#bc i do feel like im in a rly good place rn and i dont need to know if i was 'abused' whatever that means

[odysseys-blood]

need motivation to keep going but everything feels either too far away in the future for me to care if i get there or not or just unattainable

[phagodyke]

weekend melancholy is starting to kick in >~<

[girl-bateman]

Some days I'm pretty content with my childhood other days I'm ripping my hair out because it just doesn't add up !! someone is hiding things from me !! I don't trust anyone !!

[nomaishuttle]

i worked onmy ermmm. little good habits reward sheet a lot .. im pretty excited :] i was gonna wait to start it until ive moved home bc a lot of the things r home specific (like spending time with loved ones etc) BUT i think im gonna go ahead n start it tmrw... i think itll be good to go ahead n get started on it b4 i move back that way its not such a big transition bc i think thats why my like. plans t get better when i moved up here. failed. so horrifically lol. bc i didnt give myseld any lead in i just made a huge change and then got upset when i didnt immediately adjust.

[caruliaa]

consuming media your mutuals like is so scary bc what if im a misunderstander what if my mutuals think all my takes r wrong and cringe and im not even an understander of the media and im wrong about it thats so scary. what if im wrong abt man from the podcast . even worse what if being worried abt being wrong about man from the podcast means i dont let myself enjoy it and talk with people about it and ruins the whole thing for me bc thats what im more scared abt tbh . agh .

[nicegaai]

im attempting my fic reread today. im announcing this bc i will be liveblogging to keep my morale up, NOT THAT anyone cares but i personally need this, like ill only commit to do the thing if theres an imaginary audience holding me accountable. & i like to have fun :3

anyway. captains log, its a beautiful sunny july weekend. i just finished my morning coffee, and, i am dreading this so much. i dont like rereading my own writing but i shall get over it. ok here we go.

Þetta Reddast vagueblogged directors commentary edition

Ch 1:

*opens fic and starts convulsing immediately* god i wish i smoked weed rn. i cannot chill out ever for the life of me

My Mission For Today Is: to remember what plot threads I’ve left hanging so I can resolve this story properly. And also try n remember where the flow is going. I have the end plotted out, I just am a little lost … it’s been a while :-(

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Abrupt beginning!!!! I’m not mad because I have . I HAD. Almost no writing experience when I started this. it isn’t ideal but I refuse to be one of those fanfic writers that starts rewriting early chapters without finishing the last ones. Ive never seen one of those types actually finish a longfic. …I’d already rather yap than actually read LMAO AHH

Oh this is worse than I remember. thats cool that s great ok alright *coughs up blood*

"20 somethings" WOW I really did not know where I was going with this when I started huh

LKJSDLKSJDLGKGDJSLDGJK ??? Who authorized this. Who let me cook. What the hell

I could write this better now. I could edit this into something beautiful. <- devil on my shoulder

FORGOT I WAS MAKING RICE BRB

"generously offered nothing to the exchange." wait STOPPPP. I’m so funny

GRAMMAR ERROR DETECTED why is there two periods. I’ll be coming back to fix that …………………. :-(((

Fuck. This is a lot. Marge Simpson Hiding Her Face dot Png

Oh this is stupid this is gayyy this is fukcinnn . Who fucking did t his. What was wrong with me,. This is so good actually. what was i ONNNN. 

Im gonna throw up and I don’t know if thats like/. A complimentary thing or if im just cringing that hard . Im feeling emotions. I love my OTPs..OT3~5? I love them so so much

Ok as much as im like “eww bad writing” this is .. dare I say, rly good in places. Not to suck my own dick but maybe all hope isnt lost and imposter syndrome is an illusion

Grammar mistake #2. Goddddddd. they should ban me from the archive for this

EMILLLLL EMIL EMIL EMIL HIIIIII BABYYYY EMILLL I LOVE UUUU AWWHUUGHH everyone clap for my bewoved baby bruvver right FUCKING now

Urghhh gritting my teeth… Im fully expecting the flow of events to start not making any gd sense. There’s no way this came together the way I hoped in my head and .... For real I was never able to read this all the way thru. this is my first time, lol. and it was all disjointed on the authorial end to say the least. Im scared T-T

Jlxjvklsdkjfsjlkdkjlsjklkljzsdkjlgaskljdgjklasljkgdljkasljkdgjklasjlkdgljkaskljdgjakl?????????? 

Im not liking the ratio of dialogue to whatever the other stuff is. scene-setting I guess. prose maybe. i could have dragged this out way longer... By which I mean made it a more satisfying read. But WHATEVER !!!! 

