#baby spock hehe :)

[urghblergh]

Star Trek Next Generation Season 3, Episode 23 "Sarek" changed me. 🥲🌌

[spirk-trek]

Spotted this cutie in Highly Illogical Fanzine #9/10 (artist: Julie Cesari). It came out in 1988, the year after TNG's first season. So sweet to imagine these dedicated trekkies getting new television content after almost two decades and accepting Data with open arms :')

[spockfallsinlove]

Little cute kinda prompt: Kirk loves coming up with the silliest sappiest nicknames to get his Vulcan to blush hehe 💜💜💜

"Babe," Jim says to the ceiling.

"No."

"Darling?" At the affronted silence, Jim tries: "Baby doll?"

Spock huffs. "I believe you are intentionally making them worse."

Jim rolls over to his stomach, flopping an arm over Spock's bare chest with a groan. "You're the one intentionally vetoing every endearment I come up with."

"Then I suggest," Spock kisses the tip of Jim's nose, so close to his face, "that you find a suitable one."

"A suitable one?"

"One that encompasses our relationship."

Jim thinks on it for a moment. Grins in the wake of a complicated puzzle, one that he can turn over in his hand like a Rubik's cube. "Challenge accepted, then."

The first attempt: on the bridge. "Thank you, gorgeous," Jim says to Spock as he hands him a PADD, smiling beatifically. Spock's glare makes his smile drop.

Second: as Spock comes out of the shower, Jim throwing a towel on his wet hair and murmuring, "Hello, sexy," to which he receives a "Absolutely not."

Third: in the rec room, as him and Spock play chess while Bones reads in the corner. "Checkmate, sugar," he purrs, to which Spock simply stands and walks away from.

"The hell are you doing?" Bones asks over his book.

Jim sighs as he sets the pieces back on the board. "Trying to find something more romantic to say in bed rather than 'Spock'."

Bones stares into the middle distance for a moment. Looks back down at his book. "I don't know why I ask."

"He's shooting down every one," Jim protests. "I don't know what to do."

"You stop dicking around and find one he actually likes," Bones snaps. "And leave me out of it while you do."

Jim hums. Considers. "What do you think about—"

Raising a hand, not looking up from his book, Bones says, "Leave. Me. Out of it."

Jim tries a few more over the next few days ("Sweetheart", which was close; "Honey", which was worse; "Bae," to try what the kids are into). None worked. Each one made Jim more and more convinced that Spock may just break up with him to get Jim to stop trying.

Shore leave came, and Jim rents them a modest little cabin in the middle of a field of wildflowers and wood to apologize. A lake spreads far and clear a few miles from the cabin, with a little overgrown path leading to it. Jim finds Spock there one morning, taking notes in his PADD as he observes a few errant wildflowers growing in the crack of a boulder.

"This planet is fascinating," he says as Jim approaches, knowing it's Jim by his footsteps alone. "The flora grows where you wouldn't think it to be. The soil is fertile, and yet these wildflowers chose the sandy cracks of this boulder. Almost in spite of the conditions."

Jim grins, sticking his hands in his pockets, observing Spock's crouched position, the curve of his shoulders. He knows them like old friends by now; could draw his lines by memory.

"Beloved," he says, too soft for human ears to hear, but perfect for a Vulcan's.

Spock turns his head, mouth slightly agape. His cheeks are getting that adorable green tint that Jim loves to be the cause of.

Jim smiles. The sun is warm on his back as he holds out a hand to Spock, helping him up, running a finger down Spock's flushed cheek. "Is this suitable, Mr. Spock?"

Spock's kiss comes fierce and surprising. It takes Jim's breath away as Spock pulls back, his hand folding into Jim's. "Quite acceptable," he breathes.

[t0ast-ghost]

S2 Episode 17 (A Piece Of The Action) haven’t we had enough action? The last episode was so much. I’m tired let me rest.

I’m watching it anyway:

- What the actual fuck is happening? An intersection?

-

“Let’s not argue about it, let’s go study it.” Yeah Kirk knows they’d be on each other in a second (edit: not like that)

- Spock pushing McCoy and Kirk out of the way of a car. I can and will watch this clip all day

- “You trying to make trouble?” “Who, me?” “Don’t give me those baby blue eyes.” “What?” Hehe

- “Which one are you guys the captain?” “Depends.” Depends on what Kirk???

- He grabs Kirk and both McCoy and Spock look so protective

- Kirk just wanting to go on a fun planet study with his boyfriends and now they’ve ended up in a life or death situation

- They’re sitting on the boxes in such drawable ways. I lobe them

- Spock mumbles his objections because he thinks Kirk is just inaccurate when he’s really just bullshitting

- Kirk’s bullshitting and Spock listening so intently to the random rules he’s making the fuck up

- “Spock what’re the odds of getting a royal fizzbin?” “I’ve never computed them, captain.” “Well they’re astronomical, believe me.” Spock then just mouths ‘well okay’ while looking so defeated

- They were so ready to beat the shit out of the mobsters

- McCoy complimenting Spock

- McCoy and Spock arguing about how to save Kirk, they will go off about anything holy crap

- Kirk is more resourceful than they think, though one of these days I think Spock would like to actually rescue him

- “Incredible as it seems, Dr. McCoy and I are once again prisoners of the chief criminal boss of a society patterned after old earth gangsters.” As incredible as it seems?!? McCoy warned you about this shit, but you insisted on going in headfirst to save your boyfriend

