#bc i have watched that shit countless times and i still cry
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beanghostprincess Ā· 8 months ago
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Help I just finished the usopp v luffy fight and now I'm crying (I know what happens later and I knew this was coming but still)
I can give you a hug, a gun, or a therapist. I personally recommend the first one because I don't have money for a therapist and you need to live to keep watching the show so. Yeah. Do you want a hug-
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floral-hex Ā· 5 months ago
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real sad boy hours
#why? just ā€˜cause.#actually Iā€™m here at this chess tournament my brother is entered in. sitting by myself in the lobby waiting for him to finish his last game#and Iā€™m honest to goodness trying not to openly weep. I feel so stupid#hold on. give me a second bc just writing this makes#makes me start crying a little and there are people around#life is too short#I love this kid. Iā€™ve loved watching him grow up. and Iā€™m always ALWAYS aware that everything is passing so fast#will I be here with him next year? will he outgrow all of this?#we donā€™t hang out as much anymore. heā€™s got his teenage things going on. his own life.#I donā€™t know. Iā€™m trying to appreciate these moments as much as I can#itā€™s hard though. I feel like shit. my head hurts. my tinnitus has been driving me crazy#itā€™s hard to be present when youā€™re in a fog#last night in the hotel room we didnā€™t even really hang out. he just played on his phone until he slept. which is totally his right.#I justā€¦ I just hope Iā€™m really appreciating this time#ok now I feel stupid for kind of crying in this hotel while lots of people walk around#i donā€™t know what more I could even do now. itā€™s not like Iā€™m allowed to go watch him play or I can do anything but wait#I suppose I have to keep asking myself ā€˜am I appreciating this enough?ā€™ and if Iā€™m not then try to work on that#life is really shitty right now but I know there have been countless times I wish Iā€™d been more present#so I wake up tired today and drink coffee & 5 hour energy and still Iā€™m tired and my head hurts but Iā€™ve still gotta try. just a little.#in a couple of years heā€™ll be off to college and have his own life#and it wonā€™t be him and I going to the movies or driving him to school or having dinner together#anywayā€¦ juuuuust sad. and lonely. straight up not having a good time#but also Iā€™m glad Iā€™m here if only to hang around my brother a little bit#IAN! stop! god I feel so stupid letting myself wallow like this. itā€™s not helping. itā€™s just making me sad. focusing on the negatives.#whatevs. Iā€™ve got major depression. suck my butt. Iā€™m allowed to be sad sometimes.#this weekend didnā€™t really go like I thought#I guess I expected to read more and shoot the shit with my brother and hang out more but itā€™s whatever. life happens.#my mental & physical health has been bad for a couple months now so I couldnā€™t have reasonably expected to suddenly be great just because šŸ¤·šŸ»#oh well!#text
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idkbutimgabby Ā· 6 months ago
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šŸ¤ Good Days ā™ ļø
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Hey loves... idk what has been going on but I've been feeling so emotional lately šŸ˜­ idk why bc I literally had my period already and I usually get super emotional right before... sorry if that's TMI but I'm so confused šŸ˜­ anyways this is the result of that. I hope you like it. I hope you cried as much as I have while writing this and looking for inspo.
word count: 1k
trope:
-fem!reader x bestfriend!leeknow
warnings: ANGST if I haven't made that clear enough, character death, car crash, drunk driving, cuts (? not sh just a tw jic) grieving, cursing, fluffy
Im so sorry šŸ˜­ my Instagram is cursed because why do I keep getting reel after reel of some heart wrenching story? Istg all I do is cry for strangers on the Internet āœŠšŸ˜” Anyways I'm probably over hyping this you probably won't cry but if you did please tell me that would make me so happy šŸ˜­ you know what I mean šŸ˜’ *lightly proofread* calling all my emotional people this is for you get your tissues ready
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Having a best friend is something you can't describe. Having someone you know will always run to you first, someone you would trust with your life and who you know would trust you with theirs. You can't even begin to spew some shit about how much you love him; it would be pointless. Words can't describe it, truly.
The person who stuck with you through the years, through the hardest times of your lives, and the best. The person who sat next to you during your first week of kindergarten because he saw you crying when you got lost on the first day. The person who you've never seen cry, because he doesn't like how it makes him feel.
The person who was there when you were sick, and who stayed up all night while you were asleep doing your missing assignments, because he knew you hated asking for extensions. The person that saw you grow up, and the one you saw grow up. The person who held you as you cried, wiped the tears from your cheeks and rocked you both to sleep.
The person you cheered on as he pursued his dreams of dancing. The person who cheered you on as you got into your dream school, joining a program you've been waiting to join since day one. The person who was driving you to your graduation, excited to walk across that stage and watch you walk across it, finally being able to acknowledge how far you've both come.
The person who was taken from you, when a driver under the influence ran a light and crashed into his side of the car. The same person you cut up your hands to shove all the shattered glass away from.
The person you've cried for countless times before, but this time you couldn't shed a tear. The person who you saw stop moving, whose pulse stopped even after your desperate attempts to save him. The person you slumped over, holding his body and ignoring the sharp shards of glass puncturing your skin and clothes.
The person whose body you held until you felt his spirit drift away. You think about that moment every day.
The person whose parents asked you to speak at his funeral and deliver the final speech, because who else could do it but you? You're not a public speaker. You couldn't possibly remember a speech, and you didn't want to write it out because your hands would have been shaking too much to read the words anyway. Instead, you just wove your speech around one memory that still sticks in your mind, all on the spot. You cried everyday after the accident, but you made it through your speech, driven by the fact that he needed to hear everything you had neglected to tell him while he was still there.
"I remember one time that he asked me the question, "Would you still love me if I was a worm?" It was a joke. I rolled my eyes, probably slapped his arm. But I return to that moment when I grieve for him. And I wish I had told him everything that question brought up in my mind. I think that was one moment I realized how big a part of me he really is. I wish I had told him that I would love him until the worms swallowed up every last bit of him. That when I'm six feet under the ground, with the worms eating my brain, they'll see visions of him; his beautiful face, crooked smile, bunny teeth, and glittery eyes. They'll smell what he smelled like; the vanilla and orchid scent that always calmed me down, and still does. They will hear him call my name, voice of honey, where you were always able to hear his smile. They will experience the greatest of wonders, as they feast on the corner of my brain that houses him. They won't be able to move an inch without bumping into a piece of him. Then, I'll fade away, as will he. And they'll go back to eating, gnawing away in awe at the wonders they experienced, the wonders that were my best friend."
The person who got you, understood you in a way that no one else will. The person who your family accepted as another of their children, who was treated at your house like a prince. The person who snuck through your window at night anyway to hang out, just because he wanted to know what it was like. The person who always did the most for everyone else without making it obvious because he didn't like making a fuss over it.
The person who always bought and wore jewelry and clothes that supported a cause or charity, and encouraged others to do the same. The person who had three cats he loved more than even you. The person who always cooked for you when you mentioned a new food you wanted to try, and who fed you bites just because he wanted to and thought it was cute.
The person you loved the most. The person who loved you the most. The person you'll always miss, who you'll never forget, and who you'll go to hell and back to make sure no one else forgets about him either.
Your beautiful best friend. Simultaneously angelic and feral. The oddest person. The sweetest person. Now unburdened, cutting through the sky and watching over you. Forever your best friend, forever a worm. Forever your worm, actually.
You love him.
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again I deeply apologize. LINO ISNT DEAD GUYS HES ALIVE AND WELL I PROMISE šŸ™šŸ˜­ ngl tho I was flowing with this one... I might try writing angst more often šŸ¤­ normally I'm a fluffy kinda girl (my favorite trope is literally bsfs 2 lvrs šŸ˜­) next fic guys watch out I'm getting better at this šŸ¤« also I'm so sad I don't have the original author but I did get some of the speech from a poet on Instagram just fyi šŸ˜“
Anyways love you šŸ’‹šŸ’‹ Muah byebye šŸ’•
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gladiolidiaries Ā· 1 year ago
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do you think we'll ever get a good content schedule from them? i feel like a broken record talking about it, and maybe i'm just too hopeful but i miss their dynamic and fun silly minecraft videos. now it just seems like they can't settle on what to do since they need to work on the next big thing or just something new that hasn't been done before.
tbh i get it for dream the pressure is always high on him especially as the top mc channel who was known for being one of the best at the game, manhunt, the speedruns, and having consistent hits. plus he just has so much shit going on šŸ˜­šŸ’€ people hate him for crying, and ppl are now calling him random ass nasty words like everyone is out to get his ass šŸ’€. and his mc content could honestly in my humble opinion change things positivity for himself and dteam as a whole. plus the drituation thing// whatever is going on with that... so i get him if he wants to plan new things because pressure is definitely high. at least we get some casual still fun mc videos in between. the problem is when that's going to be released.
now george idek what's going on he said he got a project he's working on./but what if it's really just some behind the scene work/business and we've just fucking delusional. can someone just make him a model he would love it tbh. plus we're never going to get another minecraft but my friend is... because he said they're old now (?) or boring i forgot what. i really want his youtube career back, but if he doesn't want to i wish we could get fun irl streams again. i feel like if he at least was consistent doesnt have to be a weekly thing maybe even monthly would be good with some tweet announcement in advance it would be so much fun..
now sapnap,,, i like his mc content the last dteam videos were so good, but everytime i finished a video i would just get sad because we wont have another one for who knows how long.. plus he's not overly obnoxious in his youtube vids so it's fun and makes me like him a lot... his streams --he's so inconsistent,, bro keeps lying to us-- i like them sometimes but i get annoyed at how he practically has nothing planned (i get it's a 'daily' thing) and sometimes when i see him yawn i get annoyed because broooo... i wish he could actually play his hardcore world and do fun little adventures on there that would be fun to watch,, but bro just sings along to songs (it just happens all the time)..
they fumble so hard.. like sapnap could be doing so much more on his streams, but since he just waits around obviously only his very dedicated fanbase will watch or others would just watch recaps since it's not really a you need to be there thing. dream needs to get his shit together and start giving himself harsh deadlines or something like that so he can start pushing things out. george well i wish he could stream, we /hannah give him countless ideas..... just miss dreamteam honestly,, give me back the three mc nerds please.... i really just want their mc videos back
honestly i'm past waiting and i'm past caring at this point. i think its bc my hyperfix died but i can't even make myself care anymore, i've reached acceptance about how they handle their career and content.
i don't think that regular dteam content is coming, ever šŸ˜­
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kingkatsuki Ā· 3 years ago
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Okay so Sleazebag!Kiri around Valentineā€™s Dayā€¦.
He breaks up with you just two weeks before Valentineā€™s Day, texting you shit like ā€œitā€™s not gonna work outā€ or ā€œI just need to focus on myself rnā€ just so he doesnā€™t have to buy you anything for Valentineā€™s Day. I can also see him still frequently texting, making sure nobody has touched or tasted ā€œthe best piece of ass heā€™s ever hadā€ but in reality heā€™s just making sure you havenā€™t moved on from him.
Fast forward to Valentineā€™s Day and your sitting on your couch, eating a tub of ice cream while watching The most cheesiest romance movies, crying about how that shouldā€™ve been you and all of your shoulda, woulda, couldaā€™s of your relationship with kiri. Constantly checking your phone to see if heā€™s texted that this was all a prank and heā€™s outside your front door with gifts. Sadly for you, it doesnā€™t happen.
You wake up the next morning with a good morning text from him. You donā€™t answer to the text because you were still pissed at him and you wanted him to feel every once of what youā€™re feeling.
One week goes by with you ignoring him/ replying with one work texts like ā€œyea, no, idk, idcā€¦ etcā€. At this point Kiri was absolutely LIVID and was going to make you cave in and make you his all over again.
And it doesnā€™t help that he knows all of your weak spots, things that he does for you that makes you all mushy inside for him. He goes to the store to buy all of your favorite candies, junk food, flowers, you name it. Oh and believe me when I say he definitely knows what heā€™s doing, of course he does bc heā€™s sleazy.
When he shows up at your front door step youā€™re surprised. By seeing your favorite things all in his arms gave you enough patience to at least let him in and have a decent conversation. Of course you sit on the opposite side of the couch from him. He looked damn near godly the way he sat on the sofa with one arm layed across the back, manspreading almost half way across the couch. Of course he says little flirty things during talking like ā€œwhy are yaā€™ sittin all the way over there? I swear I ainā€™t gonna bite chaā€™ unless ya askā€ but thatā€™s just how he is.
It only takes a few whispers in your ear to get you to crack to him. Next thing you know heā€™s in between your legs sucking on your clit like he just wants it to fall off.looking up at you while delivering kisses to your fluttering hole each time he says ā€œmā€™ sorry baby, I ainā€™t mean to hurt chaā€™.ā€ And ā€œplease gimme another chanceā€
Countless orgasms later, your spent. Kiri knows this because he did his very best to work you tonight to get back on your good side, and to add the icing on the cake heā€™ll help you shower
And you promised yourself that you wouldnā€™t end up like this. Back right where you started, laying in his arms, letting your last orgasm ebb away. But the way he fucked you, you might just give him a second chanceā€¦..
Also: can i be šŸ§ˆ(butter) anon?
