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Your tags on that gifset hit home a bit for me, I think.. something I've found very difficult this season is seeing sort of a lack of compassion from some people in this fandom toward Carlos' tendency to avoid difficult situations and conversations. I understand that things are dialed up for dramatic purposes, but as someone who can relate to that tendency and also struggles with it, it's been upsetting to reckon with the idea that TK showing him kindness, grace, and compassion is too much, or that he shouldn't be. I understand people being upset by his actions and I don't want to invalidate those feelings, but I'm left wondering if the wishes for TK to have been harsher are a reflection of how these people treat individuals in their real lives who struggle with this as Carlos does. Again, I don't want to dismiss anyone's feelings, this season has definitely been polarizing, I just wish people would be more careful with the words they use.
I have a lot of compassion for anyone not enjoying his story this season because I don't think anyone wants to feel that way. I think there are people who have loved Carlos and were excited for this season and feel really let down by how he's been written this year and that's not a place anyone would be by choice. It's just how they feel, and that's gotta be really awful.
Idk. The writing has been somewhat sloppy with some of this, I don't deny that. But at the same time, Carlos is a person who spent his whole life until he was 26 years old feeling like he couldn't be fully honest about basically anything. Feeling like he wasn't safe to tell people his truths. That's not a thing you can just shake off or something that magically goes away the day someone falls in love with you. That's a lifetime of trauma and learned behavior. Of course he should have been more honest with TK but that's not a simple thing, for a person who's spent their whole life being guarded as a necessary defense mechanism. It's not an excuse, but it's a valid reason, and a little bit of grace is not unreasonable. Especially from someone who loves him. Sometimes it feels like the internet at large likes to talk a big talk about how supportive they are about mental illness right up until the point that someone starts displaying symptoms of mental illness, and then it's too far or they're problematic or they should've gone to therapy and fixed themselves or they're using it as an excuse or they're causing harm by daring to not be perfect. And Carlos isn't real. You can't hurt his feelings by not offering him any compassion. But other people are real, and they see those harsh and uncompassionate reactions, and that's where feelings get hurt.
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Made some requests on insta to practice a new artstyle
#very proud of myself because each doodle was very slow to render the details#and I did more than I planned lol#jiiniixart#sketch#sonic the hedgehog#klonoa#rouge the bat#silver the hedgehog#tikal the echidna#knuckles the echidna#I'm tired
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bored
#milgram#milgram fanart#mikoto kayano#shidou kirisaki#kazui mukuhara#yuno kashiki#why did they give mikoto a skateboard tho#kazui look slike kafka from kaiju no 8#in a way. i think#maybe that's why i don't actually mind his fit as much#i'm glad they didn't make kazui super skinny#i like it when he actually got some meat on his bones#i wish it was a little more tho#i always cry when i remember kazui is skinnier than i thought he was... his t1 sprite is so deceiving#i love yuno's and amane's a lot#shidou makes me sad tho there's nothing interesting about it sigh#ig the jacket is kinda cool cuz it's a coat instead of a cape or whatever and the collar is nice#but c'mon they even reused his first aid kit#at the very least i'm glad we got some milgram content tho#anything to quench my thirst#poking straws in their heads and sipping on them like caprisuns#nyways shidou using kazui's weird screen thing to watch cat vids because he is a lsoer and they're both losers#i'm so tired GYOD#uhmrgmrmmrm yeah idk what else to say lol#have a wonderful day or night if you're reading this#chibi's art/rkgk
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quick traditional piece for fun ^^
#I dont work traditionally very often because it hurts my hands quite a bit#if it's something that only takes me an hour or so then I can do it#but if we're getting into 2-3+ hour territory...#can't do it :(#theoretically I could pause and come back but when you're mixing colors and stuff that ends up being pretty dang rough#buuuut I'm trying to do more non-computer stuff lately...#so I'll probably do some little things here or there#been sooo tired lately lol sorry#I've been working and dont have much to share unfortunately!#I cant really share MOST of the panels I've been doing#the nature of what I'm writing like... 90% of what I'm drawing right now is legitimately spoilers...#so I can't even share wips!!!#I do have something I'm hoping to get posted soon but I've gotta wait on some other people for it...#anyways#we were legion#zagan#traditional art#art#my art#my ocs#demon#underwater#man why do I tag that other stuff I doubt anyone is going to my blog an searching that
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Something I find fascinating about Wandee Goodday is that no one has kissed yet (I know Ye and Cher have kissed but...) Like not a full on make out session despite having an established couple in the show that they could be using to show us kisses. But we get no kiss sex scenes from Yak and Dee and soft, somewhat chaste scenes from Ye and Cher. We all know both couples are fucking. But the lack of kisses where normally the show would have one couple more active in that department tells me how important kissing is to this story.