TIMO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIMOOOOOOOOOO NUMERO UNOOOO DO MUNDOOOOOO I really need to utilize him more. As soon as I finish this fic I need to write a Timo POV spinoff where he gets cancelled on furry twitter for proshipping in real life

Hmmmm chapter ending didn’t hit as hard in practice as it did in drafts. Oh well. God damn that was a lot to happen in one chapter LMAOO???

OH SHIT MY RICE IS STILL COOKING —— 

[narwhalandchill]

hsr 2.1 kit leaks

ok idk how but even w the preliminary aventurine kit leaks i didnt register before seeing a comment on how he would actually just shred in herta+himeko FUA teams for PF too and im just? obsessed actually i Love this

like PF is already in that weird place where sustains are kinda good still but kinda useless but aventurine being an actual FUA sub dps in addition to his shielding is just? so fucking good and will go so well with the never ending follow up after follow up death spiral that himeko and herta inherently bring to PF it should be a massacre 💀💀 i cant wait

anyway his kit looks sick i rly love how its designed. ACTUAL sub dps potential in a sustain finally 😭😭 and how much crit rate (40%) he gets just from reaching 3600 def is just? so delicious. obviously the fact that he will want crit, def, spd and possibly eff res too means you kinda need to invest hard into his build to rly get the most out of him but i love that blonde fucker so. yeah ill commit. i farmed my ass off for my fu xuan to be as stacked as she is i Will do it again 🫡🫡

the eff res hes giving to the team is actually massive too ?? CC immunity to himself when his passive effect is up? shields on skill no ult dependency and shield stacking on teammates being attacked and FUAs (and like. hes not dependent on FUA teams lmao its just going to boost him) just like that???

AND hes fast as fuck somehow like what 😭😭😭😭 bro looks stacked as hell i hope he stays strong. aventurine with that 106 speed rly out there running from the consequences of his antics 🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♂️💀

anyway wow im hype for this bastard i Cannot wait for his animations

as for acheron im. somewhat interested? but not like too pressed abt it for now. her stacking mechanic seems interesting and ive already seen the asset leaks for her red ultimate state (which is like 700% better than her base design) but if you only see that design for a v short time idk how much itll motivate me to get her.

the lack of LC options definitely hurts like. all i realistically have for her is s3 GNSW but thats on kafka rn. ig if i got acheron i prolly wouldnt be running them at the same time but its still food for thought ig

also she really copied neuvillettes homework for that nihility team passive HSJSJSKSKF idk how i feel abt it like w our current cast it kinda feels pretty tricky to genuinely get a strong team going for an actual max stack team for acheron. like run her with pela and what? guinaifen? ig we will see what shes all abt

ig i just dont feel as much of an incentive for a lightning dps for now w kafka but eh i might go for acheron still. i do have a guarantee tho so it might be nice to save it for aventurine straight up bc then i could maybe go for his LC since it gets him even more sub dps potential but who knows

ig only gripe w aventurine (which isnt that big of deal rly) is the current lack of FUA charas like idm building ratio eventually even having daniel (and them having such heavy synergy is very funny. renheng could never 💀) n i could see myself maybe getting topaz even if im not a huge fan of her character (tho i do think shes well written; my mixed feelings r a result of her being complex) but idk. i hope we get more leaks for upcoming FUA charas.

obviously theres xueyi but her FUAs arent That frequent and unironically i wouldnt Want someone like aventurine w his likely frequent FUAs on her team eating away the toughness bar from her so itd only really work against enemies who are quantum weak but not imaginary. but worth thinking abt still. at least herta n himeko will be a guaranteed PF synergy for him so thats hype

and most important of all: def mainstat with double crit we are so back. relics with double crit that half rolled into def we are so back. etc etc etc

[mclwcc]

pains me to admit because i actually like george. but oscar did much better managing his tyres than george did today. he definitely was not the worst at tyre management today.

hi yeah continuing the discussion abt the tyres im just watching the post race presser rn and lando said apparently mclaren expected colder weather so they set up the car for that & paid the price today. apparently he had to b super careful w the hards and bring them in so nicely & thats y charles got so close to him. considering all that like its no wonder oscar was struggling, it was tricky circumstances on top of a tricky track. and he didnt even do that badly! he held on to p4 pretty convincingly

but yeah re: george ive actually got no clue. i dont actually know what george's tyre management is like - i feel like its kind of an invisible driver skill where u dont rly notice it if u dont pay attention to the particular driver. and like w some drivers its more remarkable bc theyre rly good at it & the comms point it out or bc their teams use their tyre management skills to hope and pray for some rogue points (so many alex races like that... a bunch of ocon ones too). but most drivers ?? i couldnt tell u. so idk if george is particularly good or particularly bad at it and i also dont rly know what happened w his race today? from what i could work out he and lewis were in mercedes no-mans-land and then he pit for fastest lap? which considering the mercs lost no places i thought was fairly smart, but i genuinely dont even rmbr if he was ahead of or behind hamilton before he pit. did he pit bc his tyres were dead and not bc of the strategy? cos like even max was saying his hards were shit after 10-15 laps so.... who knows. weird

[mousemilf]

6, 20, 28, 37, 69

omg sorry i didnt get to this for a couple days!!

