#balkan girl's blog

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About me/this page

*——Me——*

You can call me Evan

Cis Male he/him/his

Slavic/Eurasian 🇷🇺🇩🇪🇬🇷

Music I like includes KMFDM, dope, RATM, Morgenshtern..., Молчат Дома, Nirvana, Ramstein, the Offspring, the smashing Pumpkins, NIN, Egor Kreed, And One, Марк Бернс, RAC (Александров

Movies and TV I like include anything that is true crime, scream 1996, South Park, Dostoevsky

Games I like include COD, Doom, anything that involves drinking

*——This Page——*

I post Balkan violence aesthetic and TCC content

most of what you see is pictures I took or either pictures I found/reposts (though I do post some myself)

Please take note that there might be gore, weapons, violence or other sensitive topics in what I post

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I do not condone domestic violence against women (or men)

This is purely made for aesthetic

I do not condone rape or SA (as having experienced it first hand)

Please do not repost my content on porn accounts (do not steal my content either)

Dark jokes are my only jokes, feel free to find any of my morbid speech funny

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If you are racist, believe in religious discrimination, sexist, pedophile, rapist, sexual abuser, Zionist, Nazi, zoophile

Get off my fucking page

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How I Deal with Tough Days When My Brain Won't Let Me Work

We all have those days where productivity feels impossible. It’s like no matter what we do, we just can’t seem to get started. I’ve come to realize that, for me, these days aren’t just about laziness or lack of motivation—it’s more complex. When I procrastinate, it’s often my creative brain, or what I like to call my “inner child,” throwing a tantrum.

Step 1: Understanding the Procrastination

The first thing I do is pause and try to understand what I’m running away from. Is it the overwhelming amount of work? In that case, I break it down into smaller, manageable bits. When the material feels boring, I add some fun—by creating colorful and funny interpretations of definitions or concepts. I turn words into weird characters, almost like a cartoon in my mind. Sometimes, I’ll turn it into a game, like seeing how many questions I can get right, or even trying new study techniques like rewriting a sentence or reading it out loud.

I find that when I’m bored, it’s a perfect opportunity to experiment. I might try drawing funny sketches of the material or use quirky interpretations to make it more interesting. The key is that I have to figure out what’s causing the procrastination—is it fear, perfectionism, or just the sheer volume of work?

Step 2: Naming My Inner Child

Once I understand what’s happening, I like to give my inner child a friendly name. This helps me communicate with it when things get tough. Every time I mess something up and feel like quitting, I know that it’s just my inner child reacting to the idea of perfectionism. Naming it makes it less scary, and I feel more in control of the situation.

A perfect example would be the time I noticed that my inner child shows up in my skincare routine, but not because I’m lazy—it's because I feel unmotivated when I don’t have enough of those colorful, trendy products, like the ones all over TikTok. You know, the Drunk Elephant skincare, with its fun packaging that every influencer seems to have. It taps into the same idea as “Sephora kids,” where even as adults, we’re drawn to overconsumption of things we don’t actually need, just because they’re colorful or trendy or aesthetically pleasing.

But I’ve realized that I don’t need fancy, colorful products to wash my face before bed. My inner child might crave those items, but recognizing that helps me let go of the unnecessary pressure to follow trends. I focus on the routine itself, rather than what’s missing from my shelf.

Step 3: Clearing the Distractions

Next, I clear my desk. Anything that’s not a school supply or a tool I need for work can be a distraction, especially if it’s colorful or unrelated to my task. I set a 5-minute timer and start working, just to show my inner child that it’s really not that scary. Once the timer’s up, I double it, taking short breathers in between. I repeat this until I feel like I’ve done enough for the day.

Step 4: Knowing When Enough Is Enough

After a certain point, I trust my own judgment. I ask myself honestly, “Is this enough for today?” If I feel like I’ve given it my best shot, I let go of the need to do more. I accept that some days will be harder than others, and that’s okay. The important thing is that I’m not fighting my inner child, but working with it.

It’s a simple process, but it’s effective. Instead of battling myself, I’ve learned to communicate with that part of me that gets overwhelmed, bored, or perfectionistic. By understanding and breaking things down, I can get through even the toughest days without feeling like I need to drop everything.

P.S.: I’ve struggled to stay productive most of my life, and a part of that was because I didn’t grow up in one of those aesthetically pleasing, western-style homes you always see on social media. I live in the Balkans, and my bedroom looked nothing like that. It wasn’t perfectly curated or full of trendy decor, but over time, I grew to love my culture and my surroundings. Even though I wasn’t the richest or living the most "aesthetic" lifestyle, I’ve learned that what I have is enough, and it doesn’t define my ability to be productive or happy.

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i originally made this for my tiktok but since i deleted and didn’t want this to vanish im posting it here!:)

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Extremely off topic, but can my neighbours calm their fucking tits? It's 5 AM, and I kid you not these people just started blasting party music, I mean I understand that we're in the balkans but some people(like me) are trying to sleep after spending the whole night saving the city (girlblogging, meditating and arguing with men with fragile egos and 12 year olds on roblox voice chat).

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I love my hubbys godmother’s dog ❤️ Bogyo is so sweet but his barks are scary 🤨 And well he dose bark at everyone and people get scared but he never bites 🥳

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some textless comic pages bc im losing my mind working on all this in silence etc. i miss u people in my laptop i hope ur well

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