#author: kaydel

[aimmyarrowshigh]

Panfandom Hanukkah Bingo 2024

Darkness. “Trapped on a Corellian light-freighter with fifteen other people, hurtling through hyperspace in a mad attempt to escape from the triumphant First Order” is not how Kaydel ever thought she would spend the first night of the Festival of Lights. And yet, here she is.

Fic or Art/Graphic Title: K2e. Darkness - Kaydel Ko Connix Author/Artist Name: aimmyarrowshigh Fandom: Star Wars Jewish or Jew-Ish Character(s): Kaydel Ko Connix, Leia Organa Bingo Squares Being Filled: K2e - Darkness Rating: T Warning(s): None Link to Work: https://archiveofourown.org/works/61800628

[forcesensitiveflower]

S T A R D U S T

AUTHOR'S NOTE

okay, I lied. sundays will be update days. I'm too impatient. :) enjoy!

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chapter ix.

bright suns.

It’s been a little over a week since I woke up. The first few days were full of headaches, dizziness, and more stars. Once I was more coherent, I had a few visitors: Rose and Kaydel, Finn and Poe, and a few of the cooks who work in the Mess Hall.

It was nice to actually sit down with Finn and Poe for longer than a meal. I loved listening to their stories, especially how they met. I couldn’t believe it when I learned that Finn was a bucket-head before joining the Resistance. I had never heard of a stormtrooper defecting, though I didn’t hear much about stormtroopers before joining the Resistance. I knew they were programmed to follow orders, basically brainwashed since birth. But Finn is special. He has his own particular set of skills like mine, though I’m not sure he’s been awakened to them yet. It’s so cute how Finn’s eyes light up when Poe talks about flying. He looks at him like he single-handedly placed every star in the sky to light the path that ultimately led them to one another. I wondered if they had ever heard the silver stardust song.

The cooks—Marv and Emri—kept me laughing throughout their whole visit. They asked me how I could stand “playing in the dirt” all day. The two always love to poke fun, but it seemed they had found a new appreciation for my contribution to the base in my absence. Emri hands me my notebook.

“I know my handwriting is not as beautiful as yours,” I laugh and take it from her hands, “but we wanted to make sure you didn’t miss anything.” I open the book to the page with the marker, and I smile down at her notes. Marv and Emri don’t know how much it means to me that they’ve come to visit. They remind me of the merchants in the outpost back home. They are honest, almost to a fault, but you know what they say always comes with love. I trace her handwriting with my finger.

“No, no I love it,” I smile down at Emri’s notetaking. I see that she tried to emulate the pages that I’ve written, even adding how the weather was that day.

“Thank you, guys, really. I’m very happy to know that the gardens have been in such good hands while I’ve been gone. I promise as soon as I’m out of here I’ll bring you all your favorites.”

Emri’s lips slightly shake. Oh no. She bursts out in tears and wails into Marv’s chest.

“We thought you were dead, my love, oh how scared we were,” she cries. Marv holds onto her, softly rocking her back and forth. He looks up at me and shakes his head. He wasn’t as sentimental as she was.

“Emmi, it’s okay, you don’t have to worry anymore. I’m fine now, I promise,” I reach my hand out and rub her back. Marv sighs.

“See, Em, you’re overreacting. You know our Dette’s too strong-willed for a little garden snake to take her out,” he sighs and turns to me.

“Don’t worry about her, Dette, she’s just a big baby,” he sticks his tongue out, he loves to tease her. Emri pushes away from Marv and smacks the back of his head. I cover my mouth as I laugh because I know I’ll get a smack too if she sees me laughing.

“Ay, shut up, you were crying too,” she says, wiping her face. I chuckle and hold my hand out to her, and she takes it.

“I’ll be out of here soon enough. Thank you for coming to see me. I missed you guys,” I smile at her, then at Marv, whose arms are crossed.

“Of course, kid. We'd better head out now, gotta get supper ready,” he says. Emri kisses my head, and I tell them goodbye.

Later that night, Rose and Kaydel visited.

I’m lucky to have met Rose and Kaydel. I didn’t have many friends back home, but they took me in like they had known me their whole lives, and here I was, lying to their faces. I felt so guilty lying to them about my coma. But I suppose the fear of them finding out my secret was worse than the guilt. It has always been this way.

Hide, deflect, lie. My parents would be so proud.

“Uh, yeah, it just came out of nowhere,” I told Rose and Kaydel after they asked me about my “encounter with a poisonous vine snake”. I tried to change the subject.

“But, how are you two doing? I haven’t seen Leia since I woke up, so I haven’t heard much about what’s going on outside this room. I’m going crazy,” I laugh as I cross my legs. They both share a look, I’m not sure what it means.

“Oh, we’re fine, Detty,” Kaydel smiles as she straightens up my bedside table. Kay stress-cleans, so I’m wondering what could be on her mind. She adjusts the vase of flowers, but a few petals fall onto the table. Her brows knit together, and I let out a small laugh. I open my mouth to speak, but Rose beats me to it.

“We missed you at the party. It was wild, Dette. We got Snap to dance…on the tables,” Rose laughs.

Kaydel snorts as she brushes the dead petals into her hand and throws them into the bin. “Yeah, turns out Beau had been sitting on a few barrels of moonshine jet juice for a special occasion.”

I laugh into my hands and shake my head.

“Wow, okay, yeah, sounds like quite the celebration,” I look back up at them and push my hair behind my shoulder. There’s still something they aren’t telling me. Kaydel sits on the edge of my bed.

“Yeah, I’m pretty sure half of the base is still hungover,” they both laugh. A smile has not escaped my face since they’ve entered the room, but I still get the feeling something else has happened. I chew the inside of my cheek and decide to ask.

“Really, though, what’s been going on? Anything interesting?” I play with the ends of my hair as I try to act as nonchalant as possible. These two cannot keep anything to themselves, unless it’s big. Yup, neither of them can make eye contact with me. This must be big. I poke Kaydel’s leg with my foot.

“You guys are giving off really weird energy. I must have missed something preeettyy big. Tell meeeee,” I whine. Rose sighs and adjusts her jacket. Kaydel glares at Rose. Kay is always the first one to crack. I keep my eyes on her.

“We got some recruits, is all,” Rose says, shrugging. I look between both of them.

I’m confused.

“Oh,” my high-pitched reply gets them to both look at me.

“Everything’s fine, though,” Kay smiles at me. I feel a bit dizzy again, so I lie back on my pillows. I feel too fatigued after this conversation and the anxiety this mystery has caused. I’ll let this topic go for now.

“We’ll let you rest, Detty,” Rose says. I smile at them and give them a weak wave as they head towards the door.

“Fine, but when I have more energy, you are telling me about these recruits,” I say as I sink into my pillow.

“OH, we will,” Kaydel lets out, and Rose nudges her out the door.

“Bye Dette! Sweet dreams!” Rose calls out. The door slides shut.

That was weird.

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I laid in bed for a few more torturous days, bored out of my mind. I’d stare down at the flowers on my bedside table. Just watching them wilt away. I so badly wanted to do something about it, but I was far too weak. I thought about how, by some miracle, I was awake right now. I wasn’t dead, but I didn’t particularly feel alive.

I was taught that my abilities were a curse, something to be ashamed of. My father always seemed to fear what he couldn’t understand. My mother was frightened by what would happen if the First Order found me. So they hid me away, told me to extinguish my light. My parents’ rules didn’t stop me from experimenting, though. How could you tell a ten-year-old girl she has special powers, and expect her not to use them? I smile as I think of that little girl. Running out deep into the forest, far enough away that no force user could feel her. At least…I don’t think. I mean, no one ever did come looking for me. What if the Jedi had found me? Would I have followed that path? Uncle Jax would’ve loved that. I miss that old man. He would sneak me old snippets of Jedi texts, tried to help me understand myself. He was the first person to tell me my abilities were a gift. I’m not really sure what I did to deserve this gift. But I guess it doesn’t really matter why. I have them, and I found that it was my responsibility to put them to good use. So that’s what I did.

And finally, after a few days, Leia had come to visit.

Unfortunately for me, the visit came with a lecture.

“What were you thinking? Do you know how irresponsible that was!” she yells at me. She’s trying to be quiet, so it’s more of a whisper yell, but everything seemed louder after being in a coma for a week.

“You could’ve died, Odette.”

I knew Leia was yelling at me with love, and I knew what I did was stupid. But how could I not do what I did? The Resistance could go on without me. Leia was much too important to lose.

“But I didn’t,” I practically squeak out. She huffs.

“I’m sorry, Leia. It was really dumb, I know, but I just wanted to—to…Well, I don’t use this for anything. Taking care of the gardens, yes, but I’m not like Rey, I can’t—” My voice starts to falter as tears fill my eyes. Rey was so strong, so sure of herself. And I…

“I just felt like I needed to do something more—“ Leia’s face has softened now, and tears start to form in her eyes.

“I know, I know,” she grabs my hand, “just…promise me you will never do something like that again. It was too risky. I wanted you to use your abilities, just not like this.”

I nod. I knew she was worried. We sit in silence, me on the bed, her on the chair beside me. I look down at the wilted candlewick flowers in the vase. More petals have fallen. I’m not sure what to say. She sighs and shakes her head.

“And just so you know, young lady,” she squeezes my hand gently and sniffles.

“I am forever in debt to you,” she says slowly, while she tries to fight back her tears. I look at her, and the fuzziness in my head stills. There’s so much emotion in her eyes. She wipes away a tear and I blink, trying to connect the dots.  ˚　. 　 ˚

I knew when I made my choice that night she could reach him. I knew the feeling I had was important. I didn’t have to think twice about doing it. It was that feeling of responsibility—of having the power to do something, even if it would have cost me everything. There was a small voice in my head telling me not to worry, which was odd because I love to worry so much. Perhaps the hope Leia had planted in my brain six months ago, had finally decided to bloom.

“He…is he..he’s here? …It worked?” I ask gently, my eyes searching her face. She nods and pats the hand she’s holding. Funny how no one had mentioned that to me during their visits. That explains why Rose and Kaydel were acting so weird. The recruit.

“Oh, shit,” I softly laugh in surprise and turn to face her. She laughs back.

“Oh shit is right,” she says, wiping her tears and sitting back in her chair. I play with the ends of my hair as I try to process all of this. Maybe it wasn’t such a dumb thing to do after all. My eyes travel back to her face. She looks tired, but it seems she’s fully recovered from the incident. My eyes flicker to her cane. I feel a knot in my throat. I wonder how she must feel.

“Are…are you okay? Has everything been okay?” I ask.

She takes a deep breath and looks down. I guess that was a loaded question. She sighs and looks up at me.