6. What are you excited for?

right now i am really excited abt redoing our bedroom and living room!!! i just bought a lamp today that im gonna paint and make a lampshade for and i got rid of our dining chairs and im planning to make a bar cabinet (i saw one at an antique store that was like, vertical with shelves and a wine rack and places to hang wine glasses in, plus enclosed cabinets to put anything thats not as pretty and basically i think it would be very easy to copy if i could find a bookshelf or plant shelf for cheap for it)

20. Are you starting to realize anything?

lately i've been feeling a lot more confident at work and i think this past year has been about me realizing that im not actually putting off grad school i just genuinely dont want to go and i am much much happier decorating fancy cakes than i ever was in an academic setting + realizing this is actually the more stable and secure option..... reorienting my goals to focus on this career etc......

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

im wine drunk rn and my dumbass boyfriend is refusing to catch up w me so i am trying to make him.....

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

i think i do if we mean love not as in romantic partnership but as in the way i love pumpkin bread and leather smell...... like i love the adorable old lady i talked to at a thrift shop the other day in the same way i love my coworkers puppy ive only seen pictures of..... but it is very real to me.......

69. Ever take dance lessons?

i actually did irish dance as a teenager lol. i was pretty good bcs i could do really high kicks w my loose hips but i stopped once i started having ankle and knee problems..... one of the older girls that went there had had two knee surgeries already bcs all the jumping is rly hard on ur joints.... that could have been me...... thank god!

love youuuuuuuuy ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[quinnonimp]

some extra notes n answered questions !!

first off i wanna say; its ok to ask questions and i do very much welcome them when it comes to anything i make, but do keep in mind this is first and foremost just a character design thing i made up bc i wanted smth each islander has as their own but looks about the same and is easy to draw

i have put thought into this of course but u see, the funny thing is-- the charm not actually practical at all for a place like isla quesadilla . theres some small "just for the fun of it" perks (as any statistic/visualizer thingy does), but all in all it is just a simple visualizer that in reality does more harm for the islander (as in, u have the chance to literally lose ur knowledge to speak if u break it) than good

im someone whos super into the trope(?) of "everyone has an item that looks almost identical but is a visualizer to an attribute of the person, so its still unique and personal", bonus points if the item has dire consequences if u r irresponsible with it (like for example rn i just remembered the thingies they had in madoka magica, like those yknow) . oh and even more bonus points if each character has their own little way of wearing the item on their design to further show off their personality

so yeah i feel like i need to emphasize these charms r just a silly thing i made for the sake of character design and dont have much depth to them . also as someone who knows 4 languages fluently i just think itd be rly cute to be able to see how well i know my languages in a vial of liquid haha

and btw thank u very much for the response on this little headcanon !!!!! im glad u guys n the ppl on twt like it so much and r willing to incorporate it into ur own designs :.DD

ok now onto the questions finally:

>> my explanation on how non spanish/english languages work in the charm (they dont, for now) . plus some extra info

>> they glow in the dark !

>> they have to be visible

>> anyone is allowed to use this idea, so long they dont claim it as their own when asked

>> "i wanna drink the language liquid" okay so do u and ten million other ppl . "nothing is stopping me from drinking the language liquid" yes exactly feel free to its ur own free will . "whats the language liquid taste like" vai tomar no cu eu to tão porra de cansado a receber essa pergunta em todas fucking resposta- idunno it can be whatever u want it to be . its funnier just left vague

>> "what if i shake it around ?"

