#based on some twt memes i saw

[midamspn]

lucifer: [torturing sam]

sam: [being tortured]

adam and michael, in adams mind:

[jokarlekin]

Leberblume (and Loco Musica)!

⚠️ I am sadly aware of the characters age in Mahoako. See more below-

Also ! You better watch the 9th episode when it comes out or read the 14th chapter before looking at my art or read under the cut-

I… I recently fell into this story when I saw the anime, and then devoured the scans in a day. So my little fixation made me productive. Im just sad there is so little fanarts, I need FOOD, please give me FAN CONTENT, I am STARVING-

Utena is the best girl in my heart, BUT HAVE YOU SEEN LEBERBLUME ? WITH LOCO MUSICA ?? Those girls are amazing. Can’t wait for the ninth episode tomorrow, the trailer is cool and we are having Leberblume being a fuckin badass bitch.

Also Leber is the spirit animal of too much persons in the fandom lmao. Don’t deny it you weebs, I see your eyes bags 👁️👁️

On a more serious note- I hesitated a lot about posting my drawings in public because of the controversy of the show :,). I’m aware the characters are overly fanserviced and the majority of them are still minors (14 bruh why 💀), I don’t read the story for that at all (Btw the manga has more censorship than the show !) and I will not make nsfw content of minors thank you-

By the way I literally try to trick myself into thinking they are adults, I have my own version of the show in my head where they aren’t children, and they have more clothes on TwT

Aaand done for the serious talk, take some meme bases I used :

That’s all ! Bye bye :3

[diorleclerc]

my non f1 bestie saw a post abt the driver presentations in vegas and thought it meant actual presentations so they came up with topics that they thought the drivers would present and some of them are actually so accurate 😭

(they came up with these based off what they’ve heard abt the drivers from me or memes on twt they’ve seen 💀)

george - "why i should bowl with the queen"

max - "why i have to win every time despite me being a mf and stealing all other racers happiness" + "why my representative animal is not sid from ice age"

carlos - "why i should cover and gain all copyright for smooth operator"

lance - "why i became one with child" because of this

lewis - "why roscoe should be f1 mascot" + “why i should be able to race with my scooter"

esteban - "why we should bowl but the cars are the ball and people are the pins"

zhou - "why i was a kpop idol in my past life"

alex - "why i should own a zoo atp with all my pets"

logan - "why whenever i win, the national anthem should be RAHHHHHHHH"

oscar - "why we should not kiss our trophies cause that's nasty af" because

charles - "why i'm actually ledoodle not lecat" (they think he’s golden doodle coded and not cat coded) + "why i am actually a secret member of nct127" + "why u should trust me in cooking pasta for u all!"+ "why u should trust me styling u all!"

checo - "why bumper cars"

daniel - "why i should ride a horse instead of my car"

and my fav one:

[chibishortdeath]

Yay random doodles :3 uh some explanations under a cut

I was thinking of the Miku and Cinnamoroll collab and drew Simon with Pompompurin hehe.

Pompompurin phone case based on this one meme of a tough looking guy holding up a Hello Kitty one asdfghjkl— I saw it and immediately had to draw The Guy doing that, but with the Sanrio character I’ve chosen for him lol.

Anatomy reference sketches. He’s so fun to draw, so many shapes :)

Side profile that I don’t remember posting so he’s here lol.

This one I played a picrew and the one of hand poses was really nice, so I tried to challenge myself to draw it. Very hard hand pose to get to look real, especially when it’s over someone’s face since it obscures so much (TwT ).

Waa! Blood! Yeeouchie!

I love making the ends of his headband stand up when he’s surprised or spooked hehehehe, it’s so cute X3.

I thought he would look really cute with a braid in his hair and realized that he could put his eartails back with it. I also kinda thought how funny it was considering that I started drawing him with eartails when a lot of artworks of him don’t have them 💀💀💀

He is singing something, he’s really intense about it. Idk what song do you think it is :0.

