#bc that has NOT been my experience in the past

[wetcatspellcaster]

Idk if anon was ever even interested in my actual opinion on this movie, but my full and final thoughts are that it was a very aesthetically clever and pleasing film, and very well-acted, but not as gruesome as I expected even after I spent the whole of it in anxious anticipation. I found that the story's message was ultimately quite conservative, and wished that the closing sequence had been more impactful in some way: either the violence at the manor more graphic or explicit (or just higher stakes), or the sex scene less... coy, considering she was fucking the sex demon she summoned from her brain.

I haven't read or seen previous versions of Nosferatu, so that final point is not necessarily a criticism of the movie, more just my final takeaway! The conservative elements of it as a modern horror adaptation surprised me. We briefly experience stepping outside the boundaries of polite society and touch on some taboo subjects, but apart from the one possession scene even those taboos aren't really shown or explored in depth, and then the status quo is utterly restored! In a classic gothic horror way, but one that felt like it leant more towards a conservative preservation than any of horror's destabilising properties.

Which is just my opinion... but it means that I now live in a final scene where Ellen woke up.

Again, I might just be beefing with the source text here, not the movie! But I think it would've been an interesting adaptation choice to not have Ellen die, or to think Ellen has died only to discover she hasn't, and your status quo hasnt been recovered as fully as you would like. Because yes, you have this monster, and you have this woman full of monstrous desire, who pushes past shame and steps outside the boundaries of society, but it's ok because she has patriarchal approval to do so and bc she ultimately dies in the end, so that monstrous desire is expelled and society returns back to normal (me when I'm so horny I cause a plague, etc.)

But... what if Ellen woke up? The monster is dead, and the day is saved.... but are you willing to accept the woman who embraced monstrous desire back into the fold? Or do you distrust her now, even when the monster she's summoned is dead by her own hand? Is she still too much of a destabilising factor in your society? Does she become the next monster you have to hunt?

I don't think there's any question that Thomas would accept her as she is and trust her wholeheartedly. But Sievers and Von Franz... now they're a different question entirely.

Have you seen Nosferatu yet?

Lmao anon I'm literally on my way to go see it at the cinema, here's some photos of my cute Mina Harker outfit you fucking psychic x

[makeoutstopcrime]

we really are living in a golden age for chenford right now

[thespectral-wolf]

Hello PLA fandom, I'm probably late by a year and also never played a single Pokemon game in my life, but I decided that that won't stop me from drawing stuff

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

[deservedgrace]

one of the more frustrating aspects of ex evangelical/ex cult stuff for me personally is how hard it is to talk about. and part of that is the emotional side of it, yeah it's a shitload of cumulative and compounding trauma and trauma is hard to talk about sometimes. but it's not always hard to talk about, or at least equally hard to talk about, and the thing that's honestly more frustrating to me about that is how... extensive it is, how impossible it is to give an accurate picture of what it was like, especially succinctly. there are so many things that you need context for. there's so much that doesn't really sound that bad unless you have other information. so much was normalized to me that i have a hard time knowing what's actually "normal" and what's "yikes" to other people because i simply don't always have the context for "normal". there's so much that's normalized in society and churches that gets dismissed as "normal" when it really, really shouldn't be. there's so much i just don't remember because it slipped out of my brain the same as "normal" unimportant memories because my brain didn't process it as abuse or traumatic at the time due to that lack of context of what "normal" is; it was normal to me and just what people did and how people acted and what people said. and the thing that happens is all of this compiles into me sounding like i'm exaggerating and whining about a "normal church experience" because it's just so impossible to describe how all-encompassing being in a cult is if you don't have that experience.

