#bc ill prob understand all of it at that point

[skitskatdacat63]

Roleswap anyone??

Tell me Fernando wouldn't make a fantastic general/emperor, and that Napoleon wouldn't make a fanastic driver/tp!!

[choccy-milky]

OKAY HEAR ME OUT CHOCCY SEB GIVES CLORA A SNAKE RING?!?!

Soooooo rereading the fic and I’m back to chapter 33, and it totally popped into my head that they are IN THE VICTORIAN ERA and do ya know what was super popular after the engagement ring that Queen Victoria was given by Prince Albert? A SNAKE RING

AND IF THAT AINT SEB TREATING CLORA LIKE THE QUEEN SHE IS THEN I DONT KNOW WHAT IS 😭💙💚✨

Thank you for coming to my ted talk 🫣😂

LMFAOO YESS TRUST ME, IVE SEEN THIS AFTER DOING MY OWN RESEARCH ABOUT VICTORIAN RINGS, ITS SO PERFECT!! AND THE FACT THAT ITS GREEN TOO LMAO, prince albert was a possessive slytherin confirmed!!🤪 but yea ill DEFS be incorporating a snake into the final design of cloras ring HAHA. i basically HAVE to...yknow, for period accuracy 🥰

WOO YAY im glad i could inspire you to start writing!!!🙏and i get it, writing fanfic is defs self indulgent and for ourselves first and foremost, but obvs nobody wants to release their work into the void😩 as for how my own fic got popular, one of the main things is defs timing. i published the first chap basically within the first week of the game being out (it came out on the 10th and my chap was on the 18th) so it was there right at the peak/start of the fandom. but i also dont wanna attribute it all to timing BAHHA cuz i think im a pretty good writer and that helps....my fic also didnt get popular right away, but i was consistently posting every single week + eventually started adding art every single week, and was just really dedicated to not only writing but also drawing art for it (which is also obvs another huge factor/probs the biggest factor). ive had so many ppl tell me they started reading my fic bc they saw my art on pinterest or something LOL, and some ppl have even read it fandom-blind bc they were into the seb/clora dynamic??? which is another point actually. i always joke about how i love my cliches and good girl+bad boy dynamics, and that im unashamed about loving them LOL, but also...they're cliches for a reason!!! lots of us eat that shit up!!!😤so i think thats defs another factor, vs if my fic was a bit more niche and avant garde LOL the fandom is also (understandably) a lot slower than it was at the beginning of the year so itll be harder in general, but maybe you could commission art to go with your fanfic? ive seen a lot of other HL fanfic writers do it, and i think it defs helps to draw attention! GOOD LUCK and i hope you keep writing!!!🫡💖💖💖🙌

huh??? go with the tide pods instead, THAT shit looks bussin😩😩

AWW TYY😭😭I LOVE THAT HAHAH AND IM GLAD U THINK SO💖💖 my friend also asked me this question after seeing my recent ask, and i STILL have no idea what i would have named it instead LMAOO, thats how bad i am at naming things. even a year later im like bruh idk!!! clora and sebs bizarre adventures??? i guess id probs make it something light/dark themed in retrospect, or something more specific to the ancient magic, but i still have no idea what LOL

[qoldenskies]

same anon!! i feel validated so yes to everything you said. it was “Taking Care of your Brothers: A Two-part guide by Mikey and Donnie” by Calliopes_Anon that really made me change my perspective on how these two might act, particularly the mikey chapter simply because we get to see him look out for donnie as much as don looks out for him

and i think the fact there even was a mikey pov, much less one as thoughtful and detailed as that one is, helped a lot. because like. i can’t think of another fic envisioning this pre-movie state with a mike that isn’t constantly scared. kinda eye-opening for me lol

and yeah i do like the sorta ‘i don’t know if it can be fixed’ vs ‘i don’t know how it can be fixed’ mindsets from them and gosh i wish they didn’t take such a backseat during the movie bc i would’ve loved to see them have more of a reaction to the other two than just mild concern. i’d like to explore a version of the movie where they are frustrated, dare i say resentful, with their older brothers because ‘yeah raph can argue how much leo’s new attitude and its consequences are affecting the team. but does raph even understand that extent?’ it’d prob be a whole movie rewrite due to the fact it’s so raph and leo heavy, but isn’t that the beauty of fanfic

oh and yes to your point about donnie’s neurodivergence bc as sweet as it is to see him in fics gifting mikey his own noise blocking headphones, mikey would probably yell at them to shut up for five seconds before putting dons on his head for him

would love to see that pre-movie fic of yours one day!!

yeah with the neurodivergence thing i do genuinely feel like it would go the other way around cause like ,,, donnie is SO jumpy in canon. unexpected loud noise will even make him fall over sometimes, which means he's particularly sound-sensitive. and as a person with a trait exactly like that, i cannot handle shouting. at all. even when i expect it, it completely throws me off my game and scares the shit out of me. like i usually write it so donnie already struggles to handle getting yelled at, but i could see being in the proximity of it freaking him out too.

i do think that'd be one of those things that would piss off mikey in particular because as much as they make fun of each other and get fed up with each other, it's such an obvious and easy boundary to respect in his eyes. mikey can definitely handle yelling, even if it upsets him to see them arguing, but he would hate it because donnie very much cannot. he'd probably at least snap at them to stop or go do it elsewhere lmao

and resentment towards something like this kind of depends on just how bad raph and leo's dynamic actually was, because while its pretty heavily implied they've been arguing like this kind of continuously (especially based on their talk before they go on that mission that has them lose the key), raph's "i have to look out for you or you could all end up dead" talk feels like something that's ,,, new? considering how leo reacts to it initially before pretending to brush it off. maybe leo just normally derails the conversation faster, or normally they dont have arguments like this in private lmao

definitely what fic's for ,,,, raph and leo kind of going back to the dynamic they had in bug busters (but reversed, and likely more intense) while donnie and mikey kind of pair off together is a really interesting thing to play around with, especially with how they naturally they just go and stick close to each other in the movie (easy way to connect that to them gravitating towards each other with everything going on), ive just never really seen it in the exact Flavor that id want to see so maybe ill check out the fic you recc'd ,,, gotta expand my tastes fr

[carb0n-m0n0xide]

hiii! ex-catholic here wait no dont run away or or actually do if u want to. u can leave this ask unanswered if u want, jst give a signal u did

uh i was just politely wondering (seriously peace and love) how do u manage to be at peace w your beliefs and ur art??? like its a genuine question cuz. ok fine cristianism and catholism probs aint the same but. cristianism still has hell??? from??? what i know?? i used to be terrified of hell bc it turns out god sees ur thoughts and all and thats kinda scary!!! and yeahh writing about gory stuff aint a sin by its own but uh.

i was wondering that!!! how do u!!! deal with that!!!! i hope this isnt too personal or prying or offensive. ✌️✌️✌️✌️✌️

Oh nws! I will answer, and i understand the curiosity/just wanting to jnow :3 i may have read it wrong chz i have a long anseer so my bad 💔💔

And honestly, this is a very VERY good point, ive never really thought about it... hmm.

