#ayanna x elliot x jet

[rqgnarok]

more than just a short time — jamie whelan

fandom: law & order organized crime

wc: 2,579 

warnings: SPOILERS for the season finale of law & order organized crime, canonical character death, canon mention of hospitals and violence. very self deprecating talk from a disabled character. ANGST. ANGST, ANGST, ANGST. female!reader

summary: Can someone be a widow if their partner only ever planned to propose?

author’s note at the end.

Jamie doesn’t wanna see her.

She’s on her way up, Bobby tells him gently. Jamie wishes the surge of relief that courses through him wasn’t mixed up with the abhorrent need to send her away, be as rude as possible to have her leave the room before she comes to terms with what he’s become.

He doesn’t. Jamie nods at Reyes and licks his lips. He feels his eyes burn when the door opens to (Y/N) walking in, clutching the strap of her purse like it’s a lifeline, eyes wide and terrified and determined all at once. Bobby cups her elbow in silent support as he leaves the room, and Jamie swallows the mean words that try to climb up his throat at the sight of someone else doing what he can’t; comfort her, touch her, be the steadiness she needs in a moment of chaos.

Neither of them speaks as they’re left alone, a bubble of something-not-quite-peace enveloping them and making the outside world a mere blur at the other side of the doors. It’s only them and the ticking clock, the smell of alcohol and disinfectant, and the lack of color and life one expects from this specific wing at Bellevue. 

They’d met in a bar around four years ago. Jamie had just made detective and some of his buddies at the four-nine were adamant about at least buying him some drinks in celebration. Just after finishing his first beer, another one had been delivered to the table, the waiter pointing to where (Y/N) was sitting at the bar, smile sheepish and face flushed at being caught. 

She’d heard them celebrating and figured there was no harm in inviting the next round. Jamie leaned into her space with a charming grin and said something stupid about being harmed by meeting someone so beautiful and not asking for their name. To this day (Y/N) calls it the worst pickup line she’s ever heard, but it got him a laugh and a date that very same weekend. 

It’s been good. It’s been great – the last time Jamie was so infatuated by someone he’d been thirteen and crushing after the next-door neighbor. He fell so hard for (Y/N) and simply kept falling as they moved in together before their second anniversary and started looking for rings a couple of months before he transferred to Organized Crime.

The development of their relationship has been both a whirlwind and the most obvious thing Jamie’s ever lived through. Of course he was supposed to meet her. Of course he fell in love with her from the very first night. He hasn’t been able to imagine his life without her since their first date. 

Jamie doesn’t want her here. Jamie needs her by his side. These are two things that have to coexist now, his new reality far from the idea he had for the rest of his life.

He doesn’t tell her to go.

“Hi, sweetheart,” (Y/N) talks first, breaking the silence and the distance between them all at once as if snapping out of a spell. She drops her things in the chair left behind by Bobby and is by his bed in an instant, hands hovering all over him like she’s unsure of what parts of him she can touch without hurting him. 

Jamie wills for his fingers to twitch, for his hand to wake the fuck up and reach for her, help her cross those last few inches she isn’t daring to do on her own. 

He remains limp against the bed. (Y/N) finally touches him, her fingers against his cheek. It’s enough for Jamie to shudder with a cry, turning his head so he can soak in the touch. She’s warm and steady against his skin and Jamie mourns his situation for the hundredth time in the last hour.

“Jamie,” she says, murmured and weepy. Jamie’s eyes close in agony but it feels too much like being dead already, so he opens them again. The sight that greets him is devastating: his almost-fiánce-never-to-be-wife, asking him for something he can’t give her. The lifetime together he’s been waiting to promise in his proposal has gone up in smoke in the blink of an eye.

It was the right thing to do. Jamie knew– not even the blinding pain that shocked through his nerves had been enough of a distraction to the urgency in Stabler’s voice– that the second Kyle died, the chance to put down Shadowerk would go with him. 

There really was nothing he could’ve done. The bullet had reached his spine the moment it entered his body. He was dead the second he walked into that godforsaken camp.

But (Y/N) hadn’t known that when she kissed him goodbye that morning. She’d stood on her tippy toes and wrapped her arms around his neck and joined their mouths together, tasting of toothpaste and languidly using her tongue to make him late for work.

“Hi,” he says, voice dry, trying not to sound as miserable as he is and failing. 

He’d already canceled a vacation on her earlier that week. A pre-honeymoon, he’d started calling it in his mind, maybe finally the right time to propose. He worries for a ridiculous moment if (Y/N)’s gonna be able to get a refund out of that, fretting terribly for what’ll happen to her after he’s gone.

He knows she can take care of herself but she’s not supposed to have to. Not while he’s alive and breathing.

Jamie’s overcome with how badly he wishes he’d called in sick. That he let (Y/N) drag him back to bed like she almost did and throw caution to the wind, burrow himself in her arms and her laugh, and leave the curtains drawn shut, embracing the safety of the darkness. He was so afraid of letting Bell and Stabler down, of having Reyes go out there without someone that cared for him watching his back, and where did that get him?

Without his body. Without a future with the love of his life.

The love of his life who can never find out what he asked of Bobby. Even if she loves him enough to do it for him– Jamie loves her too much to even ask. He won’t do that. He’s already planning on making her a widow, having her do it is just cruel. He made a promise a long time ago that he wouldn’t let the job make him someone he didn’t recognize and he’s not about to start bailing on it now.

Can someone be a widow if their partner only ever planned to propose? Jamie almost suggests they get a priest in here and use Bobby as a witness, but (Y/N) deserves better than that. And she’ll find it someday, Jamie’s sure of it, with an accountant or a banker or someone with a boring job who doesn’t leave the house to get shot at and get paid too little for it. 

“My day sucked,” he jokes weakly despite the inner monologue that’s rushing through his brain, trying to get her to smile and his voice cracking with emotion in the process. (Y/N) struggles with it but she manages an upward tilt of the lips, eyes wet. 

His pretty girl, so fucking resilient.

“I bet,” she tells him. She doesn’t stop touching him, which Jamie appreciates as much as he does the effort at light conversation. “Office coffee was that bad, huh.” 