>> what happens if two ppl exchange, and some insight into the census bureau

as i mentioned feel free to ask more questions on twitter or in my askbox, im willing to come up with shit on the spot . i might update this srb if i get good questions

qsmp language charms !! a little headcanon of mine ive had since the start that i finally like enough to talk about

[whataphantasia]

misc little ramb about skssshbbq development hell‼️ (about developing the restaurant itself, plus sploo-khi and flipp things)

designing skssshbbq stuff is SO HARD. what do you MEAN i have to worldbuild. this SUCKS (its so fun but so much work.)

im fighting for my LIFE over here man. im so insistent on keeping sploo-khi's color palette plastered all over the restaurant and other related imagery because he's SUPER self absorbed and you know he'd do that and force people to think it looks good 😭 logo design is hard.

im value mapping my concept art rn! colors TO BE ADDED LATER... i have to plan out the colors now cuz if i dont all my skssshbbq art will be inconsistent and ill HATE myself for it LOL (but this also means i havent been able to make rendered pieces for it 💔💔) SOON HOPEFULLY!!

i worry that i draw flipp and sploo-khi too much together but i cant help it... theyre so fun to draw together!! but i feel like it goes against what the whole story is about! flipp does not have equal power to sploo-khi, and sploo-khi doesn't rly care abt flipp!!! so it feels like i'm making the conflict seem much more focused on mad employee vs boss rather than employee stuck and jaded by the system... but then i realize im overthinking this and no one will think that LOL. i love stories guys.

ah and. i've been worried about my depiction of sploo-khi. i've elaborated on it on his toyhouse page for now. eventually i'm gonna replace it with a theme which'll make these thoughts less visible, so i'm placing a screenie here for posterity.

OH AND. here's the end of my twitter ramble about it.

yeah sorry for the long post, but i feel like these are all important to mention. skssshbbq has a ton of complex topics anyway and i worry abt ppl misinterpreting me or me making a misstep somewhere <_< so i'm hesistant to share things abt it... well!! communication is important so tell me if that happens!!!

EDIT: okay i am less worried abt it bc i asked my friends abt this and they brought up some really interesting narrative points + things i didn't even think about. thanks guys!

[cantdanceflynn]

FINAL ATTEMPT AT PROPAGANDA BC I AM ABOUT TO CRY: FULL RUNDOWNS(OR ATTEMPTS) OF EVERY INDIVIDUAL SHIPS DYNAMICS AND THE FRIENDSHIPS INBETWEEN. BC J RLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO AND I AM ABOUT TO RESORT TO HATING STAR WARS WHICH DOES NOT FARE WELL FOR MY INDEPTH PNF STAR WARS AU UNIVERSE EXPANSION

ONE: CANDEREMY. THIS ONE IS LIKE. THE OPPOSITE OF A RAREPAIR UNFORTUNATELY BUT ITS THE ONLY ONE THATS REALLY "POPULAR" AND ITS STILL SO UNDERRATED AND MISINTERPRETED SO OFTEN I WANT TO ATTACK SOMEONE ABOUT IT. THEY ARE SO SWEET AND SO NEUROTIC AND NEITHER OF THEM RLY KNOW WHAT THEYRE DOING BUT THEYRE COMMUNICATING SO WELL AND DOING SO GOOD AND THEY R SO SOFT AND SWEET

ALSO I THINK ITS VERY FUNNY THAT LIKE. W EVERY OTHER CHARACTER HES EITHER BESTIES W OR IMMEDIATELY CHILL. EXCEPT FOR VANESSA. THEIR ONLY CANON INTERACTION IS VANESSA FLIRTING WITH HIM, HIM NOT RLY GETTING IT, AND HER NOT CARING BC HE DOESN'T PLAY DARKER STUFF. WHICH LEADS OT THE FUNNIEST FUCKING DYNAMIC FOR A WHILE OF "NEITHER OF US ARE EVEN VAGUELY ATTRACTED TO EACH OTHER AND ESPECIALLY IN RETROSPECT IT WAS SO AWKWARD BUT WE'RE BOTH DATING CANDACE SO WE GOTTA FIGURE IT OUT SOONER OR LATE"

TWO: CANDACY. THE FRIENDS TO LOVERS DYNAMIC EVER. THE DEFINITION OF THAT ONE "SOMEONE IS PINING BUT RESIGNED TO NOT HAVING THEM ONLY FOR THE OTHER PERSON TO REALIZE "OH SHIT THIS IS ROMANTIC ATTRACTION"" ITS LIKE. THE DEFINITION OF THIS IMAGE

THEYVE BEEN BEST FRIENDS AS LONG AS THEY CAN REMEMBER THEY'VE HAD A MILLION STUPID JOKING FIGHTS BUT THEY NEVER FAIL TO FALL BACK INTO EACH OTHERS ARMS AT THE END THEY CARE SO FUCKIN MUCH ABOUT EACH OTHER AND ARE REALLY FUNNY ABOUT SHOWING IT