Tws: gore, self harm, dont worry its just to prove a point

Also sorry about my spelling tee hee

To start with, yes, christianity has hell.

And also, i guess certain gores/sensitive things count as sin. If its a personal protrayal, i wouldnt think so. Like vent art in a way. But if its for the genuine satisfaction of bloodlust, then woukd it be considered a sin? I do not know the answer, so please dont count on me for this, but i would say... yes?

I mean i hage done that before... both of them, i admit. And theres a third: accuracy. I will try my ebst to explain them. But anyways, you wanted to know how i deal with thst. Ill also explain in this color so things dont get confusing

Personal protrayal

So the first, uhm its like expressing ones self but if you happen to get a bit bloody in the process of the art, well it just happens. Like if one woukd express the pain in a clouded mind and how they continuously relapse in cutting, you woukd expext to see blood in the art. I wouldnt consider this a sin. When ive done vent art (if you consider it that) i usually put in some blood, even if not specifically that color.

Satisfying bloodlust

For bloodlust, hmm... yeah ok i admit, i do have a bit of a thing for gorey stuff. Ive been yearning anatomy for years, have researched gore, blood, cannibalism, and done things i probably shoudnt have on teh topic. So drawing one in an agonizing situatjon just to sarisfy the sight of gore, i guess it would be considered a sin? I mean ive definitely drawn gore before, even wrote it in stories for the heck of it. So in a way, yes its sin. Yes its bad. But still better than actually commiting the crime. Yet then again, all sin is the same in Gods eyes. What i think is worse though, if the art you make (gore and all), if the person protrayed is a real person you hate or despise. Now thats a sin. I havent before, but if i did i think id repent of that.

Accuracy

And accuracy... well therss nothjng wrong with that much, or to me at least. If ypu really wanna get somethung right, you gotta research it very good then write/draw it out. It would make sense that this is a concern, especially if (like i said earlier) the piece is based off a real person. So this one, it really depends.

Do not take all ive said for true! Im most likely missing points :'3 but to answer shortly, i deal with it well. I do have slight concern for my welllbeing, like why do i like this stuff in the first place??

Anywass, have a good day! ❤❤ and thanks for the ask anon!

[borom1r]

Mmm all the kin asks if you have the brain 👀

oooo yeee (except the ones i already answered) :3

1) Kintypes?

most of my kintypes are fictionkin but my nonhuman kins are obvs werewolfkin + as far as fictionkin, i have kintypes that are computer programs/androids, vampires, ghosts + angels

4) Favorite kintype?

um if we're specifically talkin alterhumanity then werwolf :3 but in general, Aragorn

5) Most recent kintype?

for nonhuman kintype, Henry Townshend (died in-canon, exists as a ghost) - for just in general, also Aragorn :3

6) Least favorite kintype?

LEAST favorite??? skjdhfskjjhf idk? my weakest kintype is TJ from My Bloody Valentine

7) What are your reasonings for being alterhuman?

um. idk? my brain isnt human? like obvs i have a human Body but my brain doesn't process things in a human way. why would i ID as human if human expections + perceptions make no sense

8) Do you wear gear? If so, what kind?

YEP! i have my wolf hat i wear every day + i have a tail i wear sometimes + claws :3

9) Any advice to new alterhumans?

have fun + Be Yourself~ (also don't beat yourself up if your perceptions of yr own nonhumanity change— like anything, its not fully set in stone + will evolve as you mature)

10) What're some things you do to affirm your kintypes?

other than wearing gear, not a whole lot? just bc this is how i quantify my whole existence, so??

11) Strangest thing you do to affirm your kintypes?

to outsiders? probs wear a tail in public el oh el

12) What are your goals to affirm your kintypes?

idk if i ever had the money itd b cool to get pointed ears, like surgically

13) Do you do quads?

i. im not entirely sure what this means but i do go on all fours when im by myself :?

14) Funniest way you found out a kintype?

the ever-beloved fictionkin experience of "oh i better not kin somebody from [insert media] < proceeds to kin someone from that media

15) How does being alterhuman affect your day to day life?

i mean. in all ways? ig?? bc its baked into my gender + my autism so?? idk how i could rlly separate any aspect of my existence from being nonhuman

16) Does being alterhuman affect your religious beliefs?

um. not really, but my religion does affect my alterhumanity, if that makes sense? in that being a heathen gave me a new lens through which to view nonhumanity + new ways to embrace and honor it as part of a spiritual heritage, even! i venerate past ulfheðnar as part of my faith.

17) Do your mental illnesses affect your view of your alterhumanness?

ye :3 im autistic and for as long as i can remember ive been nonhuman, just didnt have words for it. makes sense when you struggle so much w/ understanding + connecting to others ig

20) What is your least favorite thing about being alterhuman

least fav?? again idk sdfhskkj ig just that its weird to explain to regular humans lol

[pumpkinstrawbrew]

I noticed some people asking about your SFW and NSFW headcanons but, as far as I checked, no one asked about FlashJacks.

That's why I'm interesting to ask you if you have any SFW or NSFW headcanons for this couple of dudes?

indeed, you’re the first one who asked about these boys! 

i can’t help, but feel like until agent venom gets a video game or an animated show, they prob will stay one of the rarest ships of them all lol. most people don’t seem to be interested in reading comics these days. not to mention, that agent venom always gets overshadowed by endless adventures of eddie brock, it seems. the least they could do is to set him on fire more often lol.

but back to the main topic! i do have quite a few HCs for flash an’ jack! some of them based on specific timelines / AU-ish situation, but i’ll list the most ‘universal’ ones. i will start with SFW headcanons first, an’ then we’ll get to how i think they would be doin’ the dirty. 

1). it’s a commonly known fact, that jack can’t read the room an’ have boneless tongue. he’s often seen saying very ill-fitted or downright rude things not only to strangers, but to some degree even to the crime master *the implications that he thought, that his pops ‘gone silly’ an’ then, that he was high when he told jack about hiring the living computer lol* an’ i don’t think, that he always does this on purpose. in fact, he prob has very little control over what comes out of his mouth sometimes. it’s just how his brain works. there isn’t ‘right’ thing for him to say, so he just says whatever floats his boat at the moment. an’ i imagine, it will take flash a long while to realize, that it’s not just jack being an asshole all the time, *even if he is an asshole* but it’s partially a symptom of his illness as well. there will be some stuff that an adult person would normally feel embarrassed to shout out in an argument or generally say out loud, but jack wouldn’t lol. with time, flash will grow somewhat fond of this trait of his, *esp bc some of the shit that he says is unironically funny* even if it still would remain somewhat infuriating at the same time.

2). flash is into sports. i mean, his venom costume literally has bits an’ pieces, which are reminiscent of the uniform he wore, when he attended high school football team. in comparison, jack knows nothing about sports, an’ doesn’t seem to care about it. so each time, when flash will tell him smth about it or draw some analogy with this or that, jack would be at complete loss what he is even talking about, but he will pretend, like he understands. mostly to not look stupid, but also bc he likes how enthusiastic flash looks, when he talks about sports. 