Jamie’s laugh turns into a sob so quickly that he reasons it wasn’t really ever a laugh. His fragile good humor is gone in an instant, lip wobbling and features scrunching in agonized despair.

“I’m sorry,” he cries earnestly and without restraint for the first time since his mom died, probably. He shuts his eyes but it does nothing to stop the flow once it's started and (Y/N) can’t wipe all his tears fast enough. “We should’ve gone on vacation, I shouldn’t have gone to work at all, I’m so sorry–”

“Hey,” she cuts him off, equally as devastated. “Honey, it’s alright, it’s okay. You were doing the right thing, there’s nothing for you to be sorry about.”

He keeps apologizing anyway, fervently. Jamie isn’t strong enough to stop when (Y/N) starts to cry, too. She just holds him as best she can while they cry together. “You don’t deserve this, you don’t need less than half a–”

“You’re alive,” (Y/N) insists fiercely through tears. Jamie doesn’t tell her how this can’t be much of a life. “You came home to me, baby. That’s all that matters to me, you understand?”

Jamie hums an affirmative and keeps crying, and (Y/N) keeps soothing her fingers over his cheeks, his mouth, his temple, his hair. Jamie’s tremendously grateful for her, even if the need to make himself small and let (Y/N) hold him will never be satisfied again. 

“You’re not half of anything,” she continues to reassure him without room for discussion. “You’re my everything. My whole entire life, Jamie–”

“I kept thinking of you,” he weeps, his breaths coming fast and hurried without the usual feeling of his abdomen pulling with the force of his grief. “All the time I’m out there, all I do is think of you, and I thought this time, I– I– I–”

She says his name helplessly, pressing a fervent kiss to his temple while some of her tears fall into Jamie’s hair, her breath stuttering. (Y/N) wraps herself around him as best she can without disturbing his injuries and the machines that are keeping him alive, leaving her in a most awkward position she doesn’t complain about once. Jamie’s love for her is too strong to be contained inside his body.  

“I love you,” he tells her after enough time has passed that Jamie’s almost certain he won’t break into another sob. His voice quivers but that’s about it, and he thinks he’s allowed. (Y/N)’s fingers tremble against his temple. “I love you so much.”

“I love you,” she answers without hesitation, her voice a little shaky, too. She scratches at his hair and Jamie’s shiver is cut down to his neck. “I love you, baby, and we’re gonna be alright. We’re gonna be okay.”

“I don’t think we’ll make it to Alaska,” he tries not to scoff in disappointment because he knows (Y/N) won’t like it, and she proves him right when she purses her lips like she does when trying to convince herself not to slap him in the back of the head.

“Don’t be stupid,” she says, but it’s so, so soft it sounds like a term of endearment. Idiot, like honey, sweetheart, baby . “I don’t care about that. We can get shitfaced and take pictures with your thumb on the lens at home, you know.”

“Hey,” he says, trying and failing not to think about wedding rings at the bottom of champagne glasses or hidden in chocolate mousse cakes. He’s always made fun of people who think proposing with a choking hazard is a good idea but Jamie now aches for that stupidity, that normalcy that won’t ever be for him. He refuses to propose in a hospital room when he can’t even put a ring on her hand himself. “We probably won’t get a refund out of that.”

“That’s okay,” (Y/N) soothes. Nothing is, but Jamie lets her try. Maybe she’ll have better luck at pretending than he did. “I don’t mind.” 

They fall into silence and he almost goes to sleep under her hands, pacified to unconsciousness half due to exhaustion and half due to her presence: the calm in the middle of the storm. Jamie isn’t mad anymore, can’t be when she’s got him wrapped around her finger.

“I love you,” he can’t tell her enough, sleepy and quiet. The rush of air she lets out is the only indication that (Y/N) heard him. 

Breathing’s getting harder, already a chore, and now the thought of the device running out of batteries or accidentally disconnecting from where it's keeping him alive makes him anxious. (Y/N)’s worried, he can tell even if she almost never voices it because she refuses to make him feel guilty about doing the job he loves. Jamie wishes she’d tell him off, scream and cry at him and not bottle it all up. It’ll only be worse when he–

He says, "Want every day with you," with sharp breaths between each word because he's too exhausted to say I want to spend the rest of my life with you. There's a ring in my locker at the station that I've been waiting for the right moment to give to you. He doesn't say, every moment is right when we're together and I'm sorry I'm only realizing that when I’m unable to breathe on my own.

(Y/N) smiles, shaky and watery, and the most gorgeous sight Jamie’s seen in his life. She knows, and Jamie knows she does. The knot that had built up the whole time he'd struggled to stay awake, waiting for her in this hospital bed, loosens.

It’s gonna be okay. She’s gonna be alright, even if she’ll miss him. She’ll grieve and move on knowing, without a doubt, that Jamie loved her like he’s never loved anyone before. It’s enough for him. He can only hope it’s enough for her, too. 

“Honey,” she rouses him gently from an accidental slumber hours later, the sun that gave little light to the room now gone behind the horizon, (Y/N)’s fingers still caressing his face. She looks exhausted and worried and the most beautiful Jamie’s ever seen her. Her smile is brittle and shaky. “Your dad’s here. I didn’t want to wake you up, but–”

“‘s okay,” he tells her. “Can you give us a few minutes?”

“Sure,” she says softly, hesitation clouding her features only for a second before she’s leaning in for a kiss, firm and lingering. Jamie exhales into it, something in his chest unfurling at the touch. He hadn’t realized they hadn’t kissed yet. “I’ll bring him in.”

“Wait,” he says, managing a boyish grin with lidded eyes. “Do that again.”

(Y/N)’s smile is bright, and Jamie’s glad to taste it when she goes in for another kiss on his mouth and then moves on to his cheek, his nose, his chin, his forehead. “Insatiable.”

“You love it.”

“God help me, I do,” she pats his chest carefully. “Let me go get your dad before he wonders what we’re doing in here.”

“Okay,” he says quietly, and once last time because he can’t help himself. “I love you.”

(Y/N) turns from where she already had one foot out the door, expression tender. “I love you back. See you in a minute.”