- “Logic and practical information do not seem to apply here.” “You admit that?” “To deny the facts would be illogical, doctor.” McCoy is somehow softer in this episode? Like more soft spoken

- *Kirk leaning into the bullshit* *Spock and McCoy sharing a side eye* they’re so done with his shenanigans

- They’re so confused by cars, it’s adorable :))

- “Captain, you are an excellent starship commander, but as a taxi driver, you leave much to be desired.” “It was that bad.” I love them I love them so much

- I would not trust Kirk to be a babysitter

- For a split second, a very split second, I could imagine an au where Kirk and Spock adopt a kid and are running to find their child or smt and it made my heart melt goddamnit

- “That’s peanuts to someone like the federation. Right?” “Unquestionably.” “Riiighht?” “Right.”

- I love Kirk’s mumbled normal voice “Kirk to enterprise.”

- “Right?” “Check.” They’re adorable

- How is Bones doing?

- “Must we?” “It’s faster than walking.” “But not as safe.” “Are you afraid of cars?” “Not at all, it’s your driving that alarms me.”

- Oh there’s Bones “Knock it off, sawbones.” Sawbones and Spocko, this man is a menace

- How would you feel if Kirk called you baby then sweetheart? Poor Scotty, gotta put up with this bullshit, he’s an engineer for crying out loud

-They gave Bones a gun. Holy crap.

- Kirk is just standing on a table cause he wants to. We were also ROBBED of McCoy in a mobster suit

- Kirk looks so tired, like me when I’m in my binder all day (edit: I think I was tired from being in my binder all day when I wrote this)

- McCoy looks so pleased. He wants to go home.

- Kirk: *bullshitting again* Isn’t that logical?

- That was such a silly ending I can’t even begin to describe

What is happening. My brain is melting at this point. The sillies are getting out.

Masterpost

Episode story by David P. Harmon

Teleplay by David P. Harmon and Gene L. Coon

[juicezone]

🍭🦇🌸 - De 🐍

🍭 How long have you been apart of agere tumblr? This account, technically april '22! I had another agere account for a few months in 2020 but i got wicked stressed out trying to figure out like. what communities were safe so i deleted it |D I made this one bc i was reading fics on a03 and i was like I WANNA TALK TO THEMMMM (points at mayliz @/dragon-queen21 and then i met aerie @/sundrop-agere + bee @/bumbling-kiddo and i was like oh yeah. im staying hehe. its all abt findin good ppl <3 i think) (<- totally rambled)

🦇 Have you ever regressed in a dream? YEAH it was so nice im not gonna lie, i dont remember a whole lot except i was with someone and i was gettin really cranky and sleepy (lol. sleeping in a dream) so they helped me into pjs and put me to bed <3 it was so cozy,,

🌸 Who do you headcanon as a regressor or caregiver? (fictional or real) BONES IS MY DAD FR!!!! also jim kirk is just a little guy and i think both spock + bones look after him. shared custody of the littlest guy ever. I think sometimes they pretend bicker when he's small because he immediately is like "D: NO!!!! WE R FRIENDS!!!" and its cute :)

also. also bones is 1000000% actually secretly a regressor too. but he has a very hard time regressing so he just pretends he isnt and doesnt regress.

DATA!!! is a regressor too and geordi is his cg. he has a literal baby mode i know this. also julian bashir is a baby mode and miles + keiko are his cgs.

nonstar trek uhh Link + zelda LOZ are flips for each other. ESPECIALLY breath of the wild era.

tigger is a kid regressor too and rabbit is his "reluctant" cg. Owl offers to look after tigger instead and rabbit is like "WRONG."

[sullustangin]

Tag game! Getting to Know You

Tagged by @tiredassmage

Tagging @starknstarwars, @inqorporeal (since you confessed to liking tag games, you’re forever doomed), @vexa-legacy annnnnnd @shymikka

3 Ships:  Theron x Smuggler (mine ranks high for obvious and selfish reasons, hehe), Batman x Wonder Woman (JLU cartoon, not live action dynamic), and  Miss Fisher/Jack Robinson. 

First Ship:   Weirdly, it was probably Spock/Zarabeth from not only the original Star Trek series, but AC Crispin’s books about their theoretical son. I think I was 11?  I haven’t thought of the ship in ages, though.  Spock was my first character that I latched onto, so I ran through all his ships at one point, including Kirk/Spock and Spock/Saavik  (which I sorta plotted a whole fic for that has never come to fruition). But it’s like how an 11 year old in the 90s ships things.  FF.net and AO3 did not exist, and I visited the Beanie Baby website daily with my mother’s supervision. 

Currently Consuming:   Tazo cha tea mix with a cup of milk and 2 pieces of sourdough with strawberry Jam.

Currently Watching:   At this second?  Pete the Cat, specifically a couple of eps that convey difference is good.

Last Movie:  Oh, geez, probably Miracle on 34th Street in B&W.  I don’t consume film like I did in college, which was many movies a week (as a film student, this wasn’t a surprise)

Last Song:   Bella Ciao, electroswing version from 2019 (I think)

Currently Reading:  Honestly, a world history textbook to try to give my course more coverage beyond the main Cold War. I’m trying to work in more Africa and South America.  I’m sad I had to drop the Space Race (again, Star Trek fan), but that really is too much time about USSR vs US that could be spent elsewhere.  I know, super boring. 