3). jack is canonically established as someone who killed small animals as a child, so it goes without saying that he wouldn't make a great pet owner. like, you wouldn't wanna him to hold a puppy or a baby, bc he would eventually squeeze them too tight an' y'know what. but i imagine, that at some point he will get himself a pet tarantula an’ call it eugene. just for the kicks of it. esp bc it's funny to tell himself that he own eugene now lol. jack will grow to be surprisingly fond of the creepy thing too. sure, it’s kinda useless, but it looks cool! this will also be the only pet he ever had or was close to, which survives his attention.

4). while it was mostly implied, i have an impression like jack is smth of a movie geek. at least, he seems to bring up the topic quite a few times, an’ flash literally quoted some movie stuff before as well. an’ i think, that sometimes they will be kinda quoting things from the same movie to one another, like one would role-play a scene. an’ it usually would happen in the middle of not-all-that-serious-fight. like when there isn't much on the line, an' flash isn't actually angry with jack. in those rare times, it’s more like a mean, rough play of sorts. smth that they will eventually find another one indulging in, after they’d be enemies for idk, 2-3 years or so. i mean, spidey does have all kinds of banter with his rogues, so flash can actually try an’ have smth like that with his own enemy too. they just get into it a bit too much sometimes. i’m your boyfriend now, nancy lol 

5). there are many ways to show affection, but none of them are very good at it. flash will struggle with this more than jack tho, bc jack can be creative an’ pretty much outright confess his love, but in a way, where it still might be written off as jeer or just him fooling around. stuff, like reading a lil poem about love. or teasing flash about all those cute vows the lovers give to one another, an’ then, as if to demonstrate his poin, give one of those to flash. like, hey isn't this sappy an' lame, ima right? whatever jack says, would still remain a ‘safe bet’, bc flash most likely won’t believe him anyways, which also means that he cannot reject him, either. *besides, jack is incapable of simply stating smth like that, even to save his own life* it will take flash forever to realize how genuine some, if not all of those things were. an’ even longer to learn how to say it back. 

6). now, this is also a canon in some way, but flash jack’s only other ‘big’ relationships, aside from the crime master. flash is jack’s arch-enemy *i love how jack just decided that by himself*, sorta-kinda his first ever friend *when they went to vegas, jack sure acted like he assumed this to some degree* an’ then when they will begin sleeping with one another, inside jack’s head it would mean that flash is his boyfriend now too. which is both thrilling an' confusing for him. he never had one before! so jack might *at first* try to see how people normally act, when they’re in relationships an’ attempt to awkwardly copy it, much to flash’s bafflement. it will get old fast, since jack cannot act normal for too long, but to his relief, it doesn’t seem like flash expect him to do ‘typical’ lovey-dovey stuff with him. even tho, he prob will still kinda accept jack’s creepy an’ low-key demented gifs. a very cool bird skull. or nice, advanced gun, which jack most likely pawed off the corpse could still be tokens of love. alas, disturbing one.

7). flash openly hates jack’s little devil dolls, an’ they act malicious toward him back. but when jack doesn’t actively order them to attack his nemesis-lover, they seem to actually kinda like thompson in the exact same mean manner their creator does. tho, oddly enough, they pretty much seem to hate the crime master, an’ spit tiny flames at him every chance they get. despite this, jack refuses to change their settings. he like them being little menaces, an’ he only ever truly keeps them loyal to himself an’ no one else. 

8). the crime master an’ flash have creepily similar masks. both in color an’ shape. at times, when jack have smth of a mental relapse an’ seem to be unsure about his surroundings *or even who the hell he is*, he would be prone to confuse flash with the crime master. the whole experience would always be deeply unsettling an’ uncomfortable for flash, esp since he might learn some things about jack's an’ bennett’s relationships he didn’t want to know about. this subject would forever remain as smth, flash can’t help, but avoid due to disturbing nature of possible rabbit hole, it contains. yet, for jack seeing this mask is comforting in those moments. bc surely daddy-o would tell him what to do an’ where he is. these moment would remind flash about how jack not only a deranged serial killer, but that he’s also can be strangely fragile too. fairly easy to manipulate if one would have wished to, since jack is conditioned to be like that. so flash would try to slowly remove the crime master from the picture fully. bit by bit. first with words, then with trying to show his actual face. which jack might also keep confusing with his father's, bc the crime master is also blond. an' this naturally is even worse, during the timelines, when the crime master is dead, an' yet, jack seems to be missing his abuser still. it'll be hard to stomach for flash. esp bc jack never seem to remember those episodes. like at all. but then again, flash is also never eager to bring it up, either.  

9). jack has a very specific scent. a mixture between ozone, gasoline, dry blood an’ leather. flash would know this smell anywhere. meanwhile, jack can’t smell much of anything, bc well, in some versions, he misses half of his face lol. he knows the brand of shampoo flash uses tho an’ this kinda the main smell he associates with him. he could call it 'super mainly jock shampoo'.

10). flash has nightmares about his father at times, an’ it’s the only thing jack typically doesn’t bully him for. well, not really. flash finds it strange, but he never asks what an’ if jack also has nightmares from his own childhood, so that's why he's somewhat 'nice' about it. but whatever the reason is, this the one of few times, when jack actually attempts to comfort him. kinda lull him back into sleep. jack knows a thing or two about keeping a monster away, considering that he's one himself. he can't quite do what berkhart did for spidey an' sorta put him into nice dream via toxins. but he can try to stay awake long enough, till he's sure that flash's sleep seem to be undisturbed by anything too nasty.

11). ironically enough, out of the two, flash is more inclined toward jealousy an’ possessiveness. while jack naturally also exhibits both of those things too, sometimes flash manages to be more intense about it. an’ while some of it can be mistaken for ‘saviour complex’, i imagine, that vemon part of flash’s mind is what makes him more driven to ‘mark his territory’, as symbiote sees jack as smth of a ‘mate’ of his host. jack is partially oblivious to all of this. i guess, bc he thinks that flash is already almost constantly agro all the time lol.

12). now, let’s step into a bit darker territory, shall we? as we know, jack was raised as a nihilist by the crime master, since he wanted jack to not see any meaning or value in anything *besides the crime master himself* as result, jack doesn’t care about the life of others, but he also doesn’t seem to care all that much about his own life, either. flash is a living contrast to this ideology, even in how he tries to go against what his own father ‘taught’ him. an’ i think, that sometimes it really gets under jack’s skin. an’ it also makes him kind of afraid, that one day eugene would 'get better', leave him an’ find someone, who isn’t broken like jack is. there is no hope for him. not really. *everyone told him so* therefore, jack might eventually decide, that if he can’t possibly keep flash with him by any typical means, he might try to provoke him enough into killing  him one day. then surely flash be thinking about him an’ feeling bad an’ stuff, right? this would mean, that jack did have value to flash in some weird way. this would make perfect sence to him. since i don’t think, that jack can picture a world where flash would really care about him. an’ in a way, i think that’s the main ‘tragedy’ of their pair. jack doesn’t try to hide what he is, but it’s also gives him a rather painful sense of self-awareness, that flash also sees him as someone who is beyond help. an’ inside his head it doesn’t mean anything long-term or good. which is incorrect, bc flash does get hang up on him later on, an’ pretty much seem to be ready to die on a hill, that says ‘jack o' lantern is beyond hope, and there is no way to save him. but i’ll try anyway’. 