AHHH I AM SO OBSESSED WITH THIS IDEA!! It makes me wanna write a full fucking fic for it your brain is so big and juicy omgšŸ˜«
Imagine though because youā€™re pissed he broke up with you and all your friends have cute dates on valentines that you started trying to find a date again, pushing yourself to try and find a cute guy. And of course, Kirishima finds out. He sees you sitting across from this guy that isnā€™t him in a coffee shop a few days after Valentineā€™s Day and heā€™s livid. Thereā€™s no way heā€™s going to lose you, especially not to a fucking idiot like that. And luckily for Kirishima he knows just what you like, and how deep down youā€™re still completely obsessed with him.
And Kirishima knows the moment he has you cumming on his tongue again that heā€™s hooked you right back in. This was amazing ahhhšŸ˜šŸ˜šŸ˜
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harrysgoldenline Ā· 3 years ago
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When In Italy Part 4
here is part 4! Um this chapter has bad words and some adult themes so warning for that! The next part will be the last, so let me know what you think! Are they end game or no? Also! If you want a personalized imagine, check out my pinned post! If you want to support me ---> please click here! every little bit helps bc im a broke ass college student so thank u to anyone who wants to support me :)
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You stood frozen as he stepped out of the elevator, his eyes soft as he met yours, waking towards you.
ā€œGet away from me.ā€ you whisper, attempting to push past him and get into the elevator, pressing the door closed button before even pressing a floor, not wanting him to get any closer.
ā€œY/N, wait!ā€ he rushed, sticking his hand between the doors and stopping it, his tall frame standing before you that you quickly push past, going back to lock yourself in your apartment, and lock him out, ā€œPlease, let me explai-ā€œ
ā€œNo!ā€ you stopped, voice firm as you turned to face him, ā€œyou canā€™t keep doing this! you canā€™t keep showing up like this! So just leave me alone.ā€
You kept walking, ignoring his pleas as he came after you, successfully unlocking your apartment door rapidly, but you catch a glimpse of rings as he hand stops the door.
ā€œPlease.ā€ He whispered, not pushing the door open and you saw a flicker of his eyes and you could almost see the sincerity in them, ā€œI know I donā€™t deserve it, I really donā€™t, but I would just love to talk to you for real this time, anything you want to know.ā€
ā€œand youā€™re not gonna be an asshole this time?ā€ you asked, leaning against the doorframe, peaking at him, ā€œbecause if you are, I swear to god Styles I will give you 5 seconds to get the fuck out.ā€
ā€œPromise.ā€ He nodded and your heart believed him, so you opened the door.
You watched as he shoved his hands deep in his pockets, slowly entering your apartment and you didnā€™t miss how his eyes scanned you quickly, before bouncing around the apartment, looking around the space he used to be so familiar with.
You watched how he headed to the couch about to sit but stutter stepped a bit, scratching the back of his neck and looking at you, almost asking you if itā€™s okay if he sits down.
You gave him a soft smile and nod, tucking a loose hair behind your ear and sitting on one side of the couch, thankful he sat on the other, giving you each plenty of space as your eyes met. The tension was slowly rising, looking at each other as you sat, wondering who was going to break the silence.
ā€œI never meant for anything to happen.ā€ he whispered, his head falling as a shameful look covered his face, avoiding your eyes, ā€œAfter the breakupā€¦ I- I was just lost. I was messing up at work and I just was doing shit. Then, it was like only like a month ago, I was getting drunk all the time and she just came into my trailer and we were talking and then she kissed me.ā€
You just nodded, biting your bottom lip and picking at your nails, peaking up and looking at him, your glossy eyes meeting his bloodshot ones, not really having anything to say in response.
ā€œAnd I justā€¦ā€ he started, ā€œI wanted to feel better, feel anything. So, we just started hanging out more and I just really wanted to feel something, feel a connection. So we took a trip to Italy becauseā€¦ Itā€™s always been a place that made me feel better and thenā€¦ā€
ā€œYeah.ā€ you chuckled, ā€œand thenā€¦ Why did you bring her to our house? I know we havenā€™t talked about that kind of stuff, but itā€™s mine too Harry andā€¦ just seeing you two there? I never felt more replaceable than I did when I saw you two.ā€
ā€œOh love, no.ā€ He whispered, scooting closer to you, a hand coming up to cup your face to help your eyes meet, but he retracted it back before he made contact with your skin, ā€œIā€™m so, so sorry. Iā€™m so sorry and I will never be able to prove to you, but that was never my intention to ever hurt you. The breakup was a mistake.ā€
ā€œIā€¦ How am I supposed to believe that?ā€ you squeaked, voice cracking as the barrier breaks, tears falling on your cheeks as you looked up at him, ā€œWe weā€™re together for years and you just- I mean fuck Harry! I havenā€™t even thought about even starting to flirt with someone and youā€™reā€¦ā€
ā€œWeā€™ve never had sex,ā€ He quietly added cheeks turning a bit red, ā€œor done anything like that. At all, I justā€¦ couldnā€™t.ā€
Your eyes widen a bit at the confession, watching as he looked at his hands, a slight twinge of embarrassment on his features.
ā€œOh.ā€ you whispered, ā€œI know I shouldnā€™t be mad, weā€¦ we arenā€™t together and you have have the right to do whatever you want but itā€™s justā€¦ hard. Especially when I wasnā€™t expecting it. I went to Italy to try and get away, everything in the city makes me think of you, I donā€™t know why I thought staying at the house would be any better but, I just wanted to get away.ā€
ā€œSorry I ruined your trip.ā€
ā€œSorry I ruined your hookups.ā€
He let out a laugh, the smile staying a bit longer when he noticed you had subconsciously scooted a bit closer to him.
ā€œItā€™s not like I ever really wanted toā€¦ Even little Harry only wants you.ā€ he flirted and an instant, loud laugh leaves your lips, leaning forward and your brace yourself on his shoulder, a simple thing you had done over the years countless times, but still made his heart skip a beat.
ā€œOh my god,ā€ you said between breathless laughs, your bodies now less then a foot apart as you smiled up at him, ā€œplease do not call it little Harry!ā€
ā€œWhat do you prefer?ā€ He smirked, ā€œrather I call it bi-ā€œ
ā€œWhat the fuck?ā€ a voice spoke suddenly, both of your red eyes going to your front door and seeing your best friend standing their, her eyes wide in a mix of confusion and anger. Your hand retracted from his body quickly, your best friend looking at you with soft eyes, her eyes darting over to Harryā€™s and you see the fiery anger behind them, ā€œY/N, please tell me he was getting whatever shit he left behind and is leaving.ā€
ā€œWe were just talking.ā€ You started, glancing over at Harry, seeing a bit of fear behind his eyes and your lips quirked up in a smile that quickly faded seeing the anger in y/bff/n eyes.
ā€œWhat do you want to talk to him about? How he broke your heart again?ā€ She asked, confusion and concern laced in her voice, ā€œIā€™m sorry, y/n, I justā€¦ I canā€™t watch you go through all of it all over again and again.ā€
You opened your mouth to protest, but he quickly stood up beside you giving you a quick nod as he glanced over at y/bff/n the back at you, ā€œIā€™m sorry, I shouldnā€™t have just showed up. It was so good to see you, y/n, Iā€™ll get out of your way.ā€
ā€œHarry, wait!ā€ you stood up, hating the softening in your voice, ā€œI want to talk moreā€¦ are you staying or do you have to go back to L.A?ā€
ā€œIā€™ll be here as long as you need me. And if you want me gone, Iā€™ll book my flight. Okay? Itā€™s up to you, whatever you want.ā€
ā€œOkayā€¦ Can I call you later?ā€
ā€œYou can call me anytime, Iā€™ll pick up.ā€
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Y/bff/n definitely wasnā€™t thrilled with you.
ā€œI just feel like this is a bad idea, y/n!ā€ She had exclaimed once Harry had left your apartment, ā€œHeā€™s gonna hurt you again! What could he possibly want?ā€
ā€œI dont know, I justā€¦ I dont know.ā€ You sighed, sitting across from her on your couch just like you did with him, ā€œI love him and I donā€™t know whatā€™s going to happen but I donā€™t want to end up hating him.ā€
She nodded, looking at you as your eyes glazed over again, ā€œHey, okay, Iā€™m sorry. I just donā€™t want you upset. Do you still wanna go try this new place or just hang out here? Letā€™s get your mind off of everything, you need a break, yeah? Especially if youā€™re going to talk to him later.ā€
ā€œDo you think I should?"
ā€œIf thatā€™s what you think, I think you should. You know him.ā€ She nods, ā€œbut I swear to god if he makes you cry again heā€™ll have to deal with me.ā€
So now, here you were, waiting on him to come back to finish your talk from earlier. It was helpful hanging out with y/bff/n, listening to her advice as she gave you a bit of the reality check that you needed, making sure he wonā€™t sweep you off your feet with his familiar charm.
Your heart rate never fully calmed down as you waited for him to come back to your apartment after y/bff/n dropped you back off after your afternoon together and you were glad for the few hours of a distraction, but now your mind was fully occupied with him once again as you sat on your couch.
The knock on your door caused you to jump, hoping up and checking your appearance in your hall mirror before swinging open the door, seeing Harry standing their with a bouquet of flowers, a small smile on his face.
ā€œGot these for you,ā€ he began, ā€œshoulda showed up with them when I kinda crashed into you earlierā€¦ but I was so nervous I didnā€™t think about it, honestly.ā€
ā€œThank you.ā€ You softly replied, eyeing up at him and taking them from his grip, letting out a shaky breath as you welcome him in and turn on your heel, going to your kitchen to place them into a vase quickly before going back to him, seeing him in the same spot you two were sitting in earlier.
ā€œI just wanted to say Iā€™m sorry againā€¦ and thank you for letting me come back and talk to you at all, really donā€™t deserve your time, but Iā€™m thankful for it.ā€ He began, eyes glued onto yours as he scooted closer to you when you sat down, his fingers tentatively trailing on your arm before laying his hand on your own, ā€œIā€¦ I want you back, y/n. I want to be with you, I never stopped wanting just you.ā€
ā€œHarry, Iā€¦ I donā€™t know what to say.ā€ You started, ā€œI justā€¦ thereā€™s so much still up in the air and itā€™s all happening so fast. Are you still with Olivia?ā€
ā€œNo, of course not.ā€ He instantly answered, ā€œwe were never anything real, I left Italy when I went to the house and you were gone. I came back here and I justā€¦ I would sit outside your building in my car and just try and get the nerve to walk in to talk to you, but I was so scared of you telling me to leave again.ā€ Harry started deep into your eyes as he continued, his own welling up with tears, ā€œI love you so much and I was such an idiot and fuck babyā€¦ Iā€™ll do anything to prove it you.ā€
Now, you two were just inches apart, his hand cupping your cheek as you leaned into it, eyes glued onto his eyes as both of your gazes were glassy, sets of eyes wandering down to one anotherā€™s lips. Your eyes fluttered up and looked at him, his nose nudging into yours, seeming to test the boundary and you simply nodded, causing him to connect your lips in an instant.
Your lips met softly, gaining speed as the passion overflowed you both as the familiar move came back easier than either of you could have imagined. You both moaned into one anotherā€™s mouths, his tongue quickly sliding past your lips as your crawled onto his lap, fingers gripping the soft material of his shirt.
Things escalated quickly as he carried you into your bedroom, body hovering over yours as his body pressed against yours, the articles of clothing disappearing piece by piece, lips never separating a second longer than they had to you as you refamilarized yourselves with one another.
His fingers dug their way into your waist as he kissed you harder, singular pieces of thin material being the only things separating you and as Harrys fingers slipped down, pulling back and looking up at you for permission, your breath caught in your throat, reality hitting you like a wave.
ā€œI canā€™t do this.ā€ You whispered, fingers removing themselves from his hair as you covered your face, voice wavering as tears welled up in your eyes once again, ā€œI-itā€™s all too much, too fast- I-I, I donā€™t think I can do this, Harry- I canā€™t.ā€
ā€œFuck, itā€™s okay.ā€ He whispered, crawling off from on top of you, scrambling to pick his t shirt off the floor and handing to you, quickly covering your body with it, ā€œFuck, Iā€™m sorry, did I hurt you?ā€
You nodded quickly, knees tucking into your chest as you let out soft cries, flinching as his arm came around you, going to comfort you with the soft stroke of his arm and retracted it quickly after seeing your reaction.
ā€œI-Iā€¦ I just keep seeing you and her in my head.ā€ You whispered, ā€œā€¦I donā€™t know if I can do this.ā€
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smuggsy Ā· 3 years ago
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i would love to see #11 for the prompt thing (just want to say i adore ur current ed/oswald/omc series btw im excited for more! <3)
owww, thank you so much <3 it's nice to hear ppl are actually enjoying it bc i've got almost no feedback. another chapter is coming soon (;
but now onto the whump below the cut. #11 ā€œPlease, let me help you.ā€Ā 
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Getting used to his impaired vision is no easy task, he'll admit. Now that the doctor's made a thorough job of cleaning the wound and administering antibiotics to prevent infection and prescribed him two different kinds of painkillers and now that the initial shock of it all has passed.Ā NowĀ it downs on Oswald that this is who he's going to be from now on, that watching his step carefully when he goes down the stairs and bumping into walls that are closer than they seem is something he's going to have to get used to.Ā 
As if walking around with a limp and a cane wasn't demeaning enough already. He lets out a grunt as he finally makes it to the kitchen, everything is sunk in darkness and he fails to turn on the lights two times before he finally finds the switch.
HeĀ seesĀ the switch. HeĀ knowsĀ where it is. It's alwaysĀ beenĀ there, in that exact same spot, and he's walked into the kitchen in the middle of the night to fix himself some tea countless times before.