Currently Craving:  Popcorn.  It’s a trigger food for my UC.  I’ve tried the air puffed substitutes for popcorn...and nothing compares to that dreadful artificial butter which is the best taste in the world if you’re in the mood.  Which I am, sadly.

[lejoursobre]

Baby Spock secretly reading Alice in Wonderland and other doodles :) I kinda like to imagine Spock’s hair style in the 2 pilots as a fashion statement because “fuck batman my dad and the Vulcan Science Academy I’m a bad boy now” and then Bones arrives on board with his blue eye shadow and he is like “bitch !? You can’t be more flawless than me ! Where is my traditional Vulcan make up ?” yepyepyep

[dr-mcspirk]

sunkissed (a spirk drabble)

The sun of San Francisco shone from the window, kissing their skins. It was the morning after they made love. Spock slowly opened his eyes and saw his t’hy’la sleeping peacefully, beautifully next to him. If their room was an art gallery, Jim would be the only masterpiece he will never get tired of looking at. Spock trailed his fingers through Jim’s bare shoulder before placing his hands on the other’s cheek. This was his only time he could let his human side show, only Jim can see him this vulnerable. After a few moments of staring at his lover, he pressed his fingers against Jim’s psi-points and melded through his dreams.

Spock was in Jim’s dream. Jim was sitting on the hill under a tree. The place looks like Iowa, where Jim grew up. Spock knows that Jim felt his presence in his mind but decided to focus on the sky turning orange as the sun comes to rest. The vulcan sat beside his t’hy’la, watching the sunset with him.

“I do not intend to meld with you while you are sleeping yet I find your features very peaceful and fascinating.” Jim giggled at what his lover said, still pinning his eyes at the sunset.

“You can meld with me anytime you wanted. It’s actually nice to have you here.” The silence between them filled the scenery, just feeling the view of normal Earth sunset. Spock looked at Jim and even if this was just a dream, he truly finds Jim really pretty that it makes his tongue tied every time he’s about to speak.

“It’s sad yet peaceful that the sun has to go down after a long day. After all, it did its job so it deserves some rest.” Jim stated with a gloomy tone.

“Ashayam...”

“Yes?”

“I have finally thought our relationship through.” Jim’s eyebrows raised when he heard Spock’s statement. Confusion was painted in his face.

“What do you mean?”

“Ashal-veh, I have concluded. You are the first being I wanted to see when the sun rises, and the last being I wanted to be with until the sun sets.”

“And what do you imply, Spock?”

“I want to spend my sunrises and sunsets with you for all my lifetime.”

Spock relieves his fingers against Jim whose eyes are shut yet tearing up. The vibrant hue of the other’s eyes slowly showed under the ray of the sun, staring directly into the Vulcan’s orbs. He cupped Spock’s cheeks and kissed him sweetly before resting his forehead against his.

“Say it again but in a more understandable way, please.” Jim chuckled and sniffed because of the mixed emotions he was having. As someone who just woke up, he was still a little baffled but understood a bit of it.

“Be my bondmate, my adun, Jim.” Spock said calmly with sincerity in his voice, eyes still shut as he held and feel Jim’s warm hands.

“Of course, baby, of course yes!” Once again, the human kissed the Vulcan lovingly and longingly. No words can explain his happiness, as well as the Vulcan. Jim can’t believe that Spock just proposed to him under the perfect weather of San Francisco and at the sunset of his dreams from Iowa. He could never wish for more. They broke the kiss to gasp for air and smiled afterwards—Jim with a wide grin and Spock with an obvious tug on his lips.

“Why, Mr. Spock...you’re becoming human after the proposal.” Jim teased that made the Vulcan raise his brow.

“You make me feel human, Jim. Happiness is illogical yet I cannot contain the contagious emotion you have radiated through our bond which is...most logical.” Spock explained in his normal monotonous tone that made Jim chuckle more. They snuggled closer together with their noses almost touching.

“It was lovely loving you, Mr. Spock.” Jim said sincerely as he drew hearts and stars on Spock’s cheek. The Vulcan kissed the tip of the humans fingers down to his palm before pinning his eyes to Jim’s.

“And so are you, a perfect being, ashayam.”

P.S. This was actually written before I sleep and I was listening to this song when I got the idea so hehe. I think it’s cute though. Having a Spirk brainrot atm 😬🖖

[aro-ace-from-outer-space22]

This is kinda like the random trope button on tv tropes but for my blog tbh

Cool

There are consequences to using tags as commentary

Edit: so apparently I’ve never even used some of these tags and I’m discovering whole new things as a result

[neon-zoologist]

for dashboard osmosis um. star trek ? 👉🏻👈🏻

Hehe. Someone has alien lizard babies at some point? Idk if it's like a babies see movement and process that as their mother situation or something else. There is a character named Data who is an android? Something like that anyways. But he is very cool and he has a best friend. Uh idk the overall plot just lots of encountering different aliens and being in space. Umm I think it's deep space 9 that is particularly gay and full of women. And Spock, of course I know Spock and Vulcan kisses :) And how he's often like touching this one dude's hands.

