyways I am unreasonably obsessed with drawing this idiot#i have a problem#but my frantic sketches of this man do not seem to be slowing down#so maybe I’ll post more of him#we will see LMAO
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Kid me: clowns are creepy & scary
Adult me: ...I have something to tell you & you're not gonna like it. But on the bright side we're no longer scared of clowns.


#one piece#buggy the clown#impel down buggy#not only does he live rent free hes got me in a choke hold#feral for him💙#no because my face literally looked like this 😳 at the live action chair intro#Jeff Ward is doing my man justice#idfc what anyone says i am loving the live action#also like holy fuck mackenyu was born to be zoro#wouldnt be suprised if zoro got so lost he crossed realities to play zoro in live action one piece#also thank you queen nami for reminding me i am in fact a disaster bisexual 😩#s1e4
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The way Gilbert von Obsidian has me catching my breath each single chapter like a scandalised (and extremely turned on) Victorian maiden.
#Faa’s logging#in between all of my Rafayel Sylus screaming I haven’t forgotten how ruined#ikepri gilbert#has me with his entire route#it’s chef’s kiss and restored my faith in Cybirb’s ability#to give us a villain route and do it justice#the wound from IkeVamp Vlad’s route is still fresh#because what in all hells was that route#I am 1.5k words into a Gilbert cathartic smut which is currently on hold for Rafayel#BUT this man has me in shambles so you will definitely be hearing from me on the writing front for him
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People like this have made me terrified that I am mischaracterizing my favorite character by playing into his strengths and emphasizing them so much... That I'm making things "too anime", "too over-the-top", and by doing that straying away from the groundedness that made the character compelling in the first place... But I think it's better to be a fan who loves someone so much they're willing to step into goofy over-the-top showcases of strength and morals out of love than being a fake fan who only ever rags on what they proclaim is so dear to them. I dunno. I don't think I'm wrong in saying that. I'm hella insecure when it comes to my own writing, especially with this guy because I want to do him as much justice as I possibly can as a writer. But I have to convince myself that it's not too much.
#logs#it doesn't help that i've been exposed to a lot of bad writing and cynical critique in general‚ so i'm even more fearful...#but i think the cure for that is to just... read more‚ and read with an honest heart#i don't know... i feel like i have a lot of growth to do as a person‚ as a reader and writer before i can execute this to the level where it#can truly be considered a masterpiece. grounded‚ yet not so. over-the-top in every way while also providing meaningful critique and#commentary on the nature of humanity. gutwrenching dialogue packed neatly with the most insane displays of asskicking. commentary on how war#is cruel and bad and only sows misery contrasted with the coolest battle scenes you have ever seen. these are the essence of the things i#love‚ and i want to be able to channel that through my own writing as well. it's the only way to do justice to the source material‚ the only#way to truly pay a tribute to the things that i love.#now that i am free‚ i can finally become more cultured... read more books‚ watch more films‚ inhale old mecha anime... it's what i've always#dreamed of doing#i just need to undo the mental shackles of ''i cannot do this right now''... i can. i finally can. i just need to let my mind catch up to#that. give it a little push along the way#once that's done... the journey begins.#i anguish a lot over the fact that my writing is locked in a tomb for the next decade... but sometimes‚ like now‚ i think‚ hey‚ maybe that#isn't so bad. imagine how many movies you can watch in those ten years... good movies‚ bad ones‚ exceptional ones... i'll have grown so much#as a writer by that point in time because i'll have learned the ''how'' part of what i want to write. i have the ''what'' already‚ and a#general idea of ''how''‚ but... ten years from now‚ i'll be able to write everything in a way that truly makes my eyes shine#a rare moment of me being hopeful for the future... i cherish it as those don't last very long in my life. i more often tend to despair#(cursed be the chemical disbalance!)#but yeah. there is a lot to look forward to despite the hardships. sure it would've been nice to just... have it all here‚ but... that's not#the world i live in. and maybe this one isn't so bad‚ either.#i have my box of scraps. now i just need to make it out of the cave.#the deadliest type of man is one with motivation and a purpose. right?
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I AM BACK FROM FINALS!!!!
