#babyelfdean

[sasquatchandleatherjacket]

Jessica? :o

character: hate them | don’t really care | like them | LOVE them | THEY ARE MY PRECIOUS

ship with:  sam sam sam sam sam sam (and sometimes sam and dean)

general opinions: i love jess. i have volumes of headcanons about her. like, she’s an artist, she does these abstract oil paintings with rich dark colors, but also earns some money illustrating children’s books, figures she’ll keep doing that until she scores her first gallery show. her hair smells like citrus and flowers and she dabs clinique happy behind her ears. she’s kind and understanding and really loves cats but she pretends to be a dog person because of the way sam’s face lights up when he sees one. she’s kinky as hell and completely unashamed and uninhibited. she is the most pure, the most beautiful. i love her a lot. 

do the thing

[acklelantern]

Hey,mum sorry you're feeling shitty, but I hope your birthday is at least a little bit good? You deserve it.

Thank you so much babe!

[sidekick-hero]

Being 14 is never easy. You have the hormones and the teenage drama. Being 14 and a hunter is even less fun. All that moving around, always being the new kid, it sucked.

But nothing ever prepared Sam for being 14, a hunter, and in love with his big brother. He knew that normal was off the table if you were killing werewolves during your summer holiday. But wanting to kiss every freckle on your brother’s body put you right into freak territory.

Those are the thoughts running through Sam’s head in circles, a never ending litany of the ways he is a creep, a weirdo. There is his brother, this beautiful boy who is larger than life and willing to do anything, give anything for him. How selfish can he be to still want more?

Only, there is no way he could help it. It is what it is, another hit in a long list of fucked up songs. So he puts his earplugs in, desperate to distract himself from the temptation riding shotgun beneath their father. It is a tape Julian Anderson has put together for him when they had stayed in Hope, Arkansas for several months. She had been his first girlfriend and he really wished he had been able to love her back. He never had a chance to listen to it before now but really likes the songs she chose for him. Julian deserved better than him. Most people do.

In the front of the car Dean flings back his head in a full-body laughter. The ones he shows less and less the older he gets. Just then the first few accords of another song come on, fitting his mood like a tailored suit. The first lines start.

When you were here before Couldn't look you in the eye You're just like an angel Your skin makes me cry

His vision is filled with Dean, and how the sun breaks on the window pane to make his hair glow like gold and his skin look like marble. Sam really does want to cry at the sight.

Their father laughs about something Dean says and his big brother’s eyes are filled with love and admiration for the man. Sam sits in the back, invisible.

What is he even doing here?

The new school looks just like all the other ones before and Sam would bet his favorite comic book that the kids here are just the same as well. Their names may change but the dance will still be the same. Sam has started to get tired waiting for someone to change the song. It has been a long time since he last felt like he is in control over his own life, so he just keeps dancing along. What other choice is there?

As he walks down the long corridors full of strangers he spots Dean, who leans against a wall like he is the one holding it upright and not the other way around. The sharp angles of his face cut into Sam’s heart like shards and he wishes for nothing more but to feel the soothing touch of moos green eyes on him. But they are gracing another face, another stranger. Someone still more special than him.

I want you to notice When I'm not around You're so fuckin' special I wish I was special

He sees them kiss and waits for the pain, but it never comes. There is only cold. Numbness. What did he expect; he is a freak, a weirdo. He doesn’t deserve anything better.

Whatever makes you happy Whatever you want You're so fuckin' special I wish I was special

He hopes for Dean to find a piece of happiness. His big brother, whose skin would burn him if he ever cared to really see him, to really touch Sam like he means it. The boy underneath. The inconvenience. The ordinary one.

“How’re doing, little brother?”

And there it is. A smile, just for him. An acknowledgment. He may be all those things, creep, weirdo, freak. Nothing special. But there is one thing he is and will never stop being.

Dean’s little brother.

This has to be enough.

Inspired by Radio Head - Creep

[beekeepercain]

unpopular opinion: Sam is straight in canon. He's only even been with women in canon, and he's never explicitly said anything about being attracted to men or explicitly showed any attraction towards them.

FUCK THIS SCALE YOU ARE MY KIN strongly agree | agree | neutral | disagree | strongly disagree

@babyelfdean @bigelfsam @snowyveganwincest: SUCK IT I FOUND MY PEOPLE

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW OPPRESSED I AM WITH THESE PEOPLE AROUND ME ANON YOU HAVE NO IDEA AT ALL THIS IS THE MOST UNPOPULAR OPINION

But yes, basically, I’ve never viewed Sam as anything but straight. Where other people see his… openness about his identity as proof that he’s queer, I see it as him simply being confident and comfortable being who he is, in direct contrast to Dean, for whom his sexuality and general manliness has always been an issue. I feel that he’s comfortable even joking about his sexuality (”How about Sastiel? Samstiel?”) because there’s nothing there that could possibly make him uncomfortable: Sam’s sexuality is not a problem for him, and if it was different than straight, it wouldn’t bother him, it wouldn’t become an issue, and it would change absolutely nothing. If he woke up tomorrow and found that he was in love with a man, it wouldn’t confuse and scare him. Surprise, maybe, but not in a bad way - no more than waking up and finding he’s in love with a woman would, if it came unexpectedly. 

I just don’t think that that has ever happened, and see zero proof to the contrary. Sam doesn’t even tickle my gaydar. He just seems and feels straight to me, whatever the hell that means.

Send me unpopular opinions? It’s time to earn some anon hate again.