[startreckobsessed]

Let you go

Hi! Can i make a request? 🥺 For AOS Leonard Mccoy? With a lil bit of TOS Old Spock. Should probably set on Into Darkness, Bones and reader broke up between the event of the first and second film, so bones was a bit unbothered to flirt with Dr.Marcus (he’s trying to make reader jealous). Old spock talk them out of their misery by telling them that they’re story was quiet unique because in his timeline they didn’t even met, so they should cherish it. (Or whatever, as long as spock intervenes). They talk, and made up. And oh, fluff. Emotional tear jerking fluff. Thank you thank you!!

I have this idea (this was supposed to be a different request, but hey! ), that reader used to date and was in love with this hotshot before she met Leonard. Said ex died in action as a honored captain. Reader was devistated. Again this was supposed a different request, but you can make it as a back story. Can i make this my second request? Hehe 🥺😅

@lykxzandlove Thank you for requesting darling, and thanks for your patience, this one really faught me haha. If you recognise some of the dialogue it's from thirteen reasons why.

Warnings: ANGST ANGST ANGST. I may or may not have cried while writing this.

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You stood in rank dressed in your grey uniform, cap framing your line of vision, shoulder to shoulder between checkov and Sulu as you gazed up at the podium where captain pike was speaking.

"Exceptional courage, is what drives us....

And our crew, is what fuels us..."

Your crew had just finished the first two year leg of your mission. A long two years...

"Let's take a moment to pay tribute to past captain's whom have made the ultimate sacrifice..." the images roll, and a firmiliar face flashed before your eyes and you suck in a breath, squeazing your eyes shut to keep your tears at bay.

You breath out carefully out of your nose, trying desperately to keep the sudden onslaught of emotions contained.

People told you time would numb it, but even give years later, the pain was still fresh and raw each and every time you heard his name, or saw his picture pop up in your records.

You gritted your teeth, struggling to ground yourself in this moment, focusing on your feet on the ground.

You blinked harshly, lifting your face and focusing your attention on captain Pike.

You don't fail to notice the doctors face turned toward you, no doubt brows mashed together over concerned eyes. The urge to meet his eyes and sink into their depths is nearly overpowers your will, but you hold strong, chin high.

------

You had never meant to fall for Leonard. You were deep in it before you even realised what was happening. You were complacent with where you were, some people go their entire lives without knowing true love, you got yours. You didn't feel the need for a new one. But there he came, blazing and true like a comment blasting across the black abyss your crew so faithfully piloted. It happened so naturally, slipping through your defences so you never noticed it.

Until it was too late, and both of you had been wounded in the process.

----

"Sweetheart?" Leonard called from behind you. You cursed silently, slowly turning to face him, trying to keep the guilt off your face as you turned to face him. "You should probably stop calling me that.." You said softly. He frowned, and not the way you liked when he was being sardonic or adorably frustrated with the captain, this one was real.

"Sorry." He said "habit. Are you alright? You left the ceremony yesterday so quickly..." you shake your head, looking away from him. "Fine, I'm fine." You said, swiftly turning and walking away from him. He frowned, looking after you, not noticing his hand was slightly extended, reaching out for you.

------

Later that day, you made your way down to the mess hall, spotting the old Ambasseter Spock, sitting alone by a window. You go through and get your food before approaching the table, greeted by a warm smile.

"Hello ambassator, " you awenered with your own. "Mind if I join you?"

"Not at all Y/N. Your company has always always been welcome." You sit down across from him. "Do tell me, how is the good doctor doing." Your fork freezes near your mouth before you set it down. "Oh, I don't know." He frowns deeply.

"I can't imagine why not." He says. "We-" your voice cracks. You clear your throat. "Were not together anymore." Suprise flits crosses his face.

"Well, now that can't be right." He says. You grimace, "I know, nothing feels right anymore, it's like reality has been tilted on its hinges, but..."

"If you don't mind me prying..." He prompts. "Go ahead, you can ask."

"What caused the separation?"

"me." You say thickly. Unexpectedly he reaches across the table and pats your hand in a grandfatherly gesture.

"And by my estimation, you do not seem satisfied with the conclusion, correct?" You hesitate before nodding. "Then mabey its time to rethink that course of action?" Your eyes widen before you look down at the table, shame radiating off of you. "I can't do that, I've already hurt him too bad, I still hurt him." You grimace, thinking of the encounter in the hallway. "I don't know how to stop hurting him." You say, more to yourself than to him.

"Then perhapse it's time to discover what is hurting you." He says. You look away into the porthole, into the black inky abyss that you sometimes wished would swallow you up.

"You know, you two are a remarkable pair." You look at him quissicly. "What makes you say that?" "In every universe I've traveled there are differences, the events in a person's life, and how they react to them, shape who they become. In every universe a different set of events happen in both of your lives, and yet every single time, one of the only constants I find are both of you coming together, no matter the space or the time nor the obstacles placed before you, the one constant is your souls coming together. And from what I can tell, it hurts your souls to be apart."

Question bubbles to your lips, but you silence it. "Ask your question, Y/N." You smile grimly. "You know me too well." "Well I've only had two lifetimes to know you."

"Where you come from... what are we like?" He smiles fondly, memories coming back to him. He sighs in a melancholy way.

