#aye but that's what tumblr's for

[a-song-for-ages]

Willem takes her home so she can heal.

Willem . Takes her home . So she can heal . In his home . Where there's a weirwood he can pray beneath . Even though it is dead . Where the ravens can fly and hear and see with a thousand eyes and one . Where they listen to him as he kneels beneath the tree, beside her, beside her bedside .

Bloody Ben wishes he could emulate his Uncle and take his bestie home where he can heal but he can't because his bestie is dEAD and he has to move and live on while his Uncle cries over the living body of the girl who kidnapped his wife.

[kourota]

⸢This story is for just that one reader.⸥

[yrdnzz]

and i got eyes on the back of my head, i got eyes everywhere so i know where you go

[chilei-the-hotsauce]

the priest and their executor

[lustsansmybeloved]

lust sans drawing:3

[lynn-tged-posting]

tged webtoon ep 157 spoilers and thoughts but also a good amount of panel dissection that might be overanalyzed but i couldn't stop thinking about it so just let me yap okay it plagued me all weekend

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i am so serious when i say this entire episode gave me like. so much worry and anxiety over the characters that i made myself upset thinking about it . the only thing saving me is everyone's fun expressions in this and specifically this panel of javier

HES SO SILLY CUTE PLAYING WITH THE SUMMONS THEYRE ADORABLE EEHEHEHEHE

anyway . to the brainrot

i think this panel of lloyd turning his back to javier, immediately after telling javier to go on break for a while, was the first little indicator of "oh no" for me

it really worried me that he said this, especially when they've been working together so much on their journey, so this was tiny little moment of "oh boy whats going on,,," for me,,, idk if anyone else felt the same but i had a feeling i would Not be ready for this ep. and i was right i was absolutely not ready

and then we hit the montage of javier going around the estate and observing how much the land has changed, and i really loved that!! it was really heartwarming seeing everyone, smiling and achieving dreams and stability in a way that the fronteras hadnt seen in a long time (hell i was convinced "oh everythings fine nvm" 😭)

some of my favorite panels in that sequence heehee bayern and his kids this was really really sweet WAAAHH

JAVIERS EXPRESSION HERE WAS SUPER FUNNY TOO absolutely gonna use this as a reaction image

ALSO THIS STATUE OF LLOYD ADHAHAHAHAHDFAHA IM PRETTY SURE IT IS RELATED TO IF NOT THE SAME AS THE STATUE IN CPSM they do have different poses so it mightve had to be rebuilt or something but either way . lloyd statue where he's near naked for some reason in the middle of frontera estate. a wonderful center piece good work team

AND MY BABY BOY SOLITAS he finally managed to create something im so proud of him GOOD JOB BUD!! THE CARVING IS BEAUTIFUL!!!

it just hit me as im typing this that they also say "[project name] complete" not sure if this is a translation thing or if it's something they picked up from lloyd saying "construction complete" but if its the latter thatd be REALLY CUTE

also that panel of tordes by the mines he looks genuinely . satisfied and happy?? the guy punished to work for the fronteras for over 100 years is having a great time LMAO

AND THIS PANEL OF JAVIER

THIS MADE ME SMILE SO WIDE

it's really really pretty, and javier can see that. he can see that the estate has grown and changed into a strong and capable place, and he echoed this in the last chapter but it's really worth celebrating this. so many accomplishments, in so little time, with so much efficiency. frontera estate has been raised from the ground up and seeing it all accumulated was so so beautiful,,,

so seeing this panel absolutely devastated me

the contrast is STRIKING. all of the brightness and light and warmth of the street javier is in is only seen in partial rays streaking in. lloyd is alone, surrounded by books and in a darker corner of the panel. isolated, facial features unreadable and working by himself,,, refusing to see or ignoring all of the accomplishments behind him.

it's like he's falling back into old habits. that workaholism that kept him alive when he was only kim suho in korea. in order to survive, to keep up, to stay afloat, to stay ALIVE, you must keep working. go to the next project, the next problem, the next assignment, and everything will be fine. only then will freedom be yours to have. only then will you be free of this responsibility you bear for those you love.

but he really doesn't need to do that anymore! he has a whole estate of people who will follow him to the ends of the earth, because he's proven himself to be capable of protecting them. he has parents who love him, despite his changes, despite his past, who have grown to believe in him.

he has his beloved knight, who is waiting for him to call for aid. who only needs a glance or a word to lend a hand. who is waiting for him to come outside and just SEE all that he's done. to celebrate, to have peace. to enjoy home. to simply be at home, together.

