#bc thats all i could do and she said it was fine. she was glad to help me start healing.

[ozlices]

i genuinely sincerely cant believe i was called a manipulative person with a victim complex by a person who acted like my savior for "rescuing" me from that house, only to have zero remorse abt kicking me back into it. esp throwing it on me a singular month after i endured even more trauma in that house. like. bruh i literally have zero idea how to even begin to process this.

[asteroidzzzn]

more than just a dream - spark, 004

pairing: college!ellie x reader

synopsis: you transfer to a new school where you only know one person; your childhood best friend. he invited you to a beginning of the year party to meet some new people, but one person, in particular, catches your eye... his other best friend.

a/n: dina bonding time!

genre: social media au, fluff

series masterlist -- previous chapter -- next chapter

bria 🧚

hey!

dina 💋

hi whats up? :)

bria 🧚

im bored and everyone else went out but i dont feel like drinking rn..

can i come over?

i know the two of us arent super close but this could be our chance to bond outside the group 🤞🤞

dina 💋

omg ofc!! i was feeling the same i just wanted to chill and stay in today 😭 but ya come over whenever

bria 🧚 ❤️ a message

we can watch mission impossible if ur into that!

only if u bring snacks...

bria 🧚

U HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH IVE BEEN WANTING TO SEE THATTTT OK im omw now ill put the best i have in a bag 🙏 cya!!

dina 💋 ❤️ a message

bria 🧚

hey dina, sorry i had to leave right away

i have to study for the first unit test later today

wish i didn't, this is so boring

how are u?

dina 💋

im fine

good

im good im great actually

but i really think we should talk about it

what happened last night

bria 🧚

later, ok?

sorry

i need to go right now stepping into class

dina 💋

oh ok, bye :)

dina woodward

hi y/n im literally going insane r u free to talk

y/n

omfg 😭 whats going on

dina woodward

you'll never believe what happened last night

y/n

ughhh i wish i was there! sorry i wanted to stay in to get some sleep, i have a test next period

dina woodward

oh no worries i actually stayed in too so this isnt ab the outing

do u know who bria volentas is?

y/n

yeah i do!

shes really nice ill sit next to her in history in a few minutes actually

dina woodward

oh 😭😭😭 i wanted to talk to u ab this bc i thought u were the only one in the group that didnt really know her

can u keep a secret? just need to get this off my chest

y/n

u can trust me :)

dina woodward

sooo... ive had a crush on her since the dawn of time

y/n !! a message

and we hung out last night alone!!

y/n

!!AWEEE yall will be so cute together i can see it now

dina woodward ❤️ a message

also im so glad u said that bc i wasnt ab to be the one to com eout first 😭😭

dina woodward !! a message

dina woodward

YOUW AHT?!?!?!?!?!?

i didnt wanna assume but i secretly knew.........

y/n haha a message

y/n

🤝🤝🤝

OKOK GET ON W UR STORY

dina woodward

we were watching mission impossible bc ellie ditched me (i wont forget) and she goes 'im cold' so bc shes the actual loml i let her under my blanket

y/n

awwww

dina woodward

then our feet kinda touched then our hands kinda touched and we were getting rlly close... then we fucked

y/n

AHH????

that went from 0 to 100 sO FAST

dina woodward

I KNOW LIKE IMS TILL SO IN SHOCK RN

y/n

SO YGS ARENT TOGETHER YET THO?? HAVE U TALKED AB IT ALL??? FYB? ONE TIME THING?

dina woodward

IDKK I HAVE NO IDEA

this is the average wlw experience i say while dry heaving and crawling onto the roof and howling

y/n ❤️ a message

y/n

LMFAOOO it literally is tho we have it so difficult

dina woodward

HELPPP ME AND BRIA ARE IN CHAT RN BUT WE'RE NOT SAYING ANYTHING

SPEAK UP WOMANNN FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

i said i wanted to talk ab last night and she was so avoidant so she BETTER say something rn

y/n

yall rn

lurking in chat.....

dina woodward

😭😭😭

i need to be distracted rn

eye starts twitching

tell me smth thats going on w u

y/n

ok u trusted me w ur crush so i can trust u w mine right..

dina woodward

ofc ofc

y/n

so u know her actually like really well from what i know

BLEEEH I HATE TELLING PPL I LIKE THEIR FRIENDS

is ellie williams gay..

dina woodward

take a look at her what do u think

yes she is gay! AND U LEIWFAGJEDFANJ YOU LIKE HER??

y/n ❤️ a message

y/n

angels harmonize and descend from heaven

BLESSS 🙏🙏

yes i like her... i think. its been hard to like anyone since my last relationship but im feeling rlly hopeful about us

im heavily delusional tho she was prob just being friendly when we hung out

dina woodward

she recently broke up w her ex too, and shes been kinda staying away from relationships :(

ur amazing tho youd be so good for her

if she acts like a bitch to u ONCE run

y/n

damn jesse warned me ab her too 😭 what happened with her and her ex? if u know or if ur ok with telling me

i know its not really my business

i just wanna know what lines i cant cross

dina woodward ❤️ a message

dina woodward

yeah i totally get it

i actually dont know all the details

i think she only told jesse bc theyre way closer than me and her

if u want to know everything, id ask him or get it from ellie herself

just get closer with her and she'll tell u everything, and u can decide what to do from there

y/n

ok , thats a good idea

ill just use my amazing charm and incredible beauty to captivate her in chemistry

dina woodward ❤️ a message

dina woodward

HEHEHEHE

speaking of,, she sucks at chemistry. u could get closer to her by tutoring her if youd be up for that?? shed appreciate it sooo much

y/n

#1 wingman award is presented toooooo dina woodward!

dina woodward ❤️ a message

ill def talk to her ab that ill be like heyyy u need help 💋

shit gtg now, test time!

dina woodward

good luck!! with the test and ellie🙏

y/n ❤️ a message

a/n: a lot longer than the last chapter!! but i had a lot to say in this one :D love in the future for my girl dina!!! love to see it

hope u enjoyed as always (✿◠‿◠)

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[starsofang]

You and your cliffhangers. I cant. I feel like it’s an adrenaline rush for you to just hate us and see us scream over them. This is why hatred it developing angie😒😒😒😁

OKAY, FIRST HELLO. I know i’ve said it like three times now, but I’m glad you’re safe from the storm. Florida is getting one after the other so just incase another comes, stay safe😭 You putting out a chapter as soon as you got back was completely unexpected and I blame my phone for not getting me a notification.

No Ghost this chapter :( I feel like if he knew what Dove was seeing he’d be beyond angry. At himself, at Graves. I can even see him being a bit annoyed at the others. Maybe for bringing her onto the ship? I dont know😭 My notes doc is getting longer and longer as the days pass on.

Gaz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY BABY😭🙏😭🙏 I feel so bad and I’m blaming you for it. HOW DARE YOY LEAVE HIM HANGING. IM LITERALLY NEVER FORGIVING YOU. He just wants to know what the fuck is happening between them and dove is just: :/ and she’s beyond confused about everything. Unreliable narrator #1

I still, of course, love your characterization of Soap. I think I’ve said it before, probably the first few chapters. He’s beyondddd smart if a little dense. “I’m glad Ghost has some like you.” and his face is just like: 😄🤨😄 So. Smart might be too nice of a word.

And of course, how could I forget John fucking Price. It’s the daddy issues probably but he’s just so jejehsoskdiosbeid. “What the fuck is she doing.” Imagining him growling that out in concern and anger is doing things to me. But I have to agree with the other ask! I dont know who said it but I loveeeeeeeeeee your dialogue. It can be really hard to convey emotions through writing but somehow you’re able to do it.

Also, John saying he’d prefer if she stayed with him… I see you. He can’t hide from me.

Other ask had the dresses right. Like almost exactly how I pictured it but this one is also right. I think it’s be a bit more grey to be honest, and the sleeves might be longer. But it’s like a classy but modest dress.

I feel like they’d go feral. They ARE pirates to be fair, and pirates definitely aren’t known to not be brutes. Though, they might have a bit more decorum. Barely. But still..

ANY WAYS this was a very long ask and to keep myself from annoying you and being demoted from your favorite reader (don’t you dare tell me i’m wrong) i’m going to end this here :) As always, I love you and you’re writing. MWAH 😙

u don’t hate me, i know you’d miss me if i was still gone from the hurricane 🥱

ghost will be in it next, it was hard to fit him in bc hes going thru it rn 😔 now that graves bitch ass is back ghost will definitely be more present and oooo i can’t wait to see it

im #1 gaz lover but making him suffer a little bit rn is giving me adrenaline and i cant stop doing it, its lowkey like a drug and im getting my fix. he wants to kiss us sooooo bad haha smash.

soap can do no wrong i fear, he’s kind of like my dog in this fic or like a pet bc hes just kind of there being silly while also having his moments of redemption and idk i just love him so much i cant help it. also add me imagining him in wet clothes and a wet mullet in that one scene near the end and I was suddenly the dog

john can also do no wrong idc how many haters he has, i will die on that hill. how can u see his banter and his way of teasing and not think he’s fine. r u serious. ALSO THE GROWL MY GOOOOD I WAS TWEAKING WHEN I WROTE IT CUZ ITS ALL I COULD SEE IN MY HEAD AND I GENUINELY STARTING TO TWITCH

that dress is a yes 😫 i’m not up in here imagining glamor, hello this is 1800s pirates and lowkey we’re a lil dirty and stinky, IN MY MIND I WANT MODEST BORING DRESSES BC READER IS NOT A MODEL she’s literally a prisoner (ex ig) on a ship and things get nasty, plus the practicality??? on a ship??? I AGREE but like i said im a black dress girly thru and thru because thats all i wear

I LOVE YOU MWAH

[my-castles-crumbling]

hi cas!! im back with an update about me, M, and F!

okay so, i told M how i feel about F and she was... sort of okay? like she said she was fine, had picked up on it, and had decided she wasnt going to try anything anyway because she wanted to work on herself before going for a relationship with anyone, so thats good (honestly im more just glad shes planning to work on their mental health etc because she deserves to feel good about herself and i could tell recently theyve not been feeling great)

as for F and i, we're... something? idk, we had a sort of movie "date" and after she walked me to my flat (we live literally like a minute from each other bc we're both living on university campus) we did kiss but then weve just... not acknowledged it since? we flirt a bit still (we did this before bc neither of us were brave enough to do anything more ahaha) but thats it

to add to whatever that is, ive hit a roadblock in regards to my feelings. idk how much you know about abrosexuality, but thats how i identify, which means (for me, at least) that my sexuality changes (im also genderfluid so i usually describe it like that but with sexuality instead of gender). and right now im not really romantically attracted to women? maybe not anyone, its bloody impossible to tell most of them time, but as much as i know that i like her, its kinda turned to really strong platonic feelings?