Now the switch hasĀ moved.
"Urrgh," he grunts one more time as he turns around and collides against the kitchen aisle. He nearly grabs one of the chairs and tosses it across the room, a sudden rush of adrenaline and fury coursing through his sleep-deprived mind.
There's a pang behind his eyepatch as if mocking his helplessness but he calms down soon enough, closing his good eye and taking a deep breath to brace himself against the counter. He manages to put the kettle on without any further incidents, but when he stands on his toes to reach the cabinet ā€”how many times has he told Olga to keep that stupid tea-set at hand?!ā€” he topples over and ends up sending two very nice cups to their deaths.
They crash on the floor with a piercing sound and Oswald startles and grits his teeth at the commotion.Ā 
Deep breaths, deeeeeep breaths.
Choosing to ignore the incident he turns around to switch off the gas with trembling hands and pour the water into the one cup he did manage to obtain.Ā 
Except, of course, his mind is still foggy from restless sleep and drugs so he misjudges the angle entirely and ends up pouring it all over his hand holding the teabag in place instead.
He lets out a yelp and drops the kettle instantly.
"Ow! Shit!Ā Stupid littleā€”!"
The water drips onto the floor unceremoniously as he tumbles over to reach the water tap and put his hand under it.
Ed barges into the place only half a minute later wielding a handgun, with hair sticking out and with his glasses askew. Oswald barely spares him a glance, blood boiling under his skin and dangerously close to the edge already.
"Oswald, whatā€”"
"Nothing!" he blurts out almost immediately. Edward bearing witness to this mess is the last thing he needs right now, "justĀ go away."
But, of course, he'sĀ Edward.
"What happened?" his friend asks, pistol forgotten on some nearby shelf and rushing over, words the slightest bit slurred by slumber and Oswald thinksĀ lucky you, being able to get a wink of sleep,Ā and takes another of those deep breaths that are doing a poor job of slowing down his heart rate.Ā 
"What does itĀ lookĀ like it happened, Ed?!"
Edward stares at him numbly and then his eyes dart around the place like he's onlyĀ nowĀ taking it all in, seeing the shattered china on the floor and the pool of water by their feet. Immediately he brings both hands to Oswald's under the cold water from the tap and tugs at it.
"Let me see."
Oswald jerks him away.
"Noā€” I'mĀ fine!" he bites out, "go back to sleep."
Despite his ill-mannered humour, Edward doesn't move. Oswald doesn't look at him while he stands next to him in silence, letting the waters cool, clearly giving him a moment to backtrack on his request. And then, ever so softly, Ed's hands return, to his elbow this time. A touch too gentle it almost makes Oswald let out a whine ā€” because he'sĀ tired, andĀ aching, andĀ sleepyĀ and nothing turns out for him as of late.
"Please, let me help you."
His words are a caress in Oswald's ear. Barely there. Ed keeps his warm fingers on his arm and slowly brings the hand to his chest for inspection. Oswald lets him, this time. All energy seems to leave him with that puff of breath and he lets Ed guide him to one of those chairs he was contemplating taking all of his frustrations out on just a minute ago.
There's a slight hiss of sympathy.
"Should be alright with a little cream and a bandage," is Edward's assessment.Ā 
Oswald rolls his eyes and fights down a sappy retort much like:Ā yes, I know that, I'm not so incompetent that I need you here to issue an official diagnosis, just leave me to rage in peace.Ā He nods tiredly instead, shoulders slumped and yawn unavoidable.
"I'll be right back," Ed says with a hoarse voice, moving around quickly despite his dishevelled appearance, looking perfectly awake now but sounding nothing like it.Ā 
Oswald doesn't try to stop him. Because he knows it'll be a lost cause and because he's afraid if he starts poking too much at the situation he'll end up embarrassing himself and crying out his frustrations on Ed's shoulder.
Not ideal.
So he keeps silent instead, watching Ed's expert hands apply that cold salve on his knuckles and wrap his aching red-looking skin in a white bandage, giving up on not looking miserable because what's theĀ point.
HeĀ isĀ miserable.
"There, all done."
Ed pats him twice on the thigh as if comforting a hurting animal and Oswald can only offer a small scoff in return. He can smell Ed's shampoo from where he's standing so close and he keeps his eyes fixed on that loose crumpled white shirt he wears to sleep, afraid to look up into the gentle eyes he knows he'll find behind those glasses.
Because he might start blurting out stuff that shouldn't be blurt out if he does, as helpless and exhausted as he's beginning to feel.
"Now let's get you that cup of tea."
Ed turns around to make himself busy and Oswald takes the opportunity to scatter away.
"Whereā€”"
"Sofa," he crooks out deadpan.Ā 
That's where Ed finds him ten minutes later, staring at the unlit fireplace as if willing it to come to life on its own. Sitting on his usual spot with the lights off and a glassy look of resignation.Ā 
"Chamomile," Ed says as he offers the steaming cup. Oswald doesn't have the heart to tell him he's changed his mind and would rather down a glass or two of that aged Scotch instead. He takes a sip without muttering out a word. Ed sits down just beside, clearly not taking the hint, "you're uncharacteristically quiet."
Oswald shrugs.
"Just tired," he offers, and then, only to put Ed's mind at ease, gives him a practised look of reassurance and a smile, "I didn't mean to wake you up."
Edward turns the attention back to him, ignoring the clear dismissal implicit in the words.
"Did you go to sleep at all?"
"Yes."
"Is your eye bothering you?"
And then the Oswald from the kitchen returns without a warning and he lashes out.
"Goodnight, Ed."
Edward goes to speak again but stops himself when Oswald sends him a sharp menacing look. He looks nothing short of a kicked puppy as he gets on his feet and turns around to leave.
And then heĀ doesn'tĀ leave.
"I could start a firā€”"
"Goddamn it, Ed!Ā Just leave me alone!"
And just like that the fourth and last cup of that lovely set ceases to exist, turned into another pile of shattered porcelain on the floor. Because Edward Nygma is a pain in his fucking ass, and he doesn't know how to read an indirect and back down and justĀ disappear. HeĀ pokesĀ andĀ pokesĀ andĀ pokesā€”
ā€”and when Oswald turns to look at him with that murderous glare, he sees no reaction from him. Clearly, this was his intention all along, from the very first moment he walked into that kitchen, to see just how much he could take, to push until he broke, to make himĀ talkĀ about it.
Oswald should have learnt to read Edward Nygma by now. Shouldā€™ve seen it coming.
As Ed strides back to him with purpose and swiftly sits back down on the sofa and leans in to wrap him into an embrace, Oswald understands he definitely still hasn't learnt to read Edward Nygma.Ā 
"What are you doing?" he pushes him away half-heartedly with his good hand. Edward doesn't let go, an unmovable brick wall that cannot be swayed.
"I'm hugging you."
"LetĀ goā€”"
"No."
Oswald blinks. Then lets out a breathless laugh. He can't seem to fathom any other reaction to this ā€” providedĀ thisĀ is actually happening. Provided it isn't a secondary effect of being drugged up to his eyeballs for a whole week, now.Ā 
He stops trying to tug Edward away and instead slumps against him, head resting on a slim shoulder and cold and runny nose poking Ed's neck as he keeps giggling at the unprecedented gesture.Ā 
Edward's hug is implacable but awkward. He doesn't move, his broad hands against Oswald's back just pin him in place almost in a possessive fashion. He's clearly unskilled in the ways of physical reassurance.
Oswald realises those nervous giggles he's letting out are actually sobs.
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estebanbicon Ā· 2 years ago
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it's never dumb to be worried, promise! i've actually been meaning to ask for a while, what in particular made you a fan of este? like, did you follow his junior career, or was it when he got to f1? idk, i just think it's super interesting to hear why people support their drivers ā¤ļø
well, i used to be super into wrestling. then in may 2020, the speaking out movement happened, where countless people exposed abusers and harrassers under the wrestlers. my fav wrestler turned out to be a huge piece of shit, and a few other i liked as well.
so, naturally, that put a huge damper on my love for wrestling. and around that time, @faghowardhamlin started blogging about f1 and i went hmmmm because i have uncles who watched it sometimes, but it never interested me much. but it looked fun, so i dived into it a bit, and saw the infamous video of esteban trying and failing to pronounce squirrel (the whole frenglish video). and i was like ā€œlmao what a fucking loserā€ and started liking him. i got filled in on the Lore, and then hungary 2020 was my first race i ever watched (which naturally made me cry even harder when hungary 2021 happened)
it took me quite a while to get it all right, especially driverā€™s names (for the longest time, i mixed up lance and lando bc both began with lan). and then ofc i also saw how much unnecessary hate este got, and that made me stan him even harder.
so yeah, thatā€™s how i got into this sport and i am still stuck here two years later.
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stargazing-enby Ā· 4 years ago
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I had a dream that harry and draco were both aurors and they were married to ginny and astoria and then got sent to a mission and they had to do a steak out????? But ofc there was tension so they were like uuuuhhhhh we should bring our wives bc uuuuhhh we cant be away from them too long ya know and they all spend a month or two in a house and shit and ginny and astoria fall in love and bc theyre badass ladies they are upfront about it and then harry and draco are like.... Guess we should a dress
our thing too huh?? And then albus and scorpious have 2 moms and 2 dads (ginny and astoria were both pregnant btw, dont know if i already said that) and it was weirdly amazing and i didnt know who else to tell so yea
***
Anon, your mind. First of all, thanks so much for sharing your dream with me because it's honestly amazing. Second of all, I was re-reading your asks the other day wondering if I should try to write this, and soon after that I took the (ill-advised) decision to take a nap and started dreaming about your prompt. Now I feel like I share a special, oneiric connection with you! Anyway, I hope you enjoy :)
Thanks @april-thelightfury115 for betaing!
Drarry | 2.3k | Teen and Up | Falling in Love, Break Up, Getting Together, Kid Fic, Pregnancy | Read on AO3
At first, Ginny had been mad. Offended, even, that her husband had thought it a great idea to make her share a house with Astoria Malfoy for Merlin knew how long while he and Draco ran off to chase some suspect.
ā€œThe only thing that woman and I have in common is that we're pregnant,ā€ Ginny had argued, ā€œand that we're both married to bloody idiots!ā€Ā 
Three weeks into the stakeout, however, Ginny had to admit sheā€™d been wrong. Although wrong wasn't perhaps the most accurate of word choices, since she and Astoria were, like sheā€™d suspected, completely different kinds of people. Where Ginny was passionate and intense, Astoria was quiet, an aura of serenity always surrounding her. Where Ginny bickered and joked and threw jibes around with her husband whenever she had the chance, Astoria was all subtle touches; a small caress to Draco's shoulder before they left home in the morning, a careful take care whispered in his ear.Ā 
Where Ginny was fire, Astoria was water: cleansing and soothing and calm.Ā 
But she had been utterly, dangerously wrong in that she couldnā€™t help but find Astoria Malfoy intoxicating.Ā 
ā€œDarling.ā€ Astoria had recently taken to calling her that when they were on their own, in a tone that Ginny could not bring herself to believe to be purely neutral. ā€œAre you sure you're not tired? I sincerely doubt they'll arrive before dawn this morningā€”we don't have to stay awake if you don't want to.ā€
ā€œNo, noā€”ā€ Ginny couldnā€™t help but shiver as the small realisation washed over her for seemingly the hundredth time that night: the realisation that Harry, as much as she adored him, could not have had any less to do with her wanting to stay awake. ā€œI don't want to give up the chance to beat you one more time.ā€Ā 
Astoria smiled at her, cheeky.
ā€œVery well,ā€ she said, and, after a moment, moved one of her knights on the board. She didn't take her eyes off Ginny as the Knight destroyed one of Ginny's pawns; her eyes sparkled with naughty mirth, and Ginny's breath caught.Ā 
A moment later, a wave of guilt drowned the butterflies in her stomach, and Ginny looked down at the chess board and told herself that she was in love with her husband. Utterly, helplessly in love.Ā 
Except you aren't, a little voice said. You love him. You love him more than anything. Youā€™ve loved him since forever; you'll love him for forever, because he'll always be the person who gave you your son. But you are not in love with him anymore. You haven't been for a while now.Ā 
ā€œGinny.ā€Ā 
She raised her head.Ā 
ā€œYou're not thinking about the game.ā€Ā 
It wasn't a question.Ā 
Astoria knew. She wasn't stupid. She knew she wasn't meant to be calling Ginny darling, knew of the emotionsā€”deep, fierce, ragingā€”that ran under Ginny's skin whenever they shared a smile, a look; whenever one's fingertips found the other's knuckles and their knees brushed and bumped almost on their own accord in the middle of their nightly conversations.Ā 
ā€œI'm not,ā€ Ginny said. ā€œI'm thinking about us.ā€Ā 
Astoria let out a breath, shoulders sagging. She looked down, but Ginny waited, gaze steady, for Astoria to look back up at her.Ā 
ā€œIt's late,ā€ Astoria said after a moment.Ā 
ā€œI think I'm falling in love with you.ā€
Astoria closed her eyes, a slow frown twisting her sharp features.Ā 
ā€œI know.ā€ It was barely a murmur.Ā 
ā€œI know you know,ā€ Ginny said, a challenge.Ā 
Astoria met her gaze, then, and Ginny's resolve wavered when she realised just how terrified Astoria was.
