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Maybe i am too fanfic-brained but mutually possessive/jealous hilson. In the show house does get super jealous of anything wilson does romantically, lol.
Back to the point; the possession/jealousy would be toxic as fuck for anyone else, but for them it's positive and healthy because they are freaks!!! Freak4freak!!! Weird and fucked up "he loves me" thing!!!
also possessiveness in the bedroom. Nice.
This ask !!!! Yes pls!!!!!
Their jealousy/possessiveness over each other is something else, that's for sure. It's not necessarily healthy but neither of those two have ever done well with "healthy" ["patients don't want a sick doctor" "well I don't like healthy patients."] They are the definition of Freak4Freak and they need that intense obsessive kind of love in order to break past all that repression. When you build a wall of stone around your heart, it's going to take a pickaxe or a sledgehammer to get through it, it's not something you can softly ease into to. You can lean on those bricks all day long but they're not going anywhere without a fight.
Obsession is one of their love languages and I think we see it best in early s5 when wilson knows house is stalking him, so he uses it to his advantage to mess with him and make him think he's dating a hooker and is on hard drugs. That moment when house asks wilson how he knew he was being watched and wilson says "Cane prints in the snow" is so insane like they are insane! What an insane thing to notice??? CANE PRINTS in the snow. How long did House spend outside his apartment, pacing up and down the sidewalk while wilson was upstairs with a nice woman named Cheri or Holly or smth like that? Wilson probably made her some dinner and told her about how his best friend is downstairs stalking them right now, thinking they're up here having sex or something because he's so concerned but can't bring himself to act like he cares the way he does. And you know wilson was just so smitten about it, probably grinning ear to ear because house loves him so much that he would pace in front of his apartment in the snow and watch him for hours on end and hire someone to watch him when he can't. It was house's way of being there for him when he couldn't make himself be emotionally available. It's not rational or normal in the slightest but wilson saw the effort house put into keeping an eye on him from a distance and he reciprocated that effort by playing into his games and showing him that that love was received!!
Not to mention all of that happens after Birthmarks. Wilson spent the last 4 episodes swearing that he was done with house, only to be the one to drug and kidnap him bc if anyone was going to drag him to that funeral against his will, kicking and screaming, it was going to be him. There was something very possessive about it all, locking the child lock, trying to keep his cane from him, keeping house on a vicodin leash. The kind of control wilson can have over house because he's the only one who knows how to handle him is very đľâđŤ yeah. Not healthy but exactly what they need. It's all about how much love they have for each other every single time they are feral and possessive and obsessed with each other.
And of course that would translate in the bedroom. If anything, it just gets worse once they're sleeping together because it's the easiest and most efficient way of showing their love for each other. Actually saying they love each other and don't want anyone else is much too complicated and scary, it is much easier for them to play psychosexual mind games and tease each other until one of them pulls the other into an empty room and releases that possessive energy onto the other. The easiest way for wilson to get a lil bit of house's attention is to simply stop the cute nurse in the hall and ask her where she got that pretty necklace from or laugh just a wee bit too loudly at a patient's joke as they're exiting the exam room. That's all it takes for house to sniff him out and get all twitchy about it. And when house wants wilson's attention, he starts whining about cuddy. Not whining that he wants her, whining about practically everything else, the tone she used, the demands she made, her attitude, the way she shrugged off his "compliments" about her ass. Because of course wilson will assume he's pining over her, that's the real reason he's complaining. Wilson gets himself all worked up about it until he's determined to show house that he's the only one he needs. And in those quiet moments after, they still don't have to say the words bc their actions spoke volumes. It's impossible to deny that they love each other when they spend all day long clawing at the walls for each other alfjalkg.
#chyanne speaks#house md#hilson#gregory house#james wilson#asks#loved this one i can NEVER get enough of them being jealous possessive freaks about each other
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sometimes you hear a song and you're like what do you mean people are making ship edits to this?!?!????