Cat gif :3 you know the one—

If I see that I’ve posted any of these before, I’ll just edit this post about it d(•w•)

[moondaeznuts]

DEBUT OR DIE KEUNDAL/BIGMOON/BM HEADCANNONS

BIG SPOILERS IF YOU DONT KNOW WHO HE IS

this one has more light spoilers might make another part for the heavier ones

I love him so much and I always talk about him on twt lmaooo so im kinda just compiling stuff from twt into a big posts(?)

some of these hcs are kinda built/expanded off of canon stuffs soooo yeah

some of this might be canon actually but it sometimes hard to tell because I read mtl :cry:

He's twitter moots (brief mentioned of seeing each other in their twitter timelines in part2) with the other fans we see in the series (Moondae's fansite master and the Kim Raebin fan! I cant remember their name spellings rn... will edit later)

HE'S THE RICH FAN... buys all merch he can get his hands on his bedroom is full of TeSTAR merch (it's always mentioned he has merch in his bedroom)

He helps pay(?)/sponsoring those fanmade advertisements like those type of fan ads you see on a member's birthday

If he can he goes to those birthday fan café events :) OROROR he helps pay rent for spaces so they can have birthday event!!!

(idk if this is an actual thing) those mass buy album events(?) the fans would do each comeback(?) he buys albums for other fans that couldn't afford the newest album at the moment... (Moondae will just give him a sign album anyways lol)

He buys any plush/cotton TeSTAR doll he can get his hands on (based on a tweet he saw in ch644 for a Chungwoo doll) he has some sort cute display for each of the members :D however he has some Moondae dolls everywhere in the house (Moondae is concern about this\ Keundal just misses him that's all...) lolol (Groom of May doll sitting on the couch is canon! so cute)

Ahyeon custom making/crocheting clothes for keundal's dolls whenever he comes by his house or as some sort of gift (help there was a cursed thought of ahyeon crocheting moondae's underwear for one of keundal's moondae doll :sob: <- reference to that one moondae doll account on twitter if ykyk)

He has his own custom made TeSTAR t-shirt designs... it may not be the best quality (as in looks more meme-y/shitposty instead of some serious design... "Graphic design is my passion meme" vibe) it so cute and funny (the shirts are in the depths of his closet)

this is getting long.. (its like 8 bullet points but still) I made a Part 2 here still with light spoilers

no heavy spoilers for now...

[imaginc]

open to: f / nb. casually dating, fwb, significant other, mutual pining.

muse: lance (25-27). a literature major & hopeless romantic to a fault. 

based on: from some meme/story I saw on twt - oops.

the rare occasion lance puts himself into the dating scene, he was always quite reserved in nature, but if he were being honest with himself, he was rather fond of her. so much so, that he was able to bring his walls down and showcase the more fun and lively side of him. then, after a couple drinks and hours of barhopping downtown, the pair had finally found themselves settling down at a fast food restaurant at three in the morning. he took a glance towards the femme, with the more adoring gaze in his eyes while simultaneously reaching for both of her hands. “I hate this,” he confessed in a soft tone, contrary to the blunt statement that was spoken from his lips. “I wanted to go to bed at ten. please do not expect this to be a regular thing.”

[wakanai]

I started out just wanting to do one meme but one thing led to another and I ended up having waay more fun than I intended to lol. Here's some stuff I came up with + some side notes that live in my head that I might end up regretting later. But I'm in the feels rn so here we go lol:

I'm actually not sure if this is accurate but I wanted to try lol

based off a comment I saw recently about how that person doesn't feel comfy on twt

I'd tag them but we ain't close so prob not TT

we actually had a convo regarding this

all's well that ends well

I thank God so much that I'm free of that person now. the amount of times He's saved me from toxic people including myself - yeah God's real and he's good and he's there. I'm christian btw.

I think I'm slowly becoming more comfortable sharing my thoughts the more I do so tbh haha #improvement i guess

yeah I had my own akutagawa era. This person was the toxic Dazai to my lil aku lol.

I think we've all had this at least once lol

yk that one person you really admire but you know deep down that they aren't as interested in you as you are in them?

if that's you, dw you're in good company (me lol)

let's move on together hahaha

*parties not "parites" 💀

#Notocodependency

boundaries are v important

transparency too. it's impo. to be honest w your friends about your feelings and the things they do

welcome to an episode of I-personally-can't-relate-but-I-think-it's-funny-so-I'm-going-to-make-this-meme-anyways.