ā€œHey,ā€ Ginny murmured, standing up. Astoria, lips trembling, buckled over to make room for her in the settee. ā€œHey, I'm sorry. I'm sorryā€”ā€Ā 
ā€œIt's not your fault.ā€ Even though her head was turned away from Ginny, Astoria leaned into her touch. ā€œNone of this is your fault. Draco isā€”ā€ Her voice broke, and Ginny held her hand with both of hers, aching, yearning to hold Astoria in her arms and take the pain away. But she couldn't. ā€œDraco is a wonderful man. He's attentive, and loving, and he's funny, andā€¦ā€
A tear fell into Astoria's shirt over her tummy.Ā 
ā€œAnd he's my best friend. But he and I are not in love. We never have been.ā€
That caught Ginny off-guard.Ā 
ā€œNever?ā€Ā 
Astoria laughed, a broken, pathetic sound.Ā 
ā€œNever. Our parents planned our union soon after I left Hogwarts. I was horrified at first, but after getting to know him, there was a time when I really thought I would fall in love with him in time. That he'd fall in love with me. And we did end up loving each other, mind you: he will always be my closest friend. It's just notā€¦ā€
ā€œYeah,ā€ Ginny said softly. ā€œI understand.ā€
Astoria turned to look at her, then. Seeing her teared up made something inside Ginny snap, and she reached out, held Astoria's cheeks in her hands, thumbing at her messy tears.Ā 
ā€œHarry and I were in love for a long time, butā€¦ I think he knows just as well as I do that the love we feel now is purely platonic.ā€ She smiledā€”chuckled. ā€œIn fact, a small part of me suspects whatever he feels for Draco right now is more intense than what he ever felt for me.ā€Ā 
That tore a laugh out of Astoria.Ā 
ā€œI would not be surprised if that was the case. Those twoā€¦ā€ She shook her head. ā€œThey're incorrigible.ā€
Ginny groaned in agreement. A moment later, though, her smile faded away and she was left with Astoria's face cradled in her hands. Their legs pressed together, their eyes searching the other's face. Scared, but hopeful.Ā 
Sliding her hands down Astoria's neck and shoulders, and then squeezing her arms, Ginny let out a slow, deep breath.Ā 
ā€œI think we need to have a conversation with our husbands.ā€
***
ā€œYouā€¦ What?ā€Ā 
To Harry's credit, he looked more baffled than anything else.Ā 
ā€œWe're in love,ā€ Astoria repeated, voice steady, but gaze pleading with Draco to understand.Ā 
ā€œIā€¦ Okay. Okay. Give me one second.ā€ Harry turned around and sat down on the nearest chair.Ā 
Draco remained still. As far as Ginny was aware, heā€™d barely even blinked since they'd started explaining the situation to them.
ā€œAre you going to say anything?ā€ Harry asked after a moment, turning to Draco. When Draco shook his head, gaze still fixed in some distant point in space, Harry stood again, leaning his weight against the table. ā€œOkay, so first of all, this is all extremely awkward.ā€Ā 
ā€œWe were aware of that much, thank you,ā€ Astoria said.Ā 
ā€œI mean, both of you are pregnant. With our babies.ā€ He gestured between him and Draco. ā€œNot to mention that we're married, although that's slightly less permanentā€¦ā€Ā 
Draco huffed, and the three of them turned to him. When he didn't say anything, Harry continued.Ā 
ā€œBut I guess itā€¦ makes sense? I meanā€”you two are sort of likeā€¦ the perfect opposites, you know. I always knew you would get on well. I didn't suspect you'd get on this well, but, heyā€”ā€Ā 
ā€œHave youā€”ā€ Draco's head seemed to be stuck mid-shake, eyes scrunched closed. ā€œHave you done anything? With one another?ā€Ā 
ā€œNo, darling.ā€ The word sounded different, Ginny thought, when Astoria used it for Draco. ā€œWe were waiting to tell you.ā€Ā 
He nodded, but didn't say anything else. When Astoria approached him, Ginny took a step back to give them some space and leaned into the table with Harry.Ā 
ā€œI love you,ā€ she told him.Ā 
ā€œAnd I you,ā€ Harry said, eyes low. Gulping, he took Ginny's hand in his. ā€œButā€¦ I mean, I think both of us had noticed that something wasā€¦ that something wasn'tā€¦ā€Ā 
ā€œI know.ā€ She squeezed his hand. ā€œI know.ā€Ā 
He looked up at her, and Merlin, he looked so, so vulnerable in that moment that Ginny wished more than ever that she could love him the way he deserved to be loved. But that simply wasnā€™t for her to do.
ā€œI still would like for us to raise our son together,ā€ he murmured.Ā 
ā€œWe will. Harry, I don't care what happens from now on. You're still my best friend, and you're still the father of my kid. Nothing is going to change that. Okay?ā€Ā 
Harry nodded, and, biting his lip, turned his gaze to Draco and Astoria. After a moment, Ginny did too.Ā 
Draco was crying.Ā 
ā€œCome on, let's give them some space,ā€ she said, pushing herself off the table. Harry followed her out of the room.Ā 
***
ā€œDracoā€¦ā€
No reply came. Harry looked at him, but Draco's gaze was fixed somewhere outside the car window.Ā 
They'd spent countless hours inside that car, in that very watch post. Hours chatting, and bickering, and taking turns to sleep while the other watched the house for any signs of activity.Ā 
It had never been awkward before now.Ā 
ā€œLook, we need to talk,ā€ Harry said. Draco huffed, unamused. ā€œWe need to talk because we both know our wives are not the only ones whoā€™d noticed something wasnā€™t right before yesterdayā€™s conversation. They were just the only ones brave enough to be upfront about it.ā€Ā 
In the moment it took Draco to turn around, Harry thought of Draco's head on his shoulder; of the way it had felt when Draco had fallen asleep there, of the way he'd been so careful not to let it fall so Draco wouldn't wake up. He thought of the way their arms brushed whenever they walked, wands in hand, toward a dangerous location. Thought of the very reason they'd been so adamant that their wives should come with them on this mission: a truth they'd refused to confront, and that had gone and slapped them in the face anyway.Ā 
ā€œDo you understand how terrifying this is for me?ā€ Draco finally said, body turned to Harry, but gaze fixed on his knees. ā€œTo know that my life as I know it, as I always expected it to be, is over? Do you thinkā€ā€”he looked up at Harry, and Merlin, he looked so scared Harry had to hold back from reaching out to himā€”ā€œthat I haven't noticed that I'm in love with Harry Potter, and not with the woman I'm about to have a baby with?ā€Ā 
Harry held his breath. Searched in Malfoy's eyes, desperately, for any hint that he was about to take back his words. Then, almost out of breath:
ā€œI'm in love with you too.ā€
Draco let out a desperate laugh.Ā 
ā€œI know that, you bloody idiot,ā€ he choked out. ā€œFuck, I know.ā€
Harry bit his lip. Reached out, rested a hand over Draco's trembling, fisted own.Ā 
For a few moments, neither spoke.Ā 
ā€œI'm sorry,ā€ Harry murmured eventually. ā€œI'm sorry things can't be different.ā€Ā 
Draco started playing with Harry's fingers, and Harry closed his eyesā€”marvelled in how warm Draco's hands felt. How careful they were even as he fidgeted.Ā 
ā€œI'm glad they told us,ā€ Draco said. ā€œI want Astoria to be happy, and I know she'd never be completely happy with me.ā€ A sigh. ā€œI wouldn't, either. Not with her. I justā€¦ I need some time to come to terms with it.ā€Ā 
Harry's fingers turned and turned between Draco's nervous own.Ā 
ā€œThat's okay. I don't mind waiting for you.ā€
Their eyes met.Ā 
ā€œOkay,ā€ Draco said.Ā 
Harry squeezed his hand. Smiled.Ā 
ā€œOkay.ā€
***
The whoosh of the hearth letting someone through was quickly followed by two high-pitched squeals. By two very excited cries of, ā€œDaddy!ā€Ā 
Harry smiled to himself when he heard Draco's laughter coming from the living room as heā€”presumablyā€”was tackled to the floor by Albus and Scorpius.Ā 
ā€œBoooys,ā€ Harry called after a moment. ā€œCome grab some cookies from the kitchen!ā€Ā 
A few seconds later, the two five-year-old tornadoes were rushing toward the tray, barely sparing Harry a glance. Harry shook his head, grinning.Ā 
ā€œWhere's my hug?ā€Ā 
ā€œDaddy!ā€ Albus, face already full of crumbs, ran toward Harry's arms. ā€œYour cookies are the best!ā€Ā 
ā€œMmh!ā€ Scorpius agreed.Ā 
ā€œI'm glad you like them.ā€ Harry ruffled Al's hair. ā€œDo save some for later, though!ā€Ā 
Draco walked in, grabbed a cookie. ā€œHow are your mums?ā€ he asked while he gave Harry a sonorous kiss on the cheek, the crumbs on Dracoā€™s mouth scratching against his stubble.Ā 
Harry was about to complain when Albus stretched his arms out, asking to be picked up.Ā 
ā€œThey have a date today,ā€ heā€”quite loudlyā€”whispered in Harry's ear.Ā 
ā€œDo they, now!ā€Ā 
ā€œA date in a restawant with candles and a lot of different forks,ā€ Albus explained. ā€œAndā€”and they were wearing really pretty dresses!ā€Ā 
ā€œReally? What colour?ā€ Draco asked, picking Scorpius up too.Ā 
ā€œMum's was red,ā€ Scorpius said. ā€œAnd mummy's was, uh, it was really pretty, andā€”ā€Ā 
ā€œAnd sparkly!ā€ Albus squealed. ā€œBlack and sparkly!ā€Ā 
ā€œWow! I donā€™t think Draco and I own anything so pretty!ā€ Harry turned to Draco. ā€œWhat do you think?ā€Ā 
ā€œHmmmā€¦ā€ Draco dragged the sound out, sharing a mischievous look with Scorpius. ā€œIā€™m not sureā€¦ I think we might have some sparkly garments hidden in the back of our wardrobe, but Iā€™m sure Al and Scorp wonā€™t be interested inā€”ā€
ā€œWe want to see!ā€ Scorpius screamed, wiggling in his fatherā€™s arms.Ā 
ā€œWe want to see, we want to see!ā€ Albus chanted.
Harry and Draco shared a smile.Ā 
ā€œVery well, then,ā€ Draco said solemnly, setting Scorpius down. ā€œLetā€™s see which of you can find the prettiest clothes in our bedroom for us to wear today.ā€Ā 
The kids darted upstairs, and, before following them, Harry took Dracoā€™s hand in his and kissed his husbandā€™s cheek in return.
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honeygingergemini Ā· 4 years ago
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Now I'm thirsty for your writing! Can you write one where reader or steve wants to make a sex tape? Thank youšŸ˜˜šŸ˜˜
Hello my dear :) Thank you for being patient with me. I had writers block and just thought everything I was writing sucked so I kept deleting it and starting over. I hope you like it @donutloverxo
p.s. I was today years old when I found out tumblr doesnā€™t send you a notification when someone answers your ask (Iā€™ve only ever asked on anon bc my main blog is something different so let me know if I am wrong lol) I tagged you just incase <3 IGNORE TYPOS :)
pairing: Steve rogers x fem!readerĀ 
word count: 2.4kĀ 
warnings: camera sex, dirty talk, oral male receiving mentions of face fucking (light), unprotected sex, cream pies and descriptions of it, light spanking, and praise kink for stevie :)Ā 
On Camera
Maybe this wasnā€™t a good idea. My heart is racing and we havenā€™t even done anything but set up the camera. Weā€™ve only been dating for five months and four days, so imagine the graveling I had to do to get Americaā€™s golden boy to agree to fuck me on camera. I begged Steve for so long and now I'm the shy one. Weā€™re supposed to be making a sex tape yet we are on opposite ends of the bed.Ā 
Steveā€™s bare back is against the headboard while his long legs are spread out before him. He keeps looking everywhere but the camera. His eyes bounce from the walls to the sofa in the corner of the room but once he looks at me, he looks at the camera and he retreats further into his shell. His hand keeps running over his shorts and now I'm starting to feel bad.Ā 
He agreed to this for me but I know heā€™s nervous. Maybe he doesnā€™t want to actually do this? Maybe I donā€™t want to do this?Ā 
Nothing will happen if I get up and turn the camera off now, nothing will happen except me being deathly embarrassed. I donā€™t know why Iā€™m so nervous. I know I want this, I thought about it for a long time before and after bringing it up to Steve. It was my bright idea and now I'm sitting here twiddling my thumbs like a dummy.Ā 
Youā€™ve had sex with Steve countless times, this is no different donā€™t let the camera scare you. Just relax, heā€™s your boyfriend, the one youā€™ve slept with numerous times. Just kiss him.Ā 
I take a deep breath looking at Steve whose skin is slightly flushed. I lean over to his side of the bed and reach for him taking in his warmth. His skin is damp with a light coating of sweat. Steveā€™s eyes shoot over to mine with the unexpected contact.Ā 
ā€œHi.ā€ I smile at Steve hoping to relax him. As well as myself.Ā 
ā€œHi.ā€ He looks at me but then quickly looks at the camera. I follow suit doing the same.