#rrrambles#is this a vague post? yes.#but i know im nosy so im just gonna say it#this is about:#too sweet#and#how do i say goodbye#bc one of those is romantic and i can get it#but they all get the dynamic wrong#it's like we can be if you weren't so sweet and perfect and jot tainted by life like me#and the other is just straight up abt parents#like what???#fandom#media literacy#music#shipping#ship edit
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Intersectionality is something that, sadly, is often pushed to the side in Arcane discussions, specifically from a certain side of that fandom. They will go on and on about Viktor, as they usually do, talking about how he suffers from classicism and ableism within the show and fandom respectively (as they should as these are issues, but there is a catch when it comes to these fans as well), but when others in the fandom, especially Mel or even Sky fans, point out the racism and misogyny (misogynoir) that is often rampant in this fandom, particularly from said fans mentioned prior, all of a sudden its not possible or being overdramatized. Like they suddenly can't understand how some of their rhetoric includes or invites the same thing black fans have been calling out since the beginning, because how can you discuss the ableism and such that Viktor faces, but laugh or joke around with people who call Mel slurs or just denounce her to a trope? I thought you were for calling out forms of hate within fandom, or does your "activism" only stretch so far? And back to a previous statement, about the catch regarding those particularly fans----some of them regurgitate the same harmful rhetoric towards Viktor that they say they supposedly hate, just in mode subtle ways. How are you going to say you hate when Viktor is infantilized, but will be quick to forget he's a grown man who can defend himself (often when trying to pair him against Mel, framing her as the aggressor, and sometimes even Jayce too but to a lesser degree)? Not saying Jayce doesn't get equal amounts of hate, but his more so gets pushed aside along with his character to ultimately frame Viktor in higher regard, often making him ooc. It's like they pick and choose when the issues are prevalent, and when they aren't, and it's so frustrating.
#and it's so annoying to see as someone who for actually doesn't mind/kind of likes viktor as a character bc whenever i try to interact more#with him in fandom these types of fans make it so hard bc they overwhelm you with things that are so out of character that they practically#rewrite arcane to where viktor becomes overt stereotypes and looses what made him interesting to begin with#like you can hardly find analysis on his character at the end of s2 and how that is ACTUALLY SAD without getting the 3rd degree or see#j*yviks paint it as romantic#and it's very gross how they often frame viktor in this way to frame poc characters (like mel or jayce) as aggressors while ignoring how#everyone in arcane is flawed (including viktor) to different degrees and how characters can disagree without actually hating one another#(this is especially prevalent regarding melvik where people act like it can't happen bc mel âlooked at viktor wrongâ#but will be the same people to ship jayvik even though jayce was classicst as well....noticing)#but it's very weird how they only always talk about mel in regards to how she is around viktor & nothing else but complain about how mel#fans don't understand her---which is bs bc you'd be hard pressed to find many mel fans who don't write 1k thesis on her#heck some even say that the council bombing was justified even with mel being there!#and if they really want to go into detail about how mel's class and inaction impacts zaun fine go ahead but why stay silent#when people point out how she eventually changed and strived to help them or how viktor ended up causing more harm than good down the line?#like these could be great narrative stories for how one character starts with wanting to help those in need but becomes corrupted by his#own ambition and ends up becoming a bigger threat than what he and others like him suffered with before#but no it's easy for them to paint mel = bad and viktor = smol who can do no wrong#arcane#anti arcane fandom#arcane viktor#arcane mel#mel medarda#fandom criticism#fandom racism#fandom misogyny#also bc you can tell these people are on some bs bc they'll rave about how mel didn't care about zaun (which is untrue) but turn around and#say âbut jayce-â like he wasn't causing zaun trouble as well#like im all for being critical about mel's complacency about zaun and all but don't act like jayce is any better#matter of fact why even try to do that? what purpose did it serve when there's literally proof against your point? hmm
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if i see one more post about how solas/mythal/elgar'nan had a weird love triangle thing going on i'm gonna scream