"Your other self passed on just a few months ago, from a human ailement not yet curable, he blames himself for not being able to save you." Your eyes widened before blinking in shock. "Wow, thats... God how is he?" He frowns even more deeply. "Trying to go day by day, but losing someone one loves so deeply for so long... is not an easy thing to accommodate to." "Well whats.." many questions bubble to your lips at once before deciding on one. "I-Is he alone?" You ask, voice cracking. He shakes his head. "The good captain has come to earth to stay with hm, along with your daughter and grandchildren." "Joanna?" He smiles just slightly. "Well I couldn't give everything away could I?" You bark out a teary laugh and he chuckles. "But time, is so very precious my dear, you yourself told me that after your diagnosis." "Well, at least one of us has sense."

"But to thoroughly awenser your question, might I go over a timeline?" "Yes, I'd like that." You sigh, resting your head on your palm. "You met on this ship, like so many other times...."

--------

A few days later, you smooth down your hair as you look in the mirror. You were ready to come clean with Leonard about everything you've been keeping buried. Your heart thundered at the thought of unearthing the source of so much pain, but you were ready to start again with him, start fresh, open and raw, with no secrets.

You exited your quarters and went looking for him. Your fingers nervously tapped against your legs as you walked, looking for him, first going to the Med bay. Christine greeted you, her brows burrowing when you ask for him. "Oh hun, he's off planet on a mission." "Oh." You say "thank you Christine." You say before dashing off for the bridge, where you knew they'd be monitoring.

The tube doors opened up and you made your way to stand next to the captains chair, where Jim was watching. He greeted you silently with a nod, both of you listening to the audio feed coming in. You asked what they were doing, knowing he could probably hear you being so close to Jim. Jim quietly filled you in. "We found some ancient Clingon battle tech on this planet, were trying to salvage it."

"Well sweetheart, there something I can help you with?" His voice came through painfully clear, flirtatious and laying it on thick. Your heart seized and you swallowed against the lump suddenly stuck in your throat

Jim eyed you warily "Dr. McCoy may I remind you you are not there to flirt." He said in a stern voice, concerned for your feelings. Dr. Marcus' voice rang in. "We've got it, beam us up."

Once you saw him you forgot that you were surrounded by your crewmates, your hurt voice ringing out.

"You... You called her sweetheart." You said, betrayal filling you, eyes filling with tears.

Without another word you took off down the adjoining hallway, Leonard taking off after you. You sped until you were in an abandoned hallway two floors down with him still following.

Your face got hot, embarasment taking hold. You didn't want to cry over a tiny little word.

His eyes widened, regret filling them when he saw how hurt you were. "Baby- " he stopped himself. He only called you baby when he was really concerned.

"No, no I'm sorry. It's okay, Carols great, she's a great person." You forced out, turning to try and walk away. He grabbed your arm spinning you back around. "I don't want Carol. I want you. I'm sorry." You blinked. "So your not ready to move on?" He shakes his head vehidamently. "It was stupid. So stupid. I've never done anything like that in my life. I wanted to make you jealous." It felt like all the air was sucked from your lungs.

"You still want me? After evrything-" he shakes his head. "My god woman, were you listening? Yes! I love you." He breaths, gently squeezing your bicep. "But I- I hurt you! I broke up with you without giving you a reason-" "I know, sweetheart." He says Your heart stopped.

"You know?"

"I know as much as I can guess. But why don't you tell me?" You took a shuddering breath.

"So you know I was on a different ship before this one."

"Yes."

"When I went onto that ship from the academy, I came with the captain. He made it so we'd make it onto the same ship, because we were..."

"together?"

You nodded. "We loved each other. He was my captain, and I was by his side as head of security and defense tactics." He nodded, fingers pressed against his lips as he listened. "One day, we were attacked by an enemy bregade, and crash landed us on a deserted planet. In order to save me, he threw himself in front the lazer that would have incinerated me and two other crew members. They would have killed all of us, all it did was incinerate him.

After he was killed the crew, furious overpowered them, and we survived, but..." You trailed off, before looking back to him. "How did you know?"

He sighed, as if debating telling you something. "As part of protocol, a captain must... gain permission from Starfleet to enter into marriage with another crew mate. His request form was entered just a few days before his death, with your name attached." You stilled, before another wave of emotion crashed over you. A sob escaped you, and you leaned against the wall for support, a hand coming up to try to muffle your cries.

Leonard watched you with glassy eyes, your pain like a twisting knife in his chest. He waited for a moment before slowly inching forward to wrap his arms around you, testing the waters. You pull him closer, wrapping your arms tightly around him, his warmth sinking into your cold body. "I'm sorry." He whispers into your neck. "I'm so sorry." You shake your head, pressing your face into his neck. His scent calmed you, and eventually your breathing slowed as his hands rubbed your back. "I love you." You said, his hands paused, and he untangled himself to look at you, hope in his eyes. "Really?" "Yes, I'm sorry I made such a mess. Do you want to try this again?" You ask. He let out a breathless chuckle before pressing his lips to your forehead. "Yes, God yes." You smile teary eyed, bittersweet joy filling you. You placed your hands on both sides of his face before giving him a slow melting kiss, thumbs stroking his face. "I just have to do something first." You say. His brows crease slightly, but he let's you go. "Okay.." He says uuncertainly

You smile. "I'll come and see you at dinner, okay?" "Yeah, I'll see you."