We need a distraction from the boxed recording device. I lean over more to capture Steveā€™s lips in a demure kiss. I kiss him slowly trying to memorize every detail of his mouth. My tongue rolls over his teeth before dipping further into his mouth pulling a deep groan from him, but after his groan he tense and pulls away.Ā 
ā€œYou okay?ā€ I ask.Ā 
ā€œYeah... iā€™m still not...ā€ comfortable. he didnā€™t have to say it for me to know what he meant. I lift my body over his straddling him as I trace my fingers over his body knowing the simple act calms him. It works because this time Steve initiates the kiss. Itā€™s more firm than the last but pleasing just the same. Our tongues waltz in a sinful manner pulling soft calls from me. Forced breaths exit my nostrils as I grind my hips slowly into his. His large hands grip my hips and he pulls me down harder.Ā 
ā€œUh Steve.ā€ I moan out. ā€œMore please.ā€ Heā€™s now attacking my neck leaving open mouth kisses across my jugular. His hips push up to meet mine once then twice then itā€™s a repeated action that leaves me breathless.Ā 
His eyes snap open to meet mine but instead they meet the camera and his arms drop to his side. Deep sighs are released from the both of usĀ 
ā€œIā€™m sorry princess... I'm just trying to get used to this.ā€ I know heā€™s turned on right now. I can feel how turned on he is.Ā 
ā€œDo you want to stop?ā€ He looks at me but doesnā€™t answer. I peck his lips quickly before removing myself from his thighs. My fingers are at the rim of his shorts very close to pulling them down before Steve sits up to stop me.Ā 
ā€œWhat are you doing?ā€ it comes out mumbled together almost as one complete word.Ā 
ā€œLet me help you relax.'' I push his chest back down softly and continue my plan. I pull his shorts down just enough to free his erection. It bounces back and hits Steve's stomach. I take him into my hands and slowly stroke him. I bend over Steve's thighĀ  arching my back while bringing my spit slick lips to his tip and leave a wet kiss. Steve shudders whispering profanity under his breath. My tongue joins the fun, slipping out to run around the tip in slow semi circles. I continue my teasing until Steve's hips jut forward and his hand is on the base of my neck.Ā 
ā€œSuck it right.ā€ He grunts voice hoarse ā€œStop playing with me.ā€Ā 
ā€œYes sir.ā€ The last words I say before I take him fully into my mouth. I push down until my nose is met by the coarse curls of his base. One of my hands grip Steveā€™s thigh while the other is holding on to the side of his abdomen subconsciously giving the camera a perfect view. Steve's grip on my neck is unwavering; he's holding my head down.Ā 
ā€œFuck... breathe through your nose doll.ā€ He grunts with a rasp Iā€™ve never heard from him before. I take in sloppy breaths trying to calm down. ā€œYou gonna let me fuck your face? hmm princess?ā€Ā 
He doesnā€™t wait for an answer; he begins pushing his hips up into me slowly speeding up with each thrust until heā€™s assaulting the back of my throat. The action pulls strangled noises from me. My sounds only serve as encouragement for Steve. I think heā€™s completely forgotten about the camera.Ā 
Steve juts his hips in a way that knocks the wind out of me. I gag around him getting a deep groan in return.Ā 
ā€œF-fuck princess.ā€ His hand finds your ass with conviction. Steve suddenly becomes fixated on your bottom. His burly hands run from your ass and down your thighs repeatedly. I wiggle my lower half as a silent plea for him to spank you again and he complies.Ā 
ā€œYou like it when Captain spanks you?ā€ Slap. ā€œYou like the pain?ā€ Slap. ā€œI asked you something, doll.ā€ you were presented with two slaps this time. I nod ferociously around Steveā€™s cock. The super soldier rubs the area heā€™s abused before dipping his fingers into your core.Ā 
ā€œShit princess.ā€ he continues toying around with your pussy. He pulls your head from his dick not wanting to end his fun prematurely. His tongue meets yours in a grimy kiss. ā€œI canā€™t wait to watch that back.ā€ Steve mumbles around your lips as you simultaneously squeeze the finger within you.Ā 
ā€œOh? You like that?ā€ Steve adds his middle finger to his index and presses into your warm sex deeply. I cry out enjoying the sweet burn of Steveā€™s fingers. ā€œYou like the thought of me watching this while iā€™m away?ā€Ā 
You absolutely loved the thought of Steve watching you pleasure him when heā€™s away. An image of Steve hunched over dick in hand pumping himself into oblivion leaves you dripping.Ā 
ā€œTake your dress off.ā€ Steve demands his voice carrying power. I begin stripping myself for him when he quickly stops me. ā€œNuh uh, not for me, for the camera.ā€
I turn to the camera as a shiver runs down my spine. My slip dress easily falls off my body leaving me with only black lace panties as covering. Not that I want to be covered in this moment.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re so beautiful.ā€ Steveā€™s thickset hands wrap around me from behind covering my breast giving them a pleasure filled squeeze. ā€œSuch a pretty sight.ā€ Steve brings his body to mold into mine from behind. His left hand trails itā€™s way down back to my clothed opening.Ā 
ā€œCan i touch you?ā€ I nod yes at Steve's ridiculous question. Why would you ever deny him? Your response must be good enough because heā€™s pressing down over the fabric just the way you like. It doesnā€™t take long for his self restraint to be overcome and heā€™s dipping his fingers under your panties. He dips into your liquid arousal and coats your sex with it.
ā€œYouā€™re dripping princess.ā€ He shudders to himself. He says it every time you two are intimate but you never get tired of hearing it. ā€œSo wet.ā€Ā 
ā€œAlways for you.ā€ My words flow out breathlessly ā€œOnly for you.ā€ Youā€™re unsure of when steve removed his shorts but heā€™s aligning himself with your entrance. Heā€™s bare. Thereā€™s no protective barrier between the two of you. Heā€™s never done this before. Youā€™ve never done this before. His tip is barely grazing your lips, Steve surprises you.Ā 
ā€œAre you okay with this?ā€ He asks for your permission and of course you accept. How could you turn down your favorite super soldier? So now youā€™re face down into the mattress dripping at the idea of getting to feel your Steve in a new way. A more personal way. Steve pushes into you slowly, only his tip. An exasperated moan leaves you as your suspicion is confirmed. You feel every detail of Steve's mushroom tip. Your vice like grip cups him into your squelching center holding him there. You absentmindedly hear Steve express his approval of the pleasure your body is providing him. Steve pulls out his tip just as slow as he entered. A suctioning click echos in the room showing just how wet you are.Ā 
ā€œFuck.ā€ Steve whispers ā€œYou feel like a dream doll.ā€Ā 
He hasnā€™t fully delved into your sweetness and heā€™s on cloud nine. Not wanting to waste anymore time Steve dips into your bottoming out quickly and stays there. Labored breaths from both of you fill the room. It feels like Steve sits there forever unwavering. He takes in every detail of your squishy walls as you commit every vein, dip, and curve of Steveā€™s dick to memory.Ā 
ā€œStevie baby,ā€ You can barely breathe but you need him to move. ā€œMoveā€¦ pleaseā€¦ for me.ā€Ā 
Steve takes in one deep breath before heā€™s pounding into with great intensity. He doesnā€™t work your way up to his speed. He just slams into you, repeatedly. Hips clashing into your ass causing a jiggle that Steve adores. His hands strike your bottom giving added stimulation you didnā€™t know you needed. Steve pulls your head off of the bed bringing your body to lay flush against his. He dips his hips just a little bit lower and his tip sweeps the sweet spot located deep in your center only he can reach. You choke out a cry, his name being the only thing on your mind. Your cries encourage him to duplicate the action.Ā 
ā€œIt feel good, doll?ā€ You nod so fast you feel the contents of your mind scramble.Ā 
ā€œSay it, tell the camera how much you like it.ā€ Steve turns your head to the recording device in front of you. Something you forgot was even present in the room with you. ā€œTell the cameraā€ With each word his body collides with yours making sure you feel him as well as his words deep. ā€œ Tell ā€˜em how much you like Captain stretching this pussy out.ā€Ā 
ā€œTell them.ā€ Steveā€™s stern grunts are accompanied by passionate strikes to your outer thigh.Ā 
ā€œCaptainā€¦ā€ You whine, The pleasure is starting to feel overwhelming. ā€œYou feel so good, so different.ā€ You want to catch your breath but you always want to please Steve. Captain has a praise kink.Ā 
ā€œI can feel all of you.ā€ You reach behind yourself to cup Steve's head. ā€œItā€™s so deep.ā€ You sigh when his fingers find your clit. The tingle of your orgasm begins at your toes and travels up your body. Youā€™re so close.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re the only one that can make me feel this way.ā€ Steve grunts in approval of your expression pressing harder into your clit. He likes control but only because you give it to him so when you praise him, he feels like heā€™s on fire.Ā 
ā€œI love when you touch me like that.ā€ Another grunt from Steve. I teeter close to saying something important, something so permanent that once I say it, it can't be taken back. Steveā€™s chest puffs with need. A need for you to express the feeling you both have swirling within your chest growing with each passing day. A small smack is applied to your clit before Steve flips you over so youā€™re on your back.Ā 
ā€œTell me what I want to hear.ā€ His voice is as rough as his pace. You donā€™t respond. Itā€™s only been a couple months. Way Too soon to say it.Ā 
ā€œDonā€™t wanna say it?ā€ Steve is plowing into making sure no air is left in your lungs. ā€œBut I thought I was doing so good?ā€ His thrusts are unabated.Ā 
ā€œThought I was the only one that could make you feel this way? hmm? Thought only I could make you feel good?ā€ Long drawn out moans escape you. One right after the other each one more melodic than the last.Ā 
ā€œBe my good little baby and say it.ā€ His thumb flicks around your bundle of nerves with sharp short strokes. ā€œSay it princess.ā€Ā 
ā€œI love you.ā€ You think you say it. You hope you say it. Youā€™re unsure, your words are completely slurred and your mind is only filled with white noise. Your body is levitating as your orgasm washes over you. Youā€™re feeling everything all at once. Steve doesnā€™t stop. He doesnā€™t give you a moment to catch your breath.Ā 
ā€œI know you do baby,ā€ Steve chuckles, pleased with his work. ā€œI love you so much more.ā€ Each word is followed by a sweet kiss. Too sweet for whatā€™s taking place. Your understanding of time becomes weary but soon enough Steve meets you at the peak.Ā 
ā€œF-Fuucck doll.ā€ His body tenses as he releases deep inside you. ā€œFuck.ā€ Once he collects himself heā€™s off of you. You whine at the loss of heat from the super soldier. You didnā€™t realize it but Steve has grabbed the camera bringing its focus to your filled cunt.Ā 
ā€œYou look so pretty like this doll.ā€ His finger dip into your overstimulated sex. He pushes the proof of his orgasm around before pulling some of it out to spread it across your lower lips.Ā 
You lay still trying, trying to breathe, trying to not pass out, trying to not look as fucked out as you feel. You hear steve mention how this was fun in the background but you donā€™t have the strength to respond. Soft kisses to your inner thighs, stomach, then lips lull you further into your euphoric state.Ā 
ā€œYou okay?ā€Ā 
ā€œMmhmm iā€™m perfect.ā€ You sling a leg over the super soldier.Ā  ā€œSo you love me?ā€ Steveā€™s soft chuckle is the last thing you grasp before falling into much needed slumber.Ā 
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potatotrash0 Ā· 4 years ago
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Oh? You've been into Childhood alternative universes lately?*slides Mastermind Nagito file back and pulls seperate piece of paper out* Let's work with that. *sits in the worn down swivel chair that I imagine myself keeping in this hellscape of a fictional office* Now :).
Hinata and Nagito first met when they were six. Nagito was still sick at this time, so his parents were taking him to a doctor in a different country in hopes of being able to treat him. Nagito was sitting on a street corner waiting as some of the servants packed up the car for their plane trip, when he notices a little boy with the greenest eyes and the oddest cowlick crying on the other side of the street. When he goes up to the child to ask what's wrong, he sees the big scrape on his knee, and the busted skateboard lying next to him. Nagito offers a hand to him. "Komaeda Nagito. Need some help?" He says with a smile that wasn't yet tainted with anxiety and despair. The kid crying grabs the hand, still bursting at the seams with his tears, and manages to say "H-hinata Hajime." in a shaky voice. When Hajime's taken inside for a glass of water and bandages, and is able to talk in a less shaky voice, they make a fond promise to hang out when Nagito gets back.
When Nagito gets back from the "trip", Hajime is in absolute shock. This sweet kid who helped him without hesitation had to deal with all this... terrible luck. Hajime does his best to look up ways to feel better, gets a bucket of a water and a handful of chocolates ( drinking water can help stop crying and chocolate can give ranged waves of dopamine [if I remember right]- Hajime doesn't know what dopamine means but it was on a site to help sadness and shit and he's just doin his best), and heads to Nagito's house. He's allowed in, and when he eventually finds Nagito curled up in the corner of his room, he stupidly drops the bucket and chocolates in front of him with a grin. Nagito responds by crawling over to him and crying on his shoulder for seemingly hours, and Hajime lets him.
Nagito was glad he had someone who wouldn't judge him for his "good luck" now.
( afterwards, Nagito says that it was alright, that he heard the servants talking about how it was good luck, since he inherited a large estate, and Hajime says he heard his parents say the same thing, and they both agree that it must have been good luck, since everyone else said so, despite the countless bruises and tears that it caused. Neither of them realize that their views on luck were permanently obscured since then.)
They grow closer after that, and don't seperate once, not as they grow older, not as life beats Nagito inwards which each traumatic event and curls into his beliefs of hope, despair, and talent, not as Hajime realizes he can't save Nagito from himself. Which each day, they grow closer and closer to the hip, practically seamed to each other.