Fellas, is it wrong to consider DS! Dream to be similar to Batman? Just a very, very, VERY murderous and unforgiving to criminals version of Batman who acts like an emotional constipated boy scout?
Not outwardly though. I'm pretty sure DS! Dream seems to be an emotionally available (specifically not emotionally vulnerable) kind of person to most. But it's canon that DS! Dream keeps people at a distance. And like, DS! Dream has a reputation to uphold and he is not about to be seen fumbling after his many, many efforts despite his anxiety. But man is in denial to the.. bad parts, of his extreme ideology that I'm pretty he has all those "negative/doubts" at the back burner of his mind and isn't about to confront what killing DS! Mare will end up like for him. What killing all criminals—instead of rehabilitating the few—would mean. Pretty sure that'll lead to a very meltdown, existential crisis, shutting down or possibly frantic acts of extreme redemptions. DS! Dream is a responsible kind of guy, so he'll definitely try to upheave the system (that he made) first to fix it first. Do a "leave no stones unturned" kind of thing.
But my point is that DS! Dream is like Batman who has Bruce Wayne's reputation (not being a playboy but a philanthropist) and Justice Reigns is like Wayne Enterprise.
#dreamswap#dreamtale au#dreamswap dream#dreamswapdream#dsdream#ds dream#just my thoughts and headcanons#because ITS CANON THAT DS DREAM WANTS TO MAKE A BETTER WORLD AND HE MADE AN ORGANIZATION FOR IT#IM PRETTY SURE JUSTICE REIGNS HAVE A FINGER IN ALL THE PIE THERE IS#HES A PROMINENT BUSINESS MAN AND A POLITICAL FIGURE WHILE ALSO HAVING A LAW ENFORCING ORGANIZATION???#SO THIS IS WHAT MY INTERPRETATION OF IT#HE HAS ALL THE FUCKING FINGERS IN PIES THERE IS#DS DREAM IS CANONICALLY AN OPTIMIST AND BATMAN IS ALSO AN OPTIMIST WHO HOPES THAT HIS ROGUES TURN FOR THE BETTER#BUT DS DREAM THINKS THE CRIMINALS CAUGHT BY HIS ORGANIZATION IS A LOST CAUSE AND THERE IS WHERE BATMAN AND HIM DIFFERS#ANYWHERE ELSE THEY'RE SIMILAR WITH EXCEPTION OF HOW THEY HOLD THEMSELVES#BATMAN MAKES THE CRIMINALS FEAR HIM AND THE DARK BUT DREAM MAKES CRIMINAL FEAR HIM AND THE LIGHT#BUT THEYRE STILL THE SAME FUCKING COIN#DO YOU GET WHAT I MEAN??????!!!!!!#BATMAN DOES THINGS IN THE DARK BUT DS DREAM DOES THINGS IN THE LIGHT#THEYRE DOING THE SAME THING IN DIFFERENT FLAVORS#WITH DS DREAM BEING MORE EXTREME ON THE KILLING BUT BATMAN HAS NEVER PULLED HIS PUNCHES AND IS VERY MUCH VIOLENT#THE INTENT IS THE SAME#IS WHAT I AM SAYING#DONT TREAT ME LIKE A MANIAC
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argyle called el supergirl + mike called el superman, but that scene was about his feelings and insecurities so the superman association is really tied to mike. superman and supergirl are cousins
#stranger things#kara (supergirl) is technically older than clark but got caught in a wormhole (or something) while escaping krypton#temporarily stopping her ageing because wormholes affect the speed at which time passes#meaning that by the time she gets to earth she's being rescued by her baby cousin who is now a grown man. superman to be exact#superman is... do i need to tell you who superman is?#truth justice hope the american way bla bla bla#but supergirl is a lot more morally complex because she was old enough to know their home before it was destroyed#she was the memory#which makes her methodology a lot more brutal and a lot less boy scout#all while being a teenage girl with the powers of a god#because apparently krypton was a bit more flawed and a lot less idealised than clark would like to think#but it's reversed in stranger things with the alien planet (or whatever) assumed to be rotten and evil#so it likely has hidden depths#especially because dustin keeps questioning its origin#anyway#refugees on a planet that is not their own + i am different i do not belong / gaining strength from the red sun + run to the light#due to comics books being timeless and not just an 80s thing i finally understand a nerdy aspect of the nerd show made for nerds
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Heheheheheho I have gotten some of the Dragon Age books (🏴☠️) and this is gonna really let me dig into some stuff, especially my favorite guy Cole, cause now I can read his OG appearance, I want to see how much stuff Cole says, especially during his quest actually makes sense, and how much is in-universe "both sides are right"ing about not listening to what Cole wants to do.