---------

You entered your quarters without turning on the light, blindly reaching for your padd. It glowed brightly in the darkness of your room, easily finding the picture of him you loved the most, him dashing in his captains uniform hat just a little bit crooked, every inch of him glowing from happiness. Hot thick tears leaked from your eyes as You gently placed your padd on the table in front of your window, his face materializing against the empty black abyss, somewhere where you knew his ashes were scattered, floating forever in the universe, amidst stardust and wonder.

"I love you." You whispered into the silence, looking at him. "Wherever you are, I hope you know that I love you. I hope you know that I'll never not love you... a good friend once told me, I can love you, and still let you go.... I know one day, thinking about you won't hurt so much, and the other feelings will fade, and I'll be only left with love. The way you loved me so fiercly and how i loved you. I'll never forget you i promise, how could I? Even when I'm dying I know you'll come back to me, when I'm old and tired. But there is this amazing man that I love that wants to love me, and I think I'm ready to be happy again. I know you'd want me to be." You looked back at his flickering image

"I hope we meet again. And So, Derek.... I love you, and I let you go. And I hope wherever you are, you feel peace, you feel safe...and I hope you know that I love you." You say, a feeling of weight being stripped off of you makes you feel lighter, and a strange peace settles over you, and somehow you know he hears you.

"I'll never forget you."

[spockbisexual]

my love mary @buckothy tagged me in this thank you bestie 🤩😘

Name/Nickname: amy and despite that being such a short name people call me ame, ames, amers, my grandma called me emilia.... also my nickname in hs was accident cause i was really accident prone 🥴

Gender: girl but only in so much as i wish i wasn’t perceived as such by men? like when they look at me i’d like to be blurred out like that one black mirror episode, white christmas, you know what i mean?

Star Sign: gemini sun, leo moon, leo rising

Time: 10:05 pm

Birthday: may 31

Favorite Bands: arctic monkeys, fleetwood mac, vampire weekend, the runaways, mcr, queen, muna, abba, one direction, the doors, haim, the aces.... i’ve now forgotten every band i’ve ever listened to

Favorite Solo Artists: rina sawayama, mitski, maggie rogers, phoebe bridgers, elton john, marina, lorde, alexandra savior, rihanna, regina spektor, bad bunny.... i’m blanking now hehe

Song Stuck In My Head: all things must pass - george harrison

Last Movie: according to my letterboxd it’s ww84 😐

Last Show: whose line is it anyway? 😁

When Did I Create This Blog: this one specifically? like 2013 but it’s not my first blog that one was like 2012

What Do I Post: i don’t even know man

Last Thing Googled: ��what alcohol goes well with black tea” hehe!

Other Blogs: this is it guys, sorry

Do I Get Asks: uh not really? sometimes if i reblog an ask game i’ll get a couple of em other than that no

Why I Chose My Url: i’m bisexual and i love spock 🥰

Following: like 200 something but i’m pretty sure half of those are inactive

Followers: like 900 something

Average Hours of Sleep: 5-7

Instruments: does knowing the first little bit from für elise count? cause other than that no

What Am I Wearing: black yoga pants and a secondhand black baby yoda t shirt my former boss gave me as a gift

Dream Job: um none

Dream Trip: i wanna take one of those long cross country amtrak rides, see nature, stop off and see all my friends, take a long trip to europe or something with them

Favorite Food: um it changes usually but for now i’ll say chicken parm and spaghetti, also carne en chile colorado con nopales

Nationality: usamerican

Favorite Song: blue bayou by linda ronstadt or hasta que te conocí by juan gabriel i don’t know really

Last Book I Read: little weirds by jenny slate 😢

Favorite Movie: pride & prejudice 2005 🥰 or star trek beyond depends on the day

Places You Like to Go: the beach, rando coffee shops, the farmer’s market, the second hand bookstore, amusement parks, art museums

i’m tagging @tealesbian @effyeffa @spicegirls @macaroot @iloamyou @spacelesbians @zowboy and anyone else who’d like to do it!

[the-fiction-witch]

First Date

REAL LIFE: COUPLE: ASA X READER  RATING: CUTE

"Asa? You okay honey?" Y/n asks from the kitchen counter where she was cooking up some dinner "Ohh..yeah sorry sugar, day dreaming" I shrug "About what?" She asks cheerfully "Nothing important sugar" I smiled blowing her a kiss and leaning my arm on the table I do love y/n more then anything in the world I couldn't help watching her my head going back remembering the times I use to sit in the library with scripts and homework watching her read huge heavy books that use to break her backpacks always swinging her feet under the chair as she was always a little bit too short, the way she used to smile at me when she caught me looking at her and after so many years we finally got talking...