That is, until Hope's Peak academy came into the picture. Nagito and Hajime immediately jumped for whatever chance they had to get in (both reasons are personal, but more tied to the character- Nagito still desires to be amongst the greatest, while Hajime still desires to be remembered [mostly by Nagito, though he doesn't entirely realize that's why].), but when they're still separated by the two courses, that's ywhere the problem lies. You see, Nagito is still an insensitive dumbfuck that doesn't realize how his words affect other people, and when he keeps actively degrading the reserve course students even in front of Hajime, it takes a toll. Hajime starts believing that Nagito hates him because of his status as a reserve course student now, and between the pressure of all the bullshit that happens to him because of his status and now this bs drama, he's willing to pay a price for his affection once again. A price that'll be much too permanent for either's liking.
This is where I add the Kamakura project in. I'm sorry for this upcoming angst shit but I always find my way back here.
When Hajime is presented the Kamakura project, he thinks about being able to join Nagito in the talent course and that Nagito won't be hate him for it anymore. He thinks of Nagito showering him with hugs and praise for finally being able to join him and his classmates. He thinks of the joy it'll bring to Nagito and his parents- but mostly Nagito. He thinks of Nagito, Nagito, Nagito as he signs his name. He didn't think he'd be shoved into a pod. He didn't think he wouldn't be able to see Nagito ever again. As he dies, he thinks about the little boy who offered his hand to him when his other friends left. Nagito, Nagito, Nagito. Izuru is born thinking of this boy, and it sticks. Nagito, Nagito, Nagito. He doesn't stop thinking of him, even when Enoshima and Ikusaba appeared with their proposition of despair (a part of him told him to not do it, let Nagito keep his hope, this man he couldn't remember), even when Chiaki dies in front of him (he feels... guilty, about her death, but not exactly sorrow. he wonders if he'd feel this way if the sheep man died.).
Nagito realizes who Izuru was when he turned around to aim at him. He saw the cold, dead eyes of this man, and for a moment he saw the boy who remembered him and brought him water and chocolate to help him feel better. The one person Nagito thought couldn't be affected by his luck was gone now. This was how Nagito fell into despair.
They generally stayed together for most of the apocalypse, still attached to the hip, although it was... different now. There were no more subconscious handholding moments as they traveled through the streets. There was no more trying to stop Servant from berating himself. There was no more helping Hinata's injuries. No more ice cream "dates". No more... love, in their presence.
Izuru tells Servant about his plan as they sit together on the boat to Jabberwock. Servant is sitting in the other's lap, stroking their hair as they speak. He responds with expressing his excitement, and Izuru feels a wave of guilt wash over him, though he drowns it out immediately.
Hajime wakes up to see his best friend standing over him. "Hey, Hajime, are you alright?" Nagito says, with a smile tainted with fear and despair as he offers his hand to help him up. Hajime briefly feels a sense of Deja vu, and grabs the offered hand.
(I keep making these too long dkckakkflakfkalfk f u c k)
sobs.........every time you get to the kamukura project i just brace myself bc it hurts like hell 100% of the time without fail......but ahhhhhhh i love this.......
for a moment i thought this was gonna be childhood friends and mastermind komaeda and i nearly had a heart attack?? mmm iā€™m still buzzing with the ideas but iā€™ll put it under the cut
just like. hajime finding comfort in having at least one person to rely on in this bizarre situation. komaeda really does ground him, he realizes, but that stability seems to crumble beneath him during that first trial. watching nagito, someone he thought he knew so well, reveal that he had been the one behind this elaborate plan to get himself or someone else killed? thereā€™s no way hajime could okay after that, no way he could look at him the same way.
and he doesnā€™t, but he doesnā€™t look at him completely differently either. this komaeda, someone whoā€™s unstable and actively looks forward to the next murder, is still komaeda. heā€™s still the same guy who goes through whole novels like theyā€™re picture books, who pokes at his food at meal times and has to be nagged at to eat. heā€™s still nagito. and even if he wanted to, hajime couldnā€™t find it in himself to just ditch the guy he grew up with for all those years.
so, he reaches out again. gets to know his childhood friend for a second time, relearning his beliefs, his likes, his dislikes. even discovers some things he never noticed before. in a way, they were driven apart, but also brought back together again.
and thatā€™s part of the reason itā€™s such a shock to see komaeda in monokumaā€™s place during that last trial, grinning down at them. he looks and sounds like nagito, but he couldnā€™t be him. someone who put them through all this couldnā€™t be that same boy who helped him when he fell off his skateboard all those years ago......right?
all of this information, from the world being a simulation to his childhood friend being the one to basically kill all of their classmates, it all throws him off. not to mention that he might not even exist outside of this program. choosing between staying with someone who betrayed him twice over or disappearing entirely........can he even make a decision like that?
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mythiccheroacademia Ā· 5 years ago
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Okay bcuz this manga has me fucked all the way up,I need me some happy headcanons with Shigi and Dabi,like how would they be if they had a childhood sweetheart s/o that stayed with them ever since they knew each other?Knew each other better than anyone kinda deal?
A/N: The way this manga is fucking with my emotions donā€™t sit right in my spirit. I hope these headcanons add a little fluff to your life. Sorry itā€™s not all the way fluffy. I had to stick to character. But, they're as fluffy as a homicidal maniacs can bešŸ„ŗ Ā  Ā Ā 
Warnings: implied sexual activity, toxic relationship dynamics, death?, idk man
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Tomura Shigaraki:
if there was one thing shigirakiā€™s enemies saw redeemable in him, it was his care for his friends
yes, he had a hard time trusting people (who can blame him), he wasnā€™t patient, he threw temper tantrums at his big age, and he barely showered
but he cared about his friends bc the only genuine love he felt, besides his sister, was from his friendship with you
before his quirk manifested, he and you would play with heroes all the time!
even when his dad would yell at him and give you dirty looks, you were still his friend
he never really forgot about you after his disappearance
your love and presence would always be in his heart
he was just busy dealing with, yā€™know, psychological trauma and world destruction
then, one day, you both saw each other when he was doing his daily walks and took time to catch up
you meet up all the time, and in those moments, you start to fall for one another
he was frustrated that he started becoming self-conscious about his skin, but you never failed to tell him how he still reminded you of the cute, shy, boy back in the day
then youā€™d recoil in embarrassment and tell him to forget you said that
it was annoying, but you actually made him blush
wears half gloves so he can touch your hand
he even stole a phone so he could text you
he doesnā€™t feel the need to wear the hands with you
at first, shigaraki kept you away from the LoV bc he didnā€™t know if he could trust you
and he didnā€™t want you a part of the violence, but he eventually couldnā€™t hide it when you started questioning him about his whereaboutsā€”and it was so hard to lie to you
not when you still looked at him like he looked at youā€”like you were the world
little by little shigaraki starts to reveal his history, his thoughts, ideologies, and plans to you
at first, youā€™re horrified, and you immediately try to convince him to stop his plans
it ends up in a fight and he walks away before he does something he regrets
he laughs at the pain coursing through his chest bc why would you agree with him? he was a fool for thinking youā€™d join him. how could you? you were miss perfect
doesnā€™t cry but is noticeably angrier
heartbreak is a bitch
but then he gets a text from you to meet him at your apartment
itā€™s cryptic and so fucking dramatic but he shows up only bc he wants to set you straight
heā€™s surprised to feel you connect foreheads, just like you two did when he got nervous as a child, and tell him
ā€œi donā€™t agree with your methods, but iā€™ll follow you if itā€™s to keep you safe. i lost you once and i refuse to lose you againā€
in a moment of weakness, shigaraki kisses you
and the deal is sealed
itā€™s true he wants to destroy everything
and itā€™s true he doesnt want to be around after he does
but, at least heā€™ll enjoy the time he has with you
you mask your identity to everyone but shigaraki, only showing up to save him
throughout your time, you watch him grow, mature, and truly fit into the role of a leader when he becomes the head of the Paranormal Liberation Front
finally keeps up with his hygiene lmao
you spend countless nights talking, kissing, and other not kid-friendly things
you two knew everything about the other
you start to see his POV as you observe the poor actions of heroes and the civilians
soon, youā€™re always by his sideā€”thereā€™s never a time heā€™s somewhere and youā€™re not and vice versa
people catch on that youā€™re not just some bodyguard
they start treating you like they would shigaraki based on your power and their leaderā€™s own demand for them to
many try to ask about your identity and shigaraki is quick to shut that shit down
you even dutifully watch him as the old doctor takes him through his torturous transformation
and when the heroes come to capture him, youā€™re in the shadows waitingā€¦
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Dabi:
heā€™s a Todoroki
no, I donā€™t accept criticism
anyway
when he was young, you and the older todorokis would hang out together
you only knew each other bc you were rich and your parents were internationally recognized pro-heroes
you were dragged to so many boring hero events
youā€™d talk so much shit about how two-faced heroes were
thatā€™s how all four of you bonded
there were times touya would disappear and youā€™d be confused
fuyumi and natsuo said he was ā€œtrainingā€
you didnā€™t really think much of it so you went on with life
every time he came back, he was covered in bandages
after the fifth time, you ask him about it and he just breaks down and tells you everything
he tells you all about endeavorā€™s harsh training, how much he thought of him as a failure, and about how he was literally burning from the inside out
you were young and could barely process this
your life was perfect, how could you ever relate?
however, you promised to always be by his side
you wouldnā€™t let him feel alone
even after a day of abuse, touya would look forward to texting you
youā€™d talk about movies, comics, who was the best hero, who would win the world cup this year, etc.
would sneak into your house to play video games
itā€™s ended up in cuddling more often than heā€™s willing to admit
it wasnā€™t long before you two knew everything about one another
even about the dark thoughts in his head
it worried you, but again, you didnā€™t think much of it
how could you know it lead him to faking his own death?
something you didnā€™t know he had done until he appeared at your door years later
who the hell was this and why did he look like an overcooked omelet?
you didnā€™t even believe it was him until he told you he was right about Barcelona winning the world cup in 2009
you spent half the day crying and the other cussing him out for letting everyone think he was dead
goes, ā€œlol, yeah that was wild. help me dye my hair?ā€
what an asshole
your relationship is weird and toxic
you guys are best friends teetering on lovers but itā€™s confusing bc dabi is cryptic is hell
he confessed that he liked you but tells you that heā€™s too dangerous for you
like this was some Twilight fanfic
like, okay Edward Cullen
but heā€™s serious bby, my mans is out here committing homicide
not good
heā€™ll text you from time to time and randomly shows up at your apartment like he owns the place
youā€™ll talk, have sex, and talk some more
eventually straight up tells you about his end goal and youā€™re like
????
you: touya, no???
him: dabi, yes
speaking of which, makes you call him dabi when heā€™s not in your guts
despite him being a dick, heā€™s quite charming when he wants to be
takes you to the best spot to see the city lights
or the stars on the beach
always tells you not to worry about him and that he has everything under control
very very protective
wonā€™t like if you're involved with anything hero or villain-like
if youā€™re a civilian, ensures that you stay that way bc heā€™ll be damned if you get involved with whatā€™s happening
stalks you (for ā€œsafety purposesā€)
you two always fight when you catch him snooping around
but has the audacity to ghost you and come back like nothing happened
itā€™s so toxic
hates knowing that you cry when he comes back battered and burning from fights but heā€™s got a mission, srry bby
someoneā€™s gotta take out endeavor
being close to him is not for the faint of heart, but you have to take it or leave it bc heā€™s set on his lifeā€™s purpose
the night before the war takes place, heā€™s suspiciously touchy
makes you promise that no matter what happens, youā€™ll find him if society starts to crumble
you're likeā€¦what the hell, dabi? stop speaking in riddles. just say you wanna marry me and go
but honey, heā€™s 100% serious and youā€™ll find out soon enough
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marvels-writings Ā· 4 years ago
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When the World is Against Us (8)
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A/N: This is progressing more than usual bc i went on a walk and instead of admiring nature and all that shit, i started thinking about this and I planned all of the heartbreak in my head, so now that I have a (semi) coherent plan, this is coming along faster
(Flashback)
Knocking lightly on Wandaā€™s door, you half expected her to be gone. But you heard a rapid shuffling.Ā 
ā€œWho is it?ā€Ā 
ā€œItā€™s me.ā€ You answered, expecting her to shut you out.
Both of you had been on a mission when you had gotten shot. Wanda had been on the opposite side of the base you were taking down. You contacted her via comms after you realized the backup was too far away from you. Wanda had gotten to you almost a little too late, she had dropped you off in the medical bay and left.
She hadnā€™t left her room since.Ā 
The sound of the door opening surprised you, you straightened out your t-shirt, fidgeting with the bottom of it. You smiled apologetically as it opened, but you barely got a glance inside Wandaā€™s room when she hugged you.Ā 
You stumbled backward, but you quickly wrapped your arms around her waist to keep her upright. All of her weight was on you as if you were the only thing holding her up.Ā 
You ran a hand through her hair, unsure of what to say or do.Ā 
Wanda melted into your touch, she thought she had lost it forever. She thought she had lost you forever.
ā€œAre you okay?ā€ You asked, trying to pull away to look at her. Wanda refused to let you go, so you stayed there.
ā€œShouldnā€™t I be asking that?ā€ Wanda asked, chuckling dryly.Ā 
You gulped, shuffling so both of you were in her room. After shutting the door with your foot, you started rubbing her back comfortingly.Ā 
Wanda basked in your touch, your fingers running through her scalp, your warm hand rubbing her back, your body pressed against hers. Finally feeling like she could breathe, she hugged you closer to her.Ā 
ā€œWan, talk to me,ā€ you whispered, resting your chin on her shoulder. Wanda shuddered when your fingers ran over her neck.