REGARDLESS OF IF THEY'RE TECHNICALLY MEMBERS OF THE POLYCULE OR EVEN THE ONES SHE KNOWS, STACY CAN AND WILL DRAG THEM INTO ANYTHING. SHE PROBABLY DID A TWO PERSON SEVEN ACT PLAY W NEAL ONCE WHERE NEITHER OF THEM KNEW THE SCRIPT ITS THAT OR SECRET AGENT STUFF. THE ONE EXCEPTION TO THIS IS FRED, WHO DRAGS HER INTO MORE INSANE STUFF BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T WANT TO BE EMBARRASSED BY DOING IT ON HER OWN AND SHE WASN'T ASKING ANYONE SHE REALLY KNEW ONLY FOR STACY TO BE LIKE HER NEW BEST FRIEND. FRED PROBABLY RECORDS HER RAMBLINGS TO LISTEN TO AT NIGHT BOTH FOR WHITE NOISE TO HELP HER SLEEP AND SO SHE DOESN'T HURT STACY'S FEELINGS BY NOT REMEMBERING ANYTHING ITS VERY SWEET.

THREE: CANDESSA. FAIR WARNING I DO DESPISE FANON CANDESSA BUT I WILL KILL OVER CANON CANDESSA. SACRIFICED THEIR LIVES FOR ONE ANOTHER TWICE, ARE COSMIC PARALLELS IN A BOTH SONG AND ORIGINAL GOAL(WITH THE DISTINCTION OF VANESSA STOPPING MUCH FASTER), "IRONIC" LOVE OF THE SAME KIDS SHOW, WATCHING EACH OTHERS TASTE JUST CAUSE, THE OPPOSITE SIDES OF KNOWING BUT NOT REALLY KNOWING PERRY, AND THEIR SECOND DIMENSION SELVES HAVE SOMETHING™ GOING ON FR.

THIS REAL BASICALLY. ALSO VANESSAS IN BASICALLY THE SAME PLACE AS JEREMY WHERE LIKE. SHES COOL W EVERYONE BUT VERY AWKWARD W JEREMY AT FIRST. ALSO HER AND NEAL HAVE TEA MEETUPS WHERE THEY DESPERATELY TRY TO FIGURE OUT THE DR ZONE TIMELINE TOGETHER.

FOUR: STANESSA. THE FANON DYNAMIC EVER. THEY ARE IN SO MUCH SAPPHICNESS IT HURTS. HANDSHAKE EMOJI ON SO MANY LEVELS. 90% OF THE TIME THEY ARE JUST CHILLING AND CHATTING AND THE OTHER 10% THEY ARE FIGHTING FOR THEIR LIVES FEELING WISE. STACY THINKS VANESSA IS THE MOST COMPETENT PERSON ALIVE BECAUSE SHE CAN SHOOT A NON-PLUNGER HARPOON AND VANESSA THINKS STACY IS THE COOLEST PERSON ALIVE BECAUSE SHE DOESNT FIND THE SAW MOVIES TOO BRUTAL. THEY LEAN ON EACH OTHER BUT NEITHER OF THEM REALLY KNOW HOW TO STAND SO IT ONLY WORKS OUT SO WELL RIGHT AWAY BC OF THEIR ENVIRONMENT AND SUPPORT RLY BUT THEY GET THE HANG OF IT REALLY QUICKLY

OK ILL CONTINUE LATER BUT PLS PLS IM DISTRAUGHT RN

Rants!

Rochi: there are literally 19 fics for this ship, all but 3 written by the same person, and the characters have never even been mentioned in the same sentence, let alone met. neither of them have any lines, we don't know what one looks like and we only know he exists because of like 2 fact files you can find scattered around the game. but holy shit if the dynamic ive deluded myself into thinking they have isnt DELECTABLE

Duckylove: A HYPERSPECIFIC POLYCULE BETWEEN MOST OF THE TEENAGERS IN THE DWAMPYVERSE CAST. TECHNICALLY THE BASIS IS IN THE PHINEAS AND FERB CAST, WITH CANDACE DATING JEREMY, STACY, AND VANESSA, BUT IT COMPLICATES FROM THERE. I USUALLY HAVE STACY AND VANESSA DATING EACH OTHER, ALONG WITH STACY DATING COLTRANE AND VANESSA DATING MONTY. MONTY CAN ALSO BE DATING CARL IT DEPENDS. FROM THERE THERES THE MILO MURPHY'S LAW CAST, WITH SARA DATING CANDACE AND VANESSA, ALONG WITH NEAL. THE HAMSTER AND GRETEL CAST INCLUSION IS KEVIN DATING HIROMI, WHOS DATING STACY AND SARA AS WELL. FRED AND JENNY (AND A BUNCHA THE OTHER TEENS BUT LESS FULLY AS THESE TWO) ARE ALSO THERE BUT FRED AND JENNY ARE AROACE SO THEY JUST KINDA EXIST THERE.