13). jack is manipulative by nature. he learned this skill mostly via living with his captor for the majority of his life. one have to be very sensitive to the moods of someone, who holds their life within their palm. thanks to this skill, jack at times knows what flash feels way better than flash himself. he oddly enough understands some parts of his nature, which flash doesn’t want to acknowledge. jack, on other hand, is harder to read, when it comes to really serious things. he often deflects it with a wisecracking comment or a joke or an insult. flash will eventually find out that the only way to get the truth out of him is to unbalance him. an’ it doesn’t always have to be smth drastic. i imagine, that if he out of blue compliments him, jack would have a long pause, bc this isn’t how they usually interact. an’ unpredictable eugene is kinda scary in his eyes. not to meantion, that jack is a very childish person, so once someone understand how he ticks, it might become easier to understand what he feels. what he really feels. flash doesn't have all that much of emotional intelligence, but he will attempt to navigate the scary an' deplorable place, which is jack's sick little brain. the pumpkin guy have surpising amount of depth, if one would care to find it.

14). kissing would be the last thing on flash’s agenda, since he feels like it establishes boundaries of some sort. to flash, it feels like him shoving his dick inside jack is somehow less intimate, than them locking lips. or well, him locking lips with jack’s mouth, when there are just bare teeth lol. but it’s one of those few things, which jack actually follows. this lil rule. he does steal a lil peck on the cheek or jaw, but he doesn’t try to kiss flash on the lips. so when flash eventually breaks this rule himself, jack is confused. when he tries to ask why, flash pretty much will tell him, that if he keeps pestering him about it, they stop doing this. so jack stops asking, settling for just being kissed, than knowing the reasoning behind it. but oh, flash is slowly falling, haha.

i have some other hcs, but this is already get hella long, an’ i didn’t even got to NSFW stuff lol. so i suppose, we can call it part 1 of my ‘clean’ HCs or smth. now, it's time for lewds!

1). this is a very old hc of mine. the one i had for a long while, but i hc that flash is pretty much closeted case, an’ jack is the first an’ pretty much the only guy, he ever went full way with. an’ it’s both arousing an’ scary for him. for one, flash doesn’t truly know what he’s doing, since jack isn’t a girl. but he also really wants to do stuff. the sort, he'd secretly jerked off to, when he was younger. but back then, it was an imagery of some non-existing guy. an' now, he has a real one underneath him. i imagine, this would be very self-exploring for him. an’ jack doesn’t outright says it, but he finds it cute an’ also a bit funny, bc sometimes flash handles him roughly an’ other times, he seems to be unsure what to do with him. jack likes to be his first man though. an’ he will make sure to be the only one too *on side note, jack himself is pretty much a mudersexual lol. he only cares about killing, an’ eugene is the only person who he’s interested to have sex / relationships with. as anyone else who he slept with, usually end up dead*

2). jack dislikes when flash uses the venom tentacles an’ other things on him in sexual way, even if it is enjoyable. he isn't against all the new kinky spice it bring. instead, jack cannot fully see venom as part of flash. when it touches him, inside jack's head it's not flash, but some creepy space monster pawing at him, instead. but he will eventually warm up to the idea. mostly bc where else can he get so much extra sensations? besides venom can shapeshift, so y’know uh, endless possibilities below the belt too. an' i assume that with time, he would grasp the idea, that when flash makes his tentacles touch him, it's him who commands it. so it is kinda a part of his body *even if it's also not* so after that, he would be way more open to the idea of flash doing more with those features.

3). now, a bit darker stuff. flash isn’t a masochist. but jack is good with knives an’ sickles an’ other sharp objects. not to mention, that venom suit can easily heal flash. even the deepest cut might not scar or truly harm him. an' isn't this smth? i think, they can get very weird an' freaky with this concept. esp bc jack is into gore an’ blood an’ generally, he’s a serial killer. for him to have a hot victim, who also won’t die if he cut them too many times, an' who can heal even the deadliest of wounds...this surely will give him a boner. besides, this is also a tad about trust too. like, how far can flash take it, without fearing that jack will cross the line or get too into it? even tho, in some ways, it mirrors jack's situation as well. bc if symbiote will go berserk, it can easily murder him *even on accident* or eat his insides out. such an interesting balance between 'trusting just enough' an' potential death.

4). this is also smth that have to do with canon, but jack’s suit looks skin-tight, so i don’t think that there is any place for underwear underneath it. once, jack mentions this to flash as a gross joke, even tho, it’s true. an’ after that, flash can’t help, but think about it, each time they see one another. it’s esp distracting if they’re fighting. an' jack kinda show off his assests, an' flash knows there is nothing underneath that suit.

5). jack is a loud mouthed individual. an' he’s the exact same way, when he an’ flash bang. he doesn’t seem to have much of shame at all, which is both arousing an’ kinda baffling. flash tries to make as little noises as possible, so jack tries his best to force it out of him. gasp. curse. anything. an' he's sucessful most of the times. jack also have a dirty mouth on him too, so there is this too.

6). this next hc is kinda unsuaul for me, since i always have fixated dynamic in my ships. in other words, i only envision the top!flash x bottom!jack setups, but i can see jack topping just once, an’ only bc he learns that eugene never slept with another guy like that. basically, flash never took it up the ass. which would make jack thrilled with the idea, that he can be the one who will pop that cherry. flash would refuse him each time, until eventually he would agree to do it just once, so that jack shut up about it. an’ they do it like that, but yeah only once. since jack likes being the one on the receiving end, an’ flash doesn’t want anything inside his butt. but he will have to live with the knowlege that jack took his anal virginity lol.

7). an’ speaking of topping an’ whatnot, while jack is a bottom, sometimes he can act as a power bottom. he’s a bully at the end of the day an’ sometimes flash makes it super easy to push him around, an’ to tease him. this also would often results in jack low-key humiliating an’ berating eugene, seemingly gaslighting him into doing some things. but flash does take secret pleasure in it. always hungry to be punished, since he hates himself. also there is smth weird an' hot about some ghoul twink bossing him around just bc he knows that he can.

8). they both say some hilarious, weird shit during sex sometimes. starting from the way jack might at times describe or demand smth from flash. an’ ending up with flash blurting out the cringy classic like ‘who is your daddy now’ since jack is daddy’s homicidal trashy boy. jack will laugh his ass off after that an’ flash will feel the amount of shame, he will take to his grave. but that's just how they are. also i think that memes like 'daddy pass the salt' an' 'your son calls me daddy too' would be appropriate, if the crime master would learn about this.

9). flash won’t admit it like 100 other things, but the way jack says his name, when they have sex is the one of the kind. really makes his stomach do a flip. there is always gotta be a difference between, when someone says one’s name, because they make them feel good. an’ when someone who says it because they are obsessed with the fact that it’s that specific person who does that. flash will learn that difference fairly quickly. 

10). jack has a surprising amount of stamina, mostly thanks to all the drugs he’s juiced up on. flash matches it with his own. even overcomes it. as result, they don’t know their own limits too well, esp when they will keep challenging one another on who can ‘last the longest’ or cum the latest. they’d be very bad at quickies lol. an' also end up feeling hella sore, after they will overdo it just bc they're too horny to think properly.