#CRBDSA (can't relate but doing so anyways).

CRBDSA

yeah, pretty much me whenever I consciously make a bad decision.

I had this thing as a kid where I'd have a crush but when they like me back, I lose interest

wasn't interested in actually having a relationship lol

I once came to school without a bra in 7th grade. My female teacher approached me and asked me about it. LOL you're welcome for the second hand embarrassment :)

thankfully, no pervs or anything. I genuinely thought no one would notice cause the uniform was thick (turns out the back is slightly see through so that's how the teacher knew lol)

someone pls kill me I don't want to relive my first year of high school. the me back then was so cringe i can't -

yk what's ironic? when you have work to do, you want to sleep early. when you actually have time to sleep early, you don't.

respect to people who sleep early

yes ofc people can like what they like and hate what they hate but I like Oda sm that it makes me a bit queasy (?) idk if that's the right word, but just a bit sad/uncomfy when I see negative Oda content lol

I really like Oda. I could make a whole post about how much I like him. I like his whole concept, his care and understanding for Dazai, his relatability, etc. While I'm at it, let me just go and talk about some things about him haha. Apologies to non-Oda stans.

I love how he's the embodiment of dry friend energy (in a good way). He's just so calm and comfortable in dark era. Yk how sometimes you just feel like talking in a mellow tone and not really being that energetic when you talk/text someone? I love how he's like that and doesn't feel ashamed - doesn't feel the need to match Dazai's energy or be overly loud. He's just himself and I like that.

He's the adorable assassin turned loveable idiot. I like how he's kinda dumb sometimes (like me) and his friends don't mind it at all lol.

He's cool.

["Because there's only one story I want to write, and it's in here." I tapped my temple. "Unfortunately, I don't have the necessary tools or skills to bring this story to life. I feel like a lost mountaineer standing before the tallest, most sacred mountain in the world with just a single, tiny ax" ] --- Oda Sakunosuke, Beast LN, page 118.

^^ you hear that? That's the sound of Oda being relatable. Slay king. Asagiri was probably projecting as he wrote this LOL.

now that I've said some positives, one scene Oda had that I didn't 100% enjoy (although, it really wasn't meant to be enjoyable) was in dark era, where he was quite literally willing to let Dazai kill Ango/didn't do anything to stop it.

Granted, I don't think he would have been the same with Dazai if Dazai actually killed Ango but still, it's quite sad

He implies that nothing he'd do would change anything.

["Even if I took Ango's side there, nothing would change. There was no way to break out of Dazai's trap...and the orphans at the restaurant would be killed if I betrayed the Mafia."] - Dark Era LN

(daang. you can really feel his insecurity from here. also the fact that he believes Dazai would kill the orphans if he did something - not that I blame him tho. Dazai was really dark, unpredictable and hurt. He threatened Ango because he was hurt by his betrayal so just imagine if Oda "betrayed" him too. LOL someone stop me before this turns into a dark fanfic).

Another thing though.

["Even if I took Ango's side there, nothing would change."]

This is oddly similar to Dazai's fatalist way of thinking that there's no point in trying because everything he has will be taken from him anyway.

Watch me make this into a whole analysis about Oda and Dazai lmao. They're actually really similar.

Oda having low self-esteem and being passive meanwhile Dazai IS ALSO passive and is literally just bopping around in darkness because he has nothing else to do. One big difference though is that Oda has hopes of leaving the Mafia once the kids are old enough to take care of themselves. But for now, he's also just bopping around and idk if he's actually tried to write a novel or if he was also just waiting for "the right moment" in that regard?

Anyways.

I like Oda so much that I actually made a whole tailored version of him in my head

Yk..I have this thing called 'Side Character Syndrome' where I get attached to side characters because of their charm and untapped potential and I just make them into my own characters in my head. I modify some things, give them backstory, give them plot, give them character development, etc. The fics that go on in my mind, man. I take side characters, make them my own, and make my own "mind" fics where they play a bigger role and stuff. LOL. I love my HC/fanfic Oda a lot.

The fanfic Oda I have in my mind is very similar to Oda but is kind of different as well. Hard to explain but just know that I like Oda Sakunosuke very much hehe.