[jinstronaut]

happy new year, army!

another year with armyblr and another year of things i am thankful for uwu while i'm busier than usual and cannot make the things i used to make all the time, i'm still so grateful for having this creative outlet and having a place to share the love i have for these seven boys with people who love them just as much. you're all so special to me!!!! i want to recognize some of the people who've been extra kind to me and have made my journey on this blog as miraculous has it has been -- however, i cannot state enough that anyone who's ever interacted with my blog is so, so special and important to me. the work i do isn't just for myself, it's for everyone. i'm so glad to share my creations with anyone who wants to receive them!!! ♥

some of my mutuals who have been nothing but kind and supportive of the things that i manage to do while working my crazy work weeks -- i can and would move mountains for you all. you are so, so special to me and i love you so endlessly.

@jiniekook | @seokljin | @cordiallyfuturedwight | @aprylynn | @rjshope | @raplinenthusiasts | @starcatching | @heybaetae | @kimtaegis | @yooboobies | @bisexualrapline | @userhobi | @userjiminie | @sugaftrm | @jjwannie | @sevencoloredstar | @livelocks | @jkvjimin | @taegularities | @thv-hyung | @sopekooks | @kithtaehyung | @kth1 | @jimin-gaon | @jeonjcngkook | @ncytiri | @eoieopda | @cosmicdreamgrl

(part 2 coming in a reblog bc of tumblr's silly limits!!!)

[lightbulb-warning]

so has anyone figured out WHY there is the Need To Share our Artworks™ or is it just the vibes and our Soul apparently

[arctic-hands]

I always say the shingles saga as an immunocompromised sixteen-year-old was my near-death experience but then my mom will occasionally make musings of the time my heart stopped when I was 8 and I'm like oh yeah that happened

[wonho-ssi]

[aropride]

im so fucking mad abt the therapy thing i cant even express it Im gonna make a zine abt it later i think

[maybege]

btw i am still alive now that i have recovered from swiftkirchen and i hope you are all doing super well this summer! i am FLYING through my reading list atm which is amazing and i am feeling more and more inspired for things (footballer!paz anyone? roommate!paz as well maybe?) so hmu in the inbox it is TIME TO THIRST

[kuromi-hoemie]

hhhh talking about my writing was fun but 30 tags is not enough.. yes i have 3 major influences but i have minor ones too.. it is a lovechild of my favorite things.. writing is so fun and i have no self control or a concept of pacing myself i will sit there for 16 hours and get hit with every status effect but by god does it all just flow out of me. I've always been a music person yes but i also used to write a lot into early adulthood until The Incident™

but i am ready 2 jump back into it. i think comics are a great middle ground between the two mediums so i don't get As into writing bc i kind of started going crazy last time 🫡 i can take a more structured approach to it that forces me to pace myself and think about it differently. i love art.... i love making things i love knowing how to do things i love knowing how to play things i love having so many creative outlets, even if i don't do a lot of them regularly lol. it is enriching 😳 and nice to know that it's always there to come back to when u want.

[deus-ex-mona]

series i’m gatekeeping from my family vs series i’m ✨ok✨ with my family knowing i’m into:

[cosmogyros]

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[airenyah]

so i finally got to yank-kiss-yeet with my mom and when zo just leaves joke hanging after calling joke his boyfriend my mom (and me too actually) were already cracking up about it and then the scene continues and then the door opens and zo yanks joke inside and my mom laughs in surprise and goes "ahahah nice!!" and then they're kissing and my mom is like "that's a beautiful kissing scene. yeah, i get it now" and then zo yeets joke back out the door and we're laughing even harder and just continue to laugh all the way until the credits roll

[nightcxty]

VS STUDIOS - VALORY'S INTERVIEW

NC'S DOWNLOW MAGAZINE - ISSUE 001 [MUSIC EDITION]

There’s a nip in the air today—but it doesn’t make Watson any less popular with it’s usual tourists flooding the streets and hogging the food vendor stalls. Despite the ever rising crime rate in this district, the nightlife scene and cultural diversity still pulls people in on the daily, making this place one of the hottest spots in the bustling city.  Known for it’s many music bars and spectacular live act performances, it’s here where ‘VS Studios’ has made it’s home.

With the address of it kept a secret to the public, the location is far out of reach from any wandering tourists, locals or other prying eyes. 