Later, after crying in the safety of his dad’s presence like a little boy and saying his goodbyes, Jamie closes his eyes as his breaths begin to recede. The shrill sound of his heart monitor, the panic that takes over the room when he stops breathing, he’s aware of none of it. 

Behind his lids isn’t death, but the Northern Lights and (Y/N) underneath them, showered in colors and smiling at him like she did that first night in a bar, young and unknowing. She offers him her hand and Jamie takes it. Nothing hurts.

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this fic snuck up on me ngl but the season finale fucking wrecked me. i’m still thinking about writing a fix it.

short (considering my standards lol) and somewhat sweet? hope you enjoyed and if u want tell me what u think!

<3 

masterlist / ao3 / buy me a coffee

[thena0315]

Why did it have to end like this!! This was my favorite OC lineup!! 😭 😭 😭

RIP Detective Jamie Whelan

Badge #91111

[benslerandolitzlove]

OC will give me life every single time!!!!!! Jet took the conversation with Bell better than I expected!! Reyes on the other hand is about to see who the old Stabler is if he tries to throw Elliot’s relationship with Olivia and his relationship with Kathy in his face again!! And I’m here for it!! Let old Stabler come out to play!!! Reyes needs to know what he’s doing is NOT what Elliot, Kathy, and Olivia was doing!

[stefanmikaleson1864]

0802 Part Two !

Requested by @sirishavenigalla !!! I reallyhope you like this and it was worth the wait ! Thank you for being patient while i tried my best to finish it !

Hi , thank you so much for writing that , I enjoyed reading it. I was wondering if you could write part 2 where the Indian American reader and Jamie get engaged , but things start to get rough, the reader is tired of him being reckless on the field and constantly coming home late . She’s sick and tired of staying up late and wondering when he’s going to come home and worrying about whether he’s going to come back in one piece. They get in to a argument about it , she tells him she can’t do this anymore and stays at her friends place. The next day she stops by at OC on her way to drop off the aloo ( potato) samosas as well as ladoos she made because she knows how much Jamie and the team like them . Elliot notices how upset the reader is and knocks some sense in to Jamie . Jamie realizes he can’t lose her again (he wants to spend the rest of his life with her ) he apologizes and makes it up to her . 

Y/N”S POV

Where do I begin this ? Things have gone from bad to good to bad again. Me and Jamie got engaged and we were so happy and so excited

. The thought of spending forever with someone was so exciting. We had so many celebrations and dinner’s and it felt like a whirlwind. 

Then the hard parts started. Jamie was going back to being reckless and doing whatever he wanted. It was like he didn’t have anyone to come home to

. Which hurt me a lot. It’s not like I wanted him to become a different person. I just wanted him to act like he cared. 

He also was staying out a lot longer past his shift. You don’t know where he was or what he was doing.

The thought of him cheating didn’t cross your mind. You knew that what ever was going on he wouldn’t cross that line ever.

I tried everything I could to get the point across to him because everything I did seemed like it never worked. He just kept saying the same thing over and over again. That this was his life and he needed me to respect that. 

The way he was treating you made you feel like you had some regrets about everything. He made it seemed like your opinion didn’t matter and that he was the only one in the relationship. 

Something big had to happen in order for things to change. You debated over and over again in your head what that decision would be. You just needed to take some time and clear your head out. 

You had a friend who had a spare bedroom in her house. She offered it up to you a couple months of ago when the bad times started. But you didn’t want to leave him not yet anyways. 

Sara was incredible. You two meant years ago at a bar when both of your dates stood you guys up. You bonded over everything your passion for work and even your favorite tv shows. 

She truly was your sister and you were blessed beyond measures to have her. 

Now it felt like you had no other choice. It was either losing him temporary or forever. So while he was at work you packed up your stuff and you left. Taking some things for a couple of weeks. 

Packing up your stuff you could feel the heartbreak and the pain. The tears wouldn’t stop flowing down your face. You kept second guessing it every time you put something in your suitcase. 

But there was no turning back now and you kept it going, reminding yourself this was out of love. 

You were getting the last little bit of stuff ready when you heard a beep coming from outside.

It was time for you to go. So you zipped up the suitcase and slowly made your way out. 

Your friend was sitting in her car looking at you with a sad face. She smiled up at you and you walked down to the car and threw your stuff in the trunk. 

You made your way up to the front and she reached out and gave your hand a squeeze. 

“Hey come on it’s going to be okay” She said. 

“Thanks I know” was all you could muster out. 

The two of you drove off and the car ride to the house was pretty silent. You couldn’t help but wonder was this the best thing or were you running away from your problems? 

“Your doing the right thing you know”  Sara said

“How do you know” You said 

“Because you need to follow your heart and your smart you know what your doing” She said.��

“You always see the good” You said 

“Sometimes you have to” Sara said. 

The conversation kind of fell flat after that and you just tried to shake your thoughts out and not over think everything like you always do. 

Finally after what felt like forever you made your way to sara’s house. It was so beautiful and you were lowkey jealous she lived there. 

“Come on let’s get you settled in” Sara said. 

You grabbed your stuff out of the car and headed in. She walked you up to your room and it was beautiful a nice big room with a view. 

“It’s so beautiful” You said looking around it. 

“Thank you now you relax and come down for lunch when your ready” Sara said. 

You smiled up at her and she headed out. You took your stuff out and placed it inside the drawers. 

After you were done you just sat on the bed and you let a few tears fall. How did you get here you thought. 

You just shrugged it off and your stomach growled so you headed down for food. Sara was making lunch just some sandwiches and you couldn't complain food was food. 

“Here eat” Sara said placing a plate in front of you.

You sat down on the island and grab the food in front of you. It was a ham and cheese nothing special but you were grateful nonetheless. 

You both just started eating in silence. Sara was struggling to find the right words to say to you. She knew no matter what she said nothing was going to comfort you. 

After lunch you cleaned up and went straight up to your room. You laid in the bed and watched tv and kept checking your phone. Hoping and praying he would reach out. 

You just cried a little bit and a couple hours had passed and you didn’t realize how late it had gotten. 

It was getting late so you decided to start getting ready for bed wanting more for the day to end. Jamie didn’t text you or call so you figured he wasn’t home yet. 

You got up and got your Pajama’s to change into whe suddenly your phone went off and you raced over to pick it up. 