He's my favorite character.

Onto the next meme.

omy, is this my Mori kinnie moment? LOL.

yes, I used to be conscious (still am to an extent lol)

look at my pinned post and you'll prolly understand more

when I had almost 0 followers, I reblogged a post about Oda not understanding Dazai. I didn't agree with it but I reblogged it anyways cause it was interesting. Anyway. fast forward and now that I have followers, I'm conscious about reblogging stuff I disagree with cause then I'm like "but what if XX thinks I agree with this" and so on.

yes, I'm working on it. Just post whatever and enjoy. Anything else is moving onto loser territory. <33

POV you're Oda Sakunosuke

Hehe this hits different if you've read Dark Era and Beast

random thought but I want Ango to get more page time and know more about his character, how he was affected by it, his development, etc.

I'm going to share something personal and say that I have some eating problems lol

It's not serious enough to be a disorder but it's just really bad eating habits that I need to improve on

working on it though. let's go. ✊

yayyy. and that's it. Special thanks to OP for this fun challenge. It was really great hehehe :) AND I'M GLAD THIS IS LIKE - prolly the lonest post I've written so far. lol.

Thought this shot from the Dark Era would make an amazing meme template, feel free to use it

(and tag me if you do cause i want to see what you come up with)

[carpedzem]

I saw a while ago you got an ask from an anon asking for loveposting of Dream, and I was wondering if you could do it again but of just cc!Dream? For some reason, I'm getting a lot of baseless takes saying that Dream was totally responsible for Gee's harassment and he's trying to control twt by "taking away their freedom of speech" all over my dash and its both confusing and a little hurtful bc I've tagged cw negative but nobody tags their posts correctly, and besides, Dream is very vocal about his covid warrior takes, and I was hoping you could flood my dash with cc!dream positivity because I love him /parasocial

oh boy, nonny, it looks like you need a better people to follow o.o

first of all Dream is not responsible for Gee's harassment, if anything he could say nothing but chose to step in to save CC's asses even if we can assume he didn't support the idea. that control twt thing I don't even want to touch, it's just stupid. okay, with this out of our way ✨ love posting time! ✨

this is based on assumptions only but the possibility that he had The Talk tm with George about the party and still wrote that answer on twt, to make situation better. damn, he really loves his friends :')

Dream Covid Warrior We Stan

Change My Clothes is sooo??? <333 gods I love this song and I love that he has a chance to work with music and with artist he respect. and this song is so smoothing. lyrics are a little sad but also so hopeful

You miss all of the shots that you don't take :)

his recent irl content! it's not only h*t but also it's something endearing seeing he is, in fact, real person. I saw somewhere post that it also might be him getting used to being in front of camera and this makes me so soft :')

cargo pants were sent to him, why are we Like This, and he decided, yes, I'm going to do photo session with them, why is he Like This /pos

Dream's and Sapnap's friendships gives me so much feelings recently, they love each other so much, I'm so happy they can live together and see each other on daily basic and send themselves memes even if they are in the same house

the way he sometimes just hop on twt to cause chaos??? this is so funny. why did he 'bullied' his fan? why does he have 176 nipples? why did he 😳 Punz's ratio? and remember, he has a house

That Suit tm

when he says "Hi!", or giggle <3

the fact that he saves funny photos of his friends just to send them! and that he scrolls old messages and finds funny bits. he just, he loves them so much

he liked Tommy idea about where Manhunt should start and used it!

his "Well-" <3

I don't know if I ever talk about it but I absolutely love Quackity's stream when he was Dream's therapist. It's so funny, I find myself rewatching it once in a while. comfort stream for sure :)

on one of Puffy stream, when he was talking about beginning of DSMP and how long they all know each other! and the fact that DSMP brought dteam and Punz together again! gods, this is such a wonderful story, looking at how often they appear at each other streams like, this makes me so soft :>

just... he <3

[haknew]

Do you know the popularity order of the boyz?