I am mainly talking about Spirit!Cole thanking Inky for not making him change... Despite the fact that thoughout Cole's quest Solas ignores what Cole wants (Like being binded) & wants to do (Kill the guy who beat beyond beating a 12 (at most) year old (most likely, it isn't outright stated (to my memory) the Templar who fucked up the paperwork was also one of the ones who physically abused him, but I feel it's a pretty safe assumption) & got that child killed due to neglect & faced no consequences) but ultimately the choice that causes Cole to thank the player for not changing him is the one where you listen to Solas over Cole (Or well Varric, who also doesn't let Cole do what he wants but is closer to what Cole would have done if he had went alone for the confrontation) & in this route I would say Cole's character changes a lot more, especially as he forgets the original Cole, which... Rubs me wrong, but I'll save my more detailed thoughts for 1. After I fully read Asunder & 2. Either a full Cole analysis or a detailed post about my thoughts on his quest & routes (& maybe how I'd rewrite them, as a Autistic person & a ally to the aroace community)
Anyways my point is that I want to see how true it is characters rejected or wanted to change Cole, I want to see what leads him to feel that having two men argue & tell him who he is supposed to be & do only to have a third person decide out of those two's options for what he should do is remotely a situation where he's been accepted.
#talk tag#my meta#cole meta#da cole#dai cole#dragon age cole#anti Solas#anti varric#just a lil like I love them but also holy hell you can tell they are in a sense in Cole's quest meant to#repesent ''parents who *have to deal with* Autistic children & make their choices for them#which ultimately comes down to how Cole is infantlized despite being around the same age as the intended age for the HoF during DAO#but since he's a Autistic-coded man he is treated by the narrative & thusly by characters like he is far younger & can't make his own choice#& only by losing parts of that coding is he treated a little more like a adult either losing touches of ''humanity''#or having to start having relationships like how a allo nurotypcial would#anyways I am curious if the book has some of these issues or if it is mainly a DAI thing since tbh it has a Ableism issue#I do know that Cole in the book is allowed to be a lot more threatening which I am excited to see for myself#let him be fucked up he is a spooky ghost serial killer with messy morals & messed up ideas on how to help#also I should make my meta/thoery/hc about how the spirit vs demon dycomity is BS & is more based on if#a spirit fights back/has desires that aren't convinent for the mortals around it#''oh it isn't a sprit of justice who wants me dead for killing those mages... it's a demon of vengeance yeah''#''this spirit wants things & isn't just doing what I tell it to... Demon of desire''#anyways thoughts for a different day when I have done more research but it ties into Cole#because how actually different is it to mercy kill mages in hopes of being seen vs kill countless people some of whom are very much-#just acting with survival or protection of their people#in like the grand scheme of the system that decides when something is a spirit & it's a demon#why is it fine for Cole to kill to end others pain but if he does it for himself he is a Demon?#anyways ty for reading#child abuse#child death
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-sighs-
Here we go
#ghostie mumbles#because of his young justice design I am retaliating and making him look like a proper grown man and making him thicker as a treat#but also idk what to do for his suit rn so this is just gonna sit as a sketch for awhile dhsvsnf
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quivering rn what the heck
baron from the baronies is something that can be so personal actually
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#fantasy high#baja’s blasting#the sheer unadulterated aromantic horror in his and rizz’s interactions jesus christ#‘everyone else will find someone they care about more than you’ hey. hey what if i cried#brennan lee mulligan why did you do this to me#the raw fucking dread the science with rizz seeing everyone he knows falling in love or dancing or making out#coupled with this freakish mannequin thing insisting that it is his romance partner. what the fuck#‘you are quite unlike your parents’ hey what the fuck man#and the fact that baron comes from a mirror which ties him into how riz perceives himself…aaaaaa#what if i cried. what if as in i am and have#AND WILL CONTINUE TO DO SO#it’s so sorrowful and realistic and terrifying and oh my god#i just can’t get over it. it is an amalgamation of riz’s fears of his friends all moving on from him after high school#and settling down romantically#it’s just so shfofksiokgnririe#AND THE FACT THAT BARON IS CREATED FROM A LIE RIZ TOLD IN ORDER TO FIT IN. HOW HE CARRIES BARON AROUND IN HIS SUITCASE#BECAUSE U CARRY THAT AROUND THROUGHOUT YOUR DAY#the horror of being in the closet is displayed so purely#also like. being aroace is really scary. it seems like everyone else has something magical that you never will#and you can’t attain it#and just jelstieoektkvkksir#they really did it justice#never gonna recover#sorry i wrote this before i learned that baron uses they/them :(#ignore my lack of lore knowledge#what i lack in facts i make up for in vibes