It was Jamie calling you and you couldn’t tell if you were more happy or upset or worried. It was like everything was all mixed into one. 

“Hello” you blankay answered the phone. 

“That’s all i get is a hello where are you what happened” Jamie yelled into the phone you could hear the panic in his voice. 

“I left you a note to let you know I was safe. But come one this can’t be a surprise” You said. 

“We could have talked it out not run away from our problems” Jamie said. 

“I don’t have a problem you do fix it and figure it out” You snapped back. 

You hung up the phone and felt the tears fall down from your face. 

This wasn’t on you he was the one who was treating you different and not caring. So why should you. You weren’t going to be the only one putting effort into this relationship.

A few weeks had passed sense you moved into Sara’s house. You honestly had thought you would moved back in now but that wasn’t the case. Neither of you were budging. 

You weren’t the one to blame and he needed to see he was the one who needed to fix this and make it right. 

Put the other part of you just wanted to reach out and talk to him and clear the air. You just wanted to fix things. 

You also felt bad that you were still crashing here. Sara said it was fine and that you could crash as long as you needed. 

Right now you were sitting around in the living room when your phone started ringing. To your surprise it was Elliot calling you. 

When you saw it you were first confused then the panic started setting in . 

“Hey omg is everything okay” You asked all in one breath. 

“Whoa slow down it’s okay it’s not like this” Elliot said. 

“Look i’m calling to be a mediator” Elliot said.

“What do you mean” You asked taking a breath. 

“I mean is your both miserable and Jamie is beating himself up hard and you know him he’s not gonna reach out he’s just gonna sull and he’s gonna throw it away don’t let him” Elliot said. 

“I don’t know why can’t he just come to me and say he’s sorry” You said. 

“Because he’s afraid he’s been through a lot he doesn’t know how to communicate” Elliot said. 

He was right about that Jamie had been through a lot. Maybe you shouldn’t be so hard. 

“Fine let me think about it” You said 

“Thats all i ask were gonna be here late” Elliot said. 

He hung up the phone after that. It did get you thinking about a lot. 

You kept wracking your brain what to do so you decided to be nice and bring him dinner well the whole crew. 

You made him your famous aloo samoos and ladoos. He loved them he always ate them up in a heartbeat so you made extras. 

After you cooked you got a hot shower and finally put on some nice clothes. You felt good and you were excited and nervous to see Jamie. 

You gathered up your food and headed out. The drive down your butterflies were going off. But you also felt like anything could go wrong. You just kept replaying every single thing that could go wrong. 

It was about a half hour away and when you got there you decided it was no turning back now. You gathered up your food and headed in. 

Everyone was sitting around and not doing anything really. Jamie was sitting at his desk with his head down. 

Elliot was the first one to notice. He smiled up at you and got up and ran over.

“Hey thank you for coming and even more so for the food we missed you around here” He said he grabbing the food and taking it into the kitchen. 

Jamie heard Elliot talking and the smell of the food and got up from his desk. He just kind of stared at you. 

“God damn it man go and talk to her” Ayanna yelled out. 

“For the love of god she’s standing right there go right now or your fired” Elliot yelled out. 

It made both laugh and Jamie walked over to you. 

“Can we talk in private” He said quietly 

“Yeah come on” you said 

“Boo no fun we wanna hear” Jet yelled 

Everyone laughed and you both headed out the front door. 

“Y/n” Jamie started 

“What is going on” You asked looking at him. 

He was staring at the ground and slowly his eyes landed on yours. His eyes looked desperate. 

“I don’t know i just” Jamie yelled. 

“You just what this is what I mean you just kept shutting me out i’m sick of it I can’t take it anymore we can work like this” You yelled the tears falling from your eyes. 

That Broke Jamie seeing you cry. He never meant to hurt you like this, he knew you deserved better that what he was doing. 

“I just got scared I guess you know things got real fast and I love you and you know what i’ve been through. The easier option was to just push you away and I didn’t want to reach out because I thought you didn’t wanna hear from me” Jamie said honestly. 

“You can’t just do that okay. I’m gonna be your wife I love you come to me when your scared or hurt I’m not going anywhere I love you, your the best thing that’s ever happened to me” You said. 

“I love you more than life itself I don’t wana loose you ever okay” Jamie said 

“You need to get help go to therapy and talk to someone. This can’t happen again” You said honestly. 

“I know I will done” Jamie said 

He grabbed your face and leaned down and kissed you. The butterflies were erupting in your stomach and you missed this so damn much. 

“ I love you” Jame said breaking the kiss and placing his forehead on your 

“I love you more” You said 

“I love you both now i hate to break this up but were all hungry and the food is warmed up so let’s eat” Elliot said. 

You both jumped not hearing him come out. 

“We were having a moment” Jamie said 

“Yeah we got that but food let’s go” Elliot said. 

You both laughed and Jamie grabbed your hand 

“Let’s go eat” He said. 

He grabbed your hand and you both followed him inside and into the kitchen. 

Everyone had plates and the food all spread out. There was chairs all brought in so you could all sit together 

“I see everything worked out” Jet said 

“Yeah it did” You said 

“Good i’m glad i could not stand for another moment Jamie walking around sulking all day it was getting to much” Elliot said. 

“Oh well he was sad because you didn’t move in with him” You said laughing. 

“Yeah i think he asked but we didn’t get conformation you said no” Ayanna said 

“Uh he wanted me to sleep on the right side he knows better” Elliot said. 

Everyone laughed at that 

“Y/N is a much better partner to sleep with” Jamie said. 

“Awww well I don’t know Elliot is nice” You said 

“Well you keep bringing this food in I’m yours anytime” Elliot said. 

“Nah this mine forever” Jamie said. 

“Damn straight” You said. 

Everyone was joking and eating and enjoying themselves and you were so grateful Elliot called. It was going to take some work and you and Jamie both had a lot to talk about when you got home.

But he was your person and he was worth the fight for and you were so happy to be coming home.