Dee has stated that it's silly but he doesn't want to kiss unless he loves that person and is serious with them. But the entire show is respecting the no kiss rule which tells me that it's not silly. The entire show is respecting Dee's boundary here. And yes, Yak and Dee have come so close to kissing so many times, but they haven't. Dee has always pushed him away and Yak has always respected it when he does.
It makes me wonder what's going to happen once the main couple does eventually lock lips. Will that open the floodgates? Will the audience get to see both couples kissing then? Or will it continue to withhold that specific moment of intimacy. There's something the show is saying about the expected parts of intimacy being taken for granted and also deserving of privacy and that's up to the people in the relationship.
Kissing can be an act of love and desire, but what the show is saying is that it is not a requirement for those things. I can be completely talking out of my ass here, but something about this is really sitting with me. Not only do we get Plakao as ace representation, someone who wants a partner to cherish and be cherished without sexual expectations, but we also get the show reinforcing the ideas that love comes in all forms with so many different acts and different people are comfortable with different things. And all of that is okay. And all of those boundaries are worthy of being respected. Regardless of societies expectations for what it means to be in a relationship and be physical, whatever is right for you is right and isn't that just beautiful?
#wandee goodday#wandee goodday the series#wandee goodday series#i've been thinking about this since last week#but then we got those scenes with ye and cher this week#which is a whole other discussion that i'm sure it will take me a whole other week to really process lol#but there's something about ye being tired and cher being insecure but obviously the love is still there#idk but i will be so entirely shocked if gmmtv tries to convince me that ye who is head over heels for cher#would even entertain the notion of cheating#when he's probably just stressed about his brother and his gym and their finances and that's affecting how physical he is#when he's clearly normally very touchy and cher likes that despite his protests#so when that stops and cher doesn't understand why i can see how that can cause some pause#but those two displayed good communication this episode despite cher following ye#cher was comfortable enough to tell ye he was upset and what he thought was going on#but if this show tries to convince me that they actually have issues because ye is cheating then i will simply refuse to believe it
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HELP! I've fallen down a Bering and Wells hole again and can't stop watching fanvids. I misssssss them!!! 😢
#I'm also thinking about a platonic Pete & Myka soulmate AU and all the bickering that would come with it#Like Pete trying to feel out what the rules are for him dating someone if she and him are soulmates#and Myka's like 'I literally never want to talk about who you have sex with ever'#“But-” / “NOPE! Just do whatever you want Pete!”#And then later as joke (but delivered completely seriously) she says she wants full approval of any serious relationship he has#And she'll be the one planning the proposal for him#(No no no! That's not happening.)#Actually! She might just play matchmaker for him too because she's not sure she can trust his judgement#... or his ability to make a good first impression.#“You wanted my input remember?” / “Not like that!”#And then even LATER when she meets Amanda for the first time she's like 'Wow that's your ex-wife? Man you really fucked up there."#“Yeah thanks for that Myka. That's very helpful.”#“No chance of winning her back?”#“Winning back my ex-wife who's about to be remarried? No I think that ship has sailed.”#“Yeah.... My ex girlfriend is a hologram now so at least this is a step up from that.”#“I never agreed to HG being your girlfriend.”#“.... Yeah but I wanted to.”#“.... Okay this is getting way too gloomy for a wedding day. We need to stuff ourselves with cake.”#Warehouse 13#Myka Bering#Pete Lattimer#Helena Wells#Bering and Wells#my fic#(I guess accidentally in the tags lol)#(idk I'm tired man. My head is all over the place today :P)
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Edwin Payne • Haunted House
#I will reblog this with the full analysis of why I picked each clip for the video because I have Thoughts#but not now#now I'm fucking tired#I finished this two days ago and only just got the energy to post it#First time I actually finished a fanvid lol#I cannot tell whether to be very proud of this or very critical#I'm proud#dead boy detectives#edwin payne#charles rowland#crystal palace#niko sasaki#payneland#kinda#florence and the machine#dbda fanvid
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Oh yeah, and since everyone's posting, here's the Inquisitor too! :3
My girl is back. 🥹🥹🥹 Oh, how I've missed you. 💜
#not me almost crying in the cc because of the music#I'm actually very surprised how well she turned out lol#she's gotten older and looks so tired..#you and me both my dear <3#datv spoilers#gauche goes veilguarding
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did pete just give out patrick's number to every journalist he could?