“It’s been two weeks, and I can’t seem to get him to talk to anyone—really talk—besides Rey. He barely leaves the room. I just can’t seem to…” she shakes her head and pats my leg.

“Dette, don’t worry about us. You need to focus on recovering,” she says, resting her elbow on the arm of the chair. I scrunch my nose at her and lean back on my pillows.

“I can do both. I have just been lying here for a week. And Cano said I could be released today if everything is good,” my eyes dart to the door, hoping that Cano will return any minute now with my test results.

“And I’m still a good listener,” I say as I sit up straighter. I adjust my pillow, fold my hands in my lap, and turn back towards her.

“Go on,” I say, gesturing for her to continue.

She laughs and shakes her head.

“Yes, you’re definitely back to normal. Still stubborn as ever,” she jokes. I smile at her.

“Mhm, so what you’re saying is that because you are General, and you said I’m back to normal, then I can go back to my tent, then spend the rest of the day in the gardens. Yes, that’s what I heard so—,” I say, going to move my legs off the bed. Leia stops me.

“Uh, uh. Back in bed,” she says, pointing to me. I move my legs back and fake pout. Leia chuckles and takes a sip of her tea. I’m glad to hear her laugh.

I play with the seam of my blanket and can’t help but say something. I grab my tea from the table.

“I know it probably hasn’t been easy, for you…or him,” My eyes are glued to my tea. I’m worried about her. I can tell she feels conflicted. She’s wanted this for so long. I’m sure it’s hard to feel so happy for him to be back, but I can’t imagine he’s anywhere near okay. I take a sip of my tea and let the warm liquid relax me.

Leia shakes her head, “No it hasn’t,” she sets her tea down, “I have seen small glimpses of my boy, though,” she laughs and looks up at me. She has a look in her eye. Leia sometimes gets this specific look, like she’s up to something. I tilt my head at her. She hums in contentment as she holds her tea up to her lips.

“That’s…good,” I nod and give her a small smile. Leia is quiet, something is on her mind. I set my tea down.

“Leia, I’m sorry, I don’t mean to change the subject, but…how am I alive?” I ask. I feel like I shouldn’t be. Scientifically, medically—it doesn’t make sense.

“I still feel pretty weak, but I know I’ll regain my strength in time. But…why do I feel normal? Like, back to myself already. How is that possible? Like, this quickly?” I ask her. I’m not exactly well-versed in this subject, but it doesn’t seem possible. Leia stares down at the candlewicks. I watch her, I can almost see the gears turning in her head.

“You’re stronger than you think. But, even I’m not sure. Cano said he hasn’t seen a recovery like yours, but of course, your situation is unique,” she explains. I go back to nervously playing with the seam of the blanket over me. This anxiety I feel makes me want to rip all of these threads out.

“I’m sorry, Dette. We had to tell him. It was the only way he could try to help,” she says, her eyes apologetic. I nod.

“No, no, I understand,” I say, giving her a weak smile. A knock at the door interrupts us. I release the blanket and smooth it over my legs.

“Good morning, ladies,” Cano says cheerfully. I smile at him and Leia greets him. I tuck the blanket under my feet, something I’ve done ever since I was a child. As long as my feet are tucked, I’m safe.

“So Odette, after running some tests and seeing how you’ve improved behaviorally the past few days, I’d say you’re ready to be released if you feel ready,” he says. I squeal and sit up a bit taller. See? Tucked feet always do the trick.

Leia holds her hand up.

“Aht, but there are limitations, right?” she asks Cano. I push my lips together and narrow my eyes at her. She knows how much I want to be back in the gardens. She knows how hard it is for me to sit still.

How silly of me to think she wouldn’t baby me even after I left the infirmary.

She turns to me and gives me a wink. I toss my hair over my shoulder and roll my eyes, but smile back at her.

Yes, I was annoyed by these limitations.

But oh, how I’ve missed being babied by Leia Organa.

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[stardustfairytale]

Resistance reborn is the Endgame of Star Wars because it disrespects every character, has horrible writing and shouldn't really exist.

Orb, the way I snorted when I opened my inbox and saw this. But yes, that's it exactly. The fact that it is so frequently lauded as the best expanded material piece in the sequel era, especially if you like Poe, drives me up a wall. It is so disrespectful to legitimately almost every character it writes, and with how racist and sexist the book is, I genuinely believe it's only so popular because of the blatant queerbaiting that Rebecca Roanhorse gleefully takes part in.

Like, by the time this book came out, I do believe Oscar was already discussing in interviews how disappointed he was that they didn't go the route of Poe and Finn being together romantically (I mean..don't quote me on that, I haven't paid a lot of attention to the press tours since 2017 because I can't handle any mention of Carrie, but I'm fairly certain it was), and working with Lucasfilm directly, she would've known or had some idea about what was or wasn't going to be canon, but still essentially wrote the book as "pre-relationship finnpoe", insinuating strongly something was going to happen. which didn't. she should be a cw writer.

Like I deeply, deeply do not understand how this book is so sexist and racist. The author is a woman of color? And yet the book exists to serve as nothing but 300 pages of her torturing Poe* because of his crimes of "didn't listen to two white women (oh, the horror) who are put on pedestals in the novel and can do no wrong" while every other woman is reduced to stereotypical tropes (Rey is shy, Kaydel is a sensible girl led astray by the bad boy, Suralinda is a Party Girl, Karé is the level-headed wife to her husband's short temper, Jessika is Angry And Likes Hitting People, and Rose is a little bit Snide and Condescending. Let's not even touch on how badly butchered Maz gets by the novel), and Finn is...uh. well he's there?

*oh and lets not forget the constant objectification of him repeatedly throughout the novel including having him sexually harassed by the two people who either physically assaulted him OR gleefully wanted him killed!!!

I do think it says a lot that the one person in the entire novel that I feel like Roanhorse wrote with any level of genuine respect was Wedge Antilles. The white thin guy in a "straight" relationship is the only one she wrote with any amount of respect. Appalling.

[jennysparksandtheauthority]

Seeing the lack of wlw fics in the Marvel universe is always depressing BUT since AO3 is celebrating the International Fandoms Feedback Fest Day 2022 and seeing mainly m/m slash and het ships in the recs, I’m gonna share some of my ALL TIME WLW FICS FROM VARIOUS FANDOMS, Marvel or not, just because, and focusing especially on BLACKHILL but with a touch of everything I love. Some of them are pretty rare pairs but bear with me. They’re awesome.

Let’s go…

Supercorp (Kara Danvers/Lena Luthor):

OATH OF OFFICE by UninspiredPoet — Awfully sexy President/Bodyguard AU with a perfect slow burn. This one’s fire.

SEMIDEUS by lostariels — Wonderful angst with an unplanned pregnancy setting that turns out to be a wonderful character study.

BIZARRE LOVE TRIANGLE by powergrapes — AU set in New York City. Real angst, real odds, a little frustrating at times but VERY realistic especially when depicting girls trapped in abusive relationships with your typical Nice Guy™️.

SO METHING JUST LIKE THIS by Helpbutton95 — A kid from the future comes through a portal.

LOVE LIKE ON A SILVER SCREEN by powergrapes — Another wonderful AU from the master. A Bachelerotte one. Yes. You read right. It’s engaging. It’s fun. It’s angsty when it needs to be. Sexy. So very well-written. And a wonderful ride. Do not miss this one.

Chlodine (Chloe Frazer/Nadine Ross):

RISK VS REWARD by Armengard — They’re both idiots. They’re both smitten. Bad flirting and sexting (kinda). Just the best.

SOLDIERS OF FORTUNE by wankernumber9 — Post game. Soft and perfect. It’s canon.

Pricefield (Chloe Price/Max Caulfield):

TEAR YOU APART by explosionshark —They have sex. Max finds out she’s into something new.

AN ULTRAVIOLET WAY by raycats — Max has PTSD. They can’t have sex. Until they figure it out and it’s hot and sweet and so them.

WE’VE ONLY GOT THIS HUNDRED YEARS by stiction — Five times Max rewound time to preserve the sanctity of friendship, and one time she didn't.

RANDIVOR (Eivor/Randvi):

MADDENING LOVE by Natterina. Randvi looks at the smirk on Eivor’s lips, the confidence in the line of her shoulders, and it hits her with all the force of being kicked in the chest. She married the wrong one.

MASS EFFECT ANDROMEDA (Sara Ryder/Suvi Anwar):

WEAKNESS VERSUS STRENGTH by Rogue Solo. Listen here folks. This is A VERY SPECIAL REC. Of course Andromeda wasn’t as popular as the previous ME games. And though most people chose Peebee as the wlw option for female!Ryder, the romance with Suvi was super cute and wholesome. But this fic right here? This masterpiece?! OMG the angst, the pacing, the action, the plot, the love, the sex, the tension… even if you don’t know a thing about these characters just do yourself a favor and read some fandom wiki entries about them and deep dive into this story because it’s just magnificent. That’s it. That’s my gift to you.

Shiara (Commander Shepard/Liara T’Soni)

YOUNG by Angeli1_hp — In the two years since the Normandy was destroyed, Liara has found happiness in the darkness of Illium with the only thing she has left of Shepard.

FIVE TIMES (SHEPARD AND LIARA WERE INTERRUPTED) by RaeDMagdon — Five times Shepard and Liara were interrupted by their friends during private moments.

LIKE IT’S HALLELUJAH by montparnasse — At the end of the world, a woman walks into a bar… it’s sweet and heartbreaking at the same time but one of those stories that makes you smile for a very long time.

Star Wars Skywalker Saga (Kaydel Ko Connix/Rey - Leia/Holdo)

WHEN LIGHTNING STRIKES ME by orphan_account :_( — Kaydel/Rey. A sort of rewriting of the new trilogy. Super sweet.

THERE SHOULD JUST BE ONE SAFE PLACE IN THE WORLD by buckstiel — if you wanna go down the Holdo/Leia rabbit hole this is perfect. References Leia: Princess of Alderaan (a pretty damn good book btw).

Shoot (Root/Sameen Shaw):

LIKE LOCKED HORNS by journaliar — Root and Shaw navigate their bond through snippets and feelings they can’t describe but they eventually make peace with it.

Danbeau (Carol Danvers/Maria Rambeau)

FLYING HOMEWARD DOWN YOUR HIGHWAY by gdgdbaby — It was bad enough to be a black woman in the Air Force, they used to joke. Being gay made her a triple threat.

WHEN GRAVITY MEETS THE GROUND by buckyjerkbarnes — Carol and Maria- before, during, and after the events of Captain Marvel.