"when will you be able to come here...?"

javier, protagonist that he is, sees all this light around, and it's peeking into this library that lloyd is in, wondering where the engineer is, but his nose is to a book. because he is working. and that's,,, scary to see. there's a level of distance already taking shape because of old habits, and i don't know if either of them realize it

and like you look at the panel javier is in one more time and you can see, there's kids playing as javier and lloyd! they even have matching hair, and the dog is colored exactly like ppodong. super cute! but it worries me that they're on opposite sides of javier.

said this earlier; this is probably an overanalysis and this probably means nothing. it really is a cute lil cameo of some kids in town! but the fact that they are split like this is eating at me. ppodong-dog is on javier-kid's side, when ppodong is lloyd's summon? and again, they're on opposite sides of javier, will they join back together and keep playing? lloyd-kid is ahead of javier-kid, will he run on ahead without looking back? it's so cute and yet it's making me anxious!!! am i overthinking???

anyway, this split and the two panels contrasting each other like this filled me with so much nervousness that i had to close my eyes and just breathe for a little bit

then we see arcos and marbella talking about lloyd and it's clear they're worried about him, still unsure of where these changes in behavior came from and yet accepting it nonetheless because god dammit theyre good kind people

and when we see lloyd he looks,,,

tired, and disheveled, and still only thinking about working on the next thing. he keeps going on too, like there's nothing currently wrong with this; he's probably used to it, handling everything without a moments rest. the count and countess even mention it at the end of the episode

and when he treats the formal frontera attire lightly and scurries off again, it's like a final nail in this sinking coffin. honestly, i think early lloyd probably would have said similar things to try and skirt the count's attention, but this scene in combination with lloyd being depicted as separated from lloyd, appearing exhausted from continuous work, as well as the following panels of lloyd leaving,,, it fills me with anxiety and dread.

face shrouded in the darkness of the hall, so his features are unrecognizable, just like the library panel. who is that? is it suho or is it lloyd speaking right now? where are you going, into that darkness by yourself, shying away from the light you've brought to this estate? you don't have to do this alone.

and this long, looming distance stretching between him and arcos and marbella. stretching further as lloyd marches onward and alone, working by himself, away from the moments of peace and celebration that his family and his estate bring. into the dark. it's a little haunting to me.

these panels did a really, REALLY good job at solidifying this growing degree of isolation that lloyd is putting himself into, intentionally or not (for lloyd and for the artist lol). he's getting out of reach in his desire to protect everyone, to complete this responsibility he gave himself for the estate.

it's almost,,, backwards? in a way? in the early webtoon, there's a panel where suho is shown trying to reach for a light in the darkness. he believed that if he kept working towards that light, he'll find a way out of this hell he's found himself in, and so everything would be fine. here and now, it could be that he still thinks that this is the case, when it's in fact the opposite. he's brought this light to the estate, but he's putting himself in the dark (and alone, at that) in an effort to reach for the "next light". i don't think he realizes it. this makes me really, really sad. jesus christ well done artist/adaptor

what is it all for if you won't even rest? if you won't turn around and look at all these people who need you around? and not need you as in doing work for them, but need you as in wanting to be with you, and cherishing you, and spending time with you, and simply loving you. yes, time is short and yes, fate is looming, but all this effort to fight those things is still making him lose this connection he has with the estate. he doesn't have to do this alone,,, he doesn't have work endlessly. take a BREAK LLOYD

and by the end of the episode it's to the point that arcos and marbella have realized that that's not lloyd frontera. that's someone else. and gods their faces are DEVASTATING

eyes shadowed, irises blank and lost. they're not frowning deeply, but i can feel the upset layered in. is it disappointment or is it grief? i can't really say for sure, but man,,, man.