"So uhh y/n, I wanted to ask you something?" I ask as she began packing her stuff into her bag "Course Asa what's up?" She asks fixing some hair away from her face "Would uhh, on Saturday would you like to uh like to go out maybe to a movie with me?" I stutter Rubbing my neck nervously "Like a date?" She smiled "Yeah, a date... with me?" I ask "Hehe, I'd love to" she smiled giving my cheek a soft kiss "I'll text you later to sort the details okay?" She smiled as she walked off to the doors so I grabbed my stuff shoving it in my bag and Running after her "Wait, could I give you a lift home?" I ask her "It's alright I like the walk I'll get you later okay Asa" she smiled giving my cheek another kiss and going off home... By the time Saturday rolled around we had been talking non stop we had decided on dinner rather then a movie as there wasn't anything either of us was overly bothered about seeing so I had for sorted and cleaned my car perfectly going to her place to pick her up I sat in the car a minute getting my strength and trying to calm my nerves I had picked up a little bunch of flowers for her I felt kinda like I had over done it with flowers but I know she likes them there the onces she always had printed on her back pack I made she they didn't have any price things on and made sure the looked nice before going up to the door and ringing the bell, I could hear the little tune playing inside as well as the barking of a dog and someone shouting at said dog the door opened to a large angry man holding back the barking dog with his foot, he looked me up and down sternly and spoke "What do you want?" He asks gruffly "I uhh, I'm here to, here to pick up y/n ...sir" I stuttered "Y/n? You must be Asa" he sighed letting me in I slowly stepped in the busy cluttered house he went off and sat in a chair by the TV holding the dogs collar even if it was barking at me and growling at me "hey Mary where's y/n?" He yelled "I don't know! In her room? Why the hell ya asking me for?" A lady yelled from another room somewhere "Some boys here to see her!" He yelled "What boy?" She yelled "Some kid, blue eyes kinda looks like what would happen if you threw spock and that baby face kid from love actually in a blender" he yelled I sighed almost laughing "Hey" a sweet voice smiled from the staircase I looked and saw y/n in a cute little purple summer dress "Hi, you uhh you look beautiful" I smiled as she came down "Thank you, you look very handsome too" she smiled "Thank you" I blushed trying to fix my hair "ohh I uhh I got you these" I smiled handing her the flowers "Ooohh Asa there beautiful" she smiled giving my cheek a kiss and taking them "I know there you've favourite" I smiled "You wait here I'm going to out these in some water" she smiled rushing off somewhere else I stood a little arkward in the hallway as a small child ran though and stopped Infront of me "Uhhh hello" I said as the child didn't seem to go away "Your here for my big sister?" he giggled "Uhh yes I am" I nod "Which one?" He asks "There more then one?" I ask "I uh I'm waiting for y/n" "Y/n, give her waffles she likes waffles" he whispered "Thank you" I laughed before he ran off just as y/n got back "ready?" I ask and she nods

I took her out to eat at a little restaurant in town and we even got ice cream and waffles afterwards "Asa are you okay?" She asks "Ohh yeah sorry I'm just uhh a bit nervous" I blushed "Could I?" She asks tapping my hand "Ohh uhh yeah" I smiled happily letting her hold my hand as I drove often unfortunately having to separate our hands to change the gears but going straight back to her as soon as I had she smiled after a while and moved to have her head on my shoulder as I drove hugging my arm I smiled so much blushing hard resting my head on hers a little "if I could drive one handed I would give you a cuddle too I'm sorry" "Heheheh it's alright Asa I like cuddling you" she smiled she stayed this close till we pulled up outside her house "I had a really great time tonight Asa" she smiled "Yeah I had a great time with you to" I smiled "did you uhh maybe wanna go out again? Sometime?" I suggest "I'd love to" she smiled "maybe next Saturday" she giggled "but I'm sure I'll see you at the library before then" she smiled "Yeah, if you want I uhh I don't mind meeting you at the library and I'll drive you home?" I suggest "I'd like that" she smiled starting to fiddle with her bag and her fingers I didn't want her to go is had such a great time with her I didn't want her to go I couldn't stop looking at her beautiful lips if she has to go atleast I could give her a kiss "Y/n..." I began "Yes Asa?" She asks "Could I uhh... Could I kiss you? Just a little kiss goodnight?" I suggest and she nods blushing hard I blushed hard too glancing at my feet a little she moved closer so I moved to leaning in to give those beautiful lips a kiss when we where an inch away - BANG BANG BANG! I jumped away in shock as the nose was her dad stood banging on the windshield of my car "Y/n inside!" He yelled before going inside "I better go, I'll text you later" she smiled giving my lips a quick peck before she jumped out the car with her stuff she waves blowing me little kisses as she walked up to her house I happily blew them back still in shock from her little kiss-

"Asa? Seriously what are you thinking about?" She asks leaning in the kitchen counter "Just about our first date" I laughed getting up and giving her a cuddle "What about it?" She asks "I really wanted to kiss you, I wanted to all night, I wanted to kiss you and cuddle you and tell you how much I loved you" I smiled "Aww ass so did I" she smiled pulling me to kis her and i happily kissed her back

[ashnadir]

thisbrutalbelle:

[ TEXT ]: God I haven’t watched that in forever. [ TEXT ]: He is. I mean, the cafe is a dead give away. Such a weird interest. [ TEXT ]: Damn, imagine if she was legit hiding out here. [ TEXT ]: It’s cute you guys are staying together. [ TEXT ]: Yay! Hehe. We’ll basically be neighbours. [ TEXT ]: That’s super nice though. In exchange for anything? [ TEXT ]: ‘Cause you’re the snake killer.

[TXT] yeah me neither, jajaja.  but some lines stick with you.  Like ‘Frankly my dear, I don’t give a hoot’

[TXT] I only ever watched it on Sunday afternoon TV, can you tell. 8D  

[TXT] Right? I thought so too!  An old vampire who loves outer space and scifi.  I mean let’s be honest it just makes me love him more.  I should take him to one of those fucking Star Trek conventions and make him dress up like Mr Spock

[TXT] I’ve heard rumors tbh.  That Nastya was actually turned into a spy/vampire and that’s why she ‘disappeared’.  Cool huh.