Terminator: Dark Fate (Dani Ramos/Grace Harper)

CALM BEFORE THE STORM by sliferthegaydragon — Tortured by their struggle and the fear of what lies ahead, Dani finds comfort in the arms of the woman who has never left her side.

BRING BACK THE GOOD by Vulcanodon — This is amazing just because of the “resurrect your gays” tag. Dani and Grace reunite. Somehow.

Blackhill (Maria Hill/Natasha Romanoff) aka the OTP

GONE TO THE DOGS by Avesnongrata and Woodface — The Blackhill bible. A perfect study on their dynamics and a wonderful read from start to finish that this fandom (tiny but so talented) holds dear to our hearts.

WHERE THE DEVIL DON’T GO by betts — In this cop AU nothing and no one is what it seems.

RED by waldorph — A wonderful study on Natasha, closer to the comics than to the MCU. Maria is also more comic-inspired. And it’s just so wonderful.

A HILL CALLED HOME by BadGoose — An unfinished retelling of the MCU with Blackhill, a lot of comedy, a wonderful and teasing slow burn and better plot than the MCU itself. Updates regularly.

WEEKEND PLANS by Avesnongrata — Another “Aves classic” of them getting together but being their usual emotionally unavailable idiots. One of my comfort fics.

FLAWED ENOUGH BUT PERFECT FOR A PERSON by Crimsoncat — The hottest “pollen sex” fic ever written with a tension and a build up between Maria and Nat that will make you bite your nails and scream for more. Not finished. But we don’t care. It’s a masterpiece the way it is and an instant blackhill classic.

THE WAY THAT IT GOES [WHAT NOBODY KNOWS] by sinandmisery — Natasha doesn’t know she’s dating Maria. Or does she?

I WASN’T EXPECTING THAT by Dancing_Bean — Alien tech. A freak accident. Cue Nat pregnant with Maria’s child. Sweet and fluffy.

MEANT FOR INDULGENCE by justanexercise — Before officially joining SHIELD, Natasha is given the luxury of a few days of R&R. What does an assassin with free time do? Roam around the streets, bored and find a willing body to have sex with, except with Natasha’s luck, she happens to sleep with a future co-worker.

BABY, ROUGH ME UP by leiascully — Sexy times with Natasha lying to herself because she’s not catching feelings. Sure.

THE COURAGE TO LOVE (LIKE A WOUND THAT NEVER HEALS) by Crimsomcat — Natasha and Maria end up with a telepathic link when experimental technology explodes. What could go wrong?

BABY, MAKING YOU JEALOUS IS SORT OF FUN by Perpetual Motion — What it says in the title. Natasha, you know you can’t help it.

LINE IN THE SAND by pumpkinnubbin — It’s just sex. Except Natasha catches feelings.

I DIDN’T KNOW I WAS STARVING (‘TIL I TASTED YOU) by Crimsomcat. Social media shenanigans lead to sweet, tender but mind-blowingly hot sex.

THE S.H.I.E.L.D. FILES series by writeratheart007301 — 150k words of amazing plot and Nat and Maria falling in love slowly but firmly. A new gem for the fandom.

BUFNAF: Break-up Fic Nobody Asked For series by BBKing — Ongoing. Breaking up because you can’t love yourself. Getting back together and trying to heal. Wonderful friendships the MCU didn’t give us like T’Challa and Nat. Food. Therapy. A special kind of series and, with time, a classic for its own merits.

Of course this is not the only classics/great recs one could find within these fandoms but these are just a few of my all-time favs. Go ahead and add yours here or in the Fandom Fest comments.

[And don’t forget to comment and leave kudos if you read any of these amazing works ♥️]

[lupines-slash-recs]

Rec: Course Correction by Kaydel

Rec: Course Correction by Kaydel

Title: Course Correction Author: Kaydel Canon: The Mummy Pairing: Ardeth Bay/Jonathan Carnahan Rating: Teen [PG] Word Count: 3,490 Summary: Jonathan really is serious about staying away from tombs and mummies this time (except trouble always seems to find him). Good thing Ardeth is there to help him stay on-track. (more…)

[rippler3]

You might be joking but there's an actual fanfic with this premise.

sometimes people discover their kinks in unexpected situations

all the episodes

(src: text: blooper from Parks and Recreation 3x13 - link, altered; pics: deleted scene from SW8)

[gooddaykate]

My Heart Seeks Yours

Poe Dameron x fem! reader

Summary: You and Poe were best friends. You confessed your feelings for him and he rejected you. After running away and spending years apart, you are reunited when he joins the Resistance.

Author's Note: Nothing, really... it's angsty. Actually I lied, there is one warning, and that's the fact that this may never be finished. So it may be an angsty cliffhanger forever, sorry. Also? Bless @its-the-darkest-timeline for liking my question of if this was even wanted- thanks bb

cross-posted on ao3

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Growing up on Yavin 4 with Poe Dameron had made you wild.

Running spice on Kajimi with Poe Dameron had made you reckless.

Working your way up to Colonel in the Resistance without Poe Dameron had made you disciplined. And you had done it all on your own. You had left Poe in the Thieves’ Quarter one night without a word and hadn’t looked back. If your heart yearned for someone you knew you couldn’t have, well, that was nobody’s business.

It had been years since you had seen or even heard about Poe. And frankly, that was fine by you.  It didn’t mean you thought about him any less, but one could dream.

Someone cleared their throat and broke you out of your  thoughts. You looked up from your datapad to see Lieutenant Connix. “Colonel, the General has requested an audience. There is a new squadron of recruits from the New Republic.”

“Pilots?” you asked her with a sigh.

Kaydel smirked back at you. “Pilots.”

The General looked up from the reports she was focused on when you entered high command.

“Oh, good, I’m glad you’re here. I’m sure the Lieutenant filled you in on the new squadron. I want you to take them under your wing. Particularly their leader. He is rash, but passionate. We could certainly use some passion.”

“Yes, General.”

She sent a soft  smile your way. “How many times do I have to tell you to call me Leia, dear?”

“One more time, ma’am.”

Her eyebrows raised, but she continued with another soft smile and a shake of her head. “The commander is a phenomenal pilot. I’ve heard he might even be better than you, Colonel.”

You huffed out a laugh, “We’ll see about that, ma’am.”

She hummed and reached out to pat your arm. “I’m sure you will. He’s the son of Shara Bey.”

Dread settled in your stomach. “Shara Bey? Really.” Your voice cracked in the middle of her name, but Leia didn’t mention it.

“Oh, yes. I’m sure you know she led the defense on Naboo and helped my brother with a Jedi errand before she retired. I think she actually settled on your home planet.”

“Ah, yes ma’am. Yavin 4. I knew Mrs. Dameron before… you know. We were neighbors. She’s who taught me to fly.”

Leia’s eyes lit up. “Then you know Poe already. Sometimes the galaxy feels much smaller than it is, doesn’t it?”

“It certainly can.” 

“Well, enjoy this little reunion.” With a wave of her hand, she dismissed you to the flight deck.

Faced with seeing the man who once knew you best, your mind was in a panic. The memories of the night you left had been on a constant loop since Leia had said he was here.

He had come into your room gushing about one of the other runners- the leader’s daughter. 

“She’s incredible. She really is. I think I could probably love her.”

Any time Poe would speak to you about Zorii, your stomach tied up in knots, and this time was no exception. You had come to terms that he might mean more to you than friends, but in that moment, you actually felt your heart break.

You plastered on your best smile, even though you knew he’d be able to see right through it.

“Good for you, bud. Do you know how she feels?”

His eyes were narrowed and he gave you a skeptical look. “I know she likes me.”

Your breath caught in your throat but you powered through. You gave his arm a light punch. “How could she not? You’re Poe kriffing Dameron!”

“What’s wrong?”

With your best noncommittal shrug, you got up from your bed that the two of you were sitting on. “Why would something be wrong, Poe?”

“I don’t know, why would something be wrong?”

You scoffed, but refused to turn around and met his eyes. “I don’t know what you’re getting at, Poe.”

Poe was quiet for a moment longer. It made you startle when he put his hand on your shoulder because you hadn’t heard him get up. “You can talk to me about whatever’s going on, Bug. I can help you with whatever it is.”

A sad smile crossed your face, and Poe’s eyes became concerned. “Not with this, bud. You can’t help with this.”

“Bug, come on. You’re worrying me. You know I can fix anything.”

“Well, don’t worry.” You shrugged his hand off your shoulder and still hadn’t met his eyes. “What makes you so sure I even want you to help, Poe? There’s a reason I haven’t told you about it.”

“I- We tell each other everything, though. Are you- are you in some sort of trouble? Is it Zeva?”

“Maker, alive. No, Poe, I am not in any sort of trouble with Zeva or anyone else. I just don’t want to talk about it.”

He ducked his head enough that you were forced to make eye contact with him. “Bug, I’m worried because I care. Please, just talk to me.”

“You care,” you scoffed back at him.

“Of course I care!” Poe was pleading with you, now, his dark eyes vulnerable.  “You’ve been my best friend since we were kids.”

He put his hands on your shoulders and dragged you forward so that he could rest his forehead on yours. He stood there quiet for a moment with his eyes closed. “You mean everything to me.”

“You’ll look at me differently, Poe. I know you will. And I never want that to happen,” you whispered back.

A single tear fell down your cheek as he pulled his face away from yours. “Talk to me, sweetheart. Nothing could ever come between the two of us.” He swiped the tear away with his thumb and said your name, your real name, with such tenderness that your resolve broke.

“You aren’t mine… but sometimes I pretend you wish you were. I pretend that you secretly want me, too. I regularly forget that it’s something I’ve made up, that you don’t want me. That you aren’t mine.”

“I don’t-”

“I’m in love with you, Poe,” you said plainly. “I have been since we were kids.” More tears were falling, now, and you were helpless to stop them. “Maker, why do you think I followed you to Kajimi? Do you really think I want to be here? That I want to be a criminal?”

Poe dropped his hands and took a step back. “But I thought-”

“But it’s never me. You never see me.”

“Bug, that’s not- I can’t just- I have to- because Zorii-”

He looked panicked, and you turned so you wouldn’t have to face him anymore.

When Poe still didn’t say anything, your shoulders fell even more. “I think maybe you should leave, Poe,” you whispered.

You heard him take a step forward, and you knew that if you turned around, he’d have a hand out reaching for you. “Can I-”

“Please go.”

“Bug, please.”

Poe’s voice sounded as tortured as you felt, but you just wanted to cry in peace. Maybe his rejection would feel less painful, then. “Poe, please leave.”

You heard his hand drop and he sighed. “Okay.” Your door opened and it was quiet again. “Promise me something?”

And because it was Poe asking, you couldn’t help but oblige. You turned your head so he knew you were listening.