[sassbewitchedmyass]

If you were looking for a vigilante/very sexy crime boss EO fic, here ya go

Tightrope

[captain-penguin2]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Law & Order: Organized Crime (TV 2021) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Jet Slootmaekers/Jamie Whelan Characters: Jamie Whelan, Jet Slootmaekers, Bobby Reyes, Elliot Stabler, Ayanna Bell Additional Tags: Grief, loosing a partner, Moving On, Emotional, keeping it all in, Sadness, Undercover, Reminiscing Summary:

Jet reacts to the news of Jamie dying.

[ragingstillness]

My delulu SVU hcs:

When Bensler finally get together they are going to be accidentally insufferable. Like Elliot staring dreamily into a case board of brutal murders, Ayanna looking at him like he’s lost his mind. Olivia blushing every time she accidentally says “my—Elliot.” Carisi facepalming like goddammit mom we’re in court! Fin’s like hey what are you doing tonight? And Olivia being distracted like “hanging out with my husband” and Fin’s like I regret knowing you both. Elliot gets drunk with the squad and then gets up to leave early and Reyes is like where are you going old man? And Elliot’s slurring “wifey, wifey and son have early bedtime.” SVU x OC cases become logistical nightmares because every time the two of them bump into each other they have to have a moment to say each other’s names breathlessly and stare deep into each other’s eyes in silent communication. Not to mention that both of them are 100% that meme of two people trying to protect each other and just curling around each other every time. Jet learns to never again mention that a particular mission requires being undercover as a married couple. Everyone in the NYPD is like we expected relief but somehow it has got worse!

[takeeachdayonebookatatime]

Why did you elbow me? 163

Achilles Castle part 65

Lemonade and lies PART 8

Martha: pov my God is she okay, is it her heart or something else.

Lanie: pov I explain some of the case quickly, there was a weird smell in the room, if you mix that with the fact that she has a cold and her heart issues it must have been too much for her. She was given a dose of her heart meds and is being given oxygen as we speak can you put Castle on.

Castle: pov what is it mother, oh it's about Kate. Mother hands me the phone since Lanie wants to talk to me. Lanie is riding in the ambulance with Kate. Opps Ryan must have called but I never noticed. I'm on the phone with her keeping Kate alert. I tell her stories of how we met, all the times I have saved her life.

Mary the female medic: pov her vitals seem to be stable the oxygen is helping her breathe better. The heart meds Lanie gave Kate also prevented her heart episode from being much worse.

Lanie: pov Castle can't drive yet so he will be taking a cab with Martha. We arrive at the ER. Kate is unloaded from the ambulance and taken to an exam/trauma room. The hospital has everything ready for us. Kate is transferred to the exam table/gurney. An ultrasound machine is already in the room. Kate's clothes are being removed, I'm holding her hand. I don't want her freaking out, the cardiologist in the room puts the gel on her chest and moves the wand over her chest and heart. I can clearly see it on the screen. The left ventricle/side of her heart is still beating so fast that the right ventricle/side can't keep up. Me and the cardiologist discuss what options there are. Her scar tissue makes it hard for the left side of her heart to function properly and with her vt adding on to the stress her right ventricle is struggling a little to keep up.

Cardiologist Jason: pov Lanie gives me the number to her cardiologist so he can be called. After talking for a few minutes with Dr Burkett and Lanie it's decided we will give her some fluids to flush out whatever she breathed in and do a blood test and nebulizer then more cough meds and a second dose of heart meds and see how she does. She is also being taken for a chest x-ray, we also gave her a dose of pain meds.

Lanie: pov while I wait I leave a message for Jim. Hey it's me Lanie I'm at the ER with Kate. She may have been exposed to something while working this case and since she has a cold on top of her heart condition they decided to admit her so they can keep an eye on her.

Jim: pov hey Lanie I just got your message do you know what she was exposed to. Oh it was something in the air that makes sense why they would want to keep an eye on her. With her having a bad lung and all, I understand why they would want to be extra careful. I should be down, in a little bit.

Joe: pov all of us arrive at the hospital to see how Kate is doing. Liv, Muncy and Ayanna just got cleared by a Dr. Since they are healthy it didn't affect them as much as it did Kate. Esposito asks the receptionist at the desk what room number is Captain Kate Beckett's. The receptionist says she is still being treated by a Dr but you can wait in the waiting room for an update.

Elliot: pov Esposito is leading the way to the waiting room. Esposito isn't the waiting room for the general ward this way. He says yeah but we are not heading that way. Kate is always admitted on the cardiology ward so they can monitor her better. Oh I never thought of that. Esposito and Ryan explain to me, Ayanna and Jet, how Kate's mother was murdered and Montgomery. They also explain how Kate got her heart condition.

Jet: pov Oh my that is awful what happened to her. I'm Glad Senator Bracken is rotting in jail. Elliot says he voted for him years ago. Esposito says don't tell Kate that, it's still a sore subject. So Kate has PTSD. Is it like Elliot's PTSD which i explain and Liv's which you know about or different. Esposito says definitely it's different; she has regular PTSD from her shooting and a form of PTSD known as a medical version since she suffered cardiac arrest twice and had to have heart surgery. Some medical settings cause her PTSD to act up. Wow, that must be hard.

Esposito: pov sometimes her being injured or sick triggers her PTSD/heart episode. Very loud noises still bother her, like fireworks. She also has food restrictions like no caffeine, low cholesterol, low salt, low carb and low fat foods.

Muncy: pov Mr Castle just arrived with his mother. He tells Esposito that Lanie called Kate's dad Jim and he lets Alexis know what is going on. Elliot offers to get everyone coffee while we wait for an update. Me and Joe decided to go with him and help him carry the coffee and sandwiches.

Ayanna: pov Elliot, Muncy and Joe are back with the coffee and sandwiches and start passing them out. A man in scrubs who must be her Dr appears and says, family of Captain Beckett. Castle says he is her husband and Martha is her mother in law, Esposito and Ryan are her sergeant and Detective and are like family to her. Liv and Fin are her best friends. Everyone else is someone she knows.

Cardiologist Jason: pov my name is Dr Jason and I'm the cardiologist treating Captain Beckett. At the moment she is stable and being settled in a room, Dr Parish has been with her the whole time. For the time being she is on oxygen hopefully as her cold clears she can ditch it. Her chest x-ray was clear which is a good thing. So far she has been given cough meds, pain meds and a nebulizer treatment, she will be given another round of heart meds in a bit. She is hooked up to a bunch of monitors so don't be alarmed. If you guys are quiet I can let 2 of you at a time see her. To be continued. …….