#probably gonna annoy some people by saying this#but i think it is really telling that taash's response 'they were doin' it'#is positioned in a way that strongly implies it's the immature response to take#not to say i'm 100% right bc they left it deliberately vague for a reason#you're meant to make up your own mind#and i personally do not see this as a stupid love triangle bc a. i fucking hate love triangle plots they're overdone and boring#and b. it's stated multiple times that the ancient elves felt things in different ways that can't be fully understood by mortals#so deducing that it was a romantic bond is an oversimplification of something that's actually very abstract#falon'din and dirthamen were called both twins and lovers by legends but it turned out to be neither of those things#they were just one spirit split into two#the only two that i think were actually romantically involved were ghil and andruil bc it's stated that they fell in love in the abyss#and there are statues of them naked holding hands apparently#we didn't get enough info about sylaise and june to really say much about their relationship#the actual regret memory of solas and mythal meeting in secret#is the memory that the inquisitor gives to rook#and it appeared after the ritual was interrupted and solas killed varric#when varric told him to stop#when varric expressed his love for his friend and died for it#the parallel is not of lovers but of solas taking mythal's place and varric taking his#ugh i'm just so uncomfortable with the solas/mythal romance stuff#like it actually nauseates me#not out of jealousy but bc his whole story is him dealing with the horrific trauma bond he formed with her#and those are so often borne from family bonds#like mythal is just one big mother wound to solas#i honestly think if they were lovers they would just state it as such#but people have a hard time imagining devotion as being anything other than romantic ig#sad bc platonic relationships can sometimes be more intense than romantic ones
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Celebration time đ
Happy 100 followers everyone! Thank you all for following my silly side blog, and for enjoying my work! To celebrate, I made a lil quiz to match you with one of the housewardens. Originally I wanted to do all characters but that would be a humongous task, so if this one does well, I might do a vice-house warden one later on.
Happy quizzing!
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland x reader#twst#quizzes#uquiz link#uquiz quiz#twst x reader#thank u thank u so much everybody#this is something small cuz exams have been killing meeeee#but I just really wanted to celebrate#this just made me imagine an nrc dating show#like love fairies have invaded nrc and are forcing students to participate in match making reality tv show#they canât keep re using the ghost bride event but they can play with our hearts#just imagine the whole being forced to act romantic to appease the overlords#malleus doesnât even do shit bc heâs enjoying it too much#this also reignited my thoughts of doing some sort of cyoa with twst characters#have I also mentioned I wanted to write one of those âthere was only one bed!! sorta scenarios?#cuz I do and itâs been hitting me in the head for quite awhile#I also have love triangles I wanna finish and also like 2928283828 individual stories#have I told yall about my little mermaid azul au where azul is the little mermaid? that shit be in my head for like 3 years now#thereâs also a 50s au deuce story#and a sound of musicesque au with Lilia and the diasomnia gang#and a my fair ladyesque one with vil and rook#oh oh oh and also the 1920s mafia au with the mermafia and killer for higher reader#who is roped into being Azuls fake fiance#if only I was literate and not just a monkey with a brick hitting a typewriter#if you read all of these tags u get a cookie#and probably a psychological evaluation
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i'll be honest, i truly do not understand when people get all up in arms whenever anyone involved with spn describes cas's love for dean as beyond the human understanding of love, as if there haven't been posts made on here for years by fans literally describing cas's love for dean / destiel's love as akin to worship, a powerful force greater than god, cosmic, all encompassing, profound, etc etc. i thought the outrage was silly when jensen expressed the idea of cas's love being more than romantic back in denver con 2021 and i think it's silly now with these bedlund tweets. not to mention being more than and beyond something imo means it encompasses the romantic AND more. it's romantic, it's platonic, it's cosmic, it's worship, it's everything. and i think that's beautiful. and yes, it's exactly what their love is. a huge profound force that changed the narrative, that wasn't meant to be there, that kept breaking through anyway.