“Promise me the next time I see you, we’ll talk about this. There are… things to say. Things you need to know.”

“Sure, Poe.”

“I’m going to hold you to that. You mean everything to me. That will never change.”

“Okay, Poe.”

The room was quiet for a moment longer and you could feel his eyes on the back of your neck. Only when he closed the door behind him did you collapse in on yourself. You curled yourself into a ball and cried for what felt like a lifetime. When you couldn’t cry anymore, you straightened yourself out and got to work packing the small amount of personal belongings you had brought with you from home. If you were gone come morning, there wouldn’t be anything to talk about.

With another cursory glance around the quarters you tried to pretend were home, you headed into the frigid Kajimi weather to catch a transport shuttle to anywhere.

On the third (or maybe fourth- you don’t remember, now) transport you hopped on to disperse any trail you left behind, you met Snap. He was on his way to reunite with his mother after having been separated from her for a number of years. You didn’t want to speak to anyone, but Snap didn’t care; he did all the talking anyway. He told you about his battle droid, Mister Bones. He told you about how his parents were taken from him, and how he was going to join the rebels with her. Then his voice fell to a hush and he asked if you’d like to come with him

Just like that, you had a new home and a new best friend.

You kept your head down, for the most part, but then you did something equally brave and stupid. You got noticed. You’d noticed an anomaly in a report. And when you looked into it, you noticed it again and again, going back for several months. The closer you looked, the more malicious it seemed.

As quietly as possible, you had requested an audience with the General. Even if it ended up being nothing, you didn’t want to trust anyone else with it.

When the General promoted you all the way to major, she explained it away with a shrug of her shoulders and a “that’s what ousting a First Order spy will get you”. When she promoted you to commander and then to colonel, she only had proud tears shining in her eyes. Leia wasn’t without her moments of mischief, though, and you had a sinking feeling that she’d already known at least some of your history with Shara Bey’s son.

You were just going to have to hope he didn’t recognize you- or better yet, not even remember you.

The flight deck was a mess of bodies when you finally willed yourself down there. Snap had inserted himself somewhere in the chaos- you could hear him, but not see him. When the resistance pilots noticed your presence, it was with immediate attention. You had earned your place and their respect, and they knew it.

There were only a few voices still heard, one of which you knew to be the man you still pined after, all these years later. They caught on to the quiet relatively quickly, and when Snap saw you, he beamed.

It was like time slowed down. He was turning and any moment, your eyes would meet for the first time in years. The building smile froze on his face and his helmet clattered to the floor as soon as he saw who was standing in front of him. The two of you just looked at each other, and you could see the anger settling in his features. The rest of the people on the flight deck were watching the two of you, waiting to see what would happen. You would never put it past him to make a scene, so you opted to address the deck before he could.

You gave the new pilots your name. “I am your colonel. I have earned that rank here, so you will address me as such. The General and I may see fit to disband your current squadron and place you as individuals on other teams. Captains Pava and Wexley are your current commanding officers. We need good pilots, that is irrefutably true. We also need good people. I hope each and every one of you finds your place here,” your eyes roamed the faces in front of you, and you purposely skipped over Poe. “If you need anything, the captains or I can answer any questions you may have, as well as Vice Admiral Holdo.”

“The colonel’s really not as much of a hard-ass as she sounds,” Snap piped up from his spot near the back of the group.

Despite yourself, Snap’s joke had the beginnings of a grin starting on your face. “Thank you for that addition, Captain Wexley.” With a small shake of your head, you straightened yourself back to your rank. “Your training starts at 0500 tomorrow morning. In the meantime, the captains will show you to your new bunks,” you nodded in farewell. “Until tomorrow, everyone. May the Force be with you.”

Again, you refused to meet Poe’s eyes. You’d made it most of the way down the corridor while he called out both your name and his nickname for you, and when you still didn’t stop for him, he yelled out, “Colonel!” Your body stopped and your heart clenched. But you could do this. You were a colonel in the resistance, for maker’s sake. You could face the man you… 

You turned toward him jogging to reach you. “How can I help you?”

Poe’s eyes were dark with emotion. “Really? That’s all you have to say to me? You owe me a conversation and you know it.”

“I’m a busy woman, so by all means, say what you need to say.”

“You left. You promised me- but then you just left. I was going to- You deserved to know. But you left me. I didn’t even know you were alive.”

“You could have asked Kes. I’m sure he knew. Our fathers never could keep secrets from each other.”

There were tears gathering in Poe’s eyes, and you made yourself look anywhere but at him so you wouldn’t give away your own heart.

“Why did you leave me behind, Bug?” he whispered.

“I didn’t belong there. We both knew that.”

“If you weren’t happy, you should have told me!” his voice rose in volume until it echoed around the deck. You took a step toward him with your hand raised, trying to get him to keep his tone lowered.

“Oh, yes, and we would have gone home and you would have resented me for taking away your adventure!” you hissed.

Poe’s eyes were sad when you looked back up at him. “I never would have resented you. You meant everything to me,” he shifted on his feet and looked down. “You still do.”

“Maybe so, but I couldn’t stay. And I’m not really sure you wanted me there, either, seeing as you had your budding romance.”

He scoffed and looked away from you, his jaw shifting. “Zorii had nothing to do with anything. If you’d’ve stayed, you would have known that.” He sighed your name and reached for you, like no time had passed between you. You let him hold your hand, his fingers tracing the lines of your palm. His voice was quiet when he spoke again. “Did you ever- did you think of me?”

Your body shuttered out a sob, not able to hold it in anymore, and he continued. “I thought of you- every moment of every day. I prayed to every god I knew of that you were safe. That you were alive. Maker, I died that day, knowing you’d left me. And that I was the reason you’d gone.” His eyes were misty when he looked up from where his fingers still traced your hand. “I’ve missed you. I missed you like my soul was ripped from my body. Like I’ve lost you in every single lifetime. And knowing it was because you didn’t know, because I had never thought to hope. It was torture, Bug.”

When he reached up to brush a tear from your face, another sob tore from you.

“Please,” you whispered. “Please just let me be. I wouldn’t survive a second time.”

Poe’s hand was still holding yours and his eyes were pleading with you to listen and understand him. “There is no pretending. I love you. I loved you then and I love you now. I will love you until I die, and if there is life after that, I will love you then, too.”

Your breath was coming out in short gasps, unable to find purchase in your lungs. Everything you’d ever desperately dreamed of hearing from him, all the hope you’d ever poured into the unrequited love for your best friend. But you couldn’t do this again. You had snuffed out the hope in yourself, and you wouldn’t let yourself be dragged back in.

So when he asked, with all the love you’d ever hoped to be returned to you shining in his eyes, “do you think you could ever love me again?”, you would never forget the pain, the heartbreak clear as day on his face as you responded. “Of course I could, and I hate myself for it."

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Earis Recs 3.1 - Sex Pollen. That's It. That's the Rec.

There’s something pure about sex pollen fic. It’s just compulsory fucking. That’s it. I’ve often joked that sex pollen walked so that A/B/O could run, but sex pollen does not have the societal complications of A/B/O and certainly does not require alternate anatomies. Sex pollen can run the gamut from crack fic (oh no, we’ve wandered into this mysterious greenhouse together what will happen) to heavy plot-driving devices (oh no, we’re mortal enemies who have been forced to have sex maybe we should work together.) Sex pollen can be considered to be a subset of a larger aphrodisiac-related trope. In aphrodisiac fics, there are all sorts of entities causing the need to fuck - including sand, moth dust, aphrodiasiac sap, alien pheremones, etc.. And while it usually rides the line of dub-con/non-con, it doesn’t have to mean that the characters themselves are forcing themselves on each other (at least until one party doses the other(s) without consent).

For my first iteration of this theme, I will be focusing on classic sex pollen in Reylo (but there will be background pairings, which I will note). 6 full fics plus a 7th microfic/drabble. As always, if you think there is a tag I missed, please let me know. And for some of these authors, I could not find them on Twitter or Tumblr, so please let me know if I’m missing someone.

General Warning: For sex pollen, most of these recs are dub-con, verging on non-con. Please read the tags in the fic!

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1. This Dust Survives

Author: RedRoseWhite; Twitter

Rey has houseplants in her pod on Ajan Kloss. She starts have sex with her friends. She learns about love, friendship, loyalty, strength, and kindness. When the Force Bond opens, she shares what she has learned with Ben and brings him home. While Rey is definitely horny because of the plants, she does not regret what she has done. I love this fic because it is sweet and languid and sexy in the best way. It does have non-Reylo sex, but the true emotional connection here is Rey and Ben and it is Reylo HEA.

Pairing: Reylo, Rey/Rose, Rey/Kaydel/Poe, Rey/Original Male Character Status: Complete Rating: Explicit Warning: Dub-con due to sex pollen

2. Avaritia

Author: bbl8te; Twitter; Tumblr

Rey is lost and stranded on an unknown planet. In a panic, she reaches out through the Force to Kylo. When he gets there, he realizes that Rey has been exposed to a plant that causes living things to want to have sex. This fic a great example of one of my favorite sex pollen tropes - when one of the characters realizes what is going on and tries valiantly to resist the pull of the sex pollen, despite the fact that they want the other person, even without the botanical encouragement. Kylo Ren is tinged with sadness here and feels resigned to violence, but Rey brings him to a more hopeful place.

Pairing: Reylo Status: Complete Rating: Explicit Warning: Dub-con due to sex pollen

3. L’etrange affair de Venerem Pollini

Author: ELopez; Twitter; Tumblr Language: French

Translated into English - The Strange Affair of Venerem Pollini

Translated by: ELopez, with help from Everren (Twitter; Tumblr) and annonna

Regency Era Sex Pollen AU. Need I say more?

Okay, okay. Miss Rose Tiloy-Connor needs Euryale Palpatine to chaperone her when she and her suitor Lord Armitage Huxley visit a greenhouse to witness the blooming of a rare flower rumored to be the incarnation of a fertility goddess. Unfortunately for Euryale, the utterly unbearable Lord Benvolio Kylopold Soloren is there with Hux. Hopefully the beautiful flower’s blooming will provide some much-needed entertainment.

Pairing: Reylo, Gingerrose, various other background characters Status: Complete Rating: Explicit Warning: Dub-con due to sex pollen, public sex, public orgy, period typically attitudes towards extra marital sex

4. Blue Flowers and Silver Skin

Author: blueyedgurl

FUCK OR DIE. Ugh, what a great fuck or die sort of medieval AU. Rey is looking for a specific flower to make a potion. The flower, she knows, has a pollen that, if encountered, makes people want to fuck, and if they don’t, they will perish. She’s carefully harvesting the flowers when the local woodsman, Ben, comes into the clearing, covered in pollen. Whatever will happen?