Kesett: Ok so the ship started as something random @ironhoshi and @fettupwithyou came up with but then more people started to hear about it and it became an actual ship. The whole idea was because people realized Boba and Cal are about the same age and Boba is a bounty hunter and Cal is someone who would probably be wanted by a bunch of people

[litttlestars]

hi, i've been following for a while and i was reading your recent posts on what happened between you and someone else. first, sorry to hear you had to deal with that (you don't deserve it at all)! second, i'm also going through a similar situation, and i was hoping you could tell me what you think about it? tl;dr i've liked this person for a while and they feel the same, but they don't want to commit to anything yet. they said they want to talk more with me and told me they care about how i feel and making me happy, but recently they've been really distant and i'm not really sure why. i've tried talking about it with them but communicating with them is difficult since i usually get left on read often or don't get a response until later. just recently i asked if i could talk to them about something important regarding us. they gave me permission to, i told them about it, and i got left on read again; only to wake up in the morning and find them playing games with their friends. i still don't know their side of things but i feel really hurt, esp after they said they wanted to communicate more with me. but i also feel guilty about feeling hurt by this in the first place, and feel like i should continue to be more understanding about this. what do you think i should do?

im so sorry about that lovely, first of all i just wanna say your feelings are TOTALLY VALID and it's rly hurtful to have someone not put in the same effort of mending the relationship as you do. you should not feel guilty for being hurt bc it's a completely normal and natural reaction to being brushed off. plspls honor your emotions love bc they are important, you are not terrible for recognizing that you are hurt and telling someone how they hurt you. you have every right to feel how you feel.

im not sure if im good at giving advice so def take what i say with a grain of salt and think about how YOU would like to go abt things as well!!

from what you've told me i feel like you've been plenty understanding. just because someone doesnt want to commit, doesnt mean they're allowed to shed all human decency and decide when and how they want to communicate with you, esp when they said that they want to make you happy and keep talking to you. im firmly against the idea that we dont owe people anything- we do. especially if they explicitly said they wanted to keep talking and that they cared about you. if they like you and care about how you feel then i feel like they should at least try a little harder to communicate even if they're not so good at it ? you deserve someone who respects and reciprocates your time and effort, even if they're a little hesitant about getting into smt more serious. all you're doing is asking to talk, and that's the bare minimum. maybe they need time to think over their response so i suppose i'd give it a few days but if they dont reach out after a few days i'd def pop in and say something abt how them leaving you on seen made you feel and how you're viewing the situation as of rn and that you care abt this relationship and this person so talking things over is rly important to you! i would avoid any sort of accusatory statements and moreso focus on how you're feeling and how you would like to move forward bc i suppose you never know what someone is feeling or thinking. it's hard to find a healthy balance between being understanding but also honoring yourself, but i believe in you!! :') you seem like an amazing person and you don't deserve to be strung along.

tl;dr DONT FEEL GUILTY FOR FEELING HURT!!!! share how you feel, your perspective, and remember that relationships require effort from both sides! if you find yourself unable to get anywhere with this person, it's not worth it. you can't force someone to talk to you which is tough, but there are plenty of other people out there who DO actually care about you and they will put in the effort to actively show you so that you're not left questioning in the dark or always waiting on them.

[hyunverse]

my love please buy real food you deserve it 🙏🏼 especially on your period !!! that sucks so much you don’t have any sushi near you :(( maybe one day you can get some stuff to make like make shift sushi ?! gahhhhh ur so cute i cry <//3 ur just as much an angel baby 💗💗💗 AND IM SO EXCITED FOR THATTTT !!!!!! angst is life rn bc i LIVE for it

it’s pretty much just a story about these 3 sirens who lured these sailors into their deaths by their singing. i just rly like the way it’s written and the “lessons” behind it. those kinds of stories w hidden lessons or messages are always my fave !! YESSSS that fits hyunjin so well omfg. poor baby just wants love 💔💔💔. we are the same hyune 🙏🏼

andddddddd i’m tearing up :((. UR TOO KIND TO ME I CANT HANDLE IT !!! you have no idea how much that means to me :((((((. i say the exact same things about you, you are so so kind and such a good person. i feel like you’re the kind of person that could be easily trusted and i value that sm in people. you always make my days so much better as well, i look forward to all your responses and to your writing bc you just get it 💗. so thank YOU for being here in the first place. ur genuinely one of the most special and kindest and talented and thoughtful and smart and beautiful ppl i’ve ever met on here in all my years on this app 🙏🏼. you rly are a gem <333 i could go on for days about how much i adore you !! no joke !!!!!!! i’m very glad i came across your acc bc you and your writing have helped me through so much already <33

ahhhh yes you’re a smart one for that !! (i am not at all and just hope i find stuff in person, when i pretty much never do 😁) the holidays in your culture are so cool i’m always so intrigued by them ^_^