and i understand what people are saying about this language being used for a queer ship etc etc, but like, there's nothing inherently wrong or negating their love in saying that it's a greater love. if anything i think it's saying, hey, see these two? yea their love is bigger than what we can even comprehend. idk i'm just going to continue to take these statements in good faith. and also, until the reboot happens, they can't really say more about destiel beyond the bounds of the confession. jensen, bedlund, misha, etc can't speak to dean's feelings, for instance, or confirm anything one way or another, because if those feelings are a major plot point to be explored and acknowledged in the continuation then to speak about them now with any kind of definitive statement would be spoiling / jumping the gun, and it's not their place to make those statements yet, if we are indeed going to see more of dean and cas's story in the future (which i mean, at this point based on their statements about the reboot it's really a When not If situation).
#my two centsâ#personally i love their profound bond and cosmic out of this world love#yes it can also be incredibly human. but i also think there is inherently a greater aspect to it simply bc it IS a supernatural show#and one half of the couple is a supernatural being. and also. their story itself is profound and great and god-defying#i also think how being an angel intersects with cas's love is an interesting concept to explore as a storyteller.#even as human of an angel as he is by the end of the show he still spent a millennia as one and that's still a part of who he is#and it will influence his perception on love and how he feels it. how for an angel these feelings might be heightened or different#and that doesn't make those feelings not romantic or queer. but the angelic contexts of cas's love is interesting !!!#it's neat and fun to think abt !!!!#i also think the reason other angel / human couples don't get spoken about as such is just. well. they're minor characters#and their stories are different.#destiel and their entire journey together is inherently a very profound story imo that the other couples just don't compare to#vic.txt#profound bond#fandom
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One of the hardest things about writing superlantern is figuring out whatâs the deal with clois in this universeâŚtheyâre literally soulmatesâŚ.why is clark with hal and not loisâŚ.
#ily clois <3#iâm writing this bc iâm considering giving lois mayson drake as her gf in this superlantern one shot iâm writing#as a throwaway line but still#bc like as much as I like superlantern I think I write them as one of those couples#who kinda just come out of left field. like both in-universe and meta speaking#like clois is Meant To Be ykwim.#romantic or platonic Lois is always going to be an extremely important person in Clarkâs life. maybe The Most important person.#so in superlantern fics I always think abt her and her dating history with clark#and if they didnât work out why? and if clark and hal work out why is their relationship different from clark and loisâv#oooh wait hold on Iâm thinking#one of the main tensions in Clois relatiomship (at least in Lois & Clark: The New Adventures of Superman)#is that Clark is kinda flighty. itâs not his fault bc being Superman is a really time consuming job that he needs to be able to go whenever#but maybe in this universe Lois and Clark date but they realize that that issue is smth they cant get past#<- esp w Loisâ issues w her military dad putting work above her as a child#so like they can be best friends and theyâre fucking great as best friends#but that can be my reason for why they both choose not to date#bc this clark doesnât figure out how to have a more stable Superman-Clark balance and he thinks that lois deserves better#whereas with hal#hal is even MORE busy than clark always getting called off to space and shit#so i think they would both be extremely understanding whenever one of them#needs to leave#as for Lois/Mayson (do they have a ship name? this show is from the early 90s surely someone mustâve thought of one)#theyâre character foils. need I say more.#ok but no fr like theyâre character foils in the sense that they were written to be polar opposite love interests for Clark#Lois loves Superman and likes Clark#(in a super reductionist oversimplified manner of speaking)#(really Lois is infatuated with Superman and has a slowburn with Clark)#whereas Mayson is immediately taken with Clark but disapproves of Supermanâs modus operandi#simu's two cents#lois & clark: the new adventures of superman
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getting real tired of people who are shitting on âfound familyâ more generally as a narrative concept and specifically named familial dynamics in fan interpretation of characters in particular because it all seems to be getting painted with a really wide and really homogenous brush. âwe need to take found family away from people because they think it all has to be In Nuclear Family Terms and do you know friendship exists and you donât have to call these characters siblings to legitimize their relationship while making it clear you Donât Ship Them Ew Gross and THEN you sneer at people who Do ship themâ cool cool that is a lot of really intense characterization and assigning of motive to other people en bloc!