Pairing: Reylo Status: Complete Rating Explicit Warning: Dub-con due to sex pollen, rough sex, somnophilia

5. Apart From My Beating Heart

Author: ReyloRobin2011

A post-TROS fix-it fic (sort of). After facing Palpatine, Ben and Rey escape Exegol in the decrepit X-Wing. They crash land on a planet with some very interesting trees and are overwhelmed with desire. This fic is lyrical and lovely, especially for a sex pollen fic. The sex is wonderful, and the ending strangely happy.

Pairing: Reylo Status: Complete Rating: Explicit Warning: Dub-con due to sex pollen, mild somnophilia

6. Unto Dust

Author: LyricalRiot; Twitter; Tumblr

Post TLJ, Rey is searching the galaxy for works that can help her learn about the Force. She lands on a planet with the promise of deep knowledge about the Force, but her journey brings her into a cave populated by plants with a very specific purpose - increase fertility by causing a driving desire to have sex. Unfortunately, the desire for sexual pleasure is so intense that people exposed to the plant will waste away from dehydration while they are trying to satisfy their appetites. Hey, what do you know - it’s FUCK OR DIE again! When Rey is affected, the Force bond opens and Kylo recognizes where Rey is and what is happening. In addition to some very hot sex, this fic has great character work, as the two of them try to find a common ground.

Pairing: Reylo Status: Complete Rating: Explicit Warning: Dub-con due to sex pollen

AND A BONUS MIICROFIC (DRABBLE)

7. Allergic (part 4 of Cap’s Explicit Reylo Microfics)

Author: CaptainMarvel42; Twitter; Tumblr

Basically, Rey’s been exposed to flower pollen and is sooooo horny. Kylo won’t touch her.

Pairing: Reylo Status: Complete Rating: Explicit Warning: Dub-con due to sex pollen, voyeurism

[castlevader]

Hey! I saw your requests were open and I'm in a Poe mood. So could I request an angst Poe Dameron fix with prompt #89 “i find myself breaking more each day.”

Ps I hope your day is going great!

▸ AUTHOR NOTE. first of all, thank you for sending this request !! i was in a very bad mode and writing it helped me a bit ( if that makes sense for anybody lmao ), i wasn’t sure who got to say that phrase so yeah, i hope you like it either way. take care <3

▸ FANDOM. star wars

▸ CHARACTERS. poe dameron x gn!reader

▸ RATING. sfw

▸ WARNINGS. poe misses leia and feels like he doesn’t fit as general, not proofread and yeah, it probably sucks i truly mean it i’m sorry

you just walked down the falcon’s ramp. rey was right behind you and chewie appeared too, following the two of you.

“gonna find poe, see you two later!” you said and waved at them. “alright!” rey nodded and watched you walking away for a moment, then joined chewie and started checking the falcon for any possible damage.

you reached the dorms area and walked over poe’s door. you knocked and waited patiently, playing with your fingers. you haven’t seen each other for five whole rotations and you couldn’t wait to be in his arms.

the door hissed open and you jumped right into his arms, hugging him. poe didn’t hesitated and hugged you back, slowly pulling you into his dorm.

“oh, i missed you so much,” you said against his chest, your hands moved to his hair and slowly caressed it. “i missed you too,” he said and caressed your back.

“what about your mission?” you asked, checking if he was hurt or anything. “alright, what about yours?” you nodded, smiling softly. “pretty good.”

poe nodded, caressed your cheek and then turned around. bb-8 rolled through the door and welcomed you with happy beeps, you kneeled and smiled at him, saying hi to him.

“so, poe,” you said with a hint of excitement in your voice, “what if we–” he turned around and you shut up noticing he wasn’t that eager to listen. “did something happen, love?” you walked closer and gently grabbed his face. his eyes seemed more tired than usual and he seemed on the verge of crying.

“i find myself breaking more each day,” you stared at him for a moment, trying to find the right words to comfort him. “baby, i-i know how hard it was for you and you know i’m always here to help you,” you made him sit down on the bed and kneeled in front of him. “you have me, kaydel, finn, rey and chewie,” you took one of his hand and tangled your fingers together. “i wish i could be like her,” he whispered, sighing.

“poe, baby, you’re amazing just the way you are,” you firmly said, making sure to meet his eyes. “you do what you think is best and you always care about others, we all know that, and we appreciate it, really,” you paused and kissed his lips, squeezing his hand.

“i miss leia so much, i feel like i’m not doing good and that someone else would fit better than me,” he said and you quickly wiped away his tears, you felt your chest aching seeing him like this.

“it’s okay, you have to do what you want and what makes you feel better. nobody will hate you or think anything bad- i’ll beat their ass in any case,” you made him chuckle and you smiled at him, “i love you and i’ll always be by your side, whatever you do,” you assured him and then kissed poe again, his hand reached your face and he gently caressed your cheek.

“can we just stay here and like… hold each other?” he finally asked once you broke the kiss. “oh, well, i was pretty tired so that’s fine,” you nodded and took off your shoes.

you both laid down and you put your head on his chest, hugging his torso. bb-8 decided to stay, and it didn’t bothered you at all.

“he’s like our child,” you chuckled and patted the droid’s head. “smarter than you, without doubt,” you turned towards him, gasping dramatically. “excuse me? i’m not a droid!” you pushed him, making poe laugh. “thanks the force!” he joked and you turned your back to him, pretending to be offended.

“thank you,” he hugged you from behind and you couldn’t help but smile widely, closing your eyes and enjoy the embrace. you two silently stayed like this, cuddling together.

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"I let her steal into my melancholy heart"

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by Anonymous

Rachel (Rey) Kenobi and Benjamin Solo have been engaged since they were children and used to be close. But ever since Ben entered adulthood he has been cold and distant, leading Rachel to believe he no longer cares for her. The truth is that Ben believes he is protecting Rachel from himself.

Words: 6407, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/M

Characters: Rey (Star Wars), Ben Solo | Kylo Ren, Satine Kryze, Obi-Wan Kenobi, Kaydel Ko Connix, Armitage Hux, Tahiri Veila, Leia Organa, Padmé Amidala, Luke Skywalker, Anakin Skywalker

Relationships: Rey/Ben Solo | Kylo Ren

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Historical, Alternate Universe - Victorian, Angst and Fluff and Smut, friends to strangers to lovers, Werewolf Ben Solo, Lord Ben Solo, Lady Rey, Yorkshire, Arranged Marriages, canon age gap, Bodice-Ripper, Rey & Ben Solo are Childhood Friends, Tahiri flirts with Ben, But Ben loves Rey, Mutual Pining, Misunderstandings, Ben thinks he's no good for Rey, Runaway Bride, bridal carry, Rey sprains her ankle., Gretna Green, Wolves, The author took many liberties with History, minor mention of Ben killing animals and wounding people, Anakin wounded Padme, Knotting, Imprinting, Mating, Brief references to Rey’s parents dying of Cholera, Partial moster fucking because the author is a baby, Explicit Sexual Content, Penis In Vagina Sex is human only, gentle biting, Reylo Baby at the end, Happy Ending, Alternate Universe - Werewolf

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[reylofanfictionanthology]

TO FIND YOUR KISS IS NOW LIVE!  

Authors will be revealed next week!  For now all fics are anonymous.  Treats can be posted through author reveals on 2/21.  We will post an updated masterpost at that time.

To Find Your Kiss collection on AO3 | Treats Masterpost

GIFT FIC MASTERPOST

- Reap the Stars for abbytheatre08

The prompt: After Ben's death, Rey goes mad and turns to the dark side. Only Ben's not dead anymore. ----------------------- She is consuming fire, magnificent in her rage. She will burn the galaxy to its foundations, until the ashes rain down and pile high as mountains. She will gather them into bouquets and scatter them like petals upon his grave.

He will be remembered, and they will not.

Call him The Light Bearer and Joy Giver. Call him He Who Loved and Laid Down His Life. Call him Ben.

- we are question marks that hang above the endless unexplained for AlwaysEverlark

The first time she walked into his club, she was looking for a job. Kylo took one look at her—the stubborn pout of her lip, the determined glint in her eyes, the ruddy glow of her face where the sun had kissed it—and swallowed a lump in his throat that was shaped like the words you’re too good for this place.

They needed a singer. Kira Johnson could hold a tune, knew the old standards, and had a knockout pair of tits to boot. A few slinky ballgowns and a touch of lipstick, and she’d more than do the trick of distracting suckers long enough to part them from their money.

The club solely needed to break even; anything they made on top of the Syndicate’s cut was gravy, and Kylo Ren had been lining his pockets with his own take for long enough that he could see Kira for the lump of clay that she was: rough-hewn, misshapen, but soft and supple and sure to curve under his touch.

- Eighty Bucks Says Sweetheart for Amoreusou

Ben likes puzzles. Rey needs help with a bunch of them. Good thing it's a slow day at the office.

- Seldom Visions for Andrina_Nightshade

After visiting an old Sith temple, Supreme Leader Kylo Ren has fallen into a deep sleep when he pricks his finger on the point of a red crystal. Rey become is the first to find him, but his rescuer isn't just any general or pilot, it's the woman he shares a soul with, who haunts his waking hours, who still sees him even in his sleep.

- The Dyad for aneighthdomain

Based of the Prompt: Groundhog Day scenario. Ben and Rey keep getting sent back to the first time they met and no matter what they do, Ben always dies so they stop trying to change events and just live a life time in the year between and couple of weeks and run away together.

- Saudade: The Love That Remains for AnneAnna

- The Delegation for aNerdObsessed

A humanitarian delegation from Naboo arrives at Niima Outpost. Rey is skeptical, to say the least.

- i don't want you like a best friend for anopendoor

It’s not like she hadn’t seen this coming—Rose told her weeks ago that he was invited. It was an inevitability Rey was always going to have to face, she just didn’t think that Rose would be so merciful as to also give every guest a plus one.

But Rey can’t really be upset—and she is totally, unequivocally not upset—that Ben's bringing someone because, well.

She is, too.

- Love is Weakness for bittersnake

“He’s someone I found on my recent trip to Corellia,” Rey replies placidly, her face practiced in its boredom. “It doesn’t mean anything.”

“Love is weakness,” her grandfather reminds her, the way he has for years. It’s why he doesn’t love her. He will not be weak. It’s why she doesn’t love him, either.

- in sickness and in health (with health being less likely) for BlueButterflyKisses

Deciding to spend the rest of their lives together is the easy part for both Rey and Ben; the trouble is in how to propose.

