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fionnaskyborn · 15 hours ago

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People like this have made me terrified that I am mischaracterizing my favorite character by playing into his strengths and emphasizing them so much... That I'm making things "too anime", "too over-the-top", and by doing that straying away from the groundedness that made the character compelling in the first place... But I think it's better to be a fan who loves someone so much they're willing to step into goofy over-the-top showcases of strength and morals out of love than being a fake fan who only ever rags on what they proclaim is so dear to them. I dunno. I don't think I'm wrong in saying that. I'm hella insecure when it comes to my own writing, especially with this guy because I want to do him as much justice as I possibly can as a writer. But I have to convince myself that it's not too much.

#logs #it doesn't help that i've been exposed to a lot of bad writing and cynical critique in general‚ so i'm even more fearful...#but i think the cure for that is to just... read more‚ and read with an honest heart #i don't know... i feel like i have a lot of growth to do as a person‚ as a reader and writer before i can execute this to the level where it #can truly be considered a masterpiece. grounded‚ yet not so. over-the-top in every way while also providing meaningful critique and #commentary on the nature of humanity. gutwrenching dialogue packed neatly with the most insane displays of asskicking. commentary on how war #is cruel and bad and only sows misery contrasted with the coolest battle scenes you have ever seen. these are the essence of the things i #love‚ and i want to be able to channel that through my own writing as well. it's the only way to do justice to the source material‚ the only #way to truly pay a tribute to the things that i love.#now that i am free‚ i can finally become more cultured... read more books‚ watch more films‚ inhale old mecha anime... it's what i've always #dreamed of doing #i just need to undo the mental shackles of ''i cannot do this right now''... i can. i finally can. i just need to let my mind catch up to #that. give it a little push along the way #once that's done... the journey begins.#i anguish a lot over the fact that my writing is locked in a tomb for the next decade... but sometimes‚ like now‚ i think‚ hey‚ maybe that #isn't so bad. imagine how many movies you can watch in those ten years... good movies‚ bad ones‚ exceptional ones... i'll have grown so much #as a writer by that point in time because i'll have learned the ''how'' part of what i want to write. i have the ''what'' already‚ and a #general idea of ''how''‚ but... ten years from now‚ i'll be able to write everything in a way that truly makes my eyes shine #a rare moment of me being hopeful for the future... i cherish it as those don't last very long in my life. i more often tend to despair #(cursed be the chemical disbalance!)#but yeah. there is a lot to look forward to despite the hardships. sure it would've been nice to just... have it all here‚ but... that's not #the world i live in. and maybe this one isn't so bad‚ either.#i have my box of scraps. now i just need to make it out of the cave.#the deadliest type of man is one with motivation and a purpose. right?

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