anyway yeah i hope u guys understand why this episode gave me anxiety LMFAO

i am so so so sorry for the overthinking/overdissection in this post but my brain started connecting things . whether or not they make sense or if it's just being nitpicky is impossible for me to see so. yeah take this however u will

i actually also briefly saw someone on twitter say that this wasn't in the novel? which is interesting and also a little scary i hope lloyd will turn out alright AHHH

i really hope next episode everyone will be alright ,,, please i cant take this much emotional twisting and turning im gonna lose my mind

see y'all next week or in the next shitpost,,, whichever comes first

[ropebunnykant]

“you know damn well i can’t resist those sparkling eyes, golden eagle” is the kind of thing you would post on tumblr and it’d get 50000 notes. but instead a gay man in a silly thai show said it in an imagined dream movie sequence him and his boyfriend were co-hallucinating bc they were in a fight

[kelseymichikoart]

silent princess

[localguy2]

Why am I getting emotional over Zane's and Wu's dynamics in the earlier seasons at 4:36AM

I can't stop thinking about how potentially broken and emotionally destroyed Wu was after Rebooted because he failed another of his students.

Another student of his died because he feels like he wasn't fast enough, Morro died because Wu didn't stop him, and Zane died the same way.

I can't stop thinking about Garmadon trying to comfort his probably depressed brother in any way possible.

The closest thing he has to a permanent student is Lloyd, but does even count? Lloyd is his son, and the thought of losing his son after so much bullshit seriously terrifies him.

Garmadon can only imagine some of the potential pain he would go through if he lost Lloyd, he can't even fathom Wu's because Wu has known the Ninja for much longer.

I can't stop thinking about Zane probably finding comfort in his master before he knew he was a robot, Wu was the only one that didn't find Zane weird.

I can't stop thinking about how Zane was definitely Wu's favourite for a while before Lloyd, and in a way he tries to show that with either small personal talks, or reassurances of having another family waiting for him no matter what happens to his original one.

God damn it DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE ICE CHAPTER AND IT'S FUCKING IMPLICATIONS ON THEIR RELATIONSHIP.

Wu feeling responsible for what happened to his student because that blast was for him, not Zane.

Someone take my phone away otherwise I'll keep going-

[funkbun]

bro u can just make a website whenever u want

[sabs-scribbles-and-soliloquies]

sab ay books → where we end and begin

"we don't always get to choose our firsts, elliot. but, hopefully, we can choose what happens after. what our second and third and fourths are."

[arandomnerd810]

way too long of a post about the next WxS focus

i really hope it’s a Rui focus where he learns how to stay friends with Asahi despite being apart it would solve the lack of Rui character development that annoyed me in Kirapipi so i could listen to the song without being like

i will defend Asahi with my life i am his number one fan he did nothing wrong

if WxS would have disbanded, without Asahi, Rui would have had nowhere to go and Asahi actually did a really good thing when he realized how upset Rui looked so he forced the date to be pushed back to when he graduates high school also his personality is so silly and it’s nice seeing how well they get along

I heard there are coordinates are to Shibuya Crossing in the song trailer and that reminded me that is where this scene took place

that being said it’s the same thing for this place

but i don’t think this song is really a purely only middle school Rui focus type beat and even though i really want a middle school Rui focus Asahi is probably the best route to take currently unless it’s both simultaneously i feel like that would be a lot for once focus but who knows maybe it’s possible

this made me more certain it’s going to be a Rui focus (this is Rui’s voice actor if you didn’t know)

Rui has been my favorite character ever through other character special interests (no, not because i’m a simp i’m aro ace) /gen so if anyone says it’s a Nene focus i’ll piss my pants/j i love her but it’s his turn cmom

(i’m working on the drawing requests sorry they are taking a while lollll)

[georgecostanzaatemysoup]

She's a work of art

[naes-dairy]

I guess the root of my problem is that I feel really out of place everywhere.