ok lol so first off, there isn’t really what i would call a set-in-stone popularity order ? since i think it varies from internationally to domestically,,, but i will tell you what i think the order is from what i’ve seen ? and this is based on how many stans i see on twitter and how many notes sets of a specific member gets as well as some other factors.... (so basically these are my personal deductions not facts ! just my opinions gathered from a bunch of info as well as some maybe... unpopular opinions u.u) 

domestically in korea... hyunjae has the highest brand reputation of tbz,,, (it’s a mix of search results and some other things) and he’s usually the only member to rank in the top 100 (thank you mimi for this info) so yea i’d definitely say him for most popular in sk ! but in general i think in korea it’d be hyunjae + juyeon because they both have a lot of modeling opportunities and bc juyeon mcs,,, and they’re ipdeoks too and part of bermuda visual line (younghoon too but i don’t think he’s as popular as the other two i just mentioned :/ bc of just how many k-fan accounts i see for those two) meaning they’re the members that usually catch people’s eyes first which would = more fans,,, they’re the “it” members basically ! 

i’m more confident in intl fan demographics i think bc i’m part of them,,, and in that case hands down the most popular members are sunwoo and changmin, their pulls in albums are always the most asked for and most stans use their pics for deobi selca days and their gifsets tend to do the best on tumblr... plus changmin is always going viral on stan twt and everyone loves him and asks who he is if they don’t know him ! i will say that i think sunwoo is a touch more popular than changmin for reasons i will not delve into (but this is what i have gathered from my changmin stan fren so take it as you may) then next i’d say it’s either chanhee, kevin, or juyeon... my reasoning here is that chanhee is actually really popular on stan twt from what i can see and he has a lot of stans (deserved !!!), he’s stan twt’s “it” boi (ALSO DESERVED) and so is juyeon ! it’s the pretty privilege LOL (i’m jk but also kinda not really)... the reason i’d put juyeon and chanhee first and equally maybe over kevin is that,,, everyone knows of kevin ? bc he’s so meme-y and goes viral for the stuff he says,,, but that’s kinda it from what i can tell,,, lots of people know him but don’t really bias him ? it’s a weird phenomenon i can see, i thought there would be more kevin stans but i guess there just aren’t as many :// and i say this as a new binie,,, it’s just something i’ve noticed now that i bias him too...

the next group would be hyunjae, eric, younghoon, jacob, sangyeon and haknyeon (and a special mention to hyunjoon, i think when he was still promoting he used to be one of the most popular members intl but i think with so many new deobis entering the fandom after his departure it’s less so of course :( ) for here i’m kind of biased... bc i’m a joosadan but i barely see any haknyeon stans, or younghoon and sangyeon ? like i see a handful here and there for trades and selca days but i think they’re the most underrated,,, so hyunjae, eric, and jacob i would say are up there

so overall sunwoo > changmin > chanhee = juyeon > kevin = hyunjae = eric = jacob > sangyeon = younghoon = haknyeon 

but again these are my deductions ? i saw a deobi demos on twt where about 1k deobis voted on who they bias and it was pretty close to this list...

i’ll reiterate that these are my opinions ? so idk how accurate it is,,, esp since i’m a haknyeon stan so i actually see how underrated he is and it kind of makes me sad ;;;; but yea that’s what i think,,, moral of the story stan haknyeon cowards >;C 

[certifiedpotatotrash]

Hmmm....

Tbh, I really want to talk more about FoodFan aside from my ikemen shitposting/reblogging lol so I decided to answer all of the questions in the Food Fantasy ask meme hohoho. Please forgive me tho, I recently came back and I kinda miss posting here. 🤣😂😅

FOOD FANTASY ASK MEME

Questions:

1. When did you start playing?

• August 2018

2. Who was your first UR?

• Foie Gras, not because of the new player rewards though because she’s still the first UR that I summoned 😅

3. Who is your favorite food soul? Favorite ship, if you have any?

• Escargot my sleepy son for my favorite food soul 😄💤

• Favorite ship would be Steak/Red Wine and Cloud Tea/Sweet and Sour Fish 💕

4. Who is your most powerful food soul?

• Hmmm.. This is quite hard to answer 😅

• Well, Crab Long Bao has the highest soul power in my whole list (and he’s also my strongest tank). Strongest magic FS would be Pizza, Turkey for strength FS, and Somen for Support FS. 😄