11). their relationships in general usually start as smth sexual. like, they’d be banging before they will be feeling big feelings. or rather, they always have those big feelings, but they'd rather try an’ focus on having sex, bc it’s easier than trying to understand what caused them to do it to begin with. jack typically is the one, who makes an offer / starts this relationships as well. an’ the way he offers it is usually sounds casual enough, like he’s just wanna fuck *i mean he is* but eventually it becomes a thing they just keep doing. flash's feelings on the matter would shift an' change the most. bc jack gets obsessed with him fairly early on.

12). once again, a bit darker hc, but i think that jack kinda likes that flash doesn’t have legs. in a very weird, serial killer-ish way. it makes him more ‘cuddly’ for him an’ also he cannot run. flash is admittingly creeped out by it at first, but in scenarios where jack doesn’t have a face *i mean, he got it back at some point*, this is like ‘yeah, well, you also kiss and face-fuck that, so y’know’. it’s not a kink thing even per say, just them finding new ways to enjoy each other features, that most people would have found off-putting or troubling. but jack is also creepy about it, bc of course, he would be. this can also be considered as a bit of another roleplay for them. like that flash can technically always re-grow legs back via venom. but they can pretend like he can't. there is a lot of psychological things involved in this, but flash might try this as another 'punishment' for himself. but then, find that he can enjoy this, if jack wouldn't push it into uncomfortable territory way too often. comfort with your own body is a tricky things. an' neither of them seem to be good with this on their own. they can try to 'fix' it together. well, kinda.

13). flash has a latent praise kink, even if he feels very ashamed about it. jack indulges him tho. but only when he’s in the mood for it. in return, flash might praise him too, but it will always make jack squirm a bit. he's not used to compliments. esp sexual ones.

14). jack has an oral fixation, which is both odd an’ hot, depending on the situation. but flash never seen another person who would have been that enthusiastic about sucking his dick.

i have some other hcs, but some of them are more specific to a certain set up or more focused on jack himself, rather than on him an’ flash. but welp, as per usual, i’m glad to be asked about them. feels very rewarding to share some of my thots on them, finally. 

an’ boy, it’s a long read! but i’m hope this can be a potentially fun one, regardless. thank you for asking me about them. 

[h5eavenly]

ofc i’m extremely happy ppl are reading and enjoying Fallen Star so i hope they don’t take this the wrong way…but it lowkey seems like a lot of ppl don’t care about character/plot development. they just want to cut straight to jake falling in love with yn immediately just bc he rooted her lol. give my guy a chance to at least get to know yn first pls, like he didn’t even know she had a sick brother until her coworkers told him lmao.

ofc i can definitely understand ppl getting excited and maybe overthinking jake’s behaviour towards yn. it’s a jake fic, so ofc he’s going to develop feelings for her as the series progresses. however, so far there’s been so many important details that ppl have glossed over or haven’t questioned about jake and yn’s characters. for example, why yn immediately assumes jake only paid for niki’s hospital fees bc he wants her body, and her inner monologue about believing she’s just a body to be used. or why jake even wanted to pay niki’s hospital fees. or what relevance niki’s chronic illness and backstory even has to the series. or what jake meant when he promised jay that “it’s not like before” when they talked about his hands. or why jay and jennie never told yn about jake’s ocd symptoms. or even wondering about jake’s past in the band and why he told soojin he can’t pick up a guitar without thinking of “her”. or how all of these examples are even relevant to jake and yn’s relationship yk.

i know i’m probs getting too in my head about it, but there’s just so much more to the series than purely: blunt boss jake roots assistant yn, they bicker, he gets jealous and realised he’s in love, they confess, the end. also tbh in what world do ppl immediately become whipped for their annoying assistant/root, without getting to know them a bit first lmao??? especially when they’re closed off and logical like jake or emotionally all over the place like yn imo.

again i hope ppl don’t take this the wrong way, as i’m so grateful ppl are reading the series bc Angie is such a talented writer. but i think that’s exactly my point, that it just gets a bit disheartening sometimes seeing the interactions be solely either 1. jake’s supposed feelings for yn that so far haven’t actually been shown or 2. him supposedly being an asshole just bc he’s blunt and logical, when realistically yn has actually lowkey been the asshole for not respecting his boundaries and her tendency to assume the worst of him.

i know i sound like i have a stick up my ass but i just wish more ppl paid attention to how much time and effort Angie spends bringing this series to life and that if she wanted to create just a typical boss roots assistant then gets jealous and falls in love fic, then she wouldn’t have gone to all the trouble of including so much detail about the characters and storylines. she’s also way too nice of a person to say any of this and i know i can come off as blunt or rude without meaning to sometimes, so again pls don’t take this the wrong way. i just wanted to be the sacrificial lamb, share what we’ve been thinking lately and some perspective of Angie’s incredibly detailed efforts. ofc we’re also open to constructive feedback or if you just feel like telling me to stfu and get over it then that’s fine too lmao. anyways love you all sm regardless and thank you for enjoying Fallen Star🖤

p.s. 🤺 yes angie i used ‘root’ to remind you that term exists in jake’s vocabulary bc i love giving you the ick and bc i’m still petty that he stole my childhood dreams

i do appreciate you speaking out you said everything that ive been thinking and going through internally better than i ever could, i’ve been struggling with speaking out without being misunderstood or sounding ungrateful yet thats not how i feel at all. i am grateful for every single person that reads a word from me however it’s unmotivating and disheartening when i work so hard on smth (like fallen star) and work so hard on details and building characters yet none of it seem to be acknowledged let alone appreciated.

i understand that not everyone wants a deep story with a lot of details and build up and i understand just because i’m a person who likes analyzing everything when i read doesn’t mean ppl are gonna be the same but at this poinnt everyone that is reading doesn’t feel like they’re actually reading and so its so unmotivating idk what else to say i even told laces (you!) how i feel like idek if anyone is enjoying fallen star for what’s it actually is.

[beardisable]

been rewatching the teasers for new context

"learn the history. find kill the founder" we didnt really learn much history in generation 1. this is... a call to action for US, for the next parts. to keep watching and figure out the lore. so in the end we can know enough to kill the founder....? SURELY HAHA

(the inaguration has its separate post here)

i dont think Connecting... has much? Its the tape we see in the ending with the showfall chime in the video, now we have confirmation the person recording and showfall are working together(prob the same corp anyways)

now Connected... (copied text from a comment lmao)

"Look into infinity" "One of many" "One of millions" you are not the first or the last to be chosen, you will join a cast

"You are now worthy" you have been chosen to join :)

"One to another One to yours One to another" not really sure about these? maybe "from one to another role"? feel free to rb/reply with ideas

The posters! it seems like we DO have contact with someone from actually the outside? who does know whats going on and tries to warn us? or is it another ploy by showfall/the founder to entice us into the mystery...

we see a figure block the screen for a moment, i find the white square instead of ranboos black box square Very interesting. i dont think its the founder bc it feels way too obvious to give out this easily? but i do think the white box might mean like. this person has been completely brainwashed and under control...

and then the message is taped over by ranboos missing posters, which we know now were made BY showfall media. 2 posters are torn, to show WATCH from the below poster. as it is the only message they agree with. keep watching!