- Snowed In for Blueyedgurl

Never in her wildest dreams did Rey Johnson think she would ever get to meet her favorite other Kylo Ren. She also would have never entertained the idea of the scenario she found herself in. How did a hike in the woods lead to a snowstorm and taking shelter in a remote cabin in the woods? The idea was so ridiculous but had become reality. Stuck inside with a handsome stranger surrounded by a winter storm, Rey wonders what will happen with no power and only one bed. Will they be polite co-habitants stuck in a strange set of circumstances or is there room for something more?

- Curses, Comforts and Capybaras for Bombastique

Arrogant CEO bites off more than he can chew when he angers a witch... And suddenly finds himself transformed into a capybara. Can kindhearted wildlife rehabber Rey Niima help him break the curse?

- To Heal a Broken Soul for Cat2000

Ben survives the fallout of Exegol, but his connection to the physical world is in danger. Rey tends to him as she searched for a way to heal him.

- holding me like water in your hands for Ceallaigh

After Hux finds out Ben killed Snoke, Hux encases Ben in Carbonite. Rey refuses to let Ben stay frozen forever so she mounts a rescue.

- Like a Thief in the Night for chagrins

Their bond won't let them be alone. At least this time it's the middle of the night and they can't get into a shouting match.

- The Chance for Crysania

When Rey and Ben, long time co-workers who have never been able to admit their feelings to each other, go on a weekend retreat to work on a movie adaptation script together, a Nor’easter leaves them snowed in. On Valentine’s Day.

- Awake for cuddlesome

Something inside him is awake, and something inside her is about to wake up.

An alternate interrogation scene.

- darkness rises, and light to meet it for czechia

After the throne room, Jedi Ben Solo and Kira Ren meet again a year later.

- Not Quite a Fairytale for DarkMage13

Rey lets a stranger use the phone of the café she works at late one night. It changes the whole course of her life.

- You Won't Escape Me ('Cause I Set You Free) for DoorKeeper9

- The Canvas of Your Skin for darlingreadsalot

She was incapable of touching him without drawing blood, it seemed. Lines like vermillion paint streaked where her fingers sketched down the contours of his face, his back, and now his chest.

In which a Force bond is splintered, a resurrection goes wrong, a kiss is forgotten, and two almost-lovers avoid speaking for the better half of a year.

- Fleeing the Storm for driverfever

As the granddaughter of an merciless aristocrat, Rey’s life hangs on a thread at the hands of the French Revolutionaries. When her childhood friend, Ben, offers to platonically marry her in order to take her to his home in England to safety, she has no choice but to accept.

But her suitor and revolutionary Hux won’t give her up so easily. Hounded by revolutionaries and falling in love, Rey and Ben must use all their wits to flee Paris and make it to England.

- Equal Measure for dustoftheancients

When Princess Rey of Coruscant calls upon the cursed Sir Kylo Ren to help her escape her grandfather the emperor’s political machinations, she discovers freedom in the ancient familial magic that binds them together.

- Benimina Solo's Late On-Set Force Ability for Evangel10n

Benimina Solo has never, not even once, had an ounce of Force Sensitivity. She's done a great deal to move on with her life after failing out of her uncle's Jedi training school. So when Rey Palpatine comes into her life and suddenly everything changes, she's not a happy camper.

- Splatter for expendable

“You’re Palpatine’s girl,” he says coldly.

“His chief of staff, yes.” Rey’s eyes narrow. “And you have your hand on my ass, Kylo. Kindly take it off.”

“Or what?”

AKA powerful corporate rivals Kylo and Rey put the hate in love/hate.

- The Haunted Mirror for FangirlintheForest

When Rey travels to UK to attend the reading of his grandfather will, a grandfather she didn't know existed until that very moment, she finds a house, and a old story that will haunt her...

- i'm your secretary for firelord65

Kaydel pressed her lips together in a thin line, passing a pile of datapads over the desk. “I don’t know what that pretentious nerf herder has put into your brain, but these are tales of the key roles women have played in past rebellions.” She stood, tapping the pile. “They’re great reads,” she added, with a pointed raise of her eyebrow.

- and they danced across the sky for flipflop_diva

When he was still a child, he constantly watched the blue butterflies as they danced in the sky.

They seemed to be calling him, aiding him each instance that icy-cold darkness flowed through his very veins. The magnificent creatures saved him from the voices. They drowned out the incessant chatter in his head. Temporarily cleared away all the anger. During those brief respites, watching those blue wings flutter in the sky, Ben felt free.

But that’s another life. Another world. Another time. Another, another, another.

And Kylo's no longer a child.

No. He welcomes the darkness now. Embraces it.

- Finding The Answer for FrenchMartiniPlease

Rey pines for Ben Solo…so why does her soulmate mark always drain of colour whenever she gets close to him?

- Almost Unforgettable for HopeRebel

The woman in the mirror has blood on her clothes, cash in her bag, and a letter from her husband telling her it's better to forget. Well, he got his wish. She forgot everything-- including her name. And she wasn't the only one afflicted.

It'll take the combined efforts of gumshoes, a flatfoot, a washed-up Hollywood starlet, and more to get to the bottom of this bad business. In the end, these things always come back to the beginning.

- The Curl of a Sigh for irridesca

During the last song in Maxine’s set, a song she announces is called “Soul Companion,” Ben heads back out to the lobby to look for Rey. He finds her not with his eyes but with one broad shoulder, when he bumps into her and knocks her gig bag out of her hands and onto the plush carpet.

- and they were roommates for Lady_of_Haven

When Ben loses a bet to his roommate, Rey, he has to eat her out for 30 days.

- torn away from you (my heart is broken) for lakerose

The Force binds more than minds.

- If You Take Me for literallynoonecares

She sighed wistfully as she watched her two friends lean in toward each other as they danced, their lips meeting and melding together as they seemed to become one person instead of two separate beings. She had seen them kiss so many times, but this kiss … it was special.“I just want someone to kiss me like that,” she mused softly to herself, her eyes not leaving her friends.“I could make that happen if you wanted.”

- 3 Days in Vienna for Like_A_Dove

Kylo Ren, trained mercenary Alpha assassin, is on a mission—assassinate Chancellor Palpatine and bring his underground authoritarian regime to an end. It’s what the First Order demands, for the better of society.

It should be an easy task. He’s been getting close to the Chancellor and his cronies for years. So how is it that the unexpected appearance of an Omega, with a seemingly similar mission—and a wholly inconveniencing scent—become a distraction he hadn’t accounted for?

- Confidence and Desire for LittleLostStar

“Stay afraid, but do it anyway. What’s important is the action. You don’t have to wait to be confident. Just do it and eventually, the confidence will follow.” - Carrie Fisher

- Love brightens even the most monstrous parts of ourselves for LRRH17

No one knows since when the giant, black bear has lived in the forest near Theed. Many stories about the origin of Kylo Ren circulate in the small village. After Rey has run away from Jakku, and arrived in Theed she has heard them all of, but has never actually meet the creature. This changes when her and her friends get attacked by bandits on their way back from Otoh Gunga.

- Your Sweetness Comes With Sugar on the Side for Lutrosis

Rey's daughter loses her mother as she wanders around the Supermarket. Ben finds her and the two connect over both being Type 1 diabetics. They find Rey, and Ben and Rey are instantly smitten. As they date and fall in love they discover that Jade and Ben are connected more than they thought and healing is brought to the Solo/Skywalker clan.

- Allegories, or Allusions to Real Life for maq_moon

“Boys, please stop arguing.” Rose rubbed her temples. “Poe, we get it, you’re childhood best buddies, you’ve got a better grasp on his character than some rando of a rando you met at a party. Finn, for fuck’s sake, we’ve been working with Ben for months. I’m pretty sure if he’s a serial killer or whatever, it would have come out by now.” Finn sat back in his seat, grumbling. “Not how serial killers work.” Rey was going to have a headache if this continued any longer, so she lied through her teeth at the reality of a new player joining their D&D party. "He seems nice." She didn’t trust a single inch of skin on that man. "I'm sure it'll be fine."

- A Mad Man, with a Box for MBlair

Rey and Ben meet, move in together, get engaged, and marry.

- Invite the Wild In for midwinterspring

Kylo Ren, the mysterious senator who appeared from out of the deserts of Jakku and somehow brought them back to life, has spent a long and unproductive session on Hosnian Prime. Now, it's time to go home. After all, there's someone waiting for him and so much for them to do together.

(The ancient Sith had some interesting rituals.)

- Purim Party for MissCoppelia

Rey goes back to visit her foster mother for a Purim celebration. She meets Ben Solo who's visiting his parents, who are friends with her foster mother. They have an attraction to each other right away, but try to play it cool.

- The Banished Heart for misszeldasayre

On Rey of Niima’s nineteenth name day, Jakku gains a new wizard.

Jakku is a withering outpost of the kingdom, and its people hope the new wizard - the mysterious Kylo Ren - will bring them the rains the land needs to heal. Rey is a lonely, clanless girl living in Niima, and she has a secret. One she hopes the wizard will be able to help her with too.

- The Smuggler's Bride for MyJediLife

Miss Rey Nemo is the new mistress of Manor Takodana, left to her by the late Lord Skywalker. When a strange man named Kylo Ren appears on her doorstep, she decides to hire him as her new groundskeeper. As Rey faces sinister threats and secrets are revealed, Kylo Ren may be the only person who can save her.

- Annabel Lee for myownlittleinfinity

Rey keeps finding these ... notes in her locker. She doesn't quite get them. They seem like love notes, but she doesn't know who they could be from. Meanwhile she's paired up with Ben Solo (who hates her despite her gigantic crush on him) for this English assignment. Who knows how THIS will go.

- with my body i thee worship for niennathegrey

Miss Rey Nemo is the new mistress of Manor Takodana, left to her by the late Lord Skywalker. When a strange man named Kylo Ren appears on her doorstep, she decides to hire him as her new groundskeeper. As Rey faces sinister threats and secrets are revealed, Kylo Ren may be the only person who can save her.

- the losing game for no_big_deal

Sith Princess Rey Palpatine is given a peculiar gift for her Life Day: a Jedi. Not only that, one who is boorish, spirited, and stubborn. But, he presents an opportunity: one that could liberate her from a life under the thumb of her grandfather. She has seven weeks to change his heart before all her freedom is taken from her - forever.

- standing right in front of you for notkellymarie

When Senator Solo's engagement is pushed forward, he and his Jedi bodyguard, Rey, travel to Naboo alone for the announcement ball. The pair despise each other, constantly bickering and disagreeing with each other, which makes spending extensive amounts of time alone together all that more difficult. Until of course, one of them breaks...