#posting this after seeing another solo patrick zoom interview today lol#different from the one 2 days ago#tbh i'm assuming it's because pete is busy with all other business aspects of the band and interviews aren't really andy's thing#so patrick is doing all the interviews#even though he knows nothing lol#he also looks very tired pls take a break patrick
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bad kids family tree (blurry edition, because tumblr destroyed the quality)
#dimension 20#fantasy high#fantasy high sophomore year#the bad kids#my favorite group of pseudo-step siblings#tracker is just listed as adopted because i didn't want to add yet another color lol#this took...several hours#and is not very good#i would have loved for the images to be uniform#but i'm tired :)
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they finally fired the person we've been having issues with the last year and she's sending everyone very long very mean angry texts about her time here, except me. she sent me one sentence saying she enjoyed working with me and wishing me luck with motherhood. and I'm forced to confront the possibility that maybe, deep down, despite everything, i am actually a nice person (?)
#everyone online will be like what are you talking about mod of course you're nice#but you guys don't know how i used to be at work. back when i was sooooo unhappy#I've had my mean periods#maybe it's cuz I'm 31 now maybe I'm too tired and content for mean#m2a#I'm posting as a sort of vent because i feel very complicated about this LOL#on the one hand i really didn't like her. i complained about her.#on the other hand.... if the me i presented to her left her feeling good.... does that matter? does action outweigh thought?#I'm too pregnant to consider this moral dilemma
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#'im acc british!! (sorry)'#no see that's embarrassing because. I am also British. And listening to it back again it's very obvious to me that you are british also#before you ask how I missed my own brand of accent: I have absolutely no idea#I presume it's because I was tired as hell and emotionally compromised (I think I had just finished Baldur's Gate 3)#(very good game btw)#also sorry @ anyone else who submitted stuff - your submissions are in the queue!#I'm just bumping this one up because the queue is LONG rn and I don't want to continue a conversation a month later#lol#reaction image#reaction meme#daily reaction images#image mood: frick the frack off#submission
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respectfully the reason people mischaracterize aventurine in the specific way you mentioned in the tags of "canonically not caring about wealth or power" at least is a lot more simple than you'd think; because the devs said otherwise. in the livestream where acheron and aventurine were revealed (so right before we actually got that tb quest where we learned everything) the ceo and the writer outright state that he seems to have an obsession with amassing wealth.
now obviously we can now look back on this with hindsight, they said a lot of things in there that make more sense with context (example; mentioning that his original kit being focused around dodging left him the only party member alive was scrapped even though they joked about it being fitting might have made him look like a jackass, but now recontextualized as being about his luck only saving him) but i would argue that when the writer of the story and the ceo of the company look into the camera while revealing behind the scenes details and say he has an obsession with wealth (even if there are now multiple interpretations of that, from thinking he intentionally plays into that facade to thinking that's how he coped after losing his reason for going on) and that is the first impression a lot of people had of his real character if they didn't follow leaks, it's kind of no wonder that it's so common of an interpretation.
Yeah, I think I take this with a strong does of skepticism though, because:
A) Everyone knows the devs lie in previews in order to keep secrets about characters, and, as you note, what they say about characters tends to be wildly out of context. We all remember those comments about Gallagher not being plot relevant at all lol. Should we still believe that just because it was said by the devs once?
B) At this point, why would you be engaging in the fandom for a character if you skipped or put off doing any of his content in the actual game? Playing through 2.0 alone, let alone 2.1, would reveal to anyone paying attention that Aventurine is a very duplicitous character who puts on a specific persona as a mask to hide the fact that he thinks of himself very differently on the inside.
I feel like we can use the "the devs said this" as an excuse for a little while, but once the character's content has been out for months and provides a completely different picture of the character, if you're not willing to update your "first impression" of the character to an more accurate portrayal of them based on what's actually in the game... then like... why be in that character's fandom at all?
That's just my opinion anyway. This might not be the nicest thing for me to say, but I do feel like if people refuse to move on from an impression they formed of the character before the character was even released... then what they've created is an OC, not a portrayal of the actual canon character anymore.