[TXT] Well, if I ever had a baby brother, it would have to be Iddy.  He’s so strange.

[TXT] Not that Dani’s indicated, but I guess that’s the benefit of being super-rich in a small town.  Wild and rampant generousity.

[TXT] is that like slang for cockblocker?  because if any scrub boy comes rubbing up on you then I really will be a snake-killer, ijs.

[TXT] (kidding btw ;D)

doge egge

[juicezone]

Text in images in readmore below hehe.. Star/Trek characters..

First page -Ward, Science Division -Short -Can be a bit of a pain or a general lovebug when smaller -denies feeling regressed but caves super easy 1) Ward is facing away, an arrow saying “Moody” pointing at him. Ward is saying, “Im big i can work”. Bones/McCoy looks a bit amused and is sayin “oh yeah? look @ me then” 2) Ward turns, an arrow pointing at him saying “Absolute baby face”, warn looks a bit cranky 3)Ward has his face planted into Bones/McCoy’s chest and is saying “weh”, Bones/McCoy is patting his shoulder saying “lol i knew it” 1)Ward is sitting up, saying “I hate naps” and someone off screen is saying “so get up” 2)Ward is tucked under the covers saying “no”

Second page

1) little doodle of spock kirk and ward in a row (spock is standing, kirk is sitting in his command chair, ward is sitting on the floor)

2) Ward is half-asleep, saying “what year is it”. he has two arrows pointing at him, one saying “Keyboard face” and the other saying “fell asleep @ his station:

1) Ward is sitting backwards in a chair next to spock who is standing. Ward is saying “im bored” and spock replies with “then go see if the captain is free” and ward replies with “no” 2)ward now has a grin on his face and an arrow pointing at him saying “being a snot on purpose”, spock does not look amused and has “...” next to his name

1)Ward has an sorta smug look on his face and an arrow pointing at him that says “the “im immune to logic bc im 7″ face”

[redtama]

Pembenaran Pribadi

Ini ada artikel ttg pembenaran suatu hal yg jelas salah dan dilarang dalam semua Agama. Berikut beberapa bagian artikelnya : "Yang menarik adalah, jika LGBT adalah dosa, maka itu bukanlah satu-satunya jenis dosa terkait moralitas yang kita lihat dalam hidup sehari-hari. Meninggalkan ibadah wajib, seks di luar nikah, juga bentuk dosa. Tapi kita masih bisa berinteraksi secara santai dengan orang yang kita tahu meninggalkan ibadah, yang memiliki hubungan seks di luar nikah, yang minum alkohol, dll misalnya." Emang di Indonesia LGBT diapain sih? Biasa aja, ga da kekerasan kyk di Rusia. Yg mengecewakan dr LGBT itu ada meminta eksistensi berlebihan yg nuntut kesetaraan. Hehe emang dosa2 yg lain juga minta disetarain ya? Wong jelas2 dosa masa mau dianggep setara alias jadiin hal biasa. Aya aya wae. "Jika LGBT dihujat karena alasan ketaknormalan, apakah energi untuk melontarkan hujatan itu sama besarnya untuk perilaku “tidak normal” lainnya? Menolak Apa? Sentimen yang sifatnya pribadi adalah satu hal. Pada akhirnya, sentimen adalah karakteristik spesies manusia, karena kita bukan bangsa Vulcan seperti Spock. Yang selalu tricky alias rumit adalah, pertama, seberapa jauh kita membolehkan sentimen pribadi (atau kelompok) menjadi dasar penilaian kita kepada orang lain." Yg ditolak itu gaya hidupnya dan penyebaran perilaku menyimpang dgn mencari pasangan yg blm tentu juga HOMO. Lagian klo dr sentimen pribadinya ada banyak hingga menjadi suatu kelompok masyarakat yg jumlahnya besar, apa trus ga bs jd dasar penilaian? Toh standarnya jelas Kitab Suci yg hingga kini tidak bisa dibantah kebenarannya (Al Quran). "Sebagai contoh, beribadah itu wajib menurut agama. Makan babi itu haram untuk orang Islam dan Yahudi." Sorry, Agama Kristen juga melarang makan Babi, begitu juga sains membenarkan bahwa makan babi itu bakal mengundang banyak penyakit. "Apakah maksudnya seseorang yang memiliki orientasi non-heteroseksual tidak bisa eksis atau diakui negara, dan implikasinya tidak memiliki hak untuk  mendapat keamanan, pendidikan, kesehatan pekerjaan dan sebagainya?" Bukan gitu maksudnya. Toh sampe skrg LGBT tdk ada diskriminasi saja, kecuali mereka menunjukkan eksistensinya di depan umum atau di media TV apalagi sampe propaganda menunjukkan bahwa "LGBT itu Normal loh", itulah yg bikin LGBT sangat ditolak oleh masyarakat Indo. Rakyat tau ada klompok LGBT, tp ga perlulah menunjukkan diri, cukuplah menjadi hal yg tabu agar nilai norma LGBT tetap pada nilai yg salah dan jangan coba2 untuk dijadikan Benar karna jika begitu maka nilai2 di masyarakatlah yg akan dirusak.