Lemonade and lies PART 8

Martha: pov my God is she okay, is it her heart or something else.

Lanie: pov I explain some of the case quickly, there was a weird smell in the room, if you mix that with the fact that she has a cold and her heart issues it must have been too much for her. She was given a dose of her heart meds and is being given oxygen as we speak can you put Castle on.

Castle: pov what is it mother, oh it's about Kate. Mother hands me the phone since Lanie wants to talk to me. Lanie is riding in the ambulance with Kate. Opps Ryan must have called but I never noticed. I'm on the phone with her keeping Kate alert. I tell her stories of how we met, all the times I have saved her life.

Mary the female medic: pov her vitals seem to be stable the oxygen is helping her breathe better. The heart meds Lanie gave Kate also prevented her heart episode from being much worse.

Lanie: pov Castle can't drive yet so he will be taking a cab with Martha. We arrive at the ER. Kate is unloaded from the ambulance and taken to an exam/trauma room. The hospital has everything ready for us. Kate is transferred to the exam table/gurney. An ultrasound machine is already in the room. Kate's clothes are being removed, I'm holding her hand. I don't want her freaking out, the cardiologist in the room puts the gel on her chest and moves the wand over her chest and heart. I can clearly see it on the screen. The left ventricle/side of her heart is still beating so fast that the right ventricle/side can't keep up. Me and the cardiologist discuss what options there are. Her scar tissue makes it hard for the left side of her heart to function properly and with her vt adding on to the stress her right ventricle is struggling a little to keep up.

Cardiologist Jason: pov Lanie gives me the number to her cardiologist so he can be called. After talking for a few minutes with Dr Burkett and Lanie it's decided we will give her some fluids to flush out whatever she breathed in and do a blood test and nebulizer then more cough meds and a second dose of heart meds and see how she does. She is also being taken for a chest x-ray, we also gave her a dose of pain meds.

Lanie: pov while I wait I leave a message for Jim. Hey it's me Lanie I'm at the ER with Kate. She may have been exposed to something while working this case and since she has a cold on top of her heart condition they decided to admit her so they can keep an eye on her.

Jim: pov hey Lanie I just got your message do you know what she was exposed to. Oh it was something in the air that makes sense why they would want to keep an eye on her. With her having a bad lung and all, I understand why they would want to be extra careful. I should be down, in a little bit.

Joe: pov all of us arrive at the hospital to see how Kate is doing. Liv, Muncy and Ayanna just got cleared by a Dr. Since they are healthy it didn't affect them as much as it did Kate. Esposito asks the receptionist at the desk what room number is Captain Kate Beckett's. The receptionist says she is still being treated by a Dr but you can wait in the waiting room for an update.

Elliot: pov Esposito is leading the way to the waiting room. Esposito isn't the waiting room for the general ward this way. He says yeah but we are not heading that way. Kate is always admitted on the cardiology ward so they can monitor her better. Oh I never thought of that. Esposito and Ryan explain to me, Ayanna and Jet, how Kate's mother was murdered and Montgomery. They also explain how Kate got her heart condition.

Jet: pov Oh my that is awful what happened to her. I'm Glad Senator Bracken is rotting in jail. Elliot says he voted for him years ago. Esposito says don't tell Kate that, it's still a sore subject. So Kate has PTSD. Is it like Elliot's PTSD which i explain and Liv's which you know about or different. Esposito says definitely it's different; she has regular PTSD from her shooting and a form of PTSD known as a medical version since she suffered cardiac arrest twice and had to have heart surgery. Some medical settings cause her PTSD to act up. Wow, that must be hard.

Esposito: pov sometimes her being injured or sick triggers her PTSD/heart episode. Very loud noises still bother her, like fireworks. She also has food restrictions like no caffeine, low cholesterol, low salt, low carb and low fat foods.

Muncy: pov Mr Castle just arrived with his mother. He tells Esposito that Lanie called Kate's dad Jim and he lets Alexis know what is going on. Elliot offers to get everyone coffee while we wait for an update. Me and Joe decided to go with him and help him carry the coffee and sandwiches.

Ayanna: pov Elliot, Muncy and Joe are back with the coffee and sandwiches and start passing them out. A man in scrubs who must be her Dr appears and says, family of Captain Beckett. Castle says he is her husband and Martha is her mother in law, Esposito and Ryan are her sergeant and Detective and are like family to her. Liv and Fin are her best friends. Everyone else is someone she knows.

Cardiologist Jason: pov my name is Dr Jason and I'm the cardiologist treating Captain Beckett. At the moment she is stable and being settled in a room, Dr Parish has been with her the whole time. For the time being she is on oxygen hopefully as her cold clears she can ditch it. Her chest x-ray was clear which is a good thing. So far she has been given cough meds, pain meds and a nebulizer treatment, she will be given another round of heart meds in a bit. She is hooked up to a bunch of monitors so don't be alarmed. If you guys are quiet I can let 2 of you at a time see her. To be continued. …….

[bensonstablers]

Law & Order: Organized Crime | 2x17: Can’t Knock the Hustle

[incorrectbensler]

Jet: Are you meeting up with your girlfriend?

Elliot: I told you, Olivia is not my girlfriend… She’s just a really good-

Ayanna: Girlfriend?

[mm9688x]

I developed this hc on the SVU discord server that's too good not to share:

One day, a season or 2 into the future, the squad and their fam, plus the Stabler clan, Jet, Ayanna and her wife, are all over at Liv and Elliot's new house when Noah (in the midst of a nerf gun phase) starts an impromptu Nerf Gun Battle.

Carisi is weirdly a really good shot w a nerf gun. And Amanda, who's normally the best shot in the squad, is crap at it. At least at first.

Everyone splits off into teams. Team Bensler, Team Rollisi, Team Fin and Phoebe, Team Ayanna and her wife, Team Kat and her girlfriend, Team Girls (Jet, the Stabler girls, Jesse and Billie), and Team Boys (Dickie, Eli, Noah, and Maureen's husband).