- the good, the bad, and the smuggling for OccasionallyCreative

Ben Solo is a seasoned smuggler. And he’s not bad at it, either. But when bounty hunter Rey offers him a temporary partnership he can’t refuse, Ben will find himself pushed to the limits of his skill, patience, and resourcefulness on a job that’s dangerous enough to be his last.

It’s like his dad used to say: bounty hunters are nothing but trouble, kid.

- Whatever our souls are made of...his and mine are the same for Padawan_Writer

Ben and Rey meet only after Kylo has defected from the First Order and returned to the Resistance and his mother. Will the dyad still find a way to be?

- They say that only the dead have seen the end of war for politicalpadmé

“He traded his life for mine,” Rey choked, stomping back and forth in front of him so fast he could barely keep track of her. “He died. He died so I didn’t have to—and it’s not—it’s—after everything he’s gone through—it’s not fair.” Tears were running down her cheeks now, and Poe wanted to do nothing more than hug her, but there was nothing he could say—nothing she would want to hear. Poe remembered all the people he’d lost, all the times he had raged and screamed and cried about the unfairness of it all. “Leia sacrificed herself to bring him back,” Rey declared suddenly, ceasing her constant pacing around the fire as she looked straight at him. “And he sacrificed himself for me—and now no one’s going to know. All he’ll be remembered as is Kylo Ren, but he was—he was so much more.” She exhaled with a shudder and whispered, “He was a part of me, and I—I don’t feel whole without him.” ~

A Force Ghost Ben/Rey love story, with a side of rebuilding the galaxy.

- Cicatrix for Priestly

Getting cut up by Rey on Starkiller awakens something in Kylo.

- I Will Always Be With You for Prix

But she wouldn’t be able to hide her pregnancy for much longer. She was starting to show, and her friends would start asking questions. She would have to give them answers, some of them would not understand, and none of them would accept.

She carried his child. The tiny spark of light woven with darkness, just like her. Just like his father.

—————

The world has gone dark More times than you Or your mother Or your grandmother Can remember. And every hurricane That was meant to be The end of it all Had instead ended In sunshine again.

So believe me When I say; You will survive this And the next one too.

World’s End—Nikita Gill

- all my daydreams are disasters for QueenOfCarrotFlowers

During her search for the infamous Luke Skywalker — the man who predicted a devastating earthquake in New Madrid, Missouri — Rey finds herself entangled in Luke’s family history and with his brooding nephew, Ben Solo.

- on what ground I was founded (when I first saw you) for redbelles

Kylo dreams of Rey after the Battle of Crait. And the yearning is mutual...

Some Force Bond dream smut inspired by "Shrike" and "NFWMB" by Hozier.

- Last Summer for Reykenobi68

Rey had started to get used to Ben not living next door anymore by the time the holidays came around. Then he's back for the holidays. Rey is really expecting things to go wrong after the way he left at the end of the summer. ut is it really going to be that bad.

- The Long Way Home for reylotrash711

In the aftermath of Exegol, Ben and Rey are divided by misunderstandings.  It will take time and danger for them to work things out.

- Under the moonlight for shariling

I don't know why I followed you here. She wanted to reply. Maybe because you're so tall I couldn't help but notice you. Maybe it's because of your hair or the way you move, or maybe it's because of that kind of melancholic look in your eyes. There is something about you that I find terribly attractive and I don’t know what it is: maybe the moon or the alcohol or the wolf I have met before infected me with some strange parasite and now I am hopelessly attracted to dogs, I do not know. She could have said one of these things, any of them, instead she said: “I've never bitten anyone before, and I want you to be my first.”

- Fallen for shipperofdarkness

Prompt: Devil!Ben and Angel!Rey or Angel!Ben and Devil!Rey. How do these two on completely opposite sides fall in love and defy worlds to be together?

- come away with me for silentfleur

Rey owns a tinker shop, but her life changes when she meets Ben Solo and is cursed by a witch. Not necessarily in that order.

- A Picture of Me Without You for SpaceWaffleHouseTM

"I suppose I'd somehow struggle through / But I'd hate to picture myself without you."

It's impossible not to have a soulmark. It's not a big deal, not in the lax and gin-soaked speakeasies of 1920s Manhattan, but it's still a heavy weight to bear, as Ben Solo and Rey find out side by side.

- Lips Raw With Love for stellardarlings

Their kiss on Exegol wasn't their first kiss...

Nor would it be their last.

- Everyone Makes Divine Mistakes for Takekurabehime

Jedi Knight Ben Solo is sent to Naboo on an errand of mercy (and to visit his grandparents). He arrives in springtime; but will he be able to complete his mission without finding himself distracted and bewildered when love and intrigue waft through the fragrant air?

- Glitter & Gold for TearoomSaloon

Rey is lead singer in an up-and-coming glam metal band. They've finally got steady performances, but that means playing at the same club as the Knights of Ren, whose lead singer definitely isn't interested in any competition.

- To kiss like lovers do for the-reylo-void (Anysia)

Ben and Rey spend their formative years growing up together in Medieval Scotland and it looks like they will end up together. Circumstances intervene and Rey loses her chance to be with him. Devastated, she carries on until the day clan Ren attacks Castle Jakku lead by the notorious killer Kylo Ren.

- Snow Turns To Rain for thehobbem

For a moment, he wanted to ask what she meant, but if he was being completely honest, he already knew.  He asked himself that same question over the years, and none more often than tonight, since seeing her again.  Was leaving worth it?  Was going their separate ways worth leaving each other?

 “I’m not sure,” he said finally, shaking his head.  “I’m happy...” he said, and she tensed a little, so he continued, “with my work.  I’m glad I’m doing what I love, but....”

 “But?”

 “But it wasn’t the only thing I loved.”

- Change the Dance for theresonatinglight

- Meet Me in the Woods for thewayofthetrashcompactor (BriarLily)

“What do you mean no one goes in there?” A chuckle. “It’s haunted. People see all sorts of weird things in there and some don’t ever come out. You’re better off living with your curiosity.” Rey wakes in a shadowy forest with no memory of where she came from, only her name. With the help of the resident guardian she takes a journey to figure out her past, and maybe even discover her future.

- permanent calligraphy (your name on me forever) for Thursdaygirl

As they continue to work together, two things become clear. One: Ben Solo is an enigma. He’s preppy yet humble, privileged yet introspective. He’s the opposite of lazy; she kicks herself every day for assuming otherwise. And two: Ben Solo will never love her.

- show me the stars. for tmwillson3

“I don’t hate Christmas, I just don’t love it the way you do.” Lifting his head, he pulls a face, loosening up a tangled ornament of a poodle with pink, curly fluff. Rey snatches it from him possessively, tossing it back to the cart. “No one loves it the way you do, to be fair.”

“Now that’s the truth,” says Poe, who Finn invited about half an hour ago to keep him company.

“People have bad taste, I don’t know what to say.” Huffing, Rey scrolls through her phone with more intent. “Neither of you are helping me, anyway.”

“What’s the problem?” says Poe.

“Rey thinks her hot neighbor hates her —”

“He does hate me.”

“ — When really he’s been flirting with her for the past, oh I don’t know, how long have you lived there?”

- I realized that I need you, I wondered if I could come home for VR_Trakowski

Rey is doing exploration work for the Resistance, searching for force sensitive planets so any force sensitives that they find have a place to train.

One day, midflight she finds a slip of paper with the elegant scrawling words of the ones that came before. The ones that she found when Ben still roamed the galaxy.

When she lands on a dark and barren planet she is forced to face the feelings she thought she buried.

- Shadows of the Moon for walkingsaladshooter

The hallways got darker, the corridors grew longer. Shadows stretched across the walls. The ghosts of Breha Manor grew each night.

Rey clutched her necklace. Ben met her gaze.

And every night, there was weeping.

- show the way (the world could be) for writergenie

In the aftermath of the Battle of Crait, Rey struggles to find her place among the Resistance. However, her lingering Force bond with Kylo— Ben— whatever name he calls himself— complicates things, blurring the line between friend and foe.

When the tension threatens to boil over and a desperate plan goes awry, Rey begins to wonder whether there really is a line between light and dark after all.

(Stars do burn brightest in the blackness of space.)

- why don't we go (somewhere only we know) for XarisEirene

The bond snaps back into place, even stronger than before. He is here. With Rey, yes, but with Luke - Luke, who is looking at them now with that same dangerous glint in his eye that haunts Ben’s dreams.

- renewed, transfigured, in another pattern for yodalorian

Rey mourns on Tatooine while Ben is stuck in the World Between Worlds. But neither of them are alone, and blue butterflies light a path back to each other.

[tlcwrites]

By A Nose

Submission for Writer Wednesday 5/12

Summary: If you're going to talk the talk, you better be able to walk the walk. Or, proof Poe Dameron is a terrible loser.

Word Count: 1528

Tags/Warnings: Poe Dameron x Reader, Modern AU. Implied smut but mostly in passing. Some bad words. Poorly edited because as usual I finished this at like 11 and my kids get up at 5 so I need to go to sleep.

Author’s Note: THREE FICS IN A WEEK WHO AM I?

Okay, so I cannot be the only one who saw the photo for this week's Writer Wednesday (thank you once more for hosting, @autumnleaves1991-blog!) and went the direction I did. If I am the only one, well, just further proof my brain is certifiable. Make sure you comment on when you figure out where this fic takes place.

There will also be an accompanying headcanon coming for this probably tomorrow, because there was SO much material I wanted to use but couldn't make fit. Thank you @paper-n-ashes for brainstorming with me and being the best hype-woman ever.

“AAAAHHHHH.”

“WE’RE GONNA DIE.”

“WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?!”

“FINN!!” You smack him. “There are small children here!”

But he’s too busy screaming to pay attention.

On the other side of you, Kaydel looks decidedly green. She lets out a pained moan as your vehicle makes a particularly hard turn. “I’ve got a bad feeling about this…”

You pat her knee as you fly through a kitchy town. “Hang in there, honey. It’s almost over.”

The village elder’s well wishes still ringing in your ears, you pull up next to another idling transport. From the driver’s seat, your boyfriend winks at you.

“You’re going down, Dameron!” you holler at him.

He makes the universal ‘I’m watching you’ gesture. “Eat my dust, losers!”

Finn yells back something that has you smacking him again, shooting an apologetic glance to the second row of Poe’s transport, where Snap and Karé are sitting with their daughter Nora. Snap’s hands fly to cover Nora’s ears while Karé laughs heartily.

Next to Poe, Rey holds her thumb and forefinger up to her forehead in an ‘L’ shape. “Second place is the first to lose!”

Before any more trash talking can occur, you see a flash of red out of the corner of your eye and then both vehicles take off, bursting out of the dark into blinding sunlight.