Upon reaching what initially seems to be an abandoned lot, studio co-owner Valory Burton is already awaiting us at the side entrance with a welcoming smile. She’s opted her usual heavy black clothes for a light brown jumpsuit with her green hair tucked into a ponytail—she’s oozing the relaxed vibes one would only have on a day off.

“Was worried you guys got mugged,” Valory tells us with a cheeky grin, before shaking both our hands and leading us into the side entrance.

Entering the place, the phrase ‘never judge a book by it’s cover’ seems applicable here.

There’s an immediate living space upon entering, the smell of incense heavy in the air; the brown and green painted walls are aligned with shelves of books and golden records. The room has a T-design, with a comfortable seating area and a kitchen opposite of that.

“Books are my partner’s, he’s a real nerd,” Valory tells us with a loving grin, before offering us coffee and a homemade scone.

After our brief introduction, she takes the time to show us around; the door next to the seating area leading to the production unit. “This is where the magic happens,” Valory announces, while giddily showing us all the panels and gadgets, explaining what they’re for. 

The room in front of the production unit is where the artists are being recorded; her partner is sitting there strumming away on an acoustic guitar, a pen behind his ear and a notebook propped on the AMP next to him.

Upon spotting us and Valory through the glass panel window, he merely looks up with a glare and gives us a nod.

“Don’t take it personal—he’s not big on media,” Valory says apologetically before leading us back into the kitchen again.

So, Valory. First of all, congratulations on your recent success with “Requiem”. 

Oh, thank you so much. I’m so happy.

Did you ever expect it to be this big?

Nah—I genuinely can’t believe it would attract attention but I guess with my partner’s influence… *laughs* People were probably curious about the rumors and I don’t blame them. Just glad they actually stuck around for the music—means we did something right.

Was it a challenge to work with your partner on this? You both co-own the studio, correct?

Yes to both *laughs*. Kidding.

We got the idea a year ago to start our own production company—it was definitely a test but for all the good reasons. Same with the album—I expected it to be difficult but I was surprised at how easily we flowed together, creatively and intellectually. We’re very similar with our views on the world in that regard—we know what we want out of life.

How did you divide the work? How did you decide who gets what parts?

Oh that’s easy. I did the drums and a few key sections. My partner did both the bass guitar and electric guitar plus vocals. Most of the writing we did together, a few songs are ones we wrote completely by ourselves. You can hear me do a few backing vocals. 

The production, mixing and mastering we did together.

The writing is impeccable. What was the inspiration behind the project?

Thank you! 

I can’t say too much about that—-it’s classified. *laughs*

To put it in a nutshell, we both went through some heavy shit these past 2 years. 

This album was our way of healing in a way. It was an incredibly grounding experience.

We won’t pry. 

Thank you. Never actually done a personal interview before, so.

And we wanna keep that a positive experience!

Would you mind telling the readers a little about yourself? Where did you grow up?

I grew up everywhere and nowhere at all. Sounds awfully cryptic but I’m a nomad.

My clan originally hailed from Europe—-the Netherlands and the United Kingdom to be exact. When the flooding and riots started in both places, my clan jumped ship—literally. They thought the NUSA would give them better opportunities and they had contacts there.

That sounds quite intense.

I mean, I wasn’t alive yet to witness any of that—the badlands is all I’ve ever known. Although, I’ve been all over this country really.

Got a favorite place?

It changes from time to time—I’m too fucking nostalgic for my own good. Right now I really miss Colorado but I bet tomorrow I’ll be missing Nevada again.

What was it like, growing up in a clan?

My answer is always changing to that one, too. One day you hate your family because no family is perfect, the next you’re so grateful to be in such a loving community. I miss the camaraderie; Night City was so incredibly lonely in comparison. 

I can imagine. Did they have an influence on your upbringing as a musician at all? Or did you learn how to play the instruments in Night City?

That was them! Music was such an important aspect in my clan—we held open mic nights with barbeques. People would give a showcase of their musical talents, sometimes we’d even invite other neighboring clans to participate.