this is the first time ive had any sort of romantic interaction with anyone since finding the abrosexual label, so i dont really know how to navigate this, especially because even though i have come out to this friend group as abro, i dont really know if she properly understands what that means. honestly, im nearly at the point where i might just send her a fic i wrote with abrosexual!sirius even though that would expose my ao3 ahaha

i dont want to make her feel like i dont like her anymore because i do, just not in the same way all the time, if that makes sense? it also really doesnt help that idk what we are, so its not like i could just rock up and be like "hey, so i know we might be dating or may date in the near future but i actually only like you as a friend right now, sorry!" because what if it actually wasnt a date?? we never defined it as one but it felt a lot like one

on another, separate note (my apologies, but life is hard and navigating it is even harder) im feeling really shit about my name at the moment, but i have no solution. when i went to uni, i started going by my chosen name (for online's sake, we'll say im using dorian which is what i go by here, though i use a different one irl) and it felt really great to use something i was more comfortable with

but recently i went back to a show i watched years ago because it came up on my recommended and i was bored, and since i stopped watching, one of the characters changes his name. hes not trans, but his storyline sort of- triggered something in my brain? idk how to describe it, but ever since then my chosen name just hasnt felt right

ive tried looking at other names and ive really thought about it a lot but now absolutely *nothing* feels right and its making me feel really dysphoric any time anyone speaks to me using any name (like, my chosen name now feels as shit as my deadname) and i know you cant just pick a name for me but do you have any advice about what i can do? i feel like ive looked at a thousand or more names and nothing feels right

sending love as always! <3

Ooo okay so for the first situation, could you bring up your sexuality to F in a hypothetical way. Like "hey I'm figuring out my sexuality and I need someone to talk to"? That way you're not saying how you feel about HER, and neither of you has to deal with rejection, but the point gets across.

As far as your name, do you have a supportive friend that might be willing to try a few names with you? Like actually refer to you by those names, to see how you feel when they're used for you? Maybe it's that you have to hear the names used to see how you feel, you know?

[wetfeline]

i don't know what to do without you, (i miss you more than anything) | BAKUGO KATSUKI X READER

tags: angst, being dead, this is written in bkgs pov ?? or smth like that, not proofread, cursing at a higher being (implied that its god ) & thats its i think, lol. lmk if i missed something

a/n: happy new year everyone! first post in 2023 lol, to be fair i'm not that active in posting lolol i just scroll through the x reader tags bcs i love those more than anything & tumblr is the perfect place 4 that anyways, ye :)

BAKUGO KATSUKI knew it was a risk.

Dating you; a civilian with no experience in the hero field whatsoever. He knew damn well he would put you in danger because unfortunately he had alot of villains chasing him and they would do anything just to see his facade crack.

If they find just a single glimpse of you - Katsuki knew those insane bastards would do anything to get their filthy hands on you.

But despite all that, he still dated you, married you, and you gave him a child.

After hearing that you were pregnant his heart dropped in his stomach. This was a huge risk, not only could he put you in danger but also the baby. But he was willing to accept that danger. He would be lying if he said he didn't know why but he does, oh, he knows damn well.

He wanted to be selfish just once. He still wants to see you by his side everyday, he still wants to wipe the crumbles by the side of your mouth.

And Katsuki wants to see his child grow up with you by his side.

He wanted to come home with you cooking food while his brat's making a mess in the living room. He could already imagine it, a certain fondness erupting inside his chest. Back then he would say it was silly and he had no time for love but he was so fucking wrong and Katsuki is glad he was wrong.

But love is truly the most twisted curse of all.

"I'm sorry, Mr. Bakugou, but your wife has died in labor."

As soon as those words were spoken, everything suddenly became numb. He could no longer feel himself standing on the ground, he could no longer smell the omnipresent smell of antiseptic, no longer hearing the distant cries of babies crying.

But Katsuki could feel his heart breaking.

"W-Wha," he clenched his shaking fist, only to fail - his strength suddenly faded and all he wants is to lie down and close his eyes, and suddenly, he was lying in bed with you in it. Maybe this was all a dream. "You're, you- you're lying."

"Unfortunately—"

"The baby!" Katsuki screamed, his voice cracking midway. "Don't tell me she also- oh, no.. nonono-"

"Calm down, Mr. Bakugo."

He did not calm down. Instead his eyes widened like he was feral, teeth grinding against eachother as he grabbed the man by his collar.

"How the fuck do you expect me to calm down?! Where is my baby?!" Angry red eyes stared down into blue fearful ones. "Is she.. is.."

The words died down on his tongue.

"Doctor!"

A nurse came rushing in and pulled the doctor away, glaring at the aggressive pro hero as she stood infront of him protectively.

"Pro hero, Dynamite. If you don't calm down, I will ask you to leave."

"Aoki-san, it's fine." The doctor cleared his throat, "The man just lost his wife. He was just aggressive about asking where his child is."

"I.. I see."

"Please," the said man begged, "Where is Uzumi?"

"She's currently in the nursery room, she's fine. Chubby and healthy, no complications actually." Katsuki felt relieved that the baby was okay, though he gave a shaky breath and nodded to the doctor to continue. "About your wife.. she's currently in the hospital bed she gave birth on, but we're currently planning on moving her to the hospital mortuary, and she will be laid there until further discussions about funeral directors."

"She's.. actually." He paused, the words tasting bitter on his tongue. "Dead."

Whoever is up there, fuck you.

"Yes."

Katsuki stared at your lifeless body.

Click. The door behind him closed, indicating that the doctor has left to give him a moment of privacy.

What is he gonna do without you? Who would take care of him when he has overworked himself? Who is gonna make him a homecooked dinner once he gets home? What happened to the dreams you guys have made?

He doesn't know what to feel.

Maybe this wasn't real. Maybe this was just all a dream, a sick fucking dream and - he touches your freezing hands. A hard pinch on his forearm reminds him that this was all really reality.

Something bubbles up inside him. An emotion Katsuki knows so well, he knows, he is the equivalent of anger and anger is him. It has been living inside of him ever since he was born.

He is mad. Mad at himself, because maybe if he wasn't so selfish, and pushed you away. Sure, it meant that he could no longer be with you but atleast you didn't die on a hospital bed and maybe die of old age with your partner because somehow, Katsuki always manages to bring bad luck with him. (he thinks of a certain blue-eyed hero, weakly standing up with his fist up in the air.)

He is mad. You promised you were both gonna achieve every single one of your dreams together. You were gonna die together. He wanted you to be there every second of his life. But now, those promises are now simply fantasy. Maybe if you hadn't given birth to that child, maybe then you wouldn't be lying here lifeless at 24 years old and maybe Katsuki would be okay.

His red eyes widen.

He wants to throw up.

He leaves your room.

He looks down at the baby.

Her nose looks just like yours. The wrinkles on her face reminds him of you when you scrunch up your nose when you're disgusted by something. Her feet size is Katsuki's thumb. He realizes that, she is tiny. (Or maybe he is just big.)

Suddenly, everything pours. His lips are trembling and his tears falls one by one.

I'm sorry.

"I'm sorry. I'm so.." he sobs, "Papa is so sorry, Uzumi. Even if it was for a moment, he thought that.. that if you'd not been born at all, he would've been atleast happy."

He wants to throw up, he wants to gag. He is an horrible human being. How could he even think that to his own child. His own child that he made with you. His own baby, the one you carried inside with you for nine months.

One tear drop falls onto her hand. He wipes it off with his finger but as he was about to pull back, tiny fingers wraps his own.

He cries even more.

"I'm so sorry, Uzumi, I'm such a bad papa.. I promise you, I'll never think about it again. I'm so fuckin' sorry, I'm sorry, Y/N.."

Katsuki sobs. He feels so damn alone. He wasn't a good father, no way in hell. How could he do this? A child needs a mother, but he couldn't just also get someone right on the street. She needed a motherly figure, a gentle, soft figure. He was the fucking opposite.

Maybe.. Izuku would..

He lets out a choked cry. He wouldn't do that. He knew he would probably be a bad father but he knew how to try. And he had been trying his whole life. He blinks his tears away and looks at the baby, who looks so much like you.

In all his life, Bakugou Katsuki had never felt so lost and small.

He didn't know what to do. But he can try.

Ring.

Ring.

Hello! This is L/N Y/N! Um, I'm sorry that I missed your call, but you can always leave a message! I'll try to respond as soon as I can. Thank you!

Beep.

A soft, shaky sigh.

"Hi, love," a pause. "I missed you."

"I'm taking care of our baby. Not that good at it, but I'm still trying, you know? Taking care of a 4 year old child is really damn difficult."

"Hah," a chuckle, "But it's not really that bad as I thought. Damn brat acts just like me, but looks just like you."

"Just wished that you could see this. Her growing up and all that shit. Imagine the look on my face when her first word was 'dada'."

"Maybe if you were still here, her first word could've been 'mama'."

Sigh.

"No point dwelling over it though. Even after all these years I haven't fuckin' moved on. Pathetic, I know."

"But I'm getting over it. Slowly and surely."

"Find another woman, they say," a rough laugh, "I could never. They aren't you, ya know?"

Silence.

"I don't fucking know Y/N," a sniff, "I still haven't moved on. I miss you so damn much and I wonder how the hell did I manage this long? I wanted to give up, really, but one look at our child and she's worth living for."

"I — "

"Daddy?" a squeaky voice called out, a faint click in the background.

"Zumi? What're you doing up this late?"

"I couldn't sleep. I wanted to sleep beside you - "

"Are you crying daddy?'

A laugh.

"Just some sad movie, darling. Come inside."

"Ok, daddy!"

"I love you, Y/N."

Call ended.

[a-libra-writes]

OH MY GOD REQS ARE OPEN THIS IS A GODDAMN MIRALCE OH MY GOD IM LIKE A SAILOR WHO HASNT BEEN ON LAMDNFOR YEARS AND IS KISSING THE GROUND AHHHHHHHH

anyways nathan’s i request some teenage angsty stannis hcs

-🐚🌌

Hello again seastar~~ <3 Alrighty I decided to do a drabble bc thats what popped into my head. It may not be as angsty as u were thinking but I just couldnt get the scene out of my head.......

She skipped up the stone steps two at a time, justifying to herself that since they were dry this time, it was safer. As soon as she blinked into the daylight, the smell of salt touched her nose and a gentle breeze tugged at her clothes. Shadows crossed the huge stone wall she stepped on - the seagulls, the clouds. She wished some of those clouds would give her some reprieve from this sunlight. The young lady squinted and shielded her eyes with a flat palm, looking for a certain person.

He would be the only person up on the walls of Storm's End, because there was no need for guards here. What would they do, scold the storms and winds away? The Drum did a fine job of keeping itself up.

Quickly, she spotted him, and ran across the washed out stone. It was more of a huge road than a proper wall. She was glad she kept her shoes on. The lady slowed when she came closer to Stannis, who certainly heard her approaching, but stayed hunched over.