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I always forget about how sex in media makes me feel (because of the asexuality) and then I get hit with the “will you romance this character?” and I’m like “yeah! :)” and then. can you guess. what happens immediately after.
And I just pull out my phone and no longer want anything to do with the character I have romanced
#this is about river ward in cyberpunk 2077#I started playing again bc of the massive updates to stuff and was like man I never did try romancing a character#and well well well if it isn’t the consequences of my own actions#I also hate how the camera is in first person#because of the asexuality#I do not like feeling like I am the one having sex with river#because dude you were so much more attractive when you had your pants on and were talking about justice or whatever#now I’m inviting you to my house and losing any and all interest in you like#ugh
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Hiya 💚
Just popping by off anon today to say I hope you’re having a good weekend. What’s something that’s made you smile recently? Have you been watered, fed, and provided some sunlight today?
You’re amazing, don’t forget that 🤘
I'm having a little snack of some fruit and toast before I go to bed. Usually I have some valerian tea as well but I'm coming off a flareup and strong valerian tea can cause stomach pains which I'm not interested in experiencing again anytime soon. Woe is me and my "mysterious illness" that I can easily avoid by eating foods that do not trigger symptoms. Tragically, I work downwind of a food court on the weekends and the smell of roasted meat, baking bread and deep fried whatever calls to me like a siren. Hard to believe I used to be afraid to eat anything!
I have lots of reasons to smile lately. My new job is going to take up more time but that's alright because this is a place I really want to believe in. I've had a friend working there for a year and she's loved it so I finally jumped ship. I like what they do and I like what they pay. It's a job I want to improve myself for and be the best I can be, since my last place had me clawing at the walls in despair of all the bullshit and regulation breaking that went on. I'm really pissed at that place, can you tell? And working at the Faire on the weekends is always fun. I'm always smiling there and it's a genuine smile. So let me tell you a story about something that happened today. It's about a man in a boat and a peep show.
(Don't worry. It's safe for work.)
It starts at the end of the day. For any not yet aware, I work at a Renaissance Faire. I'm comfortable disclosing this because I don't live anywhere near the faire, it's thirty acres of land and my shop is known for other things besides what I've talked about here. I use a different name there, too. There are three jousts at the fair, with the final one taking place at around 5:30 ish. So the streets of the little town were fairly empty save for a few dozen or so patrons, the Fantastikals (fairies) and one very special independent performer.
My assistant manager calls me over to the door with a grin. I come out from behind my counter to see what she wants and she points to this very special performer. "Ask him for the peep show". She tells me with a grin and because I'm down for anything at the Faire, I leave my shop to where this man is standing, in the shadows stretched long across the roads.
Words can not describe the experience of meeting him but I'm going to try. You heard him before you saw him, because he had a cleverly hidden speaker playing Italian opera. Classical music? Something masculine and passionate and bellowing. He wore black tights and shoes. His frilly shirt may have been yellow. He wore a perfect painted circle of white outlined in blue on his face and there was a pin that said "Yes, I work here!" on his shirt. There was a hat and finer details to his makeup but they all escape me because the man was also a boat. Or, in the middle of one. Jutting out four feet from his front and four feet behind was a gondola. There must be a harness of some kind under his shirt to help keep it up. Because in the gondola were buildings. Anywhere from a foot to eighteen inches tall. Think of Venice. Think of beautiful towers and elegant façades.