But aside from my clan—music is such an important aspect to Nomad culture. I feel like every clan has so many talented musicians; nearly everyone knows how to string a guitar or play a keyboard. So many talented writers that are unknown.

My father taught me how to play the drums—our clan had only 1 acoustic set, for the convenience of traveling. My mother taught me how to sing and play the keyboard.

Nomad life sounds wonderful—also, we don’t hear you sing a lot in your work.

Oh don’t be blinded by temptation—nomad life is a hard one. It’s rewarding but so hard, it’s certainly not suitable for everyone. That and the general distrust of outsiders.. *chuckles* 

“That’s because she’s a pussy.” 

Our interview is interrupted by the arrival of Valory’s partner—he’s slipped on his sunglasses as he brazely enters the kitchen area to pour himself a coffee.

When us, the two interviewers, look at him in confusion, the man smirks.

“Put that down on why you don’t hear her vocals—it’s cus she’s a fuckin’ pussy.” 

Would you mind if we ask you a few questions?

Can certainly fucking try. Will I answer though? Probably not—her interview after all.

Do you mind, Valory?

Not at all. Would love to see how this one plays out.

So—Johnny. Know you guys don’t talk about it all, but.. your sudden reappearance.

Yeah. What about it?

Care to share any details?

Nah. Just tell your readers I’m christ in the flesh, should make for a few good laughs and headlines.

V: Johnny! You can’t say shit like that.

Tough shit. Just did.

Very well, we’ll scratch that.

You wanna tell us a little about your revisit to the music scene?

Shit, not much to say. Might have changed but still a musician in my heart and soul—will probably die with an axe in my hands. Still got shit to say to the world through this medium.

We’ve asked your partner what it was like—to produce an album with you.

Oh yeah? *grins* What’d she say?

V: Can read it for yourself when it comes out.

We’re curious as to what your answer is to the same question.

Huh. Well, had a fucking blast actually. Getting to work with your own partner in crime and the one who knows you fucking inside and out—most easiest flowing collaboration I’ve ever experienced. Should’ve done it way earlier.

Why didn’t you? Do it earlier?

Pff, ask miss Pride ‘n Indepence here.

Valory?

V: Had my own reasons. Had to be ready, I guess.

Fair enough. So, Johnny. Is there a Samurai reunion in the works? Maybe a rumored re-recording of your masters?

“And that’s my queue to fuck off. Nice meetin’ you, I guess. Put Val’s ass on the front page—it’ll sell like hot cakes.” 

“Please ignore him. Don’t print that.” 

What are your goals for the future, Valory?

Oh. Way to break my balls with such a heavy loaded question *laughs*.

Well, certainly try and scout more artists. We’re really proud of who we’ve signed so far—they’re all so incredibly talented.

I definitely wanna expand on that, maybe add some new genres into the mix. Might even offer independent sessions to already signed artists, just so they’re free from any major label influence—but haven’t worked out the details yet.

Would be a slippery slope though, dunno if we can even achieve something like that without any contracts in place and that’s already a no-go for us.

Understandable. Is it challenging to be in this business?

As a woman, you mean? Yes and no—it’s mostly the view of the public that doesn’t take me seriously. They will see the words ‘woman’ and ‘sound engineer’ used in a sentence and think of something.. amateuristic. The people closest to me believe in me and that’s all I care about.

What about remaining independent as a label?

Yeah, that’s tough. Not many of us out there but the ones who are are here to stay. I’d like to think we are, too. We’re trying to stay fresh, without leaning into the heavy overproduced sounds you hear on the radio. I mean, nothing wrong if that’s what you like but that’s not our aim with VS Studios—we wanna stay true to our independent sound.

Well Valory. Thank you for meeting us and doing this interview. Is there anything you wanna tell our readers?

Never stop fighting. Support local artists. Be true to yourself.

“Pack it up, Buddha.”

.. Find someone who makes you smile.