This was the last place she went looking. He hadn't been up here in several years. She tried not to glance in the direction of where it happened - that specific collection of sharp rocks that may have looked like any others, but she and Stannis could identify them at once. Those rocks, jutting out from the sea like knives, were often in their dreams, after all.

She pulled her eyes away and sat beside her friend.

"Oh," The lady said. She just noticed Stannis had someone with him. A small someone, in a wooden cage. The little hawk turned its head at her. "You brought him?"

Stannis didn't respond right away. He was looking at the goshawk, not at the sea, or at her. The sound of waves crashing against the Drum and seagulls crying out surrounded them, and she let that not-quite-silence sit for a while. Eventually, she said, "I didn't think you were keeping him."

His blue eyes looked sharply to her, already on the defensive. She added, "I think it's a good thing. That is, I think he's fond of you."

"... Do you think so?" Stannis looked back at the bird. It did seem calm, even if it was contained. It kept turning its head and looking all around, especially at the gulls.

"Of course. You've been feeding him, haven't you? And he doesn't bite you." She held out her hand, where a dull red line was still on her finger.

To her delight, a small smile crossed his serious features. "I told you to not hand feed him."

"You were doing it."

"When he was weak. I don't anymore," Stannis reached his fingers into the wooden cage, and the bird stayed still, content to let its wings be touched. "He's too proud for it."

"What do you mean?"

Stannis removed his hand, and set the wooden cage on the ground. "He wants to eat on his own, now that he can." He opened the little hatch, and carefully set his gloved hand in. The goshawk considered it, then slowly stepped onto the thick leather, digging in his talons.

The lady drew her knees to her chest, watching with awe. "He's so gentle," She said quietly. "His wing is looking well, too."

It was still clearly injured - some feathers were missing and askew, but at least the bird could fold his wing properly and it wasn't hanging at such a pitiful angle. Stannis brought it to his chest, where it continued to stay on his hand, calmly observing the water.

She couldn't be still any longer. "Could I pet him? Touch him, I mean."

Stannis gave her a wary look. "Don't move suddenly."

"I won't," She said, but she still moved too quickly for the goshawk's taste. As she scooted closer to Stannis, up to his shoulder, the bird ruffled its feathers and made a noise of agitation. Stannis put a light touch on his back, and gently stroked him.

The lady tried to mimic that gentle touch, reaching out and softly brushing her fingertips against a brown speckled feather. The bird's eye glowered at her, and again he made that sound of annoyance. It was a warning.

She sighed and pulled her hand away. "See? He's only fond of you."

Stannis was smiling again, though it was muted. He gave a little shrug, and their shoulders bumped each other. While Stannis carefully perched the bird on his hand, she tilted her head and rested it against his shoulder. It had been a long time since they were up on the wall together.

She closed her eyes, enjoying the sounds of the waves and the warmth that pressed against her cheek. The sea breeze picked back up, giving some relief from the sun. She could almost fall asleep like this.

Almost, except the gulls were incessant. She gasped and startled, bumping against Stannis as a gull swooped down beside her head. The goshawk in his hands let out a cry of alarm and flapped its winds. Stannis winced and cursed as its talons dug into his gloved hand, ripping through them, and it leapt from his hand.

Both he and the lady shouted at once, reaching for the little goshawk as it tried to take flight. It only got a foot in the air, flapping wildly in a panic, before sailing down and landing with a little thud on the stone. It was still crying out and flapping when Stannis grabbed its body, getting several harsh pecks and scratches for his troubles. The lady retrieved the wooden cage and opened it, offering it with a frantic "Here!"

With a surprising carefulness, Stannis returned the hawk, even as it squawked and flapped one wing. The bad one only made it to a half flap, and then didn't at all once it was inside.

The latch was closed, and they both let out a breath. Her friend was trembling, she saw - not just his bleeding hands, but his whole body. He watched the bird squawk and bite at the wood in fright, its own body shaking.

"I shouldn't have - this isn't a safe place for him," Stannis said gruffly. "It only upsets him. I shouldn't have."

The lady could have pointed out it was the seagulls that startled the poor thing, especially since they were twice his size, but she didn't. It wasn't just the sad little goshawk that disliked being up here. So she nodded, and took his bare hand. It had several angry wounds crossing his pale skin. "I'll help you with this, too."

Stannis looked down as if he had just noticed them. He merely shrugged, shaking off her hand and taking the wooden cage. "He didn't mean it."

She stood up alongside him, and they walked back to the stairway, leaving the Drum's great walls behind. Once they were inside, the goshawk had settled, yet still looked this way and that with big, unsure eyes. The lady looked at the wounded hands that held the cage, and once they were in Stannis' room and the hawk was settled on his windowsill, she took one of them in her hands.

The leather that was torn so easily was carefully peeled off, and though Stannis winced, he didn't make a sound of pain or pull away. He seemed distant, if anything, even as she began to clean up the blood and the little cuts. They could still hear the gulls and the waves from his bedroom window, but those terrible rocks were far behind.

[quodekash]

os2 x eclipse ep2 part 2 of my silly little commentary

oh thats weird, why is the cafe for all worker hosting the competition?

(huzzah i am funnie)

seriously tho, youd think aye would recognise them

YAYYYYYY WAT WONNNN

SANI TAKING PHOTOS GHRDFJBG I LOVE HER

SHES SO PROUD OF HIM

"this is my first short film. sorry- our first. it's a story of what we face in real life. Thank you to all my friends for always supporting me. Thank you to my advisor, Teacher Sani. If you hadn't asked me that day, I wouldn't have made it here today. I also want to thank my family. Even though they don't really approve of me making movies, they secretly transferred me money in the end. Thank you."

EVERY SENTENCE HE SAID WAS ANOTHER REASON TO CRY

HOLY HELL IM NOT OKAY

OMG

hell yes imma add this to the collection

"even though your movie is not very perfect, i could see the power and sincerity in it." "thank you" "keep making films. dont give up." "i wont" HIS LITTLE SHRUG- I CANTTT

BGRHEFJDBS

HES SO HAPPY

ITS MAKING ME HAPPY

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

PROBABLY TOO MUCH

BUT ITS FINE

THIS JUDGE GUY IS SO COOL

IM GONNA CRY

I LOVE THIS GEHIRKBSG

FIEWUKJSBDGFEKJBSDGFOU4EJWBNFIOKNEWDSPIGNVPIERKDSFPIN4EWSDPIGNVPEORIDNSGOPVIENBRPISDGNVEORIJDSBGNPIO34JBWENGPIVE4PRIKGHJBOPEIRNFDOIBJN THE HUG

HES SO HAPPYYYYY

IM SOBBING

SANIS FACE-

NAMO LITERALLY SEES EVERYTHING

HOW DOES HE SEE EVERYTHING

HE ALWAYS KNOWS

the lights went out

finally

here it is

aye's about to be dramatic

and im probably gonna scream and cry (in a good way)

GUITAR CHORD STRUM THINGY GHDRBHT

YUP

YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP YUP

YAYYYY

im giggling and sobbing at the same time

HES CRYING AAAA

im so glad im watching this now instead of last night bc its so much easier to scream out loud

AND AKK'S GONNA START SINGING TOO, RIGHT???

LOOK AT HIS FLIPIN FACE AAAAAA

YES

YES

YES

GIUERKDSBJGREUVJB

IM SCREAMING AND SOBBING AND LAUGHING AND DYING AND GIGGLING ALL AT THE SAME TIME SOMEBODY HELP

GFUIREBGNIUEFRBAAAAAAAAA

im sobbing

hes such a good singer

i love first's voice so much

WAIT I ONLY JUST NOTICED THAT LINE

"if you dont like it, if you're not okay, let me know. ill stop."

the freaking PARALLELS

IM SCREAMING SO LOUD RN

THE FREAKING FLASHBACKS

WHAT THE HELL

IM DYING

GIRHDKBJGFBJTKRDFAAAAAAA

IM NOT OKAY AND THEY ARE THE REASON WHY

ITS THE EXACT SAME SCENE

EPISODE 10, 3/4, IT'S EXACTLY THE SAME AS THAT

AND THAT SCENE HAPPENS TO BE ONE OF MY FAVOURITE SCENES

SO I AM COMPLETELY DYING

BUT ITS LITERALLY THE EXACT SAME SCENE

THEYRE SO SILLY

I LOVE THEM

AAAAAAAAAAAA

WELL NOW ITS EXACTLY THE SAME AS EPISODE 11 WHERE THEYRE LYING IN BED

ITS THE SAME FREAKING THING

THESE FREAKING PARALLELS WILL BE THE END OF ME

oooo graduation blessing

"people say that life is like a journey. i want you to keep going forward to reach each of your destinations or goals." I LOVE HER

"keep going forward without knowing if there's light at the end of the tunnel" SERIOUSLY KAN, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO KEEP VOICING MY FEARS, ITS RUDE

"of course. you guys have done it before. you have walked out of those dark shadows." TY SANI THATS SO SWEET IM CRYING

THUAKAN MOMENT

PLATONIC WATSANI MOMENT

OMG

Y E S

YES YES YES YES

THIS IS LITERALLY EXACTLY WHAT I WAS HOPING FOR

I SCREAMED SO LOUD

THEY HUGGGGGGGG

"thank you for never letting go of my hand" WHAT THE HELL THE PARALLELS- NOW ITS THE SCENE AT THE START OF EPISODE 10 WHERE AYE FAINTS AND THEY GO TO HIS HOUSE AND THEY FALL ASLEEP AND THEY FALL ASLEEP HOLDING HANDS AND AYE SAYS SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND HOLY HELL

THIS IS THE GREATEST FREAKING EPISODE OF ANYTHING EVER OH MY GOODNESS

my face hurts from smiling so much in this episode

SERIOUSLY, THE PARALLELS ARE INSANE

EVEN THEIR EXPRESSIONS ARE EXACTLY THE SAME

"i love you too. shortstop." AAAAAAAAAA

damn, they end with what they cut out of the actual show

i love them so much

oh, look at that, theyre ending with what the actual show had to cut out

anyway WHAT THE HELL THAT WAS INCREDIBLE

EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT WAS PERFECTION

MY NEW FAVOURITE EPISODE OF ANYTHING EVER

AND PUENTALAY NEXT WEEK???? GIUERJKBDG

oh look at that i used up all 30 photos again

how the hell is anything real rn

THEYRE GONNA BE DADS?????? WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL

WELL

THAT WAS SOMETHING

im gonna go cry for the rest of the day, peace out

[rpfisfine]

do you hate miles?🤨

i was wondering when someone would send me an ask like this yeah i dont like him to be honest. i know ppl on here have largely moved on from the fateful 2016 interview and it has been discussed to death and yeah he immediately said he was joking etc etc but i dont think its weird to think you shouldnt have to feel pressured to like completely forgive and forget and absolve the sins of a male musician saying something that made a female reporter feel unsafe or objectified or 'caught in an increasingly distressing situation' or act like its some sort of unheard of and unimaginable offense that has never happened before in the history of music interviews and one someone’s favorite musician who can do no wrong in their eyes could definitely never get caught up in (esp given how gross in general the music industry is towards women). OR even go so far to say the reporter did it all for attention i cant believe this is even a discussion that has ever been had in any form ever like genuinely nothing makes me angrier than ppl who literally turn into blatant sexists whenever their favorite white guy's reputation is even mildly put at risk ive literally seen one person on here say the whole interview was made up and exaggerated and that she just wanted to 'join the me too movement' which is like Okay man i think you might just not have any respect for women in real life maybe. even watered down and not as extreme its a take thats more prevalent on am tumblr than i thought or previously imagined and i hate how bad it makes the fandom look like i trust that everyone on here is a reasonably intelligent and empathetic human being who has at least a basic tumblr education on the fact that victim blaming is bad so we dont rly need to turn around and immediately go 'she just misunderstood what he was saying' or 'she just didnt get his sense of humor' like Alright

i hope im articulating all this reasonably well like i think its literally fine that ppl have accepted his apology and moved on and are able to enjoy him as an artist and/or as a person too thats awesome and im happy for the ppl that i follow that have this kind of relationship with him. even if it wasnt for the interview thing he stil wouldnt be for me i used to be a pretty big fan of his music when i was younger but nowadays since ive found different music i dont rly pay any attention to him. im glad he was able to spark alex creatively but thats as far as my enjoyment goes of him to be yonest

also ive just realized now that all this makes me look kind of contrived given the fact that ive written milex before and i dont rly have like an impenetrable explanation i literally started writing for jamex around the time the car album came out bc i found out all my fav jamex fics had gotten deleted by their author so i wanted to fill the void and then one day i was like wait am i good enough yet to write a functional milex fic (plus i was hoping to get more ppl to notice my writing and milex offers a pretty easy way to do that) so then i wrote 2 and i was like ok i am cool. i dont intend to write another fic for them

hope this makes sense i probably forgor to say like 10 other things i wanted to say but thats okay

[thegeminisage]

STAR TREK UPDATE TIME. i'm really behind!! wednesday we did ds9's "the ship" and voy's "remember," thursday we did "looking for par'mach in all the wrong places" and "nor the battle to the strong," which was an insane mood shift, and saturday we did ds9's "the assignment" and voy's "sacred ground."

the ship (ds9):

this one started pretty rough for me personally - i just don't feel like the big action-y episodes are really where ds9 shines, because they do plot and character stuff SO well

i read that muniz actually appeared in other episodes before this, but i'm not great at keeping track of the very minor extras, so i didn't really get to know him until this episode, in which he was very VERY obviously going to die lol. also i know it was 1996 but the "she trabajo'd here last month" of it all

at first i thought this was all really stupid - it would have been cooler if we hadn't gotten to see outside the ship, for example, and whatever the bad guys were after was probably not worth MULTIPLE lives. also, the med kit was outside. THEY KEPT GOING. OUTSIDE. PICK UP THE MEDKIT.

and then the episode was like "hey weren't these guys being fucking stupid? didn't they get so caught up in it all that good people died meaningless deaths?" and thats what i get for not trusting ds9

ALSO!!! i guessed ahead of time what they were looking for was a changeling.

worf sitting with obrien at the end with the """klingon ritual""" was very sweet. it's obviously made up bc klingons don't care what happens to the body after death but i think that just makes it kinder, tbh

remember (voy):

this one was...fine? i really wish b'elanna got to do cool things more often

like i guess it was cool that she got to do this but is the theme of the episode "genocide bad"? idk, i feel like conceptually this is an extremely good episode of television, but something in the execution just fell flat - mostly the pacing, i think?? we weren't given much background about the world this was taking place in, only that there was a forbidden romance, not WHY, and then we very very abruptly switch from b'elanna in the flowing nightgown with the forbidden trysts to b'elanna participating in genocide. i was struggling to keep up so whatever emotional impact that hard cut might have been intended to have was pretty lost on me, unfortunately.

also, the tng roots, possibly. like, b'elanna and chakotay doing girl talk where she talks about how arousing her dreams were?? what??? i remember saying aloud "this is exactly like a conversation deanna and beverly would have had on tng" and then just now to write this i went and looked up the episode page on memory alpha to see what the cast thought of it and there it is. thisd was supposed to be a deanna troi episode. by the way, i would have been LIVID if they'd done this to deanna troi

that said, i AM glad b'elanna got this rather than deanna because her anger and outrage at the end was very satisfying, very well-acted, and probably not something deanna could have pulled off as well, though i would have loved to see her get angry for once. like, b'elanna was so furious!! and good for her!!

unfortunately like...what is janeway gonna do. like, if picard had said "well we have to let them be" i would have killed him. but janeway is in the delta qudrant. these aren't her people. she has no power here whatsoever. is she supposed to put an entire society on trial? i think she might have if she could have, but she couldn't. so i liked that not only that she supported b'elanna's outburst despite it being awkward and potentially embarrassing but that she also gave b'elanna a sort of third option (tell one person and cross her fingers it causes change). what would have been a huge fail moment for picard was mostly a w for janeway

that said, still not a great episode. unfortunately one very well-acted scene can't fix pacing issues

looking for par'mach in all the wrong places (ds9):

THIS EPISODE HAD EVERYTHIIIING

i can't say enough how much i adored this one. i was initially worried because it had so much quark in it but it was actually so cleverly done and so charming i can't even care

quark in love with grilka, worf in love with grilka, grilka falling for quark because he's acting like worf, dax helping them both while being secretly in love with worf. SHENANIGANS! and everybody got to get some by the end

everybody except kira and obrien. holy shit things i did not see coming although my jaw did drop when he went in for a chakotay neck massage

actually, i think this is the nicest time i have ever had with a potential infidelity storyline. both of them immediately horrified, scrambling to get away from each other, keiko both totally oblivious and totally trusting...kira's complete devastation when she said the cabin they were going to was the most romantic place on the planet, lol. it was actually so funny

like they were such adults about it. "you're gonna go fuck your wife and i'm gonna go fuck my bf and that's that" and when obrien almost broke she was like "GIRL LEAVE" and his ass left and good for them.

that being said, this could be fixed with one honest conversation and some polyamory. isn't this like three times now obrien has turned down people keiko definitely would've wanted to have a threesome with? their marriage is so open. it's only 1996 in reality. let's all broaden our horizons

nor the battle to the strong (ds9):

the premise of this was flawed (that bashir would EVER take jake into a warzone) but the execution was so good i cannot possibly find fault in it, though of course pivoting to this right after the unrestrained horny fun of the last episode was very um. i have whiplash

idk man, i love that jake ran away. it's such a human thing to do. even though i complained about it i loved that one nurse doomer guy who kept scaring jake silly. i love that people forgave him because he is still a kid in so many ways, you know. like, ds9 is on a whole other level

the one nitpick i did have w this was that i think jake's past as someone who survived a borg attack and had his mother die while they were in the room together could recontextualize this, and it felt like maybe the writers forgot about it? like that was way different than this, because he was a kid (11, right, and now he's 19 or 20?), and it was because it was one person he knew personally that died in front of him instead of many people but people who were strangers, but it's still death up-close, and i would have appreciated a line or two about it somewhere in the script. like he thinks he can handle it because of that, or he's surprised that it reminds him of that because he thought he'd forgotten it, or something.

the assignment (ds9):

THIS ONE WAS SO EVIL!!!!!! i wish i'd been in a better mood when i watched it bc i would have been STRESSED OUT but i was really tired so i was only a little stressed out

it was about time we had some good keiko content. especially after miles almost blew it a few episodes ago. that thing possessing her was so evil and scaryyyy i loved it

also my best friend ROM!!!!!!! As A Housekeeper i'm so glad he takes pride in what he does even if they're not very good job. sanitation worker rights this station does NOT clean itself!!!!!!! absolutely devastating when obrien sold him out like that though ofc i understand why he had to do it.

but maybe the best part was when rom actually figured it out by himself without any input from obrien at all. like he's so fucking smart and he works so fast. nog came by it honest. AND leeta is telling him bajoran legends!!! i thought she was fucking julian but maybe she's fucking both of them or it was a fling with julian or something. i'm officially on the rom/leeta train he deserves happiness

oh yeah quark was being a SHITHEAD to him about his job!!!!!!! bitch let him work!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rom is easily the best and most layered ferengi in the star trek franchise. quark WHO

sacred ground (voy):

...that sure did happen? i love that the recurring theme in this episode is "everything you did was meaningless" because the entire episode...felt...meaningless??? idk i liked the guide i guess, she was kinda fun. feels like she deserved a better episode

like idk was the point that faith is quantifiable? they didn't do a good job making that point

or is the point that faith is not quantifiable but sometimes it works anyway? this is a scifi show. i am an atheist. please save me

the one thing i did like about this episode though was how worried chakotay was about janeway. like INTENSE worry. like spock when kirk is missing worry. i had to take what i could get and it was very nice to see him so. concerned <3

TONIGHT: ds9's "trials and tribble-ations" which i am not allowed to know anything about even though i have a few suspicions, and "let he who is without sin"

[fictionkinfessions]

Hey guys its me Adam TMC again /silly

I cant stop thinkin abt mems holy moly, i hope dumpin them on here is fine

So first of all i wasnt like THAT much of an asshole like the media depicts me... I actually cared and loved my partners and friends a lot. Evelin and I didnt break up cus of a huge fight, it was actually earlier on than in canon and it was because she was a lesbian. And later on I ended up with Jonah (sorta?? Glad to be more official in this current life..), and at the vol2 house I did try to help him calm down so he'd be a bit more okay stayin with me, but god do i wish i had listened to him when he said it gave him a bad feeling.

Funnily enough I also have what I call a second timeline? For all memories that arent canon complaint. Yeah, like when my momdadthingy (six) and I cooked dinner for the fam (jonny, who had a human form; i think preacher??) Oh and alt!Cesar was also there, which part of the fam too just- he just came into the kitchen and left so ig he wasnt eating 5 min the pasta.