[carnivart-core]

Been in a state where I've wanted to change my sona for a while - so new main fursona time !! (My main non-fur-sona is stuck as is for a while) I've become a pink fiend as of late so ,,, pink non-specific-lemur

[randaccidents]

Panphobia (unfinished)

Seeing @mine-sara-sp active reminded me that I have literally NEVER finished that companion fic for Was It Worth It. Frankly I don't think I can finish it? Hermitcraft s6 was really really long ago and I don't remember the events of that season anymore + I fell off of Hermitcraft due to school.

That doesn't mean I can't post what I did write 4 years ago for the redstone update dream! Quick sparknotes of my plans:

I didn't want Doc to be a generic "oh no he's violent and aggressive booo" thing, so I wrote him as becoming paranoid instead! Still allows him to be violent but adds a layer of psychological buildup and struggle

It was going to follow similar events to Was It Worth It and include Doc's reactions this time

This includes stuff like discovering the Stock Exchange had been gutted, and trying to mine more redstone, and having those events just fuel the paranoia more

Yes the paranoia is absolutely the excuse I have for fics where Doc attacks Grian

Since Was It Worth It deliberately became REALLY FOGGY about time towards the end, I was going to add a general timeline. I think? The idea was that it took a week for Doc to realize and then panic about Ren's disappearance, Xisuma would teleport them both and TFC (last to see Ren) to Ren's location, and then Ren takes a month? or two? to fully recover

Specifically Ren is the last to recover because he's a stubborn dog man and actually hid A LOT of redstone in his time mining across both spawn and 1.14 lands, and is additionally too stubborn to tell anyone where the redstone was (duty bound dog man please) so Doc has to deal with watching Grian and Scar recover while his man is still unconscious in bed. Not fun for him

ehhh I think that's most of what was planned before shit happened and I fell off? yeah it is ANGSTY

But all I managed to write was a very short beginning portion and I wanted to post it anyways so here you go!

Redstone update dream AU belongs to @mine-sara-sp, recommended to read Was It Worth It first (a lot worse in tws btw)

TWs: intrusive thoughts, paranoia

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It started small, like everything did.

What if you misplaced the plans for the pillager farm?

That particular thought sent him into a flurry of limbs as he tore through his current home-hole. His thoughts whispered traitorous words, that he had left it on a ledge, the wind must've taken it, blew it into a lava lake, and he'd have to write his plans all over again. That he wouldn't remember the entirety of the design and that his plans were now ruined for good.

It was a great weight off his shoulders when he found the plans folded safely in his chest monster, right where he had left it.

Did you leave it there in the first place? Are you sure?

He sighed, picking up the piece of paper and unfolding it, revealing his grand plans.

It's so easy to tear paper with those claws of yours.

He decided it would be better to commit his plans into a book. Or maybe two or three. Just in case.

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The whispers didn't stop there.

He's hiding something. He probably stole something of yours again.

He narrowed his one working eye, his other cybernetic one flashing red in his paranoia. Grian shuffled under his scrutiny, giving him a mischievous little grin. "What's up Doc?"

That shuffle, he's hiding something. It has nothing to do with how hard you are glaring at the prankster, red eye ominously hard.

“What’s up?” he rumbled lowly, the words echoing in his chest. “What’s up?”

The pesky bird held up his hands in surrender, taking a step back. He’s hiding something. “Woah, calm down, it’s just a greeting man! When were you so uptight? Well, not counting Area 77 and all that...”

He growled, cutting off the sky-loving man before he could ramble the day away. He would ramble the day away, wasting your time. “Why are you here.” The sentence was more a demand than a question, his patience worn thin from the whispering shadows around.

“C’mon man, can’t a hermit just want to check in on another hermit?”

(unfinished rest of fic)