You both fly over the rusty terrain, neck and neck as you navigate under rocky overpasses and around hairpin turns. From the second row of your car, you can hear Maz lobbing profanities at Chewie in the other ride. He’s yelling back in his native tongue (which you still only understand half of). Beside Maz, Leia and Han are both laughing like kids.

A shriek of joy erupts from you as you fly over a series of hills, the momentary weightlessness thrilling. Finn has both hands in the air, while Kaydel grips the safety handle with white knuckles.

Finally, you come out of a turn to see a sharp drop. You look to Poe, who grins back at you, his vehicle slightly ahead of yours. Damnit, you HATE losing to him. He’s the worst winner.

At the last moment, your ride leaps ahead, crossing under the checkered banner by a nose. The passengers of your car cheer and high-five in victory, while Poe’s passengers groan in good-natured defeat.

As you roll through the red-lit cavern, you laugh as you catch sight of Poe’s face. He’s a terrible winner, but he’s an even worse loser. Even if his loss comes at the hands of an algorithm.

Anthropomorphic cars wave you off as both vehicles enter the unloading zone. On the other side of the platform, Chewie is lifting Rey out of the front seat as she pretends to collapse in agonized failure, her laughter completely destroying the illusion. You accept Finn’s hand as he helps you up, both of you turning to support Kaydel as she crawls out of the car.

A ride attendant watches her warily. “Does she need assistance?” he asks Han.

Han waves him off, wrapping an arm around his wife’s shoulders as Maz and Chewie beeline for the ride photos. “She’ll be fine. No protein spills here.” At the cast member’s astonished look, the charming rogue gives his trademark grin. “Ain’t my first rodeo, kid.” As he and Leia stroll past you towards the exit, he catches your eye and winks. “That, and they haven’t changed the lingo since the 70’s.”

Laughing, you rub Kaydel’s back as Rey swaps places with Finn and helps bracket your green-tinged friend. “Let’s get you some water, yeah?”

Kaydel manages a slight nod, and the three of you make your way towards the exit.

Behind you, you can hear Poe and Finn bickering, as they’re wont to do.

“It’s a ride, dude,” Finn is saying, the exasperation clear in his tone.

“It’s physics, dude,” Poe shoots back. “There’s NO way the car on the outside of the turn would be able to finish first.”

Worst. Loser. Ever.

Your rag-tag alliance eventually makes it out of the exit tunnel. Ben’s waiting across the walkway, those ridiculously long arms crossed over his chest as he leans against the guard rail and steadily ignores whatever Armitage is ranting about.

On the bench next to them, Rose perks up, a smirk crossing her pretty face as she sees Poe’s expression. “Well, I don’t need to ask who won.”

“Don’t wanna talk about it,” the most-competitive-pilot-in-the-galaxy grumbles back, adjusting his backpack. You help Kaydel to a bench, where she quickly curls up.

Rey rolls her eyes as she forces her way into the circle of Ben’s arms. “It’s not like any of us could have actually controlled the outcome, you noodle.”

“Not without some kind of magic,” Ben intones dryly, resting his chin on his girlfriend’s head.

“How cool would that be, though?” Rey’s getting her Down-The-Wormhole-We-Go eyes. You and Rose exchange a Look™️ as she starts gesturing wildly with her hands. “Like, imagine if you could just look at something like rocks and, like, make them fly. Or make someone do whatever you wanted them to do. OH!” She looks up at Ben with a slightly manic expression. “Lightning bolts from your fingers!!”

Well-used to these kinds of rambles, Ben gently captures her hands and wraps her into a hug that doubles as a straight jacket. “No more SyFy channel before bed.”

Rose slides her arms around her husband as Finn joins her on the bench. “Did you behave?”

Nora, in all her 6-year-old innocence, giggles. “Mr Finn said a whole lot of swear-jar words.” She casts a critical eye on the young man. “You probably said enough you could buy an Elsa doll.” The ‘for me’ is unsaid, but implied.

Karé rapidly turns her laugh into a cough.

Finn glances down at his wife as Rose smacks him upside the head. “Hey! That tractor thing is terrifying. And Maz said WAY more than I did!”

“Age before beauty, Finnigan,” Maz says haughtily, waving off Finn’s ‘m'name’s not Finnigan, damn it’.

Giggling, you tune out the ridiculousness that is your found family and turn your attention to your still-sulking boy toy. “You know,” you murmur, wrapping your arms around his waist, “you make that face for long enough and it’ll stick that way.”

He huffs. “This is just how my face looks.”

“Uh huh.” Considering yourself quite the expert in his face, having spent countless hours studying every crease and line until you could have drawn him blindfolded, you call bullshit, but say nothing further.

“It is,” he insists.

“Okay,” you agree.

The King of Sarcasm narrows his eyes. “You’re doing that thing.”

You widen your eyes innocently. “What thing?”

“That thing where it sounds like you’re agreeing with me but you’re really telling me I’m a dumbass.”

“What?!” You bring your hand to your chest. “Moi?! I would never.”

He huffs again, but you can see the hint of a smirk starting to break though.

“C’mon, First Runner Up,” you tease. “No sulking in Disneyland. Let me buy you a drink at Trader Sam’s, and then we can sneak off to the Haunted Mansion and make out like teenagers in our Doom Buggy.”

He tilts his head, considering it.

“Or-“ You brush an inky curl off his forehead and stand on your toes until your lips are just about caressing his ear and whisper, “-we could get back in line right now and go again.”

Even before you’ve finished speaking, Poe’s grabbing your hand and hauling you back towards the entrance, tossing a “See you jerks later!” as he pulls you under the Radiator Springs Racers sign. Their laughter echos behind you as he leads the way through the mostly empty line (thank goodness for parade lulls).

As you wait in the queue, only a few dozen people stand between Poe and his (re)shot at victory. You see that competitive gleam in his eyes start to come alive again.

“Hey.” You tug on his tee shirt until he looks at you. “If our car doesn’t win, tonight I’ll do That Thing you love.”

“Babe.” The look he gives you is one of pure torture. “You are killing me here.” He really loves to win. But he really, really loves That Thing. “What about when we come in first?”

You shrug demurely. “Then you wear Those Pants™️ tomorrow.”

Hm. Poe’s always been quick to calculate his odds, and this is quickly turning into a win/win situation. If you lose, he gets That Thing. But Those Pants™️ turn you about feral, and when you’re in that kind of mood- let’s just say Poe still has the scars on his shoulders to prove it.

“Are those terms acceptable, Flight Commander Dameron?” You smile sweetly up at him.

His licentious grin says it all. “Hell yeah.”

For the record, your car does lose a second time. And the next morning, Poe hardly has Those Pants over his ass when you’re ripping them back down his legs and shoving him backwards onto the bed.

Oh, yeah, he thinks to himself. This is better than any dumb kid’s ride.

…doesn’t mean he’s not going to ride it as many times as it takes to win.

A/N: I almost titled this “Tell me you have children without saying you have children”. I am so fucking sick of ‘Lining McQueen’. Yay 4-year-olds.

Thank you for reading; likes and reblogs feed my soul.

[captaincabinetsao3]

Chapters: 21/21
Fandom: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Star Wars - All Media Types
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Kylo Ren/Rey, Rey/Ben Solo | Kylo Ren, Rey/Ben Solo
Characters: Ben Solo, Rey (Star Wars), Poe Dameron, Kaydel Ko Connix, Rose Tico, Finn (Star Wars)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Infidelity, Cheating, Angst, Slow Burn, (Slower than I intended lol), Porn With Plot, (Lots of plot), Professor Ben, Mechanic Rey, Loosely based on that unaired SNL skit, Author plays a lot of board games, (They don’t cheat on each other), Guilt & Shame, The one that got away type shit
Summary: “Do you regret it?” she asks. His hand pauses on the doorknob. He whips his head back to her, brows slightly knit—a question there. “Do you regret walking away that night?” She needs to know. She needs to know so, so badly. Because she’s been so full of regrets and guilt since they’ve met again. And it might be stupid and naive and dangerous, but she can’t help but long for all the “what ifs” she’s conjured in her mind. It’s been driving her mental. “No,” he finally answers. Her heart finds a new home in the bottom of her stomach. “But,” he starts, then pauses for an agonizing moment, “I do regret not finding you sooner.”

[horrorgay]

obligatory fix-it au post

Want more Finn? Some in-character Poe? Good ol’ TFA!Rey?

Want Kylo to be a villain, and a good one at that?

Want an exploration of the relationship between all the resistance members?

Want Not Grandpappy Palpatine?

Want Rose and Jannah and Paige and Kaydel and Leia and Rey?

Want some old fan favorites to make a return?

Want to pretend TFA is the only sequel trilogy movie?

Need something to do for the next [redacted] number of weeks?

Boy do I have the fic for you! It’s going to be long, but I think it’s worth it and I have an amazing co-author in @doc-aphra! We may update slowly but I have no plans to let this fic trickle out, so please consider reading it!

Check it out!

If you wouldn’t mind, spreading the word would be amazing.

[galacticidiots]

Fraaaan, spare new Twitfics recs please?

Of course! Here are the latest goodies:

love: now streaming began yesterday and it’s already shaping up to be a classic. It’s based on the Amazon Prime Twitter account’s thirst tweets about Adam. I know. Aaaaaand it’s by the author of Galaxy Wars and The Lunch Thief. GOURMET.

International Affairs features Labour MP Rey and Conservative journalist Ben and how despite their opposing political views, they can’t seem to take their eyes (or hands) off each other. Delicious.

Love, Rey is by the lovely @reyslight and it’s a wonderful epistolary tale of friends who slowly, slowly become lovers, despite life’s many hurdles. It will pull at your heartstrings! Everything Ashlee writes is a delight and this is no different.

Dear Princess, which is my new favourite thing in the world. Prince of ALderaan Ben and Princess of Exegol Rey communicate via letters - hilariously witty and charming. Love, love, love it.

Bookends, wherein book critic Ben is very... critical of Rey’s latest book. Shenanigans ensue, as they are prone to do.

Absurdly Wealthy Skywalkers, a Crazy Rich Asians AU. It’s pure fun, just like the movie.

Forget what I need, give me what I want , inn which graduate student Ben is assigned to tutor Rey and they both catch feelings, naturally.

Intertwined - Rey mistakenly believes Ben is dating Kaydel. Ben’s drawing journal is everything and I love it so much

of suitable wit - this will begin next monday but I’m adding it now because everybody needs to bookmark it immediately. IT’S AN EMMA AU *weeps* I can hardly containt my excitement. It’s by the author of the Set It Up AU and the You’ve Got Mail AU, two of my favourites, so I know it’ll be amazing.