Fin and Phoebe are the first to get knocked out. Fin's all like "I'm too old for this shit." Ayanna and her wife are next followed by Kat and her girlfriend.

Team Bensler and Team Rollisi agree to a temporary alliance to take out Team Girls and Team Boys since it's 4 against 10.

Amanda and Elliot are insanely competitive so they go full Rambo at take out Jet, Kathleen, Lizzie, Dickie, Maureen's husband, Eli, and Jesse in one go.

Billie attempts pull the daddy's girl card on Carisi, but he doesn't fall for it and takes her out.

Liv takes Noah out cuz she gets weirdly into it too. He's all like "Mom! I'm your sweet boy!" And she's like "Nope, sorry. Not today bud." and pulls the trigger taking him out.

It's down to 4 against 1. Maureen is the sole survivor of the kids. No one expected her to be so good. But she's still no match for a NYPD captain, a Marine, a Southerner, and a cop turned ADA.

Now that the kids are out, the alliance is over. It's Benson and Stabler vs Rollins and Carisi. The Battle of the Partners Turned Lovers.

Carisi gets taken out first by Liv. Elliot follows shortly after being ambushed by Amanda.

It's down to Liv vs. Amanda now.

Amanda thinks she's got the win in her pocket bc she knows shes the best shot in the squad. But her cockiness is what ruins her in the end. She forgets that there's a reason Olivia is a legend.

Liv sets up a trap and Amanda walks right into it. Using one of Noah's toys, she makes Amanda trip. Amanda's gun flies out of her hand. Liv steps out of the shadows, kicks the gun out of Amanda's reach. Lines the nerf gun up for the shot, execution style. Then says her iconic line "You're My Bitch Now!" and pulls the trigger.

(Elliot's in the background laughing his head off bc he was there when Liv said her iconic line)

Liv is crowned "Queen of Nerf Guns" while Elliot looks on proudly w a smirk that says "My girl's a Badass".

After that, the squad learns never to mess w Liv and Elliot when they're in Benson and Stabler mode. And also to never mess w Liv when she's holding a nerf gun.

[demigodreading]

A Heartfelt Goodbye

Summary: This is the first part of a 4 chapter Bellson fic. This has an established Bellson relationship and an angsty view of Bensler. (Sorry y'all Bensler is not my endgame.) This does contain episode spoilers so if you haven't seen any of the new organized crime I apologize! This first part is set a couple of days before Christmas Eve. Basically just some cute lil Bellson fluff after a big blow-up with Stabler. This is also based on the song Break Up with A Friend by Blu Eyes. All of those lyrics will be bolded. Hope y'all enjoy.

Characters: Olivia Benson, Ayanna Bell, Elliot Stabler, Noah Porter Benson, Jet Slootmaekers

Relationships: Olivia Benson/Ayanna Bell (Bellson)

Warnings: Angst, Bensler fighting, Friendship Breakup

Word Count: 1676

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Olivia sat on her window ledge watching as the cars sped on the street below her the occasional honk sounding through the air. The city that never sleeps captured New York perfectly. She wondered when she got used to the constant noise and lights. They were all just a blur and a hum that was in the background of everything else. A hum that had grown louder the last couple of days as thoughts clouded her head. She looked at the slumbering figure in her bed and then hopped down from her perch. She didn’t know what finally pushed her out the door of her apartment but she knew in her soul it was the only choice she had. 

As she snuck quietly out of the bedroom and pulled on her winter clothes she mulled over what she was going to say. When she stepped outside the cold air took her breath away. She pulled out her phone and dialed Stabler’s number. They had gotten into a pretty bad argument a week ago and had been on thin ice ever since. Much to Olivia’s surprise, he picked up on the first ring.

“Liv, it’s almost midnight. Is something wrong?”

“I’m coming over,” Olivia responded and then hung up before he could answer. 

She opted to drive her car to his house a smile coming to her face as she saw one of Noah’s stuffed animals in the backseat. Olivia had reminded him multiple times to take it in the house but it was nice to see a little reminder of him every time she drove to work. As she pulled up to Stabler’s apartment she sighed seeing him waiting on the porch for her.

He smiled as she stepped out of the car, “I have some coffee waiting inside.”

Liv shook her head, “No thanks, I won’t be staying. I just came to talk. I don’t think I can keep doing this… well whatever this is.”

“You mean our friendship?”

“Is it a friendship to you though El? Because you sure don’t act like it. You cross my boundaries constantly with no regard for my feelings. Friends don’t do that.”

“So what you are going to throw twelve years of friendship away over one argument?” Stabler scoffed.

“One argument. You have got to be kidding me. You think I would give up one of the most meaningful relationships I have ever had over one fight! If that was true we would have stopped talking long before you left because we fought constantly.”

“So what makes this time any different?”

Olivia sighed, “Because we are different people now and I am no longer allowing myself to be surrounded by that toxicity. I have been telling you for months that I will not be with you. Yet you ignore me constantly to the point it is borderline sexual harassment. You gave me this letter that you didn’t even write. You tell me you love me. You show up randomly at my house putting my son in danger. Oh and let’s not forget the nine years that you just disappeared into thin air. You want to act like I threw our whole relationship away… let’s not forget who set fire to it first.”

“I thought that after all we have gone through you would feel the same way,” Elliot said barely above a whisper.

“I told you I was seeing someone. That I was in love with someone. Yet you keep pushing and pushing the subject,” Olivia sighed trying to hold back the tears threatening to spill down her face.

“You won’t even tell me who it is! How am I supposed to know they are even real?”

“Because I am telling you that this person is real and that is enough.”

“Bullshit.”

“Bullshit is all of the witnesses you are sleeping with to make your fucking case,” Olivia scoffed, “I know all about Flutura and Angela. You ask me to give you a chance but yet you betrayed my trust yet again.”

“Again?”

“Elliot! You left me…you just left me. No goodbye. Radio silence. Horrible awful things have happened to me and not even one time have you asked me anything. You know nothing about me. I am done.”

“Wait Liv…” “Stabler just so you know…in a parallel universe it would never be you and I,” Olivia said and then turned her back towards him and climbed in her car.