Those memories are my favorite ones honestly cause they're so much more chill compared to the other hellhole

Oh yeah and a mem from my main canon. About my mom: i used to have nightmares pretty often, and i thought that, in my sleep, my mom came back and took my hand and comforted me. It wasn't a dream tho, it was Six taking my hand and talkin to me with her voice. Even after having to "abandon" me bc I was old enough to recognize he wasnt mr&mrs murray, he was always there, or tried to be there in the ways he could. Thats why he's a mom to me, not any mom, he's *my* mum. And i love him <3

x

[gayspock]

OK SOMEEEE gripes

im ACTUALLY extremely conflicted on some of the present day stuff and i think its mostly down to the characters

like im very happy with jeff, and i think he's fine as is - brilliant, even, bc hes a genuinely refreshing take imo as opposed to what they could have easily done (i.e unlikable, distant from it all husband). not that he would be CRAZY or unreasonable to resent shauna, but like... its just fucking so much funnier + more interesting to me to see a character kind of just go with it, rather than to have them stew in angst. like i think its more interesting and allows for them to explore different beats than what you'd assume they would if you'd just known the basics of what shauna was up to. imo

similarly i was happy with adam as a character, too, and i think they developed him well enough for who he was and how he functions in this story. im glad he didnt turn out to be javi (if he was, i guess, bc he still could be technically that kinda suck wway more now tbh booo) and whilst there was nooo way he was gonna survive if he was just some guy which he was

theres also guys like kevyn. my jokes aside abt how scary he is im kinda fine with him, and i do actually makes some kinda sense that hes a cop + that he's now so straight-laced. some loser divorced dad. and it'd be a good comparison to natalie, and the lifestyle she lives now and how their paths diverged. however i kind of wish they'd... just let him go? like i wish he'd been at the reunion, and they'dhad that exchanged and then he'd just walked away to his wife and kids and her back to the yellowjackets no return no return no return huh what was that YEHA. my point is. i feel like there's no true resolution between them two thats organic and it just kinda feels weird to keep him around past that. i know they need a cop character for whats happening with shauna now but it just feels kinda ... bizarre to have him playing that role with that creep dude. bc whilst i do prefer limited characters in a show like this and to keep it tight and clean it just feels weird for it to be him and for it to be THAT insular AND, again, for him to keep sticking around when i dont feel like theres anywhere for him to go.... like its kinda DIFFERENT with the other cop dude, bc he isnt pre-established and he does kinda just function moreso as just. a fucking yuckhead fuckhead but instead its just this weird uhhhh. and kevyn is back! um. he will continue serving this purpose and we will never touch on him and natalie again. bc we shouldnt ofc but it also feels weird to have him there without ever mentioning it LOL

who else. fuck. like i am also very conflicted abt tai's wife and son like.... they do just feel a bit like- theyre just there? and i think that DEFINITELY makes some sort of narrative sense with tai, and with her whole deal- she has it all, she has everything but she has nothinnggg but... IDK KINDA SAD MAN. bc its weird i'll go back to this with jeff and callie, but it does make SENSE that the non-yellowjackets characters are always gonna be secondary with the story theyre telling in more ways than them just being secondary characters but with how fucking impossible it is to reconnect with fucking ANYONE after everything they did/went through BUT ITS LIKE... like i said i kinda like jeff and ironically his absolute lack of personality became a personality, whereas with simone&sammy i feel like theyre just kinda... SUPER functioning and that does kinda make me worry because whilst i know a lot of ppl are yelling for tai/van endgame... i dont know it feels weird to write them off fuckin completely which is what i feel like the show might kinda lean into at some point...😭like i want more for them, and from them. and i also sorry i also hate fucking "scary child who sees the supernatural" trope SORRYYYY its so tired to me and so lazy . give this kid some proper fucking development

and i think its also another issue im having with the present day stuff. theres too many characters rn and its being misspent. like do not get me wrong im not against quirky elijah wood BUT i feel like misty's ENTIRE. FUCKING. ARC. RIGHT. NOW. would be so much more fucking effective if she was alone and tracking down natalie by herself and kinda struggling with that. OR if they kept up her rapport with jessica- like have her tag along, whether it'd be under the guise of a fixer or not, and maybe have her cause some tension bc again if eel like.. ITS SO MUCH WEIRDER just having jessica's entire stint just come to an end in the way it did and it would have been a much more solid throughline into s2 than to bring in elijah wood whos just genderbent misty and its like . ok its just nott.... INTERESTING TO ME... SO WHAT. SHES FOUND A GUY LIKE HER? WHO CARES MAN. IM SAYING THIS AS A LITTLE FREAK WHO CANT CONNECT WITH OTHERS & YEARNS FOR KINSHIP, LIKE... I JUST FEEL LIKE ITS KINDA BACKWARDS AND REGRESSIVE AND NOTHINGGGG. jessica was a much weirder fucking dynamic and i think could have been interesting and i do think theres ways they could have had them both pursue natalie but now its just... ehhhhhh like

and i also feel like elijah wood is kinda bringing up the comedic parts of misty's story and dont get me wrong i LOVED a lot of the dark humour bits from her in s1 but i feel likw now its kinda getting too close to just. that. kinda like just oh funny joke funny dark humour. and losing a lot of the substance it should have, which is kinda necessary to the humour itself....AND he's sort of stealing her limelight like WHO CARES. GO AWAY DUUDE. have confidence in misty to be able to CARRY this shit, cmon, bc no offence elijah but SHE WAS WAY BETTER AT IT! bc thats whats so GOOD ABOUT THE SHOW OTHERWISE- you have the confidence to let all these girlies to carry their plotlines by themselves, so dont slip!!! GET BACK UP. and again im saying with the too many characters thing- its just... ehrhh. who cares to spend so much time on him??? whos just out of nowhere when its like.. again i'd prefer it if you spent that time with taissa or with .....

CALLIE. SHHES PROBABLY THE PERSON IM THE MOST CONFLICTED ON IN THE WORLD. bc in so many ways again i feel like we cant focus on her too much in shauna's little life that shes made for herself but I JUST... I CANT HELP BUT FEEL LIKE WE'RE IN THE MOST UNCOMFORTABLE SPOT IMAGINABLE WITH CALLIE, wherein we dont get enough of her and her side to really empathise with her but we get too much of her to find her on the wrong side of irritating-AND THAT. SUCKS. THATS THE WORST. EVER. BECAUSE SHES LITERALLY A TEENAGE GIRL. I FEEL LIKE THERES SO MUCH MORE THEY COULD DO WITH THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN SHAUNA/CALLIE IF THEY PUSHED FOR IT MORE, BUT ITS JUST... again its in this such an awkwwaarddd position where they only bring her in to be difficult it feels like. and the thing is? shes being reasonable. MORE than. shes totally justified in all the shit shes doing. but bc of the unfortunate way its framed she comes off as...... sadly.... unlikable which . again AGAIN IT SUCKS. BECAUSE SHES A TEENAGE GIRL AND THIS FEELS LIKE THE FIRST SHOW IN A LONG TIME TO HAVE A CAST FULL OF UNLIKABLE FUCKING TEENAGE GIRLS BE THE BEST EVERRRRRR AND SHE COULD BE SO GOOD MAN SHE COULD BE SUCH A GOOD WAY FOR SHAUNA TO LOOK INTO THE PAST BUTEE..... they kinda just write her off too and bring her up to cause complications obly. thats all it is. and i dont know i do get it i dooo get it bc again it makes SENSE with shauna and who she is and where her life is that the presentation would thereforebe kinda more her perspective but also... i do just feel... ITCHES. LIKE IM CLAWING AT THE WALL

ok last thing maybe idk. idk how i feel about lottie at all. its strange. i felt like she..... was kinda not present enough in s1. does that make sense ever at all. i wish we had more from her and her whole visions thing, and she had as much focus in the past as the others did from the very beginning. bc i feel like in s1... we didnt see enough of her in that regard? like we got her- we got bits of her. but not enough of her-her. bc im fine with her kinda story on paper (ish) and how its playing out but i t does feel weirdly unba;anced across s1 / s2. and its throwing me a bit there

[darkchocolatedimples]

could you do fearless (Taylor’s version) for kotlc characters 🫣

I absolutely am loving these since Kotlc and Taylor swift are like my two obsessions lol

ofc!! i'm so glad ur enjoying they're so much fun to sort

fearless!!

fearless - biana

fifteen - sophie

she. is just. a girl.

love story - keefe

hands down his favorite taylor swift song. this is keefe's song.

hey stephen - dex

maybe it's him to sophie but it's actually ME to him.

white horse - dex

HE BETTER GET HIS SOMEONE SOMEDAY WHO ACTUALLY TREATS HIM WELL

you belong with me - keefe

every unspoken thought

breathe - fitz

remember he didn't just lose sophie as a future romantic partner, at least for a little bit, he's lost her as a friend 😔

tell me why - linh

here's to you (song parents) and your temper!!!

you're not sorry - tam

dear song parents once more!

that's the way i loved you - sophie

bc fitz is sensible and keefe is SCREAMING AND FIGHTING AND KISSING IN THE RAIN AND ITS TWO AM AND IM CURSING YOUR NAME SO IN LOVE THAT I ACTED INSANE AND THATS THE WAY I LOVED YOU

forever & always - fitz

the way i'm constantly mourning keefitz

the best day - biana

three older brothers and keefe.

change - dex

jump then fall - biana

ITS SO DEX AND BIANA I COULD SCREAM

untouchable - keefe

this one gets me good "but your untouchable burning brighter than the sun...come on come on, say that well be together, come on come on, little taste of heaven"

come in with the rain - sophie

very stellarlune

superstar - sophie

"im no one special im just another wide eyed girl whose despertely in love with you" NO. YOU ARE SOPHIE FOSTER AND HALF THE MEN IN THE STORY HAVE FALLEN AT YOUR FEET. OWN IT.

the other side of the door - fitz

cause im so mad, i might tell you that it's over, but if you look a little closer I SAID LEAVE BUT ALL I REALLY WANT IS YOU

today was a fairytale - sophie

but not the whole day! bc she doesn't ever get that.

you all over me - tam

"so i lied, and i cried, and i watched a part of myself die, cause no amount of freedom gets you clean" screw the song parents part 29939

mr. perfectly fine - keefe

it was supposed to be sophie...but cassius SUCKS

we were happy - linh

that's when - sophie

pov shannon decided to let sophitz be

don't you - dex

atp i want to start campaigning for a dex centric spin off or companion book

bye bye baby - tam

[eyelessfog]

i would like to hear more about the funky rocks!!

okay okay so land of the lustrous starts with you meeting this guy, their name is phos. phos has a hardness level of. does not check notes but squints into the air as if it will tell them the correct answer. 3.5 i think. which is a pretty low hardness level. which means phos can shatter REAAALLLY easily

now, this sucks because there are these guys called lunarians [they come from the moon] who are trying to . not kill the gems, per say? but like. collect them. it legitimately gets more screwed up when you learn more <- happens like 50+ chapters in so we're not talking about that. so they shatter the gems n then pick up the pieces. but the cool thing is that actually you can put the gems back together so long as you have enough pieces? so yeah some guys might shatter but so long as you dont let the lunarians pick them up, they'll be fine afterwards

actually let me drop some lotl lore on you real quick, not about the story but about the before and how these guys work, right.