like sure thereâs some meaningful critique to be found in a broad trend to label every single relationship directly and specifically with terms that have very specific contexts and roles but im waiting to be told when anyone IS by the standards of people making and reblogging these very sweepingly generalized posts allowed to call a relationship parental or whatever. is that Ever allowed. who is handing out the permits. sometimes a specific term for a relationship isnât actually about wanting an excuse to sneer about your ship (and frankly thereâs a lot of projection going on there imo from people who are actively sneering about other peopleâs interpretation of a relationship!) and itâs because there are very specific contexts and details about a dynamic that makes exploring it from the lens of siblings or whatever very rich and compelling and interesting because words mean things and assuming everyone is just being reductive and demanding conformity to a nuclear family is, ironically, really reductive.
so like. cool it. stop being really fucking mean about people having an interpretation of a dynamic you personally donât like or makes you feel a little weird or uncomfy because you ship them.
#gav gab#im so tired of seeing people do this lmao#is someone actually being reductive and trying to get your ship labeled âbasically incestâ#or did they just express on their own blog that they donât ship something bc they see those characters as siblings#so it feels weird to them#you know#the exact personal preference and interpretation youâre expressing in the opposite#itâs all âUGH not every relationship NEEDS A SPECIFIC LABELâ as soon as the label isnât romantic lmao#like amazing of you to start caring about how friendship matters as is legitimate without anything else#as soon as itâs not about your fucking ship anymore :)#be real you do not care about friendship lmao you can just dismiss it more easily and comfortably#when people arenât using terms that are more loaded to your ship#are the big meanie found family enjoyers actually harassing you for shipping fake incest#or are you just uncomfortable when it is not about you#and chronically unwilling to curate your experience the way you demand other people to#because fandom has always catered to shipping and why should it ever Not be expected to do that#bc I sure see a lot of shit talking of familial dynamic labels based on people who use those labels being weird to other people#and not a lot if any of those people actually being weird to shippers#and one or two isolated incidents is not indicative of a widespread problem#do what everyone who doesnât like a popular ship does and unfollow and block lmfao grow up
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I try to not be hater, but then I see the stupid takes and get madddddd
This is just what I feel every single time I see those shitty opinions
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#WELL ACTUALLY YOU'RE WRONG BC IF OCHAKO SAID SHE FELL IN LOVE WITH DEKU WE NEED TO FOCUS ON THAT WHICH MEANS SHE'LL CONFESS TO HIM#THIS IS FORESHADOWING FOR THEIR RELATIONSHIP U R JUST GASLIGHTING YOURSELF BC HER ARC WAS PARTIALLY ABOUT LEARNING TO LET HERSELF LOVE HIM#tf you mean ppl are still making this fight about deku???#âshe said she fell in love with him we win!â tf? it wasn't a reveal#much like the story with her parents we already knew that- this was about opening up to himiko so she could understand her better#and the way it was portrayed confirms this; we pointed out in the manga ochako's face being covered by her hair bc it means we shouldn't fo#focus on that rather than her next statement -she's there as herself not as a hero#this is her being selfish and open in order to reach out to himiko's sadness#and yet ppl are trying so hard to focus on the thing we weren't meant to focus on#and even taking away the deku memory they still made it about him#âochako is jealous oh toga expressing her love which means she wants to confess to izuku too!!