Announcement this is the same guy that flashed by in the previous video

"all around THIS world" is pretty suspicious as i saw someone point out... are there other worlds?

This seperate person(?) is trying to contact us during this

"where is this signal going?" hmm... perhaps the outsider isnt even completely sure what they are doing? just trying to do SOMETHING to stop this, to stop us from watching and enabling the continuing of this

"Found them!" is interesting... its not in red so ill assume its by showfall? maybe sneeg and charlie have tried to escape before, but gotten caught again?

"is this working? i dont have much time. i dont know whats happening." AH so yes they are trying to do Something but not really sure what/how

"i dont know what you are" INTERESTING. this makes me wonder still if the outsider actually is free of showfalls influence, can they even understand we are the audience, or is it about something else...

"it already found him" i wonder if... ok maybe nonsense theory but maybe this video and its interruptions were made after the first stream was done..? the red text outsider got some access as Hetch/H "messed" with the systems, but had to cut it short when they got ranboo after all in the end?

"it got everyone, everyone but me. i have to save them, i have to stop this" OR or... the outsider is another person who managed to escape the... "draft"

also the announcer guys head keeps swiveling and goes featureless in the end like haha nice generation loss the social experiments episode 3 ending reference

The Hero ok so the obvious being the censor bar.. it was the black box all along, he was always doomed like that... i do wonder though if the switch between the pixel and irl is meant to show like... the blinking between control and concious decisions and stuff that we see a lot of with the mask

i cant figure out anything that can be recontextualized in the 2 trailers rn. maybe puzzler saying "your final game begins now" since its the second episode but... also he dies in the end of ep 3 so it was his final run of the show? (but also i dont think theyre dead so lmao idk)

i do find the lack of trailer 3 very interesting too... lulling us into a false sense of security that this 3rd one isnt a show and is real?

ok im. brain empty. if yall have comments on this let em rip id love to talk about this(once my cells regenerate)

[cheemken]

Yknow what,, have some wholesome non villain au related hcs abt the Unova kids before I write the third chapter hahah

•Iris and Hilbert probs take turns holding the Champion title now tho fr, and at one point they decided to just share the title, w Iris telling him that Steven and Wallace shares Hoenn's Champion title too

-and hey, Hilbert was more than happy, he gets to share it w his bestie hahaha

-when challengers face the two of em it's such a quick fight, ofc having one of Unova's Hero and then Unova's Champion on the same team and they're the strongest trainers in the region wouldn't really reassure you that much

•they have lil picnic outings every month as suggested by Bianca, and ofc everyone should always be free on the day she planned the picnic or she'll be sad and they don't wanna see her sad

-Hilda had to constantly remind everyone of the things they had to bring, and has to be more specific when it's N's turn to bring the snacks cause the last time he was in charge of it, he only brought berries and water

•Cheren left his Samurrot, and even his entire team with N, as N didn't have his own team now, often just letting Reshiram stay w him per Hilbert's request

-ofc it took a while before Cheren really trusted him, but he also wants someone who knows how to take care of pkmn and can understand them to be the one to watch over his team

-N would always update him abt anything regarding his team, and often they'd visit him in Aspertia, hanging out in the gym, and sometimes N even joins the classes to listen

•look they're just really great friends okay they make me so ill and so soft like imagine them having movie nights, they watch a horror movie and everyone's fucking vibing

-Cheren and Hilbert acts all tough, trying to convince the others (just themselves really) that they aren't scared, but the slightest of sounds could make Hilbert scream, and he'd cling on to Cheren for dear life, scaring Cheren too

-Bianca gets scared easily, hiding behind her hands and asking if the scary part is over, she'd tell them that they should just watch smth else instead. She'd like, hold on tight to Iris' and/or Hilda's hand/s, but her grip is so tight tho that the two of em had to calm her down

-Iris and Hilda aren't bothered by it much, ofc Iris was so used to the movie nights w the other champions, and Hilda reads over the movie's plot before watching so she could anticipate the jumpscares or the scary bits

-N is honestly so confused most of the time, asking why that Pokémon was hurting that trainer, why are ghost Pokémon attacking them, etc, and Cheren had to tell him bc it's also a good distraction from the movie

•sleepovers tho,,,

-N and Iris not knowing what a sleepover is/wasn't invited to one since, and the Nuvema kids went all out, Bianca got all of em matching onesies fr

-N fucking loves the onesies, Bianca got him a Zoroark one, he wore it once when they went to the mall and Hilbert and Cheren were very insistent they don't know him

-but ough them just sharing secrets and such yknow, pillow fights, just having fun telling each other abt their day, them just sleeping so close to each other bc they're scared they'd suddenly disappear and they just mean so much to each other man jcmxndn

[skitskatdacat63]

Orb...

+ process kinda

[cosmobrain00]

rank ur top 4 trigun charas rn with Reasons or Else

HIII ARUSH!! dw u dont have to force me im ready n willing for this- only prob is tht im so torn between the diff adaptations (always comes down to tht istg) n bc I havent finished the manga yet, so!

here r my biased answers, in no particular order:

vash. how to explain my deep love for his character which consists of incredibly resilient morals, a deep love for humanity despite seeing a lot of the worst of it, n still manging to maintain hope n faith n a silly personality despite it all (n despite the internal conflict, but I digress bc thts a whole other portion) also I always love the non human characters first n foremost, wht can I say.

meryl. no matter whats she's in I always adore her personality n how she ends up coming along as a character- n am particularly taken w her characterization of being a reporter n tristamp n her journey n progression there as well. she's tenacious in the best way n her bickering n interactions w all the various characters in the series always makes me smile, n she also has a deep kindness shown in a lot of subtle ways at times, too.

knives. LMAO yeah yeah ik but I love me a good antag, esp one tht has sm of the most understandable reasons for becoming who he is in the present. he's one of the most complex characters imo n his complete opposite stance on humanity makes it a very interesting watch as he struggles to get vash to understand his side, which ngl, has good points. his progression into this mindset is esp interesting, when u take into acc wht his early life consisted of too.

n.. ugh. here it honestly a tie between milly n ww, so ill give reasons for both bc im a loser who cant pick:

milly. she's one of the kindest characters ive evr seen n her unfailing optimism is honestly so cute n heartwarming to watch, esp when things get much darker later on. she's smarter than ppl give her credit for (despite being a lovable airhead most times) n it makes for a nice contrast w meryl, too. (n let me tell u I cannot wait for her reveal in tristamp s2 pls come faster for us all)

n now, finally, wolfwood. honestly its hard to articulate why I rlly do love his character so much, esp w the diff versions, but ill forevr n always love his struggle when he meets vash n subsequently has to shepherd him toward his "fate". I love how soft he can be w the kids too n tht "big brother" sort of energy he always has, the moral dilemma of it all n, as ive said bf, his character progression n how he eventually ends up. love his differing personality, esp tristamps n how grouchy he is, its p cute ngl.