The man was a city.
In a boat.
I asked him for the peep show.
"Ah, my dear." He said, a twinkle in his eyes. "You're in for a real treat."
He directed me to a certain building on his other side. As I rounded him, I made eye contact with a little harlequin puppet placidly rowing the boat. It may have winked at me. I went to the building and noticed an open window. Putting my eye to it, do you know what I saw?
Two candy peeps on a platform, staring serenely back at me. I told him I loved it and he smiled.
"Sometimes people are nervous. They think I might scare them or poke them. But this is the level we're at here, my friend."
His other buildings had windows too. The tallest had several with cleverly angled mirrors so that the person looking in the bottom would see the person looking on top and vice versa. Another one, an opera house where your reflection was on stage. So many others, but I can't remember them! I was also still in character and interacting with patrons and very much still on the clock. But again, end of the day. My boss was very forgiving.
People like him are the reason I love the Faire so much. My hometown had one and the childhood memories of visiting are so clear and vivid it's like I could open a door and step back into it. I danced with the Queen, you know. She looked like one of my teachers, but I'll never be sure.
It's nice to keep the spirit going. Thank you for spreading positivity, Mr. Barnes. A good example for the fandom to follow 🩵. I hope your weekend is going as amazing as you are.
#he's also on tumblr so I'm NOT NAMING HIM I DON'T NEED HIM HAVING EYES ON THIS BLOG#EVEN IF HIS LAST POST WAS LIKE 2015 I AM NOT TAKING THE RISK.#but i can dm a photo from the website upon request because truly my words do not do the experience of this man justice.
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I don't think I'll ever be a proper Content Creator because of the way my brain works, but my biggest goal is to somehow make a story that makes someone so mentally ill about a thing that they can't think straight. As I do. Every couple weeks or so. Someday it will happen and I will do skitter around dancing and cheering wildly on the subway platform in my brain
#some day my aus will escape my brain cavity and I hope desperately when they do that they make someone out there as horridly ill as i am#Ramble#Thinking about... Maybe trying to start a new fic at some point. It feels intimidating to say when I'm struggling with steady tracks#but oh my god. i need these ideas to exist in a form that isnt only in my brain. i *cannot* have a four hour conversation with every person#that exists in the submas au fandom. that's literally not possible to do or achieve. but damn it would make things so much easier for me#As always I am bouncing between One Move and Coupled (Uncoupled)#Which are HUGE long-term titans in my brain fic-wise. I think Coulpled (Uncoupled) is the closest to being real just because it was made#specifically TO EXIST in fic form. One move Also was- but it also primarily exists as an animatic in my head. the plot structure is vague#Spirit keeper would be GREAT; but that one exists in my head as a comic + series of animations so it's harder to translate into another for#Same with Mecha AU. That one almost exclusively exists as animations in my head and don't know if I could write it correctly. It's supposed#to be a pokemon movie. i dunno what to tell you. I need that shit to be a feature length film to do it justice#I have so many more aus that are dear to my heart. fuck man why does my brain have to have so much love and storytelling in it.#tag ramble#AUs#Submas
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okay well back to my homework i guess. christ almighty
#im fighting for my life in photoshop rn. not unlike the panthers fighting for their lives in alberta tonight#<- hate this goddamn assignment so much btw. i am so nearly done but photoshop is killing me dead#its not even hard work its just a stupid assignment#‘make a poster but two two pages worth of text on there’ okay and how do i do that without making it ugly and also just looking like a pdf#like if you want me to write THAT much why bother with a poster let me write an essay in peace#these people have no idea how graphic design works. but i digress#tryingggg to finish this assignment tonight because its easier than my law work and i want to spend all day on that tomorrow#also this is a social justice class. liberal school and all. but like not a creative course#man i just wanna go back to reading that fic i was reading earlier why am i suffering
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