â#SHE LITERALLY SAID SHE ENVIES HOW HONEST SHE IS WITH HER FEELINGS AND SHOULDNT HIDE HER LOVE NOR FACE LIKE HER PARENTS TOLD HER#SHE SAYS SHE WANTED TO AT LEAST TELL HIMIKO HOW LOVELY HER SMILE IS#TO THE POINT OF WANTING TO BE LIKE HER IN THIS WAY#THIS ISNT HER BEING JEALOUS OF HER TELLING DEKU SHIT OR YEARNING TO CONFESS#THE EPILOGUE CONFIRMS THE FEELINGS SHE WAS HIDING WERE ABOUT GRIEF AND FAILURE AS A HERO#YOU DONT HAVE TO BE A TOGACHAKO IN ORDER TO UNDERSTAND THIS#CANT WE FUCKING ENJOY F/F CANON CONTENT FOR ONCE WITHOUT SOMEONE SAYING#GRRRRGRGRGRGRGGRGRGRGR#WE FINISHED HER ARC AND IT WAS ABOUT HER LETTING HERSELF GET HELP WITHOUT FEELING LIKE SHE MUST BE LESS OF A HERO#ABOUT HER GRIEVING AND WANTING TO DO MORE TO HELP SOMEONE ABOUT HER NOT WANTING TO HURT OTHERS WITH HER FEELINGS#DONT YOU UNDERSTAND HEROISM IS THE LEAST ROMANTIC THING FOR A FUCKING HERO NERD#DONT YOU UNDERSTAND???? SHE DOESNT ACCEPT ANY OF HER FEELINGS LIKE HIMIKO DID#AND WHILE THEY TALK ABOUT THE BOYS THEY LIKED ITS NOT ABOUT THEM ITS ABOUT THE GIRLS FINDING SUPPORT IN EACH OTHER#PICTURE ONE OF THOSE FEMALE RAGE COMPILATION VIDEOS#I think they can easily get terfy and im not even a woman but the screaming is the vibe of this post#grrr being a hater#Youtube
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Being aromantic and finding that out in ur 20s is soooooooo funny bc I met the 3 people I consider my soulmates (one of whom is now my qpp) in october of 2016, and both before and after this i dated a few people but as i grew closer and closer w this group and also came into my gender and sexuality over the yrs, id sometimes wonder why i didnt crave romantic fulfillment anymore, and not fantasize about having a long term bf or anything. It didn't really worry me? Like, I wasn't concerned about it, but I would go like huh wonder what's up w that. Oh well not my problem!, every now and then
And then thru making friends w a bunch of arospec folks I was finally like oohhhhhhhh it's because my emotional fulfillment needs are already met and these people and our friendship is an intrinsic part of my being and i love them more than i can ever hope to describe. Got it!
#and z speaks#its not like i didnt know what aromanticism was! i even id'd as ace for awhile! im not anymore but i was on those fringes right#and its bc im aro in the weirdest way possible#bc i loveeee love and romance and i enjoy dating! sort of!#im one of those ppl that skips right to the old marroed couple phase bc i Hate the casual small talk phase#and i get crushes on my friends a lot bc i have so much love in my heart to give#its just not like. romantic!#if youve read the scholomance trilogy just look at el. thats me#we're aro in the same way#ANYWAY im just thinking about non traditional love and affection and how id let my friend silver do martial arts on me if they werent at the#other end of the state#and how in love i am w my qpp. and my embarrassing crush on [REDACTED bc i KNOW nos js gonna see this. no one can know] is#the worst part about that crush is its probably like glaringly obvious to them and i dont care That much bc having crushes is fun#i dont intend to act on it im just vibing#but the thought. that they might know. little mortifying#if u read all of these tags ur owed financial compensation
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Trying to make Vanyel and Stavenâs relationship as unhinged and weird as possible
#I think that they would make each other so much worse#Iâm imagining a dumpster fire so terrible that the families stage an intervention#theyâre not romantic. theyâre not platonic. theyâre not fraternal. theyâre not antagonistic. whatever they are itâs worse than any of those#their lives are tangled together forever but only Vanyel gets a second chance. Staven is alone forever#and Vanyel is both the closest he can get to what he lost and the most painful reminder of what he lost at the same time#they facetime for hours every day for a month and then donât talk to each other for three years.#being in the same room as the two of them together is unbearable.#Vanyel tries one (1) time to explain whatâs going on to his therapist but gives up halfway through bc itâs one of those things that is both#inexplicable to an outside AND something he doesnât want to fix#anyway. this dynamic might evolve and change as i write more of it but for right now i think weirdâ˘ď¸ is the play#gay herald in a squirrel suit
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there is undeniable opportunity to make bellum x linebeck fucked up but i dont have it in me. im a sucker for it just being fine with a side of like. light nautical crimes against nature but i cant make it toxic or w/e after a certain point. theyre chilling