so first of all, humans used to exist on the planet. its earth, you know? but humans made this robot, right? and the robot was supposed to tell them if any meteors would hit the earth. but this robot LIED and said nooo youre fiiine and they believed it right. and then the meteor hit, and then they were like oh shit. and made another robot but they weren't sure if they could trust this one either and SEVEN WHOLE METEORS HIT which was the end of the world as humankind knew it and so on and so forth

but then organisms rose from the ocean, right. and bonded to gemstones. and these organisms would control the gems, and all together they'd act as a brain, right? and all of them have memories and thoughts and stuff attached to them, so if you loose some, you lose memories, right? yeah. okay glad we got that covered

now its sort of like. how to say. so its explained that humans got split into three parts, and those three parts continue to walk the earth, but its not like thats LITERALLY what happened but metaphorically. symbolism means that yes, thats what happened. humans were split into bone, flesh, and spirit. the gems are the bones

anyway phos is sooooo so bored man. so bored. okay . phos wants to fight!!! like the cool kids!!!! but theyre not strong enough :( they have to be this stupid encyclopedia author which is soooo boring <- phos is such a little shit by the way. kind hearted but they're kind of very selfish. <33] i cant belieeeevveee i have to do this are you kidding. let me fight. i can do it <- they cannot do it

and its. okay let me like. closes trap door over my head, come here if you want to hear more, there's spoilers but also cookies

okay so phos is just. so bored of being. exactly as they are. but it isnt really possible for them to be anything different? they arent human, they can't grow and change the same way humans can [not that. they know what a human is.] but they meet this other gem named cinnabar who is really lonely bc they have poison in their gem that can kill other gems. and phos promises that theyre going to help cinnabar be happy okay. promise. promise promise promise. we're going to get you a new job and youre going to love it okay?? okay

and then the lunarians drop a huge snail on them and then the snail SHRINKS?? and phos picks up the small snail who is now a slug??? who phos can now TALK TO because when she was big the snail slug ate them. dont even worry about it. anyway the slug gets phos to bring her back to her home which is deep in the ocean because shes not only a slug but a ocean PRINCESS who needs to GET HOME and phos walks her all the way there [she transforms halfway there. shes cute] and once they get there they're like okay i dont know what ocean kingdom youre talking about but im exhausted. lemme. lie down a sec

and then shes like hey im really sorry about this AND THEN THE LUNARIANS DROP IN AND GRAB PHOS AND PHOS IS LIKE YOU BITCH ASS WHAT????? and shes like im sorry. but they have my brother. i want my brother back. and then the brother gets dropped into the ocean as ALSO a giant snail and then goes up to the lunarians as a guy. and phos kind of goes "oh... i mean i guess... you wanted your brother back. and all the other gems dont want me. so.. fair trade, yeah" and then slug woman is like . hm actually no. i like you as a person so get out and my brother will give you some of his shell to replace the legs you lost and we'll bring you back to your friends. and the gems, who have been up literally all night looking for phos are like THERE YOU ARE.. MAN... DUDE WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU

okay so now i get to make it simpler instead of. that ^

basically, phos replaces their legs w the shell, which is like. really strong actually? stronger than what theyre actually made of, you know? and generally gems cant do this, but phos can put their organisms into materials that aren't their own? like it doesnt have to be phosphophyllite for it to be part of phos. so phos gets legs, and the legs are super fast.

timeskip, phos goes through The Issues, loses their arms, loses a best friend in the most fucking tragic way, and gets gold arms out of it. these gold arms are like. how to say. like they're not a good karat. its liquid gold. REALLY useful id like to say

the issues again. phos loses their head, gets replaced with the smartest gem's head. lapis lazuli. its. GOD okay so memory is lost every time, you know? like ever so slowly, phos is losing parts of themselves and theyre slowly becoming unrecognizable? and its not even their fault that theyre losing bits of themselves. at first they just wanted to be helpful!!! then they ACTIVELY avoided doing what lost them their arms, but the ice stole their arms anyway??? and then the head thing - they finally got what they wanted, they finally got to fight, and they lost their head for it LIKE..

and theyre becoming less like themself, because theyre forgetting core bits of themself. i think it actually shot me through the heart when phos asked if cinnabar wanted to go to the moon with them <- i dont feel like explaining here but you can ask for context] because it would be a new job for them.

because the story put so much emphasis on phos having first wanted to give cinnabar a new job to make them happy, but phos FORGOT THAT PART OF THE DEAL. phos remembered "i'll find you a new job" and forgot "that will make you happy. that won't make you lonely." and cinnabar didnt even need that. cinnabar asked "will it make me happy?" and phos said "oh, no, probably not" and cinnabar says afterwards, when phos is long gone, that they would have agreed, if phos just said that they WANTED cinnabar to come along.

phos makes me ill because they change so much, but its. to me? phos doesn't fall into the "why didn't he just not turn back." like i absolutely love the story of orpheus and euridice, but i know what people say, and they cant say it to phos. because phos DIDNT turn back. but they got punished for it anyway. are you listening to me. its so dark in here

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good day or evening from the mingming<з THIS KITTY is me when you say 28C is cold... 'i dont expect them to' actually i dont too. want some quality time with my catmom. meowmeow. but YOU. youre cruel... but fine i found you so its alright. im not religious so i cant fully understand you but. if it helps you and makes you feel confident, ig its good. bc its true. 'i hate war' true. tbh, 99% of destruction (which includes killing, violence and all) is the ugliest thing and has no right to exist. im so glad youve found your peace at loving yourself. maybe if all people could do it, there wouldnt be so much destruction. thanks for your support TT luv u so much TT 'i can be contrary and always build people up' ig you can. guess you are. you have a very welcoming and supportive image. HAJDHJS i'm glad youre good. no but should i be offended by this dry comparison??.... im not typing it on the phone to insert emojis love no TT 'favorite things FOOOOOD' YEEEEY it already sounds good! oh i love rice too! champorado looks tasty. its really uncommon for me so its reallyreally interesting. do you think we like any warm food bc its cold here?? we literally have okroshka... omg its so intriguing to learn abt things' history?? and mexican stuff? wow sounds surprising to me. like ive said im bad at history.. so yeah its really educational lol. omg you made spain look so cunning and mysterious (: you probably didnt mean it to but sounds so conspiratorially... 'what does poka mean?' bye. you didnt want me to message you so i said bye >:( too many symbols omgomg what speech? hope your hw is alright too... ok its your right to not continue watching. but that poor guy... you abandoned him... 'this was so dry i was like' i tend to sound pretty convincingly so dont worry youre not my only victim. should i call you saint hannah or saint catmom now?... 'I LOVE IT WHEN GIRLS GIVE BOYS FLOWERS' oooh flowers are pretty themselves. i need someone to give me flowers first. then ill think. 'IM SO SORRY I DIDNT MEANT TO CONFUSE YOU' its ok its my revenge for dante. i learnt what it meant. yeah classical literature is a chore but... ive got a classical literature exam... i have no choice.... its pretty sometimes but when youre obliged to read it, esp at school... it wasnt meant for teens guys... ESPECIALLY russian classical literature.... can you tell anything abt filipino literature? 'her dad an ugly rat L' ig its not enough for him. even cunt is not enough for him. hasjsjs this aemond meme TT so true TT and i cant watch the tiktok as its banned in russia but i hope you laugh for me! also abt them! im finally watching official hotd's bts and WOW its so impressive? ig i needed to watch it insted of the series and wouldve been more satisfied. how were your classes? tell me more abt filipino culture please! its interesting! have a nice day/evening/night/life! love you! take care<з

HELLO MUNING <3

me playing the piano HAHAHAHAH

you know my mom is so so so good at playing piano. i am 99.9 percent sure that i got my love for music from her. i always wanted to learn how to play as good as her, and i mean i guess i could always practice but like she's so good that whenever she hears me she gets mad when i get it wrong T_T i means she isnt like that anymore but the trauma is real

THIS KITTY is me when you say 28C is cold...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHA

i meant its not cold but sometimes the air gets kinda cold HAHAHAH

'i dont expect them to' actually i dont too. want some quality time with my catmom. meowmeow. but YOU. youre cruel... but fine i found you so its alright.

quality time time haha ????????? WHY AM I CRUEL THIS TIME T_T

im not religious so i cant fully understand you but. if it helps you and makes you feel confident, ig its good. bc its true.

lol honestly its not that im religious either. i dont have the oppurtunity to go to church but i have a personal relationship with God so thats what that it. its so much easier to believe in God than yourself to be honest. i hope you find your confidence too!

'i hate war' true. tbh, 99% of destruction (which includes killing, violence and all) is the ugliest thing and has no right to exist. im so glad youve found your peace at loving yourself. maybe if all people could do it, there wouldnt be so much destruction.

WAR BOOO TOMATO TOMATO TOMATO 🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅 war ugly L EW 👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎 im glad ive found my peace too. its a constant process and progress though. it fluctuates. sometimes i love myself SO MUCH sometimes like.... 1/9 sometimes 10000% sometimes .00000000000000000001 so like again my constant is God who never changes. dont be hard on yourself if you cant love yourself sO MUCH. baby steps count! progress is not linear!

i do also think if people found more love not just form themselves but others too there wouldnt be war. the irony in love is the more you give it away, the more you have!!!! I LOVE LOVE!!!!! that's why i have a lot of love to give! (｡･∀･)ﾉﾞCOS I LIKE GIVING IT AWAY

thanks for your support TT luv u so much TT

'i can be contrary and always build people up' ig you can. guess you are. you have a very welcoming and supportive image.

love that for me

HAJDHJS i'm glad youre good.

я всегда голоден. 24/7

no but should i be offended by this dry comparison??.... im not typing it on the phone to insert emojis love no TT

HAHAHHAHAHAH that's fine. it's a russian thing ig AHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHH it'S NOT MEANT TO BE OFFENSIVE! it's a hasty generalisation fallacy but hahahha in my head its canon lol HAHHAHAHA

'favorite things FOOOOOD' YEEEEY it already sounds good! oh i love rice too! champorado looks tasty. its really uncommon for me so its reallyreally interesting. do you think we like any warm food bc its cold here?? we literally have okroshka...

well i mean i would assume if its too cold you'd want to eat smth warm no? its not to say you dont like cold things either . IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE CHAMPORADO MY MOM MADE CHAMPORADO AND IT WAS SAAAAUUURRRR GOOOOD i love eating. imma show you another dish i love love love love so much

GINATAN

OK OK I HAVE TO EXPLAIN THIS TO YOU

so ginatan or ginataan comes from the word gata which is like coconut milk like like the creamy version cos coconut milk has like a juice version but that's just juice the coconut milk is from like squeezed coconut flesh hehe lol. ok so ginataan means like 'a dish with gata/you put gata'

and theres like a savory version of ginataan

idk in the internet it has a g as in ginataang which i guess makes sense cos if you said, ginataang hipon, that means shrimp (hipon) with coconut milk (ginataang lol)

but you can literally call any dish with coconut milk ginataang. but that's like the savory version.

idk honestly sometimes when someone says we have ginataang i get bamboozled and think its ginatan (which is the dessert) so even i get it confused but i think the difference (in the name) is that if its the dessert, we say ginatan, with one a in the end and if its the savory dish (IDK WHAT TO CALL IT IN ENGLISH IN FILIPINO ITS ULAM AND ITS WHAT WE EAT WITH RICE AND IDK IF THERES AN EQUIVALENT OF THAT IN RUSSIAN SO IMMA JUST CALL IT SAVORY DISH) its ginataang

ANYWAY super side tracked.