[brosinlove]

I HEARD IT WAS YOUR BIRTHDAY SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY !! I hope it's wonderful, and just. Have fun being slightly older. :D

hahah thank you dear!! thank you for your message! xxx

[canonsoulmates]

Oh, no, but little Sam who lets it slip to Sully that he's got a crush on his big brother, and he's super nervous that Sully's going to be upset or disgusted with him, but Sully just smiles and conjures him up a lollipop and tells Sam that Dean loves him more than anyone else in the world. And then subsequently trying to talk Sam through getting Dean to notice. ;-;

Awwwwwww Sully being his invisible wingman and guiding him through what he should/shouldn’t say

[sasquatchandleatherjacket]

babyelfdean answered your post: @ anyone who knows anything about poke...

I. I don’t know anything about the cards ;-; I just play the games. But as someone with a brother who’s into… well, Yugioh, I guess it depends if the receiver is gonna be battling, trading, or collecting them.

ahh ok thank you idk what he does with them it’s for my nephew he just asked for cards. maybe i’ll get both, lol.

[sidekick-hero]

MONACHOPSIS 

There are days he feels like a story no one wants to hear, without a beginning or end. He is surrounded by hundreds of people, students like himself, TAs, professors. They’re all bustling around, minding their own busy lives or chatting with friends and colleagues. Everywhere he goes there are noises, chatter and laughter and it makes the silence in his head more oppressive with each passing day.

It’s not like he doesn’t talk to people, he does. His peers seem to like him, value his calm presence and witty humor. His professors admired his sharp mind and constructive remarks during classes. But all of that is just an outer layer to Sam; it feels like they only see those parts of him he wants them to see. He is all these things, sure, but it’s not all that is of him. He can’t really pinpoint what makes him feel so out of place here. But the feeling is pulling him down, deeper and deeper, until he feels like he’s drowning, like he can’t breathe.

It’s not his past as a hunter, not the knowledge of what bumps in the night. Not really. Sure, he could kill someone in under a minute with his bare hands and without breaking a sweat but he accepted that part of himself a long time ago. It’s not even the loss of his mum and the constant moving they’ve done, with nothing to call his own except a broken family, weapons and consistent yearning for something he can’t even name. Ever since he met Caroline on the bus ride to California and heard her story he realized that other people have their own sad stories, their own crosses to bear. He’s not alone in being different, but he feels lonely all the same.

Maybe it is the feeling of stasis after years of constant movement. It’s supposed to feel like having found something permanent, like having arrived somewhere worthwhile. Instead, he never felt so lost before.

In the dark hours of early mornings, when his mind denies his body much needed sleep, Sam is sure the real reason he feels so out of place is the longing in his heart. Like it knows, deep down, that he is not where he is supposed to be, that his place is with another lost boy in a black car.

He doesn’t belong here.

Morning often brings him a new perspective though. Stanford is a place for people who aspire to become better, to contribute to this world with their unique skills and minds. Sam is at Stanford, at college, because he needs to be here. He would never have a chance at happiness if he doesn’t find his own way. This place, it’s not for him, he will always look at it from the outside. But that doesn’t mean he shouldn’t be here. It’s a way point, a station on his way to whatever fate has in store for him.

If he can just hold on, he hopes, his destination will have freckles. That in the end he can go home.

Monachopsis: The subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place.

[sidekick-hero]

!!! I heard it was your birthday? I hope it's been lovely, and hope it continues to be!

Ally! You heard right, it is! And it’s been super lovely so far, only I’m really beat, we baked for like 6 hours (and drank and eat and laughed). Now I’m very much looking forward to my bed

[sidekick-hero]

K and R for the ask game? :D

K - What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc?

Okay, you start with the big guns, I see :D

I think I go with the Buffy Fandom actually because I love how those characters developed! My favorite, personally, is Spike, I loved the transition he went through, but the best was probably Willow. She started as the wallflower, shy and awkward, a good friend and sidekick but not close to heroine. But damn did she kick ass later. Plus, her evil arc and the loss of Tara, Jesus, that was good (and broke my heart but that’s how I like it sometimes).

In Supernatural I really liked Castiel’s development arc in Season 4+5, that was great storytelling. That’s why I’m sometimes not that happy with what they’re doing with his character, because they once gave us such a great arc and now he seems...lost?

R - Which friendship/platonic relationship is your favorite in fandom?

Have some of mine fandoms:

Merlin: Merlin and Gwaine (I ship it a bit, but still their friendship is SO GREAT)

Buffy: Buffy and Willow

Queer as Folk: Emmett and Ted (I hated it when they came together because I love their friendship, but they salvaged it so it turned out good)

Supernatural: Bobby and the boys

Marvel: Sam and Steve (yeah I also ship it a bit, but Stucky 5eva!)

Suits: Donna and Harvey (I don’t ship it at all but their friendship is epic)

Ask game - Play with me!

[beekeepercain]

Dean Winchester. :D

Sexuality Headcanon: Bisexual.Gender Headcanon: Male.A ship I have with said character: Destiel. But there’s that fact that I previously mentioned with Sam - he’s not going anywhere without his brother.A BROTP I have with said character: Sam+Dean. Again, the world moans.A NOTP I have with said character: ... none. I literally don’t have a notp for Dean. What is this.A random headcanon: When Dean was six years old, he wanted to decorate one of John’s guns with the babysitter’s nail polish. No one was amused. Yelling ensued. However, after that, the gun was always the one John trusted the most - the one that never missed, the one that ended up saving his life a few months later when the nail polish had already almost worn off. He never told Dean, and Dean never painted another one for him again.General Opinion over said character: Dean is a fucking precious cinnamon roll. I love Dean. We may not always get along, and I sometimes want to scream at him a lot, but that doesn’t mean I love him any less. On the list of people who really need a hug, Dean’s sharing the first spot with his brother. World, get to it.

[sasquatchandleatherjacket]

babyelfdean answered your post: heyyyy question but like did sam and d...

Maybe they gave each other a hand? I mean like, that’d make is substantially easier, so… ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

a hand indeed.