n im ending this essay long rant bf this can spiral anymore out of control LMAO ty again arush<3

[soukokutruther]

im not waiting for anyone to ask me, im just infodumping ab dazai

i like him for a lot of reasons !! it usually starts out that i relate to characters, which is how it started w dazai too, but really idk bro he just makes me so sad and idk how to explain i just LOVE DAZAI hes my baby hes my pookie ill die for him thats all anyone needs to know

i have a lot, but id say probably that he likes cats/is compared to cats a lot, and is good with children, i just find it very sweet. also i love his style, and i love how intelligent he is.

how he treated akutagawa, although i dont blame him since he was like, a child, who didnt know how else to act due to how he was raised and grew up, too, although it still doesnt excuse it, and its still my least fav thing about him.

tokyo ghoul

dove- doll version (antihoney),

elements of my past (metaphorically, i wasnt in the mafia obviously 😭), cats >>> dogs, secretive, im not dazai smart but i mean id say im pretty intelligent 🤷🏻, mindset, um !! other stuff !! 🥰

i like how deeply they analyze him in order to understand him better and dont water him down to just "sad suicidal bandage man" (like ive seen some ppl do)

erm... i dont like how the rest of them water him down to sad suicidal bandage man. i also hate when people say hes a bad person, because hes not, the whole point of bsd is that most if not all characters are morally gray, and although dazai did things that were in fact, not okay, its not so black and white to be like "omg fuck he sucks hes a terrible character" (obviously u can still dislike him bc everyone has an opinion and thats okay but like as a character hes a lot more than just a bad person 😭 in fact id say hes grown to be a very good person)

i could see it tbh

i could also def see it (atsushi kinnie moment fr)

meh maybe, im more of a chuuya and poe guy tho 😁

i have a lot, i hc him to be an age regressor, and also i hc him to be autistic + transmasc. also hc that when they were in the mafia and chuuya found out dazai was living in a shipping container chuuya forced him to move in w him :3

i could see him using this all the time 🤕 and also :P he def sends that as kunikida screams at him over text lmfao

light academia

soukoku OBVIOUSLY, im THE soukoku truther (i also like sigzai but just for fun tbh, and i LOVE souheki but i see them as a qpr more than a ship. i dabble in kunizai every now and again as well)

i have a lot of least favs 💀 prob dazatsu and odazai, theyre both so wrong for so many reasons 😭

fyozai, im 50/50 on it because i can see it, but also idk what it is i just cant rly get myself behind it

soukoku !! <333 its not canon theyre a ship, but they do have a very beautiful canon relationship, whatever the dynamic of it may be

fyozai...

dazatsu !! i love them as best friends, theyre so sweet :)

i love to do a lot of things when writing dazai lmfao, i love to write dazai agere/petre fics, i love to make him sad and depressed mwahahahaha, i love to just make him suffer honestly (but its okay its always hurt/comfort i wouldnt do that to pook) !! but also im not evil (mostly), i love to make him pet kitties in fics/draw him w cats, i love writing him going out to bookstores and reading, i love writing autistic dazai, transmasc dazai, i love describing his eyes and how he looks in the moonlight, i just love writing ab dazai tbh. smth i dont like ?? idk making him cis, dazai is transmasc to me and will never be anything else tyvm have a good day 👍🏻

honestly the same things as before, i write what i wanna read lmfao

fav pic, i do have one, i just dont feel like getting it rn sry :3

honestly dazai is rly unique ive never quite come across another character like him 😭 i do think of him when i see lucky from acnh tho hehe

loved him from when i first laid eyes on him, will die loving my pookie <333

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[nathank77]

2/18/25

7:22 p.m

God I had another minor vertigo episode today. They don't last long. I can live like this but I am worried they'll get worse. It happens whenever I'm in bed for sure.

I also just heard a phone ringing. Yippee for tinnitus and ear issues. I'm fucked.

I'm so lonely. I'm wondering if I'll ever find a gf. I mean I could take out the jobless disabled thing and the trans thing but then when I finally match with someone in 64 years they'll leave me when they find out.

I keep thinking about Elise and how pathetic i am for thinking there is a chance she loves or cares about me. I mean things happened. Like part of me does think i can believe in a potential for love but with the block, it's hard to believe that..I mean then I consider she does things in twos. It doesn't mean she has feelings for me but it might mean she's on my blog..

Tbh I hold on to the potential for love bc I love her and bc i can see this life, I can see me and her and the kids watching movies or playing board games. I could see us adopting. And him or her having the best siblings ever. I can see this future that makes me want to keep fighting bc its exactly what i want but I don't expect it to happen. And here in lies the issue i talk about me and her being romantic and that's prob the very reason I'll never know her personally other than for the fact that she could think I'm crazy and want nothing to do with me

I don't actually see us being together romantically but I hope for it so I keep fighting regardless of what reality tells me. I hope for and try to bank on her letting me in her life and us being friends and me becoming apart of the family. Her husband liking me. Her kids loving me. Her loving me. Me just watching movies with them or going to a 4th of July picnic at her place

Yet I think even that is not possible. She won't let me in her life. The girl with the sunshine in her hair isn't for me. I want to believe it is. But I mean, then I think about this friendship I can envision and I think it's delusional. I think i ruined it. I think there is no way bc I dream of her being my soulmate. But what she doesn't understand is i just want to matter to her and be apart of her life. Idc what i am to her. As long as I get to be in her life. But I mean I can't make her want that. And this future of us being friends actually seems delusional despite before the block me feeling delusional... I knew i wasn't. I knew it meant something that it stood. But when she took it away to me in my eyes it means she wants nothing to do with me

So I'll be, "delusional." And I'll hope and wish I can be a family friend one day and that she can forgive me for having psychosis and having made poor decisions. I'll hope she forgives me and choses to have me in her life. I don't expect it.

See this stupid part of me thinks she's worried about the age gap, the part of me that still holds on to this idea that she could have romantic feelings for me despite the fact that at this point i have no reason to believe that, although at one point I actually did.. I do not think she has feelings for me. I actually think my feelings are pushing her away.. and maybe did so much damage ill never know her again.

But when I pretend she may be worried about the age gap, I actually can't fathom that. She's so beautiful to me. She could lose all her hair, she could lose her limbs. She could become a burn victim. I would be devastated but I'd still think she was the most beautiful women I've ever seen. When I pretend she worries about it, i think she doesn't get it, idc if we are friends or more, I'll take care of you. I don't have any money. But I'll be the guy at the Dr's appt advocating for you. I'll be at any surgeries you have if you want me there. I'll take care of your wounds. I'll push your wheel chair if you are ever in one. I'll bathe you if you ever needed it bc of surgery, etc. I'd be there for everything and I'd just feel lucky that I am loved by you and I get to share any type of future with you.

Idk how you feel about me, but I'm loyal like a dog. I'll love you until my last breath. I'd take care of you in any way if you'd let me. I'm not here for a the good times. Ever since you left me, they have all been bad. I'm here whenever you need me, anytime, if you ever want me in your life. I'll always be here for you. I'll always love you and I'll always be willing to take care of you like you took care of me when we were in eachothers lives.

I just wanted you to know that.