#bellum x linebeck#salty talks#this is a light hearted post btw this is me celebrating enjoying making it soft at the end of the#the fucked up stuff is reserved for whatever happens during possession and also when theyre not romantically involved#ie. a lot of my aus. tbh tho they do also border on romantic? in a âcanonâ ph or ph adjacent setting theyre just chilling#theres nothing straight up like really toxic with those bc 1 not my thing and 2 woulsnt really add anything imo#like i do think they can just strike up an agreement to not screw with each other and bellum figures he doesnt need to mess with linebeck#its the bonus of bellum canât verbally communicate without showing that he has a human form#anyways. ive decided i cant actually warch gravity falls until i finish the fic anyways#i need to be able to say i havent seen it while i write this fic. there are too many possible connections i need this#also like. the most impact gravity falls has actually had on my life has been me seeing those twink humanizations of bill years ago#and that therefore being the main fucking reason why ive been fighting tooth and nail to get to the bellum humanization i have now#that fucker has caused me so many problems and i only recently found out what his fucking voice sounds like#anyways surprise surprise the person writing this fic for self indulgent reasons is catering heavily to themselves#tbh in post this fic and post ph (where its less like theyre dating and more like he occasionally makes it a polycule)#all of the bad shit is gotten out of the way before anything actually starts#with the aus where its a little more fucked its more just like. homoerotic. with different relationships around it#THO i do feel like theres somehow a pressure to make it fucked up? cuz its the default yknow. but i dont rlly like that so no#i think its more interesting for the work to be put in for it to be decent. i mean square one is bellum using linebeck as disposable bait
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Okay but I need to be someone's beloved wifepet and belong to them completely and be able to pour my whole energy into just loving them. When will it be my turn!
#it won't be honestly#I do not think I will ever actually get to have that#I'm not pretty and I'm disabled in ways that both physically and mentally make me unappealing#so no one really wants anything real with me#especially JUST with me#and I'm *scared* of hurting someone with my craziness tbh#and I only trust like. 3 people at all rn and for various reasons none of those people and I are going to date#and in most of those cases I'm very relieved and in the other there's mixed feelings but mostly positive bc again. i don't want to hurt any1#but i still yearn for it#it's still an emotional need#and I hate that it just isn't ever going to be met#it actually hurts so so badly knowing it won't be met#but i also understand that some people just dont get that kind of happiness#some of us just don't get to be loved#some of us are too ugly and crippled and insane for people to *want* us#i just don't really... want to keep going knowing thay#I'll post it here in the tags bc no one i know reads this blog#(a few know about it but it's not like anyone ever checks it)#but I'm definitely ideating and at risk rn#and i feel pathetic that this is what's doing it#but im an emotionally gooey person and a physical touch person and I'd already been thinking relationships probably werent something i can#like. even do#but then there was a blowup with my ex and like. it was made clear that i can not safely engage with anyone#like emotionally or romantically or sexually#because I'll just hurt them.#like there are parts of me i would like to change but are such a core part of me that they will never change#and they will always hurt someone if we're together ling enough#so im just going to idk.#isolate now tbh#im just gonna cry so much and know i will NEVER have what i emotionally need out of life
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people with their fave's extra hours of dialogue and double the romance scenes claiming the char in question wasn't l*rian's writers' pet... I can't this is a stupid fucking hill to die on and that is objectively provable there is a reddit thread where someone literally did the maths. You are just wrong and you need to shut up.