OOO HOTPOT W HYUNE YESSSS PLSSSSS !!!!!! you cant tell me would not only cook, but also feed you food. he’d just be like no you’re not lifting a finger and i’m doing all the work bc ur my precious angel who shouldn’t and won’t lift a finger anytime she’s with me 😇😇😇. yes pls !!!!!!!! i think i might have to write some soon bc i’m in such a fluffy mood lately. my fave is angst to fluff so maybe even that ?? i love big fights that turn into crying cuddle sesh’s mhm mhm. that w minho would make my year so maybe i’ll start w that 🤔

- 🐈‍⬛ even cuter pics gahhh ur so sweet :(( hugs and kisses i hope you sleep well my love 💗💗💗 manifesting hyune to sneak into ur dreams tehehe

yaaaa good idea!!! i’m pretty sure sushi ingredients can be found around here ^__^ thank u thank u i nvr thought of that <3 me?? an angel?? THANK U HEHE <3 i don't deserve it but thank you, darling. i'm sorry it took a while to talk to u, i've been swamped in assignments, i barely have any time for myself </3 eid break starts next week though, so that's nice hehe. hopefully i'll be able to talk and write more then!!

just read the siren story, omg their names are so complicated HELP... greek names, man. odysseus encountered the sirens during his journey home, right? if i'm not mistaken hehe.

i'm not being too kind angel, it's purely the truth. i'm flattered that you think of me the same, i could never picture myself to be even half as sweet as you T__T we're the same then because i could a 100% talk abt u all day!!

hehe i'd gladly talk abt my culture with u!! wait till eid, i'll drop fit pics here <3!! also wait did i ever show u my oddinary pulls?? i dont rmmbr if i did aaaa

RIGHT RIGHT HE WUD!!! HE'S THE SIT TIGHT PRINCESS, I'LL DO THE WORK FOR U KIND OF BOYFRIEND!!! i want him saur bad... omg i feel like he'd mix u the dipping sauces and stuff... i'll start crying at the thought of this. TENSION THAT FADES TO FLUFF >>> EAT THAT UP!!! I EAT THAT UP FR!!!

i have been dreaming of hyune lately tbh... it's been <3333 my dreams be so good. anyway! hope ure having a good week so far my sayang!!! (it means love in malay!!)

kithkithkith <3

[pizzapizzadickz]

Haaah. If yesterday is anything to base things off of I shouldnt use my headphones today bc my neck is fucked.

[symphorine]

im playing a sword and shield warrior elf rook, nonbinary, warden, on mouse and keyboard

im about 40 hours in rn? about to enter the cauldron and ive done most side and companion quests available to me so far

- combat. im enjoying it! its dynamic and its the first time ive thought of warrior playstyle as fun in da. its the right difficulty for me, it feels rewarding. obviously subjective but its enjoyable

- weisshaupt. fun! i likes the way it was set up, making you feel the urgency and drama, then the confrontation with ghilanain. i enjoyed the boss fight, and i liked what it said abt ghilanain as well in a way. confused as to why ppl dont understand why davrin didnt die? p clearly its bc ghil absorbed the blighted sould before leaving. but now that im typing this i dont remember if the soul thing is warden knowledge or smth morrigan told us in dao...

- responsiveness to background. rly good so far! ive had quite a few warden dialogue options or even sometimes straight up interjections from rook.