[aprivateplace7]

Natlan Interlude quest let's go!

Iansan... interesting, i still don't know much of anything about her.

A sports coach... i remember that. Lol, guess she's also just short...? Doesn't seem like she's a child, but its still so weird. She looks the same age as Kachina...

"Mentally ill person" 💀

Aw, this is both sad & sweet...

The chief looks kinda cool... Cowboy coded.

That's completely fucked... but i guess it makes sense. The Abyss is more than just mindless monsters...

Lol, Traveler is just too awesome... We basically become a legend wherever we go x3

Its hard to believe we're 6/7 nations in... it feels like our "final goal", aka our sibling & The Abyss Order is still so far away... i mean, i know we're still gonna get Khaenri'ah, so Sneznihya (sorry spelling) won't be the *last* region, but still... i'm worried about it ofc, but i feel like the "point" of Genshin is a big journey. Like Mualani said in her quest, its not about the destination.

Iansan is actually saying some good stuff... i struggle w/ changing things too. Like i've fallen off brushing my teeth at night, or going to bed at a regular time, & its rly hard to get back into a healthy routine... also sometimes w/ things, like playing games, i just... over think it. I think i need to look up a bunch of guides & prep so i do everything perfectly, but i just need to cut that out & start doing it :v

I've been thinking lately... i'm more of a perfectionist than i thought. If i'm not confidant in smt, its hard to even start. I'd almost rather just not try at all... i hate doing things half-assed. It feels like if i can't give it my all, i might as well not even bother. I used to think that i wasn't 1 bc i'm fine w/ not getting all As or winning, but idk... this last trimester at school was rly hard 4 me...

Oh, hi Capitano O.o

Lol, he has a whole dramatic ost change...

Idk... i said last time that i still didn't like Capitano, & i still think his solution was short-sighted & stupid, but... well, maybe its just a Xiao situation :v he wants to help, he's just... kinda, not good socially ^^"

Yeah right... Capitano isn't exactly our "friend" :/ i understand that the Fatui isn't just the "big evil organization", but i still gen don't rly like them... i don't trust them, what tf is the Tsarisa trying to do...?

Oh wow, not gonna show us his face huh... i can guess :/ prob looks like a rotting corpse...

Oh right, i think i remember from the trailer, our ancient name... I haven't done that many quests, i wonder if that'll actually affect anything? :/

Yeah... i just looked & i only have 4 of the spots filled...

XD Kinich just yeeting Ajaw into the void will never not be funny.

...Kinich rly is pretty x3 i just have to look & smile whenever i see him, haha...

Ok no, it doesn't actually matter. I thought so...

This is kinda cool, like the Traveler is just uber awesome, they get a lot of titles & basically do everything, but i still think the ancient names stuff is just awesome. I wonder what ours will be...

Ah, i wanna know what everyone is saying too... that's cute tho. I think Paimon is kinda annoying, but like in a little sibling kinda way. I'm glad that she's with us.

Oh ok, so we don't get it yet...

Oh wow, alredy done? I've only been playing like an hr & 1/2... i guess it is an Interlude :v

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Ok so... that was pretty peaceful, but idk i liked it... it was nice after Act 4. I still feel like Act 3 was pretty boring... idk why, i don't have anything in particular to complain about. It rly endeared me to Citlali, & Ororon was pretty cute/amusing but still... to me, it was just the worst act in Natlan. What's w/ the Act 3 curse? I didn't mind it so much, but i know ppl rly didn't like Fontaine Act 3 either... i don't remember Sumeru, but Inazuma Act 3 was the worst 1 too... but in that case it was bc that was b4 Hoyo allowed more acts to fully flesh out a story.

Anyway, ofc i'm def excited to see where this goes! Kinda disappointed that it was brought up, but we didn't actually get our Ancient Name yet...

[geekbarprincess]

outside of the weird connection i have to my online ex boyfriend that i never even met irl, i have a boy i’ve been hanging out w. we met on hinge 😺 not the first boy i’ve met on hinge, but the first one ive met while i was on hinge as a legal adult. and the first one ive liked this much. he’s genuinely lowkey someone i could see myself falling in love w, or at least sticking around. with the last hinge boy, and the only one that lasted more than one meeting until now* , he wasn’t really super mean but he was just subtly mean and but he was lowkey nice too.. idek how to describe that because it feels so weird to think abt that point in my life because it doesn’t feel like it’s my own memory, even tho it was literally only february of this year. well anyways, the new boy. he’s so sweet to me. he seems that he’s actually putting effort into understanding me as somebody who’s terminally mentally ill. he’s more patient with me than most people and i feel just so bad that he has to put up with me.

we met like right after my ex broke up w me.. i wasted no time. i mean we met on hinge like the next day and then i met him irl pretty soon after that. he picked me up and we sat in his car and talked for like 6 or 7 hours. it was one of the best times of my life and tbh my underwear were really wet but it’s okay. anyways, we fucked the first time he came to my house (idk how many meetings in that was or what day), and we’ve been fucking a lot since then yayyy. he’s got a nice penis tbh at least bigger than my ex’s (which i only ever saw on a screen anyway but it looked pretty small compared to new boy, which is crazy bc ex had the ability to use whatever specific angle to make it look big but i see new boy’s irl and its fr just big without him having to use specific angles).

well… new boy. i’ll call him bf. he’s a sweetheart. idk if we are dating fr or not but idc bc it’s not like im gonna go fuck anyone else or something because i don’t want to. i’d rather just spend all my time with him. he spends the night a lot. he just makes me really happy. he puts up with my crazy mood changes and emotional regulation issues. we went bowling together and i wasted being so annoying at the start and he seemed to get a bit fed up, but he didn’t take it out on me and we both just talked and calmed down. it made me feel so much better to see the way he reacted to that because him not getting angry at me for not being able to handle my emotions made me feel better to be able to try to calm down. but for some reason my brain tells me he’s pranking me so i guess i’ll update yall when he kidnaps my cats and makes me wanna kill myself again. jk i don’t see him personally doing that because he himself seems like a sweet person, i just don’t have faith in men as a whole at all because of my ex telling me so often that he could handle my mental problems but still get upset and bitchy and rude whenever i would act like i have mental problems. and im not saying i was completely not at all in the wrong in our relationship, but im saying with him knowing me for 3 years and me being mentally ill and insecure throughout the whole time of knowing me, he could’ve responded better than saying that he doesn’t wanna have “talks like this” when im just bringing up an insecurity. new boy actually tries to reassure me and make me feel worthy of being cared for and loved by my ex just made me want to hurt myself.. literally i attempted to kms and went to the psych ward in june literally only because i thought he stopped loving me. and then just a few months later he told me he loved me less. and then a few days later, left me.

idek what i’m saying fr but i hope my ex boyfriend dies and im really glad i met new boy and he lowkey makes my heart feel like its actually growing. he’s such a sweetie

* (there’s been 3, one we met up once and never talked again, one we ‘dated’ for a month and were saying i love you but i didn’t love him and he prob didn’t love me either, i mean we hardly knew each other, and i ended up telling him i couldn’t do it and i went back to the same ex i’ve been posting about, so not a successful past)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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