Ginatan

this one! ^^^^^^^^^ 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤 has got to be one if not MY MOST FAVORITE food ever ever ever (ok maybe dessert lol)

there are many variations of it but my fav is the one with bilo-bilo which is usually called ginatang halo-halo HAHAHAHH we like saying things twice. ok halo-halo basically means mix-mix and it's also a dessert!!!

ITS ALSO ONE OF MY FAVORITE I LOVE FOOD SO MUCHL:ASHDFLAHSFLHASFaf

the reason why both of those are called halo-halo is because its mixed with A LOT of different things. (i'll talk about halo-halo first ig)

halohalo (im too lazy to put the -) has like ube ice cream, ube (that's actually ube T_T oh ube hayala its called HAHAHAAH (you can put that in bread! and its sweet! HAHHA

it also has leche flan (you know that right? HAHAHH like flan but we call it leche flan cos milk is leche in spanish) it also has gulaman!!!

its fundamentally like jelly ig

then nata de coco (tbh less people put it there and i think thats sad)

this is kind of like gulaman but harder and sweeter and sometimes it leaves a pulp in your mouth!!! ?????!!?!?!?!? it kinda hard to explain but its also from coconuts i have no idea how its made

a lot of southeast asian countries love coconuts YAY COCONUTS

it also has sago

or like what english speakers say tapioca pearls ? its kind of the same for the one in bobba milk tea things if youve ever tried it but i would say the bobba ones are much much chewier and sweeter. sago (at least in halohalo is more on a neutral side ??? i think but still chewy!!!)

it also has beans, like red beans T_T i used to hatE THEM but now i like them

i might be forgetting something but i

OH WAIT

they also put ^^ macapuno, which is like sweet coconut strands its really sticky IDK SOME TASTE LIKE WAX AND I THINK ITS A MANUFACTURING THING which is why i kinda dont like it idk the pic looks kinda gross but i couldnt find anything else lhf;lhasfa

anyway i think thats all HAHAHAH I GOT SIDE TRACKED SO BADLY AND WENT TO HALOHALO INSTEAD OF GINATAN HALOHALO HAHHAHAHAHAAH

anyway lets go back to that

ginatan has saba which is a type of banana, not like the ones you put in idk banana splits

this is it. some people like to boil this T_T (NOT ME) and eat it like that. i dont want to yuck someones yum but i really dont like it. i dont like it when people cook/process banana (with some very few exceptions like ginatan)

kamote (idk what it is in english T_T i think its yam?????????????????? SWEET POTATO??????? idk it has different colors and stuff my mom puts the purple ones in her ginatan AY NVM SHE DOESNT LIKE PUTTING KAMOTE IN HERS COS SHE DOESNT LIKE IT HAHAHHAH NVM but yeah

this is kamote T_T

and then gabi which is taro i think T_T idk either. you might get confused if you search it cos its also the word for night in filipino. GAbi is the food gaBI is night lol

anyway here it is! im like ....... 55% sure its taro HAHHAHA

ginatan also has sago, sometimes big ones sometimes mini ones, it depends on what you want

AND THE BEST INGREDIENT OF IT ALL BILO-BILO

it's basically the big white chew balls in the... the soup? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA IDK WHAT ITS CALLED ITS NOT A SOUP HAHAHHHAAHHAH but while were talking about the soup its basically just coconut milk water and sugar thats it

ANYWAY BILO-BILO IS SUPER CHEWY AND SOFT AND AMAZING AND DELICIOUS AND ITS MADE FROM GALAPONG which is basically like glutinous rice + water =

^^^^ this. you can use this to make more but i cant think of anything rn AHHAHAH also i made this post so long already HAAHHAHAHAHAH

that's it for food today HAHAHAHAHAHA

omg its so intriguing to learn abt things' history?? and mexican stuff? wow sounds surprising to me. like ive said im bad at history.. so yeah its really educational lol.

HAHAA i dont remember you saying you were bad at history i just remember you telling me a bit about russian history and literature and i was like 'i gotta get this right cos she good at history or whatevah GAAAAAAAAAAH' HAHHHHAAHAHAHH

i also like learning about history tbh, especially when its said in an interesting way. cos when i think of my classes in school its so T_T boring, but when i watch youtube videos its SO MUCH FUN!!!

omg you made spain look so cunning and mysterious (: you probably didnt mean it to but sounds so conspiratorially...

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA ITS NOT A CONSPIRACY ITS LIKE REAL!!!!!! this is how i explain stuff to my classmates when we go through lessons and its easier for them to understand and easier for me to explain. i mean to be fair, spain conquered us for ~333 years sooooo yeah pretty cunning and maybe half mysterious cos eventually the pilipinos were like ???? bruh you've been treating us poorly the entire time AND stealing from us ???? GTFO

'what does poka mean?' bye. you didnt want me to message you so i said bye >:( too many symbols

I LITERALLY HAD TO GO BACK TO THAT MESSAGE I THOUGHT YOU SAID 'i can give long messages or smth' NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND you can send me 10000000000 messages id read them all but it will take a while.

omgomg what speech?

it was a speech by our second president Manuel L. Quezon. it was basically declaring Filipino as our lingua franca/national language cos up til then, a little after WWII ?? i think or NO before WWII we didnt have one and the last time i researched about it, i think the philippines has the most spoken languages ever in the world? ok lemme just google it

nvm google said its papua new guinea HAHAHHAH but we have so many languages in the ph and at the time, because of our colonizers, like spanish was prevalent then the americans came so english was next, and then we got our own govt and pres was like 'Ok our language is going to be called filipino which is based on Tagalog'

AND CAN I JUST TELL YOU

;KLASGFL;ASGHFLASFLSAHSAFH FUCKING FUCKING IDIOTS THEYRE SO FUCKING STUPID AND KNOW IT ALL I HATE FIL-AMS FUCK OFF YOU POSER RAT T_T ok ignore that i was talking to these 3 strangers on this walkie-talkie thing and they were supposedly all filipino BUT FROM THE STATES AND I TOLD THEM MY FIRST LANGAUGE IS FILIPINO AND THEY HAD THE FUCKING AUDACITY TO CORRECT ME AND SAY ITS TAGALOG NO YOU FUCKING IDIOT WHO CANT DIFFERENCIATE YOUR AND YOURE FUCK YOU DONT CORRECT ME ABOUT MY OWN FUCKING LANGAUGE IM PRETTY SURE YOU CANT EVEN FUCKING SPEAK

i said i wont cuss but THEY PISS ME OFF SO BAD FUCK YOU RAT

ANYWAY they said Filipino is the person and Tagalog is the word. and i was like ? it;s BASED OFF OF TAGALOG BUT TO CALL IT TAGALOG IS REGIONALISM AND UNINCLUSIVE AND ITS CALLED FILIPINO BECAUSE ITS THE UNIFIFED LANGUAGE FUCK YOU YOU KNOW NOTHING Also the person is Pilipino you uneducated rat im sure you would fail in our school system if you went to the phililppines fuck you. OK filipino is acceptable cos its the english version of pilipino /: but RAT still

DID YOU KNOW 70% IN AMERICA IS A PASSING AND HIGH GRADE HAHAHAHH 70 is below failing here /: 75 is like you barely made it. ok dont quote me on that fr BUT I SAW A BUNCH OF TIKTOKS ABOUT IT AND this one foreign girl when to the ph and said she got a 70smth and she was like thats good and she was shocked it was failing

SO YALL DUMB AF GAAAAAAAAAAAH I REALLY HATED THE FACT THOSE THREE 'FILIPINOS 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢' GANGED UP ON ME LIKE THAT I WAS LITERALLY LIKE GOOGLE IT GOOGLE IT YOURE SAYING WHAT I LEARNED IN SCHOOL IN THE FUCKING PHILIPPINES IS WRONG AND THEY WERE LIKE YES

l/aksgf;klSDAGG:KLJggb;jbk;B:GKSJbgjkdlgbddsdfsgdg;glhd;hgl;SDhgli;sdhgl;isdlhgsi;D FUCK YOU IM SO ANGRY

whooo i just admited i was angry and i dont like that T_T inner peace

i forgive them

omg that was so hard to type

ANYWAY im hot and smart they're YUCKY! God bless america.

WOW that was a long rant

hope your hw is alright too...

my homework is fine ig HAHAHAH

ok its your right to not continue watching. but that poor guy... you abandoned him...

i might come back for it cos im kinda intruiged BUT I BORROWED A BUNCH FO SANDMAN FANFICS AND GAAAHHH I WAS SO EXCITED WHEN I SAW THEM IN OUR LIBRARY AND IM SO EXCITED TO READ THEM LASGHFASFSAFSAF SOOOOOOO SOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T i felt so happy to go to the library AND BORROW BOOKS I WAS SKIPPING ANG JUMPING AROUND AL:SIFLASFSAFH

i was actually looking for this book

because the author was promoting it on tiktok and it looks sooooooo interesting T_T I WANT IT but i cant they didnt have it yet T_T bUT THEN I SAW THE SANDMAN ON DISPLAY AND I WAS LIKE LAHSKFKSAHFAUSSHAS I MUST HAVE IT and i borrowed 4 comic books T_T IM SO HAPPY

that can only mean im probably not going to post as much AHHAHAAHHAHAAHHAHAHAH let me enjoy my comics first i only got a week to finish em and im SO EXCITED<3 im going to cry

'this was so dry i was like' i tend to sound pretty convincingly so dont worry youre not my only victim.

HAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHA

should i call you saint hannah or saint catmom now?...

AHAHAHA lol you can ??????? BUT just cos ur in the bible doesnt mean ur a saint HAHHHAH HAHAHAHAH but idc i dont mind lolololol HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

'I LOVE IT WHEN GIRLS GIVE BOYS FLOWERS' oooh flowers are pretty themselves. i need someone to give me flowers first. then ill think.

IVE NEVER RECEIVED FLOWERS FLOWERS EITHER lol jk i got one flower from my bestie she gave all her friends one rose then another from my classmatein grade 4 who gave all the class officers a rose. but thats it hahahahah. if i really liked a guy, id give him flowers <3

'IM SO SORRY I DIDNT MEANT TO CONFUSE YOU' its ok its my revenge for dante. i learnt what it meant.