Instead of answering, she pulled away to look at you. Finally able to see her, you saw there were dark circles underneath her eyes. Her bluish-green eyes were slightly red and puffy, you could see she had been crying.Ā 
Before you could say anything, she surged forwards and pressed her lips to yours. Your eyes fluttered closed, losing yourself in her.
Wandaā€™s lips felt so soft, her lower lip trembled when you ran your tongue lightly along it. You moved softly, eyelashes fluttering against hers. Your breaths mingled as Wanda sighed into the kiss, pulling you impossibly closer. Your hand embedded itself into her hair, tugging lightly on the soft strands. Wanda gasped as she broke away from you, leaning her forehead against yours.
Neither of you could barely open your eyes as you panted, breathless after the kiss. A tear slipped down Wandaā€™s cheek, you reached up with one hand to wipe it away. The redhead leaned into your hand, breathing in deeply.
ā€œI thought I lost you,ā€ Wanda whispered, you frowned, but stayed quiet so she could continue.
ā€œAfter I got you into the med bay, the doctors werenā€™t sure if you were going to be okay or not,ā€ Wanda explained, taking in deep breaths. You pulled away to look at her, the redhead refused to look at you, staring at the floor instead.
ā€œI didnā€™t know if you were going to be okay or not.ā€
The truth of her words sunk in. After you went into surgery, the entire team sat by for updates. But Wanda knew your mom was staring at her, Natasha knew she could have done more. Wanda thought she was the reason your mom would never have her daughter back. Wanda thought she would never get to tell you that she loved you.
ā€œWandaā€¦ā€ You trailed off, unsure of how to comfort her.
ā€œI couldnā€™t get the feeling of your blood off of my hands, no matter how much I tried,ā€ Wanda muttered, her voice broken by a soft sob. ā€œI couldnā€™t-ā€
ā€œStop,ā€ You whispered, moving your finger on top of her lips, stopping her from continuing.
ā€œIā€™m here now,ā€ Your hand went to the back of her neck. ā€œIā€™m here with you right now, Iā€™m safe.ā€
Wanda fidgeted with the bottom of your shirt, uncertain of what to say. You sighed and lifted your shirt to show her the bullet wound, the redhead gasped when she saw it, her fingers running over it lightly.
ā€œIā€™m okay because of you.ā€ You whispered, letting your shirt fall back down. The witch finally looked up to face you, but she didnā€™t say anything. You started to pull away to leave, so she could get some sleep.
ā€œWait,ā€ Wanda grasped your shirt, pulling you back to her.
ā€œCan you stay?ā€ She asked, voice nervous as she fidgeted with the countless rings in her hands.
ā€œOf course,ā€ you answered, letting her pull you towards the bed.
You looked around her room, the entire room was a complete mess. There were clothes everywhere, some of your hoodies and shirts. One of the lamps in the corner was a mess, there were pictures, small things youā€™d given her overtime on the bed. Wanda moved them aside to lie down next to you.
Pulling her closer to you, you let her lay on your shoulder and listen to your heartbeat until she fell asleep.
(End of flashback)
ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”ā€”
Waking up to no sound is one of the most terrifying things. You got up, opened your eyes, and propped yourself up. There was the smell of disinfectant in the air, you got up to find yourself on a hospital bed.Ā 
Looking around, you didnā€™t see anyone around, a headache throbbed as memories came back.
Wanda was gone.
ā€œMom?ā€ You shouted, getting out of the bed, you made your way out of the room.
All the hallways looked identical, you went down the nearest one to find Natasha standing on a balcony with her arms crossed. She didnā€™t turn around, you marched up to her.
ā€œMom,ā€ You called out, she turned around and gave you a weak smile before pulling you into a hug. You frowned and pushed her away.
ā€œWhereā€™s Wanda?ā€ You demanded, her face fell.
ā€œShe is safe.ā€ Natasha tried reassuring you.
ā€œNo, where is she?ā€ You iterated, your mom sighed.
ā€œTony is going to go see her and the rest of Steveā€™s team if you want to go with him,ā€ Natasha said, you nodded.
Tony made his way onto the balcony, his arm in a sling. He looked defeated as he looked at you. Giving you a weak smile, he greeted you and your mom.
ā€œHowā€™s Rhodey?ā€ Natasha asked Tony rambled for a bit before he said he knew what you and Natasha did to Tā€™challa. You sighed and leaned back against the door, thinking about everything.
The FBI agents who had taken her had a shock collar. You hoped they hadnā€™t used it, ever. But reality was weighing down on you, you didnā€™t know what they were going to do to her. Half of your family was in a prison, Steve was a wanted criminal, Rhodey was probably paralyzed.
You rubbed your eyes, trying to clear your head of what could happen to Wanda. You didnā€™t want to think about what they were going to do to her. You didnā€™t want to think about her. But remembering what she said to you brought back the pain. You wanted her back with you.
ā€œI can take her to Wanda, but I donā€™t know what they would want from you after,ā€ Tony said, gesturing to you.
ā€œSheā€™s staying with you,ā€ Natasha commanded, you raised an eyebrow and crossed your arms, snapping out of your daze.
ā€œIā€™m not a toddler that I need to be taken care of,ā€ You hissed, ā€œIā€™m staying with you.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re getting too stubborn for your age.ā€ Natasha teased, trying to lighten your mood.
You didnā€™t respond, instead, you looked down at the ground while Tony and Natasha talked about the fight. They didnā€™t know what was going to happen either. you didnā€™t notice the tears clouding your eyes when they said Steve might not come back. You didnā€™t notice the tears falling onto the ground when they said Wanda was in a prison.
Tony left, but you barely noticed. Natasha put her arms on your shoulders, you looked up at her through teary eyes. Your mom pulled you into a hug. You didnā€™t have the strength to protest. You wanted to blame someone, you wanted someone to take the fall for breaking your family apart. But you couldnā€™t do anything as you fell apart in your momā€™s arms.
Your tears had soaked Natasha's leather jacket, but she didnā€™t mind. You eventually stopped crying. You tried to stop thinking. But it wasnā€™t working. You couldnā€™t stop thinking about what you lost.
ā€œY/n, if you want to come, now is the time,ā€ Tony said, leaning against the doorway.
ā€œGive us a second,ā€ Natasha told him.
Turning back to you, she wiped the tears out of your eyes using her thumbs. Your breath was still erratic as you faced the ground. Natasha leaned forwards and kissed your forehead, her hand resting on your neck.
ā€œIā€™m sorry y/n,ā€ She whispered, you nodded.
After hugging her, you left with Tony to where Wanda and the rest of Steveā€™s team are held. You stayed quiet the entire ride there. Tony tried to distract you with music, rambling. But nothing was working. You were too lost in thought. Eventually, he stopped talking and fidgeted with his watch as you stared out the window.
He started telling you what was happening. Somebody called Zemo had started all of this. He had blamed the UN bombing on Bucky, knowing Steve would stop at nothing to protect him. You stayed quiet, taking in the information. At least now, you had someone to blame for tearing your family apart.
In an hour, you arrived there. The secretary of state talked with Tony before he noticed you, raising an eyebrow he turned to Tony.
ā€œShe canā€™t be here.ā€ He gestured to you.
ā€œY/n is with me.ā€ Tony pulled you into his side. You clenched your jaw.
The secretary shrugged and led both of you inside. Tony noticed a monitor before you did and tugged you away from it before you could see it. The secretary went in, ushering both of you inside.
ā€œY/n, I think you should stay out here,ā€ Tony said nervously, trying to pull you back.
ā€œNo, I donā€™t think I should.ā€ You stated, Tony sighed and let you go in first, knowing he was going to regret it.
Clint started talking, but you werenā€™t listening. All you could see was Wanda.
| Part 9 |Ā 
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angeltrapz Ā· 3 years ago
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ok saw asks!!! bcuz i have Amanda on th brain rn i wd like ur take on her interacting w Lawrence? personally idk how much she knew of his involvement bc she implies in 3 tht Lynn was entirely John's choice, but i also think th idea of her Knowing + deliberately not telling Hoffman is extremely funny. Hoffman cant come 2 th weekly disciple meeting bcuz hes got Cop Business so he misses Lawrence's introduction + Amanda is just like "sure John of course ill tell Mark that we got a new friend :)" and just never does. LOVE that thought
dhgsdkj thank u!!
it Is extremely funny 2 think that she just. knows but refuses to tell Hoffman + THAT'S why Hoffman doesn't know who Lawrence is until he jabs him w the needle + takes off the pig mask lmao omg. just like "oh yeah of course I'll tell Mark we have a new teammate don't worry abt it!" and she Never Does dkjkdsg??
okay but 2 Seriously answer yr question. when I think abt it I always think that like. it wld b pretty hard fr John 2 keep them frm each other given how integral Lawrence's participation is in every game from SAW II onward? 'cause like we know Amanda helps w the kidnapping process + placing them in their traps, which one CLD argue would only mean she wld see them after Lawrence would do his thing but. I feel like she'd be vaguely aware? bc she wld also then have 2 know that he survived his game, given that she helped set it up - we know that she'd AT LEAST know his name.
to elaborate on th idea that only HOFFMAN doesn't know (both bc it's fucking hilarious + actually how I view things happening jdkhfksd), I feel like Amanda + Lawrence's interactions wld be rather limited. in canon, Lawrence becomes a disciple after John "rehabilitates" him or whtever he wants 2 call it, but I feel he'd have to be aware of Amanda, too - both that she is also a disciple + SHE'S th one who helped get him in the bathroom in th first place. as grateful as Lawrence seems to feel toward John + as much as he believes in John's "work," I feel like that wld be smth he'd have to work thru: working side by side w someone who had a direct hand in basically destroying yr life as u knew it. n I feel like Amanda wld know that, n as such she'd want to keep her distance bc she can't predict how this man will act/what he will do, even if he is technically on her side. so like. things wld def be tense btwn them until Lawrence has had some time 2 process his new life + what tht means for him, and until the two of them can have some sort of talk/acknowledgement of that.
though I will say that their roles kind of imply they'd at least see a good bit of each other. Amanda scouts, in a way, helps subdue & bring ppl in, which wld then be brought to Lawrence fr any medical procedures they feel r needed (such as sewing th key behind Michael's eye in II) so it'd definitely be like a "hey did u bring some1?" sort of thing. Mark is muscle of course so like I know he def helped on tht end (I believe Amanda is th one who caught Lawrence in the parking garage but like it wld be SO much funnier if Hoffman was the one crawling around) but IDK if he rly Saw Lawrence bc. Cop Business. so he'd just kinda b like "here u go" n bring ppl to Amanda n then peace out 'cause he's gotta keep tht reputation of Respected Detective. we know he also might've messed w traps themselves as well (like The Rack in III), which wld definitely keep him separate from Lawrence bc Lawrence had No Involvement in designing/setting up traps. tht was strictly a John/Hoffman/Amanda endeavour.
as fr how they'd feel abt each other? it's really dependent on how u view thm as characters. Lawrence, after he becomes a disciple, believes that what John is doing is truly helpful and truly has the capability to change lives; he devotes himself 2 it, shows countless times tht he has complete faith in John + his methods, so much so that John left a tape fr him telling him to look after Jill + to act on his behalf if smth were to happen to her. he calls Lawrence his greatest asset. his trust in John + the Jigsaw legacy is unwavering.
Amanda, however, has been shown several times to act directly against John's beliefs, such as constructing inescapable traps (Kerry) or rigging others' games (Adam). th breakdown she has in III I think showcases the disconnect between her love fr John as a mentor/father figure, and the realization that not only is John entirely hypocritical and doesn't stay true to his own beliefs half th time, he truly has shown no regard fr her safety + has only been using her to further the agenda that was built upon a fragile foundation 2 begin with. u've mentioned this b4 too but John always liked 2 say that if u can anticipate the human mind, then nothing is up 2 chance - which wld mean that he KNEW Xavier might throw Amanda into the Needle Pit to get out of it. he KNEW Daniel was just a fucking kid and was perfectly fine w putting him in very real danger to get back at some1 he felt like needling fr the express purpose of provocation and nothing else. he KNEW Laura, a woman she'd formed a bond w and pretty much swore to protect th minute she woke up and saw her crying in the corner, could begin to seize n choke on her own vomit and die in that house. he knew all of those things, ENCOURAGED the belief that smth was wrong w her because she wasn't "fixed" as he had claimed, and it's so unfortunate that she doesn't realize that sooner (I fully agree that she deserved to lose her shit completely on John. it's what he deserved! it's what SHE deserved!!!) but she still Does before she dies (which, again, I Don't think should've happened. she didn't deserve 2 go out like tht + she deserved so much more of her story being told).
so there's the conflict of beliefs between thm. I think Amanda definitely starts out like Lawrence does, completely devoted + believing every word John says, but thru II we can see that certainty begin to falter n her faith in John is completely shaken by the end. I don't think Lawrence wld Know she felt tht way until after she died, if he ever finds out at all, bc I doubt that's smth she'd want to express. it's not even smth she discusses w John himself until III, in which she's already made up her mind to shoot Lynn as a final act of misguided disobedience. I still think tht Lawrence wld feel fr her in some way, though, bc even b4 he became a disciple he was rather horrified when Sing + Tapp had him sit thru her testimony; his feelings would change on this a lil, bc he'd see it as her rebirth (as she once did too), but I still feel like he'd want 2 like. watch over her a little. not super directly, + not because he felt threatened by her presence or anything like that, but because they're in this together n I'm sure John's told him abt some of the circumstances regarding how she came to be a disciple after her game as well. I feel like he wld definitely be saddened by her passing, bc I feel he'd come 2 respect her at least a bit, but fr him it's like. they have 2 keep moving. John is gone now too, smth I'm sure was probably a pretty huge blow fr Lawrence, and now he has to put his energy into making sure Hoffman stays unaware of him. just in case he has to act on that warning John gave him abt Jill. but he wld still miss Amanda n wld mourn her, to be sure.