- responsiveness to race. ive found that i had a fair amt of options when talking abt the gods, as an elf, though a few hiccups regarding, like, whether or not im included when ppl are like "our gods" (sometimes its fairly clear theyre not including rook). also i used a vallaslin but it seems a non vallaslin elf (so ppl playing as city elves) get the same options... which doesnt super make sense in most places ive seen them. so mixed bag there

- gender... rly good. ive had quite a few occasions to respond with rooks own nonbinary/coming out/etc experience to ppl, esp taash! and its so nice seeing trans characters?? not just the pc

- speaking of taash. gender stuff in their quest? good! cultural stuff? what. are you doing bioware

- actually this is more abt how qunari are handled. theres a few npcs around, plus taash and their mom, that seem to give a more fleshed out and diverse account... but then in general the qun is still presented as stifling and backwards and violent - bc even tho ur reminded a lot that the antaam broke away from the rest of the qun wnd they are the qunari enemies u will deal with, theres also plenty talk of conversion, how they treat mages, etc. in taash's personal quest, i could encourage them to listen to their mother or do whatever they wanted, and i was like cool but theres a pretty clear choice yknow, and its very much designated as so in their narrative. but when I hovered over the options, the "bad" path was underlined as "encourage taash to embrace qunari culture more", which was absolutely not the vibe i got? and the "good" choice was associated with encouraging that to embrace rivaini culture more. like thats such blatant bullshit. AND! a lot of dialogue with taash so far has been abt how they are BOTH! so what the hell is that about! they dont have to choose! like. no the writing is both muddling the point AND being offensive there. its a shame.

- ig irt gender thing other than how its being forcibly tied to culture its good. kinda nonbinary and trans 101 which is good for a wide public but wasnt particularly gripping for me.

- lords of fortune. meh. their outfits? bad and very heavily orientalist imo. like u can see a lot of the inspiration is just... very exotifying?? like ooh shiny riches and barely covering clothes. associated with rivain. ://///////// bad. and the worst offender - WHAT IS ISABELA WEARING. for the love of god let her have pants this isnt fucking funny. other ppl have already spoken on this but oh my god. its infuriating. also criticism applies doubly for the antaam - ur telling me theyre running around in underwear and a mask? it makes me rly uncomfortable in terms of depiction. its like. disney jungle book level imo. and if u add that to how theyre basically just ennemies and fodder for the pc to kill... man i wasn't expecting perfection but its just bad.

- oh yeah cameos from characters - not carrying over any choice other than those 3 makes all writing around them suffer imo. morrigan talks abt her mother, wouldve been great to talk abt kieran there! also the well of sorrows! but no. hawke apparently never existed for isabela or varric. and shes also mostly a set piece (as is varric) so its disappointing. the inquisitor... as far as i can tell its a repeat of hawke in dai. no personality - and i know the inquisitor already didnt have much of it, but if you hated solas you cannot have that come through at all. which sucks! forget any nuance. and its silly how theyll juuuuust not go into details about the inquisition decisions. literally harding talks abt inquisition ppl - including... sera... who u can just Not Recruit. so what does that mean bioware. obviously i love her so im not advocating for not recruiting her but like. what. makes no sense. im still mad about getting rid of decision imports it was bad and stupid. give me back my worldstate.

- yeah varric is basically just saying platitudes. he better have a point bc otherwise he should have been killed off.

- companions. i love them all tbh. i LOVE the voice acting for bellara i think its one of the best performances. ive enjoyed time with all of them and their personal storylines and im excited to have more

-banter. good imo! i do think this is a front on which inquisition did better tho, in that the relationships between companions could be more overtly fraught or antagonistic, and that made it more interesting overall. kinda miss that. but im enjoying what im getting so far still! could trigger more often

- item upgrade system. i like it. im usually not super into crafting tbh so again, subjective.

- misc: theres a lot of... handholding i guess. that i wish i could turn off. a lot of announcing that x decision will have consequences, and y thing is happening bc u made x decision. but in a lot of cases its like... it didnt need to be announced, u could let the game mechanics/narrative do the work perfectly fine. and i dont like that its announced even for the bigger stuff, especially when, again, its obvious anyway.

- i dont rly like the little varric narrations... feels in the same vein of having to. idk. make sure the player is spoon fed whats happening and knows Something Else Is Coming when its pretty clear anyway. im hoping itll have a point later in terms of. hmmmm. narrative structure? like how da2 was yh varric was actually telling. but other than that i dont like it.

- visuals. pretty. hair physics amazing. colorful and varied environments. combat can make the screen very cluttered tho

- music. varies. some parts ive rly noticed and liked but most of the time it doesnt register

- assan. adorable. i love him.

- ive actually rly been enjoying the level design! nooks and crannies to explore in maps but usually u can like, trust the design where u need to if that makes sense? like itll loop back around to bring u where u need once uve explored a part a lot of the time. things arent too far apart, even tho i do wish we could move a bit faster.

- lore things. ill wait to be done with the game for judgement there i think? by itself the elves' origin is cool. in universe + context of how bioware handles them... hmmmm idk

think thats my thoughts for now... i should sleep

can't sleep so gonna jot down some thoughts abt davg under a readmore. itll have spoilers!