She drove all the way back to her apartment expecting to cry but instead she sat in silence not feeling a thing. When she got inside she quickly checked on Noah who was still soundly sleeping. After she had changed back into her comfy PJs she climbed into bed hoping that sleep would overtake her quickly.

As she settled in Ayanna turned over and wrapped her arm around Olivia. As soon as she touched her cold skin her eyes shot open.

“Babe! You are freezing. Are you okay?” She asked looking up at the older woman.

Olivia merely nodded, “I decided to talk to Stabler.”

Stabler was a subject Ayanna knew all too well. Being his Sergeant gave her a front-row seat to every pass he made at Olivia, every time he got rejected, and the anger that arose in Olivia every time it happened. Ayanna expected the same sort of anger on her girlfriend’s face now but instead, it was void of amy emotion at all.

“Would you like to talk about it, my love?” She asked tentatively.

Olivia reached out her hand taking Ayanna’s in her. She rubbed her thumb over the back of her girlfriend’s hand ten times before she decided to speak, “I told him we couldn’t be friends anymore.”

Ayanna tried to form an answer but Olivia spoke again before she could, “I know it was the right thing to do but no one ever told me it could be so hard breaking up with a friend.”

As the final words slipped out barely above a whisper the tears finally decided to make their appearance. Ayanna wiped them away gently giving her girlfriend a kiss on the forehead.

“I am so incredibly proud of you,” Ayanna told her placing another kiss on her lips, “You are one of the most amazing women I know.”

At this compliment, Olivia buried her head into Ayanna’s shoulder, “I am so sorry.”

“Sorry for what my love?” 

“For dragging you in the middle of this. You have had to handle so much already. You deserve…”

“I deserve you, Olivia,” Ayanna said, You are the most amazing, wonderful, beautiful, kind person I have ever had the privilege of knowing. I would choose you in this lifetime and a thousand others.”

“You really mean that?”

“Yes, but I do hope at least one time we come back as cats… they sleep like sixteen hours a day. We deserve the break.”

Olivia laughed at this kissing her cheek, “I love you, Ayanna.”

“I love you too,” She replied snuggling in closer to Liv’s side, “Now can we get some sleep. We have been up half the night already.”

“Well that is because we were doing certain activities and I didn’t hear any complaints from you at the time,” Olivia said cocking her eyebrow.

“No complaints ever,” Ayanna winked, “I would stay up all night to do those activities with you any time.”

Olivia rolled her eyes playfully and gave Ayanna one final kiss goodnight. Within moments Ayanna was passed out her head placed on Olivia’s chest an arm wrapped around her waist. Olivia watched her a smile across her face. This woman. This woman had changed everything for her. A year ago they had fallen in bed together after a drunken night at one of the big wig parties for the NYPD. Olivia expected Ayanna to be gone the next morning but was instead greeted by her making chocolate chip pancakes in the form of Mickey Mouse for Noah. Olivia knew then that she was falling for this woman and fast. Nine months later Ayanna moved into her apartment and Olivia’s best mornings were the ones that she got to wake up next to that beautiful woman. Ayanna was the person she would choose in every parallel universe.

When Olivia woke up the next morning she was greeted by the smell of coffee and breakfast. As she sat up in bed Noah bounded inside the room elephant in one hand and a small plate of toast in the other.

“Good morning my love,” Olivia called out as Noah scrambled on the bed.

“Good morning Mom. Aya and I made you breakfast,” He smiled.

“What’s the occasion?” Liv asked as her girlfriend finished walking in with a plate of eggs and bacon and a cup of coffee.

“Because we love you,” Ayanna replied, kissing her gently on the forehead, “And because I’m taking Noah to finish up our Christmas shopping.”

“I’ll come with,” Olivia said, dreading being home alone all day after the events of last night.

“No, we are Christmas shopping for you Mom! It would spoil the surprise,” Noah protested.

Ayanna could tell Liv was anxious so after she sent Noah to get dressed she curled her hand in her girlfriend’s. She placed a gentle kiss on every single finger making Olivia laugh.

“There is that beautiful smile,” Ayanna grinned, “I promise we will be back soon. Then we can spend the rest of the day cuddling and watching terrible Hallmark movies.”

Olivia merely nodded and exchanged simple I love yous before her two favorite humans left for the mall. When her breakfast was done she curled on the couch scrolling through channels to find something to keep her distracted. Her eyes fell on a TV show she and Stabler used to watch every week. She turned it on and picked up her phone to text him but suddenly stopped. It wasn’t her place anymore. Instead, she turned the channel to some cookoff show, shed a couple of tears, and waited for her family to come home.

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[walled-flwr]

We are yet to learn ANYTHING remotely tangible about Ainsley Seiger's character, Jet Slootmaekers, other than the fact that she's a "hacker".

And yet she get's a slot on the Opening Theme? Yet, we have other characters like Diego Morales who I think has potential but somehow, we only get some dimension to him on the season finale?🙄

Don't get me wrong, I would love to see Slootmaeker's character developed, rather than hang about for an average of 5 mins per episode doing techy stuff & giving the required dose of "tech speak".

Let me know your thoughts on this.

[elliot-olivia]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Law & Order: Organized Crime (TV 2021) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jet Slootmaekers/Elizabeth Stabler Characters: Elliot Stabler, Jet Slootmaekers, Elizabeth Stabler, Olivia Benson, Ayanna Bell Additional Tags: Father-Daughter Relationship, POV Outsider, some background eo because i legitimately can’t help myself, i’d say i tried but i actually didn’t, Texting Summary:

“You will not date my daughter,” Elliot says.

Jet doesn’t look away from the computer screen. “Copy.”

probably the most ridiculous thing i’ve ever written so like ! enjoy !

[sassbewitchedmyass]

Chapter 8 of my EO political AU is up!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/42953463/chapters/109657635

[captain-penguin2]

Chapters: 8/8 Fandom: Law & Order: Organized Crime (TV 2021) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Jet Slootmaekers/Jamie Whelan Characters: Jet Slootmaekers, Jamie Whelan, Ayanna Bell, Elliot Stabler Additional Tags: Undercover Summary:

Jet and Jamie go undercover in Quan's campaign building.