I don't think they'd be close or anything like tht. kind of just friendly coworkers who only see each other every once in a while, passing thru the doors of each other's lives with a nod and a wave and maybe a greeting if they're feeling up 2 it. they're not too involved. Amanda can't tell u tht Lawrence's favourite flowers are sunflowers. Lawrence can't tell u tht Amanda's favourite smell is lavender or tht her favourite colour is a deep, almost greyish purple. but they're connected thru John, thru their work, n that still means smth to both of them, at least in some manner. when Amanda dies, Lawrence grieves. Jill pays for her headstone n Lawrence makes sure to bring fresh flowers every once in a while, but he has to hold his head up n keep walking. now tht John's gone, there's work to be done.
and someone's gotta keep an eye on Hoffman.
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yourlocalslasher Ā· 4 years ago
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If youā€™re still doing request, could I have some slashers finding out their SO cheated?
ahhh fuck not angst im trying to eat my mac n cheese happily ;A; (this became so long im so sorry) (oH and Freddy ends up killing the s/o bc honestly that would happen so-)
Slashers finding out their s/o cheated
JASON
Jason had decided to come home early, flowers in hand, and a wooden ring with a white gemstone in his pocket. Today was the day.
When he arrived at the cottage, he saw a car that he knew most definitely wasnā€™t yours. This was suspicious...
He opened the door, dropping the bouquet of flowers when he saw the other man.
Your body was on the other man, the both of you lying on the couch. When you looked up, you knew immediately that you fucked up.
Apologetically, you jumped from the couch to retrieve the Jason that now stormed out into the woods, tears falling every which way down his face and mask.
That's when you saw the ring in his pocket fall out, and your heart skipped a beat.
He was going to propose....
And then you too started to cry, and you fell to the ground in the empty forest, clutching the ring to your chest. This was all a huge mess that you could have avoided...
His whole world is shaken now. He wonā€™t eat. He wonā€™t leave the old cottage. Now Jason spends his days sitting by his mothers severed head.
Youā€™d run off, too upset to ever show your face in Jasons corner of New Jersey ever again.
You were furious with yourself. How could you do this? You loved Jason, and he was irreplaceable. He loved you with his whole heart and you went and crushed it.
Jason doesnā€™t even kill anymore. He intends to sit there until he rots into the ground. There's nothing worth doing anymore...
MICHAEL
Halloween had just happened yesterday, and Michael was overly exhausted. A bunch of new people had moved to Haddonfield this year, there were just so many targets.
He arrived home quite late and approached you in the kitchen. You were giggling and your eyes were glued to your phone.
Silently, he walked to you, hovering over your shoulder to see what the big deal was.
You were looking at selfies and pics a new guy had sent you, and didnā€™t realize Michael was right behind you. But you did notice when he snatched your phone from your unsuspecting hands.
Michael knew this was not him. These were not his texts. Why were you talking to this other man? He held the phone up high so only he could read it, ignoring your pleas to give it back.
Anger boiled inside him the farther he went, youā€™d sent provocative photos to this man, the man that was not him.
His grip on the phone tightened, bending the sides. Then he slammed it to the ground.
Your eyes widened, Michaels strong hand nearing your throat. Now there were tears in your eyes as you rethought all your horrible decisions. You should have known Michael was going to find out eventually, and be very mad.
As his hand wrapped around your throat, you excepted your fate. But you were surprised as he lifted you into the air, giving one last hard squeeze before dropping you to the ground.
Michael left promptly, walking to his old house in Haddonfield. You were left in the kitchen, holding your throat which had bright red marks on it. You couldnā€™t help but lie down slowly, crying to yourself when you realized Michael had just left you. Goddamnit, why couldnā€™t you just stay loyal.
He says to himself he doesnā€™t need you. He never has. You were simply another body to him. He can survive easily on his own.
But maybe...thereā€™s just a little part of him...that wishes you were still with him...
BUBBA
It's nice to relax on a hot day in Texas, which is exactly what you and Bubba were doing. A sweet tea in hand, you laughed and talked with him, handing him a flower crown that you put together from the nearby bushes.
Bubba sat back with a smile, shoving the flower crown down onto his head. But in the distance, he could hear a truck, even though Drayton and the twins were sitting outback. Who could be stopping by?
As soon as you heard it, your eyes widened and you quickly set down your drink. You knew exactly who it was, and your heart rate went up when you saw Bubba follow you to the car pulling up.
He couldn't quite tell who it was, but he followed behind you, standing by your side when you stopped at the truck.
Even Drayton and the twins had stood and followed, and now your stomach was churning. Bubba waved at the man who stepped out of the truck, completely unaware the shit that was about to go down
ā€œPlease, not right now please can we talk another time-ā€
The man looked at you with a sneer, causing Bubba to cower behind you further as his smile faded.
ā€œWhoā€™s this babe?ā€ When the man pulled you to his side, you saw Bubba cock his head. Who was this guy? Did he just call you ā€˜babeā€™?
Drayton and the twins stood with their arms folded by Bubba, looking confused. ā€œMore like whoā€™r you.ā€ Drayton spoke out. This was not going to be good.
ā€œIā€™m y/nā€™s boyfriend. Nice to meet you.ā€ You bit your lip, your eyes watering as you watched Bubbaā€™s painful reaction. He stepped back, his lip quivering as he tilted his head again. Big puppy dog eyes stared back at you as your heart shattered.
And oh boy you could tell Drayton was BEYOND pissed. His cold expression glared at you as he took the now crying Bubba into his arms. Drayton normally would never hug Bubba, more or less stick up for him, But he was infuriated.
You knew Drayton was yelling at you, but all of a sudden everything went silent. Just static. Bubba was crying into the arm of Drayton while the twins were going along with whatever Drayton said. The other man had left in all the chaos, but you didnā€™t care.
Youā€™d frantically ran inside, tears streaming down your face as you packed your bags. You couldnā€™t take it. The pitiful expression that never left Bubbas face would kill you if you stayed any longer.
As for Bubba, he no longer babbled excitedly, or smiled with giggles when something happened. All he could do was mope around, killing the very few intruders who came by. Nothing made him happy anymore.
Heā€™d often cry himself to sleep, thinking only about you. For once he had trusted someone, loved someone, given them all he had, and now he wished heā€™d never been born.
FREDDY
You were dreaming about the other man, not even remembering Freddy had access to all of your dreams. As a matter of fact, youā€™d forgotten he existed.
Walking and talking with the other man, you went about your dream, carelessly smiling and laughing like your life wasnā€™t in danger.
Freddy had been watching for a good 15 minutes, and he was sick inside. How could you do such a thing. Even though he called you a bitch countless times, he still cared for you. He still loved you. Youā€™d completely betrayed his trust. Eyes burning with rage and sadness, he huffed to himself before deciding to end it now.
Then you heard a distinct tapping noise. One that would have scared anyone else but you. You could tell that tapping from anywhere, its Fred. Oh fuck youā€™ve screwed up now.
You felt a certain feeling rush over you. It wasnā€™t fear, wasnā€™t anger, and it wasnā€™t sadness. It was guilt.
The shadow with a fedora disappeared, and instead, a real Freddy appeared between you and the other man.
ā€œI shouldā€™a known a bitch like you would pull a stunt like this.ā€ You looked to Freddy, about to apologize. He stopped you quickly.
ā€œI donā€™t wanna hear it, youā€™re just another slut that I never shoulda trusted.ā€ The audible pain in his gruff voice made your insides twist and ache. Suddenly, you didnā€™t want the other man. You just wanted Freddy. But the tears brimming at your eyes held you back for some reason.
He was just mad now. Losing the sadness, or even the jealousy, he just hated everyone and everything. Never again was he gonna love someone. It's just a big fat fucking mistake that ends in pain.
Drawing back his hand he effortlessly impaled the other man, who had been sleeping next to you in real life. Blood coated your face as you screamed, the tears that were pent up finally flowing down your face.
Freddy's head snapped towards you as he gritted his teeth, jamming the bloodied blades through your chest. He got sprayed with your blood, dropping your lifeless body to the ground.
It was over. You and the other man were gone. Dead. But for some reason, he didnā€™t feel any better. He felt worse.
Killing became a chore for him, his interest in killing teens almost faded. He didnā€™t need you though. Freddy doesnā€™t need an s/o. They all hurt him anyways...
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bisluthq Ā· 4 years ago
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I think it's interesting that you've got this fairly hard stance of "shawn m*ndes is a homophobe" when it seems a lot more likely that he's literally just... gay. (or maybe bisexual) šŸ˜¬
I mean the dude literally had a panic attack while he was watching love simon in the movie theatre. he had to leave the movie theatre early, and then he went back to his hotel room and stayed up until 3am, reading fan tweets about his new song to calm himself down and ended up crying his eyes out. I can't tell you how many times I've done things like that
he accidentally included himself in the lgbt community in an interview once and then realized and sort of had a deer in caught in headlights look on his face.
he has a pink triangle mug that he drinks from at Q&A sessions
he's been rumored to have had a thing with nick jonas, john mayer, and niall from 1D. the niall rumor has the most evidence though out of the three, and a lot of people think something might have actually gone on there
also, I don't think he's as homophobic as he sounded back then bc there have been incidents like the time when he was in a club with niall and a couple of other guys, and a guy walked past and shouted, "best gay club ever!" at them, and shawn just smiled and laughed. he didn't look bothered at all. I feel like that rolling stone article was mainly him being an idiot and also his team's attempt at guilting people into not calling him gay anymore
some of his song lyrics are pretty sus and can be read as pretty gay, whether that was the intention or not. like "I wonder if I'm being real, do I speak my truth or do I filter how I feel? I wonder, wouldn't it be nice, to live inside a world that isn't black and white?"
he said he felt like he needed to be seen with a woman publicly so that people wouldn't think he was gay, and then šŸ’„ BOOM šŸ’„ next thing you know, he's getting papped with camila everywhere
and there are a lot of things about that relationship that are extremely sus. I don't really have the energy to mention them all bc I don't really care about them enough, but I've seen a ton of stuff pointed out by other people, and they've slipped up countless times too
also about why they would be doing it: even on the chance that he's straight, shawn and his team have been trying to get rid of his gay rumors for a long time. and most of the general public still thought he was gay and just bearding during almost all of 2020. it's only in the last few months that people have finally started saying "okay, maybe it's real and shawn is straight if it's gone on this long"
there was also this blind that was posted on laine gossip back in august 2019 (so 2 or 3 months after it first began)
https://www.google.co.uk/amp/s/www.laineygossip.com/what-they-know-in-advance-blind-riddle/57429/amp
which basically said that one of the two members of sh*wmila was secretly working on a huge project behind the scenes and that the producers had been told that the other one had agreed to make appearances in it, and they had promised the producers 100%, without any doubt whatsoever, that they could guarantee them that would be no change in their relationship status until the project was released 12 to 18 months later. that led to a lot of skepticism on the relationship's authenticity from people working on the project
sure enough, about a year later, shawn eventually announced that he'd been secretly working on a netflix documentary. it was released in the time frame that laine gossip gave (the next 12 to 18 months), and camila was in a few scenes, and sh*wmila was used as promotion for the documentary a lot (like in the trailers and stuff). it was only released a few months ago in late november 2020
I've seen fans of theirs saying they think they might wait until the 2 year anniversary to "break up" which is like... may/june/july 2021. somewhere around that time, I can't remember exactly. and camila has a movie coming out around that time too, so it'd make sense to do it around then
like they've got a lot of publicity from this, the laine gossip blind was proven right a year and a half later when shawn surprise announced his documentary, and it's only bc they've stretched it out this long that a lot of people have finally stopped saying it's just PR. if they'd stopped it back in late 2020, a lot of people were still saying it was fake back then
I don't actually like shawn btw. I think he seems like a nice guy based on the stories about him from deuxmoi (if they're true), but he kinda annoys me and I think he's a very bare minimum guy that is only as famous as he is bc he's white and male and somewhat conventionally good looking. I don't think he's that talented, and some of his dumbass comments bother me sometimes
that being said, I do feel empathy for him bc he really does seem closeted, and he hasn't made any stupid comments on being gay since late 2018, so I think he might have realized he sounded like a harmful idiot. I do think he's closeted, and there's a lot more evidence to point towards that than towards him being a straight homophobe
Okay but in December 2020 she said being called gay caused him damage and was frustrating:
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In 2019 he said being called gay is hurtful:
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And hereā€™s a great take from a gay man on why this shitā€™s fucked up:
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Iā€™m sorry but Iā€™m not gonna be like ā€œAwww maybe heā€™s gayā€. He says heā€™s not. He does damage by denying it in the way he does.
Sure he could be in Narnia. Iā€™m not Shawn.
If thatā€™s the case, he should get some therapy and/or stfu.
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