HAHAAHHAHAH ok then AHHAHA

yeah classical literature is a chore but... ive got a classical literature exam... i have no choice.... its pretty sometimes but when youre obliged to read it, esp at school... it wasnt meant for teens guys... ESPECIALLY russian classical literature....

so true. i find it hard to believe that boys rule the world. have you met a boy? THEY FUCKING DUMB. yeah simply because you HAVE to read it it feels like so bad to do T_T HAHAHAAH. i did very much enjoy my literature classes. my teacher was nice and me and my friends were nerds so AHHAAHAHAH we actually read the stories, except for that one time and no one in class answered, even me T_T and she was so disappointed in us and i was like IVE LET YOU DOWN T_T

can you tell anything abt filipino literature?

ok i was going to talk about one of the stories by our national hero but thats so basic. imma tell you about one of the pieces we read for that said literauture class. Under my Invisible Umbrella by Laurel Flores Fantauzzo. it's a personal essay which basically is about white privelage in the ph

the author laural is half pilipino and italian but she looks fully foreign ig and so she basically gets treated differently, better because of it. im actually like her, but insteaf of being half italian, i'm half jordanian so i get what she means on a real level. it goes both ways though i get good and back reactions

this is kind linked to by for a while i didnt believe i was pretty because my perceived beauty was only based on how foreign i looked. T_T its so weird/hard to talk about cos no one gets it and so sometimes i feel like an imposter. when other people around me say im pretty do they mean that because i am or because i just look foreign?

ANYWAY im hot. (:

'her dad an ugly rat L' ig its not enough for him. even cunt is not enough for him.

so true he's so trash ew ew ew

hasjsjs this aemond meme TT so true TT and i cant watch the tiktok as its banned in russia but i hope you laugh for me!

i gotchu

i found the one with the brown door AHHAAHAHHA it's the same guy though

also abt them! im finally watching official hotd's bts and WOW its so impressive? ig i needed to watch it insted of the series and wouldve been more satisfied.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAH

how were your classes?

my classes were ok HAHAHAH my teacher got upset with my classmate (its the first time i saw him angry i was scared) T_T well i mean my classmate was begging to sleep, legit he pulled a chair and laid down so my teacher when 'ok you do this next thing' and made him do the demonstration of plugging our equipment LOL KSKSSKSKSKK

tell me more abt filipino culture please! its interesting!

i'll tell you more next letter! i said so much this time HAHAHAH. i'll tell you about the works of our national hero!

have a nice day/evening/night/life! love you! take care<з

i hope you also have a good day baby cakes im luv u <3

stay safe do good <3

xxx

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ramblings about kamen rider outsiders bc if I don't get it out somewhere I'll fucking explode

First of all fucking insane for toei to just make Dan kuroto a dilf 😭😭😭 for the love of God do NOT MAKE THAT MAN A FATHER!!! I MEAN IT BENEFITS ME BUT LIKE...NO!!! I say this like he wouldn't already be a better father than fucking horobi (kills myself it's not his fcuking fault). My scary purple dad men collection keeps growing, my will. My will... Dan kuroto always on top baby.

Finally knowing what Dan is saying actually contributes a lot but finally knowing what zein is saying contributes almost nothing LOL which is fine thats chill, I wasn't expecting anything crazy, tbh I just wanted more evil images and things that could be said like this

Like what the fuck does this mean brom the fuck are u talking about Jesus christ. Mf really is an angel ai huh. It's peak. I'd say this type of shit before I REDACTED. Prolly gonna think abt him more than I should rn which is a very inconvenient time bc I can't DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. Maybe soon. My zein delusions are from a more angry and resentful and tumultuous part of my life and I'm glad I'm past that BUT to say the feelings have gone completely would be lying, but I can use it to my advantage more than I thought. Shrug.

And here it is. Finally. Knowing what they say. It's nothing groundbreaking but God. It's so good. They finally interact and the first thing they do is fuck 😭. You will never see two robots have such insane carnal disgusting satellite sex in your life, I can literally feel how badly ark craves that stupid blue bitch, it drives it fucking insane. The buildup to it chuckling and walking forward and then the shot of it looking at there with such potent intense desire drives me through the roof. It wants it so bad it's not even funny. It's desperate. Almost like it's saying please. Hurry up. Please. And there knows it. She knows how badly he wants it, she knows what's about to happen to her. She knows the years of wanting that ark feels, and is about to finally satisfy using her. I cannot stand seeing these two look at each other. It makes me fucking delusional. WHY. WHY DID THEY TURN ARK SOFT. LOVING. WHY IS IT LIKE THAAAAT 😭😭😭. TOEI AIMING FOR MY VITALS WITH THIS ONE. YEAH OK.

Can't forget the star of the show. Or stars rather. Literally TWO MFS. Worlds first canonical nb kamen rider and its because there's literally two mfs 😭. The text is perfect. The voice/voices are perfect. The way they fight is perfect. They are everything to me. They mean everything to me. They have given me what zero-one as a dumpster fire of a show could never give me. And it did the impossible. It made me get hype for somethign thouser related. Truly, the toei satellite above the Hudson valley has it out for me. I've never been so fuckign horny because of a kamen rider suit. It must feel immaculate to become a singularity with your other half. I know ark is feeling things it thought it could never, or never wanted to feel in it's life. I know it can never go back, and if it did go back, it would be fucking miserable. It would regret it, yearn for it every day of its life. Maybe it would even do anything just for a chance to become one again.

Sorry the self projections came out again

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head in hands /pos

im so glad so many people agree with me, i get kinda nervous about sharing some of my ideas and interpretations.

another thing i really like about mk's and macaques dynamic is that like...

Mk tries to help macaque but macaque is....macaque and either brushes mk off and changes the subject or he says something self destructive. says something along the lines of "please, like you of all people could help me" or " why dont we hurry along and get to the part where your finnaly fed up with me kay?" cause like....hes always been abandonded and he doesnt know what its like to. not. to actually have someone stick by you. so because he doesnt know how to handle this new and scary thing he'll try and run to whats familiar and when ppl do that its not always a good thing. In macaques case its pushing people away, hurting them and then being lonely again. but of course Mk might act dumb but he's not stupid, and he's not a pushover

Mk just looks at him, and ynow how mk is ussualy a sweet guy and optimistic. Macaque can bring out the harder side of him. the serious and real side. tells Macaque "fine, if you wanna live in self pity all alone go ahead. its your life" macaque looks at mk for a moment, expecting something more but he quickly realises how much he wanted mk to like...react differently. like how he did before when macaque said no to being a hero. when mk stirred him on to being a warrior. but no, this time...mk's...giving up on him?

but then before macaque can leave mk turns to him "im here if you want a friend but thats your decision to make, you wanna wallow in your own self pity forever fine but im giving you an out. im giving you a chance your the one that needs to take it. no one is going to drag you out of the hole youve been thrown into and keep digging deeper. its your choice to make"

"but ynow, if you want to stay sad hurt and alone thats on you, if you want a friend, if you want to be better-happier. then choose to be"

and THATS my favorite part. this little scenario i made up in my head where like...mk helps macaque help himself. he's not forcing macaque to heal he's giving macaque a choice. a realistic choice of actively trying to be better and happy or running back to self pity, lonliness and toxicity.

cause, its so easy to fall into that when you have no one, when no one cares about you and you have no one to care about

years ago i didnt have any friends, back in middle school. i was the wierd kid. i didnt really know how to socialise and i was really depressed. both of those combined made me not toxic but just in a REALLLY bad mental state that i wouldnt drag myself out of, in short i didnt see the light at the end of the tunnel. then i made a friend. she put up with my wierdness and encouraged my little rants about my passions and we ended up being REALLY good friends even today were still besties. my mental state improved ALOT bc of her.

not because she did anything special, she was just a friend.

so yeah i know macaques type, while i wasnt actively toxic (at least from what im aware of i didnt want to hurt anyone but i also didnt understand social cues and social things--still dont but i have better practice now) i was just really sad and lonely.

the best way for someone to get better long-term is to help them help themself and i know this from experience. thats the heart of thier dynamic and development that i LOVE.

also i like the idea of macaque making dark humor/ self depricating jokes and Mk making a broom out of his hair and smacking him like a feral cat "H-HEY!!" "STOP .JOKING. ABOUT. YOUR DEATH!"

then on Macaques side he teases Mk but then when somone else tries to mess with him its instant murder mode "dont mess with my kid"

Macaque acts carefree but he deeply cares about mk and his wellbeing so when any threat comes his way. whether its something small like an entitled customer or big like a super scary and powerful demon he's the first one next to Wukong and Mei jumping in to kick ass for Mk and probably bury a body.

also...also lmao.

wukong and macaque know how to hide and bury a body bc of thier history. but then are thouroughly shocked to learn Mei knows how to as well and is pretty skilled at it.

Macaque and swk are burying a body but then look over and see mei burying one as well. she looks over them and smiles, waves "hi guys!!" she cheers then goes back to digging.

Macaque notes to never piss her off again and counts his blessings since mk convinced her to not kill him after the samadhi fire thing.

how did this go from macaques mentality to mei burying a body?

no idea. but uuuh, yeah take it.

LISTEN, this is my inerpretation. if u dont see the things i do thats fine. idc. u have ur thoughts i have mine.

this is how i see macaque.

which ik most ppl wont see it the way i do and thats fine.

idk man hes pathetic but in a really really sad way.

He's self destructive, he's spiteful, angry, manipulative. hes an asshole.

but i like to think he's also loyal, caring and family oriented.

i have next to nothing to prove my coming claims but. here

say he was on ffm with wukong, lived there. before any immense trauma. He has wukong, he had friends, family. people he cares about.

but then wukong leaves.

the hunters come and take everyone from him. wukong comes back and brings a war. then ffm's burned down and everything he had left is gone.

reduced to ash.

so he goes to the only person he has left. he literally has NOTHING, other than Wukong. so he tries to find her. only to be told to leave. he's finnaly found the only thing he still cares about the only thing he has left and swk wants him to leave.

desperate he tries to antagonize the group to get them to kick out wukong again. doesnt work. he tries to kill trip. he ends up dead.

so in his last moments, he died with nothing, the only spark of hope he thought he had hasnt saved him. no it just. destroyed him.

so then he's revived. he still has nothing.

all he has is hate for swk. thats it. vengance spite and a need to survive. that will make anyone the asshole he is today.

but like. i see potential to be better. and caring. he needs to get his shit togethor but, if he had a friend. (cough-Mk-Cough) then i think he could pull himself togethor. not for his sake, but for this stupid kid that he's hurt yet still reaches out an olive branch. the only one he's seen in over a thousand years.

thats mostly why i like the mk and macaque dynamic

cause, mk isnt macaques fix. no. its more so. a reason for Macaque to pull himself back togethor.

Macaque has mostly never really had a reason, his only motivation fro anything is vengance against wukong and not dying. thats, a really sad life.

but if he has some other motivation like, doing something good bc mk would be proud, not doing something bc mk will be dissapointed and that first step can be a way to, help himself...help himself.

he just needs some other reason, something to live for other then vengance and then one day, one day he can make more friends, make up with wukong. pull himself back togethor after losing everythin. even hismelf

yeah.