5. Do you have your dream card? If so, how’d you get them? If not, how much have you tried for them?

• I have 3 dream cards

• First is Pizza. As soon as I discovered that his VA is Hiro Shimono, I KNEW I HAVE TO GET HIM (that’s what I thought to myself lol). Pizza event was the first time that I spent in foodfan. I was aiming to get his skin as well but ranking’s hell af (even in the re-run). 🤣😅

• Second is Mapo Tofu. BEST GIRL. So imagine the dread that I felt upon learning that her event’s the same as Pizza. But I wanna get her so I said to myself that her event will be the last one I’ll spend real money on to. 😩😭

• Third is Nagashi Somen. When I first saw his design in Suki’s post ( @ff-sukinari-daiginjo ), me be like: IKEMEN HUSBENTO ALERT!! Quite surprised at first that he’s a Support soul though (and he’s related to Raindrop Cake). Luckily, his event’s easier compared to other UR events (thank the Heavens)!!

6. Do you read the stories?

• I used to but I got lazy later on lol. I can only remember the stories of Escargot, Foie Gras, Steak, Red Wine & Gingerbread. 😅

7. Favorite Fallen Angel?

• Inugami!!

8. Are you pledged to any food souls?

• HAHAHA of course! It’s quite a long list bro. 🤣😂

• URs: Crab Long Bao, Nagashi Somen, Foie Gras, Pizza, Boston Lobster, Cloud Tea, Turkey, Mapo Tofu, Wuyi Da Hong Pao

• SRs: Steak, Escargot, Sushi, Opera Cake, Cassata

*inserts a long list of soon-to-pledge food souls lol*

9. What food soul do you most want to have an English VA?

• None

10. Do you participate in events?

• Yes! Though after Mapo Tofu event, I stopped spending because events are getting harder and more complicated. 🤣😅

11. Do you have any 5-star souls?

• Yup!

• URs: Crab Long Bao, Nagashi Somen, White Truffle, B-52, Bamboo Rice, Peking Duck, & Foie Gras (basically the ftp-friendly URs lol 🤣😂)

• SRs: Steak, Escargot, Black Tea, Vodka, Sweet Tofu, Mooncake, Laba Congee, Sanma, Salad, Red Wine, Hamburger, Sushi, Yuxiang, Yogurt

• Rs: Jiuniang, Tom Yum, Milk, Coffee, Long Bao, Orange Juice, Plum Juice, Sashimi, Dorayaki, Taiyaki

• Ms: Cheese, Rice, Almond Tofu

12. Do you have any skins besides ascended ones and default ones? If so, how’d you get them? Which one is your favorite?

• Uh, well, I have a lot of skins. I managed to get most of the skins obtainable via bingo/deliveries. Then the team-up skins of Milk/Jiuniang/Omurice. For skins via story events, I only got Steak/SSF. Then the skins obtainable in the store (that’s why I was able to complete Café Satan in their respective skins).

• Favorite skin would be Crab Long Bao’s skin (but I’m salty because I wasn’t able to get that TwT)

13. Do you spend real money on the game? Would you for your favorite soul?

• I mean, I already did lmao (see question #5)

14. If you could summon any food soul in real life, who would you summon? Why?

• None lol

15. Chinese, Japanese, or English voices?

• JAPANESE definitely!!!! 🤧😍

• The voice actors are actually one of the reasons why I got hooked in FoodFan (some of the VAs here are also VAs on my other fandom, which is Ikemen Series) 💕

16. Least favorite soul? Why?

• Eh? I can’t think of any. ;_;

17. Who is in your display case on your profile? Why?

• Escargot, CLB, Pizza, and Turkey are my sons 😄🤧 (smiling Crab tho huhuhu must protect that smile uwu)

• Steak and Somen are my top husbentos 😍💕

• Honestly, 6 SLOTS AIN’T ENOUGH AS I WANNA ADD MORE SONS (Lion’s Head, Bonito Rice) AND HUSBENTOS (Cassata, Opera Cake, Wuyi Da Hong Pao) 😭🤣😅

18. What level are you?

• Lvl 105

19. Do you make teams based on power or how much you like the food souls?

• The former (based on power/skills/utility)