#honkai star rail#aventurine#this is just my personal take#and people really are free to headcanon whatever they like#I'm not even in the kind of person who thinks headcanons must not contradict canon#but at the same time#I am very tired of people who insist their interpretation of the character is canon#while using none of the story's actual canon traits for that character#lol#when the game gives you new information#you can't ignore it just because it doesn't match with your initial impression of the character#also definitely not saying OP thinks like that btw!!#I know we're talking hypothetical fans here#but oof#people take stuff from previews way too seriously#when we know for a fact that it's 90% lies lololol
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my princess nonsense is being encouraged watch ouyt imabout to be eneaabled
OK WHATF ATHAT'S SO CUTE I HAD TO MAKE IT i know realistically there's little to no chance that rei DOESN'T know how to work heels 🤣 BUT IMAGINE.....ING.... YAKUMO GENTLY GUIDING REI IN HEELS, WEEKS BEFORE THE BIG GALA AND HAVING NONE OF HIS NORMAL FEAR OF PHYSICAL TOUCH BC HIS [TEACHER MODE] IS OVERRIDING HIS INSECURITY
#rei looking directly at the camera like why are you subjecting me to this. i do not need any of this. i know how to do it#rei wearing stilettos the size of your head so he becomes ur very tall bird goth gf#you know how yakumo gets when he instructs someone on how to cook something#he becomes confident and just tells ppl how to do stuff without his usual amount of stutter and secondguessing#i'm gonna pretend that after his stiletto training in misty vale he gains a TINY MOLECULE of confidence due to experience#like [i can help you if you've never done it before?]#honestly i can't imagine this scenario happening because i am so SURE that rei can walk in heels HAHAHA even tho nothing has proven that#SOMETHING COME PROVE ME WRONG SO MY DELUSIONS CAN SLIDE CLOSER TO POSSIBILITY#anyway even if rei didn't know how to wear heels#would he ever mention it? would yakumo ever learn of it?#rei would probably be all . i don't need to wear heels. they can't even see them under the dress. i'll wear my practical shoes#but if he can't get away with that and will be forced to wear heels at the party...#maybe he'll go [meh. i'll figure it out] and just not wear them until the day of the dance#at which point his feet will hurt after 20 minutes and for the whole night he takes any chance to sit down#rei can be frequently spotted on SOME surface SOMEWHERE in the palace. sitting all splayed out and uncaring of propriety#because he is in PAIN and these shoes are STUPID and why do people wear them for ANYTHING . Royals are so IMPRACTICAL#yakumo keeps trying to avoid heels for the dance because he doesn't want to be any taller than he already is#i bet there's a full convo about it between him and eiden#eiden trying to reassure him that if he wants to wear heels then he shouldn't let others' perception stop him from doing so#but if he genuinely doesn't want to wear them then that's ok too#eiden craning his neck up at yakumo in heels like you're my pretty princess 1-2 heads taller than me your height doesn't matter 🥰#i'm now torn. yakumo and rei both wearing heels now? in order to stay at similar heights?#or. rei starting out with heels. getting tired of them. going barefoot for the rest of the night lol#yakumo and rei still dancing in their ballgowns together but a much shorter rei leads a yakumo in heels#yes. yes this is the vision#yakurei#replies#nu carnival yakumo#nu carnival rei
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fandom will see the most interesting deep and nuanced character and reduce their entire plot and portrayal to "slutty sexy slut needs to get railed" and it's honestly so tiring
#tiring is too mild of a word... it's SO FUCKING EXHAUSTING#dfgkjdfg#you can write fanfic you can draw fanart you can have conversations about sex and characters but BY GOD there's more to media and to life#i'm so sick of allos#angel talks#personal#yes this is about ofmd but it's also about everything esle because you can't escape them lol#anyways i am having a blast enjoying fandoms by myself lately which is very very good :')
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did I finally manage to write a brand new fic? I sure did!! with many, many thanks to the lovely @eeblouissant for inspiring me with these beautiful drawings of Blanche dipping Dorothy (and the incredibly sweet follow-up with Rose playing the piano, after our chat about this scene!!) I hope I managed to do it justice ;)
Summary
When Dorothy mentions she’s never been dipped before, Blanche and Rose decide to take matters in their own hands.
#i've been a liiiittle too tired lately to be able to really edit something#so this is honestly a bit of a gamble lol but i think it's finally fine enough to post!!#trust me to turn an action-heavy scene into an introspective character study lmao i know how to write One Type of thing only#anyway rose is very observant in here & i have my reasons for that!! first off she's the narrator and obviously narrators have to observe#but!! i've got more reasons. she seems pretty aloof a LOT of the time in the show. but then she's also a grief counsellor#+ she's occasionally very insightful!#so i figured i'd combine those facts with my autistic rose headcanon:#she's able to be observant in these scenes because she's not directly involved in the social interaction there?#like she's witnessing from the sidelines#& idk about other autistic people but I feel like I tend to see a LOT more when i'm not directly involved in the social situation#there's less pressure when you're an outsider & that leaves more room to actually think & observe??#because you're not also occupied with being social + making eye contact + thinking of what to say/how to react etc etc#anyway i really hope that sort of made sense oof. I really went off in these tags sjdfk#the golden girls#rose nylund#blanche devereaux#dorothy zbornak#golden wives
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