#tbd#(1) one character in bg3 got more romance content than eeeeveryone else by a pretty vast margin#a clown who works at l*rian literally admitted to the blatant favouritism what more do you need#a clown i might add who in their own words#was the narrative design LEAD who worked with individual character writers to plan and develop storylines :^)#and magically only had time for the (1) one character who you keep insisting isn't a writer's pet#as if writing all those extra interactions wasn't giving more work to everyone down that pipeline during crunch lmfao#which is even more irresponsible#but soo many people at l*rian just let that happen lmfao#i love how it's like 'BUT THE STATS SAID'#it's only proving the fucking point my dude#the stats in both early access and full release said a certain couple of chars were the most popular to romance#meanwhile both those characters only got half the potentially romantic scenes the writers' pet did#(1) character got preferential writing over ALL the others for the durge romance like jesus christ#'more talked about than your fave' my god shut up you cretins#like shut the fuck up and sit the fuck down#you can get a seat at the table of people who have every right to bitch when l*rian writes in more romance scenes so it's six for EVERYONE.#and all those fucking extra wittle durge interactions#EXIST FOR EVERYONE ELSE#and now i go back to my hiatus bc this site is bad for my blood pressure#fandom wank#bg3 critical
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things 10 does that make yaz feel like oh yeah this is her doctor alright: flying the tardis, when he gets all nerdy abt sciency stuff
things 10 does that make yaz stare in stunned disbelief: flirty as fuck?? timelords this timelords that
things 10 does that make yaz zone out for five minutes entertaining fantasies that are confusing in the way only things involved with time travel can be: brainy specs
#10: yaz. yaz. yaz. YASMIN KHAN#yaz: whAt#10: i was talking. you stopped listening#yaz: im listening#looks at him. still wearing the glasses. beat. he gets it. he grins#yaz: nO. no. no! no. it's not you. dont get any ideas!#10 smirking bc he knows the effect he has on girls and it's kind of annoying it hasnt been working on yaz so far: đ#yaz: you wish#i think my favourite thing abt the yaz&10 dynamic im imagining is that it is and will be always entirely platonic#like truly little sibling vibes theres a lot of chemistry they work together WELL. but none of it is even remotely romantic#was talking to leslie and they were like. at every cute blonde girl 10 would be like *wistful sigh* rose and yaz would be the same but abt1#which is confusing in the way only time travel can be again#and they would have fun with it#start trying to one-up each other impressing cute girls#neither of them truly interested in actually inviting those girls on board#it's just a game it's a little competition. it's bonding between THEM#to be the most charming doctor#there really is a lot abt this vibe with christina that i think he'd have with yaz too#except the lord&lady thing i said#but maybe thats just bc theyre in the same period for 10#christina doesnt get on board bc 10 is scared the same way as 13 was#but yaz wont give him the chance to not let her on board. she just walks in#yaz&10
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I say this with no malice btw but reading old ask from this blog always makes me wonder if all those people who called me autistic were right
#ok there arent THAT many ppl who have called me autistic. excluding my parents its not even 5#but reading the things i myself have said makes me think like... yeah ok credit where credit is due#you got me there#im not autistic btw but i sure do sound like that in like every one of those ask games đ#'i need someone who means what they say': girl after being pissed off that their gf didnt want them to LITERALLY come over right this second#just bc she sent a 'i wish u were here :( i miss u' text#ok to be fair i still think it was cunty of her to not see the romantic gesture of me coming over#so actually fuck her. im not autistic and i react normally to things#relationships are hard at 17 what can i say :'(#i only hope to find someone again whom i may stupidly misread their sappy text. get on a bus for. only to ultimately turn back. embarrassed#i wish for a love worthy of my embarrassment! godbless#!
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