20. Do you make fanart? fanfic? What have you contributed to the fandom, show us!

• Sadly, I am just an ordinary talentless potato fangirl trash who hasn’t contributed much to the fandom except from being a silent fangirl and dumping my money to the game (well before, at least) loooool 🤣😂

That’s all for the Food Fantasy ask meme UwU

[karelysse]

"HOTLG Rework" asdfghjkl I think I love you. Tell me more about the FIC FUTURE ANGST

YEH that meme djkfgjkfjgk im so sorry i forgot about it ;;; i DID end up reworking a bit hotlg!!! took out a few things that bothered me and uh. tried to fix some language issues cuz it was a mess (still is but. less bad ig). i still have a few scenes i couldnt get outta my head that i wrote aside n wanted to add but… didnt do it much bc i feel it was more self-indulgent than anything. so i still have that lil edit folder, for maybe in the future idk

oh lord……. that was a big thing i had all plotted up in my head when i finished chap2…. and stucked me a lil bc i wanted to write it so bad but told myself i needed to finish chap3 first……. and ended up doing neither oh what a mess. so i kinda resent that idea now lmao sdjskjd

basically (i ranted so much to @hanyuwus bout this on twt lmao) its like an angst au that gets set like, 5-6 years from now. Yuzu won oly beijing or didnt go fjfjk cant remember and it doesnt rly matter. He’s SOARING in jpn, hes adored (like right now, but then he isnt such an hermit anymore, goes to talk shows and stuff, does a lot of work for charities, building rinks and whatev) by the public eye. Javi is in spain coaching, doing his thing, he has one good student he’s tryna rile up for gpf, yeh, not much talking actively to yuzu bc you know how it is with yuzu and they never texted much when they were training together anyway. Last time they saw eachother was like, two years ago at cricket by accident, and they’re still very fond, just not that close anymore. Javi had sent him a message of congratulations for his engagement last year that yuzu didnt answer to. javi doesn’t know the girl, but brian told him she was like an actress/singer or something, super super famous back in japan, and yeah javi guesses thats cool even if it came out of nowhere or whatever, he knows its sometimes like that in japan and they look very perfect and happy on pictures. 

BUT THEN

fic starts. javi gets a call from brian. its been three weeks since the vid, the scandal, since yuzu disappeared from the surface of the earth. javi heard of it ofc, everybody did. was worried a lil but it came right at the end of season, when all his skaters were doing 4CC and worlds. and nobody texted him about it, he saw it on the internet like everybody else. basically yuzu fucked up and got caught on tape making out w some guy, when technically he was engaged with JPN’s sweetheart, that girl that everybody loved, for like a whole year. Apart from the fact that hes gay, the scandal is mostly about how they lied to everyone and looked like they had this perfect wedding planned up when rly it was all bullshit. and nobody likes liars, ya know. so yuzu just disappeared, the girl was papped with red eyes and sunglasses next to her parents a couple times, and brian calls javi.

he’s like u heard bout yuzu. javi’s like well yeah omg how is that doing. brian’s like, well its pretty bad. he’s here in toronto with us, he flew right away, but its like the middle of the winter, and people recognize him here he cant go out and its cold and full of paparazzis and im worried about him. i remember you have a shack or something you bought for your parents somewhere lost in the middle of spanish countryside? can we like. ship yuzu there. so he can get so rest. and javi’s like : uh well. yeah yeah ofc send him there if he needs my parents are in the city for the summer the cottage is free. 

so yuzu gets there, arrives in helicopter this dramatic ass bitch, while javi gets to the cottage b4 him to greet him and show him around a bit before he leaves back to madrid. but like. yuzu is not okay, the old lady that takes care of the cottage keeps whining to javi about how there’s so much renovations to do that she cant do bc she’s old, and javi is kinda…. in need of a break too bc of of reasons…. so he stays w yuzu a lil longer. and….. unresolved stuff gets brought up, and gets resolved. and happy ending. two lonely boys find eachother back.

jeez lmao i tried to summarize that but i suck so bad im sorry dfjdkfjdkj BASICALLY its heavily based on the song wake up by eden, and idk if i’ll ever finish it cuz…..ya know idk